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Not to focus overly on my Rookanis feels, but I love the dialogue cutscene where Lucanis and Davrin are drinking together, sharing stories, and invite Rook to sit with them, for so many reasons.
I mean, I love the dialogue cutscene in general and both the guys in it. The mood is great. The dialogue is just so damn funny. It's a friendly dick measuring contest between our favourite boys. After the initial antagonism and tension, they've become friends. There are bizarre lore drops. The stories are entertaining and frankly wtf? A big writhing ball of angry nugs? Created through blood magic? The stuff of nightmares! I wish I could see Lucanis deal with that. I wish I could see Davrin figure out the big heap of tentacles. I love the way the guys are just a little tipsy in a cute way. Lucanis talks a little too loud in comparison with what we're used to. Davrin is starting to have trouble articulating. The "Of course we're getting along. We're PROFESSIONALS," as Lucanis raises his cup a little towards Davrin always cracks me up. Also, Lucanis, are you drinking wine from a coffee cup? The way they both invite Rook to stay and participate. The prospect of slightly drunk cooking and snacking and sharing stories. All in all, it's a beautiful scene that makes me smile every time.
But let me also yap about Lucanis for a moment. (Of course you will let me. It's not like you can stop me. No one can stop me. Not even me.) I want to focus on how Lucanis interacts with Rook in this scene.
It's obvious he's let himself relax a little. He's a bit intoxicated. Clearly he's having fun. He smiles easily and flutters his eyelashes at Rook. When you choose the dialogue option that mentions ruining Solas' ritual, Lucanis insists that Rook tells the story. "[Neve and Harding] don't tell it the way you would," he says, encouraging Rook to talk about something, from what he says, he seems to have already heard, because he wants to hear them tell it.
Then he decides he'll cook something while they chat, but he emphasizes that he will only do so "if Rook's staying," nudging them further. It couldn't be more clear that he wants them there and that he enjoys their company.
I feel like I don't see enough people feral about it, because come on, he's so sweet in this scene. He obviously wants Rook around and their presence makes him happy.
And, yeah, I know this scene also happens with "just" friendly Rook. The thing is, I don't give a fuck. I don't think it diminishes the interaction in any way. The context matters. It's sweet with friendly Rook and even sweeter when they're more. Also, I played Lucanis' romance first, and I did not know that. What I saw in this scene during that first playthrough was the man absolutely delighted by Rook's company, repeatedly and enthusiastically asking them to stay and spend time with him, and it made my day. Still does.
When I keep babbling about how much I love Lucanis' romance, it's not just about all the hearts I get to click to see where they lead or the beautiful post-Tearstone love scene, it's also interactions like this where you see how much he wants Rook to be there, all the more or less subtle signs of affection (and yes, also friendship, because that goes hand in hand) that happen throughout the whole game.
#Dragon Age#Dragon Age: The Veilguard#DATV#Veilguard#Lucanis Dellamorte#Rookanis#sometimes I look at certain posts that say that Lucanis' romance made someone/their Rook feel ''unloved''#and I think that whatever feelings one might have about it are valid - I'm not here to tell anyone how they should or shouldn't feel#we all have our own tastes and ideas about what good romance consists of too#but oh boy I can't relate at all#as far as I'm concerned‚ and taking his personality into consideration‚ Lucanis couldn't be more clear he wants (to be around) Rook#and I find their bond to be so special and deep#but they both also approach and cultivate it so carefully and slowly because of all the circumstances and I think that's beautiful#though I admit I don't understand complaints from those who think he's supposedly somehow more interested in Neve than Rook#I mean don't get me wrong - they're a sweet couple when that happens#but on a Rookanis playthrough? seriously?#do they actually pay attention to the man or do they just look at him#is Lucanis a different man in their game than mine?#have they somehow missed all the interactions between him and Rook - romanced or not - throughout the whole game?#vs a few friendly lines he has with Neve?#idk man couldn't be me#I didn't even know they could get together under different circumstances during my 1st playthrough 😂#I learned that outside the game#I mean I suspected it might be the case because the devs talked about NPC romances but I also suspected Lucanis and Davrin 😆#I only got confirmation later online#but anyway LOOK AT HIS DELIGHTED LIL FACE here
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happy national teachers' day to the only fictional teachers i seem to care about






#yes i included mentor chase#and no i don't feel shame about it he is a valid teacher TO ME#and yes those are in fact horns on that teacher's forehead let's move on#went for a chalkboard and pencil color theme#can't decide if i actually like it#komos you were actually good at your job before you remembered you came here for revenge sigh#mr komos#komos#chase davenport#donna robbins#donna boden#nathan ajayi#youssef farouk#gabriel iglesias#melissa schemmenti#barbara howard#monster high the movie#lab rats#lab rats bionic island#chicago fire#heartstopper#mr. iglesias#abbott elementary#i've learned that i apparently have beef with most fictional teachers...#(also i stopped watching abbott elementary so my opinions on the characters are not up to date)#really loving how all of them look approachable except for chase and mr farouk...that's actually so funny
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So many depictions of the main DC Trinity have Clark be the tallest of the bunch. And while yes, he is a big ol' farm boy, I have to disagree and state why I think the opposite: Clark should appear to be the shortest.
Basically, Bruce and Clark are supposed to both be around the same height (6'3" or smth). However. Bruce also canonically pads his suit to look larger than he is for intimidation. You combine that with his cape which blankets around him and makes him look like a tall shadow, and he kinda just always looks like a hulking beast straight out of a fairy tale. He just feels much bigger than he is.
And Diana is like 7 feet tall. I'm not usually into the whole like "my opinion is the only correct one" but I am here. She's an Amazon AND the daughter of Zeus. She towers over everybody and I will not take criticisms on it.
Artistic depiction.
#IM KIDDING IM NOT ACTUALLY GONNA BE A PEDANTIC ASSHOLE ABOUT HER HEIGHT ALL OPINIONS ARE VALID#also can we talk about how genius Bats' cape thing is? make himself look bigger and stronger and then add the cape to appear as if he towers#over everybody when in reality hes not really much taller than like ivy#clarks outfit is supposed to make him look friendly and approachable. bruces makes him look like a demon straight from hell#and dianas just being fashionable with her armor#dc trinity#wonder woman#diana of themyscira#diana prince#the batman#the caped crusader#caped crusader#batman#bruce wayne#superman#clark kent#kal el#the justice league#justice league#dc comics#superwonderbat#dc
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this exchange goes crazy...dana "i worship the sea he sailed on" "i did it because i knew if he found out he would kill me" "part of me likes it, needs it, wants the approval" " along the way there are other fathers" "i thought you'd be pleased" "he was my instructor at the academy" "he must have been a wonderful teacher...yes, he's remarkable man" "your fear of failing him?" scully would know a thing or two about THAT...
#trying to gather my Thoughts on the different ways mulder and scully approach authority...#scully essentially lays out her entire deal in never again between craving the approval and attention of an authority figure#only to eventually chafe under the weight of their expectation; the constraints of cooperation and submission#she likes being 'chosen' so to speak - by jack; by daniel - it means she's special. she glows under their approval; it means something to#have their favor#it validates her - she is smart she is capable she is exceptional#(something something sainthood something something being chosen by god for great works something something if you genuflect and pray and do#all the rituals just right something something catholicism)#mulder on the other hand i have a harder time getting into his head re: authority#people like phoebe and diana hold a level of control over him but this isn't an exact superior/subordinate relationship#does he ever really express a real desire to please skinner? he seems to have always been disdainful of patterson#i will have to think on it more.......#the x files
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Idk if I already sent this in or if it glitches out and didn’t send but I found this on pinterest:

OH MY FUCKING GOD STORYTIME REAL QUICK EVERYONE SIT DOWN. OKAY SO I SAW THIS ALREADY LIKE A WEEK AGO SO I WENT INTO THIS PERSONS DMS TO ASK THEM TO TAKE IT DOWN BC I LITERALLY DONT ALLOW REPOSTS AT ALL. AND THEN THEY ACCEPTED THE REQUEST. SO I WAS LIKE OK GOOD THEYRE CIVILIZED. WE'RE GONNA SORT THIS OUT. BUT THEN THEY LEFT ME ON READ. AND THEN THEY FUCKING BLOCKED ME??????????????????????? LIKE?????????????????????? THE FUCKING AUDACITY????????????????????????
#yeah anyway i hope they explode or smth have fun knowing you steal art and then when the creator approaches you respectfully#to ask you to take their work down you fucking panic and block them bc oh noooo i have to maintain my 1k followers bc all my validation#comes from online and numerical worth and in super fucking insecure abt it#GET A THERAPIST FUCKING BITCH. OR TRY CREATING ART YOURSELF?????? MAYBE YOULL FEEL BETTER ABOUT YOURSELF#anyway wow aren't they so hot in that art😍 slay era forreal#lotus’s asks
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had an incredibly empathetic conversation with a christian woman tonight (whom i also made out with) about gender identity maybe the world can be saved after all
#.txt#like sure she had some ideas about that no on should transition before adulthood that i don't agree with#but i also think that is a fundementally different question from weather trans identities are valid at all#very hard subject for me personally to have an opinion on since i transitioned after age 18#i just have to refer to scientific studies that prove a lower risk of sh/suicide when trans people#(even trand teens) receive affirming care#love u all and im drunk collapsed in front of my front door typing this#trans people are so real the people who respect you will make an effort to refer to/approach you as you want to be treated
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i know everyone has their opinions on whether the seven (and nico + reyna) were all really that close in canon or whether they should be close or think that their bond would fall apart after the quest was over and the war was won but what i find real and true is that regardless of how their friendship was developed in canon they all wholeheartedly cheer for and support each other's happiness
#eye think that rr *intended* for them to be closer but didnt actually put in the effort to develop it canon#apart from the trios most of his attention went to his romantic pairs#he constantly tells instead of shows us that x characters were friends or that the 9 all meet up monthly#i think they are supposed to read as friends not coworkers but the execution was lacking from rr's part#anyways idk everyone has their own opinions on them and thats cool#i only disagree when ppl seriously claim that they all hated each other#bc i dont think thats true at all lol even if the development was severely lacking for some duos in canon#so whether they were genuinely close in the text (ex: piper & leo) or had a minimum of 3 interactions (ex: annabeth & frank)#i still think that all they want is for the other to be happy and safe#thinking about nico and will and how even tho we dont SEE these friendships between all of them unfold post hoo#all of the 7 were undoubtedly very supportive of their relationship#they want each other to heal and find happiness#ik people like to approach the sevens hypothetical bond post hoo from a realistic lens and while thats valid#i like to find some comfort in my fave media so im more on the side that ppl can change and grow and learn and#their bonds can stay intact or become stronger#i think jasons death could cause a rift but they eventually find their way back#pjo#cin's txt.#percy jackson#the seven pjo#hoo
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GIRL CODED JASON !!!!! HI HELLO OMG TUMBLR USER AND AMAZING AO3 WRITER GHOST BIRD YOUR POSTS AND STORIES JUST ACTIVATE BRAINWORMS IN MY HEAD 😭😭😭😭 holy fuck hi I'm too shy to come off anon but I love the discussions you've been having, so just chipping in !!!
I love the many many looks on how people interpret him being girl-coded, exploring his feelings towards domestic violence, towards victims, women etc, extremely good points that you brought up ! And I'd like to bring up that on a more meta level, the way his character is treated by DC and by people in canon as a whole is also so... girl-coded ? Going to try my best to articulate since eng is my 3rd language 😔😔 Sorry if it's not consise 😭😭 I have FEELINGS AAAAAAAAAAAA
I think the core of this "girl-codedness" stems from a few things, two things I can point to currently are how he's treated as a victim and fridging. Fridging is the easier one to see imo, it's something that's usually associated with female characters but fits Jason a lot. It's not about him and his trauma/pain being feminine inherently (nothing can be categorised in that way honestly) but how it's dealt with by people and the narrative.
Let's take a look at its counterpart which is 'Dead Men Defrosting' trope coined by John Barton. Here's the source for that: https://www.lby3.com/wir/r-jbartol2.html, and a quote from the Women in Refridgerators website I feel is really encapsulates this whole situation.
"...women heroes are altered again and never allowed, as male heroes usually are, the chance to return to their original heroic states. And that's where we begin to see the difference."
Sounds familiar, doesn't it? Additionally, the grief that his death bought is made to be even more objectifying than it should have been. It's made to be Bruce's and everyone else's more than it is Jason's. The image of the dead character is, by necessity, distorted and is served as fuel towards a different character. He's reduced to his death and the pain associated with it is milked for like... 16 yearsish??? A perverted memorial, a perverted memory, an altered legacy. He was just 15. A boy. (Still, I wouldn't say Jason was fridged per say, as the term is created in reference to female characters and they have little to no agency in their stories there, but that 'feel' is there. So I understand where the girl-codedness comes from!)
It’s that the way a lot of characters treat him and a lot of the tropes used on him are things that are typically associated with feminine characters. It's also about how he's treated since he's not a perfect victim. Every attempt Jason has made to express his pain and his anger just gets him labelled as emotional, unreasonable and hysterical (which are again, unfortunately terms associated with women.)
There's many different points people have brought up about Jason, such as his bleeding compassion as Robin, the tears at the end of UTRH, and so on. Nonetheless, I think there's a lot of nuance that comes with gender discussions, since these things are deeply personal to people, and there's disagreements to be had. And that's cool !! There's many points loads of other people also being to the table that I love !! Contradictions too !!
Anyhow, so many cool PPL and analysis these days,,, ILY ANON WHO BROUGHT UP TITANS TOWER (anonanonanon pls chip in again and my life will be URS) Also ILY TUMBLR USER MAGIC-CRAZY-AS-THIS FOR PUTTING THE WEDDING DRESS IMAGERY IN MY HEAD, ALSO ILY GHOSTBIRD FOR THAT AMAZING REPLY AND ANALYSIS,, I LOVE THIS LITTLE POCKET OF COMMUNITY U HAVE CREATED this is so beloved 🥺🥺🥺💞💞💞💞
All very good points!
I don’t have much to add here except perhaps the argument with the memorial case. You’re absolutely right. I never realized how similar it is to the classic hero trope of protagonist mourning their dead love interest/family and dedicating their entire life to a memory of them, citing the actions they take to be in honor of the dead person.
On one hand, I tend to enjoy that trope. On the other hand with Jason, it all became horribly twisted so very quickly and lead to a hard downward spiral of Bruce having a real assholish phase.
But yeah that’s a whole other can of worms better left unopened for now ksksks.
I’m very happy you’re enjoying this blog 💚 it’s honestly super rewarding to hear people say that when it was one of the main goals to have this be a safe and harmonious space for everyone 💚💚✨
#ghost talks#personal opinion#by no way right or wrong just… existing#obviously it’s also to okay if someone here doesn’t like Jason at all!#totally valid#although with how much I gush about Jason very unlikely around here kskskskks#fandom and ship positivity#harmonious vibes#and a healthy approach to fiction and online interaction#batfamily
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For a fic ask: What drew you to Aegon to the point of wanting to write a story about him? What made you look at him, see him in a way that had you go: Let me write a softer end for you. (Apologies if you’ve answered this in the past)
For everyday life: What animal did you like as a child? Has it stayed the same? If yes, why do you think that is? If not what is it now (and reason if you want to share)? Also, is there an animal you respect? (like in the sense you may not care for it but you understand its purpose and why others may like it)
These are such fun asks! Thank you!
Fic Ask: That's such an interesting question because that's not at all how I approached Maiden. (But if this is how someone approaches their story, that's great for them!) Abby was created before the first episode aired, since I had heard that they were doing a show, and had read F&B a year earlier. I wanted to make a proto-sansa character who was hopeful and kind in the middle of such a traumatic event, being caught between these two individuals (which was even juicier when they de-aged Alicent/Aged up Rhaenyra).
I wanted to write a story where I could try save this tragedy in a way that was satisfying to me, and I fully admit the idea initially started with 'how could I get Aemond and Helaena married?' The adults failed these children, and while I am fully a Woman Kings girl (if you were on my blog before I started writing Maiden, my blog title was 'King is a gender neutral term'), I thought Aegon was in an interesting position. I've always been a Hightower Fangirl, so I naturally gravitated that way (especially since I am not a Targ Supremacy person. The messy family is fun but omg get them out of power) and him and Abby worked very well together when I aged her down. So those two became the heart of Maiden because I really gravitated towards the relationship between Aegon and Alicent, and wanted to explore that as well, and while it is, at the center, Abrogon's story, there's a reason why the POV cast is what it is. I wanted to give a better ending to Helaena who deserves the world, and see what changes I could make. I hope that answers your question!
And additionally, what I like about the character Aegon in general is that he's in such an intriguing position. He's the eldest son of the king, he should be heir, everyone expects this guy to be heir, but it's his sister whose named such. And the thing is, even though he isn't seeking out this place, so much is put on him: His mother's suffering, the safety of his siblings (because he and his brother's are threats to their sister's rule), his desire to just live his life, much like Viserys. Yet when forced into the position, he takes to it. He throws himself into it, he gets on the battlefield (I do not like the way the show tried to portray all of this, as I think it does both Aegon and Rhaenyra a disservice, but that's neither here nor there). As someone who has a vaguely contentious relationship with their own little brother, and their own mommy issues, Aegon offered such an avenue to explore these themes I found interesting.
Animal: CHEETAHS! I LOVE CHEETAHS! My first book series I wrote was the adventures of cheetah girl. Cheetahs are everything to me.
An animal I respect are spiders. I became more accepting of these when moving out to the country, and understanding how vital they are to the ecosystem. Save the spiders! I mean fuck, I had a lil spider living in my driver's side side window that I let hang out for weeks. Named him George.
#thank you for the asks!#Happy to clarify anything about my writing process and how I approach things#basically I have found if I go into something wanting to force a ship#it doesn't work#I like characters because they interest me#and I like exploring how that works#I'm also not someone who 'crushes' on characters or anything like that#which might be where my approach is different#and all approaches to fic are so valid!#I'm certainly not trying to imply that I'm better than someone who approaches fic differently#we all write fic for our own reason#So I tried to answer that as best as I could!
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i have been on dating apps for approximately three weeks now and hear me when i say they have genuinely made me believe hell is real and hell is modern dating
#like what are we doing?#commodified human connection… oh god i can’t take it anymore#i’ve been GLUED to my phone all I talk about with my friends is men and who we’re all talking to#i don’t even remember what i talked about before three weeks ago like are you kidding??#and i felt so much shame for NOT using the apps and now i feel shame for wanting so badly to get off of them#and i’ve been talking with/seeing this guy for two weeks and i want to end it bc i cannot fathom already having to think of this person#in a romantic capacity like ??? WE JUST MET WDYM I HAVE TO KNOW WHETHER I HAVE ROMANTIC FEELINGS#and it feels so validating to be desired by someone but my god my brain just doesn’t work like this#i feel like i need to spend a week in the woods after this I truly don’t know how anyone can have a ‘healthy’ relationship with the apps#and i truly applaud you if you do but every person i know who says they do actually doesn’t and i sure as fuck cannot have a healthy#approach to them#release me from the chains of thinking about men nonstop and thinking that romance and dating is the most interesting topic of conversation#talk time
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wanna ask how you feel about the eridan bpd headcanon/theory(?? not sure what to call it!) you're so good at your character analysis and i'd love to see your outlook on it
Since I don't have a degree or any formal training in psychology, I feel deeply uncomfortable diagnosing characters. I've made an autism joke before but only because I'm on the spectrum. He's definitely traumatized and anxious, but I mean those as descriptors of his behavior rather than capital-D Diagnoses. I try to focus on those when I can - the cause and effect of cognition, self-image, and behavior - and those factors may very well match up with DSM criteria, but I try not to touch an actual diagnosis with a ten foot pole unless the author has explicitly stated that X character has Y condition.
#there's a variety of reasons for this#part of it is that im GROSSLY unqualified to be handing out diagnoses when it takes a full on PhD to do that in real life#part of it is that psychology is inchoate and we are still very much in murky waters#for example: complex ptsd isn't even IN the DSM yet#and iirc my therapist told me it was because theyre still figuring out how to classify it (attachment disorder? trauma disorder? etc.)#part of it is that (from my limited and undereducated understanding) there are diagnoses that you can assign by completing a checklist...#but some that require a hell of a lot more testing and ruling out other potential causes#and the cluster-b personalities are (IIRC) not even ones you're supposed to diagnose minors with#bc of fears of self fulfilling prophecy and because minors in general are still developing personalities In General#and like the fact that i can't say that with authority speaks to how unqualified i am to do any diagnosing right? hahaha#and part of it is just because like#unless the story is specifically About That and the author has stated so explicitly#i think diagnosing characters tends to put blinders on analysis#like if i were to seriously go 'eridan is autistic' then it would massively bias my reading and understanding of his character#and we have 0 indication that eridan was ever explicitly intended to be autistic or that the author was trying to do an autism specifically#that doesn't mean that the reading is invalid because like thats what death of the author means#all readings are technically valid including stuff the author didn't necessarily intend#but that's just not the way i like to engage with media and not the way i like to approach character analysis#because PERSONALLY it just feels kind of reductive - but also -#i'd wager MOST of us don't have degrees in psychology#so when i say 'X character has Y condition' it might mean something totally different to somebody reading my analysis#even people who have Y condition aren't exempt because a lot of mental illnesses differ from person to person#whereas if i explain “X character has Y thoughts and Z behaviors” there's no ambiguity in that#eridan struggles with noticing that people are suffering and with realizing that he should care#at least part of this is due to his horrific murder-filled upbringing which rendered empathy a detriment & so he learned to ignore it#it could be autism - but it could also be trauma -#or he might just be Like That without actually meeting the diagnostic criteria for autism#& you can't even technically be diagnosed with C-PTSD#or maybe he has a burgeoning personality disorder but you aren't supposed to DX those too early anyway#or maybe hes just 13. see what i mean hahaha. ive reached the 30 tag limit
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Is the video game really subverting its genre? Are you sure it's not just doing clever things within its genre, because otherwise the game would be boring and unchallenging and say nothing interesting? I'm just saying, it's cool and all that the internet allows horror game fandoms to overflow into eachother, but not EVERY 2 hour video essay needs to be spent breathlessly sucking off the devs. Sometimes a game is just REGULAR difficult and REGULAR high-quality.
Besides RPGs made over a decade ago, what is the thing supposedly subverting? Clearly not other contemporary indie horror games, because there is clearly a convergent ethos forming of cosmic horror and beginners' traps; that's just what the genre looks like nowadays.
#pathologic#fear and hunger#inscryption#in general I just hate overly reverent video essays; you guys ruined Airbender for me#this is NOT me hating on Pathologic!#Icepick is a good studio; their story is interesting their characters are well written#introducing needs decay mechanics into a first-person adventure game is a good idea; I just wouldn't call it “subversive”#this IS me hating a little bit on Patho fans just because I think hyperbole about the game's difficulty is tedious#and distracts from an equally valid conversation about what you get if you approach the game like a sandbox#I get it the algorithm incentivizes youtubers to talk about every new game like it's a complete departure from what came before#but if everything is special nothing is#and i swear if one more person tries to read me HP Lovecraft's wikipedia page like i was born yesterday im going to scream#Just saying; if fucking with the player's expectations is all it takes to be “subversive” then Stick of Truth is “subverting its genre”#except... no... Stick of Truth is a bog standard RPG just with a quirky tutorial#and creative integration of its off-beat story and mechanics RIGHT??#my point is Patho and F&H aren't actually much different; they still play like RPGs still handle like RPGs#the fact that you die more than you would in COD or Skyrim or whatever doesn't make it the “anti-RPG”#anymore than Seinfeld was the “anti-sitcom”#“subversiveness” is just a basic bitch way to analyze things; and I think “How does the art take ADVANTAGE of its genre?” is better#media criticism
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today:
Walked 5 miles bc no one wanted to speak up and say “hey maybe we should turn around it’s 80 degrees”. but it was lovely
tinashe concert 🫶🏿 and i met Raveena she was very sweet.
saw a SNAKE on that 5 mile walk it was a big one too. this is the same !!!urban!!! trail i saw the coyote on. when i say urban i mean this stretch is entirely paved and almost never more than 20feet from at least two commercial establishments
also saw gina rodriguez when i went to brunch this morning?
#i never talk to celebrities bc i feel like i have to explain why i (a stranger!) am approaching them#Which i think is valid but i can never think of anything to say that doesn’t make me sound… 🥸#me to gina rodriguez: i loveeeed you on Hollywood houselift and in those gifs on tumblr from the gay movie you were in#now my friends and her mom and husband are all looking at me like I’M the crazy one… 🙄#like imagine you’re eating brunch with your family and some random person came up to you mid bite and said “i saw your Instagram reel 🧍🏿”#why do that 😭 wait 5 years I promise they’ll have a CW nostalgia convention you can meet her there
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that recent thing ethel cain said is how I feel about letterboxd reviews. sorry to be a hater like I can be sarcastic or quippy but it does irritate me when reviews on review sites are just reduced to some one-liner for likes
#obviously I find some funny but I want to read actual reviews and sooo many are just jokes or memes#me looking at the top Devil may cry 5 reviews on steam and it’s all just vergil jokes like literally so many plastic chairs#Also there’s a difference to me making a silly review for yourself and friends versus deliberately seeking out likes#Like obviously I’m guilty of it but the need for validation on the internet is literally changing how we think and approach things
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#objectively attractive ppl will NEVER understand what its like to not be#and what that person goes through#that girl on tiktok is so valid#and everyone keeps spewing random shit#like hello r u even listening to her#some of us have to try apps and other things because no one approaches us irl#and i dont need to hear about everyone coming up to u all the time like i get it ur hot#now let me cope#😩😩#mehrtalks
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hmm. spiraling. fun.
#i live in a very sad state of 'never allowing myself to hope for or get excited for anything-'#'-because i will only be disappointed.'#every goddamn time i get my hopes up i get kicked in the teeth. so i don't let myself do it.#this is the first time in. at least 3-4 years i actually *hoped* for something.#and it's triggering all of my everything as the dream of being able to label what's going on and ask for help crumbles to dust in my hands.#as it has every other goddamn time before.#i am not allowed to hope for things. nothing good ever comes of it.#plus now I'm having like. stolen valor bullshit.#for finding words and approaches and experiences relatable and useful.#'hey i actually feel like calling my long-term interests something other than 'obsessions' helpful'#like it now feels illegal to relate to the adhd/autistic experience bc this test deemed me ineligible.#even if relating to those experiences has been helpful. this whole experience has validated the goblin that lives in my brain#that tells me i AM an impostor and don't deserve to be in any of those spaces.#it's validated the voice that says that i'm a fraud and a liar and a con for finding ways to describe my life useful#because i don't have a piece of paper. because my psych decided that the mild anxiety i have is the explanation.#'no the fact that you barely function outside of school is just anxiety. you might have some sensory issues hut we can't help with that.'#'have you tried therapy?' as if i haven't been in therapy for almost 7 years. as if my therapist didnt REFER ME.#idk. i'm sad. i'm no closer to answers. i feel like i haven't been listened to.#i am in a lot of pain trying to function most of the time and it feels like i should just resign myself to it.#nobody will listen. this is the second time ive had something written off as anxiety. the fact that I'm in distress doesn't matter.#i'm just destined to be in pain without help. and then one day I'll die.#(I'm not like. suicidal. i just. feel like nobody will help and I'll just be Mystery Distressed as my social anxiety never improves.#despite therapy.)#idk. I'm sad and im angry and i feel like a liar and a fraud for even daring to think i knew how my brain worked.#every nd person I'm close to was surprised by this. i just feel empty and worthless.#sorry. venting. i'm sad. as the post said. spiraling.
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