#and because i came to the realization that the world doesnt want me - has never wanted me - and that i was never supposed to be here

[the-gay-prometheus]

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[leychin]

𝐀𝐧𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠.

Could be seen as a continuation to All of It, but the idea came from @tenkomura, bc when am i ever not thinking about something she said

Maybe you hate your younger self for being so naive.

Perhaps its because you cling to the memories of before, when everything was so much simpler and All For One was commanding Shigaraki to act. When he messed up, or when you messed up, All For One simply caressed your heads in such a comforting way that the loss felt like nothing.

Oh, how you loved him. Everything was so much easier when it was him. Yes he was the future, yes you were the symbols of fear, but to you he was just Tomura. Its the silent understanding that you both had, that even though the entire world was against you and the cause it was okay because you were together.

He loved you, it didn't need to be said. Even when the league expanded, it was still just you and him. Not to say he doesnt care for the league, because that would be a lie. But the love he has for them pales in comparison to the love he holds for you in the crevices of his heart. Its heard in the blood pumping in his veins and its sung in the whispers of his calm breathing when he's with you.

But you're villains. Villains don't get an ounce of peace. So when the league has ended Overhaul's short lived reign, and everyone's stopped and caught their breath. You sit with him in silence on the side of a bare highway that you'd been walking.

Maybe its foolish, but you follow him like a dog. You watch as Shigaraki opens the case of quirk erasing bullets. He stares. Almost like he wants to test if it works.

You sit next to him, sat shoulder to shoulder now. He simply says "If I erased my quirk, we could be normal." And you don't need to be a genius to know what he means, he means if he didn't have decay he would have a home. If he didn't have decay he wouldn't be All for One's subject of interest, id he didn't have this damn quirk he could be normal with you.

Would there even be a you though?

"Hm, maybe." you supply "You wouldn't have met me though, and I would trade any chances of being normal if it meant i got to be with you." you say, and Shigaraki stills.

"I... I think I would too." he smiles, its a crackly smile that makes blood speck on his lips that you just want to kiss already.

"When this is all over, lets go on a date. Okay?" you ask, your eyes now gazing up at him with hope.

Shigaraki's eyes widen, and looks to the quirk erasing bullets and quickly shuts them. "You promise?" he asks almost eagerly, and you hold up your pinky "pinky swear!"

Oh you fools.

Which is what's left you to stare at Shigaraki's tube. His body floating in the liquid endlessly for whats felt like years, but you know its only been a month or two. You feel so naive for ever thinking it would just be over, because of course its never over.

He would be the new holder of all for one. Because fate stops for nothing and no one, not even love. You hate yourself for being naive enough to hope that you would ever get to love him peacefully. You hate him for not realizing when you did that All for One was using you both. You hate All for One for taking your lives away from you.

This would never be over, Shigaraki will never give pinky promise kisses again, and he'll never build redstone farms for you when you get too frustrated and rage quit. He's never going to reach out for you again, and you're going to spend the rest of your life reaching for someone who's never going to reach back.

You press your head to the glass and cry. The doctor is used to your sobs though ans has grown to ignoring them, which you suppose is a win. But it still doesn't soothe the ache in your chest as you wish for everything to be different, and you pray every night that this is a bad dream. You pray that this is a nightmare and that night Shigaraki did use that quirk erasing bullet. You pray for this to be a bad dream of his and he never developed decay.

Because you would never trade your life with Shigaraki for normalcy, but you love him too much to watch him do this. You wished he would trade you for normalcy because loving him through this and always is simply too much.

[yandere-romanticaa]

hi my love! is it ok if i can request any mtp character that has a darling that cannot speak english very well and has an accent? so when she gets kidnapped or when character acts like yandere towards her, she is confused because she doesnt really understand some of the english? but she tries her best to speak english haha<3

i’m sorry if it is hard to understand me, english isn’t my first language :< (like the darling above!! lol) please take care ana, i love you so much<3 and feel ok to ignore this, i just thought it wouldve been cute haha

The world had bowed to the United Kingdom. There was not a single corner of the globe in which the massive nation had not stepped foot in, trampling the lives of the innocent and forcing their customs onto the so-called "savages". Even if one was not from a colony, the effects of the nation could still be felt. Each little ripple could cause a massive tide, be it good or bad.

This is why you wanted to come to London.

Start fresh, seek out a new life. Oh, the thought of leaving your family terrified you to the core but the prospect of a better future was just far too good to pass up on.

London was a city of invention and hope, a place in which things were constantly in motion. Your English was abysmal at best, and the fact that you were foreign did not go unnoticed either. The highborn lords and ladies would look down from their carriages, as if they were the mighty gods who ruled over everything and anything that dared to take breath.

No matter. There was no time to worry about that.

Find work, get a roof over your head and some food in your belly. Those are the primary objectives. Make a fat paycheck and send some money back to family and loved ones, the thought of making their lives easier made your heart do backflips. With nothing but a single suitcase and almost no money, you were no better than prey in this den of wolves.

Fate was a fascinating mistress as none of the wolves had managed to sink their fangs into your supple flesh.

It was as if the stars themselves had gazed down at you and blessed you with a man so kind and gentle, a man who just so happened to be looking for someone who could clean his very expensive and lovely manor.

His name was Albert James Moriarty and on that very day, he had become your savior. He graciously offered his hand to you, his elegance shining brightly all over him like the sun as you stared at him in awe, wondering how you had managed to get so lucky so soon. In no time he gave you a uniform and informed you of your daily duties as best as he could. You had expected your lord to become impatient with you, to at least scoff under his breath for your inability to formulate a basic sentence, and yet that was never the case.

Lord Albert did his best to be patient with you, using hand gestures, facial expressions and sometimes even drawing out whatever his desires were or what needed to be done. He would mimic drinking tea with his hands, point to places that needed dusting and he made sure that you could at least understand basic greetings and farewells, just in case you needed them. When you had the spare time, he would have you sit down in his private office, the fire crackling behind you both as he handed you a book to read out loud. Albert would work on his papers as you clutch onto the book, eyebrows furrowed in concentration as you did your best to grasp the English language. In due time, you realized that he was giving you children's tales which were always filled with easy sentences, basic grammar and just a hint of whimsy.

There would always be a hint of a smile on his face as you read to him, as if he was pleased with your efforts.

The thought alone made you want to weep from joy. Preparing for the worst case scenario seemed to be absolutely unnecessary as Albert always had everything covered when it came to you and your needs.

Although, your lord did seem to act a bit odd at times.

That dashing green gaze of his would trail after you enter the room, his deep and soothing voice always lingering nearby as you dust the bookshelves, his accent only making him more appealing that he ought to be.

Falling for him was not an option. It just couldn't be. He was your boss - your lord - and surely a man like that would never cast his gaze to someone like you, right? His wandering eyes have been chalked up to figments of your imagination, the gentle mornings you would share with him were nothing but British customs you were yet to get used to.

Lord Albert was not a wolf.

He would never harm you.

And there was truth to that. You were one of the few people that Albert James Moriarty would never even think about laying a finger on.

As for the rest of high society...

That was a different tale to tell.

My darling, your English is lovely! If it makes you feel any better, English is also not my mother language as well! My apologies if this was too rushed, I just wanted to write something for Albert and you gave me the excuse to do so. Thank you for requesting and I hope you enjoyed it!

[capnkirk17]

STUPID DUMB GAY SUPERHERO AU

okay, its actually called the SOS/save our souls AU but i wanted your attention

the lore is awesome. trust me.

the king of hell (satan duh) has been sending demon recruits to manipulate and enter peoples dreams. the only reason hes doing this is to cause chaos. he calls it, the "ultimate sin". in this case it happened to pete (and has been happening all over the world)

in the dream he has, the demon recruit requests to make a deal with him. him and his friends souls, for "infinite power". and of course he takes it, thinking its just a stupid lucid dream and that this was just a part of it. maybe hed fly around for a while in the dream and then wake up later back to his normal life, but he couldnt be more wrong. after selling his (and the clubs) souls, they were given what was promised. but pete was additionally given a job. he's essentially just a grim reaper, his power being rotting peoples body from the inside (gnarly yuck ew). when pete realizes he really has these powers and the dream was the real deal, he immediately asks the club if theyve been feeling strange or having weird things happen. when they all say yes, he explains and they go basically insane,????? theyre all excited as hell but of course, terrified BECAUSE THEIR FUCKING SOULS ARE THE PROPERTY OF SATAN HIMSELF so yeah that kinda sucks major DICK. eventually they realize this has been happening to other people around the world of course. and villians begin popping up, as expected. bill obviously pops the idea of becoming superheroes, just like in the comics they all love so much. but of course he (and the club, but him mostly,) highly underestimates how tough it would be. the only way they can get their souls back is by doing enough of satans bidding. but by then, their souls would only be rotten once they finally complete their eternal "job". they dont know what they should do. after a very short while, the fighting wears them down, making them want to quit. they dont want to use their powers, they dont want to fight crime anymore. but they know they have to. it turns out that not a lot of people who agree to the Deals turn out to be very good or morally charged... so there arent very many heroes. jerry and josh are the first to suggest continuing fighting for as long as they have to. to josh, it seemed cool. to jerry, it was the right thing to do. all of this super-power bullshit has broken them out of their garbage incel shells, at least for the most part. bill is yet to escape his, though. he's highly hostile, and doesn't care how many innocents he has to hurt to kill the enemy/enemies. he acts like its just part of the job, even though he knows it doesnt have to be. for the most part, if not every time, his killings are accidents. he tells himself its only part of the job to soothe the guilt. of course, he'd never tell anyone about this though.

pete is expected to kill as many people as possible, these expectations obviously being given to him by his annoying, hellish boss. he doesnt really.. listen.. though?? in fact he USUALLY tries to save people. or.. moreso just... avoid killing them when aiming his literal fucking death rays.

josh is very shitty at controlling his power. in his first few fights, he's flamed at least 100 people to DEATH with his hands. he's crushed a few walls, too. one of his powers is fat/muscle conversion, where, obviously, his body fat converts to muscle. and he. he is a fat fuck. so you can tell this power turns out well for him... sort of. i may or may not have stolen this from allmight, but when activating his muscle power, it harms him a little bit. like holding in your own body. it fucks with his organs a little. his hellish flame power came with a nice set of horns that retract when he de-activates it. although, his horns sort of go through his head??? like... from the inside of his cranium. growing THROUGH the front part of his brain, but not enough so to kill him. he just gets real stupid. de-activating his muscle power regenerates him though, so he's normal for the most part once he goes back to being a "normal teenager".

now.. jerry. jerry is a little worried about how powerful he and his friends have become, and how much they could destroy if they tried. with their combination of powers, they could do whatever they want, really. he doesn't like that. he doesn't like the responsibility. he doesn't like having to remind his friends that this is real life and not a game. although, he definitely isn't perfect here. he's ruined homes and killed people just like the rest of the club. all of them have done terrible things, whether or not they were accidental. he feels guilty just like the rest of them, but he's quicker to admit it. they play it cool, or.. as cool as they can get. which.. isnt very.

hiding their identities is pretty easy. jerry buys fabrics and latex shit from michaels (the store..) and makes/repairs their costumes. he layers them VERY well with tough material to make sure they dont...rip off. yuck, nobody wants to see that. sure, maybe if they were adults and werent ugly as shit, but... you know.

their powers have mostly been explained, so i have no need for extra explanation. most of their powers are generic, other than pete and joshes.

i was gonna call petes grim reaper power "necromania" because i thought it sounded cool. then i googled it to make sure it wasnt bad. very glad i made sure. jesus christ. he probably has that too though. unfortunately.

jerry uses his telekinesis to build and craft things for them. and if he cant craft it, he just finds a place to steal it. telekinesis makes it easy, you know.

with the help of the others, he actually built a "headquarters". very fun and stupid. but sort of needed. no more normal club meetings for them.

most of them wish they could go back to their incel lives, but we know how they wouldve ended up if they stayed normal. maybe getting a different ending will be a benefit of gaining powers instead of something to dread.

and um. Yes. i will be including my self insert for fun. Shut up

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theirs only one thing i want you to add about your AU and that's making Capsaicin Cookie the son of Burning Spice Cookie i imagine when Burning Spice Cookie was looking for a new home perfect location to start a new kingdom he came across a potential spark with so much brilliance that it is at risk of burning everything around it including the spark itself so with gentle hands and fragments of Burning Spice dough he brought Capsaicin Cookie into the world...the creation of Capsaicin Cookie was phenomenon to Burning Spice Cookie he has raised civilizations many times but Capsaicin Cookie is the first Cookie he created (i don't know how Cookie baby's are mad sue me) without realizing Capsaicin Cookie has became Burning Spice Cookie greatest treasure.

sorry for such a late respond i JUST noticed this :(

i really like how you wrote it! i liked the way you portrayed their story, but guys. i have something to share with you. itll be a tiny bit offtopic tho. sadly, i do not like the idea of capsaicin being related to burning spice. at all😭 not only in the context of my au, but like in general. it just doesnt click to me. i TRIED to force myself into liking this concept, but it doesnt make any sence to me

they never existed in the same timeline or even on the same continent and literally the only thing that 'ties' them together is spicy flavor and some design details. i was never a fan of headcanoning two completely storywise unrelated characters as family just because they have some design similarities

+ i am a huge indian mythology nerd since childhood and i love seeing all the references and meanings and with the fact of burning spice being shiva capsaicin just doesnt fit in with those references and meanings (im not saying that it HAS to fit in but i personally prefer if it does)

i really doubt that my view ever will ever change so... capsaicin will not be a part of my au in any way im sorryyyy at least not in MY head, you can twist it however you want who am i to say no to your creativity? :D you dont need my approval to have fun with my designs, so if you want to make capsaicin his son then do! you can make your own swap au too and itd be so worth it bc your idea is still cool and it can make a whole completely different unique plot too, you can make whatever you want, an endless playground of possibilities to explore

once again, i enjoy seeing people having fun and bring all the cool ideas, drawings and writing into the fandom! go on pop off!!!

[sentience-if]

#i'm a bit surprised no one's been upset at val

oh i can talk about how mine for sure is

Val leaving Io made my MC feel so hurt, especially since she also doesn't like the Religious and didn't want to come here but made to anyway. she doesnt see why he could not have ran out with her hand in his. as a result, once she found him and got say her accusatory "You left me", she left. and she wanted to Val to follow her or stop her or something, but Val didn't (for justified reasons, i wouldnt have stopped Io in Val's place either)

i think something between them has been broken now, likely irreversibly. she might grow to like him again and even have some trust, eventually, but i think Val has been labeled as "would leave you" forever in her mind. i dont think she'd trust Val with her life anymore. i think anytime Val might joke "Have I steered you wrong before?" that there will be a sour, accusatory silence. my Io went from "shame there's no Connie-Val poly in addition to the Klaus-Val poly, because i camt imagine her ever NOT loving Val" into, "well, it's a good thing theres a Klaus-solo route and also that Connie's route never had an option to be poly with Val, bc idk if Val can get Io to that point of love again"

which i do wonder if that makes my Io especially vulnerable, in the sense that someone else can now step into Val's "place" and be a lot less good-intentioned about it. bc my Io had been nigh co-dependent, had been "I don't exist without Val", and now something has just shattered where my Io has now very rapidly developed abandonment issues

and the realization that Val does know where Io came from in the sense of the ending revealing Val saw who Io was before Io's current form?? that is not helping. that is making things actively worse. that is now "oh. so you didnt tell me, so you kept me at arm's length in a way i didnt see that you were, because you were scared of me. you didnt take me with you because you were scared of me. like all the stuff in-between where i was Becoming A Human Being didnt matter, even when i didnt remember what i used to be, because you DID remember. and you kept it from me. because you were scared of me." in a very.......... uhhhhhhhh

have you ever seen Fruits Basket?? im internally comparing Val to Kyo's mom. that's how my Io sees Val now, basically. albeit Val is less extreme than Kyo's mom, obviously

if youve never seen Fruits Basket, this is a spoiler, for sure, but it would also give context(?). Fruits Basket has a scene where Kyo can turn into this monstrous creature anytime he takes off this bracelet. and his mom was ashamed that he could do that, that he could transform like that, but she didnt want him to know that (but he did) so she kept saying stuff like "You're so adorable, I have to keep you all to myself" and "It's okay. It'll all be okay because I love you. That's why I don't want anyone else to see you, to look at you. Nobody look at my son, he's all mine. You're just so cute. I can't help it" and "I'm so proud to have you as my son" while also never letting him go outside or be around others, and even said "No, honey, you're as human as anyone else. You turn into the form sometimes because of evil magic. Not because there's anything wrong with you. You turn back to normal soon after, right? That proves you aren't a monster. It's okay, I promise, I'm not scared at all" and he would think back in recollection and go "Liar. You were scared, weren't you? That's why you checked dozens of times a day to make sure my bracelet was still on". she used love to be in denial of what was happening. eventually, the denial and unspoken shame and self-silenced fear and whatnot became so bad, she "unalived herself". and Kyo's dad blamed Kyo for that (like a dickhead) while also saying "She loved you. Your mother loved you more than anything else in the world". Kyo would come to say (to himself, to the memories of this) "Stop it! Stop it, you're wrong! Don't force that kind of 'love' on me, I don't need it, I don't!". and when he remembered that his mom would say "Sweetheart, I love you. I would die for you, you know that, right?" his internal response to that memory was "Why did you always say stuff like that? How can you love someone when you never acknowledge who they really are?"

now, years later, this gets further addressed via Tohru. as Kyo meets this girl named Tohru, and has a real connection with her but is hesitant about getting closer even though they already are close. because Tohru doesnt know about Kyo's monstrous form. his mother's death impacts his need to keep Tohru in the dark, but other people know Kyo's secret form and force him to reveal it to Tohru without her havung any idea of what is happening and without his consent. he runs away, and Tohru ends up following him. he tries to push her away, even causing her shoulder to bleed because of his claws, and she does initially walk away before realizing, if Kyo didn't come back with her, she'd probably never see or hear from him again; and then turning around and hugging his arm as he thrashes around for her to let go and run already. she begs him "Let's go home, please! We have to go home, right now!" to which he replies "No! Just go away!" and she says "No!" back and he yells "Don't you get it?!" and she says "No, I don't!". she continues, "I'm scared. Even though I know that's your voice, it doesn't sound like you. You're in a form I've never seen before. It scares me. But scared or not, I want to understand. If you need to talk, I'll listen. If you need to be selfish, I'll let you. I want to help you, the way you've helped me. If you're feeling hurt or scared or weak, tell me. I want you to tell me so I can face it with you. Because I want us to keep living together. I want to eat with you, study with you, worry with you. I just want to stay with you, Kyo." to which Kyo replied, transformed back to his human self again, in a mix of words to Tohru and internal monolog "The thing is, if she didn't love all of me, my mom, that would've been fine. Or, even if she were scared, I would get that. Because being scared would've meant she was looking at the ugly part of me. But she never did. My mom used 'love' as a way of avoiding seeing the truth, to avoid even thinking about it. But, I wanted her to understand. I just wanted her to say 'We'd face it together', I just wanted her to say she wanted to stay. Even back then, I knew it was stupid. A kid's dream that would never come true. Because who would ever say something like that to me? That's what I thought, until... Tohru." and he goes back home with Tohru to face everyone again, and keeps Tohru a close part of his life

so, my Io sees Val now as more of a Kyo's mom than she does a Tohru. obviously Val isn't AS BAD as Kyo's mom, vut i think you see my point?? and so now my Io is looking for "her Tohru", so to speak, albeit not conciously. and she no longer sees Val capable of being that. so her love for Val can only go as far as, well, as far as Val can, really. it doesn't bridge the gap between them. no matter how badly Val might insist their own love can bridge it (but it isn't, maybe it can't) or how much Val wishes my Io's love could bridge it (but it won't. it used to. but now she's too scared of being abandoned again after getting her hopes up). and so my Io's every route has Io and Val being "almost"-in a relationship, as close to being in love as two people refusing to label it can be, before this effectively ends the romantic side of their relationship. i guess that means Val is her situationship? that feels weird to put on Val, but yeah. and maybe Val can turn this into a "second chance romance" and "be her Tohru" and bridge the gap, in the sense that idk how you plan to progress and am not a mind-reader and therefore cannot say "never again" because "never say never" and whatnot

but yeah. that's where my Io is right now. very upset and feeling very unlovable. and maybe Connie or Klaus can fix that (i do also love Kat and Ira, but i dont think my Io does, so im currently not playing either's route but maybe that'll change! thatd be nice!!) or maybe Val can fix it. but not right away

but yeah!! cant wait to see how the story goes. im in shock at how damaged my Io and Val's relationship is, how my Io is basically scared of Val and sees them as.... "a flake" feels inaccurate but that kind of same "dont buy into Val's promises so much, you'll only get disappointed. Val means well. but Val still left me behind when push came to shove, Val still omitted all this from me" of self-restraint. she feels very much like a kid who got her hopes up only to be let down, kind of like a kid with a deadbeat dad who promised Disneyland but he never shows up to take her and instead he stays at the bar(?) but not quite. but does that make sense?? not angry, not resentful, just feeling very stupid

but, yeah, add another tally in the "Ios who are upset with Val" box for me lol

ohoho the ANGST the DRAMA this is good food thank you. I've seen parts of Fruits Basket in that I had a roommate that watched it a lot but yeah I can definitely see the parallels

Val will get a chance to fix it but I think I'm definitely going to have to write a route where Io does not forgive them. And for an Io who turns to Connie or Klaus instead- that would sting Val so much, in equal but opposite ways. It's probably a very good thing that Klaus wouldn't want to hurt Val because you're right, it would be really easy to take advantage of Io's emotions right now, and I wouldn't put it past him

oh and as to your second ask re: not gendering Val- genuinely don't worry about it haha. I just use they/them for Val (and Connie) in asks because i don't want one to seem more canon than the others. I don't mind if readers pick one

[autisticayano]

yandere simulator redesign osana najimi

just like my ayano redesign i wanted to make an osana one cause i actually like her despite not liking the "tsundere" trope

once again bly me cause yk mouse and im sick and i was squinting dead hard at the screen doing this

i also have never actually drawn osana before this (literally i have only drawn ayano duh, taro, and kokona and saki once)

same uniform concept from the ayano one,, once again i think this uniform is super cutesy,,

you might see difference in bow placement but thats because its lower and the first button is yk unbuttoned due to the feeling of restriction i think osana would feel

she has braces :D

(notice how osana's line art is more messy and thinner because her feelings, while clear, are messy because taro doesnt get the message and her temper seems to lose itself quicker...yeah...)

also! in this i think that osana and raibaru have matching accessories duh but they wear each others color for the bows cause i just think thats cute!!

rewrite concept

in this i think that osana has ocd - her symptoms showing especially when she was younger. it was harder for osana to make friends because of this as she seemed "too disruptive" or "too angry" or "too much" of a person regardless if she acted on her compulsions in order to relieve herself from unwanted thoughts or if she stayed silent and resisted - she was outcasted to a small scale and stayed a loner.

however, one day in elementary school (3rd grade) a boy, who announced his was taro, came near her and started to talk to her. osana was surprised but continued to talk with him excitedly,, later that day they decided to walk home together and lo and behold they were practically neighbors!! the following days, osana was scared that taro would leave her especially after seeing how "weird" she was being over small acts but it never seemed bothered taro. from those days they became close friends and at one point each other's best friend. taro was one of the first people to understand osana and not judge her. the second was hanako - taro's sister.

taro introduced osana to hanako when osana was invited over for a sleepover. (one of many sleepovers) hanako didn't like osana at first (hanako didnt like a lot of people at first) because she was new and foreign to hanako. however, the first sight shyness disappeared when she saw osana's hair (imagine like mid-back length) and was "WOAH!! your hair is super pretty!!!" and bam. hanako, like taro, wasn't bothered by osana's compulsive acts. in fact none of the yamada family minded it. it made osana feel really happy.

taro and osana would follow the same routine from 3rd (4th for taro) grade to junior high, only difference is the switches in school. they have been the same school since then. when osana had to choose which highschool she wanted to attend taro mentioned it be really cool if they attended akademi together...akademi was the ONLY school that osana applied to because of that. when osana got her acceptance letter, both osana's family and taro's went out together for dinner. that night was the first time she consciously thought "i wouldn't spending the rest of our lives together." and that was the very first time her whole world flipped upside down.

osana was so scared she would lose taro once she began to realize she liked him. it terrified her so much that she actually started to push him away herself by becoming irritated and angry at him and whatnot. taro was, admittingly, confused by the change in demeanor, but still stuck by osana's side.

in osana's first year of akademi. she became friends with raibaru. similar to taro, raibaru noticed osana's subtle attempts to hide her compulsive acts but raibaru didn't mind, in fact raibaru followed osana when she needed to walk through the corridors five times to feel relief. she wanted to become osana's friend and they did. they clicked faster than anyone else. they became best friends actually. at the end of the 1st year they had matching accessories and bows and even some clothes.

osana still feels bad about being irritated at taro but she cant really help, she terrified and not even just terrified of rejection - she's terrified that her first real friend would hate her if she admitted her feelings.

notes:

osana is 5'1

she's 17 in the present

she wakes up at 5 am exactly every single day.

osana kept her hair long for taro like in canon but it was also stayed long because she felt like she might cut off too much to be "seen as pretty" impulsively. (she's still super pretty)

she and taro do NOT get to together in these concepts which might as well be my own au/rewrite of yansim. in the future, she does admit that she had liked taro but it's after everything and she already moved on by this point.

bisexual beam hit her

osana has three friends out of akademi from junior high that she still talks to but they all split up to different schools and one of them actually moved out of japan

she and kyuji did get together. they do not last. kyuji liked her because she reminded him of magical girl miyuki and as soon as osana didnt hide her compulsion and when she cut her hair, a lot of his feelings for her vanished. they broke up before the year ended

osana ends up with raibaru but not in highschool. in their adulthood they get together.

taro and osana grew distant but they still keep in contact. they just arent as close as they used to be. hanako and osana still talk quite a bit tho!

[cal-writes]

Thank you for drawing and making a visual aid for my ask! It helped a ton 🫶

If I could trouble you, does the whole immortality thing change Zoro? I'm just so HOOKED onto this au you have made and it's taking over my brain (in a good way)

Excluding personality changes, I'm thinking, what replaces his bones? His blood? Matter? Or does it just appear out of nowhere?

Immortality has always been a puzzle to me. Cuz I'm wondering how blood, bone, tissue, organs, etc. appear out of nowhere and it fits EXACTLY for the person that is immortal.

My point is, does Zoro change physically because of the whole immortality thing?Or is Zoro the same as he always is because immortality locked his body in that state?

I'll be happy with any answer! Thank you again for answering my ask 🫂

ahh im so happy people enjoy the au so much!!! its very gratifying <3

immortality is a fascinating concept and there are a lot of ways to go about it - funnily enough i do actually get a little bit into it in chapter 3 of the current part so have a little teaser

"Why not shave your head or something?" Law murmurs, holding the gauze against Zoro's head. "To make yourself look different." He bites himself off as he becomes aware of his coffee breath. "It grows back in a few hours." Zoro replies, matching his volume. Law frowns. "And the scar will still look the same. So, not really going to help with that." Law huffs, fighting with the sticky tape. "Beginning to sound less like you're immortal and more like you're stuck in the state you were in when this happened." He says, turning his head away when he speaks this time. It takes Zoro's sharp breath to realize what he said. "Don't think the distinction matters much." Zoro replies neutrally. "Are you done?"

it doesnt help that the ope ope no mi is so... vague? in its skillset like. it can technically change the rules of the universe within a certain area. like law can switch up people and objects, change air pressue to stop sound etc its so weird and quirky and then we just have randomly "oh you can make people immortal i guess??"

i thought a lot about how that works exactly and how it manifests so in general i think that the "surgery" changed the laws of nature around zoros body.

basically first getting him into a "fixed" state aka healthy and uninjured and then keeping him there. the power to do that came from laws own life energy and the ope ope no mi - which is why it never resurfaced after laws death. but that energy is finite and zoro wasnt exactly careful so the more injured he gets the more energy is spend on keeping him in that state.

im still undecided if i want to go that route or if i will even get into it much but i was thinking that this could be why the other devil fruits started disappearing. basically the ope ope no mi siphoning the other fruits energy to fuel itself. if zoro eats or like rests - replenishing his own energy sources - that would probably be enough to keep it going but esp in the time after the morning battle and during the nika wars he wasnt exactly doing that (and also the revolutionary army was happy to take advantage of an immortal soldier who wanted to die and as such could get send on all kinds of suicide missions)

nowadays in the modern day zoros life is a lot more mundane and hes given up on trying to end his own life so the amount of energy required to keep him in his state is dramatically less

(devil fruits might start appearing once hes mortal again now that'd be a chaos on the world lol)

zoros biology would be fascinating to examine probably. like down to cell devision - it just wouldnt be happening. i dont know enough about medicine to say what other consequences that might bring but i have thought a lot about how turning mortal again will affect zoro

i think about @zombolouge's text for that a lot

okay wow that was a long ask but yeah! those are my thoughts

[cauqhtz]

Luffy & Zoro thoughts

so I saw a post about how if Luffy asked zoro to kill one of the straw hats Zoro would do it. (Oda confirmed)

The majority of the comments were all like oh yeah Zoro would, but he also knows Luffy would never ask him to do such a thing, at least without a good reason or if he wasn't in his right mind.

This was also my first thought as well, but then I thought about it more. I mean I really thought about it…and that's not even remotely true.

Now, I don't doubt Zoro killing one of the straw hats if Luffy told him to, but it's the "he knows Luffy would never ask him to" That's the part I dont agree with.

That's just not true at all, because Zoro is one of the few besides Robin that doesn't try to make sense of Luffy or how he thinks.

But let's say for the sake of this argument that. That is true and Zoro knows that Luffy would never ask him to do it...That doesn't negate the fact that Zoro would still kill a straw hat if Luffy said so. So I guess that part of situation really doesn't matter. Zoro will do what Luffy asks of him either way.

Why?

Because Luffy is not the type of person/captain to give DIRECT orders in the first place. Have you realized that?

I can count on one hand how many times Luffy has given a direct order in general, but we're going to focus on Zoro for right now.

Albasta. When Luffy told Zoro to save Smoker. "Zoro. Quick! You have to save Smokey!"

Ennies Lobby. When Luffy told Zoro to cut the sea train carts in half. "Okay, Zoro. Cut them."

In Alabasta when Luffy told Zoro to save Smoker. Zoro protested not understanding why Luffy would want to save the enemy. Not caring about the fact that Smoker was a devil fruit user and would've died without his help. He expressed how much he didn't want to do it, but he did it anyways.

Ignoring Sanji when he picked at him for saving Smoker, but when Smoker came to and questioned Zoro on why he saved his life?

Zoro's reasoning was. "I was just following my captain's orders. It was just another one of his crazy whims. Pay it no mind."

I think this was when Zoro really started to not question Luffy. Deciding it'd be a lot easier on every one if he just went with it rather than trying to make sense of his captain.

Not just that but Zoro is his own man. He doesnt follow Luffy blindly. It's just that the majority of the time. Luffy and Zoro are on the same wavelength mentally. They're cut from the same cloth. Though, Luffy is more of a wild card. He does what he wants, when he wants, wherever the hell he wants to. Where as Zoro is a lot more put together and thought out. Luffy is pure instinct and feeling driven.

I dont think you guys realize that Zoro would've killed the lot of them excluding Luffy a long time ago. Especially Nami, Robin, and Franky. When he found out they betrayed Luffy.

Zoro has made it very clear that there is NOTHING that he is not prepared to do. BUT he always leaves decisions like these up to Luffy and Luffy never gives Zoro an answer. He always says "I want to find out for myself. I want them to tell me this to my face."

As for Luffy?

I do believe there is a possibility of Luffy asking Zoro to kill a straw hat.

Because it's like I said earlier. Luffy is completely instinct driven. He does what he wants, when he wants, wherever he wants.

Luffy woke up one day and decided to become the king of the pirates and come to find out thats only a requirement of his real dream.

So what the hell is stopping him from waking up one day and deciding you know what? I want you all dead.

The only ones I feel like Luffy wouldn't kill is obviously Zoro, Robin, and Chopper. And maybe Jinbei. And MAYBE brook since he's been wanting a musician since day one.

But the rest of them? DEAD.

What's stopping him from changing his definition of freedom and wiping the world of one-piece CLEAN?

Especially since Zoro would still follow him?

Get real. Everyone would be cooked. Those two have always been a dangerous duo even before their awakening and haki. They'd be unstoppable now of all times.

Well... That's my thoughts on the matter anyways..

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wanna kiss you, but if I do I might miss you, babe by @blorbocedes | T | 2k Nico has the perfect life - beautiful wife, beloved children. He also still has Lewis. These two don't go together but he ignores that as best he can. This is a such a perfect look inside the head of a cheater who knows what he's doing is wrong, yet manages to hide the fact even from himself.

When Nico woke up, he had the dull headache of a slight hangover; the previous night crystal clear – the transgressions of his marriage. Nico breathed, imagining the tearstained apology to his Vivi – a lapse in judgment, and turned to tell Lewis they could never do this again, the excuses of being drunk, lonely, convenient. The space beside his bed is empty, Lewis gone already with no traces of himself left behind. Well, that's one awkward conversation made redundant. It's too cliche to commit infidelity in your marriage and try to overcompensate with lavish gifts, so instead Nico came home with presents for his daughters as always, and made love to his wife, twice. He went down on her for an hour – affirming to himself that Monza was a one off mistake, and making her feel desired, and how grateful Nico was for her, for everything they have built together.

Always The Same Smile by @effervescentdragon | M | 2k Written for the prompt "wag!nico (2016 WDC and retired) and world champion husband vegan dog dad lewis hamilton.... give me established relationship... give me functioning power couple." This author's Nico characterisation is always so on point, and I love how she captures the complexity of the Brocedes dynamic. They get a deserved and fitting happy ending in this one, and I loved it so much!

They didn't want to see the way Lewis' face lit up whenever he saw Nico, or the way Roscoe ran towards Nico immediately (because he knew who was responsible for feeding him more often than not), or the way Nico always praised Lewis when he was invited to commentate and still never held back in his commentary, or the newest tattoo across Lewis' heart, or the way neither of them was ever linked to any random love interests, or the way their vacation pictures came from the same place, or the way Nico still somehow knew the grid gossip he had no way of knowing (and used it whenever he saw fit), or the way the causes they supported were very much aligned.

nsfw: hall pass by @like-pilot-lights | E | 7.3k Wifeguy!Nico gets to have his cake and eat it too (aka Nicos wife is okay with sharing him). As a part of the Nico Rosberg support squad I love a fic that lets him have it all and doesnt portray him as a miserable man that let the love of his life slip through his fingers. The Nico in this fic is in a loving relationship with Vivian who also happens to realize that he has always been a bit in love with Lewis and sets about making sure they get their heads out of their asses.

“Shouldn’t there be, uh, rules?” He says into her hair, as she kisses his neck. She pulls back and regards him, amused and wary. “What do you mean?” He can tell from her face that she knows exactly what he means. “Viv.” “We can have rules, if you like.” She lowers her head and nips his earlobe with her teeth. “Use a condom, for one.” Nico tries not to think about his wife thinking about any activity between him and Lewis that requires a condom and fails, feeling himself getting hard just at the thought. He nods, letting her tongue trace over the curve of his ear. “Anything else?” “Well, just do – whatever you did before.” Whatever they did before . Without meaning to, he snorts a gentle laugh at the thought. “What’s so funny?” she mutters into his ear, slipping a hand down his side. Nico has abandoned any pretence now, is quite sure that his wife is actually kind of enjoying this. He tests the theory. “Well, I’m not sure a blowjob in the Mercedes garage is possible this week.” He holds his breath. It’s the first time he’s actually admitted it out loud, rather than just meekly nodding at his wife’s assumptions. She might, he thinks, storm out right now, horrified at the truth of it. Instead, she lets out a moan and shifts in his lap.

beep, beep, beep by @witchee_writer | T | 10k After a major crash, Lewis finds ways to recover - and finds solace in his old teammate, Nico. I loved this fic because even though it started off heavy, it got so much lighter and had so many cute, fluffy moments! I love angst with a happy ending!

Lewis hadn't seen his life flash before his eyes when he crashed. If he had though, if his life had flashed before his eyes in all of it's technicolor brilliance, he knew what he would have seen. Not championship wins, not living the high life, but hot days on the beach in Greece. Nico's bare back to his chest, Lewis running a hand through his hair as they dreamed big, dreamed of what they could (and would) do together. He would see all of their good times, and maybe some of the bad too.

nsfw: Roseberg's Vs Haminkton by @jean----ralphio | E | 16.3k Nico the florist is madly in love with Lewis the tattooist. Everyone knows this except for Nico. I enjoyed this fic because the love/hate vibes are immaculate. Lewis lives rent-free in Nico's head, to Lewis's slightly fond bemusement and the entertainment of a stellar supporting cast of other drivers.

“I want to get something for Lando. What is seductive?” Carlos blinks at him, then eyes the freesia display. “Who the fuck is Lando?” Nico mutters, before he gestures over to the camellias. “Those represent desire, but that’s all bullshit.” “He needs to know I’m trying to seduce him,” Carlos insists. “I don’t know, man!” Nico groans, rubbing his eyes. “A cactus? They’re kind of phallic?”

nsfw: kellogg's frosties & video games by @georgerussells | E | 58k It's 2021, and contract negotiations for the 2022 season for Mercedes are being decided. It turns out, a familiar face decides to take the seat next to his former rival and teammate : Nico Rosberg is Lewis Hamilton's new teammate. Angst with a happy ending is the love of my life! This is one of my favorite brocedes fics of all time and is a must-read for sure!

There are more flashes of champagne. Flashes of Nico’s smile, of them having pizza in some cheap Italian restaurant at the beach. Eating Kellogg’s Frosties right from the box in the morning, sitting on the kitchen counter, their legs dangling down, thighs touching, them making plans for the day. Nico’s laugh. // There is a touch, they spin and then they’re both in the gravel. Lewis is fuming and he gets out of his car, the Spanish sun burning down on them. He’s ready to yell, the anger hot and white in him, pooling in his stomach. They don’t talk for the rest of the day, the coldness between them a stark contrast to the hot anger from before.

[isumugui]

sae rlly js wanted rin to not rely on him for his sole motivation to play football as that doesnt really get you to be the best. so by giving rin sort of a reality check (if u can call it that) it provided rin a new inspiration to be the best - by beating his brother n vengeance basically.

rin's playstyle is rlly quite similar to sae's when not awakened and i think it's because after sae left for spain, he took over as like the highschool team captain (replacement for sae basically lol) n by doing what sae did - midfielder, controlling the field, and playing for the team. that had never developed rin's ego as his own but just as a watered down sae for the team. so when sae came back n saw that rin was following in his footsteps rather than finding what kind of player he was himself so yeah... he got a lil agitated lol.

i think the reason why sae had said "as long as ur hung up on being my brother, you'll never surpass me." (smth like that) was because he wanted rin to be unique, to succeed because of his own plays and be known as itoshi rin. he saw rin's talent from very early on n that's why he had told rin that "rin, you're incredible. play football with me" because he knew rin could achieve far in life. for the entire time that rin has played football, he's played it with sae. so when sae left, rin had a hard time actually playing football. it's like when u play videogames n u have a duo u play w frequently, when they get off the game n ur forced to play solo (especially in team games) it's hard to navigate the game w/o them as all the others in the team js can't comprehend the things u do n why u would do them. but your duo did n helped enable u to do those things + another example is when u have fun w ur duo in the game n then they hop off, suddenly the game is much more boring. (sry for the metaphor ish thing but i kinda wanted to compare it to real life events)

rin found football, without sae to help him with it, almost suffocating in a sense that he wasn't able to be enable to hit shots n score goals comfortably. so instead of developing the ego of a striker in which he play independently, he decided to become the captain that leads the team to score the victory goal rather than the star player who scores the victory goal. the highschool football team also kinda enabled it since y'know... they're side characters. after sae got like reality checked HARD in spain and came back, he had completely changed his dream n unbeknownst to rin, decided to pursue a dream of becoming a midfielder rather than a striker.

i think in the little argument they had, what rlly ticked sae off was when rin said "i'm the younger brother of the world's best striker!" it's also kinda evident in the manga as well because his eyes widened a bit. i also think this is when sae realized that rin was following in his footsteps rather then finding his own path. sae had also said in the convo "so i'll be a midfielder n you'll reach the top as a striker." sae wanted rin to pursue his own dream n reach the top through his own ambitions rather than rely on him for it. he didnt want rin to just be 'itoshi sae's younger brother second best in the world to him', he wanted 'itoshi rin, best in the world.' i also think the 1v1 he did w rin rlly just confirmed his suspicions abt rin following in his footsteps. 1v1's in a sense require more skill rather than just brain n good passes. it doesn't require teamwork. i think that shows to sae that rin hadn't evolved as a striker who plays for himself as he can't even beat sae (a midfielder) in a 1v1. - sorry if i do not know what i'm saying btw.

i also think this is why sae worked well w shidou in the u20 match because shidou was an embodiment of a striker (excluding barou lol) he had a n ego n if he did ever pass, it was for his own self benefit to score. talking abt u20, rin's flow thingy. isagi mentions it n it's kinda ironic but rin n sae's flow states r completely different. polar opposites even. i think that shows how much rin had restricted himself from being a striker when sae left as he was hung up on being second best. in the u20 match, when sae like... trash talks (idk how to call it) rin again, that's what really enabled rin to go into flow state. and i also kinda lost my flow so i dont know what i'm saying anymore.... :3. i actually think rin was ROBBED in u20 but like it's whatever now. still though, even if rin didn't score, sae was proud of him. it's evident on his face but he knew that rin still needed time to develop this new ego of his so like he decided to... say isagi was good (dick move btw hubby like srsly give rin a break). but i think it's what rin needed bc he's popping off rn in the pxg match n his ego seems more developed!!!!!!!!! also the fact that sae had went directly to rin right after the match ended (shidou doesnt count >:( cuz shidou went up to sae) plusssssss forgot to mention, rin actually held his own in the second 1v1 against sae so yeah, i think that also shows to sae that rin improved (and i like to think he would've liked to say that)

all in all, this was a rant from ur's truly bc i had finished all my work and i had nothing to do except think about my 2 pretty boys :p + agree with the post anon gave me :)



[lux1fer]

oopsies i forgot to show you guys the finished product of this yeah a few weeks ago the rp actually finished completely. im really happy with how this animatic came out and id definitely be willing to finish it. itd definitely take me a year at the least though this rp means the world to me. im gonna be emotional for a second sorry folks but like i havent had this much fun in a roleplay since my old warrior cat rp days- even then they were never as good as this one was. none gave me this much whimsy a thank you to @interncontinental for hosting this amazing rp. you're awesome /gen anyways, timestamps below ! this is gonna be. another wall of text.Again. so cw for text wall if ur prone to seizures caused by text. ive tried spacing the text out to help but it's probably still pretty bad, so forewarning !

0:00 ink and error (alongside many others) are trapped in this safehouse(the multiverse outside it is collapsing) which. as the name depicts. keeps them safe the safehouse has a dome surrounding it that's miles thick with concrete, metal, all that 0:13 error REALLY does not like being trapped here, so he tried breaking through the walls with his blasters 0:26 ink attempts to convince him not to (as it is against the rules to break the walls) but error doesn't listen. they have a big fight and error ends up breaking the dome's outer layer- which is what essentially lights up the entire place, and gives the illusion they're on earth. 0:51 he, alongside ink, are sent to a dungeon as punishment. (they end up making a friend there) and they use the owner of the dome's aunt to bribe him into letting everyone out. 1:17 error and the owner end up having a private discussion, in which error realizes the owner- the guy he DESPISED, was exactly like him. they both killed multiverses. they both killed people for fun. 1:22 he ends up having a fight with his own morals, before deciding he'd change for the better. 1:29 error frees the owner's aunt in exchange for the freedom of the people locked in the dungeon with him. 1:42 while he's walking out of the dungeon, he apologizes to ink for everything he's done 1:45 error walks back to his room and cries. 1:48 ink ends up pushing a chocolate bar with a note on it through the crook at the bottom of error's door the note says he forgives him. error cries again because of it. 1:51 ink and error end up hugging

1:52 eventually, ink realizes that he's run out of his lil emotion vials due to the corruption of the multiverse, which is an issue ! 1:59 due to ink's rapidly decaying health, error decides to give up half of his soul to save the guy from going kaput! this causes even more issues 2:04 nightmare- who had come to the safehouse, decides to mess with error's mind. he convinces him to get back into his old habits, under the pretense that he's weak and pathetic otherwise. error believes this. (also nightmare was redesigned by a friend of mine- her name is al! she doesnt have tumblr i dont believe though so raghh i cant ping her) 2:17 in what can only be described as a mental breakdown, error attempts to take back the half of his soul he gave to ink 2:30 error hesitates- he doesn't truly want to hurt ink, though he's not too sure why. 2:36 (its not on screen cus i couldn't fit it) error decides to capture and attempt to kill pj and gradient (who are here too!) instead, but this backfires as ink was no longer captured. ink knocks him out with his brush. 2:42 the corruption, which had been kept safely outside of the safehouse, has crept in due to corrupted individuals entering the dome. this forces everyone to escape through a previously blocked up exit the owner had built. 2:44 huge timeskip- essentially, the place they had found to live in after fleeing caught on fire, forcing everyone to run away Again! 2:46 in the new new place they had escaped to, the corruption Also arrived! the location was a cloud castle that floated above an ocean. which was quickly corrupting. the castle collapses, and floods with corrupted water. this scene needs a LOT of context-- the bandaged character by the name of blaze (owned by @teyvawni by the way go check out his stuff) arrived to the safehouse a while ago, with his brother following suit. said brother was corrupted. fresh, paperjam, and gradient were nearby when they arrived, and upon seeing the corrupted individual, fresh decided to commit Murder! this obviously upsets blaze, and he ends up killing both fresh AND pj and gradient- pj and gradient's death being present here. ink is watching 2:47 hinto, who is one of, if not the only friend error made in this roleplay ends up getting brutally murdered. this scene depicts him dying in error's embrace (you will see these two a lot whenever i draw this rp. i love them so much) 2:49 after the cloud castle collapses, they escape to what is essentially just error's void except everything is fluffy everyone present was given a choice- the universe was resetting, as the corruption had completely taken over Everything. including universes seperate from utau. you either stay awake for the 3 trillion years it took to completely reset the entire universe, or you sleep. considering error's friend was now a ghost and he didnt want to waste this time sleeping without spending time with his best friend, he chooses to stay awake for the entire 3 trillion years. 2:51 after those 3 trillion years, error is reasonably Exhausted. everyone else is exploring this new place they arrived in, while he is simply sitting in the corner and observing. he can only really stand speaking with hinto as he watches everyone else bicker and do whatever. 2:52 after error Brutally murders the person who killed hinto (this is not included in the animatic), error, ink, and dream are speaking to eachother in a nearby bamboo forest. nightmare interrupts and attacks ink with dust tagging along. big fight occurs, error and ink are mortally wounded, and are probably hashtag Screwed! 2:56 in a last ditch effort to save the people he cares about, error decides to sacrifice the half of his soul still left to save ink from dying.

soo Yeah! thats it! if this gets like. 20 notes im gunna make a comic based off of this. this isnt to incentivize people to like or reblog (Though that would be pretty swag of you ,, flutters my eyelashes) i just want an excuse :3 ill probably do it either way. eventually

[year2000electronics]

Is 1 your favorite of the danganronpas? my personal favorite is 2 but I'm always interested to hear about other people's fav parts of all three main games

YES. IT IS. and the thing about that is that i got into dr around abooout... 2015 i wanna say? so like. 7th grade. little too young to get into an m rated game, granted, but you cant snitch on me because that version of myself doesnt exist anymore so ha ha. anyways

(full answer under cut. things got long again!)

i discovered dr1 because i used to find all my music through looking at MEPs (multi editor projects) and realized a lot of cool ones were labelled with this thing called "danganronpa" and the clips i saw in them just like. gripped me. there was something about them i couldnt look away from.

it was the executions, specifically celeste's, that i just couldn't stop rewinding to. this imagery of this very thick, stylized, almost paper-craft style of this MASSIVE stage literally unfolding to life around this person. it was SPECTACLE. something designed JUST FOR YOU. a DEATH TRAP designed just for you. that always stuck with me. and so, y'know, i decided to check it out, and obviously i start with dr1.

the ENG translation was out at this time but the LP i watched used the fan translation patch so i learned all their names japanese-style lol. but anyways. i fell in LOVE. hard. now, obviously the series has its problems, id argue its more famous for its problems these days than its achievements, but i think the general aesthetic and concept of DR still really grip me. to this day. the almost surreal, dreamlike environment of the school- neon-lit halls, days that start to bleed together, what is clearly a massive area devoid of any life, with rooms you've never seen before in a school, your classmates in the halls in that charming paper-2d style... it all lended itself to the murder mystery parts very well. the dreamlike parts extending to the executions, which were so... THEY WERE SO. i wouldn't call them RIDICULOUS. or IMPOSSIBLE. but they were OSTENTATIOUS. yet dark. and that really stuck with me, y'know? this emotional whiplash of dragging a confession out of someone, wanting to make them pay for what they did to your classmate, but at the same time, hearing them cry their hearts out, because their hand was forced, and then, having to see them die in the most undignified way- all as one big performance, one big joke with them as the grisly punchline.

and the characters only added to that for me. i was intrigued by kyoko's secrets, felt bad for sayaka and leon, and oh god don't even get me STARTED on taka and mondo. not knowing anything about dr, my jaw DROPPED when ch 3 started and taka just... didn't bounce back. i wasn't expecting it at all. and i watched, hungry for information, for the truth, as the illusion of normalcy slowly fell apart for the group- but so too did the killing game as the group slowly breaks the formula apart until monokuma's forced to dump an old corpse back into play to get makoto and kyoko out of his way. and then the reveal that THEY *WERE* ALL FRIENDS ALL ALONG, AND THESE STRANGERS HAD BEEN KILLING THEIR BEST FRIENDS THE ENTIRE TIME... THE APOCALYPSE REVEAL, THE FACT THAT THE CLASS TEARING EACH OTHER APART IS THEM DIRECTLY DISMANTLING THE LAST HOPE SOCIETY HAD, SEALING THE ULTIMATES IN THERE... ooooh. OOOH. the allure may be long gone, as this is now common knowledge, but in that moment, i FELT it. i felt like my entire world had been turned upside down with that knowledge.

and i came out of that like "WOW, THAT WAS REALLY COOL!! DANGANRONPA FANDOM WHAT DO YOU THINK?!" and the danganronpa fandom was like "its 2015, everyone is talking about sdr2 now." and i was like "oh." and i lowkey started getting a little resentful of dr2 for taking up all of dr1's attention. my little childbrain decided right then and there it was Overrated. and this kinda uninterested-ness i haven't really managed to shake off, ngl, even though i know it's specifically cos of those childhood feelings of mine.

i do enjoy sdr2 quite a lot these days! i think it has fun mysteries, the cast is nice, hajime is probably an upgrade from makoto NGL, but, like, nostalgia bias gets in the way. y'know? for my own emotions haha. BUT. i will say. i think it's smart the team didn't go with a confined space twice in a row, but the fact that the game is out on a big big island, even if it's deserted, that kinda did take away from one of my favourite aspects of the game- the claustrophobia. and there's also a lot of other aspects i LOVED about dr1 that kinda couldn't be recreated with sdr2, and i'm alright with that. i don't think it really makes dr1 the "superior" game. i think sdr2's clearly shown it's more beloved for a reason just based off public perception. but it's a matter of personal preference for me!

also the 2010-era grunginess of dr1 charms me more

so i guess, tl:dr childhood nostalgia bias, environment/aesthetic choices that couldn't carry over to the next game because it would be stale, and Him.

[calmingthoughtsinyourhead]

Not to rip off the plot of avatar (like i usually do) but i’d love to see Aziraphel do a hero-vilain-redemption-ark in the next seasons

Like after Aziraphale returns to heaven, it all starts with good intentions and him trying to make the difference he wanted

He makes a vow to himself that once he has done enough, he’ll reach out to Crowly

Let the demon know he made the right decision.

that is was worth it (was it?)

Only it isn’t exactly what he had expected

Only in order to make the world a better place, sometimes that means making tough decisions

At least that’s what Metatron tells him

Maybe sometimes the greater good asks for a few sacrifices?

(What was that quote again about the path to hell being paved with… ah never mind)

Aziraphale feels weird about it

like really weird

But every time he’s about to run back to earth (back to Crowly), the Matatron talks him out of it

It's a bit strange how good he is at that

But Aziraphale can't focus on that, lately everything's been a bit... blurry

“Don’t give up now Aziraphale, we’re the good guys”

And we notice (subtly, but more visibly as we go on) that the angel is slowly turning into someone we do not recognize

Up to a point where the Metatron doesnt have to coax him into doing the dirty work anymore

So that’s when the Metatron announces to him and the other angels in heaven that God is dead

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God is dead

As in gone

God. Is. Dead

Aziraphale doesn’t even blink when he hears the news

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God is dead

But Armageddon will take place

Because they will finish what She started

It takes a while before hell responds

(It’s one thing to hate and rebel against Her. It’s another thing to hear the person who created you is dead.)

But as expected hell does NOT like this news

More importantly, most of heaven does not like the news either

sure, everyone wanted the apocalypse at one point

but not like this

Not with Her gone

Not with the archangels acting like they don’t even care

Not with the strange, uncanny power radiating of the Metatron when he speaks

The unthinkable happens: the angels leave

almost all of them do

And for the first time since the world started, angels and demons are on the same side again

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Crowly isn’t even in hell by the time the first refugee angels arrive.

He’s already on his way to heaven

Because this isn’t just a lover’s quarrel anymore. Earth is in danger

Much more importantly: his angel is in danger

he finds Aziraphale already waiting for him at heaven’s entrance when he breaks in

“Crowly.” He tjirps (he looks so happy and if that doesn’t just rip him in two), “what a lovely surprise”

Crowly has to blink himself back to consciousness when he sees him again.

No time for this. No time to remember what it was like when they ware almost “us.” No time for taking in the feeling if Aziraphale smiling at him like he’s the only one who matters.

He doesn’t even notice that something is just so off about his angel

The way he stands, the way he talks, the way he breathes

“We have to go. It’s all going up in flames, angel.”

“What are you talking about Crowly, i’m perfectly content here.”

“Are you insane! Did you not hear what they are trying to do”

“Ah. I see. They told me you’d say that.”

Crowly only now starts to realize what exactly he’s looking at.

“Aziraphale”, he speaks slowly “your eyes are glowing.”

“Another great bonus that came with my promotion, thank you Crowly.”

“They’re glowing red”

“I don’t see why that’s relevant.”

Azirapha-“

Then his eyes fall on the sword in the angel’s hands.

It’s no longer burning, but he recognizes it nontheless

“Why do you have that with you.” He asks, but it’s not really a question.

And before he knows it, Aziraphale has thrown him across the brightly lit, white hall of heaven (which is pretty far)

So now his face is all bloody and his hands are trembling (just great)

And Aziraphale is standing over him, raising the sword like he had done so many years ago

“I’m so happy you’re here, dear boy. Don’t worry, It doesn’t have to end with this thing. It’s just insurance so you cannot tempt me again. It’s all going the way He said it would.”

“Who the fuck issssss He?”

“Our true God.”

“Go fuck yoursssssself.”

Aziraphale laughs, like the demon is just being silly and it sounds like his old self so much it hurts. “Oh, Come off it Crowly. Just come with me. We can fix all of this mess together.”

Crowly feels nauseous. “Why don’t you just use that thing for it’s intended purpose and get it over with.”

Suddenly Aziraphale looks confused (heartbroken?) “Crowly, what are you doing?”

Crowly just raises his chin defiantly.

“Don’t- don’t make me do this. It’s not supposed to happen like this, I don’t want to hurt you. Can’t you see that his is your last chance at redemption. Do you not understand that? We’re the good guys.”

“Issss that why half of you jumped sssssship” he growls.

Aziraphale’s eyebrows draw together “It’s-it’s okay, my dear, you are finally going to see the light like I did.”

He raises the sword higher.

He gasps

And then he drops it again

“What on earth am I doi-

The bentley bursts straight through heaven’s gates, hitting Aziraphale head on.

Crowly escapes

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Maybe its the concussion

Maybe it’s the thought of what he had almost done to Crowly

But slowly the angel’s eyes turn back to brown when he wakes up

“Cro-Crowly? Oh no. No no no, hell- for heaven- what have I done. What have I DONE.”

He tries to stop the Metatron

He really does

But with the loss of his red eyes also comes the loss of his new powers.

the Metatron beats him easily

His new God is not happy

And for a second it looks like this is where it’s going to end for him.

“Aziraphale.” The Metatron hisses, slamming him down on heaven’s holy ground (it cracks open beneath his skull in the shape of a hallo). “Snap out of it.”

The angel struggles to break free. He has to escape, he has to warn earth about what the Matatron is planning.

(He has to save Crowly)

“That demon has corrupted you,” The Metatron growls. “that’s what they do. He wants you to rebel against what’s right.”

And Aziraphale suddenly smiles

“You know what happens to angels who rebel against god?”

They fall

Aziraphale sinks out of the Metatron’s grip and through the floor

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Aziraphale, now part of the war against the Metatron, meets up with Beelzebub in hell (I think she and Gabriel would return to save earth). Where the other angels are already waiting for him.

It takes a bit for the other side to trust him

But the angel’s now black wings are a pretty dead giveaway about whose side he’s on

And with the former right hand of the Metatron on their side, they might actually have a chance.

Beëlzebub shows him to one of the offices, he already recognizes it.

“He’s in there?” The angel asks

“Yes”, beelzebub says

He hesitates.

“You know, he had the chance to rid himself of you many times since you arrived here

“he’d never try to hurt me.” Aziraphale mumbles “but demons… they’re not that quick to forgive”

“No, but when we do it, it means something. Can you say the same thing?”

Aziraphale swallows. “Does he know? That I’m here I mean”

“Of course he does. He follows all the updates on you.”

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He walks in

he doesn’t recognize Crowly immediately

The demon has got his back turned towards him

He sees a pair of white wings

And it’s only then that he realizes who he’s looking at

“Crowly?” He croaks

The demon doesnt respond

“I- fuck- I don’t even know where to start. I’m- I’m so sor-I was so stupid, and they trick- but i still - I hurt you and I’m sorry, I’m so sor-, and and and I can never ask for your forgiveness. I just need you to -fuck, I’m so sorry, I just need you to know how sorry I am, and-“

And he feels it.

A wave of love.

The opposite of “this place feels spooky”.

Someone loves him so so so much.

slowly Crowly turns around

His eyes are still golden, like when they first met

“Do the apology dance”

[anachronistic-falsehood]

EPISODE 13 TRIVIA:

- it starts off with charlie going "usually i would do an intro here but instead im just going to scream. HOLY FUCKING SHIT WHAT THE *HELL* WAS THAT MAN" so thats the energy we're dealing with here

- a chorus of "FUCK MAL. FUCK MAL. I HATE HIM. IM GONNA SHOOT HIM WITH A GUN."

- charlie talking through the thought process of why he accepted the offer: "my first thought was to get out of the room and smash the bottle. nat 1 happens. okay switching gears theres no way out. he sees dakota and vyncent saying no and thinks 'okay a hero wouldnt do that.' then he turns back around and sees tide torn apart behind mal and has this horrible realization that we just did a chore for him to make him more powerful. so william thoight about it logically and thought 'i already hate these powers, im gonna take this so that mal doesnt get stronger. if i dont have this, someone worse is going to take it. even if i never use it i cant take the risk to let him have it'"

- when vyncent said "you disgust me william" charlie said it took everything in his power not to respond with "yeah me too" hey what if i cried

- bizly revealed that mal wouldn't have taken the power for himself. it was a test. if william didn't take it he wouldve offered it to vyncent (if vyncent accepted it, he wouldve gotten the samurai class :) )

- condi DID NOT expect this aspect of vyncents backstory to come up so early! "he loves dakota and william theyre his best friends but this is compared to his *family*. his *mom*"

- bizly had charlie compile a list of potential powers he would want to get from the spirit world and thats where the smoke thing came from (another one on this list is blood bending. like from atla. hello??????? another one is "ghost frogs" and he does not remember wtf that means. apparently charlie "just because i put them on the list doesnt necessarily mean i want them, i was just trying to think of thematically creepy things" )

- "im not going to use the smoke powers unless some real character development happens. william is already so ashamed of his own powers and now he just has this immense guilt on top of that. he literally only took it because he couldnt stand the thought of mal using it instead. AND THEN BIZLY TOLD ME HE WASNT GOING TO DO THAT and vyncent would have gotten a cool class so now all ive done is inflict pain and suffering" hi :)

- the dc for the strength check against vyncent getting grabbed by mal at the end was purposefully impossible to pass (it was like. 25 or something. vyncent only has a +2 to strength )

IF CHARLIE HAD SAID "yeah me too" WHEN VYNCENT SAID "you disgust me" I WOULD HAVE LOST IT I THINK. WIWI MY TRAGIC LITTLE GUY. MY DUDE

VYNCENT COULD HAVE GOTTEN A SAMURAI CLASS??? THATS SO COOL OH MAN but wiwi has smoke powers now :3 i hope he uses them more in the next season i wanna see more of wiwi and his powers :3

that strength check purposely being impossible to pass. that's so cool actually it kind of feels like mal is so powerful even the narrative is working for him. fuck mal all my homies hate mal <3

[funsize-cenobites]

Someday I'll get all my thoughts straight in my head about Mihawk and Perona and how much I love them and write out a whole post about it.

Its just difficult. Because I do love Mihawk as a second father figure to her and there are really good reasons for this imo. (Also a person can have multiple parental influences in their life?? Some of y'all act like it has to mimic the nuclear family or else and its so wild to me ESPECIALLY in One Piece where they're pirates and the very concept of nakama and strange/queer family/friend dynamics are literally the focal point but whatever.) But I also just really love thinking of their friendship?? Obviously she looks to him as a parental figure but she also is an adult albeit a young one so theres a lot of potential I think people miss out on for them.

Like how she can get away with a lot and she knows it. And how her being around is really good for him not just because hes lonely but also because hes inevitably forced to reckon with the fact he cares about her and then has to listen to her and give a damn about someone else's comfort and well-being. I love thinking of him even joking with her more often than she realizes at first until she learns to read him better and finds out hes actually fucking hilarious. And vice versa him being a little shocked and impressed to hear her absolutely RIP into someone verbally on his behalf because they might've made an off handed comment and she didn't know he could hear her.

Other dumb disorganized thoughts are:

- Perona calls him all manner of nicknames that he ALLEGEDLY hates like, 'Mi, Mi chan, Mimi, etc' and he continues to call her 'Ghost Girl' though in a progressively more and more fond manner.

- Perona helps get him back out into the world a bit. Drags him off on shopping trips and 'Holidays' that he usually rolls his eyes at and asks why she shows up unannounced all the time. Only to have her demand, "Take meeeeeeeeeee, pleeeeease?? Ive never been and you're never busy! It'll be fun!" And the worst part is that it is fun. He has fun because of her antics.

- They unironically wind up with a lot of the same hobbies. Because I refuse to believe Mihawk doesnt do a lot of his own sewing and embroidery and during the time skip boredom would set in to which he would guesture to the various things and informative books stashed away like, go wild. Figure it out.

- Perona likes gardening. She still whines but its performative. I feel like it was something he did to help her train her physical body to help her strengthen herself. Because I doubt he would train Zoro and let her get away with absolutely fuck all especially when he started to care. She can't always rely on her powers, especially how 'weak' (to him at the time) they were and expect to be okay. Its why she too came out of the time skip more capable and confident.

Anyway, not the post I want to make but at least I can exorcize some of the demons in my head. These two are constantly up there all the time.