#and idk lately ive just been really into characters that are relatively good people or at least gray but they do fucked things
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Maybe my opinions on things I like are too harsh sometimes đ
#the klock keeps ticking#i am so like. nitpicky sometimes#and i have bad ocd so sometimes i get so obsessive over things and i have to enjoy them a specific way and it clashes a lot with others#also sometimes i get kinda like. passionate about things that arent positive?#idk how to put it#but for example for some characters i like i kinda like the ugly parts of them a lot#and get really fixated on that#like i do that with akane and ryuki a lot i think and itll sound like i just fucking hate these characters and think theyre garbage#when its more just like. i think about them so much and go through greeeaattt lengths to understand them#and idk lately ive just been really into characters that are relatively good people or at least gray but they do fucked things#and when they do the fucked things im like YES YES YOU ARE SO FUCKING AWFUL I LOVE IT#but then its like oh wait maybe i should calm down because this character is also just like. sad#as for other opinions sometimes i just go too uhhhh. oopsie doopsie on them#now people might think that im claiming the ai games are horrible copaganda đł#when in reality i just wanted to like. talk about how boss and date abuse their power and i got really passionate#cuz i think its really interesting#oops đŠ
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hi. you dont have to reply to this ask if you dont want to or if you do you can make it public Idm. also I dont mean to trauma dump so pls just delete this because tbh its too much. tl;dr at start Im starting to doubt my sexuality despite being in late 20s. also, tw sex, rape, csa, cocsa, etc. so, I've always known I kinda like girls and that Im more likely bi than straight. I was in love with one during highschool and I felt intense sexual attraction towards a close friend in uni. I was p far left back then so I thought this must be that demisexual thing where you only feel attraction once you get to know people LMAO. then I had some crushes on guys here and there, was virgin till 24 and then slept around way too much with guys. never had experience with a woman. now Im in proper relationship with a really nice guy. recently I started watching a show and identifies way too much with a lesbian character. like from how she acts to what she says regarding women she feels attracted to. I havent been able to sleep for past two nights and Im starting to wonder if I even feel attracted to him.
until we recently moved in together we had sex. a lot. but I had a meltdown because of past sexual trauma, all the sleeping around because of other reasons than wanting to have sex, (loneliness, low self esteem) csa and cocsa at hands of female relatives, so that also confuses me. we havent had regular sex, maybe once in a month. and last time I was hoping it to end soon and just waited it out. I dont blame my bf, hes never done anything wrong, and I was the one who told him to keep going. ofc I had told him Im bi but now Im so unsure if about what even attraction means. I honestly never felt that intense attraction towards a guy, ever. Ive felt that with several women, like random passerbyers and such. some women I couldnt take eyes off of and had to just move along because I felt like a creep (which also factors in me not wanting to look at women In That Way because thats how men look at women and its just hella confusing as a fellow woman who doesnt want to objectified by men either) Idk how much Im convincing myself I love men and society has brainwashed me. Idk what Im wishing to get out of this, Im just stressed I dont love my bf in That Way and this is just platonic love, that Ive convinced myself into doing even stuff like kissing and hugging because Thats What Im Supposed To Do.
anyway, thank you if you read it so far, thank you for your time. I would really like some advice if you have any but you also dont have to if you dont want to. btw I love your blog and if you cant tell I follow you on here. keep up the good work. <3 I hope you have a nice day!
aww that really sounds stressful and like a difficult situation anon :( honestly i think many lesbian & bi women go through some moments of doubt and confusion at least at one point in our lives so youâre not alone there. tbh i would encourage talking your feelings out with someone who knows you well and someone you trust, they can help give you perspective. sometimes we identify with something a lot that it can confuse us in many ways. and if possible, maybe experiment with women? itâs kinda hard to understand your attraction when itâs kinda just .. abstract?
to me it sounds like you may indeed be bi & maybe cycling (bi cycle) or perhaps you have a strong preference and are just realising it. however, i canât determine your sexuality for u as i do not know you. this is why id recommend experimenting but of course you should be transparent with everyone involved (your boyfriend- idk whether youâd ask him if itâs possible to be open or something else, and whichever woman you experiment with). i overthink and doubt myself a lot and actually being with a woman definitely helped me. pushing myself to be with men to âtestâ whether im into them was personally highly traumatic for me so if someone thinks theyâre a lesbian but has never been with a man & isnât sure if theyâre into it⌠id highly recommend NOT trying. getting clarity faster will never be better than not pushing your own boundaries and risking traumatising yourself. to me it sounds like you really need to be single right now and just explore yourself and try being with a woman and see how you feel from there. thereâs also no shame in being unsure and not labelling your sexuality either.
also facing previous trauma like CSA especially can really make it hard to understand your sexuality, from my experience most bi & lesbian women who go through such intense confusion and identity disturbances like what u described have faced CSA too.. so you really arenât alone there â¤ď¸â¤ď¸ i wish you luck anon. youâll figure it out you just need to give urself space and time
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Spoilers Ahead for the first season of My Next Life As A Villianess <3
Oh where to begin. First of all, when the summary said it was a comedy of misunderstandings, I got scared. I have really bad second hand embarrassment and itâs a very fine line of Dense Misunderstandings For Comedy and A Cringefest of Pain For âComedyâ (even playing an anxiety spiral itself for laughs). But oh! How I was happily surprised! It really goes with the flow and doesnât rely on ridicule or anything. Thereâs just Catarina, dense weird wonderful Catarina, and everyone in some fashion accepts her for her. So this is actually pleasant to watch!
Now, Catarina- what a delight. What makes her interesting is she takes Fortune Lover Catarina and humbles her. Takes selfish and mean and spins it 180. If she puts out mean into the world, it comes back at her in the end. She knows she has the potential for a âscary faceâ and actively chooses not to use it. And her feelings on the matter are not just for survival, theyre genuine too. But what makes this fascinating is her lack of accounting for things *not* in the game. She doesnât consider, by blazing a new path in the game -where Catarina is nice- that new âroutesâ form. She focuses on Mariaâs pov so much, she doesnât see her own. She doesnât see the good sheâs put out, cuz sheâs supposed to be the antagonist. Sheâs so focused on the doom flags, she doesnât realize there *are* no doom flags. Thereâs nothing for the game to doom, no punishment for cruelty. Whatâs more, even by taking the place of âThe Suitorsâ in scenes with Maria, she doesnât consider /any of them/ having feelings for her. (Geordo kisses her neck for crying out loud.) Why? Because Catarina Claes is not a romanceable character in Fortune Lover. There are a lot of paths, but she is not one of them. She has no successful romantic relationship, nor any. Which makes this whole anime downright Fascinating. By taking out the antagonist, there is no doom. By inserting a reborn earnest friendly kind tree-climbing high school girl in her place, there is no Fortune Lover. The fact that she is aware of Fortune Lover makes her almost omnipresent, and putting all her points into Survival and Durability and Craves Sweets and nothing else, makes her human. No high marks, denser than bricks, but damn if she ainât the prettiest embodiment of a Nokia phone. Sheâd be an apocalypse survivor. âHow did she survive a landslide in a volcano? Idk itâs Catarina.â Oh, and the last scene? The friendship ending? Yeah, sheâs not wrong. It is a friendship ending.... for Maria. She ends up with none of the interests and stays good friends with them, no bad blood or nothing. Cuz again, Catarina isnât a love interest. It just so happens that the entire company present in the area is so fucking in love with her that they say the Line Of Romance to her and, while they may bicker, they do not hold bad feelings for each other. If all of them could be married to Catarina and live in a big ol house together, theyâd be so fuckin content. And best part? None of this is condemned. No âya gotta pick one and only oneâ. They saw a harem and went âya know? Letâs embrace thisâ and now the characters r so chill with their plant growing, tree climbing gf. (Iâm sure her mother wishes *something* good could rub off on Catarina lol) You hear that? Thatâs the sound of a Polyamorous nerd feeling validated. (Itâs me, I feel validated by this Polyamorous romcom anime, this is my home now)
My thoughts on the rest of the cast arenât going to be as long. The anime does a good job of going through each characters thoughts and arcs. And I adored Anneâs POV on things as well, how she is also moved to tears by Catarinaâs good heart. Even her mother, who is harsh but only because she cares. (I would have loved to see the look on her motherâs face when she was in the coma, how she would have grieved, what she would have reflected on. Her father is a bit more transparent in emotions, but he would have been great to see too). I also would have loved to see Mary and Maria in the book of desire. I figure Maria would kinda be like Alan, but oh, what would Mary have done? (Guess I need fanfiction to answer that lol.) Keithâs role as a love interest for Catarina is the only least liked thing I have on here. And honestly itâs cuz they keep *calling* them brother and sister. I know theyâre not actually siblings, mostly thatâs left over from Fortune Lover, and âdistant relativeâ can and is shorthand for a lot of things so like itâs even possible they arenât related at all. And the characters donât find it horrible that he loves her, and probably know heâs a Distant Relative so theyâre like whatevs. So like, itâs not incest. Itâs not even as potently close to incest as anime can get. But itâs the only thing that could be deemed a Flaw about this anime, so it stands out. I do wish the ending couple of eps could have been a little more Maria, and her having a bit more importance in general. Also her light magic having an effect a bit in the âfightâ with Sirius. Although I do want to think the green glow of hope was Maria, tho Iâm pretty sure the assumption is Acchan.
Which btw can I say was an absolute treat? I suspected something was up with Sirius but I did not suspect that. I wonder what his base magic is, if it isnât dark magic? I had thought he saved Sophia and Catarina and thus also had wind/light magic. But oh man, when he started lashing out on Catarina cuz he thought she was also faking kindness? That she was purposely saving people? That a part of his resentment of nobles was being projected? That somewhere he also caught Feelings and thus the mage doubled down on his control? That when Catarina looked at Sirius and touched his hand and face, her (Nerdâ˘ď¸) instincts kicked in and pieced everything together and also saw him in such pain and misery? That she holds herself to the antagonist title, that sheâs there to ruin and thus canât *save* anyone, (a bittersweet sentiment) so sheâs not intimidated by the burst of dark magic and just honestly wants his friendship and sit with him through his pain? MY HEART! IT SCREAMS! (I love this sort of dynamic yes Ive loved Fruits Basket for years donât look at me like that).
What else.... the little peppering in the fact that Oh Yeah Sheâs Dead hit like a truck. The little bit with her family, of her past life? Yeah, ouch. Got me crying. Donât think to much into that rabbit hole, youâll get sad. I fucking ADORE the twist of Sophia being Acchan, or at least part of her. Her being so scared of loosing her best friend (and love of her life) again? Yeah, tears man. Catarina accidentally mending the relationships between Geordo and Alan and Maria and her mother was great. Having Mary and Sophia dance with Catarina at her birthday party was a delightful touch, as was not having all the romance novels be m/f, and none of it was a joke or negatively placed- just *there*. I do enjoy the interests butting heads with each other over private time with Catarina. It was mostly Geordo and Keith (âtheyâre such good friendsâ girl if they had a tenth of lil Alanâs Fight Me energy youâd have to put them on leashes) but I loved the little bits of Geordo vs Mary and Sophia cheering on Nicol and I reeeeally hope to see more of that. To provoke subtle sass from Alan and Maria would be a great sight, and more of Raphael joining the ranks. I laugh at all the times they mutter âgotta protect her, sheâs seduced another oneâ cuz like, girl ainât doing shit but running into people that happen to be Moron-sexual, holding their hand and refusing to leave. And they KNOW that. And itâs great. edit: HOW COULD I FORGET HER MAGIC! God I want Catarina to get better at magic. More than just Earth Bumps pls
All in all? I love this anime. 9.5/10. Tis good stuff. And if ya read all my late night/oops itâs 4am ramblings, good on you! I feel bad tagging this cuz itâs long but Iâm also on mobile so god knows what this actually looks like but I needed my thoughts down so hey, thanks
#long post#Iâm gonna write SO much fanfiction#post binge anime thoughts#my next life as a villianess#my next life as a villianess all routes lead to doom#totally donât know the Japanese title#spoilers#rambling
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AH ChitChat Notes 3 22 21
Chitchat 32221 with Jeremy , michael and matt ft disembodied voices of lindsay and maybe kaden , gus in chat and joins
Jeremy: Kaden spoke up because of donuts earlier⌠Michael: Jacks time is over now⌠but he will be on stream later. Jeremy: oh yeah schedule. Slight last minute changes doing Fall Guys first cuz S4 came out⌠me michael lindsay and matt did a letsplay in it earlier today ⌠gus will be doing fall guys this stream (eyyy)... oh yeah and i wanna impersonate what jack does. Matt: do it. Jeremy: and if you're watching on the site we can see your chat like FatHippoHippo wrote BET in all capitals ⌠yeah i just wanted to get into the spirit and be like âwhat would jack do, what would he think is funnyâ and that was it. Lindsay: alsoone of those WWJD bracelets from the 90s What Would Jack Do⌠(matt: ive repurposed them) Jeremy: so how are you doing? Lindsay: good weekend i guess , just telling Matt we watched Big Hero 6 yesterday (Jeremy: aw hell yell) still an awesome movie , kids loved it. Jeremy: where they scared of - idk if he has a name the kabuki villain⌠*looking it up* apparently its Yokai⌠guess they never really say it cuz that's generic. Lindsay: that's VERY generic. Michael: IVE GOT TO TAKE THIS CALL *facecam becomes void* Jeremy: ok spoiler alert for Big Hero 6 but just looking at the wiki⌠it makes an audacious claim. It says âprofessor robert calahan OR ALSO BETTER KNOW as his villain name Yokaiâ... is it? Lindsay: well its based on a comic right so i guess canonically he has a nameâŚ. But to answer your question No they werent scared ⌠anyway something we noticed upon rewatching is that 2 characters before a MAJOR event happens to the fistbump⌠but DON'T do the explosion⌠like oooohhh foreshadowing. Michael: not really foreshadowing if they keep doing it throughout the movie , if anything its foreshadowing that like⌠hell⌠whats the robots name - baymax learning it⌠not really foreshadowing the building explodes (gen notes MAJOR EVENT) ⌠what blew my mind was that movie has a post credits scene. Jeremy: oh yeah was it like with the dudes father. Michael: Fred yeah! Remember remarking upon them entering the house theres a portrait of the dad and i just went âhis dads just Stan Lee⌠just a portrait of himâ Post credits scene and guys talking to painting and - wasn't paying attention but he like hits his head on it and the wall opens up to show a superhero room with paraphernalia everywhere and Stan Lee walks in like âson we got a lot to talk aboutâ Jeremy: Chat asking about if i watched the wrestling PayPerView⌠remember how i updated you last that the guy died in the ring after being set on fire (Michael: lemme guess hes a zombie now) - yep exactly last night a hand reached up and grabbed someones leg , he came out of the smoke with a melted messed up mask so yeahâŚ. Hes a furry (i think?) zombie clown Michael: hey wait a minute let me read the chat , someone named Gus said âwhoa no idea there was a post credit sceneâ âwhat is a fastfood restaurant combo wish would openâ Lindsay: Miss my KenTaco Hutt⌠Michael: idk im usually just in the mood for SOMETHING , not looking to combine , only time is when i want a certain food and they don't have the same sides i want other places have . like Sonic is amazing for sides , apps and drinks⌠don't care for entrees , but if i could get Sonic sides at McDonalds or Taco bell or something.. Jeremy: guess in the same vein id combine Dairy Queen with a lot of places (Matt: i was about to say) to get a BLIZZARD with whatever. Matt: that's how it usually goes anyway , you get the food , you drive by the Dairy Queen and get a desert - you don't get the food at Dairy Queen cuz why - just why Lindsay: i mean theres icecream but there isnt really fastfood places for other deserts⌠like theres not really a Cake or Cupcake place (Matt: not yet *tilts head at camera like âyou know what i wantâ* ) there IS the cupcake ATM Matt: alright checking the google⌠Michael: Matts checking the driving distance. Jeremy: another questions whil matts looking up cakes (Matt: oh i already have it) nevermind then. Conware asks âwhat is your fave controller for console and whats fave controller you ownâ Jeremy: Idk really⌠i know for a while everyones was the Elite 2 Michael: yeah just most comfortable. Matt: well that's like a specialty type⌠if its a stock one then the switch pro controller is pretty good. Michael: i mean i also have this 8Bit do SNES bluetooth controller thing , love it Lindsay: i love the nintendo switch controller grip⌠makes it feel like it curves comfy around your palms Jeremy: the XBOX sea of thieves one is great (Matt: i was about to sayâŚ) got a glow in the dark skull in the middle , RT is like a gold tooth , is partly see through Matt: and it comes with some exclusive stuff for Sea of Thieves Lindsay: yeah like Motion Sickness. Matt: i got one that's just a donut. Lindsay: gave me an idea⌠you know how theres Pez Dispensers (matt: heard of them) yeah and how you don't really even use them right you just eat the candy and play with the thing ( *matt nods approvingly* yeah about right) what if we invent a controller where every once in a while it opens up to give a snack. (Matt: yeah like everytime you get an achievement, Jeremy: yeah i did good! Just go up to the controller and eat it) âYou Are Good Boyâ Matt: be funnier if it just throws at you âeveryone have a fave seasons and followup do you like seasons where you grew up or where you are now?â Jeremy: i mean springs probably my fave its easy to be outside , not boiling hot nor snow everywhere⌠great time to camp and fish , falls cool with changing colors⌠texas is like âdo you want REALLY hot or hot?â Michael: i do really like Fall on the East Coast but its like - yeah i miss it and its nice to be there when it happens where its light jacket weather. I used to wear sweatshirts all the time - i don't bother with long sleeves in texas cuz i know im taking it off within 30 minâŚÂ never knew about the Water Cup thing until i lived in texas where restaurants just HAVE water cups⌠blew my mind its free - because people will drop dead . noticed they just have this seperate stack of clear cups which is i guess like âi BETTER not see any soda in that cup THAT'S A WATER CUP!â. I don't like it when its 105 degrees but i do like being able to just wear Tshirts most of the year and not dealing with snow Lindsay: i like Fall the most cuz like its blend of i guess i embrace the basic bitch stereo types of fall , want my pumpkin spice latee but ALSO i know halloween is coming and ive said before how THAT'S like my religious holiday so like⌠i come alive. Matt: probably fall , maybe winter. I don't go out much but fall is like the right amount of cool but not TOO cool. Jeremy: over the weekend me and kat went to a town called rockfort (i think?) which is like right on the ocean , the weather was a little cold for it , like 50 maybe and the sea breeze made it chillier⌠im not really a beach person just more water. You say beach and you think like Boogie Boarding Bros (Michael: whoooaah boogie. Lindsay: beach volleyball) yeah .. id reather be on a rocky shore than a sandy beach. Michael: youd rather be like a mermaid sitting on the rocks *jeremy laughs loud* is that what you're saying Jeremy: yeah Matt: attracting sailors to their DOOM Lindsay: i gotta send you a link but theres this one TikTokker i guess that i watch that talks about that an eastern european beach she went to and was like âi cant wait to go on my beach outting yeah!â and she gets there its rocky , really windy , noones there and goes âooh its really coldâ Matt: depends the kind of beach to me⌠for me East Coast beaches SUCK *jeremy nods yep* its water you cant see anything in its terrible Lindsay: that's also texas beaches , all brown. Matt: its just one of those things where you get in the water and your like âok⌠at anymoment i could be attacked by everything around meâ Michael: well that can happen on land too matt (Gen Notes WELCOHME TA JOISEY!!!) (paraphrasing jeremy here) Jeremy: theres this guy who flys a drone out over beaches into the ocean , and he released the footage⌠apparently due to there being a lot less people now theres just Great White Sharks that go relatively close to beaches now⌠there are times where hes filming people playing and like 10 ft away is a fucking shark ya know just swimming. And cuz they're really far away hed be like âid see it , film it , then go to a lifeguard and show it like âoh btwâŚâ â Michael: so you know 2 hours ago someone may have been eaten. MattL he should put a speaker on the drone to like announce the sharks like HEY! DEATH OUT THERE!. Lindsay: âwhats that Dronie? Theres a shark in the water?!?â Jeremy: and it was funny seeing that behavior where everyonce and a while a shark would be swimming then someone would do something near it not seeing the shark and the shark just goes âfuck datâ and swims away MattL god dudeâŚ. So close to death *gus joins* Lindsay: oh you're the guy who was like Texas beaches have Tar Gus: oh yeah i grew up in texas and i thought all beaches were like that just âoh you don't sit on the tarâ
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more tgcf chapters 143-173 lets goooooo
PEI MING BOO HISS except actually okay heâs mostly funny i think but still boo hiss
âhey whoâs this guy whoâs really pissed at you?â âoh thats my sword. i broke it.â alright then!
i think i need to go back and reread the banyue pass arc bc im still confused as to whats going on with banyue and pei su
âBanyue dropped from the sky with two pots raised. Without a word, she plummeted with the mouths of the pots facing down, trapping and detaining the shocked Mingâguang and the roaring Ke Mo within.â - THATS MY GIRL
âIt must be known that, to heavenly officials, it certainly was more than natural for kingdoms of the mortal realm to fight and annihilate one another; the acts of these plays progressing on endlessly. But when it came their own turn, it was often hard to let things go. If one must stand in the same court as the one who annihilated their own kingdom, and that man cavorted in the heavens, exceedingly flashy, then it must be vexing.â - hmmmm!!
âIâve spoken too many words in this lifetime. What are you referring to?â - okay to be fair thats a mood
okay its nice to get some pei ming backstory and its funny that he and xie lian are bonding but also still whenever pei ming interacts with a female character my hackles rise like a cat lol
âXie Lian watched as Banyue thought really hard before cheerfully pulling out a few long, wine-red scorpion-snakes, and putting them into the bubbling pot.â - THATS MY GIRL
âAlthough âsmellâ was something colourless and formless, the instant Banyue removed the pot cover, it was as if some mysterious physical object had twisted all the air around the mouth of that pot. The group stared at the sight within the pot for a long time. Their pupils reflected an endless, bottomless darkness; like it could pull them into the abyss. No words could describe the sentiment expressed within their eyes. A moment later, Xie Lian patted Banyueâs shoulder and gave a thumbs-up.â - like father-figure like daughter-figure. amazing.
âHowever, what if one day mortals discovered something completely new that ran faster than horses? Then, when this new invention overtook horses, worshippers of this heavenly official who controlled horses would inevitably decrease. Such heavenly officials, flashing by like shooting stars, made up the majority of the heavens.â - obsessed with this, genuinely. life and change. worship and its purpose. my religious studies diploma on my wall is screaming at me rn. ALSO i am once again thinking about celebrities
â...â It was only then that Pei Ming seemed to notice, and started to contemplate this question. A moment later, he answered, âA habit. In a dark, creepy place like this, isnât it normal to hold women in your arms, to comfort them and calm their fears?â âIâm sorry, but I wasnât scared,â Banyue said.â - BANYUE I LOVE YOU. I MISSED YOU SO MUCH. god this takes me back to every college party i ever went to
LING WEN BACKSTORY????? shoeseller chosen for godhood bc she wrote a political essay and got arrested...... and now sheâs face to face with the official who appointed her..... do go on.....
âLing Wen laughed out loud, seeming to be enraged, and her voice dropped. âVery well! You said I couldnât reach that high. Then, might I ask you: had the prominence of the Palace of Jing Wen at its peak ever reached even the knees of my Palace of Ling Wen??â - GET HIM!!!! BOO HISS JING WEN
âCompared to you, Iâm not that bad,â Ling Wen said. âYouâd personally order me to stay in the Palace of Jing Wen until midnight, then turn around and say I shamelessly hang around âtil late to harass you. Words murder without form; I was much nicer responding with blatant violence.â - ling wen im love you..... also this bit... feels Real
BLOOD RAIN BLOOD RAIN BLOOD RAIN!! FLOWER PETALS TRANSFORMATION!!! see hua cheng? look as how cool it can be when you leave the story for a little while!! bc then you get to return and make an entrance!!
âNot only can you bring forth bloody rain, you can also make flowers shower. I didnât know that. How fun!â - cute!! and in that moment we were all xie lian
âEveryone was stunned by his deed, and Ling Wen arduously gave him a thumbs-up. âOlâ Pei, what a man!â Pei Ming gritted his teeth. âWELCOME!â - aww three two tumors buddies!!
okay yin yu is here and xie lian did the equivalent of asking someone when the baby is due only to find out theyre not pregnant at all. then rong guang taunts yin yu and no one says anything. i do love the amount of awkward moments in this book tbh sometimes there are no words.
âAll around was sand and mud crushing at him, exceedingly suffocating. The sand and mud was also moving endlessly; the feeling was like he was swallowed into the stomach of a giant monster, and that monster had also eaten a bunch of other things besides him, tumbling everything in its stomach, trying to digestâ - ooooh creepy!!! the red string thing... is cute.... also xie lian being able to see hua chengâs butterfly vision by looking directly into his eye is kinda cool. and obviously homoerotic.
âAre lower-ranked heavenly officials below other people?â Quan Yizhen asked. âNo,â Yin Yu replied. Were they not? It was obvious that he himself didnât believe in his own words, and Quan Yizhen also noticed. A good while later, he said bluntly, âI donât like it here.â Yin Yu said nothing.â - im having emotions. and then yin yu also saying he doesnt like it there either.... also idk how this scene is going to play out but as much as im enjoying quan yizhen being an icon i can also possibly see how yin yu could eventually get to the point of âi am tired of being nice. i do just want to go apeshitâ even if he really cares about qyz. it happens </3
âIndeed,â Hua Cheng said. âHalf a year later when Quan Yizhen actually ascends, he wonât find it so funny anymore.â âCan we watch that part too?â Xie Lian asked. âWe can. Hold on,â Hua Cheng replied.â - quan yizhen king of taking things literally. also why did this turn into hualian having a movie night
jian yu seems like the kind of asshole who would purposely give someone regular soda when they specifically asked for diet soda. god yin yu is really having a bad day i really feel for him in the whole situation with the brocade immortal
awww okay at least jian yu tried to take responsibility. im still mad at him tho that was objectively a terrible idea. god this whole situation sucked :(
âRocks and earth crushed at them from all around, forcing their bodies to press tightly against one another, their faces brushing, their ears warm. Although it wasnât the right time, a thought flashed through Xie Lianâs mind: ââTo die buried togetherâ doesnât feel so bad.â - okay... im kind of emotional.... gay people....
okay obviously these murals and the prince of wuyong have some connection (im guessing pretty direct) to xie lian and are important but everytime they start analyzing one i feel like im back in art history class fhadskfhskjdhf not that thats a bad thing!! i liked art history a lot tbh
âDonât worry, theyâre not human,â Hua Cheng said. âItâs precisely because theyâre not human that we have to worry, alrightâŚ.â Xie Lian thought.â - goth ghost bf problems
xie lian: well, there is one person i trust more than anyone else, someone whoâs first in my mind hua cheng, oblivious: oh :/ xie lian, also oblivious: what? hua cheng: you shouldnt trust so easily its dangerous xie lian: oh. haha. yeah. well. wanna,,, know who it is? hua cheng: its :) fine :) it :) doesnt :) matter :) but of course you can tell me if you want to gege xie lian, internally: well now ive made it weird hua cheng, 5 minutes later: actually i need you to tell me. right now. its totally for your security me: gay people smh
âAs they suspected, he had been captured by Qi Rong. Although no one was bound by ropes, there were balls of greasily green ghost fires hovering over every one of their heads.â - completely off track but anybody else remember the great green globs of greasy grimy gopher guts song
âCould there actually come a day when Qi Rong was embarrassed that someone might see the manner in which he ate? Before Xuan Ji entered, she put Guzi down. Guzi, ta-ta-ta, ran in, rushing straight to Qi Rongâs side. But when he saw him, he pointed his finger. He cried, âDad is eating bad things in secret again!â âIâm not!â Qi Rong retaliated.â SCREAM IS QI RONG LEARNING THE POWER OF LOVE NOOOO also god that poor man whose body he has im starting to doubt if heâll ever be free jimmy novak flashbacks
everytime we get another ghost king power somewhere someone should be writing hua cheng the cyborg bf in a high tech futuristic au i think thats the only other potential setting that could truly capture this wild ride
âIn truth, throughout history, there was no man in the world who didnât love bragging. A breeze could blow the handkerchief of a brothel girl into a manâs hand, and he would turn around and say the most beautiful of renowned escorts had fallen in love with him; holding shoes and wiping benches for the emperorâs mistressâs uncleâs grandsonâs cousinâs mistress would for sure become him being an important administrator at the residence of royal relatives, raising his status. Thus, men who didnât brag were a rare species.â - SCREAM this is going in my favorite tgcf quotes folder god... mxtx come here let me shake your hand
read the story of rain master yushi huangâs ascension. why am i crying. also this bit im crying again me with my stuffed animals âThus, while Yushi Huang was cultivating at the Temple of Yulong, every time when she went to seek water and passed that door, she would rub the head of that ox. The door knocker soaked in her essence of life, and when the Rain Master ascended, the ox ascended with her.â
okay thats enough for now i have 7 more chapters to book 4!!! woo!!!
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al horford sleeper agent
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anyway by now ive told basically everyone i care about but i had a life changing experience over the weekend. n it sounds dumb as shit but i met a real life dude who was basically a clone of nick from franz. weird hours. guess this is a thread
before we start i want to say i havent thought about franz in weeks. theyve gone away on their own finally but really i think my old obsessions just get replaced every few years and maybe it was my hard work in therapy or my new obsession with rap or
maybe it was just a realization or me growing up and maturing or something but i dont even want to work on my favorite fanfics anymore or anything. itâs just odd. i think im changing
and i donât think about how my former favorite band members are doing or worry about them or check their socials n it feels really good. but i know there probably is or probably will be a replacement
ok that was a tangent. if they were replaced by anything they were replaced by new friends and the NBA. so thereâs the exposition of this story sorted
anyway back to the weekend. the sleeper agent invited me to lunch. and that was the catalyst. god people are being so loud in here let me go to the art library
anyway i just kind of realized "huh i guess there's more out there." i went to lunch n shit. WE went to lunch n shit. stopped caring so much about my math homework. let myself be dumb and in love
thatâs a very human thing. lunch. he spilled his stupid chipotle burrito all over his stupid bright green celtics jacket
heâs from italy. never even stepped foot in a chipotle. immediately clowned himself. some world we live in
we hung out all weekend. we went to lunch like two more times and we went to dinner. there was this big threat of leaving looming over my head the whole time. i made him walk like a mile on crutches and i feel very bad about it
i donât know whatâs wrong with him. itâs somewhere between a basketball injury and a chronic disability. either way that just made me feel even more emotionally attached to him. i never saw him without the celtics jacket
it was so cold that weekend. or maybe i just didnât bring the right jacket. if he were a gentleman he would have offered me the celtics jacket. i didnt even hug him goodbye
and then of course he went back home. theres a million girls all over his instagram comments all the time. theres nothing special about me. he doesn't want to talk. i wrote my ap psych notes in green yesterday bc i was so in love with that stupid celtics jacket
im a sixers fan. the sixers and the celtics have been rivals forever. it was about to be war, except i want to move to boston. but really i want to move to dc. i wish the whole world was philly. things would be less complicated
im in love with a celtics jacket. a celtics jacket. of all teams. and i cant even talk to my basketball friends about it because they think im dumb shit for falling for some celtics fan with a million girls all over his instagram comments all the time
im not like those girls. i donât think im like those girls. but i definitely exactly am
i have an economics test in fifteen minutes. i think one day ill drown in the atlantic ocean.
the test wasnt that bad. i thought about writing this the entire time. i would just zone out and stare and think about the phrase âal horford sleeper agentâ
because he has to be. why else would someone put a diehard sixers fan right in front of a diehard celtics fan who looks exactly like the guitarist of their middle school favorite band
in reality i should be calling him a celtics sleeper agent because the whole point is that al horford is a sleeper agent for the celtics. but i hate al horford so i guess itâs more funny to include him in the title
i mean how can one player change so drastically like that? al horford was benched for the first time since his rookie season, like, two weeks ago after being traded to the sixers. how does that happen? why *wouldnât* he be playing badly so his old friends win the title?
al horfordâs gotta be retiring in like, three years, tops. heâs working for the celtics, i know it. and my sleeper agent is trying to convert me to a celtics fan
i understand why people make jokes, though. itâs a very human thing to want to go home. al horford just wants to go home. he lived in boston for however many years let me look it up
god whatever it was only three years i thought it was like eleven that just ruined my point
back to the matter at hand though thatâs all weâre trying to do. we all just want to feel at home. weâre all just these little things trying to connect somehow. sometimes we are more desperate than others
i think im pretty desperate right now. sometimes i sit in my bedroom and im like damn when do i get to go home? but im home
i didnât even want to leave dc. it was all star break and there wasnât even basketball on. so there i was, in basketball purgatory, wizards territory for some god forsaken reason, losing sleep over a celtics fan and not wanting to go home
and when i say i was losing sleep you better believe me. i was so excited to wake up in the morning that i didnât want to fall asleep. i wanted to be awake forever, endless, running through the city
iâll get there soon enough. itâll be with different people. college, yknow. all that. but sometimes i feel like certain things canât be replaced.
and im acting like a different person lately. im using my phone at red lights just so i can check for a message from the sleeper agent. itâs always one word responses
yes. ok. maybe. some shit like that. a haha every once in a while. heâs not interested and i should stop trying
and then, INEVITABLY, i send something stupid back, a photo of my hand on the wheel or something, and i get left on read
and i know im stupid for it. everyone i know is screaming at me âdisco, youâre dumb shitâ but i just want to believe for a minute that im loved, im special
I want to feel like someone out there cares about me that isnât obligated to, yknow? my mom can say she loves me all she wants but it doesnât feel as good as some italian celtics fan saying it
some hot italian celtics fan mind you
even if he wasnât hot or italian it would be nice. and actually it would be better if he liked like, ANY other basketball team
except maybe the knicks
but whatever. main point: i know im dumb shit and should stop trying. but it feels good to feel like if i keep trying maybe iâll be wanted
sleeper agent is just one of those people tho. heâs magnetic and everyone always wants to be around him. dumb as hell in the most charming way ever. my friends are still all making fun of me
i started crying in a pizza place the other night because even the CONCEPT of italy sent me over the edge. i need to stop before i
wait whatâs the word
i need to stop before i immortalize him? no, no
i need to stop before i deify him. soon enough heâs going to be a new canonical character in my head and iâll start making up legends and stories to myself
we barely knew each other. if i deify him iâll start telling people he offered me the celtics jacket when it was cold out. heâll become a perfect gentleman. and he wasnt. he was just some stupid hot italian boy in a bright green jacket
im not going to deify him. it wonât happen. but i love the color green. i always say i love yellow more but i think thatâs passed. i wear a green ring on my right ring finger every day. im not going to deify him and i still hate the celtics
overall, the celtics are winning the rivalry. i donât think the sixers have ever truly been âgreat,â at least outside of philly. maybe allen iverson. wilt chamberlain. dr j? theyve never had like, a dynasty. idk. i donât think youâd be able to get a sixers jacket in italy.
itâs his birthday today. i should probably text him. i should probably stop thinking about him. thatâs just dumb shit, disco youre better than this what happened to a little self confidence every now and again
sure lets say external validation isnt necessary but also i think thatâs something the mindfulness crowd made up to sell more planners and tote bags in 2011. it feels good to be wanted
never waste all your time on it sure. know youre still worth it even when you have no friends and there are a million girls all over his instagram comments. but it does feel good to hear âgoodness disco i like how much you like the philadelphia 76ersâ
my friends are all making fun of me for being on some romeo and juliet shit because heâs literally from verona and heâs a celtics fan and im a sixers fan god damn it disco why does this always happen
i never even read romeo and juliet but i saw the dreamworks adaptation so i guess ive got the story relatively right i know they die in the end. the gnomes shatter into little pieces i think
anyway tangents aside the sixers won tonight. philly is lit up green. why the hell is philly lit up green? the eagles were done like three months ago and the flyers are orange. why is philly lit up green
oh god, he just snapped me. a zoomed in photo of himself with caption that says â76ersâ with like five exclamation points
here we go again, everybody
wish me luck
#writeblr#writing#original writing#creative writing#narrative#my writing#philadelphia 76ers#boston celtics#nba#just inspo lmao#also jacket boy is currently quarantined for coronavirus#just thought id add that with the news out if italy#pip pip cheerio#al horford#al horford sleeper agent#narrative nonsense#disco is my real name
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1-100 TELL ME ALL
Get To Know Me Uncomfortably Well
1. What is you middle name?
Jesse
2. How old are you?
22
3. When is your birthday?
dec 9
4. What is your zodiac sign?
sagittarius
5. What is your favorite color?
purples
6. Whatâs your lucky number?
9
7. Do you have any pets?
no
8. Where are you from?
bc canada. my great grandparents are from russia
9. How tall are you?
5 something
10. What shoe size are you?
7?
11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
3 that i actually use
12. What was your last dream about?
i dont remember my most recent one but i had a banger of a dream i described in another post
13. What talents do you have?
i think expressing myself, or music, i have some talent that needs discipline
14. Are you psychic in any way?
well i am a spiritual person, in a way. and growing up in a toxic drama filled family, i have Developed the Skill of guessing how people are feeling and what they are gonna do. and i analyze dreams. so not psychic but i am really interested and intuitive whats goin on in there
15. Favorite song?
for some reason https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oilVq8-F4_Q colours by roosevelt ive been obsessed with lately i just loop that shit. loop loop loop. blaringit into my ears and speedwalking down thestreet. the beat.!!!! i feel like I  took all the colours
16. Favorite movie?
spiderverse. i really enjoyed always be my maybe.
17. Who would be your ideal partner?
someone who doesnt make me feel like im Too Much
18. Do you want children?
not RIGHT NOW
19. Do you want a church wedding?
i have no idea actually. id want a special wedding definitely.
20. Are you religious?
yes, i honestly feel like i just come like this, i dont go by any books and i dont want to be associated with christians. if i be too religious i start getting the Bad Feelings
21. Have you ever been to the hospital?
yes visiting sick relatives. and one in a psyche ward.
22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?
i got a parking ticket
23. Have you ever met any celebrities?
no. maybe i did and i had no idea who they were because id never heard of them
24. Baths or showers?
showers.
25. What color socks are you wearing?
alien socks that are green and black
26. Have you ever been famous?
no. what does that even mean !!!!
27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?
yes because money but noooooo. its hard when one person definitely doesnt like me. if im famous some people just wont like me and theres going to be more of them
28. What type of music do you like?
stuff with electric guitars in it. funk. bops. i cant get enough lately
29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?
no
30. How many pillows do you sleep with?
one. and sometimes NONE. i dont fucking know why its just more comfortable. id lie down on a floor and pass out
31. What position do you usually sleep in?
i usually cant fall asleep unless im on my face with my arms tucked under me for warmpth and general log shape. after that though its chaos. dreamin
32. How big is your house?
BIG!!!!!! so many rooms. so many people.Â
33. What do you typically have for breakfast?
on a Functional day, cereal. not because its my favourite thing but it doesnt require a lot of attention and its easiest to tolerate. my appetite is just. like this
34. Have you ever fired a gun?
HELL no.
35. Have you ever tried archery?
in my child days i shot my hair elastics around and pretended i was fighting aliens. this is definitely archery.
36. Favorite clean word?
i dont really think about words like that. pizza is a nice word.
37. Favorite swear word?
bitch. its really fun to say.
38. Whatâs the longest youâve ever gone without sleep?
not all that long. if i was up the entire night i am usually sleeping in midday no matter where i am. ive disappointed many teachers. its called not caring.
39. Do you have any scars?
yes, but theres no dramatic stories to them, just me not leaving scratches and bites alone as a kid. they look kind of cool though. and theyre so mysterious. youd think id have scars from self harm but no.
40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
i believe so...
41. Are you a good liar?
yes, when i am 100% like morally committed to lying.
42. Are you a good judge of character?
NO. my thought process is: its rude to assume someone is going to behave badly, and they will be offended and have hurt feelings if you anticipate that. i have to like. treat everyone with exactly the same respect unless theyre a dick. otherwise its being judgmental. and it ends up as naĂŻvetĂŠ. but im okay with that . the price of being a good person
43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?
i could do a british one once i guess LOL and it looks like now ive Absorbed a mexican accent but i never really try to talk in other accents
44. Do you have a strong accent?
i dont know how to answer this
45. What is your favorite accent?
idk i like new things i havent heard before. and thinking about how other languages work. theres a lot of different accents at my work and i honestly enjoy listening to them
46. What is your personality type?
that.... INFJ. see. psychic
47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?
one of the gay jackets
48. Can you curl your tongue?
dont think so
49. Are you an innie or an outie?
innie
50. Left or right handed?
left
51. Are you scared of spiders?
depends. i had these big house spiders in my dungeon at my parents house, and id just be âhiâ and set them free. but if i see one where im not expecting it i might yell a lot and tell everyone and run around and then set it free
52. Favorite food?
tacos from my old work. i was indeed. screaming, lost in the sauce. i waited until i was away from the restaurant because i knew all my dignity would vanish
53. Favorite foreign food?
idk... i need to eat more curry. i need more curryin my life. bring it on.
54. Are you a clean or messy person?
clean
55. Most used phrased?
âthis slapsâ i feel like ive been saying that a lot
56. Most used word?
I
57. How long does it take for you to get ready?
a whole entire fucking hour (when i wake up) otherwise 5min
58. Do you have much of an ego?
i do, but i hide it.Â
59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?
chomp chomp. i am not a patient man.
60. Do you talk to yourself?
yes, when i know no ones around, or when im not worried about seeming like a crazy person at work
61. Do you sing to yourself?
nah
62. Are you a good singer?
no. i can sing and it sound okay. Â nice even. but good??? like beautiful?????? no.
63. Biggest Fear?
someone dying, natural disaster, new illness
64. Are you a gossip?
maybe. i feel like i have the Tendencies and then im like âam i being a bad person right nowâ. i want to know the deets though.
65. Best dramatic movie youâve seen?
i Simply Dont Have the Attention for Those
66. Do you like long or short hair?
BOTH . long hair is more fun to draw. short hair is hot
67. Can you name all 50 states of America?
fuck no. why would i. fuck off. i dont care about your states.
68. Favorite school subject?
ART ART AR T
69. Extrovert or Introvert?
introerverte
70. Have you ever been scuba diving?
no
71. What makes you nervous?
people who are not Definitely Cheerful
72. Are you scared of the dark?
no. unless i think about things to scare myself on purpose
73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?
no unless they need to know. because im not a fucking ANIMAL
74. Are you ticklish?
depends. i can be not ticklish if im determined.
75. Have you ever started a rumor?
i dont think so... i started a rumor i was from mars
76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?
maybe i was supposed to train some girls and then i probably didnt do a great job and they didnt listen. they say my job now is somewhat authority and im like...... ok......Â
77. Have you ever drank underage?
no
78. Have you ever done drugs?
no
79. Who was your first real crush?
someone whos OUTTA MY LIFE
80. How many piercings do you have?
two? i got them pierecd at claires lmao and i didnt get an infection because im  so salty. then i took them out because they were from claries
81. Can you roll your Rs?â
hell yes
82. How fast can you type?
so fucking fast. faster than my work finder helper. im fast im very fast
83. How fast can you run?
IM VERY FAST
84. What color is your hair?
orange
85. What color is your eyes?
green
86. What are you allergic to?
im still trying to figure that out. whatever it is gives me hives
87. Do you keep a journal?
yes. so i can get better at handwriting and just talking in general and hear what my voice sounds like. and to have a space away from other peoples needs and pressures
88. What do your parents do?
my mom is a stay at home mom and my dad shoots pop bottles into the sky
89. Do you like your age?
sure
90. What makes you angry?
everything. cabbage. i swore about cabbage for a long time the other day. i am just full of anger.Â
91. Do you like your own name?
YES. i mean i chose it i better. honestly my first name ......... i feel self conscious about it sometimes. i think it was the only name for me though. it wasnt the ideal most wonderful namei could find because those didnt fit, it was MY name.
92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?
im going to have two sons and im naming them brick and rusty.
93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?
yeah, i want a boy a girl
94. What are you strengths?
my strengths doing all 100 questions, this is serious muscles
95. What are your weaknesses?
the exhaustion of jumping from one question to the next especially when they are vague. im not complaining this was my idea
96. How did you get your name?
i pfound it in the baby name book and i was lie  âhey yyy, i saw that name in black beauty, lets use it for my gay coded villain what the hell!â
97. Were your ancestors royalty?
no but i did have some ancestors who lives i a mansions andhad fucking SERVANTS. before you call me problematic my other part of family was like sewing things and not going to schoolÂ
98. Do you have any scars?
weve been over this. when im older im going to get a cool scar fighting a dragon
99. Color of your bedspread?
pink, white, blue
100. Color of your room?
white
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125 questions about me
i was tagged by @surreysimmer and @oasisable, lov u guys. the point of the tag is to create a simself w your traits and answer the questions!
i tag: @brndletonbae @vvindenburg and anyone else who hasnt done it yet!
my traits are dog lover, geek and hot-headed!
125 questions below the cut
1. what is your name? taylah
2. what is your nickname? tay
3. birthday? aug 30 1998
4. what is your favorite book series? the illuminae files by amie kaufman and jay kristoff
5. do you believe in aliens or ghosts? yessss
6. who is your favorite author? neal shusterman
7. what is your favorite radio station? i only use apple music
8. what is your favorite flavor of anything? raspberry flavour mhm
9. what word would you use often to describe something great or wonderful? incredible
10. what is your current favorite song? i literally have no idea
11. what is your favorite word? no clue
12. what was the last song you listened to? i can hear my mother listening to abba downstairs
13. what tv show would you recommend for everybody to watch? brooklyn nine nine
14. what is your favorite movie to watch when youâre feeling down? mr beans holiday
15. do you play video games? yeeee, lately ive been playing detroit become human, the new spiderman game and gta v :-)Â
16. what is your biggest fear? CLOWNS
17. what is your best quality, in your opinion? im really empatheticÂ
18. what is your worst quality, in your opinion? i can be an asshole
9. do you like cats or dogs better? dogs
20. what is your favorite season? winter
21. are you in a relationship? no
22. what is something you miss from your childhood? my dad,,,,,
23. who is your best friend? jacqui + kelsey and also jills + haley
24. what is your eye color? hazel
25. what is your hair color? black
26. who is someone you love? my dog
27. who is someone you trust? see q.23
28. who is someone you think about often? my dad
29. are you currently excited about/for something? christmas
30. what is your biggest obsession? i develop fixations real fast u could ask me my biggest obsession and itll change in 2 days
31. what was your favorite tv show as a child? probably zoey-101 or smth like that
32. who of the opposite gender can you tell anything to, if anyone? bold of q.32 to assume i trust people
33. are you superstitious? yeah
34. do you have any unusual phobias? broken glass
35. do you prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it? behind
36. what is your favorite hobby? watch netflix, game, work kkfbcuaajl
37. what was the last book you read? sadie by courtney summers
38. what was the last movie you watched? bohemian rhapsody
39. what musical instruments do you play, if any? none
40. what is your favorite animal? dogs, sloths and sharks
41. what are your top 5 favorite tumblr blogs that you follow? i cant narrow things down im indecisive
42. what superpower do you wish you had? invisibility
43. when and where do you feel most at peace? when i knock tf out and finally sleep kwbaubfdl but also when im home alone
44. what makes you smile? when someone laughs at my dumb jokes
45. what sports do you play, if any? this is so funny
46. what is your favorite drink? vanilla coke
47. when was the last time you wrote a hand-written letter or note to somebody? no clue
48. are you afraid of heights? kind of
49. what is your biggest pet peeve? when people dont listen
50. have you ever been to a concert? yeahÂ
51. are you vegan/vegetarian? no but i want to be
52. when you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up? hotel manager
53. what fictional world would you like to live in? harry potter lmao
54. what is something you worry about? everything!!!!!
55. are you scared of the dark? not really
56. do you like to sing? like to yes, but i cant sing
57. have you ever skipped school? yes and i skip uni all the time im depressed
58. what is your favorite place on the planet? my bed
59. where would you like to live? anywhere but australia
60. do you have any pets? i have a fifi!! (a dog... she was gonna be in the photos with my simself but her breed isnt in the game so sad)
61. are you more of an early bird or a night owl? night owl
62. do you like sunrises or sunsets better? sunsets
63. do you know how to drive? yes
64. do you prefer earbuds or headphones? i call them earphones so no clue what the difference is
65. have you ever had braces? no
66. what is your favorite genre of music? literally anything
67. who is your hero? no clue
68. do you read comic books? i read graphic novels but not comic books
69. what makes you the most angry? rude people!!!!!
70. do you prefer to read on an electronic device or with a real book? both im not bothered
71. what is your favorite subject in school? rn i love my social science classes
72. do you have any siblings? 4 brothers 2 sisters
73. what was the last thing you bought? gta v
74. how tall are you? 5â˛4 / 163cm
75. can you cook? yeah
76. what are three things that you love? my friends, my family, my dog
77. what are three things that you hate? stress, rude opinionated people, people who ignore what you say
78. do you have more female friends or more male friends? female friends i dont talk to men besides my brother and my boss
79. what is your sexual orientation? lmaoooooooooo no idea atm ha
80. where do you currently live? australia
81. who was the last person you texted? sam
82. when was the last time you cried? the other night larbnlcbadj
83. who is your favorite youtuber? how ridiculous
84. do you like to take selfies? not really
85. what is your favorite app? tumblr
86. what is your relationship with your parent(s) like? pretty good but my mums a taurus so shes stubborn af
87. what is your favorite foreign accent? french
88. what is a place that youâve never been to, but you want to visit? everywhere im stuck in the bottom of the globe someone save me
89. what is your favorite number? 7
90. can you juggle? no
91. are you religious? no
92. do you find outer space of the deep ocean to be more interesting? space!!! but both are interesting tbh
93. do you consider yourself to be a daredevil? no
94. are you allergic to anything? no but im lactose intolerant
95. can you curl your tongue? yes
96. can you wiggle your ears? no
97. how often do you admit that you were wrong about something? no im also stubborn af
98. do you prefer the forest or the beach? neither
99. what is your favorite piece of advice that anyone has ever given you? someone, the other day, told me im young with relatively little life experiences and that struggling with myself is okay and to not worry about the future idk this makes no sense with 0 context to what we were talking about but it helped a lot.
100. are you a good liar? depends i can tell my boss im sick and i cant work when im Depressed^tm just fine but i cant lie to a friend
101. what is your hogwarts house? slytherin
102. do you talk to yourself? yes rip
103. are you an introvert or an extrovert? bitta both
104. do you keep a journal/diary? i have a priv twitter acc where only 2 people follow me and i act like its my journal so close enough
105. do you believe in second chances? depends on the circumstances
106. if you found a wallet full of money on the ground, what would you do? turn it in
107. do you believe that people are capable of change? again depends
108. are you ticklish? oh yes
109. have you ever been on a plane? yes
110. do you have any piercings? i have my ears done twice, my helix and my nose
111. what fictional character do you wish was real? cress from tlc
112. do you have any tattoos? no
113. what is the best decision that youâve made in your life so far? deciding to go to uni
114. do you believe in karma? yeee
115. do you wear glasses or contacts? glasses, contacts freak me out
116. do you want children? no, if i were to have kids id wanna adopt
117. who is the smartest person you know? no idea
118. what is your most embarrassing memory? anything from 2015/2016
119. have you ever pulled an all-nighter? yes
120. what colour are most of you clothes? black and grey
121. do you like adventures? depends
122. have you ever been on tv? no
123. how old are you? 20
124. what is your favorite movie quote? the gone girl monologue i wont quote it because its a SPOILER but its my fav
125. sweet or savory? sweet
#saviorhide#nonsims#tag#get to know me tag#also i have bangs and theres no decent cc with bangs that LOOKS LIKE MY HAIR#so deal w me still using grimcookies kathryn hair
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strums guitar i love you bitch~ but no really you're such a lovely and caring person and i enjoy our plots and our little positivity chats and you're so wonderful to write with and i've loved seeing your babes progress while i've been here and you're so passionate about all of them and you are an endless well of ideas, thank you for letting me throw my ramblings at you. SOMETHING IVE BEEN CURIOUS ABOUT is what inspired the creation of each of your characters?
gonna make me cry istg. thank you! ilysm too and am really genuinely #blessed to have been able to get to know you! and i love writing with you toooo.
as far as inspiration UGH IDK. i think they all happened kind of naturallyâ stemming from one or two ideas and growing into what they are?Â
like a huge influence on addison creation was the idea of the vales and their close-knit dynamic and i knew that would be a big part of her from day one. i knew that i wanted her to be noticeably flawed too, and thatâs come out in her pride & prejudice (heh) but i also knew sheâd have a big heart because thatâs how vales do lol so those things were starting points for who she is today.
yael was just my human bean because i donât usually play humans and i thought it would be fun to play someone ignorant of what was going on around her and kind of ironic for her to be in the middle of the supernatural without knowing it either. i also always need an art nerd too and i like having a relatively low-key character in my collection so thatâs yaeeeel.Â
teddy was honestly just me missing sebastianâs face lol and i donât play usually play witches either and it fit a connection for kels and HERE WE ARE. also i took a few aspects from my previous sebastian that i really liked and changed them around a bit as a general base and i also wanted a character who kept things surface level with most people except for a few and now here i am with my trash child being trash one year later.
and then cj cj cj cj. i think i wanted someone unwavering and fully committed to hunting but who also wasnât doing it just to be likeâŚ.badass? but because of a really strong moral obligation/compass and honestly a desire to be good â and that being the only way she really knows how to be good. and then the whole rhodes aspect of just being completely dedicated to her family and trying to show that even if she shows it poorlyâ those were all ideas i had from the start and just ran with and now HERE WE BE.Â
catch me rambling idek itâs late. itâs my birthday. im watching harry and meghanâs movie and im gonna watch the wedding tomorrow idec.
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whats your fav fanfic ma đ
ic ant beliVE ur making mE CHOOSE
also whoa this list got away from me
here are my top 10 ~personal~ favorites with a description why theyâre so amazing (mostly just me yelling)Â
bc im horrible person i ordered them by how much i love them plus the last three that arenât larry
through struggles, to the stars by thedeathchamber - 80K
Star Trek AU okay need I say more?? (im gonna) I LOVE the character development in this fic okay itâs already pretty long but please I need at least 100K more in this universe, star trek was my first love and like wow my two favorite things combined? brilliant! excellent writing and i especially loved how Louis was portrayed
above your head by deadspy - 57K
so I think now weâve established I fucking love space, Iâm also a HUGE fan of NASA (I lowkey am looking at buying a house there in Cape Canaveral) some of the science is off but lol i understand why they wrote it like that and youâd never even know unless you spend most of your free time researching space travel (like I do) the slow burn hurts my heart but in like the best of ways
Cutie and the Boxer by anomalation - 37K trigger warnings for past child abuse, past sexual abuse, ptsd, anxiety attacks
wow okay SO I have a lot a lot to say about this one, there are 2 parts but itâll never be enough ! amazing asexual representation, beautifully written characters, Louis in this fic is everything I hope to have in a partner one day tbh, Iâm always looking for more asexual characters in fics (also everywhere) but I really donât think Iâll ever top this one Iâm not ashamed to admit Iâve probably re-read it at least 5 times since I found itÂ
Carnation, Lily, Lily, Rose by certainsadness - 103K
I dont know ??? how to explain ??? how much i love this fic !!! after reading this I became a fake art historian also I think Iâve seen a john singer sargent in person but Iâve gone to so many stupid art exhibits with my parents it all kind of blends together rich people probs ANYWAY this fic is as beautiful as the painting itâs named after, excellent characterization, limited angst (enough to make it interesting but not too much that my heart hurts), and lots of hoity-toity art referencesÂ
Like Candy In My Veins by littlelouishiccups - 31K
petition for part 2 !!!! itâs A/B/O which I know some people donât read but TRUST me you have /got/ to read this one, the alpha/omega thing isnât even that big of a deal? maybe kind of, but itâs written in such a wonderful way that it doesnât feel forced like it sometimes can, also: power bottom louis what more do you want? (also, anon, this is the fic i was talking about reading when you asked me for this rec)
Haven by xxPayne - 35K
so I talk about this fic a lot bc itâs actually relatively accurate as far as BDSM relationships/clubs go (yes, Iâve been to some, and yes, Iâve been trained by a Dom, so i know what Iâm talking about lol) the sex is kinky but (obviously bc itâs 35K) itâs like porn ~~with feelings~~ i love it and tbh after this Iâm probably going to re-read it again (and again)
The King of Spades by hazmesentir - 109K
this fic had ALL of my favorite things okay, rugged Manly Man⢠louis, misguided oc kid that louis identifies with and mentors, damsel in distress harry, guns, violence, tattoos. i mean itâs Gay Mafia?? does it get any better than that?? no. no it does not.
the next three arenât larry so like FYI
The Stars Above Us by 606, create_serenity(Sivany) - Drarry, 19K
surprise surprise another fic about space, and itâs a kidfic (I mean, Teddyâs in it so not ~really~ but) i would rec this to anyone and everyone and i may be biased bc i fucking love harry potter but even if you dont read drarry this oneâs worth reading. youâve got sad draco and thick-headed harry aka perfection
He Who Must Not Be Normal by lettered - Drarry, 40K
so ive read a lot of drarry fics okay and coming across one where /draco/ is the one rescuing harry is pretty rare, but i LOVE it and this fic portrays them both so beautifully, idk i just really love this fic itâs very close to my heart and ive read it many many times
Love and the Purple Palace by  takhallus - Tomlinshaw, 23K
this was one of my first tomlinshaw fics i read and like, nothing will ever compare. their relationship in this fic is perfect and unique and youve got a lot of miscommunication and stubbornness (a defining factor for any good tomlinshaw fic) plus bottom louis plus a relatable quality to it that i cant find anywhere else
so this was about a week late SORRY but thank you for asking this is way more than you probably wanted but seriously, go read all these fics sorry some of them are pretty long
lmk if there are any discrepancies or any of the links dont work please :)
as usual, if your fic is on here and you would prefer me not to rec it just message me (with proof you are the author) and iâll gladly remove it from this list
if you have any favorite fics feel free to rec them to me im always looking for new ones to read!Â
also stay on the lookout for my famous/non-famous au rec coming soon :)
#anonymous#answered#larry ficrec#ficrec#my recs#shit whats my rec tag i always forget#my ficrec#larry stylinson#tomlinshaw#drarry#drarry ficrec#larry stylinson fic rec#fic rec
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ITS 4:30 AM AND I DONT FEEL LIKE SLEEPING so Iâm gonna do this meme that i got tagged for twiCE and totally forgot to do til now!!!! (i had 2 dig through your blogs to find them omg)
ANYWAY i was tagged by both @mooitstimdrakeâ and @cynessieâ (I MISS U BOTH BTW â¤)
RULES: Share 11 facts about yourself, answer 11 questions provided by the tagger, tag 11 awesome people and leave 11 questions for them to answer!
(Iâm gonna skip tagging people/asking 11 questions - 1) because Iâm lazy 2) because a lot of people who I would tag either have already been tagged or woNâT DO IT and 3) I have to answer two sets of 11 questions anyway so Iâll let one of those sets take the place of my 11 questions!!)
11 Facts
I was supposed to leave to move into my college 3 days ago but since my college is in Savannah they pushed off move-in/orientation for a weEK BECAUSE OF HURRICANE IRMA AND IâM STILL UPSET/DISAPPOINTED
That being said Iâm about to start as a college freshman at art school, planning on majoring in animation! :D
I binged all of Buzzfeed Unsolved in like 2 days and I fuckin LOVE IT
Also BNHA is like my current main obsession???? I fell in love w that anime and uhhhh Iâd Die For My Kids
I almost never use skype anymore - Iâm always on Discord now (mutuals may add me just message me if you want my tag :3c)
I loooove creating OCs and my main OC is a forest elf named Rally and heâs precious and I LOVE HIM AND COULD TALK ABOUT HIM FOR HOURS (also my best friend @/harpxer and I have a huge ongoing rp with him and her mountain elf oc, Kahl!! theyâre really gay)
Hmmm fun fact I guess Iâve been involved with internet communities since I was 10 years old and I made my very first internet friend when I was 10 and weâre still great friends and talk p much every day to this day (hi @/fiishr)
I want a tattoo super bad but idk what Iâd geT
I worked at a jewelry engraving stand at an amusement park this summer and one night I accidentally gave myself a 1st degree burn on my finger from the hot glue gun and it hurt So Bad
I had my graduation party this July and it was really fun but the best part was when 14 of us played this giant game of spoons and it got really intense, made worse by people randomly screaming during it, and then we collectively decided to blast hardcore rap music from the speakers and Let Me Tell You i have not been involved in a more stressful card game in my LIFE
Iâll always always always fall for the hero/happy character/protagonist basically....idk what it is about me but Iâm so Predictable...I love cute optimistic brave characters who just wanna do Right.....I donât cARE IF PEOPLE THINK THEYâRE BORING I THINK THEYâRE PERFECT AND AMAZIGN AND I LOVE THEM
AS FOR AN EXTRA 12TH FACT ABOUT ME AS U CAN SEE I WRITE WAY TOO MUCH AND ALSO IâM THE BIGGEST OVERSHARER E V E R ITâS SO BAD SOMEONE STOP ME
ANYWAY ONTO THE QUESTIONS :3c
@mooitstimdrakeââs Questions:
If you were to make a new blog dedicated to one single thing (fandom, hobby/activity, etc) what would it be? Honestly, right at the moment probably BNHA!!!! itâs legit my most recent big obsession and I love it?? so much???
If you could have any kind of animal as a pet, what would you have? A RACCOON!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE THEM SOSOSOSOSOS MUCH and some people actually do have them as pets! They can be difficult though but WORTH IT
Who was your favorite teacher and why were they your favorite? OH BOY......Iâm gonna say itâs a tie between my AP studio art teacher and my AP US government teacher from this past year, my senior year! My AP art teacher because our class was super tiny, 12 kids, and it really felt like a family?? She was a-okay with letting us all goof around and say weird shit, she was really chill and funny and like. part teacher, part friend, which was always nice. As for my AP gov teacher, he was SO. FUCKING. FUNNY. OH MAN. NOT EVEN ON PURPOSE he just like? put up with SO MUCH? we had some real character kids in that class and my teacherâs reactions were HILARIOUS. he had a sarcastic streak too so his responses were equally as funny when someone did something weird. He would say the funniest stuff just ask @/harpxer I would tell her so many stories from that class sohboshrb. Aside from the humor that class was really interesting, and heâs a really good, invested teacher - he wanted us to learn, heâs super passionate about government and history, and he always started off each class with 2 current events which was really nice and helped me learn more about things happening in the world too!!! overall that was like my fav non-art class Iâve ever taken!!!!
Whatâs your guilty pleasure (and Iâm challenging you not to say some kind of food)? HMMMMM. Honestly Iâm gonna go ahead and say really cheesy or lame movies/shows (like, Disney channel movies, dumb shows - like the one summer I watched all of Glee LOL, stuff like that). Like yeah I know 90% of it is terRIBLE but itâs still amusing/lighthearted stuff that makes me happy KLSDJVLSDHB
Favorite pizza topping? EXTRA CHEESE IF THAT COUNTS, if not then pepperoni!!
Whatâs the last thing you bought (that wasnât food)? Iâve actually been buying a lot the past few weeks in prep for college/spending a little money for ONCE since I worked all summer. I got a bunch of boring stuff but the things Iâm most excited about are: two posters I got for my dorm (The Office is one and one is Lord Huron), a giant wall tapestry (itâs Up themed!!!), tWO BNHA/POKEMON CHARMS THAT CAME TODAY AND EVERY TIME I LOOK AT THEM I START CRYING BC THEYRE SO CUTE, and oh my GOD I BOUGHT THIS GIANT PILLOW FROM TARGET AND IT IS THE SINGLE SOFTEST THING IâVE EVER FELT AND ITâS HUGE AND IT IMMEDIATELY BECAME MY #1 COMFORT OBJECT AND TOP FIVE FAV THINGS IVE EVER BOUGHT!!!!!! I guess MOST recently though I just bought Clip Studio Paint online today (art program) since itâs on sale for 50% off and Iâve heard great things about it!
What upcoming movies/tv shows are you looking forward to? UHHHHH as for movies... justice league part 1, the incredibles 2, kingsman 2, the neW POKEMON MOVIE I CHOOSE YOU, probably a lot more I canât remember rn. AS FOR SHOWS HMMM Iâm...excited for the next season of the good place and izombie, and oh Iâm excited for the punisher netflix show!! and the next season of voltron of COURSE!!! and next season of stranger things!! probably more Iâm forgetting too tbh
Any recommendations (this could be anything just throw your best pitch at me)? JFISDJKLBJ I DONâT KNOW OMG tbh rachel you watch a lot of the same things I do already LMAOOO
Whatâs your favorite thing to wear that you own? OH FUCK I DUNNO HMMM I really like wearing my various leggings and scarves, but as like a Single Item....I like wearing....uhhhh I have this giANT sweater like itâs WAY too big for me but itâs so COMFY and I love it. I also love wearing my Star Labs sweatshirt bc itâs soft and comfortable
What was your first pet? my cat!!! we took her in as a stray kitten living in our backyard when I was like. 2 or 3 and so weâve basically had her my whole life!!
If you could learn any language, what would it be? UHHHHHH honestly probably spanish - I took it 4 straight years and was okay at it in class but one year went by with me not taking it and I forgot everything LOOOL Iâm...bad....at languages....
@cynessieâs Questions:
Where is the coolest place youâve ever been? I havenât been many cool places :( I guess the coolest isssss I dunno it depends? Lake George is where I go on vacation every year, I LOVE NYC, I love Savannah too and itâs where Iâm gonna be for college so?? ?? ? Â ? IâVE NEVER BEEN OUT OF THE COUNTRY AND IâM SAD BUT IâM POOR AND CANâT AFFORD IT
What was the first thing you remember wanting to be when you grew up? veterinarian!!Â
Look to your right. What do you see? a dirty plate on my desk, my bed just past that, and my CHARMS THAT CAME TODAY THAT ARE SO CUTE I CRY EVERY TIME I SEE THEM
What are you procrastinating on? ajkldjboidj lik e 4 art commissions,,,, and 7 MAP parts,,,, and my pre-work for 2 of my classes,,,,,,,and cleaning my room,,,, and sending thank-you notes to relatives,,, SOMEONE KICK MY ASS AND MAKE ME DO SHIT
Which family member are you closest too and what is their name? UHHHH.... I guess my younger brother Luke? or maybe my mom? Iâm not on bad terms with anyone though, I love both my older brothers too and we all have a good sibling relationship I just talk more with my younger bro I think - second closest would be with my second older brother Connor!
Whatâs the last song you listened to? Iâm listening to Ultralife by Oh Wonder right now :3c Iâve been on a huUUGE Oh Wonder kick lately!!
What do you generally carry in your bag/pockets when you go out? my wallet (w my license and money and debit card and all), travel size lotion, phone, and chap stick!!
What is one thing you are excited for? FINALLY GETTING TO COLLEGE NEXT WEEK AND STARTING CLASSES FJIODFHINBDFHBNSBO
Do you believe in ghosts? Iâm gonna hesitantly say YES but Iâm not 100% convinced I donât think
What is a skill you want to learn? MAYBE THIS IS WEIRD but I think learning how to act would be kinda neat. On a more realistic note I wish I could learn to exercise without dying
Tell me a joke. IâM BAD AT JOKES DONâT DO THIS TO ME NESSIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SO YEAH THATâS ALL FOLKS itâs 5am now...Nice..... :â) I love my ability to stay up obscenely late while also getting Nothing Done JLSDNVDHAGHVDLAK
#about me#my life#hell ya i havent done one of these in a while but it was FUN#sorry for not tagging anyone......im lazy.............
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get to know me meme!
..... a mutual did this and said people feeling up for it should do it so....
iâm not tagging anyone but feel free to do these
1. What is your full name? Rene
2. What is your nickname? Rellu, Rensku
3. What is your zodiac sign? Virgo
4. What is your favorite book series? uhhh ASOIAF maybe
5. Do you believe in aliens or ghosts? i like the idea of residual energy... and ofc thereâs other lifeforms floating in the endless space
6. Who is your favorite author? ME MYSELF iâm honestly not sure, thereâs no-one whose all works like to the same degreeÂ
7. What is your favorite radio station? ... rock/heavy metal station
8. What is your favorite flavor of anything? mmm choco? or like this salsa/cheese combo. also cola.
9. What word would you use often to describe something great or wonderful? excellent, gorgeous, fucking perfect
10. What is your current favorite song? this one
11. What is your favorite word? i donât... have one. maybe ăăžă?
12. What was the last song you listened to? this one
13. What TV show would you recommend for everybody to watch? Â in the flesh, mushishi
14. What is your favorite movie to watch when youâre feeling down? Â i donât like movies that much? ... one piece movies
15. Do you play video games? yes occasionally
16. What is your biggest fear? death, heights
17. What is your best quality, in your opinion? insight/confidence combo?
18. What is your worst quality, in your opinion? arrogance... small-mindedness, as in not being able to throw myself as deep into stuff as i feel like i should....
19. Do you like cats or dogs better? cats
20. What is your favorite season? winter or late fall
21. Are you in a relationship? mmmm when arenât you in relationships?? but yea iâm in several relationships as this question seems to be angling for...
22. What is something you miss from your childhood? structure and relatively low pressure
23. Who is your best friend? poronen and also revy my dearie. thereâs a couple more conventional/old past besties too that i still hold close to my heart.
24. What is your eye color? dark-ish gray-green-blue
25. What is your hair color? dirty blonde, dyed red
26. Who is someone you love? my friends my family my datemates... myself...
27. Who is someone you trust? i trust p much everyone until proven wrong
28. Who is someone you think about often? bisexualwinry and poronen again lmao, also... uhhh whichever characters iâm obsessed most recently
29. Are you currently excited about/for something? next installations of friendsâ fics, my own fic chapter lmao, a homewarming party of an ex iâm friends with...
30. What is your biggest obsession? currently a couple vocaloid producers and mp100. long term.... ffvii and vampires.
31. What was your favorite TV show as a child? pokemon and moomins
32. Who of the opposite gender can you tell anything to, if anyone? fuck your idea of there being an opposite!! i donât have an opposite!! i can tell my dearest friends anything, regardless of gender or lack of it!!!!
33. Are you superstitious? not really, tho i like some of the practices
34. Do you have any unusual phobias? no
35. Do you prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it? front~
36. What is your favorite hobby? writing, drawing, weightlifting
37. What was the last book you read? iâm not sure but iâm going to say villonâs testament
38. What was the last movie you watched? uhhhh maybe ghost in the shell? the first one.
39. What musical instruments do you play, if any? tiny bit of guitar
40. What is your favorite animal? cats
41. What are your top 5 favorite Tumblr blogs that you follow? i canât really say, i like following my friends (you know who you are iâve msg you all basically)
42. What superpower do you wish you had? i always answer these the same way: absolute shapeshifting.Â
43. When and where do you feel most at peace? in my own room around midnight OR with good friends anywhere
44. What makes you smile? anything exciting, really
45. What sports do you play, if any? uhhhh i did medieval swordfighting for a while but nowadays i dream of getting back to lifting and running
46. What is your favorite drink? water, coke, all coffee drinks, wine
47. When was the last time you wrote a hand-written letter or note to somebody? probs within a week, we communicate between flatmates with these lil post-it notes
48. Are you afraid of heights? yes holy shit so bad
49. What is your biggest pet peeve? when people are allergic to fun/are contrarians
50. Have you ever been to a concert? yuppp a couple times
51. Are you vegan/vegetarian? yes
52. When you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up? an author, but before that a paleontologist, and before that a circus princess
53. What fictional world would you like to live in? eugh idk almost none of them??? somewhere where itâs p idyllic
54. What is something you worry about? planet dying, economy crashing, getting back to my own two feet after this horrible mental crash iâve been going through all spring...
55. Are you scared of the dark? a lil bit, puts me on edge
56. Do you like to sing? hell yea!!
57. Have you ever skipped school? so many times
58. What is your favorite place on the planet? my parentâs house, this one street in kyoto...
59. Where would you like to live? honestly? in the center of the city iâm living in now, or the capital... ... or kyoto or tokyo...
60. Do you have any pets? no, flatmate has cats tho
61. Are you more of an early bird or a night owl? night owl but a fairly balanced one
62. Do you like sunrises or sunsets better? either is good
63. Do you know how to drive? yes
64. Do you prefer earbuds or headphones? headphones!! but i use buds more, more practical.
65. Have you ever had braces? yes.
66. What is your favorite genre of music? metal. like the sorta frilly vampiric neoclassical metal tons of jrock bands do?? but i like a huge variety of genres.
67. Who is your hero? gotta be my own hero
68. Do you read comic books? rarely, if we donât count manga
69. What makes you the most angry? petty pointless shit
70. Do you prefer to read on an electronic device or with a real book? on my phone
71. What is your favorite subject in school? languages/literature
72. Do you have any siblings? four of them, two big sisters and two lil brothers
73. What was the last thing you bought? .... some food? uhhh boxers?
74. How tall are you? 168 cm ish
75. Can you cook? yes
76. What are three things that you love? storytelling, good food, good laughs
77. What are three things that you hate? generic bad injustice shit in the world, people who make fun of others for things they like, lmao my current writerâs block towards my main fic ahahaha ;;;
78. Do you have more female friends or more male friends? seriously fuck these questions? most of my friends are nb
79. What is your sexual orientation? queer and complicated
80. Where do you currently live? Turku
81. Who was the last person you texted? a friend
82. When was the last time you cried? i have no clue, i donât cry often
83. Who is your favorite YouTuber? everyone who subs vocaloid stuff
84. Do you like to take selfies? yessssÂ
85. What is your favorite app? just my JED fhgadhadh
86. What is your relationship with your parent(s) like? a bit distant (due to physical distance) but warm and friendly and supportive
87. What is your favorite foreign accent? .... this seems strange but uh. no specific preference? throaty languages, french and arabic and russian come to mind...
88. What is a place that youâve never been to, but you want to visit? TOKYO ive been to japan twice and lived there for a while but never managed to visit tokyo
89. What is your favorite number? 11
90. Can you juggle? a lil bit?
91. Are you religious? anti-religion more like ahaha
92. Do you find outer space of the deep ocean to be more interesting? both, both is good
93. Do you consider yourself to be a daredevil? not really but then again i do tend to take things as challenges...
94. Are you allergic to anything? this one is a weird one. thereâs a chemical that does cause some sorta reaction? itâs in some cardboard boxes and used in treating hemp rope.....Â
95. Can you curl your tongue? yes
96. Can you wiggle your ears? yes
97. How often do you admit that you were wrong about something? anytime i canât wiggle out of it like âoh true yes thatâs what i meant i was almost correct the first timeâ lmao
98. Do you prefer the forest or the beach? ... forest
99. What is your favorite piece of advice that anyone has ever given you? itâs okay to half-ass things, itâs better than not doing anything
100. Are you a good liar? i think so
101. What is your Hogwarts House? gryffindor not slytherin shut upppp
102. Do you talk to yourself? sometimes
103. Are you an introvert or an extrovert? ambivert? sorta more extrovert
104. Do you keep a journal/diary? nahh not really
105. Do you believe in second chances? yes
106. If you found a wallet full of money on the ground, what would you do? if there was no-one nearby who could have obviously dropped it... or who could see... i would pocket any cash and take the wallet itself to lost and found.
107. Do you believe that people are capable of change? yea.
108. Are you ticklish? no
109. Have you ever been on a plane? yes, several times
110. Do you have any piercings? fourteen and planning to get moreÂ
111. What fictional character do you wish was real? not really anyone...
112. Do you have any tattoos? yup a big fat nb koi on my left calf
113. What is the best decision that youâve made in your life so far? going ahead with transitioning
114. Do you believe in karma? no
115. Do you wear glasses or contacts? glasses! really strong ones too lmao
116. Do you want children? no. wouldnât mind co-parenting someone elseâs kids if that sorta person wandered in my life tho.
117. Who is the smartest person you know? well myself of course - no but really ahh vrow has me beat in my category of intelligence.
118. What is your most embarrassing memory? i sorta picked on a kid for no reason in elementary school. it was a singular incident and i apologized a year later.
119. Have you ever pulled an all-nighter? yessss currently doing one
120. What color are most of you clothes? black
121. Do you like adventures? yea to a degree?Â
122. Have you ever been on TV? nope
123. How old are you? 24
124. What is your favorite quote? hhhh i donât have all-time faves but currently just. âJust stay by my side, it doesnât matter even if itâs a lie.â
125. Do you prefer sweet or savory foods? just give me all the food
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wow alright!!
1) Sexuality?
Straight
2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
Alison Sudol, Emily Blunt, Taylor Swift, Emma Watson
3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
âforehead. If it hadnât been for Voldemort, Harry would stillâŚ.â - Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire - J.K. Rowling
4) What do you think about most?
Everything. Anything I can stress or worry about mostlyÂ
5) What does your latest text message from someone else say?
its the crying face emojiâŚ
6) Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
with Pjs
7) Whatâs your strangest talent?
um I donât even know tbh
8) GirlsâŚ. (finish the sentence); BoysâŚ. (finish the sentence)
uhÂ
âGirls can conquer the worldâ
âBoys can drive you insaneâ
LOL
9) Ever had a poem or song written about you?
Not that I know about
10) When is the last time you played the air guitar?
prob yesterday in the car to annoy my friendÂ
11) Do you have any strange phobias?
I donât think any of them are necessarily strange⌠Although I have a fear of Hyenas yet there are none anywhere near me or have I ever really been around anyâŚ
12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
I donât think so..
13) Whatâs your religion?
technically atheist. but I do think there is a god out there
14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
Reading or hanging out with friends or my dog
15) Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
I like both
16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
A Fine Frenzy. That counts as a band right?
17) What was the last lie you told?
Im not actually sure
18) Do you believe in karma?
Yeah a little
19) What does your URL mean?
âAlwaysâ is from Harry Potter and âJaimeeâ is my name
20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
I think my greatest weakness is; animals (
I think my greatest strength is; my judge of character
21) Who is your celebrity crush?
Eddie Redmayne and Zac Efron
22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
nope
23) How do you vent your anger?
many ways. Song writing, dart throwing, crying and sleeping etc. depending on the situation also bottling it up for later
24) Do you have a collection of anything?
I have a collection of snow globes and keyrings from places Iâve been. I also have a few Pop Vinyls. I also collect all the movie tickets and concert tickets that Iâve attended.
25) Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
Depends on the person
26) Are you happy with the person youâve become?
sort of. I donât think Im fully to the point I want to be just yet
27) Whatâs a sound you hate; sound you love?
Hate; Balloons popping, scrapping of forks/spoons on plates, nails on a chalkboard etc
Love; waves crashing against the shore, pianos, acoustic guitars, laughter etc
28) Whatâs your biggest âwhat ifâ?
âWhat if I had the courage to do thatâ
29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
yes to a degree
30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.
right arm; Book
Left arm; Pillow
31) Smell the air. What do you smell?
The coconut âVictoria Secret mistâ I sprayed earlier
32) Whatâs the worst place you have ever been to?
um idk
33) Choose East Coast or West Coast?
of America? or Australia?Â
America; Seen the West Coast, not the East so ill go with East
Australia: East
34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?
Voice wise Michael Buble
35) To you, what is the meaning of life?
Love. Family and Friends
36) Define Art.
Everything. The essence of the world. A way to make everything okay, even for a little while
37) Do you believe in luck?
sort ofÂ
38) Whatâs the weather like right now?
coldish
39) What time is it?
1:55am
40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
Yes I do drive. NO I havenât crashedÂ
41) What was the last book you read?
Harry Potter and The Prisoner of AzkabanÂ
42) Do you like the smell of gasoline?
sort of
43) Do you have any nicknames?
Scout
44) What was the last movie you saw?
Fantastic Beasts and Where To Find Them
45) Whatâs the worst injury youâve ever had?Â
cracked my head open
46) Have you ever caught a butterfly?
Ive had them land on me but not âcaughtâ them
47) Do you have any obsessions right now?
Im low key obsessed with Fantastic Beasts and Where To Find Them
48) Whatâs your sexual orientation?
straight
49) Ever had a rumor spread about you?
yes
50) Do you believe in magic?
Yes. Makes you believe anything is possible.Â
âWithout even the possibility of magic, youâll never find itâ
51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?
If what they did was bad enough, then yes
52) What is your astrological sign?
Aries
53) Do you save money or spend it?
spend. but if I have something to save for Iâm generally quite good
54) Whatâs the last thing you purchased?
a birthday present for a friend and face wash (riveting I know)
55) Love or lust?
Love
56) In a relationship?
not right now
57) How many relationships have you had?
none that were very importantÂ
58) Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
nope
59) Where were you yesterday?
Out for lunch and shopping with one of my friends
60) Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
my slippers, iPad, pillow, lamp and a box
61) Are you wearing socks right now?
Nope
62) Whatâs your favorite animal?
Dog
63) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?
humor/wit/sarcasm
64) Where is your best friend?
at her house asleep
65) Spit or swallow?
LOL
66) What is your heritage?
Australian, New Zealand, English, Irish, Scottish
67) What were you doing last night at 12 AM?
Watching Youtube videos
68) What do you think is Satanâs last name?
um wtf
69) Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?
some questions just shouldnât be asked
70) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?
I think so
71) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?
Save the dog. Couldnât live with that guilt. If your boss still fires you after that, theyâre not a good person to work for
72) You are at the doctorâs office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?
a) Thats hard. I think maybe? but then thats a lot to put onto someone
b) Spend as much time with everyone as possible. See nature, read, try new foods etc
c) To an extent, hell yes
73) You can only have one of these things; trust or love.
GAH THATS HARD.Â
love. if someone really loves you they will strive for your trust and vis versa
74) Whatâs a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?
âBlow Awayâ A Fine Frenzy
75) What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?
HA
76) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?
Trust, love, communication
77) How can I win your heart?
Being genuine, funny, kind hearted and trustworthy
78) Can insanity bring on more creativity?
honestly it can
79) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?
moving on
80) What size shoes do you wear?
between a 9-10
81) What would you want to be written on your tombstone?
something likeÂ
âfamily and friend. kind to everyoneâ or something
82) What is your favorite word?
Serendipity
83) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.
break
(darker than I would have thought)
84) What is a saying you say a lot?
âblessâ and âanywayâ
85) Whatâs the last song you listened to?
âLifesizeâ - A Fine Frenzy
86) Basic question; whatâs your favorite color/colors?
Purple, blue, light green/pastel green, pink, black
87) What is your current desktop picture?
iMac; Golden Gate Bridge at sunset surrounded by cloud
Laptop; Yosemite with a pink/purple sky
Phone; Me and my friend before she left to move to London
88) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?
wow. um no one. well I mean, no one Im actually gonna writeâŚ
89) What would be a question youâd be afraid to tell the truth on?
hmm thats tough
90) One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies arenât really doing anything, theyâre just standing around your bed. What do you do?
scream and cry without a doubt
91) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and whatâs even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?
TelekinesisÂ
92) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
probably something with my parents when I was younger. Like a party or game night or something like that.Â
93) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
the stuff that happened in 2012
94) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?
Does Zac Efron count?Â
95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
London
96) Do you have any relatives in jail?
Not that Im aware of
97) Have you ever thrown up in the car?
I donât think actually in the car. but outside the door, yes
98) Ever been on a plane?
Yep
99) If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?
STOP HATING ON EACH OTHER. ACCEPT EACH OTHER. HATRED AND ANGER DOESNT SOLVE ANYTHING. WE ARE ALL HUMAN. WE ALL BREATHE THE SAME, BLEED THE SAME, DREAM THE SAME. NO ONE IS BETTER THAN SOMEONE ELSE SIMPLY BECAUSE OF THEIR GENDER, RACE, SEXUALITY OR ANYTHING ELSE. STOP KILLING EACH OTHER, STOP BULLYING EACH OTHER. LET PEOPLE LOVE WHO THEY WANT. HELP PEOPLE, DONT HURT PEOPLE. PROTECT EACH OTHER. BE KIND TO EACH OTHER. BE KIND TO ANIMALS. PROTECT ANIMALS. PROTECT NATURE. BE KIND TO OUR PLANET, ITS THE ONLY ONE WEâVE GOT
yep basically.Â
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GENERAL
Name: daniel, but i just go by dan Birthday: january 29 Age: 19 Sexual Orientation: really fucking gay School Status: full-time student
YES/NO
Drink?: lmao yeah Smoke?: nothing besides the Marijuanas Eat cake?:Â fuck yeah Believe in true love?: maybe? idk man Afraid of the dark?: not unless i see a really spooky horror movie Cat person?: Â sure, cats are cool. i think i like dogs more though
FAVORITES
Shampoo: uhh whateverâs cheapest and sulfate-free Disney song: idk if i have One Favorite Song??? i guess the first one i can think of is â iâll make a man out of you â -- mulan has some sick ass songs ok Actress/Actor: umm... mery.l streep is fantastic ngl, i havenât seen too many of her films but what ive seen of her acting was rly impressive. also i would let e.wan mcgregor murder me tbh heâs not only gorgeous but also talented as well and i love him Car: uhh i donât really have a favorite per se, but i have a honda civic and itâs nice Person: ÂŻ\_(ă)_/ÂŻ Type of Weather: cloudy / rainy sweater weather 90s Sitcom: i havenât seen too many so iâm just gonna say friends bc iâm basic
QUESTIONS
What is your special talent/skill as a roleplayer? the ability to be here for like....... almost 5 years?? :â^)Â no but for real, uh... idk. maybe my ability to play different kinds of characters? characters with distinct personalities? shrugs
What is your favorite type of roleplay genre, and why? itâs hard to pick one? i enjoy angst, smut, horror..... i like getting caught up in writing and exploring my museâs rawest emotions. i think those genres are the most emotional (and challenging) to write and i like delving into that aspect of writing
Why did you pick your muse? ngl it was totally at random. i typically only write under-rated characters in the fandom, so i think one day i wanted to make a new muse and was looking into aph characters and saw l.atvia, and i started reading up on the countryâs history and was like âhey this is actually pretty interestingâ and now here we are, 3 years later and in full-blown oc mode. it was a pretty arbitrary decision tbh
If you could write any other muse - but know you donât have the muse for him/her - who would it be? hmm i would like to write a r.ussia or china tbh, but i donât think i have the capacity to write another Big Main Character with such a long, complicated history and rich culture. f.rance is enough for now.
What is one thing you think you need to work on as a partner? um.............. i guess being able to actually commit to threads? like, stop coming up with plots and writing a starter (or getting my partner to write a starter) and then dropping it or whatever. idk. i feel like i havenât been doing this As Much lately, but i know my flakiness is an issue of mine also this doesnât really affect my partners but i have a tendency to rp with like the same 5 ppl and thatâs due to my blog being selective but also.......... Anxiety, and the inability for most of my muses to just talk to people, smh
What would be your warning label to other roleplayers? warning: super salty, bitter, and judgmental, but still a relatively nice person with good intentions and slightly masochistic tendenciesÂ
What is your favorite episode/scene of your muse? remember when a.ph lat.via had a framed picture of a bottle of vodka in his room in season 5? thatâs it. his only redeeming quality as a character. oskars can relate
What crack!ships do you have for your muse? my ice/lat ship with kaj...... lmao also pru/lat was probably a reach considering they havenât interacted as nations in like............ the past 1000 years
What is your senpai blog? i donât typically like to single people out on public forums, and i already gave a shoutout to an individual for a meme a while ago. i mean if you want recommendations or w/e you can dm me i guess but otherwise iâd rather not ¯\_(ă)_/ÂŻ
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Just some stuff from yesterdayâs post nothinâ special particularly--
@corditeheart Idek, it's so small that people think one comment speaks for the entire fandom
INCOHERENT HOWLING NOISES. I canât even comprehend this mindset. Clearly I am still a summer child who knows not the struggle of fandom veterans. I was relatively late to the party and itâs still my firm opinion that people can do what they want as long as itâs not in an attempt to overwrite someone else. I sort of assume everyone else feels like that as well, so itâs never occurred to me to take one comment as law.
@ahmyhotdog I can only speak from where I've been. Most people in this fandom are nice. This is true. I've met way more nicer people than not nice. But I think part of the issue is if you don't want to people with certain people for whatever reason then a lot of others just don't seem to play with you as well? Or it could just simply be once you find people you enjoy playing with you just end up not looking for new muns to play with.
Thatâs true, actually! So it could be partly down to misreading peoplesâ motivations for doing that? I would usually assume itâs because our headcanons donât mesh, though I will say thatâs happened to me elsewhere. I donât think itâs the fault of the collective though, I think there are just arseholes wherever you go. Idk, I hear âx is a bad fandomâ and I think of Bloodborne (INB4 SOMEONE IS A BLOODBORNE PART TIMER AND TAKES OFFENCE... @ them, come on, man, you know exactly what I mean here. BB is a mushroom cloud on the horizon for everyone else).Â
@eruditorem Iâve heard things but honestly ive never seen anything and everyone has been so welcoming??? so idk either. also i dont pick my nose, i pick my butt. i  mean... wait-- dont reply to that
Mostly adding this so everyone knows Bri picks her butt
@legendaryturk Hmm.  Well I'm kind of newish to the fandom at least for RP, and I think...things just go in cycles?  I've seen ups and downs in various fandoms - not just 8, but also ffvii, doctor who, mgs, and tons of other fandoms I've RPed in.  overall I'd say ff8 has been mostly welcoming to me? it's small, and tumblr being the animal it is, people may just flock toward others who share similar writing styles or fanon. Idk, if I find I have something in common with another mun, be it writing style or fanon ideas, I'll kind of squee with them over it, but I *never* do so with the intent of excluding others, kwim? that said, there are times where I feel like muns talk around me and there's a joke I'm not in on, but, I think that's just the beast that is tumblr, and not fandom related tbh.
You were in MGS tho//// / ?!?!?/q/1/
That part about not doing it with the intent to exclude is so important tbh. So far, Iâm getting the impression that most of it is misunderstanding. I canât imagine anyone Iâve come across so far being deliberately dickish in that way. Eg, thereâs one person I can think of who doesnât really want to acknowledge me, but thatâs okay, cos I know theyâre a heavy Seiferx[redacted] shipper and Iâve already said Iâm not, so Iâd not be much use to them. We still follow each other, though, and I canât think that theyâd be all like YOU CANâT SIT WITH ME if I spoke to them.
@diosleighrp There's douchenozzles in every fandom who try to dictate what other fans can and can't do. It's quite unfortunate, but there are just entitled brats everywhere.
I canât say much about this, I havenât had it! Idk why. Maybe Iâm too babbymode for the haters to have found. I have had it elsewhere though so I know what you mean and youâre right, they are definitely lurking somewhere. Theyâre lurking everywhere.Â
@lionseed Just like American politics, it's the small angry voices that get the most attention for some reason. Sometimes there's a bad experience, and people take that as proof the fandom is shit.
MMMM and thereâs always people with a bad experience to talk about because nowhereâs perfect, so I guess itâs partly on the reader to be on it enough to realise that. I would like if people within the fandom wouldnât say that about all currently participating members though :( Obviously people can talk about their experience, good or bad, but their experience is with a person, not all of us.Â
@underplater Okay, so. I will say that what I've personally experienced with the ff8 fandom is a lot of, "oh wow, I really like your blog and your take on the character you're doing. That's wonderful!" "Oh awesome, do you maybe want to do something with her/him/me?" "Uh... Maybe." Which... Means no. And then people are always all, "You just keep doing you, dear, it's wonderful," but no one sends in memes or replies to stuff? And it just.. I always feel like I'm pressed up against the glass, looking in.So I'd say my experience with the ff8 comm has definitely been that it's very insular and hard to for me, personally speaking, to break in on. ... Sorry, I'm fairly sure this was about my comment earlier? I think I was the one who used insular.... Unless, of course, I guess the problem could be me? But if it is, I wish someone would tell me so that I could drop the muses and just stop cluttering up people's dashes.
JJKASHDJASHFGGHFJDSJJHH this hurt me to read and is the main reason Iâve made time to do this reply post rn. I couldnât remember who said what, to be honest with you and it surprises me that it was you, purely because youâre always one of the first people to come to mind when I think of âthe FFVIII communityâ, you seem like a valued part of it to me, even if youâre not one of the most active. YOU ARE DEFINITELY NOT THE PROBLEM. I canât really say with 100% certainty what *is*. With the meme thing, I think it depends what it is. If someone reblogs one of those âsend me x and Iâll tell you about yâ, I try to send it, but if itâs a starter or something that feels thready, I wonât unless I have an idea to back it with, cos it doesnât feel any different to writing an actual starter for me. Iâd rather do that, but I wonât do it uninvited/randomly because thatâs putting pressure on someone who didnât ask for it. If a lot of people do the same as me and donât mention it, then that could be a big factor because people can well end up waiting for each other to approach without realising it. It might also be something to do with you having multiple blogs (particularly Reno) and that altering your perception. The reason I say that is because I had the exact same thing myself, I had a male muse in a fandom and everyone loved him - mostly everyone wanted to lowkey do him tbh - and I had a female one who got comparatively zero attention because she wasnât as accessible to such a wide audience. Ellone in particular is a complex character and itâs a sad fact that people tumblr-wide arenât always into the idea of paying attention to something before they interact with it. Reno is much more easy to interact with in a casual way, since heâs had more exposure in source material and is widely regarded as being a fun, not-serious character (though I acknowledge he very likely IS, and I know from experience that you will have put a lot of thought into him - I love Reno and anything that gives him some substance). He attracts people from further afield, people who might have only seen Advent Children or only know him through fan works. Ellone doesnât have a movie or much fanfic, and sheâs not really subject of the most popular speculation (lbr - by that I mean âwho sheâs sleeping withâ), so she doesnât have that far a reach. Your Ellone is so valuable to the whole community, you have a hell of a lot to share in your headcanons and your ideas. I havenât seen you use Julia too much yet, but Iâm sure sheâll be that way too. I think you should pick one of those ideas, pick someone who seems like they could pull it off and tell them about it, because Iâm so sure 90% if not 100% of us would thread them with you. Thatâs all I do tbh!! Iâm always prepared for someone to say no, but mostly theyâre happy to have been approached with an idea to use as a starting point. PLEASE DONâT DROP THEM. Youâre not cluttering up anything. Iâm sure Iâm not the only one whoâs sad to see you inactive on her whenever you are, tbh. I donât think you realise how essential she is. I know itâs a small, slow fandom, but anything you post raises the overall standard for the sheer fact you did it, and it had your characteristic level of consideration put in. Course, Iâm probably biased, cos I think I can tell when people work more behind the scenes than out front on their muse and the related background and I appreciate that, always have.
@misplacedxheroics .... I'm hoping this is permitted that I comment, as it was my blog where you read this post. I'm only addressing what I've experienced in the community, not trying to speak for everyone here. In my personal experience with VIII, more often than not, I see a lot of the insular behavior mentioned. Several blogs that start up are made to feel so unwelcomed that they leave or close up shop. Then there are the pass/agg anons, the ones who attack strong female characters (OC or otherwise) and 'correct' headcanons for canon characters. Whoever the person is, I have to believe it's just one single person. But anons have begun to reach out and outright tell people who they can or can't write with, which is baffling. And lastly, I'm guilty of this, and I'll own it -- We also become so comfortable and so familiar with who we write with we don't try out other players. There's also the overlap of muns playing with 'private' blogs. To me, the word 'private' tells me I don't have access to them. So what's the bother in following or engaging if everyone who writes muses that are in the fandom closed off to the rest of us? I can't say how the fandom should be run, I know I'm the least liked person in this fandom but this is my experience. A very polarizing, cold and unwelcoming experience.  We need to communicate more among one another, set clear boundaries and maintain community and unity, imo.
I think private is just a word people slap on a blog to make it look legit these days, or as a get-out clause if they find themselves followed by some kind of My Immortal Eldritch horror. Least, thatâs what Iâve seen in my travels. Private blogs seem to favour their existing friends, but be open to others who will bring them ideas. I had one blog I called private and thatâs because I kept getting people saying âwanna rp?â and Iâd be like âyeah okayâ and theyâd literally say âalright you come up with an idea thenâ. ? / / //???? Also... Iâm trying to word this in the least mean-sounding way possible because Iâm not one to shit on anyoneâs parade, but if Iâm really honest with you, I had to unfollow you on an older blog because you were posting vagues about people so often. I donât mind when people vent, but it got to the point where it was almost every day someone was on blast and I felt like Iâd walked in on a family argument. You can do what you want with your blog, itâs on me to unfollow if I donât like it, so I did. But. Any oversensitive person seeing it probably assumed you meant them and that might have something to do with you finding it difficult to connect with people. You follow that up by slating the entire fandom when itâs not exactly a fandom problem, which makes people less likely to approach you as youâve already indirectly blasted them. Iâve had people tell me more than once that youâve posted something about me without naming me; notably when you made a point of reblogging that one anti-Xu post from an inactive account after saying you hate people who disagree with you âon purposeâ. I had just posted a silly Xu support one liner that got a few reblogs. I donât really have a fig to give whether it was about me or not, but itâs a good example of how a vaguepost causes negative ripples. If one person assumed that was about me, another ten probably guessed it was someone else. I was welcomed to the fandom with a couple of how-do-you-dos and an anon telling me to stay away from you or youâd bully me into deleting. That was the first of several. Then you got that anon telling you to stop sending me hate when you hadnât (what basis did that have?), and one of your friends for some reason assumed I was the one who had sent it and demanded that âanonâ show IP proof, which gives the impression that theyâd been led to believe it was me for some reason. I know you said you didnât understand the logic behind me saying that, but weâre both running Statcounter, you know as well as I do how it works and what the implications are of saying that. Itâs also how I know the anons Iâve had that Iâve mentioned are not all one person. Maybe it really was a totally out-of-nowhere thing that person said, but when you combine it with the vagues and the assertions that thereâs a split in the fandom that no one else (so far) has detected, it causes bigger problems than it would on its own. Iâm not trying to put you on blast, this ainât a callout post and I havenât taken any of it to heart - itâs no big deal to me - Iâm just trying to offer an outsidersâ perspective because I read this as you being honestly oblivious to it, and if I didnât Iâd either have to ignore your comment or lie to you, neither of which I think youâd appreciate - and I assume since you made the effort to drop in despite not following me that you would want a response.
#ooc.#in which charlie tries not to sound like a massive axe wound but probably ultimately does#you try being me and talking serious talk#the tone never feels right#tbd.#tba.?
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