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[Answer options in order are:
1. Yes, guitar, mandolin
2. Yes, piano/keyboard
3. Yes, violin, viola, cello, bass (inc. electric bass)
4. Yes, percussion
5. Yes, a woodwind
6. Yes, a brass instrument
7. Yes, multiple
8. Yes, something not mentioned here
9. No, I do not currently play an instrument but I sing
10. No, I do not currently play an instrument and I do not sing.
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I’m sorry there aren’t more options, I only had 10 spaces or I would’ve included more. I tried to go with the most common and obviously with groups!
What counts for singing is up to you. I think most people sing some amount, but you can decide if yours counts or not. The reason for this is because you can teach yourself an instrument, so not requiring lessons or anything for either instruments or singing.
If you want to learn an instrument, especially if you don’t currently play any, I would love to know if you shared!
Please reblog! I wanna know how many of us play instuments ourselves and what that distribution is.
If you don’t listen to the Mechanisms don’t respond to this poll! I’m sure your answer is very interesting, but it will skew the results!
#the mechanisms#poll#i included the answer options in brackets because my phones screenreader wont read them if i havent voted. ive heard other peoples do but i-#included it to be safe!#i have experience with multiple instruments!#chronilogically they are guitar. recorder (which i still count even though it was required in my school because i still have it and can-#still play it). alto saxophone. piano/keyboard. ukulele. violin. electric bass.#i have most experience with the saxophone and least with the bass!#i also sing. i did musical theatre ages 10-14 and a bit of non-musical theatre outside of that. so i have *some* amoung of training.-#plus chorus in middle school. but very little of it was one-on-one. plus i take t now and my voice dropped! so i dont havd any idea how my-#singing is now. not that i really knew before.#anyway im very curious! i always think its interesting when people are really into music but play no instruments (like my dad)#sorry to harmonica and accordion for not being able to fit you in the poll and also everything else because there are so many instruments!
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sometimes Things and Services that have Everything are Worse
#this is about spotify specifically but applies to any physical media tbh#sometimes you just need to throw that cd in a player for background noise#(or ps2+tv in my case because i dont have a cd player currently and my dearest console has the range ❤️ ps1 ps2 games dvd cd anything goes)#the quality is also better than any headphone laptop shit i promise you#even the songs youd skip on spotify might sound better and youll just accept them as background noise!#especially when the Device is on the other side of the room vs pressing another button on your laptop keyboard like youd usually do#sadi.xt#like you know when a song sounds better when it has the 144p naruto amv from 2008? yeah its kinda like that.
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on a scale of 1-10 how much of the lobotomy co. Fixation do u have
well noting the fact I 100% true ended it as well as completely completed the abnormalities logs writhing ~2-3 months. I would say a 10
#No joke it is quite LITERALLY all I played. For 2-3 months straight#Like no fucking joke I brought my labtop to SCHOOL to play it. I was playing lobotomy corporation in RELIGION CLASS BRO#To be fair I am notorious for doing that thoigh#Through back to the time I was p-ranking ultrakill levels in English honors#I make like basically straight A’s too btw (minus my bullshit 80 in chem but to be fair it’s chem and I never played in that class anyways)#I was COOKING#It confused a lot of people but man it was also funny watching the boys in my class get shocked at this small blond hair blue eyed quiet-is#Girl absolutely GRINDING in ultrakill with the RGB keyboard and mouse in the middle of class after any lectures#They have some new inputed rules with bringing your own computers now though sadly so I can’t anymore BUT YOU KNOW WHAT!!#THEY HAVE. NOOOOOOO RULES FOR ANY OTHER SORTS OF ELECTRONICS LMFAO#I’ve now been bringing my IPad to school to play limbus company and I’ve been bringing my Nintendo switch for Splatoon for like 2 years now#Literally none of the teachers gaf as long as you get your work done and pay attention during lectures LMFAO#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#lobotomy corp#project moon#cro chatter
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pokes brain with stick a little harder now. hhhhhhhhnn
#still Full Of Fragments! everyone and their pet goldfish piled in like a clown car into front during the morning. polyfragment moment (REAL?#i’ve (i’m also a fragment i don’t know why i’m talking about this and myself by extension as if i’m. not a fragment too.) lost track of how#many fragments there’s been. probably like… 10? at any given time. but the fragments have all swapped out to Other fragments and i do not#recognize anybody. sweet and sour sauce <- STOP TALKING ABOUT CONDIMENTS!!! wait does sweet and sour count as a condiment? <- lol <- :(#GEEEEETTTTTTTT AWAY FROM THE KEYBOARD ON MY. um. ON MY LIFE* I WILL NOT HESITATE TO USE A ROLLED UP NEWSPAPER.
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what is incredibly annoying about the internet is that someone's argumentative-toned political vent post can circulate to a few hundred or thousand people and be generally agreed with by people seeing their broader point, and then be screenshotted and circulated again by ppl who mostly also saw it the first time around, but it's vituperatively disagreed with while picking apart the original post's wording to imply that the original poster meant something particularly stupid or wrong when what is being attacked is not the actual point.
#guys i know ive seen some really stupid backwards posts circulate that i find very wrongheaded and offensive#but i know theyre MY icks and i can at least try to be impartial enough to see the. overall purpose or emotion being expressed#we make everything a discourse when it doesn't have to be#we talk past each other all the fucking time while saying things that don't necessarily contradict each other#it's like if you don't like someone's phrasing (which can be valid) you can't also hold the idea that something else they're saying#or TRYING to say might also be true in some significant way.#text post#idk this shit is so annoying#i know everyone's mad right now but seriously we are not gonna get anywhere by taking it out on each other#and oftentimes these posts are about pointing out things we disapprove of in the first place#like guys. guys#ugh idk im just tired#but see i'm making this a vent post and not trying to have a teaching moment#im not better or smarter than any of you#just put the keyboard down sometimes before you attack another person ok?
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I haven't even listened to the music but I do have a strange fondness for Charli XCX's new album cover
because the relative lack of artistic effort is inversely proportional to the fact that you know somebody did make it, because it's not actually something even worth machine generating (and text itself it really struggles with). Maybe all those postmodern artists actually knew what they were talking about, because I doubt machine is ever going to output an empty canvas.
Like, something lesser or resisting form is actually indicative of a human agent, contrary to maximalist Escher nightmares. It's sort of similar to how machine generated prose is always overwrought borderline purple prose and actually inefficient in construction. Writers who value minimalist prose can't be imitated. (To be fair, neither can any author really be meaningfully imitated, but I'm talking about style here; it's a total giveaway). I think it's interesting because inherent to the issue is the idea that there is 'one' way to produce art, which there isn't, which a lot of people greatly misunderstand - well, yeah there is, it involves a human agent (I'm even excluding animals here, sorry, I hear the objections and I'm not expanding) - but also what it tends to output means you can look at something like 'Brat' and pretty much definitively say a human did it. Because it's bad. And consequently I like it.
I probably should've just sent this thought to my best friend instead of writing a Tumblr post about it, so I'll just do that and send this post to her. Hahahaha.
#stirring the pot#the machine generation issue is so tedious. it's just pathetic because it's not a tool which assists you#it supplants you as an artistic agent. which people want because they're afraid of being bad and they want to be 'good'#and/or garner adulation for their (perceived) artistic talent#I don't know how I haven't seen any discussion on the question of human laziness and shortcuts to ambition#it's all like whether it is artistically permissible (yes this is good) or whether artists can use tools (which they can)#I use a keyboard which makes typing much more swift than pen on paper which is also a tool#once upon a time oral traditions were the predominant narrative form#yet if you spend time in writing spaces online the number one question you will encounter is 'how do I be good instantly#and not have to bother learning'#if there is one inevitability to the use of machine learning it's because there are people who are lazy who don't care and have weak spines#and want other people to do their work for them#because they want to be a clever published author and everybody to pat them on the head and tell them that they're awesome#it's not about 'writing' it's about abstract 'ideas' and being admired
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being a polyglot or someone learning multiple languages at once is NOT going "hola! oh wait i mean hello!" it's going "isn't venti twenty in italian. why am i saying it in that accent. benti. what is that. which language pronounces v as b. it's not german, their v sounds like f. it's not french. is it spanish?? that can't be right. maybe korean. but im not saying the other letters in a korean accent?????? or maybe i am???? benti. 밴티 (baenti). yeah that's different. then what accent is this???? benti. benti. benti. im gonna lose it. benti. benti. UGH. benti benti benti. bro what the hell *looks up what language pronounces v as b*. oh it is spanish."
#also the time i spent several minutes staring at a russian keyboard wondering why the korean looked weird#and assumed it was just because the keyboard was in uppercase korean#.....#korean does not have an uppercase letter system#and that other time i spent half a school day with the word 'son' in a specific accent stuck in my head#but that pronunciation and similar ones are found in many languages#so i was like 'i mean in french it means 'his'? no it's not that'#'in korean it's 'hand'????? no not that son either'#it was the spanish 'son' for 'are'#and i'd just left my spanish class right before i started thinking about 'son' too#also the many times i try to think of a word in any language and i can only remember the ASL sign#i swear it happens every other day#like 'what was the word for cat in french again? its umm its uhhh *pulls at invisible whiskers*'#BRAIN#THATS NOT FRECNH#or the time i tried to remember the ASL sign for something and only remembered BSL#polyglot#foreign language#language learning#french language#german lang#korean language#spanish language#american sign language#british sign language#italian language
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im like if a leopard seal had to take a statistics module in college
#rón.txt#this is kin-related enough to go here i think#for real i would be so good at swimming around in freezing antarctic waters & causing problems for penguins#instead i am forced to do assignments & cry </3#i am very close to biting people. i would also be very good at that#slapping my laptop keyboard with my seal flippers. i am just saying stuff at this point dont mind me#seal therian#<- sure ill tag it. if theres any other seals having to do statistics. i feel you
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According to my therapist
e) you probably worked a lot harder than you thought. Even if you only sit down and do your job for an hour per day, if you spend 10 more hours thinking about work and feeling bad that you're not currently working and trying to make lists of all the things you will do once you actually work:
That's 11 hours of work.
So if you're thinking "I don't even work that hard", that's a red flag that you're spending bonus time guilting yourself, which takes even more out of you! And it's not even paid!
why must reductress hurt me in this way
#also obvious bonus points if you have any type of chronic illness that you have to handle on top of that#likely means youre starting with less and have to do more#the common trap of measuring your work only by output comes for us all and unfortunately also in form of bosses#in which case you should piss on their keyboard#this is also why you should never take a job that pays by “project” rather than set hours.#a clear amount of hours is your first and most common defense against exploitation. the second is unions btw#ramble#mental health#be kinder to yourself#and other things i hear in every therapy session
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one thing i love abt the game Littlewood is how unapologetically GAY bubsy is. he is only interested in the most gorgeous of men
#like i mean. i think the only instance of him potentially being attracted to a woman#is if the player character is one bc of course everyone in town has a Thing for the player it's how these games work lol#but the thing i rlly like abt littlewood!!! there's no stated gender of the player ANYWHERE!!#like there doesn't have to be pronouns or anything in the game with the way it's structured so you can be Anything You Want#most characters refer to you by your name and that's it and there's almost no gendered language#which i just personally rlly like. i like not having to Pick One and then whoever else who isn't that fronts has to suffer with it#and you can change your appearance to anything at any time you don't even need a special wizard transing potion like in stardew#and everyone is willing to romance you no matter what except for dudley. let me kiss the old man pls#young people are not the only people to play video games lol give the old people who love farming sims something#and the gilf lovers out there too#also!!! the game is SUPER SUPER physically accessible!!!!#you can play it entirely with wasd; e or space; and shift#and a lot of the actions have multiple keybinds#so you can move with either arrows or wasd. interact is either e or space or enter (including on the numpad) or escape#(interact has a duel function of closing and opening menus and the different buttons work differently with each thing)#(like space is confirm and escape is. escape. but e could be either depending on the menu you're in but it's still very simple)#and there's a blessed toggle run option so i don't have to strain my hand too much with holding down shift#it fucks up my pinky finger so bad im so glad i can just Not#also why i usually remap sprint to Q if I'm using a wasd setup#if it's an arrow keys setup then the homerow is actions like f being attack (Fight) and then c is run bc i can swap between those two easy#perfected this layout with hollow knight bc i play almost solely on keyboard and it's very adaptable to other games#i had A as heal/spellcast. S as super dash. D as dream nail. F for Fight. and C to dash#and certain other games can slot nicely into that homerow setup for me like moonlighter#and then ori minecraft and littlewood take my mouse + wasd setup which is more complicated because it includes the mouse as well#but Q E and R see a lot of use in those setups
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friendly banter — bucky barnes
summary: sam asks for your help on a mission. you're reunited with him, Joaquín and Bucky. the last one really likes to banter. you think it's just a friendly exchange. it's actually a bit more than that
pairing: bucky barnes x fem!reader (+ platonic friendships with sam and joaquín)
word count: 5k
tags: friends to lovers, sharing feelings (awkward but cute), reader is a hacker and former S.H.I.E.L.D. agent, fluff, undisclosed feelings (mutual), kissing
note: this was kind of a mess but i'm back after a long time on not writing any fics! i'm currently in my last months of studying to become a lawyer (yay) and writing fics has proven to be very therapeutic during this time. this may or may not suck but i enjoyed writing it so i hope you enjoy it
please reblog and/or comment if you enjoy!
all masterlists | marvel masterlist | part 2 (features the thunderbolts* now)
"Got eyes on it?"
You stop walking as soon as you hear that question, staring ahead in disbelief. "You mean...the huge panel in the middle of the room?" you ask with obvious sarcasm, trying to speak as quietly as possible through your comm as you make your way further inside the darkened room.
It’s a typical security room with tons of cameras pointing to every corner of the building. To your relief, the presence of your group is apparently still unnoticed as your eyes wander across the various screens in front of you, noticing no commotion or an unnecessarily large group of unfriendly-looking guys rushing to find you. The large panel control installed in the middle of the desk before you is the thing that immediately gets your attention as you walk closer, always keeping in mind the task at hand.
All you really have to do is hack into the system to disable the security protocols long enough for Sam and Joaquín to sneak into the top floors of the building to retrieve the data that they wanted from the bad guy's records in order to find out more about the gang they'll be (hopefully) putting behind bars soon.
This is not the first and definitely not the last time you'll be doing these kinds of favors for Sam. Your friendship goes way back, when you were still a nobody at S.H.I.E.L.D. that somehow managed to get on Captain America's good graces after that whole Washington fiasco. You're still unsure why Steve always thought so highly of you. Then again, he was the type of guy who never failed to see the potential in other people, even when they couldn't quite see it themselves.
Now, you get to help the new Captain America, who's also as dear to you as the previous one was...perhaps just a tiny bit more annoying, but one of your dearest friends regardless.
As you rush over to the panel, you have to jump over the unconscious body of a security guard that Bucky (another dear friend you met thanks to Steve) took care of before you walked inside, quickly taking a seat in front of the large keyboard to start doing your part of the job.
You hear the unmistakable chuckle from Joaquín as you quickly type in a series of codes and commands. "Jeez, I missed having you on our missions!"
"Awwh!" you mutter with genuine endearment. "I missed being part of these missions too, buddy!"
"And we're still going out for drinks after this, right?"
"Are you genuinely asking me that, Joaquín Torres?" you ask, sounding overly offended on purpose.
You hear him laugh again, but before he can say anything back, you hear Bucky interrupting the exchange. "How about we focus on not getting caught here and then you guys can discuss your night plans?"
"Uh-oh, old man got upset," you joke soon after, finishing to type in the last few codes to fully disable the security system. Surely they have some backup protocol that would soon trigger the alarm to alert these guys of an unwanted visitor, but by then all of you will be long gone. It really is a very simple mission.
"He's jealous you're not taking him out for drinks," Sam jokes back, and then you immediately hear Joaquín agreeing with him.
It's a normal occurrence for Sam to be making those kinds of jokes involving you and Bucky. He has been making those types of remarks for as long as you can remember, fully convinced the two of you "have something going on" as he has put it before. You really try not to think too much about it because, first off, Sam loves to say shit just for the sake of pissing you and Bucky off and, second...you really don't want to let those comments get to your head.
You don't want to let yourself wonder about the what if's of that. There was a time in your life when you did allow yourself to fantasize about the possibility of actually "having something going on" with him, but you learnt to shut off that part of your brain in order to avoid getting your hopes up regarding a situation that just wouldn't happen outside your imagination. Hearing Sam’s silly remarks would only bring you back to those days.
Bucky has been one of your best friends for years and he has never shown the slightest of hints that he might be interested in you in the way you would like (at least not that you're aware of), and there was absolutely no way that you would ever make the first move and risk embarrassing yourself in front of him or, even worse, losing the friendship you two have. You eventually just got comfortable in the abyss of eternal friendzone and learned to accept it. If there was ever going to happen something between the two of you, surely it would've happened by now.
Still, Sam seems to be holding onto that rope for dear life and refuses to let it go. You can't deny it’s a bit uncomfortable to hear those jokes though. They somehow make you feel like somehow you got caught and everyone knows you have a secret crush on Bucky, but you've learned to adapt over the years.
"First part's done.” Leaning back on the chair, you watch the percentage bar on the screen before you, completely ignoring Sam's little joke. "A few more seconds and you're up guys!"
"Hallway’s clear," you hear Bucky say, still guarding the room where you're currently in. "How much time do we have to get out of here?"
"Uh...I can't say for sure. Anywhere near five to thirty, maybe?"
"Minutes?"
"Seconds."
"Oh, great," he mutters ironically.
"Well, I'm sorry. We're hacking into a very sophisticated system that I don't entirely know how it works!" you snap back at him. "Besides, the whole point of this is to give Joaquín and Sam enough time to sneak inside without having to deal with a bunch of guards going straight for them. Bad guys will know we're down here and they'll come looking for us first."
"Isn't hacking your whole thing? How do you not know how it works?" he asks, and just by the tone of his voice you know he's trying to piss you off, because he knows that's exactly the type of comments that would make you upset. If that type of comment came from a stranger you would be strangling them right now, but it’s Bucky, and he seems to enjoy annoying the shit out of you.
"Big talk coming from someone who still asks for my help because he barely knows how to unlock his own phone."
The sound of his faint chuckle immediately makes you smile, perfectly picturing the way he's probably rolling his eyes just barely right now, trying to suppress a smirk as if you could possibly see him right now, knowing he hates when you point it out to him.
"You have to give me some credit, though. I know how to program emails on that thing now. Soon enough I'll be taking your job, so you better watch out."
You can't help but laugh at his reply, slightly shaking your head as you realize you’re getting distracted by him, trying to keep your focus on what you're supposed to be doing right now rather than indulge in a never ending back-and-forth with him. As soon as you type the last codes and the large SECURITY SYSTEM: DISABLED alert pops on the monitor, you quickly rise up from your seat. "You're up guys, hurry!"
"On it!" Sam replies as you rush outside the room.
Before he even says anything to you, Bucky is quickly guiding you down the hallway with the intent of getting out of there as soon as possible, turning to look at you with a confused expression when you stop walking and, instead, start yanking his arm to go in the opposite direction.
"What are you doing?"
"The exit is that way," you point out as if it’s obvious.
He looks even more confused now, and slightly annoyed. "Don't think so. That's the way we entered, but there's another way of leaving this place a lot faster."
"No, we can't change the plan!"
He definitely looks annoyed now, trying not to snap at you. "I'm not changing the plan. Exiting that way has always been the plan. If we go that way, we'll-"
Before he can say anything else, the loud sound of an alarm blasts through the entire building, signaling that you've been discovered and you'll be having company very soon. As if that wasn't enough, the door of the room you were previously in opens violently, and the guard that was previously unconscious on the floor is frantically alerting more people through his radio.
“Oh, that’s great,” you point out, slightly panicking right now because you’re still inside the building. “You decided to wake up early, huh?”
Bucky immediately grabs the guy by his bulletproof vest to throw him against the wall, taking his barely regained consciousness to his advantage. Out of the corner of your eye, you notice about six other guys coming towards you, turning around the same corner you wanted to run towards as part of your escape plan. Sadly, that's when you realized maybe the direction Bucky was suggesting was better.
You’re unsure of what to do now. It's not like you haven't been taught how to take down a few bad guys, but your specialities have always involved computers rather than physical combat. Almost as if he could read your mind, Bucky turns towards you for a quick second. "Go! I'll catch up to you." Again, almost as if he knew that you'd try to ask if he was sure about it, he immediately shouts yet another "Go!" before you're finally deciding to do as he says, running down the hall in the direction he has intended to go before.
Hours later, second after second that passes by, you’re more and more convinced that you'll never hear the end of it. If only you could go back in time and just agree with Bucky's plan rather than trying to argue with him. It would have spared you a lifetime of him reminding you how he was right and you were wrong.
Turns out his exit plan was the one you should've followed all along, because it actually led to the engine room which immediately meant being in a much less crowded part of the building to escape without risking bumping into more people.
All of you had enough time to change into something more comfortable to go out for drinks. Initially it was something you and Joaquín had planned alone, but evidently the two of you didn’t hesitate to invite Sam and Bucky. Of course they accepted the invite, and of course Bucky has done his very best to keep reminding you of your little mistake.
"Listen, if you don't want shit like that to happen again, just let me know your plan beforehand."
"But I did let you know. The problem is that someone is not really a good listener."
"No. Letting me know- like, properly letting me know, would've been telling me before we got inside that building."
Bucky smirks as he leans back on his chair, and it's obvious to you he's really enjoying this banter. "Plan changed at the last minute. If you would've just followed my lead, we could've left that building a lot faster."
"Ah, so you do recognize that wasn't the original plan!" you exclaim with a triumphant grin, pointing an accusatory finger at him. "You changed it all by yourself and didn't tell me."
"Changed at the last minute," he repeats, as if to correct you. "You wanted me to stand there and explain every detail to you?"
"Oh, as if explaining it would've taken you hours! You’re always so dramatic."
"Children," Sam commented, interrupting the banter with an unamused expression. "I had to trust the operation to literal children."
Bucky scoffs at that comment, watching as Sam lets out a chuckle, shaking his head after witnessing this whole interaction between the two of you.
"Kinda makes you appreciate having an actual professional around, huh?" Joaquín says right after, flashing a charming smile in Sam's direction.
"Oh, please!" you, Bucky and Sam reply in unison, earning an offended look from Joaquín.
Soon after, Bucky is speaking again. "You know what? I'll give you some credit. You managed to do your part of the job…decently."
It’s obvious he wants a reaction from you, but even if your banter is entertaining, you know you can't keep bickering the entire night. Once again, you can’t help but to feel embarrassed, as if everyone at that table knows your little secret regarding your feelings towards Bucky. As if some innocent banter between friends could ever give it away. Besides, the four of you are here to celebrate your mission was a success, and the fact that you haven't seen the trio in a long time makes it the perfect opportunity to catch up.
Pretending to fully ignore his last comment, you turn to look at Sam from across the table. "You. I haven't seen your lovely face in a while," you start, watching him physically get ready for whatever silly comment you might come up with. "Tell me what you've been up to...I've seen the photos of you shaking hands with the President," the reference to Everett Ross sounding anything but endearing.
Sam sighs, shrugging. "Yeah, well, I guess you can say it's part of the job," he simply replies before taking a quick sip of his beer. "I can't say I'm thrilled about it, but I figured it's best to compromise a bit and keep the man happy. As long as he stays in line, I'll cooperate."
"Of course you're not thrilled about it, Sam. That's the same guy that put your ass in a prison in the middle of nowhere like you were some kind of top security criminal!" you reply almost immediately, still in disbelief at the revelation of any sort of alliance between him and Ross. Sam's expression lets you know that even he is still conflicted about it, not really knowing what to say. After taking a brief pause, you try to say something else to lighten the mood, not wanting him to think like you’re judging him for it. "Hey, I understand having to keep up appearances. I get it. And please accept my deepest condolences for having to deal with that piece of shit."
Your last comment makes the three of them laugh, and Bucky takes the opportunity to change the subject. "And what have you been up to?" he asks, sounding genuinely curious. "It's been a while since any of us has seen you."
"Well, my life has been all over the place the last few months. As all of you know, I moved into a new apartment. I loved my roommate, but I felt it was time to just live by myself, you know?"
"So no plans of leaving New York to move to D.C., huh?" Joaquín asks with a smile.
You return the smile immediately. "As fun as it would be to live closer to all of you weirdos, no. I plan to stay in New York for now. I'm just really comfortable there with the new apartment, the promotion I got a few months ago, the fact that most of my family and friends are there..."
"But not all your friends," Sam quickly points out, pretending to sound incredibly offended by your last statement. "But since we’re talking about friends and just social life in general...are you still single?"
"Why are you always so interested in my love life?" you joke with a playful grin, taking a sip of your margarita to leave him wondering the answer just a few seconds more. "Yes, I'm still single. Queen's full of creeps," you added shortly after. "Are any of you seeing anybody?"
"Proudly and happily single," Joaquín replies, raising his drink up as if to cheer before taking a sip.
Sam gives him a very visible side-eye. "Yikes," is all he says regarding that, turning back to you. "I'm not interested in dating right now, to be honest. I’m quite a busy gentleman, you know?"
“And you say ‘yikes’ to me?” Joaquín says immediately after, looking dumbfounded.
You chime in before any of them could add anything else regarding that. “Bucky?” you ask, turning to look at him as you await his answer.
It was a bold move to directly ask him that question. On one hand, you know Bucky has always been a loner so you’re almost certain that he’s single. But there’s always that tiny percentage of probability that you’ll learn a truth you’re not sure how you’ll handle. He’s your best friend, of course you’ll be happy if he’s happy…but the idea of him revealing to you that he’s dating someone might actually make you physically sick.
You notice Bucky gets uncomfortable right away. “I’m single too.”
The pleasant feeling of relief lasts just a few seconds. The fact that Sam laughs at Bucky’s reply has your mind spinning, not understanding why he would laugh at that. Why the fuck is he laughing? Should you start panicking already?
"Actually, our buddy has been on a few dating apps, I believe."
Oh no.
Even when you try to remind yourself not to care about anything remotely romantic involving Bucky- or at least, not to care more than a platonic friend would, you can deny the news of him possibly dating someone or even just randomly talking to any person in those apps makes your stomach turn. It really wouldn't be dramatic to claim that you could quite literally throw up right now at the thought of him and someone else right now.
It's not common to hear any sort of updates regarding Bucky's love life because...well, there's never any developments. He's never shown interest in anyone, and as far as you know he's never had any sort of relationship with anyone like that– serious or casual. What if he's interested in exploring that part of his life now? What if he has found someone already and you're about to hear him talk all about them? It makes you genuinely sick, but you try your best to act as unbothered as you possibly can, forcing you to mask your disgust and heartbreak with pleasant surprise.
"Is that so?" is all you say.
He looks even more uncomfortable by the subject, choosing to look down at his almost finished beer. "It's not...I was just trying to put myself out there," he says awkwardly, shrugging. "Long story short, online dating is not for me. I hated it."
You could tell he doesn’t really like talking about this subject, so you try to quickly ease the tension with a bit of humor. Besides, you're probably better off without hearing anything regarding that topic anyway. "It's because you couldn't figure out how the whole swiping thing worked, isn't it?"
Bucky immediately seems to relax with your joke, chuckling a bit. "It took me a few days actually." He takes a quick pause before continuing. "I probably should've asked you for help."
If there was any hidden message behind his last statement, it completely goes over your head because you genuinely thought it was just part of your playful banter regarding his lack of skills when it comes to technology. You laugh, and in return Bucky offers you a smile because that's as much hinting as he dares to do out loud, especially if Sam and Joaquín are sitting right there. He's incredibly used to you never getting his subtle implications anyway.
In front of you, the other two guys are watching this exchange unfold, and it's hard to tell which one of them has a bigger urge to tell you to stop being so fucking oblivious already. As subtle as he can be, Joaquín pokes Sam's side with his elbow to give him a quick heads-up before speaking. "Considering everyone's almost finished, Sam and I are getting another round of drinks."
The two of them are standing up when they notice you're grabbing your purse and standing up as well. "Oh, I can go with you. I have to go to the restroom anyway."
The two of them want to yet again yell at you to please get a grip on the situation, but Sam just silently takes a seat as you and Joaquín go over to the bar, quickly telling him what you want to order before heading towards the restroom.
A few drinks later the four of you are finally leaving the bar. Sam and Joaquín left to their respective houses while you and Bucky shared an Uber back to his own place. He was kind enough to let you crash in his spare room for the night. It's not like this is the first time you've ever stayed at his apartment when you visit the boys, but you can't deny the idea is both thrilling and terrifying- not like anything would happen to make you feel like that...you two are just friends...but, still...your silly head likes to get silly ideas sometimes.
Deciding not to indulge in your little fantasies, you decide to start a conversation. "Update on the food?" you ask, turning to look at Bucky, who sits comfortably on the sofa of his living room.
"Like ten minutes away," he says, taking a quick look at the screen. "How come you haven't congratulated me for knowing how to order food with this thing?" he added with evident surprise, making you chuckle.
"Because you keep saying 'this thing' like it's some mysterious device completely unknown to mankind," you reply, and before you can stop yourself, you continue. "It's cute, I guess, so congratulations."
Bucky's grin grows wider. "Oh, so it's cute?"
You try really hard not to panic, feeling incredibly embarrassed. The fact that he seems to be enjoying what you just said makes it even worse, because you know he’ll use that to tease you now. He just finds any possible excuse to do it. "Cute as in lame."
He chuckles. "Right."
Not knowing what else to say, you clear your throat before walking towards him, taking a seat next to him as you try to come up with something else to change the subject immediately. "I'm starving," is all you say, mentally scolding you for such a poor effort.
As soon as you're sitting, you unsuccessfully try to ignore the butterflies in your stomach when he leans just a bit closer...perhaps if you weren't hyper vigilant whenever the two of you are too near you might've missed it. And then, he stretches his arm across the back of the sofa, right behind you.
For a second, you even thought of mocking him for such a move, but bringing more attention to it would only make you that much nervous, and you really don't want to embarrass yourself. And most importantly, you don't want your silly mind and your silly heart to get their hopes up. You're just friends, nothing else.
"Me too," he agrees, the playful grin on his face still not disappearing. "Might have to steal a few fries from you."
"Oh, I'd really like to see you try stealing my food," you reply in the same playful tone, leaning just a little closer to him without even noticing that you were actually doing that.
"I think I deserve some compensation after what happened today. You know, for all the unnecessary ass-kicking I had to do."
"Just when I thought you had moved on from that!" you reply, jokingly slapping his knee. "It wasn't my fault, it was yours for not telling me the plan on time!"
"You should've just trusted me," he insists. "But you always have to be right on everything..."
You know he's joking. There's something about bantering with you that seems to absolutely fascinate him. "Yeah, and you always want to piss me off."
Bucky chuckles again, and that's when you feel his hand gently resting on your shoulder, his arm fully around you. What the actual fuck is going on. "What, you think I like pissing you off?" he asks, tone slightly lower than before, which inevitably makes the butterflies in your stomach multiply. "Is that why you think I do it?"
You were quiet for a moment, your brain not entirely registering what's happening. "I mean...yeah."
He stops for a second, and you almost see a hint of hesitation on his face before he speaks, letting out a frustrated sigh. "For someone who claims to be so much more clever than anyone else, I would've expected you to figure it out sooner," he starts, shaking his head with a soft smile. "I've been actually flirting with you, doll."
The comment evidently takes you by surprise and all you can do is to stare back at him like a complete fool. His arm around your shoulders, the proximity, the fact he had the fucking audacity to call you that nickname...did you somehow fall asleep on his couch without noticing and this is the type of oddly-realistic dream your brain decided to come up with? Are you still standing there like a fool just fantasizing and this one just got way too immersive? And did he really just say that he's been flirting with you?
Noticing you weren't saying anything, he decides to continue, looking a little hesitant and disappointed with your silence. "You know, it'd be really nice if you say something..."
"Awful way to flirt," is all you could come up with, which immediately makes him burst out laughing.
"Maybe," he agrees. "But I can’t believe you didn’t figure it out. I mean…Sam and Joaquín did a long time ago."
"The three of you share the same brain cell, of course they figured it out a long time ago,” you reply, still in complete shock to be having this conversation with him. Were you really that blind? "You could’ve just asked me."
"You know I'm not direct like that," he replies, and the shy look on his face almost makes your heart melt. "Like I said, I was relying on your impressive intelligence to figure it out."
You let out a soft chuckle after his last comment, immediately giving him a warning look. "Don't." He looks back at you for a few seconds, almost wanting to challenge you after noticing the way you’re looking at him. Soon enough, he’s unable to hide his smirk anymore. "There it is," you point out, knowing he hates that.
Bucky lets out a soft grunt as a complaint, resting his head on your shoulder. Encouraged, you immediately move a hand up to his hair, affectionately playing with it. The two of you stay like that, simply enjoying being so close to each other. It feels incredibly right.
"So how do you feel?" he eventually asks, perhaps feeling braver to ask now that he doesn’t have to look into your eyes when he does.
You don’t reply right away, still feeling incredibly nervous despite knowing he does like you back. Eventually, you do build up the courage to say something. "I like you. Like, a lot."
Bucky moves back to look at you know. The look on his face gives you the impression that he wasn’t expecting you to be so honest with your answer, perhaps expecting another silly joke or sarcastic remark. And even though you thought about the possibility of choosing a more humorous approach, after keeping your feelings for him locked up and stored away for so long, you really needed to just say it.
Instead of saying something back, Bucky tightens his grip around your shoulders just enough, using his other hand to grab your chin right before kissing you. It certainly takes you by surprise, but you're quickly returning the kiss as you just completely melt in his arms, still trying to convince yourself that this is not some kind of hyper-realistic dream.
His hand swiftly moves to your cheek as the kiss continues, the gesture so incredibly delicate, a sharp contrast with the pure need he’s transmitting through the kiss. It’s desperate, passionate, intense…like he’s been waiting an entire lifetime to finally be able to experience this, grateful for the absolute privilege that it is to kiss you.
One of your hands moves up to the back of his neck and your touch seems to encourage him that much more because before you know it, he's taking the opportunity to gently bite your bottom lip, right before continuing to make out with you.
Much to yours and Bucky's disappointment, the sound of his apartment's doorbell echoes through the apartment, indicating the food you previously ordered has arrived.
He reluctantly pulls away with a soft grunt. "Food's here," he comments out loud, offering you a soft smile. He takes a brief moment to look at you, brushing his thumb against your cheek in an affectionate manner, dreading the idea of having to leave this couch. "I'll get it."
"I can help," you offer almost immediately.
Instead of replying right away, he leans in for a short kiss. "I'll get it," he insists, quickly making his way to the door after another buzz could be heard.
You sat in his living room in complete disbelief of what just happened, thankful that he's not here right now to see your goofy smile and blushed cheeks. He'd probably tease you to no end if he did see that.
Not knowing what else to do, you immediately reach for your phone, opening your messages. You knew exactly who would be the right people to share the news with.
'uhm so we just kissed??????' you texted, the first message in the group chat you just created with Sam and Joaquín.
Joaquín is the first one to reply. 'HELL YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!'
'FUCKING FINALLY.' Sam texts shortly after.
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I am once again learning German the funniest way possible. The one downside to my methods is that it leads to me having a great grasp of how to say "your mouth is only good for one thing" and zero clue how to ask for anything useful
#As silly as it is that I can talk about wars and also swears in German despite my lack of Useful Words at least its better than my Japanese#I know 'reborn' (but not how it's pronounced) 'nuclear fallout' and also 'water'. did you want any other words? tough fucking shit#(They are 再生 (???) 死の灰 (しのはい/shinohai) and 水 (みず / mizu) respectively)#(And yes I did type that myself via a mixture of an abuse of a Chinese keyboard and the built in handwriting keyboard for Google Translate)#(Yes it was stupid)
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How was the buying process for a new computer? How did you decide which one to get?
Honestly I kinda didn't decide at all. I went onto this site's PC Builder thingy and just clicked one of the cheaper options. I was ignorant and scared of messing something up so I just left all the preset stuff as-is, except removing the graphics card because I already have one. I also kept everything as-is because I was gifted $1000 specifically to get a better computer and wanted to splurge for something good. If I cared more about saving money or if I knew what I was doing, I'd probably have swapped out more stuff. The specific parts I bought are these, but some of them were on sale so I got them for cheaper; I got them for $730, and they're now $800 at the time of writing.
The buying process was easy enough, just scary because it's the biggest purchase I've ever made. The building process was a pain in the butt, but looking up video tutorials and instruction manuals made sure I knew what I was doing. Overall, it took me 24 hours to finally get it fully working. Transferring the files over was slow, painful, and tedious, but that's mainly because of my old computer locking up whenever I tried to transfer too many files to an external drive. There's probably way easier ways to do it.
#other asks#i also only had one each of mouse keyboard and monitor and didn't buy any new ones#so once my new one was partially working i had to keep switching back and forth#unplugging and plugging all the Thingies every time i needed to look up a guide#and then once it was connected to the internet i STILL had to keep switching to transfer the files#and the process of getting the internet took my new computer to a different room so it was just a huge pain#fortunately i was able to use my fucking tv as a monitor for my old computer and just use the mouse to transfer files#in conclusion: there MUST be an easier way#i thought of plugging my old hard drive into the new computer but it doesn't look like it has a slot that fits#my hardware is so old that it's not even compatible lol#so yeah. getting a new computer is an Event#as for how to decide? i have no idea. i kinda got to skip that part#if your computer is as old and weak as mine was then you can probably get a bunch of cheap stuff and still see a massive improvement#i think my old computer was from 2016 based on a sticker on the hard drive#it's a hand-me-down from my brother so idk#if you know someone who knows about computer parts then they can probably help you a ton#i unfortunately do not. i simply followed the wisdom of those who came before me (popular rankings list)#oh wait hang on the “entry level” preset is probably way more budget friendly#but again i wanted to make the most of my $1000#even tho i only spend 73% of it lol#the entry level AMD preset minus the graphics card is $640
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I really can't decide if the public-facing breakdowns are actually leading to the resolution of said public facing breakdowns or if i'm just slightly too irritable at all times
#100% секретный дневнік левы НЕ ЧІТАЙ#дарэчы i lost my russian keyboard when my phone reset the other day and i guess i forgot to reinstall it. oops#anyways today roommate said 1) hey do u ... want to be involved in food and 2) mentioned by hair looked better so#idk.... XD halp#yknow that post thats like 'stop! say some words out loud to another person' thats like 99% of my issues i think#also eh. . . how to say........#my mom says i have trouble saying no to things but really it's like. i struggle to express any opinion really . or any 'want'.#so i say idk a lot because i'm processing my answer ... and then trying to put it into words ......#conversely i wonder if this is why aac interests me because despite the non-instantaneous nature the extra processing time can be helped#by searching for words. this is likely far from universal but i do wonder if that's how it is for me...?#anyways the whole autism/anxiety-related eh .... well mutism as a catch-all not a minute detail term if that makes sense. that whole thing#[...] does Not help.#like oops! you are not one of the 2 (two) immediate family members i actively like & hang out with sometimes. No Words Now! 🤗
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Once again dreaming about a life that is probably out of my financial level
Oh 3 bedroom apartment i rent with one other person to make costs reasonable so we can also have room for an office and crafting in the third bedroom I desire you so but I know you probably aren’t meant to be
#first off idk who id live with like that#second off i dont earn enough right now to do that in the smaller city i live in#how long will it take to earn enough where i can split with just one other person and how will the housing market have changed during#and also where will i live#bc it also depends on local market#but i cant stop imagining my bedroom with a comfy bed and nice furniture#and a living/dining room with a nice couch and some plants and a music corner with a keyboard and my bassoon setup#and a third bedroom where I can setup a desk with room for a conputer monitor and dock and also stationary#and a kitchen with a fridge freezer oven and hopefully dishwasher#in unit laundry would be so nice too#the thing is I KNOW this isnt gonna happen any time soon#not while im still in grad school#and probably not for a while after until i start earning real people money#but my industry doesnt pay well so#idk i want a space of my own#and ive moved on from living by myself because thats even more impossible#rn i want a space that i can split with someone i like and an friends with and can decorate how i like#living in this house with all white furniture is starting to get to me#i need some wood stuff asap
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#this is taking a lot longer than i thought it would#curse rhetorical analysis essays#also grammarly wtf is 'a new experience is replacing our keyboard' with an activate button constantly popping up#but then just taking me to the general settings#bc im not adjusting permissions and there isnt any other fucking keyboard options#stop tempting me to just delete you from my phone#i will do it#amber's shit you can ignore
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