#and all of this negativity is just exhausting

[ipsomaniac]

argh this moment is so sad but also makes me boggle at the skill of the directors and animators. such smart framing and body language for the purpose of hurting meeee.

Earlier in the scene when Viktor emerges from the hex-cocoon we don't see his body as a whole; we get a bunch of close ups of various body parts. This works from a storytelling perspective - immediately showing us the enormity of his transformation - but also conveys Viktor's dehumanised perspective, self-alienation, and the disoriented proprioception he must be experiencing.

The first shot in this gifset is striking, showing Jayce's astonished face framed through Viktor's decontextualised arms. Viktor appears here as a depersonalised, geometric, monumental negative space, his metallic purple body contrasting with the warm golden tones of Jayce's skin. Jayce's humanness vs. Viktor's alienness highlighted through colour theory, framing, shape and scale.

Then we get an immediate flip of perspective when Viktor asks "What am I?": we see someone incredibly vulnerable. That momentary beseeching upwards glance, at the same time as we finally get a clear shot of him and are reminded of his former physical frailty. Although he's now metal and magic, he's still narrow-shouldered and pigeon-chested with the remnants of his brace etched permanently onto his skin. The camera angle is slightly above him, making him look even smaller.

Then the sequence of facial expressions after Jayce says, "You're alive." These animators man. The sweaty wired sleepless exhaustion, the disbelieving little eye-roll and delirious smile of relief, the flash of a pained expression as he goes up to hug Viktor. No trace of the Golden Boy, just a groggy human mess with a lot of feelings.

And that hug..... !!!!!! how could they do this. Both characters are in a state of (semi)-nudity. Viktor is naked and Jayce is topless save for his bandages. Leaving shipping aside, as a point of emotional storytelling it's important that this is full skin-on-skin contact - I think the first we see for these characters in the show. This is a moment of maximum vulnerability, it should be a moment of openness...

But it's all wrong!!! The body language is on stratospherically different wavelengths: the physical impact of Jayce colliding with Viktor, how his naive exhuberence contrasts with Viktor's reserve, how he unintentionally dwarfs and smothers Viktor in the hug. For Jayce the hug is a pure, unselfconscious expression of emotion; whereas Viktor looks like he's drowning, his elbow awkwardly jutting out, his arm a symbolic barrier between them.

Then some of the saddest facial expressions in the show I think. You can basically see Viktor's gears turning as he processes the hug, you get this momentary eyebrow raise as he analyses his own perceptions and then this absolutely heartbreaking sequence of expressions while he raises his hand to Jayce's shoulder for the last embrace they will share until their deaths. Up for interpretation what exactly is going through Viktor's mind here but I imagine the hug is a catalyst for him to realise how profoundly alienated he is from his humanity and former perspective, and what that means for his partnership with Jayce. His physical senses feel different; there's a *recursive impulse* where his emotions used to be; a claustrophobic compulsion to get out of the suffocating embrace of Piltover politics and human messiness that Jayce represents. He's got to leave. But it pains him, at least momentarily. He registers the loss of himself through the loss of Jayce. You see his face contort and for a very brief second it looks like he's grieving. I think this is the last proper emotion he shows in the physical realm.

And then the rest of the scene is maybe even worse tbh but more so through dialogue. Here what strikes me is the sheer genius of the framing and animation. Arcane goes so crazy on colour, composition and micro-expressions and it's used to great effect in this scene. anyway

ARCANE LEAGUE OF LEGENDS: 2x02 - “Watch It All Burn”

[bloomzone]

2025 : #15 questions inbox ! part 1

✒️.hi sparkles ! Today’s blog is all about answering y'all questions I’ve been reading through everything in my inbox maybe u will found an answer of a question u had in ur mind here ? Let's start !

Q1 : when I'm in a bad mode or maybe just bored idk how to make it clear but my mood is always the one who controls my actions ? How to stop this ?

Answer : the rule is Never ever EVER let your mood dictate what you do , u have to take action first because movement changes your mood. For example u want to be fit u need to exercise and workout several times in the week then u will feel amazing u will feel incredible cuz u take that one step or if u want to get good grades u need to study daily then u will feel productive and happy cuz u know the action of "studying" will improve ur grades and ur knowledge etc and it will lead u to your goals So Act like the person you want to become And when u start taking those actions and you start moving in the direction of your dreams and the things that you want and deserve in life your mood will follow trust me

Q2 :help how to stop overthinking about what people around me think about me

Answer : Stop worrying about what other people think and let them think what they want. You cannot control what another person thinks about you U CAN'T( this is a point that a lot of ppl need to understand )so how about you focus on what you think about yourself and let them have a negative thought at the end of the day ppl will judge . u can't control it and trying to do it will just making u insecure so focus on what you can control and , what you think about yourself , what you do every day that makes you proud of yourself and when u're proud of yourself you don't care what anybody thinks because you know who you are So let others think what they want and focus on ur power which is your actions and how u live your life . Say this every morning "I choose to focus on what I can control. I release the fear of others' judgments and give them the freedom to think, say, and feel whatever they wish. My life is my responsibility, and I will act in ways that make me proud of myself. I trust in my journey and take the necessary steps to achieve my goals. I am confident in who I am, and I let go of the need for external validation. Today, I will honor my growth and stay true to myself, knowing that my worth comes from within."

Q3: I feel so exhausted from life

Answer : Feeling exhausted and overwhelmed is a natural response dw abt it ! It’s okay to acknowledge that it shows you're human with feeling ur time and energy are your most valuable assets so if you’re feeling drained it’s likely because you’ve been pouring those resources ur energy and ur power into people and things that don’t truly deserve them. It’s time to release them. Allow others to handle their work stress. Allow them to deal with their drama.let the noise of the world—endless opinions, constant demands, and unnecessary distractions—to continue without you. Instead, redirect your focus inward. Reclaim your energy and channel it into creating your own peace and calm.By doing this, you protect your time and prioritize what truly matters. And as a result, you’ll no longer feel exhausted—you’ll feel empowered and in control.take break from everything and recharge

Q4: How can practicing mindfulness improve daily life?

Answer : Practicing mindfulness can significantly improve daily life by helping you stay present and fully engaged in the moment, reducing stress, and improving emotional regulation. When you’re mindful, you’re less likely to get caught up in regrets about the past or anxieties about the future, which allows you to approach situations with greater clarity and calmness. It enhances your focus, making you more productive and less distracted throughout the day. Additionally, mindfulness fosters self-awareness, helping u better understand your emotions and respond to problems and challenges with patience rather than impulsiveness !

Q5: Why is it so hard to stick to new habits?

Answer : Because our brain are lazy ! Our brains LOVES routine and sticking to what’s comfortable, even if that means doing things that don’t serve you. When u try to start a new habit for example like exercising or journaling, your brain sees it as extra work and throws every excuse at you to avoid it. Plus, most people go too big too fast, expecting overnight results, and when they don’t see progress right away, they quit. The solution is Start small SO small it feels almost ridiculous Want to start working out? Do five pushups. Want to journal? Write one sentence. Your brain won’t resist tiny changes, and over time, those small steps snowball into habits that actually stick. Consistency beats intensity every single time daily reminder DON'T GIVE UP

Q6: How can I manage my time better as a student?

Answer : Managing time effectively as a student requires planning and A LOOTTTT OF DISCIPLINE Start by creating a daily or weekly schedule that includes all your classes, study time, and personal activities (buy a planner it's not that expensive + u can use digital planners !). Prioritize tasks by urgency and importance, focusing on what needs to be done first. Break larger tasks into smaller and more manageable chunks and set specific goals for each study session. Avoid distractions by creating a quiet, organized study space and limiting access to social media during work time pleaseeee Remember to take breaks to recharge and don't forget to get enough sleep

[ Part 2 soon !]

@bloomzone

[n0vabug]

Lifeline

Billie Eilish x female reader

summary: you've bottled your feelings up for so long and when they finally come crashing down, billie is there to help.

warnings: angst and sad that ends in comfort, depression, crying, not proofread

you sit there as the burning water beats down on your cold back. very contrasting. you were staring down at the white porcelain beneath your feet, drowning in your own thoughts. they felt suffocating. like weights stacked on your back and hands wrapped around your throat that slowly got tighter every second. but nothing was actually there. then you heard her voice. her soft, gentle voice with a little rasp to it. the voice that seemed to contradict all the negative. it made your thoughts stop for a bit, but not forever like you wish they could.

"baby, you ok in there?" obviously not. but you didn't wanna tell her though. she had just gotten back from tour and was already working on new music. she was clearly exhausted. you didn't wanna dump your own problems onto her plate when her plate was already full. why did she always have to be so selfless and check on you even when she couldn't muster up a thought from being so tired.

"yeah i'm fine, bils... just felt really dirty from today... wanna be extra clean." you did feel dirty, that wasn't a lie. i mean you had spent the whole day doing chores inside and on the outside of the house, so you wanted to rinse that off. but you had been in there for almost an hour. you were definitely clean. now you were just soaking in your strangling thoughts.

billie didn't believe you. not when you had been almost silent for days on end. you hadn't been eating much. you hadn't been running around outside with shark and brutus. you hadn't been running over to billie to share every piece of drama, even if it was the smallest thing ever. and the worst of all. you lost the spark in your eyes. the spark that used to be the brightest thing ever. now it was just gone. but billie didnt wanna make it worse and push you by constantly asking. it was almost impossible not to though when the circles under your eyes looked like bruises and your ribs were poking out.

"are you gonna be out soon?" she was clearly concerned by the tone of her voice. she wasn't making some joke or being silly. she was serious. "yeah just gimme 5" she lingered on the other side of the door for a second, debating on whether to say something else, but she just walked away.

you turned the water off and stood up, you walked out of the shower and onto the bathroom tiles. you grabbed a towel from the rack and wrapped yourself in it. the mirror was fogged up from how hot the water was. you stood there for a moment and wiped the fog. staring at the unrecognizable person looking back. you turned around and walked back into the bedroom, grabbing some comfy oversized clothes that felt like they weren't there. any tight clothes on your body might make you feel like you would explode. everything else already felt tight. and it started feeling tighter every second.

you started to feel like you couldn't breathe. you sat on the edge of the bed to take deep breaths and try to calm yourself, but it just turned into all the accumulated emotions bubbling over.

"please..." you quietly pleaded and rasped out when you felt the tears start to fall. "stop... just stop..." you started to rock your body and accept that this wasn't gonna stop that quickly. everything was bad. it was so bad. you didn't even know why it was so bad. but all you were doing was sitting there while your thoughts killed you.

you didn't even stop when you felt the pair of arms wrap around your shaking body. her arms. billie's. she held you tight and rocked you. trying to do anything to calm the storm inside you. "everything's gonna be okay..." she whispered. and for a moment, you believed her. "i've got you..."

she kept whispering comforting words through the 30 minutes of crying. but when i calmed down, you just looked empty again. your face was tear streaked, your eyes were red and a little swollen, and your face was puffy. she didnt care though. she thought you looked beautiful no matter what.

"you know i'm here for you, baby... why don't you talk to me when you get bad again?" but you didnt have an answer. just a sigh. she understood though. its hard to open up, even if you trust someone a lot. you trusted her more than you trusted yourself. if the world was ending and she told you everything was gonna be okay, you would believe her.

she just rocked you and would gently run her fingers through your hair as your face rested against her chest. "do you wanna start seeing the therapist again?" she already knew the answer was probably no, but she just wanted to throw it out incase you changed your mind. but you shook your head.

"can you at least try and talk to me when it gets bad? even if its just a little bit?" you hesitated for a moment before answering. you knew she worried and you hated that she did. but she loved you and it was hard for her not to worry when you were basically falling apart in front of her. you nodded. you would take the steps, even if it was small. you wanted to get better. for her.

"thank you, baby. i know how hard it can be. i'm right here though. always. okay? i'm so proud of you and i love you so so much.." her words were gentle, like her touch. her touch that you melted into. "thank you. i love you too..." you whispered with a broken voice. it was from all the crying.

she eventually shifted so you guys were laying down. she wanted you to get some good rest. "get some rest, my love... i love you more than anything..." she ran her fingers through your hair and kept whispering sweet things. you knocked out within minutes. you were exhausted from all the crying. her gentle touch and sweet words were the only thing that made you feel like everything wasn't ending. she made you feel okay even if you felt like you were dying. she was like your lifeline. and you loved her more than anything.

A/N: hi i made this a while back in my drafts and just thought about it. i dont know if i like it though. if youre ever feeling like this and need to talk then my dms are always open ❤️‍🩹.

[jaycetclis]

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excuse me I'm annoyed and I'm gonna rant for a second :)

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[thedissonantverses]

Yeah you should have stayed out of the discourse if this is what you’re choosing to do. You know you could have made your own post right? I am so sick of whenever someone tries to have a positive take on this game, someone has to come along and yell at them for daring to enjoy a game that you didn’t.

Your premise fails on contact because we all clearly found a lot to roleplay in this game. I have seen so many different type of Rooks based off what the game gave us. Maybe if you weren’t just adding more negativity to the discussion when there is already an overwhelming amount of exhausting, repetitive, vitriolic, hyperbolic, useless, and bad faith criticisms you could learn how to have an imagination and a good time to.

No one told you you had to like Rook. No one said you have to like Veilguard. Find a different game if you didn’t like this one. There are plenty of people who agree with you go find them and leave the rest of us alone.

Thing I really enjoy about DA:TV - Rook

Full disclosure: I feel that the issues people have with Rook as a protagonist are very much a product of our time and culture, as well as the expectations created for the game in the past decade.

We live in a moment when all most heroes and protagonists are morally grey, unwilling, disillusioned, and detached. Being genuine, trying to do the right thing, and perhaps even being uncompromising about your values is seen as cringe.

So yeah, Veilguard came out at a point in my life when I felt like I was watching movies with the same main character and playing characters with the same sort of snarky attitude.

I’m genuinely so into a Rook who is just uncompromisingly a kind person—someone who asks how the characters are doing and helps people not just with fetch quests but with their personal lives. A lot of it is personal preference, but my favorite Veilguard moment was finding out Bellara is writing a book (and helping with it) and having drinks with Taash. Let me roleplay a hero that characters actually, genuinely like and want to spend time with. Show me the little things.

I guess the big payoff of Rook is the finale of the game. There are several lead-up conversations with Solas about leadership, and the contrast between the two is repeatedly emphasized. Solas thinks removing distractions from the team’s lives would help achieve a goal, but Rook genuinely cares. The companions willingly follow Rook out of respect and care, not out of necessity. The game wouldn’t work with a different protagonist but that’s a separate discussion.

Rook is my special little treat that I play in these tiring times.

[crossdressingdeath]

You know what the most frustrating thing about DAV criticism is at the moment? It's that I do in fact have criticisms. Quite a few, actually. It's a Bioware game, of course I have criticisms. No one I've spoken to or whose posts I've seen thinks it's perfect or above criticism. But the thing is, I—and I imagine a lot of other firmly positive blogs—know that if I share any of those criticisms, if I make posts discussing them and talk about the game's flaws, I will immediately be inundated by people using those complaints to insist that the whole game is garbage and the writing is bad and Bioware's a terrible studio who can't make good games and DAI (of all fucking games) was so much better and blah blah blah blah. I know that because it's happened every goddamn time I've made a less-than-positive post about DAV. And I don't have the energy to deal with that! The endless stream of bad faith criticism wears me down and having to constantly stop to defend a game I like when I'm trying to discuss its flaws because if I don't (and frankly half the time even if I do) people will use my posts to claim the whole game is garbage is exhausting, and fandom is supposed to be fun. So I can't discuss DAV's flaws on tumblr if I want to avoid that, and it is infuriating. I see people bitching about toxic positivity and people refusing to acknowledge the game's flaws, and I really want those people to take a second to consider: do the game's fans ignore its flaws and refuse to accept that anything about it is bad? Or have you created an environment that is so toxic that no one who likes the game wants to risk getting your attention by mentioning what's bad about it and they respond more aggressively than is warranted to even genuine critique in an attempt to ward you off? Because there will always be assholes who claim that genuine problems are Fine, Actually, Stop Being Such A Baby... but if people can't address the game's flaws in public without immediately getting dragged into five different arguments about how it is in fact ultimately a really solid game, they're not going to do it no matter how much they recognise those flaws.

[sweetshelluvaau]

You know, at this point I'm wholeheartedly convinced that fanart/fanfiction/fan any content is what's keeping Hellaverse alive because when fan content has better writing and portrayals of these characters than the actual shows and canon themselves you kinda know you fucked up.

I'm not necessarily talking about fanon either, I've been writing within the Hellaverse RPC (roleplay community) here for almost a year now and seeing how people take these characters, deconstruct them and flesh them out with their own spin on things regardless if these are just small little add ons to already established lore or drastic changes, the share creativity coming from these writers and the muns I've befriended make me wish we had a show(s) that was made with as much love and care than those who do enjoy Hellaverse in some shape or form.

It also helps that half of that RPC is as critical and salty as I am. Birds of a feather flock together.

Don't get me wrong, the Hellaverse fandom as a whole is a cesspool of toxicity and horrible people, there are bad eggs within the RPC as well trust me, but one of the reasons why I am still in some of these spaces (critical and small groups with friends) is because I enjoy the creativity that comes out of those who do have passion and care for these shows and what they could have been suppose to what they ended up being...

Idk I feel like despite how cynical and jaded I've become and stopped watching Helluva Boss all together outside of the shorts that interest me, I like to look on the more positive parts of the fandom and community even how much the Stans and toxic fans extremely outnumber them...

[fangswbenefits]

Yeah.

I've definitely fallen in love....

[loveromeo1641]

I recently reinstalled tiktok and GOD it was such a jumpscare remembering how god awful the tiktok tdlosk fandom was compared to tumblr. Like jesus christ why is everyone so negative and shitty all the fucking time, do they not get like exhausted from it

[phantomsies]

on second thought, I’m thinking I should’ve never come back to this app lmao

[lesbianralzarek]

i have a lot of gripes with the way mizora's sex scene (and honestly the relationship she has with wyll in general (thanks, christmas animation)) is handled, but its not necessarily a terrible addition to an rpg where you can do some bad shit (iirc you cant fuck mizora if you assaulted the grove tho, so mostly good pcs even get this option). what is terrible is the lack of gravity given to it, and the fact that you can only betray wyll in this way. if you could also fuck gortash or shar, and doing so had tangible consequences no matter what, id be much happier with it. as it stands, a player who is in good standing with wyll (or doesnt play with him anyway) and is romancing astarion, shadowheart, or even fucking karlach (why is this not a dealbreaker for her???) gets away with it. why is fucking the woman who owns an origin character's soul and calls him her pet and turned him into a devil and has condemned him to eternal torment not a big deal?

it would also sting less if (and i say this as a lesbian) wyll had a sex scene. wyll is the only romanceable character with no sex scene, and his abuser gets a long-ass full frontal cutscene. come on. do larians writers understand that abuse against men is always bad, or is it okay when the abuser is a sexy white (coded) woman? wylls selflessness to the extent of self-harm is a core part of his character, but its fucked up that everyone gets away with hurting him. he only leaves if you attack other people (the grove), but you can do whatever you want to him personally. you cant hurt mizora, even though shes hanging out in. your. camp. because who gives a shit? hurting a black guy is a victimless crime in this game

[edwinisms]

see I need ghost clothes to have properties more or less like regular clothes because wearing someone else’s jacket or shirt is one of the most important expressions of affection in existence and yes basically what I’m saying is i wanna see charles give edwin his jacket for one reason or another and see edwin get all flustered and giddy about it

[blamemma]

idk personally i dont think its incompetent or bad of a team to realise these problems BEFORE the race. they're trying hard to fix them as quickly as possible. y'all would have had a much bigger issue if this had happened DURING the race. i have faith. i trust them.

[godblooded]

feeling all kinds of awful in this chili’s this godforsaken morning.

[moregraceful]

EVERYBODY SHUT UP!!!!!! PAT SIELOFF IS PREGNANT!!!!!

1. Birthday cake from Sierra and Kelly; 2. Gritty soft serve ice cream cup; 3. Sign for Erik Johnson's 1k celebration; 4. Jersey Devil Christmas tree ornament.

[torchickentacos]

I'm reading poetry at 1 am and spiraling over like 45 emotions at once, which is how poetry was meant to be enjoyed, I think