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saw you post 'listen before you go', thought you'd enjoy this:
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#sterechats :)#going through It. and by It let's just say. the worst loss of my life lol#but I don't think anyone wants to hear how I ruined it again#and how badly I miss them#and if they'd give me one more chance I'd be the happiest person in the world#they put up with so much shit I should never have put them through#I can't blame them for leaving I just wish I could show them how much they mean to me#that behind all of my masks and my anger I cared about them more than anything#and I'm just so damn scared of being vulnerable because I've learned vulnerability is weakness#and even though that's wrong and I know it is it's less vulnerable to close myself off and respond with rage#than it is to actually confront my own emotions and realize that I'm not a robot#that I have feelings and they're usually really big and overwhelming for me#and I have to step back and process these things on my own because it's unfair to others#because I can't keep treating my friends like they're responsible for my emotions and at fault for them#because I need to actually communicate my needs instead of assuming people know them#because these same patterns are why I keep losing friends over and over again#and if I don't fix them I'm never going to be able to maintain a friendship#god. if they're ever going to read this I hope they know how much they mean to me#and how deeply and truly sorry I am for everything I've done#and how I never want to hurt them ever again#and I'm crying again. it feels like all I'm ever doing recently is crying#you know that saying 'you don't realize what you have until it's gone'? yeah.#for all the shit I talked I'd do anything to hear them tell me about their f1 drivers again#I miss them so much it's killing me it feels like#I just. I don't think they're coming back#no matter how much I tell myself they just need a few weeks or months#I think I really fucked it up this time and I don't want to admit it to myself#because I don't think I can mentally accept that they're gone forever most likely#I just want to hope that they'll give me that one last chance and I can prove myself#I just want to talk to them again and it hurts so much
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he’s begging kuni to let them eat pancakes for dinner
#i’m sorry to everyone who followed me for skk they haven’t crossed my mind in weeks#it’s just been knkdz and kunikida brainrot 😔#when your brat of a boyfriend asks for a kiss and u tell him no and he hits you w this face#i would slap him tbh#honestly i think it’s a good thing kuni is dead bc he’s finally been released from the eternal punishment of being dazai’s babysitter#i miss them so badly it’s not even funny anymore#bungo stray dogs#bungou stray dogs#bsd#dazai osamu#osamu dazai#kunikida doppo#doppo kunikida#kunikidazai#knkdz#kunizai#lotus draws#also i deadass forgot how to shade so ignore how i basically just pillow shaded this entire drawing
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Good morning, Sleepyhead.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#'WWX was asleep for 4 days' is an incorrect factoid.#The average WWX sleeps for 8 hours. The PD-MDZS WWX who was asleep for 40 comics and 4 months is an outlier.#We are back to present day! I have missed drawing them!#Ah...the contrast between how the flashback ended (cold and distrustful) to how wwx wakes up (warm and watched over)...#The gap between the past and present is very important. Not just in this story but in our lives too.#The past can still hurt and it doesn't just go away with time as some say. It is the power of realizing that things have changed.#We can't get the good back. The bad memories have concluded. Those live somewhere else now.#It is hard to realize that you have to live for today and tomorrow. The past is so loud.#For WWX it is realizing that despite the mistrust in the past - He really does have faith that LWJ will be there for him.#It is the reflection of knowing that you changed and will keep changing and that change is good and kind sometimes.#But more importantly...and this I really do mean with all my heart:#It will all end up okay in the end. Even after the worst day. The most painful losses. You will get through it.#What feels like a breaking point is truthfully just another step you have to take. You'll get through it even though it feels like the end.#There are wonderful things you have yet to see. Friends you have yet to meet.#Even if it hurts so badly...one day it just aches. Someday you'll go a few weeks not remembering that it ever hurt.#Oh and because my izutsumi comic revealed many people were in need of hearing this:#You are loved. Right now. You are so loved right now. We just forget to tell each other that.#Go tell the people you love that they matter to you. I'm assigning you homework!!! You are graded on completion.
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Idgaf where’s Tommy?
#911#tommy kinard#bucktommy#ish#911 abc#literally do not care about anyone else’s storyline on this show they have fucked them all up so badly#but I am desperate to know how tommy is doing#oh this doesnt have to do with anything btw I just miss tommy
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NICKPHIL REUNION IN 2024. I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY'RE ACTUALLY BACK. MY MEN!!!
#“it's probably my indomitable will” “that must be it” UGHHH#they way they immediately got back with their usual banter...#oh how much i missed them 😭#i need to read the rest of this story so badly#this is looking really good. pls don't make me lose my hope and let it be an actual good arc#phil coulson#nick fury#marvel comics#nickphil#shield daddies#saryuuchan
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Tip of the Day:
Please wipe off the lipstick marks off our screens and bodies after you are done.
no lipstick marks here, boss! 🫡
..although, there might be something else that needs to be cleaned off,
#COUGHS. WHO SAID THAT#sargepng#ultrakill#v1#terminal#is there a shipname for them ???#aah how i miss u badly drawn terv1nal
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smth smth about 'the thing that the character did that you thought was rly rly funny in the moment is actually linked to a terrible trauma that lies within said character.' or wahtever.
#jrwi show#jrwi fanart#jrwi riptide#gillion tidestrider#made this within a short span of wahtever bc i gotta go up to the mountains for my stupid gay job tonight n im trying#nnot to frrRREAAAK THE FUCK OUUTTTTTTi dont wanna work but. get that bread we fuckin shall i guess#ONWARDS TO THE FISH TORMENT!! sometimes flowers feel pain when you trim them before their blossoming. atleast i imagine so#i used to draw gillion with loooong hair tied into a big ol braid. and then it was confirmed that he had short hair when he was little.#AT FIRST I WAS SAD. but then i realized the duality of. when they were little. gill had short hair. edyn had long hair.#AND NOW THEYRE OLDER. and gillion has long hair. and edyn has short hair#both mirroring eachother. looking up to eachother. subconsciously or not. they most certainly care. and most certainly miss eachother.#GILLION ALWAYS LOVED HOW LONG HAIR LOOKs. atleast i imagine so. he hasnt cut it since he left the undersea. sure he wanted to go back home#but even at the very start. he knew he was free in some way now. free to grow out his hair. an adventure would await him before he returns.#he knew it would be a while. so he cant let this go. he cant let this sought-after hair-length get cut away from him again#not yet. not yet. i like to think he loved music too. I SAW SOMETHING INTERESTING A BIT AGO#i see alot of ppl commenting on my baby gill comics like;'i wouldFIGHT this teacher i wanna KILL EM i want them DESTROYED#all very good and nice sentiments! i LOVE the energy here! and it would be nice. to have that catharsis#but the story of young tidestrider is not a story of catharsis. it is a story of agony and being so so small and so special and also so dum#and sucking so bad. and just being a kid and doing the things that a little kid does and so many tired tired people reacting badly to it#youre supposed to be the hero that will save us. our world hangs in the balance and you are the one who tips the scales.#YOU are supposed to SAVE US!! you NEED to SAVE US! CAN YOU PLEASE STOP SQUIRMING IN YOUR STUPID CHAIR!!#you'd think that young tidestrider ought to prevail. and be tucked someplace all safe and sound.#elders gone missing and rotting in a jail. their cultists nowhere around. but theres no happy endings. not here not now.#this tale is all sorrows n woes. you may dream that justice n peace win the day. but thats not how this story goes#BIG ideas for this lil baby gillion series. if anything i make ever gets disproven im killing myself in a well as to poison a water supply
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Fans: omg Wille is soo oblivious and adorable he didn’t even realize the song was about him
Edvin: Wilhelm is obsessed with himself and his problems that’s why he didn’t know the song was about him
💀💀💀
#yes i miss them so badly that i am reading old articles#sue me#i just think this is so funny#i actually think both edvin and a lot of fans are on extremes#and the truth is somewhere in the middle#some people wanna excuse everything wille does and blame simon and Edvin is here to remind yall#i think it is understandable tho that he didn’t get it immediately i guess even tho i thought he did get it#it’s just funny that fans are overly generous with Wilhelm and Edvin is the opposite#but that speaks to how well he portrays the complexity od Wilhelm#also edvin so thoughtful and mature i love hearing him talk about the show#prince wilhelm#young royals#edvin ryding#wilhelm x simon#wilhelm young royals
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I've been unable to work on my longer WIPs for some reason but take this. for lack of a better title:
idiots locked in the world's most romantically charged staring contest
Heist Mark x Y/N (reader) | 628 words
You wait just around the corner, quiet and out of sight, and lightly smack Mark's arm with the back of your hand when he tries to peer around you, lest someone see and you have both your covers blown.
Your partner rolls his eyes exaggeratedly and you level him with a stare.
You understand the anticipation, but patience is crucial for jobs like this. You wait for the signal. One wrong move could cost you a lot more than just your loot.
The little nook of the building you're waiting in is, rather conveniently for means of slinking around unnoticed, out of the way, and quite narrow. Even with Mark leaning back against the opposite wall, you are mere inches apart.
He checks his watch. 'Should be any minute now,' he utters in a hushed voice.
You nod. Several seconds pass. Distant chatter echoes down the halls, muffled into a steady background ambience of rich party attendees blissfully unaware of the thieves in their midst.
You look at your partner, simply because you have nothing else to do. He's craning his neck again in a futile attempt to peek around the corner more subtly.
His suit for the night is crisp, and gives his silhouette a sharper outline than the more typical cosy sweaters and soft flannel shirts. His hair looks especially dark cast in shadow, but there's enough light from outside the enclosed space that you see it reflected in his eyes. Softly glowing white and orange and magenta specs, floating on deep brown. Pretty.
It's as he turns his head back to face you, that he notices you staring, and meets your gaze without missing a beat.
Mark smiles, faintly roguish, but gentle and just for you.
He holds your stare, and something to the way he does so makes you wonder if he sees the same lights sparkling in your own eyes, and if he finds the sight as oddly captivating as you do.
A minute passes.
Mark loosens his tie.
It's a simple, small thing, but it stirs something inside of you, and you don't know why, but your breath hitches a little and your eyes widen slightly and he definitely notices. But he doesn't say anything and neither do you. All he does is keep looking intensely into your eyes until he doesn't because his gaze is flickering elsewhere — trailing across your features, settling on your mouth for longer than can be dismissed and when you bite your lip subconsciously it's as if he's mesmerised. You can hardly recall where you are or what you're doing here, none of it matters as much as his head tilting ever so slightly and then—
A voice through your earpiece jolts you out of your stupor. You suddenly take stock of the warmth from Mark's breath on your face. Your noses almost bumping. When did he get so close?
You press a button on your earpiece to answer the call, and by the look on your partner's face, he hears it too. It's Wubba and Bubba, giving the signal as agreed, and the moment is gone and your friend clears his throat and straightens up, as a confusing mixture of disappointment and frustration and lingering excitement flutter and twist in your gut.
When he moves out of your immediate space, the inches feel like miles.
You push the feelings down. You have work to do.
Mark mumbles something over the voice channel before turning back to you once again.
'You ready, buddy?'
The corner of your mouth quirks up, matching his own eager grin.
'You know I am.'
His grin widens.
'Good,' he says, adjusting his sleeve and finally getting a better look around the corner, now that the coast is decidedly clear. 'Alright, partner. Showtime.'
#omg. omg am I back? I don't know. I can't promise anything. I'm just excited. I missed writing them properly and finishing something. omg#I literally just forced myself to sit down and eventually come up with an idea and then write it and immediately post it#before I can overthink it#I only intended to write smth really super short just for the sake of writing them besides rough blurbs and thoughts because I MISS IT AAAA#but I ended up with this. which isn't long but is kind of monumental to me??? with how badly I've been struggling with writer's block latel#lowkey I'm proud of myself rn#anyway I love them they're so silly and should kiss I think#WOOHOO YIPPEE#watch me post naught a single fic for months after this (pls be wrong)#amee writes#heist mark x y/n#heist mark x reader#x reader#ahwm#a heist with markiplier#markiplier egos#markiplier cu#heist mark#heist!mark#heist!mark x reader#heist!mark x y/n#ahwm y/n#ahwm mark#mark iplier#I'll put this on ao3... at some point... eventually...#partners in crime
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What are your thoghts on Shadamy?
this is such a crazy timed ask actually lmao i’ve been doodling them whenever i have the energy for it they are *falls to my knees* so much lmao
there’s a thread on twitter about their interactions in team sonic racing that i revisit whenever i need a serotonin shot lol that exposes how big of a soft spot shadow has for amy like it’s the way!!!!! he really wants her to rely on him and how proud he is whenever she accomplishes something with his assistance!!!!! like????? i mean????
something that’s been a little lost in translation over the years with amy’s character is that she wants to be an independent and wonderful lady and i’m hesitant to say we know what that really looks like for her, but what’s more important here is that shadow already acknowledges her as such based on whenever he’s teasing her in the game and like……. it’s just a refreshing dynamic for her to have when she’s been shown to struggle making a place for herself in sonic’s posse lol
#vee got an ask#i read a post forever ago that suggested the reason sonic feels insufferable in shadow 05 is bc it’s shadow perceiving the characters#sonic is a pest to him basically and was recently reconfirmed lmao#what’s really really fcking funny about that tho is how he interacts he interacts with amy in that game lol#she’s troubled bc her friend is missing and poor shadow trying to make sense of his messed up memories feels compelled to help her#he even questions himself like why??? did i want to help her so badly??? lmao#and then the final fight with black doom rolls around and amy dreamily says she’s always believed in him and LOL#i see you shadow lol!!!!!! she got two hands i don’t mind if you take them both for yourself lmao!!!!!!#and to not even speak on how helping amy automatically sends you to the hero route!!!!!!#shadamy is probably my fav ship rn lol
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If Solar gets nightmares about when he was stuck in Sun's head, I wonder if that means he dreams of the times after too.
If he gets dreams of when Sun first decided to reach out and show kindness to him. If he dreams of when he was still active and helped him break out of his shell with his unwavering support. If he dreams of when his home was a kinder world to exist in. If he wakes up feeling warm and fuzzy and safe afterwards(and if the realization of where he is—who he is—crushes it moments later).
#xero says things#I slept and I'm still thinking about them 😔 maybe if i write smth for them i'll be normal /silly#no but for real i do wonder that#like.#he said his sun was compassionate and fought for him. he's had hints of caring a lot for his sun for a long while#i wonder how badly he misses him sometimes#especially considering he is quite literally the only person left alive who even remembers his sun when he was still active#stars know a weight like that would just about kill me#sun and moon show#the sun and moon show#tsams#sams#sams solar#tsams solar#xero thoughts and rambles
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Person of Interest | 1×01 // 3×09
#person of interest#poedit#tvedit#poi spoilers#joss carter#john reese#nikolatexla#oh how badly i miss you carter... it always feels like something's missing now#i watched this episode today dated back to 2010... and it was about a man called mr dillinger working with finch to stop crimes#and you know what else i saw? they were trying to stop reese and kara... oh my gosh my heart skipped a beat during that entire episode#the fact that harold's been following reese for two years after he saw that john let casey go and he also saw shaw shooting his partner...#two things i wonder. if he ever saw shaw's face during that moment and how did he know who john was when dillinger sent a pic of him...#i was surprised when root said he had helper monkeys previously... i wonder how many of them has he had
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the borgias is my favorite show and i think it's the best show ever made and all. however, there's just this one aspect that is genuinely hilarious to me and i mostly criticize the show for. the writers suddenly trying to make the viewers massively despise juan by turning against him and disingenuously writing him in his final moments so the watchers won't miss him or sympathize with him by making him a walking danger as an excuse to kill him off and prop up cesare's character. they wanted the audience to root for cesare at juan's expense and make his death seem necessary lol. they truly thought they served with this one, like maybe juan's character was shamefully abandoned by the writers (as well as his family except for rodrigo) but david oakes had many people sold with the way he played him to perfection, improvising and making juan remarkable, tremendous, and humane. the show is obviously a classic masterpiece, but in my opinion about the juan part, simply rushing the writing of a tragic dying character on a show for weak reasons is pure disrespect.
#i love the way juan was written off is something that didn't sit right with the rest of the cast either. they know david was done dirty#not to mention the corny ass hashtag they tried to trend to celebrate juan's death lmaoo 2012 was really something#it's why françois and david GET ITTTT#their insights literally go against what the writers were trying to make us Believe LOL françois and david were like No ❤️#you know when the actors get the characters more than the writers themselves because of how much they lived in them? YEAH!!!#they tried so badly to paint cesare gutting juan and throwing him off a bridge as “heroic” then BAM here comes king arnaud!!#calling cesare an envious monster SJSJJSNSEJ#françois literally admitted that he had the writing on his character's side meanwhile david's character was thrown under the bus#as if it wasn't enough for them to villainize juan by giving him all historical!cesare's negative characteristics !!#that being said. like or hate juan...his presence was truly missed in season 3 lol#juan borgia#cesare borgia#françois arnaud#the borgias#period dramas#period drama#neil jordan#david oakes#borgias#text post
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2009 Italian Grand Prix - Jenson Button
#more gifs yaaaaa even tho i didnt even rly like this race overly tbh#also just miss having one of my main boys on the top step so this was made to cope#i think once in a fic i read jense's smile described as 'wolfish' and my god if that wasnt the most accurate description ever#like the way his grin curls to the one side specifically.....eeeeeeeeee so wolfish#im always astonished at just how badly colored the pressers are....theyre so desaturated and icky.....#like seriously ill be watching them like 'uhhh wait do i really find this guy attractive...?' and then i recolor and im like OH YEAH I DO#its just super unflattering and drab I HATE IT!! but its the only thing i actually enjoy coloring bcs everything else is just frustrating#jenson button#jb22#we do a little bit of f1#f1#formula one#formula 1#2009 italian gp#season: 2009
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do you ever just loop a song and sit there like “oh this is so fitting for a ship I adore? Why has no one talked about this.”
so anyway. your stupid face. dakavendish. do we see the vision tumblr. please.
#the horrors happen today so I’m back#but to yap about the gay time travelers I miss#dakavendish#I miss them so much.#“how badly have you been looping it”#I woke up at 5 am. It is 7 am.#I looped it since I woke up#and looped it for multiple hours yesterday
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i cannot be held responsible for the person i become when the doctor and donna are on my screen again btw. levels of mental illness never before seen
#I MISSED THHEM SO MUCH. LITERALLY THOUGHT ABT THEM ON THE BUS AND STARTED CRYING TODAY#god you guys have no idea how badly im doing rn. im so back in the dw pits it's not even funny#implying i ever left but yknow. it's been a long hiatus...#doctor who#tendonna
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