#and admiration and how they are truly eachother biggest fans

[tutuandscoot]

Wow ok this is random as hell but I was watching this on IG and someone in the video says something that I just had a light bulb moment over TS about:

“You can see the quality of their relationship in their dancing”.

I mean 🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯

WHY HAVE I NEVER THOUGHT TO SAY THAT!?!?!?! I mean I’ve probably said something along the lines of it.. but like that’s it in one sentence. Also the fact that no matter the style they are dancing you kind of feel like you want to cry.. because it’s so emotional, not the moves or the music but… THEM.. they make you emotional.

Ok I’m gonna stop there because I have zero self control and will keep babbling on forever so yeh that’s it for now

[redr0sewrites]

Hii!! Can I request Sevika x fem!reader who is rlly clingy, affectionate and wants to ramble and be close to Sevika all the time, but gets embarrassed and shy abt it?? Tyy!! 🩷🫶

🥀A/n: Sevika is literally sooooooo-

🥀Cw: fluff, a bit suggestive but nothing even remotely explicit!

we all know sevika has a tough persona, but when it comes to you, she practically melts

she secretly adores how affectionate you are, but never admits it!!!

when you first met, she's surprised by how genuinely sweet you are and finds herself becoming protective over you

it takes her a while to recognize that she was catching feelings for you, but once she realizes it hits her like a fucking truck

sevika is confident, but she isn't great at communicating her feelings. there is definitely a lot of mutual pining and "idiots to lovers" going down before either of you actually make a move on eachother 😭 all of silco's cronies literally had a betting pool on when you two would get together (ran and silco won 💀)

sevika is definitely the one to make the first move, she doesn't want to lose you and would probably confess rather bluntly. upon seeing you get so flustered, she almost thinks you don't reciprocate, until you shyly tell her you feel the same

once you two are official??? sevika has never been happier. she makes it her life goal to torture you (in the best ways)

teases you mercilessly about how shy and embarrassed you are around her!!! sevika loves intentionally flustering you, especially when others are around. she isn't big on pda, but sometimes she can't help but grab your face and pull you into a deep kiss, only to pull away and admire your shocked and flustered expression

LOOOTSSSS of flirting, even when you two are officially dating. petnames too, she calls you princess, doll, babe, and hon, but her favorite has to be simply using the word my in front of your name

she adores your affection! as previously stated, she is not a big fan of pda, but in private she adores how clingy you are.

sevika is a very cuddly sleeper, i said what i said. she sleeps on her stomach and hugs her pillows, but once she starts sleeping with you, she cuddles you in her sleep instead!

she gives you lots of forehead and hand kisses, she thinks theyre more meaningful

protective!!!! sevika knows you can handle yourself, but she wants you to know that she's always on your side if necessary. would absolutely defend you against anybody and is your biggest supporter. she's literally your ride or die, and is not the type to play devil's advocate whenever it comes to arguments bc she genuinely cares about your opinions

speaking of arguments, they never escalate too much. sevika is stubborn, but she's also reasonable and is pretty good at compromise. i actually think an affectionate partner would be really good for her, i hc that she doesn't have much relationship experience like at all. she grew up in the undercity and there really wasn't much opportunity for romance outside of a sexual setting, so you're like a breath of fresh air. sevika takes her time when adjusting to receiving (and giving) affection, so that may cause a bit of conflict at the start of your relationship, but once you're over those hurdles and when she fully trusts you she is a lot more affectionate

sevika is very touch starved and secretly clingy herself, but you didn't hear it from me :)

when it comes to rambling and infodumping, sevika is SUCH a good listener. she loves listening to you ramble while she works on her metal arm, and will nod along and agree with you whenever necessary. she's also pretty good at advice, although she can be a bit blunt. she's honest and tells it like it is, and is very open with you about her opinions.

loooooveeesss having you close to her so she can keep an eye on you. she wants to make sure you're safe is all, and if you wanted privacy she would totally oblige, but sevika truly loves having you around! if you also work for silco, sometimes she'll accompany you on your missions so that you won't be lonely and also bc she thinks its hot when her "cute litle girlfriend" kills people... omg what who said that!!!

you both are the epitome of "opposites attract", and sevika loves you because of it!

the familiar sound of the fromt door of your apartment unlocking alerts you to Sevika's arrival.

"Sev!" your voice comes out much more excited than you anticipated, but at the moment you couldn't care less. "your back!!!" you run up to your girlfriend, wrapping your arms around her neck and planting a kiss right om her lips. she's so tall you have to stand on tip-toes just to reach her, and your stomach flips as her familiar, booming laugh echoes around you. "i see someone missed me," Sevika chuckles, pulling away to flick you gently on the forehead.

you feel your cheeks heat up, giving her a light smack on the arm before leaning up to kiss her on the cheek again. "oh, fuck you.." you murmur, and Sevika smirks. "i can if you want me to-"

"oh, shut uuup!!" if you haven't already melted into the floor because of how embarrassed you were, you definitely would now. "how was the mission?" your desperate to change the topic, lest you burst aflame from how warm your cheeks feel. "it went smoothly," Sevika replied, sitting down at your guys' kitchen table and kicking her shoes off into a messy pile by the doorway, "but i missed my girl."

you walk over to her and kiss her on the forehead, before she tugs you in by the waistband and pulls you onto her lap. you gasp, giggling as she wraps her arms around your waist. "well, i think you'll be happy to know that your girl missed you too." Sevika hums, wrapping her metal hand around your throat and pulling you into a gentle kiss.

i am unhealthily obsessed with her SHES SOOOOOOOOO AUGHHHH

[technowoah]

Cant Handle This

Quackity's facade keeps breaking, and he tries to keep the pieces together. You're the only one who can make him show his true self

- Quackity x gen neutral reader

- this is a long one yall.

Now playing...

Can't Handle This (Kanye Rant)

Bo Burnham

0:01 ─●──────── 3:29

⚠︎ swearing, angst, mentions of mcyttwt, based on the song above, and ofc its not proofread

Part of my Inside Special!

Quackity sat in his chair currently streaming right now, he seemed like he was having a good time from your spot on his bed. You were currently laying on his bed after he invited you here to relax.

You two had laid in his bed just enjoying eachothers company until he got a call from Tommy saying he was ready for the lore stream which sent Alex into a frenzy. Alex sent out a quick "Im sorry" about the lateness of his stream and then quickly set everything up.

He then started to stream which left you alone on the the bed to your own devices. You were scrolling through Twitter looking at Alex's fans talk about what's happening on the stream and posting screenshots of his character and himself.

You admired him from afar as he ended the lore part of his stream, he took time to type on his phone to text you that he decided to stream longer to talk to his fans. He looked to you and you have him a nod with a smile and he gave one back.

"Hey guys! That's the end of the lore!" He exclaimed to his chat as he types at his computer setting a new background.

You continued to listen to him praise his chat for supporting him and making him be able to make those types of streams. You were always proud of Alex no matter what he did, you were always his number one supporter no matter what happened in reality or on the internet.

"So anyways! I wanted to talk to you guys! How are you all?" He smiled at his camera looking back and forth from his chat.

◇T0mm71nn1t: THE STREAM WAS SO GOOD QUACKITY

"Oh thank you! Im glad I could share this with you. It takes so much to put into these movite type streams, so I know now it is all worth it."

Quackity's pov. . .

He felt so overwhelmed, he shouldn't have began to stream again. The stress of putting everything together, plus being late to the stream made him rush into it more. He just wanted to lay back down with his lover who was enjoying watching him stream, and that's the goal he wants. His goal was to entertain, it was his job and he doesn't want to fail, he doesn't want to crack.

◇Mayatooni3: WE LOVE YOU QUACKITY

◇catiiequak: QUACKITY ITS MY BIRTHDAY CAN I GET A HAPPY BIRTHDAY??

◇yriaaolic: 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

"Happy Birthday!" He said seeing the comment pass in a second. "Happy Birthday to anyone who's Birthday it is today."

Right now it was hard. It was hard to keep up when there was always a constant demand, the constant need to be perfect, his past being brought up, and trying to one-up his content everytime. He loved this, but at the same time it had the same weight as a job.

In the back of his mind he knew the "When is Quackity streaming???" is mostly lighthearted, he never wants to leave.

"Quack are you okay? Im fine! Just thinking about how to get something to eat at 2am." He laughed lying to his fans, he wanted to stop this stream.

He kept looking over to his lover lying their head on his pillow scrolling through their phone and alternating their vision from him and their phone. He always caught a glimpse of their small smile everytime he looked. He was doing something right.

"Do yall think Taco Bell is open? The only problem I have is that Im fucking starving."

He paused for a moment taking a deep breath trying to keep his emotions down. The stress was getting to him, and he fucking knew it, but he didnt stop. He was going to get burnt out eventually and stop streaming and YouTube all together, but he needed this. He needed a break, he needed to take time for himself and stop putting on a happy face when he isnt.

TTS ◇pulixsaxe: "Did you see what was happening on Twitter quackity?"

"Wait what's happening on Twitter?" He asked with a weary laugh.

I can sit here and pretend like my biggest problems are

Pringle cans, and burritos

The truth is, my biggest problem's you,

Your eyes widened as he mentioned Twitter. Truth be told he was trending because of his stream, yes, but also they brung up stuff from his past again in the wake of another content creator's past or present being brought up. You hadn't paid attention to that, you were only getting fueled up from Twitter bringing up an issue that he already had addressed.

Tempted to speak and tell him its fine, he already spoke up before you.

"I bet it's fine! I dont wanna... I don't need to look." He said with a smile. He always had that smile on.

Either it was a full smile or a half smile. It never left his face and it comforted you somehow. Maybe it was that you were his significant other, but you always wondered if anyone saw the same things as you. The things like his smile that never left his face.

"Yeah! I dont need to look at that." He waved his hand dismissing the comment away. He then sighed letting his shoulders relax as you saw his smile fade and his eyes close for a second and immediately put that small smile back on his face while his eyes were glossy, but bright.

He needed to end this stream soon. You saw his face fall then in a split second come back to life except his eyes were glossy with tears. You wondered if anyone else noticed.

"I want to please you

But I want to stay true to myself

I want to give you the night out that you deserve"

His eyes tearful as he tried to blink them away trying to not make a scene.

"Sorry! Allergies ugh!" He said as he wiped his tears away claiming them as allergies.

"Are you crying? No! Im not a pussy!" He yelled at his chat in a joking manner.

He was crying and he felt weak. He felt emotionally weak, and weak as in not strong, he didn't feel strong and his lover who was sitting on his bed with a concerned look on their face always told him that it's okay to feel weak. The only meaningful thing is how you pick yourself up, they always told him, bur now he felt at rock bottom.

He wanted to give his fans "himself", the goofy, lovable, loud, quick-witted, Quackity. But then again his lover always told him to separate Quackity from Alex. He wanted to give himself to his audience, he wanted to be authentic and share himself, but he cant. Alex isn't all laughs, he is serious, calmer, and when he gets on the screen is when he lets it all out then goes back to his more calmer self. That's not what they want.

"But I want to say what I think

And not care what you think about it"

Giving himself meant dialing back, he wants to tell how hes actually feeling, he wants to say what he thinks about Twitter, what he thinks about certain friends, about his fanbase, and then leave it alone. He wanted to delete social media and then speak his mind without knowing what anyone is saying about it. It was paradise to him, but of course it cant be that way and that's what he hates. He feels like a actor when he really wants to be himself.

"A part of me loves you,"

Alex loved his fanbase, he had such a supportive fanbase that loved his content. Some of them did atleast he didn't fully know, but they gave him the courage to do this time and time again knowing that his content is at least taking them from the harsh reality of real life for a few minutes or hours. This was the reason he did this, for them.

Alex would never admit this but they boosted his ego too, it would for anyone. The fact that there were people who wanted and enjoyed content from him made him feel good about himself.

"part of me hates you"

He hated the contant criticisms, he hates that they feed his ego so much that it makes him want to stream more to feel good about himself and to make people get away for awhile. Alex knew inside of his heart he couldn't truly hate his fanbase, they gave him everything he ever wanted. He hates them for that and that's such a scary thing. He never fails to wonder if he did the things to deserve all the love and hate he gets.

"Part of me needs you,"

They feed his ego, they make him want to go above and beyond. Alex knows that his fanbase is the reason he is here in this chair infront of three expensive monitors. He knows that this is some sort of a job that he needed. He needed the push to keep going and that was them, it was the 200k people watching his stream watching him answer questions about him and

"part of me fears you"

He was fearful of loosing himself to them. Loosing his authenticity to them was something he feared. He didnt want his funny, loud persona to consume him and make him forget about Alex instead of Quackity. He fears what they think as well, he claims he doesnt care, but he does he wants to please them. It feels like two parts of his brain fighting about if he should care or not.

"And I don't think that I can handle this right now"

The text-to-speech bot continued to speak out people's comments that theu paid for while he sat there quietly. He bit his bottom lip trying to not break down infront of everyone he needed to be strong. He needed to be strong.

If he looked up at the camera everyone would see his tears, they would see him breaking.

He played it off as he brough his shirt up to wipe the tears away, claiming it as sweat.

"Im good! Im sorry I spaced out for a second." He shook his head.

He saw you look at him with that same concerned look on your face. As he switched his gaze between you and his computer, he felt his tears come back again.

"I don't think that I can handle this right-"

"Alex." You tried to get his attention.

"Yeah guys Im fine!"

"Alex"

"I don't think that I can handle this right-"

"I have plans later for another lore stream, so Ill start doing that later tonight."

"ALEX!" You yelled and his head turned around to face you.

"What?" He laughed, biting his lip again.

You couldn't stop him doing this, you could try to course him into going to bed, but right now you couldn't find the words. You just stared at him while he looked at you with a somber smile trying to tell you that he was okay.

He felt his mind telling himself that he need to rest. He wouldnt allow himself to and thats why he was breaking down.

"I don't think that I can handle this right-"

Alex was blinking rapidly trying to keep his breathing and tears at bay while he answered his fans.

"My allergies are fine! And I drank water today."

◇moonchild21: WE LOVE YOU

◇sopusand: Why do you look like that?

◇wuackityoo: are you crying??

"Crying is for the weak! I am a strong manly man! Im crying cause I noticed how alpha I am!" He tried to play it off as a "Im a man" joke but you could see right through it.

"I don't think that I can handle this right-"

"I don't think that I can handle this right-"

You had sent a quick text to Alex which told him to end the stream for his own mental health, but he left the message unread. He began sniffing and the wiping his eyes again. It was a wreck and you couldn't seem to stop it without literally dragging him out of his chair.

Meanwhile the screens were getting to Alex. Alex's eyes were getting tired of the bright screens and the rapid messages that popped up on the screen overwhelmed him for what it seemed like the first time ever in his strraming career. He wanted to give them the fun night they deserved and wanted, but he knows it's getting hard to. He dosent know how long he can keep this up.

As Alex kept joking around about his eyes and physical state the chat was filled with "LMAO" and "HAHAHA" which fuled him more and then at the same time makes him want to stop.

Look at them, they're just staring at me, like

"Come and watch the skinny kid with a

Steadily declining mental health, and laugh as he attempts

To give you what he cannot give himself"

He cannot give himself the luxury of happiness. As he went on with his career it became more and more like a chore, there was mostly down days and of course there were up days, but recently Alex gave his fans the happiness and laughes they wanted while when he turned off the camera he couldn't replicate that same energy as he had before.

It messed him up, he felt himself become separated from his streaming. He wasn't being himself anymore he was being Quackity and that became more apparent as the days passed. He wanted to be himself on camera and at first thats what he thought he was doing. He was himself then it turned into a persona.

Alex wasn't okay and he he needed to take a break from the internet for a while, but he tries to act like he dosent have a dilemma going on inside of his head everytime he sits in this seat. Its for the fans.

"Think that I can handle this right-

I don't think that I can handle this right-

They don't even know the half of this right-

They don't even know the half of it"

"Alex you need to end the stream. Please?"

He looked towards you again where you moved your position from the middle of the bed to sitting up on the end of the bed.

"Ive told you millions of times." He paused for a moment looking down at his lap before looking back up to you. "Im-Im okay." He nodded trying to convince you.

"But I know I'm not a doctor, I'm a pussy, I put on a silly show

I should probably just shut up and do my job, so here I go"

"Cant you belive them!" He laughed to his camera. You scoffed at his comment but still kept an eye on him as he talked.

You didnt need to baby him at all, but right now you were worried about your lover.

Alex continued talking and talking, which you drowned out. You were focused on his face and how he faltered time to time just showing a small frown.

He laughed and showed them a good time even though he was hurting. He kept going and going and you were convinced he was going to hold out until you heard him sniff multiple times while trying to make a joke about the new Minecraft update and how the glow squid has no use.

"Stupid ass squid! Why- why? Its no use expect for glowing ink. Who voted for that!?"

You can tell them anything if you just make it funny, make it rhyme

And if they still don't understand you, then you run it one more time

"Dumbass squid!" He pulled up a picture if the squid as he yelled at it.

You began to worry even more as you saw tears running down his face. He quickly tried to wipe them away, but he knew everyone saw.

Handle this right

You don't even know the half of this right now

Right now (Haa!)

Now

Handle this right

I'll handle this right, I handle this right now

Alex leaned back in his seat and had a blank stare towards the monitor. Looked down for a second and then you heard sobbing coming from his spot. Alex had his head in his hands and was crying harshly into them.

He had finally broken, he couldn't stop the tears from coming and the loud sobs that came from his mouth. He was trying to desperately breathe in to be able to sob, but ended up hiccuping while doing so.

Your eyes widened as you rushed to him resting your hand on his knees and you kneeling infront of him.

"I cant do fu-fucking anything!" He yelled into his hands.

"Hey! I know. Its okay." You tried to console him.

"Its not I try so hard! And I-"

You cut him off. "You are a hard worker Alex and you deserve a week or two off. Take care of you self babe." You stood up bringing his hand with you and trying to make him stand up. He followed your movements and stood up with you putting his head on your shoulder crying into it.

"I just ca-cant right now!"

"You dont have to do anything right now babe."

"Im sorry!" Alex sobbed.

"Dont be." You said bluntly trying to get your lover to calm down.

You rubbed his back soothingly as he sniffled into your shoulder. "Im sorry for ruining your shirt." He tried to laugh through his tears.

"Dont be sorry! Please. You just need rest okay?" You kissed his forehead and he nodded in response.

Alex raised his head up an started to pepper kisses all over your face as you laughed. He gave you one last peck on the lips as he walked away to quickly change into night clothes. You smiled as he laid underneath the covers and continued to softly cry into his sheets. At least he was in bed and not makijg himself even worse.

He couldn't stop the tears from flowing, it was like a flood that could only be stopped with time. He felt like a boulder was lifted off his shoulders only to be replaced with smaller rocks. The smaller rocks was the guilt he held. He felt guilty of making his lover worry about him, he didnt want you to worry.

You rushed over to his desk and turned off the stream and his computers not even bothering to give them a goodnight or goodbye. After the computer lights were turned off it was quite dark in the room except for small light.

Finally you were where you wanted to be all day, in bed with Alex. But this wasnt the predicament you wanted.

"Forgive me. I just cant do shit right can I?" His eyes were still full of tears and he was getting tired.

"Alex dont listen to anyone but yourself." You tried to console him.

"That's what I'm telling myself."

Silence filled the room as you looked at him through tearful eyes of your own.

"Alex, you're so amazing and I cant even tell you how much I appreciate you, and how much you change my life. You do so much shit right its scary sometimes. Some days I think you're perfect, but there's-"

"There's no such thing as perfect." Alex finished your sentence.

"Exactly! Even the best people have their downfalls, they just dont show it. And Alex I know you struggle with that! All I can say is that I love you for you." You finished.

"Can I talk to you about my dilemmas?" He tried to laugh again.

"Tomorrow we can talk. We both need the rest." You said to him as he closed his eyes and nodded in response. He gave you a kiss on you lips before laying back down to sleep.

"Thank you."

"Thank you

Good night

I hope you're happy"

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[onelostgirl]

7. In An Instant

Miya Atsumu x (f) smau

Atsumu wasn’t exactly excited for this fanmeet. He was usually willing to please a crowd, but something changed after Hayami left. She had been an assistant for their previous manager and was someone Atsumu fell hard for. He thought he had it all figured out until the day she vanished from his life.

He was ghosted, his calls ignored, didn’t read or reply to his messages, she had left him all alone quicker than he could ever spike a volleyball.

She was there and then she suddenly wasn’t.

It wasn’t until after their last fanmeet that she showed up looking as horrible as he was feeling.

‘I’m no good without you, but that’s not what it’s like for you is it.’

Her words felt like venom seeping into his body. Had she really fallen for his fake attempt of making things seem okay? She thought this was easy for him.

‘Is that why you left’

He finally managed to choke out as she sharply looked up at him, her eyes filled with pain as he wondered if they were just reflecting his own misery.

‘There’s no way it would work Tsu, you’re you a somebody- I’m a nobody.’

He couldn’t hear anything over the words she had said. She knew what it was like getting into a relationship with someone in the spot light like him. He told her over and over how difficult it would be but he thought they were worth it. All the pain, struggles, secrets, late nights, the waiting-she was worth it all.

‘Yer somebody ta me.’

He thought it would make a difference but her body spoke volumes, her shoulders crunched up tightly as she held onto her hands like she’d crumble in front of him. She was somewhere far from him, a place he could never reach.

‘Wasn’t it enough?’

He asked as silence followed his words.

‘Wasn’t what we felt fer eachother enough to take all that shit.’

He looked up to her and slowly wiped a drop of water from his cheek.

It must have been sprinkling. The rain would fall soon.

‘I need you but you can do fine with or without me-that’s why you need to let me go Tsu. Holding on will only hurt us both.’

She thought he didn’t need her that’s why she had left him.

Atsumu worked his entire life to be where he was, gave up any other possible future as he persued this sport professionally. He couldn’t undo what he put in, he couldn’t turn the clock and just choose not to do this. All his life, he dreamed of standing on that court and millions of others, facing off to players who may or may not beat him, leaving the odds where they were and giving his everything to each match.

This feeling, this passion of his was something he needed to chase after even if he was on his own. Even if his twin had chosen a different path.

This was his and deep down he knew if he just gave it up it would kill him. But a part of him also knew that it was too much to ask her to stay. Knowing that he couldn’t give her what she wanted, understanding that sometimes their relationship wouldn’t be what she deserved.

He hated not being able to go on dates whenever he wanted. Despised that if he was recognized in public holding her hand that her face would be plastered on every social media and news channel across the nation.

It was the price he had to pay for becoming a pro player but it wasn’t something she signed up for.

And at first it was so beautiful and precious but after all the months away and uncertainty Hayami couldn’t handle any of it. The lying tabloids whenever he was in the same breathing space as an aspiring model or actress, all the endorsements that were coupled with said women. All the speculation that he had been secretly dating various celebrities or models.

He couldn’t ask her to go through with it all unless he offered her something permanent. But after the way she left, doubt coursed through him. She didn’t even explain anything, in his eyes he wasn’t worth a single text. She just decided things on her own and left him to wonder if that meant they were on a break or broken up.

‘So this is it then’

He replied with more of a statement than a question. She had made up her mind and there was no changing it.

‘There’s no me in me anymore Tsu, I loved you so much that I became a weaker person. Love shouldn’t be this hard. I can’t stand beside you and be strong.’

A part of him understood where she was coming from but it didn’t make it any better. He knew she grew dependent on him but he didn’t feel bothered by that. She obviously didn’t feel the same.

Was letting her go the only way to help her? He wished he didn’t have to, he’d hold onto her all his life if he could but fact was she didn’t want that.

His love made her weak.

‘Somethin’s I can’t control-be happy Haya, even if it ain’t with me.’

It was the last thing he said before he walked away from her. He turned before she could say anything else, before he broke down in tears, before any more time would be wasted between them.

He left and even when every fiber of his being told him to turn around. He didn’t look back. Not once.

———

Setting up for this fanmeet, might have been too much for him to handle, luckily there was a pint sized person to keep him distracted.

Y/N had been getting on his nerve lately but since his mind was filled with disagreements with her, he didn’t have time to think about Haya. It actually worked in his favor because he would have been one hell of a pain in the ass if he had to deal with all his pent up emotions.

Having her there helped keep his thoughts from wandering, even if all they had been doing the last three hours was arguing about the lighting or how many people were allowed up to the table at once.

Atsumu looked over to y/n, saw her standing and looking over to the table where all the members of the team would be sitting.

“Ya just gonna stand there, Y/N.”

Y/N looked over to the blonde setter taking out something from the box beside him.

“Oh, quiet Miya. I was just thinking if the lighting is good enough for the fans to see everyone from this far.”

She explained as the blonde looked over to her from where he was squatting at.

“Sure sure le’ me do all the work.” He mumbled a part of him wondering how they actually got to talking normally with each other. At the beginning it seemed impossible but somehow now things were different.

“Oh gosh, you’ve done like two boxes of giveaways. I’ve done dozens at home.” She replied as the blonde shot her a nasty look which she actually held back a laugh from.

When Atsumu turned away, he hid the smirk that was about to escape his face. A part of him didn’t want her to know he might have actually been enjoying this.

“You know tomorrow is my first fanmeet with the team. I’ve done it before but somehow I’m excited but very anxious.” Y/N confessed as Atsumu slowly stopped what he was doing to look back to her.

For a moment, he couldn’t turn away from her.

For once it seemed like she let down her walls slightly in front of him and he was very much not expecting or use to this.

“Yer gonna be fine, it’ll be a breez’. Only thin’ ya gotta worry about is if any fans sneak back stage— or if anyone throws unmentio’ables to Omi-kun.”

Atsumu attempted to try to soothe her worries, something he had never done before and he also wasn’t sure why he did.

“Oh yeah only that.”

Y/N responded not so convinced that would be the biggest of her problems during tomorrow’s event. She knew that before Atsumu and her were genuinely civil to each other that he voiced concerns on his social media and a small voice inside her hoped none of the fanatical types showed up.

She shook her head trying to will away any of her uneasiness as the event wasn’t about her. All she had to do was provide all the necessities to make this successful for the team and their fans. She knew they all worked hard and they deserve time to bond with the people who work just as hard to support them.

Her plan was to be invisible so much so that no one would mind her presence but also so she wouldn’t stand out to cause an issue.

“I can hear yer brain goin’ into overdrive. Would ya chill Y/N.”

A red blush appeared across her cheeks, a part of her embarrassed to know he knew she was over anazlying the entire situation.

She hoped that it wouldn’t be noticed by the blonde setter as she silently willed herself to calm down.

“Ya know red might just be ya color.” His words just made her blush harder as she shook her head to try to get herself to stop.

Atsumu found this situation all too amusing as he watched Y/N try to look at everything except him. He didn’t even realize a smirk had appeared on his face.

Y/N glanced over to him and caught the smirk. It had been the first time she actually looked at him and never for that long. She could understand why everyone was attracted to him, there’s no way you couldn’t know he was nice to look at.

His good looks might have been the reason why fans still showed up despite how much of an ass he was whenever he demanded silence during his serves.

He was a rare type of eye candy that many knew needed to be appreciated.

Y/N quickly looked away not wanting to stare longer than she already had.

She knew he was trying to make her feel better and a part of her admired that he actually did. This belief he had, gave her a bit of courage to face whatever might come her way.

“Well there’s nothing I can’t handle. And if you ever feel like you can’t hack it or that you just need a moment to breathe, I got you.”

She stated as Atsumu’s head slowly panned up to her, he was suddenly curious what she looked like.

The first thing he saw was an outstretched hand in front of him.

He gradually brought his gaze up to her face where he met her fiercely intense yet kind eyes.

He knew instantly that even if he had initially though she was like Hayami, he had been wrong.

The woman in front of him didn’t need his strength, instead she was offering him hers.

It might have been the first time Atsumu truly saw Y/N. As he glanced at her hand he realized that he was unfair to judge her so harshly before.

He was so occupied looking at her that he never really saw her. Never even comprehended that she wasn’t Haya, that she was her own person. That even if he made Haya weak, it wouldn’t happen with Y/N because she wasn’t her, she had a strength all her own that he couldn’t take away.

While he thought he would dread this situation, that he would rather be stuck in a room with screaming babies. He realized that spending time with her wasn’t what he thought it was. She wasn’t so bad when he decided not to go out of his way to be an extra asshole.

“Ya sure yer gonna be able to handle all us jack’ls?”

He asked in a playful tone as Y/N looked up at him, a genuine smile on her face.

“Oh please-I’ll take the team, fans, press, and then some.” She stated flipping her hair as if he was being ridiculous to even suggest that.

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Author’s note: Finally, we have some progress! Y/N and Atsumu have actually begun to have a decent convo that led to some mutual respect from both sides. Now, we just have to see how the fanmeet will go and also what does life have in store for Y/N when an old friend suddenly gets added to the mix. Stay tuned for the next update and be ready to brace for whatever twists, turns, drops, and flips that come with this Love Loop. Thank you for all the support and love! Taglist is still open (:

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[alpacaparkaseok]

Okay, so I have an idea and I NEED to get it out of my head so im just gonna go ahead and write it cuz i love ur writing style and if u dont like it/dont wanna write it please feel free to delete this ask.

Ok so any member u like (i first thought of it with Tae but u can choose which member, doesn't matter so im gonna say 'member' instead of a name) so i got this by listening to the nightcore female version of 'Don’t You Worry Child' (if u wanna listen to it, press here ) ((i mostly got it from the second verse/paragraph thingy of it, so from 'there was a time, i met a guy of a diffrent kind... tillllllllll the end))

anyways, so its about Y/N also being an idol but from another company and her company doesn't let her date, so Y/N and member were dating before they became trainees and all that so they were very young, so everyone except their parents thought they were just silly relationships and they didn't really love each other and it was just admiration, but the parents of member and the parents of Y/N knew how much they love each other and that they would die for each other. Anyway they both became trainees at the same time but from different companies, but Y/N's company forced her to sign a contract that she cant date and forced her to break up with member, she didnt want to but she was forced to sue didnt know how to tell member. He somehow found out and cried a LOT and his parents comforted him thru video call cuz he was in Seoul as a trainee now and they were in his hometown, so about 3 days later he decided to break up with her, not cuz he didnt love anymore he still loved her very very much but he thought he could releive some stress and pain off her shoulders, he broke up with her up on the hill across to the blue lake like the song says and later when each of them video call their parents (after they go to the place they are staying at) crying, their dads told them that heaven has a plan for them. Flashforward to the present, Y/N is a the most famous k-pop soloist and member is in the biggest boyband, they still love each other and didnt get over eachother, even if they havent seen or talked to eachother for so so so long but like i said they were truly inlove and in an interview of sorts, reader says that she still loves him and tells the story but doesnt say who he is and what happened to him and where he is and what he became and all that, so she says no details just breif explanation cuz the interviewer/reporter/whatever-they-are-called asked about any exes and she said he was her first love and she still loves him and regrets leaving every day and blah blah and member is watching the interview and he is sad and happy at the same time, but he cant do anything cuz of the contract and she can get fired, so her fans decide to take things to their own hands and decide to spread it and demand for that contract to be taken down and it took sometime but the amount of people became too much for Y/N's company to ignore so they removed the contract and Y/N and member started dating again and most of the fans (the only true fans) supported their relationship cuz they all already ship them together a lot. So agnst (kinda) with fluff ending. And PS, mmeber's parents and Y/N's parents are bffs so member and Y/N are childhood lovers.

Sorry this is soo long, i swear if u dont like the idea PLEASE DELETE THIS ASK AND DONT FEEL GUILTY FOR DOING SO!!!

~💜

Ok HI sorry it’s taken me forever to respond 🤪

Wow, this is so interesting! I’m definitely gonna save this for later. Gonna put this on the back burner for a few months until I finish up all my current requests!

As always, love hearing your cool ideas! 💕💕

[wherearemyglassesbro]

Please... I’m begging you... scream to me about rococo era France and Russia...

WOO!!! :^D

Ivan was def not the biggest fan of the French rococo clothes. His officials sent him to France to live with Francis for a month or so to observe the Western ways. Ivan cut his hair and had clothes made for him to wear to Francis’s many dances and dinners. He’s a big guy! He needed special clothes...Which were still so hot cause of the layering...

He also had to wear wigs! Not by choice, Francis insisted that he did because it was in fashion. He hated how the powder felt and he hated how tight the wih was on his big melon head

But he did enjoy the parties. He really enjoyed the parties. Everyone was so stylish and sophisticated, people were talking about art and music together and eating delicate looking sweets?? This was nothing like what they had back in Russia

Ivan wrote dozens of letters back home and insisted on staying an extra month to observe more!!! But it wasn’t just to observe...He just...Didn’t want to go back home :( he was having the time of his life! He loved the people at these parties! Sure they were rich and stuck up but they were funny and intelegent and talking to them was truly fun!

Ivan usually followed Francis around at his parties to ‘observe’ but when he was around him he found himself mostly just watching him. How the heart on his cheek crinkled when Fran smiled or how gracefully he moved just walking from group to group. Or how all of the rings on his fingers clinked together whevever he moved his hands...It was nice to admire him

Francis really enjoyed having Ivan around! It was fun to show him how parties were planned or how their clothes were made and delivered. Francis made most of the sweets for his own parties, of course, and always invited Ivan to help out!

Francis, during this time period, had five maids but it wasn’t to make them clean the house, it was to help those women. Woman who were single mothers or exiled from their families. Francis found his maids on the streets and invited them into his home to help them. Because he cares deeply about his people. Ivan respects him greatly for that

Francis and Ivan got drunk together often and discussed philosophy or other Intelligent People Things and Francis would often display guilt. His people were starving yet he was throwing parties. But he can’t help it. It is expected of him and...Well....He’s truly happy. He knows it’s wrong but he loves this lavish lifestyle. He loves getting dressed up every morning and throwing parties and indulging in beautiful things! He feels like he deserves some happiness, after all, the last few decades haven’t been all too pleasent for him.

Ivan agrees. He too feels guilt in running away to France like this. He knew he’d be in serious trouble if his bosses knew he was staying for pleasure and not for observation. He feels guilty for being here, also enjoying the pleasures of the upper class while the majority of his people at home are suffering

The two of them have a lot they agree on so they find themselves becoming closer. They kiss and sleep in the same bed but nothing more than that. They’re very very good friends but not lovers and that’s alright. They enjoy eachother’s company but they know not to get too attached because this will be over soon. Might as well enjoy it while it lasts! But not too much lol

[vampirespawn]

Slides in - LISA. From the first moment you slid into my ask all those years ago, you have always been such a pleasure to know and have on my dash. Your love for every character you take on never ceases to amaze me and I am so glad you are back on my dash. I can’t wait to get these two interacting with one another. You are a gem among gems and I am so happy to get both the chance to write with and to know you. Happy new year !! ➛   2020 𝔦𝔰 𝔞𝔩𝔪𝔬𝔰𝔱 𝔬𝔳𝔢𝔯, 𝔱𝔢𝔩𝔩 𝔪𝔢 𝔥𝔬𝔴 𝔶𝔬𝔲 𝔣𝔢𝔢𝔩. (accepting.)   delivered by @piraticalwit​

ooc.     taylor, it’s been sooooooo loooong. how many years have we been on this hellsite already? it feels like an eternity. and i’m glad to be able to call you my friend and that we constantly ended up finding eachother again (even tho i blog hopped a lot, thank you for bearing that with me).

now with this wonderful ask that you send, i feel very bad about the one i send you. i was shitposting because, well, it’s what i do. but let me rectify that here. you have been writing and developing killian for years and if that doesn’t already show your unbelievable passion for this character, i don’t know what will. you took a (horrible) interpretation of this character, made him your own and improved him immensely. i haven’t been fond of a lot of stuff that ouat had done, and i hadn’t been the biggest fan of killian. and admittedly, without you forming him into such an entertaining character, i’d probably still not feel good encountering him. so thank you for that.

you listened to me rant about a lot of things, we meme’d around and i wouldn’t miss these times for the world. i am so happy for you and @twistedwit​. you both have truly found eachother and the love between you two also spread into your characters and it’s such a joy to witness. (i also thoroughly enjoy all the shitposting.)

i cannot wait for astarion and killian to annoy the shit out of eachother. i cannot wait to see more of your very eloquent and detailed writing that i admire so much. i hope you had a wonderful new years eve and i hope you can forgive the shitpost ask i had send to you in turn. <3

[or6it]

what do you love most about every member in bts? 💗💞💕💓💘💖💝

💛 seokjin: um what is there to not love about this man? i love calling him ‘God’s masterpiece’ because he’s just? an insanely beautiful person inside and out? i think the thing i love most about him is his humbleness throughout his time in bts. we all know jin has been working his ass off for years trying to improve in every way possible, while constantly feeling like he’s not good enough, and that he can never be as good as the other members. even though he feels like that he still remains so humble and grateful for where he is and whats hes doing. he really pours his heart n soul into what he does without wanting anything in return. and he loves all the other members more than anyone else in the world and he rly acts like they’re his family 😌  he’s always trying to put a smile on everyone’s face n make them laugh n thats just so sweet i love him

💛 yoongi: honestly yoongi is one of the most inspiring people i have come across. his passion for music is so amazing.. hes so hardworking and he loves his work and i seriously admire that. similarly to jin, i love how grounded and humble yoongi has stayed despite the immense amount of fame they’ve received. you can really tell just how thankful yoongi is whenever they win an award or achieve anything of importance because… you know how much effort and time he has put into bts and their music… and it must be so heart warming for him to have all that pay off. i love how he continued to follow his dream of making and producing music even through all the hardships.. and wow.. look at him now. also he’s just the biggest softy in the whole world i can believe some people don’t see that

💛  hoseok: wow mr jung hoseok…this man is just SO talented. he literally excels in every field its crazy? he’s so dedicated to his work and he seems to love every second of it and i think thats to admirable!!!! he’s obviously the Mood Maker of the group so he’s always trying his best to make everyone laugh n to bring the energy up and i think that he does an amazing job at it. Honestly he has the best stage presence.. he brings performances together and makes them 10000x better its so amazing. also… despite being the mood maker he’s also very sensitive and he’s not afraid to express his emotions and cry.. i love how comfortable he is with fans and that hes actually willing to show himself in quite a vulnerable state… what a guy

💛 namjoon: there is an endless list of things to love and adore about namjoon. i think what i love most about him is his ability to learn and grow.. he’s open minded and understanding and seems very passionate about educating himself. obviously he has made his fair share of mistakes in the past and continues to be labelled as That Problematic Idol.. but honestly u can see that he’s trying his best to learn from mistakes and move forward. he’s so kind hearted n full of love its so endearing :( u can really tell he’s a bit overwhelmed by their success.. and he’s so thankful to armys for bringing them to where they are.. hes just such a genuine person and an amazing leader whom we love

💛 jimin: park jimin is literally the sweetest angel to walk this earth? he has the biggest heart and it’s so full of love for everyone.. for bts.. for armys.. for his friends and family… like i cant imagine this man actually hating something? he seems to be the supportive member that everyone goes to when they’re dealing with something hard and thats so sweet.. that he has the ability to help and support the people that he loves through hard times so well.. truly he’s an angel? uh also he’s actually just one of the cutest people i have ever seen.. everything bout him is cute? his wholesome laugh.. his smile.. his little baby hands…idk hes just the cutest when i think bout jimin i just want to squish his cheeks n give him a nice big hug and make him laugh :( also he loves attention and validation which is just…libra antics and i love it.. he deserves the attention he gets 

💛 taehyung: tae is such a sweetheart. he cares about all the people in his life so much. he seems to admire the other members so much.. and he cares soooo deeply for his family its so beautiful.. despite everything he always remains himself and he’s not at all afraid to just have fun and act a bit silly… but still knows the time and place for it? and when to be serious? he just doesn’t seem to take his fame too seriously and tries his best to remain 100% himself. also his love for children and animals.. wow how ideal is he… the way he acts around really young fans or the children of fans.. is so sweet it makes my heart so warm 😌  the relationship dynamics between him and jimin is rly cute like theyre constantly supporting and looking out for eachother n it makes me rly happy

💛 jungkook: honestly i don’t even know where to start on jungkook… u know recently seeing him crying at the wings tour final made me think so much about how much this guy has been through? the fact that he gave up his childhood to follow his dream… how bangtan basically raised him through his teen years.. and still he’s turned out to be such a beautiful loving person. it kinda seems like it’s all unreal to him.. like he hasn’t quite come to terms with the fact he made it yet? even so he’s so humble.. also despite the fact he left home so early he didnt try to grow up too quick you know? he still has his very chilidish silly side .. even though hes a little shit sometimes and we all pretend to hate it.. i think its rly nice that his personality wasn’t drained out of him over the years, and he doesn’t try to act super mature. also his relationships with all the other members is so cute he obviously thinks of them like family and looks up to them so much? its so sweet

[kingtaejjang]

Lance’s vlog was good??

So Lance’s paladin vlog was FINALLY released (you can watch it here:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t6D8P2E5-lk)

And as usual, the fandom was being unappreciative and just rude in general to Dreamworks about the vlog. TBH the Voltron fandom has become such a mess as the series has progressed due to some immature fans practically bullying Dreamworks to put out what they want, not what was planned. And (especially on twitter omg) ive been seeing “fans” complaining about how Lance’s vlog sucked and how dreamworks can keep it or whatever. Having just watched it myself, I actually thought it wasn’t that bad?? If anything, i think it was adorable and fit Lance perfectly?? and heres my sort of reasoning behind that

Lance’s crush on Allura is legit the most canon thing in the entire show. And its amazing how much its grown from just a simple crush to full out admiring and respecting her as a strong powerful woman. But i think what some people aren’t realizing is that this admiration IS what makes up so much of Lance’s character. He’s striving to improve himself and become stronger to be viewed as an equal and as a strong team player in Allura’s eyes, not anyone elses. Going back to season 3, where Blue pushed away Lance and he wasn’t sure what to do next, it was Allura who reassured him that the team can’t do without him, and he is able to fly Red. And of course, he was! And S4 really went more into their relationship, not as romantic partners, but just as friends who respect and help support eachother. Personally, Lance’s biggest character development was in s4, with the “heart of voltron” speech to Allura. That speech showed how mature he is and how far his belief carried Allura, for her to be able to perform skills she never imagined. So of course he’d be gushing about Allura in his vlog (heck who wouldnt!!) because she is the epitome of the strong individual he wants to be. Allura is Lance’s goal, not to date, but to become; a strong leader who’s respected by everyone.

I think also everyone’s expectations were raised too high after Keith’s vlog, since his was the ONLY vlog to really divulge into a more personal side. Coran and Allura’s vlogs didn’t talk about their personal feelings either, just the team and how things had been changing. But, looking at their characters, this makes sense. Keith is someone who holds alot of emotional baggage and insecurities, and he’s not good with emotion. He doesn't know how to hold back and where to stop, so it makes sense how he went off on a tangent near the end of his vlog, then imminently ended it. Allura on the other hand is extremely poised and knows how to keep up a strong front, no matter how fake, in order to keep her team up and motivated. So of course she wouldn’t break down. Even with the revelation of her whole planet dying, and having to literally “kill” her own father, she never showed any weakness to the other team mates, even though they’ve all become extremely close, so of course she wouldn’t share personal things in this vlog. Coran as well, no matter how goofy he’s portrayed, had to leave behind everything he’d ever known (how he woke up in the cryopod with his eyes OPEN omg) for the tiny chance that Allura’s future wouldn’t be jeopardized, so he wouldn’t divulge either.

that brings us to Lance. People need to stop getting fanon Lance and Canon Lance confused, because i think thats where alot of the trouble stems from. Lance in VLD is a fun, happy go lucky character. He’s the “mood maker” of the team. now im not doubting that he def has his insecurities and worries, especially with “shiro’s” return and the lion switch, but he RARELY voices it. he only shared that thought once with Keith, and let it go afterwords. sure he misses his family, but seeing how he’s grown throughout the show, im sure he knows that the fate of the universe is a much bigger concern and his loyalty lies with voltron now. and the title “loverboy lance” isnt a bad thing either? is him appreciating strong powerful women wherever he goes, regardless of how they look, a bad thing?? (the answer is no.) and back to what i was writing earlier, Allura is this constant strong woman in his life. he’s seen her be strong in times of trouble and maintain diplomacy during the toughest of times as she carries the burden of the entire universe on her shoulders. idk about you guys but if i had someone like that in my life, i’d strive to be just like them, just as Lance is doing.

and (contrary to popular belief lol) their interactions are not entirely one sided! remember, Lance was the VERY FIRST person Allura saw after waking up from her cryopod. and just seeing the team in general, i think we can see that Allura and Lance’s team dynamic is one of the strongest out of everyone. Allura is learning to voice her fears and lean on her team for support, and Lance is always there to give her that shoulder to lean on. she obviously knows about his crush, but still holds him in high view. in her vlog, she explained how she doubted that these paladins would be able to even compare to the original paladins. but now that fear has subsided. its safe to say that Lance is the glue which holds team voltron together. and im sure without Lance, Voltron would be much to serious of a show, and would truly be unbearable. remember, the paladins (except shiro but counting keith bc hes close enough) are still kids!! they’re young teens who are still growing up and learning about life! let them be young and have fun without turning every little thing into an angsty mess. lets just appreciate things for what they are!

shipping aside, i feel that Lance and Allura’s character arcs are undoubtedly woven together, and we’re going to be seeing more of them working together and growing into strong adults together. And Lance’s vlog was just a lighthearted look into the good times he’s spent with Allura!

lastly, as a message to everyone in the fandom, just because your ships aren’t having moments or your characters aren’t changing the way you want them to doesn’t mean you can insult the creators. its their show, not yours. if you want to see characters in a different way, read fanfics! they’re amazing ways of imagining characters completely differently. and please don’t confused canon with fanon! :) lets improve the reputation of the Voltron fandom and appreciate every character whatever they give us!

((can we just all love lance and let him appreciate his space queen bye))

thx for reading this mess! <3

[idolapps]

mizuhara natsuko, "blood sweat & tears"

OOC INFO

NAME/ALIAS, PRONOUNS, TIMEZONE: sacha, she/her, gmt+10.

RESERVATION: bubblegum.

MEMBER PROFILE

FACECLAIM: minatozaki sana, member of twice.

NAME/STAGENAME: mizuhara natsuko, natsuko.

BIRTHDATE/AGE: march 2nd, 1998. eighteen.

COMPANY/POSITION:

idol, member of sweetheart @ crystal media. main dancer, sub-vocalist & visual.

HEIGHT/WEIGHT: 168cm, 49kg.

TRAINING PERIOD/JOINING YEAR: three years.

INTERESTING FACTS: 

She was a J-pop trainee from 2010-2012.

Natsuko loves horror movies, games and television shows.

She would of become an animator if she wasn't an idol.

Her hobbies include dancing, sleeping, drawing and writing.

STRENGTHS/WEAKNESSES:

( &. strengths )

DANCING, one of natsuko's most obvious strengths is her dancing ability. she's been dancing since she was three years old, and throughout the years has had the opportunity to learn a variety of dance styles which in return, helped her build her own dancing presence. as a teenager, she commonly filmed dance covers with her friends of both j-pop and k-pop songs, before uploading them to youtube. her biggest triumph, as a dancer, was dancing as a back up dancer for prominent japanese idol groups as a trainee back in 2010 to 2012, upon leaving to join crystal clear. she has a lot of confidence in her dancing, and has no problem picking up complicated choreography and learning it ( she enjoys the challenge, even if she gets frustrated ). it also brings her joy to help others with dancing, she likes to teach and instruct.

JAPANESE, a rather obvious strength, along with dancing, is japanese. it's something that will obviously come in use if sweetheart, or even the company, do a japanese project and are in need of a spokesperson. naturally, natsuko is confident when speaking japanese, as it's her mother tongue; she also feels an immense amount of pride and patriotism for her home country. having a second language as an idol is almost compulsory, and if not that; it's really appreciated. natsuko hopes her language skills will permit for her to represent her group overseas someday. 

SINGING, despite only being the sub-vocalist of her group, singing is a definite strength of hers, only just now, becoming more of a strength than something that sits between the good and the bad. from not being able to sing in her native tongue, to singing parts on sweetheart's album, is something huge to her. while her voice isn't immensely powerful, she is able to harmonize, sing live and also sing while dancing; to some extent. prior to becoming a trainee in south korea, singing was never really something natsuko ever thought about trying out, and if she had of gone there; she would of been bad; so it is thanks to crystal media that she's where she is now. as for the future, natsuko isn't looking towards improving her vocals to become a lead or main vocalist. she just hopes she can maintain her vocals and focus on her singing.

( &. weaknesses )

KOREAN, while it is probably not her biggest weakness as of now, it's still a weakness; one she's working very hard to overcome. natsuko more or less faked it with her korean until she made it, however, she's not really there yet. while usually coming across as very confident, bright and rather extroverted, she definitely struggled during her early trainee years due to her inablity to pick up korea at the rate which other foreign trainees were. so for a good while, she came across as very shy and timid, until she finally decided to stop seeking perfection in something she knew she'd never be perfect at. these days, she's a little quicker with forming sentences, and is a little more confident to speak when spoken to ( public wise, she's content with speaking among her members ). but, you'll still catch her looking around hoping her members will give her some guidance. she hopes that in the coming year or so that her korean will improve, so she's dedicating time to study so she can meet with her fans confidently and comfortably.

ACTING, natsuko is very transparent, and she finds it difficult to put herself in the shoes of another because she is entirely herself and her own person. despite this, she finds no trouble in creating and building her own characters in stories and comics she creates. she has heard comments regarding her acting in music videos, most of which haven't been story driving; and with negative comments comes negative energy. while natsuko would love to star in an acting role, either in a music video, a television show or a film; she knows it's not likely ( due to her ethnicity, but also her acting ability ), although it's something she'd like to get better at, as she feels it would open a lot of doors for her in the future.

RAPPING, rapping is definitely not within natsuko's skill set, regardless as to whether it's in japanese or korean. she struggles enough with singing as it is, despite her ability sing rather well for a sub-vocalist. she lacks flow, along with the rapping charisma that all rappers seem to have, and she doesn't really have an interest in hip-hop or hip-hop culture, it's not going to be something she pursues in the future. unless people want her to go out and make a fool of herself for a skit; then yeah, that is likely.

ENGLISH, natsuko learnt english in high school as a second language, however it's beyond her now. she's struggling enough with korean at the moment, so her chances of representing sweetheart in an english speaking country aren;t that high. while she knows a few obvious phrases like hello, how are you and i love you, among other things, such as random phrases in their songs, she's clueless as to how she'd even begin learning english. this is disheartening for her, as she wants to meet with english fans and speak with them, but it's hard due the obvious language barrier. this is a weakness she hopes to overcome, with time, some good time after korean, that takes definite priority.

BIO/PERSONALITY:

( &. biography ) she was born in the spring of april, 1998; amongst the falling cherry blossoms of tokyo, japan to a humble, working class family of four. her name was mizuhara natsuko. mizuhara natsuko grew up humble and content with her surroundings; and was taught from day dot that if one truly desires something, then they must work hard and earn it. those words were the foundations that natsuko built herself around, regardless of the area of her life to which she built on. their small home more or less forced a bond upon natsuko and her older sisters, two years between each, satomi and minako. the mizuharas were what one may call close knit, known for being very kind and hardworking, and were charitable when they could be. small beginnings for a small family in their small abode, they had eachother.

natsuko wasn't studious, she'd rather put her efforts into things that were considered less practical, like dance and art. thankfully, from a young age, she and her sisters had been told that they were welcome to follow whatever path they may choose. that helped when natsuko moved into adolescence. natsuko was good at building back up plans, believing that you always needed an escape route if you plan a wasn't going to work out, so forging the dream of stardom needed several. at age three, she began to dance; nothing serious of course, she wasn't destined to end up in an academy; but wasn't it most little girl's dream to become a ballerina. as she grew, she took on more styles; at first ballet, followed by jazz and tap, then hip-hop and contemporary. by age fourteen, natsuko more or less thought she'd hit the limits, although she never made it onto point, for an opportunity arose that one may or may not want to let slip through their fingers. 

stardom, becoming an idol. she'd always admired idols, everyone idolized someone, somehow; you had to have a figure you looked up to as a beacon of hope, or inspiration. in 2010, natsuko attended an audition for a rather, prominent japanese entertainment company, with hopes of perhaps gaining trainee status, even despite her age, twelve. somehow, natsuko succeeded, showing off her natural cute charms and dance skills; she suddenly became a trainee at a company, with a newfound dream of becoming a j-pop idol. j-pop trainees, they get the opportunity to perform as back up dancers now and then, and it's a perfect opportunity for natsuko to dip her toes in the water. she likes it. she likes moving, learning the choreography, performing with a wide grin on her face. but all dreams are some how short lived, or perhaps, better things arise. 

in 2012, natsuko was approached by a korean entertainment company, only hours after performing at a small scale event as a back-up dancer; the company being crystal media, one of three, prominent, rising entertainment companies in korean entertainment. k-pop. sure, she knew of some k-pop idols, but it was a dangerous stretch for a girl so young. confronting her parents, natsuko hoped to gain some guidance or wisdom; to which she heard what she'd always heard. something along the lines of always working hard and following it, if her heart was in it. and so she went with her heart, but also her head and her gut; it was a leap of faith, of dreams and fantasies, but somehow she crossed the oceans, auditioned properly and earned trainee status in south korea. leaving behind japan, her country of birth; and the place she was beginning to grow in, was hard. friends, people she saw everyday, people she could confine in and grow with, goodbyes were hard, but necessary. 

when her parents and sisters come to visit in the winter of 2012, they're quick to notice how quiet and reserved natsuko has become; her inability to pick up korean quickly like the other foreign trainees is somewhat disheartening, and she feels stupid. she is quick to question what her back up plans are, but she doesn't really have any right now. she perseveres, keeping her head down, working hard. somehow, natsuko finds the courage to be brave, and reach out; to ask for help to improve her korean, and she givees back, helping out others with their japanese or with their dancing. she somehow learns that her future is bright, and is very much ahead of her, crystal media is a family, and crystal media is slowly becoming her family away from home. she meets her future group members soon enough, and it seems like a debut is closer than they all had of thought. who knew that a girl like her, mizuhara natsuko could go from j-pop idol wannabe to k-pop girl group rookie within a year or two.

sweetheart debut in the winter of 2015, with their debut song glass bead, and natsuko is so thankful for the concept of the group. fun, youthful with complicated choreography to keep her on her toes. natsuko is titled as sweetheart's main dancer, sub-vocalist and visual; and she's not entirely sure she agrees with the whole visual part but she accepts it. she accepts everything, this is more or less her fate, what she'd worked for, what she'd earned; her reward. 

( &. personality ) 

natsuko is renowned for her energetic, bubbly and friendly personality. she's appears charismatic both on and off stage, and is always one to make others smile or laugh. she's talkative, and loves initiating conversation; which makes making friends really easy for her. despite being young, she loves to help overs; be it giving advice or being a form of support; a shoulder to cry on, someone to vent to. her upbringing has turned her into a very charitable, humble young woman, she isn't super materialistic, and any of her bigger purchases are all brought by her, rather than say, gifts. she can come across as being quirky or peculiar at times, which has also been misunderstood at childish; although she's corrected assumptions by saying she's playful. despite her poor short term memory, natsuko is rather intelligent, having a strong interest in humanities subjects like world history ( along with music and art ). confidence is natsuko's middle name, a trait she's willing to give herself. she's quick to put her hand up to do weird or scary stuff, perhaps she's a bit fearless, or maybe natsuko enjoys the spotlight; either way, she's genuine about it. above all, she's very passionate, very driven and very hardworking; it's hard to deter natsuko from what she likes doing; that goes for her dream. she often projects her passion onto others with hopes that they'll go forth with their own interests passionately.

she is rather naive, perhaps a little sheltered, having had the support of her family her entire life. this can come across as strange when she wants to provide advice or support to people, who's issues may be a little more serious or adult like. her positivity and thankfulness for things can be a little overwhelming at times, as natsuko is always trying to look for the positives, she's definitely not a realist. she's quick to see the good in people before the bad, and in the pass, she's most definitely had people use her and take advantage of the kindness and help she always offers. natsuko is a bit of an overachiever, and can often fall into states where it's difficult to shake her out of a habit or hobby, it's almost like obsession or compulsion. she has no confidence in herself when it comes to languages, or at least she didn't; especially korean. this caused natsuko to be very sad, quiet and reserved in her early trainee years at crystal media, hence the surprise that came about when she finally let go of the need to be perfect with something that was indeed foreign to her. natsuko is an obvious pacifist, through and through.