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I just posted a transcendence au animatic on YouTube!!
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#I don’t know why I’m so nervous about it#it’s literally just an animatic#but I don’t know#I’m proud of it#and I’m scared people won’t like it#art#drawing#animatic#transcendence au#transcendence#alcor the dreambender#mizar#tau#nervous#Youtube
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It’s been clear that the Tanizakis aren’t siblings from the very beginning
here’s some evidence now that it’s been confirmed canon…
everyone who’s read irl Tanizaki’s book knew that Junichiro & Naomi weren’t siblings as soon as they introduced themselves
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BUT just because the Tanizakis aren’t siblings doesn’t mean you can’t feel uncomfortable about them. if you feel uncomfortable, GOOD. that’s exactly what they want
the Tanizakis, Mori— they all use these disturbing ruses to disarm or distract people in order to protect themselves, or to accomplish their goals. this is a writing device that asagiri commonly employs as a way to parallel the irl literature (it’s actually ingenious)
there are 4 main indicators that have always made it clear to me that Junichiro & Naomi are not siblings:
1. most obviously— their character designs. Harukawa is extremely intentional with character designs, & she very intentionally made Naomi & Junichiro look nothing alike
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their eye shapes are purposely different
their color palettes are contrasting
even their differing styles of clothing have meaning
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this was all done so that the audience could PLAINLY see that they’re not related— so that WE know that they’re lying when they say they ARE related
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2. how the people around them respond to their act.
the general reaction is “don’t question it”— which is exactly what they want. “be distracted by how uncomfortable you feel so that you look away from what we’re hiding” (this is likely a protective measure)
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3. most importantly, this is meant to parallel irl Tanizaki’s book “Naomi,” where the main character Joji picks up Naomi to raise her into his ideal woman, but since she's so young (& a minor) they call each other cousins (Joji makes no sexual advances on young Naomi btw)
however, his plan backfires because when Naomi gets older & they get married, she flips the script on him & manipulates HIM so that he's under her thumb (which is why bsd Tanizaki is at a domineering Naomi's mercy). Joji let her have her way because of his masochistic tendencies
4. lastly is the emphasis that Asagiri and the Tanizakis themselves put on calling each other siblings.
over & over, it’s “my brother this” & “my sister that”
like they’re desperately trying to convince us that it’s true (“don’t let your lying eyes deceive you”)
here are just a few of many examples from the light novels…
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again, if you’ve read “Naomi” you knew that Junichiro & Naomi weren’t siblings as soon as they introduced themselves
just like if you’ve read irl Mori’s works, it’s clear that bsd Mori isn’t a pedophile
just like if you’ve read No Longer Human you know that Dazai’s an unreliable narrator. he makes you think he’s a bad person bc he believes he’s a bad person, but those around him see him differently (btw this doesn’t mean he’s never done anything “bad,” though bsd isn’t about morality— but that’s another discussion)
anyway, i’m so excited for the Tanizakis backstory to be revealed so that we can better understand why they use this defense!!
also let this be a reminder to READ THE LITERATURE if you’re able to!! even reading synopses & analyses of the coordinating books makes bsd make much more sense 🥹
reminder that this how you’re supposed to react while reading bsd:
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also, if you’re interested in a post explaining how Mori isn’t a pedo, i wrote this analysis on twt. OR you can read this document that one of my moots sent me (remember: analyzing a character does NOT mean you condone any actions they may or may not commit!)
#i hope this makes sense. i’ve had this in the drafts for months but was too scared to post it#i’m hoping now that it’s confirmed canon there won’t be as much backlash ^^’ pls be kind#darcy this is for you… i hope you like it :’)#also full disclosure i haven’t been able to read all of Naomi yet. mostly synopses & analyses. so don’t take my summary of the book as law#also hopefully now people won’t ignore the Tanizakis anymore!! not only are they so interesting. they’re also just fun characters#Naomi is so underrated & intelligent. i need more of her teaming up with Dazai#rambling about bsd again#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bsd meta#bsd analysis#bsd tanizaki#bsd naomi#naomi tanizaki#tanizaki junichirou#tanizaki siblings#bsd 118
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Hey Jashers! So. I’ve recently seen a lot of people expressing how they feel the CJ community has been getting kinda toxic lately. It’s honestly really disheartening to see this happening, especially as this community and Chonny’s music/characters mean a lot to me. I guess this is all to say: if you feel the CJ community is getting toxic, let’s try to actually fix it. And no this doesn’t mean “make 10000 callout posts”. The Jash himself said both on Twitter/X and on the CJFS he’d rather all this (recent incident[s?]) be essentially acknowledged and dropped. If you want to keep this fandom alive and healthy (which I feel for the most part it already is! CJ is active in the discord server and is comfortable engaging with his fans and I think that alone is a really positive sign. Plus we have some incredible creativity and support !) do your best to contribute to the positivity and respectful, good content that we DO for the most part produce. You can make it clear that creeps, those looking to disrespect boundaries/privacy, etc. aren’t welcome here, but please try to do so effectively and only as needed. I know it’s kinda trite, but these people feed off attention and giving them more of it (regardless of whether it’s positive or negative) is only going to worsen the situation. In addition, if you can, please try to adopt the mindset that while flawed, this is an ultimately pretty good and respectful community. The more you express that it’s toxic and disgusting, the more it’s gonna live up to that.
[If you feel the need to distance yourself that’s totally fine and understandable too, just please do it for yourself and not as like. a statement I guess?? Idk I honestly haven’t seen anyone doing this I just thought it could be good to address]
TLDR: This community means a lot to me and I really desperately don’t want to watch it go to shit. Please for the love of whatever, let the toxicity die attention-less in the shade and just . be respectful. foster the actually positive parts of this fandom so they can prosper.
[PS: genuinely none of this is actually directed at anyone!! More just addressing a recent trend I’ve seen I guess??? Anyways uh yeah. Stay cool and stay hyped for chaos week I suppose :]]
#agh I’m not used to making serious posts or statements but I really really wanted to get this out there#I really hope this makes sense I’m so sorry for the massive text block-#uhhhh#shit dins#I guess#chonny jash#cj community#I’m honestly real scared to post this and idk if anyone will see but uhhh here it is ig#sorry for all the uuhs and I guess’s. I don’t have a good reason aside from nerves lol#Ik it’s kinda hypocritical to make a massive post about how we should stop massively posting about this#but this is super important to me and also probably the only serious thing I’ll ever do here#and we’re going back to almost exclusively art and shitposting in the morning sooo uh yeah#please don’t send me to the pits for this- if you take issue with this post legitimately feel free to dm or smth!! im just some guy and#I wanna be able to communicate and understand people’s perspectives n stuff#or send asks if you’d prefer. either way just like. communcate!! I won’t get offended and I promise I don’t bite :]
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sorry, i’m imagining Short Masc Reader x Regina George, because i believe that they would purposely buy shirts/hoodies/jackets that are too big for them so Regina can feel tiny, cozy, and protected when she steals their clothes.
(i’m projecting me and my girlfriend onto regina x reader stuff sorry)
#hi i’m sorry i disappeared again#im really bad at staying active#i have really bad writers block and i also get anxious that people won’t like what i write even though i’m writing for fun i get scared#mean girls#regina george#regina george x reader#renee rapp#renee rapp x reader#fluff#mean girls 2024#x reader#regina george x you
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interesting to me how when i turned 19 i was kinda terrified bc i was like “oh shit this is my last year as a teenager….. i won’t be a teenager after that… i wanted to be a teenager for all of my childhood and now that part’s almost Over. aaaaugh” and now approx. 9 months later i cannot fucking WAIT to stop being a teenager oh my god i am ready to move on. 20s please i would like to be in them. i am done being 19 thank you !!!
#marzi speaks#it’s . probably bc of the vasculitis thing#which like. while it is a traumatic thing that i need to work through and plan on going to therapy about#it also put a LOT of things into perspective for me#and like actually i do not think i am afraid of growing up anymore !#i mean i still have like. the imposter syndrome and the fear of getting overwhelmed and falling behind#that’s not gonna go away overnight that’s been there for as long as i can remember#BUT!! i know deep down that i can figure it out now.#bc i figured out a lot. i figured out how to gauge my physical well being#i figured out how to be someone who can regularly make phone calls without crying#i figured out pharmacies. and i’m figuring out how insurance works#and appointments and withdrawing from school and reapplying to school#and all of the lifestyle changes that come with having an autoimmune disease#i’m learning self advocacy. i’m learning how to respond when people treat me poorly (always accidentally so far)#yeah getting my license has been hard and slow just bc i have all the anxiety shit about it. but i AM putting that effort in#i dunno it’s just. adult responsibilities are horrifying and the prospect of existing independently in our current society#is horrifying. and i think i’ll always be scared.#but i used to think i might not be able to handle it. that i would fall apart#i know now that i won’t. i will find a way to move forward and be happy. because that’s what i’ve always done#if i can take the scariest couple of months in stride the way that i have. then i think i can handle it#anyways. 19 was eventful enough can i be 20 now. i think being 20 would be good for me#still a Weird thing to think about. two whole decades. but like i can do it methinks
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is bulimic misandrist rize like. an acceptable concept to ppl or is my fic gonna be hated into oblivion
#it’s quite a personal vent(ish) fic I’ve been working on for quite awhile now#It’s very special to me - writing it has been so cathartic.#I wrote a lot of it during the very worst of my mia - before i was medicated. It’s rly special.#I know it won’t be for everyone - i didn’t write it for everyone. It’s not meant to be pleasant.#But I’m scared ppl will misunderstand - ppl will bully me for it?#I know people don’t like me talking about tg and eds - I’m sorry.#But it’s something that rly has helped me as a disordered person.#Shuu and Rize have been so special to me in regards to it.#I know people disagree. I know you all hate me. It’s ok.#That’s how it is.#i just hoped ppl will be understanding. Or try to be. When it comes out#Sorry.#i’m sorry.#tokyoghoulcore#wipcore#ficcore#rizeficcore#iwantextremez!core#Ed mention#steph is talking abt that biatch mia#Chomp.com
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I kind of stay away from all online conversation about DC because I’m sensitive about my shit (completely right opinions about every DC production ever) but I didn’t realize that people really hate Henry Cavill’s Superman like this omg???
#I’m scared to share my thoughts like I didn’t know it was like that lmao#is this a good assessment idk? maybe people are just being extra bc cornswet is new candy?#superman#man of steel#henry cavill#still haven’t watched the teaser btw and probably won’t watch anything until the movie comes out#this is just how I approach all things DC
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help why is no one ever normal about me
#like I am pretty great so I get it but the reactions people have to me…….are not normal#like there’s no quality I have that I can think of and go oh okay That’s what’s causing this#and I don’t know of anyone else who gets similar reactions it’s just me and I’m not Doing anything#idk I think if people could be in my head they’d see that I’m really not this person they’ve built up a whole character concept around#I would really like to be that person!!!#but I’m not#and that’s not insecurity talking it’s like. dangerous men won’t set foot on my property even after I’ve moved out bc they’re scared of me#and for what#I can’t count on both hands the number of people who think I have magic powers#and I’m not talking about regular witchcraft (which I’m bad at!!!!) I’m talking about people thinking I can do Harry Potter level shit#and it’s people who don’t even believe in magic normally!!!!!!!#I’ve had people off the street ask if I’m a witch before#and I’m not#doing#anything#BELIEVE ME if I could I would in fact I deeply want to tap into this aura i apparently have and put it to work#but it’s also so much to put on me
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You wouldn't download a dinosaur, so why on earth would you let a eldtrich monster blue haired pronoun having girl boss you around?
PICK A FAVORITE TWIN, AI OR AO
am I having a stroke
Definitely Ao, I love making making her an absolute brat and AI’s just exasperated.
#and I’m scared that people won’t like her if I make her extremely bratty#but I love the idea that she just doesnt want to be mature#time is something she can acknowledge#not abide and her ‘human’ form probably isn’t even lucid#whos to say how old she is and how old she should act#Ao#hcs#recreyo hcs#Recreyo
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Oh the urge to make a danganronpa au with the life series cast.
I have ideas but I need to wait until there’s a winner so I can have the 6 survivors and debate on who’s the protagonist, probably the 6th winner tbh. And so I know if there’s more new players or not.
Anyway I already have an idea for two murders, chapter 1 killer I know who and who possibly died (although the victim might be too obvious) and I know who’ll be the chapter 3 killer but I don’t think people will like the characterisation I have…
Yet again I need the series to finish before I make my decision lmao.
#grim talks#trafficblr#so the survivors I’m thinking of is the winners of each life season with the sixth survivor being the next winner#unless Cleo wins this season she won’t be in the survivors group as I don’t count real life to be canon#she can live until chapter 5#for the traitor I don’t know who to pick yet#I know most people will go with BigB because of him being secretive but I don’t feel comfortable giving the only poc a role that makes the-#-other players scared or hate I don’t feel comfortable doing that#I’m thinking Grian could work as he created the life series and it would be too obvious for him to be the mastermind#if not the sub in guys could work as a traitor#if you made it this far I will tell you two trial ideas#mumbo kills jimmy because Jimmy always dies first and I want to use mumbo’s “I’m not the boogeyman but I’m the BOOGEYMAN”#and frail around like a wet cat#the chapter 3 one I want Gem to kill bdubs and someone else and taunt to etho about killing bdubs#:3#hence the mischaracteristion fear
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guy who’s entire self worth and will to live when it is entirely and completely reliant on other people’s opinions on their work or something (IT DOES NOT EXIST WHATSOEVER)
#the crier#can i please please please die or just become perfect like everyone else is so i don’t have to experience this thanks#please genuinely kill me i’m going to be sick nothing i make is ever going to be loved there is no amount of changes that can be made#the art will reflect the artist and the artist is insignificant and worthless and unattractive and unappealing#it all means nothing and it all was nothing. i’ve accepted this but i’m never going to be okay with it#what the hell is even left here for me. what was i doing. i’m nothing. i don’t even exist#i just. i dont know. i wanted to exist.#i wouldn’t even care if *I* was loved. can’t you love what i love too? i made it. why doesn’t anyone see anything.#there isn’t anyone here man. no sincerity. i know what sincerity looks like. all i get something you people toss to me to shut me up#i’m genuinely scared i don’t have anything else. i don’t have anything else i don’t think anyone understands that this was my life#this is my last thread#i have no other reason to be here#i don’t think anything would stop me if this falls apart too#thinking about it more i want to say that i’d be fine with loving my creations myself. even if nobody else does. i think. they still make#me happy. i’m still happy. i think i can be fine if i just love them some more. i can still love them. and that will be enough. they’re fin#and i will be fine#i can just keep loving them and it will be fine. i don’t need anytone else to love them . i’m sorry#i’m still scared that i won’t let myself handle it. i’m scared and i don’t know why i’m so dependent on it i hate it i’m so so sick of it#i don’t want attention i dont want to need it i hate that i need it and i hate how. stupid. i get#when i just THINK that it’s not enough#why can’t i just carry them and myself away and enjoy them by myself. why do i need this so bad#i dont know why i need it so bad. they don’t even care. they arent real. they wouldn’t even want that attention on them
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I struggle with horror movies because I’m kinda squeamish and easily scared, but horror in non-visual media (books, podcasts) is great because if anything gets too gruesome I just go, “Welp. Not imagining that.” and move on.
#i’m always surprised when people say an episode of the magnus archives is scary cause like. i’m the biggest wimp on the planet and i’ve nev#er been scared by tma#partly because if it asks me to picture something upsetting i simply Won’t
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#ranting again sorry#but I feel like my closest people have treated me so badly lately#and before I’ve just ignored it but I’m so tired of it and now I’m just angry#like the whole situation is so absurd I won’t explain it here because I’m scared I’ll get recognized but#blaming me for you feeling bad about yourself when I’ve done literally nothing makes me feel so guilty for no reason#also convinced they’re talking shit about me all the time but yeah whatever#fuck everyone I’ll only live in my own little olli/allu bubble from now on thank you#spar rants
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chat should I tell my irl friend I’m aroace
#lissi talk tag#I know she’ll be very supportive and she’s queer herself so it’s not like I’m scared she won’t accept me#but what I am scared about is that if I tell her more people will find out that I do not want knowing#Because they always do in this place even if neither of us yaps#or worse(?) my parents#Not like they’ll not be supportive but my plan is to just pass as a very annoyed allo until I’m a 100% sure it’s ok#Or until it’s necessary which I doubt it will ever be tbh#But i will very likely lose contact with that friend because like she’s been friendly with me and we have math together but like#She has her own “popular” group of friends and that’s fine#But I just want her to know before we inevitably drift apart but aside from that it’s not a good time entirely#She did earlier today mention ace and aro as separate concepts which is a win from anybody irl to me tbh#idk I need to sleep
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Local woman found dead in her house cause her boyfriend left for 5 minutes 😔 + a kitty :)
#I love how her face looks and yes the smudges are intentional#.🤍🎩🍰#Cassandra Maria#you asked for this fancy tube but I’m won’t tag you cause I’m scared of people :3#this is the first art I’ve actually liked
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curling up to lay down like a small puppy. someday it’s all gonna be okay
#marzi speaks#i’m a bit in my feels tonight lmao…#shit is so much right now. on like every level#and i won’t lie. i’m scared. i’m very scared#but i have people i care about. and people who care about me#so we’ll keep looking out for each other and we’ll make it out
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