#and I haven’t been going on tumblr bc I don’t have the energy for that either??

[s-ccaam-era-crepe]

if my manager treats me like a kid again I’m killing

I feel like I’m dyingggg

[tenjikyu]

It has been an illegal amount of time since I've been on tumblr (like a week and a half), but I'm back.

Hope you're doing well!

Anyways! Provided you're not busy (take however much time you need, whether that be a week or whatever), I have thought of another Tokyorev request since I've been rewatching the anime. There is a staggering lack of m!reader x Rindou on this platform, so therefore, here is my request.

How about m!reader x Rindou (romantic/fluff, whatever) where reader is a lesser known delinquent in Roppongi (2005 for reference) who constantly gets into fights, and winds up fighting Rindou and Ran. I'll leave it up to you if he wins or loses, but basically he catches Rindou's eye. I'm trying not to make my requests super detailed so I can leave space for creative liberties.

Well, there's the request, do with that what you will. Also I will probably be dropping a BSD request on you soon, so fair warning.

— 🎭

𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐚𝐭 𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 ( 𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐞𝐲𝐞𝐝 ) 𝐬𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭

🎐rindou haitani x m!reader ‪‪ ༄

🎐fluff, headcanon format bc i’m struggling, lowercase intended, possibly ooc bc i haven’t touched any tokyo rev content in months but ill do my best. ‪‪the fight scene is WHACK bc i suck at writing it so im begging yall to ignore ༄

🎐 you were a rambunctious little shit growing up, and it was to nobody’s surprise you ended up roaming the streets of roppingi, picking fights with anyone you could see

🎐 you were smart though, choosing to grief on people you knew you could take on and people who were interested in fighting. you had no interest in bashing innocent passerby’s and people who could clearly stomp you into the concrete.

🎐 boxing and martial arts was something your parents had put you into as a way to vent out all that energy (it didn’t work, you still beat the shit outta the kids in your school), so you had both a good technique and a strong fist whenever you threw yourself into battle a fight.

🎐 this all changed the day you encountered the haitani brothers, rindou and ran.

🎐 their reputation was nothing exaggerated, and their eye for fashion was also nothing short of perfection. they were flashy and had total control over roppongi before they were even adults.

🎐 you never thought you’d have to end up laying hands on either of them, let alone both at the same time, until last week.

🎐 you were much less known then the brothers, however that doesn’t mean you didn’t have friends and alliances on the streets. you were a fun and energetic character, who had no problem stepping up if someone worth saving needed help. and that gave you a good reputation between the other lower gangs in the area.

🎐 so, when you saw the haitani brothers beating the shit out of your friends forehead, you wasted no time jumping in.

🎐 it was a shitty battle, with a 2v1 (your friend was fucked UP, bro was no help) , however your martial arts techniques prepared you for rindou’s quick movements, and your boxing provided a good punch to his pretty face.

🎐 in the end, it was clear you were going to lose. you bet if only one were there you might’ve stood a chance, however on the verge of passing out, decided to accept your fate and hope you don’t end up dead.

🎐 however you find that as you collapse, you watch them both walk off into the distance.

🎐 wait wtf.

🎐 they weren’t gonna torture you ? or break your bones ?

🎐 if you were a little more conscious, you might’ve been able to hear the conversation between the two brothers, however you knocked tf out not a minute after.

“so why are we letting that boy off the hook? he jumped into a fight that wasn’t his” ran curiously asked his little brother.

“to jump into a fight you know your gonna lose is honorable, however if he does it again then we can shatter his arms!” rindou perclaims, a flushed face that clearly wasn’t coming from the fight he just fought.

as ran looks back at the two bodies behind him, he thinks to himself…

nah i’m kidding ofc bro speaks his mind.

“nah, we’ve beaten up plenty of dudes doing the same thing. you just think that kid back there is hot huh.”

“ran what the FUCK-”

[lighthouseas]

hi all! i know that i haven’t posted for a while, but since the end of the year is fast approaching, i thought i’d make a post detailing my appreciation for my lovely mutuals . (if you saw this post earlier because tumblr was being a bitch, no you didn’t <3333)

anyway, without further ado- and in no particular order-

bee’s end-of-the-year MUTUAL APPRECIATION POST!!!

@hazmatazz - OHHH MAN. SILLY GUY ALERT. starting off strong with the lovely the amazing the fantabulous HAZ HAZMATAZZ. haz, being your friend and fellow Silly Squad member has been such an honor. you’re so funny and sweet and smart and make the best posts that make me giggle. and even though i don’t talk in it much, seeing so many Shenanigans go down in the discord server is seriously the funniest thing. I could just. squish you. you make me so happy and it’s an honor to be your friend. seriously hope 2024 treats you amazingly bc you deserve all of it <3333

@cannibalismyuri - SARA!!!! sara my lovely ohhh you are. the funniest. seriously. i have been reduced to Tears of laughter from posts on your blog. you have such an energy about you that is completely unmatched. even with Fandom Weirdness and the like, you’ve still pulled through and kept being your silliest self (and let me be silly with you which is awesome), and i commend you for that. aaaand not to get sappy or whatever but i really do look up to and admire you. you inspire me a lot. also, i love your new url. i want to eat it. pun intended. HAVE THE BEST 2024 EVER <3333

@qulizalfos - LIZAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. everyone listen up okay. liza is the loml IF ANYONE EVEN CARESSS. liza oh my god i adore you and your endless enthusiasm. seriously your comments on tsad are comments that i look back on when i need motivation because they’re just. so sweet. you are so sweet. we’ve only been mutuals since this SUMMER and yet it feels like we’ve known each other forever. i love screaming about things with you and i love the fact that my FIC is in your BIO??? HELLOOOO??? also okay. can we talk about your writing and art. liza i cannot say ENOUGH how talented you are. if i could staple your fics and art to the entire st fandom’s forehead so they would have to look at it forever then i would. your brain is so ginormous and the way you describe things and think about things is something i could only dream of doing. literally adore everything about you and wish i could hang out with you and wayli so we could all be a little insane together <33333 love you. LOVE YOUUUU I hope 2024 is awesomesauce for you <33333333

@wayward-sherlock - SPEAKING of wayli. oh wayli. if i had time to write a 10 page essay detailing how much of an impact you have had on me i would. seriously though you are just the sweetest, kindest, and most positive person ever. seeing you blow up my notes makes me grin So Hard because like oh man. wayli likes my blog. THEEE wayli thinks i’m cool. wtfff….anyway. you are so smart and it shows in your literally breathtaking writing and analysis (ANALYSIS FIRM!!!) you’re so perceptive and it honestly blows me away. reading your writing is so mesmerizing and just. sends me on an adventure. actually just scrolling through your BLOG sends me on an adventure because you always have the best stuff on there. honestly, I just wanna give you the biggest hug and tell you how awesome you are because rambling in a tumblr post simply is not enough. all’s that to say, i’m really looking forward to this coming year that will hopefully include more screaming about fanfiction in our discord messages and more of us being friends. because i love being your friend and it’d be so awesome if one day we could hang out together and be a tad Insane. doopel dopple gang STICKS TOGETHER AMIRITE?? anyway. i love you so much and wish you all the best in 2024 <333333

@antibyler - spencer HIII i know it’s been a minute since we last talked but can i just say that it has been an HONOR being your mutual this year. you’re so cool and fun and easy to talk to and also are a Fellow NHIE Fan which makes you even cooler. don’t think i’ve ever seen a bad opinion on your blog, which i know is saying a lot but it’s true To Me okay. seriously could never ever imagine Not following spencer basiltonpitch antibyler because like. that’s some essential dash content right there. THEEE blog to ever. makes the tumblr experience about 2034549650 times better. hope 2024 treats you wonderfully, my triple b mutual WOO <3

@versa-vices - FINNIEEEE!!!!!! you are my sunshine my special sunshine you make me happyyyyyyyy when skies are grayyyy….like actually though you are such a sunshine. seeing your comments on my posts never fails to make me giggle. a Silly Squad member that’s for sure. but like. being your tumblr bestie this past year has been so much fun. hanging out on the dash together and being Slightly Unhinged in the discord messages has been one of the highlights of my year. you’re so sweet and lovely and i don’t think it would be tumblr without you (those 10 minutes where you deactivated were HARD man okay. what am i supposed to do without u :(() okay anyhoo. thank you for being the bestest ever and hope 2024 treats you well <333

@light-lanterne - angel hiii! it’s been a bit since we’ve interacted but i needed to talk about how kind and patient you’ve been throughout literally everything because tumblr can be a little much sometimes. your kindness and determination to make so many beautiful graphics is absolutely incredible. i still look back on the graphics you’ve made for my fics sometimes, and it’s just…amazing. you’re so talented both in your art and your writing. when times got tough in the Fandom, i could always count on your blog to be a cozy and warm retreat from the craziness. it’s an honor to be your mutual, and i hope 2024 treats you kindly, because you seriously deserve it <33

@booksandpaperss - ELLI HIII!! holy shit one of my oldest mutuals. here when the ancient scrolls were written. elli , you have made my fandom experience so much more enjoyable. what with your huge brain and amazing takes, you always keep things real and i admire that about you. you’re also just. so easy to talk to. both because you’re ridiculously funny and also because you’re so nice to me like what. i love Discussing things with you, especially when it felt like we were sitting in a corner sipping tea and having a grand old time while the entire fandom went batshit. uscore fr. also, your comments on tsad…dude…they made me and STILL make me tear up. you read everything with such an attentive eye and then give the sweetest compliments on it. it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy. you’re just. so awesome okay. never forget that. hope u have a wonderful 2024 <3333

@karenchildress - hi jo!!!!!!!!!! i know we don’t interact as much but like. you’re such a joy to see on the dash i’m being so fr right now. how are you so funny like some of your posts still make me laugh to this day. you also keep things Real which i appreciate a lot, people tend not to do that nowadays T-T. we need more jo karenchildresses in the st fandom i think. things would improve marginally. anyway. keep being cool and fun and hope 2024 brings you much joy <3

@homohabu - oh man you’re just. you’re so nice. your blog is so inviting and has the loveliest colors all over it that make me very happy. you’ve always been so lovely to me and it makes me smile. you’re also another one of my oldest mutuals…and you’ve still stuck around through everything. thank you for having an awesome blog and being an awesome person! hope 2024 is good for you!!!!!!!!

@kuntniss - sierra!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hiiiii it’s been a minute but can i just say that your blog makes me so so so super happy whenever i look at it. both your reblogs and original posts are just. great vibes. great vibes all around. you’ve been so nice to me this past year and it’s seriously been so wonderful interacting with you and looking forward to seeing your posts. being your mutual is so fun. i hope 2024 brings you so many good things, you deserve all of them <33333333

@weirdo09  - cade! i know you haven’t been online in a while but i just wanted to say that you’ve been such a wonderful friend to me this past year. you’re so creative and i loved hearing your ideas in my inbox and getting tagged in your wonderful. i hope you’re doing okay now, because you were honestly such a joy to see on the dash and in my notes. also, your ever changing themes were always a nice surprise to come across when i opened your blog, lol. hope 2024 treats you well :)

@holyvirgilscriptures - virgil !!!! oh my god i adore your blog so badddd like. i could seriously scroll through it forever it’s just banger after banger after banger. you always have the best takes on like. Everything. also FELLOW TAWOG BROTHER IN ARMS HELLOOOO !!!! BEST TASTE IN MEDIA AWARD GOES TO YOU MY FRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! anyway. you have made this year so so so enjoyable just with the Existence of your blog. this coming year i hope we can interact a bit more because you’re super awesome <333 may 2024 bring you many good things! 

@ollsonline - oliver <3333 my lovely. since we became mutuals you have been nothing but the sweetest, kindest, friendliest person to me. you’re so welcoming to everyone and it absolutely warms my heart. you’ve been such an amazing friend to me this year and we should totally talk more because you’re super cool and awesome also!!! thank you for being the best and i hope 2024 treats you kindly <3

okay that’s all i’ve got! to any mutuals i did not get to mention: i love you so much. you have made The Tumblr Experience that much more bearable with your endless kindness. i love all of you so much, and am wishing you a happy new year through the screen! MWAH!!!!!!!

[tra-archive]

why are you still openly supporting and reposting @/menalez after all the sh*t she's said about osa women? she's attacked several radfems in this community over the years and stirred rumors on her discords about them, spread lies etc. /gen

I’m not getting involved in radblr infighting, sorry. I made that mistake when I posted about sincerelyyelling and the MAGAts came at me in the DMs just because I had thoughts about her voting for Trump (they weren’t even on radblr, just butthurt Trumpers like wtf). Same with redberryterf, I called her out and the racists came flooding my asks. I’ve learned that getting myself involved in radblr drama turns into a shitshow. I had to block mutuals and everything, it absolutely sucked.

However you did ask this in a fairly civil way anon (thank you) so I’ll share my thoughts under the read more. Warning: discussion of radblr drama below

All I’ll say is this: If I felt that she was hateful, then I wouldn’t interact with her. But I’ve looked at her tumblr and her replies and in my opinion I don’t think she’s said anything that was “attacking” osa women. If there’s receipts of this discord thing then I’ll check it out, but so far the claims about her haven’t been proven. Part of me having a receipts blog is posting evidence of people being hateful, so if there’s ever a claim like that for someone on radblr I will also want receipts as well.

I think she, like many lesbians on radblr, get frustrated when we (osa women) act like lesbians somehow have privilege over us with dating, which I have seen people say, and honestly I have seen quite a bit of lesbophobia on radblr so I can see why lesbians are a little on edge when osa women bring up the topic of dating, relationships & separatism. I get the frustration. Same with WOC radfems when white radfems refuse to admit we still have privilege. I get why woc might not want to interact with us after so many white women have been ignorant.

Anyway I didn’t mean to rant but those are my thoughts. To anyone reading: don’t comment on this post arguing with me on this topic unless you want to get blocked bc honestly I don’t have the energy for radblr infighting. If there’s receipts, show them. If not, go fight with someone else.

[onigiri-dorkk]

rivamika is my guilty pleasure but i know how the aot fandom is.. they can be brutal. have you had to deal with rivamika haters? i hope not 😭

Sweet fandom friend!! The AOT fandom can be harsh and frustrating, and I’ve seen fellow fandom people get bullied into leaving (sadly, it’s real), but I found a lot of solace coming here to the Tumblr #rivamika tags and connecting with others who love this ship. It’s something we’re all thankful for since everywhere else we get hate.

Tbh though I haven’t really dealt with a ton of intense haters. Yes, there are heated Twitter threads or a straggler hater who lurks our tag (and we also have… one Rivamika fan here…. who is a thorn in our flesh bc he harasses and accuses people of not being a rivamika purist lmfao… hELP). But it’s gotten to the point where when they come around we all just?? Roll our eyes?? Spit some facts real quick then leave it be LOL

I will say I have been lucky in that I haven’t received any hate comments or anything, especially on my writing/stories, which I’m actually extremely surprised about considering how blatant I am about my love for Rivamika on a place like AOT Twitter. You’d think the crazies would show up by now but hey, I am not complaining 😂

So technically yes there are always haters, but you kinda just learn to deal with them and it makes it easier to shrug it off when you have a whole safe community who will defend you and support you through it. No one should give anyone shit for what they like (especially from a fictional world!) and if they don’t like it, they can choose to ignore or not consume something. It takes so much time and effort to actively hate on something, when that time and effort could be spent in whatever ship or series makes them happy.

Another thing I’ll say is I’ve noticed a lot of Rivamika writers/artists/creators in the fandom rn have developed a strong backbone and I think it’s because 1) being a Rivamika fan comes with all the hate but 2) we know we have each other and that the positivity outweighs the negativity. Simply put we don’t give a FUCK 😂 And it has given us a sense of freedom to just enjoy this space.

And honestly doesn’t that feel very… Rivamika? 😂 In all our stories we know that Levi and Mikasa would know that their love would draw bad opinions, but knowing them they wouldn’t give a damn, would they? They saved the world and if anyone has an issue with it, Levi would tell them to fuck off and would go home to enjoy time w Mikasa LOL. LETS CHANNEL THAT ENERGY

If you like Rivamika, please enjoy it with us! It’s a fantastic ship, isn’t it? 🤍 The nervousness around being in this corner of the fandom is totally normal too btw. I felt all the same things when I first jumped on this ship and look at me now 😂 Shameless and happy! If you ever want to spill all your rivamika feelings my DMs/asks are always open, anon or not!

[manchasama]

Not sure how long this is gonna be, my hand really hurts (and my back just kicking in lol thaaaaanks), just wanna get some thoughts out

Been recovering lately, defo feeling better but not there yet.  Been so stressed and busy since, well, November really.  But January and February defo took the cake.  Work was brutal, but I was taking advantage of an opportunity before it vanished.  In a better world, we would have started getting ready back in August when I first started asking (thinking that was late to start planning for the Feb event), but because of politics and all that guff we didn’t even get the go until late Dec/early Jan. 

I am not going to get into the details, but rest assured I was working my batutty off.  Then I got covid lol.  While in another state.  *throws hands up*

So yeah, it was about what I expected, with some minor differences.  Took a full week off work (which sucked bc half those days were supposed to be vacation recovery days, not sick recovery days), worked from home for a week and a half, and finally went back into the office today (tested negative a few times and took a few extra days anyway, it was fine). 

I just have this lingering cough that, guess what!  Gets worse when I talk!  *snickers*  That week off where I just slept a lot, I didn’t have a cough.  Minute I get back to work (remote but phone calls), suddenly I start coughing.  Bah!  So that leaves me pretty tired at the end of the day.  Also my back is acting up because of all the sedentary laying around I’ve been doing, but that will work itself out as I get more active again.  The biggest problem with today is for some reason my hand feels like it’s cramping up constantly, without actually cramping.  owie :(

Anyway, before my hand gives up, I just wanted to get some thoughts out that weren’t just whining.  I have been trying to keep my submas interest up (or any interest, let’s be real it’s hard for me to do anything extra when I’m so work tired) through the months, but leaving an avenue to revive the spark when I have the time and energy to work on it.  Threw on my submas playlist on the way home, and yeah, I’ve definitely forgotten what songs go to what scenes/ideas other than vibes.  Just need to do a few daydreaming sessions to pick some of it back up I think, plus go over my notes and all.

I’ve also been thinking I should just...post the raw ideas to Ao3.  Started thinking it when I saw a post going around about how...historians? I forget what their job/passion was, but people who like to ready histories, understand why people liked the stories they saved, highlights and notes in the margins, the every day small loves that don’t make the big history books, that sort of thing.  How those people were basically writing a love letter to people who save those little snippets, print out fanfics, things like that. 

I think it was another post, might have been the same, that was also encouraging people to use Ao3 as the archive it is.  It doesn’t have to be complete works.  It’s there to archive the words, that’s all. 

So yeah.  As much as I want to and intend to try to write the full stories, I’m thinking of just transferring some of the tumblr posts/ideas, some of the snippets from my notes, into Ao3.  Because I want to share the stories with people, and if I can’t write them in full, at least I can share the heart of the ideas.  I still need to transfer old fics to Ao3 too, unfinished as they are.  And I’m kinda hoping that new eyes and new interactions spark my interest again, get my brain going into story-mode again.

I’ve been trying to do some reblogging on my backlog of tumblr stuff.  I know I could just hit the heart button.  I know I could reblog without comment or tag.  But I really like leaving people comments.  It’s just another thing that takes a bit of energy, that I haven’t had too much of.  But doing a bit at a time is good too!

My pain and energy levels have prevented me from doing much of anything for so long.  I can’t say it will change much.  I spend time with friends, which don’t get me wrong i love, but it eats into my free time, and more importantly my energy.  I have a trip coming up in May, which yeah sounds so far away, but it will be upon me way faster than I expect.  Who knows when I’ll have another flare-up (hand plz im almost done), or if work is going to drain me.  But now that the hardest is behind me, I’m hoping to keep things reasonable and have a chance to be creative again.

I want to start my garden (made a few small moves toward that).  I want to make more bracelets, and maybe sell some (character bracelets!  seriously i love my submas bracelets, i wish i could take pictures that do the colors justice).  I want to hang out with friends.  I want to write.  I want to write.  I want to write my stories and share them so much.  Just need to wrangle my brain together.  Balance them to my energy.  And not let my responsibilities pull my mood down or stress me out too much (guh just thinking about some of them make me so tired buuuuh). 

Okay hand is too ow now.  If you made it this far, feel free to let me know what you think about posting the ideas to Ao3, even if I later post a full story about them.  Or anything really.  Gotta get my brain juices flowing again!

[yeniihuenii]

Hi! I wanted to know how you’ve been doing? I’ve noticed you haven’t done anything on your art accounts for a while, and I’ve been worried. Even if you don’t have any energy to draw at the moment, just know that I absolutely adore your blogs, and I’m always happy when I see that you’ve posted something, even if it’s not art but answering an ask. I hope you’re doing well. (it’s ok even if you’re not)

hiii im so sorry for not updating the tumblr ppl for a while,, and for getting you worried as well anon 😭😭 last month was college hell for me bc we had to produce a short film (which ended terribly bc the movie had shit audio n i cried over it bc i was the editor but its ok DJAKJDLWKS)

also physically ive been feeling terrible, with muscle cramps all over my body despite not doing much physical activity apart from walking around school + i got tmd (yk the joints on your jaws yeah) so my whole body n brain is going thru it rn KEKW emotionally im alright though, my xiao hyperfixation stayed strong also i watched atsv n i am going insane abt it + ive been obssessed w self-care vids recently

during the past month i did have art,, most of them were just. not something meant for everyone to see, and its not whump either,, basically you could say i got erm. horknee for xiao SNAJSHAKSJS ill post the Normal ones in a bit doe

but yeah :D thank you so much im so happy you just,, like my blog/s in general even if im not constantly posting art. i rly appreciate it!!! that. actually alleviated the pressure i constantly put myself into drawing aka the need to draw smth before i could be active n answering asks 😭 really need to get that bad habit out of my system

[witchyspiritsims]

Hellooooo, anyone out there remember me? It’s been almost a year since I’ve used this tumblr last - and over a year since I decided to start it.

As a bit of an explanation, I lost the Blackwood and AHC save files. Actually, I lost ALL my save files except some I’d backed up like three months prior or something. I’m not sure what happened but I put new CC into my game and when I started it up next just. Everything was wiped. I lost motivation after that and pretty much quit Sims 4. I switched to Sims 2 and really had a lot of fun!

Then my laptop broke. It stopped charging unless the charger was in a very specific position. We thought it was the charger itself so we bought a new one. Turns out it was the charging port. Online it said it had most likely come away from the motherboard. It’s been months since and I’ve been without a computer of my own.

That said, I’ve been using my husband’s desktop and it’s been a whole new experience for me. I’ve only ever had laptops. When he let me put sims on his computer it was like a totally different game. The graphics looked better, it ran so smoothly, and I could finally use reshade!!! I was so excited and it’s really given me my spark back for sims. So much so that I started an actual legacy challenge - The Sims in Bloom challenge. I had started the AHC before, but I never got very far into it since I lost my saves soon after. The Sims in Bloom legacy helped me really see the appeal of legacy challenges and I got pretty far in it before I found the Whimsy Challenge. Then my attentions shifted to that because I fell so deeply in love with it that it was all I could think about sometimes lmao.

But now I’ve found a new challenge and can feel myself wanting to get my grubby little hands on it. I read through the Crybaby Whims legacy last night and just. Wanted to start it so bad. But I know it’ll be like my other ones - I’ll play it till I find something better and then abandon it. I don’t want that to happen to my Whimsy legacy and I most definitely dont want it to happen to this one if I start it. So I’ve been thinking of bringing this simblr back to life. Maybe having the Crybaby Whims save as my simblr save, and the Whimsy save as my personal? Since I’m already almost finished with generation 1?

I also have to think about how I’ll be able to manage it. My depression has made my energy cap at like 5%. I’ve lost irl friendships bc I just can’t manage surviving and communicating at the same time anymore. Would adding an active simblr to my plate again be a good idea? I’m not sure, but I know I want to try it. I have this whole idea of making a cast list for the Crybaby legacy and how the drama of the first gen will start and I’m excited to FINALLY play with a teen because I haven’t played a teen at ALL since HSY came out. So I think what I’m going to do is…. Just post when I feel like! I was never a big simblr to begin with so it isn’t like I have dozens of people anxiously awaiting my posts. Especially since I’ve taken such a large break. I think I’ll kind of have to build back up again. Either way I’m not going to put so much pressure on myself to post here, and I think I’ll only use my twitter to announce posts and maybe chat with people here or there. Definitely don’t plan on getting into debates with people about the state of the sims or ea.

That’s just what I’m thinking about, anyway! Im getting a desktop of my own soon, so I might not start anything until then. Then again I’ll have to transfer stuff anyway. What’s the harm of another save file??

[elleloquently]

im so sorry I haven’t been writing/completing requests!! life is coming in crazy rn, i have midterms and im just going through a lot outside of tumblr at the moment.

not making excuses, just explaining bc I don’t want you guys to think im drifting away <3

i see all of your love continuously (and my new followers- hi!! im so happy to have you here!!!) and im so grateful that you’re all so kind to me and have been loving my stories!! I also see all of the messages asking me for updates.. I’m not ignoring or abandoning anything, I’ve just been going through a lot and it’s been difficult to find the time/energy to sit down and write.

I promise I’ll try to get something out soon <3 just have a little patience with me for now if that’s alright with everyone else too

[somerandomhuman080]

ok so i have an issue with some “friends” of mine and i actually downloaded tumblr because i had no one to talk to about this (but i forgot about it and found an awesome community on here instead)

tldr; my freinds were saying slurs about a girl with adhd, me and my friend tried to call them out and they ignored it, what do i do?

tw for ableist and homophobic shit going on

so for some background, i was at a music program run by my school and my friend was also going there

let’s name her, K. so K and i have been friends for about 2 years, we’ve never been super close but she’s been a consistent person i would consider a friend. a few other friends of mine went to this program but the only one in this story is a girl who we can call H.

so K, H, me, and our other friend are sitting outside and somehow the conversation shifts to this girl we know (she’s not in the music program) let’s call her R. me and H are both pretty good friends with this girl because at my school there’s this one big queer friend group, i’m not rlly a part of it but i’m friends with almost everyone there so i hang with them sometimes.

R has been nothing but nice to me, she can be a little high energy sometimes (which some people find annoying) but i don’t rlly mind bc she’s rlly nice, right? so she gets brought up into the convo and K starts talking shit about her. basically saying that she hated her bc she was annoying. me and H obviously tried to politely defend this girl saying that she had ADHD and couldn’t help it (which is true and something we know she’s self conscious about)

K ignores us and keeps talking about how annoying she is and goes on to call her the R slur (slur for disabled people) me and H both have suspected disabilities ourselves, H’s brother is disabled, and even if that wasn’t true- we were pretty fucking shocked.

we’re still processing and K just moved on and pretended like it didn’t happen. we’re like “back it up a sec, what did u call her” K just says that her and our other friend G say that all the time and it’s not a big deal, and once again moves on.

some background, G is in a pretty shitty homophobic racist friend group of gamers that she doesn’t particularly like, she’s bi and asian. me and G used to be very close (like talking for hours every days close) but we just grew apart, but i knew she was working on dropping her friends. K is kinda in this group and has homophobic parents and says that she needs to be homophobic too??? (i’m gay and this was kinda shitty)

so me and H drop it for that day but decide to call her out on it the next day. we talk to her about it and she says it’s not a big deal, we tell her flat out “you can’t say that as a neurotypical person, especially talking about shit about someone with an actual disability” she looks very uncomfortable and just keeps mumbling that she doesn’t care and it’s not a big deal. after a few minutes of this we drop it again but i haven’t really interacted with her since.

after the situation i texted G about the whole thing and then said something like “K said you say this stuff too, what’s that about” to sum up her answer she said she did but only to fit in with her friends, there’s some more political stuff too but i’m not getting into that.

i dont rlly talk to them much anymore but school is starting again soon and idk, should i just cut them of slowly or forgive?

sorry this is so fucking long

[kdipshit]

What my teenage self can teach me ;

She’s just as carefree in her teens as she was when she was a child. I do not get the privilege of my teenage memories at this time, but I know they are there, and I know there is good. At some point in time, I chose to rid myself of the memories, knowing that if I ever wanted them back it would take time, to protect myself, from the emotions attached. I don’t think I was equip to deal with the intensity in which I felt all these new emotions, but I am now.

I think when I lost myself I got scared and ran home. I wasn’t looking for myself, I was looking for home, in a sense I guess, thats what it felt like I had lost.

To find home in thyself, is what I think everybody is unconsciously trying to achieve, if of course they haven’t already obtained it, thru a strong sense of self and a wonderful support system, whenever you may encounter them. I feel almost whole again, with myself back. I think the only thing stopping me from saying I’m fully whole again is the mahi that must now be done, I am ready, I am strong, I am fearless. Maybe changing the way I write is changing the way I think…who am I kidding thats definitely the case, and it can actually make sense now aswell.

At some point, the feeling becomes a choice, im okay with being a roller coaster, as long as it’s moving, I can find peace in the wind. Holding on causes my beautiful roller coaster to malfunction, and not run as smooth, it becomes scary. Let go, be free, put your arms up girl. Live and let die.

I want something that you can read, and you can feel. When I was a teenager, tumblr was home to me for some years, I was alone there, i discovered a brilliantly dark side of me which ultimately inspires my art, which ultimately inspires me as a human being, if I really think about it. The dark side, my dark side, is creative, very active, and amazingly bright from within. She can delve deep into the pits of her ocean heart, constantly moving and changing shape. I like it here, it’s chaos, but it’s peacefully done. It’s wholeheartedly done, it’s well thought out and well put together, it’s red and it’s black and it’s white and it’s loud and it’s welcoming. I’m big chillin up in my little corner of hell. Little Nikki’s room is what comes to mind lmao, kinda gives me Muir street room vibes, although I do not remember sharing that room with my sister lol.

My room has always been my safe place, and I was too busy sitting in my room thinking about it to realise I been here. I always thought I had to find a safe place… my creativity comes to life in my room, and it manifests itself on the walls, and on the floors lol. The energy of my room represents the energy of who I am, everything is external and my mark is everywhere. To come to that realisation would bring me to the present moment, and remind myself that I actually exist. I’m everywhere, happily. Happily everywhere.

I don’t want to try to be relatable, I guess I have a lot of people pleasing traits about me that I’m not sure how I got, doesn’t matter I guess bc at the end of every day, I don’t like it. I don’t like trying to constantly get approval, but I don’t know how what caused the trigger to be in the first place. My brain needs some gardening

Procrastination is delaying something knowing it will be worse later. Feelings can only manifest off of a thought. It’s scary to think about how honest I’m about to be in this ‘blog’, this mark, this spit in the universe, I guess it shouldn’t ever matter, it should just be. I’m sure if my mind could speak she would be so proper, like the way I write. I love it I love it so much.

Instead of saying ‘I’m bored’, which creates the negative emotion, say something like, ‘I am fully open to receiving inspiration’, or something maybe idk…

[nothing-lasts-forever27]

Tagged By:

THE homie @ssoheartbreak :D (I miss you!!! ♡)

Favorite Ship Ever:

It’s been so long since I’ve been in a fandom for a work of fiction that I don’t think I have any ships anymore?? I know I definitely had some, probably a lot, but I can’t really remember most of them? Like I know I used to ship Retsuko and Haida from Aggretsuko, but I haven’t watched it since season 3 in 2020 so I don’t know if I still ship them or not bc I’m missing canon info lmao

Last Song:

Through actually listening on my own: either Work Harder - Widdly 2 Diddly & Marina Hova or Blowout - Noisemaker (both are part of the LISA OST) but the actual most recent song I listened to was a Pepper Steak remix by All Levels At Once on one of Wayne’s streams (originally by Alias Conrad Coldwood if the internet is answering my questions correctly lol also part of the OFF! OST)

Last Movie:

The last movie I *willingly* watched was The Ballad of Buster Scruggs back in early December, although I was forced to watch Christmas movies after that happened so (not counting them though bc I didn’t pay attention to them and don’t remember what they were lol)

Currently Reading:

Do tumblr posts count? Bc that’s about it haha

Currently Watching:

Lots and lots of VODs/YouTube comps of streamers I enjoy! Mostly been watching WayneRadioTV, Socpens, and Jerma985! (Current fave VODs: Wayne’s Pizza Tower stream, ANY of Scorpy’s Sims streams (Sims 2 DS/GBA are v good), and Jerma’s Wobbledogs stream)

Currently Consuming:

At this exact moment I am drinking an Ultra Sunrise Monster Energy, and I’m probably gonna eat a key lime pie flavored Chobani Flip later :) my go-to foods/drinks lately though have been Monster (Ultra Sunrise/Ultra Paradise/Pipeline Punch/Pacific Punch are my faves ^_^), Polar Seltzer (cranberry lime sweep!), Dr. Pepper, and Chex Mix (bold uwu)

Currently Craving:

A top tier nap, absolutely 10/10, fully rested and relaxed, no stiffness, pain, or agitation upon waking up, just completely rejuvenated and recovered ;w;

Tagging:

Literally anybody who sees this and wants to do it, as well as @wavecrester7 lol

(Mutuals I am compelling you to do this >:3€)

[kithtaehyung]

Hi Ryen, do you always answer every asks? 🥺 Sometimes I wonder if mine ever get sent. Have a great day 💌

I try to answer as many as I possibly can when I have the energy to!

Basically, if it’s a quick message or doesn’t take me long to think of an answer, I’ll respond fast. If it’s a review and/or very intricate/thoughtful, it will take me a bit more time to respond since I wanna give it a proper reply🫂 if it’s a song rec, that takes a little more energy too since i go to listen to the song and screenshot lyrics before responding, too🥳

If I haven’t gotten to yours, send it again! Tumblr has been eating messages, bc people ask if I got something specific and I literally don’t see it. And I don’t mind if you send something more than once, either<3

[m1ckeyb3rry]

That answers my question I just completely forgot to send it in omfg I CANNOT let myself get distracted while replying anymore I literally like almost deleted this note thinking I already sent it in goodbye.

But anyways….……

LMFAOOO THANK YOU I APPRECIATE THE SUPPORT!!! You’ll be the first to know if I ever actually start using it HAHA honestly you’d probably end up answering some boomer like tumblr questions of mine bc I’m ngl why’s there sm on this platform HAHA now that I think about it though I straight up just don’t post anywhere maybe I should start changing that…..

NO SO TRUE because I just KNOW they’re picking the juiciest stories like I’m not scrolling through that subreddit myself HAHA

Just doing my part for the Karasu community!!! Gotta kick start it somewhere yk hopefully I’m inspiring people to talk and request Karasu more often!!!! LMAO wait that’s actually kinda crazy though HAHAHA I guess the Hiori requester sniffed out your secret side character vibes before I did smh….lowk that is interesting though?? Ok my thought process was definitely 1) ok she knows Kaiser so she’s def read the manga 2) she has no character limits so I’m just gonna shoot my shot (it worked out in the best possible way omg) I’ve def seen blogs that only write for the main characters ****itoshis but a good amount of them do out only a specific handful of characters in their request rules….wait actually pause I think the main tipping point for me is actually when I ended up reading cherry tree and was like no fucking way Karasu mention??? Time to test the waters because I kid you not I loved the way you did cherry tree but I was also so fucking hooked on the Karasu cameo I was like oh em gee….karasu mention and HE TALKS?? Guys….so yeah!! Actually that also jogs my memory and clears up my own thoughts of how I first found you (again…??) my memory’s kinda bad if you couldn’t tell HAHAHA

Ok……Mira really trying to solidify the shower evidence…sus…/j

THATS WHAT IM SAYING HAHAHAAH ok but like I was a little surprised that they were the color scene I thought it would’ve been some Kaiser Isagi Rin looking thing with maybe mini side characters in the bg kinda like your current header! Stop did we just manifest ego glow up too??

That’s funny because I also haven’t watched but ik what you’re talking about because I remember seeing people freak out over it LMAOOO BUT FR omg shin ah so gorgeous??? Also omfg you’re so right??? The side by side of Hak and hair down zantetsu….the resemblance is uncanny….but FR S2 being my real male leads into the spotlight please….

Tbh I don’t have high hopes for the fandom but we’ll know in our hearts that Karasu is just a closeted sweetheart loser!!! Ok the Nagi cheater allegations and red flags are actually INSANE like how tf??????????? I seriously have no idea what people are on do you think bro even has the energy to cheat……

LMAOO you’re giving them a reality check on everyone’s behalf we thank you for your service o7

Honestly pop off LMAOO like who’s gonna go challenge your parents sooo also wtf????!!!! BRO DID WHAT???!!!! wtf I literally have no words what the helllllllll glad you’re safe now but omg I hope you never have to experience something like that again….um wdym you have more stories like that??????????? Idk if you’ve ever seen those wild tiktok sponsored posts of like this weird pheromone attractive perfume I think you need creep repellent you’re rizz is too strong…..wtf…..also ENJOY SWITZERLAND!!!!!

But omg another storm shshshs stay safe??? Manifesting your electricity holds up from now on HAHA I’d imagine there aren’t storms in Switzerland rn so….

-Karasu anon

LMAOO no i always get so distracted that ‘save draft’ button is my savior when it comes to answering asks but ik you can’t really do that when sending them 😭 if i ever take more than like a day to respond without explanation feel free to send a check-in ask because that means i’m either being unprecedented levels of offline or i just didn’t get it/see it!!

tumblr takes soo long to get a hang of i will be happy to answer any boomer questions of yours as i probably had the same questions when i first began using the app!! i will always be here for the reveal if/when it comes

i guess the side character vibes i give off are too strong…also hiori made a cameo in cherry tree alongside otoya and karasu so they might’ve made a similar journey as you LMAOAO especially because they mentioned in the request that they had read and liked cherry tree!! that’s so funny that that fic (which i wrote for the most basic character ever) is what led to side character fans finding me!! omg no because tbh there was no reason for karasu to be the one talking in that scene but i was starving and desperate to write him and i thought he could pull it off and now i’m so glad i did that!! and yeah a lot of people tend to only write for a few characters which i think is fair because i 100% get being uncomfortable writing for characters you’re unfamiliar with 🧐 me personally though…if i’m in a fandom there’s not a character in it I WON’T write for!! if i’m too unfamiliar with them i’ll just do research until i feel decent abt it (that’s what i did for the hiori request hehe read and reread his ln + wiki until i was like “okay i think i can do this”)

I SHOWER I PROMISE I SHOWER (not clickbait!!)

maybe this means the NEL arc is ending soon?? like they’re putting all of the coaches in the color spread because we won’t see them again for a while…honestly i really liked this (much more exciting than the last epinagi one) and i’m happy it wasn’t the kaiser + isagi + rin combo again!! all of the coaches are really interesting to me as they all show diff pitfalls of professionals sports (chris + vanity, snuffy + depression/burnout, loki + selfishness, lavinho + immaturity iirc?? and noa + being boring af /j) honestly i could read a spinoff abt all of them too!! and omg ego glow up too…we sensed the vibes in the air and we knew egonation was about to RISE

SHINAH MY BELOVEDDD omg i actually once started a fic for him that was the precursor for hurricanes / hummingbirds in many ways and i still think abt it sometimes but like the fandom for yotd is so nonexistent that i never got the motivation to finish it!! but i think i answered an ask abt it as part of a tag game once here if you’re in the mood for some mira writing while waiting for bfb!! no but the resemblance between zantetsu and hak is uncanny omg team v trio is actually team shoujo trio all of them look like they deserve to be male leads…zantetsu in a historical fantasy shoujo, nagi in a high school slice of life but also mental health focused shoujo, and reo in a ceo romance shoujo SKDJFHS they’re all so bf i love them

we will always know the truth abt karasu and that’s what matters 😩 no because i need to know…do the nagi cheater/red flag (which are unrelated to his laziness) allegations stem from him “leaving” reo during second selection?? because if so that’s insane to me there’s such a difference between joining a different soccer team and cheating on your romantic partner 😭 in epinagi even reo himself acknowledges that he SHOULD be happy for nagi and nagi is so ‘no thoughts head empty’ about it LKDFJGNS bro fr was putting the pieces together like isagi…”play soccer with isagi -> get better at soccer -> win world cup with reo 😄” HOW IS THIS A RED FLAG???

LMAOOO it’s so bad i feel like looking back my time in high school just sounds unreal?? i sent a picture of my eye to another guy i was friends with (in the same friend group as the other two ironically) to show him my new mascara and no joke he responded with an entire verse comparing my eyes to “the heavens” 😭⁉️ and there was also a point in my senior year when i kinda liked a junior on the soccer team (so bfb reader of me but like. reversed.) but for some reason everyone shipped me with the captain of the soccer team?? like people would harass my FRIENDS asking if i liked him…meanwhile i liked mr junior varsity who didn’t even get playtime 😓 it was so bad too i went to a soccer game and everyone thought i was attending to watch the captain, INCLUDING THE GUY I WAS INTO 😐 i went up to congratulate him after the game and bro fr said “did you see the captain play he was amazing” i just left at that point because what can you even do…these are relatively tame in terms of mira lore sadly KJSHGHDFK this is why i have never had a boyfriend or first kiss or anything like that 💔 they’re all CRAZY 😱

SWITZERLAND SOON!! unfortunately my dreams of finishing bfb before my flight are definitely not coming true sooo ig i know what i’m doing for the entire plane ride!! hopefully the lack of distractions will help me finish it up and then i can just proofread in my downtime and hopefully post at some point soon…feel like i’ve been teasing you all for so long but i promise it will be long enough to make the wait worth it (i hope anyways)

[winter510]

MY SPECIAL INTEREST IS (FASHION) DOLLS‼️‼️

I don’t mention it on tumblr much cuz I mostly use this for art, but I absolutely LOVE dolls and I always have.

I have a collection of 70+ dolls, but I haven’t counted them in a while so I definitely think it could be 80+ by now or more!! I should check again soon.

My favorite lines are probably Lol Surprise Omg/Lol Surprise Tweens and Lalaloopsy, but I love a lot of others too like Monster High (G3, mostly) and Rainbow High! I don’t have many Barbie dolls, i only got my first one around October/November-ish last year, but I have 4 now! 2 of them are newer (Perfect Day/Movie Barbie & 2023 Holiday Barbie), and 2 of them are older (Barbie In The Pink Shoes & a 90’s Barbie I found naked at a thrift store so idk who she was lol). I don’t like a lot of newer Barbie dolls bc a lot of the quality just,,, isn’t there, but I do want to collect more 90’s Barbie’s and late 2000s/early 2010s Barbie’s because she’s very nostalgic for me.

I love fashion dolls for so many different reasons. I’ve always been interested in fashion, and I love self expression. I love dressing super colorfully and over the top (when I have the energy too. Cuz yknow. Autism lmao.) So it’s fun being able to not only fill my room with dolls wearing fun outfits, but being able to mix and match things and create whole new looks is genuinely so exhilarating for me!! I don’t restyle dolls extremely often bc I don’t wanna ruin any dolls, but when I can and do restyle dolls without needing to worry abt that, they can become some of my favorites!! I think there might also be a visual stim factor to it, tho I can’t figure out if I like dolls bc they’re visual stimulating for me, or if they’re visually stimulating for me because I like them. But either way, I can pick one doll out for the day, take it with me wherever I go, and just stare at it and keep noticing new details in the face or clothing, or even just staring at my favorite parts over n over. And there’s definitely physical stimulation too, because I love feeling the fabric and the hair, and it’s especially nice if it has a good amount of articulation so I can move them around and pose them in different ways. And there’s so many other reasons I love them too.

I also often really enjoy the movies and tv shows that doll lines come with! Lalaloopsy Girls: Welcome To Lala Prep is genuinely one of my favorite movies, period. I like all the other Lalaloopsy movies too, and the Nick Jr show (I don’t really like the Netflix Lalaloopsy show tho). There’s also 2003 Strawberry Shortcake, which btw, had some absolute BANGER songs in some episodes. I’ve seen a good amount of Monster High movies by now, my fave is probably Ghouls Rule bc it focuses more on Jackson Jekyll and he’s my fav character <33. Ever After High is great, I never watched it as a kid, but even just watching it in its entirety like a few months ago, it’s a good show with some of the best digital puppet animation I’ve ever seen.

I think I should probably stop now cuz I have things to do but OMMFGFGG I COULD GO ON LITERALLY FOREVER

hey, if you're autistic, adhd, nd etc. could you reblog this and infodump in the tags about your special interests or current hyperfixations? i'd love to hear abt them! ^_^

[sirensav]

I think this is going to be my ED diary. I’m not new here. I feel very old being here. The OG ED tumblr days is my time. I lived here. My accounts, multiple accounts, have gotten deactivated bc of it but it was a great community as well as toxic. I have met a really good friend on here. Definitely was here 12 years ago. I’m still here. I haven’t really been on here in a while tho. That’s okay. When I was my smallest I wasn’t even on tumblr. I was goals. I was the girl in the thinso or bonespo pics. I could have gotten lower. My lowest was 95lbs and I’m 5’1. It was hard getting there but I’m determined. It’s weird being out of it for a while bc this was my life. And now I’m in a very lost place in life. I feel like this will help me in a sense to get my life back together. Im cleaner when I restrict, my self care is higher on the list. The only thing now is that I have no energy to do anything. I could be cycling rn and burning calories but im just laying down like the fat cow I am. Although I have been getting so many compliments recently on my figure. I love the attention. Keep it coming, however I need to fit into this dress. I’ll do whatever it takes to fit into the dress. I can eat one meal a day every other day. If im feeling starved I can have a cucumber sandwich or a salad. We will see bc im weak when it comes to eating. I feel like this past week I have been getting better. Luckily now I don’t feel hungry at work anymore. It’s just the evening time I need to work on. I haven’t eaten anything all day so im hoping I can go on until tomorrow. I should deff start intermitten fasting again. That would help a lot but also if im not eating I deff will want some flavor in my life like lattes. Maybe I’ll get so into it again I won’t be able to have milky coffees. That’s how I originally started, I only had coffee with soy milk and sweetener. That was my meal. Well I had a lot of pitta bread and hummus. If I can make it to tomorrow without eating, it will be the beginning of a beautiful journey. I should exercise but I’m so exhausted all the time and if I’m going to be exhausted all the time I should at least look good doing it. I want to look so good in the dress. Maybe if I watch euphoria it will help me. Or an Ana movie again. Exercise the whole movie. I also need a distraction. I have done some not great things recently and idk how to process it. I don’t even know if I can say it here but heck it bc who is going to see this? Idk this doesn’t seem like a good idea. Im not gonna say anything. Ugh but it’s crazy. It defiantly feels like main character energy. Maybe not. I just can’t believe I may have ruined someone’s life. Someone I really care about. They knew tho. They took the risk.