#and i got scared and didnt know what to say
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roomroot, ceramic jar, house fire
cant write
roomroot full 129 hour tour part I, roomroot full 129 hour tour part II, and roomroot full 129 hour tour part IV
size 53 sphere
uknowme
best: creativity and talent of my community worst: boredhouse
the idea that at any point my decisions are completely cutting off meeting the funniest and kindest people a month in the future Why? guess
i can choose my dreams
one time someone finished a tub of ice cream and we didnt know who so i just went "i did not have edible relations with that ice cream" to my dad
if that emotion is being fucking cool yeah
kisses and hugs?? Go watch a movie, bud
keep suckig his flat chest
sucking toes and eating hairy manass
nothing im not scared of anything
my house
i wish i was good at everything because i have to be
math meth roomroot (bonus! drunk driving)
no. yes. theres absoolutely intelligent life but theyre not like Green Eyed fucks that go I am making love to your fingers ᓭꖌ╎ʖ╎↸╎ ʖ𝙹リᒷᔑ∷ ℸ ̣ ⍑ᒷ !¡⚍ᓭᓭ|| ⊣𝙹ℸ ̣ ᒲᒷ ⎓ᒷᒷꖎ╎リ⊣ ⎓⚍リ⊣ᔑ∷╎𝙹⚍ᓭ ᓭ╎⨅ᒷ ⎓╎⎓ℸ ̣ || ℸ ̣ ⍑∷ᒷᒷ ᓵ𝙹ʖʖꖎᒷᓭℸ ̣ 𝙹リᒷ ᓭ!¡⍑ᒷ∷ᒷ
the sun
also the sun
i keep a jar of spirits on my shelf and i only let them out to breed with each other so i would say technically yes
u, know, me267
u, know, me268
chrstas tree
Garlic powder 🥰
512 nm wavelength
they call me Neutronius because my dick is that small
as previously mentioned spirits
i dont get sad i either kill something else or kill myself and so far all of my problems have had a solution i can deal with
wd shae stand yott
yeah
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roomroot
when sonmeones mouth is open for a while and it does an occasional glottal click i HAVE to commit an act of violenc
i got a 70% for paranoia on an online personality quiz
what
i thought of an extremely funny joke on a road trip when i was 8 but i held myself back out of the goodness of my heart and that was the peak of my life
wd shae stand yott
wd shae. cool
fingies nails
questions I think would be fun to be asked
what are 3 things you’d say shaped you into who you are?
show us a picture of your handwriting?
3 films you could watch for the rest of your life and not get bored of?
what’s an inside joke you have with your family or friends?
what made you start your blog?
what’s the best and worst part of being online/a creator?
what scares you the most and why?
any reacquiring dreams?
tell a story about your childhood
would you say you’re an emotional person?
what do you consider to be romance?
what’s some good advice you want to share?
what are you doing right now?
what’s something you’ve always wanted to do but maybe been to scared to do?
what do you think of when you hear the word “home”?
if you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
name 3 things that make you happy
do you believe in ghosts and/or aliens?
favourite thing about the day?
favourite things about the night?
are you a spiritual person?
say 3 things about someone you love
say 3 things about someone you hate
what’s one thing you’re proud of yourself for?
fave season and why?
fave colour and why?
any nicknames?
do you collect anything?
what do you do when you’re sad?
what’s one thing that never fails to make you happy/happier?
are you messy or organised?
how many tabs do you have open right now?
any hobbies?
any pet peeves?
do you trust easily?
are you an open book or do you have walls up?
share a secret
fave song at the moment?
youtuber you’ve been obsessed with and why?
any bad habits?
(this post was stolen from @teenage-mutant-ninja-freak, since it couldn't be reblogged anymore)
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Hey I really like your headcanons !!! What’s your view on the main three’s relationship with each other?
why thank ya, color me flattered lol. let me see.. this will be Long
Gary & Jimmy 🐍🐕
tragic doomed toxic yaoi etc etc
ultimately they're two sides of the same coin, opposite eachother in a way. both are simultaneously victims and perpetrators, though they differ in motive and response
while jimmy might be too daft to realize, gary knows this and absolutely hates it.
like a fine mix of admiration jealousy and spite
jimmy meanwhile is just fed up his bullshit
but at the same time he doesnt *hate* him.
jimmy doesnt really hate anyone tbh hes just easily pissed off
after the betrayal jimmy is annoyed at best and personally hurt at worst. but he can shrug it off with ease. he doesnt hold grudges
which is yet another thing that drives gary nuts
before the betrayal though. jimmy made gary feel Weird. jimmy's too genuine. too upfront. too honest. Too Real.
he took their friendship seriously. very very few people willingly stood beside gary, minus petey who we'll get to later
and that made him ? scared. confused even. absolutely nobody could be equal with him. even if he liked their relationship
anyway. this vvv
Petey & Gary 🐇🐍
petey primarily hung around gary because he was familiar and it was better than being alone, yes.
but also, these two go back a fair ways. like elementary.
as such, petey knows more about gary than he would like him to.
gary has been through a Lot. he's also Lost a Lot.
petey is one of the few 'things' he has left that really means anything to him.
or. he was, anyway. before the betrayal
shortly after the fight in the pit he got in an argument with gary. cut him deep where it hurts. mentioned something he maybe shouldnt have.
got beaten bloody and thrown away. and gary devolved from there.
despite this petey doesnt really hold it against him either
there's some guilt to him. perhaps a bit of self loathing.
but he couldnt approach gary on his own. his nerves were too shot.
sure gary threw his friend jimmy to russell. and sure gary's been picking on him for years at this point. but to beat the shit out of him, his best friend, after he's stayed with him for just about a decade?
he couldnt trust him again
he hardly trusted him to begin with honestly, gary had been beating him down and making sure he knew whatever prior cuts he made at him didnt hurt in the slightest before.
thankfully jimmy isnt as sensitive as he is.
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Jimmy & Petey 🐕🐇
poor kids. two peas in a pod thrown under the bus
petey may have been apprehensive of jimmy at first, due to his general attitude and knack for mayhem.
but as time passed jimmy showed his true colors and proved to be a Good person (if prone to manipulation)
it wasnt long before petey started to trust him more than gary. and after the betrayal, jimmy was all he really had.
(admittedly he did try to join the nerds but earnest called him a faggot and said no)
petey isnt meek. he isn't soft. his venom is often dwarfed by everyone else's, but he still holds a rage. even if he keeps it inside. part of him did want to get back at gary. but another part still felt concern for his old friend spiraling like mad. even moreso considering he pushed him the way he did, with that argument mentioned.
im saying this ^ bc he felt an obligation to advise jimmy on what to do, especially regarding gary. hoping he could get him calmed tf down so they could go back to normal, as friends, again.
but they werent particularly close. kinda like business partners. jimmy blowing him off half the time didnt help matters.
but again. petey didnt have anyone else.
just a poor guy caught in the middle of their homoerotic rivalry
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i have so many lores for these stupid cunts.
anyway reminder that my inbox is open for requests in general. woof
#bully canis canem edit#bully rockstar#bully cce#bully se#bully scholarship edition#gary smith#jimmy hopkins#pete kowalski#mine#its late i hope there aint any typos
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Augh wait, completely non Canon but I just had an idea for like, if the cats were actually kids
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'I have an important message for you'
The message is followed by a three minute audio.
Finally, after hours of scrubbing through months and months of massages between Sapnap and his old family, they finally found something about his mission to infiltrate Team Mafia.
(Shadoune swears Sapnap wasn't on his phone this much. How did he find the time to text these two so much? How many times do you need to text someone a reminder to eat in one day??)
The phone is already connected to a speaker so they can all hear everything without having to circle around it, so there's only hesitante stopping them from pressing play.
This is what Sapnap was sent here to do. This spells out exactly the ways he was ordered to betray them.
Shadoune presses play.
"Hi Dad! Hiiiiiiiii" Two children voices come from the speaker, "We miss you lotssss!! I got the tiara you sent me! Me and Patches are matching now, we look like sisters!"
"Of course we do, we are sisters stupid."
Another child's voice sounds out, a little father away and a little deeper
One of the first two kids giggles, and there's a shuffle before the other's voice sounds again
"When are you coming back home? Pops and Papa say we should take down the Christmas decorations, but I like them!! Milo don't steal the phone! I'm asking Dad when he's coming home! Oh yeah... Dad we miss you a lot, will you be done with work soon?"
"You two..."
There's two tiny sad sighs
"We know... Be careful Dad, we love you lots! You need to tell us all the cool work stories when you get home! Yeah, we need like, 5 whole bed time stories when you come back! Love you bye! Byeeeeeeeee-"
The audio ends. There's pure silence in the room, a variation of shell-shocked faces all around. Serpias looks a little teary, and no one is quick enough to grab him before he rushes off, thankfully up to his room instead of to the basement.
"Creo..." Rich starts awkwardly, "Creo que eso es suficiente por hoy."
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Honestly Serpias would probably run straight to Sapnap, but if anyone ever brought up his kids while he was in the basement he would murder them with his bare hands and I didnt know how to write that right now so... Serpias! To your room!
Serpias beloved 🥺
He just wants the best for Sapnap always and forever....
Serpias after going through every crisis and still not thinking straight, he makes a quick pitstop, shoving something in his pocket before going down to the basement in the dead of night.
Sapnap is actually awake with Dream this time. And when they see Serpias enter... Eyes bloodshot, sniffling, overall looking terrible.....well. Sapnap is beyond worried. He grabs Dream's arms tightly. He doesn't know what Serpias is gonna say.
"Lo siento."
It's quiet. Could barely hear it over his sniffling.
Sapnap thinks they're going to die.
Dream asks what's wrong. Tone dangerously grave.
"You....have children..."
Dream will tense. But Sapnap will be on his feet. Hands already gripping Serpias' shirt collar and slamming him against the door
"What happened with them?"
Serpias has never heard Sapnap so serious, so frightening. It's actually the first time he's heard Sapnap speak on his own without Dream.
Sapnap will scream in Serpias' face asking what happened. Threatening to make his death and everyone else's in this house slow and painful if they laid a finger on them. His eyes are wild. The kind of insane he's only witnessed watching Sapnap in the ring and taking down an opponent.
This is life or death to Sapnap he realizes.
George is waking up from the noise as Sapnap continues to yell and slam his head against the door. What happened. WHAT HAPPENED!
"NADA! SAPNAP HICIMOS NADA!"
Serpias can barely get it out. He feels dizzy. He might be bleeding.
"Then why are you sorry." Sapnap's cold tone hurts Serpias' more than scares him. Never wanting Sapnap to hate him ever. But he knew this would happen. Expected to be more than half dead by this point.
"For taking you away from them....They are alone..."
It's quiet again.
"Why are you saying this?" It's Dream. His tone is cold and calculating, something Serpias is familiar to. Welcomes it even. Something to focus on that isn't Sapnap's hatred.
"Para escaparé." He produces the keys in his pocket. They're for a car.
And Sapnap let's him go. Serpias feels really dizzy without the support now. The headache so overwhelming, he can't help close his eyes. He's out cold before he falls over.
When he wakes up he's in the infirmary with Farfa at the side of his bed. He can feel the headache of a concussion, the back of his head pounding. He notices the bandages wrapped around his head.
"Se fueron."
Serpias jumps at Farfa's voice. But once the words register, despite the incredible pain, he can't help but be relieved.
#ehm aus#ehm asks#mafia mafia au#i feel like everything changes DRASTICALLY when actual children are involved.#yes the cats are dteam's babies and they WILL kill anyone who hurts them#but they are cats who will not terribly suffer from being in a crime family.#in my head the children arr kept so safe and while they know their dads do dangerous thing they arent exactly exposed to it#team mafia learning about them is Dream's worst case scenario and I think in this hypothetical he is a billion times more stressed out#i think sapnap would have way less anxiety as well if he had two kids....being a parent changes you a lot
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I love my wife. She makes scary phone calls so I don't have to
#our new cleaning guy that we hired through an independent company used almost an entire bottle of bleach on our whole bathroom#and didnt wipe it down#and in the process also ruined several hand towels and towels we use for our baby with bleach#he also left most surfaces worse than they were and didnt put back any of the heavy furniture he moved#which i currently cannot move due to surgery and physical issues#and i called the company to complain and they told me i was being dramatic and it was only his first day#and i got scared and didnt know what to say#and then my wife came home and called them and chewed them out and told them we wont be paying#we couldn't bathe our son today bc the bathtub is completely covered in bleach residue#and i cant even clean it yet bc all our rags were also used and are also soaked with bleach so i have to wash them first
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local man haunts (me) open practise yet again more news at 11
#txt#what an experience#i didnt go alone this time which means shenanigans heightened by 20#and by that i mean we were by the glass drinking mate (that security thankfully let us bring in)#and ___ kept going (lifts mate up to the glass) quieres? to all the players that skated by#and i had to just go STOP THAT#and they went they dont want our mate hmph what do they know about mate and i went. well thats the thing. they dont 😭😭#theres was a bunch of kids next to me which meant a lot players over to our side and ekky trucked over#and knocked the glass w his stick on a driveby and scared the shit out of me I ALMOST DROPPED MY MATE he had this shit eating grin#maffhew also kept doing little toodle-loo waves at the kids behind him it was so cute 😭😭😭#but anyways i think its so funny ___ kept focusing on ekky too and i didnt realise why until they just drop the bombshell of#“they remind me of your brother” and i went “DONT FUCKING SAY THAT WHAT THE FUCK MAN DONT SAY SUCH SACRILEGE”#the rest of the convo was in spanish and i dont know how to like fully convey 🇦🇷 banter in eng but it roughly went#“no he does. he has the same dumb face when he starts shit (because he kept bodily bumping into boqy and forsy)#the same 'was that me? did i do that?' troublemaker face. hes a shit stirrer but never answers to it. hes sleazy in that way.#he has the same beard too dont you see it“#and then i promptly spent the whole time going god he is just like my older brother oh this is a horrifying revelation oh god#anyways they kept saying look at his dumb face look at it just like your brother the whole time in spanish when he crept near#and i had to go SHUT UP PLEASE HE CAN HEAR YOU to which they snorted and went you said its fine if we spoke spanish here theyre not gonna#understand us and i was like OKAY BUT IM SURE 11 YEARS HERE HES GONNA PICK UP#SOMETHING AND WE KEEP CURSING SO FOR MY SAKE CAN YOU SHUT UP#mikksy and schmidty were super playful with eo. tuomo ruutu kept messing w mikksy. and ekky was like a damn bumper car bumpin everyone#maffhew ofc was very dramatic when he couldnt get a goal in against knighter and he did the horse headshake in front of us#and i went “you can tell whos number 19 because hes the most dramatic person on the ice always”#ekky was super vocal i know he wanted to practise against the empty net but aj was practising tipins and he goes#MOVE OUT OF THE WAY. MOVE OUT OF THE WAY. and aj so confused just moves like ???#and ekky notches one in goes over to him and waves his glove at him to move#also dmen + lundy were practising on my side of the ice afterwards (lundy ekky uvis kuli. kuli was practising solo. lundy was feeding ekky#for some slapshots uvis got some passes in with them) and anyways i did not fucking realise swaggy was still out because i was so focused on#the dmen until he shot a puck straight at my face and like man i know its not personal but damn did it feel personal with the lookback
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back on my zelda thoughts
idk about you but i got sick of zelda running after people with big sorrowful puppy eyes begging them to listen to her(they wont) or to help link in totk pretty fast
#ganondoodles talks#totk spoilers#i just can stop thinking about how dirty she got done#she can be a tragic character without being constantly sad and scared#dare i say she contributed more positive to the game when she was a dragon#the only scenes she didnt look super sad was pretty much when talking about link at the teacup memory bc .. you know she actually knows him#and where shes essentially forced to decide to half kill herself in order to do literally anything for her own time#now that im thinking about it how the heck did anything on the tutorial even work with her giving her powers to you#and you sending the master sword to her#just feels like they scrambled to somehow get you her pwoers and the mastersword to her#some random bubbles of time magic idk lol#if the game went different#wouldnt it have been cool if those had been caused by zelda learning how to reastablish a connection to her own time#creating those weird time bubbles#and through the course of the game you find more and they let you interact with her more and more as shes learning how to use her powers#until at some point she finds a way to return herself#maybe even her spirit as a companion for a time before she gains control of it further#you know so she can actually at least TALK to you#giving her time powers out of nowehre and then not doing anything with it exept send her back in time somehow and time reverse a dagger#like what#wouldnt it just have made more sense when at first she did it unknowningly and then learned how to use it herself#and then .... well travel back again#ham fisted way to introduce a neat lil game gimmick i guess#and nothing more bc how dare she do anything on her own except .. sacrifice herself lol#i guess its meant ot be uwu tragic bc sonia got fridged too quickly for zelda to learn from her or whatever#which is why i said she learns on her own#idk man this game is driving me nuts
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im going into my new work tomorrow, first time ever😐
#i was supposed to go in yesterday but um#so basically i did whatever training i was never even aware existed on a platform i was never told of#which has progress for every lil step i do so my manager literally could see i hadnt even logged on n couldve warned me any time#but never did 4 some reason. like even a days notice like heyyy have u gotta blah done n not as im abt to exit to work#BUT ANYWAYS so i tell her i got it done n shes like awesome i make new schedule (since she said we have 2 completely rid the old one#i dont get an update until 4 days later. all she did was add THREE training days (im supposed to have 6 cus it's a hard job)#on TOP of my old schedule. so i have 3 days i know are training days and then a solo day bcs that solo day was going off my old schedule#so it's like. which days do i go on then. bcs u said i cant come in at all bcs we'll have to make a completely new schedule#and then the new schedule is just. 3 added days. on top of my old one#sunday i was scheduled for training & there was No trainer scheduled with me. it was just me#sunday wasnt one of the 3 new days added. it was from the old schedule she literally told me to ignore#n then all a sudden today i get an email from someone who was supposed to be training me (name not even on the schedule tho)#n shes like hey im in the building are u lost or smthing :)?' mind u im asleep . so she probably thot she was wasting her time for a good hr#i emailed her an apology n an explanation but UGH r u fucking serious?? IF I KNEW THAT WAS A (NEW) TRAINING DAY I WOULDVE WENT#I JUST WANT TO GET USED TO THIS NEW THING & IT'S JUST GETTING FUCKED LIKE I DONT EVEN HAVE A BADGE YET BRO#like i was suspicious of going in sunday bcs it wouldve lined up nicely with the 3 added training days#but manager TOLD me she was adding a whole new training schedule! i double check n all she added were THREE days! thats it!#how was *i* supposed to know sunday was supposed to be 1 of those days when ive been staying at home ignoring the schedule u said 2#BCS U SAID 2. AND ALSO. THERE WAS NO TRAINER ON THE SCHEDULE.#even tho the drive is far. i wouldve driven up there today to see if i could shadow if i had known there was someone to shadow there#bcs even if i was wrong abt the day 2 come in at least i wouldnt waste my time but i didnt even know if there was someone there with a#trainer title. so i just missed a day i didnt even know i rlly had. FOR NOTHING. UGHH. I FEEL SO STUPID. I HATE MISCOMMUNICATION#im so scared of coming in now. sverybodys gonna think im dum n what if i have issues training then theyre gonna be like#we spent all this time on bro n he had all this time 2 prepare n he still sucks like damn we should just give up#i would 2 but i hate not seeing things to completion so. ugh. hate it here. idk what 2 say. EMBARRASSING#i hate miscommunications i hate feeling stupid
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when Poppy gets towel-dried after a bath he looks like a dandelion-fluff beastie. Russel is usually the one that brushes him- if Pop wants the fluff to be tamed, of course, which he usually does. Russel is the Hair Guy- he really enjoys brushing Poppy's fur but he also is the one that does Stan's hair. Usually twists, but sometimes he switches it up. Russel isn't perfect but definitely passable enough for Stan to be happy and to save a bill having somebody else do it, plus Rus thinks it's relaxing and likes spending the time w his brother. He improves as time goes on.
Stan tells everybody that'll listen how innately talented his little brother is and how he can pick up any skill with ease. Russel is like the bowler hat guy from Meet the Robinsons, though, in that he THINKS everybody is tired of him and dislikes him but they're all like "hey Rus great to see you!" "Wow Russel you're incredible at art!" And he sulks like "they all hate me don't they.."
#6 am rambling bout the ol OCs#russel annoys his brother with how committed he is to feeling hated but#stan cant fully blame him and does his best to be encouraging#russel got heavily bullied in school and also at home by their parents#rus had no friends growing up and is pretty scared to open up to people#stan was outgoing and social and got good grades and was the “good” child#rus never held anything against his brother tho... he always looked up to stan...#stan loved his brother but didnt always appreciate him#and when he realized he was trans he distanced himself from rus instead of telling him#which resulted in rus losing the only friend he had without knowing why#things got better but only after getting very very worse#anyways what i meant to say is that russel is scared. very much plays it off but hes terrified 90% of the time
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ohhh i j remember i pulled arcane ophelia when she dropped and just never fuckin used her… i ALMOST gave her tome to odin to fix him up, but…. hehewgahehe laurentttttt i have some shiny new toy for youuuuu come home baby girl come HOME!
#ann cries about feh#arcane devourer for inigo and arcane whatever for laurent my boys are SO IN IT#hopefully severas prf is good but. its severa. of course its good.#you know im kind of winning with most of the awakening kids#i’d say most of them are actually really fucking solid units with their refines#my owains kind of bad but thats probably my fault… i put all my investment into odin instead cuz he was easier to merge#but like kjelle yarne cynthia nah lucina m!morgan all got solid refines#kjelle especially shes one of my crutches for her#geromes was kind of mid but he makes up for it by being a walking ball of attack and def stats#and if i get lucina (WHICH I WILL. SHES COMING HOME. IM NOT MISSING ANOTHER LUCI) he can take her axe#also yeah im still missing legendary lucina and spring lucina#i have the worst legendary banner luck… i always get something but never what im looking for#and spring lucina… WHY IS SHE COLOR SHARING WITH FUCKING XANDER#SPRING FUCKING XANDER GET AWAY FROM MEEE#ugh. anyways. what was i talking about#oh my noire sucks. i pulled a -atk one and didnt build her cuz i was convinced she’d be on the eventual second gen banner#she’ll almost definitely be on the next awakening banner now but who knows when thatll be#time to give in and build her but i REALLY hate her summer alt… i really do#and its like. the art isnt BAD. it looks good. and it looks like noire. but its like. she looks so scared and uncomfortable#like not my girl why would u do this to my girl….#ANYWAYS THO LAURENT IS WHO I WAS TALKING ABOUT YES NEW TOME FOR HIM WOOO
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#its really weird you know#like ive kinda distanced myself from a lot of interactions#but when i do talk to people#and just to see how removed they are from politics etc#im not wording this very well but examples are just#me casually tutting when labour are mentioned#to be asked if i dont like them#and im like yeah i hate them. especially kier starmer.#and theyre like nodding along. but then to be diplomatic (this person was english) i say that i do like certain labour mps though like zarah#sultana etc#and the blank look i got. like idk. im probably just very online but this is someone whos educated and has a good job. so i just kinda#assumed theyd be a bit mroe aware of whats going on?#and then another person#i mentioned how theres books for kids about palestines history#i didnt mention anything else#and just... kinda silence. like a head nod and then convo moved on#and again i could just be over analysing but it almost felt like they didnt wanna talk about it because they didnt know/care?#which maybe. but i just kinda feel like at this fucking point. how can you not know.#i dont get how people are just so unaware of whats going on in the world around them. especially when its things that do indirectly affect#them. when it comes to people being incriminately harmed and murdered#like i dont think these people are against palestine or big labour fans etc etc either#but its just the blissful ignorance#idk maybe im just jealous tbh. because this shit haunts my every waking moment. the thought that theres so many bigoted and ignorant people#around the world scares me. and i never want to be one of them#this is such a jumbled ramble#but alas#le text post
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i pass pretty much all the time but hm. ive heard interesting stuff from drunk ppl i know who dont know im trans
#''haha when my bf was talking about you and i asked to see a picture he showed me one and i was like... is that right? bc i thought that was#a girl in that pic. i mean only bc i didnt expect him to have any girlypop friends haha''#yeah i mean that is an average thing to say and not mean or anything but it hits a bit different when im trans#i mean the person saying that didnt know and if they did they would have never said anything like that#but it's still a bit. hmmm.#also the topic of my looks came up and it's funny how everyone thinks i'm cute#i wish i could b masc hot but im fine with being cute. not everyone can look good the same way#but like it's so common for the only compliment transmascs get being ''cute'' for various reasons but i think in my case it's just my#wavy hair and slight babyface and round features#which yeah ok whatever i'm still young - ive got plenty of time to start looking less like a boy and more like a man#as in even if i was a cis guy id look pretty much like this#though! im only 2 years on t so i cant wait what the future holds for how i'll look :3c#well almost 2 and a hlaf but yknow#also i have a slight. can i say this. ''tranny voice'' which. slay. but i was told i ''sound like a femboy'' which#once again super funny that ppl say that stuff bc they genuinely cant tell im trans#the only reason i pass is bc i get read as [justin mcelroy voice] kinda faggy#oh that guy over there with wide hips and feminine manners and voice and small feet and hands [compared to cis men] with an apparently cute#face who doesnt seem to know anything about stereotypical guy stuff? thats a cis man#and i love that#but also one of these ppl is not cis#if you saw me irl you'd know im insanely easy to clock for trans people#but yeah whatever im just amused by all this it's kind of fun having ppl not know im trans#but also i have a new friend who doesnt know and i think i should let him know at some point if it comes up bc idk man. it feels like im#living a secret life or something. like obviously no one has the right to know im trans but. i can make the choice of wanting someone toknow#but also hes my only guy friend who lives in this city. well technically not the only one i have another friend but we never hang out irl.#anyways i dont want to ruin our broship#i dont think itd get ruined and if it did itd just mean whatever but im still scared#agh idk#leevi talks
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I’m going to lose my mind oh my god I am so scared for this quincenera wtf
#NOT MINE BTW I MISSED MY CHANCE LMAO#but Jesus Christ family I’ve never met before flying in from Panama…. god I’m so scared#I’ve already been dealing with some wack ass imposter syndrome ass shit cuz of how I was raised this is gonna make it SO MUCH worse#I DIDNT EVEN KNOW PANAMANIANS GOT QUINCES#i was raised with almost zero influence from any culture whatsoever I wasn’t even raised close to that side of the family#and like I’m mixed with white but I can’t even use that as an excuse cuz the cousin who’s quince it is is also mixed#and that side of the family is super tied to the culture and they speak Spanish and shit#i don’t even speak Spanish even if the family from Panama doesn’t think ima. total embarrassment what if most of them don’t speak english#when I’m surrounded by white people 24/7 I feel like a total outlier but the second I’m around anyone else latine I feel like that but WORSE#i don’t speak Spanish I don’t know anything about the culture I’m from the fucking pacific northwest and do digital art and watch anime#i am so far completely removed from everything I’m gonna be sick#my grandma is already so judgy about stuff my uncle was even WORSE and made fun of the stuff that was too white or too American about me#my cousins throwing the party are the least of my worries cuz at least their mixed and second/third Gen too#but oh my god the family I’ve never met before I’m so scared I’m so scared#i was already thinking like. can I even call myself latine bc of how I was raised and how far removed I am from everything. I’m mixed so -#-should I just associate myself more with the white side of my family. am I being fraudulent by identifying with that term just bc I have -#-the blood is that even enough maybe that kid had a point when he said I shouldn’t count as hispanic if I don’t know spanish#and thinking about showing up to my cousins quince as. me. it’s terrifying it’s awful I want to go I want to meet these people I want to -#-celebrate my cousin and be happy for her but GOD what if everyone hates us and just tolerates us cuz we’re related to them#i would say we’re the black sheep of the family but I feel like white is more fitting cuz I feel like we’re just slightly brown white people#god god god I’m so stresssd out by this#is this a weird thing to be worried about is this stupid is this selfish#and to make matters worse I DONT KNOW WHAT TO GET HER FOR A GIRT#vent
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— OCS RED FLAGS.
i was tagged by @denerims and @risingsh0t to take this quiz for my ocs, thank you both sooo much!!
i'm tagging @arklay @nuclearstorms @morvaris @uldwynsovs @devilbrakers @faarkas @girlbosselrond @indorilnerevarine @shadowglens @jacobseed @lightwardens and whoever wants to do this <3
VIOLENT
when something makes you upset, it could even be the tiniest most petty reason ever, you yell, rage, and possibly throw stuff in anger. your actions think quicker than your mind, and it could probably not even be intentional but the next thing you'll realize is that you've hurt someone
MANIPULATIVE
you're probably a passive aggressive person. you frequently lie, and gaslight to get your way. you never want to be held responsible for your actions so you avoid situations by either victimizing yourself, belittling others concerns, hiding the truth, and using threats to harm yourself or others
FAKE
you are a toxic human being. you belittle others, and are overly competitive. you probably envy those who have it better than you so you try to manipulate the person into feeling worthless so that you can feel superior. you are never there for your friends in time of need but you expect them to always be at your service
#tag games#in my scared to tag ppl era once again. might be bc i'm tired ksjfkf so really if i didnt tag u this time go ahead and say i did!!#anyways. (twirling my hair) oh so u all have red flags? tell me more#this quiz was so funny for dragging them all into the dirt i actually took it for many others but the amount of 'fake' i got was embarassin#to be fair i picked my worst piece of shit ocs which explains the fake results kfjsnfk for example both akira & eva got it. akira would#be like mh and what about it? also took it for fenix and he got manipulative well!! he's a blonde man what can u expect#anyways vesper getting violent well we knew. girl has problems dealing with her rage. moira is a bit of a surprise and i don't see her as#manipulative in her daily life u know. with ppl she cares and so on. it's fuckin mojave. she's going to manipulate gaslight girlboss her#way around it and all the crazy bitches that live in there. vio's is just funny tho. reading the result was like (nodding & ticking off a#list) fair...fr. fair again. she's a lost cause. but my lost cause i love so dearly....#oc: vesper#oc: moira#oc: violante
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saw smth i did not agree with an injustice being done n at first i was silent for way too long but it cldnt n wldnt leave ne alone so eventually i spoke up n it was scary n im having post anxiety n i feel like i did smth wrong n the other ppl hate me n will judge me negatively but what they did was not nice n not correct so yh who cares if i cry now nothing gets done without a bit of discomfort ahaha
#their was one more seat to the back of the bus#n the guy there is large n sitting to the outside#n one person came in n didn't see it bc u wldnt n there was another free seat#n someone pointed it out to the other person#but it's pretty much me the 3 ppl to the back n the guy actually next to the free seat who knows it's there#n instead of saying smth guy just watched laughed n kept talking#n not like to label ppl but he truly doesn't seem like the shy type#he's talking a lot n loud n to whoever will listen#so like just tht it's not likely anxiety stopped him if tht makes sense#n he also literally laughed at the boy for not realizing so yh#at the first traffic light i told the person in front of me to pass the mssg up to the boy standing#so yay he got the seat#i cldnt shout#trust me i missed my own stop bc the bell wasnt working n i cldnt shout so lolz yh#but i did the right thing#i feel anxious j scared#like what if the others who didnt say anything think negative of me or hate me or smth like tht cri#not in a i care what they think of me way directly but like rumors#but then like they are the 'villains' in the story so#it's not like they can uh bad talk me without saying what they did#which to anyone wld obviously be wrong#ahhh idk whatever i did the thing tht most important#cloud nonsense
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oh girl, that was kinda scary 🤢
#my driver didnt arrive at the pick up spot & when i kept calling hw wouldnt pick up#then he suddenly started the drive without me in it the car#i didnt know how to cancel it so i reported it to support#but he started calling & messaging me when i was messaging s costumer support#eventually it got canceled but omg i was scared to even oder a new ride where i was#so i moved to another spot & ordered a new one#when i was waiting a red truck stopped in front of me & a guy stuck his head out#he was saying something byt i hadce my headphones on so i just ignored him#tbh i vouldnt wvwn hear what he was saying but he looked pissed#thankfully my next ride arrived soon after & im already on my way home 🙏
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my boss asked me what movies i was into at work today and I was like trying to figure out how to describe the specific genre of movie im into without saying gay/queer etc. she asked for an example of a movie she might know and i said Rocky Horror. and she said "oh ive never seen it, so horror movies?"
#i dont even know if she knows that im trans or gay or whatever#im like SCARED now to say this stuff 😭#i tried to explain Velvet Goldmine to her and she thought it was going to be a silly movie#like i get where she mightve gotten that i told her avoht the whole. it was going to be a Bowie biopic but because Bowie wouldnt let them#have the rights to him at all they made up characters based on him#but im like no its actually a very serious movie 😭#ugh and then she was like 'well now ive got to check it out'#IF SHE FUCKING GOES HOME AND WATCHES IT AND IS SURPRISED WHEN THERES GAY SEX AND COCK AND ASS#every time i tell straight ppl what im into i never expect them to want to get into it#like the time my grandpa asked what music i was listening to and i told him abt placebo#and hes like 'i checked them out i listened to nancy boy'#I DIDNT MEAN FOR MY CONSERVATIVE GRANDPA TO LISTEN TO THE BISEXUAL SEX SONG I JUST ANSWERED HIS QUESTION 😭
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