#and i know i feel like this bc i should sleep

[elliesglock]

heyuhhhhh back again!! aubrey live lets get it!!

this live just straight fuckery. straight playing in azzi and i's face. this live had me feeling bad for a they were playing with her and her paige time 😭 this live we have the amazing appearance from a rare creature, azzi being possessive and jealous.

the live starts out with aubrey and kk waiting in the hallways fucking around. kk singing and dancing. pls girl go on mute my ears are TIRED. after a while, aubrey says they should go and they start heading to the dorms. they come in and immediately azzi says, "are you still on live?" to me she says this because she's been on facetime with paige and you know how they flirt with each other so she says it so paige can hear and they won't do nun on live. ines come swinging for no reason cussing kk out like girl. everybody was truly on one in this live. ines says aubrey and kk are "assholes" but i'm not completely sure why. i think maybe something beforehand between them or if im really delusional it's bc azzi doesn't wanna be interrupted while on ft with p with them coming in on live so she's saying they're assholes (prob not the reason). idk i have my azzi agenda for this live. walk with me. kk sets the phone up and azzi's sitting with ines on the couch. she has her macbook and her pink pillow. (that's in the pic of paige sleeping AND paige's ipad tik tok thank u that's hers proving she comes over to paige's dorm all the time or vice versa.) there's a weird little moment where kk and aubrey are whispering to azzi. i'm not sure how to read that. could be they're acknowledging paige is on facetime again for the live. we know paige is on facetime with azzi because she pipes up and says something about "glasses." which checks out because it seems az is trading business with ines trying to get something? azzi stressed out getting something for her girl 🤫 (joking).

comments are asking for paige and kk makes the mistake to read one of the comments about azzi's girl on live and azzi literally locks in. she loudly says, "PAIGE." in the back and to me it sounds like she's saying it directly to her phone, to paige. judging by her tone, p sounds like she's in trouble with her girl. i think azzi is feeling a little possessive this live and wants her girl to pay attention to her on their call. i have a little theory paige's watching the live and not paying attention to her (ill touch more with that in a moment). im a little confused as to what precedes aubrey and kk making fun of her to make her a little upset, i think personally it's bc she wants to go downstairs and see paige but here kk and aubrey come on live preventing her. it seems she's getting a little impatient mixed with wanting p's attention but that's just my theory . kk gets all scared and says, "they asked where paige was, i said minding her business 😟." it's giving azzi's running that shit and she don't like everybody discussing her girl. i'm so sure she's minding her business kk, she back there being quiet cause she knows what time her girls on and she not gonna argue with princess az IKTR AZZIIIII. now azzi kinda plays herself here because now aubrey and kk know she's being a little possessive of p. so ofc they start making fun of her. they're laughing at her and teasing her asking where p's at. paige is playing into it a little bit. i'm sure azzi's pouting at them.

aubs so messy for saying "i miss her where is she?" in that tone 😭. she knows something we don't. trashing azzi because she knows exactly where paige is and exactly who she's waiting on down in her dorm. aubrey asks for the phone. azzi IS NOTTTT feeling it. she tells aubrey she'll turn her knee in a 100 degree ankle. someone doesn't wanna give up her girl dang. azzi struts up to the camera and waves. like she's such a princess im obsessed with her. now yall gonna have to stick with me in this next part.

aubrey gets the phone and to clown on azzi again she air kisses directed at paige on the phone. i think this whole exchange that happens next is aubs and paige making fun of azzi. aubrey smiles at the phone knowing she's making azzi mad and you can hear p talking but not exactly what she says. i personally think she's asking about azzi judging by the way aubrey looks up at azzi. paige is like "what's she doing rn? she on oneeeee." and aubrey giggles about it and looks up at azzi. that's what it gives. paige obviously wants to preserve her life cause she's whispering so low we can't hear her and basically probably speaking sign language to aubrey at that moment. they're still trying to get a rise out of azzi cause they know she's already irritated so aubrey plays around with her life saying, "yk i miss you." to p. whole time she's watching azzi's reaction. this says to me p knows she's mad and aubrey wants to play on it a little bit, aubrey/kk's dynamic with pazzi is so funny to me. i think aubs and kk especially loveeeee to make fun of our power couple.... azzi's just their victim this night. azzi does not like this judging by the way she starts slamming cabinets and the way aubrey starts laughing knowing she's gotten on princess's nerves. paige pipes in a jokey tone saying "i miss you most." now stay with me i think p knows azzi's mad because she might've not been giving her attention so she says this to aubrey to tease azzi 👀. somebody wants to fudd around and find out tonight. oh and she will when azzi gets down there she knows that. aubrey mentions being a menace and i think it's so fitting like yall need to share something with the class. we know you're clowning azzi cause she's crashing out and being dramatic over her girl yall aren't slick. this part blows tf out of me because like??? what's wrong with yall. paige has this tone of voice where she's already kinda accepted her fate and it sounds like she says, " what's she doing?" we can't see the phone and that's on purpose. kk is flipping the camera most likely to show paige azzi. she wanna see how bad the damage is lololol. now here's where i'm gonna talk about why i think paige is watching the live. there's a comment that comes up and it says, "awww her girl otp" now take this comment how you want i think it's just people making a joke that kk is p's girl like kk calling paige her man in that one live. NOW UOU KNOW THESE STINKERS ARE GONNA JUMP ON THIS COMMENT TO MAKE FUN OF AZZI EVEN MORE. as soon as the comment comes up paige gasps on the phone and then aubrey and kk see the comment and gasp as well. (i could also make an argument that azzi knows the cameras flipped and she flips p off). anyways, these mfs giddy to see this. free azzi baby girl it'll be okay.

azzi immediately comes up with her dpmo voice and says, "what does it say?" proving to me further that paige is on the live reading the comments. p takes this opportunity to say yeahhhh kk's girl on the phone probably with a shit eating grin on her face. then kk pipes in probably staring azzi dead in her face and says "yeah this my girl." we get imo a fucking hilarious reaction from azzi, she gives like a scoff laugh (sounds like hmmmhp) almost saying yeahhhh fucking right. she knows who p's girl is and it's not anybody chirping right now. she's literally giving, "as fucking if." paige hears this and mocks doing her little scoff-laugh back. the girls r fighting.....azzi puts her foot down and tells paige, "take a break." gives to me she's saying take a break from thinking you're the shit and you run this. we already know what it is. paige still playing with her life and says "take a big break!!". OOOH P YOU A BRAVER WOMAN THAN ME. kk laughs.

azzi's so done she's been dealing with this white girl since high school 😭 kk reads a comment asking if it's paige and she says nooo this pilates. IDK THIS WHOLE LIVE THEY ACT KIKE RHEY GOT SUM TO SHARE WITH THE CLASS. p says yes it's p boogers. kk says "pilate bueckers. her cousin." now they know they're wrong....obv azzi and paige don't want to be called cousins when they're dating and hitting it every night....azzi laughs and p says, "you sick." that proves to me that kk's comment was directed at pazzi. then for like a whole minute paige and kk take turns making shots against u nosey people in the comments. they clocked everybody's tea bad i'm literally in tears. they eeyupppp u 11 year olds tryna deny pazzi u got yours tonight. p pulled out her biggest words to roast yall im sick. now these biggies see some guac on the screen and say YEAHHH WE ON THAT. they talk about going downstairs to get some and i can tell this pisses azzi off 😭 lemme tell you why.

paige and azzi were supposed to hang out. after the live ended or they left, azzi was gonna immediately go downstairs and cuddle with paige and watch a movie or sum. she already mad she couldn't facetime her girl in peace now yall going downstairs bothering her girl and messing up her plans smh. like dang. so she's pissed, and she tells paige "yeah i'm finna come down there too!" and azzi.....she wants to run her ones with all of them the way her tone sounds. again her tone sounds even more angry with p when she says "huh?" "why??" "okay well i'm coming down too." to me it sounds like she's mad and wants to remind paige what their plans were. she wants her girl to say alright stop playing yall azzis coming down get on somewhere. you can hear azzi talking loudly to paige as they leave. i mean the girl is literally echoing. you tell her azzi.

now the next part makes me giggle. we don't hear from azzi until a few minutes later after someone almost dies eating amari's guac lololol. kk is sitting on paige's bed and they're talking. p is doing homework. it sounds like she's not on ft with azzi anymore (she probs hung up she's pissed). you hear somebody walk in and literally everything goes silent. i know their hearts were STRAIGHT in their ass. because now p has to deal with her pissed off...and kk just all laid up on paige's bed all comfortable. i think in response to this, azzi says, "don't piss me off cmon, cmon." she wants her girl now and she's tired of waiting. as you should azzi that's ur girl. kk leaves laughing and you immediately hear the door close. now whether they start fucking or fighting is up to yall but me thinks......yk what nvm.

but that's what i have! i know this analysis is a little messy but so is this live so. a lot of this is theories and what i think is happening but its very obvious aubrey, kk, and paige were trying to rile azzi up for being jealous imo, but yall can think whatever you want.

thanks for reading!!! 💕

[devondespresso]

First fic tag game 📝

Pick a fandom and post an excerpt of the first thing you ever wrote in that fandom. Could be a scene, part of a scene, a couple of lines, whatever your first foray into writing for that fandom was. Feel free to include a link to the story it comes from if it’s been published (excerpts from WIPs count too).

tagged by my beloveds @carolperkinsexgirlfriend and @stellarspecter

technically the first thing i started writing for stranger things was my Steve Henderson au 👀 tho at this point most of the original draft from then has been edited bc i was definitely learning as i went, this scene below is one of my favorites from that first attempt and has had the least amount of edits (all the plot beats and most of the dialogue being the exact same!!)

<< also thank you guys you reminded me just in time to keep up with my resolution of revisiting this wip at least once a month 🙏 >>

putting the snip under the cut, and going ahead and tagging @sourw0lfs @marvel-ous-m @helpimstuckposting @queenie-ofthe-void @solarmorrigan

@withacapitalp @hairstevington @scriptorbemi @tinytalkingtina @hbyrde36

and anyone else who wants to join!! 💕💕💕

(Context: in season 2 in Dustin's cellar, right after they find and look through the hole D'art dug to escape)

“Great.” Steve sighed, standing up and laying the slime on the ground by the hole, “So now what?”

“We have to find him.”

“Yeah, can’t say I’m thrilled about that.”

“We have to, he ate Mews when he was the same size as her. If he keeps getting bigger he’s going to start hurting people.”

"Mews as in… your cat?"

"Yeah."

Steve nodded slowly.

“You said his face opened up, right? Like,” Steve set the bat down and tried gesturing the petals from the demogorgon’s ‘face’.

“Yeah, yeah, exactly like that. Like he’s an early metamorphic stage of a–”

“Demogorgon.” Awesome. Round two, apparently. “Should we be telling someone about this?”

“I’ve been trying, no one’s answered their walkie all day. That's why I got you.”

“Good to know I’m your last choice.” Steve bitched.

Henderson just rolled his eyes and looked back at the hole.

“Still not a huge fan of looking for a man-eating dog in the middle of the night.” Steve said, “Think it could wait ‘till morning?”

“Maybe? We don’t have any idea where he’ll climb out.”

“Your house’s pretty secure right?” Steve asked. Henderson turned around to look at him, confused. “Just like. He’s not gonna be able to break in while you’re sleeping?”

Henderson’s eyes widened. Shit.

“I… I don’t think so. He didn’t break out when he was cat-sized.”

“Good good, then you’ll be fine,” Steve assured, giving him a solid pat on the back. “We’ll wait until it’s light tomorrow and I’ll come help you find him and we’ll take care of it, yeah?”

“Yeah, good. Sounds good. Tomorrow.”

“Cool, I’ll drop by at eleven.”

“Yeah, just– park at the end of the street. I’ll tell my mom I’m going to a friend’s house.”

“Alright.” Steve slung the bat over his shoulder and walked back to the stairs, Henderson catching up beside him. “And, uh, don’t sweat it, man. The coming-inside-while-you’re-asleep thing. I mean even if he had, like, the brainpower to try and find a way in, he wouldn’t have the force—I mean full grown they’re like sticks—and why would he even want in anyway there's plenty of squirrels and shit–”

“You’re right,” Henderson interrupted. “It’s, uh… just a– He's not big. Yet. So there's no real reason to worry.”

Steve looked at him as he put up a small smile, close-lipped and eyes barely squinted. It could pass as calm if he’d never seen the kid before in his damn life. But talking about it more wasn’t helping.

“Yeah, good.” He patted his arm, then looked at his car for a moment. “Wait here a sec.”

Steve jogged over and opened the passenger's seat, pulling a napkin and a pen out of his glovebox and scribbling his number down.

Steve went to turn around and run back, only to find Dustin barely a few steps behind him.

“Here,” he said, handing Dustin the napkin and closing the car door, “If you need anything.”

He rounded the car to the driver’s side, and when he looked back Dustin was just standing there with the napkin. Steve gestured to the house’s front door.

“Shit, yeah.” He whispered and rushed to get inside, “Thanks.”

Steve waved him off and sat in his car, waiting until the front door closed before driving back home.

Demogorgons again, then. Great. Wonderful

[luckybyrdrobyn]

Feeling unloved in a way that says I should go to bed

[nonranghaes]

"it's just me."

you barely get a chance to roll onto your back before soonyoung's already climbing onto the bed and somewhat on top of you and your blankets, and it's only seconds later that he crashes. it's far from the first time this has happened (soonyoung is clingy and cuddly, especially when he's sleepy), but he manages to knock the wind out of you nonetheless. he rests his head on your chest, and you wiggle an arm out to curl around him as best as you can in your semi-trapped position.

"soonyoung--"

"just go back to sleep," he murmurs. "everything's fine."

you stroke his hair, thumb dipping down to graze his cheek at one point. "soonie--"

"i mean it," he says, eyes peering up in the low light to see yours. "i'm fine. just need to nap." his hand finds yours, and he wraps your arm around him as he snuggles in. he plants a kiss against your chest before resting his head against it again, eyes fluttering shut. "you can rest a little longer, too."

you settle back down after a moment, arms wrapped around soonyoung as you shut your eyes again. sometimes you swear this tiger is a teddy bear, but regardless of which he is, he's yours.

[ganondoodle]

(scrapped painting)

its kinda fascinating how you can draw something well and instead of learning from it for the next drawing you repeat the same old mistakes that kept you from improving in the first place

(was supposed to the next scene after the previous good painting lol)

its a rly early sketch (i know it wont work out though, too much wrong) but Zaphira (standing) was winning the fight against the guy that challenged her (he also cheated and attacked her weak leg with a dagger despite it being a fist fight) so he ordered the soldiers he hid in the audience to shoot, Shargon is catching the arrows in the air before they can reach her and she trusts him enough to not even react to it

[fisheito]

at last....yakumo with CHIKEN

[neilperryismine]

when am i going to learn not to read anderperry fanfiction and then watch anderperry edits (which are all sad) at like 3am????

[benaturalandautomatic]

yesterday after my chemistry exam i went to a garden at my uni bcs i was meeting my friends there, and i see this one girl who looks like she's my best friend and i wave to her and i call her name but then i get a little bit closer and i realise.......... that is NOT my best friend and i didn't want to seem dumb in the moment so i just said "oh sorry i forgot to bring my glasses with me today ☺️☺️" and i DON'T wear glasses.......... idk why i decided to pick that lie out of everything but in my head i thought it made sense bcs the girl had glasses on and i thought that she would empathize with me............. anyways the exam was easy and i had fun and i bought a dog shaped marshmallow 🐹🤍🤍

[racke7]

It kind of occurred to me today that this:

is kind of... awkward.

See, as anyone with chronic-pain will tell you, your "daily activities" will warp around your pain.

Where instead of doing things "the normal way" you've figured out some kind of mostly-painless workaround, and so you don't even have to worry about it.

And then it's also difficult to say what amounts to "most" or "many" or "some". Is there a set list of things you need to be able to do? In today's world, plenty of people go from bed to computer to bed, never even needing to leave their apartment. How does that translate?

Not to mention what "all the time" really means. Does it only care about the worst days if you have something that flares up? Does it only care if it hurts even when you stop an activity?

And how come "talking / listening" is so high up? What if your brain decides to go non-verbal from just paper-cuts? What would be the appropriate "loss of function"-comparison in that case?

Basically? There's a lot of empty holes and abstractness muddling everything, even in this seemingly incredibly useful example.

I remember someone saying "your worst day - with no meds/tools", but what if that worst day only happens a few times a year?

It's complicated, is what I'm saying. And whilst this description is definitely useful, I wouldn't take it as gospel.

In fact, you might be better off ignoring your doctor when they start asking about "numbers" and just explain how the pain effects you.

"On a scale of 1-10" "I'll wake up in the middle of the night, nearly unable to move from the pain, and then desperately claw my way out of my bed. I'll then spend around two hours sitting up and letting my body recover, before being so tired that it outweighs the pain, and I can crawl back into bed for another few hours of sleep. At which point I'll wake up in pain again. During the day, I struggle to turn around or bend over."

They might not like this, and they might interpret the "number" in their own ways (which might screw you over), but at that point it's more about them being shit than you failing to describe things.

Obviously though, I'm not a medical professional and shouldn't be giving medical-advice. I'm just saying that 1-10 is so fucking arbitrary that I don't feel like you can give the "correct" answer, no matter how much thought you put into it.

[perilegs]

my sweet little baby man is no longer with us

[bakafurai]

Sometimes I think about how Kenji basically said that he likes Rio about as much as his favourite thing in the world...

[vlasdygoth]

kitten

[scattered-winter]

made the mistake of reading through the political discussions on my big family groupchat that I usually keep muted. you must never do such a thing.

[magentagalaxies]

creation of adam but it's this photo of me handing scott the martini before his buddy cole set in the KITH toronto show

[oneroomjestershow]

Sooo...what is Eli? Not sure if you've answered this anywhere else before...They're some kind of eldritch abomination right? Could you elaborate on that?

I wouldn’t go that far as calling him eldritch abomination idk why… that sounds too great of a title? their dad is one tho. I will point some of the characteristics of eldritch abominations and if Eli has those or not because i'm not sure myself, also i'm not an expert this is for fun and don’t have a lot of info about it so blehhh):

(LONG ASS POST BELOW OMFG) (cw for slight body horror talk like always, murder mentions too, also my bad writing and punctuation yeyy)

The problem with Eldritch abominations is that it’s difficult to visually depict them since it’s better when they lack form, when you look at it you lose fear, they become comprehensible in a visual way if it’s not moving or difficult to find a form that produces the fear of the unknown or possible threat). There is also the feeling of fear that comes with looking at those entities, it can have an explanation or just be triggered by the fact that the creature is breaking reality, but with Eli is just a little uncomfortable feeling in people, nothing maddening. Eli has a recognizable form even if it's changes a lot, so it loses that touch a little bit. I personally don't find her monster form that horrible, for me it's more on the cute side (-1 point for Eli booo tomato tomato tomat-)

Eli reshapes reality in:

Themselves, their own code with their physical form, but they do this without touching the code in a manual/direct way, their own willingness produces a change in it. Also their ability to disfigure, reshape or alter the body of others and change their code can be an example too.

The surroundings (against Eli's will), it gets affected because they are something that shouldn't exist or doesn’t belong in that reality (and that’s what they feel, it’s like a materialization of their thoughts in a sense; im not saying their mind has control over the surroundings, this is just a small fact). Things like terrestrial animals freezing just by being near them (this doesn’t affect humans since Eli is half human) or fish getting meters away from them (their dad comes from the sea so the creatures of that ‘realm’ know what to do, while animals of land kind of short circuit accepting their possible death). Eli also causes a small uncomfortable feeling in people, but that dissipates the more time they pass with them (ooo why ooo) so it doesn’t count (but this can be felt by other people that are ‘monsters’). 

So it would be accurate in that aspect (+1 point Eli woo)

Eli’s existence also goes against natural laws as we know them. I was thinking that their existence could be explained by science in a far away future, because the thought that no one is going to be able to understand them kind of makes me sad but that’s just my personal view on them. The laws that they broke are life and death definitions (like the undead category; zombies, vampires etc), i don’t feel like explaining this right now sorry, but you can make yourself an idea with what i have said before. They also break some gravitational and physical laws (chunks of flesh floating in the air or even getting dissolved into it) anddd this is too much im leaving it there my head hurtsds (+1porintn eyeyyu)9

Eli can be killed. Difficult but possible. You just need to be smart about it. You don’t need to go to great lengths or a great sacrifice to make it happen. Some eldritch abominations can be killed, but a lot of times it's not easy to do so and requires a lot, so even though it’s not a requirement, it’s kind of meh (-1 point because yes, fuck Eli, get her ass, whathe flip)

Existing outside of reality? their reality is the game universe, but bear with me for a second. If we count Eli as in the game universe, you can see if from two perspectives: them as in the character and concept inside the game OR as the entity playing the game.

There is Eli as the character concept inside the game universe, with their background and other characters. Everything normal and fictional from here.

Aside from that we have Eli’s existence that's supposed to be outside of the game, ‘the player’, someone or something real. This would be the ‘being beyond our reality’ (the reality of the other characters), something not perceptible to the code. Actually a side note: i had an idea before that was for Eli to shape or have an impact on the code of the game through veins and flesh, but I don't want that to be in the game universe… it's just a funny thought… I'm making you lose time

Since the game has two sides to it i wanted to explain that from Eli's perspective, but the first one is the canon for my oc, the other is just an silly idea. It’s nothing out of the ordinary since it goes along the game’s themes

(+1 point but -1 point we didn’t go anywhere wohooo)

A danger for humanity? don’t get me started, yes (+1poitn ofr Elii don’tmakemetalkabouttheirdad’ssillyplannotimportant) also they kill people i already explained that before but not in detail but im not doing it here goodbye THISIS TOO LONG

Conclusion: if anyone read all that im so sorry, i hope you had time because that was a waste of it, you get a little kiss from idk anyone go claim that kiss to whoever be happy. Eli is probably an eldritch abomination to whoever deems them that way so its ok! i actually don’t call them that bc it sounds lonely, what do you mean beyond our comprehension? it will never be understood? that’s a little sad :( whathe hell. i can't deny it's sound kind of cool but I don't see Eli in that way

[zackcharine]

I need to try harder to get out of bed but augh