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When The Dragon Saves You from the Prince
Dragon x gn!reader
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So it looks like this turned into something a little longer than a drabble. I was going to wait a week until my poll finished but got impatient. So! Anyway, I hope you guys enjoy!
You knew as one of noble birth, the child of a Duke, that you would eventually be married off to the highest bidder. That's just how marriage was for the nobility. However, you hadnât expected your loving parents to set up an engagement with an infamously rakish and daft prince.Â
You hated the man. Whatever was supposed to be going on between his ears, was judged by that thing between his legs. When he had first met you, he had leveled with you that his reputation was true, and that expecting him to be faithful would be like asking water not to be wet.
Happy to have an excuse not to touch him, you basically ignored the man up until a week to the wedding. One afternoon his father the King had decided the two of you needed to look chummier, so he sent you off on a joint hunting trip with a few nobles. Of course, what you didnât know was that these nobles were friends of his royal dumbass.Â
They spent the whole time mocking your dukedom, and making salacious comments about your body and wedding night. Of course, your idiotic fiance only laughed at your expense, making comments of his own.Â
To your own credit, you had handled their buffoonery with grace and wit. At one point, one of your barbed replies had actually struck a chord with one of the nobles, realization dawning on his face. He came off his horse and smacked you with all of his might. Too weak a man for a punch, he had gotten a solid hit on you, and you felt your eye heat and swell. Not good. The atmosphere had gone from snide joy, to predatory.Â
The Prince himself got off his horse and stalked forward and pulled you by the hair down to the ground in front of his friends. They demanded to be repaid for the hurt done to them.
âIâm sure your pretty little mouth can be put to better use.â The Prince laughed, and he and his friends started to undress themselves.
That's when a loud, earsplitting screech hurtled through the air. A loud thumping and suddenly a large green dragon with large spikes started stampeding towards the group. He bucked aside the nobles, sending them and their horses running. Your fiance tried his best to pull up his pants, as he reached for his sword, but was unable to do either successfully. The dragon had stopped and stood tall before him, nostrils flaring. A pair of molten eyes stared him down, as if to challenge him. Of course, faced between defending you and running, he chose the latter.Â
You couldnât see the Dragon above you well, on account of the swelling in your eye and the hard pulsing headache that had started to vibrate through your head. The Dragon didnât move, just stared at you as you blacked out.
***
When you came to you were warm. You opened your eyes to find yourself in a small room seemingly carved out of stone. There was a doorway with no door, that when you traveled through, brought you to a large cavern with high ceilings. You were surprised to find furniture, shelves filled with books, a large wooden desk filled with parchment and ink.Â
âYou are awake.â
You were startled to find yourself facing a being. He looked somewhat human, but the angles of his jaw, elbows and fingers were inhumanly sharp. His arms were covered in green scales, as well as his webbed ears, giving him away. When he spoke again you could see his sharp canines. He asked about the pain in your head. You admitted to feeling fine and he nodded. You had apparently gotten a concussion.Â
The Dragon, who revealed his name to be Reix, explained that he had been exploring his new territory when he had felt evil and human pain radiating from where you had been staying. The land had recently been gifted to him by the king in exchange for his help in finding a cure for an elf and human disease that had run rampant for the last decade. He had taken it as his summer home, and was happy to find your health well.
You were surprised by his poised and friendly demeanor. You had heard that dragons were wild beasts, who occasionally took human form to steal treasure. You thanked him for his help, even if it was for not. You explained that the man had been the prince, and your fiance at that. You would not be able to escape him, even with your influence as a duke's child.Â
âIf you have nowhere to stay, you may stay here. It may not compare to an ornate palace, but I can assure you it will be better than what you would have to go home to.âÂ
Choose between a roaring evil monster and a kind, thoughtful being? Of course you were going with the dragon.
As the days went on you learned more about Reix, his character and his interest. He was the quiet studious type who prized his books over anything else. He even kept ancient first editions of many popular novels, some even with signatures. He also had some antique memorabilia, some keys from a printing press from his mothers favorite publishing company, a bookmark from a late saintess who he had befriended long ago. He showed you all his favorite books, nonfiction and fiction. You were even surprised to find that he enjoyed the occasional romance.Â
âWhy, Sir Dragon, are you perhaps a romantic?â You teased. He looked at you with pursed lips and a faint blush.
âI am not so cold that I canât be moved by a good story. After all, most people experience it once or twice in their life. Love that is.â
The two of you had been fast friends, bonding over shared interests. You spent weeks, months like this. He would hunt or go out to town for your meals. He taught you how to cook. You were terrible at it at first, but he eventually learned to trust you to make omelets, and the famous everything soup. He was an incredible cook too, and he seemed to enjoy sharing recipes and meals with you. You couldnât help but notice the occasional fond glances heâd send your way.Â
You had to admit, you werenât unaffected by his presence either. You noticed how strong the muscles of his arms were as he reached up to retrieve a book from the top shelf for you. His glowing hazel eyes always looked at you with respect and reverence. No one had ever looked at you like that before. And you had to admit you had never met a kinder person than him. You loved his smile,how his teeth tended to stick out as he spoke to you.
You were the one to make the first move. Reix had been sitting on the couch, reading in his usual way, when you cuddled right up next to him. You leaned your head against his shoulder and covered your lap and feet with a blanket, as if to nap. He was stiff at first but eventually relaxed into you. You started to do this at every opportunity and you would notice that he would now forgo his study chair for the couch. Neither of you ever said anything about it, but you two never missed an afternoon cuddle.
One day, Reix sat you down, his limbs twitchy and expression solemn.Â
âI will be straight with you. My species goes through something called a heat a few times every year. Mine is nearing, so I will be traveling to my home up north for a week.â He bit his lip before continuing. âBut do not worry, I will stock the pantry and make sure you are as comfortable as possible while Iâm⌠gone.â
A heat? You had read enough smutty novels to know what that was. The thought made your heart beat hard in your chest and a warmness pool in your gut. Well. Right now was as good of a time as any.
âWhat if I wanted you to stay?â You enunciated slowly. Reix frowned at you.
âYou do not understand, I will not be myself. I will be like an animal. I won't be able to control my instincts.â He stared at you with big watery eyes.
You walked towards his chair and knelt at his feet, taking his hands into yours.Â
âI will take all of you, if you let me.â You then pulled his hands up to your cheeks, forcing him to cradle your face. The two of you held each other's gaze for a long time, the tension palpable.Â
When he kissed you, it didnât taste sweet, like his words always were. His breath was fire, after all. The two of you burned up together.
***
You were wretched out of sleep by the feeling of rubbing on your ass. Strong arms gripped your waist, and you felt his ragged breath in your ear, moans sputtered from his lips, whispers of,âIâm sorry.â More groaning, âYou feel so goodâŚahh!â And he came all over your nightgown.Â
But this didnât seem to sate him at all, as he continued to rub himself into the curve of your asscheeks, slick of him coating you and dripping down to your entrance. He seemed to realize you were awake because his voice increased in volume.
âPlease. You promisedâŚâ He moaned out as he went from fucking your ass to plunging himself in between the plush of your thighs. The change in texture seemed to get him going as his speed started to increase. Much to his annoyance you turned around. He hated having to go even a second without his dick touching you, and you pulled him into a hot passionate kiss.
His mouth devoured you hungrily, arms now roaming the lines of your body. His eyes were glazed over in lust as he reached his head down to suck on your nipples, trying to get you sufficiently worked up. When he was close again, he brought dick up to your entrance, pushing in just the tip as he came. His hot cum slid into you, prepping you for what was to come next. You clenched around nothing, and started grinding on his dick, needing to take more of his length.Â
He took you in one harsh thrust. You hadnât seen what he had looked like before, but you could tell that his dick must have been an unusual shape. The ridges of his dick dragged deliciously against your walls, making you drool. He was so big it was a painful stretch. But you were nobility, and nobility took the long and hard things in life and made it work for them.
You reached your hand down and felt the part of him that wasnât inside you and slowly started pumping, enjoying the soft, yet firm texture of him. He slowed his thrusting, suddenly overcome by how you were making him feel. The duality of your hands on him and being inside you made him want to scream out. His good little noble felt divine. He was having a spiritual awakening right there in your bedroom, as he got closer and closer to release.Â
Eventually you had gotten used to the feeling of him and started rocking your hips in time with his strokes. The delectable friction he was giving you was building up inside you, a hot fiery pit about to explode. Your Reixâs gaze was full of devotion and need, but the way one of his hands gently came up to cup your cheeks made you burn. Even now, when he was ravaging you like the wild beast everyone assumed he was, he still treasured you.
You came hard around his girth, crying out as white hot pleasure pushed its way from your core to your fingertips. Reix soon followed after, unleashing another impossibly large load of his wetness within you. He slowed his minstrations and pulled out, going back to fucking your thighs until you were properly recovered enough to take him again. And take him you did, all through the night and the following day.Â
When his heat had cooled, he brought you fruits, cheeses and bread, taking small bites and feeding it to you, as you were too exhausted to do so yourself. He seemed to take great joy in this as his normal small smile was blinding as he cared for you. He pulled you up and the two of you took a bath. He made sure to wipe you down first, every swipe of his rag gentle as he worshiped you with his glowing eyes. When he was done, he added more heat to the water and joined you, settling you down between his legs as he held your back to his chest.
You rested in silence for awhile, enjoying the warmth of the water and each others skin.Â
âWe should do something about that fiance of yours. Mind if I eat him?â He was playing with the damp curls of your hair, relishing in the texture. You smiled up at him.
âYou donât know where he's been. You could catch something. But I do have an idea. If you are up for it that is.âÂ
âFor you, I would do anything.â
You smiled. Your father was next in line for the throne after the prince. Reix was a gentle giant most of the time, but you couldnât help but think what a dashing and benevolent prince he would make.
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La dĂŠchirureÂ
You exist to mourn, to ache for what was and all that will never be. Even if happiness brushed against your fingertips, dazzling and radiant, you would not recognize its face, you would distort its features into the terrible grief youâve always known.
pairing: figure skater!hyunjin x ballerina!reader.
genre: angst. slowwww burn. heavy and recurrent grief. healing.
warnings: mc has a bad relationship with her parents. grief is a prominent theme here so please be aware. some allusions to sex but no smut. description of injuries.
word count: 21.8k
authorâs note: heyyyyâŚ. havenât posted anything in 3 months i feel so shy AJNSJD i say this about every fic but this fic is truly my baby it took me so long to get it done and i poured my heart into it. so please if you enjoyed reading pls pls pls let me know. it means the world and more to me. happyyy reading!!! also thanks to @hyunverse for indulging all my brainrots about this fic i LOVE YOU
Your bare soles are bleeding across the graveyard. You donât remember when your sandals slipped away from your feet, nor when your body decided to bring you here, heels scratched from the tiny rocks littering the ground.
But the pain doesnât register in your brain, not yet. Youâre only paying attention to the last name written on the tombstoneâ your last name, to be exact.Â
Right now, more than ever, you wished your first name was engraved beside it too.Â
Youâve memorized this graveyard like the back of your hand, know what sound the tree branches make during springâ gently swaying, like a melancholic flute, aching because flowers refuse to bloom upon them. And during winter tooâ even sadder, angrier, perhaps to mimic the sound of the souls left alone in the graves to fend off the cold.
Though youâve never approached this tombstone before. You always remained a few feet back, each time your parents brought you to your late sisterâs graveâ every Sunday, for the past eighteen years of your existence, without fault.Â
You donât know the person theyâre mourning.
You donât know the person they wish to mold you after.Â
Somehow, in a sick twist of fate, the course of your existence was set in stone before you could draw your first breath into this universe.Â
She looks just like her sister, your mom whispered in awe, tears brimming in her waterline as she beheld you close to her bare chest.Â
That is what your grandmother recalls about your birth, the rejoice of you being an exact copy of your sisterâs features. There was nothing in her, in everyoneâs memory about you. Everything orbited around your sister, the way the planets chase after the sun. You were, after all, born to replace the void she left behind.Â
You sometimes wonder, is your physique the first setting stone of your pain? Had your hair been lighter, darker than hers, your lips smaller, plumper, would your parents be forced to look at you, behold you for who you are, learn to love you for who you would be?Â
The question first popped into your brain at age fiveâ maybe less intricate, a feeling that pressed against your ribcage: your parents donât love you a lot, do they? You are now eighteen, the question has yet to desert you.Â
Youâve always been aware of this realityâ there are more pictures of your sister than of you in your house. Your parents always spoke of her, the perfect little girl, whisked away by a terrible sickness, at age seven.Â
And she loved ballet.Â
So, you had to love ballet too.
You werenât given a choice, per se. At age four, you were thrust into a ballet class with little oblivious girls; just like you. Flushed cheeks and glossy eyes as you all tried to follow the teacherâs instruction. It wasnât easy, it never got easier, year after year, only more challenging, only harder on your body.
Bigger bruises, sprained ankles from time to time, youâve lost count of the injuries this art has inflicted upon your body. But thankfully, you ended up loving it too. You loved how graceful it made you feel, how the music seemed to whisk you away to an enchanting world, how the applause roared each time you came first in a competition, all eyes on you alone.Â
Or so you hoped, you prayed. You wished to dance better, harder until all your parents could see was you. Not the daughter that came before you.
It was hard to admit at times, certainly something you never said out loud. But surely, yes, you were jealous of your deceased sister.
How could you not be when it seemed like you were competing with a ghost, someone whose absence weighed more than your presence?
Snippets of your life flash before your eyes as you stare at her grave. Pirouette, arabesque, pliĂŠ, tenduâ those are words engraved within your mind, ones you breathe in more than oxygen. You hear them in the voice of your ballet instructor, Jihyo. Sheâs a woman in her forties, though she looks older from the harsh lines framing her face.Â
Her voice is high-pitched, her hair always tied back in a sleek bun youâre sure pains her brain, her words are harsh each time she corrects your posture.
And sheâs the only person who believes in you.
Sheâs not nice, she has made you cry more times than you can count. So, you knew when she leveled her eyes to yours when you were nine, when she told you, âI see something magical in youââ that she was telling the truth.Â
You wanted to prove her right, because for once, someone saw something in you, not in a ghost, not in ground-up bones.
In you.
You feel an uncontained anger swell within you, waves of relentless hurt swarming you as you fall to your knees.
You worked hard. You worked so hard. Between classes and ballet practice, the days strung you by like a puppet and sometimes you didnât have enough time to breathe.Â
Your entire life revolved around ballet. spin, point well, adjust your posture, you canât stop now. Suddenly itâs two a.m. and you only get four hours of sleep before your classes begin. You didnât have time to socialize with your peers, to have a crush on the sweet guy in your maths class, to giggle at an arcade with your friends. Soon after you were in your ballet class, even more spins, points, arabesque.Â
But all of your exhaustion dissipated today. All of it seemed okay, for the first time in your existence, perhaps, the breath that escaped your chest wasnât heavy. It was light, it was airy, it was one that yearned for the next, for the days that will follow, tinted with happiness, for once.
âI got into JulliardâÂ
That is what you told your parents an hour ago, voice brimming with uncontainable happiness, tears dripping down your eyes in an uncontrollable flow.Â
Your motherâs eyes became teary in an instant. You thought the past was past you now. Youâll forgive eighteen years of coming second in your motherâs heart. Surely, she will only see you now.
But then her eyes set on the portrait of your sister on the wall, her tone desolate when she whisperedââshe would have loved Julliard too.â
You donât remember what happened after that. What curse escaped your mouth from the years of barely contained bitterness, when everything lashed out like venomous poison on your parents.Â
You remember screaming, lots of it, something breaking too, you donât recall if it is you who threw the vase or your father. The latter seemed more plausibleâ he was always bound to these sudden bouts of anger. Effects of grief, consequences of your sisterâs absence. Her, yet again, poisoning your life.Â
You remember feeling like a stranger in your home, a nobody, someone theyâd kill in an instant to bring her back.
It was no longer a feeling, though. It was a fact. Your father cemented it loud and clear for youâ âI wish she never died so you wouldâve never been born.â
A pin-drop silence followed. Your father was always bound to bouts of anger, you knew that. He always regretted it afterward too, just like he felt in that instant, scrambling to apologize, to cup your cheek and say he didnât mean it.
For how long has this thought festered in his brain, taken root in his veins, and flashed before his eyes each time he looked at you?
For how long did your parents wish you were dead instead?Â
You donât remember how you got to the graveyard. You donât recall when it started pouring heavily on you. You only register the rain because the earth is wet as you clench it between your fists, as you punch the ground under which your sister is buried.Â
You are crying, sobbing, a hysterical mess, you donât know what youâre yelling, who youâre calling out for, what youâre trying to achieve by punching her grave.Â
Unearthing her body and burying yours there instead, perhaps.
âWhat are you doing?â a strangerâs voice startles you, cutting through the fog in your mind like a thunderbolt.Â
You donât reply, simply turning around to look at the man standing a mere inches away from you.
âDo you know her or are you just desecrating her grave?â he asks calmly, as he brings a pink umbrella over your head. You realize that youâre drenched from head to toe, your feeble pajama does nothing to fight off the cold filtering between the fabric and your skin.Â
You are freezing. You fear there is no place warm enough for your soul, not anymore.
âSheâs my late sister,â you say, voice raw, scratched like a broken record.Â
âShe died young,â he says, looking at the dates engraved on the tombstone.Â
You feel so horrible, for a millisecond.Â
She was only seven.Â
Her grave is too small compared to your body.Â
But the anger quickly comes back to blind you. You invite it into your heart, push away the sadness and welcome the rage instead. It is the only thing comforting you in that instant.
âDid she do something to you?â he asks, his voice contrasting nicely against the heavy shatter of rain. It reminds you of the intro of your ballet music, soothing.Â
âNo,â you admit, a bit shamefully. But all sense of guilt dissipates at his next questionâ âthen wouldnât she be sad seeing you do this?âÂ
âWhat about MY sadness? MY anger?â you shout, lips trembling like the branches above your head. the storm picks up with your rising voice, the rainâs pitter-patter mimics the chaos inside your brain.
He remains silent and you can barely grasp the expression on his face, concealed by the umbrellaâs shadows. You imagine that this conversation must have bored him, so you turn around yet again, your heart pounding angrily against your skin.Â
But then, he kneels beside you, his umbrella completely discarded. You donât dare to tilt your face towards him, so you simply stare ahead, your breath caught in your throatâ what is he thinking of your most vulnerable state?
âI am rage,â he says, his voice permeating your being softly, the storm seems to calm down too to follow the ebb of his voice. âIt means I am alive, or better, I am life, according to Armand, a modern art painter. You are alive today, and you get to be angry. Thatâs not something anyone here can enjoy,â he points out, taking a fleeting glance at the graves surrounding you.Â
âYou get to do something with that anger. But this, this wonât cure it.âÂ
Heâs young, roughly your age it seems, but he speaks as if he beholds a wisdom beyond his years. You wonder what he went through to understand rage doesnât fix anything. You wonder if he has ever been this angry, too.Â
Did he move past it? Or did he drown the anger deep within the wells of his soul so he wouldnât confront its ugly face?Â
The question roams in your head as you watch him place a bouquet of red lilies atop the grave. You didnât even notice the flowers at first, your view was too distorted by tears to grasp anything beautiful.Â
âYouâll catch a cold,â the guy points out, smiling at you, or at least attempting to since the grin doesnât reach his eyes. His words come out slower, as if weighed down by a sadness only he can feel.Â
He is in a graveyard after all, the flowers were meant for someone else than you.Â
âWait here,â he says, quickly getting up and jogging out of the graveyard.Â
What a silly request, you think, itâs not like you would dare move. Your feet are aching and you have nowhere else to go.Â
He returns a few minutes later, a hoodie in his hands that he promptly pulls over your head. The warm fabric engulfs you in a cloud of roses and musk. âI tried to warm it up with the carâs heating,â he says sheepishly, and you blink slowly at his kindness, a pink tint blooming across your cheeks.Â
âThank you.âÂ
His eyes fleet to your bare, bleeding feet, and you fidget in place, trapped by a bout of embarrassment.Â
âI have spare shoes in my car. Do you want me to drive you home?â His voice is gentle, as if speaking to a wounded animal, too bruised by the hands of humans. Tears spring to your eyes once more, you wish the earth could crack open and swallow you whole.Â
âI donât want to burden you.âÂ
âYou wonât,â he says, and as if sensing your hesitation, he adds, âI promise. Leaving you here is what would burden me.â
You are very tired as he drives you to your place. You speak once when you ask him if he wasnât there to visit someone, he says that itâs okay, he can come back tomorrow.Â
You only dare look at him at the last red light before you arrive at your address. Heâs beautiful, black strands sticking to his forehead, a tiny pout pulling his rosy lips forward. His cheeks are flushed from the cold, contrasting beautifully with the mole on his cheek. Then, by his jaw. Another at the beginning of his neck. You wonder if he has a map of ebony stars trailing down his chest.
You donât know why this stranger instills such safety in you. Why would you rather stay in his car than set foot into your house once more. You dread what will await you behind those doors, you donât think your heart could handle another tear at its tender flesh.Â
You donât think you could handle looking at your parents and only seeing strangers.Â
But you know this safety has something to do with the way he placed the lilies atop the grave; as if it beheld someone dear to his heart and not a stranger. How he made sure you got home safely, how he didnât seem to care that you dirtied his front seat and the carpet below your feet.Â
He looks like a good person.Â
You wish to tell your good news to a good person.Â
âI got into Julliard,â you quickly let out as soon as he parks. You donât allow yourself time to regret your confession.Â
A breathtaking smile overtakes his face, the thunderstorm outside pales before the sun shining in his features.Â
âReally?â he asks cheerfully, and you nod, a tiny smile painting across your lips. âMm. Really.â
âThatâs amazing!â his grin further widens, his eyes disappearing into two lovely moon crescents. âI know Iâm just a stranger but, I'm proud of you,â his voice softens, âI mean it. I hope youâre proud of yourself too.âÂ
It takes you a few seconds to answer, you wish to bask further in the sound of his voice, to store his words into your memory, to revisit his kindness on nights that are too cold.Â
This was all youâve ever wanted to hear.Â
âThank you,â you smile softly. A moment of silence passes, you find yourself missing this stranger before you even leave his car. You wish to carry a piece of his memory within you, a souvenir of who he isâ âI'm Yn, by the way.âÂ
âYn,â he repeats, his voice tender. âNice to meet you, Yn. Iâm Hyunjin.âÂ
Four years later.
âYou need to work on your landing more, but the rest is good.â
âThanks, coach.â Hyunjin gives Jihyoun, his lifelong mentor, a thumbs-up as he loosens the laces of his ice skates. A dull ache is throbbing through his legs, like the faint buzz of bees circling roses.Â
His body is weary, every muscle reminding him of the sheer effort heâs poured into perfecting his routine for the upcoming figure skating competitionâ the most important one of his life, by far.
âAre you leaving now?â Jihyounâs voice pierces the delicate silence and Hyunjin nods, resting his head against the cold concrete wall. âJust gonna take a breather.â
âIâll head out then,â Jihyoun says, patting his back gently, âmake sure you get some rest.â
Hyunjin waits till his coach is far out the corridor to release a relieved breath. A familiar silence wraps around the ice rink like a comforting cloak, the stillness sits beside Hyunjin like an old friend. It is here, amid the soft hum of machines and the chill of the rink that Hyunjin feels most like himself.Â
A few minutes trickle by, slow and silent. An uncomfortable feeling nudges at Hyunjinâs rib as he remains as still as a statue; he knows heâs on a losing bet to make time stretch forth, hoping that the sun outside will pause in its descentâ a few more moments before the darkness completely sets in Seoul. Because the night will surely string along with it the next day, and the next day is one Hyunjin isnât ready to face.Â
When does he ever?Â
But the sun always sets and rises once more, even if you dont wish for it to.Â
With a sigh, Hyunjin grabs his bag and slings it over his shoulder. He makes his way to the vending machine upstairs, in the dimly lit corner near the dance studio. He drops a few coins into the slot, punching the number for his usual drink. But it gets stuckâof course.Â
âFuck,â he mutters under his breath, pressing his forehead against the cold glass before frustratedly kicking the machine.
âI am rage,â a voice suddenly teases from behind.
Hyunjin is quick to distance himself from the machine, startled, and admittedly, very embarrassed. His shame morphs to surprise when he sees you standing there.Â
Your lips curve into a gentle smile, and your eyes sparkle with quiet amusementâ that light, however, dims slightly when he doesnât immediately respond.
It takes all of Hyunjinâs will to act like he doesnât recognize you.
âYou get to do something with your anger, but this wonât cure it.â You quote, your voice softer now. âYou know, you told me this, near the graveyardâŚâ You point vaguely behind you, each word growing quieter as if youâre no longer sure if that scene was real or a figment of your imagination.
Hyunjin nods in recognition, and you relax, the tension lifting from your shoulders.
âMiss Julliard,â he murmurs, a hint of nostalgia in his voice. Your grin brightens at his words and Hyunjin notices faint smile lines tracing your lips and eyes. It seems as if youâve laughed quite often for the past four years. The thought brings him a strange sense of comfort.
âWhat did the vending machine do to deserve this?â you ask, tilting your head with playful curiosity.
âStole my money,â Hyunjin mutters.
âYouâve got to hit the side when that happens.â You show him, tapping the machine with an experienced hand. His drink clatters down, and he shoots you a thankful grin as he bends to retrieve it.
In those brief seconds, with his head bowed, Hyunjin begs his heart to slow its frantic beating.Â
âWhat are you doing here?â you ask once he stands.
âIâm an ice skater,â he says, and your eyes widen with genuine surprise.
âReally? Thatâs amazing!â
âYeah⌠I guess it is. Are you back from Julliard?â His voice is softer now, more tentative, reminiscent of the day you met.Â
âFor a little while. Just a few months. This studioââ you glance around, ââitâs where I used to train before I went away.â
âI see,â Hyunjin nods, âI train upstairs, in the ice rink. Because Iâm an ice skater,â he repeats, before closing his eyes in embarrassment as your giggles spill forth. No shit Hyunjin.
âIâll see you around then,â he quickly mutters, eager to end the conversation, before turning around and hurrying away.Â
Heâs almost by the stairs when your voice calls out his name, urgent, pressing.
âHyunjin!â
His body freezes before his mind orders it toâheâs not the only one who remembers, then.Â
âDid you eat dinner?â you shout, a little out of breath.
âNo,â he admits.
âThereâs a place nearby that makes the best kimchi stew. Want to go?â
âIâm not hungry.â
âItâs my treat.â Your smile has slightly dimmed, and youâre unconsciously scratching the skin by your nails. Even from afar, Hyunjin can discern a shadow looming in your eyes, a plea unspoken.Â
âAre you lonely?â Hyunjinâs question comes out before he can stop it, blunt and raw. Heâs always been honest, maybe too honest for his own good. Time has taught him that every moment matters, that each second slips away faster than you expect, and that itâs better to speak the truth before it comes back to poison you.Â
Your smile falters. âI just⌠donât want to go home. not yet,â you confess quietly.
âSo youâre using me?â he teases, leaning back against the wall with a smirk. You roll your eyes, muttering âNever mindâ under your breath as you start to turn away.
âFine,â he sighs, pushing off the wall. âBut Iâm craving sushi.â
âŚ
Hyunjinâs eyes are more worn than the last time youâve seen him.Â
Four years ago, they were puffy, soft with exhaustion, their brown dulled like the last flower clinging to life as fall sets in. But now, the lights have gone out completely, like a bloom crushed underfoot, its color bleeding into the cracks of the pavement.
You steal glances at him between spoonfuls of kimchi jjigae (he silently followed you to your restaurant), watching for any sign of recognition. But he doesnât seem to remember your name, nor the day at the graveyard as much as you do.
The thought strips you of embarrassment and clothes you in sadness instead. Â
Hyunjin has written your name into his diary more times than heâd care to admit, even less so to you.Â
He has always walked this earth alone, a stranger even to his own emotions, especially his griefâ no one understood how his motherâs death consumed him whole. Â
It is true that only one body was laid to the ground many years ago. But Hyunjinâs soul followed hers into the ground when he was just fourteen.Â
His sadness made sense to his teachers, his classmates, and even the distant relatives who only came around occasionally. But no one grasped the depth of his angerâat the universe for taking his mother when he was still a child, at the illness that wore down her bones, at himself, mostly, for still breathing when she no longer could.
That rage had devoured him, tore through his flesh with its canine teeth. He only saw its reflection onceâwhen he met you.
Hyunjin didnât know who or what you were mourning that day at the graveyard. But he remembers your screams on his way to his motherâs grave, raw and stripped down to the marrow. It was as if he had stumbled upon his younger self, begging his mother to dig through the earth and hug his frail body once more, just once more.Â
âHow long have you been skating ?â you ask suddenly, your gaze flickering over his face. He blinks slowly, as if to bring his consciousness back to the present moment.Â
âSince i was a kid, nearly two decades now,â he says.Â
âDo you like it?â it is a harmless question, a natural succession of the one that came before it. But nothing was ever that simple with Hyunjin, because ice skating reminded him of his mother, and his mother was the wound that had yet to stop bleeding.Â
âI do, I really do,â he speaks softly, a fragile smile curling his lips. He waits till you both finish the first bottle of soju to askâ how have you been? and itâs your turn to frown slightly. He notices the tightening of your fist around the spoon, the subtle tremor in your hand. You, too, carry an ever bleeding wound.
âIâm okay.â
The next question slips from him without thought, âare you still as angry?â
You remain silent for a few seconds, holding his gaze as the question settles between you. His cheeks flush, and he almost apologizes for his bluntness, but then you speak.
âWas I ever angry? I think I was just very sad.âÂ
Snippets of a younger Hyunjin flash through his mind. The numerous brawls he got in with his classmates, the way he pushed away anyone who tried to show him kindnessâ He was all thorns, keeping others from reaching the tender petals beneath.
Tears spring in his eyes, unbidden, and he bites his lower lip. He understands what you mean perfectly, you understand what he feels perfectly too.Â
âI feel as if my heart is too tired now to bear such big anger,â you say with a smile. âHave you worn out yet? Thatâs what Iâd like to ask.âÂ
âArenât you afraid of the answer?â he pauses, adding in a quiet whisper, âI am.âÂ
The chandelier above dances across his glossy eyes. Youâve never been optimisticâlife hasnât allowed you that luxury. But a small part of you wants to offer Hyunjin hope, to breathe life back into his weary heart, even though you no longer believe in hope yourself.
But no words of reassurance come. So instead, you offer something much simpler, much more realistic. âLetâs ask it another time, then,â you smile, pouring each other a new round of drinks. You quickly down three shots before laying your head on the table.Â
âAre you sleeping?â Hyunjin asks with a quiet laugh, the sound light, like a melody played softly on piano keys.
âItâs fine,â you wave a hand in the air. âThe owner knows me. Heâll wake me when itâs time to close.â
Both of you are running from home, or whatâs left of it. Hyunjin watches you, your face softened by fleeting peace, so different from the grief heâs etched into his memories.
Far more beautiful, too.
âThen wake me up, too,â he sighs, resting his head beside yours.
His eyelids close instantly, lulled to a nice sleep by the buzz of the fridge and the soft hum of your breathing.
Many minutes pass byâ quiet and uninterrupted. Hyunjin finds that the next day has come much slower in your company.Â
âŚ
The first time you saw Hyunjin figure skating, you were drawn like a moth to a flame to the music echoing from the ice rink.
You recognized the swelling violin of Can You Hear the Music, and paused by the entrance, torn between stepping in and turning back. What if it wasnât Hyunjin? Worse, what if it was, and he didnât wish to see you?
Still, your feet betrayed your hesitation, inching forward. You stood at the door, watching in quiet awe as Hyunjin leaped into the air, spinning with perfect grace. He landed effortlessly on one foot, the other extended behind him in a flawless arc.
The lights danced over his body, his flowing white blouse trailing his movements like a sirenâs voice pulling in sailors. His black hair floated weightlessly with each spin, strands resting delicately against his forehead.
For the past four years, you had struggled to feel human. The world tasted bland, as if your heart had lost its ability to savor anything. You were afraid youâd lost the capacity to be amazedâby sunsets, by poignant art that once moved you to tears. So you chased after beauty, desperate for the feelings it could still stir in you, a fragile reminder of your humanity.
But watching Hyunjin skateâ that gripped your heart more than anything else had in years.
âHeâs good, isnât he?â a voice startles you and you turn quickly, caught off guard by a man standing beside you, a bottle of water in hand and a kind smile on his face.
âYes, he is,â you reply quietly.
âIâm Jihyoun, Hyunjinâs coach,â he introduced himself, extending a firm hand.
âYn,â you hesitated, glancing at Hyunjin, who was still absorbed in his performance. âAn acquaintance.â
Jihyoun nodded, leaning against the wall with his arms crossed. You followed suit, unable to tear your gaze away from Hyunjin as he spun, cradling his chest as if holding a memory close, his body lowering toward the ground in a quiet ache. It was a pain you knew all too well.
As the music softened, Hyunjin stilled, closing his eyes, taking a moment to catch his breath. You were about to slip away, retreating like a shadow escaping the light, but Jihyoun would have found you weird, perhaps heâd think you were a stalker. So, you remained there.Â
âHey, coach,â Hyunjin waved, skating toward you both. Anxiety flickered in your chest like a match that refused to light upâyou regretted coming now. You had shared a meal just days ago, but Hyunjin hadnât asked for your name, nor did he seem to remember it. Maybe you held onto his memory more warmly than he held onto yours.
âMiss Julliard,â Hyunjin greeted with a soft smile as his eyes landed on you, and just like that, your worries dissolved like sugar in hot tea.
âJulliard? Thatâs impressive,â Jihyoun whistled, but you shook your head. You often forgot how prestigious your school wasâperhaps because no one ever celebrated your acceptance in it.
No one, except Hyunjin.
âHave you eaten?â Hyunjin asked, gliding to the edge of the rink, his blouse clinging to his sweat-soaked skin.
âNo,â you shook your head. He nodded nonchalantly.
âIâm craving kimchi jiggae again,â he tipped his chin towards you, âwe can go again, if youâd like.â
âSure, Iâd like that,â you grinned.
âOkay. Wait for me.â
âŚÂ
Hyunjinâs routine has always been quite simple.Â
Heâd work out in the morning, the rest of his day lost in practice, his nights reserved for painting or reading, sometimes pouring his thoughts onto paper. It was a life untouched by turbulence, a pattern he rarely swayed fromâ until you wove yourself into it.
For the past two weeks, you always came to see Hyunjin at the end of his practice. Some nights youâd go eat dinner at your usual spot; sometimes youâd simply buy a drink and find a quiet refuge on the rooftop, watching the city lights twinkle beneath the stars.
There was a strange sense of comfort, he had found, in two bruised souls sitting with one anotherâ an unspoken understanding of what your tongues had often failed to express.
But you hadnât come to see him in two days.
Itâs past one a.m. when Hyunjin finally exits the practice building. He pauses outside, turning back to see that the lights are still on in the dance studio.Â
He hopes it is you dancing there.Â
With a faint sigh, he takes the stairs two at a time, not wanting to dwell on the fact that, for the very first time in a while, Hyunjin, the ever lonely man, is seeking someone elseâs presence.Â
When Hyunjin pushes open the studio door, he finds you sitting on the floor, knees tucked to your chest. Your tutu encircles you the way petals would hug a stemâ layers of soft tulle in pale pink, contrasting delicately against your sheer tights and pointe shoes.
You appear just like the water lily he sketched only yesterdayâsoft pastels and an unmatched delicateness. His cheeks flush at the comparison, and, in a hurried attempt to leave, he fumbles, catching his shirt on the doorknob and bumping into the door.Â
Heâs frozen in place, wincing when you call out his name in surprise. Does he have to embarrass himself each time heâs around you?Â
He turns slowly, a sheepish smile creeping onto his face. âMiss Julliard,â he waves, and you grin in return, your eyes warm, âWhat are you doing here?â
The words are lost on him as you run over to him, stopping mere inches away from his figure. His fingers twitch for his sketchbook, a sudden urge seizes him to draw you.
âYou didnât come by yesterday so I came to see you,â he explains, voice soft like a summer breeze.Â
Your grin brightens like the sun. âAh, did you miss me?â you tease, and he rolls his eyes playfully, walking past you to sit on the floor.Â
Did he miss you? no he didnât, but his heart did ache, just a little, at your absence.
âWhy did you look so defeated sitting on the ground?â he asks instead of replying, leaning against the mirrored wall.
You sigh, taking your place across from him, âpracticing this dance is so hard, I got sick of it.âÂ
He nods, understanding the frustration that stems from being a perfectionist, always chasing ideals in your work.
âYou know what helps me? Performing to a song I love. Reminds me what I love about the sport.â
You hum, before a mischievous glint sparks in your eyes. âThere is this one song.. From a barbie movie.â
He blinks in surprise, laughing as you dash for your phone.
âBarbie?â
âYes! The 12 dancing princesses. My mom made me watch it to convince me to take up ballet.âÂ
âIs that so?â he grins, placing his chin atop his palm.Â
âYeah, she wanted me to follow my sisterâs footsteps,â you say, and he thinks back to the small grave you were both kneeling next to. âI wonder if I wouldnât have become a ballerina if I didnât watch it,â you muse, before clearing your throat.
âAnyways,â you force a smile on your face, as a whimsical melody streams through the loud speakers. Your grin turns childlike as you stand onto pointe, your raised foot grazing the knee of your supporting leg.Â
You glide across the floor as if you are floating, your tutu catching the soft glow of the studio light. Your leaps are as light as air, and you slide to Hyunjin grabbing his hand to pull him up, drawing him into your orbit.Â
You laugh, spinning around him, your movements fluid and free, yet your arms frame your figure with a rehearsed prouesse. He canât help but laugh with you, the warmth of your presence filling the room, the music wrapping around you both like a spell.Â
Youâre a blur of pink and light, you appear like an angel dancing to the tune of childhood memories.
As the song reaches its end, you twirl one last time before bowing gracefully. Hyunjin claps, the sound echoing in the quiet studio.
âI havenât danced to that in years,â you say, catching your breath. âI probably looked ridiculous.â
He shakes his head, his voice steady and sincere. âI think ballet wouldâve found you anyway. Itâs like you were born for it.â
Hyunjin is used to the cold bite of the ice rink, that is where he feels most like himself. But he is somehow drawn to the warmth of this particular studioâno, not just the studio. Itâs the warmth you bring, the way your smile lights up the space at his words, that makes him feel, for the first time in a long while, that he could have a friend. That he doesnât need to walk down the path of life alone.
âŚ
Youâre lingering at the doorstep of your home, keys gripped like a lifeline in your trembling fingers. It always takes you three heartbeats to open the doorâone to shut your eyes, two to fill your lungs with air, and three to prepare for the tidal wave of hurt waiting on the other side.
You push the door open and slip inside, peeling off your shoes like a shadow trying to leave no trace. With each step, the house pulls you in, a black hole swallowing the warmth that once flickered in your veins, devouring any trace of light.
Dinner with Hyunjin still burns faintly in your chest, like the lingering heat of a fireplace after the flames have died. He makes you laugh a lot, because heâs clumsy, and a peculiar fan of weird debates. You had just spent an hour discussing whether humans have two buttcheeks or simply one.
But you wither down inside this home, your joy punctured like a balloon drifting too close to the sun.
The walls have permeated your sadness, they echo the killing sentence your father cast into your heart four years ago, a wound that festers no matter how much time has passed.
Hyunjin asked you a few days ago why you were back to Seoul. You told him you were competing in the Seoul International Ballet Competition, and he said that he was preparing for the Olympics selection. He then laughed, saying how strange it was that after a month of seeing each other every day, it was only now that youâd shared this.Â
You tried to laugh with him, but the sound felt like a stone sinking in your throat. Guilt gnawed at you, not because it was a lie, but because it wasnât the whole truth. The ballet may have brought you back, but something else called you home.Â
At times you wonder if you had made the right call by answering it.
âYouâre home,â your motherâs voice cuts through the quiet as you enter the kitchen. You nod, humming absentmindedly.Â
âI made pasta, itâs in the oven. And I bought that drink you like,â she says, but her words are too sweet, too forcedâlike the artificial flavor of apple in fizzy drinks.Â
âThanks,â you whisper, barely loud enough to carry the word across to her.
âIâll grab it for you,â she says, moving toward the fridge. But when she opens it, her hands falter, hovering over empty shelves. âThatâs strange⌠I couldâve sworn I put it here.â You grip the counter tighter as she flits from cabinet to cabinet, her search growing frantic.Â
âItâs fine, Iâm not thirsty,â you murmur, but she continues, finally pulling open the dishwasher.
âAh, silly me,â she says softly, retrieving the can with trembling hands. You keep your eyes low, unwilling to meet hers. âIâm sorry,â she whispers, her voice as fragile as a cracked vase, âI forget so much these days.âÂ
And just like that, she slips out of the kitchen, leaving behind a gaping hole in your chest that threatens to swallow you whole. Â
You hate it when she forgets in front of you, because it shatters the illusion. You see her now, as something frail, crumbling under the weight of time. Her mind, like a worn-out book, is losing pages faster than you can salvage them.
And the cruelest part is that it forces you to forgive herâto hold her in the softness of your heart, knowing that one day sheâll forget who you are entirely.
But has she ever known who you were to begin with? Has she ever dared to ask?Â
Has she ever cared to?Â
âŚÂ
The first time Hyunjin spoke about his mother, you were both lying on the grass underneath a starry night.
You had been rambling about a specific bagel from New York that you missed, while he hummed absentmindedly, his thoughts entangled in memories like marionettes tugged by invisible strings from the past.
He hadnât meant to ignore you; so when you turned to him, playful mischief dancing on your lipsââAre you listening to me?ââhe could only offer a sheepish grin in response.Â
âWhatâs on your mind?â you asked, and he bit his lip, worry knitting his brow.Â
Hyunjin had never had anyone to speak to about his mother; her memory resided in the pages of his diary, the strokes of his paintings, the rhythm of his dancesânever out loud, never to another soul.
But he suddenly felt an insatiable urge to speak of her; thorns pricking his throat, his skin growing feverish as he fought to form the words he longed to speak.Â
âWhatâs wrong?â you pressed, your tone shifting to one of concern. He thought you wouldnât mind if he shared her memory, but what he would even say? There was so much to talk about, so much he admired, so much he missed.
âMy momâŚâ he started, his voice tentative. He had your full attention now, he could tell by the way you fully turned around to look at him. âShe used to make the best kimchi stew,â he confessed, closing his eyes in slight embarrassment. Is this really what he decided to speak about?Â
Still, he pushed through. âShe made it for me whenever I was sick. I donât attach it to bad memories because it was delicious, and I could feel that she made it out of love, out of concern.â He pauses, sucking in a deep breath. âI hadnât eaten it at all since she passed away. I couldnât bring myself to. Until you took me to that restaurant.â
His eyes glistened as they settled on you, âSo thank you for taking me there. I think you would have liked her kimchi stew.â
Your eyes widened slightly, dewdrops brimming in your waterline before you smiled softly. âIâm sure I wouldâve.âÂ
He cleared his throat, somehow emboldened by the tenderness of your gaze. He thought that her memory would be safe within the confines of your mind. He thought that he wouldnât mind sharing her with you. âShe was the best figure skater Iâve ever seen.â
âWas she? Is she the one who inspired you to become an ice skater?â you asked, curiosity lighting up your expression. He nodded eagerly. âYes, she was graceful with her moves; it felt as if she floated atop the ice. The media dubbed her the best figure skater of her generation,â he spoke, pride swelling within him as he noticed the admiration in your expression.
âIt was always just her and me, so Iâd stay late into the night watching her practice. That was my favorite pastime. Sheâd always buy me the food I wanted afterward, as a thank you.â
âShe sounds like a good mother,â you said, and your words morphed into fingers pressing on his tender bruises.Â
âShe was. She is.âÂ
âTell me more,â you smiled, and so he talked, and talked and talked. He shared everything he could recall: their weekly picnics beneath cherry trees, birthday candles theyâd blow out together, the medals she dedicated to him, and her silly jokes that had once filled their home with laughter.Â
He spoke of her kindness, her joy that lingered even until her last breath, the love that she beheld for this life and her art, and him. He didnât mention her illness; it was a mere passing moment, never defining her, never stripping her from the passion that bound her atoms together.Â
When he finished, he found his cheeks damp with tears, but his heart felt lighter than it had in years. The air around you was sweeter, for once, it wasnât fourteen-year-old Hyunjin weeping over the memory of his mother. The ache had softened.
His last words hung in the air, echoing softly in the stillness of the empty park. You didnât speak; instead, you gently placed your palm atop his.Â
It is his very soul that twitched at your touch.Â
âWhat are you doing?â he asked breathlessly, a foolish question, perhaps.Â
Your reply was even more obvious, simpler.
âComforting you.â
âIâŚâ he hesitated, eyes darting furiously over your face, then your hand resting upon his, then your eyes once more, watching him patiently, leaving him the space to retract his hand or intertwine your fingers with his.Â
âIâm scared,â he finally admitted, the shadows of his fears looming large. It terrified him even more to utter such words, yet he knew you wouldnât use them against him; you understood what it felt like to be deprived of comfortâ somehow that only saddened him even more.
âWhat if⌠What if I forget the coldness of her fingers wrapped around mine?âÂ
âYour mom loved you, Hyunjin. And someone who loves you would want your hand to feel warm.âÂ
Something shifted within his heart, atoms rearranging themselves to spell out a simple truth for Hyunjinâ your mom would want you to be happy.Â
He nodded, willing his fingers to slip in the empty spaces between your fingers. You squeezed his handâonce, twice, thriceâeach pulse a silent invitation for your warmth to seep through his veins, to permeate his bones and sink into his heart.Â
He could get used to this, he thought. He wants to get used to your warmth, he realizes.
What does that mean?Â
âŚ
Hyunjin has always known who he was, memorized to heart the architecture of his personality.Â
He knew he loved art, that he found solace in learning about artists past who, like him, seemed to have sculpted their solitude into something lasting.
He knew he loved painting, he knew he hated egg plants, he knew heâd rather die than not achieve his motherâs dream, for him.Â
But something within him was shiftingâunraveling.Â
His eyes are drawn to the entrance of the ice rink, like a compass needle to true north. His neck craned almost instinctively as the clock looms over 11 p.m.â the time you usually come by to the studio.Â
âDonât worry, sheâll drop by,â Jihyonâs voice cut through his trance. Hyunjin startled, his cheeks blooming with the soft pink of a rising dawn.
âWhat are you talking about?â he mumbled, but Jihyon only grinned knowingly.Â
âMiss Julliard,â his coach teased. Was he that obvious? Did you notice it too?Â
That nickname clung to you both since the first time he uttered it near the vending machine. You never corrected him, never offered your real name, and he never askedâthough he knew it well. He had thought of you often over these past four years, wondered if you had been well, wondered if you had ever moved on or if you still carried the anger, the heartbreak as if it were your own spine.
He felt guilty that he had found comfort in your pain all these nights past.Â
Did that make Hyunjin selfish? Or lonely?Â
âDonât stay up too late,â Jihyon said as he waved goodbye.
âDonât worry about me.âÂ
Jihyon lingered by the door, as if wishing to say something else, but he simply sighed before leaving.
It feels odd now for Hyunjin to stand in the stillness of the ice rink, feeling like a hollow shell without you. The quiet is no longer familiar, nor comforting, not when heâs grown accustomed to your giggles spilling all over the place.Â
What does it mean, he wondered, when the heart learns to beat to the rhythm of someone elseâs presence? When the mind begins to archive every detail, every smile, everything that the other person has ever loved?
Like clockwork you jog into the studio, waving at Hyunjin from afar. He skates over to you, leaning against the railing as he smiles, it is natural for him to smile at you.
âHow was practice?â you asked, and he shot you a thumbs-up, his fingers drumming against the railing.
âIsnât your competition next week?â you ask and he nods, âCan I come watch then?â you say and his heart stutters at your request.
âYou can, if you want to, if you donât itâs okay too, you actually donât have to,â he mumbles, his words rushing out, until you pressed a finger to his lips, silencing himÂ
âIâll be there, I have to make sure everyone cheers for you when you win,â you grin, self-assuredly, as if you have never doubted that heâll qualify for the Olympics.Â
His heart grows limp at your words, his limbs losing their strength as your finger lingers upon his lips. He gently grabs your hand, moving it away, goosebumps rippling across his skin at how soft your wrist feels.
This isnât normal.Â
âShould I bring pom poms? Actually, should I make them from scratch? Whatâs your favorite color?âÂ
âWill you actually come?â he whispers. Hyunjin has never had anyone cheering for him in his competitions, except for his coach, but he was obligated to do so, in a way. He doesnât remember what it feels like to smile at someone in the stands anticipating your win.Â
Somewhat, you sense the gravity of hyunjinâs question, the vulnerability it entails, one he doesnât try to hide. He has never attempted to hide his emotions from you, now that he thinks about it.
âOf course I will,â your voice softens, your playfulness melting away. âI promise. IâŚâ you point your pinky to him and he chuckles quietly, âI pinky promise.âÂ
You kiss your thumb pad and signal for him to do the same, he shakes his head before following your lead, pressing both your thumb pads together.Â
âThere, sealed forever.âÂ
You quiet down, before giggling for a reason that eludes you both.Â
âHave you ever tried ice skating?â he suddenly asks and you nod, âI know how to skate, but not how to do all those fancy spins of yours.âÂ
âDo you want to try?â he smiles and you lighten up, âActually? What if I fall?âÂ
âIâll be there to catch you.â
A few moments later, you were both on the ice, Hyunjin spinning around you as you found your balance. âThis feels so different from ballet,â you chuckle and he grins, âdo you like it?â
âYeah, i do.â
âCome here,â he beckons, reaching for your hand, and you donât hesitate, your fingers intertwining with his as he leads you across the rink.Â
Can you hear the music starts playing on the loud speakers and Hyunjin laughs, turning around to look at you.
âIâm scared,â you giggle happily and he shakes his head, âLet go of your fears and hold on to me.â
And then, without warning, he spins you, the motion sending your hair flying around you like wings unfurling in the wind. heâs spurred by the emotions this song alone can bestow on him. Can you hear the music?, it asks. Yes, he can, now more than ever, is his answer.
He wraps a secured arm around your waist, lifting you off the ground as he traces wide circles on the ice. Your laughter can be heard over the music, shouts of exhilaration ripping through you as you lift your leg to a ninety degree, as if doing ballet on ice.Â
He twirls with you in his arms, as the music hits its crescendo, before finally putting you down, his arm still around you, your chests almost brushing against one another.
Youâre so close, closer than youâve ever been, Hyunjin can decipher the specks of light in your eyes, can hear the booming sound of your heartbeat in his chest. Your hand wraps around his bicep as you catch your breath, and Hyunjin is wrapped in a cocoon of your scent.Â
He doesnât wish to break free, he wants to remain in the chrysalis woven by the notes of your perfume.Â
Itâs a few hours later, Hyunjin laid on his bed, a pillow tightly pressed to his face. He wasnât a stranger to late-night thoughts strung along by the twilight, but he had never thought before of thisâof your lips, how soft they looked inches away from his, how itâd feel to press them on yours, to move slowly, tentatively, and then ravenously, hungrily, achingly.
âFuck,â he mutters, further burying himself under his covers. Hyunjin wasnât accustomed to these kinds of thoughts, he had never pursued someone, never had the time nor the energy to do so. Never had anyone grab his attention, in the first place.
Until you.
âDo I like her?â he murmurs to no one but himself, before shaking his head forcefully. âGo to sleep, Hyunjin,â he mutters, willing his eyes to shut closed, sewed so tightly together images of you cannot slip through his eyelids.
But to no avail.
He groans, kicking the covers off before heading to his desk. There, he opens his diary, grabbing a pen as if to write a new entry. But his fingers itch for the buried notebook from four years ago, the one he eyes from the corner of his eye.
He sighs softly before digging it out of its place, his fingers expertly going to his entry the night he came back from the graveyard. The night you met.
He remembers coming home slightly distraught after dropping you off, he had lingered by the door a bit, hearing echoing screams, a door being slammed, then an eerie silence once more.
Hyunjin had been too immersed in his pain to afford absorbing othersâ sadness. A sponge that is too saturated, unable to welcome the woes of any other being.
But you had managed to crack through his defenses, frayed yourself a passage through the small gaps forgotten, shed sunlight on parts of himself he had thought were rotten, lost beyond salvation.
He felt an excruciating sadness for you, for your anger, for your sadness, for the way it consumed you whole, because he knew what would followâwhen a body burns up, all that is left after is ashes, scattered everywhere, mingling with specks of dust, meaningless, a heart that serves no purpose anymore.
He never told you, he is unsure if he ever would, but it was the fourth anniversary of his motherâs death when he met you. He had planned to spend the night in a willowing state of sadness, an incapacitating one that didnât allow for his limbs to move, similar to the first anniversary, then the second, then the third.
But he had spent the rest of it sketching your tearful eyes as you looked up at him, as you cowered away from his words, as you relaxed in his car.
That is the image he finds in his diary entry. But now that he thinks about it, he didnât skillfully depict the moles scattered on your face, the crease near your eyes, or the way your hair reflects the sunâs light. He didnât capture the arch of your eyebrow or the way beauty seems to reside in every nook and cranny of your face, seems to pour out of your pores like the sun brushing against a waterfall the way timid lovers doâmagical, beautiful.
He sees you in a whole different light, now.
Hyunjin runs a tired hand through his hair, before grabbing his sketchbook. In the hours that ensued, in which he tried to do your beauty justice, erasing and retracing the shape of you time and time again, numerous questions ran through his mind, racing against time to find answers.
Does he like you? No, too simplistic of a question, too dim to encapsulate what knowing you feels like.
Is his soul drawn to yours?
Perhaps. Yes. Most definitely, his heart whispered.
Would he be a fool if he ever confessed it to you?
It is his mind that answered then. A bit forcefully, in fear, in warning: yes, a thousand times yes.
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There are places in your parentâs house that you always stray from, the way oil stirs away from water. One, the vicinity of their bedroom, two, the living roomâ the ones in which you are most likely to stumble upon them. Three, the attic, in which you will most likely brush against ghosts from the past.
But somehow you found yourself exactly there, tonight.Â
It's 10 p.m. The sun has long sunk below Seoulâs horizon, leaving behind a sky awash in an exquisitely deep blue, so inviting you almost wish to disappear into it. Today was your rest day, no dance studio, no late night escapades with Hyunjin.
You find yourself missing his giggles and how they would linger in your mind long after you part ways.
The attic is still, the floorboards creaking beneath the weight of your feet as you fumble for a light switch, your hand sweeping along the dusty wall. It flickers on, weak and golden, and you squint as the air, thick with age, coats your lungs.Â
Old furniture crowds the room, remnants of a life you left behind four years ago. Youâre surprised they kept your bed untouched in your room, one last string tying them to your memory.
Your eyes sweep over old paintings, broken suitcases, and wooden shelves, a hand mixerâuseless now. And then, you see it, the reason you climbed here.Â
Your mother had once mentioned a box, in passing, filled with things your sister wanted to leave for you. Your mother wasnât pregnant with you at the time nor did she intend to, but sheâd entertain the idea to make her favorite girl happy.Â
You kneel and pull the box to your lap, the cardboard soft and weathered under your fingers.
âShe was so kind,â your mother had said, too many glasses of wine in her system, her words loose and unguarded. âShe gave up her favorite toys for you, before you were even born.â You never asked why they were never passed on, deep down you already knew the answer. She never deemed you worthy of having them.Â
Inside, you find a small doll with golden hair and big glassy blue eyes, its pink dress dotted with strawberries, a swan hairpin missing some crystals, and tiny, delicate ballerina shoes, pale pink, unused, smallâso small.Â
And then, a note.Â
Your heart stumbles, the bile rising fast to your throat as you grip the worn paper in your hands.Â
Your sister had always been a myth, a memory passed down to you by your parents. An elusive figure you have only seen in photographs, until now.Â
Youâve never had words that she addressed to you.Â
The paper crinkles as you unfold it. You can somehow hear the rush of hot blood in your veinsâuncomfortable, deafening.Â
The words blur together as your eyes skim over the paper. You catch fragmentsâ to my future sisterâthen something about how she wants to play with you, urging you to hurry, come quickly, before I break all my toys.
Your vision wavers, the small, careful handwriting barely legible through the haze. I left you my favorite doll and hairpin. So simple. So kind. I also left you my new ballet shoes. You donât have to like ballet but if you do that would be awesome.
I would love to dance ballet with you.
The note crumples in your hand as your heart lurches, body jolted upright as if struck by lightning. You stumble out of the attic, discarding the box as the walls close in on you. They press, like the past, against your ribcage until you feel like you might suffocate.
Youâve carried resentment like a stone in your chest, a tide pulled by the moon, ever present, ever rising. You resented her because her memory haunted you, grew larger than life as you did. But she never asked for that. She was just a child, a seven-year-old who loved you before you even existed.
How horrible are you?Â
Guilt is bitter on your tongue, sour as acid, and you swallow hard against it, tasting the metallic tang of regret. You donât think as you barge into your parentâs room, blinded by feelings too entangled like vines to tell apart.Â
âWhatâs wrong?â your mother asks, sitting in a bed too big for her alone. You throw the crumpled note at her.Â
âWhy did you never give me this?â you demand, and her eyes widen as she skims the lines, a sheen glazing her pupils.Â
âIâŚâ she stammers, and you laughâa hollow, jagged soundâas your hands press against your forehead, fingers digging into the migraine feeding off your pain.
âYou know I hated her, right? Iâ I hated a child, my sister because I never felt loved by you,â you choke, voice fracturing, âhowâ my god how pathetic is that?âÂ
âiâve always loved you,â she says, voice tentative. but it is too meek of a reply, too hollow before the depths of your abandonment.Â
âIâve never, NEVER felt once loved by you! YOU made me feel as if I was competing with a ghost. She wasnât here but she was everywhere and I was never enough to fill her shoes!âÂ
âI was a grieving mother!â she yells, standing up to face you, her face flushed and her hands trembling. âDo you know how terrible it feels to lower your child into the ground? Do you know how horrible I felt covering her grave when she was scared of the dark, when she hated the cold? Sheââ her voice cracks like fragile glass, unraveling as tears spill over her face, âShe kept telling me that she didnât want to leave us, that she didnât want to die. How am Iââ She sobs, the sound raw, torn, âhow am I supposed to forget my babyâs last breath? how am i supposed to be a perfect mother to you when I couldnât protect her?âÂ
âi never wanted a perfect mother.â you murmur, eyes shutting tight, chest heaving with hiccuped breaths. âI never said you had to forget her. But I was right here. I was alive. I was breathing, hurting, waiting for you to see me, to love me.â Your voice breaks, you sound like your seven years old self and you hate that. âDid I mean so little to you?â
You smile sadly before her silence, your shoulders dropping low. You are too tired for an offense, too tired to tear down her defenses. âIâm sorry that I wasnât always a good child. Iâm sorry that sometimes I threw tantrums. Iâm sorry for all the ways I failed you. I know Iâm not perfect. I hurt, I stumble, I make mistakes. I am filled with resentment. I choke with it, and sometimes I hurt others too. But I try. I always try to make things right. And I apologize if I do.âÂ
Silence thickens between you both like browned sugar, though this moment is anything but sweet. You remain quiet, hoping for your salvation to come in the form of two words, two simple wordsâ Iâm sorryâthat is all it would take to soothe your heart a little.Â
You wait, and wait, and more seconds pass as the silence stretches longer and your mother refuses to meet your eyes. And slowly, slowly the hope withers within you. You know she isnât apologizing tonight. Maybe not ever.
âForget it.â you whisper as you leave the room and hurriedly walk out of the house. You need something strong, something to burn away the ache, something to scald the memory from your bones, to forget.
Itâs nearly midnight when Hyunjin finally steps out of the training building. The air is crisp, cool against his flushed skin, but his relief is short-lived as his eyes land on Sohee, the owner of the kimchi jjigae place nearby, hovering by the entrance.Â
Hyunjinâs frown deepensâsomething feels off.Â
âAh, hyunjin,â the fifty something quickly jogs up to him. âThe security guard told me you still hadnât left.â
âIs something wrong?â
âYn has been drinking for the past hours, she looks.. Sad. And Iâm worried she canât get home safely.â Soheeâs tone sets off the alarm in Hyunjinâs mind.Â
His worry tightens into a knot in his chest as he steps into the narrow restaurant. His eyes immediately fall on youâyour cheek pressed against the table, five empty soju bottles scattered around you
He crouches in front of you, his heart twisting as he takes in the dried streaks of tears on your cheeks. What happened?
âHey,â he whispers gently, afraid to jolt you awake. You stir, blinking groggily, trying to piece together your surroundings.
âHyunjin,â you breathe, barely a whisper, and his heart softens at the sound. He nods, offering you a small smile, though concern darkens his eyes. âWhatâs wrong, hm?â
His words unlock something deep inside you, and your face crumbles like a porcelain vase breaking apart. The tears come swiftly, welling in your eyes until they spill over, your lower lip trembling like fragile branches in a storm.
âIâm aâIâm a horrible person,â you choke out between sobs, your voice trembling as much as your body. Your eyes squeeze shut as your shoulders quake, and Hyunjinâs hands move instinctively, gently covering your tightly clenched fists.
âNo, youâre not,â he murmurs, his voice soft and steady, as if trying to hold you together with his words alone.
But you shake your head fiercely, a sob tearing from your throat, raw and unrestrained. âIâm a horrible sister,â you manage to whisper, your words barely audible as you wipe at your eyes, only for the tears to fall faster, harder.
Hyunjin watches you break, his heart aching with every tear that slips down your face. He feels weird, feverish, as if your pain has somewhat transferred to his heart. He glances at Sohee, who quietly steps out of the restaurant, leaving the two of you alone in the quiet, dim light.
With a soft sigh, Hyunjin gently cups your face in his hands, his palms warm against your tear-streaked cheeks. His thumbs trace slow, soothing circles across your skin.
âYou didnât even get to be a sister, how could you be a horrible one?âÂ
âI hated her for so long when all she wanted was to dance with me. I hated a child for so long, Iâm a-a horrible person.âÂ
Hyunjin tentatively licks his lips, thoughts jumbled in his mind like wires. His heart is beating so fast as he wraps an arm around your back, bringing your face to the crook of his neck. You seem to melt in his embrace, tension loosening off of your back as he gently pats your spine.Â
âI donât think you hated your sister. You hated how your parents treated you. Those are two different things.â
Your tears are unceasing, trickling down his skin as you sob more and more. He doesnât mind the dampening of his shirt, he would never mind a lot of things when it comes to you.
âHumans arenât straightforward lines, we bend and twist and stray from our paths because our hearts are too frail and sometimes we carry emotions too heavy for us to bear. Sometimes we are pushed to feel certain things when weâve never wanted to go through them.â
He never stops patting your back gently, his hand traveling from the top of your hair to the base of your spine. âA bad person does not worry about being a bad person. Iâm sure your sister knows you love her. You have nothing to feel horrible about.â
Your tears are unyielding and Hyunjin feels as if it isnât enoughâ to press your body to his hoping the rhythm of his heart would calm down yours, to think of words of his own doing to soothe your pain. He has not had to comfort anyone in so long, he doesnât know how to stop your ache. He wishes he could soak your sorrow into his heart insteadâ heâs used to it, he can handle your pain and his, at once.
Heâs racking his mind furiously for things to comfort you. In his memory he stumbles upon the poem of Mary Oliver that has held his hand in the dark.
âWould you like to hear my favorite poem?â he asks, in a whisper.
He feels you nodding against his chest, and he peels himself away from you, painfully, like removing a bandaid from a wound that has yet to scab.
Hyunjinâs eyes are wide and glossy as he peers into yours, as he looks beyond your irises and gazes at your soul, as he recites to you, with a steady voice like a current that doesnât fall prey to the hazards of stormsâ âYou do not have to be good.â He smiles softly. âYou do not have to walk on your knees for a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.â The verb strikes you like a thunderbolt. âYou only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves.â
It passes him like a vision, a flash of white that blinds him, him holding your cheeks but without tears, him cupping your face, in the mornings and in the nights, because it is you his soft clueless flesh aches to love.
Itâs gone as quick as it came, his words come out much slower, much more disoriented as he continuesâ âTell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.â
âI want to tell you,â you hiccup, your cheeks are all rosy, delicate red veins protruding the white of your eyes. Your lips are all swollen from how hard you bit them to muffle your sobs.
âI will listen,â he reassures. Hyunjin stays true to his words. He drives you to his place, there, atop his couch, lit by a flower shaped lamp casting warm shadows on you both; you felt safe, a vanilla tea in hand, to talk, to tell Hyunjin everything, how you felt and how lonely, excruciatingly lonely you have been for the past years.
And he listens, he listens well, nodding, holding your hand when it shakes, wiping your tears when they slip from your face.
You feel a sense of gratitude swell in your heart, as if a hundred tulips bloomed in your chest at once. You feel safe talking about your biggest fears to Hyunjin, handing him your heart on an open palm, bruised, bleeding. He would wrap it in a gauze for you, he would keep it safe till you can heal it once more.
You doze in and off sleep on the couch, you can feel Hyunjin placing a warm blanket atop you. You swear he sat by your side for a long while, his hand gently patting your hair and threading through your locks.
You resisted the urge to pull his hand, to beg him to climb near you on the couch and have him encapsulate you in his hold once more. It would be too much for him to bear. Too much of you to ask. Too hard for you to handle a no.
Because even in your drunken state, with a heart weighed down by alcohol and ten thousand stones of grief, when Hyunjin cupped your cheeks in his larger, warmer hands, when he peered into your soul with his brown glimmering eyes, when it looked as if he could mirror your pain, as if he could understand the guilt, as if he could hold your hand through the griefâ for one second, for a fleeting instant, it was all forgotten.Â
The grief became a simple myth in your mind, a distant memory, something you could brush away as a bad dream slipping away with the march of time; simply because he was there for you through it.
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Hyunjin is beautiful.
This isnât new knowledge for you, per se. You've known it from the moment your eyes met his, through a veil of relentless rain and the sting of unshed tears. Even then, you recognized itâhe was the most beautiful human youâd ever seen.Â
But somehow, youâve managed to tuck this knowledge away, placed it in a forgotten recess of your mind. You had found other things to like about Hyunjin, things that wouldnât be weird for a friend to admireâ and Hyunjin made that an easy feat for you.Â
You enjoyed the poems, all the ones heâd recite to you from time to time. You loved watching peopleâs eyes turn to behold him, and him unaware of this magnetic aura coating his porcelain skin. You felt warm hearing his bright and unrestrained giggles, seeing traces of happiness carved into his eyes, watching his lips stretch into a wide grin that seemed to swallow the world whole.Â
But there are moments when itâs harder to forget. Like nowâwhen Hyunjin stands before you, slipping on the finishing touches of his performance outfit. His sky-blue top clings to his frame, bedazzled with pearls and diamonds that cascade like teardrops, swooping around his small waist and hugging his broad shoulders. The fabric melts into his black pants, carving his silhouette like a chiseled statue.
There are only ten minutes left before his turn on stage. Last night, over quiet spoonfuls of miso soup, Hyunjin told you to please stay backstage with him, his voice so soft it felt like a secret only meant for you. And how could you refuse? Hyunjin wanted you closeâHyunjin asked for you.
He is nervous, you can tell by the slight tremble of his hands as he struggles with his earring, the delicate hoop slipping from his grasp. It falls, and before you know it, youâve stepped forward, picking it up, your fingers steady as you help him clasp it into place.Â
His gaze is heavy on you, and your heart beats a little too fast. You avoid meeting his eyesâheâs too close, too vulnerable of a setting for you.
You finish, stepping back, but Hyunjinâs hand finds your wrist, gently tugging you close again. He doesnât let go, his fingers playing with the hem of your sleeve. He bites his lip, lets go of the plush flesh before biting it once more, then he confesses. âiâm scared.âÂ
Your fingers find his wrist, settle above his wildly beating pulse, a small part of you selfishly wishes it is because of your proximity. Your thumb gently swipes across his soft skin as you say, âyouâll do amazing. Iâm sure of it.â
He nods, though something flickers in his eyes, something unsaid that lingers between you. He swallows it down, offering you a small smile. âThank you. Iâll see you after.â
âOkay,â you grin back, âIâll see you with a gold medal.âÂ
Youâve seen this choreography countless times before, memorized every twist, every subtle motion of his body. But watching him perform, under the harsh, burning lights, is like witnessing something new.Â
Hyunjin moves with a grace that defies reason, a dancer molded by the music, his body bending to its rhythm, his face crumbling as the music swells.Â
Hyunjin glides around as if he is one with the ice, he glows, like the sun on stage, mesmerizing, dipping low with the music and soaring high with its rhythm. Your hand is on your chest as you watch him deliver the killing move, a deep dip, head thrown back, his body a perfect arch on his knees.Â
He finishes, under the roaring applause of everyone around. Youâre first to stand on your feet and the entire arena follows, giving Hyunjin the standing ovation he deserves, the only one of the night. He bows deeply, a hand on his heart as he soaks in the praise.Â
You feel like throwing up as you anxiously await the results to show up on the screen. One minute of silence passes by, then, you see it. His name comes in first.Â
Hyunjin won. Hyunjin qualified for the Olympics.
Heâs already skating towards you, and youâre moving, rushing down to meet him. You wrap him in a tight hug, feeling his chest rise and fall with quick breaths.
âHow was it?â he asks, laughter bubbling in his voice. You find it to be such a silly question.Â
How could he be anything but extraordinary?
âYou fucking did it, Hyunjin,â you say, the words leaving you in a rush. He tips his head back, laughing, his happiness so pure it aches. You reluctantly pull away from him as Jihyoun comes to congratulate him, pulling him too for a hug.
âProud of you son,â he says and you can see Hyunjinâs eyes well up with tears. you wish you could kiss them away, the tears and the sadness, will it to desert his heart, kiss his smile and happiness, learn the taste of his joys and sorrows.Â
Oh god.Â
The thoughts submerge you like youâre doused in gasoline, and being near Hyunjin is the crickling match that will set you on fire.
âThereâs an afterparty to celebrate the man of the hour,â Jihyoun grins, patting Hyunjinâs back in a fatherly manner. You can feel the pull of the crowd, people waiting to shower him with well-deserved praise, like waves gathering to meet the shore.
âAre you coming?â Hyunjinâs voice is soft as his gaze lingers on you. You hesitate, and he pouts, a flicker of vulnerability crossing his face. âI want you to come, please.â
âOkay,â you smile, though your feet are already inching away. âBut I left my phone at home. Iâll go get it and come back.â That is the truth, or maybe just a shadow of it.
âDo you want me to come with you?â
Hyunjin, ever the considerate one. His kindness cuts deeper than he knows, a dull blade slicing against your fragile skin. You hate how you pull his thoughtfulness to somewhere tainted with shadows. You hate how your mind cannot accept that someone could care for you. What if he pities you, still? It asks. What if he only sees you as the selfish girl sobbing at her sisterâs grave?Â
How could someone like Hyunjin, radiant as the sun pay attention to a mere rock floating in space, aimless, too unimportant to even be given a name?Â
âNo, itâs a quick drive. Enjoy your moment.â You flash a smile, hoping it covers the tremor in your voice. You quickly slip away before Hyunjin can notice, your pace quickening as his brow furrows behind you.
Youâve never dared to truly like someone. The harsh truth is that people like you, who were born sipping grief in their motherâs womb, only end up accustomed to its metallic tang on their tongues.
You exist to mourn, to ache for what was and all that will never be. Even if happiness brushed against your fingertips, dazzling and radiant, you would not recognize its face, you would distort its features into the terrible grief youâve always known.Â
Itâs been thirty minutes since you left and Hyunjinâs eyes keep drifting toward the door, pulled by some invisible force. Jihyoun is talking, excitedly introducing him to someone new, someone important from the sound of it. He hears snippets of the conversationâ Switzerland, the best coaching center, a guaranteed win, but the words are distant, like murmurs underwater.Â
His mind is a whirlwind of paranoid thoughts as Hyunjin redoes the calculations: it was supposed to be a fifteen minute errand, at most. Where are you?
His heart feels tethered to a storm as he steps out, muttering a feeble excuse to Jihyoun, feet moving before his brain catches up. The air feels heavy like trying to inhale metal, only to end up crushed from all sides.
He searches the parking lot, scanning the faces mingling there, but he finds no sign of you. His feet keep moving, driven by instinct, by a chilling feeling pulling at his heart, desperate to glimpse you.
Then he sees itâflashing lights up ahead. His world dims as he watches a man on the phone, gesturing frantically toward a car. A car thatâs all too familiar. Yours, crumpled like a piece of paper, flipped on its side, crashed against a tree.Â
A loud ringing floods his ears akin to the buzzing of a hundred angry bees, at once. His legs buckle, his hand slamming against a nearby car for balance, but it feels like the earth beneath him is giving way. His eyes squeeze shut, his back turning away from the wreck. Not again.
Please, not again.
His throat burns with bile, and it feels like nails are clawing at his chest, ripping his skin open and exposing his heart. Itâs pounding wildly, erratically, like itâs trying to escape the cage of his ribs and splatter on his feet.Â
He canât turn aroundâheâs too afraid of what heâll see. But he has to. His breath comes in ragged gasps, his vision spotted with white as he stumbles forward. He taps the manâs arm. He struggles to find his voice as if it were never his to begin within. âDid someone get out of the car?â he whispers, broken, pleading. The man shakes his head.
Hyunjin rushes to the window, desperate to find you, to see you breathing, but the glass is tinted, hiding whatever lies inside. Without thinking, he throws his fist against the window. Once. Twice. Again. And again. His skin splits, blood dripping down his knuckles, but he canât stop. He pounds the glass until it shatters, only to find nothing within.
âHyunjin?â A voice, so achingly familiar, cuts through the haze. He spins around, breathless, and there you areâlimping, disheveled, but alive. Youâre breathing.
In an instant, heâs in front of you, his eyes wide, frantic, searching yours as if they behold the answer to every fear, every prayer he has ever uttered. His hand trembles as it cups your cheek, thumb brushing your skin, needing to feel your warmth. His gaze flickers over your body, checking for any trace of life-threatening injury, his heart lodged in his throat.
âAre you okay?â His voice is raw, stripped bare.
âI am,â you reply, and your words are his salvation. A sigh shudders out of him, pulled from the deepest parts of his soul, as if heâs been drowning and youâve finally pulled him to the surface.
He falls to his knees, palms pressing into the ground. Tears spill from his eyes, hot and heavy, streaking down his face like rain in a storm. You kneel beside him, and his arms instinctively wrap around you, pulling you close.Â
His fingers weave through your hair, pressing you to him, needing to feel you, needing to know youâre real. His body trembles as he buries his face in your hair, his tears soaking through your shirt, inhaling your scent, grounding himself in you.
âYn,â he breathes, your name the only thing that could express the magnitude of his relief. He holds you tighter, the words tumbling out like a prayer, âI thought I lost you. My god, I thought I lost you.â
It takes a while for you to process his words, to understand the scale of his fear at the thought of losing you. Those are foreign notions for you, a sight you never thought youâd grasp one day. A sight you never deemed yourself deserving of.Â
âYouâd care this much if I died?â Your voice is a whisper, small, uncertain.
Hyunjinâs bloodied hand smooths your hair, his eyes red, chest heaving. âYn, IâŚâ He squeezes his eyes shut, voice breaking. âYn, please donât leave me.â
âIâm sorry,â your lower lip quivers at the sight of his tears, somehow seeing him sob leads to your own unraveling, as if your emotions are tied by one red string. âIâm sorry I didnât mean to worry you,â you apologize, you the forgotten one, the ghost in your own home, apologizing because for once, your absence did hurt someone, because for once someone would miss you if you were ever gone.
Hours later, youâre in Hyunjinâs home, tucked into the safety of his bed. Youâd refused to call your parents, not wanting them to know what had happened, how close their wish had become reality.Â
The ambulance had taken you both to the hospital, where they patched Hyunjinâs wounds and checked you for a concussion. You repeated, over and over, like a broken recordâ âThe brakes stopped working, and I jumped out of the car.â Hyunjin spoke for you when you grew tired.
âHow are you feeling, Yn?â Hyunjinâs voice is soft, as he hovers over your figure. Your name sounds sweeter from his lips. It sounds as if it was always his to pronounce.Â
âIâm okay. Iâm sorry I ruined your night.â Your apology is quiet, but he shakes his head, pressing a lingering kiss to your forehead. Your eyes shut closed as his lips caress your skin, as if wanting to drown out all the other senses, useless, needing to focus solely on his touch.Â
âIf youâre okay, thatâs all that matters to me.â
He goes to leave, but you catch his hand. You donât overthink your next words, you think youâre long past that when it comes to him. âYou called me by my name. I thought you didnât remember it.â
âI never forgot,â he says, stepping closer. âIâve known who you were since the moment I saw you. I⌠I thought about you a lot for the past four years, Yn. I think about you now too,â a pause, âfor different reasons. Sweeter reasons.â
He remembered. He has come to know you and he still thinks of you.
âMe too,â you smile softly, âI think about you so much it feels as if youâre all Iâve ever known,â you confess breathlessly. Your eyes flicker to his lips, and his do the same.
Before you can think, youâre standing on your tiptoes, your lips resting on his, unmoving, driven by a desire so raw it blinded you.
âOh my god, Iâm so sorry.â You pull away, stumbling back.
But his hands find your waist, pulling you back. âCan I do that again, Yn?â His voice is soft, and you nod, dazed. How could you ever refuse him?
His mouth returns to yours, slow and deliberate, like a melody reuniting with its refrain. Sweetness spills from his lips onto yours, a blend of honey and wildflowers and something that is entirely his. His breath surrounds you, intoxicating, pulling you into a world where all you wish is to melt into him, to slip beneath his skin and flow through his veins.Â
Fireworks bloom behind your eyelids, explosions of colors youâve never seen before, as if the universe itself has unraveled in the space between you both. His hands cradle your face, thumbs tracing circles along your cheeks that send a thousand butterflies flapping their wings throughout your being. Your fingers weave into the silk of his hair, a breath of relief escaping you as you touch him the way youâve longed for.Â
Youâre still kissing him and yet you already ache to do it again, again and again, till you forgive the world every cruelty it has inflicted into you, if it allows you to hold his warmth a little longer, to keep your sun cupped between your palms.Â
âIs this what happiness feels like?â he murmurs against your lips, a smile threading between your breaths, your teeth grazing his in the closeness. You laugh softly, your foreheads touching softly, âI think it is. It tastes so sweet.â
âMm, I think I need to taste it again, to make sure,â he teases, his lips finding yours once more, playful and hungry. Time loses its meaning, minutes slipping away like sand grains between your fingers. By the time you part, your heart has memorized the rhythm of his breath and the weight of his lips upon yours, as familiar now as your own pulse.
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âSo, how do we do this?â
Your laughter echoes softly down the corridor. Hyunjin has you pinned against the wall near the skating rink, his right hand braced above your head, the other hovering over your waistâyet, itâs that mere sliver of air between his fingers and your skin that ignites a wildfire within you, burning bright with longing.
âWouldnât it be strange if we just walked in, holding hands? I mean, Jihyoun knows me, butâŚâ Your voice drifts away like chimney smoke, dissolving into the background of Hyunjinâs thoughts. Heâs no longer listeningâheâs observing. Memorizing. His gaze skillfully captures every curve, every shadow of your face, as if this is the last dawn heâll ever witness. As if, by morning, heâll be blind, and this moment is his only chance to engrave you into his memory.
âYouâre so beautiful,â he breathes, his voice soft, almost reverent. Your words falter, fading like the final notes of a song only he remembers. He leans in, his lips brushing your cheek with a tenderness that paints your skin crimson red.Â
He smirks, satisfied by the effectâperhaps, he thinks, that is how the sun feels as it kisses the horizon goodnight, leaving the sky a blushing mess.Â
âYou were saying?â he teases, and you roll your eyes, pretending to be exasperated. âI was saying that it would beââ But his lips find yours once more, plucking the words from your tongue like petals from a flower.Â
In the dim glow of the corridor, the world around you fades to an afterthought. It feels as though you exist only for this, only for himâ to kiss and to be kissed by Hyunjin.
âFinally!â Jihyounâs voice shatters the moment, ringing out like a bell, pulling you both apart. âThank you for kissing him, Yn. Now heâll stop with the longing stares at the door.â
âWhat stares?â you laugh, the sound bubbling sweetly up your throat. Hyunjin scratches the nape of his neck, shrugging innocently when your eyes meet, as if he has no idea what Jihyoun is talking about (though he knows all too well).
Hyunjin catches his coachâs eye over your shoulder, a wide smile tugging at his lips. Jihyoun once told him that he seems to bloom around you, like a flower starved of sunlight, finally nourished. The thought warms himâknowing that the people closest to him feel your presence like a balm to his soul. His mother would have loved you too, heâs certain of it.
âWill you stay with me tonight?â Hyunjin whispers later, as youâre leaving the practice building, his arm draped over your shoulder, yours wrapped around his waist. Natural. Familiar. Like two rivers flowing into one.
âI donât have anything of mine there,â you pout, and Hyunjin stops, cupping your cheek, his nose grazing yours in a gesture so tender it makes your heart float within your ribcage. âThatâs part of my secret planâto get you in my clothes.â
âOh, what a very secretive plan,â you giggle, stealing a quick kiss. âAnd what would we do tonight?âÂ
âSleep together.â You raise an eyebrow, and he shakes his head, flushing crimson. âI meanâsleep, actual sleep, not that I wouldnât want to make love to you,â Your laughter rings out, as his forehead finds its hiding place against your shoulder, embarrassed. âI just want to hold you close. Thatâs all.â
Your sweet Hyunjin.
âI want that too, Hyune.â
Hyunjin has never been much of a writer, his fortĂŠ has always been to express himself with his body, spell out words out of the movement of his limbs. It is more evident as he opens the door to his apartment, with you trailing behind. As he looks at both your shoes sitting side by side near the entrance, your accessories resting next to his in the bathroom.Â
He lacks the words to explain how right, how natural it feels for him to have you in his space, for you to fill it with the music of your voice and the fragrance of your perfume. As if it has always been his reality, to walk home with you, to watch you slip into his clothes, to brush his teeth next to you, to lay atop the bed with your warm eyes staring at him instead of a cold wall.Â
âDo you believe in fate?â you suddenly ask, your thumb trailing alongside his neck, pausing right where his pulse beats. He has never been aware of the weight of life against his skin until he knew you.Â
âI never did, I didnât want to believe in something pre-written for me. Wouldnât that confine who I am, who I could be?â he muses and you nod softly, inching closer to him. âBut somewhat,â he trails off, lifting your hand to his mouth, peepering the sweetest kisses alongside your palm and wrist, like dewdrops caressing leaves. âI believe in it now, because of you.âÂ
âI think I was meant to find you that day in the graveyard. I think what I feel for you is too grand to be a pure coincidence,â he confesses.Â
âAnd what do you feel for me?â you ask, your voice soft, curious.Â
Hyunjin doesnât answer immediately. Instead, he gently twirls a strand of your hair away from your eyes, before tucking it behind the cuff of your ear. He presses his forehead to yours, like two pages of a book meeting one another, then he exhales slowly, like a man who has found peace after a lifetime of searching.Â
And in a way, he has. He can stop looking frantically for something that would stitch his soul up, he has found you, now.Â
âI used to resent hearing my own heartbeat. At times it felt like a punishment, because existing felt like a chore. I wanted the sound to quiet down, I didnât want to hear anything, nor feel anything anymore.âÂ
âBut now,â he pulls you closer, your legs intertwining with his, like roots seeking comfort in one another, âitâs reassuring to hear, because it means there is still life within me to love you in it.â
Love. The word has long felt like a thorn ingrained into your skin. You have always recoiled from it, less from repulse and more in fearâ if the people who were put on this earth to love you, didnât, then werenât you meant to remain unloved for the rest of your life?Â
But looking at Hyunjin now, at the way the word rests gently on his lips, rolls off his tongue with such ease, with such certainty, you donât want to run.
You want to stay.Â
It is when Hyunjin traces maps along your skin with his lips, as you drift down the constellations of moles on his chest, as you find yourself lost within everything that makes up his beingâ his scent, his sounds, the weight of him pressed against youâ that you find your words to reply, to breathe your first I love you to him.Â
And in that confession, another realization comes, though this one is bitter, sour, like a chilling premonition: if Hyunjin were ever to leave, what would be left of you after?Â
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Hyunjin has never been fond of the concept of time, minutes seemed to march differently when it came to himâ seconds stretching out like thin threads, nights unraveling in restless turns, sleep plucked right off from his eyelids.Â
But with you, time softened, as the hours spun forward, swift and gentle. Around you, Hyunjin no longer felt the weight of passing days on his heart.Â
Hyunjin didnât feel the two months of happiness you bestowed upon him slipping from his grasp.Â
He was lost, adrift in the gentle tides of your beingâswept by the melody of your laughter, cradled by the softness of your curves. He often wondered if he was deserving of this happiness, yet never lingered long enough to find an answer. He selfishly accepted the joy you gifted him, for once.Â
Your belongings filled the empty nooks of his apartment gradually, corner by cornerâyour satin pajamas settling just above his plaid ones, your skincare nestled near his on the bathroom shelf, your favorite mug clinking against his in the dishwasher.Â
In some way, it mirrored how youâd seeped into him, like sunlight breaking through the longest of nightsâ threads of the sun illuminating what was once lost to darkness.Â
Heâd steady your chin to help with your mascara, your doe eyes looking up into his. Youâd brush his hair, pressing gentle kisses along his shoulder blades. Heâd do your laundry. Youâd make his coffee each morning. Heâd brew your tea each night.
You didnât have much time to talk during the day, both of you engrossed in the practice of your respective arts. Yet, the knowledge that you were just a floor above him, close if he ever wished to see you, was enough to soothe his heart.
It was at night that you bared yourselves to each other, in ways that went beyond the tender grip of his hands on your waist, or the slow trail of your fingers down the curve of his back.
In the hush of the twilight, youâd unfold softly, revealing the hidden layers withinâyouâd share your dreams and hopes, and the moments that shaped you, letting the fragments of your pasts settle in the safety between you both.Â
âI think I know my purpose now,â you whispered one night, and he hummed, pressing a soft kiss to the tip of your nose. âWhat is it?âÂ
âI think I kept ballet at a distance because loving it felt like surrendering to my parentsâ dreams, like Iâd be becoming what they always wanted me to be.â You paused, your voice a little softer, a little braver. âBut I do love it, Hyunjin. I want to be the best at it. I want to honor my sister through it.âÂ
His gaze softened, as a tender smile blossomed in his lips. âYou already do.â
Some nights were less sweet, tangled with heavy grief and unshed tears, yet it felt easier to walk through them if you were there holding his hand.Â
âWould you go into her room with me?â he asked quietly one night, his gaze locked on his motherâs bedroom, its door sealed for a decade. He had never dared to enter it once more, afraid it would further cement the notion that she was gone.
That truth felt easier to confront with you near.
âOf course,â you replied softly. âWhatever you need.â
The room was just as he remembered, only stuffier with dust and heartache. Time hung in the air, dense and unmoving, clutching at her last moments alive, unwilling to let go.Â
He looked to the bed, and he could almost see the shape of her there, frail and thin, her clothes too loose over a body worn out with sickness.
You held him close, steadying him as he took in each familiar corner: their photos framed with gold on the desk, her countless medals hung on the wall, her perfume and hairbrush untouched on the vanity, her rings resting in a small seashell container.
He walked slowly to the vanity, his fingers reaching for the ring he had loved mostâa thin band of gold, crowned with a small emerald, dulled by time. Gently, he wiped away the dust with his shirt, before turning to you and slipping it onto your finger.
âKeep it,â he whispered. âIt will live again through you.â
In the days that followed, you helped him breathe light and air into the room once more, sweeping dust from the framed certificates and photographs, polishing the medals until they shimmered as they once had. You washed the linens and her clothes, packing them carefully for a donation to cancer wardsâsomething he never found the courage to do, until now.
Grief no longer felt like a knife lodged into his heart, its metal rusting with the passing of time. He saw its true face nowâa soft ache, a quiet longing, a thicket of thorns that can only grow from the roots of love.
Your voice floated in his mind that night, echoing like the bells of a long standing cathedral. âyour mom loved you, hyunjin. And someone who loves you would want your hands to be warmââ would want you to be happy.
Happiness swept into Hyunjin like an endless, gnawing hungerâan insatiable ache that demanded to be fed. He was ravenous for joy, longing to sink his teeth into it, dip his tongue into its sweetness and let it spill all over him.Â
When an exoneree tastes freedom after decades of longing, it is the small breeze, the waves lapping hungrily at his bare feet that make his heart twitch. So it was with Hyunjin: the small joys swelled within his ribcage, vast and boundless. His heart strained against his chest, eager to burst free and feel it all.Â
Somehow, Hyunjinâs biggest joy came from watching you danceâ the principal dancer of your competition team. Whenever he had a break, heâd choose to slip away from the ice rink and climb the stairs at a hurried speed, slip into the dancing studio and sit in the corner.Â
There, heâd watch you, leading the group of dancers youâll perform with. You stood in the center, beckoning the attention of everyone around. Beautiful, so beautiful.
How foolish of him it was to try to deny it. How foolish of him to think that there was any outcome but to fall for you.
You always caught his eye across the mirror, your face breaking out in a wide grin, as you waved shyly at him, the strictness melting off your features and morphing into something warm. He felt special in a way, to be the sole recipient of such a breathtaking smile. He felt as if he could write hundreds of poems about that alone.Â
That smile feels even more precious as you stand on stage at the Seoul International ballet competition, seconds before the light would turn on and youâd begin dancing. In the split second of darkness, it is him your eyes sought after in the crowd, it is him you wink at, before switching into your professional mode.
You arenât as nervous as he expected you to be. Somehow your facade only slipped when five minutes before the stage you beckoned hyunjin in for a hug. âDo you need anything?â he asked as he kissed your temple softly, tightening his hold on you.
âI just need to hug you for a minute. It helps me calm down.âÂ
Hyunjin had always known you were a stellar ballerina. You were humble with your achievements, speaking of your art as if you donât have years of practice to attest to your expertise, as if you hadnât gotten acclaims nationally and internationally.
Still, seeing you on stage made a different pride bloom in his heart. You are the rightful star of the night, the swan of ballet as the media had dubbed youâ delicate with your movements, spreading your arms like the unfurling of their feathers, spinning delicately into the air with a grace that made his breath catch in his throat. You were mesmerizing.Â
You didnât simply move, or dance, that would be too simplistic to encapsulate how you breathed life into this art. Into him.Â
And it is hyunjinâs arms that you run into, scurrying down the stage steps, an overflowing bouquet in your right hand and a gleaming trophy held tightly in the other.Â
âYou won, my love,â he shouts, ecstatic as you throw your arms around his neck, as he cradles your waist, spinning you around like how he always orbits around you.Â
He puts you down, leaning in to kiss you with no second thought, your eyes closed as you savor one another, as your lips move as if commanded by the stars, to part only to meet again, and again. Till your cheeks are both flushed and all he can taste is the strawberry in your lip tint.Â
Your eyes lock on his, your pupils widening till they swallow your irises, mirroring your breathtaking grin. Hyunjin felt as if the sun had left the sky and lodged within his chest.
But what Hyunjin failed to understand is that, for souls like his, happiness is only a fleeting passenger. Even then, it isnât meant to be swallowed whole; it is to be eaten bite by bite, back hunched, hidden from the harsh glare of the universe. Perhaps this is the price he pays for defying the sadness that shadows himâhis own eager canines sinking into joy, ultimately tearing it apart.
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âI think Iâll go to Switzerland.â
It takes a few seconds for Hyunjinâs words to settle into your mind, for the syllables to unfurl slowly, like a wave gathering its strength before inevitably crashing on the shore.Â
Once, Hyunjin had spoken of a figure skating center in Switzerland, one that Jihyoun praised endlesslyâthe pinnacle for skaters reaching toward gold.
âWill you go?â youâd asked, and heâd only shrugged. âIâm thinking about it.â The conversation had dissolved then, lost in the press of his body against yours, in the paths his fingers traced down your stomachâ dizzying enough to make you forget the sound of your own name.
But you should have knownâsome things cannot be buried beneath the covers. They always resurface, haunting, inevitable.
You draw in a deep breath, your gaze settling on your congratulatory bouquet. The flowers have started to wither now, despite the sugar cube Hyunjin dropped in the water.Â
Were they a trigger for the slow withering of your relationship, too? Did the fall of that first petal set the course for your own undoing?
âOkay,â you nod, biting your lip anxiously. âWhen will you go?â
âIn three days. Or else Iâll miss the deadline to join.â
Oh.
You remain silent, feeling as though barbed wire coils around your throat, each metal spike pressing deep into your flesh. He steps closer, his warm hands cradling your cheeks. It takes you a few seconds to meet his gaze.
You suddenly imagine a life untouched by him. The thought fills you with a horrible urge to weep.
âI know itâs sudden,â he murmurs, voice low, âI tried to delay it as long as I could, but Jihyoun kept insisting, saying itâs a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. I donât want you to feel abandoned.âÂ
You shake your head, as if to push that thought away, as if the notion itself is meaningless.
âIâve always known we wouldnât stay in the same place forever. I have to go back to Juilliard soon, too. I just⌠never thought it would happen this fast.â You sigh softly, a tender smile slipping across your face as you bring your hands up to cup his cheeks. âBut youâre meant for grand things, Hyunjin. If Switzerland is where youâll find them, then I couldnât be happier for you.â
âI love you,â he whispers, his nose brushing against yours, a gentle, aching gesture. âWeâll make it work, right?â
He searches your eyes, pleading, his brows drawn into a worried knot.
âOf course, we will.â
It is the first time you lie to Hyunjin.Â
âI love you,â he repeats, gripping your waist and lifting you onto the counter.
âIâve only known love thanks to you,â you murmur. That much is true.
Hyunjin kisses you with hunger, his hand tangled in your hair, his body moving with a fierce rhythmâpassion and love dripping from each one of his touches, each one of his spilled i love youâs between broken whimpers and moans.Â
He loves you tonight like he has something to prove. As if his fingertips must be etched upon your skin, as if his name should be the one carved deep within you, the one found if you were split open to your soul.
Lying against his bare chest, you feel his breath rise and fall beneath you, the tip of his fingers sketching aimlessly upon your skin. Yet, you sense as if there is already a rift between you both. As if the news of his living has seeped between your bodiesâ the distance has already laid its claim, separating you both.
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Youâre back in New York, slipping into the rhythm of your classes like a puzzle piece wedged into place, not quite fitting, yet you force it to. You spend each waking moment practicing your final dance at JuilliardâThe Sleeping Beautyâthe ballet that will close this chapter of your life.
Your apartment has remained unchanged; the conversations with your classmates are as futile as ever. And your heart still pulses, aches for Seoul, for the warmth you found there, in Hyunjin.
Winter settles in, snow gathering in quiet drifts along the streets. Two languid months slip by, time dragging its feet, as if too wishing to remain right where you left Hyunjin. You lose yourself in the pursuit of a perfect performance. And yet, the praise of your professors and peers no longer fills you as it once did.
It all feels hollow, empty, when you canât remember the last time you and Hyunjin spoke, actually spoke, the way you used to.
Youâd already seen this scene unfold in your mind the day he broke the newsâmore vividly still as he walked away in the airport. You had known the first few days would be goodâfrequent calls and texts, sharing the smallest details of his new life and of your familiar one.
But then, the silence would settle in, as it has. Because you and Hyunjin are both perfectionists. Because without your art, both of you are left with nothing but shadows of yourselvesâ hollow shells calling out in agony to what truly pleases your souls.Â
Youâre afraid to say it out loud, but Hyunjinâs face is blurring in your memory, details softening as though sketched by an impressionistâs brush. All that remains clear are the shadows under his eyes on your last video call, dark circles carved deep into his soft skin, his exhaustion bleeding through the screen as he struggled to stay awake for you.
There is no one to blame, and somehow, that only hurts you even more. You could sacrifice your hours of practice, and so could he. But then the guilt would come, ravenous, gnawing at your soul. And guilt is a hungry being, soon enough it wonât be satiated by you. Soon enough it will turn to your love for Hyunjin.Â
And you couldnât afford that.Â
You miss him most on days like this, when nothing seems right from the moment you open your eyes. The cityâs chill feels sharper, as though mocking you, reminding you of the warmth you left behind.
The wind bites as you step into the night, wandering aimlessly, your feet carrying you to nowhere in particular. Tears hover at the edge of your lashes, but you refuse to let them fall.
Thereâs no grace in the way you donât allow yourself to cry, no mercy in how you hold yourself together. You've always been a performer, havenât you? Even your pain feels like a scene you must perfect. Is it tragic enough? Does it carve deep enough to justify being felt?
You bite your lip, numb fingers pulling out your phone. You type out Hyunjinâs contactâ my love. Your last message to him was two days ago.
With a sigh, you press call. He answers on the final ring.
âHi, my angel,â he says, a bit breathless. Probably mid-training.
You force a smile, hoping he wonât hear the tremble in your voice. âHi, baby. Practicing?â
âYeah.â He hums. âAre you outside?â
âIm going for a walk.â Your voice quiets as the lump in your throat tightens, a chain wrapping around your words, binding you.
âAre you okay, my love?â he asks gently, and you nod though he canât see.
âI am,â you lie. âI just miss you.â The confession slips out before you can stop it, and the weight of it crushes you. You miss him so much itâs killing you.
âI miss you too,â he says softly. You feel like throwing up. You have to make it quick before your courage betrays you.Â
âI think we should end things,â you say quickly, biting down so hard on your lip that blood beads up, sharp and metallic on your tongueâ just like your words.
âWhat?â he whispers, and you hear his faint apologies, the rustle as he moves to someplace quieter, someplace where you can break his heart without an audience.
âWhy do you want this? Donât you love me anymore?â His voice is small, fragile, and you feel the tears welling in your eyelids, but not yet.
âYou know thereâs no one I love but you,â you say, drawing in a breath that doesnât wish to be trapped by you. âBut weâre both so busy it barely feels like weâre together anymore.â
âIâm sorry, Iâm so sorry, baby, Iâll try to text more, I promise. Iâll cut back on my training for you, Iâllâ.â
âYou know Iâd never ask that of you.â You cut him off, smiling sadly and he falls quiet.
You see him then, in a haze of memoryâHyunjinâs head resting in your lap, your fingers lost in his hair. You hear his voice again, soft and raw, âMy momâs last wish for me was to win that gold medal. Iâm terrified of letting her down. Just thinking about itââ Heâd let out a humorless laugh. âShe isnât here, and yet I still feel this debt to her. Isnât that strange?â
You know it wellâthe pain of failing those you love, even those who donât love you back.
âYour mom wanted you to win that medal, didnât she?â you say softly. âI would never come between you and that.â A pause. âBut doesnât it hurt more to wait for a message that never comes?â
âIâŚâ he stammers, a sniffle slipping through the phone, and it nearly undoes you.
âYn, I- you know that I love you.â
And in that instant, you know he understands. Itâs because Hyunjin understands that you love him.
âI love you too, my Hyune.â
âThen donât say this,â he chokes out, âsay something cruelâsomething thatâll make it easier not to miss you so much when youâre gone.â
You can hear him crying, and the sound permanently breaks a rib within your heart. It sounds so raw, so painful that you wish to abandon everything and run to him. Had life not been this harsh to you, perhaps you would. Perhaps youâd have enough courage to believe that love can suffice for everything.Â
âI came back to Seoul because my mother was sick. I thoughtâŚmaybe it would bring us close again. But I think now that I came back just to meet you, Hyunjin.â His name falters, slipping from your lips in a stuttered breath.
âThank you,â you whisper, voice cracking, âthank you for making me happy.â
The call ends, and you fall to your knees in the snow, finally surrendering to the grief tearing through you. Sobs wrack your body, raw and relentless, so fierce it feels as if your heart might just stop, as if youâve become nothing but an ache, a bruised, throbbing mass of memories, pulsing with each thought of him.
Is this enough for you? you want to scream at whatever cruel hand pulling the strings of your fate. Has my suffering finally paid the debt of my existenceâ for both me and him?Â
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Youâve come to understand that the expanse of human emotions is boundless, as vast and unknowable as the space that holds the universe. And with each passing day, it feels as if another star dies within you, its light dimming slowly, far from rebirth.
You once thought your heart had grown accustomed to griefâyour life spent in mourning: parents you wished you had, love you wished had dared, even just once, to find you.
But mourning the happiness Hyunjin brought is something else. Itâs a different kind of ache, not like the eruption of a volcano that fades into a quiet resigning. This pain lingers, dull and relentless, day after day, a wound that refuses to close, a pulse that never stills.
It has been a month since your fateful call. Hyunjin first sent you a bouquet of white roses, with a note nestled withinâTo the one who made me find love again, I will love you until my last breath.
You didnât reply, but Hyunjin kept sending bouquets, each one arriving with a message that tore at your heart a little more than the last. I am thinking about you often; please think of me, too. As if you could do anything but that. If I am to exist in only one place, let it be in your mind.
Youâve hung each note on the fridge, their words staring back at you every morning as you make your coffee, exactly the way Hyunjin likes it.
Sometimes, youâd let the water run, overflowing in the coffee maker as you read his words again and again. Then, youâd catch a glimpse of your own distorted reflection on the waterâs surface, wondering what it would feel like to drown in the sea, to let the liquid fill your lungs and wash over you.
But you never let the thought linger too long, chasing it away with the hum of a song. You know it will only lead you somewhere scary.
After three, maybe four months, the bouquets eventually stopped arriving. Hyunjin had surely grown tired of your silence.
The heart is no rigid thing; it doesnât stay frozen in one place. It stretches and contracts, bleeds, then patches itself together again. But you hadnât done much to heal itâtruthfully, you hadnât believed you deserved to feel good once more.
Then month five came, and there was no time left to dwell on anything. A strange relief, you thought, for a mind like yours, that never quite stops turning, even in sleep. Graduation loomed on the horizon, and you were terrified of your efforts going to waste, of them somehow never being enough to set you apart.
But one night, your professor placed her hand on your shoulder, her gaze warm as it met yours. Suddenly, you felt seven years old again. âI think you could be this generationâs prima ballerina assoluta, she saidâabsolute first ballerina, the best of the best.Â
âReally?â you whispered, hardly breathing, and she nodded. âYes, if you keep going this way, you will be.â
You thought about calling Hyunjin to share the news, but quickly brushed the thought aside. Instead, you spent the night picturing his reaction. It was pathetic, maybe, but you liked to believe he wouldâve said he was proud of you, called you angel, kissed the tip of your nose, his eyes crinkling into half-moons. You fell asleep with his words murmured on your lips, as if theyâd been real.
Month six rolled in, then seven. You had been keeping tabs on Hyunjinâs name as the Olympics approached. There has been news of him wanting to attempt a quadruple axel spinâ forty-four years after the triple one. An automatic win, some would say.
You knew that if anyone could do it would be hyunjin.
You wondered if he too read the articles released about your performances. Did he smile at them, his sweet dimple surging forth? Or did your name sting him, like droplets of acid falling into an open wound?Â
Month eight arrived, genuine joy weaving into your life once more. You took your final bow on the polished stage of Juilliard, the roaring applause ringing in your ears for days to come. You had the highest performance score of the history of the institution. Your professorâs eyes then searched yoursâ âwhere do you see yourself now? where would you feel happiest?â
Hyunjinâs arms. You almost said. Barely holding yourself.Â
âI donât know. I think Iâll try at operas. I want to perform the white swan there.â
âThen go to opĂŠra garnier in Paris. I have a friend there. Talk to him, feel it out.â
You had almost kissed her cheek right there and then. Not only because the OpĂŠra Garnier had been your childhood dream but because now, Paris was where the Olympics would be held.
You now had an excuse to be there.Â
You kept looking for Hyunjin in every monument you visited. In the hush of night by the Louvre, along the quiet flow of the Seine, in the gentle strokes of Monetâs paintings at MusĂŠe de lâOrangerie. What would you do if you met him on a random street in Paris?
Thankfully, or unfortunately, you still hadnât decided, you never had to find out. You didnât see him.
It is the menâs singles day at the figure skating Olympics, and somehow, you feel more nervous than in all your own performances combined. Youâre seated close to the ice, close enough to feel the chill radiating from it, close enough to capture every detail of the performances.
Then Hyunjin steps onto the ice. If not for your seat, you might have collapsed, your knees a mass of useless ground bones.Â
Heâs dazzlingâachingly, excruciatingly beautiful. His hair falls longer now, delicate strands brushing his forehead like a prince out of a fairytale. His outfit is pure white, adorned with emerald diamonds cascading like droplets of light. Instinctively, you reach for the emerald ring on your finger too.Â
Your gaze follows him everywhere, drinking in the sight of him tipping his head back in laughter, his nose crinkling as he talks to Jihyoun, every stretch, every step, every quiet act of his being.Â
He was still as lovely, still as beautiful as you have always known him.Â
You wonder if heâs thinking of you, too, as his eyes flutter shut before his music begins. What image knits behind his eyelids in that instant?
It has always been his face for you.Â
The air buzzes with anticipation, thick with belief and doubt alike as everyone knows what Hyunjin is attempting tonight. All eyes follow him as he skates, tracing wide circles across the ice, bending low to the ground, spinning in perfect arcs.
Then, he launches into the air.
The seconds seem to trickle by as slowly as blood droplets rushing to a dying heart. You see itâ one spin, planets orbiting around the sun, aching to inch closer to the warmth.Â
Two spinsâ seconds marching forward to catch up with the next ones in a ticking clock.Â
Your breath freezes in your throat, your hands grip the chair so much your knuckles turn as white as the roses hyunjin sent you after you parted ways.
Three spinsâ fireflies dancing around the light, drawn to it like milky stars.
And then he does it.
His fourth and final spinâ your heart orbiting around Hyunjin as he achieves his dream, as he breaks the world record he long yearned for.
You fall back in your seat, a rush of relief loosening the tension in your body as the crowd erupts into thunderous applause. Unbelievable is the word on everyoneâs mouths.Â
But not on yours.
Your Hyunjin did it, like you knew he would.Â
Tears gather in your eyes as he stares at the scoreboard, his gaze fixed, waiting, breath held alongside every other skater.Â
Hyunjinâs name comes first.Â
He collapses to his knees, the weight of his victory pressing down his body, finally breaking him open. Jihyoun rushes over, cradling him, shaking him, laughing, âYou did it, Hyunjin! You did it, son!â The tears wonât stop rushing down your face; they have a life of their own now.
You watch as Hyunjin circles the audience, waving at the crowd cheering his name. He drifts closer to your section, his eyes scanning the sea of faces until, finally, he finds yours.Â
The world stills, you force the earth to stop spinning to have this one moment with Hyunjin. You lock onto his gaze, holding it, savoring the way his lips form your name.
Then, as if pulled by a force greater than either of you, he climbs over the stands, moving swiftly across the seats until he reaches you. In an instant, his arms are around you, his head buried in the crook of your neck. âYn, IâŚâ he chokes, and you nod, whispering, âI know. You did it, Hyunjin.â
âI did it, Yn,â he echoes, his voice trembling. He pulls back to look at you, his hands resting on your shoulders, both oblivious to the flash of cameras, the seas of people flocking around you.Â
No one here could ever understand what this moment means to him. No one but himâand you.
As he takes his place on the podium, tears shimmer in Hyunjinâs eyes akin to the reflection of the sun across the sea. He bites his lip, struggling to hold it together as the bronze and silver medals are awarded. Then the official steps forward, gold medal in hand. Hyunjin extends his shaking hands, watching as the ribbon drapes over his head, at long last.Â
Suddenly, the past eight months of heartache are justified. You would endure it all again, twice over, if it led to Hyunjin having this moment.Â
âMiss Juilliard,â Hyunjin says softly as he meets you by the door. He had asked Jihyoun to tell you to wait for him. Jihyoun seemed happy to see you once more.Â
Hyunjin is different now than he was twenty minutes ago, when he threw himself into your arms, overcome by emotions too vast to name. Now, he stands before you, more composed, more guarded, though his gaze remains tender. Heâs never been able to hide his eyes from you.
âCongratulations on your win,â you say.
âCongratulations on your graduation.â
He knows.
In that moment, you see it allâthe two paths unfurling before you. You could smile at him and he would smile back. Then you would part ways. And you would meet again, in a ceremony of some kind. And he would have grown only more beautiful, and the ache would have not softened. And his loving gaze would set on someone else but you.
Or, you could speak now.
âI made some tiramisu back at my Airbnb,â you say, your voice tentative. âWould you like some?â
Hyunjinâs shoulders stiffen, a debate flickering in his eyes. Then he exhales softly. âOf course.â
You sit side by side in the uber. His phone keeps lighting up with congratulatory messages until he switches it off.
âIâm sorry,â you murmur, feeling the need to break the silence. He tenses beside you.
âFor what?â
âFor stealing you away.â
His shoulders relax. âDonât apologize. I wanted to come.â
The apartment you rented is smallâstudio-sized, really, but near Montmartre, where youâve loved taking nightly walks by SacrĂŠ Coeur. Hyunjin slips off his shoes, placing them next to yours by the door.
For a moment, you both pause, staring at the sight of your shoes, side by side, once more.
He clears his throat as you gesture for him to make himself comfortable. He moves to the window, gazing at the city below, while you retrieve two plates, carefully setting a slice of tiramisu on each.
âThank you,â he says softly when you hand him his plate. But neither of you takes a bite. Itâs as if opening your mouth would lead to a torrent of words escaping, ones neither of you can contain.Â
He yields first.
âYou came,â he whispers, glancing over at you.
âI couldnât miss seeing you win.â
âI missed you,â he says, biting his lip. Hyunjin has always been honest, especially when it comes to you. âIt hurt a lot to miss you, Yn.â
âIâm here tonight.âÂ
Your words settle into the air as the hum of the world outside fades away. Hyunjinâs gaze, sharp and knowing, meets yoursâthose piercing eyes that have always stripped away your defenses, reading between the lines of your every unspoken thought.
He holds your gaze for a beat too long, and you fumble for your fork, needing somethingâanythingâto diffuse the weight of what lingers in the silence between you.
Then, suddenly, his lips meet yours.
Kissing Hyunjin again feels like breathing in after being starved of air, like a cool breeze caressing your skin on a scorching day. A shiver spreads through you as he gently lowers you onto the couch, his body a pressing weight above you. Your hands find their way to his back, moving with the instinctive ease of muscle memory, while he kisses you with the fierce urgency of someone whoâs finally tasted salvation.Â
You wish to never part from him. You wish for your body to liquefy and morph into the hot rush of blood within his veinsâ anything so you wouldnât have to part from him once more. You donât think you can handle it. You donât think you can lose Hyunjin again. You know you canât.
When he pulls back, his cheeks are flushed a soft pink, like fresh dahlias, his eyes glossy and filled with something unspeakable as they trace over your face. âTell me, Yn,â he breathes, âdo you still love me? I need to know, please. Itâs been tearing me apart.â
âI love you,â you say, with every bit of honesty you can muster. âI loved you before I even knew what love is, and I will love you, Hyunjin. Whether you are near or not. I will always love you.â
A breathtaking smile unfolds across his face, warm enough to thaw every frozen corner of your heart, to make decades of loneliness melt away. You would endure it all again, face the heartbreak and the grief. Fall at your sisterâs grave and repent once more. Youâd do it all if it means your path will cross with Hyunjin.
âI was always ever yours to love.âÂ
Epilogue.Â
Hyunjin has always felt as if he has lived many lifetimes at once. Like a serpent, shedding its skin, he had lost parts of his being in various places. Some he managed to retrieve, others not. He had a lot to learn, overwhelmed by certain things past. His thoughts werenât always kind. His hands didnât always sweep gently against his skin.Â
But on days like those, you were there to love him. He had learned and unlearned many things with you. Hyunjin had found that love wasnât a sharp emotion, it didnât slice away at the heart, it didnât puncture. There were no sharp edges when it came to you. Even if he lost you along the way, he would round up a corner and find you there.Â
And he did. Hyunjin found you, even when you didnât wish to be found. You scurried from place to place, set foot into Paris to Seoul, Alexandria and New York. The distance lessened then widened. But it never tore you apart once more. Your souls were satiated in a way. You could rest side by side now.Â
And you did, as you settled in Seoul, decades down the road. Where both you and Hyunjin built a new training center. Figure skaters on the first floor, ballerinas on the second. The days passed by in happiness, laughter and giggles. There was no curse. No punishment. Not anymore.Â
You are in a graveyard once more. You watch as Hyunjin sweeps the name atop the tombstone gently. Prima ballerina assoluta, he reads, the swan of my heart. His weathered hands shake as they clutch a bouquet of fresh red lilies, and your heart still aches at the sight.Â
It is late at night at the graveyard, the branches are still humming to one another, like a melancholic flute. You understand now that they speak to the buried ones. âNot so long now,â they reassure, âyour loved ones will follow.â
You believe them, and you will wait. For now, youâll find solace in the red lilies sitting atop your grave.Â
They are now meant for you, at long last.Â
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The little bean: Anthony Bridgerton x pregnant!wife!reader
A/N: So..... After my "Too much" series I've been asked to do something with Antony and pregnancy trope. And since 1) I got baby fever and 2) Bridgertons are back, there is no better time than now.
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âY/N, my love, what are you doing?â
âIâm holding a bookâŚ?â
Ever since Y/N found out she was pregnant with the heir (which she would rather address as her precious little baby, instead of giving him titles before he or she was even born) Anthony entered right into an overprotective mood. If anything he would just keep her home, away from any prying eyes, that â in his opinion â might somehow take a look inside, at his baby and perhaps, see the little one before it came into the view of a proud viscount father.
Y/N could barely walk around the Bridgerton household, let alone the garden, without her husband chasing after her with a very concerned look, ready to carry her wherever she wished, just so that her feet wouldnât touch the ground.
There were so many dangers on the way after all.
Wild animals. (i.e. bees, dogs and strays cats)
Speeding carriages.
Stones on which she might trip and fall.
Too much sun.
Too little sun.
And worst of all-
Members of the ton.
It was merely the first trimester and viscountess was torn between calming Anthony down (tactfully avoiding the information that the next months will be much more challenging) or just rushing away to her mother-in-law (yet, again) to seek aid in keeping him in check.
And just when she thought the oldest Bridgerton could not get any more obsessive, he took the lecture she was reading out of her hands.
âMy dear, you cannot carry such weights. Itâs straining and I am to protect you from threats.â
âItâs a bookâŚâ she frowned a little, but not without a hint of amusement in her voice
âItâs heavy.â Â
âIt's a 200 page novelâŚâ
âItâs heavy.â Anthonyâs voice was gentle, but firm. Both demanding and pleading.
âAnthonyâŚâ
âY/N.â
âI can hold my own book.â
âWe got servants for that. In fact â let me call upon your maid and ââ he started walking towards the door in sheer purpose to liberate his dearest wife from the unnecessary burden.
Nonetheless his dearest wife had quite a different plan, reaching to grab his hand and stopping him in his tracks.
âMy love. Please, come. Let us sit.â She guided him to the ottoman, still keeping the soft touch that was grounding to him.
Much to her surprise Anthony rushed to the furniture first, fixing pillows and blankets so Y/N could sit comfortably. And apparently that word, in his language, meant sitting half a meter in the air, covered from head to toe, regardless of the perfect spring weather outside.
âHere. Perfect.â He flashed a perfect smile, content with the spot he made for her.
âAnthonyâŚâ
âYes, my love?â as he spun around meeting with her desperate look, the smile slowly disappeared from his face. âY/N? Are you not feeling well?â Anthony grabbed both her hands in his, searching her face for any symptoms of malaise, dizziness, nausea. âDo you need some water? Or-â
âNo, no, Anthony, please just listen to me for a moment-â
âPerhaps I should call upon Daphne, she already had a child of her own and she would be of help. Or maybe my mother could-â
âAnthony!â she laughed whole-heartedly at his feverishness âI am not going to give birth in the fourth month of pregnancy! Please just calm down.â
âJust say a word and Iâll call for a medic immediately. Do not fret my dearest, I will take the best care of you. I swear on my life that-â
At that moment Y/N used the most effective way to stop his blubbering in the form of putting his hand on her slightly rounded belly in which their baby was healthily growing.
âShh.â She whispered, putting her own palm on top of Anthony's, calming him down, letting him caress the stomach in hope to make him calm down. âItâs okay. Everythingâs okay. I donât need medic. Nor your mother. And certainly not your younger sister. I am feeling good and the only thing that concerns me is my husband's distress over nothing.â
âNothing? You are carrying our baby!â
âAnd our baby needs his father to stop fretting.â
âBut-â
âHere!â her eyes grew wide as she guided his hand to another place âdid you feel it?â
âWas it--?â Anthonyâs face expression mirrored the one of his wife.
âIt kickedâŚâ she whispered as their gazes met and for a second that extended into eternity, they just kept looking into each otherâs eyes expressing so many feelings.
And then, almost as if in a dream, Anthony fell to his knees in front of Y/N, pressing his head into her belly.
âOur baby.â He whispered, kissing her body through the material of the dress. âour little baby.â He wrapped arms around her midsection with his ear pressed to the home of the child, almost hoping to hear him or her inside.
âOur babyâŚâ she repeated with tears in her eyes. Despite knowing and obviously â feeling the imminent arrival of the new family member it was the first time she actually felt and knew. And it was beautiful. Her little bean was really there. Growing and waiting for the right moment to appear in the world, landing right into the waiting, safe arms of loving mother and father.     Â
âDo you think it can hear us?â Anthony pressed one ear to her stomach, his entire face lighting up at the possibility.
âDepends.â She chuckled
âOn what?â his eyes travelled up to meet hers.
âIf I say yes, will that mean you start talking to my insides?â
Anthony smirked.
âI will do that, even if you say no.â
âThen why the question?â
âTesting your knowledge.â
âI am not a doctor, Anthony. My expertise in the area might be a little limited.â
âVery well. Then give me an answer as a mother, not a medic.â
âYes. Yes, I think it can hear us.â She cupped Anthonyâs cheek in the affectionate gesture. There was something utterly heartening in seeing him like this. Holding her (and/or the baby) like she was the most precious thing in the world, needing the assurance that his child was already reaching to him.
That it could hear him, even if it wasnât even born yet. Hoping for the love of the Lord that it was truly happening. That in a few months, that were going to pass by with extraordinary speed, the little one, a girl or a boy, would take a corporal form. That the viscount would not only be a noble and a husband but would also take on the new role â a father. A protector. Caregiver. A teacher, guardian and a guide. That somehow â his life would be complete. Heâll have his own little family. Something that was nearly impossible to him a few years prior.
And now-
âAnthonyâŚâ Y/N whispered, wiping a single tear from his eyes. âSweetheart, what is wrong?â
âNothing. Nothing is wrong, love. Itâs all perfect.â
âThen why are you-?â
âIâm not.â He cleared his throat and gathered himself.
âOf course not.â She laughed softly brushing his hair. âBut if youâd want to actually talk to the baby, that would stay in this little circle.â
Anthony smiled lovingly, grateful for having his miracle of a woman in his life. She understood him so perfectly well.
âWeâre waiting for you, little one.â He whispered against her attire, with a little muffled voice, be it from emotions or closeness of his lips on her body. âYou are already loved by two people, with more to come.â
âYou can say it AnthonyâŚâ Y/N whispered, knowing what he was holding back.
âI love you my little one.â The viscount whispered with the softest voice, caressing the place where the kick was previously felt.
And they stood like that for a while longer, enjoying that moment of joy and thinking about the future that looked quite bright.Â
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blossom
wildflower - part 1 .
â blossom : a new beginning & growth .
â pairing: ex!jaehyun x fem!reader
â tags/warnings: angst, fluff, smut!, pregnancy, unprotected sex (flashback scene), multiple positions (doggy&missionary), oral (f), squirting, kissing/making out, nipple/breast play, hair-pulling, spanking, fingering, mentions of masturbation (m), pet-names (baby&darling), down-bad and groveling jaehyun (:0), cursing, mentions of drinking, time-skips, bittersweet ending
â w.c: 7.9k
â a.n: hi! you ask and i shall deliver, part 2 of wildflower! writing this one was so challenging because i was having major writers block, which ended up delaying it's release, aghh. anyways i tried pulling through, so stick until the bittersweet end <3 ! JOLO OUT IN 2 WEEKS (obsessed with roses, like jaehyun babe who hurt yuh?!) đĽ . anyways love you all, stay safe & jiji out đ¤
âi'll never forget how stupid in love i felt. i'll always regret how i couldn't ever tell, that you walked a little faster, left me behind.â
âkissed me with somebody else in mind. i loved you so much that i settled for less.â
âoh, you were my everything⌠i was your second best.â
- laufey | âsecond bestâ
jaehyunâs pov.
âfuck, fuck, fuck,â i shouted as the door closed. i contemplated chasing after her, but something told me not to. how couldâve i been so fucking stupid? why did i think she would understandâ no, this whole shit was impossible to understand.
i cheated and lied to her. there wasnât going to be anything i couldâve done now to undo what i did. i did the worst thing a man couldâve done, and broke her, played with her innocent self. i could love for infinitely, but that still wouldn't have been enough to repair the damage.Â
i looked down, remembering the gift she gave me right before leaving. this small gift bag held a massive weight. with trembling hands, i started unboxing it and pulled out a small velvet box.
no, this couldnât be⌠now hurriedly i opened it. a silver colored ring, in the middle of the box. you fucking bastard, i thought. i really fucked up, really beyond repair.
i took the ring out. i noted the small stones around the band of the ring, my birthstone, amethyst.
my cheeks felt wet, only then did i realize i started crying. now i regret not chasing after her, spending the rest of my day apologizing to her, pleading with her. she took my happiness when she walked out that door, a part of me with her.
and for all i knew matters would only continue to get worse from here on outâŚ
two lines.
there are two fucking lines on the stickâŚ
âiâm pr-pregnantâŚâ i muttered.
this couldnât be happening, oh how i wished this was a dreamâ a nightmare i could wake up to right about now. but no, this is fucking reality.
well i guess that would explain why i was late and the nauseating feelings i kept having. however so i still hoped it would come out negative. it wasnât that i didnât want this child, it was just about whether or not iâd be up to live as a single mother.
i caressed my stomach, though still unnoticeable, how would this child be able to live? made without mutual love, and there was no denying this was a result of that night. the very same night before disaster struck.
did the birth control not work? i thought. no, impossible itâd always worked, but perhaps luck was truly never in my favor that day. itâd been about or over a month since that day and a lot has happened, my newly discovered pregnancy being one of those things.
as i walk outside my bathroom and into my bedroom, i gently sit on the edge of my bed as flashbacks of the past month flood my mind. first things first, that same week i began moving out with my shared apartment with yuna. we had a pretty heated argument, both sides equally hurt and betrayed. yet one thing iâd say we both saw eye-to-eye was how much of a scum he was. who knew a simple man would cause our friendship to fall apart.
anyhow, with that out the way i started making preparations to move out of not only that apartment but the city. luckily the move went smoothly thanks to a special someone.
mr.jeong.
it happened a day after my talk with yuna when i decided to talk to his father. i felt the need to come clean, confess to everything that went on. to my surprise, mr.jeong hadnât yet heard of our breakup nor from his son. i expected mr.jeong to feel upset, or at least angry towards me but he didnât. in fact he cursed at his idiotic son, sympathizing with me. the woman who entered a fake relationship and lied to him, nonetheless there was no denying mr.jeongâs genuine care and love towards me. he treated me as his family, the thought made my heart ache. i mean it was a silly thought as iâd never will become his family.
our talk lasted well around an hour before i decided to depart. i made the decision to tell mr.jeong that iâd be moving, in which he offered two things. one, to never tell that idiotic son of his where iâd gone to in case he asks. two, money.
i refused to take the money, but he insisted i take it since iâd just quit my cafe job. also adding how expensive getting a singular apartment would be for me. after much dispute⌠i ended up taking the money. he also added there was no need to repay him back, and that if i wanted to look at it as a iâm-sorry-for-my-idiotic-sons-foolishness recompense.
nonetheless iâm eternally grateful to mr.jeong. i mean without his help i probably wouldn't have been able to move into this apartment in a fairly quicker time as if i didnât have the amount they asked for. once i settled in, i began job hunting.
just the other day i went in for an interview. i still awaited the call from the company, it was a publishing firm.
i plopped down onto my bed, absentmindedly staring at the ceiling. who knew the year would turn out so catastrophic for me. a whirlwind of thoughts flooded my mind which eventually led me to a deep slumber. the pregnancy sure to be the cause of my tiredness.
ring. ring. ring.
my eyes slowly fluttered open, trying to find the noise of the abrupt ringing. my phone's screen lights up, vibrating against the mattress. i reached a hand towards the device, not even bothering to look at who was calling me.
âhello? is this y/n?â a womanâs voice spoke.
slightly unconscious i answer, ây-yes, may i ask whoâs this.â
âah- nice to speak to you y/n, this iâm mrs.kang and i work for the publishing firm you applied for.â
oh, now i was fully awake. âwoa- hello! nice to mee-speak to you ms.kang,â i stumbled on my words.
a slight chuckle arose from the other line, âyes, well i just wanted to tell you that⌠youâre in! congratulations, the company has decided to hire you!â
what! no way⌠it has to be a dream. i pinch myself, ow. okay not a dream. âwo-wow, thank you so much! w-when can i start!â
ânext monday, if thatâs alright with you,â she explained. âyes! thatâs fine with me,â i almost immediately replied. âthatâs great, see you on monday ms.l/n!â
i bid her farewell before hanging up. wow. my life is really seemingly picking up after all the bad luck. oh but now there was the baby to think about, i still havenât called my clinic. âitâd be best to call them now,â i muttered. and so i did, my appointment was set for thursday.
i reach back for my stomach, a faint smile appeared on my face. âmy little light,â i whisper into the empty bedroom.
i was keeping my baby, it didnât matter whether i would be a good mother or not because this child was a little gift to me sent from the heavens above. my baby, not his. âyou may not have a father, but thatâs okay, my little light. iâll make sure to give you both so youâll never feel lonely. mommy loves you so much already.â
my little light. finding my way out the deepest depths of hell, you became my light who guided me to my new beginning. and for that youâre my little light. my savior.
jaehyunâs pov.
i drove into the driveway of my fatherâs residence, parking before finding myself knocking at his front door. heâd called me yesterday night, urging me to see him today. i wonder what he couldâve wanted. i wasnât in the mood to see him today or come to my childhood home where memories of her existed.
itâs been over a month since we broke up and my life has been nothing but a shit show. i stare at my left hand, the sun's light reflecting on the piece of medal around my finger. her final gift, her parting gift; the ring found itâs home on my left ring finger. iâve never taken it off once since that day that i put it on.
i canât even count how many nights i spent crying, drinking, and cursing myself. y/n⌠her name hurt to say, verbally or not. sometimes it felt as though she was still there, waiting for me at my apartment, in my car, everywhere. she haunted me everyday, even when i slept.
she never answered or responded to any of my calls or texts, assuming she blocked my number.
the door swings open, and instead of being met with ms.kim i was met with an angered man, my father. ânice to you see you too,â i said when he didnât offer to greet me first. strange, i thought. normally heâd be chatty but today he just walked, guiding me to his office. we took a seat across from each other on the leather couches he had in there.
silence filled the office before i decided to speak up. i cleared my throat, âso whatâs wrong father.â
he huffed, âyouâre no son of mine jaehyun.â i furrowed my brows, no son of mine?
he mustâve noticed my confusion because he then continued. âi know what you did, what you did to her. how could you!â he spoke, his words getting louder the more he continued.
shit.
âyou think i wouldnât find out? the poor girl came to me just the other day, a mess, yet nonetheless confessed to everything that was going on between the two of you,â he continued, my eyes widening more. she came over⌠she was hereâŚ
i clenched my fists. âi-is she alright? did she look okay?â i trashed question after question. my mind only thinking of her. he stayed quiet, not answering any of my questions. a beat or two passed before he continued speaking, âi mean really jaehyun⌠lying to her just to get back with that other woman?!â
fuck, looks like he knew everything. i sucked a breath in, âi-i didnât mean to-â he cut me off, âmean to what!?â he shouts. âto fall in love with her. to break her. for any of this to happen,â i answered. my vision was beginning to blur. i faintly hear my father, tsk, before speaking.
âget ready jaehyun.â
i looked into his eyes for the first time since we entered his office. âf-for?â i asked, a gut feeling telling me it wasnât for anything good. âiâm passing the company to you. iâve been meaning to for a while now, and after all this mess you got yourself in you donât exactly deserve it but iâm not getting any younger.â
my mouth fell open, then closed. no way he was asking me to take over the company⌠i wasnât in any way, shape, or form prepared. heck i was still a mess from the break up.
âand i donât care if youâre not prepared, a mess, or whatever excuse you have to offer me, youâre gonna take over and thatâs final.â
there was no point arguing, when my father made a decision it was final. âalright,â i said, throwing my head back against the couch.
i hear as he gets up, resting my head back up. he pauses for a moment when he grabs the doorknob, turning to face me.
âand to answer your questions from earlier, sheâs gone. y/n left jaehyun, sheâs not coming back so you should give up. i mean itâs not like sheâs going to take you back after everything you put her through.â
my heart dropped, my eyes blurring again. she-sheâs gone? y/n, my y/n? no, no⌠this wasnât supposed to happen. and so before i could further inquiry my father any further, he opened the door and walked out.
he left me all alone in his office space, me and my thoughts. my gaze drops down to the ring, where a single tear drop landed.
7 months later.
âow,â you muttered. you bring a hand to your stomach, feeling the tiny kicks of the little human inside you. âi might as well sign you up for soccer,â i say, feeling another kick that causes me to chuckle. perhaps that was my sign that my little light was up for playing the sport.
for the past 7 months since i found out i was pregnant itâs been⌠a lot. it was hard being alone, but as time quickly passed i started getting the hang of it. i wished i had someone to go to, but my parents were long gone. i never really had a family to call my own, except now for this little human.
ever since my stomach started showing iâve been working at home, the company was surprisingly pretty insistent about taking a maternity leave, but i still needed a way to make money. the workload wasnât a lot, in fact i was only assigned with editing reports. nonetheless the pay was still great.
in fact, next month was going to be my last month working as the date for my birth approached, i needed to take the time off. in the 7 months too, my memory and thoughts of him dissipated. i was doing better, i could feel it. it wasnât just for me, but for my baby too. i didnât want my child to be upset with me.
as i got up to go use the restroom i heard the faint ringtone of my phone. i sighed as i looked at the caller id. âand what do i owe you the pleasure of, jungwoo?â
kim jungwoo. my co-worker and newly found best friend. he was the only one by my side and the only one iâve spoken to about everything thatâs happened. shock would be an understatement of his reaction, but nevertheless he still stuck by my side⌠annoyingly so.
âis that really a way to greet your bestest friend!? iâm very offended y/l/n, after all that trouble of going to get you those midnight cravings,â he says, falsely sobbing into the phone. though he couldnât see, i rolled my eyes. this guy, i swear.
âoh my, iâm sorry your majesty. please forgive my behavior just now,â i replied. âyou are forgiven,â he says back. âbut⌠really jungwoo, whyâd you call?â
ânothing much, just⌠open the door and youâll find out,â he says. i do as he instructed, slowly walking to my door.
you open it, revealing jungwoo with a carry-out bag in hand. was it unusual to say you developed a keen sense of smell since your pregnancy? well because it smelled like he brought over fried chicken.
âuhm⌠can you maybe drool later, and let me in now so we could dig in,â he says, standing frozen. i snap out of my hungry state, moving aside to let him in.
we walk to my dining table, sitting across from one another. jungwoo does all the unpacking whilst i watch with prying eyes as he takes the food out and opens it. âdig in,â he announces. i wasted no time, grabbing the chicken and stuffing it into my mouth. i let out a satisfied groan, the chicken tasting so damn good.
you being too engulfed with that damn delicious fried chicken, failed to notice as jungwoo turns on the television. âcome back before i finish everything,â you warn him. he lets go of the remote, stopping at some random channel. well the television was the least of your worries right now.
âhowâs she doing,â jungwoo speaks up, eyeing my stomach. âiâm thinking of signing her up for soccer when sheâs straight out of the womb, little girl can kick,â i replied, earning me a laugh from jungwoo.
a couple months back, my doctor told me the gender of my little light. a girl, my baby girl. i didnât partially care what the gender was going to be, but nonetheless i was still ecstatic about the revelation. having a baby girl meant i would be able to dress her up, so cute like a little doll.
âjeong jaehyun.â
i whip my head to the television at the mention of that name. my eyes widened, dropping the food from my hand.
ân corps newest ceo is the first to accomplish acquiring various kinds of subsidiaries in such a short amount of timeâ ranging from luxury brands to flower shops,â the female reporter says as they display a picture of the man.
i squint my eyes, focusing them solely on his left hand. i hoped my eyes werenât deceiving me because⌠is that the ring i gave him. no⌠no, my mind and eyes had to have been playing tricks on me because why on earth would he wear, better yet still have the ring.
âis that him,â jungwoo speaks up, interrupting my thoughts. i turn back around, my mood suddenly plummeting. i don't say anything, just nodding my head to indicate that the man who just appeared was the same man i spoke of.
and so for the rest of dinner we ate in silence, minor talk appearing but jungwoo would always be the one initiating it. i was too lost, going down a rabbit hole about him.
when we finished eating, jungwoo insisted on cleaning upâ he even took the garbage with him as he left. i walked him to my door, bidding him goodbye. when he was gone, i headed to the bathroom, a shower was very much needed.
plopping onto my bed, i stare at the ceiling. my thoughts on, jaehyun. a familiar ache appeared in my heart, i thought i was over him but it seems i might be far from it. âi guess mommy isnât all that strong, huh little one,â i whisper as i reach my hands over my stomach.
youâre not sure what came over you that night, that news report igniting your lost feelings. and so in the midst of your thoughts, you somehow drifted off into a deep slumber.
an interesting one, per say. not only for you but for the other party involved as wellâŚ
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jaehyun crashes his lips to mine, eloping me into a deep and passionate kiss. his tongue slides along my bottom lip, begging for entry in which i grant him.
our tongues fighting one another, and teeth occasionally clashing. my mind began to fog, but i refused to stop. i could feel his love with every kiss.
âstrip,â he says in a sultry tone. i felt the air getting hot.
grabbing the hem of my top, i pulled it over my head, and then followed my shorts. i left myself in my lace panties and bra, jaehyun licking his lips in delight.
reaching his hand over, he gropes my tits which earned him a breathy moan of his name.
reaching his hands to the back, he swiftly unhooks my bra, letting it fall beneath me. he groans, admiring the way my tits were on full display. âso fucking beautiful,â he says, taking his mouth over one of my nipples.
he sucks on it, and eventually bites down on the bud. i bite my bottom lip, not wanting to yell out loud.
i look down at him, his eyes staring back at mine as he practically makes out with one of my tits. i could feel one of his hands slides down my back at a slow pace, leaving a burning trail behind.
âyou want me to touch you, baby?â he asks as he fondles your ass, sending a small slap across the flesh of skin. ây-yes,â you moan.
âtell me baby, where.â his voice so deep, his head coming up to peck my lips. i nearly melted, âyo-you know.â i take an unoccupied hand of his to my sex, making him palm it. âmy pussy needs you,â i whisper as i leaned into his ear.
jaehyunâs lips twitch up, kissing you hard one last time before he begins to go down on his knees. he places his hands to the waistband of your panties, dragging them down your legs. âopen up for me,â he says, and i begin opening my legs up. he drags his fingers to collect the slick that began dripping down my thigh.
kiss after kiss, bite after bite along my thighs. reaching a hand to his hair, i grip it. and when he finally reaches my cunt, i become a whimpering mess. his hands gripped my thighs, holding me in place as his tongue darted out.
a slow tantalizing lick, and then another. i jerk my hips forward, wanting more friction. i feel as jaehyun stops his licks. âdonât move, or else i wonât let you cum darling.â his warning was clear, i stayed still.
and so he continues, but instead of licks he sucks on my clit. along with using the tip of his tongue to tease the poor bud, before finishing off with a bite. âj-jaehyun!â i yelled when i felt his teeth on my clit.
letting go with a pop, i watch as he licks his lips before diving back in. his licks faster than when he first started, and before i knew it he brought his fingers into the mix. one of his fingers entering you, then two, both knuckle deep inside you. it wasnât until after he pecked your clit that he began thrusting them inside you.
in and out, out and in. your gummy walls clenching around his digits as they quickly thrusted into you. you feel the stretch of your walls as he opens them, like scissors. the constant chant of his name was such a melody to his ears, urging him to do more.
you felt yourself getting closer to your release as he continued his ministrations on your pussy. he mustâve felt the way you clenched around his fingers, âclose?â he asks. ây-yes, m-my cl-clit!â
jaehyun got the message as he attached his mouth onto your clit. with both his mouth and hands working themselves on you at the same time, it felt like you could cum at any moment. with one suck to your clit and his fingers plummeting in you, you gushed out. a stream of liquid coming out of you, splattering all over his arm. it wasnât the first time youâve squirted but nonetheless you still felt shy, hot all over.
jaehyun gets back up, watching you as you watched him lick your essence off his arm and hand. âso delicious, a delicacy that you are baby.â
you could almost cum again from those simple words. as you try regaining your breath jaehyun brings his lips to your ear. âon the bed, all fours,â he whispers. a shiver runs down your spine, his sex-dazed voice was one of your favorite things in the whole world.
without wasting another second you head towards his bedroom, onto his bed with hands and knees on the mattress. your ass up, on full display. slap. you jerk forward from the sudden movement.
and another one on the other cheek. you turn your head around, a naked jaehyun behind you in all his glory. his hard, thick cock reaching his stomach. you could see the glisten of his pre-cum. you feel his hardened member rub against your slit, both your essences blending with one another.
then he places a hand on your hips, while the other holds his cock so he could slide it into your aching hole. his cock slowly stretches you out, walls wrapping snuggly around it. you could hear jaehyunâs groans the deeper he goes in. when heâs all in, he kisses your exposed nape before going absolutely mad.
jaehyun was an absolute madman when it came to having sex. when he was balls deep inside you, he felt like heâd gone into another dimension; another world. you are quite literally the most perfect thing in this world, you were made for him.
your mouth falls into an âoâ shape when you feel his tip kissing your womb, tongue hanging out when he grabs some of your hair to pull you against his chest. you didnât know if it was even possible for his dick to reach you even deeper, but it mustâve because this angle allowed for him to reach places that have never been touched before.
it wasnât long before you ended up cumming on his cock, jaehyun following suit after a couple more thrusts. feeding your womb his seeds, which eventually dripped out of you as slides his cock out. you slump onto the mattress, too tired, body giving up.
on the other hand, there was something so hot about watching his cum drip out of your pussy. it turned him on, his cock beginning to harden again. his hands reached your body, turning you the other way so your back was against the mattress. you looked so fucked, he loved it.
âready for round two?â he says, not even waiting for your answer before he intrudes back into your hole. fucking his cum back into your pussy. his hands, finding yours as he interlocks his fingers with yours. your watery eyes, low chants of his name, the clenching of your walls and fingers, the way your mouth falls open, and your tongue lolling out. fuck. it was the perfect sight.
âgod, i love you,â jaehyun groans as he thrusted into you.
there was no stopping him now, he was going at an insane pace. the sounds of skin slapping, his balls on your ass, and the squelching sounds of you both echoed in the room.
letting go of one of the interlaced fingers, he brings his hand to your clit. the poor swollen bud victim to his ministrations again. he used his thumb to rub the bundle of nerves, you clench tighter around him. your own orgasm not too far away.
âk-kiss me!â you yelled. jaehyun wasted no time bringing his lips onto yours. it was sloppy but you didnât care, you loved the way it felt.
you moaned into the kiss, as you finally came for the third time tonight. taking his lips from your mouth, he puts them on an exposed section of your neck, sucking on it as he came.
filling you up for a second time tonight, you felt the warmth inside your womb. you wondered whether you could get pregnant after tonight. having his babies, becoming parents, getting marriedâ a dream.
both of you crash onto his bed, not bothering to clean up for now. both too tied, and unable to get up. he kisses your hair, whispering sweet nothings and lulls you to sleep. you and jaehyun peacefully sleeping in each otherâs arms for the night.
jaehyunâs pov.
fuck. what the fuck.
jaehyun jumps up from his bed. too shocked, unable to comprehend what just happened. he doesnât mutter anything, he just goes into his bathroom and turns on the shower.
stepping into the cold water, he faces the tile walls. his throbbing erection the least of his worries right now.
âwh-why⌠why did i have a dream about that night, the night before we-we-â he mutters, the water dripping down his body.
jaehyun didnât know why he dreamt about you, the steamy night that unfolded a week prior to the break-up.
yeah, heâd get off to past memories of you but never a full on dream. he didnât know what to do, to think, to say, to anything.
and he couldnât even being himself to sleep again, so he showered in the cold. itâs been 7 months, the pain still not gone. he misses you tremendously every single day.
he stares at the ring that still stayed on his finger, clenching his hand as he wants to punch the wall in front of him.
ây/nâŚâ
2 months later.
december 14. the day my little star was born.
she was born healthy, no complications. and luckily i was fine as well. it was excruciating pain but knowing she was close to being brought into this world made such pain disappear.
in fact, today we were scheduled to leave and i couldnât wait to just go home. my home wouldnât feel so empty anymore, the thought made me smile.
d/n (daughter name) was currently being breastfed, her eyes shut and wrapped like a burrito. she was the most beautiful baby, though she does look quite a lot like her daddy.
i sigh, throwing my head against the pillow. and before i could fully relax after various sleepless nights, there was a knock to my hospital door. the knock causing me to jerk my head towards the door.
âcome in,â i said loud enough so the person on the other side could hear, and low enough so it wouldnât frighten my baby as she was fast asleep.
i thought it was just some nurse coming in to check in before i left but it wasnât, far from it. my eyes widened. the person also stopping in their trace when they noticed me.
ây/nâŚâ the feminine voice speaks.
my mouth falls open, âm-ms.kim?!â
what was she doing here? why- wait⌠kim jungwoo, kim⌠oh my god. the pieces clicked together, she was the person jungwoo promised to call.
just last night jungwoo called me, apologizing over and over again for being unable to take me back home. i do remember him telling me that heâd find someone else, but⌠who knew itâd be his mother, ms.kim!
we both stayed frozen. neither speaking, you could probably even hear our breaths. however, the cries of a baby erupted into the room. the cries bringing us back to reality.
i look at d/n, swaying her gently in my arms. her wails didnât stop though. âc-can i?â ms.kim asks. i look up, nodding my head, handing her my daughter. it was almost intriguing how fast d/n calmed down, falling back asleep in ms.kimâs arms. she takes a closer look at the baby in her arms, âsheâs adorable, such chubby cheeks.â
i admire the scene in front of me, when was the last time i saw her? i thought. does she still work for them? countless questions wondered in my head until she spoke again. âshe looks just like him,â she says softly. i almost froze, eyes widening. i never told her who the father was, but then again my baby does look a lot like her dad. then considering ms.kim had been with the jeongâs since he was born, she mustâve seen how he looked as a baby.
âd-does she,â i say at a loss. she nods, âiâve been with them since he was still in the womb, and watched him grow, so i can guarantee you theyâre daughter and father.â when i didnât speak she spoke again, âi probably shouldnât be bringing him up⌠i- mr.jeong told me. he explained to me what happened when i asked why you werenât coming over anymore, and well⌠iâm sorry.â
wait⌠why- why is she apologizing. i stopped her immediately, ân-no, you-you have nothing to do with what happened, why are you apologizing?!â
âi raised him after,â she answered. i shook my head, âno, please donât apologize. you and mr.jeong played no part in what unraveled between me and him, nor do or will i blame either of you.â
she faintly smiles, âyouâre too kind, y/n. in all honesty, i thought i would never see you again but yet here you are, you even befriended my son.â i giggled a little at the thought of jungwoo, âhe sure is something else, but iâll be eternally grateful to him.â
we continued our conversation for a while longer before a nurse came in to give me the okay to leave today. i did and completed the necessary things so i could go home, ms.kim helped me. and after a couple hours we were finally out of the hospital with d/n in the car seat ms.kim brought along. she said jungwoo got it for me, as a congrats-on-giving-birth gift.
ms.kim drove, while i stayed in the back with d/n, arriving at my home a while later. we spent the rest of the evening there, ms.kim preparing dinner. whilst she was doing that, jungwoo got off work and came over. he was overly excited to see d/n, shunning me and his own mother out.
when the food was ready, i put a sleeping d/n in the crib i placed in the living room. then i headed back to the dining table, sitting down and for the first time enjoying a homely meal. it was so good, i started crying. when was the last time i felt at peace? when i felt complete? jungwoo nor ms.kim said anything, letting me have a moment.
my home was finally warm and cozy, my new life begun today. my little light radiating throughout my- our home.
4 months later.
i sighed, pushing the stroller of my 4 month-old child along the park. the cold winter weather was gone, and the flowers were in full bloom again. we came for a stroll at our local park, i was in need of a refresher.
itâs been a month since i began working again, and things were going great until a couple days ago when i was informed of a new task. the olâ mighty task being⌠interviewing⌠jeong jaehyun. with the rise of n corps, my company was in desperation to get an interview with him. and if matters couldnât get any worse, our main interviewer broke their leg a couple days ago, so they decided to assign me with the job. well, they gave me until the end of the week to decide whether i was up for it but⌠come on, me?!
no way, there was no way i was going to-
ây/n?â a voice shouts. the voice sounding familiar, i turn around without any second thoughts. though now i wished i hadnât turned around at all, that i had simply ignored the call of my name.
i froze. âj-jaehyun,â i said in a voice that was only loud enough for him to hear. what was he doing here⌠he shouldnât be here⌠no⌠no wh- âit really is youâŚâ he says, interrupting my thoughts. he walks closer, my eyes beginning to blur. âbaby,â he says gently. my stomach churns, in a bad way at the use of the word.
âd-donât ca-call me t-that!â i say, my voice distorted. i was probably trembling as he walked closer. he stopped in his tracks when the cries of a baby erupted.
shit.
he stops, his eyes focusing from me to the strolling behind me. i instinctively blocked her, hiding her from his view even though it was too late now.
it seems it didn't take long for jaehyun to connect two-and-two together. âi-is that my- our child,â he says in an astonished tone. at least he wasnât such an idiot, iâll give him that.
i shook my head, âno, youâre wrong. sheâs mine, she doesnât need you.â i wasnât going to deny that he was the dad but that didnât mean iâd consider him as her father.
jaehyun drops to his knees in front of me. his sobs getting louder as he cried. my heart ached at the sight, but then remembered why we were even here in the first place. i turn back, my grip tightening around the strollerâs handles.
i begin walking away, stopping briefly. âyou shouldâve moved on the day i left the hotel. we are strangers jaehyun, remember that.â he looks up, tears staining his face. i noticed a shine from his finger, it came from the ring around his left hand. i immediately identified it as the ring i had gotten him for his birthday.Â
âw-will i truly never see you again, see her again,â he says, trying to regain his composure. i donât reply back, leaving him in that park.
on the walk home i made up my mind⌠i was going through with the interview.
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i was sat, waiting for jaehyun to arrive. our meeting location was chosen to be at a restaurant, where we were designated with our own room for privacy reasons. honestly, i could care less about the interview. 3 days had passed since our reunion, and i felt that there was still much left to be discussed, so what better way than to talk about it here.
the door slid open, jaehyun stiffened. his mouth falling open, âw-what-â i interrupted him before he could continue. âsurprise,â i sarcastically said. he looked out to check if he was in the right room, only to be reassured he was. jaehyun sits down, his head down, not daring to look up. i could tell he was keeping his guard up around me.
i softly sighed, âthe person who was set to interview you, broke their leg so they put me as their replacement.â i felt it was only right to explain the situation since iâm sure he was wondering what i was doing here.
when he stayed quiet i continued, âand for the record i accepted it only because i felt that we needed to have a deep talk about everything. letâs put aside the interview for now jaehyun.â
he finally looked up, his eyes meeting mine. âw-where is she?â he asks, stumbling on his words. âshe? oh! d/n is with ms.kim. you probably donât know but ms.kim offered to look after her while i worked,â i explained. it was the truth, ms.kim, since the time i began working again took care of d/n. she argued sheâd find a way around working with mr.jeong and babysitting.
however it seems jaehyun was oblivious to this. âm-ms.kim,â he whispers, in which i respond with a nod. âthatâs where sheâd gone,â he continued. âwhat do you mean?â i asked.
âwell, my father briefly explained that sheâd gotten a job somewhere else so she wouldnât be able to work from certain hours,â he answered. so thatâs what she told them, i thought. âmmm, speaking of your father⌠how is he?â
âi guess heâs alright. the old man and me arenât doing so well, so itâs hard to sayâŚâ he says, stopping briefly to take a sip of his water that was placed there by the waiter before he even arrived. âever since you left, he got pretty upset with me. he forced me into the family company, didnât even wanna consider me his son. i mean it didnât matter to me, i deserved it after all.â
i stayed quiet, not knowing what to say at his revelation. âs-so, tell me about her. please, y/n,â jaehyun pleads. i give it some thought before sighing.
âher name is d/l/n. she was born on december 14th. i found out i was pregnant around a month after that day. she was all i had left so i decided to keep her. and god was that the best decision iâve ever made. yeah, those 9 months were sometimes hell, but i managed. i was scared of being a single mother, but hey look at where i am today,â i explained. his features softened as i continued explaining my past year.
and when i finished he asked, âwonât you let me see her?â i ponder, âi wish, i want to⌠but, i-iâm not sure if i can trust you yet jaehyun.â âand why is that?â he asks. âb-because of what you did. you broke me completely, crushed up all faith and trust i had for you.â
ât-then give me a second chance,â jaehyun declares. you look at him astonished at his declaration. âw-what do you mean?â
âgive me a second chance to prove to you and d/n i can be trusted. iâll make up for lost time, iâll love her triple, no infinitely more. please, just please⌠we donât even have to go into it thinking we might get together, i-i just want to see my baby girl.â
his voice was getting weaker, practically pleading with me. a second chance, huh. i took my time to think about it, would letting him into out lives be the right choice? i was gambling here, but nonetheless i made my decision.
âf-fine. you better prove yourself worth forgiving, jeong jaehyun.â his face almost lit up, âth-thank you! i most definitely will, iâll prove to you both. i wonât make the same foolish mistakes. iâll love d/n, iâll love you,â he says. iâll love you. the phrase brought something out of me, touched my heart per say.Â
and so after an overdue talk, we cleared up our misunderstandings. we agreed on co-parenting, among other things. the interview then proceeded as planned, and once that was out the way he drove me home. i offered to invite him in, in which he gladly accepted.
ms.kim was shocked to see him show up, confused even but i briefly told her iâd explain it later. d/n was awake, and when i introduced her to jaehyun it was like the most sentimental scene. he cried, heck i probably did too. even more shockingly, d/n warmed up to jaehyun faster than i expected.
it felt like weâd finally become a family, like we could finally live happily ever after. and although i knew the journey was far from being over, i was willing to test the waters. if in the near future jaehyun and i ever get together then we get together, and if we donât then we donât.
whatever the future had in store for us, weâd face it once it came. but until then this new life that has bloomed for us like the flowers, will be lived with one another by each other's side.
âyouâre my dandelion.â
Š jhdyuiee
2024. 08. 18
final a.n: woohoo, we're at the end! writing part 2 like i mentioned was a hassle since i was having writers block, worst feeling ever! on top of that i started school again :(( . not the best couple of weeks but i managed to get this done in a week, nevertheless i really hope you all can enjoy it. thank you for your continued love and support, i truly cannot thank you enough for everything! that being said, i will be taking this upcoming week off, and will hopefully be back to uploading for the last week of august. i love you all berry much! please look forward to jaehyun's solo, JOLO, on august 26! thank you&i love you, jiji signing off đ¤
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Inspo after finding out Hightowers are originally described to have silver or golden hair and dabble with sorcery x
An AU where Daemon is given the choice to marry Rhea Royce or Ceryse Hightower, the Lord Hand's eldest child. The Rouge Prince putting up his dramatics, preferring to cut his cock off than to marry a common lady by his Valyrian standards or worse, a Hightower. He'd avoid choosing his future bride as long as possible until he meets Lady Ceryse, being enchanted with her light locks adorning her features to a true Targaryen princess. He supposed he'd marry her, his bride being easy on the eyes and a lady he'd be willing to fuck. To his surprise, his wife isn't as insufferable as her father, being a quiet obedient pretty little thing for him. Birthing him a healthy babe boy that could challenge Viserys legacy until Aemma births him a son. Her father and husband taking her for a naive pious lady as her younger sister, yet she has the same ambition as them, lusting for the power of the iron throne. Secretly dabbling with the sorcery and belief's King Maegor openly hated of the Hightower's. Despite her families protest, the princess follows her husband after his exile, loyally standing by him and secretly helping him with his war. She hears her sister is queen now, birthing the king a boy that is yet to be named heir. She trust what the future holds, her son will be king and her father will get what he always wanted, either if his alive to see or not, his Hightower blood will see the Iron Throne.
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Daemon truly believing he has such a sweet, lovely wife who follows his every movement and order.
It is not long before she's pregnant whilst he's fighting in the step stones; Daemon coming back full of rage.
either if his alive to see or not, his Hightower blood will see the Iron Throne. !!
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Pinky Promise
Childhood Meeting AU | The balance of this universe shifted when he was brought into this world. Since he could start walking he was treated differently from the other children of his clan. Robbed of his innocence, childhood and freedom. So what happens when one day at the Gojo Clans Residence, another clan comes to visit for a deal. Bored of the meeting, 10 year old Satoru Gojo goes to the gardens hoping to find something worthy of his time. But is faced with a girl younger then him, claiming to be a princess of another land. Yet when he looks at the cheap toy tiara on her head, the bright smile on her face, her eyes looking at him with awe⌠he knew they were complete opposites, raised from two different sides of the same coin.
á§o᧠|| gojo satoru x f!reader, no manga spoilers, no nsfw, pure fluff, 1.7k word count
At his birth, the young boy was known to be completely different from the rest of his clan. Born with the six eyes, always came with a target on his back. Feared by all despite his young age, just a look from him had your blood running cold. In his eyes, they were all weaklings. Nothing to worry about nor spend his precious time on.
One spring day, where the cherry blossoms were falling along the path. Littering around the pebbled walkway and the freshly cleaned floor. There was a meeting between two clans. The famous Gojo and L/N clan. Both were highly influential in the Jujutsu World. The Gojo clan was one if not, the most feared clan of them all.
Known for their limitless and six eyes technique, giving them the ability to manipulate space and have extraordinary visual abilities. You would be a fool to challenge them. While the L/N clan was more known for their success in the ability to rewind time. Using their cursed energy, and placing both palms on a persons body, they are able to rewind the body to its original form. Unlike the Gojo clan, the L/N clan is often known to be soft hearted individuals making them easy to make alliances with other clans. They use their ability to heal those of serious injuries such as missing limbs or life threatening wounds. Known as expert healers and the sole clan to perform such miracles.
Today was the day the Gojo and L/N clan would finally stabilize their alliance. As the meeting went on, Satoru left the room without a word. He was there alone in the garden, boredly observing his family's fish pond. When suddenly Satoru felt someoneâs cursed energy behind the big Sakura tree. He reflexively got himself into a stance for battle, but what Satoru saw was a girl who seemed to be younger than him, who was poking her head out to stare at Satoru innocently.
Satoru looked at the girl curiously, then spoke with a firm and commanding tone, "Who are you?"
The girl quickly hides behind the tree again. Her heart thumps as she canât believe she got caught so quickly. She slowly steps out from behind the tree. Wearing a bright pink dress and two white bows in her hair. Her eyes meet his as she shyly speaks, âm-my name is p-princess y/n. U-umâŚ..â
He gives her an odd look, is this girl right in the head?
âAre you my prince?!â she says with hope and awe in her big eyes. She couldnât help but notice this boy's good looks, especially with his blue eyes. They were the perfect color and his white eyelashes just made him divine. Sheâs never seen someone so beautiful, this is definitely her prince.
She is slightly younger than him, it seems, she actually thinks sheâs a princess. Most likely around the age of 8. Satoru notices the cheap toy tiara on her head. The cheap piece of metallic paint, slightly chipping on its side showing sheâs had it for a while. Her attire, a pink dress that matches the tiny pink stone in the middle of her tiara.
For some reason his heart pounded in his chest as he looked at the girl standing in front of him with an expression of awe. She was adorable, the way her hair swayed in the wind as the cherry petals fell down around the two. Satoru thought to himself, She seems so pure...
Still, Satoru had to be cautious. He couldn't let some random girl sneak up on him. Satoru remained stoic and firm, looking down at the girl with a cool glance, "A prince? I refuse. Sounds weakâ
She physically gasps and rushes over in front of him, he tenses slightly and looks down at her. He wouldâve attacked in any situation but she seems harmless and fairly weak. Her head goes up as she stares at him when she starts pouting and whining, âNoooooo you have to be my prince! Iâm a princess!â
Satoru couldn't help but hold back a smile at the little girl, despite the fact that he was supposed to remain stoic. She was just soâŚ.. cute. For the first time in a while, he let out a small chuckle and got on one knee down to her level, making sure she wouldn't feel threatened or intimidated. She was different from the others, she didnât seem scared of him and he oddly liked that. He couldn't help but admire the innocent way she looked up at him, her innocent eyes glistening with awe.
Satoru felt his heart beat faster as he looked at her. She was so tiny compared to him - a delicate little creature who seemed like she wouldn't hurt a fly. Satoru was normally stoic and expressionless, but in the presence of this little girl, he was slowly starting to melt.
He looked at her, unsure of what to say. For once, it felt nice to have someone look up at him in such a way. She was so small and fragile, it was like she needed protecting.
âWhat is your name, my Prince?â she says with curiosity and is very eager to know his name.
Satoru raises an eyebrow as she continues to call him "my prince." It was a strange sensation, being called that by such an innocent girl.
Satoru decides to play along with her naivety, as a small grin wanting to play on his lips. "I am Prince Satoru. And you are... Princess Y/N?" He asks, making a guess she would like being called that.
Her eyes brighten at that and a huge smile appears on her face, âyes that is me!â
Satoru can't help but get swept up in his curiosity. The way she spoke and smiled was so childlike, so genuine. She was like a breath of fresh air in his otherwise strict and stoic life. A small smile of amusement formed on his lips as he continued to kneel down to her level.
"So... Princess, are you here all by yourself?" He asked, giving a slight look over to make sure sheâs not hurt.
She shakes her head no, âmama and papa are inside, having a meeting. Do you live here my Prince?â
Ah she must be from the clan thatâs having a meeting with his people. Satoru nods his head, still fascinated by the way she looks up at him with such innocent and pure looks. "Yes, I live here." He says softly, deciding to return the soft tone when speaking to her, since she was so young. She was almost like a true princess, which wasn't hard to imagine due to her wearing the toy tiara on her head.
Her smile brightens even more if thatâs even possible, âthen will you pinky promise that youâll always be my prince?â
Satoru can't help but chuckle slightly at her innocent request, but he can't help being drawn back into it. His defenses were still being torn down by this little girl, causing him to be charmed and amused. He finds the way she spoke so pure and childlike to be so adorable. Grinning and trying his best to continue to play along, Satoru holds up his own finger, locking it together with hers. "I pinky promise to always be your prince."
The smile she gave him after that was of no other heâs ever seen. It was in that moment where he wanted to know her. Who she is. Her likes and dislikes. Hopes and ambitions. Dreams and aspirations. He wanted to know it all. Gojo Satoru was a cold child but he found the warmth he was always looking for. Her. Y/N L/N.
(ŕŠËá´Ë)੠time skip 15 yrsâ。𦹠°âŠ
More then a decade has passed, and things have changed drastically for Satoru. He's no longer the young boy that he once was and now is an adult and the sole member of his family's clan. He's become someone completely different han he was back then, no longer hardened by training and his family's expectations of him. Despite the strong and positive exterior he puts on, beneath it all, he's still the same young boy haunted by his past. He heard the clicking of heels in the hallway and he didnât even have to turn around to know who it is.
As she entered the main room, she noticed the vast emptiness of the hall. There was only one familiar figure occupying the room. Satoru was standing there with his arms crossed. As she entered, Satoru slowly turned to look in her direction, a small look of amusement flickering on his face as he observed her walking towards him.
âSatoru! Good Morning!â the expression on Satoru's face quickly softened as he heard her cheerful voice. He gave a small smile as she approached him, trying to conceal the way her presence immediately warmed him up. He nodded in response to her greeting, âhey there gorgeousâ he smirks.
She was now in her mid-twenties, but she hasn't changed a bit. She was still that pure hearted soul, with that adorably soft smile on her face, âSatoru did you have breakfast?â
Satoru shook his head, indicating that he hasn't had breakfast. Chelsy's innocent and cheerful demeanor was starting to become even more contagious as her presence began to brighten the room. "No, I haven't. Have you?" Satoru replies with a goofy smile as he ruffles her hair and hugs her. His hands around her waist as he buries his head in the crook of her neck.
She giggles at his antics âI didnât, I wanted to eat with youâ
Satoru gave her a wider smile, "I see... I would be glad to eat breakfast with you."
She offered her hand, his demeanor completely clingy now. Satoru instinctively took her hand, finding his grip softened up around hers. It felt like old times again, when she would hold his hand and they would explore the grounds and gardens after their first meet. Memories quickly flooded his mind at the touch of her hand.
A fond smile played on his lips as he kissed the back of her hand, âLet's go, Princess."
The balance of this world changed when Gojo Satoru was born. But his purpose was born when he met Y/N L/N. His Princess. His world.
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Monsters of Greek mythology
The Furies, or Erinyes, were relentless avengers of wrongdoing in Greek mythology.
Typhon, the deadliest monster in Greek mythology, challenged the gods of Olympus with his serpent-headed fury and storm-creating powers.
Hekate, the enigmatic goddess of magic and crossroads, held sway over the night and the spirit world.
Echidna, the mother of monsters, was a creature that gave birth to numerous legendary beasts.
Cerberus, the three-headed dog, guarded the gates of the Underworld, preventing both entry and escape.
The Greae, three ancient sisters who shared one eye and one tooth, were known for their wisdom and appeared in the myth of Perseus.
Cetus, a sea monster sent to ravage Ethiopia, was defeated by the hero Perseus.
The Minotaur, a half-man, half-bull creature, dwelled in the labyrinth on Crete and was vanquished by Theseus.
The Hydra, a multi-headed serpent-like monster, grew more heads when one was severed and was slain by Hercules.
Medusa, a Gorgon with snakes for hair, could turn onlookers to stone and met her demise at the hands of Perseus, who used her head as a weapon.
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Notes on Inheritance and Succession in MDZS
Within mdzs, there exists certain tropes shared with other traditional genre cnovels set in similar âhazy-on-history ancient pastâ settings. One of these tropes is the issue of inheritance and succession, i.e. who gets to be the new leader. In every traditional genre novel Iâve read, while succession and inheritance is assumed based on birth order and ranking (eldest son of the main wife inherits over second son of the main wife or eldest son of the father but born to a concubine), this is not always the case. For instance: a major plotline in a lot of family conflict-driven stories is that a man who has had multiple sons born to different main wives (first wife has died or been divorced) may choose his successor based on which main wife he loved more or whose family has more political backing rather than who is eldest. A man who respects his concubine more than his main wife may scheme to legitimize his shu (concubine-born) son to allow him to succeed over his wifeâs son(s). A man with no sons can petition or be petitioned by the clan to âadoptâ one from another branch of the family in order to carry on the legacy of his branch of the family. And in very rare cases, complete outsiders are adopted inâthough not without approval or challenge from the rest of the clan. Succession is not some set-in-stone process in the genre.
Likewise, we see this play out in mdzs. Taking concubines exists as a practice in the world of mdzs, but with none of the great clan leaders choosing to have any, thereâs no issue of di (main wife-born) son fighting shu son. Instead, we have many di son contenders who⌠donât content for anything lmao. Of the 5 great clans, 3 of them have 2 di sons, and one of them has a single di son and multiple unclaimed sons outside the home. The Jiang is the only great clan that has only a single son, di or otherwise, born to the clan leader. Letâs break it down a little further: the Lan clan have two di sons born of the same motherâa circumstance usually portrayed as harmonious in similar setting novels and follows, here, with the Twin Jadesâand the QishanWen assumedly do as well, also without any signs of conflict between Wen Xu and Wen Chao.
But the Nie have two di sons born of different mothers, one who is the shining example of a Nie leader and the other who is considered a waste. In a traditional genre novel, the expectation would be that Nie Mingjue and Nie Huaisang have a poor relationship because of having different mothers, that they should fight over inheritance, and that Nie Huaisangâs âwasteâ reputation be either a personality cultivated in him by Nie Mingjue to prevent his younger brother from being capable of inheriting or a ploy by Nie Huaisang to deceive his older brother into not perceiving him as a threat. Neither is the case. Nie Mingjue inherits the Nie Clan leader mantle effortlessly, and Nie Huaisang rejects the idea that he succeed. In fact, Nie Mingjue succeeded to clan leader so early in life that he is the one who raises his brother, and rather than raising his âcompetitionâ to be a waste, he is the one who pressures Nie Huaisang into developing a golden core and practicing with his saber, against all of Nie Huaisangâs objections. Despite having different mothers who were both main wives and therefore giving them both an equal claim to inheritance, there is no succession crisis.
Ok, so what about the Jin Clan? On the surface, it should be very simple because Jin Guangshan only has one di son, only claims this one son, and even if he were to claim another, he does not want to change his successor. So even when Jin Guangyao comes in, there was never a crisis in succession because Jin Guangshan made it very clear that he would never make Jin Guangyao his heir. Thatâs partially why when Jin Guangshan claims Mo Xuanyu and brings the boy back to Koi Tower as his heir, Jin Guangyao doesnât bother to kill Mo Xuanyu. He kills Jin Guangshan and has Mo Xuanyu exiled from the clan. The Jin never had a crisis of succession; Jin Guangyao simply killed the original heir, killed his father while Jin Guangshan thought he had another heir secured, then exiled that other heir post- their father's death so that others couldnât be brought in to challenge him (and lest we forget the rumors that he was secretly offing the other unclaimed sons behind the scenes, if you want to believe that). Later, when Jin Ling inherits the clan leader title, his claim is tested by older clan members and established clan elders because he is young and seemingly defenseless, not because there was a breadth of heir apparents with legitimate claims to his title waiting in the wings for their chance. It was just a power grab.
So now we have the Jiang Clan, the only clan with only one son and one daughter from the clan leader. There is no succession crisis, and there could never be one. Despite the possibility of having a female clan member succeed (Lan Yi exists as example) and the prevalence of highly respected female cultivators in the story, Jiang Yanli is a weak cultivator and has been engaged to be married out since birth. Jiang Cheng is the only option. I've seen some say that if Wei Wuxian was officially adopted in, then that would cause a succession crisis, but that's also not the case, because Wei Wuxian would be neither Jiang Fengmian's di son unless he were adopted under Madam Yu's name (something she would never allow to happen) nor a viable successor if Jiang Fengmian, himself, did not name Wei Wuxian as a successor over Jiang Cheng, something he would not do. And this isn't even counting the fact that Jiang Fengmian would need clan approval to adopt Wei Wuxian at all (think how Lan Wangji needed approval to adopt A-Yuan as a Lan), let alone the uproar that the Jiang Clan would have as a whole at the idea of Jiang Fengmian making a former servant's son the new clan heir over his son and all the other legitimate sons of the Jiang Clan. Absolutely would not fly. Jiang Cheng has the only claim to the Jiang Clan, and if he dies without an heir, the clan dies with him. Nothing a married-out Jiang Yanli or SchrĂśdinger's adopted son Wei Wuxian can do about it.
Where mdzs diverges from this trope with the traditional genre cnovels is that where this diversity of family types would be cause for conflict, mxtx pretty much ignores them because mdzs is not a dogblood drama. Therefore as morally weak or loose as a lot of the characters are, most characters still hold to a lot of the core beliefs of their society, such as filial piety. There's simply no need to fight over something like who gets to be clan leader unless you truly are a person willing to abandon all morals simply for a crumb of power. And wouldn't you know it, the only character to completely eschew all filial piety in pursuit of coveted power is the biggest villain of the novel who receives the most gruesome death when all his crimes catch up to him.
Some in-depth quotes under the cut:
Concubines exist in the world of mdzs and is not uncommon among cultivation clans:
[Jin Guangyao] never took in any concubines, much less had a relationship with any other woman. This was indeed something that many wives of sect leaders envied.
âChapt. 47: Guile, exr
Why Jin Guangyao could never be heir under Jin Guangshan despite becoming a claimed son:
In comparison, Mo XuanYu and his mother were rather favored. At least Jin GuangShan still remembered that he had such a son and brought him back to Koi Tower. Meng Yao, on the other hand, wasnât as lucky. The son of a prostitute was far from that of a good family.
âChapt. 47: Guile, exr
[Jin Guangyao] spoke, âMy whole thing? Which whole thing? Brother, youâve always yelled at me for calculating people and being too dishonorable. You say that youâre a proud, righteous person, that you arenât afraid of anything, that propen men shouldnât need to play with schemes. Thatâs fine. Your background is noble and your cultivation is high. But what about me? Am I the same as you? First, my cultivation isnât as firm as yours. Ever since I was born, has anyone taught me? And second, I have no prominent background. Do you think that Iâm in a steady position, here at the LanlingJin Sect? Do you think that I can rise into power the moment Jin ZiXuan dies? Jin GuangShan would rather bring another illegitimate child back than want me to succeed him! You think that I should be afraid of nothing? Well Iâm afraid of everything, even other people! He whose stomach is full believes not him who is starving.â
âChapt. 50: Guile, exr
âThis is what he said, âItâs especially women whoâve read some books who think theyâre a level higher than other women. Theyâre the most troublesome, with so many demands and unrealistic thoughts. If I bought her freedom and took her back to Lanling, who knows how much fuss sheâd make. It was best that I let her stay where she was just like that. With her conditions, sheâd probably be popular for a few more years. She wouldnât have to worry about her spendings for the rest of her life.â ââSon? Oh, forget it.ââ
âChapt. 106: Hatred, exr (Jin Guangshan's words recalled by Jin Guangyao)
The conflict in the Nie brothers' relationship:
Nie MingJue was on the school ground, teaching and supervising Nie HuaiSangâs saberwork in person. He didnât acknowledge Jin GuangYao, so he stood at the edge of the field, waiting with respect. Since Nie HuaiSang was quite uninterested and the sun was bright, he was rather half- hearted, complaining that he was tired after just a few moves. ... Nie HuaiSang roared at Nie MingJue, âSaber, saber, saber! Who the fuck wants to practice the damn thing?! So what if I want to be a good-for-nothing?! Whoever that wants to can be the sect leader! I canât learn it means I canât learn it and I donât like it means I donât like it! Whatâs the use of forcing me?!â
âChapt. 50: Guile, exr
#mdzs#human metas mxtx#jiang cheng#canon jiang cheng#you know who encourages heirs to be wastes so that they don't challenge him? also jgy#he encourages jl to be a bad-tempered waste so that he has no friends and nobody to rely on except him (and i guess jc)#and nhs pretends to be a waste in front of him so that jgy drops his guard towards nhs
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Netflix Monkey King? I want to try. Of course when u get done with other requestsđ
I would like to request a Monkey King x female celestial reader headcanons that contains fluff, slight angst and romance. Reader can be shy or any personality u want. If u do shy, they comfort Monkey King saying he doesnt need to be powerful or a god to fit in(trying to remember the plot from memory).
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Celestial Chaos (Netflix!Wukong X Fem!Celestial!Reader)
You hated the monkey that disrupted the celestial realm
Since its birth, the stone monkey had gained a name for itself, challenging gods, defying the heavens and terrifying spirits
The thing was clearly a force of chaos, a force of evil that refused to relent its tyraid
Despite it all, you couldn't help but feel pity for the poor Monkey King, the Sage that tried to fit in with heaven
It was clear his pride was merely protecting him, sending him whispers that he was enough, because he made himself be enough
The demons that fell to him proved his worth, but you knew the celestial realm wouldn't allow anyone of his nature in
Heaven only allowed obedience and order, traits the foolish sage could never have in his state
You weren't too different from him, if you could rationalize it too much
Your shy nature made you invisible, overlooked, excluded
People thought you were either uninteresting or too pompous to converse to the other gods
You never believed their words, but they still stung
You could only imagine how the sage felt when he fought his way to heaven only to be met with scorn
You did your best to soften the blows, acting in solidarity of someone who knew how the generals and gods could be
The foolish monkey became smitten, looking up to you like heaven didn't matter
In the back of your brain, you could say the same
A foolish monkey in your eyes transformed into an honest, proud man who was in over his head
His quest for power was a call for help, a plea that someone would accept him
You were briefly aware of the little mortal that followed him, ill intentions in the way she held herself, yet guilt consuming her
You could only hope that she would help the monkey
In the end, she revealed her true color, bound by a deal meant to bring the king to his knees
the foolish dragon didn't know the price he would pay, and neither did Wukong
With Wukong's revolt, you watched in horror, pleading to him, begging him to stop and calm himself
Yet, he was overcome with power, and the heavens did the only thing they could do: summon Buddha
In the end, Wukong was sealed, but a hidden blessing had been given to you: you were tasked with feeding him and ensuring he survived--something no other celestial wanted to do
You gave him snacks, peaches and all sorts of food that you could find, knowing the celestials wouldn't watch you--a lucky trait of being a doormat is that no one knows your small acts of defiance
As centuries passed by, the king had been freed, tasked with a journey
You had a recent mission to grant blessings to nearby village plagued by drought, and on your way there, you were met with a pair of arms hugging your from behind
There you saw him, your Wukong, the Sage Greater Than Heaven, freed at last
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Moonlight Sunrise (Part 1)
Minatozaki Sana x reader
GENRE: angst, fluff, non-idol
TYPE: Short fic Part 2 / Part 3 / Part 4
Slowly making your way down the dusty, unfamiliar roads, you passed several guards waving large indigo-purple flags.
âOnly two more days before the labyrinth opens!â they yelled, âFind the Luminite Stone and save the princess from the labyrinth!â
Several men, presumably the best knights and warriors of their kingdoms, crowded around the guards, sizing each other up and boasting about their wins.
As you passed by the crowd, you quickly pulled down your hood, trying to avoid any suspicion. There was a low possibility that anyone recognized you, as you were more of an assassin, always with your face covered. However, you were worried that others from the same profession might be present as well.
It was almost time for the annual labyrinth challenge, where warriors and knights from all over the world traveled to the Minatozaki kingdom, one of the most powerful kingdoms existing, to save the princess and win her hand in marriage. The only child of King Minatozaki had been cursed by one of the eastern witches after they were accidentally omitted from the babyâs birth celebration. It was rumored that she had one of the most angelic faces to grace the earth, but right after her 17th birthday, she disappeared from public view altogether.
A labyrinth of a thousand acres suddenly appeared at the borders of the kingdom, shrouded by dark clouds and vine-covered walls thousands of meters high. In the core of the labyrinth was the Luminite stone, a stone that grants the beholder any wish, and the princessâs soul was also bound to the stone. The princess was said to only be seen in the labyrinth, forever lost in the dark.
King Minatozaki loved his daughter dearly. Although he was reluctant to marry her off to just anyone, he knew that he himself couldnât manage to retrieve the stone with his daughter's soul from the labyrinth. He wanted his daughter free from the grasp of the labyrinth, so the only way to do so was to hold a competition every year when the gates to the labyrinth opened.
Anyone who managed to make it out alive with the stone would be able to have their wish granted, but at the same time, as they now had the stone, they would be in control of Princess Sana, and the entire kingdom would be inherited. This prompted countless greedy men to try, hoping to have their deepest desires fulfilled and to possess the most beautiful human to grace the earth. However, not once had anyone made it out alive from the past ten competitions, all disappearing mysteriously.
You couldnât care less about owning an entire nation, let alone marrying a random princess that you had never seen. You were there for the one wish that would be granted by the Luminite Stone. You had someone to save, and that brought you out from the private, invisible life as an assassin.
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The sun was setting as you finally reached the golden gates of the castle. Its towering walls, adorned with intricate carvings and banners bearing the kingdom's crest, loomed majestically against the dusky sky. Each night leading up to the competition for the week, the King hosted lavish banquets within the castle's celestial halls.
These gatherings weren't just about food; they were a spectacle, ensuring the competitors were not only well-fed but also immersed in the grandeur of the kingdom. Newcomers were welcomed with open arms, and given the chance to register, mingle, and familiarize themselves with the labyrinth's complexities before the daunting challenge ahead. After all, this was probably the last time they would ever have something to eat before they met their end in the labyrinth.
The banquet hall buzzed with hundreds of men, their voices echoing off the walls. You spotted a few familiar faces from your past travels but made a beeline for the reception, preferring not to draw attention. After all, the labyrinth held not only unknown monsters but human threats as well.
âName?â the page asked without looking up, his tired face buried in countless scrolls of paper.
âHwang Y/N,â you muttered, shifting uncomfortably and pulling your hood even higher over your face.
The page paused, his hands trembling slightly as he looked up at you. His eyes widened in shock, and he pushed his glasses closer to his eyes, clearing his throat.
âHwang Y/N? The NightWalker?â
You nodded, expressionless, as the man cowered in fear.
âI-I didnât expect you to participate in these events.â
âIs that a problem?â
âN-no⌠of course not. I guess even assassins have an eye for beauty,â he nervously laughed, expecting you to agree.
You narrowed your eyes at his comment, disbelieving how even those who worked for the princess treated her as an object.
âYou should keep your mouth shut before I cut off your tongue,â you whispered in his ear, watching with satisfaction as he fumbled with his pen.
Before you could do anything else, a warm arm wrapped around your shoulders. Instinctively, you reached for your small knife, but the intruder's hand firmly grasped yours, firm yet unthreatening.
âNow now, Hwang. Thatâs not how you greet an old friend, is it?â
You turned to see Momo, one of your close colleagues before she became head of security for the Minatozaki Kingdom.
âHirai,â you sighed, pulling her into a hug.
âFancy seeing you here, stranger. Itâs been, what, three years since I last heard from you?â
âFive,â you grinned, feeling more at ease with Momo by your side.
âYes! Exactly! Ever since you took down the Kim Clan, you just disappeared,â she sighed dramatically, leading you toward a table filled with exotic cuisines. She grabbed a bottle of champagne, taking a sip before passing it to you.
âThe hero of the century, gone without a sound, forever remaining a mystery. Face unseen, name forever known. Until now,â she said as if narrating a fairy tale. âShe shows the world her face, to save the damsel in distress.â
You rolled your eyes and took a swig of champagne. âIâm not here for the princess or power.â
âWhichever reason you are here for, I wonât pry. Iâll just be cheering you on from the sidelines.â Momo smirked, blowing her bangs out of her eyes. Her respect for your privacy was always something you loved about her.
âAnyway, I have to get back to my duties. Letâs catch up tomorrow before the challenge.â She says loudly, before whispering in your ear, âtake the door on the left, and go down two flights of stairs. Youâll find the backdoor to the garden.â
As if nothing happened, she straightened up and breezed away toward a small crowd that was about to break into a fight.
You watched Momo easily tackle a barbaric man down to the floor, without drawing her sword. The crowd of onlookers quickly dispersed as Momo stood up with one of her feet on the manâs stomach, looking challenging for anyone daring to cause more trouble in her land. She caught your eye and grinned, giving you a goofy thumbs-up before changing back to her serious face.
You chuckled, grabbing an apple and the champagne, before slipping to the darker corners of the kingdom undetected. Momo working here was a blessing in disguise, she gave you the chance to get to investigate the labyrinth before the challenge.
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As you navigated down a murky corridor, the air thick with the scent of age and dampness, you descended what felt like more than two flights of stairs, each step creaking under your weight. At last, you stumbled upon a wooden door, its frame nearly crumbling with decay from years of neglect and exposure to the elements.
Pushing it open with a groan, you were surprised to find yourself greeted by a scene of unexpected beauty. The garden beyond was bathed in the soft glow of moonlight, casting ethereal shadows upon the grounds. Dewdrops reflected the moonlight like diamonds on the grass, their gentle shimmering a stark contrast to the dark, cloudy skies looming over the labyrinth just meters away.
The metal walls that surrounded the garden appeared rusted and weather-beaten, their once sturdy facade now worn and rusted. You couldn't help but wonder if they were enough to keep people out, let alone the rumored monsters said to lurk within the labyrinth's depths.
Taking another swig of your champagne, you wandered around the walls, the sound of your footsteps echoing softly in the still night air. Peering into the swirling mist, you strained your ears and thought you heard faint roars emanating from within. Yet, in the eerie silence of the garden, you couldn't be certain if they were real or merely figments of your imagination, born from the ominous atmosphere that surrounded you.
"Guess I wonât be getting anything out of this tonight," you thought, sighing as you took a seat on one of the forlorn benches near the metal bars.
Taking an apple out of your coat pocket, you polished it on your sleeve. Just as you were about to bite into it, an eerily soft voice echoed from the shadows looming over the corner.
"Can I have some?" A hooded figure emerged, causing you to leap to your feet.
Despite your assassin training, you hadnât heard her approach.
The figure slowly removed her hood, revealing long, almost white blonde hair that seemed to reflect the moonlight. She was around the same age as you, her face perfectly sculpted but haunted, with dark circles under her eyes.
âI mean no harm,â she raised her ghostly pale arms in surrender.
You narrowed your eyes in suspicion but nodded nonetheless, despite the blood in your body pumping in a fight. It was obvious that this being was not entirely human, but you were in no condition to fight a monstrous being before the competition. The stone was what was important, so you were willing to do anything to avoid conflicts before the challenge.
The girl walked slowly towards you, her posture and grace as if she came from royalty, and sat down on the bench. She looked up at your standing figure expectantly, giving you a soft smile as you finally sat down.
You reached into your coat to pull out a small knife, and the girl immediately flinched. But you simply used the knife to peel the apple, before slicing a piece and putting it onto her hand.
âThanks,â she muttered, before nibbling on the piece of apple.
You took a good look at the girl. She was thin, too thin, as if she would be blown away by the wind.
âYou can call me Luna,â she said finally, still nibbling on the small piece of apple.
You gave a small chuckle at the irony of her name. She did indeed look like the moon goddess herself.
âWhatâs so funny?â
You shrugged, continuing to slice more pieces of apples for the girl. You saw her glaring at you from the corner of your eye, letting out huffs of frustration when you never said anything.
âNormally when someone introduces themselves to you, you do the same in return,â she said annoyed. Her annoyance made her seem human, and this eased your nerves a bit.
âIâm Hwang Y/N,â your lips twitched, trying not to smile at the way Luna chewed on the apple angrily.
âI like your name,â she said grudgingly, reaching over to grab your champagne without asking.
âWhat about it?â It wasnât often that someone didnât flinch when they heard your name.
âHwang,â Luna explained as if it were the most obvious thing in the world, before chugging down half the bottle of champagne.
âIt means bright, right? Like the sunrise.â
âYeah, and?â you asked, reaching over to grab the champagne from her hands. âStop stealing my shit.â
âItâs been a long time since Iâve seen the sun,â she muttered. âWish I could see the sunrise.â
âWhy canât you?â you asked, turning around to look at her.
Luna ignored your question, instead turning her body towards you.
âWhat are you doing here, Y/N?â she raised her big eyes to look at you, her eyes suddenly glowing a faint crimson in the honey-brown hues.
She was definitely not fully human.
You shivered slightly, both in fear and something else, attraction. No, it must be because you felt sorry for her. The poor girl seemed to not have access to much food.
âThought I could get some clues here before the challenge,â you said honestly.
âAre you looking to win the princess over, too?â she asked with a hint of bitterness in her tone. âTo control her as if she was a puppet?â
âNo.â
âThen why?â
You hesitated, knowing it wasnât smart to share anything with strangers, you knew that. But there was something about this girl that you couldnât seem to put a finger on, it was as if her aura could power all your feelings. You couldnât do anything but tell her the truth. It was as if she casted a spell on you, her glowing eyes controlling every move.
âI need that stone. I need to get that wish so that I can save my sister.â
Lunaâs eyes softened slightly, the glowing red fading and turning back to the original brown color. You felt your body instantly relax.
âWhatâs wrong with her?â
âSheâs sick. Sheâs been sick for a few months and thereâs nothing the doctors can do. Time is running out so I have to hurry.â
The image of your little sister lying in bed, her once lively face now sunken and yellow, her eyes devoid of their usual spark, sends a shiver down your spine. The very thought grips your heart. It was her condition that drove you to show your true identity and take part in this dumb challenge, revealing yourself to the public eye, and relinquishing your assassin status. Now that everyone knew what you looked like, it was inevitable that a bounty would be put on your head.
âIâm sorry,â Luna said, her voice gentle.
Her hand raised slightly as if she wanted to hold yours in comfort but thought better of it.
You shook your head and looked down at your knees. You couldnât let anyone sense your weakness.
You heard Luna get up from you, this time finally being able to hear her movements.
âI hope you win, Y/N,â she said, her voice soothing, passing warmth throughout your body, instantly making you feel better.
She put a small black object in your lap, a compass.
You looked up and found her walking backward towards the metal walls, a smile playing on her lips. She looked younger when she smiled, innocent even.
"Take the path on the far right, then follow my compass," she instructed, her voice echoing faintly as she effortlessly passed through the metal bars and vanished into the dark mist.
"I'll lead you the way."
You shivered, utterly enchanted and spooked by that humanlike being.
After a moment, you finally shifted your attention to the compass in your hands. It was an exquisite piece, adorned with golden rings and silver arrows.
You flipped to the back of the compass, and there, engraved in elegant wording:
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Been wanting to get this out to you guys for a while now! It's quite different from what I usually write, so let me know if you want to see more of this.
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Random things about your future lover
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PILE 1
Might be a virgo sun/moon/rising
Might know from childhood , they will give you nostalgia
Acts a kid around you but is mature around others.
Is a bad liar and doesn't know how to hide their emotions
Knows a lot of things, very knowledgeable
Is an introvert but has a lot of friends
Likes to keep their personal life a secret, doesn't like interference
Very rich and abundant
Likes helping people , could be into humanitarian work
Could meet them online or through a friend
have been cheated on in the past or had a bad ending of a relationship.
Has a nice smile. Or they can't see when they smile
Could have small cat eyes
Blue / completely black eyes
Is like a puppy to you but a wolf to others
Might like insects or might study about them.
Likes spoiling you with gifts
Might be a dancer or liked dancing
Might be born in may or june , these months could be important.
Walks very fast
Has a sad resting face or could look sad when they aren't
Only has soft spot for you.
Might like blue color or the ocean
Might have tanned/dark skin
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PILE 2
Might be a Taurus, Leo or Sagittarius sun/moon/rising.
Might have a raspy voice
Can meet them after a long wait or when you will be waiting for something
Doesn't like being told what to do
Does opposite of what they're told to
Might be a foreigner or from a different background
Had curly hair
ld fashioned boy, will offer to pay for your things
Very famous among people, might be popular
Has a nice body, does exercise.
Doesn't lack anything in life
Might be a painter or artist
You both can have same interests
Will pull your let and tease you
Would like to have playful arguments with you
Love language can be soft bullying
Might have green eyes or wears contacts
Might like to color their hair
Might have a slightly curved downturned nose
Might be from South Asia
Might wear gold or platinum jewelry
Has nice hands and fingers
Might have a connection with Egypt
Might be born in August or meet them in August
Likes birds
Could have long black hair
A great debaters, loves messing with people's minds
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PILE 3
Might have more feminine energy.
I'm getting two things : could be a family person or could have a hard time with their family.
Likes buying expensive things
Has a hard time taking side or making a choice
Likes to listen to others opinions and thoughts
Might have high IQ
Is into tarot and astrology or could even do tarot
Will challenge you into games
Might like chess or maths
Might wear white a lot or white could be their favorite color.
Could have pearl/moonstone as birth stone
Have been through lots of struggles in their life
Might have a hard time around new people.
Might born at night
Has a very unique and creative mind.
Might like roses or give you flowers as gifts
Has a protective mother or guardian
Could resemble đ emoji when shy
Might have 3 siblings or could be a middle child.
Their mother a great importance in their life could be both negative and positive.
Could have a white pet animal.
Their mother could have done most of the parenting. Or could be a single mother.
People always come to them for help, they might have a hard time saying no.
Might have two best friends.
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Random astro observations
Please note that these may not resonate with everyone. I am not a professional astrologer; I simply share what I have gathered so far. Enjoy <3
Taurus mars - Individuals with Mars in Taurus exude a peaceful vibe. Their reactions tend to unfold more leisurely compared to other Mars signs. They possess a strong determination to uphold what they consider their own, showing unwavering commitment to that particular aspect. People with Mars in Taurus are marked by delicacy and grace. Many of them steer clear of conflicts, striving instead to maintain equilibrium.
7h Chiron - These incredible individuals often find themselves wrestling with a deep sense of not quite fitting in within specific areas of their lives. It's like they're piecing together a puzzle with multiple dimensions, influenced by all sorts of intricate factors and situations. It's quite surprising how some folks they considered close pals can turn out to be not-so-friendly, showing just how tricky their social interactions can be. In the intricate dance of relationships, a recurring theme centers around their tussle with feelings of attachment and abandonment. These emotions can sometimes lead them into bumpy rides of unhealthy relationships, where taking care of themselves can take a backseat. It's a challenge that now and then leads them into stormy seas, making them feel like they're caught in a whirlwind. But hold on tight, because within these challenges lies a chance to grow and transform. The hurdles they face aren't roadblocks but rather stepping stones toward becoming even stronger. As they journey through life, these individuals have the potential not only to heal their wounds but also to rise above them, becoming beacons of strength and inspiration.
1h Saturn - These folks boast distinctive facial features that lend them an air of timeless charm, much like a fine wine that only gets better with age. It's worth noting that while they might appear older than their years, it's not a universal ruleâother factors in their birth chart come into play. Meeting them for the first time might give off a serious and mature vibe, but don't let that initial impression fool you. As you get to know them, you'll find that their seriousness gradually gives way to warmth and approachability. Taking their responsibilities seriously is second nature to them, and they're not ones to fool around when it comes to commitments. You'll likely catch them sprinkling their conversations with a good dose of sarcasm, a sign of their sharp wit. And don't be surprised if they occasionally crave some alone time to process their thoughts and feelings.
1H Mars - These placements give individuals sharp eyebrows, creating a unique style that stands out compared to other eyebrows. The eyes can possess a magnetic quality or a distinctly sharp look. They are often large and may change shades. Lips tend to appear reddish or plump. Overall, the facial features are sharp and well-defined, contributing to a youthful appearance and a magnetic aura.
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After the whole mess with the Brotherhood is handled in Soft Boiked au, Wukong has another situation to handle. MK now knows he's a Stone Monkey, the same species as Wukong himself. He may also suspect Wukong to be his biological parent, although Wukong goes on record to say that no, Yubei was the only kid he actually birthed, MK may be his cub in his heart, but they share no biological connection that Wukong is aware of.
But even if MK isn't biologically Wukongs, they have the situation of his true form. Specifically, teaching MK how to Monkey. Wukong thinks it'd be easy, MK already acts so much like a monkey it's hard to imagine him struggling, but the problem isn't that he can't act like a monkey. It's that he doesn't have the confidence to do so knowingly. He can climb and groom just fine, but when it comes to things like diet and soaring through the trees, the way macaques do, he struggles. He gets grossed out at the thought of picking through someone's hair and eating bugs, he hesitates when he should use the branch he just climbed as a springboard to reach the next tree, he feels uncomfortable doing thinks like chirping and hooting. His upbringing makes him hesitate to listen to his natural instincts, and while it's nothing against Pigsy or Tang, it's just that societal expectations of modern China are causing MK to hold back.
Wukong had faced a similar problem when he'd gotten back from the Journey, after spending so many years being punished for 'hyperactive and unsocietal behavior' up until Tripitaka had it beaten over his head that Wukong was not only pregnant but that these were normal monkey things and not disrespectful in nature at all, he struggled to adapt to being a monkey again.
The fact that MK was already dealing with self esteem issues and then got stuck in a scroll with a ink demon in the shape of his monkey form that would only dig at those insecurities only made it worse.
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MK is in for a loooong learning montage after learning he's a Stone Monkey, thats for sure!
It's not an easy road.
Lots of "George of the Jungle"-esque mishaps involving tree climbing occur.
Could have it been a little easier if MK had been raised as a monkey demon? Yes. But he also would have faced greater social challenges, not to mention if any of Wukong's enemies "sensed" what he actually was.
And don't even get MK started on the "picking bugs out of each other's fur and eating"-part. He found a tiny garden spider crawling in Macaque's fur during a troop grooming session and nearly passed out.
MK, trying to psyche himself up to eat the bug: (*gags*) Macaque, sniffs himself thinking that's the problem: "What? I showered recently." Yuebei: (*reaches up and steals the bug from MK, eating it instead*) MK: (*very grossed-out sigh of relief*) "I love you, mooncake."
He feels like he's behind even little Yuebei of all people when it comes to learning to Monkey! At least she can chirp and hoot without anyone looking at her weirdly...
Wukong sighs and jokes it's like teaching two cubs at once.
Luckily, MK isn't alone. Turns out, Wukong has gone through the very same thing he has nearly twice over! Subodhi canonically strikes and punishes Wukong for happily jumping and hooting when he's excited for class, so Wukong literally had his instincts beaten out of him. And later still when he became Bimawen and a Peach Attendant, he found himself subconsciously suppressing his "monkey" habits in order to avoid criticism from surrounding celestials.
While the Tang Monk had been confused by Wukong's monkey habits, he adapted to them - with a lot of "gentle" persuasion from Guanyin, Ao Lie, Sha Wujing, and many of the allies they made along the way of course. Afterall, part of Tripitaka's character development is him starting out close-minded and opening himself to the fact that people just gonna act and be different. After Tripitaka learned that Heaven and even Wukong's first master had punished and resented his nature, he especially made sure Wukong understood that he didn't want him to see his behaviours as "unnatural". Just him.
MK also gets a lot of encouragement from the rest of his "troop".
Pigsy and Tang feel really bad not being able to indulge MK's natural behaviours as a cub, but they were always understanding that he was just their special little guy. If he was hyperactive or overstimulated, they had ways to address it. I love hcs of Tang being neurodivergent, so he when sees Baby MK throwing tantrums and just be like "Mood."
Red Son and Mei secretly begin flexing their own natural behaviours so MK doesn't feel as left out. Though MK was def confused the first time he got friendly-headbutts and nips.
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âď¸ Perseus Worship Guide đŞ˝
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The great ancient Greek hero, Perseus - a hero so renowned that an entire children's book series was written inspired by him. He accomplished fantastical feats with the very gods themselves rooting for his victory. Many people admire him, but few seem to be aware that worship is not only an option for gods. Heroes, such as Perseus, can be worshipped as well, and have been throughout history. Explore the various ways Perseus can be worshipped in the modern day in the enlightening post that follows.
***I am not an educator or historian. This is solely being made for religious purposes, and I will be touching on UPG.**
°¡ Who is Perseus? ¡°
As stated above, Perseus is an ancient Greek hero starring in his own myths. As a biological son of Zeus (NOT Poseidon) and a mortal woman, trials and troubles were a guarantee in his life. His mother, DanaĂŤ, was trapped in a tower before his birth, due to her father, Akrisios', fear of a prophecy that claimed her son would kill him. Despite her predicament, Zeus was able to enter her locked tower, taking the form of a golden rain shower, and DanaĂŤ became pregnant with his son (don't ask me, man; I don't know). Her father immediately cast her out upon discovering the child, placing both her and her son, Perseus, into a chest floating on the sea. However, the pair made it safely to the island of Seriphos, being sheltered by the fisherman Diktys, brother to the king of the island, Polydectes. Diktys would also raise Perseus as a father figure.
Perseus would grow to become the eventual slayer of the gorgon Medusa, arguably his most famous accomplishment, as well as the savior of Andromeda, an Ethiopian princess who had been chained to a rock to be fed to a sea monster. He also freed his mother from King Polydectes by turning him to stone with Medusa's head. Perseus' grandfather fled from him in fear, allowing Perseus to assume the throne of his kingdom. Although Perseus didn't purposely kill his grandfather, he was the cause of his grandfather's demise via an accidental discus throw (prophecy fulfilled đ´).
He later fathered many children. With his lovely wife Andromeda, he had the sons Perses, Alcaeus, Heleus, Mestor, Sthenelus, Electryon, and Cynurus, and two daughters, Gorgophone and Autochthe. He's also said to be an ancestor of the famous Herakles, who is also a demigod son of Zeus. Unlike Herakles, however, there don't seem to be recorded myths of Perseus ascending to godhood, although he was still worshipped as a Greek hero and Founder of Mycanaea.
âż*Well-known myths *âż
His most widespread myth is that of slaying Medusa, which he did in an effort to protect his mother from the cruel King Polydectes, who had fallen in love with her. Perseus believed Polydectes wasn't worthy of his mother's hand in marriage (and he was absolutely right, in my opinion; Polydectes wished to enslave his mother), so as a plot to send Perseus away, Polydectes plotted to send Perseus on the impossible quest of slaying the gorgon Medusa. Before setting out on his journey, Perseus prayed to Zeus, terrified of the challenges that lay ahead, and his father answered by sending Hermes and Athena to deliver five gifts that would aid Perseus' quest. Hermes lent his brother the god's winged sandals and sword, providing him with Haides' helm of invisibility also (though some ancient people seemed to think this wasn't this case and were very opinionated about it lol). Athena lent Perseus her polished shield, able to reflect the gorgon's appearance without petrifying him, and a bag that he could safely store the head in, warning Perseus that Medusa's gaze would still turn others into stone, even in death. The pair then instructed Perseus to seek out the infamous Graia, sisters of the gorgons, to discover Medusa's location.
With cunning and quick-wit, Perseus was able to take the shared eye and tooth between the sisters, and hold them hostage until they revealed Medusa's location. Upon his arrival, he used the reflective shield gifted to him by Athena to avoid looking directly at Medusa, and sword guided by Athena's might, he beheaded the ghastly Gorgon in one swift maneuver of his blade. Her sisters attempted to avenge her, but donning Haides' helm of invisibility, Perseus was able to easily evade capture. After a few other misadventures along the way, he returned to discover that his mother had to flee from Polydectes while he was away, so out of vengeance for the bullshit Polydectes put them both through, Perseus slew him using the severed head of Medusa. A fitting death - that guy was an asshole. As a show of gratitude for sheltering him and his mother, Perseus also made Diktys the new king of Seriphos.
Another of his myths that he's well-known for is that of rescuing Andromeda from her fate. He came across Andromeda after slaying Medusa, on his way home from the adventure. The princess' father, King Cepheus, chained her naked to a rock surrounded by raging oceans and a ravenous sea monster, Cetus. Her father wished to appease Poseidon after his wife angered the God by claiming Andromeda was more beautiful than the Nereids (Sea Nymphs). An Oracle claimed that sacrificing Andromeda to Cetus was the only way to soothe Poseidon's anger. Luckily, using the winged sandals that Hermes gifted him, Perseus flew over the stormy waters to Andromeda and freed her, immediately earning her hand in marriage. Andromeda's original suitor, Phineus, was upset at the marriage, but Perseus turned him to stone with Medusa's head and carried on.
Although these are his most well-known myths, there are still other myths about Perseus that I didn't cover here. Overall, he is a widely recognized Greek hero, known for his quick wit, the love he had for his mother, and the founding of Mycanaea, considered by many ancient Greeks to be the father of all Mycanaea (after making Diktys king of Seriphos, Perseus went on to find the land known as Mycanaea). If you're interested in learning more of his myths (which I highly suggest), my resources will be listed at the end of the post.
¡â˘âˇ Sacred Symbols âˇâ˘Âˇ
The sacred symbols featured below are pulled from his myths and historical depictions I found of him.
The severed head of Medusa
Swords (particularly sickle-shaped) and shields
Winged sandals/boots and a winged helm
The Helm of Invisibility
Snakes and sea serpents
Treasure chests/chests in general
Raging oceans (due to the Andromeda myth)
Rain made of gold; storm clouds (from his birth)
Discus (basically an ancient Greek frisbee-like thing)
Fishnets and fishing gear (due to his upbringing)
Fountains
A pegasus or horse
Wings (from the sandals and Medusa herself)
An eye and a tooth (from the three hags)
Broken chains/restraints (from Andromeda's rescue)
It's rather disappointing how difficult it is to find information about his worship in ancient times that isn't hidden behind a paywall. That said, I gathered some UPG from worshippers of his who were willing to share! A reminder that the below is based on UPG.
Overcoming challenges/obstacles
Feathers
Spears
Knives/other blade weapons outside of swords
Handcrafted arts and items
Boats/sailing
Mirrors/reflective surfaces
Wind, especially near or on the water
Rainfall on sunny days
The colors blue, lilac, dark gray, and gold
Eels, sea-snakes, and seabirds, especially sea-eagles
Clumps of snakes (resembles Medusa's head)
Freshly bloomed flowers; purple and blue flowers
Plants: lilac, sword lillies (dangerous to cats), peony, red hot poker (especially purples ones), foxgloves, lavender, gingko trees, and cedar trees
Herbs: Lavender, parsley, basil, lemongrass, and bay leaf
Myrrh, frankincense, sandalwood, jasmine, and ocean scents
âš-ÂŤ Epithets Âť-âş
The following is a list of titles I found for Perseus. Supposedly, they are historically attested, but if I'm going to be honest, I would take it with a grain of salt, as the sources on this were few and far between. I'll also include a short list of purely UPG/modern titles. First, however, is the historically attested list:
Godlike
Gold-begotten (referencing his birth)
Valiant
The Harvester (referencing his role in the births of Pegasus and Chrysaor, who came out of Medusa's neck after her head was cut off ÂŻâ \â _â (â ăâ )â _â /â ÂŻ)
The Horseman
The Warrior Chief (referencing his prowess in battle)
Deliverer of Andromeda (referencing rescue of Andromeda)
Slayer of Medusa/the Gorgo
The Eagle Son of the Golden Sire (referencing his divine lineage and birth, "The Eagle" being Zeus)
Father/Founder/King of Mycanaea (referencing the belief that he founded Mycanaea)
Perseus of Argos (referencing where he resided)
Son of DanaĂŤ
Son of Zeus
Now the UPG/modern epithets list:
Chain Breaker/Breaking (referencing rescue of Andromeda and his mother)
Starry-eyed (referencing his constellation)
Starry-footed (referencing his constellation and winged sandals)
Stone-shielded (referencing Medusa's head on the shield)
Wind-swift (referencing his winged sandals)
Courageous/Daring
The Cunning
The Resilient
The Shield-bearer (referencing the shield he uses)
The Unconquerable
The Wayfarer (referencing his many travels)
Brother of the Owl-eyed Warrior (referencing Athena)
Brother of the Silver-tongued Messenger (referencing Hermes)
Son of the Kingly Zeus
Son of the Rich-haired DanaĂŤ (based on an epithet of DanaĂŤ)
(Image depicts Perseus, Medusa, and Athena)
¡âŠÂˇ Perseus Worship in the Modern Day ¡âŠÂˇ
Within the modern day, worship may seem intimidating if you don't know how to go about it, but thankfully, it's much easier than it may seem. Before I continue, please be aware that there is no one way to worship any Greek entity, be it hero or deity. Worship varies from person to person, even when they worship the same entity, and that's both normal and historically supported. In ancient Greece, worship was different all across the land with some city-states not worshipping entire deities that others did. It's ok if your practice doesn't look exactly the same as someone else's; in fact, it probably shouldn't!
A common way of worshipping any Greek entity in the modern day is creating a custom altar. Some worshippers keep their altars outdoors, preferring for their space to be out in nature, while others keep their altars indoors, preferring their altar to be within the home. Where you keep your altar is entirely up to you, although indoor altars are typically more common due to their accessibility for most people. Being that Perseus is a hero who's traveled far and wide, going on daring adventures for the benefit of others rather than himself, a place to put his altar in the home could be near the door or window - a nod to the various journeys he's embarked on. An outdoor altar for Perseus could be located near a body of water - a nod to both the rescue of Andromeda and his escape to Seriphos with his mother as a young boy. If it's near water, be careful to keep it far enough away that it won't be swept away (make sure to keep flash floods in mind, too). I also don't suggest having anything that could be bad for the earth on an outdoor altar; it could harm the environment, should any of those items be lost.
It's important to note that you don't need an altar to worship an entity. That might be a hot take to some, but I've known many worshippers who either can't have an altar, due to living circumstances, or simply don't want to, due to personal beliefs. Worship however feels correct to you (though I highly suggest still being respectful). Religion and spirituality are very personal, and I encourage you to explore that personal connection. Don't be afraid to do things a little differently!
Many modern altars have a candle, meant to be lit in honor of the entity. If you don't want a candle on your altar, that's ok! Candle scents are typically based on things associated with the entity or things that simply remind the worshipper of them. For Perseus, some potential candle scents could be ocean, storm, rain (UPG after this), lily, lavender, lilac, or sandalwood. Feel free to choose a scent that calls to you, even if it wasn't mentioned!
Most altars have various objects dedicated to the entity they were made for - things that remind you of the entity, depict images of the entity directly, or sacred symbols of the entity. These are called "offerings". Some stay on the altar permanently while others may not - it's entirely up to you what you choose to do with your offerings! When it comes to food offerings, I advise you not to keep them on the altar for too long, since they're often susceptible to perishing. Throw food offerings away or, if they're good for the environment, you can bury them outside. Some people also choose to burn perishable offerings, but I don't personally suggest it if you're not sure what can and can't be safely burned. In the next section below, I'll include a list of modern offerings you can give to Perseus. The list has suggestions; you aren't required to give any of the items mentioned if you don't want to!
Outside of altar worship, you can also do "devotional acts" - actions you do in honor of Perseus and with him in mind. In order to make an entity aware that I'm about to do a devotional act, I usually pray to them beforehand or declare aloud that I'm about to do something for them. Daily activities, that you would've done anyway, are also ok to dedicate to an entity; devotional acts don't have to be something you go super out of your way to do if you don't have time or energy for that. Involving entities in your daily activities is actually a great way of welcoming their presence directly into your life and can help with bonding. Two sections down is a list of devotional acts you're welcome to try. Just as the offerings I mention aren't required, neither are the devotional acts.
When in need of communicating with Perseus, I suggest utilizing divination, prayers, meditations, or journaling. There are other ways of communicating with entities, but these are the most common that I see. Regarding divination, there are near endless methods of divination you can try, from tarot cards to pendulums to a normal deck of playing cards. Although prayer is likely one of the most direct ways to communicate, divination typically allows you to have a back and forth conversation, to some extent, which is partially why so many people engage with it. If you're unfamiliar with any divination, I'd recommend trying whichever method calls you the most and practicing often to develop a skill with it. Divination can take a lot of practice, but that's not a bad thing; everyone starts somewhere! If you're unsure how to pray, the following link leads to some suggestions. If you can't meditate, no sweat; it's not required! Meditation can be useful for some when trying to connect with an entity's energy, but for others, it's not helpful at all, and that's ok. For journaling, you can simply write to Perseus as if you're writing in a diary or write him stylized letters. Maybe keep your journal on his altar as well!
At first, it may be difficult to determine when Perseus has responded to something you've prayed for or communicated about. A few ways an entity might make their answer known are through dreams, conversations/words you overhear, frequently spotting their sacred symbols (animals included), having a flash of a relevant image in your mind, strong gut feelings to do/say something specific, sensing another presence with you, and, of course, communicating through divination. There are many, many other ways an entity might express their answer to you, but these are a few I see fairly commonly within the Hellenic Polytheist and Pagan communities. If you struggle telling when you've received a sign versus when you're just overthinking it, this link can lend a helpful hand in being able to tell. I also personally use the rule of three: once is noticeable đ¤, twice is a coincidence đ¤¨, and thrice is a certainty đ§.
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¡âŠÂˇ What is Perseus Like in Worship (UPG)? ¡âŠÂˇ
This is SOLELY based on UPG and SPG that I've gathered through various means. Out of respect, I will not be @ing the individuals who provided this information, unless they ask me to do so. Be aware that no one can definitively speak for the gods, heroes, or any other entity; everyone's experience with them will vary, even in seemingly small ways. Do not expect your experience to mimic the following experiences exactly.
I decided to gather people's experiences with Perseus in worship to hopefully provide a better feel for what Perseus may be like. I'll be numbering the experiences I was told of because each situation was expressly unique enough that separating them will be useful. Each experience will begin with two adjectives outlining the main point of the experience, as some of these individuals intentionally worship specific aspects of Perseus. Although your experience may vary, here are some things you may encounter with him:
âď¸ Young and Rebellious. đĽ This person told me that they explicitly worship a younger aspect of Perseus, before he became a king. They described him as spirited, determined, and bold. He encouraged standing up for oneself and others, and dislikes figures of authority. The way he was described reminds me of a typical "rebellious teen" stereotype (this is not an insult, just something I found interesting, as my experience strongly differed). He seemed to have more of a hands-on approach to lessons and problems, but that wasn't discussed further.
đ Humble and Kind. 𧥠This person only interacted with Perseus through their partner, but every time they did, they described him as being very modest and respectful. Despite his later status as a king, he seemed to regard everyone as an equal and tended to be very patient as well. This person stated that their partner said Perseus still knew how and when to put his foot down and often tried to pass that lesson along, since assertiveness was a struggle for their partner. Perseus was described as being a gentle guide as well, preferring for their partner to come to their own conclusions but still assisting them along the journey.
𪽠Swift and Smart. đĄď¸ This person described Perseus as being kind and respectful, but being blunt when it was needed. He fully embraced both cunning and wit, and encouraged this person to solve problems by thinking outside of the box. Rather than giving away solutions immediately, he would prefer to let this person think through a situation. He aided a lot with thinking on their feet as well as asserting themselves in subtle yet effective ways. Something that remained consistent with the last experience was his hands-off approach to solving problems, preferring the person to listen to themselves first and foremost.
⨠My Experience. ⨠I do not worship Perseus, but a few times throughout the creation of this post, I felt his energy nearby. In my experience, he was very quiet, patient, and respectful. He respected my boundaries and seemingly regarded me as an equal. His modesty was striking, but despite this, he was still well aware of his talents. He was extremely clever and intelligent, and in some ways, he reminded me of an owl who observes his surroundings fully before he acts. He still made a point to assert himself when needed, however, and would jump in the moment he felt it necessary. Interestingly, he had a very hands-off approach to this post. When he did help, it was much appreciated, though. He was very different from other heroes I've interacted with, and overall, I enjoyed his company. c:
⧠â¨Offerings âŠâ§
The following is a list of offerings you can give to Perseus as a show of worship. They're simply suggestions; you don't have to use them if you don't want to!
Decorated chests/boxes (maybe even keep his altar in a chest)
A candle that reminds you of him
Frankincense, myrrh, sandalwood, or any other incense that reminds you of him
Sword and shield imagery
Imagery of a pegasus or horse
Imagery of Medusa's head; imagery of the Aegis (Athena's shield that she affixes Medusa's head to)
Feathers (for his winged sandals)
Snake and sea serpent imagery; a stuffed animal snake or sea serpent
Ethically sourced snake skulls, especially sea snakes; ethically sourced snake shed
Imagery of a raging ocean; imagery of rain made of gold
Seashells
Fishnets/fishing gear
Ethically sourced fish bones/shark teeth
Breaking/broken chains imagery; broken handcuffs
Gifts from your mom or a mother figure in your life to you (it's ok if you don't have anything)
Jewelry that reminds you of him
Water-based gems/crystals
Art/depictions of him and his ventures
Imagery of spears (as an acknowledgement of Athena and her aid)
Imagery of winged sandals (as an acknowledgement of Hermes and his aid)
Encouraging affirmations about pushing through, defying expectations, and overcoming obstacles
Fountain imagery
A mask of Medusa's face
Eye and tooth imagery; ethically sourced animal teeth (you can use human teeth, but I personally wouldn't)
Family heirlooms passed down from maternal (or parental) figures
Lost trinkets found at the beach/lakeshore
Imagery of an ancient Greek helm/the helm of invisibility
Toys/items from your childhood that mean a lot to you
Mirrors/reflective surfaces
Replica sail boats/toy boats
Flowers, leaves, or herbs that remind you of him
White wine with a bit of honey
Warm herbal tea with honey
A glass of water (or salt/sea water)
Energizing drinks - coffee, certain teas, energy shakes, protein shakes, etc.
Energizing foods - nuts, trail mix, vegetables, oatmeal, eggs, bananas, etc.
Breads, pastries, grains with honey, natural honey, tasty candies, fresh fruits, fish, or something you made by hand for Perseus specifically
・â* Devotional Acts *â ・
The following is a list of devotional activities you can do in honor of Perseus. These are just suggestions; you don't have to do them if you don't want to!
Learn how to swim; go swimming
Go sailing, kayaking, paddle boarding; engage in water-related activities
Play frisbee with friends or pets
Go fishing (legally, please)
Be kind to/encourage yourself when going through a difficult time
Make a list of things you've overcome; acknowledge your accomplishments, no matter how small they seem
Learn how to ride a horse; go horse-back riding
Stay hydrated; drink water
Try eating a healthy diet or meal if possible
Try exercising; do some movement throughout your day
Spend time with a maternal figure in your life or with a mother you know (for example, a friend or sibling who became a mom)
Be kind to children; spend time with the kids in your life
Watch a comforting movie/show from your childhood
Learn about self-defense; carry self-defense items (knives, pepper spray, etc.)
If you have a personal mirror, decorate it with things you love or positive self-affirmations
Create a playlist of songs that remind you of him; listen to the playlist whenever you want c:
Create a Pinterest board for him; save pins that remind you of him
Play strategy games, competitive or not
Learn how to wield a sword; swords are objectively cool
Visit any local fountains (not a drinking fountain, but the kind that people throw coins in)
Offer someone a helping hand; engage in random acts of kindness
Send your loved ones a kind message; maybe tell them you love them, wish them a good day, or encourage them
Stand up for others, especially if you witness a wrong done against them
Attend protests that stand against corrupt governments/politicians
Support children-focused, anti-domestic abuse, young/single mothers, or international relief organizations
Support ocean conservation efforts
Donate children's and hygiene supplies to homeless shelters; hygiene kits, toys, child socks/shoes, child clothes, baby food, diapers, etc.
Pick up trash around bodies of water
Sing/dance to songs the empower you, lift you up, or encourage you to keep moving forward
Make a list of things you're proud of; even getting out of bed can be a point of pride
Light a candle in his honor; burn incense in his honor
Plant/care for flowers or other plants that remind you of him
Create something for him - a painting, drawing, piece of digital art, wood carving, crochet project, song, short story, collage, etc.
Take a salt bath (with bath salts specifically!!!!)
Engage in a mental challenging/stimulating activities
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To cover every piece of information about Perseus that exists would be a difficult task, and one that would likely take years of hard work. I hope this can at least be a starting point for any prospective worshippers and can offer a more condensed view of who exactly Perseus is. It can be challenging finding a place to start, but once you take your first step, you're already well on your way. I wish you, the reader, luck in your future ventures. May Perseus walk beside you, if you wish him to. Take care.
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Sources:
Theoi.com's entry on Perseus
Tufts University sources on the Medusa myth
History Cooperative's informed article on Perseus
Cults and Rites in Ancient Greece by Michael H. Jameson
Gods and Heroes - Perseus by Daniel Ogden
UPG was gathered from unnamed individuals, as well as my own very brief experiences with Perseus
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No one (w/bejicot blackwood)
Imagine: After a chance meeting with a Blackwood, you realize the Riverlands may indeed have potential
Contains: Technically fancast but idc who they say this man below is, he's my beniji okay LOOK AT HIM. Reader is half Targaryen and badass cause i said so. Also a Dragon that i made up because thats the beauty of fanfic. Gender neutral terminology as much as possible
Warnings: none
(p.s. potential for part 2? Of reader and benji at dragon stone? lemme know?)
Bastard
Disgrace
Unworthy
All words youâd been hearing since the day you were born. A bastard child of the late King Viserys, you born from a hasty decision made while he was in the throws of grief after his wife-the queen-died. A mistake.
You never knew your biological mother, only knew the gifts she'd left you-her common colored eyes and a loyalty as fierce as a dragon. You also knew that she had died giving birth to you. It wasnât uncommon for Targaryen woman to die giving birth, nevermind those of common blood. As your father told it she never stood a chance. But your father, for all intents and purposes, was a good man. Despite the disgrace others found you, he treated you like kin.
You were, after all, half of him.
With time you learned to ignore the judgments of strangers. Even though your white hair showed off your Targaryen blood, there were many who still challenged your lineage. But even the most vocal of your haters fell silent when you claimed a dragon in your 12th year.
Despite it all, your father loved you. And his first born was no different.
Rhaenyra adored you, her brave little sibling. She missed her mother, but found you healing a portion of her heart. She helped her father raise you, and as you bloomed into a young adult you two remained thick as thieves. She was relieved to have someone to help shoulder the burden when your father eventually passed. Evil had crept into the kingdom in the form of the Hightowers, and on more than one occasion they had tried to poison your mind against your sister and her birthright. But it was useless. Family and honor were more important than anything, and so you stood proudly by your sister-the rightful Queen.
This all, of course, led you to where you sat now.
You were on a tour orchestrated by the high counsel, rallying men for Rhaenyra and keeping morale high. Unease had grown in some of the outer lands, and word was spreading that some doubted the royals allegiance to the people. Your task, as the counsel worded it, was to meet with the people and show that the royal family did care for them, would stand with them and not behind them.
Though honestly right now, you didnât want to stand anywhere near them.
âSer Lorent, what are we at now?â
âThat was the 21st.â
âSurely not!â
âPerhaps notâŚ..I stopped counting after the 13th.â
You blew air from your lips, crossing your arms. The current stop was in the Riverlands. It was a beautiful part of the world with it's rolling hills and greenery. Not that you were enjoying it, trapped in a stifling hot court room listening to queries and declarations and questions. That in itself wasnât the problem, you were always happy to speak with the people. The problem was the topics in question.
âSurely none of those 21 thought I would actually accept their hand? Iâm here to discuss war, not marriage!â
âI canât say for certain. Though the last few you turned down did seem a bit spooked.â
You humphed. âGood. Maybe it will scare off any others feeling brave. Iâd sooner let Bryaxis eat me then become an obedient spouse for some fool to order around.â
âEasy,â Ser Lorent warned, acutely aware the two of you still had an audience.
âI need a break,â you announced, pushing yourself up from your chair. âI find myself quite parched and warm, might we take a break for me to collect myself before we continue?â
The lords hosting for the day nodded, dismissing their people from the courtroom for the afternoon.
You turned to your knight. âIâm going for a walk. I need some fresh air.â
âI must insister I accompany you.â
"I'll be fine, Ser."
"Have you got your sword?"
You patted your back where your trusty blade lay sheathed down your spine. "When do i not?"
The knight sighed. "I feel I'm going to regret this. Wonât you take your dragon?â
"You worry too much, and Bryaxis would bring the attention I'm looking to avoid. I'll be back in an hours time after Iâve had a break from this stifling place."
Before the man could change his mind you were slipping from the room and following a maids directions to the outside gardens.
The moment you were free of the stuffy stone building you took a deep breath of fresh air. While still hot outside, there was at least a slight breeze giving you relief. Hoping to avoid detection you pulled your hood up, then you were off. You strolled the lands belonging to the lords hosting, sprawling and filled with foliage and wildlife. You managed to avoid anyone else, getting the peace and quiet you so desperately craved. At least, until you hit the peak of a hill and then began descending it.
Up ahead, there was what you guessed to be a training area. Dummies made of various materials stood haphazardly propped up. You walked closer, curious. As you drew near you realized there was someone there. A young strapping man with dark hair was training with his sword. He stood amongst the dummies, weaving around while he struck them with his blade.
You watched him in awe for a few minutes. He sword struck with such force, yet his movements were smooth and fluid. He moved like it was second nature to have a blade in hand, like it was an extension of his arm. Considering how many great warriors you'd witness train, he was impressive.
The stranger paused for a moment to catch his breath, and thatâs when he finally noticed his admirer. Realizing you'd been caught, you walked forward to the edge of the training yard.
"I hope I didn't startle you. I was just observing. You have a way with the blade, my lord."
The man's eyes had widened more and more the closer you got, and his cheeks flushed at the compliment.
"You flatter me. I was just training, fooling around. It's nothing-"
"Nonsense. I know good technique when I see it."
His face grew a cherry red, and a beat of silence hung between you two. You were moments away from excusing yourself and returning to the court and Ser Lorent when the man spoke again. He'd taken a beat to compose himself, and his complexion had returned to it's natural color.
"Forgive me. I don't believe we've ever had the pleasure of meeting. Are you new to the riverlands?"
You froze in place, eyes wide. The man before you had no idea who you were. You didnât have the signature purple eyes, and your giveaway white hair was tucked back into your hood. The shock quickly weared off and the new realization left you pleased. This was a welcome change, one you would be taking advantage of. You finally blinked again, relaxing your stance.
âIâm no one. Just passing through when I was overcome with the need for fresh air and a walk. My apologies for interrupting, lord...?â
âNo apology needed. And I am not a lord, that would be-"
You waved the formality away and his words died on his tongue. "All the lady and lord nonsense never made much sense to me. I much prefer names."
And so you two swapped introductions. Though you realized, just a beat after he gave you his, that your name would almost undoubtfully give you away. So you gave the name of one of your own ladies in waiting.
And this man, this handsome man, was Benjicot Blackwood.
"The Blackwoods are fierce fighters, or so I've heard. From the looks of you before I interrupted the rumors are true."
Benji blushed, though you could have sworn his chest puffed out a bit at the compliment. You struggled to hold in a laugh at the observation.
"We take our training very seriously."
"And you fight for the Blacks?" You asked carefully, keeping your face and tone neutral.
"Aye, for the true queen Rhaenyra. And proud of it."
A real smile blossomed on your face, and Benji relaxed his shoulders in relief.
"It pleases me to hear so."
Then it was your turn to blush as Benji shot you a stunning smile. Desperate to turn the subject, you asked something you'd been dying to know since you first laid eyes on him.
"Would you indulge me in sharing how you did that one move with your sword and the spin?"
"Pardon?"
"When you lifted your sword like this and then went-" you did a poor attempt to demonstrate the move.
"Ah, this?" Benji repeated it, so fast that all you could make out was him tossing his sword into the air and then spinning around fast enough to catch it again before it could fall.
Your face lit up. "Yes, that!"
"Sure-do you-are you familiar with swordsmanship?"
You tried to ignore how cute you found his stumbling and instead nodded. You reached over your shoulder and pulled out Night Cleaver. A gift from Daemon, it was one of your most prized possessions.
"My family and I train sometimes. I'm still learning, but I've never seen that move you did. Could you try to teach me?"
"Are you sure?"
You rasied an eyebrow and Benji rushed to continue, "I just mean-in your attire. Can you move around in it well enough? I dont want you to trip or strain yourself.â
âIâve trained in almost every sort of clothing, including nothing. Iâll be alright.â
Benji gulped, trying to keep his brain from imagining you swinging a sword around naked.
âAre you alright?â You asked as the man had gone beet red again and was very obviously avoiding your eyes.
He nodded furiously and you couldnât help but find him entirely adorable in that moment. âSorry for an unwanted imagery that may have brought up. But Iâd be lying if I said that wasnât my intention.â
Benjiâs flustered expression morphed into one of disbelief.
âYouâre a little flirt, arenât you?â
You merely smiled and batted your eyelashes.
He shook his head, though a smirk was growing on his face. Gods he was attractive.
âSo, first you want to plant your feet like thisâŚâ
As the time passed after that you could barely feel it, fully absorbed in the man in front of you and what he was teaching. Hours couldâve flown by and youâd be none the wiser.
He was good, any form of shyness vanishing as he patiently and kindly taught you how to replicate his impressive move. In the meanwhile you two bantered, swapping bits of information about yourselves. You changed names when needed, but otherwise kept honest. The move was hard, and even with your above average skills you struggled.
"Here, may I?"
You nodded, and Benji took a few steps closer. The two of you had remained a few feet apart for the entirety of the interaction, until now. Now he was within breathing room as he rested one hand oh so carefully on your wrist and the other on the small of your back to turn you the right direction. He smelled of sweat and leather and faintly of rain soaked stone. You couldnt help but bask in it, as the everlasting time seemed to slow and you both met eyes and leaned in-
A roar bellowed through the skies, causing both of you to freeze and look up. Any panic you felt evaporated at the sight of familiar black wings soaring through the skies, and you smiled as Bryaxis sped up once he caught sight of you.
Meanwhile Benjicot had gone pale, and was internally panicking at the large creature careening towards you. He grabbed your waist and tucked you behind himself while he raised his sword. He wasnât foolish enough to think he could take on a dragon, but he was crazy enough to try.
âStay behind me!â
âWait, Benji-â
You were interrupted by Bryaxis letting loose another roar, angry at the sight of someone he didn't recognize touching you. He grew closer, and as he gave his wings once final flap he was hitting the ground with a deafening boom. The moment he landed you broke out of Benjiâs grasp.
âWait!â He shouted, but you didnât stop. You ran to your dragon, who was already opening his mouth and preparing to burn Benji alive.
âBryaxis! Donât!â
He halted, mouth still wide open and showing off his rows of razor sharp teeth.
By time you reached his side, your hood had fallen from your head.
âHeâs a friend. No need to burn.â
Bryaxis gave a little whine through his nose but closes his mouth and laid his head down in front of you. You sighed in relief, and rested your hand on his snout.
âGood boy, Bry.â
He shut his eyes and purred at the attention. He was really a softie at heart
âWhat in the bloody hell?â
Bryaxisâ eyes snapped back open and narrowed at the man behind you that youâd nearly forgotten about.
âEasy boy,â you warned him, keeping a hand on his nose while you turned to meet Benjiâs wide eyes.
âYouâŚ.youâre a Targaryen.â
The wind picked up a bit, blowing your now revealed white hair around you.
âYes. This is Bryaxis. And Iâm-â
âThe princess.â
Your face warmed. âIâŚ.apologize for not being totally honest, Benji.â
His eyes remained wide, unbelieving. Then he suddenly dropped to one knee, bowing deeply.
âMy apologies Princess, I meant no ill with any of my comments I-â
âBenji,â you stepped away from your dragon to reach for him, pulling him back to his full height tall above you. âStop that. I didnât say anything because I enjoyed being known as commonfolk. IâŚdidnât want you to desire my company just because of my family, because of who I am. It felt nice that you seemed to like me for me. As ridiculous as that may sound.â
Far from your usual confident self, your voice swayed and hands trembled as you tried to express yourself properly. You were fearful that this thing between you was destroyed before it even had the chance to become something.
âNot ridiculous at all,â Benji said softly, hesitating for a moment before he brought his hands to your face. He moved slowly, giving you time to pull away. But you didnât. You let him hold your face so softly, thumbs brushing over your cheeks. His heart broke a bit at the thought that you had to lie just to be treated as a normal human being.
âI understand why you were cautious, thatâs smart of you. I could have been a danger, I could have been a threat.â
âWellâŚyou were quite threatening to those dummies.â
Benji laughed at that, loud and full and careless.
âIf I promise to be honest from here on outâŚ.would you consider seeing me again before I take my leave from the Riverlands? After all, I still havenât quite mastered the sword spin trick of yours.â
âAre you sure? To quote a fine ladyâŚ.Iâm no one.â
âThatâs not true. Youâre someone.â
Benji hummed, giving you a soft sort of smile as he studied your face before answering.
"Same time tomorrow? Iâll bring lunch.â
#fanfic#imagine#drabble#fanfiction#x reader#writing#house of the dragon#house of the dragon imagines#hotd#benjicot x reader#benjicot blackwood#benji blackwood#dragon#hotd x reader#hotd imagine
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SAND AND METAL
â Seth x Goddess!OC [Habibah]
⌠Synopsis: Hathor gives birth to her first descendant, and Seth is the last to find out.
⌠Word Count: 5.3k
⌠Warnings: Incest / Smut + Erotic Asphyxiation.
⌠Spanish Version: Arena y Metal
âWhatâs happening with Hathor?â
The gods turned at the new voice, and some faces showed displeasure at seeing the latest addition to the room. Seth raised an eyebrow at their reactions, while Sekhmet smiled widely, ready to provide answers.
âApparently, her daughter is causing trouble,â she said with malicious laughter.
âSince when does she have descendants? Who among you was it?â he asked, slightly aggressive due to the confusion.
âNone,â Maat sighed, crossing her arms. âShe had an affair some time ago and...â
Seth made a sound indicating his opinion on how foolish it was for her to end up pregnant, then watched them with suspicion, wondering if this had been a secret kept just from him.
âWhat did she do to make Hathor run through the halls in tears?â
âShe was born with her motherâs beauty. She enjoys dancing and travels with a troupe to different cities for performances, but her appearance is drawing quite a lot of attention,â Bastet explained.
âSeriously, the problem is that she has too many suitors?â he scoffed.
âItâs more than that; some are deities who are starting to fight and cause chaos,â Maat said, emphasizing the gravity of the situation. âWe asked Hathor to impose order and demand that her daughter act according to her divine title, but...â
âDivine? Did her daughter ascend?â he asked, less sympathetically.
âShe is the Goddess of Precious Stones and Metals. Everything we use was crafted by her,â Thoth said, pointing to the impressive necklace he wore.
Isis smiled with mockery, but Seth dismissed the situation as a waste of time and left the place, heading to his temple. Upon arrival, contrary to what he had said, he ordered his most loyal servants to find the young woman who captivated everyone. However, the information didnât arrive until several months later, and by then, any interest had faded.
Still, Hathor didnât hesitate to confront him when she learned he knew her precious daughter was coming to the city. Nervous and agitated, it only encouraged the man to dismiss her concerns even more.
âDonât mess with my baby! Iâll deal with the suitors, erase every trace of affection, and nothing will happen!â she growled, frowning.
âNow you choose to act? Battles and conflicts have arisen because of her, and thatâs my territory.â
âSheâs the victim, donât blame her! If you do anything...â
âWhat?â Seth raised an eyebrow, a challenging smile on his face. âDo you think you can stand up to me?â
Hathor turned crimson, her violet eyes' pupils becoming vertical slits, her aura extremely threatening.
âIâll do whatever it takes to destroy you if you interfere with her. I donât care if I have to alter the feelings of every living being to have them protect her and turn against you,â she declared, sparks flying from the tips of her fingers. Then she turned and left the hall.
âSince when does she dare to speak to me like that?â he muttered angrily, tapping his nails against the throne he occupied.
Choosing to go regardless of the circumstances, he instructed them to prepare less conspicuous clothing and to cover his red hair well to remain unnoticed. Wrapped in linen, he set out at dusk for the designated area, frowning at the large number of people already occupying the front rows.
âSir, please come this way,â a young woman with fine jewelry and a broad smile announced.
âDonât touch me,â he growled as she grasped his arm.
âPlease, I have instructions from the lead interpreter to take you to the front row,â she explained, maintaining her charm.
Seth squinted and moved forward, noticing that several mortals dressed like her were organizing the spectators. Both women and men watched him pass by, curious about who he was as they were led to more favorable spots. When he stopped, they led him to a cushioned area just a few meters from the makeshift stage.
As the sun set, torches were lit, and the musicians settled into their places, quietly chatting among themselves. It took some time before the performance began, and after a while, a man finally welcomed the audience and announced the start of the show. The first to perform were a mixed group dancing in pairs or small ensembles before breaking formation to interact with the audience. Seth admired the performance, wondering where they had found so many beautiful and talented people, while the crowd laughed and applauded at the artistsâ infectious enthusiasm.
Minutes passed in a different activity for him, the final act arriving as a curtain was lifted to reveal several female silhouettes that captured everyoneâs attention. A different rhythm began to play, and the fabric was released by the men holding it on ladders. Nine women showed their backs, with one standing out at the tip of the V formation. Gradually, they turned, and finally, the face of the girl Seth had come to see appeared, his mouth slightly open in awe.
With a confident and seductive smile, and lips as red as rubies, the goddess lifted her eyelids to reveal dark purple irises, with long lashes inherited from her mother. She walked slowly as the other women scattered across the stage. In perfect synchronization, they began their choreography with incredible flair. Crystals and golden beads intertwined and flew through the air as they twirled, the decorations sparkling as brightly as she did, leaving the audience breathless.
Sethâs red eyes followed every movement, admiring the curves that swayed with mischievous grace. Ignored until she decided to get closer to the prime spot, she crouched with a predatory air and crept to the edge of the platform, supporting herself on her hands and knees. The crowd cheered excitedly as she maintained eye contact, rising at one point and slowly swaying her hips. She traced her legs, thighs, waist, and neck in an extremely sensual display before turning and calling one of the men dancing nearby.
Euphoria erupted at the potential of what might happen, with Seth grinding his teeth and watching almost without blinking as she placed both hands on the manâs shoulders and began to caress him. He held her and spun her around, recognizing her intentions, and stroked her exposed abdomen while maintaining a challenging gaze toward the god. At this point, due to the heat from the large torches and the dance, she glistened with a light sheen of sweat and had cheeks flushed like beautiful garnets.
"Iâll wait for you," she said, her voice fading into the music and the noise.
Seth read her lips and watched as she threw a bracelet at his feet. Some people tried to reach for it, but he covered it with his hand, glaring at them so intensely that they backed off.
Once the event ended, he decided to wait for a signal. Suddenly, the bracelet began to heat up, pulling him with an unseen force in a specific direction. He let it guide him through a couple of crowded streets before turning into an alley, where the woman awaited, leaning against a wall and inspecting her nails.
"I learned of your existence only recently, unlike the rest," he remarked with a hint of reproach.
"Itâs understandable. From what Iâve been told, your temper is rather volatile and aggressive," she said, shrugging as if it didnât matter much. "What brings you here?" she asked, tilting her head and closing the distance between them, but soon found herself trapped as sand coiled around her legs.
"As the God of War and the Desert, Iâve come to deal with the trouble youâre causing with your suitors."
She averted her gaze and rolled her eyes silently, prompting Seth to issue a warning sound that forced her to speak.
"Do you have somewhere more private?"
Seth narrowed his eyes, considering the question before grabbing her by the arm and vanishing in a whirlwind.
"This isâŚ" she hesitated, looking around.
"My temple," he finished, shedding the unnecessary linen, letting his red hair fall freely over his shoulders.
"Wow," she murmured, gently touching a strand. "I could make so many things to enhance this color. Itâs so beautiful..."
Seth grabbed her wrist high in warning, allowing her to smile and lick his hand without breaking eye contact.
"Careful, or Iâll cut out your tongue."
She snorted, pulling free and turning her back to him, elegantly walking toward the massive stairs leading to the main building. The jewels and gemstone threads hanging from her chimed harmoniously with each step, glowing brighter as she neared the torches.
"Itâs huge. I wouldnât mind spending a few weeks here," she teased, brushing a wall with her fingers.
Seth followed at a measured distance, his eyes tracking her every move, taking in everything she was. Since he first saw her, an unfamiliar, overwhelming need had been growing inside him, frustratingly hard to ignore.
"Did I offer for you to stay?"
"Donât you want me to? Iâm good company," she turned, walking backward. "Why do you think those who know me fight over having me?" she winked.
"Sex."
"If thatâs all, why donât they forget me when I leave? What makes them cling so tightly?" she slowed her pace, drawing closer. "You saw it tonightâthe crowd gets excited just watching me... Even you."
Seth clenched his teeth in frustration, and she stuck her tongue out teasingly.
âDo you have your motherâs permission to be mingling with gods?â
âI havenât needed her approval in centuries,â she laughed. âI told her today Iâd try to avoid causing chaos. Who knows, maybe getting close to the God of War is the solution.â
âYouâll be more trouble than pleasure.â
Her laugh rang out at that, before she pretended to ponder deeply.
âDo you have musicians? Maybe a private dance would change your mind.â
âWe have matters to settle first,â he replied indifferently, though she knew a little push would make him fall. âWhatâs your name?â
"I'll tell you depending on what you decide after my dance."
He clenched his jaw, hating the carefree tone in her voice and the mischievous glint in her eyes. The constant smile was unnerving, making it seem like she was the one in control.
"Why do you live like a nomad, performing shows?"
"Mortal or immortal, every being is born with a family they can cherishâor not. My mother is one of the best things thatâs ever happened to me, and she'll always have a place in my heart. But the rest doesnât really matter much. I met people who share my interests, people I enjoy spending my days with. They trust me, and I trust them, so I chose them," she explained, a new air surrounding her. "I won't leave that caravan, not when everyone I care about has an expiration date."
"You have feelings unbefitting of a deity."
"What is a god without humanity? If you donât understand the people youâre meant to protect, represent, and serve, how can you be an empathetic and respectable ruler?" she asked, her eyes filled with pure seriousness. "I know Iâll never rule Egypt, but that doesnât make me indifferent to those who pray to me."
"By the way you speak, I have no doubt youâre close to Osiris and Isis."
"Well thought out, both had a big hand in raising me," she responded, crossing her arms and shifting her weight to one hip.
"Whatever," he mimicked her stance, looking her up and down. "Are you incapable of ordering your lovers to stop fighting over you?"
"Most havenât even managed to lay a finger on me; they fight purely for the desire to do so. Iâve intervened, but the one who really should be stepping up here is Nephthys and encouraging peace."
"I don't question that. They shouldâve turned to her from the start."
"Sheâs your sister. If she doesnât act, you could ask her."
"Who do you think I am, a messenger?" He raised an eyebrow.
"Wow," she sighed, tilting her head. "So what now, we sleep together and let the rumor spread to scare the gods?"
"Youâre really persistent. Do you want me that badly?" He clicked his tongue, grinning smugly.
The question drew a dry laugh from her as she stepped closer.
"I wonât deny youâre incredibly attractive, but even before you showed up at the performance, I knew I was in the mood for some fun tonight. If you donât join me, Iâll find someone else to satisfy me."
Seth exhaled and held her gaze, his heart racing as he fought the urge to look away, feeling as if she were pulling him closer to the edge of a cliff.
"I believe you promised to dance and change my mind, didnât you?"
"Finally, weâre getting to the important part," she said, pleased, taking a step back. "Lead me to your musicians."
Without delay, he took the lead and left her waiting outside as he entered a room. From the corridor, she could hear the hurried greetings of men and women as they scrambled to follow his commands, a few accidental notes sounding in the shuffle. A considerable line of people soon filed out, their eyes widening as they caught sight of her. She smiled, reveling in the way some let their jaws drop in astonishment.Seth exhaled and held her gaze, his heart racing as he fought the urge to look away, feeling as if she were pulling him closer to the edge of a cliff.
"I believe you promised to dance and change my mind, didnât you?"
"Finally, weâre getting to the important part," she said, pleased, taking a step back. "Lead me to your musicians."
Without delay, he took the lead and left her waiting outside as he entered a room. From the corridor, she could hear the hurried greetings of men and women as they scrambled to follow his commands, a few accidental notes sounding in the shuffle. A considerable line of people soon filed out, their eyes widening as they caught sight of her. She smiled, reveling in the way some let their jaws drop in astonishment.
âWhatâs keeping you all busy?â Seth asked from the back, his voice causing everyone to snap out of their stupor and hasten their movements.
"If you decide not to have sex with me, Iâm glad to know I wonât have to look far for another partner."
He shot her a sidelong glance, gritted his teeth, and then tossed his hair back.
"Letâs go."
They walked calmly, with Seth entering first into a vast room where a massive mattress lay nearly at floor level. Posts with large curtains were arranged to shield the bed from view, while four attendants lit incense and prepared alcohol.
"Release the side curtains."
Another small group hurried to comply, loosening the ties and leaving only one section uncovered.
"Interesting," the goddess remarked, taking a few steps around the room.
The musicians arranged their instruments and took positions concealed by heavy drapes, their role clearly to observe the guest.
"Prepare as you wish," Seth said with an indifferent gesture before heading to the bed and reclining against a large mound of pillows.
Two women approached with golden goblets filled with wine, which both accepted before the temple owner instructed them to leave.
As she drank calmly, she approached the musicians to discuss her preferences. They exchanged opinions and reached an agreement on how to proceed. Satisfied with the outcome, she moved several meters from the bed and took her place directly in front of the open section.
âReady?â she asked.
âAre you?â he replied, raising an eyebrow as the incense began to fill the room.
Winking, she emptied his glass in one gulp and raised it in the air. At this signal, the musicians began to play as she turned her back to him, keeping her arm extended above her head.
As she swayed her hips slowly, the gold she wore started to melt and reshape. It dripped down her arm, first forming a small head and then an elongated body. The newly formed snake coiled and descended to rest around her neck. With both hands on the sensitive area, she turned slowly and smiled with her eyes closed, letting herself be carried away by the music. She caressed her collarbones and shoulders before extending her arms, while the serpentine creation moved across her chest and encircled her. Suddenly, a piece of fabric fell away, revealing a breast.
As if nothing had happened, she continued her dance, the metal caressing and embracing every part of her body as it descended. Her adorned wrists and fingers skimmed her skin and created perfect movements in the air, captivating the onlookers who held their breath as the serpent approached the garment covering her most intimate area.
Unperturbed, she turned and placed both hands on the back of her legs, carefully lifting a bit of the fabric. The serpent coiled one of its segments around her thigh to keep her hand in place, taking advantage of the opportunity to slither beneath her skirt.
A murmur rose from the left side, and the woman glanced over her shoulder to see Sethâs unblinking gaze, though one of his eyebrows twitched involuntarily at a comment she couldn't quite decipher. With a smile, she arched her back and bent her body backward, her free fingers caressing from her abdomen up to the exposed breast, squeezing it with delight.
The serpent gradually released her, and she turned to show how it emerged from the front, starting to rise and drag the fabric up to the edge of revealing her inner thigh. However, she made sure not to expose too much, guiding it to change direction slightly. She pivoted on one foot, preparing for the imminent drumbeat, and at that moment, she fell to her knees with her hands extended and her hair cascading forward.
She slowly straightened up, and the musicians adjusted their rhythm to match her movements. Seated in a W shape with her legs apart, she locked eyes with Seth and felt the intense heat from his red gaze, which made her smile. She then turned her attention to one of the women who had earlier caught her eye. Attractive and alluring, the woman was a tempting prospect if Seth chose to let her go. In an instant, the protagonist contemplated how to seduce her, but the godâs voice interrupted her thoughts.
Everyone snapped out of their trance and ceased their actions, the musicians hurriedly gathering their instruments and leaving the room. Within minutes, they were alone, and she approached the foot of the bed, tilting her head with curiosity.
âDidnât you like the performance?â
Seth took a deep breath, finished his wine, and threw the glass off the bed with a loud clink. He adjusted himself and gestured with his index finger, signaling her to come closer. She smiled and took a few steps onto the bed, getting on all fours and crawling towards him until she was on top. The serpent, curious, slithered over the red-haired manâs body as they locked eyes.
âIt was disrespectful of you to look at someone else when you should have been trying to convince me.â
âIs that why you cut off the dance? I was just assessing the best option in case you decided to pass on such an incredible opportunity,â she defended herself, moving closer until their faces were only a few centimeters apart. âSo, whatâs your answer?â
After a moment of silence, he placed his right hand on her head to close the distance. Their lips met and quickly intertwined, his feeling incredibly soft mixed with the aroma of the wine they had drunk.
"When you decided to meet me, had you planned this?" she asked as he pulled away, his hand caressing the small of her back.
"Youâre the first descendant of Hathor, and she had hidden you from me jealously. It was just curiosity," she replied. "And you? Why did you give me the bracelet?"
"Isnât it obvious? You captivated me the moment I saw you. I definitely wanted us to share a bed."
Seth flashed a small sidelong smile and brushed her hair back, the intertwined lines of gems shining in his hand as he gathered it.
âWhatâs your name?â he asked, even more dazzled by her incredible appearance up close.
She smiled and tilted her head towards one of the curtains, as if deciding whether to reveal the information. Finally, she turned back and kissed the palm resting on her cheek.
âHabibah, which means âthe one who is loved,ââ she confessed, with a look of complicity.
âYour mother really knew what she was doing, because thatâs how everyone seems to feel when they meet you.â
âEven the God of War and the Desert?â
âIâm not like the others. Do you think you can make me feel the same way?â he said with a touch of challenge, but sounding more like an invitation to continue what they had started.
Accepting the challenge and everything it implied, she kissed him deeply, her tongue exploring his. Seth caressed her warm skin and then pressed down, aligning their bodies so that she could feel his erection. Without hesitation, she began to move her hips, and he let out a pleased sigh, his hands finding their way to her waist.
Habibah ran a hand through his red hair and descended slowly, tracing her way down his chest until she focused on one of his nipples. Seth gritted his teeth, undid the clasp of the upper fabric, and started to caress what was within reach, instructing her to lie down.
Without hesitation, she moved a few pillows and settled against the soft mattress, watching as the serpent coiled around the manâs arm like a perfect and beautiful accessory. He barely noticed the gold, focusing instead on returning her affections. Habibah closed her eyes and took a deep breath as his lips arrived at her breasts. She caressed his shoulders and back, lightly scratching as she felt him burning like the desert under the sun.
The incense began to take effect, lightening their minds and giving way to an intense desire that drove them to hold each other with urgency. Their hips searched for each other frantically, moaning against one another in broken kisses, their legs and arms entwined in a connection with no clear beginning or end.
Habibah slipped a hand between them, urgently seeking his erection, which she attended to with skillful movements until she lifted the fabric that covered his intimacy. Seth created some distance and propped himself on his knees, removing the minimal clothing and setting it aside before focusing on her. Completely naked and adorned only with jewelry, she settled herself as he took her legs and dragged her over his thighs. The movement elicited a small surprised sound from Habibah, and he watched her expectantly while caressing the outer side of her legs.
âDo it,â she encouraged, brushing his stomach with a hand.
Seth tightened his grip, leaving momentary marks before releasing her and taking his erection. With a single movement, he inserted the tip and then thrust in a steady rhythm until he reached the deepest point. Both moaned, and the woman arched her back with a wide smile while pulling the sheets.
âYouâre incredibly wet,â he growled, his cheeks flushed with satisfaction.
âYou say that as if itâs something strange. Donât women get excited with you?â
She shivered with excitement and pleasure as a sharp, red gaze emerged among the fiery hair. The intense tickling sensation made her laugh with delight until she nearly screamed as he began to thrust forcefully. Breathless, she tried to steady herself amidst the sounds of raw impact, the heat and pleasure spreading like waves from the center of her body to every corner.
"You shouldnât be competing with the God of War," he said with a proud expression.
"I donât mind losing," she replied honestly, though she knew it would only fuel the fire further.
Seth narrowed his eyes but soon regained his composure, placing his hands on the mattress with a feigned calm as she wrapped her legs around his body. She swayed her hips, feeling his member pressing down, and he resumed the movement with great force after a hiss. Habibah pulled him towards her by the nape to kiss him, shivering as his tongue entered and took control. The thrusts were relentless, with a stamina reminiscent of someone who had fought countless battles to defend Egypt.
With tearful eyes, she admired the man moving above her, pushing aside her strands of hair to see him better, noticing the earrings that moved violently in sync with their owner.
"Iâll make you some prettier ones," she said, brushing against the fine, rectangular gold plate.
"How can you think of that in the middle of sex?"
"Maybe you should try harder," she pressed, noticing how the atmosphere shifted in the blink of an eye.
The room fell silent, and Habibah's skin tingled as she realized she had made a mistake.
"Turn around," he commanded as he withdrew from her, not waiting for her to move and grabbing her by the arm to start repositioning her.
Any doubt vanished when she lost her breath again, feeling Seth penetrate her abruptly and hold her by the neck with considerable force. She was left gasping for air and tried to grab his wrist, but the sand made her hands stick to the bed.
"Such behavior with someone who was born long before you is very inappropriate," he growled, his abs tensing as he gradually adjusted the angle to graze the spot that would drive her wild. "Talking less and learning would do you a lot of good."
Involuntarily, Habibahâs eyes rolled back as he found her most sensitive area, her legs wanting to give out but unable to do so due to the force with which he held her.
âSe⌠thâŚâ she called, her muscles trembling in a way she had never experienced before.
âHmm?â he asked, loosening his grip.
A bit of awareness returned to her as she tried to ask for a breath amidst the perfect administrations. However, Seth increased his effort, making it impossible for her to speak.
Cursing inwardly, she let her head drop as moisture dripped down her thighs, slightly staining the sheets. Seth held her by the hips for added stability and wrapped sand around her neck, the itching heightening the effects of pleasure and strangulation. Any cries and moans were muffled or cut off, with only a few gasps escaping as he breathed heavily and occasionally growled in deep satisfaction.
Struggling to swallow and relishing the challenge, Habibah briefly focused and set the serpent in motion. The god's hips lost their rhythm, and she glanced over her shoulder to see the golden creature firmly wrapped around the redhead's throat.
âT-TwoâŚâ she tried to say, and he deliberately loosened his grip. âTwo can play⌠this game,â she smiled proudly, though she soon rolled her eyes and propped herself up on her elbows.
He breathed heavily, the metal not yielding in the slightest and intensifying his own sensations.
âI knew youâd be a pain if I brought you to the temple,â he growled, his brow furrowed.
Habibah tried to laugh, but a strange sound escaped as she felt the onset of her orgasm.
âBut I⌠I also give you pleasure,â she defended, feeling her lungs burn and forcing the gold to make him suffer the same way she did.
A desperate, frustrated groan escaped from the man, who felt the constriction sending electric waves to his erection. He clenched his jaw and threw his head back, pushing into her with renewed urgency to provoke the impending climax.
Both seemed to have lost control of their consciousness and bodies as they moved, overwhelmed by the need to escape the pleasure consuming them. They were on the brink of fainting, allowing brief moments of calm before their necks were swiftly constricted again.
Habibah's spasms intensified, reaching a climax that opened a new world of pleasure. Her legs trembled uncontrollably, making lascivious sounds as the moisture increased significantly with the release. The pressure of her walls became too much for Seth to bear, and the stimulation pushed him to his limit, culminating inside her. He trembled and groaned loudly, delivering the final thrusts with some difficulty until the stimulation became overwhelming and he stopped.
Both the metal and the sand loosened, and they both breathed heavily, their eyelids drooping as they collapsed onto the mattress, savoring the comfort. Habibah, lying face down, slowly turned to look at the man, who had one arm draped over his forehead as he steadied himself. He looked just as beautiful, if not more so, with an enviable profile and eye and hair color that she would love to highlight with various creations.
âThat was good,â the young woman sighed, stretching her arms.
Seth watched her, unknowingly mimicking her movements, silently admiring the beauty that had captivated him at a single glance. They chatted a bit and decided that this would be the only round, though their mouths didn't escape some additional entanglements until they surrendered to sleep.
When the sun was high, the god cracked open his eyes and, groggy, took a few minutes to become aware of his surroundings. Floral scents filled the air, none of which were familiar, so he looked around and noticed Habibahâs absence. Frowning, he sat up, ready to get up and find out if she had left, but then he heard a noise in the room and, cautiously, drew back the curtains.
Facing away from the window, the goddess examined herself in the mirror as she applied a type of oil to her face. Her hair was wet and slicked back, the sunlight streaming in and drying it quickly. She was visibly focused and didn't realize that Seth had awakened until his bare feet made a soft noise on the floor.
âGood morning,â Habibah smiled as she applied perfume.
âI see you found the bathrooms.â
âYes, after the show and our entanglement, I needed to freshen up.â
âI still have the bracelet you threw at me.â
âItâs yours,â she said, looking at the object. âWith it, if you ever get bored and miss me, you can find me wherever I am and relive last night,â she winked playfully.
Seth clicked his tongue and looked at the accessory, feeling his stomach churn. The stones sparkled as much as she did in the sun.
âIâll keep that in mind.â
âStill, you should be prepared for when my mother sees you wearing something of mine,â she warned, stretching her neck to examine the marks he had left.
âNot much she can do,â he brushed off, placing a hand on his hip. âAre you heading to the caravan?â
âYes, I need to let them know Iâm okay and ready for tonightâs performance.â
âHow long will you stay in the city?â
âUntil the next full moon.â
They fell silent for a moment, and Seth crossed his arms, looking out the window at the clear sky.
âStay here.â
âExcuse me?â Habibah raised both eyebrows, admiring his chiseled face.
âDuring the night, donât sleep in the caravan. Come here.â
âEvery night?â she asked, surprised.
Seth nodded, and she blinked, perplexed, but then gave a quick affirmative gesture.
âI would love to, thank you.â
âIâll go take a bath. Do as you wish in the temple.â
âAre problems included?â she asked mischievously, and he tilted his head.
âNo.â
âButâŚâ
âIf so, Iâll punish you.â
âSomehow, that sounds very promising. Maybe you should give me a lesson,â she laughed, playful and seductive.
âIâve just gotten up,â he said with a yawn, still feeling the remnants of the previous night. âWeâll catch up later.â
âOf course, Iâll make sure to say goodbye before I leave.â
As she watched his back, Habibah dropped any pretense and smiled slyly, knowing that the man was falling for her. He wasnât different from any other human or deity, but Seth was undoubtedly the one she truly desired, and she would give him everything if he surrendered at her feet.
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