#and I gotta go back out there later bc it's part of my job to close all the sun umbrellas at end of day

[figofswords]

the post grad why did i get an art degree what am i even doing what do i want in life where am i going crisis has finally hit i want to. lie down in the dirt. or something

[grassbreads]

I usually eat lunch outside every day during the work week (so long as it's not raining), but today the outdoor seating area at my job was inexplicably SWARMING with bugs. Like, to the point that I had to bail and go back inside because I couldn't keep them away from my food, and the sheer quantity of them gathering on some surfaces was kinda nauseating 😬

I have no idea what they were, but they were some kind of small light-colored insect hanging out in a truly mass quantity. There's usually always a few of whatever they are hanging out on the side of the building, but something was up today

[coridallasmultipass]

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[objectionablepuzzles]

Thinking about the one time when I first got into Transformers. My friend made me watch Mrs. Doubtfire for the first time and in an elaborate way to connect my interest with transformers to make the movie more engaging (it was honestly a fun movie regardless. You should watch it if you haven't)

I started talking about how this would go in Transformers, somehow it turned into aspiring actor Blaster who was married to Soundwave and things got too much for Soundwave that they ended up divorcing and Soundwave took all the cassettes in the divorce. Frustrated, Blaster goes to Sunstreaker and Sideswipe to give him a makeover to become someone with a different paintjob and added kibble to change how his body looks and to make his alt mode discreet. He's good with voice impressions so he screws Soundwave over with fake bots calling for his babysitter ad then later calling as his alternative identity and he's hired. His paint was superficial because he still has a day job and the kibble tends to be unstable so he has many close calls

Soundwave's love interest later on in the movie is Jazz which of whom Blaster is envious of because he feels threatened by him and how he's as charming as one can be and he's genuinely good with Soundwave and the kids.

The producer guy (Lundy i think his name was?) the guy who gives Daniel in the movie a working opportunity to host his own show. I frankly don't remember who I assigned him as at the time but honestly? It'd be mad funny if it was Ironhide idk u can totally let me know if any of u guys got any other ideas. I can totally see him having made a boring kids show and going out for dinner bc work talk but instead be laid back drink LMAO

As for the social worker I can totally see Prowl doing the inspection and being caught up in Blaster's bullshit like that one scene where (Daniel in the movie had to switch back and forth between being himself and Mrs. Doubtfire so Mrs. Sellner wouldnt catch him redhanded) just imagining the scene with Prowl being confused is hilarious

I think out of the kids, the one who would discover Blaster's identity first gotta be Ravage if not Steeljaw, they just have good senses.

I just want to see how the kids would be difficult with this babysitter when Blaster could be the one taking care of them when Soundwave is busy and how they'd throw tantrums at this babysitter not knowing its Blaster, maybe a few pranks from Rumble and Frenzy! Blaster trying to earn everyone's favor until he becomes and irreplaceable part pf this family even if he can't be himself and trying to sabotage Jazz and Soundwave's growing relationship!

The good ending would be if all three got together but if it followed the movie plot I still think it'd be a good ending regardless!

Thank you for coming to my tedtalk o7

[pixie-felix]

Hi Pixie! A semi half-baked idea and a question.

So I've got "Ribbon" by Mariah Carey on repeat in my head. So guess who popped into my brain? Pretty Prince Jinnie bc we love seeing that man tied up in ribbons. But imagine trying him up temporarily because for an anniversary you prepared a special dance to that song for him. (The irony) We all know if he had his hands free and simply told not to touch her would absolutely cave 3 seconds after you got close enough. He looks wrecked once you're done so from the teasing touches and quick but deep kisses shared. I'm talking trying to take calming breaths, eyes slightly glazed over, pouty lips parted slightly, almost painfully hard in the lace shorts you bought him. But his eyes are glued to you. Have been since he was tied in/to the chair.

Do we tease him a little more with bites, kisses and hickies while slowly grinding against him until he cums? Should we go with a hand job and dirty talk as he sits there, mind fuzzing over and mostly communicating in half sentences and phrases making the prettiest noises you could hear up close? Put his pretty little mouth to use and ride his face? Give him some of the best head he's ever had and tell him he can't cum until we do? Immediately sink down on him and ride the hell out of him? Obviously all of the above is possible. He'd be so overstimulated as you just have your way with him. (This just got longer as I wrote. The demons are at work🤣)

How would the others react if you dance for them (maybe not to this song, but other sensual songs that remind you of them)? Who's blissfully surprised and might later give you a private dance of your own? Who's most to least likely to behave during your dance? (I'm so sorry this is like ten questions, but I wanna know your thoughts. BUT take your time. There's never any rush)

--🍭

I LOVE YOUR DEMONS

THE WAY I HAVE BEEN FOAMING AT THE MOUTH TO REACH THIS ASK JESUS CHRISTOPHER CHRIST

Oh.

My.

GOD.

As someone who used to be a burlesque dancer, this question SANG to me. Lmao, punny. Seriously though, for a brief period of my life I was a professional cocktease, and it was fucking awesome. And I genuinely had a routine that involved a guy being tied to a chair... What times. Hah. I was going to say thank fuck it wasn't skz and then I did the math and Chan would have been thirteen. Ew. So yes, yay, thank fuck there was no skz involved 🤣🙈

Of course now I'm daydreaming about being 19 again and being Bang Chan's hot-and-unstable noona. I want teenage Channie to have a crush on me! I mean, I want adult Chan to have a crush on me too, but that's different. Like, I want to go back in time and experience him having a crush on me in that cute way little kids and awkward teenagers do? Urgh and lmao, this has probably come out all wrong. Idc. It's written now.

*AHEM* Back to the questions.

I know we've discussed it before, *somewhere* (just wait until I've got that index finished. I'm gonna be cross referencing us left, right, and centre), but just to check...

You're keeping those ribbons loosely tied, right? So that not only are you driving him nuts with your movements (how is your body roll better than his?!), he's also going insane because he's got to keep himself still. Or suffer the consequences.

Um, did I see you mention lace shorts? Because I'm going to need a little elaboration on that 😇 How lacy are they? How short are they? Are they panties? Please tell me they're panties. Guys in lingerie... Yeah. That is definitely a topic we should discuss in great detail, when the time is right.

Okay, so I have consulted my smut playlists, yes that is a plural, and come up with the following pairings:

Chan. Chan has two options- one for Channie, and one for Christopher. Gotta love that duality.

For Christopher, easy: Scream My Name by Thomas LaRosa. Slow, sensual, with lots of build up and that ride-or-die-borderline-possessive vibes? Yes please. This was definitely not influenced by the Escape video. Bring out his protective side while he’s not allowed to move, tease him, drive him a little bit insane. 

If you want to REALLY push his buttons (of course you do), and you’re living in the poly!skz universe, get one of the other members to dance with you too. Obviously, Hyunjin would would be ideal. Again, definitely not influenced by the Escape video… If you go with this option, be prepared for revenge. Sexy, sexy revenge. (I would love to hear your thoughts on revenge.)

For Channie, (possibly definitely more my vibe because I’m a silly and mischievous goose who's totally addicted to Chan’s laugh): Pony by Giuwine. Do I even need to explain? Even if he isn’t immediately thinking of that lip sync battle (or even just Magic Mike itself) you KNOW he’s going to be cracking up. The only downside being he might laughing too much to get hard…  Lmao of course I’m lying. He was rock solid the moment you tied him to the chair, and he might be laughing but you KNOW he’s going to be throwing you down and giving you your own performance once you say the word.

Minho. Despite his poker face and tsundere personality, Minho is pleasantly surprised when you ask him to let you give him a lap dance. Whether the iconic eyebrow raise when you handcuff his hands behind him is for your benefit or his, (he's definitely pretending his dick isn’t already waking up) is up for interpretation. 

He’ll pretend to be unaffected at first, and the casual observer might not be able to tell how into it he is. But there is no way you miss the the slight narrowing of his eyes, or the tension in his jaw. Or the subtle fidgeting when his pants get too tight.

The song is Ride or Die by Jeff Satur. Does it have Drive vibes? Perhaps only lyrically, but still. He’ll appreciate the link almost as much as he appreciates the way you slip the key to his cuffs into your bra. He can fish it out with his teeth and tongue later.

Added bonus: it’s in his vocal range and now my brain is full of him quietly singing it to himself the next morning, in the kitchen while he makes you eggs. (I don’t even like eggs, but I just feel like that’s the *vibe*.)

Changbin. Choosing for Changbin was really hard, because Binnie never deserves to suffer. But of course he would like to be tortured a little bit, and we can't refuse him anything.  Obviously this needs to be a girl group song, and nothing too filthy. He is the prettiest princess after all.

So, with that in mind: Igloo by Kiss of Life. Watching the HyunLixBin cover of it was so cute. And everybody knows how much we love taking cute things and ruining them making them sexual. Take the original choreo and make it more intimate. Slower. Heck, maybe slow down the entire song.

Whatever you do, he's going to be over the fuck-mothering moon. When you sit him down in that chair. We all know those muscles aren't just for show, so EITHER make sure you tie those bonds extra tight... or use some ribbons that are so pretty he won't want to break them. Pink is always a good choice.

I nearly didn't include this song after whichever member's birthday livestream racist bullshit... but fuck them, Binnie looks so cute doing the dance, let's focusing on that instead.

Hyunjin. I’m right there with you with Ribbon, I hadn't it before but now it is his song. Straight on the Hyune playlist (I can't be the only Stay with separate playlists for each member, right? And I can't be the one who's Ayen playlist is exclusively badass bitch bangers, right?).

To pick my own Hyune track I'd defintely go with I Feel Like I’m Drowning, Two Feet (I feel like I should give a warning that this mv is quite raunchy, but then here you are, dear reader, reading our horny musings... so perhaps a warning is unnecessary?)

Other than that, I have nothing to add. Your Hyune-vision is perfect. I would like in please 🙏.

Han. No question about it: Mommae, Jay Park. Again, raunchy mv. This is Jay Park we're talking about. And you know he's seen the video, because it's iconic. And he was a teenager when it came out, so he's almost definitely beaten off to that beat before lol that's barely even a pun but it made me laugh sorry not sorry.

He was hard the moment he saw the ribbons in your hand, and on the verge of orgasm by the time you'd finished tying him to the chair with those pretty little bows. So when the music starts and he hears that iconic baseline -which naturally triggers a whole avalanche of horny teenage memories- it's no surprise that he jizzes his pants before those first nine beats are up.

By the chorus, he's already hard again, and begging you to touch him as you tease and sway around him. The question is, how long do you torture him? Making him sit in his messed up jeans, practically foaming at the mouth, tears in his eyes as he begs you to sit on his face, his thigh, his cock, his anything. I hope you tied those ribbons extra tight.

Oh, and bonus: you didn't let him undress properly because you knew this would happen, and he likes the pain of how the denim keeps his dick restrained.

Felix. Because it's fun (gotta keep it cute for Lixxie), and it's been in a bunch of reels lately: Sugar by Flo Rider. It's a bop, you know he's heard it (all those hours on tiktok), he's definitely danced to it before. Possibly in the bathroom, while he's waiting for the shower to heat up or doing a facemask. Maybe naked, once or twice.

Maybe he even took a silly little video of it for you, but chickened out of sending it after remembering you describe the time your ex sent you a two minute long video clip of him spinning a dick windmill and he doesn't want you to think of him that way.

But now here you are, dancing for him to the song he's had stuck in his head for weeks. He's a happy boy. A patient one too, obediently staying still while you straddle and grind on him, his boba eyes all big and glossy with lust as he admires you adoringly. The only hint that he's struggling to stay still? That white knuckle grip he has on his seat.

He's such a good boy, you don't tease him for long. You're barely halfway through the song when you pull on his wrist ribbons, freeing his arms enough so that he can touch you. Even freed, he stays respectful: you'll have to guide his hands to your hips yourself. After he's finished kissing you that is, whimpering into your mouth as you roll your hips against his. In time with the song, of course.

Seungmin. The bedroom eyes on this man. Jesus Christopher Christ. He might have an excellent poker face, but that slight tightening around his eyes, the barely there frown... That's when you know you've got to him. Better have tied those ribbons tight.

Getting him to agree to the whole idea of being tied to a chair in the first place will a bit of a challenge. Never one to give in easily, you'll have to pull out all the stops to get him to agree to this. Ofc, if you're living in the poly!skz universe, there's an easy hack for that: just tell him [insert member] was a good boy and let you dance for him.

Competitive Minnie mode: engaged. Dick: solid. Patience: thin.

Oh, and btw. You didn't tie those ribbons tight enough. Because when his fuse finally fizzles out, he's got you up against the wall, pinning you by the throat with his other hand in your pants before you can say "bad puppy".

Yeah, the song is Ride by SoMo, and after this night, he's going to torture you at every karaoke party you and the guys go to. This is now his song. Just like you're his girl. He won't even flinch when his hyungs and Jeongin cringe at the lyrics. You're his, and as soon as he gets you alone he's gonna take care of your body... and other quote other lyrics at you. With his dick. (Sorry, had to cool myself down with some humor because I'm still reeling from this and that. SEUNGMIN YOU WERE MY SAFE PLACE WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LOOK AT THE CAMERA LIKE THAT I AM LOST.)

Jeongin. Right, I'm gonna combine my two favourite maknae problems here and suggest Move by Taemin. Do I even need to elaborate? You wouldn't even need to move, just sit on his lap, arms around his neck, your lips just out of his reach... Tease him with your smile and your eyes rather than your words.

But of course, that song is impossible to sit still to. Your body will roll all by itself, and paired with the way Jeongin is eye fucking you... makes you bolder than usual. It's nice to see the maknae go feral.

Speaking of which, you might need to gag him. Boy has a filthy fucking mouth on him (and yes I'm still calling him boy, because you know that only gets him more and more worked up). What you gag him with is dancers choice: more ribbons? Panties? Literal bread? (again having to cool my jets with some humour goddamn I'm not even ovulating). Whatever you use, watch out. The brat bites.

Oh, and did you tie those ribbons tight enough? Baby bread has been working out a lot recently...

okay it has only taken me months to reply to this and then days to actually write it all out. I hope you see this lollipop anon 😖 and if anyone else would like to weigh in with their striptease and/or tying skz to chairs thoughts, comment or send in an ask maybe a smoke signal or somthing 🫶

[utilitycaster]

speaking of regrets considerations for a second runthrough:

This time I'm actually doing the fucking puzzles and finding all the chests and mementos and codices and candlehops. It's funny bc I've had a draft in my notes reminding me to talk about why I like the crossroads as a concept. but also once I found everything I needed there I was like GOTTA GO GOTTA DO QUESTS AND STORY so I feel like I can't really write it. I also ended the game with a truly stupid amount of gold I hadn't used because I have zero interest in decorating things and I was good at finding valuables but like, I realized very late in the game that money can be exchanged for mementos. I may be stupid.

Relatedly, pacing out sidequests better; I got locked out of a sidequest and had to complete For The Love of Treviso first and it was kind of silly to go back to the Venatori/Crow couple after like. killing the Butcher. I also did the Solas Regret Sidequest very early.

Related to that, I played Rook as fairly trusting and honest and open in part because I was trying to romance Bellara, who appreciates a very positive and grounded touch, and in part because that sort of All Rook Knows Is 1300+ Necrotic Damage, Throw Her Shield, Hopeless Romanticism, Be Bisexual, And Tell The Truth character emerged eventually. I must admit as someone who leans very...well, Neve's flavor of "I assume this will go badly but deep in my heart despite it all I hope for the best" IRL it was a fun thing to explore, but I also really want to know what the more pragmatic decisions lead to. Again I know that technically I got the happiest ending but like. my heart really does say Dump Him Inquisitor. Anyway. I looked it up and apparently if you turn in the Venatori/Crow couple, the Crows like you more for it, and while the Crows liked me plenty and I don't even know if this happens still in a blighted Treviso, if it does, I'll need all the cred I can get.

Wait does this mean I will do a good job with Mythal all for naught. Much To Think About.

I was not good at checking for eavesdropping conversations early on so I missed almost all of Harding being suspicious of Lucanis, for one.

I ALSO fucked up the wisp conversation with Neve which is funny because again, what emerged later in the game was someone who absolutely would be down for a wisp stakeout. writing this off as "Rook was way too smitten with Bellara at the time to remember her Mourn Watch duties, and Emmrich arriving jolted her back into place there."

Did not realize Hezenkoss was in Emmrich's room until relatively late. Actually, if one of my mutuals (not @-ing anyone bc idk if they're done) hadn't posted about this I wouldn't have found out until the part of the game where you check in with everyone, which would have been EXTREMELY funny in the darkest way. going to find Emmrich standing on his sad moodlit balcony mourning Davrin and getting jump scared by. the skull.

Not a regret, just something I'm excited for: There were a few combinations of companions I rarely brought out either because their abilities didn't dovetail super well (Lucanis + Harding overlapped with my damage types and both had potion-based healing so I rarely brought them out together) or due to lack of healing abilities (I really only would ever bring out one of Davrin, Taash, or Neve; I paired them all pretty frequently with everyone else though) and now that I know which quests are unlikely to straight up murder me without a healer I'll try to do more, plus if I save Minrathous Neve will be one of my healers this time and Lucanis won't. Which is sad because Lucanis and Taash were actually The Best Combo Ever. I literally brought them into every endgame combat except for the ones where I explicitly couldn't because they were occupied with another task, and I still brought Taash for the final Isle of the Gods combat.

Also just something I'm excited for: exploring different options for the endgame; obviously Neve and Lucanis's will by default probably differ but I think Davrin and Taash's might be different as well in a different playthrough. I'm kind of hard to sway on Harding's and impossible on Emmrich's admittedly but Bellara's could go a different way, maybe.

[tvckerwash]

okay I watched restoration and I'll probably analyze it more in depth later when my brain has processed what I've watched but here are some of the thoughts I had while watching (I stopped live blogging part way through so some things may be out of order lols):

okay first thoughts: we’re at a convention, and dylan is some sort of director for some super unpopular thing. ngl that’s a pretty harsh downgrade from journalist/news correspondent. 

hi kai. she seemed to be more like her s15-s17 characterization than her bg/chorus cameo characterization for the 30 seconds she was present (which I remember really disliking)

wash is in the hospital as prisoner 619b…bros did the UNSC arrest him again?!?

“I’m not even sure I got his voice right this time.” okay so restoration IS another simulation

the director being a therapist when the counselor is right there lmao

bros no way they got elijah wood to voice sigma again??

is that the counselor I hear on the PA system??? that’s what the subtitles said anyway. but anyway BROS HE ACTUALLY FUCKING LIVED LETS GO (but why is his ass not in jail??????? there’s no way he managed to get a job, let alone one in a UNSC hospital, but if this IS a simulation which I think it is and epsilon himself admitted to making mistakes already then I’m okay with that development ig)

NO IS DOC A FIGMENT OF WASH’S IMAGINATION NOOOOOO MY MANS IS FINALLY LOSING IT FR

“Listen to me! You’ve gotta listen to me!”

479er??? I’ve always had the hc she was arrested w wash and the other pfl personnel at the end of s6

“Our mission men—and blue” caboose is trans confirmed

“Don’t feel bad afterwards. I forgive you. I know it’s not your fault, I’m sorry this is happening to you.” omg caboose not dunking on tucker is what he presumed to be his final moments.

SARGE GOING TO SAVE CABOOSE <3

oh okay I predicted months ago before the 2nd trailer came out that at least one of the bgc was going to die and I was right! I thought it was going to be caboose but rip sarge (and doc) 

I’m really disappointed that wash didn’t get to do more tbh. the meta was HIS enemy but he was regulated to comedic relief  :(

also wash jumping off a cliff to activate the recovery beacon is :/. bro was literally a recovery agent he should know how to activate it to summon lina like she’s a deployable unit in uhh. ways that were NOT that.

did not expect tex to come back but okay, also tex/lina fighting together feels like fanservice but mmmmmmmmmmnh. 

awww tex and church get to be together again, dying together as one like they did at the end of s6. TEX SOFTLY HOLDING CHURCH’S HAND YES!!! WE LOVE SOFT TENDER TEX IN THIS HOUSE!!!

damn the “wash and lina having their trauma and traits swapped for no reason” thing is. hmmm  don’t like that, have never liked that. I tried to see if I had any posts on my old blog about this topic bc I remember talking about it in the past and I sort of do? eh whatever tldr; lina is the one haunted by the past and wash is supposed to be the one giving the emotional speeches but hhhhhrng. will definitely be talking about that more later even though I thought the scene was super sweet (also ct!!!!!!! my girl!!!!)

I don’t like that they were all separated and that grif was going to leave, these mfs were forced together in a shitty box canyon at the start of the series and I feel like it would’ve been better if instead of being forced together they all chose to stay together but it is what it is.

“Bow chicka bye now.” bros it’s over…

okay ngl it was pretty rushed pacing wise and I’ve got so many bones to pick (mostly about wash bc ofc) but speaking as an ending to the series I think it works. it all started in a box canyon which was later revealed to be an elaborate training simulation, so it’s fitting that it it was revealed very early in the run time that it was all a simulation, and it all ended in the box canyon they started in. I thought the themes of feeling guilty and being able to forgive oneself were very interesting (might get into that more later as well…) so yeah. 

it’s flawed, but for such a long running series that had originally been intended to only be a few episodes, I think it ending with tucker telling us it’s over and to go home is honestly the best way they could’ve done it. all the other times the series had ���ended” it was done in a way where it worked as a standalone end for the series, but it was always open-ended enough that a continuation could be made if they wanted to. 

there isn’t going to be a continuation this time, the story is over, but just because the story has ended doesn’t mean that we can’t make our own stories. red vs blue will live on so long as there are people who want it to, which feels pretty on the dime doesn’t it?

[genericpuff]

in reference to the have you read LO poll by god have I tried but god. God...

A vicious cycle. I go okay I really do need to plow through more of it if I'm gonna hang around the ULO reddit, and then I step on the comically placed rake. I can't do a complete skip thing bc I'll be too disorientated on where I'm at in the plot but my brain only tolerates it up until she declares she's missing her dick appointment and like, girl. Please. You committed mass murder (if not genocide) and this is a slap on the wrist considering, let alone that your moms got the worse end of the deal.

Why it's that specific moment idk but the bottom just drops out for me and it's soooo fucking stupid because like, she couldn't have just... bitched about being stuck with hard labor? That's the bitchy shit I'd sort of expect from a privileged nepo baby and even barring the twue wuv story going on it's her actual biggest issue going on right then. What she's presently living out. But yeah no, horny, we gotta establish that she's horny. Okay.

Sorry about the borderline vent over it there's just enough really interesting thoughts mixed up in the pile of flaming garbage to make one go rabid if they stew on it, and you clearly get that given the rewrite. Have a good day.

omg i've had that exact sort of thing happen with me before too tho, not in quite the exact same sense of like, "wanting to take part in a community but struggling to get through the source material it's based on", but there are like, so many webtoons and manga and stories I've tried to read - after being urged to by pals and people who read them - that I've dropped after multiple attempts of trying to read them. And they're not necessarily dumpster fires like LO (though some of them definitely aren't great) it's more like I'm sitting there wondering "when's this gonna get good? when's this gonna be worth all the hype?" Tower of God is the biggest one that comes to mind, I have tried to read that webtoon on SEVERAL occasions and I just can't justify trudging through all those early episodes for it to maybe "get good". And that's not even me saying it's bad, it's just not interesting to me in the slightest. No hate to anyone who likes ToG, I think I've also sorta drifted away from shonen over the years so that's definitely not helping, but I just can't be bothered to try and read that webtoon anymore, I've given it so many attempts and I'm doing lmao Kudos to the creator though because it's a LOT of work to make a webtoon of that length and they should be proud of that.

Back on the topic of LO though, yeah, I was following the comic when that episode was still brand new and it really made us all go 🤨 because of how out-of-pocket it was. And then like an episode (or two?) later she bullied a former classmate of hers from 10 years ago at his job. That was the precedent for Persephone's character that was set for the third season of LO and it's just gotten worse as it's gone on.

Either way, if I'm being honest, you're really not missing much by skipping over the majority of S3 (like, if you made it to the dick appointment episode before giving up then you're already pretty close to the current point in the story). Like I'm not gonna lie, you could easily skip up to the midseason cutoff point because everything leading up to that is just a bunch of nothing. Hades and Persephone get married and it's the most underwhelming scene ever despite it being the moment people had been waiting years for, also they 'adopt' Dionysus but he's barely in the comic except for when Rachel remembers he's a character so you could also get by on minimal details. Oh yeah, and it turns out Demeter had a kid during the 10 year time skip who we see in like two episodes and then proceeds to get fridged forever.

So yeah, as much as I'd recommend people read LO as a sort of "entry ticket" into the crit community surrounding it, S3 is a lot of nothing and you would frankly not miss out on a thing if you skimmed it or skipped the middle portion of it entirely lmao

[spicy30]

Hello again! I don’t wanna possibly spoil anything for people since the last chapter hasn’t been out that long so I’ll just put a little warning here —

!!! SPOILERS FOR CHAPTER 11 !!!

AHHH so much Criston in this last chapter! My problematic fav, I’m so happy. Really enjoyed all of his parts and am interested to see what happens with him next. He’s just such a fun character to read, write and talk about. It’s kinda funny to think about him turning around and finding that MC has disappeared in the street though 💀 (ik I’m terrible) And just like…doing a walk of shame back up to the Hightower hours later to tell Alicent he lost the crazy lady but she’s already back there

Fr though, I’m itching to see how the relationships between Criston, Alicent and MC develop further. He’s got such a longing for purpose and salvation and Alicent looks to her faith for something to hold onto and seems so conflicted and unnerved by MC. It’d be easy to get annoyed at Alicent rn with how she’s acted towards MC (victim blaming isn’t cool, Alicent! Neither is ordering hits on people!) but it’s at least understandable — I mean, this girl just appeared out of nowhere and has “infected” her family and now she’s seeping into her faith too, something sacred for her, and how is Alicent supposed to know what this all means or what to do with MC? So, MC becoming this religious figure of sorts in a world like Westeros will be verrrrry interesting. MC could find herself in an even more powerful and dangerous position than she’s already in. The bit with the high septon honestly makes me scared for her! It’s certainly an advantage to have people kneeling at your feet and willing to do and believe whatever you tell them because they think you’re a messenger of the gods. For someone of her standing especially, being able to influence people like that is very powerful. But in this kind of era, with religion being such serious business…she’s gotta be careful here 😬

These maesters suck. Bunch of assholes really. Is Vaegon still alive in this story? He’s one of those minor characters I’m so interested in, I’m always curious to see what people do with his character when he pops up in stories. Totally understand if he doesn’t make an appearance though

Daeron’s introduction was great too, I liked his characterisation. He feels different to the rest of his family - brothers specifically - and you can tell he’s been shaped by a different environment than they have but he still has those hints of Targaryen-isms. Exactly as Daeron should be 💚

Love MCs little friendship with Aegon and her interactions with the twins

I feel so much for the MC though. The way you’re writing her and how she’s struggling is so easy to empathise with. Just being dropped into another world would be enough to break someone but then she’s got all this extra bullshit to face! It’d be so scary and isolating :( The way she deflates or tenses whenever Aemond is even mentioned is such a painful but real thing.

The poor horse 😭

And if you don’t mind me saying, I’ve noticed that your writing is always improving! I’m not saying your writing was ever bad because it wasn’t but I can tell that you’re doing a good job honing your skills and getting better with every chapter. I noticed it when I was first reading the series and binging it to catch up and the recent chapter was no exception

I hope that was coherent, I’m kinda sleep deprived rn lol. But I enjoyed the new chapter and am looking forward to the next one!

— 🌾💚🌾

Yeah, I think the best part to write was him like over-analyzing a game of tag. He was doing too much but he is just so convinced that MC is up to something (He's not totally wrong though.) Yeah, I can only imagine Criston turning around and being like '😧' Then finally that night he comes back like '🧑‍🦯😥' "I lost her." and Alicent just freaking out bc of the whole weird thing going on with her.

Criston will definitely have his moment of character growth and then we’ll see where that’ll lead to. As for Alicent, she’ll have her growth, but I suppose it can also be argued as a recession. Alicent is always so desperate to be in the right that she is just so wrong. She's always so close and then misses by a mile. But like you said, always understandable that she’s freaked out by MC and obviously Alicent still has her plans to get Aegon on the throne, so it becomes a whole thing where MC is watching and Alicent feels disgusted. As for MC becoming a religious figure, that was always the plan, and of course there was rejection in the beginning bc it what almost got her killed by Daemon bc she wasn’t a messiah, so it coming full circle and her getting into the faith, it’s kinda like….‘hmm.’ I don’t want to give too much away but my stance on it is "Coincidence is just the mind's way of making connections where none exist.” And yes of course with perks comes dangers if they push her the full mile and it’ll be interesting if MC embraces the role that’ll eventually be pushed onto her. (But that won't be for another couple of years)

Yes, Maesters suck butt! It’s really just so…annoying to see, but I mean, what other outcome was there? I wanted to be as realistic as possible. It’s already crazy enough that her plans got pushed through, not to mention she still has to find that person to take the seat in the council (She can’t just yet) So she needs to find someone who isn’t totally against her which is like finding a needle in a haystack. As for Vaegon it is definitely very interesting to think about. They said he passed in 101ac (Only bc he wasn’t mentioned anymore) but he was only 38 at that time, and in 129 he would be 66. I find it strange that he would’ve died so early. The faith and the citadel don’t like Targs nor do they like the aspect of magic. Vaegon was dragonless and obviously wanted to distance himself far far away from his family with him taking his studies into mathematics, and economics. I don’t think Vaegon wanted the downfall of his family, but I think he is just a little resentful of them (He was called upon by his father and I’m pretty sure he either suggested or supported his father calling for the great council when Viserys was chosen over Rhaenys) There is also the whole issue after the dance where possibly non-targs could claim dragons (Most notably silverwing) and some speculate that Vaegon was the one who said to do something about her so that it wouldn’t cause trouble. But this would definitely be a very interesting dynamic. Vaegon is into mathematics and right now MC needs mathematicians for this water system project. So who knows.

Yeah for Daeron I tried to pry into the mind of a more mature teenage boy who just happens to have a dragon, which was very hard, bc I am none of those things. (I want a dragon so bad 🥹) All siblings tend to have this blind loyalty to each other and in Daeron’s mind Aegon, Helaena, and Aemond are the exactly the same as they were before, and he liked Aemond back then so this loyalty for his older brother makes sense. But when Daeron hears that this lover (supposedly soon to be wife if Viserys has his way- or at least according to what Alicent said) is MC, it’s kinda like when your brother brings home like a girl who you can just sense isn’t a good person. Daeron is very off put by the fact that his brother who was much more a stickler to the rules than any of them, now has a lover. (I like to also think that Daeron is a lot more conservative bc of the heavy influence of the faith in Old Town.)

The twins are just so lovely and I thought a cute little game of tag would be nice. (Besides she feeds them so much junk food they've gotten a bit fat. So a little running never hurts.) As for her relationship with Aegon, he has toned down the obvious vibes that he wanted to sleep with her (Mans would still take the opportunity if it was there and I envision that it would happen while they’re both high. (Maybe in both ways. High in the mind and high in the sky.)) Right now his main thing is music.

Thank you! I like writing tragic characters. Perfect characters are…boring. The only perfect I accept is when it's like they’re so perfect that when bad things happen to them, the person that did it becomes insanely hated bc how dare they. (If you’re going to be perfect, Imma need them to put it to use and manipulate others like no one else's business whether intentionally or not. Very fun to read.) I want MC to make mistakes, and to have things turn out badly and then she has to claw her way out and continue on towards the goal. Aemond is just being Aemond😔 A shiny new toy that is his. The past shouldn’t matter when he has everything laid out. Or that's his mentality at least. 

RIP Horse, but it was necessary. 🐉

I enjoy your comments on my writing. I’ve gone back and reread some stuff and obviously there is a very big difference, BUT there is actually a reason for that. The way I’m writing now is my natural writing style (If you were to go look at my old works up to my latest (Not including this one) it has always followed a ratio of 1:5 (Or around there.), one being the actual dialogue and five being inner thoughts.) Basically, this was…a crack fic (AT FIRST) then I really started thinking about the story and thought it was best if I actually. I think a good example of this would be ‘A Solemn Beginning' (is this me being a shameless plug for myself?…possibly) I started writing that story last year around March, though it wasn't published till months later. (So way before I ever even thought of this concept) and that story has a much more similar vibe in these more recent chapters. Basically, my early writing in this story was lazy writing. (I just sat down one day and wrote the first chapter just bc I came up with the idea of being electrocuted via a kite in an attempt to charge a phone or try to harness power and reader being launched into a wall just as Jace walks in and is like '😨' while MC is writhing on the ground steaming.) I wasn’t thinking too much about anything, just writing to writing. BUT! I appreciate it nonetheless. 

THANK YOU🙏See you next time❤️

[keirou-kun]

So because I have zero self control and no one told me not to, I'm gonna scream about my favorite story from the original 1960s Teen Titans comics. This is Issue 14, the story entitled 'Requiem for a Titan!', and it is my go-to example for how Dick Grayson has just always been Like That™. A lot of the stories from this era are a little cheesy for my taste. Not bad! Just clearly products of their time. This one, though, with a little updating of the language, could have been written in a more modern series and I adore it. This got long, so I'm just gonna hide it under a cut.

So! Let's begin with the set-up! This story starts in medias res, with our bad guy meeting Robin in a creepy-ass graveyard and no information on how or why they're even there. Our bad guy, by the way, is called the Gargoyle, for obvious reasons.

that is, indeed, a fucking gargoyle.

The open grave is Robin's, of course, and Gargoyle has Robin throw in his cape, his tunic [revealing that beneath the tunic Dick Grayson is wearing what looks like a freakin' onesie with scale armor on the lower half, good lord XD] and - after some serious hesitation on Dick's part, bc secret identity oh no! - his mask. During this hesitation, we also find out that somehow Gargoyle has not only captured but somehow turned the other three Titans [Kid Flash, Wonder Girl, and Aqualad] over to his side, because they get used as a threat to force Dick's hand: do it, or fight your friends, basically.

not my secret identity...! fine, you win, Gargoyle.

So he does it and then has to focus on…something, we don't know what, but whatever it is makes him look hideous for a hot second before Gargoyle beams him off to a place called Limbo, where the Gargoyle rules supreme, oh no!

nice Two-Face imitation there, Dick.

Now we flash back to see just how the fuck Robin ended up in this predicament to begin with. So, in this run, there's various ways for people to get in touch with the Teen Titans directly, and one of them is apparently via a thing called Titan Hook-Up, where anyone can demand a five minute spot on TV if they have a message for the Titans. Apparently the Titans themselves pay for it, but since they're all literal teenagers who probably don't have part-time jobs due to, y'know, being junior superheroes, I gotta wonder who's actually footing the bill.

it's probably Bruce, let's be real here.

So the Gargoyle goes on, gets his time, and immediately claims to be an ex-con the Titans not only unjustly accused but deliberately withheld evidence of innocence of just to ensure they'd put him away. Not all of them, though! Only one of them did this dastardly deed, because only one of them actively knew. The Gargoyle threatens revenge on all four if the guilty party doesn't fess up. Of course, none of the Titans have any idea who this guy is or what the hell he's talking about, especially since he doesn't match the description of any of the bad guys they've caught so far, but, uh-oh…trouble in paradise; Wally, Garth, and Donna all immediately jump to Robin as the potentially guilty party!

gee thanks guys

An unspecified while later, the team gets called out to go deal with a potential riot at a theatre over a concert that got canceled. That bit of suspicion has been growing in the minds of Robin's teammates, though Robin himself apparently has no concerns of his own on that score.

thanks for that vote of confidence guys.

Unfortunately for the team, it turns out the theatre is empty and the whole thing was a ruse; they've been lured straight into a trap by the Gargoyle, oh no! Robin, naturally, starts doing what he's always done, taking the lead and trying to get the team to jump into action to deal with their enemy. Unfortunately for him, his teammates' suspicion paired with the Gargoyle reminding them that only one of them supposedly screwed him over means that…well…

nice to know you care, team.

At which point the Gargoyle uses his magic ring - just go with it - and a beam of energy transports everyone but Robin to a place called Limbo, a plane ruled by none other than the Gargoyle. He'd wanted to trap all four of them in Limbo, but it seems that our Boy Wonder hadn't harbored any doubts or suspicions about his team at all! Typical Dick Grayson tbh.

that's our boy tbh

Robin, intent on trying to defeat the Gargoyle on his own and get his friends back, immediately goes after the guy, only to find himself suddenly attacked by each of his former teammates in turn; turns out, anyone in Limbo hates everyone in the real world. Even worse, they're all somehow giant-sized. Kid Flash literally flicks Robin across the theatre, Wonder Girl uses the power of her bracelets to throw him into one of the balconies, Aqualad chucks him right back at the stage where Wally's waiting to turn this into a game of catch. Things are not going well for the Boy Wonder, especially since in amongst all this is the Gargoyle egging them on.

Ultimately Robin manages to break his momentum by grabbing a cable, but a poorly-timed sandbag knocks him out, leaving him helpless. Meanwhile the cable he grabbed turns out to be a high voltage cable which starts a fire, driving the Gargoyle away before he can kill Robin himself and leaving Dick unconscious as the fire spreads through the theatre.

that can't be good.

Fortunately the fire trucks are already responding and Robin, of course makes it out while everyone else assumes the other three are dead in the fire. I mean, their helicopter even explodes [it was parked on the roof] and there's no sign of anyone but Robin coming out of the blaze, so why would they? And Robin can't tell anyone the truth, because who'd actually believe it? So he gets to walk all the way back to their secret base trying to figure out how he's going to keep on crime-fighting as a solo act.

you couldn't find a better nickname for wally? come on.

Except, guess who's waiting for him at the secret hideout! Gargoyle and the others, oh no! The Gargoyle's going to take his now-evil Titans and start doing crime and evil, and probably use this as their base, which of course means they can't have Robin interfering. Rather than stay and fight, Dick dives through an escape hatch - a convenient laundry chute, actually; unsurprisingly his own design - that the others can't use right now because their phantasmic Limbo-created forms are too big.

whoops.jpg

So now Dick has no team, no base, and no idea what to do. His costume's torn, he's narrowly escaped death by inferno, he's just really not having a good time of it right now. So what's a Boy Wonder to do? Call it quits and go home? Oh hell no.

he's just always been like this, okay.

He takes on a sudden crime wave - spiked by the apparent death of three of the Titans - on his own, because of course he does. And it doesn't really go too well for him, because this boy is probably all of fifteen years old and not exactly used to being a solo act right now but he's too damn stubborn to stop and ask for help. Things come to a breaking point when he's got civilians feeling sorry for him.

dick honey no

And that leads us to that hill with the gravestones and the Gargoyle, so now we're all caught back up. The Gargoyle now has all four Titans in Limbo and, therefore, under his control to begin a crime wave the likes of which the world has never seen…

Or does he?

you sneaky son of a bitch, Grayson.

Turns out this is just part of Dick's own plan to find his teammates. He's exactly where he wants to be, and it doesn't take him long to find the others. Takes him even less time to start fighting them, knocking Aqualad for a loop wth a single kick and throwing Kid Flash at him a second later. Wonder Girl, however, takes a little more finesse than Robin apparently has, considering she not only lands one hit on him, she lands several.

dick is now really the time...?

But this, too, is all part of Dick's plan, since what he needed was for her to get angry enough for Limbo to start resonating with her emotions, thereby bringing the Gargoyle back from the real world so Dick can actually fight the real bad guy. Because Dick has managed to come to Limbo without being twisted or changed by doubt or suspicion or evil, even though that's the only way the ring can send people from the real world to Limbo. So how did he manage this?

He faked it.

HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THIS. fuckin' "That's what spies do. We lie." energy right here.

Dick fucking Grayson managed to fake out a magic ring by faking evil thoughts…and he did it by focusing on his anger, I guarantee you, considering he himself states he did it by concentrating on how good the Gargoyle would look behind bars. He did this with spite and anger and somehow managed to look more evil than any other human the Gargoyle has ever seen before in the process.

So now Dick takes the fight to the Gargoyle. Or tries, anyway. He might not have his cape or mask, but he does still have his utility belt. Unfortunately, in Limbo, everything is the reverse of the real world, so a smokescreen automatically disperses, magnetic repulsion actually attracts, and nothing's really working. The Gargoyle finally manages to sever the belt entirely, which not only removes Robin's access to his gadgets but also reveals the truth about what he wears under that red tunic.

that's a fucking leotard. he's wearing a onesie. not even short-shorts, it's a onesie. Dick why XD

However! Robin's not out of the fight yet! He manages to grab his belt and use it as an impromptu arm guard, while also pulling out one last gadget that will save the day!

no, tiny tools, my one weakness!

The pliers are used to break the Gargoyle's magic ring - the one that transported everyone to Limbo to begin with - and doing that means that neither the Gargoyle nor Dick - nor the others - can stay in Limbo any longer. Unfortunately, since the Gargoyle is currently stuck to Dick's arm that means that they're both getting sucked into the space between worlds…until the release of energy throws the Gargoyle clear. Too far out of reach for Robin to even try to grab hold of him again. Not that he wants to.

dick pls

Fortunately, our heroes all reappear on that creepy hilltop in the real world, and even more fortunately none of the three who got caught seem to have any memory of what happened or how they got there. Dick gambled on destroying the thing that brought them into Limbo and it paid off. And he was willing to reveal his identity to his teammates to do it.

okay technically she has back in issue 11 but shh we'll just pretend that never happened it's fine >w>

Are some plot elements a little ridiculous or cheesy? Sure, but no more so than some of the shit we see; cheesy and ridiculous is a comic book staple, after all. It's mostly the dialogue being used, but give it a bit of an update in terms of phrasing and slang and possibly nicknames and honestly this story wouldn't be at all out of place in a modern run. I really kinda love it.

[clintgotintheventsagain]

PJO FINALE SPOILERS

Okay mixed feelings guys.

Start with the good stuff

Walker’s acting: immaculate. Kid got his acting chops out frrr

Sally Jackson was one of the best parts of this show. She’s so much more fleshed out and I love the emphasis of Percy not just as son of Poseidon but Percy Jackson, son of our queen Sally.

The sets were so great omg. Camp and mount were awesomeee. They gave what they needed to give and more

The kids did so good!! Our little trio gave me sm happiness

Grover. Every ep I wanted to stuff him in my pocket. He’s so precioussss my little babyy

The percabeth crumbssss. The potential soulmatism is there man

The fighting was great too omg. I was super iffy about how they were gonna show a little baby go up against the god of war but it worked

Honestly from the beginning I thought they really toned down gabe but it all worked out in the end lmao

The show was very cinematic and visually appealing. The thunder and rain motifs especially

Qualms:

None of the gods felt godly to me. None of them (except for Zeus a bit) had that umph that made them intimating enough for Percy’s push back at them to be impressive. If that makes any sense (I could go into detail for the why for each god)

The Luke and percy fight at the end I felt really could have added more umph again. For me luke did an adequate job, he gave what he needed to give but in setting up for the future I feel like he could have maybe raised his voice a little more idk… along the same line, I think we needed a bit more shock value from leah to Luke’s betrayal. But honestly I think it didn’t hit bc their relationship wasn’t highlighted/emphasized enough. Hopefully maybe we’ll get some flashbacks in future seasons

They made Poseidon wayyy too fucking nice. We gotta be able to hate the guy a little bit, jesus

Still salty they didn’t include the underworld tsa lmao. Also shout out to Poseidon’s swivel fisherman’s chair

Okay. I will actually be kinda upset if Luke’s sword portal thing replaces Mrs o’Leary. Bc I have a sinking feeling that it will and I’m gonna be so sad about it

In conclusion, I’m not gonna be too critical of the show bc there’s just so much potential for it. Just percabeth alone, god I can just see them in 5 years pining and giving all the feels. Neeeedddd it. And walker as Percy especially. When I tell you he carried the show. He’s got so much potential as an actor and he just nails the character godd

I’ll prob be back to add more to the list later once I’ve got more time to digest. Can’t wait for the tiktok edits to start rolling innnn yuh

Everyone manifest season twooooo let’s get it

[inkstainedhandswithrings]

so I keep learning about The Horrors™️ of American healthcare and I keep hearing Americans talk abt this shit like it’s totally fine and let me tell y’all. It’s not. Apparently and ADHD or Autism test costs like 500$ for you guys? And then when you do get diagnosed you gotta think abt shit like “okay but do I actually need meds?” Bc apparently that’s a financial decision? But it,,, it shouldn’t be right? Right okay bc

I live in Europe, specifically Austria, and this is how healthcare works here: if you have a job you have healthcare. Your employer pays for it. They have to. It’s absolutely illegal and unheard of not to. They do take about 20% out of your pay-check every month to pay for that and other legal things that I don’t quite understand (my dad explained it to me once but I’m 20 so I still don’t get it bc I don’t really have to but every cent they take out benefits me I think so it’s fine).

Now irl this is a lot more complicated but basically, you have public healthcare and private healthcare and then just stuff that’s up to the government (like ambulance rides, I think. Even if you don’t have insurance u don’t pay for that. I know this bc an American friend of mine didn’t and had to go to the hospital and called a cab and when they told me I was like “??? BRO WHY NO AMBULANCE” this is also how I found out that Americans have to pay for ambulance rides. wtf.)

Basically your insurance covers all medical expenses from doctors who are in your network (public practice). This is your GP, hospitals, and pretty much all specialised docs (dentist, internists, cardiologists, etc.). However, the public offices are much busier than the private ones (obvi) so if you’re in a rush, want special treatment, or just be a little fancy you can CHOOSE to pay for private doctors. And even then you can hand in those bills to your insurance and you get part of the money back (abt 30% which you receive abt 4 months after handing the bill in).

If you keep your bills for private care doctors you can hand them in to,,, someone somewhere somehow (idk man) and get a bigger tax return. (bc we don’t calculate our taxes ourselves. it just gets taken out of your pay-check by your employer every month and then at the end of the,,, fiscal year??? I guess?? Idk man idk how shit works — you get any money that was like,,, extra (????) back)

Now you might ask yourself: “phi, why would I pay for doc if I can go to free doc?” Which is an excellent question. Again, for most people it’s about waiting times but there is one field where it just really makes more sense: mental health services. Private practitioners have less clients and more high quality care than public ones because they choose their own funding, which, surprise surprise, is better than public funding.

I will now take you through my own personal journey so you can have a practical example of how good healthcare CAN AND SHOULD BE (keep in mind here I have parents who after messing me up and being terrible but learning their lessen once I became an adult and told them how horrible they were are very supportive of me pursing my mental health)

When I was about to turn 20 I went to my GP and had a conversation with her about how I think I might have ADHD. She asked me about my complaints and agreed there definitely are symptoms indicating it. She wrote me a referral to a Psychiatrist. When I got to my Psychiatrist she tested me and because of the referral she could tell the insurance company that this test was necessary and not elective, meaning insurance payed for it in full and I never even saw that bill.

Now I had a diagnosis all but a week later. I spoke to my parents who agreed to support me in finding private care. My Psychiatrist charges 160€ (insurance returns 48€) per appointment which my mum graciously pays for. I see him once every couple of months to check in on my use of medication and how I’m responding and to see if my dosis needs adjustment. If and when I need a refill, I only have to write him an email. Before he could put me on medication I needed a blood draw and cardiac test, to ensure that I qualified for a stimulant, since they can be harmful in some cases. He wrote me referrals and I went to my GP and a public cardiologist for those tests, which were all free of ANY charge.

I was then cleared to take my meds within a few weeks (cardiologist had a bit of a waiting list). I was prescribed Ritalin and some sleeping pills by my psychiatrist. He gives me the prescriptions and a letter to the insurance company asking them to cover the cost, as I have a diagnosis which he confirmed again in his initial assessment of me. Now that I’ve gotten approved, all I pay for is the prescription, not the actual medication. Which is about 6-7€ for the Ritalin and 4-5€ for the sleeping pills (monthly supply each).

My Therapist is also a private doctor. She charges 120€ per session and I go twice a month, which is 240€ per month. My dad contributes 100€ and my mum contributes 30€, which means I’m down to 110€ per month. Insurance pays 30€ per session (so 60€ per month) so I pay a grand total of 50€ or 25€ per session.

So my medical treatment each month costs me just about 62€ AT MOST (since I don’t always need my sleeping pills refilled).

Now, just for fun, let’s assume my parents don’t support me and I see both my therapist and my psychiatrist in the same month and need both my meds refilled. This would come to just about 304€ (because of insurance deductions).

But you have to consider that I DON’T see my psychiatrist every month, so the more realistic monthly cost would be 187€. And should I decide I can’t pay for that I can still get on a waiting list for public mental health practitioners, in which case the only thing I’d ever need to pay for are the prescription costs for my medication which would still be up to 7€ for the Ritalin and up to 5€ for the sleeping pills putting the grand total at 12€ PER MONTH.

My family and I simply chose the quicker, more efficient option, but no one twisted our arm into paying this amount of money FOR BASIC CARE.

And yes, it’s a lot of bureaucracy (it took me WAY too long to spell that) and paperwork, but I’d much rather that than have to decide between mental well-being or being broke.

So, my conclusion: Cancel America, move to Europe, OR just tell the American People In Charge Men that it is that easy and they really should try a little harder and you citizens shouldn’t settle for the shit you have to put up with right now because wtf

if you wanna cry a little it’s okay lemme know I’ll come sit with you and offer a hug but you can say no if that’s not your thing

anyways love ya

phi

[baahsu]

omg hi baah itsa me J.J :] anyways WHY is writing like an actual fanfic so HARD?? whenever i do hcs/ficlets shit comes so easy but the second i gotta formulate my word vomit into actual musings?? brain go THUNK. also the fact that i elected to write this from ichijs pov (the. the hardest sib for me to write for.) is NOT helping 😭😭 first 1k is just him being melodramatic and very sad as fuck

anyways i didnt just come into your box to yell-- heres some food. and also my hesitant attempt to see what reiju would be like as anything but a dom bc ive been curious abt it:

so whenever reiju loosens her dominatrix reigns a bit niji brings out a bit of tha whore in her and she loves it :) (but also a situation like this happens SPECIFICALLY and ONLY post wci/germa cover story bc i feel like reiju would soften up on niji and yonji a bit after they showed genuine concern for her when she was in danger during wci and also bc they were literally kidnapped and presumably tortured by the Charlottes in 'emotionless excursion') this is a hill i choose to die on

like theyd just be chillin in bed together doing nothin in particular, vibing in each others presence, and suddenly niji begins running his hand up and down reijus thigh and at first shes like "aw affection attempt how cute :]" but then his hand starts moving more and more inwards and she goes *"ah."*

they dont even have to say anything bc its just an all around safe, chill environment all while nijis hand keeps moving up until it's slipped under reijus dress and underwear (if she was even wearing any underwear in the first place 👁👁)

during all this they fr just stay where they are and continue what theyve been doing this whole time, the only difference being niji now fingering reiju and she just relaxing back into a pillow and sighing happily about it

ofc after she came (niji definitely didnt send out little electric sparks on her clit periodically to make sure she squirted and was overstimulated nooo i dont know what your talking about 🙂🙂) she turned to him and said smthn like

"youre getting tied up for that later."

and niji (with his fingers in his mouth bc. yk 👁) gives a muffled sarcastic reply of "fine, whatever. why dont you invite ichiji and yonji to watch while you're at it."

and reiju just chuckles bc like. thats not really a bad idea :]]

WOWOWO sorry for all the reiju spam recently bc i know you prioritize 1234ji together over her but shes been rotting my brain sm lately its crazy. i love my wif e :,]

J.J HELLO

Don't get me started at how words just stop wording when you try to write fics because that's definitely I thing and it's frustrating. A fic from ichiji's pov tho?? With possibly going through it and feeling feelings??? Yes pls??????

Now, while you're write about me kinda preferring 1234ji together I have to say this dynamic between niji and reiju is so tasty 🤌 I love reiju having a soft spot for him (and yonji too (and also ichiji bc why not lol)) and just letting him touch her as he pleases. It's also endearing how he started slow and soft, like, he was really trying to be a good boy and not rush things

THE BEST PART THO, NIJI USING HIS POWERS??? TO MAKE HER CUM LIKE SHE DESERVES?? WE LOVE A MAN THAT KNOWS HOW TO DO THEIR JOB. Damn I never thought of that but that's a perfect use of his abilities, I can imagine reiju trained him to do just the right amount so he wouldn't overstimulate her, but he felt daring this time and took it up a notch. And you can't convince me he wasn't considering he'd be punished for it later, he knows reiju and knows that her letting loose and relequishing control like this would come with a price later)

And of course he told her to invite ichiji and yonji on purpose too, there's no way he didn't!! He's a whore after all 😌

[analviel]

DC comic writerd always wanna rush characters into growing up EXCEPT FOR TIM OH MY GOD

I agree with everything except for killing Tim lol bcs no, there's a limit to how many of Jason's milestones he's also gonna meet

Yes exactly exactly for Babs and and Dick!

Steph is overdue for a space mission. Also personally, I want nunchuks for her (is that how you spell nunchucks)

Gosh I want that for Duke so much! Also imagine Damian always cameoing as his younger brother who may or may not actually be enrolled in the same school. But mostly the focus gotta be with him and his crew.

Duke (and sometimes Damian) drop by Babs' dayjob as a librarian to pester her on his current case and just generally pester her.

Like just, I'm imagining an animated scene of Duke and Damian talking about a case with Babs (because no one outside the Batfam is supposed to know her real identity so none of Duke's crew does) and then a sudden voice 'Delievery!' and Damian perks up and we're introducing a grinning Dick with pizza.

I don't actually mind Dick being a cop but at this point I just want it as a job he HAD, so yeah, let's go with USPS. He could be anywhere in the country lol.

Then Duke is doing his episodic cases and one in particular leads him into a fight in a mask and we encounter a gang war and then a flash of black and he's got a back up so they tie it up quickly. BlackBat motions for him to follow her. Cut scene to a bat hideout and Cass takes off her mask.

You know those animated scene where the scene freezes on a close up and we get an intro of, ex. Cassandra Wayne, Black Bat, Duke's older sister. Hates shirts that aren't croptops. Yeah I want that to happen, with the Duke crew, Babs, Damian, Dick, etc.

Cass shares with him the case she's investigating that brought her through almost three cities now and back to Gotham, tied to that last gang war, and they end up closing it up together.

We meet Tim several episodes later where Duke comes home to the manor to find him and Damian already playing a video game. Tim helps them for this newest case, but only in the investigating part, leaving the final bust to them because his main case at the moment was a W.E/corporate thing vs Delon Cusk. Tim's introduction does not include coffee whatsoever. And at the end of this episode/case, Tim fishes them out of the water into his murderboat.

Selina Kyle also appears for a bit, dropping a basket of kittens for Damian, Duke asks her about something related to his new case of an priceless antique.

So Duke is the focus of all of this, and we get him in his class with girl troubles, a few scenes where PE poses a problem for him for a completely different reason than his classmates, all while he's having superpower problems, except unlike Spiderman he's got people he can call in a pinch to cover for him. And also now and then we get a peek of news clip or a social media comment about the Waynes implying how reserved they are save for a couple of family members and some rumors and suppositions about them. And then the next news is about the Red Hood shooting someone, or JLA, or another Wayne project. It is heavily implied that much of the other Bats except for Signal, Robin, and Red Hood, are more likely to be with their teams or helping out with Batman Incorporated in an International capacity. Just to keep them away.

Almost every other episode opens up with him fighting a Githam Rouge in broad daylight.

Neither Bruce or Batman appears even once, except maybe his name in an email.

I didn't expect to write so much.

[beaversatemygrandma]

yapping

for it having been a week where it's a lull in my tourist filled town (end of school year, finals locally, everybody is focused on kids and school right now. It's May.) it's been weirdly eventful.

So, first off. We've been hiring for a part time position at work. Interviews galore. Resumes everywhere. My boss is old fashioned and actually accepts written applications. He got one the other day. I was alone in office and he bursts in with "I no longer have bad handwriting, look at this." And shows me a whole ass application. It looks like an 8 year old wrote it. I should know. I get 8yos to sign in for wristbands for our ropes course. To which I'm just "You write like russian doctor. That's a small child." And he's just "He's over 18, and claiming to be the lead singer of a famous rock band." I'm just baffled. "How famous?" He proceeds to do some impromptu background checking, ie the same method i use when meeting new people I'm not 100% about, looking them up on facebook. A few minutes later: "He's claiming to be the lead singer for molly hatchet." and then a few more minutes later "He IS the lead singer for molly hatchet." And then goes on a whole rant about how he met the original lead singer and guitarist bc they are local to town. Answer: famous enough that we both know the band. This kid is like 20-30. Hot as fuck. Been the lead singer of a dead band for 2 years. Applied to my fucking job. I met him in walmart a couple months ago bc i was checking out his excessively painted molly hatchet van which i thought was cool. And him. Unapologetic in front of my bf. "I can't hire this. What if there's a tour and he can't work for a few months." And then proceeds to say that the new music sounds like shit in comparison to the old and basically has a youtube concert in the office for everybody who hasn't heard of the band. (I love this job.) I'm just disappointed bc imagine the hilarity of the chaos that could ensue here. I want the ego boosted rock singer. He was a street performer downtown before this. I have no clue how this kid landed molly hatchet when half the band is already dead bc they were popular in the 70s and 80s. He'd be annoying, but let's be honest here, what's the most damage he could do with two days of work a week? Not much. If he's actually good? Well, I'd have a weird work flirt bc Damn. He's fine. Plus, angry older customer? "Hey, you know that band from your twenties?? Guess what, this is one of them." *entertain them for a moment while we take advantage and grab a manager* I just think it'd be fun. My coworkers agree. If we hate him, we fire him for not being a personality fit. (Been there, done that. We're a small group. Gotta be a fit. It disrupts the ecosystem.)

And that's not even the first story I have and just from monday.

So, the side piece triggered a crazy amount of anxiety in me. He kinda faded out through the weekend (New job, night school, mother's day.) And I got a text that was just "He's married." and I was blocked. First thought: "Since fuckin when?" Second: "Right, married but separated." Third: "Who the FUCK does she think she is?" I ended up literally pursuing on facebook, sending him a message with what was basically "If you are heading back into the endless toxic cycle with her, you need to pay me what you owe me and I'll fuck off." Paired with an itemized list. I was pissed. (And admittedly, looking back, he somehow pulled out a kind of crazier side of me with this. Sometimes I don't realize the sheer effect this man has on me.) There's like 3 days no contact. That's not normal. He doesn't accept the message requests on there. Nothing. I'm terrified of just doing my drop by according to the schedule I know because of HER. Like they couldn't be back together. Everytime she shows up, he always ends up pissed off and unnecessarily stressed because of her level of toxic possession. I finally try to send a text his way, just to see if it would go through. It did. I basically get a whole apologetic thing and him asking if I could come by and talk in person. I didn't like that, but at least I know he's not cutting contact. So, tension in my chest for that three days was released.

Today, I finally get something bc it was just our quick according to normal schedule drop by. even if it was only like 10 minutes. He was literally treating as normal, just telling me how things were going and stuff like that as he's getting ready to head out towards the college. I end up just stopping him and directly tell him to give me a quick rundown of all of that because i was Not going to wait. And he literally stops what he's doing, full attention on me. Apparently, he went out of his way to make it possible for his ex-wife to spend mother's day with her kid. Literally was just doing something nice for his daughter. She got the "have to deal with the baby mama" treatment. She asked to borrow his phone for something and ended up going through his phone and did this to EVERY SINGLE Feminine sounding name in his phone except his mother. He's been having to pick up the pieces all week. One of them was his new boss. Literally the woman that employed him. I end up telling him what I was prepared to do, and that was go full angry crying loan shark on his ass. And i got the tightest fucking hug with such a strong apology and how she's just embarrassed him and everything. I haven't gotten that in a while. His hands didn't really leave me until he was on the way out of the house. I forget that he actually finds when I get that sort of crazy jealousy about his wife endearing. Honestly kind of tells how he has that as a wife.

Either way, with that one. I'm surprised just how much i relaxed the second I saw him earlier. Before he even explained anything. Just that soft look that he was happy to see me for the first time in the week. That entirely nonsexual touch that said that he wasn't about to leave me in the slightest. A side tangent of sorts though. Since he's been back, it's been feeling as if he's starting over with me. It feels like he's trying to win me over again. It's been simple gestures, slower actions, little encouragements. It's a lot different than before, but it's nice. Though definitely trying to connect on a far more emotional level than before. Considering before it was first purely sexual, then HE caught feelings, then eventually I've got some hitting. Now it's just mutual and we're just slowing it down a whole lot before we rush into something stupid. Which is honestly a whole lot healthier than i expected initially coming from him. Like it has gone through incredibly sexually fueled nights of hanging out, to a couple hours of endless talking and ending the night with a kiss and figuring out when we can even see each other again. It's nice.

Anyways, other things. Mostly just work things. I'm doing 6 days this week bc the hours are shit bc we're not all too busy. (4-7 hours a day instead of the full 8-9 as normal. So let's go... get a 4 hour day to polish up my hours.) There's been a lot of zoo activity. Some customer almost killed a crocodile with a shoe (it ate it...) and now we're trying to find ways to prevent this (the kid didn't listen...) and we're having some close encounters helping move this animal so she can get her necessary surgery (least we can do.) We're also dead enough that we spent a half hour in the back yard (nobody even manning phone or office) hanging out with the snake outside of her enclosure. I don't think i realized just how big our office snake is. 7 foot long dominican mountain boa. She's gorgeous and i took out my phone to take a pic of her on the zipline cable and she just scooted up the line and came up to sniff my hand and phone. I have the Best pic of this creature yet.

Honestly, now realizing that it really hasn't been all too much in the whole everything this week. But it's been interesting and i think I just wanted to talk about that guy a bit.

So I leave you with a snake photo.

That's Cleo. She says hi.

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

OOUAAAGHHHHH

TWO???

Oh right Hen okay

We already knew about that

UAAAGHHH- UAAAAGHHHHHHHH NOOOO

ORGAN FAILURE 😭😭

I WAS LIKE SECOND PHASE?? AND THEN IMMEDIATELY IT WAS BAD 😭😭

CRAPPPP

NOOOOO

YES EXACTLY BODIES 😭😭😭 SO LET'S NOT SO THAT!!!

CRAPPPPP

(also rewatching this, didn't notice it the first time, THE NARRATOR?? HELLO??? NO I DON'T KNOW THE ENDING BUT I BETTER NOT BE DEAD WRONG BC MY GUESS WOULD BE HE LIVES)

OHHH GOSH OH GOSH

HEN 😭😭😭😭😭🥺🥺🙏

NOOOO

SOMEONE GOING IN?? (REALIZED THAT LIKE SECOND TIME LOL)

- I ONLY REGISTERED AFTER SEEING IT FOR LIKE THE FOURTH TIME THAT!!! ATHENA'S GOING IN WITH THE ANTIVIRAL!!

OH MY G O S H BUCK THERE

NOOOOO WHAT REASON COULD THAT HAVE OTHER THAN HIM DYING

NO BUT HE'S GOTTA BE FINE THOUGH

OHHH GOSH

CHIMNEYYYY

THAT DOES N O T LOOK GOOD

NOOOOO MADDIEEE 😭😭😭😭😳

YESSS COME ON BOBBY PLEEEAASEEE 😭😭😭😭🙏🙏😬🥺😳

OH GOSH 😭

Guys I'm gonna lose it xdd

I'm assuming he's just gonna like die for a minute or something but o.o 😭 xd

Or like it'll break or smth idk?

Gosh 😭

That looks amazing xdd my gosh lol :O

Wow xD :'D

But also 😭😭😭😭🥺🥺🥺😳😬🙏💔😭

Well, that's the last of my last thoughts, now it's time for the. . .

REVIEW

I LOOVED this episode!! Holy crap that was AMAZING!! Wow. Gosh, that was so good. And the next one looks so incredibly stellar as well o.o!!

OKAY it is Monday after the next episode, so I'm gonna do some reeeally quick stuff and hopefully come back to it, and watch the next episode later today hopefully (I am terrified).

Everyone was amazing this episode, and the acting from everybody was just OOUGH!! Delicious <3. They were also all great at their jobs (in universe), of course, but that doesn't help them much now xdd. But like, the proxy surgery? Iconic. I'm so scared for them though xdd.

Hen! My girl is going through it 😭 Y'all who wanted the Hen whump last time didn't know how little you'd have to wait xdd. Anyway, I'm glad they managed to do the procedure and she's okay for now <3. I love her :).

Buck! My poor boy 😭😭🥺. He is going through it xd. It's interesting because while Buck has seen his loved ones hurt a lot, he's also been on that side a lot before, being hurt. And it's been a while since we've seen him completely helpless to whatever's happening to them, and my gosh, Oliver ate it up 😭🥺. But it is cool to see how Buck has changed and grown, having a bit more self control and whatnot <3. I love him :').

Eddie! Of course didn't see him but I'm sure he's doing great <3. Hope he can get in the loop soon 😭😬. I love him <3.

Maddie! She ate up getting them inside <33. And into the locked room! She seriously did great :'D. And my gosh, her emotions with Chimney (totally valid of course, they're literally married) 😭😭😭🥺💔❤️. Amazing acting <333. I love her :')). I just hope everything works out 😭🥺.

Athena! Girl was not backing down and we love that <33. I don't know if I would've openly admitted that I was the wife of somebody in there but go off Athena xD. And the "did you think I was asking permission?" bit? ICONIC 👏 XD. Yeah it was domestic terrorism but also idc. Also like we're probably gonna have to deal with that idk if they'll just let y'all off after all this but whatever xD. I love her :).

Bobby! Bro was cooking for real. Like he managed to do surgery on Hen for the first time ever, being instructed by Chimney, with all his gear on while possibly being exposed to a horribly deadly virus. Like hello?? I c o n i c <3. Him and Athena both killing it lol <3. I mean everyone was but yk xD. Anyway, he did great, and was being a great captain as always :'). And him trying to say he would do it 😭🥺 but nah Ravi ain't taking that :'). We'll get to that in a second, too, by the way lol. Anyway, Bobby was amazing as always <3. I love him :'DD 🥰.

Ravi!! YESSS RAVI GO OFFFF 🥳🥳🥳👏🥹❤️!!! Poor Ravi in the first part of the episode :(( it really wasn't his fault <33. And the fact that it made him hesitate later D':. I don't think they would've made it out even if he hadn't hesitated, but it's certainly something to think about :'((. Something to weigh on him, maybe, if anything happens (or even just with what's already happened). Anyway, HE DID GREAT AT THE END :'DDD!!! And he knew it, instead of doing his best and blaming himself anyway earlier :')). YES GO OFF RAVI WILLING TO COMMIT DOMESTIC TERRORISM FOR YOUR FAMILY 👏👏👏👏🥳🥳🥳🥹🥹🥰!!!! He's not saying he's not really with them anymore :')). And like he literally did, he opened that thing and just THANK GOODNESS for him the antivirus wasn't in there o.o. Awful news in the end but 😭 xd. Anyway, be did great this episode <33. I love him :') <3.

Chimney! UAAAGHHHHH!!!! 😭😭😭! STAY OUT OF VENTS CHIMNEY!!!! How many times must this happen my gosh 😭 xd. I referenced it as it was happening and here we are 😐. But seriously Chim did amazing directing Bobby to do literal surgery on Hen while he was in a different room <33. Although everyone seeing that (well not everyone but yk) and knowing he was infected killed me 😭. And he was GOING THROUGH IT O.O and he BETTER BE OKAY!!! My gosh I'm terrified 😭. And that is an absolutely terrifying disease o.o. They BETTER be able to find that lady I swear 😤😤😤😡. Must you always do this to us Monica xD (I would say her actresses name maybe but I don't know it off the top of my head lol). Anyway, Chimney better be okay 😭😭. "I'm not gonna be home for dinner" was absolutely BRUTAL by the way 😭😭💔🥺. I did not, in fact, deserve that xdd. Or anything of him and Maddie interacting :((( but I'm glad they at least got to <3. I'm just so scared guys xdd. They wouldn't dare, they better not <3. Anyway, he did great :')). I love him so much <33 ❤️🥰.

Overall, I really enjoyed this episode!! It was SO amazing, and seriously intense and cool. This season, especially this half, has just been hitting, and this episode was just another example of that. Well, more than that really, because it was wild o.o. The call at the beginning was great, and everything pre all of this, but also all of the contagion bit! Plus the storyline of the scientists themselves is super interesting :o. Like enough to keep me invested throughout the episode, which I always am, but is great nonetheless. A bunch of cool scenes, some real quality whump, and just an awesome episode really. I'm glad everyone's kind of okay for now, but I am nervous about next time o.o. They better all end up okay, or I am going to lose it xd. It looks so epic and good though o.o. Chimney just better be okay xd. Still, this episode was great, and I loved the tension. They really are up with this one.

So, yeah! I loved this episode, it was so amazing. So intense, great emotional moments, and an epic storyline to follow. I'm nervous but excited for the next one! This has been my review of. . .

9-1-1, Season 8, Episode 14: Sick Day

It was great! I'm so excited for the next episode, but I am also terrified. They better all be okay! I'll be back here next week with my review of. . .

9-1-1, Season 8, Episode 15: Lab Rats

See you then!!