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cocaine driving me insane but cocaine takes away the pain I’m a cocaine werewolf

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also maybe eating fewer apples and protein bars will help

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wait okay some people are saying TMJ can be fixed with proper tongue posture and I’ve had a Weird Tongue Thing my entire life that my parents briefly tried to fix with…….. homeschool speech therapy……… when I was like 5 and then gave up on bc I wouldn’t take it seriously. so that could very likely be why I’m in this state which means 1) there is hope for me to fix this and 2) this is all my mother’s fault as usual

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Im not sure of you think it might be helpful but theres lots of facial massages online that can help with jaw pain, I dont have tmj but i grind my teeth and get tension headaches and soreness from that and the facial/neck massages help a lot. Also for sinus drainage, if you put something that vibrates on your sinuses it will help with the congestion so at least youre a bit more comfortable until you get get antibiotics. I have a facial massager i use but i guess some people just use sex toys lol which might be better because i assume the vibration is stronger.

mila ily for continually solving every problem i have in every post….. antibiotics unfortunately haven’t worked even slightly 🙃 but the rest of this sounds very helpful i was massaging the painful part of my jaw earlier without knowing what i was doing and it felt nice

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Yuui Gim aka Gim Yu Ui aka 김유의 aka Kim Yu-ui aka Yu-ui Gim (South Korean, b. Salford, Manchester, England, based Seoul, South Korea) - Black Cats are Good Luck, 2023, Paintings: Oil on Canvas

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tbh anon no hate bc I know you meant well but like. that was the first anonymous message I’ve ever gotten that genuinely has me considering killing myself

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i’ve had tmj ever since getting braces and it really is the fucking worst. they joke about it being ‘the money joint’ because no one can actually fix it (surgery usually doesn’t work either. money pit) though don’t get any mouth appliances whatsoever, they’re a waste of money and they gave me what you’re dealing with (teeth not lining up correctly, made my tmj worse and dentists act like my jaw is fine and aligned but i KNOW it’s not). the best thing really is physical therapy exercises to lessen pain and neck strain :(

absolutely horrible worst news ever but I guess at least I already found some physical therapy exercises to do

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forever and eternal lol @ people who come on here to posture about being too cool for nerd shit cuz theyre just always drunk at the Club having real sex unlike Nerds .. but girl you are on Tumblr reposting pictures of vintage pins and female manipulator moodboards so

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The Kiaat Tree (Pterocarpus angolensis, also called “bloodwood”) releases red sap when cut. Species of Pterocarpus native to southern Africa, in Angola, Mozambique, Namibia, South Africa, Swaziland, Tanzania, Zaire, Zimbabwe, and Zambia.

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bingewatching will never come close to bingereading. there is nothing like blocking out the entire Earth for ten hours to read a book in one sitting no food no water no shower no bra and emerging at the end with no idea what time it is or where you are, a dried-up prune that's sensitive to light and loud noises because you've been in your room in the dark reading by the glow of a single LED. it's like coming back after a three-month vacation in another dimension and now you have to go downstairs and make dinner. absolutely transcendental

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what

yoi would not last a second in the street shaman community

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you may ask if anything on this blog is of interest to anyone else really but the truth is the inner workings of my mind are always interesting. but having health problems???? like a mere mortal????????? boring to experience even more boring to think and write about and even MORE boring than THAT to read about I’m sure

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this is just about my health and probably won’t be interesting to anyone else

for literally years I had a sinus infection that would not go away for anything like I tried so many things and nothing fixed it. and it was mostly just on the right side of my head and I thought maybe it was an infected tooth or an ear infection so I tried to attack it from all three directions and it still didn’t go away. had a tooth removed and still nothing. and it got better when I moved to California but still didn’t go away like it just got to a point I could live with it and pretty much ignore it. and may have done that forever except I started to notice my face was asymmetrical when it never had been before and then I noticed my jaw muscle on the left side is now WAY bigger than the one on my right. well duh bc I’ve been chewing all my food on the left side of my mouth for years now bc the right side was always in pain. and so now the left side of my face is a completely different worse shape than my right like you cannot see my beautiful bone structure At All and so obviously I tried to fix it by using my right side more. that was on Monday and literally instantly as soon as I did that I got a sinus headache and my jaw started hurting and my ear and head started hurting and even my NECK on that side started hurting which never happened before. and now guess what I’m home missing work bc I have a really bad sinus infection just like clockwork. and I won’t be able to see any kind of a doctor or dentist until January at the earliest bc I have no insurance + no money but I cannot live in pain and UGLY until then so I did the thing you should never do and googled my symptoms hoping to stay on top of the problem. wow this is such a Virgo post. anyway. well everything seems to point to fucking TMJ which is annoying bc I know my brother had that. but worse than annoying everything I read SCARED me tbh especially when I went on Reddit and found a subreddit of people with incurable pain who talk about how dying would be better than suffering this and it only gets worse and there’s no real cure except very expensive jaw surgery and like I know that’s Reddit and everyone there is addicted to their own misery in my rational mind i KNOW that but it’s still scary. and I found physical therapy exercises online too and I’ve been doing them and I can pretty easily make my jaw line up the way it’s supposed to but the thing is the right alignment is what hurts me. the only thing that doesn’t hurt is moving my jaw all the way over to the left and only using the left side of my mouth and that’s what’s making me ugly in the first place. it almost feels like the teeth on the right side of my mouth are longer than the ones on the left?? so when my jaw lines up my teeth don’t and vice versa. anyway I Don’t know how to fix this. and I have less than zero faith that even if I do get in to see someone it’ll get fixed bc in my experience doctors haven’t ever taken me seriously. and everyone online is like YOU CAN’T SEE A REGULAR DENTIST FOR THIS YOU NEED TO SEE THESE 6 SPECIALISTS INSTEAD well I don’t know if I can afford that or even How to go about seeing all those people and if it means jumping through a lot of hoops to get referrals how the fuck am I supposed to do That. and according to what I’ve been reading this also might be the cause of my bad posture and sleep problems and depression and I can’t do anything about it for at Least two months and maybe not ever. and my jaw hurts while I’m typing this and it feels like I have a phantom hurting tooth where the tooth I got removed that probably wasn’t even infected was. and I can look forward to a long future of suffering and being ugly and also being broke. and I kind of want to just break my own jaw

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If the only way to continue the population is to force women who don’t want children to have them, then the population should die out. If it can be killed by women’s liberation, it should be killed.

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In a faraway land, long ago, there lived a King and his fair Queen. Many years they had longed for a child, and finally their wish was granted. A daughter was born, and they called her Aurora. Yes, they named her after the dawn, for she filled their lives with sunshine. 

Sleeping Beauty (1959) - dir. Clyde Geronimi

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