#and by dont like i mean REALLLY dont like

[bellamysgriffin]

FAVORITE TELEVISION EPISODES:  Spyfall (Doctor Who)

These are the dark times. But they don't sustain. Darkness never sustains, even though sometimes it feels like it might.

[spitinsideme]

what awakened your passion for big women ?

ever since i was a little girl i saw women older than me ajd id try to impress them by doing things like doing good in school (i was very dumb lots of teachers hated me but that made them give me more attention and that made me go yay !!! uf i suck they yell at me more and oay attention to me yippeee !!! ) and giving them drawings of things ... that attraction to okder women then developed into atttractoon to older AND bigger women because god i jsut mena .. fuck .. have you sen them ... i love my womej big .. tall .. wide .. like just BIG .. maybe it debeloped because i enjky weighted blankets and so the thoight of a big womab sitting on my face is hot ... or maybe because i want to hold them and grip their body and alsl .. show then love .. theres more skin fo4 me to kiss and bite and be all roamntic on .. aldo because im a lady who loves wpmen .. i mean really at this poinr ... who DOESNR love big women like actually .. i fucking love big women ..

[kansasjustgotgayer]

I had a dream about my childhood friend last night. You ever just have a hole in your life thats a cold heavy question. Like, are we too different now to ever be that close again? Could we understand each other? Will we meet again? It’s like having a rope tied on a bollard with other end stretching too far to see. And you could pull at it and see if its taught or it if it comes back, frayed and severed.

Anyway you ever wonder where your kid friends are these days?

[lizhly-writes]

what if i suddenly started writing more svsss rarepair. like i know i've been on an inexplicable sqh/yqy kick, but what else would be good. what would be nice to see.

to be honest, i'm starting to get curious. i think i have a decent grip on SOME version of sqh (does he align with the text? unclear!!!), mostly because 1) there's a very specific interpretation of him i have that i look for in fanfic, and uh 2) also some version of the way i talk seems works out for writing his pov. but other characters... i'm less sure about them.

that said, i still wonder if i can successfully smash some svsss characters together. like dolls. like the burning creator's need to play barbie.

[soggypotatoes]

god.. i have this Energy that causes people to open up to me real quick - i'm talking strangers on the street, people i've just met, etc. sometimes they'll be out here confessing their deepest secrets and traumas with no prompting. i dont even do anything, they just do it!!

i dont mind at all tho. i actually like it; i can handle a lot. it's just funny sometimes. i thought it was way more normal than it is. i joked with a coworker about random strangers trauma dumping while i'm surveying them and she was like 'that... has never happened to me, in the 8 years i've been doing this job'

reader... it had happened twice just that day lmao

and today this girl who's extremely peppy in class, speaks up a lot and often says how much she likes everything and how she's happy a lot and gets excited for everything

we've had like 2 interactions and today when we're both early to class she's dropping her pretense (like her face went completely flat) and telling me she hasn't felt an emotion in years and her dad controls every aspect of her life

like... lol??? i'm gonna be a great therapist probably

[arisveah]

its not all doom and gloom…

he regenerated early, and now he’s waiting for his friends to get out of the hospital/mechanics room/cadaver study???? its been a long day…

[quaranmine]

when ur like "eh, i'll worry about that after christmas!" about work stuff but then the passage of time comes for us all and it's now after christmas so you do very much need to worry about it. and are worrying about it. greatly

[flops]

how do i break up with my therapist

[fogwatersalt]

ahh i remember i used to reblog wildly different stuff like last year or something. maybe even a few months ago.. beginning of this year. sometimes i worry what i post here because im like ahhh oh no what will my followers think!! what if they dont like what i post… this isnt what they came for.. i need to stop caring about that

[hazerun3]

I just saw your post about the difference between passive and swan. I'd like to ask the difference between young swad and dream?

shittier doodle this time cuz Im getting tired but the ramblings are probably more unhinged

I dont have particularly strong feelings on dream so this is gonna be mostly younger swad and comparisons to dream when needed

-Views social interaction as inherently transactional and as a game that he can learn to play (he doesnt realise that in the village he was never going to be a player on equal ground, this is why after his ascension his persona is more deity ified rather than a king or smth like nm cuz he wants to be Above it all and in control.)

-Been obsessed with swan even as passives (His Duty to help people got drilled into him, the village feels entitled to his help and swad slowly grows tired of them, but his little brother is always kind to him and doing things for him feels so much more rewarding [tho eventually the village tries to stifle any attempts swad does to get something nice for his brother which frustrates swad so much and swan not asking for anything and just being happy to see him and trying so hard just to make swad happy, even as hes hurt fuels this.] so the mix of the sense of duty, him being the older brother so self imposing a sense of responsibility and swan being nice to him leads him to adopt a mentality where Swan is the only one whos special and actually cares about him not just what he can do for him, but with the way hes raised by the village he tries desperately to try and do something for swan in return cuz he still feels like hes failing in his part of the social bargain)

-Also the cult village placed sooooo much value on stuff like never being angry, always being happy :), youre not allowed to be mean, you Must be hardworking all the time, visibly showing that youre sad is Evil. And swad seethes constantly cuz no one in this fucking village follows that and the one person who embodies all these values the most is swan (who everyone still hates for reasons inexplicable to swad, who believes theres still a way to get swan out of his outcast status if the village just realises that swan is the kindest soul in this rotten place.)

-Dream maintains a more "child" status in the village even as hes older than when swad fights to "adult" status, seeing it as a way to get more social power cuz he picked up that Adults have more power than Children but lol not for him, he just gets to have more responsibilites, the expectation to cut off swan and no money OR gifts for his work cuz gifts are for children doing chores not working adults and since its both swads duty and the fact that he doesnt have anything to spend it on that wouldnt be spending it unwisely they just dont pay him at all! and also hes an object not an adult to them so rushing to try and be an adult backfired miserably

-Swad loves listening to swan read stories to him, reallly wants to be the Prince who saves the damsel and sets his enemies on fire and he projects that persona

-Both he and dream were taken hunting I think, but dream didnt take to it (he had a knack for archery but as soon as he was told to turn that arrow on an innocent bunny he couldnt do it, his more "child" status helps him get out of it) swad was also aprehensive at first but since he places a lot of importance in being the Older Brother and being responsible (also he wants to kill people) so he shoots the bunny, he feels bad and cries about it to swan but he cant let go of the feeling, the smell of blood, the idea of that being someone who hurt swan

-in my head he killed people already lol (used the hunting trips as cover but his hit list is soooooo long and he gets less and less opportunity...)

-he loves shiny things so much but being materialistic and greedy is one of the sins, swan cant get him anything but he does press little flower ornaments for his brother and so much flower jewlery so that swad can roleplay being a prince.

-he hates everyone soooooooo much <3

[sukioyakio]

LOSER!BOYFRIEND

Me and my pookie talking about things and then one thing leads to another😏

AND THEN LOSERBOYFRIEND THOUGHTS KEPT COMING THOUGH!

PARING: LOSERBOYFRIEND! Miguel x Reader

WARNING:May have smut content,but will be mostly FLUFF

SUMMARY: LoserBOYFRIEND!Miguel headcannons 💓

DID NOT PROREAD DID NOT EDITED

LOSERBOYFRIEND!miguel who works at an lego store because it was the only job his gym rat looking ass found,but he enjoy the job non the less,and plus he's the cashier meaning the front view of everything:)) (of course he love it,since he can get free Lego sets for him and for you)

LOSERBOYFRIEND!Miguel Who is Hardly more then happy to see you,come by his work job to say hi.Just your smile would make him down bad for you like you have no idea.But what makes him happy even more is That you come to give him some home made lunch.And then there he just got hard the tightness in his pants was unbearable,it felt like at any moment he was going to release his steman in his pants. He was lose in the thought of you being his wife and how he'll be abke to have that smile to wake up too.

LOSERBOYFRIEND!Miguel Who is hella nervous when you went over his house,especially in holiday days.My guy would sweat the most before you even arrive,he'll clean his house not once not twice but four times just to be prepare,he know he an absolute Loser,but he just want you to know that his trying and that even if he doesn't have the best of relationship advice (which is none 😅😢) HE WILL BE THERE!!!

LOSERBOYFREIND!Miguel who know after dating you for like 5 mouth,he will and know that he is gonna go inside your pretty little apartment,and knowing that makes him nervous.One because your smell it addicting to sent, and two it because he really never been at an girl apartment or stuff so he reallly doesnt know how to act.And so his cute loser ass search up "how to act when your in your girlfriend"s house" (HE IS SUCH AN TOTAL DORK AND dont tell me he would be all night researching about these things) and so when he finally got inside your house.

THis man is hard already,it like you put an drug on the air in your house.He was for sure that you could see his dick bulge through his pants.Already he has his flush out face and he barley inside your place.

"are you ok babe?" you asks sweetly,with your big doe eyes looking that him.The same eyes he has dreams about in dark hours of the night.

loserboyfreind!miguel nodded to your sweet question,As he hide his stuipd (big) little boner from you.He would get embrassed if you saw,and or so overthinks that you would leave him because of him thinking of you in an sexual way (My guy overthinks an lot but cant bring himself to tell you how he feels and really want to make himself feel like an good boyfreind even if he an total loser about it )

Walking around your place was like an new terrioty for him,he would particauly look and study each object in your room through the living room.

But when you took him to your room his dick got more stiffen in his pants and so he quickly ask where is the restroom to "use the bathroom",

WHERE HE IS AN TOTAL GREEK FOR VIDEO GAMES AND SCIENCE, but when you come into his life,he had no idea how to be a boyfriend.BRO WOULD HAVE AN NERD LOOK BUT would tried so hard to look presentable for you. 

CUZ YOU DESERVE IT,but he’s broke and work in an Lego store and so GET AN SET OF THE FLOWER AND Chocolate BOX LEGOS SET AND WOULD BUILT IT FOR YOU,and would be embarrassed TO SHOW HIS FACE when his shoving his gift to you,HAVING A BLUSHING FACE. 

GRUMBLING UNDERNEATH HIS mouth 

“I-ii- I know is not the b-best gift,but please accept it”he says while looking down with a shy expression and shoving it to you.

you wonder how an built gaint is an such an adorable loser.boyfriend You had an smile on your face. 

“Thank you for your gift” As you crane your neck and you were on tipped toes and gave him a kiss on the cheek. 

HE LOOKED SO HAPPY SO APPRECIATIVE,the second later he would have a nose bleed from your kiss.THIS MEN NEVER HAD PHYSICAL TOUCH. 

(That all I have 😭😭😭)

HAPPY VALENTINES 💝

[piccolos-bigtoe]

Two more days and I am home free baby, no more finals. OH YEAH, SMELL THAT AIR!!! COULDNT YOU JUST DRINK IT LIKE BOO— I really like drawing anime sniper, there’s something just, beautiful and reallly freeing, about drawing a 25 27 30 whatever year old man as an anime girl. When I’m free for the summer I’m gonna reanimate Tripe Baka with Sniper and idk two other characters.

CW Suggestive Stuffs Below

It’s meant to be silly and not serious, nothing extremo explicit, but I’ll still warn for it…. YAOI warning…. DONT like, DONT look!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think I’m a really funny person. I’ve been talking about yaoi too much though, I’m concerned my instagram followers think I am being genuine. I am not, I assure you it is purely satirical. I think I have read precisely one yaoi in my life, I was 15, and it was on the recommendation of a friend (also 15, until I started reading had no idea it was a yaoi until I got to the yaoi parts) uhm I am procrastinating writing two papers rn,, ough, whatever, okay I’ll do them…. They’re due tomorrow (due tomorrow means DO tomorrow amirite). I feel like everytime o post I am saying I am procrastinating something,, or am about to sleep…. I pulled an all-nighter last night to finish my calendar (which I will upload here, it’s just in a pdf file and I cannot be bothered to sort that out rn), and I was so sleepy weepy man, no okay I decided I’m not going to go on a long tangent goodbye I am going to do my work.

[regular-gnome]

HELLO I LOVE YOUR ART AND EVERYTHING YOU DO

btw ,we've seen your future collector,(love him btw)

but what about king ,what happened to that baby in the future ,

did he repopulate the titans ,did go on a bunch of cool magical adventures with collie ,

I NEED TO KNOW RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

Soo, King was fine for a while but there is few things

First I think Collie after WaD went back to archive, mostly because I refuse to belive owl family just left a literal child go alone in the void and isolate themseves and knowing Collector doesnt do well with lonlyness they went somewhere, the fact that we see everyone alright few years later during Luzs Kingcenera would mean it didnt go catastrophically bad

The archivists very much, do not like titans or want them around, especially after the whole war. The possiblity of it having been for nothing and letting titans just come back via King is not really a option they would let happen. Collie after learning implications of mortality and what reallly happend to other freinds wouldnt just let them take King so they struck a deal for his life. The archivists will leave him be as long as Collector ensures he is the last titan left in the demon realm. What basically means they dont want him to run into other realms or there being more titans down the line, as long as this is met King is free to have adventures and free to live his life, something that is a happy ending

The issue starts if King does have a kid. We know there is only one parent needed to have a kid so if left alone titans would bounce back thanks to King. So if that happens the deal is broken, King isnt the last titan left and the archivists come back killing. At least killing the young titan, and in the process parent who tried to protect it. That I do not belive would do well for their relationship with Collie who would split afterwards from them. What happens next depends on what will happen with the mortal realms they vist, maybe theyll try settle on diffrent worlds trying to prvent its extincions, maybe theyll establish own lonesome archive. Maybe they'll get fed up with inevitable extincions of worlds that theyll come back to their siblings on own terms. Older and more sticktly work related, with bearly any conversation outside as the overall goal to preserve worlds isnt a bad one, its their methods and approach. If they didnt just go 0 to 100 and kill titans they might have been a useful asset, as their magic deals with life and that would be priceless for worlds that do not do well

Sorry guys, I dont belive in happy endings

[andy-wm]

Aesthetic Emotions and the Catharsis of Tragedy

How I feel after watching Jimin's Production Diary - The Truth Untold.

Why do we feel so drawn to emotional outpouring of others?

Why does the suffering and pain of artists make 'meaningful' art'?

I'm going to tell you why I think Face is a Greek Tragedy and why, even though the album is a complete and perfect story, we still needed Letter.

You know how sometimes you just need a good cry? And afterwards you feel better, like a weight has lifted... that's catharsis.

Based on the philosophy of the ancient greek philosopers Aristotle and Plato, the catharsis offered by tragedy in art is good for your soul.

The tragedy I'm talking about is not like a natural disaster. Its not like an unfathomably sad real life situation such as war, or the failure of the referendum for The Voice to pass in Australia.

I'm talking about Tragedy as a literary and artistic genre.

Simply put, Tragedy as a genre is identified by pathos and passion. And the work must have a narrative structure - a beginning, a middle, and an end.

Pathos being the ability to identify with and pity a person going through hard times.

Passion referring to strong emotion (of any sort).

But how do we find the equivalent of that literary theory in work that's not a typical story? In a song, or in art?

In my opinion, we can see something similar in music if we combine literary theory and art theory. After all, what is a song but a story delivered with emotion through music, and experienced as art is?

There's a school of art theory called Aesthetic Emotionalism.

In a nutshell, this means that the VALUE of the artwork comes from the way it communicates or expresses emotion. Mood, colour, tone, language all contribute to the feelings we get when we experience that work, whether it's looking at a picture or listening to music. They help us pick up on the emotions the artist is conveying.

So what happens when you experience those emotions through art? What is catharsis?

The experience of tragic events in art, whether it's a heart-rending drama, or a beautiful sad song, or a dark and menacing painting, can give you access to emotions like fear, pity, and regret. Feeling those emotions through art lets you purge the heaviness of them from your mind and body, giving you a sense of relief. That's catharsis.

It seems counter-intuitive but ultimately the experience is uplifting. It's like having the benefits of a therapy session, but without having to face YOUR OWN demons.

Becuase of the narrative structure, and the resolution of conflict, there's always relief at the end of the story.

You feel cleansed of those strong emotions, reengergised and ready to go on. But you also feel a sense of calm understanding. The pathos part of the tragedy gives you insight into the suffering of the character in the story.

Think about the narrative structure of the album Face.

The album has a carefully planned narrative, and a sense of rising and falling energy with these songs that's strongly reminiscent of the structure of a Hero's Journey.

And think about the individual songs in terms of Aesthetic Emotionalism too ...how they convey emotions through tone, pace, language, colour etc.

I'm going to go ahead and say that the strength of the Aesthetic Emotionalism in these songs (and in BTS's music in general) is a major reason they have such impact even when you dont understand the lyrics.

Now let's combine them... look at the emotions conveyed in these songs and how the literary theory of a tragedy might apply to the album :

The first song is the slow and devastating Face Off, with its hypnotic rhythm and strange, discomforting sound effects. It reallly does transport us into a dreamlike/nightmare landscape. But the last few words of the song foreshadow that it's gonna be alright.

Then we have the surreal, melancholy Dive, drawing us further into this dystopian world. It also uses sound effects to make us feel like we are being pulled through time. Dive is reminiscent of a soundtrack from a video, but it's been separated from it's film reel, leaving the listener to guess and imagine the scenes unfolding. It feels like jimin has come untethered from his reality.

Like Crazy comes like rising action in a novel, and we get character development, a bit of plot information, and conflict. But the song itself is a viby dance track with a party atmosphere (if you don't look too closely) so we get a reprieve from the darkness of Face Off and Dive. Its hypnotic beat is enough to keep us locked in the surreal dreamlike world that's been built around us by the previous songs, and the lyrics echo that.

Alone takes us back down into the darkness of Jimin's state of mind, both lyrically and with its low tones and slow pace. We get the metronome, the marking of slow time.

Set Me Free has a totally different energy. Jimin's tone of of voice is much brighter, but hard and determined. Set Me Free isnt a request, it's a demand. The music is forceful. It's like a battle march. The story has reached its climax.

Returning to Like Crazy (English version) after Set Me Free, is like returning to a gentle refrain. Its so much softer and more plaintive than the demanding Set Me Free, echoing the earlier melody and words, but it hits sightly different in English. We are into the denouement of this story, the resolution has come.

But it's not the end.

It is not the end, because after a few minutes of silence, time to breathe, we get Letter.

Why is letter here?

Jimin could have released Letter on Weverse or Soundcloud or directly onto Spotify. But he chose to include it at the end of the album.

I feel this is so important, because the specific set of circumstances of this album means this Tragedy we've just experienced isn't entirely consistent with the literary genre.

FACE ticks all the boxes for a Tragedy in the literary sense, it has pathos and passion and narrative structure. If you were a casual listener and you got to the end of the album you would have a sense of catharsis, as intended. But there's a complication.

ARMY aren't casual listeners.

This is personal.

We know Park Jimin, the real person.

We know this isn't fiction. This shit is real. It was real for him when he wrote it and it's real for us now.

Achieving catharsis isn't that easy when it's personal. Not when the hurt is real.

That's why he gave us letter.

That's why he gave it ONLY TO US.

Letter is a soft sweet gift, a sentimental dedication full of reminiscences that only ARMY will understand. The melody is gentle, like a lullaby, and Jungkook's backup vocals are enough to make you weep, if you aren't weeping already.

(**I have a theory that jk either didn't know about letter or didn't know Jimin was going to ask him to sing. See this post for why)

Letter does exactly what it's meant to - it fills us with warmth. It makes us overflow with love. It's a soothing balm to heal our hearts.

And its everything we need in order to let go of those heavy feelings of fear and pity, of worry and sadness for Jimin that the album brought to the fore.

Jimin knew we would need more. That's why he he sent us letter, right at the very end.

"I'm sorry. Thank you," It says.

"Don't cry. It's gonna be alright."

[sahsahhh]

yeeah, this is a very cool way of thinking! it's kind of like... nihilism, but in a positive way? idk, i don't know a lot about existentialist philosophy, but anyways, it's a really deep but cute way to deal with life; to look at the world and acknowledge it won't change if you do something wrong, it takes some weight off your back, and it's crazy how m83 conveys it in songs!

oh it must be so cool to live in a place with these animals!! there aren't many of these where i live, but there are lots of birds, and i also love watching the birds just doing their thing, yk. as for an animal i'd like to see, i think itd be really interesting to see a capybara someday! from the pics ive seen they look so cute! like, they seem to be very chill, but so... efortlessly funny, i feel like i could watch them for hours!

thats a very good way to depict goblincore, and i love your collection! it's so neat! all of these feathers are so pretty, the sticks, the little glass jars, and the pines - im in love, really! all of these rocks are just awesome too! and the fossils (i think they're fossils? i can't recognize very well) are so cool! your collection is wonderful!

Who wants to explore an abandoned building with me in the silence of night and make crazy shadows on the graffitied walls with our flashlights and who wants to scream and howl at the stars with me or with the coyote pack that lives close by and who wants to befriend a prairie dog with me and who wants to

[snuffalufagus]

also im literally going into the capital for one day to really do one thing but im hving mad anxiety bc liie it's far it's like same distance kinda as uni i hv to go to the same bus terminal well i mean it's the only one but whatever i mean i hv nvr actually travelled to the capital on my own? i dont think so or myb i did once but it's like Literally the equiv of going to uni n once i reach i can find my way to the building which ive done multiple times so it's reallly the whole situation is nothing out of the ordinary for me except myb taking a bus ive nvr taken b4 but like god im feeling stressed from packing ny bag like ahhhh why is basic things so stressful