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There's been an incident on Terror.
#the terror#the terror amc#james fitzjames#stephen stanley#my gifs#my posts#the later part of this scene is giffed a lot#and I'm gonna also do it because of course I will#but this really early part I don't see much#and fitzjames' expressions are so interesting here#body language too#he looks so stressed and tired#but also relieved to be back on erebus#and around people he obviously trusts#it's interesting too that when he sees it isn't just stanley#but also goodsir and morfin there#he lowers his voice maybe a tiny bit but#it's obvious everyone could still hear him#and he doesn't seem to really care#also I think it's interesting that he went to see stanley#instead of dundy?#I mean I guess he could've spoken to him too but#it sure seems like he went straight from outside to the medbay#it's reading into crumbs and going HM INTERESTING#but whatever#that's what we're all about here in this fandom
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When I say I really want a Jason adopts tim fic, I don't mean I want him to become a parent at 19 to a teen like 2-4 years younger than him, I want Jason to meet Tim and decide that he wants Tim on his side.
I want Jason to adopt Tim as his Robin, like he decides that he wants to recruit this 15 year old that is some how the smartest and snarkiest person in Gotham. I don't want infantilised tim, I want a sorta Nani and Lilo sibling dynamic, but with a smaller age gap.
Like sure, Jason sees his little brother as some sort of soggy kitten that he must protect, but also a Tim that is very capable of looking after himself.
I want Tim to look at Jason, see Bruce back when he first donned the Cape and traffic light colours. And then in true Tim fashion decide to fix him, B was being too over protective since Red Hood showed up anyways.
Like imagine, Jason meeting Tim instead by accident when he drops in on a drug trade. Tim says some quip that throws him off his game while fighting. Jason basically losing to a very deadly fifteen year old who's not slept in 29 hours, and he thinks 'f it, I like the kid'. Then trying to recruit him consistently until Tim goes 'why tf not'.
I want enemies to caretaker, but they both think they're the caretaker
#could also add an appearance of JJ#for angst#cuz we love angst#basically#i want to utilise Tims unconfortable feels around people putting him first#and Jason's inability to see Bruce as a person who can learn from his mistakes and be a semi decent parent#and then let it somehow force a brothers buddy comedy#also#lets face it#tim isnt like totally with the no killing rule he just lives by it so he can monitor batman#also defo tim having to sit down jason and ask him to trust that tim wont just suddenly break#basically we need tim to work through his issues of deciding to be a emotional support child#and jason needs to work through his abandonment issues#obviously this idea needs work#but like#its funny#batman#bruce wayne#jason todd#red hood#dick grayson#nightwing#batfam#clark kent#tim drake#batman and robin#robin#red robin
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Tbh i am not surprised that a person who openly talked about having drinking problems since 1d days, because of how crazy 1d worked has been agressive. What surprises me is people being surprised (they never seriously saw drunk person?). But i am also confused about this whole book. Apparently Maya said that that book is not fully bout Liam but compilation about her exes and some of the worst parts are not about him. But recently she said that the book is “ofc about him” so what is true then? Or did she meant it that ofc some parts are about him or that whole book is about him?
Sorry, just confused
I also am not surprised- we've learned so much more about the real stories of things and about the guys' actual lives over the last years, and the story that has unfolded around Liam has been totally consistent throughout if you've been following it, and so the information Maya is telling us is shocking and upsetting but not difficult to believe. I got an anon yesterday saying they were worried about getting similar revelations about the other boys, like "if Liam could be doing this we just don't know, any of them could", and while in a way that's always true I guess, anyone could be doing anything in private like... that doesn't really concern me. Because none of these Liam revelations are coming out of nowhere, there have been many MANY steps along the way leading us here if you've been watching, and he has talked openly about both his mental health struggles and his addiction issues. So to answer that anon... to find out something similar about Louis would in contrast contradict everything we know about him and no I'm not worried about it. Is he probably very irritating, absolutely, but an abuser or a loose cannon, well that news would shock me. But anyway as for the book I don't find it strange that she was nervous when it came out and treading lightly and later decided, fuck it. In the absolutely on point tiktok she dropped today (YES👏GIRL👏FUCKING TELL THEM👏) she even mentions attempts to keep her from publishing the book, presumably by Liam's team, that I am riveted by and cannot WAIT to hear more details about actually- like I said I don't find it at all strange that she was nervous and downplayed it a bit then. But if she says now that it's just about Liam, well, I would say it's been clear from the beginning that the book is their story. Maya herself brought up the parallel of songs being written about stuff and I think it's the same thing; it's true (she was in an abusive relationship that involved certain kinds of events) but maybe not 100% literal (I'm sure details were changed to make the story work, it's not like a word for word timeline of their interactions or whatever).
#maya henry#blah blah blah#re the tiktok also lmaoooo are people really saying she wants money her family IS RICH like RICH RICH#but hot damn the part about enabling UH HUH !!!!!#yep yep yep#in terms of the other guys and what would shock me... well obviously we know Zayn has also had a history of agression#and we know WAY too much about him being pushy about sex lol#I would not be shocked to hear he crossed a line... but think he's probably just a bit of a fuckboy#I absolutely do not trust Niall behind closed doors but the songs we have about him seem to tell a pretty consistent story;#self absorbed but basically harmless#harry... who tf knows what he is like outside of being with Louis but I would be shocked to hear of him being aggressive yeah#I have a lot of issues with him but taking advantage of people or being pushy are not even on the radar#and as for Louis... like I said yeah it WOULD shock me. I don't just love him because he has a nice face!#it's BECAUSE of the ways we do know him and know what he's like. because of his tenderness and care#and his consistent kindness and love#and his openness about his private side#so yeah- it would shock the hell out of me it really would#but then I think that anon also was worried about eleanor spiling smth about their relationship so we are not coming from the same place#my kneejerk response was I'm sure he paid her on time what else are you worried about lol#although out of everyone if someone was going to say he lashed out at them I suppose it would be her#it was probably one of the most difficult and frought relationships in his life#and one that he did not want#so! but still no it doesn't worry me#tbh there was one thing in mayas video today that did surprise me which was the premeditation#Liam actually planning using the fans against people and sneaking around doing stuff#I guess even believing everythign I had chosen to paint a picture in my mind of someone who was still#basically unaware of the wrong they were doing and more flailing than plotting#and that shakes me a little. and makes me very unhappy to hear#liam discourse
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hi! i always love your MDZS/CQL takes; can i ask what are the questions you think CQL is asking, as compared to MDZS?
I haven't actually revisited either canon in ages, which is making me nervous. what questions the novel is interested in can be pretty contentious all on its own! @mikkeneko has an excellent answer in the notes here which I reccomend to everyone. My own thoughts are honestly pretty scattered- I keep on deleting things and going hm, that's not quite right.
So, for the obvious-to-me example, people reasonably zero in on the creation of innocent doctors/radish farmers who Wen Ruohan is holding hostage. In CQL it's easy to infer that Wen Qing and Wen Ning are maybe the only cultivators and almost certainly the only combatants among the Wen remnants, and their status is much more ambiguous in the novel, which I personally think is asking, essentially, "and so what? were they wrong to run, when they had a chance? Do they deserve what Jin Guangshan will do to them if they go back? Aren't they just people, actually?" Whereas the question that CQL is asking is more to the effect of "What does Wen Qing owe these people, when she is their only defence? What is she entitled to do to save them, at other people's expense? If she fucks up that moral calculus, what then? Does it matter if she's personally fond of some of the outsiders who are going to get hurt? If one of them saved her brother? Later, this question will flip to what Wei Wuxian and Jiang Cheng, and the parallel to Jiang Cheng's situation in particular is, I think, genuinely pretty fun. You're giving up the Wen as soldiers who've laid down their arms in exchange for Wen Qing also grappling with leadership and the question of how many horrors she can stand to look the other way on to protect her own people. one reason I keep deleting so much is that a lot cql's changes were motivated at least in part by censorship, which I think we mostly share a general and justified distaste for! but I also think that within the bounds of that censorship the creative team put a lot of work into actually doing something interesting with those changes. Or, for another example- nieyao! There's a much greater emphasis on the nmj-jgy relationship, it's unambiguously very close and they are clearly extremely important to one another, and I think that's because the cql team has a lot to say about love, trust, power, and the ways those things interact, and that reflects back on all of the other relationships in play, including Wangxian. Almost every time, when CQL chooses change a relationship they make the characters in question closer- that's true for Jiang Cheng and Lan Wangji, for Wen Qing and the Yunmeng contingent, for Zixuan and Mianmian, and Huaisang and Meng Yao. It's even true for Lan Wangji and Wei Wuxian, who have a close and trusting relationship in first life! CQL puts a much greater emphasis on "all right, so you care, what next?" How do you choose someone and then choose to be good to them? What if there's a massive power disparity between you? What if you seriously disagree about your priorities and morals? How do you trust someone who's betrayed you? When is it a stupid choice to trust at all? How do you have faith that you know someone well enough for that trust to be meaningful?
for legal reasons i would like to specify that it's not that mdzs isn't interested in these problems. i do remember wangxian's literal trust fall. cql is asking these questions all the time about everyone. also for legal purposes i'm not suggesting that cql lwj and jc love each other. but! they establish a three month wartime partnership looking for wwx and then jc immediately drops him on wwx's say-so despite apparently having a positive enough opinion of him to tell wwx he thinks they should make up twice. lan wangji will later tell wwx he thinks he should loop jc in on the second flautist! these are people trying to navigate some kind of relationship/shared interest/community, as opposed to a hateful void. cql wants to say hey, how do you go about this? while I'm here and rambling cql also puts a lot of emphasis on wwx's connection to yunmeng and changes things up so instead of feeling alienated right before he leaves our last glimpse of him there is happily picking lotuses and playing with a kid! in both stories the narrative is asking who do you protect? who do you leave behind? can you ever get it back? but the angles are very different.
#why are there so many people who simultaneously argue that cql dumbs down mdzs and also that mdzs is the slow reveal of how wwx is a#perfect angel who has never done anything wrong in his life#being let down by everyone around him#surely you have to pick an option#but lan wangji and wei wuxian being close friends in the first life really does change everything#i have seen people (reasonably) be annoyed with this as an adaptation choice#but! i like this change a lot and i think they do interesting things with it#There's still a lot of emphasis on what makes them so particularly perfect for each other but imo moving Lan Wangji into the category of#people wwx loved in the first life#shifts the focus from#when will they get together#to#What it would take and what would they have to do for these people to have to do to have a successful partnership?#If loving someone is the first step what comes next? Who do I want to be to the people around me?#i love the focus on wwx's trust issues as trust issues! problems that he's had with lwj specifically before!#and the solution isn't just oh well lwj is perfectly trustworthy#though that's obviously part of it#wwx has to like. decide for himself to do some things differently this time around in order to reap the rewards of being really in it with#someone. and lwj does too! it's a journey they're on together#i have simply rambled in all directions i'm sorry anon
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#IN THIS LIGHT THE BLOOD IS BLACK. TELL ME MY NAME: visage.#ooc post.#AHH... i figured since i haven't really posted anything that shows ana's full appearance in all it's glory yet that i'd do so today LOL#so here he is!! The Plague Doctor zombified man 💙 LMAO no but like... i can't lie anastasiy is obviously more than that but that-#may be what people view him as upon first glance since he does kinddd of have a 'hard shell' so-to-speak and doesn't#really open up around people he's just met BUT once ana knows he can trust someone? trust me he will. it's just getting to a point#where anastasiy trusts you that is the hard part ahahhh
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do love how many of us bill cipher flatland truthers heard "when bill destroyed his home dimension, he killed everyone he'd ever known" and all simultaneously decided "well except kryptos. he knew kryptos. he kept kryptos :)"
#the circles trying to arrest bill for Dimension Crimes or w/e: can you explain your relationship to bill cipher#kryptos: i am bill's right hand arm. man. i'm bill cipher everything. his best friend. his confidant. his silly rabbit#the circles: his what#kryptos: his silly rabbit#the circles: ... his silly rabbit#kryptos: yes :)#the circles: is that what he calls you?#kryptos: no <3#i see so many interpretations of their dynamic but i think it's funny how it always basically boils down to well of COURSE he kept kryptos#even the people who are like 'he finds kryptos annoying as shit and rags on him whenever he can and hates him' are like#'but yeah no obviously he kept kryptos around!'#also while i have my own thoughts on their dynamic to the point it is the main point of my fic and kryptos is now the secondary lead#i do love that however you interpret him (friend acquaintance partner court appointed attorney family member WHATEVER) we're all just like#'he was there too :)'#i also think it's funny that someone felt so strongly about their own kryptos idea that they went hogwild on the wiki unsourced and was#just like 'ummmm they're related now! it was confirmed. source-- my divine knowledge :)' and then caused everyone to go HUH#until it was taken down#bill and kryptos are very much NOT related in my hcs like very very very much not#but i gotta hand it to you. as much as i disagree with the take#it takes guts to go on the fandom wiki with your random hc and go 'this is real trust me :)' and then dip
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checking out player character blogs in darp is hilarious cus most ppl have the "best/third option" choices like its so tempting to boot up a ricky and show everyone what a real fat cock freak with terrible decisions looks like
#personal#delete#who is a bad dad and is probably brundleflying out in the deeproads if not dead at weisshaupt#anyway even his decisions werent crazy Evil like hes not full pragmatist (obviously cus hes fucking stupid as a character flaw)#but annul the circle + kill connor (himself. ruefully. hates seeing kids in trouble but is anti blood magic) + harrowmont on the throne + L#kill the werewolves instead of brokering peace + L + ratio#idek that id find any joy in writing him just like turning him around in my head and thinking abt scenarios#harrowmont is fully cus orzammar hes like fresh in the world and is like ew poor people and i dont really understand ur caste system and#this old man seems nice (: and i trust institutions of power <3 people in power wouldnt lie to me when they are nice <3 right guys#hes easily influenced and better at delegating than he is at making his own choices/forming opinions cus hes stupid and thinks hes stupid <#if you think about it thgouh we are all like wardens adn darp is kind of like hearing the calling.
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i can't take this anymore. not even with wrio stating from his own mouth sigewinne is his senior people get it inside their brains he's not a father figure to her and even with them telling us she was arrested and sentenced at the fortress people reach the conclusion she's not a child 😭
#i don't understand this insistence around both of them being fathers to her#even if you ship wrio and neuvi their found family dynamic doesn't have to be that#it doesn't cancel anything so why do people just lie 😂😂😂#it feels like i'm in an alternative reality because so many people just go omg they're her fathers it's canon#meanwhile it's neuvi shouting to the seven winds he's a dad to the melusines and wrio joking with him telling him he's like a father and#neuvi saying yeah i see myself that way#and then wrio answers traveler about sigewinne telling them she's been at the fortress for way longer than him and he sees her as his senio#so how the hell#how!!!!! do you see this and infere wrio is a father to her#how do you see him specifically say he doesn't and say he does 😂😂#i'm going insane#she took care of him#she saw him grow up#that's not a father-daughter dynamic#that's not how things work#wrio's not even like neuvi when it comes to her protection#he's not dad protective he's so expressive about her having her freedom her own choices how he trusts her word etc etc#he truly respects sigewinne equal to equal it's just she's naturally more vulnerable#and he obviously owes her and he also respects and cherishes neuvi and his trust in him to keep sigewinne safe#it doesn't mean he's a father#even irl you do not have to have a familial relationship with a step-parent. your parent can be in a relationship and you do not have to see#that person as a parent#so why is it the only option that people come up with for these characters? 😂 IT MAKES SO SENSE
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bylers are so embarrassing fr this is so funny. you are not serious people etc etc
#''henry is evil uwahhh why do you like him why are they trying to give him a sympathetic backstory'' bro idk how to tell you this#but it was sad and tragic and horrible out the gate#if you didnt see that when watching st4 then like. i literally don't know what to tell you LOL#ive said this a dozen times before but before i ever set foot in the fandom i Only felt sorry for the guy#did i think he was the big bad? yeah. but it was OBVIOUSLY a tragedy. it's CLEARLY presented to us as such#if you can't see that then you fr need to 1) interact w real people in the real world and 2) go back to hs literature class#like i straight up just do not trust you to be a normal person in the real world. you come off as scum LMAO#you don't have to love him but goddamn at least be objective for 2 seconds. i know that's hard for you so i'll give you a minute#and really just. y'all have GOT to cool it w attributing every leak to byIer. you are ONLY going to break your own heart#have some humility for god's sake lmao. also 'starving for byIer' you're literally not lmao you have the Entire show#henry's been around for 1 season. like literally you sound so spoiled lol. go be a child elsewhere#i say things#stranger things //
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took dewey out again tonight for more socialization — some soft boofs were had but by the end of the ~30 minutes he was quietly watching instead (:
he of course did suuuuuper well with everyone who asked to meet him! young kids, parents, some all at the same time. not fazed even a little (and someone even guessed that his name is deputy dewey because of scream — finally!!!!!!)
we worked on “focus” and “off”/“leave it” while there too. a good evening
#text#it’s always been more important to me that dewey like PEOPLE and be safe around PEOPLE of all else#i can manage guarding food around other dogs.#i can (obviously) train him to tolerate being near strange dogs (as long as he isn’t having outbursts!)#but my hope for him first and foremost was that he would love and trust people — and he does 💛#idc if he ever gets excited to play with other dogs. my other 3 dont#ryker lovessssss to be out and about but is aloof with other dogs. idc!#as long as my dogs trust me to keep them safe and thus ignore strange dogs. we gucci#(heck. i don’t even trust strange dogs ahdjjsjcjd)#egan being attacked by one as a young dog is what triggered his reactivity
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Sorry can I ask, from what moment you got the take "Louis being so unbothered about how Lestat could have at any moment hopped off their misery train to run away to Paris"?
it's a combination of his amused tone when he says "they were not compatible" and how casual he is about that "oh yeah they fucked on the floor and lestat dumped him" coming from mr. "i wanted to kill him. i wanted him all to myself". the extent to which he simply does not care about lestat/armand stuck out to me.
#obviously there are many reasons he didn't care#including the lack of overlap- if lestat wanted to run back to armand he would have and he didn't#but idk! this season has gone pretty hard on the lestat lestat lestat lestat lestat of it all#and hmmm i see louis as someone who is actually quite bothered by how lestat is at once desirable to a decent chunk of people and#cannot be trusted not to run around if he feels neglected#the fact that he learns a hot older vampire was pining over him and just goes yeah lol you're not his type#feels pointed. especially in light of all the shit dreamstat talks about armand#press says iwtv#interview with the vampire
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1 day i will make a meta of sansa's dynamic with her metaphorical champions/suitors & how that correlates to the ashford theory (i.e sansa being betrothed to joffrey baratheon, then promised to willas tyrell, then being married to tyrion lannister, then being married to harry hardying then married to aegon vi targaryen & aurane velaryon but it is not this day. lmao. when i make that meta it'll be so over for y'all.
#just know that. she never marries after aurane. btw lmao#like if he like g-d forbid ever died before she did she'd like. literally never marry or love again like. thats it lmfao#but anyway like. she has a complicated relationship w/ all of them tbh & reflects on them sometimes.#she obviously hates joffrey for him abusing her but like. she can't help but feel sad for him at times bc like. he was so young.#if he had the right people around him maybe he would've turned out okay eventually. but it didnt happen. she never met willas but sometimes#she wondered what it would've been like to be lady of highgarden but she hopes he's doing alright. her dynamic w/ tyrion is. complicated#like. he was never like openly cruel to her or anything & she's grateful to him for saving her life & standing up for her but like.#there's always that grief surrounding their families & i think she resented & mostly afraid of him at the time but in hindsight she's+#grateful that he never hurt her or forced himself on her. harry she hardly knew unfortunately but like she disliked him at first#but then he actually seemed to warm up to her & she had him tied around her lil finger but she knows that she wouldn't like to be married+#to a guy who actually has children w/ sb else. like. she's seen how that played out & while she wouldn't be mean it makes her uncomfortable#but especially surrounding aegon bc like. she's not naive enough to say she loved him but like. she actually LIKED him#like. while she was wary of him at first she warmed up to him & genuinely respected him as a person & most importantly aegon was her FRIEND#they got along rly well due to their similar upbringings & what they had to do to survive & like. he's actually a decent guy in canon. lmao#he's handsome & was chivalrous & honorable & sweet w/ her but also like batshit insane in a good way. like.#he was the golden prince she always wanted since she was a little girl; the prince that joffrey was supposed to be but never was.#he gave her a future as queen of westeros that was originally HERS. so when daenerys eventually executes him she has mixed feelings about i#aegon was good to her & she'd vowed not to betray him & she actually intended to keep that vow. to her she was forever in his debt+#he gave her a future from her isolation & suffering @ winterfell bc of how much everything changed & he waited for her to love him back.#he actually showed her respect & gave her a solid future when she felt alone & abandoned & led her gently into a world of his own making+#& gave her back her honor & a future. esp when the north was divided between jon rickon & herself. most preferred jon or rickon over her.#without aegon's intervention she probably would've had to marry some northern lord below her station. the winterfell succession crisis wild#but aurane velaryon? that's the love of her life. her bold captain. he taught her how to love & coaxed her in the sun to bloom & freed her.#freed her from the chains of her family obligations. he taught her to break the rules of tradition & follow her heart & trust her instincts#he was there with her in her darkest hour. he quite literally saved her life & defended her honor when no one else had the balls to do that#no one looks @ or touches her the way aurane does she loved him madly truly & deeply he took her girlhood in his stride but when autumn cam#she escaped & had to push him into the deepest recesses of her mind in the name of survival & pragmatism but she never stopped loving him.#& his sweet memory brought too much heartache & bittersweetness for her. she lowkey waited for him for years. & they EVENTUALLY reunited !#he fought & got legitimized for HER. she's. so genuinely happy w/ that man. he's one of her best friends & the father to her children.
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screaming crying throwing over the fnaf movie trailer
#ashton is talking#(negative)#god i- i wanna fucking scream-#spoilers for the fnaf trailer:#why the FUCK was springtrap there???#i'm not fucking blind#i paused at the moment he popped up#there's no mistaking who was holding that knife#so why is he there?#why is he in this movie?#i get it the movie isn't supposed to follow the canon exactly#trust me i get it#but there's- there's barely enough of a reason for him to be there#i've seen people make the joke that the steve guy hiring mike is supposed to be william afton (the purple guy)#if that turns out to be true... how can springtrap be there?#because springtrap IS william afton#obviously the joke will probably stay a joke and steve isn't william#but then why is springtrap there???#springtrap wasn't even around during fnaf 1!#he came into being AFTER fnaf 1 when he disassembled the animatronics#he shouldn't be there-!!!#unless the fnaf timeline has completely changed since i last checked!#i dunno man springtrap showed up in security breach so i guess anything's possible-!#i'm not one to cling to canon so heavily#i'm just... i'm so fucking confused
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i tried so hard to be kind and sweet and all of these things that are supposed to be good? and valued? but im alone again and i dont think ill ever not be
#if you recently asked me how i am doing. sorry#i do remember and value that. its just very hard to trust that as something i could ever actually lean on#like even to say that feels like maybe i am overstepping. so. yeah thats where im at haha#ive just gotten burned way way too many times at this point#forged in fire??? burnt to ashes#i used to think phoenixes were relatable but not really anymore#the vibe has changed completely#and really im on my way out. not in like a super depressing way im not about to kill my body but when i say#im transitioning to a p zombie its . not a fucking joke im done here#my support group of all things went to shit yesterday too so i really have nowhere to stand im just breaking breaking. breaking. breaking .#dissolving. dying. and im like kind of hurt that nobody even cares enough to know these things about me#but how can i blame people for not knowing that asking me how im doing is not enough#or like how can i blame people for not caring#ppl got their own lives or whatever idk how this shit works.#man im just so so so done.#my friend told me about some future worries today and i was just sitting there like man. how do you even.#talk like you will have a future#like anything matters like any of this is real#because to me it's pretty clearly not#i didn't say that shit to him obviously#id like to keep a friend or two around just in case idk#someone to go on a walk with#sometimes he asks me what i think about stuff#i like listening to myself talk. so i benefit from that#anyway the point of this post was that while im done being a self im also very fucking done being selfless#acting like i think i can help people or something. i cant. i dont want to. i dont care.#i just dont fucking care anymore.
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something very tragic about looking at dean's relationships with most of the women he knows especially through an aro!dean lens because he so clearly wants deeper relationships with them but because he's dean and has Problems and A Role To Perform, he can only allow himself to have it through romantic attachments that he isn't even comfortable with.
#ack#he just wants trust and he wants security. and whenever he finds that he wants that with someone who is a lady#he automatically forces himself down this path :((( because that's how he's Supposed to interact with women#and then obviously whenever he gets close to men who aren't sam he gets scared that he's being too gay. because he has All The Problems#can't accept that he can just be emotionally intimate with the people around him without romantic love being involved... aahhhh#sam of course being the Exception because sam's his brother and exempt from all this. which is probably why he's happiest when its just him#and sam. (in canon.) it's less a matter of like 'he only cares about sam' and more#'caring about sam isn't complicated'. or well. it is. but that's Sam&Dean specific complicated. not a wider societal narrative complicated.#they have their own little world with its own issues.#actually dean is most stressed out when sam is bringing the outside world into theirs. jess. ruby. amelia.#they're proof to dean that sam is not immune to the wider world. that he might value a romantic relationship over the one he has with dean.#which he does not ever react to in a healthy way because he's dean. but v relatable to be upset by honestly.#anyway. dean and gender and romantic orientation. not heavy topics at all.#spn#aro!dean#dean winchester
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honestly i don’t really think any mental illnesses have been like “destigmatized”- not fully at least. i think the stigma has just changed from demonization to “that’s not a real problem get over it god”
#obviously demonization is more Actively Harmful#but to say things like depression and anxiety have been destigmatized is. incorrect i feel#yes we are not treated like we’re evil. which is for sure an improvement#nobody deserves to be treated like they’re evil#but our illnesses are now being dismissed. ‘oh everyone has that’ not like me#‘you’re just being lazy’ i wish that were true#like. ok hold on let me use an example bc i’m worried abt reading comprehension on this website#(not my followers i trust u guys but i act as if every post i make will get popular)#my brother is autistic. i have GAD.#my brother was diagnosed when he was 2. he’s faced a lot of bullying from both kids and adults and it sucks and he didn’t deserve it#because of all that bullying (especially as a kid) he’s rejecting his autism and focusing really hard on being as ‘normal’ as possible#i was diagnosed last year at 17. i’ve been having these issues my whole life (my mom and i both saw it) but my issues were dismissed#by all the other adults around me (save for family) because i wasn’t visibly struggling and i was doing well in school#it made me doubt my convictions for a long time. what if i’m wrong?#as such i didn’t seek a diagnosis for a long time until my anxiety had gotten to a point where i knew i couldn’t keep ignoring it#now that i have that diagnosis i’m able to wield it as a weapon. my struggles aren’t made up#they’re real. and they always have been. and i can’t just ‘calm down’ like you can. and that needs to be respected#so while i think one is more actively harmful (bullying and harassment lead to self-rejection and loathing)#the other is also harmful- just passively (constantly being dismissed leads to self-doubt and not asking for help)#also why are people angry about the idea of a mental illness being destigmatized?#one group freeing itself from oppression isn’t gonna immediately forget about the groups who helped them get there#if i’m one day able to get perfect accomodations for my anxiety and nobody looks at me like i’m dramatic when i talk about it#i’m not gonna suddenly stop advocating for mental health issues to be normalized#if anything i’ll argue HARDER. you learned to understand me now learn to understand my siblings#learn to understand those with bpd. with psychosis. the sociopaths. the narcissists. the systems#i’m not gonna act like i have it worse than people who are heavily stigmatized. i’m not gonna get attacked for stuttering at mcdonalds#but that doesn’t mean i have /no/ problems and it doesn’t mean i think i’m better than anyone else#i don’t get why people fight each other about this. it’s a good thing so long as we remember where we came from
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