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cecropiacrown · 1 month ago
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Feng Xin just stares at Mu Qing for a moment, his lips parted and his hand paused uselessly in the air from where he was using it to prop his chin as he tries to piece together what the hell just happened.
"You—" Mu Qing starts, pointing an accusing finger at Feng Xin that he immediately retracts.
He holds his hand to his chest, like he's cradling a wound, and breathes heavily through his nose. His face is growing redder by the second, a deep blush spreading all the way to his ears and down his neck. His eyes are wild as they nervously flit around, looking away from Feng Xin but always coming back to him, like they can't seem to help it.
Mu Qing opens and closes his mouth several times until he finally tries to speak again, his voice quieter and somehow lacking its typical aloof confidence.
"Y-you asked," he says helplessly.
Feng Xin is at a complete loss. His surprised eyebrows dip back into their natural, furrowed state and his hand finds a purpose again, gently touching the cheek where Mu Qing—where Mu Qing just—
Mu Qing makes a strangled noise and snaps his mouth shut, pursing his lips. He quickly tucks his hands back into his sleeves and turns his head as if he's preparing to leave. He does no such thing. Instead, he stands perfectly still. Feng Xin is still laying prone on the ground, transfixed by the movement of Mu Qing's slender, pale throat as he swallows.
"Mu Qing, you—"
"I know!"
"You k—"
"You don't need to say it!"
"You kissed me!"
"Fuck!"
Mu Qing turns with a dramatic sway of his robes and is gone before Feng Xin has the sense to go after him.
"Do you have something you've always wanted to do to me during one of our sparring sessions but have never been able to incorporate?" Feng Xin had asked.
"Yes," was Mu Qing's immediate reply.
Excited, Feng Xin had turned to face Mu Qing from where they lay side by side recovering from their seventh spar of the evening—just more to go before they call it quits.
He was grinning from ear to ear and had simply said, "What is it?"
A kiss on the cheek.
Mu Qing kissed him on the cheek.
Feng Xin's fingertips brush the spot on his cheek that is still warm and tingly from Mu Qing's touch.
The southern sun has never burned this hot in his life.
Without wasting another moment, Feng Xin scrambles to his feet and sprints after Mu Qing.
He has a score to settle and another spar to win.
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featherclan · 24 days ago
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HAPPY ONE YEAR AND THANKS FOR 800 FOLLOWERS
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Thank yall, truly this has been probably the most fun I've had just being able to draw these silly cats.
I did want to just share my thoughts and feelings about doing this for a whole year, especially as one of my longest running projects so far.
I've had a really hard time in the past with continuing projects, or honestly even starting them at all. This was all done on a whim last December, and I did start with a completely different idea that never made it to being a comic. These are actually the two cats from the original clan I did
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Maybe one day these two will make an appearance, but probably not.
I decided to go with Featherclan because I just didn't like how these two started out, and I just went for it. I have some regrets with Featherclan as a whole, I wish I had done a little more planning on the story part, as things are getting a little more slow before we get to the exciting stuff in the next couple of moons. The original designs of Sparrowtuft and Ravenstar were done in an effort to make it easy to draw them so I didn't get discouraged, but now I think they might stick out as newer members join the clan. Though I think I have done pretty well in changing them subtly enough to have them be more distinct while also being simple. I also originally made them too dark, especially Ravenstar's markings. I've actually gone through a few subtle iterations to try and make that less of a problem. I've also been a bit stuck for a while since Featherclan starts off so slowly- It did take like 20+ moons for another cat to join lol.
Some goals I have as the comic goes forward is that I really want to make the story more enticing and give myself more time to work on the updates. I want to make the characters personalities very distinct and have their actions really affect things. I want to world build more. I have a lot of goals and honestly, they might not all happen, but I'm hoping y'all will enjoy what's to come.
I really am so grateful for the support I've gotten from everyone here, it does help keep me motivated to continue.
I am also preemptively sorry for the drama that will happen in the next few moons, you have been warned.
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ahiddenpath · 1 year ago
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Nanowrimo Win 2023
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I won Nanowrimo 2023! Details beneath the cut, plus writing news for my digimon fanfiction (AO3 and FFN)!
This was my easiest/smoothest Nanowrimo ever, and also the second time (out of like 14) that I finished before November 30th in my time zone, lol! As you might know, I've been struggling a ton with my mental health and energy levels lately, so I was shocked things went so well. I owe a lot to my friends on the Camp Digimonth discord server for sprinting with me and keeping that hype alive.
I'm going to continue writing every day for the rest of November, but I won't worry about word count, now that I've hit my goal. I'll update on the final word count at the end of the month.
But! Some fun extras! I actually wrote an additional 10k words in the last 10 days of October, as a trial run for if I could handle Nanowrimo this year. To be clear, those words were not counted in my Nanowrimo word count, so currently I have a little over 60k words drafted.
What I wrote
10k words in October
A new NSFW story that will probably end up about 20k words long. This story is extremely playful and sexy, but also explores various sexualities and lifestyles.
50k+ words in November
I worked on Infinite Possibilities. I almost finished a first draft of phase 1 of 3. I definitely need to go back and add some scenes, so it's not totally ready, but I covered a lot!
When will I share it?
You might know that recently, I've been in a weird place when it comes to sharing my work online. I have yet to resolve how I feel about this. However, I plan to spend December and January editing what I wrote in November, plus whatever else I want to work on. I'm guessing that you won't see updates until February (unless I change my mind, of course, these things are fluid).
What about Camp Digimonth?
Camp Digimonth is a digimon co-creation event with a discord of digimon creatives. I haven't decided if I have the time/energy/mental health to host it and potentially open it to new members, and I have no idea what the interest levels would be. I might make an interest check on the Camp Digimonth blog?
And that's all I have for now! Thank you so much for your interest <3 If you're working on Nanowrimo, best of luck with the final push! I believe in you!
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heirloomgem · 3 years ago
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Bakugou’s Silly Crush Part 2
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Bakugou x Reader Silly crush Part 2
Sorry for the long wait.
As December come, I always get sick because of winter every year added to that I have been spending more time with my family as I have to go back again to work after vacation, the reason why I couldn’t continue writing the second part and post the continuation and I know lots of you wanted this part so I’m really sorry for the delay.
Without further ado, I hope you enjoy the story.
Reader POV
The moment her explosive classmate challenge her the first day she entered U.A, she can’t help but differentiate him from the rest of her classmate ever since.
The first thought that went through her mind after her fiery blond classmate challenge her was how arrogant he was but as they fought tooth and nail, she have to admit he has bite behind his bark.
She had like the exchange she had with him as he have turn her thinking of what she thought of him. She have thought of him as nothing but someone who is cocky just for having a strong quirk and yet he proved to her as someone who would gives everything he has to achieve what he want. He has a standing and she can’t help but respect him even if he’s a little cheeky in her opinion.
However because of her reserve attitude and how frustrated he seems after their training, she have decided to keep her distance from him but one by one, unexpected events led her to finding herself as a part of his gang.
Even though, she knows it’s not his intention to help her at all and he’s only force to teach her because of others, she’s still thankful at how it helped her mingle more with her classmate given that she have only met them.
From studying for her Japanese literature to just hanging out with him and their friends, slowly she can’t help but notice little things about Bakugou.
It’s all started once when he was hit by a quirk to which she have made fun of him nevertheless inside her, she realize she prefer Bakugou being the normal Bakugou Katsuki.
How hardworking he is in his goal of being number one, the confidence he have to not waver in any situation even his usual spitefulness and his brashness or bluntness at times. She can’t help but prefer them more than anything else even if others might see it as weird for liking them.
But at the end, it seems she have teased him a bit too much as it resulted in him ignoring her.
She could only chuckle and apologise before offering to treat him for some food to calm him down.
Once weekend came, she treated him for some spicy ramen and mapo tofu since she saw how he has a taste for spicy food.
Watching as their food was place in front of them, she has to admit that seeing Bakugou enjoying it, she quite like the sight and can’t help but smile even if by the end of the day, she has to secretly buy milk just to calm the stinging in her tongue and the oncoming stomach-ache throughout the night.
She have to admire her explosive friend for his extreme palate while hers are more notably milder even so that didn’t stop her from buying spicy snacks and stacks them in her room just so he could eat something while they’re studying together.
Well, thanks to it, her tolerance for spice got a bit higher even though she still finds them spicy.
She also learned how talented he is at cooking when she witnessed him cooking in their dorms kitchen.
Wanting to have a taste since it rare for him to cook, she pestered him for the next 20 minutes, much to Bakugou’s annoyance but with much pestering, she got a bite that ended with her knocking her forehead on the counter with such a defeated feeling.
He’s more wife material than anyone else with how delicious his food is, she lamented.
“Bakugou, are you trying to be someone wife or something? If so, can you become my wife instead your foods are delicious.”
“HAH!?”
Needless to say, it earned her a smack in the head.
Sitting in their dorms dinner tables, she decided to continue watching her blonde friend cook. Bakugou just gave her the cold shoulder as he continued stirring and adding seasoning on the food in front of him.
“...”
“...”
“Bakugou”
Her explosive friend stood rigid, waiting.
Oblivious, she blurted, “You should turn on the fan. Your face’s red like an octopus from cooking, even your ears.”
...
Let’s just say, it ended with her adoring another bump on the head.
 As the year goes by and as they entered they’re last year in U.A, she did notice her feelings for her explosive friend change but the turning point really happened when an unexpected event occurred.
There once was an accident that happened in their hero internship that resulted in her hair being cut off however she has to cut the other excess as well as it got too damaged to salvage, resulting in her looking like a boy after.
Opening the door, she entered their class dorm, thinking how she wanted to take a bath quickly because of how tired she was and wanting to sleep right away and yet noticing the silence that surrounds their usually noisy dorm, she blinked as she saw her classmate look at her.
“What wrong?” She asked, raising a brow at them before all of them erupted, getting up from their sits and coming to her with a worried look.
“No! That’s what we should be asking you?! What happened to your hair?”
That when she remembered.
She quickly explains to them that it’s an accident during her intern and to make sure it’s nothing to worry about since it’s just hair and nothing more.
She knew what reactions her classmates would have once they saw her and yet what she didn’t expect though was how Bakugou would react.
After assuring her friends that there is nothing to worry about, she quickly headed for her room planning to rest however she immediately stops and look back.
A little ways away from her was Bakugou and the glare he was giving her made her want to take a step back at how intense he’s looking but she willed not too instead opted into giving him a strained smile, asking what’s wrong before he stormed to her, grabbing her head and smacking their forehead together.
“You little shit. It’s because of how you’re always fucking spacing around that this happened. You should be fucking more aware of your surrounding! What if it’s your stupid head that got hit instead! And not just your fucking hair?!”
“H-hah...”
Rubbing her forehead, she watch as her explosive friend started scolding her for being stupid, unsure of what to do since making any excuses would only make him explode more than he already does even so, something within her felt warm from his scolding even if he’s cursing a lot.
“Starting tomorrow afternoon, you’ll train with me. I’ll fuck you up until it’s drilled in your fucking head not to let your guard down, you idiot!”
“...Bakugou, you might be the one who would kill me instead of those villains.”
“Fucking hell I am!”
She could only laugh in return, her explosive friend click his tongue then grabbing her hand and walking to her room, yelling at her to bath at the same time he grumpily sat down and grab a book to read while waiting.
They spend the night watching and eating spicy snack after.
After their intern, they quickly went back to school like how they normally do however because of her new looks, it causes some uproar and by the end of the week, she’s always surrounded by female students, sometimes, even getting lunch boxes and sweets more than she usually gets.
She had no choice but to share it with her classmates seeing that there is no way she could eat them all.
Even though it felt like dumping the food to them, her classmates seems to have no problem at all and notice that the males were more than happy eating the foods she have receive but when she offered Bakugou if he wanted some, he refuse them so furiously while glaring the ones that was in her arms.
She even thought that the food would burn itself from the glares he’s giving them however when she was about to eat one, he suddenly snatch it then shoving it in his mouth before taking the rest, shoving and eating them with such fervour.
She watched in a dazed before laughing, “If you want it so bad, you could have said so. I would have given them to you but now I don’t have anything to eat. Hey, Kirishima-”
As she was about to asked her friend to share some to her, her blonde friend smacks her in the head, muttering, “Fucking dense idiot.” before leaving then coming back with a lunchbox which he send it flying to her head and without a word, slump beside her, giving her a glare not to say anything and just eat.
She thought, her explosive friend could be so weird at times but looking at the lunch box in her hand, she smiled.
She much prefer Bakugou’s lunch box than the ones she have receives since she find his food more delicious than anything.
And so without a thought, she ate it happily, not knowing Bakugou’s have gone through all many troubles to cook those foods into her preferred palate.
Everything felt peaceful but as their days goes by, she slowly felt something’s wrong.
Looking like a boy doesn’t really bother her however as she’s being flattered by other female students for her looks and other male students lamenting and crying for her being too handsome to take away their female classmates attention, something inside her slowly made her uncomfortable.
This started making her brood more recently, resulting in getting smack in the head by her explosive friend also.
She could only apologise for spacing out even though her fiery friend have been helping her train.
What she didn’t notice though were the looks that Bakugou’s giving her, frowning in annoyance but a tinge of concerned in his eyes.
Once night came, her classmates decided to go to their rooms to sleep while she decided to stay, bidding them good night.
It wasn’t long before she became absent-minded again, not caring anymore what’s been playing on the television in front of her.
She can’t help but think of what has been happening lately. Although, she’s flattered on being like by other students, the thought of how they started treating her so differently somehow made her insecure for some reason.
It also didn’t help that she have accidentally witness how Bakugou got a confession from a really beautiful girl.
Sure, she has teased him after about it but something started bugging her from the back of her mind.
Remembering such a beautiful girl with unblemished white skin, plump natural red lips, long eyelashes and a beautiful figure for a woman, she immediately felt sick to her stomach, her hands quickly coming up and grabbing a fistful of her short hair, the other covering her mouth.
She didn’t like it at all.
It made her think of how unfeminine she is even though she likes being how she is, being comfortable and friends with her male classmates, no barrier separating them with gender and feeling like their equal but ever since her hair was cut, she felt that she’s being treated differently almost like a boy.
It didn’t help that whenever she’s beside her explosive friend, she hated feeling how short her hair and how it started making her uncomfortable and insecure.
The change makes her dizzy and it’s starting to get overwhelming. It came to the point that it’s also becoming frustrating for her.
Immerse in her own thought, she didn’t notice someone approaching her not before they grab her by the collar of her shirt, forcing her to look up and coming to face two angry vermillion color eyes.
“Didn’t I told you not to let your guard down. I’ve been calling you multiple times already you little shit.”
He didn’t yell, only muttered but the threat behind it was serious.
Blinking, an apology left her mouth in reply, not knowing what to do when the person she’s thinking of suddenly is in front of her.
Letting go of her shirt, her friend grudgingly sat down beside her, crossing his arms, leaning on the sofa before giving her a pointed look, as if urging her to speak but she didn’t know what to say, her mind a mess.
“Again, you’re having a weird expression when you already have such a shitty face.”
“...weird face?”
Did she? Crap.
An uncertain laugh escapes her lips before she clasps her hands together, quickly bending down so as to hide her eyes from Bakugou.
“I’m sure I have always looked like this, Bakugou”
Wincing, what a poor attempt to hide everything from her perceptive friend.
“No it isn’t, just fucking spit it out.”
“...like I said, everything fi-“
“Fuck it is! If you don’t, I’m going to split that mouth of yours. Just having to see that mug face of yours again, I swear I’ll- Tch”
As if catching himself, her friend angrily clicks his tongue.
“...”
“...”
“...Say, Bakugou... Are you worried about me?” She teased.
“Hah!? The hell I am!?”
Watching her friend’s face turn to his usual comical outrage look, she couldn’t help but laugh quietly then covering her mouth as her friend look at her, annoyed but that didn’t stop the smile that stayed on her lips.
Having her feelings lifted a little, she finally decided to tell Bakugou, her worries and confusion at her current state.
How she likes being comfortable being who she is with their friends even though she act boyish at times but that just who she is. Someone who wants to enjoy and had fun with her friends while trying to be the hero she aspire to be however because of what’s happening lately, how she’s being treated as a boy she felt she have to give something.
Words after words coming out of her mouth while Bakugou looked at her at the corner of his eyes, listening intently.
It’s slowly sinking in that she doesn’t know anymore what to do at all.
“Who the hell said you have to give them the expectations they want from you.”
Her eyes widen before turning her head at her friend.
Bakugou look straight at her, continuing, “You are who you are, that’s all that matter. Just fuck those things and do everything at your own pace; you don’t have to force anything. To me, there is no difference from how you were before and what you are now.”
Slowly, the burden she have unknowingly put herself these past few weeks , lifted itself from her shoulders just by hearing his words.
Quickly turning her head away, she felt her eyes moisten uncontrollably but this time a sincere and carefree smile made its way on her lips, her chest bursting with relief, happiness, and unknown warmth and flattering feelings that made her fingers and ears tingle.
“Thank you Bakugou, really.”
She heard him scoff before telling to stop thinking such stupid things again.
Such rude remarks nonetheless the warmth in her chest spread even more in her and she can’t deny, she like the feeling.
Looking at her friend, she admitted,
“Whenever I walk with you these past few weeks, I can’t help but start feeling insecure on how unfeminine I have become.”
Bakugou look at her with surprise, a flash of concern appearing on his eyes but his female classmate continued,
“But hearing your words made me realise that no matter what, I really do like walking right beside you. Now that I think about it, whether if I look like a guy or not, I don’t really care anymore because not being able to walk beside you, I would hate that even more than anything.”
She confesses with a smile, before halting, the sight before of her made her heart beat faster.
Beside her, Bakugou, who was looking at her, is wide eyed, his face completely red even his ears before one of his hands instantly covered his face and averting his eyes as if he wanted to hide such a shameful expression however to her she can’t help but find it beautiful.
Just as she opened her mouth, Bakugou quickly stood up before storming off to the elevator.
“Bakugo-“
“Shut it, shit head!”
Quickly standing up and chasing after him, she saw him quicken his pace at the same time, punching the elevator button and stepping in once it opened.
But before he could close the elevator doors, she immediately ran the distance and entered, grabbing his hand despite his protest.
Seeing his flustered state, his cheeks red, eyes moist and trembling, something in her snap and made her realise something that she have been denying until now.
Grabbing the back of his head, she pinned him on the wall with such force before he could push her away and without a word, she connected their lips and kissed him with everything she have buried for so long.
‘Ah, I’m a fool. I have been in love with him all along.’
Thank you for reading. Sorry for the wrong grammars and the ones that I have miss.
Man, at first I didn’t know where this was going but as I finish this chapter, I can’t help but feel satisfied but at the same time, this really made me think too hard for these past few weeks and now my brain is fried.
But I hope you have enjoyed it!! See you again in my next post.
I might do some extra cute chaps for this.
Please do leave some review as I want to know your opinion.
THANK YOU!!
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fymoonbyul · 3 years ago
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[ARTICLE] MAMAMOO Moonbyul worries about the lifespan of a girl group..."I almost cried by Taeyeon-sunbaenim's DM" [Interview 2]
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"It tried to do challenge various genres for this album." I wanted to do band music & new jack swing music so I included them in the album. I think my homework is to show you a new side of me through my next album. I don't want to decide what genre I want to do in the future. My goal is to return to as Moonbyul's own genre and to make such kind of music." 
Moonbyul said, "I was a little surprised that we were making a comeback at the same time. Since we are a family, we cheer for each other. We haven't been able to contact each other because we're too busy these days, but I think I want to focus on in this now because it's a project that I've prepared for a long time and I'm happy to release one by one." 
How did MAMAMOO members (Solar, Hwasa, Wheein) react to the new song? Moonbyul said, "I haven't met the members yet. I played the title song to Solar-unnie when our schedules overlapped recently, and I got the best compliments. I was very proud to hear "This song is you," "It's a genre that expresses you," and "Those clothes that fit you perfectly." I was very proud to hear those. I think it is the most rewarding time to hear the members compliments rather than any other compliments." 
Regarding the title song "LUNATIC," she said, "It is a song that is witty and also has rap parts. The vocal range suits me well as it is not that high. I have a playful personality, but the choreography for the new song came out really fun. Solar praised her saying, "If the song you released last time was conceptual and heavy, I think you found yours this time." Since its debut, Mamamoo has been loved by K-pop fans for breaking away from the typical style and showing their free and outspoken charm. Moonbyul said, "MAMAMOO is very free." I think that freedom is also due to the nature of the company. Since we were trainees, we were asked to evaluate and solve, that's why we got used to creating our own color. I was able to fulfill various dreams so it was good"
Mamamoo proved their strong friendship as a team. Moonbyul, Solar and Hwasa renewed their contracts with RBW last year. For Wheein, she moved to TheLlve led by singer Ravi, but planned to continue with group activities by extending her activities with the group, including MAMAMOO albums and participating in activities and concerts until December 2023. 
Moonbyul said, "The members talked a lot about renewing the contract. Only the four of us talked about it. We are people who respect each other's lives and have been together for over 10 years so we decided to respect each other's opinions. As a result, I thought that I want to continue as MAMAMOO & MAMAMOO remains the same as a group with 4 members & there were no changes, so I think we were able to surpass the 7th year of because we had the same idea of continuing with the group. 
"MAMAMOO is the team which is like my youth." It is the name that also gives me a pressure because I spent my youth as splendidly as MAMAMOO. Whatever I do, it will definitely be a story as MAMAMOO's Moonbyul, and if I make a mistake, it could harm my members. As Moonbyul of MAMAMOO, I feel a lot of responsibility and thanks about a lot with words and actions" 
When asked how it feels to be respected by seniors and juniors, Moonbyul said, "First of all, thank you so much. None of them comes directly to us. They always ask me if someone approaches us, but I didn't know what to say because there were no people who approached us and expressed themselves. Later on, I found out through the article. that lots seemed to recognize me as a singer that's why I feel proud. I have a greater desire to show a good side of myself in the future"
Mamamoo has entered their 9th year since their debut. When asked what the past nine years were like and how different they were, Moonbyul said, "I thought I would get married at the age of 27. I thought that I might have married and have children. After debuting, I couldn't picture out what I would do 10 years later. All I could see was MAMAMOO. I couldn't see the end of MAMAMOO, and I was looking forward to what I would do as MAMAMOO. 
Since i am in 30's, I had a concerns that 'everything has an end.' Now "the end is what we decide and not whoever decides it, if we finish it, it will end or it won't. I can still continue." I might be married 10 years from now. Right now there are many things I want to do and many things to show you. I don't know if I'll be working hard even after that. I hope there will be the time when I can live comfortably in a house with a yard where dogs can run around and focus on myself without paying attention to others." 
It was really hard in the year when I went from 29 to 30. As a girl group and as a singer, I was worried about how long my activities would last. "It was a time when I really had a lot of thoughts about what to do if I didn't do this job, whether I should do business, or get a job," she confessed. 
"After turning 30, I became so bold that I wondered why I had to worry about it. For me, 30 was a year when I was able to take on a bold challenge. It changed so simply. My mind became more comfortable and my mentality improved. The reason I like it is because of "Moon Night." I wondered why I only thought negatively. While meeting the guests, I learned a lot. I'm the person who moves when there is an interest, and quits when it is not fun, but with "Moon Night" it was a platform that suits me very well. It was fresh and fun because the guests were different every time and the conversations we had were different. There were no stress and I had fun."
Moonbyul appeared with Hwasa on tvN's Amazing Saturday, which aired on November 27 last year, expressing her respect for Taeyeon. "During my pre-debut, I liked Taeyeon-sunbaenim so much that I set her photo as my phone wallpaper." During the broadcast, Taeyeon comforted her by saying, "Byul, you worked hard," and Moonbyul shed tears, saying, "I think I'm overwhelmed." "I actually wondered why I cried at that time, too. The tears just started flowing without me knowing. There was literally something touching. I've never felt that way in my life. When she said "Byul," I thought, "I really lived well," and "I've really come this far well." With those word, I felt emotional because I felt comforted by the things I am worried about, and I think that's reason why I cried." 
"After that, I tired to contact her through the manager because I was worried that she was flustered and embarrassed that time. I carefully messaged her "Sunbaenim, you must have been really flustered, but thank you for accepting it well. I want to call you unnie when we see each other again" and I almost cried again when she contacted me via DM." 
"Taeyeon-sunbaenim thanked me for the long letter, she mentioned that she's cheering on for me and that we should meet each other comfortably next time so I pressed 'like' on lots of her Instagram picture and expressed myself with it. We haven't met since then but I don't want to rush and I want to approach her slowly. I want to show her that I'm alive and that I'm cheering on for her. I hope we can see each other slowly until the end." 
"I participated as a singer after receiving an offer (for SGF's Bada Boom). When I heard that I was gonna sing a song for my favorite team, I agreed right away. I thought a lot during our recording process. This is because they are good dancers, and it varies a lot depending on the vocals. When Turns won and I had this conversation with Solar. "I'm grateful that I received good energy from them this year."
"I was also enjoying the program "Kick A Goal" as a viewer. It was so cool. They were excellent in their respective fields, but it was so cool to see them show their energy through exercises, and then I got an offer to appear in the show. I've been thinking about creating a club and playing soccer for a long time."
" I thought that you can't really feel the charm of soccer unless you have experienced it in life. Its such an attractive sport that you'll want to do everything if you really try it. It was physically hard to prepare for both soccer matches and my album. I felt like I was going to die. To the point where I wonder if I can do this. The reason why I was able to continue soccer other than my main job was that my mind became healthy while playing soccer. It was such a healthy time that I couldn't give up, so I did everything greedily."
Starting with the release of her solo album this year Moonbyul plans to continue various activities and communicate with fans. Moonbyul mentioned about her New Years plan, The plan has not been decided yet, but I think it will be a year where I can show you various things starting with my solo album and also the time when I want to challenge many things with the members as well as myself. It can be a radio or a concert and we are communicating a lot to make this a year where we can try many things" 
As a person Moonbyul, my personal goal is to be a good person. Its really simple but there's a reason behind it. I think being a good person is the hardest. It's about whether it's made up of pretense or really honest, but I want to show you my honest self. My goal as a human Moonbyul is to become a good person from the inside. I want to become a person where I can hear people say, 'I think that friend is a very nice person' and 'I've had conversations with her and she seems to be a very comfortable person."
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Drowcember prt 2
Ok a continuation of the drowcember that expands the world building of my drow-like society of music box, the Dark fauth of O’sten  
these ideas are work in progress and so are these pictures but I wanted to share them before December was over. 
So prompt  5 family, a lot of different ways that these people think of family the most interesting is that of the cavern bats, where they do not do nuclear families as much and instead there is a tradition of mutual adoption among people. These adopted families tend to all live together in a home called Otoram. Which has a central atrium all connected to a bunch of rooms. in the duel millipede city and the black shawl spider city families are divided however they need to be, most often by multigenerational or nuclear families, cousins and relatives tend to live in the same neighborhoods or in apartment style buildings. often people will move into the mother’s neighborhood, or will spend some of the time in the fathers childhood neighborhood and the other in the mothers. other times families will strike out on their own to settle themselves in a different neighborhood all together or create a new one on the cities boarders. this being said there are also plenty of less conventional families as well, single parents are not uncommon (in part because of death or divorce but just as likely that the parent wanting a kid might go and have an arrangement with someone for a while and then sett out for themselves after.) neighborhoods made up of friends who formed a family are not a strange practice either. notably the surface dwellers of the continent do find these practices strange and in their lack of understanding tend to call them some rather choose words. (for example, it is thought that dark fauth keep harems, and rumors of the dark fauth being inbreed)
Prompt 6, festivals and celebrations, for some reason I only came up with festivals for the black chowl cavern city... I may need to fix that at some point but for now they have two! they have the festival of the pillars. a celebration that takes place once a year and celebrates all the achievement the city and individuals of the city have accomplished that year. it is a celebration of goals and survival. for the celebration a large wooden pillar is carved and decorated with all the noteworthy events of the year, including the death and birth of people of the city. the pillar is then lifted up and carried upright to its resting pace in the pillar gardens where pillars from the previous years are placed to rot and decay (as they are made of a single tree trunk) it us carried in a lavish parade and it is a game to keep the pillar upright with ropes as it is carried along. it is considered bad luck if the pillar falls on its way to the garden. the day is also a day of feasting, music, dancing, fun costumes, games, lotteries and trading of wares. its not unusual for outsiders of the city to be allowed in for these celebrations, and even surface dwellers have partaken in the celebrations before.  The Chowl ceremony is a much more private and interment event, that is a coming of age ceremony. the children who are roughly of 12-15 years of age (or for raquesasha the equivalent is ~27-32) to go to the temples of the city to undergo a series of ceremonial trials, and decide on what path in life they want to take, before finally receiving their shawls and ribbons. these are the marker of the citizens of the city. some adults who move into the city from elsewhere will also undergo these rituals.  note: the shawls and ribbons is a declaration of what gender(s) a person wishes to present as, because all children wear unisex clothing. the shawls are considered more feminine and the ribbons masculine, but a child can choose to take both ribbons and shawls and there are certain types of ribbons and shawls that denote other gender roles for them. a person can also reject taking either, or go through a new set of rituals to change whether or not they have ribbons or shawls.    Prompt 14 caves and cites, back ground, so this is a bit of an off one. here we have a collection ton of rough outlines for what the cavern city of the bats might look like, what an otoram might look like from above. along with some street outlines of the three cites I am working on: above a picture of a stalagmite and stalactite cave. I may or may not be borrowing some ideas from the different cave biomes in Minecraft, because as cool as caves are, I do not know a lot about them. though interesting note about the city of the bats that I decided on while creating this, was that the city has a lot of bats. The bats are seen as the symbol of the city so it is disrespectful, and bad luck to harm a bat, but lots of bats sleeping in a grotto brings with it some issues. such as.. oh I don't know, guano. but this is not seen as a bad thing by the citizens. (well it is the reason a lot of them west large wide brim hats, and the smaller pointed caps, and wear respirator like devises and face coverings) no the guano is cleaned off and collected to be used in  a number of different things, such as fertilizer and as an ingredient in alchemy products. the other worry is decease, but the city has simply compensated for this with its excellent healthcare system and medical alchemy. there is also a general effort to place bat boxes away from the places that people frequent.   Prompt 4: intrigue/ thievery, I have got to admit I almost removed this one from the list. but I drew this guy.  imagine with me for a second: you are a person who lives in the city of esta, grand city of the keritok kingdom in o’sten. you need something stolen, or smuggled out of the city, perhaps a valuable and irreplaceable family heirloom or perhaps you got in a spot of trouble with the city officials and you ned to skip town, real quick and quiet. you get some contacts and they tell you they found you a guy, a guy who can get you exactly what you want. so with some trust in your confidant you steal away to one of the dusty and dilapidated inns of the city, a place where normally you would never find yourself caught dead. but your confidante assures you this is where you can meet the guy. so you step in on the creaking floorboards of the dock side inn, and enter a sidereal through one of the many sliding doors that separate spaces out to rooms. you continue through these rotting rooms until you are lead to where you need to go, and through a secret door you enter a small, smoke filled chamber, a sweet smell mixes with the salty rot of the docks, and there all draped out on a cushioned filled sofa is a Dark fauth smoking a long slender pipe. wearing that strange segmented clothing of the city of . the armored braces, and metal gorget to protect his neck. he blows more smoke forming strange shapes with them that you assume can only be done by the  creature’s vile magics. He finally acknowledges you entering the room. he leans forward. with all the draping shawl coming along with him. In a strange but familiar accent he asks “ So, you are here to do business with me?” anyways enough imagining for now. that's some intrigue, though I'm not one that great at intrigue plots.
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agentofmischief · 4 years ago
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Birthstone Legacy Challenge
Ok, I don’t post a lot on here, but I’m a huge fan of the sims. I’ve been playing it since gen 1 back in 2000. So, I’ve been having fun with challenges, especially the past couple years with 100 Baby, and I’ve found online. And after reading hearing and reading up on Lilsimsie’s Not So Berry Challenge, I had an idea of my own challenge. So, I thought I’d share if anyone else wanted to play along.
Disclaimer: These challenges mean nothing in regards to people born in that month. I simply took symbolism and cultural aspects of each stone to create a challenging and interesting playthroughs you might not think to do.
Lifespan requirements: Normal (not sure if it’s possible on Short, but if you want hard mode, do it).
The idea is to start with your month’s birthstone, then each generation is the next month’s stone for either 10 generations (traditional Legacy), or 12 if you wan to do the full year. You could also start on the month after your birth month with a full year play-through, so your birth month acts as a “finale”. Might be helpful if say your birth month is April, and you know your month’s stone is Diamond and to you it sounds like a finisher, or if your birth month is December, and you’d just prefer to start with January’s stone. It’s up to you.
These will just be listed month by month, so they are easy to find.
Like in the other color challenges, you want to model your sim with the stone’s colors in mind. You should also build their house with their stone’s color in mind.
1. January stone: GARNET
    Color: Dark Red
Garnets have a high refractive index, which causes them to look as if they are emitting light. Due to this phenomenon, travelers during the crusades would carry them to ward off evil. The stone represents Faith, Love and Constance.
Traits: Good, Ambitious, Cheerful
Goals:
 - Complete the Soulmate aspiration
- Complete the Law career as a judge.
- Must maintain career until death (meaning no retirement, quitting, or being fired).
- Must have at least 2 kids after the soulmate aspiration is fulfilled.
- All children must be raised with all green character values and no lower than Bs in school.
2. February stone: AMETHYST
    Color: Purple
The word Amethyst comes from the Greek word, amethystos, meaning “not drunken.” This comes from a myth where Dionysus was so enraged, he vowed his wrath on the next human he saw, which was a young woman, Amethystos. To “save” this woman, Artemis turned her to stone (note to self, don’t ask Artemis to save you ever, because her track record sucks). Dionysus calmed at seeing the stone’s beauty, and poured his wine on it, giving the stone it’s purple color. In more recent centuries, amethysts have been associated with piety and rank in the Catholic Church, as bishops are given amethysts when they are appointed.
Traits: Genius, Bookworm, Snob (If you have Snowy escape, replace one of these with Proper).
Goals:
-Complete the Knowledge - Renaissance Sim aspiration.
-Complete the Education Career as a Professor.
-Can not go to bars or nightclubs
-Max out Logic, Writing, and a musical skill (Violin, Guitar, Piano, or Singing)
-Can never marry or enter into an official dating relationship; HOWEVER must have at least 1 kid at some point to continue the legacy. This can be through adoption, which is more likely if you want to play pure piety or you have an Ace sim in mind, and the adoptee must be a child or teen. The other option is through secret woohoos if you want to play the more historically accurate, seedy way. **If you are playing with Risky Woohoos, you can have max 2 kids living with you. All others children must be removed from the house and into a Townie’s home once they become toddlers.
3. March stone: AQUAMARINE
    Color: Light Blue
Due to aquamarine’s sea-like color, they’ve long been associated with traveling and the sea. Sailors used to put them under their pillows to calm themselves. They are said to inspire peace and ward off poisons.
Traits: Loves Outdoors, Glutton, Loner
Goals:
-Complete Angling Ace aspiration.
-Eat out of the trash 5 times without getting sick.
-Have an aquarium with 10 fish.
-Catch a vampire squid. ** Or if you have Island Living, you must become a mermaid.
-Must eat and learn to make Pufferfish Nigiri.
4. April stone: DIAMOND
   Color: White/Silver
Diamond is the hardest stone on Earth, and is often associated with wealth and treasures. The word diamond comes from the greek word adamas, meaning unconquerable. They are the most popular of the stones, and so recently have been “Lab Grown.”
Traits: Ambitious, Insider, Perfectionist
Goals:
-Complete the Scientist career.
-Complete Leader of the Pack aspiration.
-Find all the crystals.
-Must clone a diamond.
-Become best friends with Judith Ward and have a framed selfie with her in your house.
-Date/marry someone in the Style-influencer career.
5. May stone: EMERALD
    Color: Dark Green
Emeralds are an old stone, first mined in ancient Egypt. Cleopatra was known to wear them frequently. They are said to symbolize fertility, wisdom, and Spring. It’s also said to heal heartbreak.
Traits: Jealous, Romantic, Materialistic
Goals:
-Master Gardening skill.
-Date and 100% romance a politician, then break up with them.
-Have at least 3 kids from multiple partners (each must have reached 100% romance first).
-Breed a frog worth over $100
-Must complete Fabulously Wealthy aspiration
-Does not marry, UNLESS you have Strangerville, and can marry an Officer in the Military Branch. However, when they die, so does your sim.
6. June stone: PEARL
    Color: White/Cream
Pearls are created by oysters and are considered the “perfect” gem, as it needs no man-mad alterations. Pearls are often attributed to wisdom through experience, as well as innocence and fertility.
Traits: Childish, Perfectionist, Family-oriented
Goals:
-Must have 5 kids before becoming an adult.
-Must complete the Curator aspiration.
-Must master 10 skills. ** If you are using Tiny House perks, 15 skills.
7. July stone: RUBY
    Color: Bright Red
Rubies are well known for their blood-red color, earning their association with health and vitality. They are also symbols of love, passion, and prosperity.
Traits: Self-Assured, Romantic, Self-Absorbed
Goals:
-Complete Serial Romantic aspiration.
-Master Cooking, Athletic, and Charisma skills.
-Complete Doctor Career.
-Must Woohoo at least once in each: Closet, Jacuzzi, Observatory, Bush, Spaceship, Lighthouse, Pile of leaves, Shower, Coffin.
8. August stone: PERIDOT
   Color: Light Green
Peridot is the stone of compassion, bringing health and peace to emotions and the mind. It inspires eloquence, creativity, and good cheer.
Traits: Creative, Vegetarian, Goofball
Goals:
-Complete the Painter Career.
-Master Painting, Photography, and Handiness skills.
-Paint 5 Masterpieces.
-Craft a bathtub of excellent quality.
-Complete Painter Extraordinaire aspiration.
9. September stone: SAPPHIRE
    Color: Royal Blue
With the most famous sapphires being Princess Diana’s iconic engagement ring and The Heart of the Ocean in Titanic, it’s now wonder Sapphires hue long been associated with nobility and power. The stone symbolizes strength, loyalty, and focus through self-discipline.
Traits: Materialistic, Genius, Insider ** If you have snowy escape, Proper takes place for Materialistic.
Goals:
-Complete the Law Career as a Private Attorney.
-Complete the Mansion Baron aspiration.
-Must start a club with Wealthy requirement ($30,000+). *If you start a fraternity/sorority in University, it counts if wealthy is listed as a requirement.
-Max out Charisma, Logic, and Writing skills.
-Must marry another club leader.
-Must get Gold in Wedding Social Event, and pay full $1750. Minimum of 10 guests.
-Must have a son. (He does not HAVE to be the continuation of the Legacy, but he can if you want. Also, if you have a born daughter, but decide to transition her, that does not count. Since it’s a click of a button without game mechanic influence, it’s kind of cheating. HOWEVER, if you decide your born son should transition, it still counts. This is mostly to take the steps during pregnancy to make a boy (since we’ve all watched others influence for a girl 1000x), That or to keep going until “the odds are in your favor.”)
10. October stone: PINK TOURMALINE
      Color: Pink
Pink Tourmaline, also known as October rose, represents humanity, sympathy to others, and humanitarian work. It’s believed to carry the virtue of love that is unconditional, offering comfort to children and lasting friendships.
Traits: Unflirty, Gloomy, Outgoing
Goals:
-Complete the Politician career as a Charity Organizer.
-Complete Friend to the World aspiration.
-Adopt 2 kids (Do not have to be legacy continuation).
-Max out friendship/be best friends with 4 sims before becoming an Adult. The friendship must be maintained throughout life.
-Have a rose garden.
-Write 5 Children’s books.
-Volunteer with family 5 times.
*If you get the pop-up asking to donate to charity, you must if you have the money.
11. November stone: CITRINE
     Color: Dark Yellow (almost Gold)
Citrine’s yellow stone radiates happiness, creativity, and wealth. Named for it’s citrus like color, it’s no wonder it’s the stone for a month known for it’s food. Citrine is known also as the Merchant’s stone for it’s golden color.
Traits: Cheerful, Foodie, Creative
Goals:
-Complete Culinary Career.
-Complete Culinary aspiration.
-Master Cooking and baking skills.
-Own a fruit and vegetable garden with every possible fruit and veggie in your game.
-Own a Bakery or Restaurant.
-Cook an Excellent quality Grand Meal.
-Learn 10 Food Stall recipes.
12. December stone: Turquoise
     Color: Blue/Green (Teal)
Turquoise is an odd one. In European cultures, it’s the stone of friendship and attracts money and luck, but is also frequently used in Evil Eye talismans. Historically, Montezuma II gifted these gems to Cortez, the Spanish Conquistador. The Apache used turquoise as well, as a charm on their bows for better aim.
Traits: Evil, Outgoing, Kleptomaniac
Goals:
-Max out Mischief and Charisma skills.
-Complete the Criminal Career.
-Complete Public Enemy aspiration.
-Start a Kleptomaniac club.
-Steal an object worth $10,000
-Marry someone with the Good trait, and cheat on them 5 times.
Happy simming!
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kaerran · 2 years ago
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#30 Sojurn
[lol the first thing i thought of was the rover :V it's mostly unrelated smh. again, another somewhat continuation of 29 but without a transition]
G'raha drums his fingers on the maps. "We should determine what our goals are," he finally says.
"What, we can't just say 'fix everything'," Alisaie says sarcastically.
"What that 'everything' is varies quite a lot," Alphinaud says. "What events do we know of?"
G'raha frowns. "I did not search back this far in my studies," he says, "but we all know about several things relatively close to this date." He starts counting on his fingers. "The exodus, the Battle of Silvertear Skies, the Bozja incident..."
"Why are you worrying about the exodus?" Y'shtola asks, frowning.
G'raha actually lowers his hand and answers, "I only mentioned it as a reference guide. It is something we all know the timing of."
"Bozja," Qahs's says.
The other three look at him.
"Are you... going to try to prevent it?" Alphinaud says carefully.
"Won't that ruin Cid's defection?" Alisaie asks.
Qahs'a cringes, and see-saws his hand. "He and another scientist both left immediately before, so if I time it right, it should be possible. We'll need a porxie though."
"I've still got Angelo, but why?"
Qahs'a shrugs one shoulder yet again. "Well, I was thinking that the easiest way to ensure Garlemald doesn't repeat it until Nael shows up is to explode the labs and steal Midas to bring back."
"...that's certainly ambitious of you," Alphinaud manages.
"How are you planning on getting there?" G'raha says with a frown.
"Head to Tamamizu or Yedlihmad, look for a boat going the right direction, swim the rest of the way. I've been there before, you know."
"Your plan is terrible," Thancred says flatly.
"At least there is a plan," G'raha mutters. "Fine. Don't get caught, we have no way to rescue you."
Qahs'a nods and stands while the other three fold up the maps.
"We'll be in Dravania, probably," Alisaie tells Qahs'a.
"I... may follow you all to Sharlayan." Alphinaud says to the Circle of Knowing Archons. "Getting into the city might be a little... complicated, but undoubtedly Grandfather will want to see direct evidence of the outlandish time travel tale."
"And you can do research," Alisaie says.
"...well, yes," Alphinaud admits.
Papalymo just looks to have a migraine imagining the mess that bringing Alphinaud with them will create.
[ok so i've meddled with the timeline a little bit. encyclopedia eorzea lists events in this order (and is at least partially grouped by associated city): battle for silvertear skies, the sharlayan exodus happens, louisoix forms the circle of knowing and the archons travel to eorzea, bunch of primals are summoned, garlemald starts to build baelsar's wall because of the primals, bozja explodes, ferndale is destroyed, THEN the goobbue. and then it's 1563. none of these things have exact dates, and if we take the order to be in order of occurrence, then the twins were born in like november are like two months old when the exodus happens since they're the last thing listed in 1561. instead i am assuming that the goobbue thing didn't happen in like DECEMBER and after absolutely everything else that year because time travel is so much more fun when you can meddle more. so i've moved the goobbue to after the exodus and before just about everything else. i'll decide about silvertear later on that note: since the battle of silvertear skies JUST happened i uh need to edit the previous one. maybe. there's only so much extra that qahs'a can provide to allow middy to pretend to be somewhat awake. either that or qahs'a's about to take on an entire airship on his own lol :V]
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From the booklet which comes with the Spider-Man Trilogy Limited Edition Collection blu-ray!
This talks about the making of Spider-Man 3, here’s the bit about the first Spider-Man movie and here’s the bit about Spider-Man 2.
Click for a transcript:
OLD FRIENDS… AND NEW FACES
“The heart of the Spider-Man films has always been the depth of the characters and their interconnected lives. Peter’s love of Mary Jane Watson and his friendship with Harry Osborn have always been the richest parts of our stories,” said director Sam Raimi.
In Spider-Man 3, Peter Parker faces his biggest challenge to date – and the greatest battle of all is the battle within himself.
“We wanted to explore the darker side of Peter’s character,” said producer Laura Ziskin. “When his suit turns black, it enhances and emphasizes characteristics that are already in the host. In this case, it makes him stronger and quicker, but also more prideful and aggressive.”
“When I read the script I was really excited about the different direction we were going with Peter Parker and the other characters and storylines,” said Tobey Maguire, who returned to the role of Peter Parker. “We are covering a lot of new ground here, with a fresh take on the story while maintaining the continuity of the characters from the previous two films.”
In Spider-Man 3, Spider-Man takes on two classic villains: Sandman, who first made his appearance in the fourth issue of “The Amazing Spider-Man” and Venom, one of the comic book’s most memorable villains.
“Marvel comic books – and especially the Spider-Man books – have always had a great bunch of villains to choose from,” noted Raimi. “So many great Marvel artists and writers developed these characters. It was a very easy task to pick up these wonderful tales and images and develop our story from them.”
Thomas Haden Church played Flint Marko, a man haunted by the mistakes of his past, who is caught in a physics experiment gone wrong. “I consider it an honor, really,” said Church, an Academy Award nominee for his role in Sideway, on joining the franchise. “The Spider-Man films stand tall in the pantheon of superhero movies. Many are called, few are chosen, and I’m proud to be one of the few.”
“Flint Marko becomes Sandman when he stumbles into a radioactive test site where they’re performing a molecular fusion experiment and he accidentally becomes fused with sand,” Church added. “As a result, he can change his shape and adapt to his environment. He can be 10, 30, 80 feet tall. He can form giant sand fists, hammers, a mace. He can shift into a sand tornado, or sift into sand. He is as malevolent and menacing as any villain can be.”
Church spent over a year preparing for the role, with a physical training and diet regimen which led to his gaining about 20 pounds of muscle before shooting began. “In the comic book, Sandman was a bulky-muscled guy – he looked like a guy out of the WWF,” said the actor, “For the movie, we decided on a leaner look – street hardened, like Terry Malloy in On the Waterfront.”
Topher Grace joined the cast as Eddie Brock, a character in some ways similar to Peter Parker, who transforms into Venom – Spider-Man’s arch-nemesis. “When I was first talking about the movie, Sam asked me if I knew what ‘arch-nemesis’ meant. I thought it meant a huge villain, but Sam pointed out that it really means a villain who has the same powers and abilities as the hero, but uses them for evil,” said Grace. “Sam has gone to great lengths to make this character Spider-Man’s equal and opposite. You might say that Eddie is the guy that Peter would have been if he didn’t have the good fortune of having Aunt May and Uncle Ben to bring him up.”
Grace, a self-described “skinny guy,” put on about 15 to 20 pounds for the role, working out during the several months before shooting began. During pre-production, Grace was subjected to body scans and motion capture data analysis for use by the costume and visual effects departments.
“They were doing a scan of my body, and someone mentioned that the scan would be really helpful for making my action figure. My action figure!” recalled Grace. “It hadn’t even occurred to me that I would become an action figure! It was very exciting.”
“The Spider-Man books have probably the greatest rogues’ gallery of any superhero comic – there are so many memorable villains throughout the books,” said executive producer and Marvel’s president of production Kevin Feige. “With the villains in Spider-Man 3, we wanted to continue the tradition – following the Green Goblin and Doc Ock – of presenting villains that not only provide spectacle and a physical challenge to Spider-Man’s abilities, but characters that are multi-layered and conflicted.”
“At the beginning of Spider-Man 3, we find Peter Parker pretty much where we left him at the end of the second Spider-Man story,” said director Sam Raimi. “He is coming to terms with what it means to be a hero and the sacrifices he has to make to do the right thing. Peter has never had anyone look up to him as someone they admire. Certainly, he’s never had anyone cheer for him before. This has an unexpected effect on Peter: it stirs up his prideful self. This is the beginning of a movement toward his dark side in this film.”
That dark side is brought to the forefront when he comes into contact with a black substance that attaches itself to Peter’s Spider-Man suit. When the substance turns his suit black, he finds he has greater strength and agility than ever before… but also the substance brings out his pride and his vengefulness. “In the climax, Peter has to put aside his prideful self. He must put aside his desire for vengeance,” Raimi continues. “He has to learn that we are all sinners and that none of us can hold ourselves above another. In this story, he has to learn forgiveness.”
Another fan favorite, Gwen Stacy, made her film debut in Spider-Man 3. Well known to fans of the comic books, Gwen made her first appearance in December 1965 “The Amazing Spider-Man #31” and quickly became Peter Parker’s first love. Bryce Dallas Howard took on the role. Despite the differences between the comic book and screen versions of her character, Howard was able to use the comic book as inspiration in bringing Gwen Stacy to life. “There was a very deep relationship built into the comic books – that became my foundation,” said the actress. “This a person who, had things been different, could have been a good mate for him. Because her father is a police captain, she’s accustomed to someone leaving and putting his life in jeopardy every day and loving him unconditionally. I was able to build on that, to play the character that was written in the comic book.”
“It’s wonderful to bring new actors into the series because, although you have an existing set of rules and storylines you want to adhere to, at the same time you need to shake it up, bringing new voices and energies to the film that we haven’t experiences before, “noted Raimi. “It gives the audience a new experience, with the characters they love, but with a new energy dynamic, with those new faces on screen with them.”
“In terms of logistics and scope, Spider-Man 3 is by far the largest of the three films,” said Ziskin. “Sam has really upped the ante for this film, in terms of action sequences and visual effects involving Sandman and Venom, so it is a gigantic endeavor, with over 1,000 people working towards that goal.”
During production, Raimi relied on key members of his filmmaking team to bring to life before the cameras as much of Peter Parker’s story as possible. “Whenever it’s safe and practical, I like to capture the action in camera,” said Raimi. “Visual effects are an amazing tool for action that human beings can’t do – but if a human being can do it, let’s do it.”
The talented team of stuntmen was ready, but so was the cast. Bryce Dallas Howard, especially, surprised the filmmakers by being game for anything they could throw at her. At one point, the actress found herself hanging from a harness.
After performing several portions of the sequence on soundstages in Los Angeles, Howard was eager to get in the harness again to fly with Spider-Man over Sixth Avenue. “What’s so great about movies is you get to really experience these crazy, crazy stunts, things that you would never emerge from alive in real life,” says Howard. “I knew I would be 100% safe because Sam and the stunt team really protect the actors. So I tried to do as many things as possible, because it’s really fun and a great adrenaline rush!”
Thomas Haden Church was also up to the challenge – in fact, even more so. Whether it was being yanked five feet in the air so he could do a face-plant in the mud, or being chased (and caught) by dogs, or dangling off the side of a set, or falling onto train tracks, or having his face smashed into a pane of Plexiglas, the actor found himself bruised and battered repeatedly, but was ready for anything. According to producer Grant Curtis, “It wasn’t intentional, but it seemed sometimes like if any actor was required to get beat up in any way, Thomas was always drawing that short straw.”
Two members of the production team that played key roles in ensuring that these action sequences were both as safe and as spectacular as possible were special effects supervisor John R. Frazier (who previously served in the same capacity on the first two Spider-Man films) and second unit director Dan Bradley (a veteran of Spider-Man 2). “Working with Sam is like going back to school,” said Frazier. “You have that moment where you say, ‘Oh, this is going to be really, really hard, but a lot of fun.’ It’s  not unusual for me to be on a movie like Spider-Man 3 for nine months, from the beginning planning stages through production.”
One scene that highlights their work is the Subway Drain portion of an elaborate fight sequence between Spider-Man and Sandman. Raimi worked closely with Frazier, Bradley and visual effects supervisor Scott Stokdyk on the sequence, in which Sandman is blasted by the force of a burst water pipe and, quite literally, goes down the drain. Sam wanted Sandman to melt away, in essence, during this sequence.
“This is the largest water gag for one shot I’ve ever done for a film,” recalled Frazier, who had previously supervised the special effects for Poseidon. “We used 50,000 gallons of water, shooting out of a pipe which blasted the rear of the set fifty feet away. When you see this sequence, the water appears to be a six-foot-thick column of water; however, we made the center of the pipe hollow, and used a restrictor plate to control the size of the column of water. The water is recirculated using pumps, which are able to pump 3,000 gallons a minute. We can fill both tanks in about five minutes, so that we are ready for another take.”
The sequence was covered using eight cameras, according to Stokdyk. “This sequence is where Spider-Man discovers Sandman’s weakness – water. We had to put a CG Sandman in here because the velocity of the water is too great to have Thomas Haden Church or a stuntman perform portions of the sequence. Water is a huge challenge for visual effects, especially on a large scale, so our goal here was to seamlessly integrate the elements for the sequence between practical and CG.”
Bradley and Frazier’s work is also on display in an action sequence during a bank heist, in which a security guard (played by none other than producer Grant Curtis) falls victim to Sandman’s wreath. “As a producer, Grant is uniquely qualified for guarding money,” laughed Bradley, “so Sam typecast him and invited him to spend a lot of time on set being buried underneath tons of sand as one of the armored car guards.”
Apprehensive as he might have been about performing the stunt, Curtis says that it would have been pointless to argue. “I’ve worked with Sam for ten years, so I know that once a decision’s been made, he’s going to get his way,” he said.
The sequence begins spectacularly, when Sandman smashes into the top of the armored call with his fist – which, in reality, Frazier’s team made of polyurethane foam. It was eight feet tall, six feet wide, and weighed over 500 pounds. Then, debris – sand – came flying at Curtis. “On the first take, I anticipated the crash and reacted too early,” he remembered. After an adjustment, he nailed the second take.
At the end of the sequence, the guard is buried in sand. To film the scene, the armored car was lifted and tilted at a 50-degree angle so that the sand could be dumped in and fill the car but with a fraction of the pressure on Curtis. The producer soon found himself beneath 4,000 pounds of ground corncob – the filmmakers’ ingenious substitute for sand.
The idea of using ground corncob as a double for sand did not come immediately to the filmmakers. The first man charged with investigating what kind of sand would make Sandman or solving any number of other costuming challenges, Acheson’s motto was: when in doubt, go back to the original text. “We derive our inspiration, as always, from the comic,” he said. “Sandman is one of those remarkable characters who can change shape, dissolve, disappear, grow, or become mud or concrete. We designed various stages and different scales of Sandman’s evolution, working with wonderful sculptors to create maquettes, small statues of Sandman in his various appearances.”
As much as Sandman required each of the departments to step up their game, so, too, did Venom – Spider-Man’s equal and opposite. Acheson and his team created various stages of Venom’s look, working with Raimi to create a tension in the sculpting of the suit. “It was important to Sam and to James that we keep the suit really sharp and aggressive, as with the tendrils that crawl across Venom’s face at points,” said head specialty costumer Shownee Smith, whose company Frontline Design worked under Acheson’s direction to manufacture the specialty costumes for the film.
For scenes where Brock transitions into Venom, Grace spent an hour being placed into the suit, which added between 120 and 140 pounds to his weight. The actor then spent an additional four and a half hours in makeup for the addition of appliances, including special sets of teeth worn by Grace to give the character the illusion of a larger, more menacing mouth. The filmmakers also attached monofilament to the skin on Grace’s face so that they could pull and distort the character as he makes his transformation.
“At one point while shooting the transition scenes, I thought, ‘What have I signed up for?!’” Grace laughed. “I had black goo poured all over me, wires attached to my face that people with fishing poles were pulling up, and other people below me were pulling down… When you see my character in pain, well, there wasn’t a whole lot of acting required.”
Also interacting with each of the departments was production designer J. Michael Riva, the member of the team responsible for bringing Raimi’s stylish vision to life. Riva was especially proud of his work in cresting the construction site that serves as the arena for the film’s final battle. “Making a construction site doesn’t sound very difficult, but if you have only eight weeks to design and build, it’s practically impossible,” he said. “We used over 20 tons of steel, 100 welders, and 200 carpenters working around the clock, seven days a week to get it done! But we all did it.”
The set took six weeks to complete, using tons of steel from a cancelled building project. A construction elevator, complete with operator, transported cast and crew to the various levels of the elaborate set. For the extensive lighting and electrical needs required for the sequence, a labyrinth of connections was designed and installed 80 feet above the stage floor, using over four miles of electrical cable. By the time the set was ready for shooting, Stage 27 was outfitted with approximately 21,000 amps, enough power to service over 200 homes.
“The great thing about a construction site is that it’s a very dangerous place. First, besides the implied height of the set, you have a lot of steel and rebar lying around at such a site. You can always rely on Sam to see opportunities and come up with an effective way to use these set elements to enhance the danger in a scene,” said Riva. “Second, it was an open structure, pretending to be 50 stories high, open on all sides. It offered Sam a jungle gym of possibilities to web up and down, to do a chase all over the face of the steel structure. The higher they go fighting their way up the building, the more the danger and tensions increase. It’s a long way to fall if you’re not Spider-Man!”
For visual effects supervisor Scott Stokdyk – the man charged with bringing the visual effects to the screen – those words were the beginning of a two-year process to develop the technology that would make Spider-Man 3 the most visually stunning film in the series so far. “When we began the pre-production process, the computer programs had not yet been developed which could achieve the look of Sandman and his capabilities that Sam wanted to see,” recalled producer Grant Curtis. “However, Scott Stokdyk and his team created new technology to manipulate every piece of sand on our character. The existing technology allowed management of thousands of particles at once – but to animate Sandman the way Sam wanted to, we would have to be able to render billions of particles. In the end, the new software they wrote required ten man-years to code.”
Stokdyk says that he and his team prepared for the challenge by first observing how sand moves in the real world. “One of the first things we did was to organize a sand shoot with Sam and Bill Pope, the difrector ofg photographer,” Stokdyk continued. “We shot footage of sand every way we would need it – thrown up, thrown against blue screen, over black screen. John Frazier, the special effects supervisor, shot it out of an aero can at a stuntman. Anything we could imagine sand doing in the film, we shot.”
“There’s a character the, emoting, but it’s just a pile of sand,” said Stotdyk. “If we’ve pulled together enough grains of sand to make feel something, then we’ve pulled it off.”
In the end, the artists were all extremely proud of their creation. “Sony Pictures Imageworks delivered on Spider-Man and Spider-Man 2, but for Spider-Man 3 it changed the industry standard,” said Curtis.
Sandman, of course, was not the only character that posed a considerable challenge for Spencer Cook; animating the black-suited Spider-Man required subtle changed to reflect the character’s more aggressive personality, “He’ll move a little quicker here and there, hunch his shoulders a little more, put his elbows up a little higher when he’s stuck to a wall. We tried to find poses that the classic Spider-Man would not do – where the red-suited Spider-Man was graceful and elegant in his motions, black-suited Spider-Man is more blunt, rough, and reckless.”
In creating Venom, Stokdyk notes that the character has at least three different stages. First, of course, is the initial transformation, in which Topher Grace’s skin is pulled away from his body and tendrils of goo cross his face until they completely envelop him. “As he gets angrier, he turns into more of a monster, more of a beast,” Stokdyk noted. First, he becomes a kind of double for Spider-Man, played by Grace. By the very end of the film, he becomes an entirely CG character – the classic Venom from the comic books, with a menacing, unhinged jaw and a full mouth of very sharp teeth. “Everything is alive on ‘comic-book Venom,’” Stokdyk continued. “The challenge was to make a character that was monsterous, very detailed, very kinetic – but not delicate. Despite all the detail, he’s still menacing.
Stokdyk was also determined to break new ground in terms of live-action integration with the visual effects. The supervisor was on hand during production so that he could be ready to take the ball as soon as the scenes were filmed. “It was important to Sam and me to incorporate as much live-action into the CG as possible,” he said. “The typical reason a shot is animated is because a person can’t do all of it. We wanted to find a way to have an actor or stunt person do part of the action, and synthesize the rest. The goal was to find a balance between keeping the shot real and making it exciting and cinematic.”
One dramatic example of this idea comes early in the film, as Peter Parker finds himself ambushed by the New Goblin – his friend, Harry Osborn. “It was Sam’s idea to show Peter fighting as Peter not as Spider-Man,” said producer Avi Arad. “It’s a terrific amount, because it brings home what a personal battle this is for Peter when you can see his face.”
Tobey Maguire and James Franco completed much of the aerial stunt sequence themselves, doing wire work suspended high above the stage floor. “Tobey is really handy with stunt situations, and he picks it up really quickly,” said stunt coordinator Scott Rogers. “James is also terrific – he’s got a great attitude. Both actors are used to the type of physicality required for their roles, and they excelled.”
For Stokdyk, achieving such great heights would not have been possible without the contribution from his team at Sony Pictures Imageworks, assembling, in the end, between 200 and 250 people to complete more than 900 effects shots. “You live and die by your team,” said Stokdyk. “They were always ready to respond, always on their toes. That’s bit of the process of working with Sam, you have to be flexible and ready to deliver.”
“When developing this third installment, we asked ourselves, ‘What does this young man still have to learn?’” said director Sam Raimi. “We placed him in situations where he’d be forced to confront his absences of character – obstacles that, in previous stories, he might not have been able to surmount. In this way, he would either be defeated or grow into the heroic person who might be capable of overcoming these obstacles. As the depth of our characters grow, they become richer human beings and can achieve more than in the previous films.”
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mmilkbreadd · 4 years ago
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Chapter twelve: “Hugs and More Friends”
Masterpost - Prev - Next
(These links might not work, so I recommend you looking in “Masterpost”, linked on my profile)
Warning(s): none.
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After Bokuto (and Akaashi) found out that you had arrived, you and Tsukasa decided to stay watching the game from where you were, instead of going to the stands where the whole audience sat. 
Ushijima and Tendou, on the other hand, decided to go find something to eat and then return. They said they weren't interested in watching the game, but actually, it hurt them to think that this might have been their place if they hadn't lost in the final. 
You positioned yourself next to the commentators and watched as number six from the opposing team served. Even though it had been a great serve, Fukurodani's defense was extraordinary and they were able to defend the ball like nothing. 
The toss came to Akaashi with great height and speed, and then it went straight to the ace, Bokuto, who hit the ball so hard it went between both blockers. A few seconds later, the referee blew the whistle indicating the point in favor of the Owls. 
It was the first time you had seen a Fukurodani match so close to the court. Well, it was actually only the third time you've seen one of them, so there wasn't much room to comment. But yes, from far or near you could tell that Bokuto Koutarou was an excellent player; even if his emotions were too strong when he played (and in real life mostly). Watching him move around the court, so sure of what he was doing (most of the time), with a smile on his face, was worthy of admiration. That made him completely different from you… And it also made him much better than you were.
Every expression that Bokuto made while playing was because he enjoyed Volleyball. He was good and he had fun; both things were impossible to have at the same time in your case. When you saw his type of game, you thought, am I really a good player? Am I supposed to enjoy it as much as he does?
Maybe being a good player meant living for and with Volleyball, enjoying every aspect of it. 
Bokuto had achieved his goal: he had managed to impress you. 
Noticing that you were wrapped in your thoughts, Emiko saw how your eyes sparkled when watching the game. She thought that enjoying Volleyball was not only playing it but also seeing it and feeling it as if you were there with the other players. She also thought that was what you were thinking at the time, so she let you continue to watch calmly as you were doing before. 
It is seen that each person has a different perspective of what it is to play and to be good at it. 
Then, coming to the end of the match, Tsukasa elbowed you on the arm to get your attention.
“Hey, it looks like you're lost somewhere,” she said with a smile. “Have you seen the game, at least?”
You nodded at the moment the referee blew the whistle indicating the end of the set, and therefore of the game. 
When both teams finished greeting the public, Bokuto came running to where you were, followed by Akaashi who shook his head when he saw that his friend was not going to stretch. 
The instant his feet landed in front of you, his arms wrapped around you and your body began to bounce in the air. Fukurodani's ace was jumping with you in his arms.
“Bokuto-san!” Akaashi and you yelled at the same time. Your cheeks were red as a tomato, and Emiko was laughing out loud about to fall to the floor. 
When he finally released you, Akaashi whispered “I'm sorry” over and over as he bowed several times. 
The first interaction with Bokuto Koutarou had not been satisfactory. It was too weird.  
“Y/n, it's good that you came!” he yelled. He couldn't control his tone because of his excitement to see you keeping the promise you made him. “And what did you think? I hope you are impressed now and that it was not “normal” like yesterday!”
Every word that came out of Bokuto's mouth was accompanied by a little jump. He was really ecstatic to see you... And that you could watch him play too. 
While you were trying to get the color out of your face, Emiko started talking to Akaashi about other things, ignoring their friends respectively.
“To be honest, it was an excellent set,” you said looking at him, who was smiling more and more. “... C-congratulations.”
Hearing your stutter, Tsukasa gave you a small smile. She knew you were nervous. Her plan was working out perfectly. 
“Phase one of the plan “Helping l/n y/n to get a boyfriend”, completed,” she thought as she continued talking to Akaashi. “Maybe I'll get one too… Who knows”
After several compliments from Bokuto, he asked you if you wanted to go to lunch with him, and discuss strategies for upcoming matches. Of course, your first thought was “I won't go”, but before you could respond, Emiko pushed you (literally) towards the exit. And although Koutarou offered Akaashi and Tsukasa to go too, your friend managed to elbow Keiji in the form of complicity so that he would say no, and achieve her purpose: that Bokuto and you go alone. 
“It will be you and me then,” he said heading for the exit. “Maybe it's for the best, I think that your friend likes Akaashi! And I also want you to tell me everything about yourself. Now that we are friends we have to know everything about each other!.”
Great, more people wanted to be friends with you.
You weren’t sure what to think of it. But maybe it wasn’t that bad.
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Bonus:
- Tsukasa Emiko is 6 feet tall.
- Her birthday is on Christmas Day (December 25th)
- Her favorite food is chocolate ice-cream.
- When she met MC she disliked her because she was jealous of how well she played.
- She finds Akaashi very, very, attractive.
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Thanks for the support!
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clayticklish · 4 years ago
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Update!
I feel like I haven’t wrote anything personal on here in awhile. Looking back on my blog I used to write posts about what’s going on in my life, gatherings or events I’ve attended, or just thoughts and opinions on things. This past few months have felt kind of cloudy, low energy, and I just haven’t been motivated to write. But it’s strange, because a lot of things have happened - some good and some bad - I just haven’t really acknowledged much of it on here.
December 2020 - I built a Discord server for people into M/M tickling in Ontario, with the goal of getting to know some more local kinksters, explore my bisexuality a bit more, and hopefully plan some meetups once COVID gets better! In general it’s going well, but unfortunately COVID has been getting worse in Ontario instead of better, so all the meetup plans have again been postponed.
January 2021 - I started playing around with OnlyFans and back filled my account with some of my older content! I didn’t advertise because I wanted to take my time with it and make sure it was something I wanted to do. It has since turned into a fun hobby, but I still consider it a work in progress. There is a lot to learn!
February 2021 - I honestly don’t remember anything that happened in February. What the heck?? Oh, I recorded some love song covers for Valentine’s Day! That was fun! But the videos have my face in them so they will stay off my kink social media 😂
March 2021 - Jess moved in with me!! Quarantine has been so much better now that I’m not living alone 😊
March 2021 (later) - So I may have mentioned this before on here, but I’ve been struggling/unhappy at my job for awhile now. Well it finally got to a breaking point and they decided to let me go after working there for 7 years. So that was a bit of a shock, but ultimately I think it will be a good thing. I’m taking a break for a few months while I figure out what to do next. I’m thinking career change to be honest, so I might be going back to school!
April 2021 - I’ve been working on finishing the (tickle) garage! The contractors did most of it, but I signed up to install the siding to give me something to do and to save some money on the labour expense. It’s almost done, and I’ll probably post a picture soon! Now we just need to get the building inspector in before I can start adding some kinky stuff to the inside 😏
April 2021 (later) - Ontario COVID cases continue to skyrocket and when they proposed new restrictions, Jess and I decided to get out while we could! We’d been planning to temporarily move to Nova Scotia in May but we decided to move up the timeline. So we are currently quarantining with her family for 2 weeks! Nova Scotia is beautiful, and I can’t wait to explore it more 😊. But in the meantime while stuck in quarantine I’ve been building out my OnlyFans and Pornhub! Editing videos is fun but super time consuming since I want to make sure my face is blurred. I’ll have to remember to wear a blindfold or mask in the future so I don’t have to fix it afterwards!
So there you have it! That’s what’s going on with me! Hopefully I can stay motivated to post updates more frequently, but I wouldn’t count on it 😅. Until next time!
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checkerflats · 4 years ago
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Haven't been on tumblr in a long time. Felt like this was a decent place to write since nobody I know really uses tumblr anymore. I wanted to talk about my journey over the last few years and tumblr feels private enough a place to do so.
I moved to Florida 3 years ago (well as of this upcoming March) and at first life was decent. I tried to acclimate myself, stay healthy, positive, supportive, etc. At some point during that first year, I became incredibly depressed, nervous, anxious, overwhelmed trying to support myself (I did have a good friend group to help me) but down the line I had convinced myself I had a plan and that it was 'my plan, I thought of it' so instead of talking to the people I cared about and loved, I continued to try to do things in my own way.
A belief is a thought you have that you like. My belief was that I was the only one who could tell me what to do. And I never told myself to shut up and listen to people; realize they're saying what they're saying because they care. I became toxically selfish. I started judging my friends and peers opinions, being an asshole, being inconsiderate to everyone around me, unwilling to talk about my issues (and if I did I sounded like a narcissistic twat), etc.
To make a long story short, I resulted to drinking to cope with my overwhelmed thoughts and feelings. This isnt an excuse. It's just what happened. It in no way makes my behavior acceptable. In fact, anyone who knows me and how I act when drinking changes my thinking patterns would attest that it's only ever made anything worse. Even days or weeks without doing so, it affects me on such a negative level that negativity is the only lense through which I view the world and its inhabitants. I become the definition of nihilistic.
This led me to losing my friends, my loved ones, my job, housing, and ultimately respect from others and respect for myself. It was devastating and I did it to myself. After July of 2019 I started to refrain from drinking and honestly believed I had become the best version of myself. I got a new apartment, job, new friends who have still supported me to this day, albeit, upon making these leisurely friends who wanted to be wild, I felt I should--I wanted to participate. It was fun for a minute, and I was sober for about a month or two..
I'd begun to drink with them every now and then, never alone or at home, never two days in a row. I thought I could be a casual drinker. However, these friends and I stopped drinking for the most part, and begun to do a lot of acid (one thing I wouldn't say is neccesarily bad or addictive, in moderation) and a LOT of xanax. I started to learn a whole new meaning of 'fucked up' and went downhill faster than Jack and Jill could even imagine, baby!
By December, a friend and I decided we'd start doing cocaine. Fuck it, right? That got bad quick. It only lasted about 2 months on and off until we realized how crazy it was and that we needed to actually save our money (and sanity) so we stopped. By this point (March/April of 2020) I'd stopped doing everything other than weed. That inevitably led me straight back to drinking. This time it was everyday again, alone, at home, you get the point. When coronavirus hit I lost my job, couldn't find another anywhere therefore couldnt afford rent, was constantly in scary situations for 2 months (drunk), and decided it was best to GTFO and high tail it back to Ohio by May of 2020.
This took me months to realize, but I had so subtly slipped back into mass depression. Being back in Ohio, around triggers and friends who'd grown apart from me, I felt helpless and alone. I began drinking all the time. When I'd wake up, all throughout my shifts at work, at 2 am once the beers I'd had after work were buzzing off.. I was having the worst thoughts and feelings possible that I won't elaborate on because, again, I don't want to sound like I'm making excuses or even manipulating the perception of whoever might read this. I did this to myself. My behavior was absolutley unacceptable. I'd been put on probation for drinking, I'd been arrested for it even once in my own bed sound asleep (lets not go into how corrupt the law enforcement is in Mansfield, OH). The point is I'd broken the law and, regardless of the circumstances, the law is the law and it comes with consequences.
By October of 2020 I'd agreed that the best case of action was to go to a treatment center for addiction. The center was more or less a joke at first until a counselor committed to actually helping us started working there in mid-November. All in all being sober long enough to get back to a focused, rational, kind state of mind has put me in a euphoric state of content more so than any materialistic or temporary feeling that a substance or whatever else could bring me. Real peace is better than fake, self-driven delusion. I got released from the center today (1/13/21).
What I'm trying to get across is that if it wasnt for those who care for me after all the shit I've put them through, if I hadn't accepted I had a problem and my plan wasnt working, I'd still be that other guy. If you give up your ideals and listen to a 'Higher Power', (a 'God', a group of people as in power in numbers, a spiritual intuition that things happen for a reason and you agree you alone can't solve issues the same way you've tried 1000 times over and failed) whatever your view on that is, if you are willing to change and accept support you will be able to find genuine serenity.
That other guy is still in there. I have to continue working my program daily and catch myself if I slip up, be prepared to tell others, make amends (unless that would make things worse) and by all means listen to their advice in order to turn 4 months of sobriety (even from weed, but this is mostly about drinking) into 4 years, and so on. If you read all this (well first off, thank you, like.. golly!) and you are someone who knows me, then I'm sure that's hard to believe because everyone who knows me has heard me say before that 'I am quitting alcohol!' when in all honestly all those same people probably knew damn well I was just trying to convince them rather than myself and even if I did want to stop, I still had a desire to do it. That's where I can finally cut ties and announce that I, personally to myself, no longer have the desire for alcohol. Today. Right now. One day at a time. I despise it. It took my ambitions and spat them in my face along with my kindness, positivity, all my goals and loved ones like they all meant nothing and I am sick and tired of enabling that feeling. The world we live in is full addiction. Eating, technology, fame, money, power, caffeine, nicotone, sugar, sex, drugs, rock and roll--you get it okay? None of those will bring anything of substantial value or genuine joy. Being selfish will bring nothing but suffering. Be kind and loving. Love is salvation.
Once more, if you read all this, you're a saint and I thank you and hope your life, if not already, becomes (and continues to be) positive, peaceful and great. Love yourself, the best and worst. Face fear head on and never give up. Always lend a hand to those who clearly need it and if they turn it away like I did so many times, all you can do is hope and pray they'll get to the point of acceptance someday. I am so grateful for the oppurtunity I had to turn my life around. I am thankful for every single person who's come and gone and the help they offered before and after I actually admitted it was neccessary. I'll try and be of service to others when and where I can. Stay safe, world.
-cone
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clownao · 5 years ago
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AU where Civil War is about Kayano
It never made sense to me why the class forgave Kayano so easily. It was as if she was forced to be evil for five minutes, not that she had voluntarily injected herself with the tentacles. Didn't the class feel betrayed that Kayano had basically blindsiding them? That they were interacting with a fake person the whole time?
It feels like they were invalidating Kayano's Akari identity and her entire revenge arc- it felt like it had no consequences. The class never treated it seriously. They saw her as sweet Kayano who had an angry episode, not as vengeful Akari who had acting for almost an entire year.
And this AU would make sense too- after Kayano's arc in December, the class would be divided on whether to trust her or not, resulting in the Civil War in Janurary. (In addition, it makes me ill to think some of them might actually want to kill their beloved mentor figure, so I think it would be nice to reimagine Civil War.)
Here are the “teams”:
Team Trust- let Kayano stay in 3-E
Members: Nagisa, Sugino, Kanzaki, Hara, Itona, Terasaka, Muramatsu, Takebayashi, Kataoka, Kurahashi, Yada, Okajima, Sugaya (13 members)
Team Distrust- kick Kayano out of 3-E
Members: Karma, Okuda, Nakamura, Mimura, Isogai, Chiba, Hayami, Kimura, Maehara, Okano, Yoshida, Hazama, Fuwa (13 members)
(Note: characters’ views are not my views. Because this post deals with trust issues, some characters’ reasoning may seem offensive and even dismissive. Remember they’re all just teenagers trying to solve a difficult and sensitive problem.)
(Also note: characters’ views are not solely based on canon implications, they’re also based my own headcanons :D)
TEAM NEUTRAL
Kayano- She knows she’s done a terrible thing, and she sincerely apologizes. She admits she stopped wanting to kill Korosensei months ago, but her bloodlust forced her to continue. She also states she was pretending to be nice in the first few months, but claims she started to be genuinely nice afterwards. She understands how some people might refuse to forgive her, and while she is saddened, she totally understands and respects their opinion. She is glad for her friends’ support, but ultimately decides to leave the matter to the class. She doesn’t want to destroy the class’ bond further.
The teachers- They understand both sides of the debate and want to help everyone in the class. If Team Trust wins, so be it. They’re perfectly fine with students requesting to avoid Kayano for projects and assassinations. If Team Distrust wins, they’ll make sure to keep in contact with Kayano even after she leaves 3-E. After all, despite everything, she’s still their student. (And Korosensei’s NEVER going to let Aguri’s little sister go.)
Ritsu- Like in canon, she does not fully understand the human emotions involved, and hence decides not to interfere. She helps to coordinate the war.
TEAM TRUST
Nagisa- He believes even if Kayano was “acting”, she still gave them fun memories, and it “wasn’t entirely an act”. He is inclined to believe people can change, and his friend Kayano deserves a second chance. In addition, Kayano helped to make Nagisa feel comfortable with his long hair (she gave him his pigtails), and Nagisa can never forget that.
Sugino- Like Nagisa, he believes Kayano deserves a second chance. He’s a bit shaken by her “betrayal”, but thinks the entire class (Kayano included) should get along and work towards their goal together. He’s also a bit of an optimist and thinks it’ll all get better eventually.
Kanzaki- She understands the need to have dual identities, and thus emphasizes with Kayano. She believes communication can solve the problem and Kayano should be accepted in 3-E. After all, Kayano, with her traumatic past, needs friends and support too. 
Hara- She staunchly believes kicking Kayano away will do no good. Communication is the only way out, and if Kayano’s gone, how will the class and Kayano effectively communicate? In her opinion, they can’t just ignore the problem by banishing Kayano. Besides, she sort of sympathizes with Kayano, plus Kayano’s her friend, so she’s a little biased. Most importantly, Hara is genuinely sweet and kind- she can never hate or “abandon” anyone.
Itona- He’s a little complicated. He hates being used as a pawn, but he understands the tentacles’ influences. He can’t excuse how she voluntarily injected the tentacles for revenge, but he emphasizes with her. And he thinks it would be cruel of him to leave her alone when a) they both understand the painful and manipulative quality of the tentacles and b) the class accepted him even though he nearly killed them. He keeps his distance around her, but in the end, he stands with Team Trust. He thinks it’s the least he can do for a fellow ex-tentacle user.
Terasaka- Originally, he’s SUPER mad. Like, he just wanted to PUNCH Kayano. But after thinking about it for weeks, he realizes the class forgave a) him b) Itona and c) Irina when all three of them put the class in danger. He thinks it would be hypocritical for him to yeet Kayano out of the class. While he doesn’t want to forgive Kayano immediately, he admits she deserves a second chance like he, Itona, and Irina had been kindly given by 3-E. Terasaka has a strong sense of morals (especially after he was manipulated by Shiro), and would hate to be hypocritical. He joins Team Trust mostly due to his beliefs and morals, not because of Kayano.
Muramatsu- He used to totally support Team Distrust, but after talking to Itona and Terasaka, he started to see things in a new light. It’s not peer pressure, but Muramatsu has to admit kicking Kayano out doesn’t solve ANYTHING- it just adds to miscommunication and people will just continue to suffer. Besides, like Itona and Terasaka, he understands the class has forgiven others before, so it doesn’t seem fair they’re so willing to exclude Kayano from their trademark generosity. 
Takebayashi- He used to be neutral, but like the other members of the Terasaka Gang, he realizes 3-E is actually a forgiving class. After all, they forgave Takebayashi after he betrayed them and joined 3-A, and Takebayashi is immensely grateful for their support. Hence, he thinks Kayano doesn’t deserve being kicked out of 3-E.
Kataoka- She doesn't believe in “abandoning” Kayano- she’s a leader, and leaders don’t abandon anyone. She totally understands how some cannot forgive Kayano, but somehow, kicking Kayano out of 3-E doesn’t sit well with her. Hence, she joins Team Trust.
Kurahashi- She continues to deeply care for Kayano and believes she needs support. Plus, being kicked out of a class Kayano enjoyed/enjoys being in would just hurt her even more, and Kurahashi doesn’t want that.
Yada- Like Kurahashi, she just wants to help Kayano, even if it means getting to know her from square one. Yada is kind- she doesn’t want to abandon Kayano or make her feel even worse.
Okajima- He’s actually a loyal person who deeply enjoys the bond 3-E shares- or used to share. He foolishly wants it to go back to the way it was, but he knows it’s impossible. But if everyone works towards it, they can surely achieve something close to it, right? Maybe it’s a bit idealistic, but Okajima believes in that hope.
Sugaya- He doesn’t believe in kicking Kayano out of 3-E. He’s receptive and understands Team Distrust’s point of view, but he also believes the other team should be a little more open minded. 
TEAM DISTRUST
Karma- He despises manipulation. He hates how Kayano pretended to be innocent and harmless when she was in fact a skilled assassin. Karma cannot trust and forgive Kayano immediately; he wants nothing to do with her. He is also pissed off by Nagisa and thinks he’s selfish. Just because Kayano gave Nagisa happy memories doesn’t mean she should be allowed in the class- there are a lot of people who don’t feel happy about her at all.
Okuda- She trusted and loved Kayano, and was horribly shaken by her identity reveal. Okuda ends up with serious trust issues, to the point thinking about Kayano makes her physically ill. She has panic attacks and struggles with sleeping. She still wishes the best for Kayano, but doesn’t want anything to do with her anymore. She also oesn’t want Kayano’s apologies. In addition, it sickens her to see her other friends (eg. Nagisa, Kanzaki) stick up for Kayano, so she avoids them and sticks to Karma and other Team Distrust members.
Nakamura- Similar to Karma, she cannot forgive Kayano immediately. She might seem casual and chill about it, but she actually spent several nights thinking about it. She’s a little shaken, but in the end, she coolly decides Kayano leaving would be the best option.
Mimura- He personally wants to give Kayano a second chance, but he values class harmony above all. Letting Kayano stay would cause a lot of problems, and if she left, her friends could contact her without involving the entire class (including people who were deeply hurt by Kayano). So, logically, with the class’ best interests in mind, he decides to go for Team Distrust.
Isogai- His reason is similar to Mimura’s. He genuinely likes Kayano and would like her to be redeemed, but he’s the class leader. He wants to make sure everyone is happy and comfortable in 3-E. And if letting Kayano stay in 3-E makes other people uncomfortable and panicked, it’s not a good choice. As painful as it is, he joins Team Distrust for 3-E.
Chiba and Hayami- They value trust immensely, so they feel betrayed and blindsided. However, they continue to be professional, and unlike Okuda, they can work smoothly with Kayano. Personally, they think it’s best if Kayano leaves the class. Surprisingly (or not), Hayami is the more hesitant one. Her family has never been around much and so she emphasizes with Kayano a little bit, but not enough for her to leave Team Distrust.
Kimura- He wants justice. To him, letting Kayano stay implies she doesn’t have to deal with serious consequences. Consequences are needed, or else it isn’t fair- it isn’t fair to Kayano, isn’t fair to the class. Besides, he sees how his other classmates are hurting because of Kayano, so he believes Kayano should leave 3-E for the greater good.
Maehara- At first, he tries to forgive Kayano. He truly does. But the more he thinks about it, the more he finds the idea of manipulation and pretending to be someone else unsettling. Like VERY unsettling (even if he knows it's due to the tentacles). Maybe he's especially sensitive due to his (failed) romantic relationships, but he cannot really trust Kayano anymore. He's hesitant to say it at first, but after discovering a couple of his friends feel the same, he joins Team Distrust.
Okano- Similar to Maehara, she tries to forgive Kayano, but the more she thinks about it, the weirder she feels. And she hates it because she just wants things to be simple, but it's not simple and she doesn't know what to do, so maybe Kayano should just leave and give the class peace and quiet to sort things out. She knows she'll learn to forgive Kayano someday and be friends with her again, but she cannot do it now, so ultimately, she currently stands with Team Distrust.
Yoshida- At first, he and Terasaka and Muramastu were on Team Distrust, but then they changed sides. Suddenly, Yoshida feels like he’s alone in his beliefs (he is, in fact, Not). Yoshida might not speak much, but he is actually rather disturbed and scared by the entire Kayano incident. And because most of his friends appear to be “pro-Kayano”, Yoshida wonders if he’s the bad guy. In reality, he doesn’t want any harm to come upon Kayano, he’s just... scared. And confused. The other Team Distrust members validates his feelings, leading Yoshida to trust Team Distrust (ha) and ends up joining the team.
Hazama- She is disturbed by Kayano’s betrayal, and while she doesn’t hate or fear Kayano, she doesn’t want to deal with Kayano. She’s a little complicated, because while Hazama understands Kayano’s dark ideas of revenge, Kayano has hurt and scarred other people, and Hazama cannot excuse that and pretend it never happened. Besides, she knows Yoshida is feeling like shit, and decides to join Team Distrust due to personal beliefs and to make her friend Yoshida feel better. 
Fuwa- At first she’s fine with the whole thing, and she believes proper communication can help to ease tensions. Plus, Kayano’s her friend! Again, Fuwa’s a little complicated. But after a while, her overactive imagination (which may or may not have been encouraged by reading manga) causes her to wonder if EVERYONE in her life is lying. Obviously, she knows this isn’t the case, but it causes her so much fear, she starts to subconsciously avoid Kayano (the source of her trust issues). While she seeks to mend relations with Kayano, she ultimately decides it’s best if she takes a break from Kayano at the moment. 
Phew! This was a rather long post, and it turned into a character study midway :P If anyone has their own interpretations/thoughts, feel free to reblog and add! :D
(Thanks to Discord friends for discussing with me :D)
(Course of the war now here!)
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procrastynol · 4 years ago
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I wasn’t tagged, but I’ll take the invitation from @theghostcaptain and just hop on the train to answer some questions about my writing. So, I guess thanks are in order? 😉❤️
AO3: @Procrastynol
Fandoms
Currently I’m trapped in the MDZS hell (focusing on songxiao, but pretty much everything else is also go, wangxian, 3zun, anything) with a side of SVSSS and FF7 (mainly tsengru and/or turks centric). I’m still working my way through the huge load of danmei, so maybe things like TGCF, 2HA or SPL will soon join the list.
Other things I can’t seem to let go of include FF15, Mass Effect, Dragon Age and a hint of Marvel and Star Wars. If you want to go really far back, you can add LotR and Hobbit to the pile.
Where You Post
You can find all of my fics on AO3 @Procrastynol
​I rarely use tumblr anymore, mostly for keeping all the links to my fics organised in one place - and to read meta that will shred my poor heart. My main social media is Twitter, so if you want to yell at me, please go over there and feel free to do so.
Most Popular Oneshot
Conflict of Interest (FF7, tsengru, domestic fluff and dogs)
I started this one on a whim in August 2020 because A) the hype for FF7 Remake was real and B) plague times, yay! It got me back into writing fanfiction after not having done so for several years, and I’m still surprised how positively it has been received among the people who read FF7 fanfictions. A follow-up is currently in its early drafting state.
Most Popular Multichap
None (so far). But I have something brewing for my songxiao gang, so I’ll just be a little tease and tell you to stay tuned for more until Summer 2021. 😉
Favourite Story You’ve Written So Far
Untethered (MDZS, songxiao, character study xxc)
That is my November/December/Christmas-procrastination baby, which started out as a midnight word vomit I wrote in a desperate attempt to find sleep. It only grew from there, and it has become my first deep dive into the character of Xiao Xingchen and the canon setting of MDZS. To this day, it just blows me away how well this story is received despite its length and the rather limited songxiao bubble. I’m really proud of what I did here, and it has been a while since I could say that about anything I have written.
Fic You Were Nervous to Post
Frostbloom Flowers (MDZS, modern songxiao, flowershop AU)
This was my absolute first fic for the fandom, and my second fic in total after the unexpected “success” of Conflict of Interest. I was so scared to get the characters or the setting wrong, even more so since this was a prompt fill for the songxiao Secret Santa event. It has done surprisingly well, so well actually, that I have turned this into a series that I will continue this February.
How You Choose Your Titles
They either come to me or the don’t. Really, there is almost nothing in between. Sometimes a poem, a line, a lyric, an image, SOMETHING sparks my imagination and the title is the first thing I have.
If it is the other way around, the idea usually revolves around a certain dialogue, scene, setting, etc. that I want to explore and I really struggle finding a title for it once the fic is finished. There are rare instances where a title comes to me simply while working on a fic, but mostly it’s hit or miss. If it is the latter, I usually sit in my room and decide to name stories after the first thing my eyes land on 5 minutes before posting them. 😅
Do You Outline
90% of times I do. Especially larger works or multichaps need an outline. I sometimes try to write non-chronologically, and I have a really hard time doing it, so the outline becomes my LIFELINE. It allows me to skip over parts I find hard and just put the famous [get there] in certain spaces, knowing I can come back later to flesh them out because the outline guides through this process.
For oneshots, I sometimes freestyle, but even then I usually write down a few lines for the scenes/dialogues I really want to include and put them in the corresponding order, so I have a goal to work towards to and don’t start meandering around.
I hate doing them, though, even though I largely depend on outlines.
Complete
All of my fics are complete at the moment, but I have two on-going series that I’m feeding with new entries in irregular intervals.
In Progress
I have some WIPS, but none of them are in the process of being published right now. But there are a few things I’m working on, so follow me to the next paragraph if you want more details on that. 😁
Coming Soon / Not Yet Started
Curiosity killed the Cat [WT] - which is a MDZS multichapter fic I have started working on last December. I really wanted to try writing a case fic for once, something more than just drama and romance (although drama and romance will still be very much part of this). Plotting a murder mystery is really new to me and sometimes exhausting, but so far I’m having a lot of fun doing it. I don’t want to spoil the details, but it will definitely focus on pre-canon songxiao and a mysterious haunting/murder they encounter during their travels.
Another thing would be the continuation of the Egret Flower series. Currently I’m finalising the second part, writing on part three and four has already begun. Part two will feature songxiao going on the date that has been teased in the first part, Frostbloom Flowers, and part three is currently giving me a hard time because I decided to include some wangxian - we’ll see how it goes.
I’m also trying to feed the Shinra fandom a bit, since it got me back into writing literally days before I got swept away by MDZS and danmei hell. But tsengru still holds a place in my heart, has done so for years, and so Conflict of Interest has now also been turned into a series, It’s me or the Dog, and the second part for this series is also outlined already and just waiting for me to flesh it out.
Upcoming Work You’re Most Excited About
Curiosity killed the Cat [WT], definitely. I have only ever finished one other multichap in my life, and I plan to complete this one before I start posting it, to feed my lovely songxiaoists in regular intervals (and to make sure this entire case fic works and does not go up in smoke halfway down). But since this involves so many new things for me at the same time, I’m equally excited and anxious to finish it and start posting it.
Tagging
Since I’m pretty much inactive on this platform I find it a bit hard to tag someone. I think @wangji-string might have something to offer, at least if they haven’t participated already (although if you don’t feel like doing this, please feel free to ignore me). I’ll just leave it open to the rest of you whoever read this and may find it interesting - if you want to do this, please, feel free to do it! 😉
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What I have learned from doing a Prompt challenge
During the month of December, I decided to challenge myself by doing a prompt challenge. It was more of a personal challenge than anything. I'm happy I pushed myself to do something different and try to be consistent.
The challenge was to write a story using a prompt everyday. It didn't matter the length or what the characters were as long as I used a prompt.
I learned a lot and I thought I would share my experience. Here we go:
It is possible to write a story under 1000 words- One of my worries when doing this was writing a one-shot that had a plot, made sense, and had some sort of development. I think my shortest was between 300 and 400 words. It is possible and you can do it.
It's okay to skip a day- My goal was to write and post everyday. But that obviously didn't happen. Whether it be personal reasons, work, or being too tired, it's okay to take a break even when you have a great idea. Take time for yourself. Writing isn't everything. A prompt challenge isn't above your health.
Don't depend on Grammarly- I have Grammarly and I love using it for work. But it's not a great tool to use for fictional writing. There is a way to add words to the Grammarly dictionary but sometimes it will still count it as a mistake. It is a good tool for punctuation but it does get irritating at times.
I'm good at writing sibling relationships- This was surprising and I have no clue why. It might have something to do with the fact I'm the youngest of 3 but that's besides the point. It was a lot of fun discovering different sibling dynamics and how they all react to different situations.
How to use AO3- I never knew how to use AO3 the way that would help convince others to read my work. Heck I didn't know to use the tags right. Now I get how to use AO3 in a way seems routine.
Comments- I was never one to beg for comments. I think the work should speak for itself. But there's just something about how someone can say something to the effect of "This made me smile" or "This made my day" that makes me want to continue writing. It's amazing!
So yeah! I learned so much in doing this writing experiment and would defidently do it again. Maybe in February?
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hybristoo · 5 years ago
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To Know Him is to Love Him [1/3]
Summary: The Joker kidnaps the reader in the interest of using her as blackmail. However, it doesn’t go as planned.
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There was nothing really special about that dark November the 5th evening. You left your job, walked home to the Narrows and then you were promptly knocked out, dragged someplace else and woken with a bucket of cold water.  
In this way, there was no discernible difference between how you met the Joker and how most other people met the Joker; violently, dismally and suddenly. A grotesque overwhelming of the senses which could not be rubbed out.
First, it was your sense of touch. Your body convulsed as if dancing to an irregular disco beat, your skeleton launching itself forward to escape its skin. Second, it was your sight. Opening your eyes, you were met with a bright light and a dark face; eyes hollowed and smile red. Third, it was your sense of smell. A horrid concoction of the smell produced by the grease filter at work and the mountain of dead rats in the malfunctioning freezer. 
Your body shook like a field of grass in the wind and you coughed violently, your feet producing a light tapping sound against the floor as your legs bounced up and down, the algidity sticking to you like gum.
Your ears experienced a cacophony of song and nails on a chalkboard as the Joker obscured your view of the room with his looming silhouette and gruffed out: “Good morning, sweetheart. You don’t mind, do you?”
He sat down across from you, the light above him accentuating the artificial darkness around his eyes. 
You opened your mouth planning to say a number of normal, rational things; What do you want from me? Let me go. Don’t do this - but instead, it came out as one, even sentence, more like a sigh than a plea. 
“If this has anything to do with Boyle, sorry to break the news, but I’m the wrong person to kidnap.”
You weren’t surprised by your words, only disappointed. I wasn’t your first time being kidnapped, threatened or used as a bargaining chip. It had become a habitual tradition - at least once a year or the economy must be in the shitter. You were hoping when you saw the Joker was your captor, that your mind would resume itself to the comfort of crowd uniformity. That your reaction would be something worth recalling to authorities, like something straight out of a crime novel. 
On the other hand, this lament of a reaction came from a mixture of experience and apathy. The knowledge that screaming, crying and pleading would only worsen the overall experience by leaving you with injuries. Injuries you’d have to be hospitalized for - pay for. The very least kidnappers could do was give you 50 dollars to pay the hospital bill. 
The Joker let out a wheeze of a laugh, a cackle building up in his throat which bounced off the walls rhythmically. “Alright,” he hummed, throwing his hands up in the air. “Let’s say,” he licked his lips, pausing, “that you just look an awful lot like the gal I’m lookin’ for. How many times must you have been mistaken for her to react like that?”
There was a sharpness to the way he articulated his words. Like a cold December’s gust, biting at your cheeks. 
You opened your mouth to explain, but you were silenced when he stuck a knife to your cheek. He shifted in his position, slouching forward. You gritted your teeth. You weren’t afraid. Not really, anyways. You were afraid of getting hurt - much like anyone, pain wasn’t your forté, but no matter what, your heart wouldn’t speed at the thought of suddenly dying - perhaps too savoir-faire.
He moved the knife to the other cheek, this time applying more pressure. He regarded the droplets of blood which escaped from the narrow wound, then your eyes, and finally, he moved the knife to your jugular. He repeated this motion a number of times as if he was trying to determine where he’d make his incision. 
Just as he seemed like he was going to make his decision, you decided to speak, knife comfortably tucked against your jawline. “If you’re not going to cut my throat,” you looked at him meaningfully, “I want to get this over with.”
He studied your eyes, continuing to hold the edge against your throat. He applied more pressure. You closed your eyes. You noticed your leg started bouncing again. Were you afraid of death? You weren’t sure. After a failed attempt you had never attempted at taking your own life again, but that didn’t mean the want had vanished. That you wanted to keep trudging through life like a zombie. That you had anything to live for. 
Right when you were sure he was going to slice your right open, he removed the knife with a snicker. “I like you, doll” he crooned, “I like you real good.”
The rest of the night you considered rather standard. He got out a camera, shoved it in your face, pulled your hair, slapped you while yelling a number of things which only served to make you dizzy. At one point, you decided you would cry some, hoping that maybe, just maybe, this time your tears would tug at your father’s heartstrings and he would actually comply to whatever it was the Joker demanded of him. 
For days you stayed in captivity but it seemed dear dad was as heartless as ever. Nobody came to help. 
In that time, you worked on your whistling - the goal being to whistle Beethoven at the end of it all, but when the Joker stuck his head in that last day, you only knew Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star. 
“Say, Hummingbird,” he purred as he walked in, “do you know… how many days it’s been?”
You thought about it. “Three.”
“Good girl,” he walked over to you and put his hand on your head. You expected him to pet you like a dog, but instead, he gripped your hair and pulled your face forward, putting it inches in front of his. You hissed, shifting uncomfortably. “And do you know what’s happened?”
He tilted his head, cocking his eyebrows. You thought once more. “Nothing?”
“Jackpot!” He laughed and let go of your head, letting your body, and the chair which it was tied to, fall to the ground. You let out a suffocated wheeze as the air in your lungs took flight. “Last question,” he circled around you, immobilized on the ground. “Do you know…” he inhaled sharply, “What I promised I’d do if nothing happened?” He crouched down beside you.
This time, you didn’t think before you answered. “You’d kill me.” 
“You’re so clever, hm?” He patted your cheek with a gloved and then fished out a gleaming dagger from inside his jacket. “Now, how shall we go about this?” He moved the dagger to multiple spots, making a thoughtful humming sound all the while. Finally, he lodged it into the side of your mouth. “How about we give you scars like mine? You are, after all, a woman after my own heart, Hummingbird.”
You stared at him. Really, you weren’t sure if he actually wanted to kill you. You weren’t sure you wanted to die, either - you were rather taken with your new whistling hobby, weren’t you? Right. 
“If you need Boyle’s - my father’s, attention, l can give you some advice.” You looked up at him. “He doesn’t care about family. He may make it seem that way - even to his wretched goons, but deep inside, he only cares about money.” The Joker tilted his head, an amused expression on his face. “He has a vault on 22nd Street, under the strip club.” Then, you let out a wheezy laugh, your breathing affected by the awkward position of your body. “You should hold that thing hostage instead.”
The Joker looked down on you as if he was assessing your sincerity. Rest assured there was nothing insincere about you, in spite of your bloodline. You had nothing to do with all that schmuck. For the most part. 
In a moment of bathos, the Joker silently picked up the chair, setting you upright. He fished out a knife from the inside of his shirt and showed it to you. 
“What do you think? Good enough for ya?” He circled you, putting the knife to your throat. You held your breath, the tremble of your lip showing you a truth you had wanted to know for many years; you did not want to die. “It’s been fun, Birdie.”
Your vision went black.
When you did eventually come to, your first reaction was that it was not hell, heaven or purgatory, but the room you had just been in. The difference was the acute, pounding headache and the lack of restraints around your arms. 
It did take you a moment to realize that you should not dally, but leave right this second, or else the thirst might kill you before any clown with sharp objects does. And so you did; standing onto buckling knees, walking out of the compound like a deer on ice. 
A breath of fresh air hit you as the metal door creaked open, a chill rocking your spine. The air smelled acrid and noisome - and that’s how you knew you were still in Gotham. Still in the Narrows. A shy smile placed itself on your lips. It was… Good to be back.
However, there was a problem. After identifying that you were, in fact, on a roof, and not in some underground compound, you found the closest ladder, which you planned to descend, but with just one glance, you recognized there were only two steps to the ladder before a long fall. You cursed, turning to find another exit when you stubbed your toe on a rock. Looking down, you saw a card - the Joker card, pinned down by the rock. There was cursive writing in sharpie which covered the image;
‘Hope you know how to fly, Hummingbird.’
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