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Forced Proximity
Synopsis: In which the strongest and reader confess their feelings.
Themes: female reader, mutual pining, longing, HEAVY TENSION, some conflict, friends-to-lovers. Fluff, little bit of angst, kinda slow burn. Didnât proofread but if you find something itâs definitely your eyes or screen đ enjoy !
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When the news about floods and heavy rain rang through the halls of Jujutsu High, you never expected it to be much of an issue. Matter of fact, you thought it was like every other day during the Tsuyu season. Sighing, you took a look out the window from your classroom, coffee in hand, dreading the moment work is over before youâre drenched in rain.
You werenât a teacher at Jujutsu High for long, only opting to take up the role since your long time friend and colleague, Gojo Satoru, was gone on missions quite often. When he came back, he was often tired and had discoloration around his eyes from the lack of rest, only for him to continue his work as normal, always putting a smile for his students in class. With you teaching, it gave him that time to rest a little extra before training his students one-on-one.
It wasnât exactly a decision he agreed to, as he believed it was a burden he- as the strongest- should carry. It took many months before he finally considered your proposal. After all, youâd be safe at Jujutsu High, instead of fighting off curses in who knows where, right?
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âOh come on Satoru,â you pleaded, reaching up to his eye level before being stopped by his infinity.
âPromise sweets,â he said with a dramatic sigh, reaching out to ruffle your hair before swiftly and effortlessly dodging your swat at his hand. âIâm fine. Iâm the strongest, after all!â He flashed you a grin, his tone both playful and self-assured. He took out some candy from his pocket, popping it into his mouth before putting another right above your lips, a mischievous smile playing on his lips. âCâmon, I know you want it.â
You frustratedly sighed, taking the candy and throwing it in the nearest trash bin. Crossing your arms, you gave him a pointed look as he quickly frowned, furrowing his brows in response. âSatoru, Iâm bring serious. You canât even tell me the last time you had 7-8 hours of rest. Or eaten a proper, nutritious, meal.â Emphasizing the last sentence, knowing he loves his sweets. (Of course the candy- not you. Right?) âLet me do this for you.â You pleaded, shoulders hanging in defeat.
His movements faltered for the slightest second before tilting his head back, humming in thought. âWell, I guess itâd be a nice vacation for you. Safer part of the job, no fighting curses, just keeping me company, arenât ya?â His smirk all too knowing.
Sighing, you softly shook your head and rolled your eyes before giving him a look of worry. âI just.. I want to look out for you,â
He piped up in interest before swallowing another piece of candy he kept safely hidden. âLooking after the strongest will only get ya so far,â he teased, a smirk playing on his lips. âBut why?â He asked, his tone shifting to genuine curiosity.
Now that, you couldnât- wouldnât- answer. Your friendship with Satoru was.. complicated. It was like walking a fine line between comfort and tension, one moment full of stolen glances and playful teasing, the next filled with casual flirtations- though, you were never really sure if that was just his way with everyone.
Most of the time, it was just Satoru pretending everything was fine when you knew he needed a break. He never let anyone see how much he carried, always wearing that smile. Most of the time, it was you two sitting atop of Jujutsu High, watching the sunset or laughing at a horror movie with stupid plots. Sometimes it was quiet walks to cafes or his favorite candy shops.
But right now? Now you werenât sure if youâd ever be able to make a decision. You glanced at him, hesitation in your tongue. Finally, you sighed and muttered, âBecause youâre an absolute idiot.â
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âAttention all still at Jujutsu High,â a voice echoed through halls and classrooms, about 40 minutes after students resigned to their homes or designated rooms. âWeather conditions are not safe. I repeat, weather conditions are not safe. Please stay indoors until further notice.â
The thunder was almost impossible to miss, lightning making its way through the clouds, and heavy rain painting all that is Jujutsu High. Clearly, you werenât going anywhere.
âLooks like Iâm stuck,â you muttered, glaring out the rain-slick window. The storm outside almost seemed theatrical in its ferocity. Each flap of thunder rattled the walls of Jujutsu High, as if the world itself wanted to remind you that you couldnât go anywhere.
A knock came from your door, an all too familiar one. Raising a brow, you sat up on your desk, crossing one leg over the other. âYou say that like itâs a bad thing.â A voice chimed in as the door opened. A voice too familiar, too smooth and unmistakably teasing.
You softly smiled seeing him come through the door, noticing he decided to opt into more casual clothing rather than his usual uniform and black blindfold.
âSatoru,â you greeted, your voice steady, though your heart did a little flip at the sight of him. It was almost unfair how effortlessly good he looked, even in casual clothes. A black coat paired with a white shirt underneath and black pants tailored to fit his lengthy figure. His hair, usually spiked and tall, looked softer- almost as though he hadnât bothered fixing it before coming to see you.
He closed the door behind him with an air on nonchalance, leaning back as he crossed his arms. âMissed me already, sweets?â He teased, his lips curling into a lazy grin.
âYou mean in the forty minutes since we last spoke?â You quipped, resting your chin in your hand, playfully grinning at him. âIâm not sure if I could have bared any longer without you.â You teased right back, your tone light but betraying a flicker of something deeper.
Satoruâs grin widened, his ego soaking up the attention as he leaned casually against your desk. âSee? I knew you couldnât resist me. Iâm the highlight of everyoneâs day as the strongest, after all.â
You rolled your eyes, but the playful glint in his expression made it impossible to look away. âHighlight? More like a recurring inconvenience.â
âOuch.â He placed a hand over his heart, feigning hurt. âAnd here I thought we were bonding. Guess Iâll just take my charm elsewhere.â
You chuckled, putting your hands up in defense. âDonât let me stop you.â You replied, though the words lacked bite. If anything, the thought of him leaving sent a pang of disappointment through you. You quickly masked it with a smirk, hoping you wouldnât notice.
But Satoru didnât move. He stayed rooted in his place, his usual easy grin faltering just slightly. His gaze lingered on you for a moment longer than it should have, softening in a way that felt almost too intimate. The playful banter that defined so many of your interactions seemed to melt away, leaving something raw and unspoken.
âActually,â he said, his voice quieter now, almost hesitant, âI think Iâll stick around.â
There was a weight to his words, a vulnerability that didnât match his usual carefree demeanor. His tone lacked the teasing lilt youâd grown so used to, and it caught you off guard.
You glanced up at him, expecting another sly remark, but what you found instead made your chest tighten. His eyes, visible beneath his tinted glasses, were fixed on you- not with his usual amusement, but with a kind of longing he didnât bother to hide. The storm outside roared, but in the silence between you, it felt like the world had shrunk to just the two of you.
For a second, you thought he might say something else, something you werenât sure you were ready to hear. But instead, he shifted slightly, running a hand through his hair in what felt like an attempt to break the tension.
âI mean, who else is going to put up with me in a storm like this?â He added, the teasing edge returning to his voice, though it didnât quite reach his eyes.
You let out a shaky breath, a breath you didnât realize you were holding, your own emotions swirling just as chaotically as the weather outside. âLucky me,â you managed, keeping your tone light even as your heart raced.
He smiled faintly, but it wasnât his usual playful smirk. It was softer, tinged with something you couldnât quite name. And as he leaned casually against the edge of your desk, the space between you felt charged. Like both of you were waiting for something to happen- a shy confession, a flirt, maybe even something more- something neither of you dared to name.
Thunder shook the walls of Jujutsu High, causing your desk to slightly tremble. The sound echoed in the silence, as if the storm itself was urging something to break.
Suddenly clearing your throat, you forced yourself to look away, breaking the eye contact that held you captive.
âWell!â You quipped, trying to shake off the heaviness in the air. Satoruâs gaze was no longer on you, but rather the rain outside. His features were softened against the dim light, his jaw- that was usually relaxed and quick to smile, tightened for just a moment- barely noticeable if you hadnât been watching him so closely.
âYouâre unusually quiet,â you ventured, your tone light but curious. It wasnât like him to let silences linger, especially not around you.
He let out a low hum, finally turning his head toward you. âJust thinking sweets,â he said, his voice smoother now, though something about it felt guarded.
âThinking?â you echoed, raising a brow. âThatâs a dangerous pastime for someone like you.â
His lips quirked into a smirk, but it didnât reach his eyes. âFunny,â he murmured, taking a step closer to your desk, his fingers brushing the wood as if testing its solidityâor maybe just grounding himself. âBut even I have my moments.â
You tilted your head, studying him carefully. The Satoru you knew was always confident, always teasing, always larger than life. But now, under the weight of the storm, there was something quieter about him, something you werenât used to seeing.
âCare to share?â you asked softly, folding your arms across your chest.
He hesitated, just for a second, his hand stilling on your desk. His glasses reflected the flicker of lightning outside, masking his eyes, but you could feel the intensity of his gaze all the same.
âNot much to share,â he said finally, though his tone lacked its usual bravado. âJust wondering how many more storms weâll have to sit through before someoneâŠâ He trailed off, his smirk fading into something softer, almost wistful. ââŠdoes something about it.â
Your heart stuttered at his words, at the way they felt so much bigger than the weather outside. You opened your mouth to respond, but the words caught in your throat, drowned out by the thunder that rattled the walls once more.
âMaybe⊠hypothetically,â you began, your voice softer now, as if testing the waters, âa little push could help. You know, fire things up, I suppose.â
Satoruâs lips quirked into a small smile, but there was something unreadable in his expression, something that made your cheeks burn. âA little push, huh?â he echoed, his tone low and teasing, though there was an edge to it, like he was daring you to say more.
You shrugged, trying to maintain your composure under the weight of his stare. âI mean, sometimes things just⊠need a spark to get going. Isnât that what storms are for?â
His fingers drummed lightly against the desk, his gaze never leaving you. âCareful,â he murmured, his voice dipping just enough to send a shiver down your spine. âPlaying with fire can be dangerous.â
âMaybe,â you countered, leaning back slightly to put some space between you, though the tension still thrummed in the air. âBut isnât that what makes it exciting?â
For a moment, neither of you spoke, the words hanging between you like the crackle of lightning in the storm. His smile faded into something softer, something that felt almost too raw to look at.
âYouâre something else, you know that?â he said finally, his voice barely above a whisper. His words hung in the air for a moment, heavy and unshakable. âThe storm.. it wouldnât be easy.â
His gaze, fixed on you, was softer now, stripped of its usual teasing confidence. It was as if he wasnât just talking about the weather anymore, and the weight of his unspoken thoughts sent a ripple of unease and anticipation through you.
You swallowed, your heart racing as you tried to decipher the layers behind his words. âNo,â you replied quietly, your voice barely steady. âIt wouldnât be easy. But that doesnât mean itâs not worth facing.â
His lips parted slightly, as though your response had caught him off guard. For once, he didnât have a quick comeback, no smirk to hide behind. Instead, he shifted, stepping just a little closer, the space between you shrinking with each beat of the thunder outside.
âSometimes storms destroy everything in their path,â he murmured, his voice so low it was almost lost beneath the rain hammering against the windows. âAnd sometimes⊠they make things clearer. Wash it all clean.â
You felt your breath hitch at the rawness in his tone, the vulnerability he rarely allowed to show. âWhich one is this?â you asked softly, your voice carrying a hint of challenge but also something moreâhope.
He hesitated, his fingers curling into a loose fist as though he were holding himself back. âThat depends,â he said finally, his gaze never wavering from yours. âOn whether you think itâs worth the risk.â
Every word, every glance, felt like it could tip the fragile balance you were both clinging to. âI do,â you whispered, the words slipping out before you could stop them.
And for the briefest of moments, Satoru looked like he might close the distance entirely, the hesitation in his eyes giving way to something fierce, something undeniable.
The storm outside roared, the thunder cracking loud enough to rattle the glass panes, but neither of you flinched. Instead, the silence between you seemed louder, charged with all the things you wanted to say but couldnât find the courage to voice.
âYouâre serious,â he murmured, almost to himself, the faintest edge of disbelief in his tone. His hand moved instinctively, brushing against the desk before retreating, as if he wasnât sure whether to close the gap between you or hold himself back.
âWould I have said it if I wasnât?â you countered, your voice steadier than you felt.
His gaze searched yours, his usual cocky exterior stripped away, leaving nothing but raw vulnerability. It was rare to see him like this, rare for him to let the mask slip. And yet, here he was, standing before you as if the storm outside had laid him bare.
âYou really donât get it, do you?â he asked, his voice barely audible, almost swallowed by the rain.
âGet what?â you pressed, your heart hammering in your chest.
He exhaled sharply, his hand running through his hair in frustration. âThat Iâm not afraid of the storm out there,â he said, nodding toward the rain-soaked window. âIâm afraid of the one in here.â His hand moved, just slightly, as if to gesture to the space between you, the unspoken feelings that hung like static in the air.
âIâll be busy almost all the time, and the little time I do get, itâs to rest and train my students..â he began, worry filling his eyes. âAnd where would that leave time for you? For us?â
The confession hit you like a bolt of lightning, sudden and blinding. Your throat tightened as you tried to find the words, but nothing came.
âSatoruâŠâ you started, but the sound of his name on your lips made him flinch, as if it carried too much weight, too much meaning.
He looked away, the flicker of worry in his eyes dimming as if heâd said too much. âItâs not fair to you,â he continued, his voice quieter now, almost drowned out by the rain. âTo expect you to be okay with⊠scraps of my time, with someone who canât even promise to be around when it matters most.â
Your chest ached at the way his voice cracked on the last word, his usual confidence nowhere to be found. He wasnât just pushing you awayâhe was scared. Scared of letting you in, of not being enough.
âSatoru,â you repeated, the sound of his name pulling his gaze back to yours. His expression faltered, the weight of his insecurities etched into every line of his face.
âDonât,â he murmured, his hand lifting as though to stop you, but he didnât pull away when you stepped closer.
âYou donât get to decide whatâs fair for me,â you said firmly, the words tumbling out before you could second-guess them. âI know what this isâwhat we are. And I donât care how busy you are, or how little time you think you have. I care about you, Satoru. Isnât that enough?â
His eyes widened, his composure slipping further as the tension between you reached a breaking point. The storm outside seemed to echo the chaos in your chest, the thunder roaring like an unspoken promise waiting to be fulfilled.
âYou make it sound so simple,â he said, a faint, shaky laugh escaping him. But there was no mistaking the way his shoulders relaxed, the way his hand finally reached out to rest on the edge of your desk, inches from yours.
âMaybe it is,â you replied, your voice steady despite the rapid thrum of your heartbeat. âMaybe youâre the one making it complicated.â
For a moment, he just stared at you, the vulnerability in his eyes giving way to something warmer, something that made your breath catch. His hand shifted, fingers brushing against yoursâhesitant, tentative, like he was afraid to cross the line but couldnât stop himself.
His fingers lingered against yours, warm and tentative, before he finally laced them together. The subtle touch sent a jolt through you, more powerful than any thunder outside. His grip tightened slightly, as though he feared letting go would mean losing something he couldnât afford to.
âYou really think itâs that easy?â he asked, his voice quieter now, yet laced with an edge of disbelief.
âI think youâre worth it,â you said simply, the words carrying more conviction than you thought possible. âIâm not asking for perfect. Iâm asking for realâfor you. Isnât that enough?â
He let out a breath he didnât seem to realize he was holding, his free hand brushing through his hair in a rare display of vulnerability. The usual smirk that would have accompanied your boldness was nowhere to be found. Instead, his lips parted slightly, his brows furrowed, as though trying to comprehend the weight of your words.
âYou have no idea what youâre signing up for,â he muttered, shaking his head. But his fingers stayed locked with yours, betraying the battle between his mind and his heart. âItâs messy. Iâm messy.â
âThen I guess Iâll learn to handle messy,â you replied without hesitation, stepping closer. The space between you was nearly nonexistent now, the storm outside a mere echo to the one building between you. âYou donât have to do this alone, Satoru.â
His jaw clenched, his Adamâs apple bobbing as he swallowed hard. âYouâre not making this easy,â he said, his voice wavering.
âGood,â you said, your tone soft but resolute. âBecause the things that matter never are.â
For a moment, his expression cracked, his usual cool façade shattering under the intensity of your gaze. His hand let go of the desk and rose slowly, hesitantly, as if unsure of its place. But then his fingers brushed against your cheek, his touch featherlight, like he was afraid youâd disappear if he pressed too hard.
âWhy do you have to be so damn stubborn?â he asked, but there was no malice in his words, only a quiet reverence that made your heart skip.
âBecause someone has to be,â you whispered, leaning into his touch without thinking.
The silence stretched between you, charged and trembling, until he finally broke it. âYouâre going to ruin me,â he said, the faintest hint of a smirk returning to his lips.
âMaybe,â you said, your voice a little breathless. âBut isnât that what makes it exciting?â
And then, before either of you could second-guess it, he closed the distance, his lips brushing against yours in a kiss that felt both hesitant and inevitable, like the meeting of two storms destined to collide.
His lips were warm against yours, soft and deliberate, like he was testing the waters of something he had fought against for too long. The world outside seemed to dissolveâthe thunder, the rain, even the walls of Jujutsu Highâleaving only the two of you in the center of it all.
When he pulled back, it was barely an inch, his forehead resting against yours as his breath mingled with your own. His hand still cradled your cheek, thumb brushing gently along your skin as though grounding himself in the reality of this moment.
âIâm not sure whatâs scarier,â he murmured, his voice hoarse with emotion. âThe storm outside or how much I donât want to let you go.â
Your heart swelled at his words, and you smiled softly, your hand reaching up to cover his where it rested against your cheek. âThen donât,â you whispered, your voice steady despite the chaos of feelings threatening to overwhelm you.
He closed his eyes, exhaling deeply as though he was surrendering to something heâd fought for too long. âYou make it sound so easy,â he said, the corners of his lips twitching into the faintest smile.
âIt doesnât have to be hard,â you replied, letting your fingers trail down to intertwine with his again. âWeâll figure it outâtogether. Like we always have.â
The vulnerability in his eyes was replaced by something lighter, something hopeful, and it made your chest tighten. For once, Satoru Gojoâthe strongest sorcerer you knewâlooked like a man who believed he could rely on someone else.
âTogether,â he repeated, the word rolling off his tongue like a promise.
The sound of thunder rumbled again, but this time it felt distant, less intrusive. Satoru straightened, his hand slipping from your face but staying firmly locked with yours.
âWell, weâve already survived one storm,â he said, his usual teasing tone creeping back as he gestured to the window. âWhatâs a few more, right?â
You chuckled, shaking your head at him. âAlways so dramatic.â
His grin widened, though it didnât quite mask the sincerity lingering in his eyes. âYou wouldnât have me any other way.â
You rolled your eyes but couldnât fight the smile tugging at your lips. âUnfortunately, I wouldnât.â
The two of you stood there for a moment longer, the storm outside gradually fading into a softer rhythm. It wasnât a resolution to everythingâthere were still obstacles ahead, uncertainties and fears to navigateâbut it felt like the beginning of something real.
Satoru squeezed your hand, pulling you toward the door with a newfound ease in his step. âCome on,â he said, flashing you a playful smirk. âLetâs see if we can find something to eat before the next storm rolls in. And maybe you can tell me how you plan to âhandle messy.ââ
You laughed, letting him lead the way. âOh, youâll see.â
And as the two of you walked down the hall, hand in hand, you couldnât help but feel that maybe, just maybe, the storms were worth it after all.
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Ugh itâs been so long since Iâve written and Iâve been so invested with my job. Anyways, hereâs this piece for Gojo! đ©·
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A Spencer Reid Fic- The One Where He Reads Her Diary
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Summary: Spencer Reid gets pressured into reading your diary. How will things end after you find out...
Genre: Fluff, and a little angst
CW: Autistic coded!Fem!Reader, use of Y/N, a bit of dramatic? reader, sad Spencer :(, steamy kisses, slight artist!reader.
Word Count: 2,227
A/N: I'm not the best at writing in a reader's perspective!! I always write my fics with myself in mind, so y/n is usually very similar to myself. I hope you still enjoy this anyways, and let me know if you have any tips for writing x reader fics!! Thank you! <33
Y/Nâs always been an honest person, she always tells people exactly what she thinks. Sheâs blunt, but still kind. Y/N believes that everyone deserves to know the truth, especially when specifically asking for it. But, she also has millions of secrets piled up. Some of them, people know. The othersâŠNo one knows, except her diary.Â
Y/N had just turned twenty-two a few months ago. Some would argue sheâs much too old for a diary, while others would say how beneficial it is for the mind. Like Spencer Reid, for example. He himself had a journal, he just hadnât used it nearly as much as she did.
He used his journal to talk about important events or changes in his life, while Y/N used it for everything. She wrote everything she ever thought, and drew whatever came to mind.Â
The one mistake she had made from the start was keeping her diary in her work bagâŠThat she always left on her desk when she left for the bathroom.Â
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âReid, man, come on. You need to tell her eventually.â Morgan bantered, standing right next to Spencerâs desk.Â
âIâd rather not look like an idiot, Morgan.â Spencer slightly rolled his eyes, still focused on his paperwork.Â
âYou already do?â Morgan said, confused. Spencer looked up with a scowl. âIâm just messinâ with you Pretty Boy! Just ask her out for coffee, nothing wrong with coffee.â He shrugged. Spencer simply shook his head, staring back down at his files. Morgan shook his own head in disapproval before walking back to his own desk, passing Y/Nâs in the process.Â
As he passed by, his hip bumped the half-open bag on her desk, knocking it to the floor. Morgan immediately turned around and swore. He set his mug down on the desk and bent down to grab her bag. He took notice of a surprisingly thick notebook. He picked it up and reveled at how heavy it was. Morgan looked at the cover to read âDiary.â His eyes immediately widened.Â
A smirk took over his face as he placed the bag back on her desk and carried the journal back over to Reidâs desk. Once he was close enough, he threw the journal on the desk with a particularly loud âthud.â Lucky for the two of them, the office was mostly empty so they were able to pull more shenanigans than usual.Â
Spencer looked over at the cover and looked up at his friend with furrowed brows.Â
âWhat is this?âÂ
âY/L/Nâs diary. Fell out of her bag.â He gestured behind him. Spencerâs face went white, his jaw dropping, and eyes almost bursting out of his head.Â
âYou cannot be serious! Put this back!â He jumped up from his desk, journal in hand, ready to bring it back to its rightful home.Â
âWoah there, Pretty Boy!â Morgan put his palms against Reidâs chest, pushing him back in his desk chair. âYou have a major advantage here. You read that, and youâll probably know everything Y/Nâs ever thought about you.â He wiggled his eyebrows. Spencerâs face was angry. âLook Reid, if Y/N finds out Iâll take all the blame. Iâll tell her I read it to you and you didnât want anything to do with it.â Spencer looked down at the book in his hands, contemplating.Â
âI canât believe Iâm letting you convince me into doing this.â Spencer sighed, shaking his head to himself. He hated the idea of invading his best friendâs privacy but he was also still a man. A man with a terrible crush on said best friend. How could he hold her very diary in his own two hands and not read a single word? âOne page, thatâs it!â Spencer groaned while Morgan âwoo-hooed.â
Spencer took notice of just how thick the journal was before opening to the newest page. He held the book open gently, praying he wouldnât break it since it was falling apart already. He looked at the left page, two messy sketches were drawn there in pen. They both were of him, the specific view Y/N had of him from her own desk. These are actually pretty goodâŠHe thought to himself.Â
âHoly shit, Reid. Is that you?â Morgan practically gasped.Â
âYeah.â He whispered, too entranced by the book. The right page had an entry.Â
11/10/24 Sunday, 6:22 pm
Dear Diary,Â
Today hasnât been very eventful. I came into work to try and finish some of my paperwork. Morgan and Spencer apparently had the same idea. Iâve been feeling so weird around Spencer lately. I canât quite put my finger on why. Usually I feel fine around him, he is my best friend after all. I think it may have something to do with the wet dream I had about him last nightâŠI canât quite shake it from-
âOkay! Thatâs enough!â Spencer shut the book harshly, his face beet red. Morgan looked at him with a wide grin.Â
âWhy wouldnât you keep reading? It was just gettinâ good!â He chuckled. Spencer glared at him. âWell, now we know she likes you.â Morgan smirked.Â
âThis doesnât prove anything! People have wet dreams about other people when they donât even like them, all the time!â Spencer almost screamed. Just then, Y/N came in through the large glass doors, letting out a loud sigh and stretching. She took one look at her desk and groaned.Â
âDerek Morgan, I told you to stop leaving your coffee on my desk!â She complained, grabbing it angrily. She looked over at the two, their faces covered in guilt. âWhat happened to you guys?â She questioned.Â
âNothing. Nothing at all!â Spencer yelled, awkwardly covering the journal with both his arms. Y/N walked towards them while chuckling.Â
âCome on guys, you look totally guilty. Whatâd you do?â She smiles at Morgan then looks over at Spencer, taking notice of the large lump under his arms. âWhatâs that? Did you accidentally buy erotica again?â She shook her head. She reached over to pry his arms away from the object. âI told you to stop-â Y/N cut myself off, staring at her own journal. Her face drained of any color and every feature on her face practically melted.Â
âY/N/N, Iâm so-â Spencer started.
âShut up.â She spit out. She tore her journal from him and slammed Morganâs coffee on his desk, causing it to spill everywmye. She practically ran back to her own desk and packed her things.Â
âY/L/N, it wasnât his fault. Iâm the one who-â Morgan tried to reason.Â
âI said shut the fuck up!â She screeched, her face red with anger and embarrassment. âI never thought you would do something like this to me. I trusted you with everything I had and you broke it like it was nothing.â She was crying now, looking between the two men. But all of them knew she was only really talking to Spencer.Â
âY/N, please-âÂ
âDonât ever talk to me again you fucking asshole!â She sobbed out before running to the elevator and making a fast exit. Morgan looked over at Spencer and his heart nearly broke. Spencer looked like a wounded puppy, his eyes were wide and filled with unshed tears. He looked frozen in place, he couldnât move a single inch. He begged any and every deity he could think of to make Y/N come back so he could explain. They hadnât listened to any of his pleas.Â
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Y/N lay in her living room on her large corner sofa. The TV was on, playing âGilmore Girlsâ very loudly. She hoped to drown out any thought she had with the noise. So far, it wasnât working.Â
She hadnât been to work in nearly a week, it was currently Saturday and no one had heard from her. She only called Hotch to tell him she wouldnât be in for a while, sick with the flu. She sure as hell couldnât admit that the real reason was because her crush read her diary. It felt stupid enough in middle school, she wasnât about to say it aloud to her own boss.Â
Everyone on the team was very worried, getting barely any information and zero replies from Y/N. Penny, Emily, Morgan and J.J had all come to her apartment on different occasions, begging to see her. She never let them in. The only thing she cared about was seeing Spencer, but at the same time, she never wanted to see him again. Funnily enough, Spencer was the only one who hadnât come over. Y/N was partially glad for this because she knew if he was at her door, she wouldnât be able to stop herself from opening it.Â
Spencer had of course sent about fifty-three text messages and made twenty-four phone calls to her. Once again, all of them were ignored. Spencer was the kind of person who liked to talk in person, apologize in person. All his text messages were him begging to talk to Y/N, to let him explain. None of them actually contained any excuses or apologies. She was clearly clueless on any reasoning he had, or how much he had read, because he didnât want to say any of it in a meaningless text. He had been waiting since Wednesday for the weekend to come rolling around. He planned to show up and explain everything, but he needed to make sure they had plenty of time to talk, hence the weekend.Â
Everyone on the team knew of his plan so they all refrained from going over themselves. They just hoped the two would figure everything out.Â
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Y/N had just gotten out of the shower when she heard a knock on her door. She rolled her eyes to herself and sighed, looking at the time.Â
âWhich one of them has the brilliant idea to come over at eight in the morning?!â She yelled to herself. She softly and slowly walked against the hardwood floor, careful not to make a single noise and alert whoever was behind the door. She wouldnât answer it but she at least wanted to know who it was this time.Â
âY/NâŠItâs me.â Spencerâs voice rang out and she froze. âI know youâre angry but I really need to talk to you. Please let me in.â His voice was pathetic and sad, cracking occasionally. Within seconds the door opened in front of him. There stood the girl heâs been dreaming of seeing all week. Her hair was soaking wet and so were her shoulders and arms. A towel was wrapped around her body tightly, showing off her figure. Spencer watched a single droplet of water pass down between the valley of her breasts.Â
âH-Hey.â Spencer choked out.Â
âHi.â Y/N greeted shyly.Â
âI need to talk to you.â
âSo I heard.â She nodded a little. âWhat about?âÂ
âYou know what aboutâŠâÂ
âOkay, fine. What specific part of that interaction would you like to discuss? What, did you just come over to make fun of me? To ridicule me for the way I feel? Did you come over here just to humiliate me even more?!â Y/Nâs voice raised the more she spoke.Â
âNo!â Spencer yelled, cutting her off. âI donât want to do any of that!â He sighed to himself. âIâŠI never should have read your diary. Morgan convinced me, and I know I should have reacted better, and not listened to him. He just kept telling me howâŠConvinient it would be. Iâve been scared to tell you how I really feel for the last two years. He told me that reading your diary would be the perfect way to see how you feel about me before I confessed and made an idiot of myself. I justâŠI had a weak moment and I hate that I hurt you in the process.â A couple tears fell from the corners of his eyes. âIâm soâŠSo sorry, Y/N/N.âÂ
She looked up at him with an expressionless face. Spencer looked back into her eyes with the saddest look on his face. He was about to ask her what she was thinking when she told him instead.Â
âDo you like me? Romantically?â She asked, voice monotone.Â
âOf course I do. I genuinely thought it was obvious, I can never stop how flustered I get around you. All Iâve dreamed about since we became friends is spending my life with you. Whether we spend it as best friends or more, I couldnât care less. I just want you with me every step of the wayâ Spencer spoke honestly.Â
âKiss me.â Y/N blurted out. Spencerâs eyes went wide.Â
âW-What?â He stuttered.Â
âPlease.â She breathed out. âKiss me.â Her eyes were heavy and clouded. Spencer was quick to reach down and grab the sides of her face in his hands, pushing their lips together roughly. Y/N whimpered the minute his lips touched her own. Just as fast as the kiss happened it turned sloppy. Spencerâs hands travelled down to her waist, gripping tightly. She had wrapped her arms around his neck, her breasts pushing up against his chest. Their tongues collided and twirled against each other.Â
âI love you, Spencer.â She whispered against his lips.Â
âI love you more, Y/N.â He sighed.
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Vash the Stampede vs. Trafalgar Law
Propaganda under cut:
Vash the Stampede:
He's just such a bleeding heart, has sad backstory with sad downsloped eyes and dramatic fashion sense. Loves too much and pays the price for it. Just so loveable, one determines he's babygirl on sight.
The 2023 version is more babygirl but his manga version is also very baby and very girl. Would put both images of him together since the design is different.
he's a blonde twunk with a slut waist and skank legs. and he's suffered more than jesus <3
pleeeeeease include a picture of maximum or 98 Vash and not just stampede Vash. theyre ALL babygirls, not just the stampede redesign. i wanna see his ugly ass broom hair on a poll too
He's simply THE baby girl, you know
Heâs the most wanted man on the planet and he serves CUNT doing it, especially in the original manga. Heâs also a biblically accurate angel-type-thing and an ace gunman who refuses to shoot back at the people who want his bounty :]
He's this super cool legendary gunman who terrifies everyone on the planet because he leaves destruction in his wake BUT it's not his fault because he's literally just chilling and everyone wants him dead for something he didn't do. He doesn't even like shooting people he just wants to maybe get some donuts and take a nice nap but nooo he walks into town and everyone decides "let's bullet hell this guy, cause massive property damage, and say it's his fault!" Also he's horrendously doomed by the narrative and the prettiest boy you ever did see. Look at those big ol blue eyes and tell me he's not babygirl. You'd be lying.
Trafalgar Law:
He thinks he's cool he wants other people to think he's cool sooooo bad but he's such a loser <3. He sent 100 pirates hearts to the navy and is an absolute weird little freak but then he also gets excited about ninjas and is heartbroken to learn that ninjas do not in fact say "nin nin" when he meets a real ninja. 26 years old and straight up getting into squabbles with a 19 year old (and a 23 year old also I guess). Gay little poses. Had to in the middle of a fight yell at Luffy to clarify that actually he was ALREADY going to do that and Luffy didn't need to tell him to bevause now it looks like he's following Luffy's orders which he WASN'T. OKAY? The non-canon one piece party also loves to make him so cringefail with him having a really bad sense of humor causing him to get into a competition with the strawhats which he completely fails at every part of and gives us the line "if it's a hawaiian shirt wearing competition i am confident". Also went through unimaginable horrors as a child that he didn't really start to properly recover from until like 13 years later. Also again he's so lame <3 boyloser <3
#the babygirl polls#ultimate babygirl tournament#round 3#vash the stampede#trigun#trigun maximum#trigun stampede#trafalgar law#one piece
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an artists muse- a viktor fic.
thirteen.
[twelve] [the end]
and both of them want the other to stay.
Staring in the mirror as your heart beats against your chest anxiously. Anxious but also hopeful as you wonder about the day ahead of you. Your fingers play with the ends of your black button up shirt that matches the slightly tight slacks that you bought last minute. As you had completely forgotten about the dress code until Ekko said something.Â
The only pop of brightness being on your face with the glittery gold eyeshadow upon your eyelids. Along with your light pink gloss that was kind of sticky as you pop your lips every now and then. A body comes up next to you and you force a smile, wiping the front of your shirt down. âReady?â You beam with a false positive tone. Something thatâs been so⊠frequent. Consistent, lately. Maybe you've been like this forever.Â
No oneâs that happy. Well, thatâs what everyone says but at some points in your life it was the truth. And nothing but the truth. âMm, to get made fun of? For sure. But Iâm so excited to see your masterpiece youâve somehow hid from everyone.â Gert nudges you with their shoulder before checking herself out in your mirror.Â
The door slams open, Powder tripping into the dorm room with sweat dripping down her forehead. âI canât find my bracelet!â She squeals and you raise a brow. âThe one on your wrist?â You cock your head to the side and she glances down at her skin and she closes her eyes. Collapsing to the ground. âIâve been looking for this thing for thirty minutes.â She grumbles causing you and Gert to laugh loudly.Â
She stands back up and eyes the two of you suddenly with a straight face. The two of you stiffen. âYou guys look hotâŠâ She murmurs, and you giggle, awing at her words. âYou are so pretty, Pow!â You exclaim, motioning to her outfit. A white blouse with a black pencil skirt. The dress code was white for guests. Black for the artists. It was a very last minute thing but a very cute concept.Â
âUgh, youâre going to make me blush.â Powder waves you away, pretending to be bashful. Gert scrunches her nose with a small chuckle. âWe should get heading to the building, I got a text from Mylo saying theyâre already there.â She speaks up and the two of you raise a brow at her. Gert rolls her eyes. âKnock it off, you know weâve been texting a little bit.â She shoves you into Powder.Â
âLosers! Weâre here!â You wave your arm in the air dramatically, feeling the cold breeze hit your face as your legs quickly move beneath you. Carrying you towards the large building with your two friends that all clinged onto one another. Claggor, Mylo and Ekko turn to see you three, hugging themselves as they shiver. âWeâre going to be late, [Name]. Letâs go!â Ekko ignores your words and your jaw slacks open. âWhy are you only acknowledging me, Gertâs gonna be late as well.â You pout your lips.Â
âItâs your fault and I know it, letâs go!â He grits his teeth against the cold, grabbing the both of you and hurrying inside. Not without blowing a kiss to his girlfriend in the process. She snickers, now in between her older brothers. Claggor shakes his head. âThey still have ten minutes.â He informs the blue-haired girl and she gazes up to him. âI know my boyfriend. Trust me, I know.â She leans into the bigger man. He wraps his arms around his sister.Â
âCâmon, thereâs a guest entrance where we can warm up.â Claggor leads the way, Mylo jogs ahead of them. âWhat are you doing?â Powder calls after him. âIâm cold! Iâm not gonna walk at that slow, turtle pace like you two!â He shouts.Â
And as they wait in line, buying their tickets as well as flowers for their friends, four bodies make their way over to them. Violet reaches over her little sister, snatching the bouquet of flowers in her hands. Powderâs face drops and she goes to lecture the person who did it but stops as she realizes who it is.Â
Violet roars into laughter, teasing the girl whoâs face turns a bright red. âOh, youâre so irritating!â Powder takes the bouquet back, gently shoving Vi who goes back to standing beside her girlfriend. âYeah. yeah. When do we go into the room?â Vi asks, stuffing her hands into her pockets. âFive minutes.â Claggor answers.Â
âWhy are you guys here?â Powder questions, her eyebrows furrowed at the four. Do they know people inside? Violet wouldnât come just for [Name] nor Ekko. As close as they used to be as children they donât speak much anymore. Either they know other people or theyâre here with Viktor. Something only Powder was told about in detail. She knows how close these four are with the man that somehow has [Name] wrapped around his finger.Â
âFlyers are all around campus. Canât we appreciate art like our peers around us?â Vi seems defensive with her answer. Caitlyn lets out a breath through her nose. âRightâŠ? Whereâs your fifth? The one with the cane?â Powder folds her arms, leaning on one leg. âOur fifth?â And now Vi just seems dumb as she attempts to act oblivious.Â
âViktor wasnât at his dorm, we assumed heâd be here.â Jayce butts into the conversation now. âHe isnât though, now we just decided to stay. See the art and judge everything.â He finishes. Powder still isnât truly convinced but before she can say anything else Mylo speaks. âYou want to see [Name]âs art too? Bitch has been hiding it from us like itâs some top secret. You havenât heard anything about it, have you?â He quizzes them, pointing at all four of them.Â
Mel and Caitlyn snicker, shaking their heads âno.â âSheâs keeping it a secret?â Jayce asks.Â
âYeah, I bet itâs not even that good. Acting all mysterious for no reason.â Mylo grunts, facing away from the group. âDonât get your panties in a twist, My.â Powder sighs. âThe doors are open, we can finally see what it is.â She points to the two people that look like professors standing by the heavy doors.Â
âOh, Iâm so seeing whatâs been taking up her time thatâs used to usually bake for me on Fridayâs.â Mylo stomps past the professors, quietly muttering for a hello to them. A glare is stuck across his face as he scans the room through all the sculptures for your specific style. But it quickly falls once he sees Gert beside her own art piece talking with Ekko and some other guy⊠Jealousy beats in his chest, he tries to swallow it down.Â
He doesnât even catch himself heading towards them, his heart racing. Someone stands in front of him, the girl he was originally searching for. âWanna see my sculpture now?â You grin, cheesing ear to ear as you know heâs feeling quite envious right now. And you feel like being an asshole to your close friend. He stands on his tiptoes as he tries to peak over you but you lean your head in the way.Â
âI asked you a question Mylooo!â You sing, grabbing his hand and dragging him away. His mouth opens to mutter something but nothing comes out. âYeah, sure.â He says in a distracted tone that was purposely disregarded.Â
The others were quickly behind the two of you, you notice the group talking behind you so you stop. âVi? What are you guys doing here!?â You inquire with a smile laced upon your lips. âThey say theyâre here to appreciate their peers' art.â Powder chimes in with a smart ass tone. Vi gave her a look immediately.Â
âYeah, aha⊠We noticed the flyers and I remembered you did sculpting. Had to come support.â Violet lies and you knew she was but you didnât comment on it. âWell, I hope you enjoy what you see! Come find me when you see mine! Just remembered I have to go talk to my professor, see ya!â You found yourself growing nervous at the sight of Viktorâs friends. Almost embarrassed. You chirp a swift goodbye, letting go of Mylo and hurriedly walking away from the group.Â
You wished you had asked them where Viktor was but in the same breath that wouldâve been horrible. Doing it in front of everyone. Youâd get teased for days by Powder.Â
The group all look at one another, sort of shrugging your behavior off. All now searching for your sculpture.Â
You genuinely did have to talk to your professor, that part wasnât a lie but it was definitely an excuse to get away from the group.Â
The seven search through each note, waiting until they spot your initials or your name. It was taking too long, anticipation filling their every nerve. Powder got too annoyed and decided to separate from the group, heading to her boyfriend and just leeching onto him. He had already shown her his sculpture.Â
âIs that her initials?â Mel points to the paper in front of a rather large sculpture, it was almost teasing the others because of what the creation was. It took them this long to spot it as well. It felt like a slap to the face.Â
Mylo lets out a snort, covering his mouth. âI shouldâve guessed.â He admires his friendâs work. Jayce and Vi stand beside one another with knowing smiles. Claggor presses his lips together tightly as Mel and Caitlyn awe and coo at it. Mel picks up the paper that explains the muse. The others hurdled around her as they read it.Â
âWhat are you guys reading?â A voice startles them, Mel instantly placing the paper back down on the table. All of them stand in front of the sculpture. Hiding it from him. Do they know why theyâre hiding it? Not really. âOh heyyy Viktor!â Jayce drags out his words, fear adorning his face along with the others that stand on either side of him. âHi, Jayce.â Viktor eyes him up and down, glancing at the five other figures.Â
âOh my gosh, is that Gertâs sculpture, we should go see that guys.â Mylo points to a random area in the room. The others gasp, even though the four do not have a single clue who Gert is. Going along with the shorter boyâs words. âYeah, we definitely should.â Caitlyn encourages, pushing her girlfriend ahead. All of them scurrying away like blind mice.Â
Viktor watches them with a scrunched expression, rolling his eyes and looking ahead at what they were hiding. And once his eyes land on it his mouth opens. Eyes dilating at the sight before him.Â
âYour sculpture seems to be quite popular tonightâŠâ Your professor softly speaks, bowing their head over to your sculpture. You let out a small gasp, your gaze locked on his figure that stood alone in front of what you made. âHe seems awfully familiar.â They whisper before stepping away from you.Â
You lift your shoulders, shimmying them slightly to shake away the anxiety that grew. Carefully walking to him. You can hear everyoneâs chatter around you. Every noise echoing off the tall walls of the gymnasium. âDo you⊠like it?â You heard yourself speak but you donât actually understand how youâre doing it. His focus doesnât turn to you. Stuck on whatâs in front of him.Â
âI donât know if I got your nose quite right. I had to go off memory though so, you get what you get I guess. Did you feel me staring at you in class? Cause thatâs like all I did-â Your voice is cut off by a stifled laugh coming from the boy beside you. âWhat?â You worriedly ask. âDid I weird you out?â You tilt your head and he finally looks over at you.
Smiling, speechless. âYou⊠are something.â He huffs, running a hand through his hair. âIâm your muse?â He changes the subject and you purse out your lips. âI think you always have been.â You answer, going up to your sculpture, touching the copy of Viktorâs face that was partially covered by a crescent moon. All the imperfections of the moon perfectly sculptured. The craters and bumps that showed.Â
âYou and the moon. The way you talked about the moon, putting it into perspective for me. How you can talk about it is how I can talk and feel about you.â You avoid his gaze. Your note that explained your muse was much more simplified to how you actually felt. He knew that too as you seemed to be holding back even now.Â
âHow the moon is lit by the sun, getting to see its imperfections. The sun doesnât care, doesnât see it as imperfections. Still shining brightly upon it. The moon has its dark side, something the sun never truly gets to see. No matter how hard it tries. But from earth⊠you can. If you try hard enough.â You explain, loud enough for Viktor to hear.Â
âI always thought of you as my sun. I think you might be my Earth though.â You admit to him. âI thought the sun was what motivated the moon. But itâs the Earth, the gravitational pull that keeps it stuck around. Not caring for the brightness or the dark. They need one another. Whether theyâd like to admit it or not.â You finally turn to face him. His face was in a softened expression as he limped toward you. Taking your hands. Dropping his cane.Â
Your eyes widened and you wanted to drop down to get it but he stopped you. It didnât work though as you swiftly took it. He unexpectedly pulls you to a quiet section of the gym away from others, he forces you to lean the cane onto the wall. You were more worried about it than its owner who needed it.
âThat was either the corniest, cheesiest thing anyone has ever said or the most romantic thing said to me.â Viktor teases you and your teeth bare as you make a face, ultimately agreeing with him. âYeah, it definitely was.â You pick at your bottom lip awkwardly.Â
âYouâre my moon. If weâre talking about this- seriously, I used to think of you as my sun. Perfectly no matter what. Iâm filled with imperfections but I never thought the same for you. I still donât.â He informs you and you grin up at him. âWhyâd you stop speaking to me for so long then. I mean I understand, I deserved it no doubt. I just, if you felt that way for me..?â You question him, your hands loosen, nervous that heâs going to want to let go but he grips tighter, his thumb gently wiping back and forth over your knuckles.Â
âI was scared that the one person I thought could never do anything wrong thought of me the way everyone else did when I was younger. When those messages were sent years ago. My heart sank and I was devastated. I shouldâve let you explain but I was blinded by a pain Iâve never felt before.â His voice broke just thinking back to that time of your lives and the guilt still washing over you.
âAnd I then met youâ again, you felt familiar and I enjoyed your company. I enjoyed your presence and everything about it. To find out that you were the person who hurt me so deeply. Who made it so hard for me to trust people again. I needed the time to process it all.â Viktor was sincere with his words. You listened intently.Â
âDuring the time I had. I realized that you were willing to fight still. To wait for me. You never stopped thinking about what happened. someone who truly intended to hurt me would never do that. They also wouldnât sculpt my face by memory.â He reminds you and you let out a small giggle. âI also realized I was utterly, limitlessly and irrevocably in love with you.â Viktor declares.Â
âTalk about corny.â You raise your brows but you canât hide the tears that weld in your eyes. He hums. âIt was quite corny⊠but it is the truth.â He quiets and you stare at him. Your eyes travel all around his face. You bit the inside of your cheeks, thinking. Your mind is spiraling on what to say. This is all youâve ever wanted. This was never what you expected though. Especially tonight.Â
And as you pick your own confession two arms wrap around the both of you. âYou two seem to be friendly again!â Jayce proudly states, squishing the two of you together. âYeahâŠâ You nod your head. Violet clapped her hands excitedly but Mel and Caitlyn both pinch the bridges of their noses. âYou two are idiots.â Caitlyn grumbles.Â
âWhat?â Jayce and Violet falter and you smile over at Viktorâs annoyed face. âLetâs go.â Mel grabs her boyfriend by his shirt and heâs still confused, repeatedly asking what until his girlfriend whispers in his ear.
His face drops and his head snaps over to the two who were now walking back to your sculpture. âIâm such a dumbass!â He cries.Â
The rest of the night, you spend with everyone. Of course looking over to Viktor numerous times throughout the night as each of your friends seemed to have been taking turns pulling you further and further away from him.
You mouthed an apology and that youâll talk later as you got separated. He shrugged his shoulders, telling you it was alright.
Inside though⊠it was far from alright. He needed you near him. To finish that conversation from before. Something about it just didnât feel⊠done.Â
Viktor finds himself sitting outside upon a stone bench that the college had recently put in. He leans back, staring up at the sky. The clouds covered the one thing he was hoping to see. His cane rests between his legs. It was cold outside but unlike his friends he had brought a jacket. His nose still felt like ice nonetheless.Â
You noticed Viktor missing from the group. Excusing yourself from the conversation you were in the middle of you walked to the halls first. Only seeing a couple eating each others faces and three people sitting on the ground.
You then go outside, the doors loudly opening as you push them against the wind. It almost knocked the air out of you as you stepped out.
You wandered for a little bit until you spot him. Sitting alone and staring at the cloudy, dark sky that was still brightly lit by the moon.
âOut here all alone?â You plop down beside him and he looks at you, confused on why youâre out here. âShouldnât you be with everyone else?âÂ
âI could ask you the same thing.â You lean your head onto his shoulder, he smiles down at you before looking back up to the sky.
And to his surprise the clouds moved to reveal what he had been wishing to see.Â
âMm, it got stuffy in there. Wanted some fresh air.â He mumbles. âMakes sense.âÂ
You closed your eyes, letting this moment sink in. Hearing the sounds of the wind blow against the trees. Viktorâs calm breathing. And your own heartbeat that felt like it was going to explode with giddiness.
You ignored the coldness that was quickly covering around you. Goosebumps erupting throughout your skin.Â
âI love you too, I hope you know that.â You suddenly say, cutting through the comfortable silence. A smile ghosts his lips. âI know.â He assures you.
THE END! teehee.
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A LOOK AT STYLE'S JOURNEY | Ep 6
(Overview | Ep1+2 | Ep3 | Ep4 | Ep5)
I meant to post this on January 1st since we didn't get a new episode that day, but then I got distracted making gifsets and writing other meta. Oh, and I was also busy finally watching the show with my mother. Whoops. But my thoughts on episode 6 are finally here! ENJOY <3
Pronoun situation: As usual, just assume they use the rude guu/mueng with each other unless I point out a significant pronoun switch.
To recap: Style has spent all of last episode coming to terms with the fact that he was falling in love with someone who regularly kills people. By the end of the episode he has come to a conscious decision that he wants to be with Fadel no matter what. Fadel ends up spending the night in Style's bed where they have a significant conversation about trust before they make love. "Making love", because love is finally most definitely involved in the act.
No. 1: Morning Cardio
It's the morning after and probably the very first morning in their relationship that they wake up together. They bicker and Style finally gets his morning cardio in. All is good, all is well, everyone is happy, no one is sad. I desperately try to repress any memories of how this episode ends in order to get through this scene without sobbing. I end up crying anyway as I think about how the first time they hooked up Fadel abandoned Style on the floor of a cold, dark room after punching him in the gut and now Fadel is lying on top of Style, cuddling and kissing him in a warm room filled with the brightest sunshine.
Anyway, so Fadel wakes up Style who really doesn't want to get up yet. Fadel chides Style for not setting an alarm. But Style won't lie there and get scolded again and so he immediately scolds Fadel back: "I told you to hold back and you didnât listen to me, either." And since everyone loves the language tidbits so much, here is the literal translation of the "I told you to hold back" part:
Last night I told you to stop àčàžĄàž·àčàžàžàž·àžàžàčàž° àžàžčàžàžàžàčàž«àčàžĄàž¶àžàž«àžąàžžàž [mĂȘuua keun - Ă h âą guu - bĂČk - hĂąi mueng - yĂčt] last night - [particle] âą I - tell - for you to - stop
As grumpy as Style is about being woken up and having to get out of bed, there's a lot of amusement in his voice when he says this and his facial expression is also warm as he looks at Fadel. But then he closes his eyes again and immediately goes back to being a little morning grump as he dramatically laments that his body is sore and that he oh so sadly can't go to work. Fadel is now so relaxed around Style that he finally starts cracking jokes and playing along with Style's antics, offering to take Style to the hospital while trying to scoop Style up bridal style (haha. style. đ€) in order to take him just there. But it's too early in the day for these games and Style really does not wanna leave the bed just yet. And so he impatiently complains about Fadel trying to carry him, and then explains: "I was just being overdramatic." In Thai, the word that was translated as "overdramatic" is àžȘàžłàžàžàžą [sÄm-oi] which my native speaker friend defined as "pretending to be weak about something" and explained that it's a negative word that is mostly used to make sarcastic remarks. That would certainly fit with Style's slight morning grumpiness. I also looked up the word on thai2english which defines the word as following:
[to] look for sympathy (by acting excessively sad or crying)
Style wasn't exactly crying when he complained about his body being sore, but he sure was looking for sympathy. So he clarifies that he was only pretending and that Fadel didn't need to maneuver him out of bed and then goes on to say: "I know youâre like a block of walking ice, but you should learn to read between the lines." In Thai Style uses the word àžàžČàžŁàžĄàžàč [ah-rom] here which translates to "mood" or "feeling" or "emotion":
An ice wall like you should learn to read other people's mood/emotions. àžàžłàčàžàžàžàčàžłàčàžàčàžàčàžàžàžĄàž¶àžàžàčàž°àž«àž±àžàžàčàžČàžàžàžČàžŁàžĄàžàčàžàžàžàž·àčàžàžàčàžČàž [gam-paeng nĂĄam kÄeng - bĂ ep - mueng - Ă h - hĂ t - Ă an - aa-rom - kon Ăšun - bĂąang] ice wall - like - you - [particle] - practice - read - mood, emotion - others - some
And Style's current mood is "staying in bed" and "wanting to be babied". The message finally reaches Fadel and he pushes Style back onto the pillow. He props himself up above Style and comes back to what Style was saying about his muscles being sore. "They say we should hit it right where it hurts. Itâs like exercising. Thatâs how your body builds stronger muscles." Style responds with a challenge: "Thanks for the trivia, but I donât see why youâre telling me this." In Thai he actually phrases it like a question:
[...] but what are you telling me this for? àčàžàčàžàžàžàžàžčàčàžàž·àčàžàžàž°àčàžŁàčàžàž”àčàžą [dtĂ e - bĂČk - guu - pĂȘuua Ă -rai - nĂźia] but - tell - I/me - what for, why - [particle]
(Alt. translation: But why are you telling me this?)
I personally prefer it phrased as a question because it makes the challenge a little more direct. With the exception of rhetorical questions, a question encourages a response. With Style phrasing it like a question, Fadel is pretty much obliged to respond because a question is expected to be followed by an answer. And the answer is? "You need to exercise daily."
Fadel leans down and starts pampering Style with kisses. By now Style's morning grumpiness has faded away completely and is replaced by contentment instead as the lyrics "And now I'm yours / All yours, baby / Now I'm yours" play. Now they are officially each other's. They are officially in love.
No. 2: Awkward Encounters
Unexpectedly, Style's dad returns from his fishing trip just in time to catch Fadel leaving the garage. Style walks in on his dad having a very awkward interview with Fadel and comes to Fadel's rescue. By now Style is much more awake and in a considerably brighter mood than he was right after waking up. His dad immediately starts teasing him about Fadel, but Style isn't having it. He shoots his dad down by calling Fadel his "friend" (part of me wonders if he does that because maybe Fadel and Style haven't really discussed how open/official they wanna be with their relationship outside their inner circle of KB/FS and he doesn't just wanna drop the news to his dad without checking in with Fadel first), he lets his dad know he is being embarrassing and then gently sends Fadel away, releasing him from this very uncomfortable situation that he was suddenly trapped in. And I just adore the way Style stares after Fadel, watching him leave without tearing away his gaze:
Even when his dad starts making a teasing sound, Style takes a moment to fully process that his dad is talking to him while he himself is too busy looking at Fadel and having his attention and thoughts fully on his boyfriend. It's only when his dad starts speaking properly that Style finally turns his head towards him. His dad continues to tease him but even with Fadel gone, Style still isn't in the mood for it and quickly changes the topic to his dad's fishing tip. And their ensuing banter is very endearing because you can just clearly tell how important Style's dad is to him and how much they genuinely like each other. And a little detail I also love is how Style's dad wears a vest similar to the one Style wears later in this episode.
(Btw, y'all, Style stares after Fadel for so long that I had to go with using only every 3rd frame to make the gif fit in the 8mb size limit. That's how long Style stares for jgkdkjfdg)
Side quest: To Play or Not to Play
Now, if you read my previous metas and especially my ep3 meta you'll know that I've been arguing for Style not actually being into sleeping around all that much. Now, you could take Style's dad asking Fadel "Are you his one-time thing or are you taking him seriously?" as confirmation that Style is a player after all. However, I still don't think so. First of all, I'm not gonna believe it until Style has said it himself and even more importantly his actions and behavior also convince me otherwise (considering how many lies all the characters in this series constantly tell) and second of all, I'm not sure Style's dad himself actually knows whether his son sleeps around or not. After all, this is the same man who only the other week said "I forgot you like men". And also the way he was so surprised about seeing an unfamiliar face coming out of his house lets me think that Style usually doesn't have any random over-night visitors. Not to mention his dad being surprised about Style's type ("Oh, well, whoâd have guessed thatâs your type?").
And all that isn't to say Style never has a one-night stand. I'm just saying, I don't think it happens on a regular basis. As I said in my ep3 meta, I think Style makes very deliberate choices of who he sleeps with and that is also confirmed in episode 5 when Style mentions how his dad tried to set him up with some mechanics but Style wanted to be able to choose for himself. If Style does have one-night stands, it seems like he either never brings them home or he simply just doesn't sleep around often enough for his dad to be in any way used to it. Personally, I think it's the latter. I think Style gets picky about who he sleeps with, because to him sex matters (as discussed in my ep4 meta as well).
Oh, and also in Thai the dad uses the expression àž«àž„àžàžàžàž±àž [lĂČk fan] which is a colloquial phrase which my native speaker friend explained as "to trick someone into sex". And by the way, Style himself uses that exact expression in episode 4 at the Rise Up meeting when he bitches about getting nailed and bailed. And now I'm a bit angry at myself that I felt too awkward to ask about this phrase back when I was writing my ep4 meta, because the "tricking" connotation of this phrase definitely adds some nuance to Style's anger in episode 4. But coming back to episode 6, I think Style's dad isn't necessarily saying this because of his son's potential love life habits and it's more him being a bit of a protective dad who wants to make sure the people his son keeps company with aren't gonna cause heartbreak to his son.
No. 3: Make the Most of It
Style and Kant meet for a drink and Kant gets right to the point: "If they really decided to carry out their operation tomorrow, and got arrested by Captain, what should we do?" Style doesn't like the thought of Fadel (and Bison) being arrested and suggests a solution: "Let's stop them." Kant reminds him that he can't just walk up to Bison and outright tell him to abandon the mission and Style agrees that Kant would not make it out of that situation alive. "Unless you leave him right now", Style says. Or more literally:
Unless you get out of his life from now on. àžàžàžàžàžČàžàžĄàž¶àžàžàž°àžàžàžàžàžČàžàžàž”àž§àžŽàžàčàžàžàž±àžàžàž±àčàžàčàžàčàžàžàžàžàž”àč [nĂŽk jĂ ak - mueng - jĂĄ - ĂČhk jĂ ak - chii-wĂt - Bison - dtĂąng-dtĂ e - dton-nĂi] apart from, except - you - will - depart, leave - life - Bison - since, from - (right) now
It's not like the literal translation is a big difference from the official translation, but I just thought "leave his life" sounds more dramatic and I'm sure some of you will appreciate this little tidbit of info as well.
Style doesn't know if Kant can simply just just get out of Bison's life or not but what Style does know is that he himself certainly can't just drop out of Fadel's life to never see him again: "But as for me, Iâm getting kinda attached to Fadel". Or what he actually says:
But to be honest, I've already begun to worry about Fadel. àčàžàčàčàžàžČàžàžŁàžŽàžàč àžàžčàčàžŁàžŽàčàžĄàčàžàčàžàž«àčàž§àžàžàžČàčàžàž„àčàž„àčàž§àžàž° [dtĂ e - ao jing jing âą guu - rĂȘum - bpen hĂčuang - Fadel - lĂĄew - nĂĄ] but - honestly, seriously - I - begin - be worried - Fadel - already - [particle]
Thai doesn't have verb tenses, so I think a possible translation would also be "I'm beginning to worry about Fadel". Personally, I think present perfect tense is more fitting, since last episode Style already told Kant "Iâm beginning to worry about him now", which â something I missed it in my ep5 meta in my hurry to finish before episode 6 dropped and have since added to the post â but what Style says in reality in episode 5 is:
I'm worrying about him now. àžàžàžàžàž”àčàžàžčàčàžàčàžàž«àčàž§àžàžàžČàčàžàž„àčàž„àčàž§àž§àčàž° [dton-nĂi - guu - bpen hĂčuang - Fadel - lĂĄew - wĂą] now - I - be worried - Fadel - already - [particle]
(Alt. translation: I'm worried about him now.)
In episode 5 Style says nothing about "beginning to" worry, no, in episode 5 he clearly states that he is already worrying about Fadel and so I think it makes sense to interpret his statement in episode 6 as "I've started to worry about Fadel", since it's something that began in the past (episode 5) and is still ongoing as of this point.
Anyway, so Style questions if Kant would be able to get out of Bison's life and lets him know I myself can't get out of Fadel's life now that I've started to worry about him. We immediately see proof of his worry as he practically begs Kant to hurry up with getting the boss behind everything arrested so that this mess can finally come to an end. And once again we see that Style is quite the optimist: "Those two will be free, and we can go on with our lives."
I think it's not just optimism that led Style to say this words, but also bit of wishful thinking and most importantly, a lot of hope. He is well aware that the situation is messy and difficult, but he still hopes, hopes for the best, hopes for a happy ending for them all. There's gotta be a way, right? If Captain Christ only wants their boss, then everything will be fine, right? But Kant reminds him of the bitter reality: "You think Captain would let them walk? They kill people for a living. If they ainât shot dead on the spot, theyâd at least get a life sentence."
I think deep down Style already knew this, but actually hearing it out loud hits different. I think it's only now that it truly sinks in for him that it will likely be the very last time he'll get to spend time with Fadel. Style sinks back into the bench, looking miserable. Kant moves over to Style's bench to comfort him: "We can only make the most of what we have now." For once, Style isn't in the mood to talk. He grabs his drink, clinks cans with Kant, and they both try to wash away their worries with beer. It's not helping. Style stares dejectedly into the air.
No. 4: Please Don't Be Mad
(Side note: in my ep3 meta I couldn't quite tell if Style went to the bar to purposely seek out Fadel or not, and well, I have my answer now hahaha)
Just like Style already mentioned to Kant and to us, him and Fadel are spending their evening at the heavy metal bar. Fadel tells him that this is the first time that he didn't come to the bar alone and Style tells him "Happiness shared is happiness doubled". Style is serious, he really means it. He is here because he wants Fadel to be happy, wants them to be happy together. Fadel makes heart eyes at him. Style gives a little smile back. Fadel gets the tickets. The ticket seller informs them that the band will be playing for the last time. Style looks serious again. The band isn't the only one having a last time. The ticket seller continues: "Itâs gonna be a memorable night." Style looks towards the ground. This hits different for him. "Youâre right," he finally says, "for me, tonight is certainly going to be a memorable night." And again, his tone is serious. His words hold a certain weight to them, he really means what he says with all his heart. Then he looks at Fadel. Style was speaking to the ticket seller as he was saying this, but really, it's a message to Fadel. I'm going to remember this night, he says, I'm going to remember you. Style may not be able to tell Fadel about how this will potentially be their last night together, but at least he can be honest about his feelings. This night matters to Style, and it matters a lot. The knowledge of this possibly being a goodbye weighs on him and we can tell by the way just how serious Style has been throughout this short sequence. Not the loud, bubbly boy that we've all grown to love. I think Fadel can also tell that something is off about Style, because he raises his eyebrows at him and stares at him quizzically for a moment before he turns to enter the bar. Style follows him.
Once inside, Style is looking rather tense. There is something on his mind that he needs to confess but that he struggle to say. In the end it does burst out of him. "I donât really like heavy metal," he shouts in the middle of a heavy metal bar. It makes for a funny moment, but Style is clearly distraught. Fadel says he already knew that and Style is relieved that Fadel isn't angry. Now, I've had some thoughts about this.
I'm not sure this confession was really about Style's music preferences at all. It kinda reminds me of how, remember episode 5 of Bad Buddy when Pat "confessed" to Ink, but it wasn't really about his feelings for her at all but rather Ink and that confession served as a stand-in so that he could get the weight off his chest without having to open the real can of worms? Yeah, I think we have something somewhat similar happening here. Now I do very much think Style was absolutely telling the truth when he said he doesn't like heavy metal music. After all, we did see him jamming out to a song that was very much not heavy metal music, so the content of his confession definitely wasn't a lie. But I do think it served as a bit of a stand in for all the things Style CAN'T confess to right now. And there is a lot that Style could and should and probably also kind of wants to be confessing to: the fact that he knows of what Fadel does, the fact that Kant has informed the police of Fadel and Bison's next mission, the fact that said police will be awaiting the brothers there, the fact that this will likely be Style and Fadel's very last night together. Not to mention the fact that Style hit on him for a car before he fell in love for real. But as Kant pointed out earlier that day when they were having a drink together... It's not like they can just walk up to the brothers and just say it. The brothers are killers after all. And in a way, I think Style's confession serves not just as an attempt to be more honest with Fadel but also as a way to assess how Fadel will react if he learns that Style actively lied to him.
Style looks almost a bit too upset and guilty for it to be just about his music preferences after the truth is out of his mouth.
The situation is a bit awkward, because he ends up yelling it loudly in a room full of heavy metal fans, but I don't think he really cares about that more than a whoops in this moment, because what really matters is: "Youâre not mad at me, are you?" There is so much urgency to it, his expression kind of pleading:
I'm sorry that I wasn't being honest with you. You're not mad at me, right? You're not mad that I lied to you, right? Please don't be angry with me. Style is so very stressed about this. Fadel's reaction is important.
And Fadel? Is not angry that Style lied. In fact, to Style's surprise, Fadel actually already knew the truth about him (foreshadowing, anyone? đ). Style is veeery relieved about this:
àžĄàž¶àžàčàžĄàčàčàžàžŁàžàžàčàž° àžàžčàžàčàžȘàžàžČàžąàčàžàčàž„àčàž§ [mueng - mĂąi - grĂČht - Ă h âą guu - gĂŽr - sĂ -baai jai - lĂĄew] you - not - angry - [particle] âą I - [sentence link] - happy, pleased - already
In the subtitles Style says "All I want to know is that youâre not mad at me" here. I checked the original line with a native speaker friend who translated it as "You're not mad, then I'm relieved" (and if you put the Thai line into Google Translate it also spits out "If you're not angry, I'll be relieved") which I think matches what Dunk is portraying here through his body and his facial expression a lot better. However, the official English translation summarizes the whole point of the confession very nicely: all Style wants to know is how Fadel will react to the fact that Style actively lied to him and he's desperately hoping that Fadel won't be angry to find out the truth.
And then Fadel isn't angry. And tells him that he wants to see the real Style. Style tilts his head at him, not looking entirely convinced despite the huge relief just now. There is still a lot Style is currently keeping from Fadel, things that are a much bigger deal than his music preferences. Style is still keeping truths from Fadel, still lying to him. And then Fadel drops: "But still, liars should be punished." This has Style genuinely stressed again. There is almost a bit of fear in his voice when he inquires what the punishment will be as he reluctantly lets Fadel drag him away. Style now knows that Fadel won't be angry at him for lying, but there will be consequences (a punishment) (again: will this be foreshadowing? đ).
No. 5: Fake Fan
Turns out Fadel's punishment isn't all that scary after all, even if Style isn't too hyped about it. Nevertheless, he patiently sits there and lets Fadel paint his face without stopping him. But no matter his patience, Style still can't let Fadel do this without at least a verbal protest. He points out that that Fadel isn't wearing face paint either and is almost kind of offended. YOU aren't wearing any so why are you making ME do it? Style then questions if Fadel even has the skills for what he's doing. Unlike before, Fadel now easily gives up information about himself to Style without hesitation: "I used to wear the same makeup as my favorite band."
A major running theme that we've had going on over several episodes now is how Style keeps trying to get Fadel to loosen up and to have fun. We saw this happening in episode 1 already when Style tried to get Fadel to play along when he made him get the pin off his shirt himself (which actually happened even before Kant made Style hit on Fadel). We saw it in episode 2 when Style pretended they were on a cooking show and provided commentary while Fadel was preparing a customer's food. We saw it in episode 3, when Style follows Fadel to the heavy metal bar for the first time and tried to get Fadel to party and to scream a little. We saw it in episode 5 when Style convinced Fadel to wear the matching couple shirts, pulled him into a dance, and even got him to sing karaoke. And what's more, we've also seen Style trying to get Fadel to socialize. And yeah, of course a lot of what Style was saying and implying about Fadel doing things with Style specifically he said because he was actively hitting on Fadel, but I do think he genuinely meant it when he said things like "But some things are better done together" (episode 2, sports field) or "Howâd [having a good time all by yourself] even work? You need someone to 'scream' with" (episode 3, heavy metal bar).
So Style has been trying to coax Fadel out of his shell pretty much since the beginning, has been trying to get him to just enjoy life, has been trying to pull him out of his loneliness. And he's doing it again here: the moment Style learns of Fadel's old hobby, Style immediately suggests Fadel paints his face too. Matching make-up for the two of them. It's something that Fadel clearly enjoys and also they'll do it together. Obviously. Because some things are better done together. And happiness shared is happiness doubled. But Fadel refuses, because he never lets anyone see him with band make-up on.
Edit: There is so much going on here in this scene that I totally forgot to mention a very important language note (and I'm really mad at myself that I didn't catch my mistake before publishing this meta): the word for make-up/putting make -up on is àčàžàčàž [dtĂ eng] which also means "to marry". So when Style says "Then you should put some makeup on, too" it actually also sounds like he is saying "Will you marry me, then?", which is why Fadel suddenly stops and looks up at him. Make of that double meaning what you will đ€
After that we get even more running themes: only moments ago Fadel said "I want to see the real you", but this is something that goes vice versa for Style as well. In episode 5 he told Fadel "I promise that no matter who you are, Iâll still like you" and while this was mostly in reference to Fadel's secret hitman identity, this sentiment counts for everything else about Fadel too. And if Fadel enjoys wearing his favorite band's make-up, then Style will also like him for that. Style wants see Fadel's real him and he wants Fadel to be the real him, to live the real him. "How long are you going to live someone elseâs life?"
And it's not just that. After episode 5 I was discussing the double date scene with @secriden in our DMs and she talked about how Style was giving Fadel a safe space to participate in all that socializing by being even sillier than Fadel so that Fadel didn't have to be embarrassed about dancing silly dances or wearing silly couple shirts. And I think the very same thing is going on here. Fadel never lets the public see his painted face, whether it's out of fear or embarrassment or something else. And Style offers for them to wear matching make-up. "Try just being someone you want to be," he says, "Weâll do it together." Fadel isn't alone in this, Style is right here, by his side, with him. A safe space. "Thereâs nothing to be afraid of." Not if Fadel is with Style. Style will support whoever Fadel is underneath his thick, icy walls no matter what. Style is set on it. And tonight, potentially their very last night together, Style will gladly wear make-up for Fadel and Fadel will wear make-up too for his own happiness. They'll do it together and there is nothing to fear when Style is with him. Well? How about it?
Fadel is quiet. He lets Style grab his face and paint on him. Style gives Fadel an encouraging nod, like See? It's not that bad. It's not that scary. I'm right here with you. Be happy. Be you. I love you.
Now, the tear tracks that Style draws on Fadel's face are obviously foreshadowing to how this episode is going to end with Fadel crying because of Style's "betrayal". But honestly, the very first time I watched it? This foreshadowing went right over my head. Admittedly, I was also running on just 3h of sleep that day because I'd been up all night finishing my ep5 meta so I could post it before the new episode dropped and took a 3h nap around noon, so that might have also been a factor in that, but yeah, it totally didn't occur to me that the episode could end in Fadel's real tears (not sure if that made the last scene better or worse tbh). No, the thought that I had instead while watching the episode for the first time was: "Are those the tears that Fadel never got/gets to cry?" And to be honest, I do hope later down the line we'll get a scene where Fadel finally lets it all out, let's out all the pain from all the trauma(s) he's been through while Style is right by his side, supporting him through it, is there for him. Because they'll do this together and Style will always be ready to happily offer and create a safe space for Fadel, just like he did in episode 5 when he was asking Fadel about his parents or when he was trying to get Fadel to let lose and dance a little in the bowling alley or now when he's offering to wear matching make-up with Fadel. And when Fadel cries (and I hope he will cry, and not just from Style's "betrayal"), then Style will offer a safe space for Fadel to cry in, too.
No. 6: (Bitter)Sweet Happiness
Both in make-up, they now proceed to have the time of their lives at the concert, smiling the brightest smiles. They even get to take selfies with the band. Fadel is happy, and so is Style. I think this may actually be the most carefree we've seen Fadel in the entire series so far and it's all thanks to Style.
After the concert they end up standing by a glass window. "Thanks for coming with me," Fadel says and Style looks at him with the warmest, most loving, most adoring expression.
Of course Style accompanied him here. He had promised Fadel in episode 3 already that he would make Fadel 'scream' at some point (that is to have fun, basically) and now they're both here, Fadel is having a good time, and Style is happier and more in love than he could ever have imagined. Fadel continues his little thank you speech: "If it werenât for you, Iâd probably have sat alone over there." Style knows this very well. He saw him sit all by himself last time, refusing to have fun with Style. He saw Fadel stand by himself in the crowd. And even then he was of the opinion that "Youâre supposed to have fun with your friends at a place like this". And now Fadel is here. Having fun with him. And there is absolutely no need for Fadel to thank Style, because just getting to see Fadel smile makes Style happy already.
However, as the night is coming to an end the happiness Style has been feeling is overshadowed by the knowledge of what is about to happen next. It's overshadowed by the knowledge that this is almost certainly the last time they'll get to spend time with each other like this. "You wanna come over tonight?" Style asks, "I want to cuddle you to sleep." He doesn't want this night to end. He wants to hold on to Fadel just a little longer, wants to hold him for as long as possible before all of this is over. And best case-scenario, he also manages to stop Fadel from going on the mission like he suggested when he was getting drinks with Kant.
He looks at Fadel with hopeful eyes. But Fadel declines. Style's dad is home and besides, Fadel's got work tomorrow. Work? This has Style listening up. He seizes the opportunity, just like he did back in episode 5 on the floor of the garage. He starts subtly grilling Fadel: "Grocery shopping? Iâll help." Which, by the way, is actually: "The market? I can go with you."
àžàž„àžČàžàž«àžŁàž àčàžàž”àčàžąàž§àžàžčàčàžàžàčàž§àžąàčàžàčàžàž° [dtĂ -lĂ at - rĆr âą dÄieow - guu - bpai - dĂ»uay - d^^ai - nĂĄ] market - ? âą moment - I - go - too, with - can - [particle]
And that makes me cry a little, because the market one of their spots by now. Like, of course Style would gladly go to the market with Fadel. But Fadel isn't going to the market. He tells Style he's doing something else. But Style already knows exactly what Fadel is doing and where he's going. Once again Style tries to get Fadel to spill the truth: "Youâre doing a lot of second jobs, arenât you? What else do you do besides working as a host? You can tell me. I wonât judge." I promise you I won't judge you for being a hitman. I already know this and I'm cool with it. And if you would just SAY it out loud already then I could tell you not to go through with the mission tomorrow. Then I could keep you by my side just a little longer. Please tell me. Style looks at Fadel with big eyes, full of hope and encouragement.
But Fadel does not say what Style wants him to say. Style is disappointed.
He leans back against the glass wall, upset. In the gif on the right it actually almost looks like he could start crying any moment now:
Fadel is confused, but amused, assuming Style is probably just being his usual overdramatic self. He laughs and asks Style what's wrong. Style side-eyes him, still upset and pouting.
This is potentially the last time they'll be together. Tomorrow Fadel will probably get arrested. Tomorrow Fadel will probably be taken away from him. And he can't even talk about it. Can't even stop him from going.
Fadel continues on:
You act like we're not going to see each other again just because we won't be spending the night together. àčàžàčàčàžĄàčàčàžàčàžàžàžàžàčàž§àžąàžàž±àžàčàžàžàžàžłàžàžąàčàžČàžàžàž°àčàžĄàčàčàžàčàčàžàžàžàž±àžàžàž”àž [kĂąe - mĂąi dĂąai - nawn - dĂ»uay gan - eng - tam - yĂ ang - jĂ - mĂąi dĂąai - jer gan - ĂŹig] only - not - sleep - together - just - do - like - will - not - meet/see each other - again
Style might not be able to outright tell Fadel that he's acting like that because they actually, for real may very well never see each other again when the night is over, but at least he can try to be as honest about his feelings as possible: "Itâs been a good night. I donât want it to end." I don't want to say goodbye. Fadel tries to console him. "When Iâm back, thereâll be more nights like this." Style so badly wants to believe him.
He looks at Fadel with big, hopeful eyes. You promise? Fadel nods. And I think, despite Style knowing that the police will interrupt Fadel's mission and that it won't go smoothly and will likely end in his arrest, I think despite all that deep down Style holds Fadel to that promise. And we can once again see how optimistic and especially how hopeful of a person he is. Now matter how bleak the situation seems right now, Fadel has promised to come back and Fadel has promised that they'll have more nights full of happiness together. And a promise is a promise, right? You can't simply just break it. And so Style hopes for the best. He might not be able to get him to stay but at least Fadel will be back. Because he promised.
They seal that promise with a kiss. And it's interesting, because Style doesn't immediately close his eyes when Fadel goes to kiss him but instead looks at him for a moment longer. And then his eyes keep fluttering open for a moment. It's almost as if he can't tear his eyes away from Fadel, as if he can't help but use every opportunity to look at Fadel, to catch every last glimpse of Fadel while he still has the opportunity to do so. They break apart and Fadel tells Style that he's (also) very happy tonight and Style (re)confirms his own happiness. They lean their foreheads against each other. And again, Style can't really close his eyes and fully sink into the moment the way Fadel can. It's like he tries to close his eyes but they keep fluttering open a second later because he just can't keep his eyes away from Fadel, is compelled to keep looking at him while he still can, while Fadel is still right there with him. And even when they break away from each other and turn to look out of the window towards the stage, it takes Style a couple of seconds to tear his eyes away from Fadel, who is already looking elsewhere:
After they've turned around, their hands find each other. And I think in that moment Style really needs that support through his distress and I think Fadel can feel it, even if he can't figure out what exactly is up with Style and why he is acting the way he's acting.
No. 7: Moving On
Fadel and Bison's mission has passed. Kant's brother nearly got caught in the crossfire. Kant wonders if Bison saved Babe. Kant guesses that Bison saved him. With that he also implies that if Bison was the one saving Babe (since Bison is the one who actually knows and recognizes Kant's brother), the one taking the shot must've been Fadel, implying that Fadel would have injured or killed Babe. But Style, who has been spending a lot of time with Fadel and has slowly been getting to know the real Fadel underneath all those walls, just can't imagine Fadel would shoot a random kid. When he asks Kant "You think Fadel would shoot Babe?" it's definitely in defense of Fadel. And that's interesting, because so far he's always been supportive of his bestie and his investigations. He hasn't always been happy about it, but he still never fought Kant about it. This is the first time we see Style actively go against Kant to stand on Fadel's side instead.
Style continues: "You think he knows youâre a snitch?" I think this is partly still a bit of an attack on Kant in his defense of Fadel in the sense of What, does Fadel to have a reason to kill your brother because you did a shitty job staying undiscovered? and partly a genuine question to find out if Fadel would actually have a motive to shoot Babe on the off chance that he did mean to do that. Not that Style actually believes that, though.
Kant says no and says that his work is over and that he's done being a snitch. This should be good news to Style, but Style doesn't look very comforted. In fact, Style barely acknowledges Kant's words. His mind is somewhere else, is with someone else. "I want to see Fadel." Once again we aren't simply just told through text that Style worries about Fadel but we are also shown. And on top of worrying, Style also misses him.
As so often when Style expresses genuine care and attachment to Fadel, Kant immediately disapproves: "Style! You have to get over it. You canât ever get together with him. Move on." In Thai, Kant uses the word àžàž±àžàčàž [dtĂ t-jai] when he says "get over it". Thai2english defines this as:
to part with something, to give up something (somewhat unwillingly)
Style is unwilling to give Fadel up. He can't part with Fadel, no matter how much he knows he should if he wants to get out of that mess of a situation. "Itâll become a funny story," Kant says, but Style isn't laughing. He is miserable.
No. 8: Will They or Won't They (Come Back)
Fadel and Bison's mission hasn't gone to plan (neither for them, nor for the police), they've gone completely MIA and our two remaining love struck boys that were left behind now stop by the restaurant in the hopes of meeting them there in person if they're already not picking up their phones. However, Style and Kant find the restaurant abandoned as well. Style looks a little disappointed when he states that the diner is closed, but he's not necessarily all that surprised and he is definitely very concerned. Kant walks away from him to check the inside through the windows just in case and Style follows him. They run into the black cat and end up having a little chat.
And what's interesting about it is that during that little chat Style isn't even all that depressed, despite still not having any clue whatsoever about Fadel's whereabouts. In fact, he actually sounds kind of cheerful when he asks and talks about the cat, unlike in the scene before where he was simply just miserable. Style's tone as well as his expression do both get more serious when he says "I guess [the cat] misses Bison, then. Heâs a food source, after all", but no matter how troubled he is about the whole situation, no matter how worried he is about Fadel's well-being and no matter how much he misses him, he won't let himself wallow in misery.
Kant says "Why do I have a feeling that this isnât over? They canât run forever, thatâs for sure. If they havenât completed their mission, they will definitely come back" and once again we see Style's optimism and bright outlook on life when he replies "I guess youâre right. Before things went down, you saw how attached they were to us". But similarly to the scene in the beginning when they were having drinks, Kant comes back with some realism: "No matter how much you love someone, you gotta prioritize saving your own butts, right?" Style thinks about it for a moment and raises his eyebrows like Yeah, I guess that's true...
Once again, his expression gets more serious and his smile fades but we know he's not giving up any hope of meeting Fadel again whatsoever, because he'll be back in a week to check on the restaurant again. And let's be real, the series might not have shown this to us but we all know Style went to the diner every single day of that week. Possibly even multiple times a day.
No. 9: Something Special to Eat
A week later and we see Style checking on the restaurant again, this time without Kant. And to his surprise and utter joy, the lights are on! Fadel is back and he looks well! Style stares at him through the window, breathes a small huff of relief, then shakes his head a little like he can't believe his eyes, like he can't believe that what he is seeing is real. As I mentioned before, I'm absolutely convinced Style went to the restaurant every single day for the past week and now it turns out that he was right not to give up, not to lose hope, to stay optimistic like he always is. Style's joy about Fadel's return manifests in his whole entire body as he hops and skips through the restaurant doors.
Once inside, Fadel doesn't seem surprised to see him. He doesn't even say hello, but immediately opens up with the words: "I was thinking of going to your place. But you were more impatient than me, huh?"
Language side note, for all you language nerds out there... In Thai the "you were more impatient" is actually only implied, not explicitly stated:
I haven't gotten round to go see you yet. àžàžčàžąàž±àžàčàžĄàčàžàž±àžàčàžàž«àžČàžĄàž¶àžàčàž„àžą [guu - yang - mĂąi tan - bpai hÄa - mueng - loiie] I - yet - not be able to (do sth in/on time) - go visit - you - [particle] You came running to see me. àžĄàž¶àžàžĄàžČàž«àžČàžàžčàžàž°àž„àž° [mueng - maa hÄa - guu - sĂĄ - lĂĄ] you - come visit - I/me - [particle] - [particle]
(For the second sentence I decided to translate it as "you came running" because the particle àžàž° [sĂĄ] can imply that the action should be done quickly. And Style did come running very quickly the moment Fadel was back.)
And when Style replies "Where have you been?" his words are also a little more dramatic in the original, as is fit for his personality:
Where did you disappear to for so long? àžĄàž¶àžàž«àžČàžąàčàžàčàž«àžàžàž±àčàžàžàžČàžàžàčàž° [mueng - hÄai bpai - nÄi - dtĂąng naan - Ă h] you - disappear - where - for a long time - [particle]
(It's basically "Where have you been for so long?")
A whole week is a long time to not see your boyfriend, especially when you know something bad has happened and you have no idea if he's alright or not. And so Style rightly complains. Fadel says that his phone broke and that he had to change both his phone and his number. Style throws him an almost disappointed look. He knows that this is a lie (or at least the "my phone broke" part probably is. Fadel might have had to change his number for real when he went into hiding). And more importantly, it only explains why Fadel wasn't replying to his texts. It does not answer Style's question of "where have you been?" and so Style is left none the wiser. Fadel says that he was busy and Style continues to complain: "And you didnât think to contact me a little? I was worried sick about you, you know?" And we saw that. We got to see how Style was worrying when he was longing to see Fadel after hearing how Babe nearly got injured and we saw it when Style checked the restaurant at the very least two times, once with Kant and once by himself (and let's be real, he definitely went more than twice, we just didn't get to witness it). We see it even now in the way he complains to Fadel about him ignoring Style for a full week. Style thought he was saying goodbye to Fadel at the concert because the police would be ripping Fadel away from him but then that didn't actually happen because Fadel managed to escape and Style spent a full week worrying about him, missing him, longing to see him. And then Fadel is back and he's doing well and he didn't even think to tell Style about it. Style has every right to complain and Fadel should know it, too.
Fadel complains about Style's complaining and then offers to make him food like a peace offering and/or an apology. And fun fact, when he says "Anything you'd like to eat?" in Thai it's:
Anything special you wanna eat? àžàžąàžČàžàžàžŽàžàžàž°àčàžŁàčàžàčàžàžàžŽàčàžšàž©àžàčàž°àž„àčàž° [yĂ ak - gin - Ă rai - bpen pĂ-sĂšt - bpĂ - lĂą] want - eat - anything - that is special - ? - [particle]
I'm telling you, when I heard Fadel say the words "eat" and "special" in the same sentence I immediately expected Style to say "you". I think I even said the word "you" at my screen when I watched the episode for the first time. And then Style DIDN'T. He just... didn't say it. When it was literally right there. I'm truly disappointed in him ngl.
Style does not say "you", instead he sits down and let's Fadel decide on the menu and compliments his cooking. Fadel is immediately sus about the sweet talking and asks: "Did you do something wrong?" Style doesn't know that this is a very pointed question, has absolutely no idea that Fadel is currently suspecting him of snitching to the police. "No," Style replies, but his voice doesn't sound entirely genuine. It's not a full lie but it's also not entirely sincere. Did he do anything wrong? It's hard to say. Technically he isn't the one to tip off the police so technically this isn't something he's done wrong. Style also knows a lot more than he should and that's also not something that he's necessarily doing wrong per se, but it's still something he's keeping from Fadel which could be considered wrong. And one could also say that not explicitly warning Fadel about how the police would be at their mission wasn't right. So technically there is something he did do wrong and that he could be feeling guilty about. No matter whether he really did do something wrong or not, Style chooses to deflect and distract anyway. And he changes the topic to something that really is completely true this time: "I just really missed you." Although, when he says "Is it so weird to get a little affectionate?" it's almost a bit of a challenge. Tell me again how I'm doing something wrong. Style continues: "You know, all this time apart really frustrated me." And there we finally have it. The "I want to eat you" bit.
I think at this point it's pretty obvious that Style is being genuine about his flirting, but I just wanna point out that what I noticed before about how Style acts when he truly wants Fadel continues to hold up: instead of being loud and performative, Style gets quiet, goes almost into a whisper by the end of the sentence. And he also gets handsy with Fadel. He reaches for Fadel's nipple specifically and it works. Fadel is very much distracted. But he stops Style because this is not something Fadel wants to do in the middle of his restaurant in front of a wall of glass windows (probably? Who knows with them đ€·đŒââïž). Fadel decides on making spaghetti for Style who approves and fondly smiles at Fadel. They keep holding on to each other's hands for as long as possible as Fadel turns around to walk off and I cry and then I cry some more about the way Style once again can't tear his eyes away from Fadel.
No. 10: Oh, I Wish That You Hadn't Pulled the Trigger
It's later in the evening, Style has presumably finished eating (and maybe Fadel, too?) and now they're both wiping down the restaurant. And once again we see something that I've been talking about for the last few episodes now: Style likes helping. Fadel explicitly tells him that he doesn't have to help and that Fadel will do it himself, so likely Style just grabbed the cloth and started wiping without a second thought while Fadel had his back turned. Because helping people is something that comes to Style naturally. He wants to help. And so he insists on continuing to help with the cleaning and, if it makes Fadel feel better about it, offers Fadel to think of it as payment for the free food.
And I know this meta is actually about Style, but I see Fadel watch Style for a moment after Style said that and I can't help but remember how Style was there in episode 3, helping Fadel out at the restaurant when Bison was nowhere to be found and now Style is here again, helping Fadel out at the restaurant without hesitation and of his own free will and I can't help but think that this is probably one of the things that Fadel has come to love about Style. Style is here and he helps and supports Fadel no questions asked. Which make the news he is about to hear even more painful. And right on cue, Fadel's phone rings.
Fadel steps outside to talk to Bison. In the meantime inside, Style moves on to wipe the next table. He lifts his head just in time to catch Fadel looking at him through the window. Style smiles at him fondly.
Style is so happy that Fadel is back, is so content to be around him. The night of the concert wasn't a goodbye after all. He had bid farewell to Fadel internally already but now he gets to have a new beginning after all. Style is overjoyed.
Then Fadel comes back inside, proceeds to turn on some music and Style is confused as to why he would do that. Fadel asks if he can't get romantic and Style calls him out for scolding him earlier about Style being too sweet and cheesy only to turn around all of a sudden and wanting to be romantic after all. Style has absolutely no idea that Fadel sees him in a completely different light now, but I think he can tell that something is kinda off and that the phone call might have had something to with Fadel's sudden change of mood. So Style asks what Bison said. And Style being Style who cares about his loved ones also wants to know if Bison is with Kant. Fadel confirms. Style comments that Bison probably missed Kant. And right after the sentence is out of his mouth, for just a split second before it cuts back to Fadel we can see a very pleased smile form on Style's face.
Bison wasn't the only one missing someone. Style was too. He was missing Fadel so very much and he was worried sick about him and now Fadel is back, Fadel is standing right in front of him in the flesh and everything is all good in this world. Of course, Style is pleased.
And then Fadel says "I also missed you". Style's eyes widen in surprise, his expression serious now. Ever since they officially started dating Fadel has been saying things like "we're on trial" and "I won't ever trust you 100%" and while he did admit to being very happy earlier in the episode at the concert, I think Style wasn't really expecting Fadel to suddenly be so open about his feelings, almost out of nowhere without any obvious triggers. But then Fadel continues his confession by telling Style that there is no one messing with him when Style isn't there. Ah, there he is, that old nagger that Style has come to love. A compliment that comes in the form of an insult. That's more like him. Style is amused and in a lovingly teasing, but also slightly serious tone asks if he's just an annoyance to Fadel and whether that's a good thing or a bad thing. Fadel is quick to assure him that it's a good thing: "Having someone to miss is good. It makes me want to go to the market and go jogging with the hopes of running into you."
Did you notice that I changed something in Fadel's wording just now? Because the official subs wrote "grocery shopping" instead of "the market" and once again I just don't understand the decision to translate it like that because the market is literally one of their spots!! It's not the action of grocery shopping that's important here, it's the place!!! Because Fadel is likely doing some of his grocery shopping at a supermarket too, but it's when he shops at the market place specifically where he has memories with Style!!!
In fact, let me just share Fadel's exact wording of the whole bit:
Having you to miss is a good thing. àžàžČàžŁàžĄàž”àžĄàž¶àžàčàž§àčàčàž«àčàžàžŽàžàžàž¶àžàčàžàž”àčàžąàžĄàž±àžàžàž”àžàž°àčàž§àčàžą [gaan mii - mueng - wĂĄi - hĂąi - kĂt-tÄung - nĂźia - man - dii - na wĂłiie] having - you - to - miss - [particle] - it - good - [particle] It makes me want to go to the market, àžĄàž±àžàžàžłàčàž«àčàžàžčàžàžąàžČàžàčàžàžàž„àžČàž [man - tam hĂąi - guu - yĂ ak - bpai - dtĂ -lĂ at] it - make that - I - want - go - market go jogging in the morning, àčàžàž§àžŽàčàžàžàžàžàčàžàčàžČ [bpai - wĂźng - dton chĂĄao] go - run, jog - in the morning because I'm hoping I'll get to meet you. àčàžàžŁàžČàž°àž«àž§àž±àžàž§àčàžČàžàž°àčàžàčàčàžàžàžĄàž¶àž [prĂłh - wÄng wĂąa - jĂ - dĂąai - jer - mueng] because - hope that - will - get to - meet - you
And also a little bit earlier when he tells Style "Iâve got no one messing with me when youâre not there":
Without you, there is no one messing up my life. àčàžĄàčàžĄàž”àžĄàž¶àžàžàčàž° àčàžĄàčàžĄàž”àčàžàžŁàžĄàžČàžàčàž§àžàžàž”àž§àžŽàžàžàžč [mĂąi mii - mueng - Ă h âą mĂąi mii krai - maa - bpĂčuan - chii-wĂt - guu] without - you - [particle] âą no one - come - be chaotic - life - I/my
This confession is a parallel to his "I hate that I don't hate you" confession: In episode 4 Fadel said "I don't like you messing up my life" and now in episode 6 he says "Without you, there is no one messing up my life". In episode 4 Fadel said "I donât like myself when I look for you on the morning jog or at the market" and now in episode 6 Fadel says "It makes me want to go to the market and go jogging in the morning with the hopes of running into you". In episode 4 Fadel said "I donât like that I miss you." and now in episode 6 he says "I've missed you. Having someone to miss is good."
It's his confession from episode 4 but this time it's romantic and Style even points it out very amusedly, but is also very happy about it: "Are we officially entering romantic territory?" Fadel says that he wants to do what lovers do and Style tells him "I donât want you to do what you donât want to do". Or in his exact wording:
I don't want you to do anything that isn't you. àžàžčàčàžĄàčàžàžąàžČàžàčàž«àčàžĄàž¶àžàžàžłàžàž°àčàžŁàžàž”àčàčàžĄàčàčàžàčàžàž±àž§àčàžàžàžàž°àčàž§àčàžą [guu - mĂąi - yĂąak - hĂąi - mueng - tam - arai - tĂźi - mĂąi chĂąi - dtue eng - nĂĄ wĂłiie] I - not - want - that - you - do - anything - that - not - yourself
Fadel told him at the concert that he wanted to see the real Style, but the same goes the other way around. Style wants Fadel to be the real him, too. And he doesn't want him to do anything that isn't the real him. But Fadel replies:
But I can be like you want me to be. àčàžàčàžàžčàžȘàžČàžĄàžČàžŁàžàčàžàčàžàžàžąàčàžČàžàžàž”àčàžĄàž¶àžàžàžąàžČàžàčàž«àčàžàžčàčàžàčàžàčàžàč [dtĂ e - guu - sÄa-mĂąat - bpen - yĂ ang - tĂźi - mueng - yĂ ak - hĂąi - guu - bpen - dĂąai] but - I - be able to - be - like - that, which - you - want - for, to - I/me - be - be able to (cont.)
It's a loaded statement. And it has Style confused.
It's the exact opposite of what Style wants. Style wants Fadel to be himself, Style doesn't want him to live a life that Style tells him to live. Style doesn't understand and while there are questions written all over his face, he doesn't ask any of them out loud. He stays quiet and smiles a little in uncertainty (He's currently living through a happy little romantic moment with his boyfriend, right? Right?? That's definitely what's happening here, isn't it???) as he waits for Fadel to continue and to maybe elaborate. Fadel takes a step towards him and says:
I think... I already love you. àžàžčàž§àčàžČ...àžàžčàžŁàž±àžàžĄàž¶àžàčàž„àčàž§àž§àčàž° [guu - wĂąa... guu - rĂĄk - mueng - lĂĄew - wĂą] i - think... i - love - you - already - [particle]
(Alt. translations: "I think... I love you" or "I think... I love you now")
Style is delighted to hear these words. Distracted from his bemusement from only seconds ago he smiles a satisfied smile. He's been so open and honest about his own feelings and finally Fadel is opening up too and giving back. Style happily kisses Fadel in response.
He, too, loves Fadel. He loves him and he's missed him and he's been worried sick about him when he didn't hear from him for a full week and didn't know how he was doing and now Fadel is back, Fadel is well, they get to have more nights like the night of the concert together, they get to be together for longer than Style thought they would. Life is great.
After they part, they lean their foreheads against each other. When they did it at the concert, Style's eyes kept flickering to Fadel's face. Here at the diner Style can sink into the moment and into the touch a lot more now that he knows this isn't gonna be the last night he'll be together with Fadel. (I've hit image limit, but here's a parallel gifset.) He does look up at Fadel at one point, almost as if to check if Fadel is still there, that he is real, that this is not a dream. And maybe it's also to check on him, since he's been acting a bit weird since the phone call. But then Style closes his eyes again and sinks into the moment one more time, just like when Fadel leaned into him. The two move into a hug as they sway from side to side. Style can neither see nor feel Fadel's tears dropping onto his back.
Of course I'm gonna have to wait to see what future episodes bring before I can say for sure, but honestly speaking, I do think Style can kind of tell that something is off about Fadel after his phone call with Bison. Style immediately clocks that Fadel is behaving strange the moment Fadel turns on the music, Style calls Fadel out for suddenly being romantic when only shortly before that he was telling Style off for being sweet, he gets confused when Fadel goes "I can be like you want me to be" when that's the exact opposite of what Style has been asking for and there is also something in the way Style really sinks into the forehead touch but then his eyes open and flicker to Fadel as if he's checking on him (almost as if he was also checking that Fadel was still there and hasn't gone away again, as if Style can feel that Fadel is in the process of saying goodbye to him). Fadel is in a weird mood and that mood probably does reach Style. But the thing is, Style is missing a key piece of the puzzle and even if he can tell that something is off, to Style it still looks like a happy picture. To Style it still is a happy picture. And what Style doesn't know, but what we, the viewers, can very much see coming is that this happy illusion will burst soon enough.
#the heart killers#thk#fadelstyle#stylefadel#thk ep6#thk meta#thkmetamine#my meta#adrm#HIIIII GOOD MORNING MY META IS FINALLY OUT#i'm glad there was no new episode for once bc i didn't have to stress out about this meta and i'm STILL making it in time before ep7#i'm already dreading the next three weeks bc my semester is about to end#i have a presentation at the end of the months and a few (time consuming) assignments to do rip#watch me pull several all-nighters again just to get my metas out before the new episodes
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I cannot stand the idea of Athena and Odysseus as a couple.
It's disgusting, it's weird, and honestly, it's the biggest insult to brain cells since mortals started thinking they could sail without checking the stars. But â and this is a big, glorious, golden but â the headcannon of every other Olympian thinks theyâre lovers? Thatâs comedy gold. Athena, the eternal virgin, the impenetrable fortress of logic, brought low by the rumor mill of her own family. Hera: Alright, Athena, letâs talk about the wedding. So, for the dressâor should we go with a suit? Athena: Wait, what? Wedding? Whoâs talking about a wedding? Hera: Oh, donât play coy. You and Odysseus? Itâs practically written in the stars. Iâm thinking something classic, maybe a gownâ Athena: Married?! Iâm not marrying anyone! Hera: You canât hide it forever, darling. A goddess like you deserves a big, beautiful wedding. Athena: Wedding? Hera, what in Olympus are you talking about? Iâm not marrying anyone, let alone Odysseus! Zeus: Sheâs right, Hera. This is ridiculous. Athena marrying Odysseus? Over my dead lightning bolt. Hera: Zeus. Zeus: Uh⊠or⊠or maybe itâs a great idea? Love is beautiful. Yes, beautiful. Proceed. Athena: WHAT?! Iâm not even in a relationship! Odysseus is a mortal man, and I see him as a son! A son! Aphrodite: Oh, spare us the dramatics, Athena. Everyone knows youâve got a soft spot for him. Youâve been âmentoringâ him for how long now? Athena: Heâs my student, Aphrodite. I teach him. Thatâs it. Poseidon: I hate Odysseus. And I hate you for even considering this. But if youâre hell-bent on it, I suppose itâs your disaster to manage. Athena: I am not considering this! Iâ Dionysus: Iâm here for whatever, as long as thereâs wine. Athena, if youâre going through with this, Iâll make sure the receptionâs lit. Athena: Dionysus, I am NOT getting married! Stop encouraging this! Dionysus: Hey, Iâm just offering a little fun. Youâll need it after dealing with that guy. Right, cutie? Apollo: We are NOT friends, do NOT talk to me. Hermes: Athena, come on, you donât want to marry a mortal? This mortal? Youâve spent so much time with him. Maybe youâre just too proud to admit it. Athena: Hermes, I will smite you where you standâ Hestia: Everyone, calm down. Athena, theyâre just teasing you. But if you ever did want to settle down, itâs not the worst thing. Athena: It is the worst thing. This conversation is the worst thing. Hades: Marriage isnât so bad. Persephone and I have made it work. Persephone: Exactly. And that mortal of yours is resourceful. Thatâs not a bad trait to have in a partner. Athena: He is not my partner! Heâs a mortal â a mortal that Iâm mentoring! Demeter: Mentoring. Sure. You keep telling yourself that. Athena: Demeter, donât start. I mean it. Artemis: I donât see why she has to marry anyone. Athena, Iâm with you. Stay single. Keep your dignity. Athena: Thank you, Artemis. Artemis: But if you did marry him, it wouldnât be the worst thing. He is brave. Athena: Artemis?! Zeus:....I still think this is a terrible idea⊠Hera: Zeus, sighing: Fine. I love it. Best idea ever. Carry on. Ares: He has to fight me to prove his worth! Athena: This conversation is over. Athena canât even walk into the room without someone winking at her or asking how âher mortal boy toyâ is doing. Zeus, king of being gross, looking genuinely scandalized for once. Hera planning her âtotally hypotheticalâ wedding. What really gets me, though, is the idea that none of them even care about her protests. She could swear on the River Styx that she sees Odysseus as a son, and theyâd still be like, âSure, sweetie. Your son.â Meanwhile, sheâs losing her helmet over it, and itâs just... chefâs kiss. Peak entertainment. I hate the ship, but I love the chaos.
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PDA
hi! bad sansuary prompt for 'PDA'! i wrote a quick thingie for this one because character interactions are hard to draw.
this is written for the band au, but i dont THINK i mentioned anything too 'human' about them? all you really need to know i guess is theyre human, in a band, and Killer, Horror, Dust, Cross and Nightmare are a poly <3
Dust sat hunched over the apartmentâs battered coffee table, scribbling in the margins of an old, dog-eared notebook. A mug of lukewarm tea sat beside him on the coffee table, untouched since Cross made it an hour ago. The faint hum of music filtered in from another room - Nightmareâs low-fi playlist, he thought, though it was hard to tell from here - and the scent of whatever Horror was cooking wafted lazily through the air. Dustâs pen stuttered against the paper as his wrist cramped. Fibro was a bitch today.
The sanctuary of his quiet moment was shattered by the telltale creak of Killerâs heeled boots on the hardwood floor.
âOh, Dusty~!â Killerâs sing-song voice echoed through the room, and Dust groaned inwardly. The energy Killer exuded was like a hyperactive puppy on sugar, and Dust was just not in the mood. He hadnât slept properly in⊠well, longer than he cared to admit.
âWhat.â Dust didnât look up, didnât stop fiddling with his pen.
âWhat, he says,â Killer huffed, plopping down on the couch beside him with exaggerated flair. âWhat! Like Iâm not the literal love of your life walking into the room.â
âBold of you to assume that title,â Dust muttered, though the faintest smirk twitched at the corner of his lips.
Killer leaned in, propping his chin on Dustâs shoulder. âWhat can I say? Iâm a bold guy. Now, câmere.â
Dust froze as Killer wrapped his arms around him, hands resting firmly on his stomach. âGet off,â he grumbled, attempting to wriggle free.
âNope. Not until you admit you love me.â
âKiller.â
âDust.â Killer nuzzled into his neck, and Dust could feel the grin against his skin. âYouâre so tense, habibi. You need to relax. Let me help.â
âI relax just fine without you.â Dustâs voice was tight, but he didnât pull away again. It wasnât that he hated Killerâs affection; he just didnât know what to do with it. Especially not when Killer turned it up to 11 in front of everyone.
âYeah, sure,â Killer teased. âYour shoulders feel like concrete, but go off, babe.â
Dust finally turned his head, fixing Killer with a glare. âCanât you go smother Cross or something? Heâs into that kind of crap.â
âNah,â Killer said, nonchalant as ever. âHeâs out grocery shopping with Nightmare. Horrorâs cooking. That leaves you, my grumpy little void of a man.â
âI hate you,â Dust deadpanned, though the blush creeping up his freckled cheeks betrayed him.
âYou loooove me,â Killer singsonged, placing a dramatic kiss on Dustâs cheek. âAdmit it. Just three little words, and Iâll let you go.â
Dust sighed heavily, the sound laden with equal parts exasperation and fondness. âFine. I tolerate you. Happy?â
âEcstatic.â Killerâs grin widened, and he kissed Dustâs cheek again, lingering this time. âNow, how about a real kiss, huh?â
âNo.â
âOh, câmon.â
âI said no.â
âOkay, but hear me out- â
Before Killer could finish, Dust grabbed a pillow from the couch and smacked him square in the face with it. âYouâre insufferable.â
âAnd youâre adorable,â Killer shot back, undeterred, even as he rubbed at his nose. âSeriously, Dust, just let me love you. Is that so hard?â
âYes,â Dust said flatly. But there was a softness in his tone, a quiet resignation that Killer knew meant he wasnât as annoyed as he pretended to be.
âFine. Be grumpy. But Iâm not going anywhere.â Killer leaned back, resting his feet on the coffee table like he owned the place. Well, he did, Dust supposed.âSo get used to it, babe.â
Dust groaned, slumping further into the battered couch, his notebook now abandoned on the coffee table. He felt Killerâs eyes on him, full of playful mischief, and he knew it was far from over.
Sure enough, Killer shifted closer, his hands already reaching for Dustâs waist. âMwah mwah mwah mwah- â Killer peppered exaggerated, smacking kisses along the side of Dustâs neck, his voice an over-the-top symphony of affection.
âUGH, get OFF, you fuckinâ- youâre slobbering all on my neck!â Dust twisted, trying to squirm out of Killerâs iron grip.
âNever!â Killer laughed, clearly revelling in Dustâs irritation. âYour neck deserves to be cherished, and I am just the man to do it!â
âCherish yourself into traffic,â Dust snapped, though the redness of his ears gave him away.
Killer gasped theatrically, clutching his chest as if wounded. âRude! And here I thought we were having a moment.â
âA moment of you annoying the hell out of me, maybe.â Dust wiped at his neck, grimacing. âIâm gonna need to shower now.â
âOh, donât act like you hate it.â Killer leaned back with a smug grin, draping himself across the couch like a cat who had successfully knocked something off the counter. âYouâre just mad because you do like it and you donât wanna admit it.â
Dust threw him another glare, but Killer only winked.
âFine,â Dust muttered after a beat, leaning forward to grab his notebook again. âYou win. Now shut up.â
âVictory is mine!â Killer declared, throwing his arms up triumphantly before pulling Dust back into another side hug, this one blessedly less slobbery. Dust grumbled but didnât fight it this time, letting Killer rest his head against his shoulder.
They sat like that for a while, Killer humming some off-key melody under his breath and Dust trying (and failing) to refocus on his writing. The warmth of Killerâs presence was annoying, sure, but it wasnât entirely unwelcome.
âLove you, Dusty,â Killer said softly after a while, his voice unusually gentle.
âYeah, yeah,â Dust muttered, tapping his pen against the notebook. But this time, there was no bite in his tone. Just the quiet comfort of someone who knew they were loved, even if theyâd never admit it out loud.
ââŠLove you too.â
#undertale au#undertale#dust sans#dusttale#dusttale sans#dust!sans#killer sans#killer!sans#something new#something new sans#killertale#bad sans poly#bsp#kist#killer x dust#bad sanses#bad sans gang#band au#band its#bad sansuary#rue writes
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kiss me.
pairing: jake x reader.
summary: comforting your bf after he has a rough day.
cw: fluff, overstimulation/self-regulation, literally nothing else
word count: 872 + proofread
a/n: i literally wrote this just now in under an hour so sorry if it sucks! for @liseytopia only!!!!!!!!!!!!! ilysm lisey ok enjoy bye guys
as jake walks into your bedroom after a long day of filming and editing, you can immediately tell something is wrong. he doesnât kiss or hug you when he enters, or even greet you. instead, he simply shuts the door and bee-lines it for your shared bed. he quickly puts on his headphones and grabs a sensory toy from his nightstand, playing with it aggressively as he stares out your bedroom window. you decide to give him some space for a bit before trying to talk to him. this isnât the first time youâve experienced this side of jake, and you know when he needs to have isolation time.
you continue working at your desk, listening to jake hum softly to whatever music is blaring in his headphones. you smile to yourself, he knew exactly how to self-regulate and it made you happy. proud that he knew himself so well. after around thirty minutes you finally hear the movement of his fidget toy and his humming stop, and when you turn around in your swiveling chair, jake is looking at you.
he has sad eyes, the ones he gives you when heâs had a rough day and wants your comfort. âiâm sorry for not saying âhiâ to you when i walked in earlier. and iâm sorry for not kissing you.â
you walk over and sit next to him in bed, being mindful not to touch him until he makes it clear heâs ready for physical affection. âitâs okay, baby. you have nothing to apologize for. you wanna talk about it?â
he looks down at his lap, nervously alternating between biting at his fingernails and tugging on his hair. âwell, everything was going good. but then the restaurant we were supposed to get lunch at closed early, so we couldnât go there anymore, and then i got a sandwich at another place and the bread was soggy, and it was so gross, and then we got stuck in traffic and everyone was beeping really loud and yelling out their windows, and, andââ
âwoah, baby,â you coo softly. âyouâre going a little too fast for me right now and i wanna make sure iâm understanding. so, basically everything was going wrong? and it got a little overstimulating sensory wise?â you ask.
âyeah. it just sucked. and i just had to sit for a while and calm down. but now iâm just upset that everything went wrong, and i feel like i didnât get anything done today that i wanted to,â jake explains.
âhey, baby, you got so much done. you still went out and filmed, right? you got that done. and you texted me earlier saying you were editing a stream for your live channel and how much you liked it. you got that done. i know it sucks to get overstimulated and overwhelmed, but donât let it take away from all the awesome stuff you did do.â he stops biting his finger and looks up to smile at you. âis it okay if i touch you now?â you ask.
âoh, angel, iâve been wanting to kiss you since i got here,â he giggles.
you climb into his lap to straddle him and pull his face to yours with both hands. he rests his hands on your waist and smiles as you finally kiss him. his lips are soft and warm, like always, and he tastes like home. you pull away and smile down at him, scratching his head lightly as you do.
he leans into your touch, eyes closing. âfeels nice, baby.â
you grin and peck his lips. âhow âbout if i give you a whole bunch of kisses? will that make up for your shitty day?â
he opens one eye and flashes a blushy smile, âmayyyybbbeeee,â he says, dramatically over annunciating the word like a cheeky child.
a maniacal grin flashes across your face, and you grab his cheeks in your hands, effectively trapping him in your grip. you start by kissing his lips, soft little pecks that are over before he can even register whatâs happening. then you move onto his nose and chin and forehead. littering kisses all over every square centimeter of skin you can access. then you move your hands down a little so theyâre resting on his neck. you start kissing his eyes and cheeks. he closes his eyes with a sheepish smile as his cheeks grow hot and pink. he giggles as you continue your attack on his face. kissing him so much, so quickly, and making silly little âmwahâ sounds as you go.
âstopppp!!â jake yells in faux terror. âstop it!! i canât take any more!â he keeps on giggling and you keep on kissing him until all your lip gloss is coating his face instead of your mouth. when you finally think heâs had enough you kiss him on the lips again, catching him mid-laugh, when he least expects it. you smile into the kiss as his hands trail up your back.
âyou feel better?â you ask.
âhmm⊠i think so,â jake says. his slightly embarrassed little grin is one you could never grow tired of staring at. heâs so pretty, it just makes you want to kiss him more. so you do.
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shoto takes his dad's card one day and takes his classmates to a nice restuarant and pays for it with the card because his dad said some shit about the class
#đËâ⧠dear diary .á#LMFAOO#thinking abt it is so funny bc the class is just chillaxing in the living room#and he walks in a little dramatic and everyone looks at him#and he goes#would you guys like to go get dinner?#and everyone is like sure why not#and he takes them to this nice resturant and theres just like 20 kids wearibg pyjamas bc they thought they were gonna get fastfood#shoto todoroki#shoto todoroki x reader#bnha#bnha x reader#mizzfizz âËàż
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I love people who love competent Stede Bonnet but, for me, he's always at his best when he's at least a little bit cringefail
#look i fell in love with the guy whos best raid got him a potted plant#who tells his crew bedtime stories and runs sewing groups#who kills men by the stupidest accidents#who walks into spanish jackies in an all white suit; drank from the nose jar; offended everyone + got wine thrown on him#man for sale stede bonnet!!! dramatic black theatre turtleneck stede bonnet! the guy who goes on nature walks!#i LOVE that guy#hes a little whimsy pathetic cringefail and he means EVERYTHING to me#is he good at what he does? no! but my god. hes having fun#and i genuinely adore him#nyxtalks#ofmd#our flag means death#Stede Bonnet#The Gentleman Pirate#idk its not like i didnt want to see him grow as a character (though. SNT) but. i miss his whimsy#i miss the things he did that everyone found embarrassing but he loved#the bits that ed fell in love with#sorry to turn this into s2 crit but. i think thats why i really fell off gb
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sometimes..so.etimes they change something even after the premiere. sp you appear and watch an entirely new and prolonged monologue. and it's like. FUCK YEAH.
#me showing up at the theatre: be normal be normal be normal be normal be no#me realising they added some things and it adds a lot of characerisation: BE NORMAL BE NORMAL BE NORMAL BE NORMAL BE NORMAL BE NORMAL!!!!!#(misson failed but at least i was Quiet lmao)#the fun thing about seeing this several times tho is that by now ive stopped trying to figure out the plot#bc i Know the plot by now and i can speak along to a decent portion of lines#so now i focus not on what they mean but what exactly they say in any moment#i notice all the small irrelevant lines that still add so much to the characters voices and dynamics#its sooooo fun#and sometimes its also just really funny#'hell do good' 'didnt you just talk to him? the fuck he will. that man cant even pretend to have any self control'#i mean she was RIGHT#my man is out here being such a miserable little fuck being dramatic about his problems#if he could get a grip on himself for like five minutes everyone could have lived! idiot <3#AND THE OTHER GUY#if you had just KEPT AWAY instead of Walking Up To Your Murderer and distracred them for like. a few minutes longer IT WOULD ZAVE WORKED#like yeah youd still be dead BUT THAT WAS THE POINT WASNT IT#LIKE THIS YOU JUST DIED FOE NOTHING#YOUE BUDDY DIES TOO BC YOU GOT YOURSELF MURDERED TOO SOON. idiot#ill be honest. if they had kissed (and if youd seen rhe way they LOOK at each other) things might have actually gone well#im convinced of this#i have Textual Evidence#anyway. i should read the og play and find out if its the play or just the actors#like do the characters actually constantly refer to each other as 'my [name/title]' or did the theatre make it even gayer themselves#ik the actors are doing it on purpose anyway. that is Not coincidence#a biscuit's rambles
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i love thinking about how harrows expressions look to non-gideons. like.. gideon sees every godfucking duplicitously slutty minute detail about her expression like a billboard and everyone else sees a painted and pinched off inverted triangle
#the perspective switch suits gtn so well#its funny its hilarious#gideon narrating harrow turning every shade under the sky dramatically and annoyingly -> pov switch -> harrows face to everyone else đ#but with more eyebrows#>:|#BUT THE THING IS SHES NOT EVEN GOOD AT HIDING HER EMOTIONS SHAKES U BYT HE SHOULDERS SHAKES YOU BY THE SHOULDERS SH#SHE CLINKS WHEN SHE WALKS SHE LOOKS AT PAL LIKE SHES WORKED OUT HOW TO KILL HIM#SHES NOT GOOD AT IIIIIIT#FLIPS TABLE AMD SCREAMS#vi the fifth#SCREAMS!!!!!!!!!!#she tries so hard shes just a babygirl shes just a little one#she comes in a little bubble from the 25cent machines#tlt#harrowhark nonagesimus
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RAFE CAMERON âą paired up together
quarterback!extroverted jock x shy!introverted!FEM!reader âą MASTERLIST
SUMMARY: based on this request
WORD COUNT: 2.1k
GENRE: fluff
CONTENT WARNING: soft!rafe cameron
your mom and dad always had a vision for you, one that didnât exactly include self-defense classes. when you were younger, they signed you up for piano lessons, art workshops, and just about anything that didnât involve sweat or the possibility of a sprained ankle. they didnât want you to feel weak, of course, but they thought strength came from different thingsâdiscipline, refinement, skill.
âyou donât need to learn to throw punches,â your mom would say. âyou need discipline. structure. music.â
so youâre not exactly the strongest person in the world, but youâre not weak either. youâve got your limits, sure, but you also like to think you can handle yourself if you absolutely had to. youâre just hoping today isnât one of those days.
as you walk with your best friend to PE, the two of you are mid-gossip, laughing at something she said about the latest drama in your grade.
âand then she had the nerve to say my dress was last season, when hers looked like it came out of her grandmaâs attic,â lana says, flipping her hair dramatically.
you snort. âmaybe she was going for vintage?â
âvintage?â she scoffs, rolling her eyes. âthereâs a difference between vintage and⊠tragic.â
the conversation carries you all the way to the gym, where your PE teacher, coach davis, claps his hands together and gets everyoneâs attention.
âalright, listen up!â he booms, his voice echoing off the walls. âtoday, weâre starting a self-defense unit. and before anyone complains, let me just sayâyouâre gonna thank me later. trust me.â
thereâs a murmur of interest and maybe a little dread from the class. you glance around and spot the football teamârafe cameron and topper thornton in the cornerâleaning against the wall like theyâre above it all. rafeâs tossing a football between his hands absentmindedly, while topperâs saying something that makes him smirk.
âof course theyâre here,â lana mutters, following your gaze, looking at each football player.
âat least weâre not getting paired with them,â you whisper back, half-joking.
lana shakes her head, âi feel like you just jinxed us.â
you look at her, âno, you just jinxed us by saying that i jinxed us.â
she looks at you with a confused face, âyouâre not even making sense, like at all.â
âwhatever, they're football players, it would be weird if we were paired with them,â you raised your shoulders.
coach davis goes on to explain the basics of the class, ending with the bombshell: âyouâre gonna be partnered up for these drills. iâll call out the pairs.â
your friend groans dramatically. âif itâs not them then iâm gonna get stuck with someone who doesnât even know how to hold a fist properly.â
âmaybe itâll be me,â you say, grinning.
âplease,â she shoots back. âyouâre not hopeless. youâre just⊠delicate.â
before you can defend yourself, coach starts calling out pairs. when he says your best friendâs name, followed by topperâs, her jaw drops.
âyouâve got to be kidding me,â she whispers, shooting you a look. âlike i said, you jinxed us.â
âat least heâs strong?â you offer, barely holding back a laugh.
âand annoying.â she sighs, but thereâs a faint pink tinge to her cheeks as she walks over to topper.
then coach calls your name.
âyouâre with rafe cameron.â
your stomach drops. you glance up to find rafe already looking at you, his eyebrows slightly raised, the smirk replaced by something unreadable.
âgreat,â you mutter under your breath, grabbing your water bottle and making your way over.
the self-defense gym class is not exactly your idea of a good time. the thought of being paired up with anyone, let alone someone like rafe cameronâquarterback, golden boy, cute jock extraordinaireâmakes you want to melt into the floor. but when coach calls your name, followed by his, thereâs no escaping it.
you shuffle over to him, clutching your water bottle, avoiding his eyes. rafe, on the other hand, stands there looking like heâs just been told he won the lottery, but heâs trying way too hard to play it cool.
âguess weâre partners,â he says, a little too brightly, flashing that easy grin of his. itâs the kind of smile that probably works on everyone else, but you just nod and mumble, âyeah, okay.â
the first drill is basicâa wrist grab escape.
âso,â he starts, dropping the football to the ground and kicking it aside, âhereâs the plan. iâll go easy on you, obviously. i mean, iâm not gonna, like, actually grab you or anything. just⊠enough so you can practice the moves. sound good?â
you blink at him, unsure what to say. heâs talking fast, like heâs trying to fill the silence before it even has a chance to settle.
âand if youâre not sure about something, just tell me,â he continues, his hands gesturing animatedly. âiâve, uh, done some of this stuff before. kind of, you know⊠for football and stuff.â he scratches the back of his neck, like that explains everything.
âokay,â you say softly, nodding.
he hesitates for a moment, like heâs waiting for you to say more, but when you donât, he shifts awkwardly, shoving his hands into his pockets.
âcool. yeah. uh⊠so, you wanna start with the wrist grab thing?â he asks, his voice a little higher than usual.
âsure,â you reply, your tone neutral.
he stares at you for a second longer, then clears his throat and rubs his hands together. âalright. thisâll be easy. just⊠pretend Iâm the bad guy or something.â
you glance up at him briefly, your lips twitching into the smallest of smiles. âokay, bad guy.â
his laugh is sudden, almost startled, like he didnât expect you to say that. he recovers quickly, though, his grin softening into something less forced.
âalright, letâs do this,â he says, stepping a little closer. you try not to focus on how tall he is, how he seems to take up all the space around you.
the first few exercises are awkward, to say the least. rafe has to grab your wrist in whatâs supposed to be a firm hold, and youâd have to fumble your way through the escape technique. itâs not perfect, but itâs good enough to get the drill going.
the two of you are both way too aware of each other. the awkwardness of it all makes the air feel heavier, and thereâs this strange, bubbling tension that neither of you knows how to shake. rafeâs grip on your wrist is a little too firm at first, and you instinctively yank it out of his hold too quickly, which makes you both pause and look at each other for a second.
thereâs a beat of silence, and then rafeâs face cracks into a grin. âuh⊠yeah, youâre definitely supposed to slowly pull away,â he says, his voice a little too bright for the situation.
you blink at him, your face flushing. âsorry, IâuhâI panicked.â
he lets out a quiet chuckle, rubbing the back of his neck. âitâs fine. weâre just trying this out.â
you canât help but feel embarrassed, your cheeks heating up under his gaze. you didnât think self-defense could be this awkward, but the whole thing is kind of ridiculous. the movements feel so stiff and uncoordinated, and you can tell rafe is trying way too hard to hide his laughter.
âokay,â you mutter, looking anywhere but at him. âletâs try again.â
this time, rafe tries to go easy on you, adjusting his stance, but as soon as he grabs your wrist again, thereâs a moment of hesitation, and both of you burst into suppressed giggles. itâs just too sillyâthe way youâre both standing there, pretending to fight, looking like absolute amateurs.
you canât stop the laughter from slipping out, and the sound is so unexpected that it catches you off guard. your face burns, and you quickly cover it with your hand, hoping no one notices how flustered you are.
âokay, okay,â rafe says between laughs, still holding your wrist but clearly fighting to keep himself together. his heart is racing, not from the physical exertion of the exercises, but from the way he canât seem to focus on anything except how adorable you look when you laugh. âweâre, uh, doing great, right?â
you canât even meet his eyes. your voice is quiet, barely above a whisper. âyeah, definitely.â
but rafeâs heart is thundering in his chest, too loud for him to ignore. heâs never been this nervous during a drill, not even when heâs throwing a football in front of a crowd. everything about this is making his insides do flip-flops, and he canât understand why.
the two of you keep going through the exercises, but the laughter doesnât stop. each time rafe grabs your wrist, or you try to make an escape, thereâs this shared, silent understanding between the two of you. itâs ridiculous. itâs awkward. and itâs perfect.
he notices the way your hands shake slightly, how your eyes keep darting away from his, and it just makes him want to laugh even more. itâs so real, so raw, in a way heâs never felt before. he doesnât know why, but he canât seem to stop thinking about you.
âyouâre doing fine,â he says softly after a while, his voice unusually gentle. âreally. donât worry about it.â
you nod, barely able to form words as you keep your gaze firmly on the floor. he wants to say something else, but the words get stuck in his throat. itâs strangeâthis is strange. something about the way you make him feel like heâs in way over his head, and itâs making his heart race faster than he can keep up with.
coach davis started droning on about the next exercise, something about how to escape a bear hug or tackle or whatever, but youâre not really listening. youâre too busy trying to get the next move right, shifting your weight awkwardly, wondering if your face is as hot as it feels.
what you are aware of, though, is the way rafe is looking at you. his gaze is soft, but it doesnât feel casualâitâs more intense than it should be, like he's lost in a thought youâre not a part of. every time you glance at him, heâs still staring, his lips slightly parted like heâs about to say something but canât quite figure out what.
you donât notice how long heâs been staring, how heâs not paying attention to coach davis at all, but lana does.
sheâs standing a few feet away with topper, listening half-heartedly to the coachâs explanation while she watches you both from the corner of her eye. when she sees rafeâs gaze fixed on you, her eyebrow raises, the corners of her lips curling up in a mischievous grin.
âno way,â she mutters to topper, whoâs clearly more interested in trying not to sweat than anything happening in the class.
lana shifts closer to you, nudging your shoulder gently. âokay, seriously, are you two going to pretend like nothing is happening here?â she whispers, her voice laced with amusement.
you barely hear her, focused on the way rafe shifts his weight, trying to act casual, but you donât miss the glint in his eyes.
âwhat are you talking about?â you ask, still trying to concentrate on what coach davis is saying.
âgirl,â she says, almost too loudly, making you blush even harder, âyouâve got mr. quarterback staring at you like youâre the only thing in this gym. i swear, youâre not even paying attention, and heâs over here practically drooling.â
you blink at her, confused, your face going even hotter. you glance over at rafe quickly, thinking youâre imagining it, butâno. heâs still looking at you, and the moment your eyes meet, his expression shifts from uncertainty to something else, something you canât quite figure out.
and then, like a punch to the gut, you finally pull your gaze from him, letting your eyes fall to the floor like youâre trying to escape from the intensity of the moment.
lana catches the look, then smirks, nudging you again. âiâm not crazy. heâs definitely into you. like, definitely. look at himâheâs not even pretending to pay attention anymore.â
you try to focus on something elseâanything elseâbut you feel the weight of his gaze still on you, like heâs looking right through you. it makes your chest tighten, and you canât bring yourself to look at him again.
âstop,â you whisper harshly, though you donât even know why youâre saying it.
lana just giggles, her eyes lighting up like sheâs holding onto some great secret. âiâm just saying, girl. youâre killing him right now.â
meanwhile, rafe, clueless about whatâs going on between the two of you, is still struggling to keep his composure. his heart is racing even faster now, and all he can think about is how youâre just standing there, not noticing what heâs feelingâheâs not sure if heâs relieved or disappointed by that. all he knows is that he canât seem to look away from you.
rafe exhales slowly, trying to ground himself, even though it feels impossible.
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Toji who leaves hickeys all over you so often that you have to push him away when you start looking like you fought an octopus.
"Toji, you know these aren't always gonna be so small. They're gonna end up looking like bruises. Just look at the ones you already left."
"Mhm," he hums, already leaving another one on your shoulder blade, releasing your skin with a wet smack of his lips. He rubs his spit into the mark like it's some sort of salve that'll make it last longer.
"I'm fine with these," you say, looking at all the one's he left on your chest and below. "but my neck... i'm running out of makeup, baby. I won't be able to cover them if you keep this up."
"Then don't." He would just love that. Despite how nonchalant he sounds about it, it's a highly recommended suggestion. He would genuinely love it if you walked around with his marks all over your neck. People will automatically know that you already have someone you get freaky with.
"I have to go to work sometime. I wouldn't be able to take having my neck stared at by everyone I talk to. No more neck hickeys."
He nears your neck, again. The second you say he can't put another mark on it, he spots a clear area and leans in, lightly pressing his lips against it.
"Tojiii," you whine, leaning forward, away from him. "Leave it alone."
"But, it's clear. It's lonely without being marked like the rest of your neck." He scoots forward again, putting his enormous hands on your waist to pull you close. "I'll be quick. Just-"
"Mm-mm. No," you interrupt, brushing his hands off of you.
"I might just die if you don't let me do this, ma."
"Really?" You raise your brows in disbelief.
"Really," he responds, so confidently.
You scoff. "You're so dramatic. You won't die if you don't get to suck on my neck."
"Who knows? I might spontaneously collapse because of it. Weirder, more unexplainable things have happened."
He's so dumb sometimes. Your hunk is absolutely ridiculous, and yet you find yourself weighing towards his point in this.
"Would marking up that blank space actually cure you?" You feel as silly as him for asking the question.
"Who's to say?"
You tilt your head and deadpan. "Right. I guess i'll take my chances and just keep the random patch of unmarked skin on my neck."
"Hey, that doesn't mean we can't try. Come on, now."
You groan and roll your eyes before making your way back to him. He cups your cheeks, smirking as he looks into your eyes, before turning your head to expose the blank area on your neck.
"It's a reaaally good spot, doll. I think i'm gonna make it."
You huff, unable to look at him because of the way your head is turned. You feel his tongue slide over your neck, the gesture transitioning to his lips kissing the area and then it feels sharp. His lips leave a stinging sensation with every second that they stay on you.
"Ow, fuck, you vampire. It feels like you're actually trying to suck the blood out of me." You wince. "Are you done?"
"Yeah, yeah. I'm done." He admires his masterpiece and smirks with pride. You have an entire collar of hickeys that he put on you, and the newest one looks mean.
"You look pretty. Could eat you up, mama." He swipes at the new mark with his thumb, looking at the color that will remain on your skin for the next few days.
"I can tell. You already devoured me. You're insane. Just look at all of this," you say, running your hand over your kiss stained neck.
"I was just nibbling on you," he speaks, into your jaw, before smoothly laying you down, onto the bed. "Just wanted a little taste," he says, taking your hands in his and pinning them above your head. "Am I really insane for that?"
"Um..." you laugh, making your flustered state obvious. "Yes?"
"Damn." He gives you a long, deep kiss, that makes you forget what you were talking about. "You think i'm crazy?" You hum, and he does it again.
"Haven't you played with me enough? I feel like i'm some chew toy for you." You giggle, feeling his lips on your cheek, trailing towards your jaw.
He hums, dismissively. "Found more blank space."
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GRIM ACCIDENTLY OUTING YOUR CRUSH ON HIM !! . . grim accidently blurting out how much you love the dorm head . .
gender neutral reader / fluff / crack taken seriously / mutual pinning
a/n: this has been rotting in my idea list for like over 2 years, enjoy! og account: @/cupids-chamber
MALLEUS DRACONIA
Malleus was surprised, when you had decided to tag along on his Gargoyle Study Club meeting, however he was ecstatic with the idea of you joining him, while he talked about his favorite things. Truly an exciting time, talking to his favorite person about his favorite things!
For once he didn't quite mind having no one at the meetings, because he got to spend time with youâand Grim . . he's there too . . In fact, Malleus kind of finds it endearing he stuck around this long with you, listening to him, despite clearly not being interested in the topic.
Malleus walked around, showing you his collection of gargoylesâexplaining the extensive history of each one, and you listened, throughout his explanations which most people would find extremely boring, though seeing how passionate he was about the subject, you couldn't help but be engaged.
You followed along behind him, as he showed you each one, Grim on your shoulder, yawning rather loudlyâclearly bored with the past hour, where you dragged him into Malleus's club meeting, which you passed off as a 'morale' thing to doâwhen he can clearly tell you did this because you liked him.
"Ah . . I have something I want to give to you"âMalleus shifted through the drawers, looking for the miniature gargoyles he had made for the both of you (well just you, he figured grim would appreciate something more . . edible . . he got tuna.).
Grim leans in closer to you, whispering rather loudly, so much so you knew Malleus could hear, "henchman, how much longer . . my whiskers are turning white here!!", he whispered all bit dramatically, and you sighed internally, mumbling a soft, "Grim not right now", in response.
After a few more moments of silence, Grim leaned back, and exclaimed, "You seriously like this guy, he likes gargoyles more then I like tunaâ"
Grim paused, realizing he spoke a little more than he really should've. . . and Malleus paused, dropping whatever was in his hand to the floor, turning blankly at you, looking at you with a dumbfounded look on his face . . (he's processing, give him a minute.)
RIDDLE ROSEHEARTS
Riddle isn't the kind of person to intrude in a conversation, especially when he knows he isn't wanted there (debatable)âHe also doesn't enjoy listening in on others private conversations . . However, this case is different, obviously he has the right to be curious when you're being so very loud, I mean practically everyone can hear you!
His heels clicked on the floors, as he raced through the hallsâRiddle doesn't often find himself in a rush, but lunch had started 5 minutes ago, and he was running behind on his schedule.
His hands gripped his notes tightly, and just as he was about to make a turn, he heard his name . .âRiddle stopped in his tracks, looking around, in order to find the source of the noise, that's when he spotted you . . and grim, who was speaking rather loudly.
Now, Riddle swears he's not purposefully ease-dropping, but Grim was loud. . he was bound to overhear anyways! . . Well that's what he'll keep telling himself, in order to ease the guilt of listening in on your private conversations.
"Riddle?!" Grim exclaimed, waving his little paws around in shock, "out of everyone henchman, you like thatâ", you covered Grim's mouth with your hand, whispering loudly in response, "Why don't you tell the whole school I like Riddle, Grim?!?"
Riddle paused in response to that, 'you liked him? . . as in romantically? . .', Riddle loses his grip on his notes, in shock. Papers scattered the floor with a thud, and before Riddle could fix the mess he had accidently caused, you turned, and faced him . . This is gonna be one long confessioâconversation.
VIL SCHOENHEIT
See, Vil isn't the kind of person to believe in a rumor or petty gossip that he hears across the halls of Pomefiore, because if there's drama then Octavinelle and Pomefiore are the absolute first at the crime sceneâHe's well aware of how a small lie and a fake rumor can go and ruin someone's life, which is why Vil prefers information from the source.
That being said, Vil does enjoy gossipâand at time's he draws his own conclusion to a topic, and keeps it to himself, he's on the middle line of it all, but you bet, he'll 'coincidentally' overhear all the drama going on at your family reunion but don't worry, he's amazing with secrets. (Headcanon: he probably pretends not to like gossip, but still listens and reacts when Rook tells him what he overheard)
And this is why Vil couldn't help it but approach Grim when he heard him complaining begrudgingly to himself, about you kicking him out and making him run 'errands' . . which were more likely then not, a distraction.
"Oh it's nothing, henchman just needed privacy . . ya . .", Vil raises a brow, and Grim should've shut down, but when a can of good tuna got involved . . Well a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do.
Grim took the can of tuna from Vil, "They're preparing a confession letter", Grim spoke and Vil couldn't help but feel a pang of betrayal at the revelation, how could they like someone else . . When he's breathing! (At least wait till he's cremated, like gosh . . So as long as his body exists, even if he's not breathing, you should love him frfr #hawkmothcore for the win) . .
"To who?", Vil asks, curiously, and Grim stares at him blankly, "I'll give you another can to goâ" he offers, "Gimme it right now, and I'll tell ya'".
Vil sighs, handing him another can, "The letter is for ya', henchman likes youâ".
LEONA KINGSCHOLAR
Now normally, Leona could care less as to what goes on in the botanical garden, while he takes a nap there (mainly because he's too asleep to register his surroundings), because even with his acute sense of hearing, rarely anyone visits, and if they do, they only do so to take a break or catch a breather, or to just immerse themselves in the garden as a sort of escape, so it's usually all quiet and soothing, for the most part.
However, some days he wasn't so lucky, be it students randomly popping in so they could skip class, or to have a picnic, or that random couple, who thinks it'd be a cute and adorable idea to have a date in the botanical garden because no-one goes there, and it's so secretive and the mystery excites them. (he hates, he fucking hates it, he's the biggest hater there is, he despises all couples equally.)
Leona was all comfortable, half-asleep, his eyes were closed as he was ready to just get some shut-eye, sleep for a couple hoursâuntil, he heard footsteps, rather loud ones . . Now, he normally doesn't care, and to be frank, he doesn't care right now, he figured they're taking a small stroll, and will stop . . eventually. (delusional king!!)
"Grim this is ridiculousâ", Leona's ears perked up as he heard your voice, now that had his eyes wide open, looking around for you . . Well he's not that curious, as to what you find 'ridiculous' (he's very curious, he needs to know each detail, tell him everything), but he does hope you expand on it.
"C'mon henchmen! The best way to get over someone is confess and get closure?", Grim was confused himself, with whatever he was saying, "Oh yea Grim, which class did you learn that from, romance 101 with Crowley?â", Leona snorts.
"No actually I asked Trien!" Grim says . . a bit too confidently for comfort, "Grim . . I don't think you should be proud of that", you point out.
"Just tell Leona you like him? He's not gonna kill ya"
". . ." Leona froze, . . you liked him? I mean yea that makes sense, he's really attractive, but youâLiked him? . .
AZUL ASHENGROTTO
Azul states that he doesn't favor you that muchâalthough the twins will argue otherwise, especially since Azul got you to taste test the new Monstro Lounge menu items, before he released it . . before even tasting it himself, . . and maybe he didn't want to let it slip that he liked you onlyâbecause he ended up also inviting Grim to taste the food with youâAnd with Crowley's payments . . well you were more than willing to accept free food.
To be fair, Azul is aware you do get a bit more special treatment, and deep-down he's well aware he likes you, but confronting his feelings? in this economy? . . not gonna happen . . He'd rather you assume he's a cat person who likes Grim, because clearly that's what you think of him, since he's so pretty and smart and good at covering his feelings. (He's not, he's boyfailing a little too close to the sun.)
Azul had everything set upâand by that he means, he had a plan and got other people to set it up for him, according to said plan, because he couldn't give away the fact that he had planned it himself, no . . that would make it seem like he was into you, and he'd rather die then you know thatâIn fact, he'd rather have his tentacles inked dry and cut off, fried and dipped in his ink, and shoved so far down his throat he chokes and dies before that even remotely comes close to happening.
You sat beside Azul, as he asked asked you about the food, and you gave responses that he mostly liked, . . well you did have some comments about the blue cheese rigatoni . . But to be fair, he entrusted the blue cheese to Floyd . .
Grim was half-way through his food, when he randomly spoke, with his mouth rather full, "This is amazing . . I can see why you like this guy henchman . .â" Azul paused and he practically stopped blinking, if his ears could perk up, then it would right now, "âfor once your taste in men . . has good justification henchmâ" Grim only paused when he recognized your glare, and only then did he realize how badly he fucked up . . "I'm not getting the good tuna for awhile . . am I?"
KALIM AL-ASIM
Kalim doesn't usually come in without an appointment (lies), or before informing you beforehand (lies on top of lies), and he doesn't really like invading your personal time (and lies again) . . at least not knowingly, but today was different . . he wanted to go somewhere with you! It's a surprise, and surely you'd appreciate him randomly popping into your dorm and dragging you outside, in the sunlight like an upstanding citizen and friend.
Kalim settles on the couch in the lounge of Ramshackle, stretching his arms out as he gets comfortable. All the while, Grim stares him down, . . something Kalim noticed off the get-go, "Why are you looking at me like that?", he calls out, confused and a tad bit unnerved at the blatant piercing stare.
"You're the one henchman likes, right? . .âwhat's your credit score? . . how many cans of tuna are we talkingâ"
Kalim paused, ". . . what?", he asks blankly, still paused at the first half of Grim's sentence, enough to not notice or take offense to the rest of his words and questions. "Why can't ya' hear me . . ?! I asked what's your credit scorâ", grim responds, only to be cut-off mid-sentence by Kalim "BEFORE THAT!"
"That you're the person henchman likâ", Grim pauses as he hears your voice, and as you enter the room, Grim realizes his mistake, "Fuck."
"Kalim act natural!" Grim asks, as he goes back into his usual stance, but as he see's Kalim not moving, . . "who am I kidding . . no one can get shit through to ya' in one go . . I'm fucked."
IDIA SHROUD
Idia had his gaming equipment set up for two, well it would be threeâbut paws and controllers isn't the most fun thing to play around with, therefore Grim has opted to watching, instead of playing. Which he gets bored of rather fast, and well Ortho preferred to watch his older brother then play, or do normal kid things like advanced calculus.
Although Idia didn't really mind that, he enjoyed playing with you, because you were a really good challenge, a true gamer! . . And with newer games, he found that you listened and got the hang of it fast, and it was fun helping you grow your account on his favorite games, and it was also fun listening to you ramble about your favorite games from your world.
"So yea in genshin impactâ", you rambled on and on about the Fontaine chapter, and about the 'archon' which was like the great seven, and how sad her storyline was, Idia dabbled in Lore from time to time, though he really found it amusing how you took the time to describe everything, you really helped immerse him in the storyline, and to be honest, sometimes he could imagine he was playing the game with you.
"âand then if you went into this specific area you could actually hear her cry . . OH oh! . . and when Neuvillette cried, it would like downpour so hard . . ", you continued rambling, and Idia would just listen, so much so that you guys completely forgot the game you were actually playing . . which seemed to upset Grim, who wanted to watch.
"Yea yea . . henchmen, we get it was sad, and it's fun talking to the love of your lifeâbut could we please have more playing and less talking!", Grim explained rather dramatically, his paws flinging up, only to be silenced when he saw the two of you silent, looking at each other . . and then Idia's hair burst up in bright pink flames . .
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Forbidden Taste - L.H
P: Slytherin!Heeseung X Fem!Reader
Warnings: Teasing, Hurt/Comfort, Suggestive Content, Angst, Misunderstandings, Jealousy, Myung Jaehyun Cameo, Incorrect Use Of Amortenia.
Synopsis: Youâre not popular at Hogwarts, so why is Lee Heeseung, Slytherin royalty, so intent on having you? You donât know, and you donât question itâuntil jealousy and a pink potion threaten everything.
a/n: WHAT A JOURNEY IT HAS BEEN! Thank you all <3 all the members are now completed! (i changed the plot for this so many times, its insane)
want to read the other members? -> masterlist
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You werenât massively popular at Hogwarts, but people knew you. Not in the way that theyâd scream your name in the corridors or seek you out during mealtimes, but enough that when your name came up in conversation, thereâd be nods of recognition. Oh, yeah. Decent flyer. Smart enough to keep up in classes, but not obnoxious about it. You built your reputation in small, deliberate waysâearly on, too. By the time you hit your third year, you realized it wasnât just about house points or grades. If you didnât carve out your place here, Hogwarts could chew you up and spit you out.
So, you made connections. Little alliances. You werenât a name in bold letters, but you werenât invisible either. A compliment here, a conversation there. Small, calculated acts of charm to ensure you werenât just some shadow skulking through the hallways. Yet you never overdid it. Just enough to make sure you wouldnât be forgotten.
And honestly, that was fine. You had your friends and housemates, the people who mattered to you most. The ones you could collapse with after a particularly grueling Potions lesson or laugh with over Butterbeer-flavored Bertie Bottâs Beans in the common room. It wasnât the spotlight, but it was enough.
Itâs weird how quickly that balance can shift, though. How one incidentâone personâcan flip everything upside down.
It really was funnyâhilarious, even. You had no answer as to why he suddenly latched onto you, why he started pursuing you of all people. Lee fucking Heeseung. One of the most popular Slytherins in his year, practically Hogwarts royalty.
Usually, people would trip over their own feet for the chance to be seen with him. Heeseung had everything: pureblood lineage, one of the best Beaters Hogwarts had seen in years, a face straight out of Witch Weekly's Most Eligible Wizards list, and a charisma that could charm the scales off a dragon. He was smart, tooâtop of his classes in subjects he actually cared aboutâand everyone knew his family was filthy rich.
He was the kind of person others orbited around. Someone whose presence turned heads the moment he walked into a room. The kind of guy you were perfectly fine staying away from because people like him didnât care about people like you. And yet, for some inexplicable reason, he chose you.
All because you ran into him one day.
It wasnât even that dramatic of an encounter. You were late for Transfiguration, books piled in your arms, hurrying down the corridor like your life depended on it. And thenâbam. Youâd slammed into what felt like a brick wall. Except brick walls didnât have arms that steadied you as your books tumbled to the floor, and they definitely didnât have sharp jawlines and a gaze that pinned you to the spot.
âSorry!â youâd muttered, scrambling to pick up your books, too flustered to even look him in the eye. He didnât say anything. Didnât throw out the kind of snarky insult Slytherins were known for. He just⊠watched you. And when you dashed off down the corridor, cheeks burning with embarrassment, you thought that was the end of it.
Except it wasnât.
After that, Heeseung started showing up. Everywhere.
At first, it was subtle. A glance in the Great Hall that lingered too long to be coincidental. A smirk when you passed him in the corridors. Then it escalated. Sitting at your table in the library, asking casually about your Charms essay while his friends shot curious looks your way. Offering to walk you to class, claiming it was âon his wayâ even when it clearly wasnât. Stealing a seat beside you in Herbology, leaning closer than necessary to peek at your notes.
It didnât take long for people to notice. Whispers started following you wherever you went, growing louder with every interaction. Your friends pestered you for answers you didnât have, and his admirers glared daggers at you from across the room.
And all you could think was, Why? Why you? Out of all the girls fawning over himâpurebloods, Quidditch stars, girls far prettier and more polished than youâwhat on earth made Lee Heeseung decide you were worth his attention?
You tried convincing yourself that it was a joke. Some elaborate Slytherin prank that youâd accidentally wandered into. Any day now, youâd wake up to Heeseung laughing in your face, surrounded by his friends, as he revealed that all of thisâevery smirk, every casual wave, every time he leaned in close enough for you to catch a whiff of his expensive cologneâwas just for his own entertainment.
But the days passed, and the teasing you braced yourself for never came. If anything, Heeseungâs attention only intensified.
âI could help you with that, you know,â he offered one day during a particularly grueling Potions class. Youâd been furiously scribbling notes, trying to keep up with Professor Slughornâs lecture. Heeseung was perched on the edge of your shared table, his hand propping up his chin as he watched you.
âWith what?â you asked without looking up, determined not to let his lazy, amused tone fluster you.
âYour notes,â he said, gesturing at your parchment. âYour handwritingâs awful. What if you canât read it later?â
You shot him a glare, but he just grinned. âIâll manage,â you said, shoving your notes further away from him for good measure.
Moments like that became your new normal. Heeseung showing up uninvited, weaving himself into your day like he belonged there. Offering to help you study, sneaking your favorite dessert onto your plate in the Great Hall, throwing an arm around your shoulders like you were long-lost friends.
And yet, despite your initial resistance, you found yourself softening. Heeseung wasnât as insufferable as youâd assumed heâd be. Sure, he was cockyâhe wouldnât be Lee Heeseung if he werenâtâbut he also had this disarming charm about him. He listened when you spoke, remembered the little things you mentioned in passing, and had a way of making you laugh when you least expected it.
You acted normal around himâor at least, you tried to. You didnât show how much he affected you, how your pulse quickened when he leaned in close, the playful smirk on his lips as he talked to you about some trivial thing. You didnât let it show when heâd take your books without asking, holding them effortlessly with one hand as if they weighed nothing, and you definitely didnât let him see how your cheeks burned when he casually brushed his fingers against yours as he handed them back.
You didnât react when he helped you in Potions either, his voice low in your ear as he whispered which ingredients to add next, his breath warm against your skin. Even when your heart stuttered, you kept your face neutral, refusing to give him the satisfaction of knowing just how much he got under your skin.
And Merlin, did he love to push.
Heâd ditch his friends without a second thought, his usual crowd of Slytherins calling after him as he veered off to sit with you instead. Youâd hear their muffled complaints from across the room, but Heeseung didnât seem to care. Heâd just flash them that infuriatingly perfect smileâthe one that screamed, I know exactly what Iâm doing,âand plop down next to you like heâd been there all along.
âDonât you have other people to bother?â youâd mutter, barely glancing at him as he propped his chin on his hand, watching you with an intensity that made it impossible to focus on anything else.
âWhy would I, when youâre so much more interesting?â heâd reply smoothly, the corners of his mouth tugging upward in a way that sent your stomach into an uninvited freefall.
But you didnât give him the satisfaction of a blush or a flustered response. Instead, youâd roll your eyes and pretend to be annoyed, even as you caught yourself glancing at him when you thought he wasnât looking.
The truth was, Heeseung made it harder and harder to ignore him. He wasnât just persistentâhe was thoughtful in ways you didnât expect. He remembered the tiniest details, like how you hated licorice wands or how you preferred studying in the libraryâs quieter corners. He went out of his way to make your day just a little easier, sliding your favorite pastries onto your plate at breakfast or swapping out your worn-out quills with brand-new ones from his bag.
It was infuriating. And endearing. And confusing.
Maybe it was the way he always seemed to know when you needed cheering up, or the way his voice softened when he spoke to you, or the way he looked at youâlike you were the only person in the room that mattered.
But you werenât ready to admit it. Not to yourself, and definitely not to him. So, you kept acting normal, pretending like he didnât affect you as much as he did.
At this point, even your friends couldnât keep quiet about it. Every time Heeseung walked into a room and made a beeline for you, their eyebrows would raise a little higher. When heâd flash you one of his trademark grins or casually sling an arm around your shoulders, their teasing smirks were impossible to miss.
âSo, are you two a thing, or what?â one of your friends finally asked during a late-night study session in the common room.
âNo,â you said quickly, maybe a little too quickly, and their skeptical look said it all.
âWell, he certainly thinks you are,â another chimed in, grinning as they flipped through their Charms textbook. âYou do realize half the school thinks youâre secretly dating, right?â
You rolled your eyes, brushing it off. âHeâs just⊠like that. Itâs probably some sort of game to him.â
But even as you said it, you werenât so sure. Because if this was a game, Heeseung was playing it far too convincingly.
And then he went and completely blindsided you.
It was after Defense Against the Dark Arts, a class you shared with him. Youâd just finished stuffing your notes into your bag, about to make your way to the library, when he appeared beside you, his usual confident grin plastered across his face.
âSo,â he started casually, leaning against your desk. âWant to go to Hogsmeade with me this weekend?â
You froze, blinking at him like you hadnât heard him properly. âWhat?â
âHogsmeade,â he repeated, as if it were the most obvious thing in the world. âYou. Me. A date.â
Your brain stuttered at the word. A date?
âYouâre joking,â you said, though your voice sounded a little less confident than you wouldâve liked.
âIâm not,â he said simply, tilting his head and watching you with that annoyingly earnest expression that made it impossible to tell if he was messing with you.
âI⊠I canât,â you stammered, feeling your cheeks grow warm. âI mean, thank you, but I donât thinkââ
âDonât think too hard about it,â he interrupted smoothly, cutting off your attempt at a polite rejection. âI like you. You like meâdonât even try to deny it,â he added quickly, smirking when you opened your mouth to argue. âSo why not give it a shot?â
You stared at him, dumbfounded. âHeeseung, Iââ
âBefore you say no,â he said, leaning in closer, âthink about this. Whatâs the worst that could happen? You have a good time with me? Sounds like a pretty low-risk situation, if you ask me.â
It was infuriating how he made it sound so simple, like agreeing to a date with him wasnât the most intimidating thing in the world.
âIâm serious, Heeseung,â you said, trying to sound firm. âI donât think itâs a good idea.â
âAnd Iâm serious,â he countered, his voice dropping slightly. âIâm not taking no for an answer.â
The way he said it wasnât pushy or aggressiveâit was confident, certain, like he already knew you were going to say yes eventually. And maybe thatâs what threw you off the most.
You glanced at him one last time before turning to leave the classroom, your lips pressed into a tight line.
And of course, he followed.
âHey, wait!â he called, his voice echoing down the corridor as you walked ahead, refusing to look back.
âI said no, Heeseung,â you said over your shoulder, quickening your pace.
âAnd I said Iâm not taking no for an answer,â he shot back, his footsteps ringing louder as he hurried to catch up with you. âYou didnât even give me a proper reason!â
âI donât need to give you a reason!â you replied, exasperated, keeping your gaze fixed forward.
But he wasnât giving up. He was persistentâtoo persistent. You could hear him muttering under his breath, probably running through a list of arguments to convince you, but before he could get another word out, you heard a loud, unmistakable yelp.
Pausing mid-step, you turned just in time to see Heeseung stumble over a loose stone jutting out of the floor, his arms flailing to keep his balance. He caught himself at the last second, straightening up and brushing off his robes like nothing happened.
âSmooth,â you said, unable to stop the amused quirk of your lips.
âYeah, yeah, laugh it up,â he muttered, jogging a few steps to close the distance between you.
But the second he got close, you picked up your pace again, determined not to let him win.
He didnât stop, though. Heeseung was like a particularly annoying shadow, trailing after you with single-minded determination. Except this shadow seemed to have the worst luck imaginable.
Not five steps later, you heard a startled âHey, watch it!â from a much shorter Ravenclaw student as Heeseung nearly crashed into them.
âYeah, yeah! Sorry!â he called over his shoulder, not even slowing down as he kept his focus on you.
You didnât bother hiding your grin this time, though you kept walking.
And then, just as he was about to catch up again, you saw itâa ghost floating lazily through the corridor ahead.
âHeeseung,â you said without stopping, your tone almost warning.
âWhat?â he asked, completely oblivious, his gaze fixed on you instead of what was in front of him.
You didnât answer. You just waited for it to happen.
Sure enough, he strode directly into the ghostâa particularly dramatic one, judging by the loud whoosh and Heeseungâs subsequent startled shiver as he stumbled back.
âBloody hell!â he exclaimed, swiping at his robes as if itâd help.
âMaybe if you watched where you were goingâŠâ you said, finally stopping to face him, arms crossed over your chest as you raised an eyebrow.
He shook his head, his focus snapping back to you almost instantly. âIâll watch where Iâm going when you stop running away from me,â he said, his voice laced with determination.
You rolled your eyes, but before you could turn away again, he stepped closer, this time careful not to trip over anything or crash into anyone.
âLook,â he said, his tone softer now. âI know Iâm being persistent. But itâs only because I really want you to say yes. Just one date. Thatâs all Iâm asking. If you hate it, Iâll back off. But I think weâll have a good time.â
For the first time, you hesitated. There was something about the way he looked at youâearnest, hopefulâthat made it hard to brush him off like before. Heeseung wasnât just being cocky now; he was being sincere. And it was that sincerity that made your resolve waver.
âOne date,â he repeated, holding your gaze. âWhat do you say?â
You sighed, stopping long enough to turn and face him properly. His eyes were wide, his expression almost pleading but still holding that annoying confidence that made him, well, Heeseung.
âFine,â you said, crossing your arms. âOne date. But if I donât enjoy it, thatâs it. No more asking, no more following me around, no moreâŠâ You gestured vaguely toward him, ââŠwhatever this is.â
His face broke into a grin so smug and victorious that you instantly regretted agreeing.
âDeal,â he said without hesitation. âBut donât worry, youâre going to love it.â
âDonât push your luck,â you muttered, but the way his grin grew wider told you heâd already won this round.
âAlright, then,â he said, taking a step closer. Too close. You could feel the faintest brush of his robes against yours as he leaned in. âThis Saturday, Three Broomsticks. Noon. Iâll even buy you Butterbeer.â
âWow, how generous of you,â you deadpanned, but your heart was doing that annoying fluttering thing again.
âYouâll see,â he said, his voice dropping lower, teasing. âIâm full of surprises.â
Before you could fire back a snarky response, his hands moved, one settling on your waist like it was the most natural thing in the world.
Your breath hitched.
You werenât sure what he was sayingâsomething about how the Three Broomsticks had the best treacle tart, or maybe how heâd already booked a spot with Madam Rosmertaâbut the words blurred in your head. All you could focus on was his hand, warm and firm, holding you in place. And his body, so close to yours that you could feel the faint heat radiating off him.
Your mind raced, trying to decide if you should pull away or just let him keep talking.
ââŠdonât tell me youâve never tried the cinnamon hot chocolate there,â he said, his lips curving into another grin.
âWhat?â you blurted, blinking up at him, trying to drag your attention back to his actual words.
He chuckled, the sound low and soft, and you hated how it made your stomach flip.
âYou werenât even listening,â he teased, his thumb brushing lightly against your waist before he pulled back, giving you just enough space to breathe again.
âMaybe if you werenât so close, Iâd be able to concentrate,â you shot back, though your voice came out a little weaker than youâd intended.
Heeseung didnât look fazed. If anything, he looked even more pleased with himself, like he knew exactly how flustered you were and wasnât planning to let you forget it anytime soon.
âGuess Iâll have to tell you on our date, then,â he said, stepping back fully now, his smirk still firmly in place.
You rolled your eyes, but your cheeks burned as you turned away, determined not to let him see just how much he was getting to you.
âSaturday,â he called after you as you started walking again, his tone light and cheerful. âDonât forget!â
You didnât answer, but you didnât need to. The truth was, no matter how much you tried to deny it, you knew you wouldnât forget. Not with the way your heart was still racing.
Saturday came faster than you expected, and by the time you were standing in front of the Three Broomsticks, you were already second-guessing your decision. Why did you agree to this again? Oh, rightâbecause Heeseung was annoyingly persistent, and some traitorous part of you was curious to see what a date with him would actually be like.
You adjusted your scarf, the chill of the winter air biting at your cheeks. The sound of chatter and clinking glasses spilled out of the tavern, and for a brief moment, you considered turning around and pretending youâd forgotten. But before you could so much as take a step back, a familiar voice called out behind you.
âYouâre early.â
You turned to see Heeseung approaching, dressed in his usual green-and-silver scarf, his black coat tailored perfectly to him. His hair was slightly tousled from the wind, and he wore that same confident smile that made your stomach twist in ways you wished it wouldnât.
âIâm on time,â you corrected, crossing your arms.
âEarly, on timeâsame thing,â he said, coming to a stop in front of you. His eyes scanned you briefly, and for a second, you thought you saw something softer in his expression. âYou look good.â
Your cheeks warmed, and you immediately regretted your decision to wear something classy. âDonât start,â you muttered, brushing past him toward the door.
He laughed, catching up to you easily. âWhat? Itâs a compliment!â
âYeah, yeah.â You pushed open the door, grateful for the wave of warmth that greeted you as you stepped inside.
The Three Broomsticks was busy, as it always was on weekends, but Heeseung didnât seem the least bit fazed. He waved to Madam Rosmerta, who greeted him like they were old friends, and led you to a small table near the window that had somehow been left open.
âSee?â he said, pulling out a chair for you. âPerfect spot.â
You hesitated for a moment before sitting down, mumbling a quiet, âThanks,â as he slid into the seat across from you.
For a few moments, it was quietâwell, as quiet as it could be in the bustling tavern. You busied yourself with looking out the window, watching as students milled about in the snow-covered streets of Hogsmeade.
âSo,â Heeseung said, breaking the silence. âWhatâs your go-to order here?â
You glanced at him, raising an eyebrow. âWhy do you care?â
âBecause,â he said with a grin, leaning forward slightly, âI want to make sure you actually enjoy this date. Remember? You said if you didnât, I couldnât ask again.â
âStill sticking to that, by the way,â you reminded him.
âNoted,â he said, looking far too amused for your liking. âBut Iâm confident youâll have a good time.â
âOf course you are,â you muttered, but you couldnât help the small smile that tugged at your lips.
You ended up ordering Butterbeer and treacle tartânot because you particularly wanted it, but because he wouldnât stop raving about it earlier that week.
When the drinks and food arrived, the conversation started off slow, but much to your surprise, it wasnât awkward. Heeseung had a way of keeping things light and entertaining.
And, annoyingly, he kept making you laugh.
After you finished at the Three Broomsticks, Heeseung didnât let the day end there. Instead, he insisted on taking you around Hogsmeade, claiming it was his duty to make sure you had the full experience.
âThis isnât my first time here, you know,â you said as he led you down the cobblestone streets, passing shop after shop.
âYeah, but itâs your first time here with me,â he countered, flashing you that same cocky grin that had you rolling your eyes for the tenth time that day.
Still, you didnât protest when he pulled you into Honeydukes, pointing out his favorite candies and piling a small bag with sweets you hadnât even asked for. âItâs on me,â he said when you tried to argue, waving you off like it was nothing.
Next, he dragged you to Zonkoâs, where he spent far too much time marveling over the prank items and showing you his favorites with the enthusiasm of a first-year discovering the place for the first time. You couldnât help but smile as he rattled off stories of the chaos heâd caused with them in the Slytherin common room.
And then, just as you were debating whether or not to call it a day, it started snowing.
Soft, delicate flakes drifted down from the sky, blanketing the streets and rooftops in a thin layer of white. The air grew quieter, the hustle and bustle of Hogsmeade fading into the background as people paused to take in the sight.
You stopped walking, tilting your head back slightly to watch the snow fall. For a moment, you forgot about Heeseung entirely, your mind quieting as you focused on the tiny snowflakes melting against your skin.
When you finally looked back at him, he was staring at you.
âWhat?â you asked, raising an eyebrow.
He didnât answer right away, his eyes soft as they searched your face. Finally, he said, âYou.â
You blinked, caught off guard. âWhat about me?â
âYouâre justâŠâ He trailed off, taking a step closer. His voice was quieter now, more serious. âYouâre beautiful, you know that?â
Your breath caught in your throat, and before you could even think of how to respond, he closed the space between you, his hand gently reaching for your scarf.
You stood frozen as he adjusted it carefully, his fingers brushing against your neck as he tightened it slightly to block out the cold. His touch was warm, his movements unhurried, and when he was finished, his hands lingered for just a second longer than necessary.
âThere,â he said softly, his gaze meeting yours again. âWouldnât want you catching a cold.â
You felt your cheeks grow warm, and it wasnât from the weather. âYouâre ridiculous,â you muttered, but your voice lacked its usual bite.
âAnd yet, youâre still here with me,â he teased, a small smile tugging at his lips.
You didnât respond, turning your gaze back to the falling snow. But as Heeseung slipped his hand into yours, giving it a gentle squeeze, you didnât pull away, cause you didnât feel the need to fight him.
The rest of the walk through Hogsmeade passed in a comfortable silence, your hands still entwined as the snow continued to fall around you. You didnât know how Heeseung managed to make it feel so⊠easy. Like holding hands with him was something youâd been doing for years. Like the tension that had built between you over the past weeks had melted away as quickly as the snowflakes on his coat.
He led you to the outskirts of the village, where the streets grew quieter, and the noise of other students faded into the background. The path was lined with trees dusted in white, their bare branches glistening under the faint light of the afternoon sun.
âItâs nice out here,â you murmured, your breath visible in the crisp air.
âYeah,â Heeseung said, but when you glanced at him, you realized he wasnât looking at the trees or the snow-covered landscape. He was looking at you again.
âWhat?â you asked, your voice softer now, a little less defensive.
He shrugged, his lips curling into that small, genuine smile you were starting to recognizeâthe one he didnât use often, the one that wasnât for show. âNothing. Just⊠you seem different today.â
âDifferent?â
âYeah,â he said, his thumb brushing lightly against the back of your hand. âLess scary.â
You rolled your eyes, though you couldnât help the laugh that slipped out. âIâm not scary.â
âTell that to everyone else whoâs too afraid to talk to you.â
âMaybe I just donât like wasting my time,â you said, smirking up at him.
âWell, lucky me, then,â he replied, his tone teasing. âYou must think Iâm worth it.â
Before you could say anything, though, he stopped walking, turning to face you fully. His free hand reached up to brush a stray snowflake from your hair, and you froze at the tenderness of the gesture.
âYouâre really something, you know that?â he said, his voice low, his gaze steady on yours.
You swallowed hard, your heart pounding in your chest. âYou keep saying things like that,â you mumbled, trying to sound annoyed but failing miserably.
âBecause I mean it,â he said simply, like it was the most obvious thing in the world.
And then, before you could overthink it, he leaned inânot too fast, not too slow. Just enough to give you time to pull away if you wanted to. But you didnât.
The kiss was soft, warm, and fleeting, like a snowflake landing on your lips and melting before you could fully feel it. When he pulled back, his face was close enough that you could still feel his breath against your skin.
âIâll take that as a yes to a second date,â he murmured, his tone teasing but his eyes holding that same sincerity that had caught you off guard from the start.
You didnât trust yourself to speak, so you just rolled your eyes and tugged him along, back toward the village.
But the small smile on your face told him everything he needed to know.
As you and Heeseung continued down the snowy path, oblivious to everything else around you, neither of you noticed the three figures hidden just out of sight, watching your every move. They stood together, concealed by the shadow of the trees, their eyes trained on the way you and Heeseung interacted, the way your hands fit together so naturally.
It didnât take long for the bitterness to fester. One of them, a girl with dark brown hair and a scowl that could cut glass, clenched her fists at her sides, watching the way Heeseung smiled at you, how easily he made you laugh.
"Of course sheâs with him," she muttered under her breath, her voice laced with venom. "She always has to go after whatâs not hers."
Beside her, another figureâtaller, with blonde hairânarrowed her eyes at the scene. "Weâve all been trying for years. Why her? What makes her so special?" Her voice was low, barely controlled, and her gaze burned with resentment.
The third figure, a quieter one, with sharp eyes and a calculating expression, stood back, observing the situation silently. She was still for a moment before she spoke, her voice calm but filled with hidden malice. "Maybe it's time we remind him who belongs by his side."
The girl with the dark hair stepped forward, fists still clenched, the fire in her eyes growing. "Letâs see if we canât change his mind."
They lingered in the shadows, watching as Heeseung pulled you closer, speaking in soft tones that made your smile widen. The sight of the two of you together twisted in their hearts, their jealousy and rage bubbling over. They knew that this wasnât overânot by a long shot.
None of you could have predicted what would happen next.
--
The next few days were a blur of contentment. You couldnât remember the last time youâd been this happy, or this at ease. Heeseung had truly surpassed every expectation youâd set for him. He was everything you didnât know you needed in a boyfriendâgentle when you were stressed, confident when you were unsure, and always there to make you smile, even on your worst days.
When you studied together in the library, heâd always find ways to make learning feel less like a chore. Whether it was cracking jokes during boring Potions readings or helping you with Transfiguration, his presence made even the most tedious subjects bearable. And when you were working on homework together in the common room, youâd catch him looking over at you, that amused glint in his eye as if he couldnât believe how lucky he was to have you.
Youâd even gone to his Quidditch match that weekend, which turned into one of the most exciting games youâd ever watched. Heeseung had played brilliantly, his focus unshakable as he zoomed around the pitch, expertly dodging Bludgers and scoring goal after goal.
When the match ended, with Slytherin emerging victorious, Heeseung found you in the stands, grinning widely as he jogged over to you.
âGood game?â you teased, unable to contain the excitement in your voice.
Heeseung shrugged, feigning modesty. "You know, I couldnât have done it without my good luck charm."
Your heart fluttered as he slipped his Slytherin Quidditch jersey over your head, his hands lingering on your shoulders just a little longer than necessary. "This is for you," he said, his voice low but playful. âYou made me win.â
You blinked, looking down at the jersey, which was too big for you but somehow made you feel like you were wearing a piece of him. âI didnât do anythingââ
âYeah, but you were there," he interrupted, his fingers lightly brushing your cheek as he grinned. âThatâs all I needed.â
But Heeseung had one problemâhe never knew when to stop kissing. An innocent kiss shared with you would quickly turn into something far more passionate, the kind of kiss that left you breathless, with your heart racing in your chest. His lips would press against yours, and before you knew it, heâd pull you even closer, deepening the kiss with a soft but urgent intensity.
His hands would find their way to your waist, tugging gently as he pulled you closer, and you couldnât help but melt into him. His kisses werenât just kissesâthey were all-consuming, leaving you dizzy.
It wasnât long before his hair would become messy, stray locks falling into his eyes as he kissed you with that playful but determined energy. By the time you pulled apart, your lips would be sore, swollen from his insistence. And your neck? Covered with small, dark marksâhickeys left behind as reminders of every moment he couldnât quite control himself around you.
But the world wasnât fair to you.
One day, everything changed. You had walked up to Heeseung, as you did every day, eager to see him after class, to share a laugh, maybe steal a quick kiss. But when you rounded the corner, you froze.
There, in the hallway, Heeseung was kissing a Slytherin girlâher hands tangled in his hair, his arms wrapped around her in a way that was so familiar, so intimate, that it felt like a punch to your chest.
Your breath caught in your throat, your body frozen in place, as you watched the scene unfold in front of you. The warmth of his kisses, the tenderness you thought was reserved for you, was now being given to someone else.
And when Heeseung finally pulled away from her, noticing you standing there, your heart shattered.
He didnât even look surprised to see you. His eyes met yours, cold and indifferent. âWhatâs wrong?â he asked, his voice flat.
You couldnât speak. You couldnât breathe. You felt as though the ground had been ripped from beneath you, leaving you dangling in the air, completely lost.
Then, the words you never expected to hear came tumbling from his mouth.
âI never had feelings for you,â he said, his tone casual, almost dismissive. âI never loved you.â
Your world tilted. The person you had trusted, the one who had made you feel special, had never felt the same. All those moments meant nothing. They were nothing but lies.
The pain surged through you like a tidal wave. You felt your chest constrict, your eyes stinging with the heat of unshed tears. Your voice broke as you screamed at him, âHow could you? After everything?!â
But it didnât matter. He didnât care.
The girl with himâher smirk stretched wide, malicious and triumphantâstepped closer to Heeseung, hanging off his arm like she had every right to be there. Her eyes flicked to you, cold and triumphant, as if she reveled in your pain.
You didnât even recognize the version of Heeseung standing before you. The boy you thought you knewâthe one who had held you like you were everything to himâwas gone. In his place was someone who didnât care at all.
You turned on your heel, running away before the tears could spill. Your heart was breaking with every step, but you couldnât bring yourself to look back at him, at them. You didnât want to see the cruel smirk on her face, or the emptiness in his eyes.
You were heartbroken, yes, but beneath the sorrow was a rising tide of angerâburning, raw, and uncontrollable. How could Heeseung break your heart like that? After everything, after acting like you were the only woman in his life, like you were the one he couldnât live without?
The memories played on a loop in your mind, tormenting you. The way he would pull you close and whisper that you were perfect for him. The way heâd laugh at your jokes, even the bad ones, and say that you made his days better.
It had all been a lie.
You paced the empty corridor, your thoughts spiraling into a storm of hurt and rage. Your fists clenched at your sides as tears streaked down your face. You wanted to scream, to cry, to find him and demand answers. How could someone who seemed so perfect turn out to be so cruel?
The image of him kissing that girl was seared into your mind, taunting you. The way she had smirked at you, so smug and triumphant, like sheâd won some twisted game. The way Heeseung had looked at youânot with the warmth and love you were used to, but with indifference, as if you had been nothing but a fleeting amusement.
The days after that were some of the hardest youâd ever endured. You refused to let Heeseung see how much he had broken you, refused to let him or anyone else know how deeply his betrayal had cut. Instead, you buried your pain beneath a carefully crafted mask. You laughed with your friends, answered questions in class, and even managed to pull off smiles in the Great Hall. To everyone else, it was like nothing had happened.
But when you were alone, the mask slipped, and the weight of it all came crashing down. The nights were the worst, when you lay in bed replaying the moment over and over, like a cruel, inescapable nightmare. The sound of his wordsâI never loved youâechoed in your mind, shredding your heart all over again.
One afternoon, during Potions class, the pain overwhelmed you. Heeseung had walked in, all casual as if nothing had happened. He didnât look your wayânot even onceâbut that didnât stop the memory of his betrayal from stabbing at your chest.
Your hands shook as you measured out ingredients for your potion, your vision blurring as hot tears threatened to spill. You couldnât take it anymore. Quietly excusing yourself, you fled the classroom, muttering something about needing the restroom before anyone could stop you.
The moment you stepped into the dimly lit bathroom, the tears youâd been holding back came rushing out. You leaned against the sink, gripping the edges tightly as sobs wracked your body.
You didnât even notice Moaning Myrtle until her soft voice broke through your cries.
âRough day?â
Startled, you looked up, your tear-streaked face meeting the ghostâs translucent figure. She was floating by one of the sinks, her usual pout replaced with something almost... sympathetic.
You sniffled, quickly wiping your face. âSorry, Myrtle. I didnât mean to disturb you.â
Myrtle shook her head, hovering closer. âYouâre not disturbing me,â she said quietly. âI know what itâs like to cry in here. To feel... forgotten.â
Her words hit you harder than you expected. For once, she wasnât mocking you or complaining about her own misfortunes. She was just... there, watching you with a sadness in her ghostly eyes that mirrored your own pain.
âI just donât get it,â you whispered, your voice breaking. âHow could someone say they cared and then... and then throw it all away like it meant nothing?â
Myrtle tilted her head, her gaze softening even more. âBoys are awful,â she said matter-of-factly, her tone holding a mix of understanding and bitterness. âThey make you feel special, and then they break you."
You let out a shaky laugh, though it was more bitter than anything else. âYeah, well, heâs the worst of them.â
Myrtle floated closer, hovering just beside you as you leaned over the sink, your tears falling freely now,and she stayed there, silently watching as you poured your heart out in the empty bathroom.
When you finally wiped your face and straightened up, Myrtle gave you a small, sad smile. âHeâs not worth it,â she said softly.
You nodded, your throat too tight to speak, and with a final glance at your tear-streaked reflection, you left the bathroom.
--
You kept watching hopelessly as Heeseung changed right before your eyes. Despite being a Slytherin, heâd always been differentâsharp, confident, but never cruel. He treated others with respect, even when it wasnât expected of him, and it was one of the reasons people gravitated toward him so easily.
But now⊠now he wasnât the same.
You started noticing it in small things at first. Heâd snap at younger students who accidentally got in his way, barking out insults that made their faces crumple in embarrassment. Heâd push past others in the corridors with an air of arrogance that felt alien, not sparing them a glance or apology.
Then, it became more deliberate. In Potions, you overheard him taunting a Gryffindor girl for botching her assignment, his words dripping with disdain. During Quidditch practice, he shouted at his teammates with a venom youâd never seen before, his frustration palpable even from the stands.
It didnât just confuse youâit confused everyone.
Heeseung had always been popular, not just because of his looks or his Quidditch skills, but because he was charismatic. He had a way of making others feel comfortable, seen, and valued, even if they werenât in his social circle. But now, that warmth was gone.
You overheard students whispering about him. âWhatâs gotten into Heeseung?â one Ravenclaw asked her friend as they passed you in the hallway. âHeâs acting like a total git lately.â
âI know,â her friend agreed. âHeâs not like this. Itâs so weird.â
And it was weird. Heeseung wasnât like this. He wasnât the type to knock books out of a first-yearâs hands and keep walking, or to purposely humiliate someone in front of their peers just to get a laugh. But that was exactly what he was doing now, and every time you saw it, you felt that ache in your chest grow deeper.
What had changed?
You wanted to convince yourself it didnât matter anymore. He wasnât your problem. He had made that clear when he kissed someone else and shattered your heart in the process. But as much as you tried to turn a blind eye, you couldnât.
This wasnât just about you anymore.
Heeseungâs behavior was affecting everyone, and the boy who had once made you laugh until your sides hurt was now someone you barely recognized. Watching him spiral like this hurt more than you cared to admit.
But the question remained: why? What had turned him into this unknown version of himself?
The answer to that question was revealed to you one day, completely by accident.
You were on your way to your common room, distracted as you dug through your bag, mentally ticking off the homework you still had to finish. You werenât paying attention to your surroundings, not until someone grabbed your arm and yanked you into an empty classroom.
You yelped, stumbling as you turned to face your captor. âWhat theââ
A Slytherin girl stood before you, her wide eyes darting nervously toward the door, as though she was afraid of being followed or heard. She placed a finger to her lips, hushing you before you could finish your sentence.
âWhat is your problem?â you hissed, yanking your arm out of her grip.
âShh!â she insisted, glancing toward the corridor one last time before shutting the door behind her. Her actions were suspicious, like she was about to do something she wasnât supposed to.
You crossed your arms, glaring at her. âCare to explain why you just dragged me in here?â
She stepped closer, lowering her voice. âYouâre Heeseung`s girlfriend.â
The mention of his name immediately sent a pang through your chest, but you held your ground. âWas,â you corrected sharply. âNot anymore.â
She rolled her eyes. âWhatever. Look, I donât have a lot of time, so just listen. Heeseungâs not himself.â
You frowned, your skepticism evident. âIâm aware of that. Thanks for pointing out the obvious.â
âNo, you donât get it.â She leaned in, her expression serious. âHeâs not himself because heâs under the influence of Amortentia.â
The words hit you like a slap, leaving you momentarily speechless. âWhat?â
She nodded, her voice urgent now. âThat girlâYoonheeâsheâs been dosing him with Amortentia for weeks. Thatâs why heâs been acting so different.â
Your heart raced as you processed her words, disbelief swirling in your mind. âYouâre lying,â you said, your voice trembling. âWhy would she do that?â
The Slytherin girl let out a humorless laugh. âWhy do you think? She wanted him, and she didnât care how she got him. But itâs not just about making him fall for her. Sheâs using the potion to influence him, to turn him into someone else. Sheâs controlling him, and youâve seen the result.â
Your mind reeled as the pieces began to fall into place. The sudden change in Heeseungâs personality, the cruelty, the way heâd dismissed you so coldlyâall of it made a sick kind of sense now.
âSheâs dangerous,â the girl continued. âAnd if someone doesnât stop her, Heeseungâs going to be completely lost.â
You stared at her, your emotions a whirlwind of anger, confusion, and disbelief. âWhy are you telling me this?â
She hesitated, guilt flashing in her eyes. âBecause itâs wrong. I thought about staying out of it, but Heeseung doesnât deserve this. And... neither do you.â
Your fists clenched at your sides as rage surged through you. The betrayal you had felt from Heeseung was now redirected toward Yoonhee, the girl who had manipulated him, stolen his free will, and shattered your heart in the process.
If this was true, then Yoonhee had taken everything from youâand from him.
You took a deep breath, meeting the girlâs gaze. âHow do I stop her?â
The Slytherin girlâs lips pressed into a thin line before she said, âIâll help you, but we have to act fast. The longer she keeps him under her control, the harder itâll be to break him free.â
You suddenly narrowed your eyes, crossing your arms. âAnd how do I know I can trust you?â
She sighed, running a hand through her hair in frustration. âLook, I get why youâd be suspicious, but I donât have anything to gain from this. Iâm only telling you becauseâŠâ She hesitated, looking almost embarrassed before continuing. âBecause Iâve seen how Heeseung was with you. And then Iâve seen him with Yoonhee. And itâs not the same.â
Her voice softened as she spoke, her gaze meeting yours. âWhat you and Heeseung hadâit was real. It was... cute, even. He was different when he was with you. Like he couldnât stop looking at you, like you were the only thing that mattered. I swear, he practically had hearts in his eyes whenever you were around.â
Your heart clenched at her words, the image of Heeseungâs affectionate smile flashing in your mind.
âBut with Yoonhee?â she continued, her tone sharp. âItâs fake. Everything about it feels wrong. He doesnât look at her the way he looked at you. Thereâs no warmth, no care. Itâs like... like heâs just going through the motions, like a puppet on strings. And the way she parades him around, acting like she owns himâitâs sick.â
Her voice grew quieter, tinged with guilt. âI should have said something sooner. I shouldâve stopped it when I first realized what she was doing. But I didnât, and now things have gone too far. I just... I couldnât keep watching it anymore.â
You studied her face, searching for any sign of deception, but all you saw was genuine regret.
âYou really think what we had was real?â you asked, your voice barely above a whisper.
She nodded firmly. âI know it was. Anyone with eyes could see it. Heeseung doesnât look at anyone the way he looked at you. And if you still care about him, even after everything, then you need to help him. Because what Yoonheeâs doing? Itâs not love. Itâs control. And itâs destroying him.â
Taking a deep breath, you nodded. âOkay. Iâll help. But if this turns out to be some kind of trickâŠâ
âItâs not,â she said quickly, her eyes steady and resolute. âI promise.â
âGood,â you said, squaring your shoulders. âBecause if she thinks she can get away with this, sheâs dead wrong.â
After speaking with Hyejin who had revealed everythingâyou went straight to the library, your mind set on one thing: finding an antidote to Amortentia.
You scoured the shelves, your fingers brushing over the spines of dusty Potions books, each title longer and more complicated than the last. "Advanced Alchemical Properties of Magical Infusions," "The Elusive Art of Potionmaking," "Rare Remedies and Their Applications"ânone of them seemed to promise the straightforward answers you were hoping for.
Potions had never been your strong suit, and as you flipped through yet another heavy tome filled with convoluted instructions and obscure ingredients, you groaned in frustration.
Why did Potions have to be so complicated? Couldnât it be more like Herbologyâstraightforward, clear, and easy to follow? You were confident you could have whipped up a solution in no time if that were the case. But instead, you were drowning in endless jargon about precise stirring techniques, moon phase timings, and ingredient substitutions.
And the worst part? Heeseung had always been the one to help you when Potions overwhelmed you. His natural skill in the subject had been your saving grace more times than you could count, and the irony wasnât lost on you that now, when you needed help the most, he was the one you were trying to save.
After what felt like hours of fruitless searching, you let out another groan, slamming the book in front of you shut. âWhy are there so many books on Potions?â you muttered under your breath. âWhy canât this be simple? Just a page with âAmortentia antidoteâ in big bold lettersâhow hard would that be?â
You stared at the pile of books in front of you, exhaustion creeping in as you realized just how out of your depth you were. You needed help, and you needed it fast. But who could you turn to? Heeseung was out of the question, and you didnât trust Hyejin enough to rely on her completely.
You racked your brain, thinking of anyone who might have the skill and knowledge to guide you. Your mind flashed to someone unexpectedâsomeone you hadnât considered at first but who might be your best shot.
Professor Slughorn.
He wasnât exactly your favorite teacher, but he was an expert in Potions, and if anyone could point you in the right direction, it was him. The problem was convincing him to help without spilling the entire truth. After all, you couldnât exactly admit that a student was brewing and using Amortentia without risking expulsion for everyone involved.
Still, you didnât have many options. If you couldnât find the answer here, then youâd have to take the risk and ask for guidance.
You were just about to leave the library, your mind still swirling with frustration, when you collided with someone. The impact sent you stumbling back a step, your bag nearly slipping from your shoulder.
âOh! Sorry about that!â you said quickly, steadying yourself.
âNo, no, itâs my fault,â the other person replied, their voice warm and apologetic.
When you looked up, you were surprised to find yourself face-to-face with Myung Jaehyun, a Gryffindor student. You didnât know him particularly well, but you knew of himâhe had a reputation for excelling in Potions, often earning praise from Professor Slughorn.
The proverbial light bulb practically lit up over your head as an idea struck you. Jaehyun could help.
You smiled, stepping closer to him, which made Jaehyunâs cheeks flush slightly. He rubbed the back of his neck, avoiding your gaze for a moment. âUm... something wrong?â
âNo, not at all,â you said, your tone light and friendly. âActually, I was just thinking... youâre good at Potions, right?â
He nodded. âI guess? I mean, yeah, Iâve always done well in class. Why?â
âWell,â you said slowly, leaning in slightly, âI was wondering if you could help me with something. Itâs just a tiny matter, really.â
Jaehyun blinked, clearly intrigued. âUh, sure. What do you need?â
âIâm looking for a book,â you explained. âOne that has information about antidotes for Amortentia.â
His eyebrows shot up in surprise. âAmortentia?â
You nodded, trying to keep your expression casual. âYeah. I, uh... just need to look up something for a project.â
Jaehyun seemed to consider this for a moment before his face lit up. âOh! I know exactly what you need.â He walked over to a nearby shelf, scanning the rows of books with practiced ease before pulling one out. He handed it to you, flipping it open to the right chapter. âHere. Chapter 14, page 237. It has a detailed section on love potions.â
You took the book from him, relief flooding through you. âThank you so much, Jaehyun. This is exactly what I needed.â
Jaehyun hesitated for a moment, then cleared his throat. âIf you want... I could help you with the brewing process. Itâs tricky, and, well, Iâve done similar antidotes before.â
You practically jumped at the offer, your enthusiasm catching him off guard. âReally? Youâd help me?â
âOf course,â he said, smiling shyly. âWhen do you want to start?â
âAs soon as possible,â you said quickly. âThis is kind of... urgent.â
âAlright,â Jaehyun agreed, his smile growing more confident. âLetâs meet in the Potions classroom after dinner. Iâll bring the ingredients weâll need.â
You nodded, clutching the book tightly. âThank you, Jaehyun. Really. Youâre a lifesaver.â
He rubbed the back of his neck again, his blush returning. âItâs no problem. Iâm happy to help.â
With a grateful smile, you hurried out of the library. You finally had a planâand someone to help you execute it.
After dinner, you made your way to the Potions classroom, your nerves buzzing. As you stepped inside, you saw Jaehyun already at one of the workbenches, his sleeves rolled up and his hands deftly working.
When he noticed you, he offered a small smile and gestured for you to sit next to him.
âYouâre early,â you said, setting your bag down on the bench.
âWanted to get a head start,â Jaehyun replied, his voice warm. âI figured the quicker we get this done, the better.â
You nodded, settling into the chair beside him. As you looked around the dimly lit classroom, a thought occurred to you. âIs it even okay for us to be here after class hours?â
Jaehyun chuckled softly, shaking his head. âDonât worry. Professor Slughorn lets me stay after hours pretty often. He says itâs good-spirited of me to practice brewing and experiment.â
You raised an eyebrow. âGood-spirited, huh? Thatâs... surprisingly nice of him.â
Jaehyun shrugged, still focused on grinding the ingredients in front of him. âHeâs not so bad. As long as you donât blow up the classroom, heâs pretty lenient.â
You laughed lightly at that, feeling a bit of the tension in your chest ease. As Jaehyun began measuring out a vial of liquid and carefully adding it to the cauldron, you watched him work.
âIs there anything I can do to help?â you asked, not wanting to just sit idly.
He glanced at you, his eyes crinkling slightly in a smile. âSure. Can you chop those gurdyroots? They need to be sliced thinlyâabout this size.â He held up a perfectly cut piece as an example.
âGot it,â you said, grabbing a knife and the roots. You carefully started cutting, doing your best to match the size Jaehyun had shown you.
Occasionally, Jaehyun would give you instructions or correct something you were doing, his tone always patient and encouraging.
âYouâre doing great,â he said at one point, glancing over at your neatly sliced gurdyroots. âI might have to recruit you as my brewing partner from now on.â
You snorted. âDonât get too ahead of yourself. Potions and I have a... complicated relationship.â
Jaehyun laughed, his warm, boyish chuckle filling the room. âWell, youâre doing fine tonight. Just keep that up.â
The antidote was slowly coming together, the cauldron emitting a faint shimmer as the ingredients combined.
âDo you think this will work?â you asked softly after a while, watching the potion swirl in the cauldron.
Jaehyun looked at you, his expression serious yet kind. âIf we follow the instructions exactly, it should. Potions like this are tricky, but Iâm confident we can pull it off. And if something goes wrong, weâll try again.â
His reassurance eased some of your worry, and you nodded. âThank you, Jaehyun. I mean it. You didnât have to help me, but you are.â
He shrugged modestly, his cheeks tinged pink. âItâs nothing. Besides, itâs kind of nice working on something like this with someone else for a change.â
You smiled at that, feeling a bit lighter for the first time in days.
After some time the potion was finally done. The cauldron shimmered with a silvery glow, and Jaehyun carefully ladled some of the antidote into a small flask. He corked it tightly and handed it to you, his smile warm but cautious.
âHere,â he said, placing it gently in your hands.
You stared at the flask, relief flooding through you. âThank you, Jaehyun,â you said, looking up at him with a grateful smile. Without thinking, you leaned in and hugged him tightly.
Jaehyun stiffened for a moment, clearly caught off guard, but quickly relaxed and awkwardly patted your back. âYou donât have to thank me. Really.â
âI do,â you said, pulling back and clutching the flask to your chest. âI owe you one. Big time.â
Before he could respond, you turned and hurried out of the classroom, determination burning in your chest.
The Great Hall was buzzing with the usual hum of students talking and studying. You scanned the room until your eyes landed on Hyejin, sitting at a corner table with books and parchment spread out in front of her. She looked like she was drowning in notes, a quill tucked behind her ear as she scribbled furiously.
You approached her, sliding into the seat across from her. She glanced up, her brow furrowed in confusion until she saw the flask in your hand.
âYouâve got it?â she asked, her eyes widening slightly.
You nodded, setting the flask on the table between you. âIâve got the solution. Literally.â
Hyejinâs tense expression softened, and she let out a small sigh of relief. âThatâs good. Really good.â
You noticed her Herbology textbook then, along with her chaotic notes. The scribbled diagrams of plants and ingredients were barely legible, and she had several crossed-out answers on her parchment. She caught you looking and groaned, slumping back in her chair.
âDonât judge me. Herbology is not my strong suit,â she muttered, rubbing her temples.
âDo you need help?â you asked, raising an eyebrow.
Hyejin gave a humorless laugh. âDesperately. Professor Sproutâs quizzes are impossible, and if I donât pass the next one, Iâm doomed.â
Smiling, you reached into your bag and pulled out your own Herbology notes. âHere. These might help.â
Her eyes widened as she saw the neat, color-coded pages you laid in front of her. âOh my God, youâre an angel,â she said dramatically, grabbing them like they were a lifeline.
You laughed, leaning over to point out some of the key points. âOkay, this section on Venomous Tentaculaâjust remember that its sap is only dangerous when exposed to direct sunlight. Write that down.â
âThank you,â Hyejin said softly after a while, looking up from her notes. âFor this. And... for everything else.â
âYouâve already done plenty to help me,â you replied with a small smile. âItâs the least I can do.â
--
The next day, you sat on your bed, nervously fiddling with the hem of your robes. The weight of what was about to happen pressed heavily on your chest. You had given the antidote to Hyejin that morning, entrusting her with the task of breaking the spell that had bound Heeseung to Yoonhee. Sheâd reassured you with a confident smile that she could slip the potion into his drink during lunch, all without raising suspicion.
You could have been there yourself to witness it. You could have stood nearby, watching from the shadows to make sure everything went as planned. But the truth was, you were scaredâterrified, even.
You couldnât face Heeseung. Not now. Not after everything that had happened. What if the antidote didnât work? What if he still didnât feel anything for you, even after the spell was broken? What if... what if he hated you?
The thoughts spiraled in your mind as you sat there, staring at the wall of your dormitory. You felt ridiculous for being so anxious, but the idea of seeing him again, of looking into his eyes and not knowing what youâd find there, was almost too much to bear.
So youâd chosen to wait. To stay here, in the safety of your room, and let Hyejin handle it. Sheâd promised to relay everything to you afterward, and you trusted her.
A soft knock at the door startled you out of your thoughts.
âItâs just me,â your roommate said, poking her head inside. âYou okay? Youâve been in here all morning.â
You nodded quickly, forcing a smile. âYeah, just... not feeling great today. I think Iâll skip lunch.â
She gave you a sympathetic look before leaving, and you sighed in relief once the door closed again.
The waiting was unbearable. Minutes felt like hours as you sat there, your mind playing out every possible scenario. You tried to distract yourself by flipping through a book, but the words blurred together on the page.
Finally, after what felt like an eternity, there was a knock at the door againâthis time more urgent.
You jumped up, your heart racing as you opened it to find Hyejin standing there, slightly out of breath.
âItâs done,â she said simply, stepping inside and closing the door behind her.
You stared at her, your throat suddenly dry. âAnd? Did it work?â
Hyejin nodded, a small smile tugging at her lips. âIt worked. I saw it in his eyes the moment the potion broke. Heeseung... he looked so confused at first, like he didnât know where he was or what was happening. But then Yoonhee tried to cling to him, and he pushed her away.â
Your breath hitched. âHe did?â
âYeah. And he asked her what sheâd done to him. She tried to play innocent, but you could tell she was panicking. I donât think anyone else noticedâit wasnât exactly a sceneâbut Heeseung wasnât buying her act. He left pretty quickly after that, though. I think he needed time to process everything.â
You sank back onto your bed, your mind reeling. Relief, hope, and dread all swirled together in your chest. Heeseung was free. He was finally free.
But now what?
Hyejin sat beside you, placing a reassuring hand on your shoulder. âGive him some time,â she said softly, as if reading your thoughts. âHeâs going to come looking for you. Iâm sure of it.â
You nodded, your hands trembling slightly as you gripped the edge of your bed. All you could do now was waitâand hope that when Heeseung finally found you, the boy youâd fallen for was still there, waiting for you too.
You didnât leave your room for days. The sick, uncomfortable feeling in your body refused to go away. It was as if the weight of everythingâyour heartbreak, the fearâhad finally caught up to you, pinning you to your bed and draining you of energy.
Your housemates noticed. They brought you food, their class notes, and even small trinkets to cheer you up, but nothing seemed to work. You mumbled thanks to them, forced weak smiles when they tried to joke, but the truth was, you felt numb.
Hyejin came by often, sitting on the edge of your bed and filling you in on everything happening outside the confines of your room.
âYoonhee got caught,â she said one afternoon, her tone tinged with satisfaction. âSlughorn found out sheâd been brewing Amortentia, and sheâs been given detention for weeks. Thereâs even talk about revoking her Hogsmeade privileges for the rest of the year.â
You managed a faint smile at that. âGood. She deserves it.â
Hyejin nodded firmly. âShe does. And honestly, people are starting to avoid her now. Her little group of friends isnât as tight as it used to be. Guess thatâs what happens when everyone finds out youâve been manipulating someone with a love potion.â
Your smile faded as the conversation shifted to Heeseung.
âAnd... Heeseung,â Hyejin started carefully, watching your reaction. âHeâs been... different.â
You stiffened slightly but said nothing, letting her continue.
âHeâs been asking about you. Like, constantly. Heâs desperate to find you. I think heâs even checked the library three times in one day,â she said with a small laugh, though it didnât reach her eyes. âHeâs back to being... well, himself. But he looks miserable, and honestly, heâs really worried about you.â
Your chest tightened. You wanted to feel relieved, but instead, the sick feeling only deepened. You hated how much you still cared, how even hearing about Heeseung made your heart twist painfully.
âI donât know, Hyejin,â you whispered, your voice hoarse. âI just⊠I canât see him right now.â
Hyejin sighed softly, reaching out to squeeze your hand. âI get it. I do. Take all the time you need. Just... donât shut yourself out completely, okay?â
You didnât respond, simply looking down at your blanket as Hyejin stayed with you a little longer.
It wasnât until one evening, when the common room was quiet and your dorm was empty, that you finally let yourself cry. The frustration, the sadness, the guiltâit all poured out of you in heavy, silent sobs as you clutched your pillow.
You were happy Yoonhee had faced punishment. You were relieved that Heeseung was free from her influence. But you were also scaredâscared of facing him, scared of what he would say, and scared of how much you still loved him, even after everything.
Before you knew it, the day of the annual Christmas Ball at Hogwarts had arrived. Normally, you wouldâve been excited. Your mother had even sent you a beautiful golden gown, one that shimmered like sunlight when you first pulled it out of the box. Youâd twirled in front of the mirror, imagining how the soft fabric would float around you as you danced.
But now? Now you had lost all reason to go.
The thought of attending made your stomach churn. The idea of walking into that grand hall, of possibly running into himâit was too much.
Unfortunately, your housemates had other plans. They werenât about to let you stay locked up in your dorm forever, wallowing in shame and fear. After days of patient encouragement, they finally pulled you out of bed, insisting you at least attend a few classes. Begrudgingly, you relented, figuring it would stop their nagging if nothing else.
The morning started off easy enough. You didnât have any classes with Heeseung today, which gave you some peace of mind. Still, you couldnât shake the paranoia that he might show up out of nowhere.
And, honestly, that paranoia wasnât entirely unfounded.
It was as if Heeseung had a built-in radar for you. More than once, you caught a glimpse of his dark hair in the corridors, his eyes scanning the crowds as if he were searching for someone. For you.
Every time, you ducked behind corners or slipped into empty classrooms to avoid him. It was harder than you expected, given his persistence. You had to wonder if heâd memorized your schedule or something.
By the time your last class ended, you were exhaustedânot from the lessons, but from all the hiding and running. You slumped into your seat at dinner, barely touching your food as your housemates chattered excitedly about the ball.
âYouâre still coming tonight, right?â one of them asked, nudging your shoulder.
You hesitated. âI donât know...â
âOh, come on,â another chimed in. âYour mom sent you that gorgeous dress! You have to go.â
You sighed, poking at the mashed potatoes on your plate. âIâll think about it.â
But even as you said it, you doubted youâd actually go.
As the evening drew closer, you found yourself back in your dorm, staring at the golden gown hanging from your wardrobe. It truly was stunning, the kind of dress youâd dreamed of wearing to an event like this.
For a moment, you almost let yourself imagine itâdancing under the enchanted ceiling, laughter and music filling the air.
You shook your head, turning away from the dress. You werenât ready for that.
Just as you were about to crawl back into bed, however, your dormitory door burst open, and your housemates barged in with determined looks.
âNope, weâre not letting you sit this one out,â one of them declared, grabbing your arm and pulling you to your feet.
âWhat are youââ
âListen,â another interrupted, âyou donât have to stay the whole night. Just come for a little bit. Wear the dress, take a few pictures, and if youâre really miserable, you can leave. Deal?â
You opened your mouth to argue, but the hopeful, pleading looks on their faces stopped you. They just wanted you to have fun, to feel normal again, even if only for a little while.
â...Fine,â you muttered, earning cheers from the group.
Before you knew it, they were helping you into the golden gown, fixing your hair and makeup, and hyping you up like you were royalty.
âYou look amazing,â one of them said, beaming as they adjusted the final curl in your hair.
You didnât feel amazing, but you forced a small smile.
Your housemates dragged you down the corridors toward the grand hall, their excitement became contagious. Despite your initial reluctance, you found yourself starting to feel... a little excited, too.
When you finally stepped into the grand hall, your breath hitched. The space was utterly transformed, shimmering with holiday magic. Snowflakes drifted lazily from the enchanted ceiling, disappearing just before they touched the ground. The chandeliers sparkled like stars, and the tables were adorned with golden centerpieces. Everything looked like it had been plucked from a dream.
But then you saw him.
Heeseung.
He was standing near one of the refreshment tables, laughing softly at something a fellow Slytherin said. Emerald green suit, tailored to perfection. His hair, slicked back, revealed his sharp jawline and those intense eyes. But as your gaze lingered on him, you noticed something elseâhe looked tired.
It wasnât until he glanced your way and his eyes locked onto yours that you realized youâd been staring.
Your heart jumped in your chest, and before you could even think about turning away, he was moving. Heeseungâs long strides cut through the crowd like a magnet pulled him toward you.
âOh no,â you squeaked, panic bubbling in your chest.
You instinctively turned to your friends for help, but all you saw were their grinning faces and two very obvious thumbs up.
Ah, so they planned this.
You shot them a silent glare, but before you could even consider fleeing, a firm hand grabbed yours. Heeseungâs grip was gentle but insistent as he pulled you away.
âH-Heeseungâ!â you started, but he wasnât listening.
He didnât stop until heâd guided you to a quiet corner of the hall, away from the prying eyes of your fellow students. The noise of the ball faded into the background as he turned to face you, his hands still holding yours.
Your breath caught.
Up close, he looked even more handsome, but those tired eyes, paired with the slight downturn of his lips, made your chest ache. He looked... vulnerable.
For a moment, neither of you spoke. He just stared at you, taking in every detailâthe golden gown that hugged your figure, the way your hair framed your face, the faint shimmer of your lips.
âYou look beautiful,â he said softly, his voice hoarse, almost as if he hadnât used it in days.
You blinked, momentarily stunned. You werenât sure how to respond, your thoughts still scrambling to catch up with the fact that he was here, holding your hands, looking at you like that.
Finally, you managed to mumble, âYou look... good too.â
The corner of his mouth twitched up into a small, tired smile. âThanks,â he said, his thumb brushing lightly over your knuckles.
Heeseungâs gaze softened as he opened his mouth to speak. âY/N, Iâm so sorry. Forââ
You cut him off, shaking your head. âNo, Heeseung. Stop. It wasnât your fault. It was Yoonheeâs. You didnât ask for any of this.â
He blinked, stunned by your words, but his expression quickly shifted to one of concern. âThen... why?â he asked softly, his voice trembling. âWhy have you been avoiding me?â
You looked down, biting your lip, unable to meet his gaze. But he wasnât having it.
Gently, he tilted your chin up with his fingers, forcing your eyes to lock with his. His touch was soft but firm, his eyes desperate. âPlease,â he murmured, his voice low and pleading. âPlease look at me, Y/N. I need to see you. All of you. I need to understand.â
You swallowed hard, his intensity making it difficult to breathe. Your heart pounded in your chest as you searched for the right words.
âI...â You hesitated, but his unwavering gaze gave you the courage to continue. âI was scared, Heeseung. Scared that... you wouldnât like me anymore. That whatever we had before was gone. And it hurt. It hurt so much that I didnât know how to face you. I felt so... drained. So tired. I had no energy for anything. It was like everything good was just gone.â
He listened intently, his thumb brushing gently against your cheek as tears spilled from your eyes. He didnât interrupt, didnât try to justify anything. He just... listened. Like he always did.
When you finally finished, a silence hung between you, heavy.
And then, without warning, Heeseung wrapped his arms around you, pulling you tightly against his chest.
You froze for a moment, startled, before slowly relaxing into his embrace. His scentâfamiliar and comfortingâwashed over you, and you felt like you could breathe again.
âBaby...â he whispered into your hair, his voice thick with emotion. âI would have waited forever for you to feel okay again. Because youâre the only woman I love in this world. The only one Iâve ever loved. And nothingânothingâis ever going to change that.â
Your breath hitched as his words sank in, the sincerity in his tone breaking down the walls youâd built around your heart.
âI want a future with you,â he continued, pulling back just enough to look into your eyes. His hands framed your face, his thumbs gently wiping away the tears that had fallen. âI donât care about anyone else. I never did. Itâs always been you. Always.â
His words left you speechless, your heart pounding so loudly you were sure he could hear it.
âI love you,â he said, his voice steady and sure. âAnd Iâll spend the rest of my life proving that to you if I have to.â
Tears spilled down your cheeks as you nodded, a shaky smile breaking through. âI love you too, Heeseung,â you whispered, your voice barely audible.
Heeseungâs lips curved into a soft smile, his eyes glistening with relief and adoration. Without another word, he leaned in slowly, giving you plenty of time to pull away if you wanted. But you didnât. Instead, you closed the gap between you, meeting him halfway as his lips pressed against yours in a kiss.
Your heart raced as your hands instinctively reaching up to grip the front of his emerald green suit. His arms wrapped securely around your waist, pulling you closer, like he was afraid to let you go. The kiss was slow, deliberate, as if he was reassuring you that this was real, that he wasnât going anywhere.
When you finally pulled apart, both of you breathless, his forehead rested against yours. Heeseungâs smile widened, his thumbs gently rubbing circles against your sides.
âIâve been waiting to do that for so long,â he murmured, his voice low and filled with affection. âAnd Iâll never stop, as long as you let me.â
You laughed softly, your cheeks warming as you looked up at him. âYouâre so dramatic,â you teased, though your tone held no malice.
âMaybe,â he admitted with a playful smirk, brushing a strand of hair out of your face.
But before either of you could say anything more, a loud burst of laughter echoed from the main hall, reminding you both that you werenât exactly in a private setting.
Heeseung chuckled, glancing over his shoulder before looking back at you. âCome on,â he said, grabbing your hand. âLetâs go somewhere quieter. Iâm not done with you yet.â
You raised an eyebrow, your lips quirking up. âOh? And where exactly are we going?â
He grinned mischievously, tugging you gently along. âYouâll see,â he said, his tone light and teasing.
Heeseung led you through the dimly lit corridors, weaving between tapestries and statues until you reached a secluded alcove. It was quiet, away from the bustling energy of the Great Hall, and the faint sound of music and laughter felt like it was miles away.
Leaning casually against the stone wall, Heeseung tugged you closer by your hand, his other arm snaking around your waist as he grinned down at you. âNow this,â he murmured, âis more like it.â
You couldnât help but giggle, feeling a bit giddy as he twirled a strand of your hair between his fingers. The way he looked at you, like you were the only person who mattered, sent your heart racing.
Before you could respond, you found yourself leaning up, your lips brushing against his in a kiss that was soft at first, but quickly deepened. His hand tightened on your hip as he pulled you flush against him, and you reached up, tangling your fingers into his perfectly styled hair, making it deliciously messy.
Heeseung groaned softly against your lips, the sound sending a thrill through you as his hand slid to the small of your back, holding you steady. The kiss was everythingâintense, like he was making up for all the lost time, for all the days youâd been apart.
When you finally pulled back, both of you breathless and slightly disheveled, he let out a low chuckle. âThere goes my hair,â he teased, his voice husky as he glanced at you, his lips still red from your kiss.
You smirked, smoothing down the strands youâd mussed up. âI think it looks better this way,â you quipped, earning a playful roll of his eyes.
âYeah?â he said, leaning in to nuzzle his nose against yours. âWell, if it makes you happy, I guess Iâll allow it.â
Heeseung's playful nature shone through as he leaned in, his nose brushing against yours, his eyes sparkling with amusement. "I could get used to this," he whispered, his breath warm and tickling against your skin. "You looking all beautiful and mussed up."
You smiled, feeling a rush of excitement at his words. "Well, if you like it, I might just keep it this way," you replied, a hint of challenge in your voice. "Although, I think I might enjoy seeing the look on your face if I went back to being perfectly put together."
With a playful roll of his eyes, Heeseung leaned in again, his lips meeting yours in a gentle kiss. But this time, his hands went to your dress, his fingers trailing along the neckline, subtly revealing more of your skin.
You giggled into the kiss, a sound of both pleasure and surprise. "Naughty boy," you teased, trying to hit his hand away, but Heeseung was unmoved, his focus solely on you and the kiss.
His hands continued to tease, gently tugging at the fabric of your dress, revealing more of your shoulders and collarbone.
"You know I can't resist you," he murmured against your lips, his voice low and seductive. "Especially when you look like this."
"I know you can't," you replied, your voice soft and filled with affection. "And I'm glad I have this effect on you." You could feel his fingers trace the curve of your waist.
Heeseung's eyes lit up as he saw the skin that had been revealed. With a smile that held both mischief and anticipation, he leaned in, his lips grazing the newly exposed skin.
He started with soft kisses, his lips brushing against your neck, his breath warm and enticing, a gentle tease, tracing the curve of your collarbone.
"You smell so good," he whispered, his voice hoarse with desire. "Like honey and spice."
His hands rested gently on your waist, his touch firm, as if you were something delicate he couldnât risk breaking.
âYouâre perfect,â he murmured softly, his voice barely above a whisper as his lips pressed a lingering kiss to the base of your neck. âDo you know that?â
His words made your cheeks flush, and you shook your head slightly, your hands gripping his shoulders for support. âIâm notââ
âYou are,â he interrupted, his tone so sure that it silenced any protest you could muster. His lips returned to your skin, brushing over your shoulder where the fabric of your gown had slipped just slightly.
âI could do this forever,â he whispered against your skin, his voice carrying a hint of a smile. âJust... adore you.â
You shivered at his words, warmth pooling in your chest as you gazed at him. There was nothing rushed or impatient about himâjust pure affection, as though he was savoring every moment with you.
âYouâre impossible,â you mumbled, but the smile on your face betrayed the teasing edge in your voice.
Heeseung looked at you then, his dark eyes filled with so much love it made your breath catch. âAnd yet, here I am, completely yours,â he said with a boyish grin, leaning in to press a kiss to the tip of your nose, making you laugh softly.
A sudden scream sliced through the moment, making you both freeze. You turned to find Yoonhee standing in the hallway, her eyes blazing with rage, her hands clenched into fists at her sides, hatred radiating from every inch of her.
You quickly adjusted the straps of your dress, feeling a flush of embarrassment but finding comfort in the way Heeseung immediately wrapped his arms around you, holding you close.
"Yoonhee," Heeseung said, his voice calm but firm, his body still shielding you. "What are you doing here?"
She didnât answer right away. Instead, she stepped forward, her heels clicking sharply against the stone floor as she walked toward you. "You," she spat, her voice seething with venom. "You ruined everything. You always ruin everything."
The words stung more than you expected, and you felt yourself shrinking back, but Heeseungâs grip tightened around you, giving you strength.
"If you didn`t exist," she continued, her voice rising. "Everything would have been perfect. Heeseung would have been mine. I would have had everything I wanted."
You shook your head, unable to comprehend the depth of her bitterness. "Yoonhee, What areâ"
But she wasnât listening. Her gaze never left you, her eyes full of hatred as she took another step toward you. "You don't deserve him. Youâre not good enough. Youâre nothing compared to me."
Heeseung, his expression hardening, finally stepped in to talk. "Enough, Yoonhee."
Her glare shifted to him, but there was no remorse in her eyes. Instead, she let out a bitter laugh. "Oh, really? You think you can just shut me up?" She turned back to you, her face twisted with anger. "You think you can steal him from me and everything will be fine? You donât know him like I do."
You swallowed, your throat tightening at her words, but Heeseungâs presence kept you steady. His voice, low and firm, cut through her words. "Youâre wrong, Yoonhee. Youâve always been wrong. This isnât about you, and it never was. Iâm with her because I want to be. Youâre the one who needs to let go."
For a moment, there was silence, the tension thick between the three of you. Yoonhee stood there, fuming, but Heeseung didnât flinch.
"You canât do this, Heeseung," she hissed, her voice full of desperation now. "You donât even know what youâre giving up. You think she cares about you? Sheâs just playing you like everyone else. Sheâs not even worthy of you."
Heeseungâs expression softened, but there was no uncertainty in his eyes. "Youâre wrong, Yoonhee. Sheâs everything to me, and Iâm not walking away from her."
Yoonheeâs shrill scream filled the room, and before anyone could react, she lunged at you. Her hands shot out, grabbing your arm and yanking you away from Heeseung with surprising strength. You stumbled back, her nails digging into your skin as she tried to shove you down. Her eyes were wild with fury, and for a moment, you froze, too stunned by the violence of her attack to respond.
But then, something inside you snapped. All the weeks of anger, hurt, and confusion flooded back. The betrayal, the humiliation, the endless nights of crying and wondering what went wrongâit all surged up at once. This was the girl who had stolen Heeseung right out of your life. The one who had used Amortentia to control him, to warp his feelings, to hurt you. The one who had made you feel small and insignificant.
No, you wouldnât let her do this anymore.
With a fierce yell, you shoved her off, your fist flying instinctively. The punch connected with her cheek with a satisfying thud, the force sending her staggering backward. Her eyes widened in shock, hand flying to her face as she stumbled and almost fell to the ground.
Yoonhee gaped at you, her breath coming in short, furious gasps. "You... You bitch!" she snarled, voice shaking with rage.
But you stood your ground, heart racing, every ounce of your being wanting to scream and lash out. You felt the heat of your own anger, the adrenaline coursing through your veins. You werenât backing down anymore. "No," you said, your voice trembling but fierce, "you don't get to do this. You don't get to ruin everything for me and Heeseung. You donât get to play with peopleâs feelings."
Yoonhee glared at you, hands trembling with fury. "You think youâve won, donât you?" Her voice was a low hiss. "You really think heâs yours? Heâs not. Heâll always come back to me."
Heeseung stepped forward, voice cutting through the tension. "Youâre done. Iâve told you before. Iâm with her, not you."
Yoonhee looked between the two of you, her face flushing red with humiliation. The silence that followed was deafening. She was seething, but there was no more fight left in her. She stood there for a moment, glaring at you, and then, with a final look of disdain, she turned on her heel and stormed away.
You let out a breath, feeling your body go limp, the tension draining from your limbs. Heeseung moved towards you immediately, his arms wrapping around you as he pulled you close.
"Are you okay?" he murmured, his voice soft and concerned.
You nodded slowly, though your heart was still racing from the confrontation. "Iâm okay," you whispered, your voice hoarse. "I just... I donât know what came over me."
Heeseung pulled back slightly, cupping your face in his hands and looking into your eyes. "You did what you had to do," he said gently. "Youâve been through so much because of her."
"And besides I like seeing that side of you," he said, his voice warm and genuine. "The way you stood up for yourself."
You smiled, feeling a rush of warmth fill your chest at his words.
"Iâm proud of you," he whispered, brushing a stray lock of hair from your face.
You held him tighter, feeling grateful for everything that had brought you to this point. "I love you," you whispered.
"I love you too," he replied.
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