#and do I rlly think I even have a chance with anyone fictional or not?

[https-reverie]

ok maybe this is why I don't think much abt self-shipping when I'm in a bad state of mind

[nooneunderstandsthem]

MISUNDERSTOOD CHARACTERS TOURNAMENT!!

Have you ever had a silly little guy, but when you look at the way the fandom treats them your first thought is “Leave them alone!! No one understands them like me!!”? Have you ever hated the way a fandom characterizes your favorite character? Have you ever hated when people bash or rag on your favorite character, bc they “just don’t understand”? Well then this is the tournament for you!!

Here, we will vote on which character is the most overhated, mischaracterized, and even, if you’re feeling salty, most OVERRATED!! This is your opportunity to let loose your anger towards your fandom for how they treat your silly lil guy!!

Propaganda is allowed and very encouraged, but keep in mind not to attack anyone and be mindful of taking things too far!!

Character Submission Rules:

•Character must be fictional!! (Roleplay characters such as DSMP + related SMPs, any Aphmau/Krew roleplay vids, etc will depend on my own personal decision. Feel free to submit but in the end the decision on whether or not they will qualify will pretty much be entirely my decision, and mostly will be based on whether I think you’re talking about the creator or their character, and how distinct that difference is.)

•When submitting a character, make sure you attach 1-3 images to be used in polls, this is your chance for some more propaganda!! These images can be official art, fanart, or even screenshots from the source media!

•No NSFW propaganda or character art!!

•You can submit up to three characters, but you can only submit each character once! To avoid being overwhelmed I’d like everyone to only submit one form please!

Depending on the number of submissions, I’ll probably start sorting submissions and forming brackets around June 8th!!

SUBMIT CHARACTERS HERE:

i don’t rlly know what im doing here so tagging some other tournament blogs that inspired this:

@vs-coughing-baby @died-but-not-dead-tournament @foundfamily-tournament @skittlesquadsquabble @miserablelittleguythrowdown @bestmusicalworldcup

(also i tried to check if there’s another tournament like this bc yk i don’t wanna be a silly copycat and i couldn’t find anything but if there already is one pls let me know!!)

[weirdestcornelius]

does any1 else find it rlly rlly weird that anthrys can have children with objects. like. ok im fine w/there being objectum characters. i wish i liked any of them, but thats my problem, whatever.

but no matter how much u love n care for, say, a soccer ball. it cant be a good parent. it cant!!! its an object, and theres no guarantee ur child will have any attachment to it in the same way you do.

the fact u can have kids with fictional characters is even worse imo. what if multiple ppl have kids w/the same fictional character. what if ur dad is a fucking serial killer in the media hes from. what if ur the kid of a character whos been popular for years, so as you get older there are still kids being born to the same fictional character. what abt live action shows? imagine being an actor and having to know some version of ur dna is out there. a child that is yours but not. a child you have no claim over despite helping make it without ever truly knowing.

most of kcs worldbuilding makes me see emem as a cruel god and spinch as a dystopia

Ohhhh boy I'm so happy someone pointed this out.

I'm Objectum myself, but I feel like this is a bit- over the top? So to speak? Imagine being born and one of your parents is an object or just isn't real AT ALL. I don't think Kc or the fandom have stopped to think about how much of a toll this would take on the child. Same thing with the dead parents thing! If anyone reading this isn't aware, Kc said that anthries can have eggs with dead partners.

First of all, how does that even work?? If two anthries can only have an egg when they both want to, how does a dead person want a child?? Imagine being hatched and you learn years later that the other person you were born to is dead. You'll never have the chance to meet your other parent. The single parent thing where they can have eggs themselves? That's fine, and actually a bit cute. Because there's nothing wrong with being a single parent. But why the dead parents thing???

And oh my stars I never even stopped to think about the live action characters thing. Imagine you're an actor and have to just live with the fact that there's probably kids out there who look like you and have your DNA. I have crushes on fictional characters sometimes but even I think that's a bit weird and concerning.

Whyyyyy is the egg system like this-

[mileven11forever]

hi! ive been seeing ur posts around a bit and just wanted to ask you a question which honestly isnt related to the show plot because even though i do ship byler i believe mileven is gonna be cannon because a suger mega mainstream show isnt likely to throw away their main ship for an unexpected gay ship which imo would make sense with all the queercoding and would just be sumn new but yknow its unlikely. so my wish for s5 is some serious and good growth for mileven as a couple but back to my question as i mentioned earlier there is quite a bit of queercoding and ig what u could call 'proof' and while i agree some of the byler proof thrown around are stretches and reaches most of it seems pretty plausible which does mean there is a chance that the people working on that show purposely put in those aspects and parallels but for what? (possible queerbait which ick!) and another thing with will and his love arc it seems kinda unfair ik its the 80s and in reality it wouldve matched wills situation but in the end it is a super popular fiction show in 2020s and it does have the liberty to provide some sort of solace to will like everyone else in the show gets some kind of romance but the tortured gay guy should be happy with the acceptance? kinda ouch and on topic of queer characters i personally think robin has one of the most beautiful coming out scenes in tv history but with vickie they did bad to her character like they have barely 5 mins of screen time tgther and theyre basically the same person w the brain and mouth parallel so impo the writers and show producers have sort of messed up with the queer characters(s5 could redeem everything but i have a feeling it rlly wont) plus i mean making will love mike was such a choice like he couldve like anyone else the show has time and time again had clear chances to just either not make will have a thing for mike or get him to confess and or move on and introduce a new guy for him and have a chance of a happy ending but they had to employ the overused gay guy loves his straight best friend trope and drag onto the last season where theres already the battle to the death going on so even if they do get a new guy there will be no satisfying development to their bond. and then practically use his feelings to encourage mike which is just cruel and is kinda harmful for many queer people like i remember just sobbing in my grandmas living room because how horrible that scene made me feel so i just want ur opnions on this as u seem like some1 passionate about the show and an ally. (sorry if its kinda long this my first time ever interacting w anyone on tumblr im rlly unsure how to go about these things)

Yeah, definitely, I think I understand what you mean. Queerbaiting sucks, but I don't personally think that's what this show is doing. I think a lot of the hints people are claiming as Byler evidence is just based on their interpretation, and not what the creators intended it to be seen as. We honestly can't know what they intended without them confirming it, so it's hard to know one way or the other. I don't believe a lot of the evidence for Byler personally, and it just doesn't make sense narratively for the show like you mentioned. I don't know, it's complicated. If anyone else wants to share their thoughts on this, feel free to leave them in the comments. :)

[slaythespire]

im sorry my tumblr followers who dont know me im mad rn, im just rambling mad under a readmore again thanksss

listen its not that i need to be dating someone im just chilling. in fact rn i would not want to date anyone.

but i HATEEEE HATE seeing people say shit like "You dont need anyone, you should learn to be happy without someone else in ur life! why do you need someone else! just be happy without that!" well damn sue me for wanting someone to deeply love me who i deeply love back!! why is that such a bad thing to want!! obviously if you cant function without being in a relationship that's not good, but people always say that shit to someone going "i feel unlovable and like no one will ever want me" and it feels so meanspirted!! damn!!

its been like almost a year since i got ghosted and i know its annoying to hear people complain abt the same thing over and over again. but its just HARD bcus i feel stupid, and used. i really thought my ex was like, THE person, we talked abt getting married and how we'd combine our last names, abt moving in together, supported each other through everything. when i was in inpatient this person called me almost everyday i was there to say hi and check in on me. i thought my future involved them and then they just dropped me without even an explanation. never in a million billion years did i think that would happen (outside of my bad brain telling me it would, which, well i was right so LOL) bcus they were my best friend of 8 years!!

and its scary bcus it makes me think there must be something wrong with me/"how could anyone ever love me when even the person who dated me for 6 years didnt". and people always say things like "you haven't met everyone who will care about you yet" but what if i have, and my one chance at having a relationship i was so happy in was ruined bcus the other person is a self-obsessed asshole who lied to my face abt so much for who KNOWS what reason. WHATEVER.

i feel like when i make posts like this i come off as an insane person in the "no wonder they broke up with you" way, but i promise im actually normal ive just been very emotionally ripped to shreds by a very bad breakup. barely a breakup bcus it was over TWITTER DM. whatever im just gonna be one of those people that obsesses over fictional characters so much i think were in a relationship.

i just rlly rlly wonder what their reasoning for doing this to me was and if they feel bad abt it. or if they think its funny, or if they just dont care. i also wonder if they think they can just message me one day and apologize and think itll be okay (i dont think this will happen, i used to but i dont anymore)

i lean towards they just dont care, i doubt they even think about what they did lol. i mean i HOPE they feel bad, but i dont think thats true. id be shocked if i ever heard from them again which is just, crazy. 8 years of knowing someone and it ends like that through no fault of your own. i wish i had a screenshot of the break up dm id post it in a heartbeat so anyone who actually read this far would feel whiplash like i do. (filled to the brim with "i love you so much" "i feel horrible for hurting you and i hate that im doing it" "i really care about you" "i hope you stay in my life bcus youre my best friend").

and it makes me really sad bcus OFC we would have stayed friends, i loved them so much that while id be sad abt breaking up i would still want them in my life. (WE EVEN TALKED ABT HOW IF WE BROKE UP WE ALWAYS THOUGHT WE'D STAY FRIENDS). but even in my fantasy world where they reach out after a few years all apologetic and guilty i just couldnt do it anymore.

one more but i don't understand what would compel someone to say all that knowing theyre lying and dont give a fuck about you, like it only comes off as evil and fucked up and cruel to me, so how else am i supposed to take that.

[cirqosmos]

I am thinking of posting a fan fiction but I don't really know how can I continue to finish it.. I once posted one but the account got deleted for some reasons.. I really wanna post that fan fiction because I personally think the idea is quite unique but I don't think anyone would actually be interested as it would be my first work on this account.. I have noticed you are a slow updater (no offense) how do you keep yourself motivated to finish your work for such long time period... BTW LOVE YOUR WORK AND HOLY MOLY LOVE SCAM PART 1 WAS SO UNPREDICTABLE when I was reading that I was like OMG OMG for whole time.. Can't wait for the next part :')

Hi anonnie ^^ THANK YOU SO MUCH IM SO SO GLAD TO HEAR U LOVE IT :(( and to answer your question, It would be quite a lengthy paragraph but I hope you'll bear with it!

It's totally normal to have doubts and overthink whether or not people will like your story or just in any other form of art. But if you don't take the first step, then nothing will happen. If you don't believe in yourself first then no one will. If you want it then you should go for it, I'm a firm believer in chasing after a chance than just letting it pass by like the fleeting clouds or butterfly just bcs you were afraid it might not work the way you want it to be.

And truly, it might not really work out for the first try and that people might not like your story but isn't that how everything and life in general works out? You gotta try again, again and again till you succeed. You won't always get everything in the first try and that's totally fine. But you don't always have to dwell on that on the negative side, just go ahead and try! Don't let it hold you back.

But in terms of being a writer, just reminding bcs just in case if it hits you someday—here's one thing you have to remember: it's quite complicated really but it's actually simple. Write it because you want it, not because people want you to write it (unless you accept requests obv) and not because they want it (for example, smut.) Yes of course, we write for people—in fact the final drafts is for the readers themselves—however, you write for you and because you love what you write, you'll keep writing even when no one does. That's the pros and cons of being a writer. Just do it.

And yes lmao, I'm a very slow updater since I would always plan everything and then delete it, the cycle keeps going on so yea 😭✋🏻 and to answer your question for how I can keep myself motivated to write for a long period is a whole lot of reasons..:

1) I wholeheartedly love to write. I love writing that's why I keep doing it. Even when it's so freakin painful bcs of how dry my English becomes sometimes, it's still fun.

2) feedbacks + compliments from readers (compliments aren't always that necessary tho, feedbacks r.) , they're that little doses of motivation fuel that keeps you going. They're necessary, sometimes you won't get them though. If I have to be honest to you, ngl I broke down when LOVE SCAM didn't got the feedback I expected bcs I put a whole lot effort in it and I had so much hope in it. Apparently I was this rlly rlly close to delete that fic but I changed my mind bcs why? Even though I was crying bcs of sadness at that time, I didn't do it bcs why?— I love to write. Even if no one likes that particular story, I still love it. I had this three thoughts in my mind that time:

"maybe it's just that awful, I can improve a whole lot more better next time."

"maybe it's just not their taste, I still love it though."

That's just how it is. Your mind is your greatest friend and enemy after all. But later guess what! There's still feedbacks though, so gratitude and mental resilience in general also plays a big role.

3) read alot! Articles, books, books bout writing, nonfiction, fiction, biography and almost anything. Find every little thing to keep you inspired. For me, I write for enha! So I watch their vids and their mvs, i actually had a writer's block on Nov and that I kinda lose the motivation to write—thats why you'll see there's two months gap from EP 9 and ep 10 ><

4) last but not least, this is my principle that I have been practicing for awhile now—consistency over everything. In writing, quantity is alot more important than quality. You gotta write everyday no matter how small. You can't improve on the quality if you don't first work on your quantity of writing everyday—you gotta make time for it! Write that chapter, writing sprint or just a tiny short draft of 50 word count. It matters alot, atleast you're still moving.

So to conclude everything, being a writer is very fun but also very painful 😤❤️ I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST IN YOUR FIRST WORK AND YOUR FUTURE WORKS, SKSJRKSLAS IM ROOTING FOR U!!! GO FOR IT AND TELL ME TOO BCS I WANNA SUPPORT YOU DUH 😩😩🔥🔥 I APOLOGISE FOR THIS LENGTHY ASS PARAGRAPH BUT IM ROOTING FOR U ANONNIE <3333

[hellfirebride]

this is such a stupid request to just. post off into the aether, but i don't know how to make it myself, so. can someone use the voice ai to just have L ask all the questions from the Jonathan Frakes Asks You Things video? i just think it'd be really neat. 10/10 thats just L interrogating light on if he's kira

it's already a rlly big ask, i know. so i did transcribe the video under the read more if anyone was interested or at wanted a laugh at least fghdjfhgkjfdghfkdj

Have you ever walked out of a mall into a huge parking area and realized you'd forgotten where you parked your car? Ever gone mountain biking? What do you wanna be when you grow up? What's the right tip? You call a plumber to your home lately? How superstitious are you? How much money would it take to make you spend a night in a cemetery? Would you display this as a trophy? Do you have a pet? Do you have a sweet tooth? Do you believe in the power of a curse? Have you had your hearing tested lately? Planning a trip soon? Can you remember the tallest man you've ever seen? Do you love to go a-wanderin' beneath the clear, blue sky? Have you noticed what big stars real estate agents have become? Are you careful with your personal records? Does your computer ever seem to have a mind of its own? Have you ever visited the Chinatown section in a major city? Have you ever visited a flea market? You ever visited a truck stop? Did you ever have a job as a waiter? Have you noticed how many successful restaurants are theme based these days? Have you ever had the desire to write your initials in wet cement?

alternatively, im assuming you're interested or at least a little curious about my stupid ass thoughts if you've clicked the read more, maybe someone reciting the jonathan frakes telling you you're wrong for 47 seconds video?? it doesn't even matter who

It's false. No way. Not this time. We created it. Not this time. No. Not this time. It's totally made up. Pure fiction. It's fiction. It's fiction. We made it up. We made this one up. It's a made up tale. It's a total fabrication. It never happened. It never happened. This one was invented by a writer. Not this time. It never happened. It's false. It never happened. It's a fake. It's fiction. It's an urban legend that never happened. No way. We got you. Not a chance. Not this time. It never happened. It never happened. We made this one up. It's fiction. We made up this one. We made it up. Not this time. Wrong. Not this time. Not this time. You're wrong. Not this time. It never happened.

[bredforloyalty]

hi, im the anon from like a couple days ago. srry that im just clogging up ur inbox widhd but i dont rlly have anywhere else 2 talk abt it. ive just been privately indulging in my like.. Weird Thoughts which is nice but god it would be so neat to just be able to talk abt them w someone else ?? and like. im sure theres someone online i can ramble abt it to but i dont know where to look and considering these r like. pretty Freakish thoughts and concepts i also run into the chance of maybe coming across like actually malicious ppl so thats discouraging me from looking too. i dont know. its just a struggle sometimes. u can absolutely feel free to ignore bc im just rattling along but yea 😭

do you think its okay if i write dark/mature stories abt teenagers set in high school? like in the style of ginger snaps. im a teenager myself and ive been rotating this plotline in my head that involves themes like murder/sex/drug use/etc. and all my main characters are my age. im just worried that once i become an adult and actually write it maybe people might think im being weird towards teenagers ?? i dont know. just been thinking abt this a lot

oh my god anon i totally forgot to answer those other asks from a few days back.... SO SORRY ABOUT THAT i relate i feel you but most importantly, you can message me!!! if you'll make do with lil old me lol but if you're talking more generally about just messaging anyone, i get that too... it's uhm it's weird internal struggles most of the time, for some of us, when you're like uh, like this 😔

and about writing, let me just preface this by saying that i'm not a writer and i'm not very wise and i'm not an authority on this, i know everyone knew but i wanted to emphasize lol. so yeah i appreciate that you asked me and i think whatever you think is appropriate for you to write is appropriate! what you feel is right is right, believe in your ability to tell what's correct morally and what's not and to tell what fits your story best and have the courage to write what you really want to write :)

there's stuff like abuse and power dynamics that i'd love if people treated with care, like when deciding how to portay it, but even with those it's like, i don't believe viewing a fucked up dynamic through rose-colored glasses is harmful in itself... or that it can't be very touching art if it's not spelled out clearly that this is an unhealthy unbalanced relationship, and for survivors especially or people who are intimately familiar with fucked up, i think.. what am i saying. i KNOW the ""romanticization"" angle can affect survivors deeply, in a catharsis way and not a re-traumatized way i mean hxsgcy so that has real merit in fiction in my opinion

you know how they say great art disturbs the comfortable and comforts the disturbed or smth like that? i know it's hard and sticking by your own moral code (that might go against social norms) has to be learned and practiced, and the backlash that comes with challenging taboos is never exactly a walk on the beach but i encourage you to go for it and try to forget about what certain people will think! there will be stupid malicious interpretations always but you're not writing for those people, you're writing for the people that Do get it!! who will get it, when they read it, for those that see you and understand

anyway yes you're not clogging up my inbox and my dms are open, feel free to hop in there if you want to talk to someone and be certain you're not going to be judged💓💓💓

[ebiemidnightlibrarian]

‘get to know me’ game.

Thanks for tagging me @nocapesdahling 💜! I was bored and tired, and this will add a bit of fun in my day, ty!

Nickname: There's not many, my name is kinda short and a bit complicated, so let me see… there's Eloh; Ebie (only here in tumblr cause my name sucks in english); Elo; Helô and variations of it (my gf calls me Hel, but I suspect of her intentions lol). @raraenoctes call me Librarian usually 😂, I'm happy w that so make yourself comfortable :)

Zodiac: Aries. Ascendant in Virgo; Descendant in Pisces; Sun in Scorpio and Moon in Capricorn (when I was a kid I was obsessed w this exoteric things lol)

Height: 5′5

Hogwarts House: Ravenclaw by heart and Slytherin due Pottermore.

Last thing I Googled: my height in feet (I'm still not used w this system lol)

Followers: 155 I think (I'm rlly happy that ppl like my stuff 💜)

Song Stuck in my Head: “Death" by White Lies

How Much I Sleep: Not enough. Definitely not enough. I should sleep at least 8 hours, but I end up staying awake 24/48 hours and then I sleep, like, 16 hours straight and then repeat. It's not very healthy, but it's what I can do now.

Lucky Number: 7, 24 and 98.

Dream Job: When I was a child, my dream was to be a literature teacher or writer. I guess since I'm studying to become a teacher, I work in a bookstore and write, I'm kind of in my dream job lol.

Wearing: Black tank top, black shorts and a lilac cardigan.

Favorite Song: Hummm... hard one. I would say definitely anything of David Bowie, always. However, I think that my two favourites right now are Heathens by Aurora and Hunter's Moon by Ghost.

Favorite Instrument: Piano and Cello.

Aesthetic: Oh boy, I'm ABSOLUTELY into the Dark Academia gang, not even kidding. Gothic Academia and Light Academia too.

Favorite Author: This question is cruel, it's almost like asking me which fictional character I love the most. In one hand, probably the obvious answer it's Neil Gaiman. In the other hand I have my beloved Oscar Wilde and Will Shakespeare, I also love Octavia Butler and Shirley Jackson... There's also the Nacional ones, Leonel Caldela and Fabio Yabu... ohhhh, I should stop now before my head explodes.

Favorite Animal Noise: Hmm... Surely the nightingale singing.

Something Random: I met my girlfriend by chance in the library i work. She had forgotten to return a book to the bookstore (the delivery deadline was due that afternoon), she ran in and ran over me on the way. She made me drop my lunch, so she offered herself to pay me a lunch, I acepted and it's kinda was our first date. :)

No pressure tags:

@scuttle-buttle, @mybisexualheartbeatsforzemo, @dionysus-lover-ao3, @midnight-mess, and anyone else who wants to play <3

[midoriyaizukustan-inactive]

yall i get so Tired when i see some ppl complaining abt how “boring” midoriya is like if u could think critically for one second my dude,,

like. stop and think for one second for me. where have you ever seen a character like midoriya before? like, beyond a few similarities? i see ppl compare him to fuckin naruto but beyond their demeanors, theyre not the same character at all

like ok.

midoriya’s smart, not naturally, but because hes observant and a critical thinker. bro is constantly shown to be thinking and calculating and that this is a skill he has honed over the years; where else have u seen a smart main character act like that?

he cares so fucking much its kinda a flaw sometimes (like how hes never held bakugou accountable for his actions). idk this is kinda typical of shonen protags but he’s not a weird dick abt his compassion either; he cares and shows it in ways both the audience and the ppl he cares abt understand

he cries all the time. THATS definitely different. he’s in touch with his emotions through and through and is never really ashamed for it (except for that one scene in the manga where he’s having a rough time and has that whole “heroes dont cry” mantra going through his head, but that doesnt last). i think thats rlly a great characteristic. ppl make jokes abt him being a little bitch but lol,,,sorry a character actually expresses emotions instead of being a ~stoic badass~ all the time

his mom is still alive, which breaks shonen main character cliches (which tbh doesnt have much to do with his character particularly but still its a point in his favor). in a similar vein of thought, he doesnt have daddy issues canonically (at least not yet idk what hisashi/dad for one is gonna end up being djkdjk)

most importantly tho, midoriya had to WORK to get to where he is; he was never some “chosen one”. no one “just had a feeling” about him. literally everyone told him he couldnt become a hero, everyone implied that he could try as hard as he wanted to but that he would never make it, but he persevered despite that.

bc of his hardworking and determined manner, midoriya EARNED every. single. chance and opportunity he was given. bro had to prove himself first even to ALL MIGHT, who ended up being the FIRST person to believe in him. all might didnt just trust him bc midoriya reminded him of himself. no one believed in him until he believed in himself first, and thats why he DESERVES one for all (and respect in general but yall are clowns)

hes a light for all of those kids who felt like giving up. he’s living proof that the situation youre born into, that society forces you into, is not your ending; you can still push on regardless. you can still be happy regardless. thats important for both kids in his society, and in our real one!! midoriya is a guide for so many ppl, real AND fictional.

and some other stuff;; hes socially awkward but still tries his best because he never wants anyone to feel how he felt when he was growing up. this isnt abnormal for protags, but the way he’s socially awkward is both more genuine and also more realistic like. “im a dick but ohh wait i have a soft exterior that you must dig for” is such an annoying way of showing off “social awkwardness” and midoriya breaks that stereotype so thank GOD.

hes baby but hes also an absolute feral child sometimes as well; hes more complex than people give him credit for in that regard. kid literally will only value rules at face value. he works with them only until they go against his interests; then he has no issues whatsoever breaking them

and this last point is v important: midoriya has been through a lot in canon; his once best friend became abusive for ten+ years, before just becoming a prick he could handle himself in high school; his mom is single and trying to work for both him and herself; he was completely alone until he was 14/15; no one, NO ONE believed in him until he could prove them otherwise, and even then, he still received some doubt concerning his abilities, purposes, and intentions (bakugou, aizawa, and nighteye). at the same time though, midoriya’s not angry with the world; hes not really angry at all. despite all hes seen and gone through, midoriya is still kind and optimistic and i think thats really what separates him from other main characters, especially those in his genre

midoriya is a guide. he is a light. ik i make jokes abt him being sunshine but he really IS; his whole POINT of existing is to inspire kids both in real life and in his fictional world and to reassure them that their situation will only end the way they make it; they can get out. they can be safe. they can live up to want they want to be

and thats important. thats inspiring. that is the farthest fuckin thing from “boring” you can get

anyway so if i see one more person saying midoriya is “boring/bland/etc” one more time just bc he isnt an edgy bitch like other main characters, im gonna throat punch someone. stan my boy or die

[daisychvins]

｡･ﾟﾟ･ — introduction.

introducing ... violet’s demise ! aka grayson aka her big brother she’s been wiring money to stay away in europe <33333

name: grayson swag money jeon  age: 22 turning 23 (don’t ask me about his sign that’s for liza to figure out someday <3) gender: cis male; he/him hometown: baltimore, maryland sexuality: bisexual & biromantic

listen i was feeling rlly committed to completing his stats but i’m already over it so don’t ask dont tell xx anYWAYS let’s get on to the juicy stuff hehe

i tend to ramble a lot so this intro is gonna be probably a mixture of paragraphs and bullet points and everything in between but let’s start simple. also i rlly wanna emphasize a massive DRUGS TW bc his character largely revolves around his interest in and addiction to drugs

blackmails

grayson is claiming that he's been in a rehab program for the last year and is now completely sober and reformed when he really was just using the money to party and travel throughout europe.

without his parents paying to support him now, he's had to start dealing to make ends meet and keep up appearances. it’s mostly coke, but he dabbles in harder substances depending on what his connections can get him. 

grayson dabbles with calligraphy and was notorious for forging excuse notes and parent signatures all throughout high school and even now sells forgeries for a quick buck. the most notable of these was xavi’s letter of recommendation that helped him get into yale. 

background

grayson is violet’s older brother!!1 yes, that’s right, THE big brother who’s been out of the country getting LIT (and by lit i mean he’s been traveling europe on a series of solo trips w his parents’ money and doin lots of recreational drugs)

i haven’t fully fleshed out the dynamic he has w his parents but just know it’s ,, bad ASDHFJNK basically the jeons treated their children like accessories and expected them to be their little trophies and grayson just was not having that as a kid!!! so he acted out a lot and obviously got himself into a pretty bad scene (thank u goosie) and is basically the bane of his parents existence at this point <3 yet they still try to appease him to keep him under control but that’s for the family task to work out hehehehe

despite hating his parents, he adores both of his siblings. before the drug use started, he was always a big nurturer and would have done anything for either of them......now he wouldn’t be caught dead praising violet but he loves her in secret from afar HSJDFKG

yeah basically he met goose when he was around 15 i think????? and got introduced to drugs around 16 or 17 i wanna say and by the time he graduated high school he was just....a much different person than the soft big brother he used to be. his parents sent him off to europe pretty much as soon as he turned 18 under the guise of going to school internationally, but grayson obviously knew the truth and understood that he was being sent away so he wouldn’t be his parents problem anymore. 

he basically spent the last four years galavanting europe and just....trying to enjoy it???? but it’s hard to enjoy an extended vacation when u have no family or friends on ur side anymore </3 he basically used the money to stay in hostels and worked odd jobs here and there to stay afloat and keep supplied w the...special goods....but yeah lots of drugs, alcohol, sex, and recklessness but he DID learn a couple languages??? or at least enough to get through some pretty basic conversations in most european countries so <3 guess it’s all okay then!!!! 

anyways idk what else to put here that u won’t just find out in the family task so uhhhhhh idk lmk if u need anything else i guess

present/personality

so now grayson is just vibing at yale obviously ummm he actually got super into writing after high school, especially poetry. he used to carry journals full of just random prose about his addiction and his deepest thoughts, as well as probably some lighter stuff about his love escapades or maybe goose idk...basically he used poetry as an outlet and it allowed him to really ground himself and find his place in the world even if it didnt include who he thought it would SO with that being said, grayson got into yale due to a poetry competition he was a part of. he saw some big fancy competition being advertised and on a whim decided to submit some poem about his struggles with addiction and losing his family (a v raw piece that he didn’t expect to ever see the light of day) and he actually ended up winning! it caught yale’s attention and they invited him to apply and, knowing how much it would probably disturb his little sister, grayson very smugly applied and was pretty stoked to see he got in 

because that poem gained such publicity, it was assumed that he was a survivor of addiction and was writing from a sober perspective. he didn’t want to correct anyone, so he just went with it and has basically crafted this story about his massive success and has become an advocate for addiction treatment and rehabilitation. of course, none of the companies that sponsor him or the events that host him as a motivational speaker know that he’s snorting lines in the bathroom beforehand or dealing to half the elites, but that’s between grayson, god, and the blackmailer !

basically grayson showed back up because of violet’s blackmail being exposed. he was off in europe, unable to defend himself, and with a massive vendetta against his family so he decided what better way to reenter society than by publicly outing himself as a martyr <3333 his plan is basically to bash the family name to fulfill whatever angsty coming of age arc he has in store for him to make up for the pain of being sent away .... really angsty yeah </3 rip grayson 

anyways yeah he’s a total fake. he’s been using his status as a martyr to his advantage a lot, the best example being his recruitment into the elites. he guilted them into accepting him by discussing the PR benefits of recruiting a member that struggles with addiction and how supporting addiction treatment and second chances would be such a good look for them. like he basically threatened to publicly expose them for denying him due to his troubled past and accuse them of being exclusionary so they said boop ! ur in. now the elites are proud advocates for second chances <3333

i would describe grayson as fearless, overconfident, infamous due to his condition being exposed recently, a little gloomy, he’s kind of just got this chip on his shoulder and feels like he has something to prove....he’s gotta be better than his parents, gotta stick it to them and to violet and to everyone who doubts him. he’s a grumpy guy with a massive vendetta and a need for some kind of justice. he just doesn’t know what that is yet. despite all of the bad, however, he’s genuinely a pretty good guy. he’s really goofy and a genuine person, pretty friendly with literally everyone until they give him a reason not to be. basically, unless you are a member of the jeon family he probably likes you or is at least cordial to you (unless we plot differently ofc but u know). he’s just a big lovable dummy with some sweet drug connects and a knack for poetry. he also knows calligraphy but that’s beside the point . 

idk if this is enough to describe him but yeah if u have any questions just let me know hehe

this is probably gonna make things hard but considering violet was just exposed i think that he’s pretty new to yale ???? like probably just transferred in/started this spring semester rather than being here for the entire year/a prolonged amount of time so most of our plots will likely have to be newer/center on him first showing up OR we can establish their connections from pre-europe which is also fine w me....idk i didnt rlly think this timeline through so let’s just plot and see what happens aghbfjnd anyways i included some connection ideas to help us all just in case

wanted connections

i’d say he’s the honorary dealer of the elites aghbdfjn so literally anyone who needs a plug could be a potential connection. we can obviously tweak this and customize it to each character <3

maybe someone who met grayson in europe. they could have travelled together for an extended period of time or even just a brief encounter. he was over there for four years, so the possibilities are endless. 

building off the last one, this same connection could work with a romantic interest. maybe they were romantically involved for a time in europe and fell out of touch or maybe grayson/your muse just left in the middle of the night and they never saw each other again until now and maybe there’s some unresolved feelings/one-sided longing or need for closure. it could also be that they just hooked up whenever this person was in the area and that was that, no strings attached. 

maybe someone who genuinely believes that grayson is actually sober and really admires his strength and idk maybe they’re struggling w their own issues and seek advice from him or maybe they just make it harder for him to actually do his thing bc they’re constantly around and it’s not like they can catch him strung out and acting up 

someone in the literature department or with a background in english or writing. someone he could read poetry to, or share his favorite lines with. someone who’s taken the same professors and can tell him who to watch out for or what to expect. idk i just want him to have someone to share his passions with. maybe a little crush is forming? maybe they’re just friends who share a love of fiction? idk i’m open to literally anything 

he’s sort of a motivational speaker now bc he advocates for rehabilitation resources and stuff so like maybe ur muse saw him give a presentation or participate in some kind of seminar and they called bullshit on him after the show bc they were like,,, bro i literally saw u partying w max and avery last weekend what the fuck are u on about and now they could potentially hold that blackmail over his head hehe......

exes plots are always fun we love angst in this house 

fuck it let’s bring another family member BHJFNGKM no but grayson rlly is a nurturing guy and like....definitely develops unhealthy attachments to cope w his loss of family so he’d love all the sibling-like bonds he can get to kinda numb the pain of “””””losing””””” violet 

if none of these interest you i’m literally so down for anything pls just let me know and i’m happy to brainstorm always <333333 

thank u for reading this....smooch . 

[bloody-wonder]

I kinda have a take and just wanna clarify its not @ u. (This is Part 1) So lots of ppl rlly like Aaron and that's fine ofc I cant tell anyone who to like and who not to but ppl that do tend to try and say that hes not actually homophobic in canon which is simply not true. Or they try to justify it somehow. Aarons homophobia honestly ruined any chance I had of liking him (same with seth) and ppl sometimes say that if u dont like Aaron for that then u cant like Neil or Wymack cuz they're ableist

(Part 2) and have they used ableist language? Yes. But is there actual evidence to suggest they hold prejudices against disabled/neurodivergent ppl? I dont think so. Neil only uses this language once and its clearly to rile Kevin up, theres so much evidence that he admires Kevin and I dont see Neil looking down on him for his disability at all. Wymack-he uses ableist slurs more but he still signs neurodivergent players and I cant say I genuinely believe he thinks any less of them for it.

that’s an interesting ask!

first of all, ofc no one can tell you which character to like and which to dislike. everyone chooses their faves for personal reasons and no one owes anybody explanation for why they like or dislike them. however if you want to explain why you dislike aaron as opposed to neil you’ll have to come up with different arguments bcs so far it looks like you have double standards. 

it’s true that aaron is homophobic. you say there’s no justifying it or explaining it away and i agree but aren’t you at the same time trying to justify neil’s and wymack’s use of ableist language, to discard it as unimportant and not worthy of calling out or being a reason for disliking someone?

has aaron used homophobic slurs? yes once, if you count “flamer”. how many times have neil and wymack and other characters called andrew crazy, psycho or retarded? i don’t know exactly but more than once. now you say that it doesn’t count bcs they don’t seem to hold any prejudice against disabled people. well by that logic any straight ally can use the f-word freely bcs it’s just a word after all. but it’s not just a word, it’s a slur and if you call somebody like that it won’t be a good look no matter how many lgbt people you know and how many fictional gays you ship. and the only difference between homophobic and ableist slurs is that the former ones at this point are taboo in a civilized conversation bcs we’ve learned to interpret them as signs of bigotry whereas the latter ones still aren’t even registered as slurs by most people.

when neil called kevin a cripple - what does it matter if he generally has no prejudice against disabled people? he specifically used an ableist slur with an intention to hurt. let’s imagine that kevin’s gay - would neil use an f-word in the very same situation to hurt him? probably not. but it speaks not so much of neil’s character as about how normalized ableist slurs are. for if neil has ever used an f-word it would be much harder for him to become a fan favorite, however words like “cripple” and “psychotic” directed at a disabled person and a person who probably struggles with mental disorders we just let slide. did he want to hurt them? he did. does he generally have any prejudice against disabled people? well idk the only ones he interacted with in canon are kevin and andrew and he totally used slurs against them with ill intention.

does aaron really have prejudice against gay people? it seems he does but if we continue this thought experiment then the only gays he interacted with in canon would be nicky, andrew and neil. when he called neil a flamer - this is the very same situation as neil vs kevin. aaron wanted to hurt and used the slur he thought would accomplish it. aaron never called nicky anything like that and all the rudes comments he made against him that are usually interpreted as homophobic are partly call outs for being inappropriate and partly expressions of discomfort at his relative graphically describing his sexual desires. 

if neil calling kevin and andrew, who he at that point perceived as dangerous, ableist slurs isn’t a sufficient indication of his prejudice than why is aaron calling neil, who he perceived as dangerous, a homophobic slur a sufficient indication of his?

i believe that disliking aaron has more to do with how the story is told from neil’s perspective - not only bcs they hate each other but also bcs aaron gets very little screen time. all that he is and does behind the scenes is surmised by the reader and so he either becomes a homophobic jerk who uses slurs in his head frequently (just like neil uses ableist language) or he becomes an angry misunderstood boy who’s constantly made uncomfortable by his cousin. there’s room for interpretation and only you decide which way it goes.

all aftg characters have done problematic things which range from making fun of each other’s grief and trauma to harassment to armed assault. if we put homophobia and ableism into this perspective the would be roughly on the same level of “badness“ in my opinion. the differences between them would lie not in which character holds more prejudice or uses more slurs objectively but in what type of bigotry you subjectively think is more unforgivable and likely to ruin a character for you. you will never like aaron bcs he’s homophobic, those other people will dislike neil bcs of ableist language and i will forever be angry at nicky and his rapey comments and actions. we all have double standards and we don’t like these characters for their “goodness“ and lack of problematic character traits bcs they all have some. we like them bcs something in their personalities speaks to us and in that we either acknowledge their flaws or ignore them. 

i personally think acknowledging is a better way.

tl;dr you certainly aren’t obliged to like aaron just bcs you like neil but explaining neil’s ableism away isn’t an efficient way to rationalize it. maybe there’s no way to rationalize it at all so you just say yes i dislike aaron bcs he’s homophobic and i just can’t ignore or forgive that and at the same time i like neil although he’s ableist without ignoring or justifying it. basically just acknowledge that your fave’s problematic and move on🤷

[inkykeiji]

ive been writing stories since i was a kid. they arent necessarily fan fic but i guess i could make it into it. i never wanted to post cuz i was scared; i wrote characters based on my life which did in fact have lots of heavy verbal abuse, drugs, and what not. but u rlly inspired me to consider posting some on my tumblr or get into writing fan fic bc ur stories are so relatable to me nd u showed me not to be scared to share things ive experienced thru fictional characters. so, thank u so much<3

oh my gosh anon, i cannot even begin to tell you how much this message means to me <333

first off, thank you so, so much for sharing this with me; i really really appreciate it and it warms me to my absolute core to hear that me + my work have helped you feel more comfortable and confident in sharing your stories, even if they deal with darker subject matter. words quite literally cannot tell you how much that means to me <3

i completely and entirely understand the fear, but i want you to know that i absolutely 100% support you posting your work, if you feel comfortable enough to do so. your experiences, emotions, and stories are VALID even if your work is fictionalized to some extent. the emotion you are pulling from and the experiences you are pulling from to create are REAL nonetheless. you are allowed to feel the way you feel and create the work you create, and you don’t ever owe anyone any explanations.

i’m so sorry to hear that you have also been through something similar—this is actually part of the reason why i’m okay with ‘oversharing’ certain aspects of my life online; because there’s a chance it may help someone who has experienced something similar, or it may help others who haven’t be more sympathetic (and understanding!) towards those of us who have. i think these are important conversations to have, you know what i mean? obviously most of my work is fictional and romanticized to some extent, because that’s how i personally cope, but the situations at their very core (ie drug addiction, abuse, mental illness, etc), and the feelings they evoke, those are pulled from real experiences.

aaah sweetpea i hope this all makes sense!!! my point is, you are valid and your work is valid, and if you ever decide to share it with the world, please know that i will support you <333 i love u very much, thank you again for sharing this with me <3

[laceymorganwrites]

Hey ✨🌸🍯🎂🍪🍃💒🕊🌈💔🎥🔪💤 -Sarah

hi hi!! thanks sm for participating <3

✨ which fictional character (book, show, or movie) do you relate to most?

um I´m gonna go for my most recent fandom jjk aaand Black Clover since I caught up yesterday. From jjk I relate to Maki since she´s nothing special and shares my way of life: doing everything out of spite. And from Black Clover I relate to Zora the most cause I´ve always been the weird/scary one, belong to the loser squad and am lazy. But deep down I got a good heart (I rlly try my best lol)

🌸 what is your favorite flower?

red lilies!!

🍯 describe your favorite smell

when you walk down the old basement where old books are stored and someone´s making christmas cookies in the flat above it

🎂 if you had 3 wishes, what would they be?

I´ll do selfish ones cause well... I´m an arrogant asshole

1. I wish that someone truly loves me and I am able to love the person back just as much

2. I wish that I´ll be able to make my hobbies into money

3. I wish that I forgive others and myself

🍪 cookie dough or cookies?

cookies! though I prefer the soft and chewy ones hehe

🍃 would you rather live in a sea with mermaids or a forest with fairies?

hmmm, I used to say mermaids since they´re one of my faves but I´m scared of the ocean and I love the forest so I´ll live with the fairies

💒 which show would you want to live in?

I´d have to say either Haikyuu or Black Clover. Haikyuu cause everything´s so nice and like our world, I wouldn´t even need to meet any of the cast, I could just live a normal life haha. And Black Clover cause I honestly think it´d be amazing, I would survive too I think. Besides, the chances there are higher that I´d run into some people. Though I would prefer Haikyuu since I don´t hate anyone in there. In Black Clover though: if I met Yuno I would just....combust with anger.

🕊 3 habits you have?

overthinking, doing everything first thing in the morning so I can laze around the rest of the day, talking too much

🌈 things I find attractive in girls/guys

In girls: everything. I like chubby people, I like dark eyes, I like glasses, I love hands more than I should. Well deep voices, I like tall people, girls especially. 

💔 the reason behind your last breakup?

he just wasn´t it, chief ✌ also I came out as lesbian at that point and well I didn´t have feelings for him. Fun fact: he still talks badly about me even to this day.

🎥 what show are you currently binging on?

none really. I caught up on anime I watch regularly (OP, aot, that skate anime, promised neverland, Black clover) and now I´m continuing watching Dororo

🔪 scariest/creepiest experience?

me and my friend were at the train station at the same time a bomber was. We met up normally, it wasn´t on the news then. And everyone rushed out of the building, we didn´t know what was going on, nobody told us anything, there were a bunch or reporters and cameras outside and when we went into the city and sat down to eat we heard about it on the radio.

💤 date someone younger, older, or same age as you?

right now same age and max. 2 years older than me. If I´m like 25 or sum, date: older women and younger men. 

[husbandits]

Hey! Not sure if you made one but can I ask for head cannons for Arthur Morgan (or any of the cowboys really) on their wedding day? I don’t see very much of these and I just love the idea of the boys being happy! 😳

thanks for sending this! I rlly enjoyed writing this, i think leaving most of the character spots empty was rlly fun, i like working with rarer characters!

i’m just now realizing you were asking for happy chars, and like i wrote arthur as more nervous/frazzled but that’s what i feel is accurate

female reader!

Arthur

this man is alll jitters

he’s frankly a bit of a mess leading up to the wedding

engagements are very much not his thing, alright?

but mostly he can push past that by focusing on doing chores, distracting himself

and you can come over and remind him, when he gets a little too lost in his head, of how much you love him, how excited you are to be his wife

that this is real, it’s happening

on the day of, however?

dutch got it in his head that this needs to be something of a ‘proper wedding’, with a cake and flowers and the whole tradition

which means he can’t see you until the ceremony

and he can’t get himself dirty lifting hay bales or going hunting

he just has to sit there, letting susan clean him up and getting himself dressed

he has to wait, and stew in his anxiety

despite the very rational side telling him otherwise, he can’t help but think that you’re desperately trying to find a last-minute way out of this

that you’re going to leave, coming to your senses at the last moment and realizing what a mistake it would be to marry a fool like him

he thinks so little of himself, sees himself as such a hopeless brute, there’s no way you could really want him

even if it’s very much the opposite for you, even if you tell him just about every chance he gets

so when it’s time for the wedding itself, he’s more than a little nervous

despite himself, he finds the ceremony charming. he’s a bit of a hopeless romantic, so the flowers and decorations all look wonderful

still, he’s worried about how much of this is you bending to his wants, because he’s not exactly subtle that he wants a wedding so. damn. bad

but he forces himself to stay put, wait this out

and then, as he’s waiting for hosea to come lead you down the line of chairs and crates they have set up as seating, something in him calms

it’s hard to explain, but it’s like it all clicks into place for him

you’re here

you want this

you’re ready, just as much as he is

he gives a small sigh, shoulders relaxing, and then you appear from behind the young tree branches someone’s bent into an arch

you’re beautiful, dressed up perfectly in the closest thing to a white dress you could get your hands on

you give him a warm smile and he just melts into place

Kieran

surprisingly he’s very lax when it comes to the idea of weddings

you want something big and fancy? he can do that, even if means waiting a bit

you want it to be something small and personal, little more than just the two of you? he’s fine with that too

the only things he really needs are that it’s a wedding, and you’re there

the rest is just window dressing to him

that being said, getting him ready for a wedding is a bit of a hassle

you send him into town with charles and arthur, to get a bath and get himself ready for the ceremony

you hang back in camp, taking a day off with karen and mary-beth and abigail, just enjoying yourself while you let them play around with putting up your hair

you go to molly for help with your make-up, after you’ve put on the nicest dress you own

everything feels… jittery, but welcoming

like the few seconds between the crack of thunder and the first droplets of rain

dutch is charged with keeping the Reverend at least a little sober, and there’s not really much more you want, in the way of ceremony

and then before you know it, the boys are coming back from town,

there’s a flush to kieran’s cheeks, excitement and pride and perhaps just a bit of alcohol

but he’s there, and you’re there, and that makes it perfect

Simon

okay so little known fact about simon

he is 100% a worrywort and will start fussing if things are even a little out-of-plan

like he's the guy on vacation that has to have things planned down to the rest stops

so he's pacing the entire time waiting for the ceremony

asking people to check on the food, the cake, the altar, the decorations

asking if you're okay to go, really, wanting to go out and look for himself

he might just slip off to go check on things if he can, take care of something himself

simon's a man of ritual, i feel like he'd definitely want a 'real' wedding with all of the bells and whistles

probably the closest to wanting what we in the modern age would want, given that he grew up in something of a high society (i think??)

so he wants something big, official

he also has a history of being taken advantage of in situations like this

personally i see his first wife/fiancee as a very quick/ thing, with dutch offering to take care of the problem and ensure that the wedding doesn't count, legally

and maybe dipping into his funds a little? idk

so he doesn't really trust all that well, at least with 'official' things like this

you've definitely been dating a few years before he'll ask, and it'll definitely be something planned, something he's deliberated over for a while

it feels almost… overdue, when he asks, like you should've done this a long time ago

so on the day of, he's more stressed than nervous

everything will work out, he just has to have everything perfect

i'm assuming this takes place a little bit after the gang falls apart, the two of you heading off to live in rhodes together, a somewhat cramped apartment above the store

so the ceremony is smaller, more personal, with only a few friends the two of you have gotten close to in town

you can hear him bullying someone about the flowers from where you're getting ready, letting one of the girls from town put your hair together

there's something reassuring about it you can't trace

and when it comes time to go down the aisle, everything looks perfect, the decorations are pristine, the flowers are bright and cheerful

you're alone, without anyone to guide you down the aisle, and it's a little sad that there's no one from your former life to see you through it

but there's something almost freeing about it too

this is a new start for you both, and you're going to go through it together

Mary-Beth

mary-beth is a bit of a romantic at heart, in my eyes

she doesn't need a big ceremony, or any overly fancy

she just takes you and swanson out to a scenic spot under a very big, old magnolia tree, deep in the woods

(we're ignoring the fact that he probably wouldn't be nice about the two of you because fiction can be catharsis and all that)

tilly and karen are there as witnesses, bridesmaids, and hosea offers to lead you through the wood in place of your father

it's quiet and scenic; something you'll think about for the rest of your life

she has her vows planned out, flowery poetry and gushing prose

next to it yours feel a little overdone and stiff, but you say them anyway

she's sweet and honest and perfect and even if you're not 'really' married you'll love her until the day you die

[the118firefam]

POSITIVE 20 QUESTIONS TAG GAME

thanks to @misha-moose-dean-burger-lover for tagging me. love you, hun ❤️. this was rlly rlly fun.

1. Name 4 fictional characters who showcase your personality the best, with explanations if you want.

> A mixture or Charles Boyle and Amy Santiago. She's nerdy and she's high strung which is completely me and Charles is a romantic who tends to go a lil overboard with his affections and tends to obsess over stuff

> Castiel. I think I see a lot of me in him? I mean, he doesn't feel like he fits in, but he's constantly trying to and he's trying to do good in the world – bad choices, good intentions, am i right? So, yeah, him.

> Uh, Chidi Anagonye

> Oh, Howard Wolowitz. Yes, 110%.

Basically, all different kinds of nerds oops.

2. Aesthetic:

I searched it up! I guess, it's the minimalist aesthetic. My goal is to be simple but bangable lol.

3. Favorite musical/play? If you've never seen a musical or play, one you'd be interested in seeing?

I watch plays which are generally in my native language so, there's this one I watched very recently "Chitkar" which was the story of a paranoid schizophrenic who has extremely violent urges and has killed 3 people because of which her entire family has given up on her but she is admitted to a mental clinic where this one doctor really spends time with her, establishes a friendship and her entire journey with that. It's very intense but it's amazingly done.

4. What's the best compliment you've ever received?

Ooh, that's a tough one. A couple of days ago, this friend of mine and I were talking about Gilmore Girls and how it went to shit after a couple of seasons and I pointed some of my observations out and she's like "oh, wow, that's really good. you should've been the creative head. i'd watch the show, then." and it made me feel really good about myself.

5. How many times have you been in love?

Do fictional characters count?

Nah, I've never really been in love. Thought I was twice but come to think of it, I really wasn't.

6. Embarrassing story or fact about yourself which now makes you laugh?

Hm, there was this once when I was in school and we had this school assembly thing and since I was one of the class heads, I had to keep order and blah blah. Now, there I was, standing, trying to be tough when I see this guy I had a crush on and I... trip. To save myself from a really bad fall, I catch hold onto the next thing and it was a broom which was a really bad idea because even though it stopped me from falling, the broom fell out of the bucket along with all the water and created so much noise that everyone's eyes were on me while I stood there, dipping a broom. Lol.

7. Favorite Disney/Pixar movie?

INSIDE OUT.

8. Favourite plant/tree?

Uh, most definitely jasmine. Yup.

9. What's your favorite holiday?

Holi. Yeah. I tried to think of any other but goddamn, the amount of fun I have during Holi. Wow.

10. Name three things that made you smile/laugh this past week.

> I've been watching a lot of the Big Bang Theory so, that.

> My dad. He's a funny guy.

> R!verdale crack videos. Oh God, they're hilarious.

11. What song would you play to introduce yourself to someone?

Heat of the Moment (by Asia)? Cos all of my decisions are very spontaneous. Does that make sense? Eh.

12. Name something that truly makes you peaceful even at your most stressful moments.

Praying. I pray a lot. Which is kinda unseen for a 17 year old, gen Z. But, yeah. And listening to some very calm tunes.

13. What do you, did you, or would you study at college?

I start college this year and I'm planning on getting my Bachelor's in Psychology.

14. This is kind of a weird one, but which outfit of yours makes you feel most like yourself?

My plain white t-shirt, black denim jacket, blue jeans and converses. I feel very "me".

15. What is a quote you live by?

It's this quote from the show One Day at a Time which goes : Don't quit before the miracle happens.

And the quote of how everyone you meet is going through something you don't know about.

16. Name the funniest playlist name you have.

I, don't make playlists? Oops, sorry guys.

17. Make a reference to an inside joke you have with someone you love with zero context.

I can't remember any. WHat the fuck?

18. What is a message you'd give your younger self if given a chance?

Don't try and fit in. It's okay the way you are. I know you were inadvertently dragged into the "cool" group but, speak up if you find something to be wrong. There's no harm in that. Honey, be yourself. Try to find peace with who you are before you go out to find love.

19. Who is your favorite family member? (If you have no good blood family members, feel free to mention someone in your found family)

My nephew. He's two. He's by far, the cutest lil bean and he hits me a lot but I've never known happiness better than when I'm with him.

20. What's a secret dream of yours?

To open a bookstore. It's something I really, really wanna do. A vintage bookstore with pillows on the ground and bean bags and soft music playing and maybe a dog who just goes and cuddles with anyone who looks like they're upset.