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[onelostgirl]

18. We’re Friends

Miya Atsumu x (f) smau

“Sorry about that needed to put Yuto to bed.”

Atsumu looked up from his phone and found that Y/N was not making eye contact with him. He guessed she was regretting the rash decision of inviting him to her house.

He wasn’t completely sure how he ended up her either. He was currently seated on a chair by the counter wearing a shirt that she had brought him so she could wash his.

He couldn’t say he was used to this either. Even if he had a twin brother he hated sharing things with Samu but he definitely didn’t listen to his own logic.

Basically, he hated people touching his stuff but he didn’t mind using theirs. But this was different.

He was in Y/N’s house wearing a shirt she gave him. Was this her boyfriend’s? Or an ex?

He didn’t know why it mattered but a part of him didn’t like that.

“It’s a new shirt. No one’s worn it before.” A voice broke through the silence as he looked at Y/N and noticed she was finally looking at him.

“I mean it must be uncomfortable wearing a shirt of someone you don’t know but it’s not owned by anyone.”

She paused.

“My friend bought it as a joke when I told him I needed to diet.”

Atsumu looked at her then, “Diet-I could hold ya up with one arm.” He joked as Y/N stuck her tongue out at him walking over to the refrigerator.

“Well, the wash shouldn’t be too long maybe another 30-40 minutes plus drying time.” She explained as she reached into the fridge and pulled out a container of tea.

“I coulda just gone home.” Atsumu replied as he was greeted with a glare from her.

“Sure and get sick while you do that, like that wouldn’t totally be my fault or responsibility.”

“Yer too serious bout this, I’m a healthy guy, ain’t gonna get sick.”

Y/N glanced at the blonde to see he wasn’t exactly smug, he probably genuinely believed his health was in mint condition.

“Still, I’ve got too many responsible bones in my body.”

“Ouch- sounds like somethin’ Omi-kun would say.” He teased as Y/N bit back a laugh.

For a moment it was silent then. They both knew they were treading lightly because of the unfamiliar situation. Atsumu didn’t know what to say or if he had any right to ask to begin with and Y/N didn’t know how far she was willing to let the line blur between her private and public life.

“So..Yuto’s a good kid, even if I ain’t crazy ‘bout them.”

Atsumu began testing the waters.

“Haha, just give him a while, he’ll drive you up the walls.” Y/N replied, her hands twisting around her cup.

“He probably gets that from his mom, my sister was extremely active, way too friendly, like ridiculously so.”

She didn’t know what was safe to say but she guessed she could start there.

“Kid’s super tighty must be yer influence, I’d think even Omi would be impressed despite the milkshake slip up.” Atsumu stated.

Y/N couldn’t help but laugh remembering how just earlier that day Yuto had made the horrible slip up of dropping his strawberry milkshake all over Atsumu’s shirt.

“I can’t believe someone could have such rotten luck. First you drop something, then you slammed your head on the bus door, and ending it with a sweet treat of a milkshake.”

She wouldn’t have kept laughing but at the reminder of his name day Atsumu was sitting across her pouting like a little kid.

“Ey, that’s enough laughin’ Y/N.” The blonde warned.

“In his defense, you did try to take some of his dessert when you had your own.”

“Hey, don’t ya teach yer kid ta share.” He accused as Y/N nodded enthusiastically still enjoying his misfortune.

Atsumu watched her smile and wondered why he didn’t stop himself when he asked the next question, “It’s just the two of ya then?”

Y/N looked up to see his brown eyes staring at her, it might have been that she held everything so tightly together or the warm feeling he gave off but she nodded her head, despite previously thinking she’d never tell him about herself.

“Just been us for about two years now.” She paused staring at a picture behind him, “it was an accident during summer when Yuto was three.” She whispered as Atsumu caught his breath staring at her silently unsure if he’d make it worse.

After seeing Y/N shake her head as though gaining her composure she looked at him, “Don’t tell anyone alright? I don’t want things to get too personal.”

“Don’t think it would be that bad Y/N, ya practically know everythin’ bout us.”

“Well it’s my job to know. And this was an unexpected coincidence, but it’s not going to happen again.” She stayed as Atsumu felt a feeling that he hadn’t felt in a long time-being unwanted.

He recalled this feeling from when he was younger and no wanted to play with him on the playground save for Samu, he knew this from group outings in high school when people didn’t bother to invite him since he’d only cared about volleyball, then it reminded him of when Hayami started ignoring him.

“Ya don’t have ta hide Y/N.” He whispered as she looked up at him, her eyes guarded as though he was stepping into her protected space.

“I’m sure there’s parts of you that you don’t share with people Miya.” She replied as the blonde shrugged his shoulders.

“I’m an open book didn’t ya know.”

She laughed, “Or that’s just what you want people to think.”

“Ya got me there, but I ain’t hiding anythin’ from ya.”

Y/N narrowed her eyes, “Liar.” She accused.

Atsumu put his hands up in air, “Scout’s honor.”

She crossed her arms a crossed her chest, “And the girl from Valentines?”

Y/N didn’t know why she asked him that maybe it bothered her more than she led on but she certainly didn’t expect to act how she currently was.

“Haya and I used to date.”

He admitted so quickly that she was surprised and sure her face said it all.

“You didn’t...” she started by was cut off when he continued talking.

“She got it in her head that we’re gonna get back together.” He replied as Y/N stood quickly listening to what he wanted to share whether that was just a piece of it or the whole thing.

“We got a rocky past and suddenly she’s comin’ at me like none of that happened.”

“I don’t know what ta do.” He confessed as Y/N realized they did a lot of that tonight.

“As your manager I’d have to tell you to be discreet.” She stated as he looked at her, “But as your friend I’d say it’s your choice and I can see why she regrets it.”

“Friends huh.” Atsumu murmured as Y/N watched him beginning to get lost in his thoughts.

“Haha, maybe I got ahead of myself thinking the great Atsumu Miya would be a friend of a simple manager like me.” Y/N teased holding her heart in mock hurt as the blonde have a small smile one that Y/N swore didn’t make her heart beat quickly.

“Yeh, guess we’re friends.” He repeated denying the way the word left his mouth bitter and the smallest twist in his stomach.

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[onelostgirl]

7. In An Instant

Miya Atsumu x (f) smau

Atsumu wasn’t exactly excited for this fanmeet. He was usually willing to please a crowd, but something changed after Hayami left. She had been an assistant for their previous manager and was someone Atsumu fell hard for. He thought he had it all figured out until the day she vanished from his life.

He was ghosted, his calls ignored, didn’t read or reply to his messages, she had left him all alone quicker than he could ever spike a volleyball.

She was there and then she suddenly wasn’t.

It wasn’t until after their last fanmeet that she showed up looking as horrible as he was feeling.

‘I’m no good without you, but that’s not what it’s like for you is it.’

Her words felt like venom seeping into his body. Had she really fallen for his fake attempt of making things seem okay? She thought this was easy for him.

‘Is that why you left’

He finally managed to choke out as she sharply looked up at him, her eyes filled with pain as he wondered if they were just reflecting his own misery.

‘There’s no way it would work Tsu, you’re you a somebody- I’m a nobody.’

He couldn’t hear anything over the words she had said. She knew what it was like getting into a relationship with someone in the spot light like him. He told her over and over how difficult it would be but he thought they were worth it. All the pain, struggles, secrets, late nights, the waiting-she was worth it all.

‘Yer somebody ta me.’

He thought it would make a difference but her body spoke volumes, her shoulders crunched up tightly as she held onto her hands like she’d crumble in front of him. She was somewhere far from him, a place he could never reach.

‘Wasn’t it enough?’

He asked as silence followed his words.

‘Wasn’t what we felt fer eachother enough to take all that shit.’

He looked up to her and slowly wiped a drop of water from his cheek.

It must have been sprinkling. The rain would fall soon.

‘I need you but you can do fine with or without me-that’s why you need to let me go Tsu. Holding on will only hurt us both.’

She thought he didn’t need her that’s why she had left him.

Atsumu worked his entire life to be where he was, gave up any other possible future as he persued this sport professionally. He couldn’t undo what he put in, he couldn’t turn the clock and just choose not to do this. All his life, he dreamed of standing on that court and millions of others, facing off to players who may or may not beat him, leaving the odds where they were and giving his everything to each match.

This feeling, this passion of his was something he needed to chase after even if he was on his own. Even if his twin had chosen a different path.

This was his and deep down he knew if he just gave it up it would kill him. But a part of him also knew that it was too much to ask her to stay. Knowing that he couldn’t give her what she wanted, understanding that sometimes their relationship wouldn’t be what she deserved.

He hated not being able to go on dates whenever he wanted. Despised that if he was recognized in public holding her hand that her face would be plastered on every social media and news channel across the nation.

It was the price he had to pay for becoming a pro player but it wasn’t something she signed up for.

And at first it was so beautiful and precious but after all the months away and uncertainty Hayami couldn’t handle any of it. The lying tabloids whenever he was in the same breathing space as an aspiring model or actress, all the endorsements that were coupled with said women. All the speculation that he had been secretly dating various celebrities or models.

He couldn’t ask her to go through with it all unless he offered her something permanent. But after the way she left, doubt coursed through him. She didn’t even explain anything, in his eyes he wasn’t worth a single text. She just decided things on her own and left him to wonder if that meant they were on a break or broken up.

‘So this is it then’

He replied with more of a statement than a question. She had made up her mind and there was no changing it.

‘There’s no me in me anymore Tsu, I loved you so much that I became a weaker person. Love shouldn’t be this hard. I can’t stand beside you and be strong.’

A part of him understood where she was coming from but it didn’t make it any better. He knew she grew dependent on him but he didn’t feel bothered by that. She obviously didn’t feel the same.

Was letting her go the only way to help her? He wished he didn’t have to, he’d hold onto her all his life if he could but fact was she didn’t want that.

His love made her weak.

‘Somethin’s I can’t control-be happy Haya, even if it ain’t with me.’

It was the last thing he said before he walked away from her. He turned before she could say anything else, before he broke down in tears, before any more time would be wasted between them.

He left and even when every fiber of his being told him to turn around. He didn’t look back. Not once.

———

Setting up for this fanmeet, might have been too much for him to handle, luckily there was a pint sized person to keep him distracted.

Y/N had been getting on his nerve lately but since his mind was filled with disagreements with her, he didn’t have time to think about Haya. It actually worked in his favor because he would have been one hell of a pain in the ass if he had to deal with all his pent up emotions.

Having her there helped keep his thoughts from wandering, even if all they had been doing the last three hours was arguing about the lighting or how many people were allowed up to the table at once.

Atsumu looked over to y/n, saw her standing and looking over to the table where all the members of the team would be sitting.

“Ya just gonna stand there, Y/N.”

Y/N looked over to the blonde setter taking out something from the box beside him.

“Oh, quiet Miya. I was just thinking if the lighting is good enough for the fans to see everyone from this far.”

She explained as the blonde looked over to her from where he was squatting at.

“Sure sure le’ me do all the work.” He mumbled a part of him wondering how they actually got to talking normally with each other. At the beginning it seemed impossible but somehow now things were different.

“Oh gosh, you’ve done like two boxes of giveaways. I’ve done dozens at home.” She replied as the blonde shot her a nasty look which she actually held back a laugh from.

When Atsumu turned away, he hid the smirk that was about to escape his face. A part of him didn’t want her to know he might have actually been enjoying this.

“You know tomorrow is my first fanmeet with the team. I’ve done it before but somehow I’m excited but very anxious.” Y/N confessed as Atsumu slowly stopped what he was doing to look back to her.

For a moment, he couldn’t turn away from her.

For once it seemed like she let down her walls slightly in front of him and he was very much not expecting or use to this.

“Yer gonna be fine, it’ll be a breez’. Only thin’ ya gotta worry about is if any fans sneak back stage— or if anyone throws unmentio’ables to Omi-kun.”

Atsumu attempted to try to soothe her worries, something he had never done before and he also wasn’t sure why he did.

“Oh yeah only that.”

Y/N responded not so convinced that would be the biggest of her problems during tomorrow’s event. She knew that before Atsumu and her were genuinely civil to each other that he voiced concerns on his social media and a small voice inside her hoped none of the fanatical types showed up.

She shook her head trying to will away any of her uneasiness as the event wasn’t about her. All she had to do was provide all the necessities to make this successful for the team and their fans. She knew they all worked hard and they deserve time to bond with the people who work just as hard to support them.

Her plan was to be invisible so much so that no one would mind her presence but also so she wouldn’t stand out to cause an issue.

“I can hear yer brain goin’ into overdrive. Would ya chill Y/N.”

A red blush appeared across her cheeks, a part of her embarrassed to know he knew she was over anazlying the entire situation.

She hoped that it wouldn’t be noticed by the blonde setter as she silently willed herself to calm down.

“Ya know red might just be ya color.” His words just made her blush harder as she shook her head to try to get herself to stop.

Atsumu found this situation all too amusing as he watched Y/N try to look at everything except him. He didn’t even realize a smirk had appeared on his face.

Y/N glanced over to him and caught the smirk. It had been the first time she actually looked at him and never for that long. She could understand why everyone was attracted to him, there’s no way you couldn’t know he was nice to look at.

His good looks might have been the reason why fans still showed up despite how much of an ass he was whenever he demanded silence during his serves.

He was a rare type of eye candy that many knew needed to be appreciated.

Y/N quickly looked away not wanting to stare longer than she already had.

She knew he was trying to make her feel better and a part of her admired that he actually did. This belief he had, gave her a bit of courage to face whatever might come her way.

“Well there’s nothing I can’t handle. And if you ever feel like you can’t hack it or that you just need a moment to breathe, I got you.”

She stated as Atsumu’s head slowly panned up to her, he was suddenly curious what she looked like.

The first thing he saw was an outstretched hand in front of him.

He gradually brought his gaze up to her face where he met her fiercely intense yet kind eyes.

He knew instantly that even if he had initially though she was like Hayami, he had been wrong.

The woman in front of him didn’t need his strength, instead she was offering him hers.

It might have been the first time Atsumu truly saw Y/N. As he glanced at her hand he realized that he was unfair to judge her so harshly before.

He was so occupied looking at her that he never really saw her. Never even comprehended that she wasn’t Haya, that she was her own person. That even if he made Haya weak, it wouldn’t happen with Y/N because she wasn’t her, she had a strength all her own that he couldn’t take away.

While he thought he would dread this situation, that he would rather be stuck in a room with screaming babies. He realized that spending time with her wasn’t what he thought it was. She wasn’t so bad when he decided not to go out of his way to be an extra asshole.

“Ya sure yer gonna be able to handle all us jack’ls?”

He asked in a playful tone as Y/N looked up at him, a genuine smile on her face.

“Oh please-I’ll take the team, fans, press, and then some.” She stated flipping her hair as if he was being ridiculous to even suggest that.

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Author’s note: Finally, we have some progress! Y/N and Atsumu have actually begun to have a decent convo that led to some mutual respect from both sides. Now, we just have to see how the fanmeet will go and also what does life have in store for Y/N when an old friend suddenly gets added to the mix. Stay tuned for the next update and be ready to brace for whatever twists, turns, drops, and flips that come with this Love Loop. Thank you for all the support and love! Taglist is still open (:

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2. Rocky Road

Miya Atsumu x (f)smau

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[onelostgirl]

10. Unexpectedly Present

Miya Atsumu x (f) smau

“Well you know this fanmeet is great and all but what are you thinking of asking the panel?”

Y/N had gone out to get a breath of fresh air after feeling a little heated from Atsumu’s texts. She obviously just blamed it on the poor air conditioning but really that girl must have been feeling something after being blindsided like that.

“I’m so crazy about Atsumu that I want to know what he does everyday all day.”

She overheard one of the fans say as she felt a vibration ring from her phone.

crazzzy cat 🌻

Great, she knew posting that status was a mistake.

While texting back and forth with Cat, she couldn’t ignore the conversation going on a little ways away. The girls were speaking loudly as if they didn’t care who heard them.

“Do you think Atsumu’s dating anyone?”

“What about Bokuto, that beef monster must be taken?”

“Isn’t Shōyō the cutest though? Like I’d love to squeeze the life out of him.”

“Well I think that Sakusa would be a pleasure to have in bed if nothing else.”

She cringed thinking how people were extremely explicit even when they were in public. She also wondered what the guys would think if they knew how desirable they were to their growing fan base.

“And what about that new manager of theirs?”

Suddenly, this comment made Y/N stop in her tracks as she never expected to come up in anyone’s conversation.

“You mean that plain girl with the striped shirt. Oh please like we have anything to worry about.”

“Yeah isn’t it like illegal to date the players you work for.”

“Even if she liked them what makes you think they like her?”

“Exactly don’t you think they’d be embarrassed she isn’t even cute.”

“Well I’d be worried if I was a Sakusa stan since black haired girls are his preference.”

“Yeah right like Sakusa would ever stoop so low to touch such trash.”

“If I were an Atsumu stan, I’d be careful since they seem to be getting closer.”

Y/N wondered if it was that easy to tell that something had changed between her and Atsumu. To the both of them it might not have seem so obvious but after some thought she realized that it might seem odd to someone looking from the outside.

Ding ding

A notification from her phone made Y/N look down.

She knew that Cat was just trying to be a supportive friend but a part of her wanted to deny any feelings other than platonic ones involving Miya.

There was something in her that knew he was a dangerous person. The kind of person that once you fall there was no going back. And she also understood that it wasn’t fair to expect anything from him or anyone else most especially because she wouldn’t be going into a relationship alone.

Yuto was someone who needed her and while he was something she hadn’t planned for her life very much surrounded him.

And from her past experience, she knew that despite her choosing to accept this responsibility that didn’t mean that others need too also.

He was a very much single and attractive person. He didn’t need anything tying him down not when he was at the height of his career.

Y/N quickly shook her head trying to dispel any thoughts of Miya because logically there was no way they would fit.

-

Atsumu was on a mission- he was searching for a certain fair haired, capable manager. He didn’t actually know why he was doing this but he guessed it was to say, “Ain’t I the best- don’t cha think e’vrythin’ would be ruined without me.”

He bit back a chuckle as he thought of the look on Y/N face when he’d tell her face to face that she was in his debt.

It was quite amusing seeing a side to her that he hadn’t before.

So far, since they met Y/N was all polite smiles and a firm exterior but he was slowly witnessing parts of her he never intended to.

He didn’t think this was anything other than something to distract him, from things he was refusing to deal with, issues he was running from.

He supposed it wouldn’t be so bad since this wasn’t a permanent set up. She’d leave when her temporary contract was up and he’d be better than he was when she came.

Yup, he’d just soak in the fun he could have and walk away when everything was said and done.

He waited by the elevator doors, a thought flashing in his mind that he wanted to see her already. Where would he find her, then the elevator doors opened.

He stopped for a moment, slightly stunned that she was in front of him. He thought she looked a little dorky but in a cute way.

“Oh Miya, where are you going?” Y/N asked very obviously trying to avoid the scene that Atsumu just witnessed. She knew she would die of embarrassment if he brought it up.

“Oh no no, ya ain’t dodgin’ that one, what the heck was that?”

Y/N bit the inside of her cheek, she desperately wanted to play this one off because there was no way she was going to admit what she was really doing.

She wouldn’t just out right say that those silly little girls comments got to her and she wanted to try doing something cute. The first thing that popped into her head was to do a silly face which always helped Yuto whenever he was in a bad mood.

‘Great, I just thought of trying to be cute by a 5 year old’s standards.’ She said to herself.

Atsumu was still waiting for her reply a look of slight interest if his slanted eyebrows were any indication.

“I was just doing a facial massage if you must know.”

Y/N replied holding back a hair flip because she knew that would be pushing it.

“A face massage?” The blonde repeated looking as if he wanted a more detailed explanation.

‘Well, in for a inch, in for a mile.’ She thought.

“Yes it helps to relax and firm up your face, you should try it. It’ll definitely spruce up your profile for the photo ops today.” Y/N continued trying to sell her point wondering if she was actually doing a good job at it.

She turned to her side as she watched the blonde slowly copy the gestures she performed when the elevator opened.

‘Bless his soul, he’s such an airhead at times.’

She tried stifling the giggle that was flowing out of her but didn’t escape Atsumu’s notice.

“Yer pullin’ my leg ain’t ya.” He said in a gruff his shoulders slightly bent in a pouting motion.

Y/N had to admit, as handsome and good lucking as Atsumu Miya was-his cute moments were definitely a show stopper.

“Don’t worry your macho image is well protected.” Y/N reassured as Atsumu looked down at her.

“Not sure that makes me feel safe at all.” He replied as Y/N laughed in response. This conversation was sounding slightly familiar.

“You’ll live.”

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[onelostgirl]

17. Not Your Miya

Atsumu Miya x (f) smau

- - -

Atsumu had to admit that lunch wasn’t horrible but it wasn’t amazing either. Hayami tried to make it seem normal having a ‘how you doing’ lunch thing but it only made things more awkward.

He had to stop himself several times from looking at his phone. He didn’t know what he waiting for but a small part of him denied that it had something to do with Y/N’s texts.

“You’d think all athletes were as nice as you guys but I think the Black Jackals were the best team I worked for.” Hayami explained as she went on and on about how she had been since they’d stopped dating. She had found a new job managing a baseball team not far from the city. Talked about how useful her experience was working with them and that she felt she was making progress with the players.

She didn’t mention her leaving, didn’t bring up how things had ended. It was almost like she was rewriting their breakup to something as less dramatic than it actually was.

Atsumu had a hard time keeping up with her. He’d always found talking to her to be fun but since everything happened he realized he might not have known her as much as he thought he did.

“Maybe we can catch a movie next week.” Hayami said in passing as Atsumu looked at his phone for the first time since they started lunch.

boss lady (1 missed call)

He had zoned out after seeing that notification.

Y/N had called him?

Was she okay?

It wasn’t like her to contact him if it wasn’t important.

Without thinking, he began calling her but was disappointed when he was greeted by her voicemail instead.

“So Tsu, a movie?”

Atsumu nodded without listening to her, “Sure yeh got ya.” He replied giving no thought to what he said or even noticing the grin on his ex’s face.

One day he would hear Omi tell him I told you so. And recommend he look into becoming more aware of reading between the lines.

Lunch had ended a bit ago but he found himself wondering the street for a bit. It was a day off, one well deserved, if he had to say so himself. Yet he was trying to fight the urge to go to the court. He didn’t know what excuse he could make, he knew that if he did Y/N would scold him about needing to dedicate more time to himself.

But for him being on the court was the only thing that made sense. He felt out of it whenever he was away too long and considered that she might have been right that he had a problem.

Which without much thought was- he didn’t have anything he liked doing except playing volleyball.

Despite being his twin, Osamu had other interests, most successfully making onigiri, but even growing up he dabbled in video games and even tried other sports out.

Atsumu however needed volleyball. It was the only thing that brought him to life yet gave him peace at the same time.

While in deep thought of what he should do, he then felt a tug on his jacket.

He instinctively looked beside him but noticed there wasn’t anyone there. It was then he felt another tug as he looked down in the direction of the pull.

A tiny hand was the first thing he saw, he followed that it to meet a tiny face.

“Mister, ya dropped this back there.” The voice said as Atsumu looked at the black haired kid behind him. He was maybe 6 but he couldn’t be sure, he wasn’t exactly an expert when it came to kids.

He usually saw them during events, fanmeets, and even some games. That however was the extent of his interaction with the minis.

He looked at what the boy was holding and realized it was a card Hayami had given to him. She had tried to tell him to look into new sports agencies and recommended the one she was currently working for.

He didn’t know what to say and declined her offer at first but she kept insisting it could help him in the long run.

That would mean leaving MSBY, the Black Jackals and all his teammates.

“Er’ thanks lil’ man.” He replied as he took the card and then realized that the kid was alone so thought to ask where his parents were.

“Hey where’s yer...” he began but was quickly cut off by a feminine yell.

“YUTO! I said wait!”

He turned following the voice and met the last person he’d thought to see.

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“Listen boss kid, you can’t just keep going on your own.” Y/N said to Yuto holding onto his hand as they made their way down the street.

“Onee, I’m not a baby.” The little boy replied as Y/N looked down at him and tried to resist the eye roll.

This kid was almost six yet acted like an 18 year old.

“You’ll always be my baby~.” Y/N sang as she was greeted with an exaggerated sigh.

“Did you just?” She looked down to see him trying not to laugh but heard the giggles escape anyway.

He thought he was being funny.

In response, she tickled him a little and gave in when he started hugging her and saying he was sorry.

“Not so tough now are you little bear.” She pulled him into a hug which wasn’t welcomed until he knew she wouldn’t let go until he gave in.

It was a good day, spending time with her little monster after being so busy. She had to admit Yuto spending time at a daycare was good for him since he would be interacting with kids his own age but it was hard not having him around.

She remembered when she first started taking care of him after the accident. It was a sensitive time for both of them and she wanted it to pass quickly just so she could see that everything turned out okay.

Now fast forward two years and she wished she had that time back. Just so she could cherish it a bit more.

She has no clue how to take care of a mini human being and now she realized she did pretty good. Yuto was a bright kid, he was repsectful, intellectual, and had this shine about him.

On the down side though, he wanted to grow up too fast, loved to do things on his own, and could try asking for more help once in a while.

After having lunch and doing a little shopping she noticed Yuto staring at something in his hand.

“What do you got there Yu?” Y/N asked as he looked up to her.

“Onee, that yellow guy drop this, can we give it to him?”

“Awwh that’s sweet of you but remember what I said about picking things up.”

“Onee what if it’s special?”

“Okay, okay, we’ll give it to him just let me grab our things.” Y/N replied as she took the last of the bags into her hands.

She turned to check on Yuto but noticed he wasn’t beside her any longer. Eyes widening in surprise she looked up quickly just to catch the green dinosaur hoodie a few feet in front of her. She was going to catch this brat and possible smack him into tomorrow for leaving her behind.

She realized she was definitely out of shape when she felt her chest tightening, her insides twisting in pain, and the soreness beginning to grow in her legs and calves.

How the heck could he be so quick?

Finally, she zeroed in on him and saw he was handing something to a man in front of him.

Did he not understand her lectures about strangers?

He obviously gained that way too kind attitude from his mother. She always had to caution her when they were growing up that not everyone was a kind as she was and now it looked like she had to do the same for her nephew.

“YUTO! I said wait!” She shouted out as he looked back at her finally revealing the face of the stranger he had chased after.

This was definitely not someone she expected to see.

And the brown eyes that stared back at her in surprise proved that the feeling was mutual.

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Author’s note: hey everyone I want to apologize for last week’s break. I was so swamped with life’s daily struggles I couldn’t juggle writing. Thank you all for your patience. So we finally have Y/N private life collide with her work life. She tried had to keep them separate because she had many questions that were brought up things she didn’t want to deal with. We’ll soon see how everything will play out. Please stay tuned and thank you for all your patience, support, and encouragement. Sending all my love! Taglist is still open!

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[onelostgirl]

4. Dug A Hole

Miya Atsumu x (f) smau

To say that Atsumu was having a rough day was an understatement. He woke up from an unsatisfying sleep only to be greeted with notifications from an ex’s social media. And boy did that make things worse.

He in a wild wind of emotions tried to contact this said ex. And it ended quite miserably. She had ignored his calls, though he knew he should have stopped at 4, his brain didn’t think to listen resulting in calling her 7 times.

He really didn’t give this much thought. Not in the least.

Then, too preoccupied by this issue, he let himself be late for call time. He had also chosen to ignore the numerous calls from Captain Meian, Y/N, and the guys.

He just thought it would be okay to sneak his way into the locker room and somehow talk everyone out of their irritation.

He stood by the elevator which would grant him the subtle entrance he need. The requested drinks beginning to show the signs of melting.

He thought he made it home safe.

He didn’t expect to be greeted by Y/N when the silver doors split.

“Oh I guess you’re not severely ill, is everything okay?” You asked as Atsumu stepped through the elevator doors taking the empty place beside you.

“Yah, just runnin’ a bit late is all.” The blonde responded in a nonchalant tone.

You bit back the mocking grunt that was trying to escape from you. Somehow you knew that he wouldn’t appreciate your less than understanding attitude.

“I can see that but you definitely had enough time to stop for a drink.” You replied, “or a few.” You added as you could see the displeasure begin to grow on his face.

He smirked, “Bit of a long walk from the station to here, musta been thirsty.” He stared as he watched you began to tap your foot impatiently.

This elevator ride seemed to be taking longer than usual.

“Yer out of breath yerself, want some?” He asked as you looked up at the massive being beside you. You never really noticed how taller he was than you and he wasn’t even the tallest member of the team. Even though somehow, you still found his presence the most intimidating.

“I’m alright.” You replied as you glanced over to see that Atsumu was texting rather quickly on his phone. You didn’t even notice him take it out and couldn’t help but wonder how he managed that with all the things in his hands.

You began to hear buzzing and realized he was answering a phone call. You hoped everything was okay because the look on his face you had never seen before, he almost looked defeated.

A part of you was itching to find out what was wrong, while another screamed inside you to leave it alone.

And in all your years of life, you wondered why you were never any good at reading the room. Because instead of listening to that reasonable voice inside you, you did something you immediately regretted as soon as the words left your tongue.

“Are you okay Miya?”

Once he snapped his head towards you, it was almost as immediate as stepping in a minefield.

You made a mistake.

You invade something private and it was too late to turn back now.

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Author’s note: Would love to thank everyone who shows their love and support for Love Loop, while things are progressing slowly please be patient as the storyline unfolds itself. Hope you loved these last two chapters and so excited for you to see what’s in store for our two babies. See you next Saturday!

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[onelostgirl]

5. A Half Baked Plan

Miya Atsumu x (f) smau

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Author’s note: Well we can see how Atsumu continues to drill the fact that he isn’t so fond of Y/N so much that a few of the Jackals + lovely little bro Samu need to take a step in before he permanently damages any future with Y/N. But will the succeed or will this half baked plan end up causing more trouble for the pair. Continue following Y/N and Atsumu to find out. Thank you for all your support and love. Taglist is still open (:

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14. Just Me

Miya Atsumu x (f) smau

Y/N’s eyes shot back and forth like a pinball as she watched Cat talk to Osamu like they had been friends forever. She knew that Cat had introduced herself to him a few weeks back right around the time they had eaten at his restaurant with Tooru but she hadn’t expected them to be this chummy.

“It’s a bit weird ain’t it?” She heard a voice say as she looked over to the blonde man beside her.

They had just finished prepping the photo booth and way ahead of schedule thanks to the surprising entrance of the Miya twins, more than 5 hours earlier than their shift to be exact.

“Well I guess not considering how friendly Cat is, she seemed to get along with you too earlier.” Y/N replied as Atsumu glanced over to her shooting his signature smirk that Y/N had to mentally fight reacting to.

“Guess the ladies have a hard time fightin’ their inner desires when it comes ta me.”

Y/N scoffed then looked at the blonde setter, “Oh you were serious.”

“Yeh yeh play as hard as ya want ya know I’m right.” He said waving his hand in a casual gesture as Y/N laughed at him earning her a joking glare from the setter.

“So how’s my choco goin’?” He asked as Y/N head shot up, she had actually planned to get them when she went back home to change before the event.

“Don’t worry I bought you the cheapest but tastiest one.”

“Ay, that ain’t the deal.”

“Why would it matter anyway, you’re probably not even going to recognize mine anyway.” Y/N stated trying to brush off the feeling of annoyance at his desire for sweets when he would be knee deep in the by the end of the night.

“I’d know if it was from ya.”

Y/N glances slowly up to Atsumu who had an unexpectedly serious expression. They stated at eachother for what felt like forever though they didn’t really know what was happening between those unspoken moments but something was definitely happening.

“Hey Atsumu is it true that Osamu kicked your butt at field day every year in high school?”

Cat’s voice broke through whatever was happening as Y/N looked away quickly.

“Samu why ya lyin’ ya know I owned ya!” Atsumu shouted back making his way to the pair cleaning up a ways from them.

That just left Y/N to think about what had just happened and that those chocolate eyes she stared into was something deeper than she was ready to take on.

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“So is your brother single?” Cat threw out as Osamu was getting ready for his photo shoot shift.

He didn’t know that agreeing to this stupid thing for Tsumu would have brought him to the exact person he was thinking of. He was extremely surprised that the same girl he met knew his brother’s team manager.

He had yet to get her number as Atsumu was teasing him about since they got there and he recognized her. Introducing them went smoothly with a narrow escape of awkwardness thanks to his jamming an elbow into Atsumu’s ribs before he could say the milf comment he was biting back.

But what was with this sudden interest with his brother - she couldn’t be into him right?

“Don’t you think they make a cute couple?” Cat stared as Osamu’s thoughts were interrupted as he looked in the direction that she was talking about.

His eyes caught the scene that she was referring to as Atsumu said something that earned him a scolding smack over the head by Y/N. She looked like she was doing her best to be serious but at one word she laughed along with the blonde beside her.

He had to admit he hadn’t seen his brother genuinely enjoying himself off the court anyway. Not since everything that happened with Hayami.

He assumed the same could be said about Y/N because Cat seemed extremely interested in how they were interacting.

“Guessin’ she ain’t always like that.” He stated as Cat looked over to him, almost forgetting how attractive the man beside her was. But how she hadn’t felt that attraction to the twin beside her best friend.

“Y/N’s a lot of things and definitely someone who could benefit from taking it easy every now and then.” She responded as the dark haired twin smirked at her.

“That prob’ly makes two of ya.”

She looked at Osamu with a curious expression, “What do you mean?”

“Well ya know cuz’ yer a mom yerself?” He replied in a whisper that Cat could barely hear him.

“I’m a what?”

“...a mom.” He said again not sure if that was the best way to bring it up.

He really didn’t know how to address it but he felt that she should know he was interested in getting to know her regardless of the situation.

Osamu didn’t look at her just yet not sure what face she would make, maybe she would be offended or insulted he brought it up without her initiating that serious of a conversation.

“I’m a mom? Why in the world would you...” she replied as it dawned on her then that he had first saw her with Yuto. A young kid who she loved very dearly but was also not hers.

“But the kid..” Osamu began but was stopped by Cat’s hand moving up gesturing him to stop.

“He’s a relative of a very close friend of mine.” She explained but stopped there knowing it wasn’t her place to say who exactly he was especially when it was obvious that Y/N hadn’t mentioned anything to Atsumu.

“So yer not a mom then.”

“Not biologically, I have tons of kids though, I work at a daycare.”

“Yer a teacha?”

“Ding ding, looks like you’re not completely brainless then.”

Osamu shook his head how could he assume something like that and actually come out looking like he had the same intelligence as his brother.

“Well then how would ya feel ‘bout catchin’ a bite ta eat after all this?” He threw out not wanting to hold back any longer.

Cat looked up at him with a coy smile, “It’s about damn time you asked.”

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By the time Y/N saw him he was surrounded by a hoard of girls. Despite this seeming like Atsumu’s natural habitat, anyone could tell he was politely trying to tell them to fck off.

She assumed this was from the constant bad reputation and hate he gained whenever he was -well his true self out in public. Many people enjoyed his athleticism and definitely his looks, his nasty personality though, wasn’t a real crowd pleaser.

“Listen ladies, thanks fer the goodies but I gotta go, gettin’ back ta the booth.” Y/N heard him say as he quickly ducked out of the crowd and made a quick exit choosing a banner displaying an elderly couple celebrating 50 years of marriage.

From where she was standing, he looked really ridiculous and strangely cute attempting to hide until she arrived.

As confident as he was on the court it was refreshing to know he had moments like this too.

“You going to hide here all night or?” Y/N stated as she watched Atsumu’s shoulders jump up high and he quickly turned back to her.

“Don’t do that-ya scared the sht outta me.”

Y/N bit back a laugh seeing Atsumu’s look of displeasure complete with arms folded together in a pouting motion.

“Let’s just get something to eat before you start getting more grumpy.”

“If ya knew I’d be grumpy why’d ya make me wait so long.”

“Let’s go princess.” Y/N teased as Atsumu followed her his dragging feet showing his displeasure with her comment.

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“It can’t have been that bad!”

After getting something to eat, they had somehow spent sometime talking and were now discussing horrible Valentine stories. Atsumu had just finished telling her of when a girl who was crazy for Osamu had slapped him silly when she mistook him for his twin and wasn’t happy about him being on a date with another girl.

“Ya weren’t there Y/N, it was a nigh’mare, she was yellin’ at me even pulled the other chick’s hair. I would’ve laughed my ass off it wasn’t happenin’ ta me.” Atsumu added as Y/N began to laugh at the story and his over exaggerated gestures and expressions.

He really was a good story teller.

“I actually feel sorry for you-here you were trying to score one and something like that happened. Not sure if it’s rotten luck or bad karma.”

“Whaaa, I hav great karma!”

“Sure you do, especially for all those times you were beyond nasty about your serves.”

“That was high school.”

“You still do that!” Y/N teased as Atsumu turned to deny it but came up empty because she had a point.

“I ain’t that bad no more.”

“Haha, that sounds like something a kid would say.”

Atsumu turned to look at her, “Since ya think I’m actin’ like a kid, where’s mine?”

“You already have so many-why do you need this one too?”

“Because ya made it fer me.”

Y/N tried not to think of how his voice sounded when he said that but it was kind of difficult not to. She wanted to blame it on the fact that she hadn’t been on a date in years but maybe it was also because she was enjoying the attention Atsumu was giving to her.

Before spending time getting to know him, she just assumed he was a jerk but now she knew he was a jerk and so much more.

He made her laugh, like really laugh. Then there were times when his smile or even his stupid smirk or grin would tug lightly on her heartstrings. Or even the conversations that could be so random and average then suddenly deep and thoughtful.

So, she had made him chocolates, despite her better judgement, even when she was horrible at it and Yuto laughed at her attempts or spit out the really awful ones.

She pushed herself to make these chocolates because maybe she wanted to see wherever the heck this could go.

“I’ll wait all night if I gotta.” His statement rung through to her as Y/N looked up at him slightly glaring at him.

“If they don’t taste that good just- lie to me okay and say they were great.”

Y/N reached into her bag slowly pulling it out.

“I mean it, it’s probably really bad, and if it is don’t even eat them all, just throw it out.”

“Would ya just give ‘em here. Ya actin’ like I’m some nasty chef who’d spit it up on ya.”

Y/N reluctantly passed it to the blonde looking away trying to mask her embarrassment. Atsumu found this beyond amusing since she was acting like a real person and not just his manager or someone who’s job it was to care about him.

“Thank-” Atsumu began but a ringtone stopped him as he watched Y/N pull her phone out. He as about to say something when he saw her politely put up her hand gesturing for him to wait.

“Yes this is she...”

“...is everything okay?”

“...oh...no that’s fine, I’ll be right over.”

As quickly as the call came it ended as Y/N put her phone back into her bag. Atsumu was waiting for her to say something but from her distant eyes and silence he assumed it was personal.

“Er everythin’ alrifht Y/N?”

His question stayed in the air between them for longer than he expected it was like she hadn’t even heard him.

“Yo, Y/N ya good?” He asked again this time waving his hand in front of her face snapping her back to reality.

“Oh yeah, I just got to take care of something.”

Atsumu watched as she began walking rather quickly in the direction of their booth.

“Did somethin’ happen? Ya got to go somewhere?” He continued to ask as Y/N distracted responses began to unsettle his stomach for some reason.

“Yeah nothing so serious-just got to let everyone know I need to leave.”

“Oh well, did ya need a ride? I don’t mind takin’ ya.” Atsumu offered as Y/N stopped and looked up to him, her eyes somewhat guarded.

“You don’t have to do that.”

“...well maybe I wanna make sure yer good.” He replied as Y/N’s lips tightened as though she was thinking of what to say.

“I guess that would be nice.”

“Ya sure got a way with words.”

Y/N tried not to smile at his teasing tone but Atsumu caught it ever so slightly. She didn’t realize he too, had a small smile on his face.

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Bonus: Cat and Y/N’s outfits for the day (taken at the MSBY Valentines Booth)

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Author’s note: Hi everyone! Sorry for the late upload had some trouble conveying this chapter but hope you enjoy it. Please stay tuned for the next update and continue to shower Love Loop with your beautiful support and love. Taglist is still open (:

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[onelostgirl]

12. A Sweet Request

Miya Atsumu x (f) smau

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Author’s note: Welcome back lovelies, so this chapter is gearing up towards next week’s where Atsumu and Y/N will face the challenge of a Valentine’s Day event. So for now please enjoy convos with the Jackal babies and Miya and Y/N. Stay tuned for tomorrow’s upload and please support and send love for this story/smau. Taglist is still open ☺️

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4.2 Dug It Deeper

Miya Atsumu x (f) smau

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Author’s note: In this chapter we see how the gap between Y/N and Atsumu continues to widen, hopefully something happens soon that will get the two of them to see eye to eye or at least where the other is coming from. Please continue to support Love Loop! Taglist is still open just send an ask or comment if you’d like to be added!

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[onelostgirl]

8. Something’s Off

Miya Atsumu x (f) smau

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Author’s note: After a long awaited week here we finally are at the fanmeet. But things have gone for a turn when Bokuto says something he shouldn’t have. Now will this drive Y/N and Atsumu apart or can they find a common ground on this Love Loop 🤔

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9. In Good Hands

Miya Atsumu x (f) smau

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Author’s note: first ever decent text convo with Atsumu leaves Y/N spinning on this Love Loop. Stay tuned to see what happens next ☺️

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13. Close and Closer

Miya Atsumu x (f) smau

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Author’s note: This upload is a bit of a large one but it’s gearing up for what’s to come. Will Valentine’s Day be an uneventful day for Y/N and Atsumu or will they be in for a wild ride as emotions flare, skeletons come back to haunt, and unfamiliar feelings begin to settle in. And what is in store for the setter’s little brother and a friend who is mistaken as young mother. Stay tuned to find out this Love Loop. Taglist is still open ☺️

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15. We Believe, A Little

Miya Atsumu x (f) smau

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Author’s note: So Atsumu made some rash decisions in the last chapter and now has to face the consequences. So far practice has been normal with the very apparent absence of Y/N due to a busy schedule or is it? How will they fix this and can they find a good middle for the two of them. Please stay tuned and all your support and love is always appreciated. Taglist is open ☺️

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6. Sounds Fishy

Miya Atsumu x (f) smau

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Author’s note: Y/N and Atsumu failed phase one of Bokuto’s well thought out plan I guess magical things don’t just happen with two people alone in room for a few hours. Oh go figure it wouldn’t be that easy, our lovelies have a lot of issues to work out and hopefully soon they’ll be able to sort through some of them. Please continue to support and stay posted on Love Loop. I ask your patience in this endeavor as not all loves fall as fast as others but that doesn’t mean they’re any less true. Tag list is still open (:

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Profiles for Love Loop

Chapter One drops tomorrow! But before that here’s a look at the main cast 💞

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Author’s Note: AU may include other Haikyuu or original characters but for now it centers around y/n and the four newest members of the Black Jackals with appearances of y/n bf Cat (original character) and Osamu Miya.

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