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I feel so stupid and lost, I ruin everything.
#I donât know what to do at all#I have no idea#I wish I could just learn to let things go#I wish I didnât have a heart that keeps breaking#I have been aching all day#Iâve felt sick all day#itâs been a struggle to breathe all day#today was absolutely miserable#and I doubt tomorrow will be any better#I donât think Iâm gonna get over this#someone come stab me in the throat#thatâll fix me#lol#âŚ#personal#my post
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#diana's music diary#đ#Very very tired today... I managed to sleep maybe 4 hours last night and then I had a 2 hour nap today...#You'd think only getting one hour yesterday would mean I could get a little more than that but.....#My brain really hasn't been working the last couple of days...#I hope that gets better but I'm getting the feeling something is seriously wrong with me... Trying not to panic about it though..#Still waiting to get my blood tested but they're making me do it next month even though I feel like I'm dying now nn;#Hopefully tomorrow I can at least get something to help me sleep more...#Not got any plans for today other than to try and rest... And to try not to freak out too much about all the health issues...#Anyway..... This song has been my latest obsession hehe.. Had it on repeat since it came out#I rewatched Madoka Magica with some friends the other day too... It was their first time seeing it which was fun hehe..#Might have a nap soon if I can... I doubt it but we'll see nn;#Let's try and survive today...
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i didn't realize i was capable of such levels of sleepiness. yet here we are
#first time in months (years??) i went through a day with no caffeine at all#(unless arizona iced tea contains any lmao but i doubt it's got enough to affect anything)#i woke up. i took my meds and ate cereal. i fell asleep for 4 more hours.#I've been up since but now i struggle to keep myself awake again#@my body we've been up for like 9 hours can you chill đ shitty ass body#the good news is at least my tummy ache is better today 𫡠tho it might be a coincidence too idk.#guess I'll try it again tomorrow. maybe.#but man. it's 8ish am and i wanna go to sleep so bad.
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#i do not want to work tomorrow i want to lay in bed and be sad#iâm really realizing how miserable of a person i am i am always fucking Sad and when i do feel happy i cry when itâs over#and i canât even resemble a human being without medication and i know thatâs fine but iâm still always sad. it doesnât go away#i feel like nobody deserves to have me weighing them down like iâve cried in front of people three times this week and i know itâs fine#but i feel so fucking guilty about it and i feel guilty about everything i feel like iâm doing nothing right and iâm not dealing with thing#right and iâm not living right and i feel like it must be so fucking difficult to love me and i donât know how people do it#i donât even feel capable of asking for. any sort of love ever#i feel like i donât deserve like anything. i feel like nobody actually wants to do things for me lol#every single dsy iâm like wow i want to be held and every single dsy i feel bad even asking for a hug from someone#when i need reassurance iâm afraid to ask because what if iâm just being annoying and overbearing and too much Bad#i never feel like too much good. only bad.#i know a lot of these shitty thoughts are just because iâve been unmedicated (meds will be ready tomorrow lol) but it just like#it sucks to know medication just kinda hides these thoughts better and that deep down i feel like this because i donât want to#i feel like everyone in my life doesnât deserve someone who doubts everything all the time#i think my mother deserved a stronger daughter and i think my friends deserve someone thatâs not always breaking and i just donât feel Good#i donât know why anyone keeps me around#sometimes i feel selfish for sticking around and that sounds so awful and iâm not gonna act on it but i just feel like a waste of a person#the last week has been so good and now iâm just a fucking mess and i feel so fucking guilty about that :)#i feel like no matter what i always just default to miserable#i donât feel like iâm doing enough at all#iâm struggling in school i donât work enough i can barely take care of myself#like i wouldnât even properly take care of myself if taylor wasnât helping me i feel so guilty about that all the time#i feel so guilty for even thinking any of this right now and iâm trying to remind myself that iâm unmedicated and iâve had a long day#and my best fucking friend just went back home and iâm allowed to be sad about that but i just. feel like iâm making excuses i guess#itâs not immoral to be sad but maybe when iâm wanting to die all the time iâm the problem. idk#anyway iâm gonna go to sleep and iâm gonna try to convince myself tomorrow will be better#sndnsksjkakejdkalwosjhdkwosjdjsk. i will be fine
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the day was horrid but at least im being productive now
#kiki speaks#doctor appointment was so fucking bad#like not to doubt medical professionals but damn the inattention part of adhd does go unnoticed huh#'you have anxiety and depression uuhhhhh take ur meds about it and idk talk to someone' my brother in christ ive been on this for 4 years?#dont see myself getting any better#i dont even think im depressed im just in a vague state of ??????#occasionally interrupted by napping three times a day#or cleaning every kitchen appliance i own at midnight#idk i just. feel fairly helpless in my own life like.#when i do seek help it comes out unhelpful#ough gonna wash this kettle then go to bed and uuhhh hope im better tomorrow i just feel so Bad#eueueueueuugghhh
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Ok. Ok tomorrow. Tomorrow is the day planned to go thru my collection
#emphasis on planned#if it all works out#we didn't do anything last week cause I caught a cold#now my datemate has it but he's almost better already#so we hope to do the thing tomorrow#maybe we'll go to my storage unit too#cause I don't have room for the boxes we're gonna put the plushies in#we might take a trip to goodwill too to donate some of the plush#although I doubt that part. because my datemate works there n he won't want to go to his store on his day off#especially because its gonna create more work for him the next day lol. he's a wares pricer#and there's a chance he'd be the one pricing them#some of them for a the second time#because a lot of my plush (and the ones that will be donated) were thrifted from that goodwill#he's reluctant to have me donate any plush but ik a bunch of them won't sell online so my only options beside that#are to donate or to throw them away#and I don't want to toss perfectly good stuffed animals. that'd be cruel#I guess we'll just wait n see what the gameplan will be tomorrow#wish us luck#viti shoosh
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Ah they're suspecting i have COVID đŤ
#i was wondering if it was gonna be either that or dengue#fml#if it isn't anything severe it should be getting better by tomorrow#but i doubt it since none of the symptoms have shown any signs of improvement but
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jesus christ I feel like shit
#thank god for testosterone making me unable to cry like a normal person because I sure would be otherwise#im as close as I can get to it pretty much#cant wait for my mom to get back today or tomorrow and ask me when I start the new job and Iâll just have to say oh yeah :) they never#called back actually :) haha#I know they made it sound close to certain but lol guess not!#kibumblabs#i fucking hate this I hate getting invested in anything and putting in time and effort into shit just to get fucking spat on#just emailed the general hotel email but I doubt thatâll do anything. anything good anyway#cause the restaraunt/club is managed seperately Iâll probably just get the runaround or a âIâll let her know you contacted usâ which#literally never actually means anything#either that or Iâll just be rejected indirectly which wonât exactly make me feel. better#I also applied for the 8000th time to another place for a similar job but Iâve never had luck with this place so thatâll probably also#result in nothing#woohoo itâs fucking September and weâre still stuck at fucking square one! hahaahaahahahaah SO cool#for real it should actually be a fucking legal requirement to give your applicants/interviewees some form of follow-up. itâs just so#fucking degrading to try and follow-up and just being ghosted. like whatâs the point of that#it feels simultaneously like rejection and being strung along at the same time. i talked to you in person the least you could do is give#me any kind of update. for the love of god
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stupid fucking animation software compressing my files to shit for no reason
#it wasnt fucking doing this before what changed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#this is why i havent updated citrus in a few days i was so excited to actually make it and update it super often this summer#what the fuck ever man#im pissed#im okay#i mean im angry but ill be fine#ill just try and fix it tomorrow and if i cant then whatever#my doubts are starting to kick in so im just going to try and stop thinking about it for a bit#god im actually super angry its kind of freaking me out why am i so pissed#i feel like i cant think about anything else#maybe i need an apple snack that might make me feel a little better#sigh i just want to show you guys citrus so bad#hopefully ill be able to get my shit to work again soon#sigh ok#im gonna make some apple and peanut butter now#and think about ace attourney#if anybody here likes ace attourney id love to talk about it :3#i havent actually played the games but ive watched a bunch of videos about the first game#so id love to maybe hear any of your guys' opinions on the games and what you like about them!
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first day of work and :( my feet hurt :(
#can't draw any conclusions on that yet tho#for one bc i have determined that the shoes i wore today do Not have enough traction in this environment#so i gotta pull out the shoes i got while working at prev grocery#which... i feel like are actually harder on my feet even tho i have good insoles in them#but it's. really hard shopping online for a better fit so.#i'm gonna wear those this week and then decide if i should ask dad to loan me money for a (hopefully) better pair#anyway! first day of work was. well. okay.#i am starting off training in dish pit and i don't. like. hate it. but.#if dish pit ends up being my favorite assignment then i am gonna have to fuckin quit#unless dish pit grows on me but i am. not optimistic on that point.#whatever. i'm holding out at least through training.#...getting home was less fine.#first off was waiting Half An Hour for bus at stop without a bench :/#there's another stop nearby and i might head to that one tomorrow instead to see if it does have a bench but. i doubt it.#...and then a dude followed me off the bus and halfway home.#and he was def following me bc halfway is the point where i stopped and turned around and asked him and he said yeah#and then he backed off and turned around so like. at least there's that.#but like. pls fuck i need this to not be a regular fixture of my commute#and it happening on my First Day makes it 100% occurence rate atm and that is making me real anxious#yeah sorry to spring that on you in tag ramble idk what cw would be appropriate#and also idk how to zoom it to top of taga anymore so#storm's posts#personal#you can ignore this
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worst!logan howlett x f!reader
SUMMARY: After saving Earth-10005 from impending disaster, Wade convinces Logan, the alcoholic and easily irritated mutant, to stick around for a while. Heâs convinced that nothing good can come out of this experience, until he meets you: the charming bartender with a soft spot for swearing that matches his own. Suddenly, sticking around doesnât seem so bad after all.
WARNINGS/TAGS: mdni - smut 18+ fluff. drinking. dirty talk. slow-burnish. grumpy!logan x sunshine!reader. reader is really kind but cracks a lot of jokes. age gap (25 vs 200 - theyâre basically the same age). oral sex (f receiving). fingering. finger sucking. soft dom!logan. wade being the funniest asshole. logan calls reader "kiddo/kidâ.
A/N: HI! first of all, i'd like to thank you for all the support you showed me on my recent post. let me just tell you that iâm LOVING writing for logan. but none of this would be possible without YOU, so yeah, i fucking love yâall.
** regarding this story, i was planning on making it even longer, but writing these two has been so much fun, and i didnât want it to end just like that (i have attachment issues as you may infer from this note). therefore, iâve made the decision to write a second part to this fic, which will contain fluff and other stuff (you already know the drill). i donât know when iâll be posting it, but iâm sure it wonât take me that long.
*** iâm also working on other one shots (purely fluff/domesticity because i want this man to cradle me in his arms). anyway, i donât know if anyoneâs going to read this, but still, all I have to say is THANK YOU FOR READING MY WORKS! i hope you really like this silly story i made up :)
**** english is not my first language so if you come across any mistakes donât hesitate to tell me :)
special recognition to @zloshy who allowed me to rant about my own fic đ the sweetest human ever
The bar is far from packed, but then again, it never truly is.
Studying your regulars has become your favorite hobby. Soon you end up knowing their names, the drinks they like, and what time they come through the door. Itâs what happens when standing on your own two feet and refilling glasses lose all their charm. A part of you thinks you also do it to make them feel safe. No matter how much you try to deny it, you truly care about their well-being.
Is this your dream job? Nope. Definitely not. Youâre pretty sure that holding some strangerâs hair while they empty their insides wasnât on your bingo card for this year. But sadly money doesnât grow on trees, and university isnât going to pay itself. Plus, this was the only job in which your resume was not immediately rejected. It should also be stressed that the drunks happen to love you.Â
Perhaps this isnât the life you had always imagined for yourself, but you were getting closer to it. Youâd often talk to Adam, a retired psychologist in his seventies. He was without a doubt one of the most loyal clients youâd ever encountered. In the past, heâd even given you free advice on some of your failed hookups. You once told him that in less than two years, youâd be just like him when you got your degree in Psychology. To your surprise, he replied: âYouâll be much better than me, doll. Iâm a mess, canât you see it? You donât wanna be like me,â his voice was hardly above a whisper as he continued. âI should be at my daughterâs birthday right now, but I didnât get an invitation this year. Believe me, you donât want to end up like this old man.âÂ
Like Adam, most of the men who frequented the bar day-to-day saw it as an opportunity to hide within the shadows. In comparison to the other pubs in the area, the one you work at doesnât receive that much attention from the general public. A dimly lit place where only music from the 80s is allowed. Youâre certain that if a health inspector ever came down here, youâd be in serious problems. But hey, you know what they say: do not worry about tomorrow; instead, live in the now.
The atmosphere of the bar shifts dramatically as the main door slams shut with a resounding thud, pulling you abruptly out of your daydreaming. You turn to see whoâs arrived, but as soon as your eyes meet his, youâre compelled to look away. Nevertheless, the brief glance you catch of the strangerâs features is enough for you to unlock your phone and send a quick text to your best friend.Â
You:
cutie patootie alert
thereâs this really handsome guy at the bar
i donât think iâve ever seen him before
i think iâm in love with him
my night just got a 100% better
Allison:
age
what does he look like
is he bald?
You:
he looks like he could be in his early fifties??? itâs hard to tell UGH i wish you were here
brown hair, beard, 6â2 if iâm not wrongÂ
i didnât stare at him for too long
otherwise that wouldâve been very weird
and no heâs not fucking bald
that happened only once and i was not aware of that gentlemanâs lack of hairÂ
Allison:
so youâre dating retired now
get it grandma!
You:
oh fuck you allisonÂ
Allison:Â
itâs okay girl we all have our flaws
just make sure itâs nobodyâs father
wait itâs not mine right?
You:
nah your dadâs way hotter donât you worry about it
Allison:
bitchÂ
Even with the music blasting through the speakers that are attached to the ceiling, you can still hear the low murmur and the whispers. The mysterious stranger seems to have attracted the attention of the other patrons, some of whom have even raised their phones to take photos. Your eyebrows draw together. Why would they do something like this, approaching the man as if he were a celebrity? Since curiosity never fails to kill the cat, you decide to get involved.
âDo I have somethinâ on my face?â you hear him ask the crowd, his raspy voice making your knees wobbly. He sounds enraged. You step on your tiptoes, trying to see what all the fuss is about, albeit itâs pretty hard considering how these men are caging him with their bodies.
The glow of a phoneâs flashlight catches your attention, and suddenly, a chair is dragged without much elegance. âEnough of that, yâhear me?â
Enter you now. âOkay, gentlemen, Iâm sorry. Iâm gonna need you to make some space for me, alright?â you mumble as you gently push them aside. âThank you, thank you. Yâall can be real sweethearts when you put your minds to it.â
Then you spot him, and it becomes clear why everyone is making such a fuss.Â
Gary, your worst client ever, steps forward. His nasty breath clouds your senses as he rests one of his sweaty hands on your shoulder. âDoll, itâs the fucking Wolverine. Donât ask him for a picture, though. He doesnât seem to be in the mood for that.â
The last thing you needed to see today was a fight (despite your knowledge of who would be the winner). You locate yourself amidst them, shaking your head like a disappointed mother, so as to add a tiny bit of drama to the situation.
âGuys, what youâre doing here is completely inappropriate. I thought Iâd taught you better. Imagine if I were to pull this crap on you. You wouldnât have it.â
Adam presses his lips together, flushing a bit. âShe does have a point.âÂ
âThank you, peanut. Youâre still my favorite,â you flash him an honest smile. Scrutinizing the rest of the men, you continue with your speech. âYou can still make up for it and fill my tip jar all the way to the top. Deal?â they all scoff, barking their disagreement. âOh, you donât like the sound of that? Then leave him alone, okay? Class dismissed! Back to your places,â you clap your hands repeatedly, signaling them to go away. âChop chop. All this alcohol wonât be drinking itself.â
Just like that, everything goes back to normal in the blink of an eye. Wolverine sits back down in his chair, leaning closer to the table and resting both elbows on it. He examines you, lifting his chin while his brown eyes take in every inch of you.
âThank you,â he utters, his eyes still trained on your features.Â
âNo need to. Itâs what Iâm here for,â you point to your work clothes, which consist of an antiqued apron and a silly sticker that has your name written on it. âCan I get you anything to drink? Itâs also Burger Night. You can get one for half the usual price.â
(No. Itâs not fucking Burger Night. You just happen to find yourself deeply attracted to him.)
He doesnât seem too eager to hear you talk. âNot hungry at the moment. But I could use some whiskey.â
âYou sure?â
âYeah, kid. Very sure.â Well, now he does look annoyed.
âGreat. Iâll be back in a minute,â you move as if you were in a race, returning to him after a hot minute. Setting his glass down on the table, you fill it with some old whiskey you donât even know the name of. Still, he omits that detail, gulping down two-fingers of whiskey as if it were water. âI see youâre thirsty.â
âCould you leave the bottle here?â those brown puppy eyes are begging you to do as he says, and although youâd be happy to oblige, rules are rules.Â
âActually, I canât. The bottle stays on the counter. But you can always join me at the front,â your proposal doesnât appear to have the desired effect on him. âI wonât talk to you if thatâs what you want.â
âIâll take your word for it,â he rubs his neck, drawing a long breath as he stands up.Â
You can feel many pairs of eyes searing into your soul. The others ask you for more drinks and you pour them, pricking up your ears when you hear them talking about him.
âWhat a weirdo. Didnât you see it on TV? Heâs not even from this universe,â Gary explains, looking for accomplices to hate on Wolverine. âLet me tell yâall something: he shouldnât even be here. Heâs fucking dead on this earth.â
Yeah⌠that you knew.
It had been all over the news for weeks. Some would even swear that he was back from the dead, but that was until the representatives from the TVA spoke their truth. If someone wouldâve told you a month ago that multiple universes were a thing, you wouldâve laughed in their face.
As if that werenât already difficult to process, your mind does the job of reminding you that thereâs a man with metal claws sitting a few meters away from you. Despite that, you canât seem to be scared of him. Thereâs something magnetic about his personality and that donât-come-near-me-or-there-will-be-consequences expression that he has. Why had you promised not to speak to him? Dammit.
âI can hear your thoughts,â a muscle in his jaw twitches after knocking back another glass of whiskey. He squeezes his eyes shut before tapping the table with two fingers, silently asking for a refill.
âI thought you didnât want me to talk,â you raise one of your eyebrows, and you behold how the corners of his mouth turn up for an instant. âI can assure you your liver hates you.â
âAlcohol wonât kill me, so donât be afraid. Keep âem coming.â
For nearly twenty minutes, he does nothing but drink. He attempts to light a cigar at some point, and you stop him. âYou canât smoke in here.â
âNo special treatment?â he inquires, placing the cigar between his parted lips and tilting his head back. Heâs so⌠dreamy. He has to know it.
âI saved your ass today. The least you can do is not cause me any trouble.â
His eyes widen at your words, blinking owlishly. âYou saved my what?â
âYour goddamn ass. You were about to start a fight.â
âBlame the idiots you have for clients,â he says, jerking his thumb toward your direction. âI was just mindinâ my own business. They came for me, not the other way around.â
âLook, Wolvie. Iââ
âWolvie?â giving a bitter laugh, he rams a hand through his hair. âThatâs the worst nickname Iâve heard in a long time,â he looks at you through his lashes, getting rid of his leather jacket. âItâs Logan.â
âWow. Your name is very boybandish.â
You succeed in making him laugh once again. Itâs the perfect opportunity for you to observe his face without feeling like you were just about to get caught. He has deep creases and worry lines etched between his eyebrows, a brown beard that perfectly frames his jaw, and a few white hairs scattered in his sideburns. Pearly teeth that go hand in hand with one of the most impeccable smiles youâve ever seen, and a pair of brown eyes that make you feel weak in the knees. You know for a fact that heâs a lot older than you; his exact age remains a mystery, but his appearance is enough for you to start fantasizing.
Shit, you want him. You should feel sickened by the mere thought of being with him. He was born God knows when, has lived hundreds of years. Still, the idea of tracing his cheekbones with your fingers while lying on his chest doesnât leave you. This is fucked up. You are fucked up. A fucked up Psychology student. The joke is pretty much self-explanatory.
âSo this is where youâve been hiding, you preening slut. Canât even bother to answer my calls now?â
The tension between you shatters like a glass dropped onto the floor. He doesnât dare to look in the direction of the owner of that voice, not even as the seat next to him gets taken. He pinches the bridge of his nose in frustration. âWade, what the hell are you doinâ here?â
âIt hasnât been exactly easy, raising our kid on my own. I donât even have money to hire a babysitter, Lo. I spent nine months carrying your child, and for what? You end up going after a bartender,â the masked man turns to you, giving a sly wink. âNo offense, baby. You must be a real sweetheart. In fact, do you want my number? The nameâs Wade, but you can call me whatever you like.â
âYou dumb fuck. Are you flirtinâ with her?â
âNo shit, smartass. Youâre the future of this country.â
A soft giggle escapes you despite your attempt to hold it back. You take a step back, admiring the two men. âWell, arenât you two a beautiful couple?â
âYou should see our little munchkin. Heâs got my eyes and Loganâs hair. His first word was gubernatorial.â
âWould you like to have a drink while youâre here?â
âA beer would be great. Thank you, sugarbear. Youâre the cutest,â Wade sinks back into his chair, resting his chin on his palm. He jerks his head in Loganâs direction, bumping his shoulder. âSheâs the cutest. Are you two together?â
Logan rubs his forehead, speaking through gritted teeth. âHow did you find me?â
âIt's the power of love, baby. I had Itâs All Coming Back To Me Now on repeat for hours. Couldnât stop thinking about you.â
Handing Wade a cold beer, your eyes scan Loganâs face. âI didnât know patience was your strongest suit.â
âMe neither.â
âEnough of that! I canât stand not being included in a conversation,â Wade throws his hands in the air, and you look at him. âThere you are. So, what about you? Are you even allowed to be here? Did bars change their policies?â
You canât help but snort. âIâm 25.â
Wade looms closer, lowering his voice. âNow that I think about it, you could totally be Loganâs caretaker. Heâs been having some issues recently, given his age. Do you⌠know anything about adult diapers?â
But then Loganâs face contorts, turning crimson. He rises from his seat, grabbing Wadeâs arm. âThatâs it. Weâre leavinâ,â his eyes lock on you for a moment. âHow much do I owe you?â
âDonât worry about it. Itâs on the house.â
The things youâre willing to do for a man, right? You should be ashamed of yourself.
(But you arenât.)
His mouth hangs open in disbelief. âKiddo, are youââ
âCompletely sure,â you finish his sentence for him, bowing your head and clasping your arms behind your body. A tight-lipped smile takes over you. âJust donât tell my boss.â
Wade shifts his gaze back and forth between Logan and you. âI usually donât mind third-wheeling, but I sort of feel left out.â
âIâm gonna sew your mouth shut, Wade.â
âOh, come on! I was just making small talk,â the masked man tries to excuse himself while Logan pushes him towards the door. âIt was a pleasure meeting you, sunshine. Iâm free on Thursdays. Hit me up if his whiskey dick fails to impress you! Mineâs way more agile and young!â
As you watch them leave the bar, you remain frozen in your place amidst the clamor of ongoing chatter and clinking glasses.
What the fuck had just happened?
âPatrickâs normally the first one to get wasted during weekends,â you explain to the blonde woman sitting in front of you, and she writes that information down in her notebook. âHe can usually handle himself, but at some point, heâll try to call his ex-wife, and thatâs when you know you need to stop serving him.â
She clicks her tongue, the color draining out of her face. âThis is⌠definitely a lot to remember. I think I already forgot half of what you said.â
You shake your head, shoving your hands in your pockets. âYouâll get used to it, believe me. Iâll be with you at all times, so if you have any doubts, just ask me.â
After a whole year of working solo at the bar, you finally get to have a coworker: Gwen, a mother of two teenagers in her forties. You had met her at the grocery store, and in the process of helping her find a specific brand of cookies, you found out that she had recently lost her job. One thing led to another, and now sheâs your trainee.
Your savior complex strikes again!
It has been four days since your first encounter with Logan. The thought that he could show up at any moment makes your heart race and your hands sweat. Allison had received countless voice messages where you narrated the entire experience in full detail.Â
Touching your arm softly, Gwenâs face lights up. âAnother man came in. Is he a regular? I donât think you told me about him.â
Fuck, itâs him. Manifesting does work wonders. He locks eyes with you and raises a hand in greeting.
âLeave this one to me,â you tell her as your feet take you to where Loganâs sitting, contemplating the way in which his leather jacket hugs his wide frame. âLong time no see.â
âHey, kid,â he grins. âWhatâs up?â
âNothing much. Nobody has puked yet, so thatâs a good thing,â you crinkle your nose, shifting your weight from one foot to the other. âWhiskey?â
âYou know me so well,â a smirk takes place in his lips, and he smiles cockily. âThough this time, I wonât be leavinâ without payinâ.â
âWeâll see about that,â you go back to your usual spot behind the counter, looking for a glass. Your cheeks kind of hurt from smiling so hard. Next to you, Gwen studies your reaction to seeing Logan. âIs that your boyfriend?â
You almost drop the whiskey bottle. âGod, no. Heâs not my boyfriend. Barely know the guy.â
âItâs funny,â she says, raising her eyebrows with a knowing look, as if she knows something you donât. âHe hasnât stopped looking at you since he arrived.â
âItâs probably because of this,â you reply, lifting the bottle in her direction before pouring a small amount into a glass. Just as youâre about to walk over to him, a girl slides into the sit beside him, her long blonde hair swept up in a ponytail. Sheâs wearing a stunning red dress and black heels. You wonder if sheâs a model, because she certainly looks like one.
Her hand creeps up his arm, fingernails scraping against the worn leather. Although Loganâs expression is hard to read, he doesnât even flinch.
âYou know what? Hereâs his drinkâ You take care of it. Iâll stay here,â you donât give Gwen a chance to talk back, instead staying behind the bar, engaging in small talk with other clients.Â
âDoll, are you okay?â Adam asks you after noticing you struggling to open a beer bottle. He takes it from your hands and opens it with ease. âThere you go.â
âThank you, Adam. Iâm fine, never been better. Why you ask?
âYou sure?â
âAffirmative.â
âYou mixed up our drinks,â he explains in his most psychologist-like voice. âThis never happens to you. Michael has my wine, and Iâve got his martini.â
âFuck! Iâm so sorry. I justâ I donât know whatâs wrong with me,â you chew on your bottom lip, rubbing your temples. âI feel stupid.â
âOh, please. Donât say that. Youâre far from being stupid,â he sits up straight, reaching for your fingers and giving them an apologetic squeeze. âIf you ask me, I think youâve got your mind on someone else,â he must notice how you visibly get tense because he adds: âRemember: I know when youâre lying. You didnât charge him the other day, which means that you must really like him,â taking a tentative sip of the martini he didnât even ordered, Adam shrugs. âIâm a great observer. Thatâs all.â
Out of the corner of your eye, you see the blonde girl from before returning to where her friends are chatting. Logan is left alone, and you watch him grab his glass and head towards the counter.
âAs I said, your mindâs somewhere else,â Adam sighs, a tiny smirk tugging at his lips. âGo get your man. Iâll survive.â
âNot my man. But thanks, older-and-wiser-version-of-cupid.â
Pretending not to have seen Logan, you continue with your work. He remains silent for some minutes before finally saying: âHi.â
Hi? It sounds so out of character for him.
âHey, claws,â you force a smile, still avoiding to meet his gaze. âDo you need anything?â
Logan points to his empty glass, like a toddler asking for more cereal. âI also wanted to talk to you.â
âI thought you were busy over there,â you say, surprisingly managing to sound nonchalant, despite the jealousy bubbling underneath your friendly tone. âDid you get her number?â
âWhat? No.â
âWhy not? Sheâs cute.â
Yeah, maybe you donât sound as collected as you think.
Whether Logan notices it or not, he chooses not to mention it. He folds his arms over his chest, fixing his brown eyes on you. âIâm not interested.â
âAnd what is it that interests you, champ?â your question elicits a low chuckle from him. Just as he opens his mouth to seemingly reply, Gwen appears out of nowhere to ask you about the price of a certain drink. Your gaze shifts between her and Logan, who remains focused on you while sipping his drink.
After that, Gwen leaves. The man in front of you goes poker-faced, pursing his lips, and his abrupt change in demeanor alarms you. âWade wants to have dinner tomorrow at his apartmentâ well, our apartment. I live with him now. Itâs complicated,â he adds with a dismissive wave of his hand, and you laugh. âAnyway, he asked me to tell you that youâre invited. I know we donât know each other that much, but⌠he said you seem like someone worth havinâ around,â he mumbles awkwardly, eyes downcast. âI think the same as well.â
You could die at peace.
âYouâre a lucky fucker because I donât work on Sundays,â you quip, smiling. âIâd be more than happy to attend your feast.â
âGreat. I thought you would turn down the invitation.â
âNow why would you think that?â
ââCause you barely know meâ us,â he corrects himself rapidly. âPlus, Wadeâs annoying as hell when he puts his mind to it. Youâll see.â
âMarital problems?â he actually in response. âIâll take that as a âyesâ. Oh, Iâll bring the dessert.â
âYou donât have to.â
âBut I do want to,â you tilt your head in an effort to hide your longing for him.
âJust want to get under my skin, huh? I can see why Wade likes you,â Logan beams, reaching out to tuck a $100 bill into the pocket of your apron. âThe tipâs included.â
âI donât know how things work in your universe, but youâre giving me way more money than youâre supposed to. I can't accept this.â
âOh, but you will,â his gravelly voice fucks your system up, and youâre glad he canât see how you squeeze your legs together behind the bar.
He writes down Wadeâs address on a random napkin, holding his breath as he stands up. âI should get goinâ. See you tomorrow then.â
Before he walks out the door, you stop him. âLogan? You didnât answer my other question.â
His back shakes momentarily with laughter. Turning around to face you, his stare leaves you even more confused. âGood night, doll.â
This is becoming a habit: every time he goes away, you feel as though youâve just run a marathon with no water available. Your mouth is completely dry, your fingers are numb and thereâs a knot in your stomach thatâs becoming all too familiar.
âWould you mind telling me where you got him?â Gwenâs voice makes you almost jump out of your skin.
âHeâs not from around here. I think heâs Canadian.â
Youâve got this. Youâve got this. Youâve got this.
Knocking softly on Wadeâs door, you step back, the container holding the tiramisu cold to your touch. Itâs your first time trying out this recipe, so youâre expecting it to at least not taste like shit.
Wade answers the apartment door, acting surprised when you remain silent. âWell, look what the wind blew in: if it isnât my husbandâs lover. How dare you? Weâre still going to couples therapy.â
You show him the container, and he squints at it. âTiramisu. You want it or not?â
âI hate twenty-somethings,â he says with a defeated sigh, stepping aside to let you into the apartment.Â
Leaving your purse on the nearest surface, you scan the living room, wondering where Logan might be. Thereâs a small mirror beneath the couch, and you check yourself for the hundredth time tonight. âDonât get too excited. Heâs still showering,â Wadeâs voice rings in your ears, and you turn to look at him, your eyebrows knitted. âYeah. I noticed. Youâre already drooling over that big piece of metal between his legs.â
âKeep quiet!â you cover his mouth with your palm, noticing the scarred state of his skin up close. âWade, you fucking dog. Are you licking my hand?â
âCouldnât help it. You taste like mascarpone cheese and espresso.â
Then Logan emerges from the bathroom, with only a white towel draped around his waist. Droplets of water fall from his wet hair, tracing the muscle of his abs, ending somewhere beneath his happy trail. Your eyes keep flickering between him and his torso until he clears his throat. âI thought you were cominâ later.â
âMe too, but IâŚ,â you trail off, your brain struggling to catch up, âI didnât know what else to do at my place.â
âItâs fine. Justâ let me put on some clothes.â
âPlease donât,â Wade murmurs next to you, but Logan only scoffs. âI was just being honest. Communication is key.â
When Wade and you are alone again, he lets out a harsh breath. âThat was probably the hottest thing Iâve ever seen. My pants are really tight right now.â
âThin walls, buddy!â Logan shouts from his bedroom, earning a laugh from you.Â
Like A Prayer starts playing. Wade moves his hips to the beat, getting lost in the melody. âIs that your phone?â
âYeah, but I always take a few seconds to dance to it. Such a banger!â he says, then picks up his phone, accepting the call. âHey, Ness! What´s up?â Wade covers the speaker before telling you: âItâs Vanessa. My ex-girlfriend. We fuck once a week, sometimes even twice.â
From behind, Logan nudges your arm with his, looking at you. âHey, kid.â
âNo, Iâm not busy at all,â Wade exclaims, grabbing his crotch and thrusting into the air. âIâll be there in ten, cupcake. See you,â he spreads his arms wide and whistles. âSomeoneâs getting laid tonight!â
âYou made me come all the way here⌠and now youâre leaving?â
âWhat? My friend Wolverine wanted to invite you over. I just had to provide the apartment,â in one quick movement, he presses a kiss to your cheek, then does the same to Logan. âShave yourself, will you?â
âGo fuck yourself, will you?â
âLove you too, honey. Hope you two lovebirds have a good night, because I know I will!â
Wade throws a wink over his shoulder before heading out, the apartment going dead silent. Logan and you stand frozen, staring at each other, although he quickly drops his gaze, unable to maintain eye contact. A giggle threatens to escape you: he wanted to see you. Could he possibly enjoy your company as much as you enjoy his?
Logan watches the spot where Wave had just been. The absence of his chaotic energy makes the room feel strangely empty now. He coughs lightly, the sound awkwardly loud in the quiet room.
âSo... I, uh, bought pizza,â he says, his voice a little too casual, as if trying to cover up his nervousness. Averting his eyes, he focuses on the pizza boxes on the table.
You catch the hesitation in his tone, your curiosity piqued by his discomfort. Tilting your head, a teasing smile forms on your lips. âPizza, huh? You sure know how to impress a girl.â
Logan chuckles, the sound strained, as he scratches the back of his neck. âYeah, well, I figured it was a safe choice. Didnât want to ruin it, yâknow?â
You move closer to the table, the warmth from the pizza boxes radiating against your hands as you open one of them. The rich smell of melted cheese and pepperoni fills the air, a comforting scent that makes your stomach growl softly. âThank you. Iâm a big fan of pizza.â
He sits in the chair across from you, taking a bite of his slice. You watch him quietly, your own thoughts churning. The truth of his origins had been a shock at first, but now, it just made you want to know more about the man. What was his life like in the other universe? Did he miss it? Was he happier here, or was he longing to return?
âLoganâŚ,â you begin, your tone gentle but probing, âCan I ask you something?â
He glances up at you, eyes widening. Thereâs something in your eyes âan understanding, maybeâ that makes him feel like you could see right through him.Â
âSure,â he replies, trying to sound more at ease than he really feels. âAsk away.â
You hesitate for a moment, not wanting to push too hard. âI was wondering... would it be okay if I asked you some questions? About, you know, your life. Where you're from.â
The bite of pizza suddenly feels heavy in his mouth. He hadnât talked much about his world, not even with Wade. Partly because it was too painful, and partly because he wasnât sure how to explain how things turned out for him. He nods slowly, setting his slice down. âYeah, it's okay. Iâll answer what I can.â
âI just... I want to understand you better.â
âWell, first and foremost, Iâm no hero. You should know that by now.â
âI beg to differ.â
âKid, Iâm the worst Logan. A complete failure. Of all the variants out there, Wade just had to pick the one despised by every living soul on his earth,â Logan looks away, his voice low and heavy. Youâre wondering if doing this was a good idea. âI need a drink.â
He gets up and you follow him into the kitchen. He rummages through the fridge, in search of a cold beer. Meanwhile, you attempt to find the right words. âI donât thinkââ
With a sharp flick of his wrist, three metal claws sprout from between his knuckles. A gasp catches in your throat as he uses his claws to pierce the beer can, drinking from the punctured holes. Once heâs done, he goes back to staring at you. Your gaze, on the other hand, is still glued to the now-empty beer can. âWhat?â he asks, exhaling slowly.
âThat was completely unnecessary,â you mutter, and he lets out a bitter chuckle, tossing the can into the trash. âBut, back to what you said beforeâ I donât think youâre the worst Logan.â
âYou didnât know me back then, darlinâ. I fucked it up,â he leans against the counter, arms crossed defensively over his chest. âLike the Logan from this universe, I once belonged to the X-Men too. I remember that Scott used to beg me to wear my suit. So did Jean, Storm, Beastâ All of them,â his gaze grows more distant, and you can tell that memories are flooding his mind. âWanted me to be part of the team, but I wouldnât do it. Told them they looked fucking ridiculous.â
The pizzaâs long forgotten. You take the risk and get a bit closer to him, your eyes never leaving his.Â
Loganâs silence stretches for a moment before he speaks again. âOne day, while I was off on my own, the humans came. They went mutant hunting.â
Your heart clenches at the pain in his voice. He still remembers everything as if it had happened yesterday. âI can guess the rest. You donât have toââ
But he cuts you off. âNo, let me say it. I need to say it,â he takes a deep breath, lowering his head. âBy the time I stumbled home, shit-faced from the bar, it was too late. They were dead. They called after me and I walked away.â
Reaching out, your hand gently brushes against his. He doesnât pull away, but instead searches for your eyes. âMy suit's all I've got to remind me of who they were. What I did. I found them and they were⌠dead. I started killing, and I couldnât stop. I didnât want to stop. I turned the whole world against the X-Men.â
You tighten your grip on his hand, knowing thereâs nothing you can do to change how he feels. âYouâre not a bad person, Logan,â he shakes his head, mumbling something you canât quite catch. âI mean it. What happened back then doesnât define you. You took the blame for their deaths upon yourself. I can tell you loved them deeply, and Iâll never fully understand the pain you feel. I wish I could. I wish I could take it away, make you forget somehow, but I canât. Thatâs not how life works. But you got your second chance: you saved this world. My world,â gently cupping his face in your hands, you allow your fingers to caress his cheeks. He leans into your touch, watching you with half-lidded eyes. âYouâre my hero. Iâm your biggest fanâ after Wade, obviously, which is a lot to say.â
He grins, letting out a laugh. âEasy there, bub.â
âShould I give you some space?â
Thatâs the last thing he wants from you right now. You already know that as he looks you up and down, placing his hands on the small of your back, his thumbs drawing small circles on your skin. Thereâs no turning backâ The warmth between you feels almost like a fever dream. âFor a long time, all I wanted was to disappear. I couldnât stand waking up every morning, knowing that another day awaited me.â
âAnd what happened?â your breath mingles with his, his closeness becoming nearly intoxicating. âWhat changed?â
âI met a pretty girl at a pub, thatâs what happened,â he murmurs, his dilated pupils flicking up to meet your gaze. âIâm gonna kiss you now.â
âDo all your kisses come with a warning?â
âGod, do you ever shut up?â
You donât have time to respond because he kisses you there and then. His stubble scrapes your skin as your mouths meet again and again, needy hands that hold you as if you were prone to breaking. Logan licks into your mouth, sliding his tongue against yours and swallowing every one of your whimpers.
âSo this is what it takes to shut you up, huh?â he murmurs against your lips. You can feel him smiling, and it makes your heart skip a beat.Â
âKeep talking and you wonât get a single bite of my tiramisu,â you tease him, kissing him again, the taste of beer numbing your senses. âI really like kissing you.â
âThe feelingâs mutual, but now that youâve mentioned that tiramisuâŚâ
âAm I that easily replaced?â
âNo. Youâre just a pain in the ass.â
Jokes aside, youâre as happy as a clam.
Since that night you and Logan kissed, youâve been living your best life. Like a freaking schoolgirl with a crush. Some things never seem to change.
He hasnât been to the bar in three days. Yes, youâre counting them. No, you havenât lost your mind. You want to see him, but thereâs something about making the first move that gives you the chills. What would his reaction be if you showed outside of apartment?
Itâs been a long time since youâve been with anybody. On top of that, all the guys youâve dated were your age. Being with someone that older than you certainly wasnât no your plans. Youâd be lying if you said that the mere idea of being with him in that way didnât excite you.
Oh boy, you miss him. You miss his scruffy voice, his gorgeous hair. And you two arenât even official yet. To be honest, you donât even know what he wants from you. Is he even the type to be in a relationship?
âNighty night, gentlemen,â you say to Gary and his friends as you find yourself in front of them, smoothing your apron. Gwen had called in sick tonight, so itâs just you at the bar babysitting a bunch of grown-men.
âWhatâs up, doll? Youâve forgotten about us. We miss you coming in here to chat,â Garyâs eating his burger at the same time he speaks, something you find repulsive, but youâve seen worse. âYâknow, Iâd love to take you out someday. I have a place youâd like.â
The other men laugh and punch him in the back, just boosting his ego. Pathetic.Â
âIâll let you know when Iâm free,â you reply with the most polite smile you can offer, intending to go on. âWhat are you having tonight?â
âYou always pull that shit, baby. I donât think youâre so busy that you canât accept a date.â
You hate the way heâs looking at you, as if you were wrong for not being interested. As if you didnât know any better.
âYouâre reading minds now? Shocking, Gary.â
âOh, doll. That attitude of yours shows youâve never been with a real man like me, thatâs all,â he leans back in his chair, resting one of his arms on the table and the other one near his crotch, manspreading. âItâs alright. I like you bratty.â
âIâll be back when you finally have something to order,â you attempt to turn around but he grabs your wrist, pulling you closer. Your eyes lock, and he seems to enjoy this: being in control. Like a predator hunting his prey. âCome on, Gary. I donât want to have to kick you out.â
âItâs not that you don't like me, right? Youâve already got your mouth full.â
âCareful.â
âWhat? Donât tell me youâre not fucking that useless mutant. I see you like âem older. Pretty little things like you drive me wild.â
You laugh in his face, showing him your teeth. âIt was never about your age, Gary. Youâre right: I do like them older. Iâm just not into bald, vertically-challenged pricks.â
His entourage of idiots goes silent after that. He looks up at you, eyes burning with hatred. His grip on your wrist tightens, probably leaving a mark. âFucking bitch.â
âGet your hands off her.â
Loganâs voice forces the two of you to look in his direction. It seems that heâs just arrived at the pub, his jacket still on.Â
âYou joining us? Weâre just getting started here, big boy.â
âDid you not hear me?â Logan lunges forward, his nose almost touching Garyâs. âThe fuck is wrong with you?â
âEasy there, cowboy. Iâm just having a chat with your girl. Sheâs one of the good ones, Iâll give you that,â arching a sly brow, his forehead puckers. âYou donât like sharing? We can even take turns.â
Logan clenches his jaw, lips set in a grim line. âSay one more word, and Iâll fucking kill you.â
âIâll give you a full sentence instead: can you even get it up?âÂ
The tension in the air is thick, every second stretching out as Logan's anger simmers dangerously close to the surface. Garyâs smug grin only makes it worse, pushing him to the edge. Before you can react, Loganâs fist swings forward, connecting with Garyâs jaw with a sickening crack. Gary staggers back, realising your wrist. Blood seeps from his nose, his white shirt becoming stained with it. âYou fucker! You broke my nose!â
âWeâre just getting started here, big boy,â Logan mocks him, repeating his previous words.
âStop!â you shout, moving quickly to grab his arm, trying to pull him back. But heâs beyond hearing, his rage blinding him to everything else. He shakes you off, and with a fierce growl, drives another punch into Garyâs stomach. The latter doubles over, gasping for air, the wind knocked out of him. He then falls to the floor, curling into a ball. People start to gather around you, and soon your beloved bar becomes a box ring.
âThatâs enough, Logan! Heâs barely conscious,â you murmur under your breath, stepping between them, hands up in a desperate attempt to create some space. Logan pauses, chest heaving, fists still clenched, as he finally looks at you. The wildness in his eyes starts to fade, replaced by a dawning realization of what heâs done.
âHe deserved it,â he nods vigorously to himself, as if trying to explain his point. âHe was hurting you.â
âIf you keep that up, youâre going to kill him. My bar is not a fucking cemetery,â your voice trembles a little bit, expecting to talk some sense into him. âI wonât let you do this.â
The room is quiet now, the only sound being Loganâs heavy breathing as he stands there, still tense, still processing. You turn to Garyâs friends, cold fury in your eyes. âGet him out of here,â you watch as they haul him up, practically dragging him to the door. The other clients continue to stare at Logan, their mouths hanging open. âEverybody out, right now! Go home. Weâre closing earlier tonight.â
Adam is the last person to leave, slamming the door behind him. You rush to the counter, searching for a mop to clean the fresh blood off the floor. Still agitated, the images of Logan hitting Gary flash in your mind. He approaches you from behind, his fingers circling your forearm. âBubââ
âDonât. Now is not the time.â
âI was protecting you.â
âI told you to stop, and you didnât. You just shook me off,â you snap, glancing at his knuckles which are not even bruised. Slamming your eyes shut, you get to your feet and wash your hands in the sink, the remaining water becoming reddish for a moment.
Logan moves closer, resting his chin on your shoulder. He wraps his arms lazily around your middle section. âIâm sorry.â
You turn in his arms, your back flushed against the sink and your nose in the air. âWhy didnât you call me?â
âI donât have a phone.â
âButâ Jesus, Logan. You couldâve come sooner. I thought you regretted what happened the other day,â you say and the muscles in his face twitch, his body stiffening at your words. âThought you no longer wanted me.â
âNo, bub. Iâ I still want you. I want all of you, trust me,â he murmurs, and you allow him to press his body against yours, the scent of the cigar he must have smoked recently enveloping your senses. âI just⌠donât know how to do this. I have a habit of ruining things, and Iâm trying to figure out the best way to be with you without hurting you.â
âPushing me away also hurts,â your eyes flick up to meet his gaze again, and he whispers under his breath. âI canât read your mind. You need to tell me whatâs going on in that ancient skull of yours.â
His face falters, flashing you a mischievous look. His hand creeps under the fabric of your shirt, fingernails scrapping against your spine. âIâm sorry, princess. I truly am.â
âYou canât just say âsorryâ with that voice and expect me toââ
Youâre cut off by his lips crashing down onto yours. You melt into the kiss, unable to deny what your body has been craving for the past days.Â
âI thought your kisses came with a warning,â you say, detaching your mouth from his, a smile spreading uncontrollably in your face as you see his toothy grin.
âShut up and kiss me, will you?â
In a clash of tongues and teeth, your mouths meet once again. Tugging the hair at his nape, you feel him growl against your lips. His strong hands trace every curve of your body, kneading the flesh of your hips and undoing the knot at the back of your apron. Youâre becoming one with the sink, but in a moment like this, you couldnât care less. Loganâs hard on nudges your lower stomach, and he ruts against you like an animal.
âYou said you wanted to know whatâs on my mind, right?â his teeth nibble on the skin of your neck, syrupy voice going straight to your core. âWell, Iâd love nothing more than to touch you right now.â
âRight here? On the counter?â
âYeah, on the fucking counter,â he grabs you by your thighs, hosting you up and placing your body on top of the cold bar. He nudges your knees apart, his bulge meeting your clothed cunt deliciously. âWill you let me, baby? Can I make you come in here?â
âPlease. Iâm glad we have such a low budget. Camera installment is tâtoo expensive these days.â
âDo you always talk this much?â he slowly unbuttons your pants, and you help him to remove them.
âYes. Next question,â your breath hitches in your throat as you feel the pad of his thumb circling your clit through your panties. Your eyelids drop, your head lolling back. âFuck, that feels good.â
Logan hums, mesmerized with the way your hips roll into his hand, your whimpers sounding like music to his ears. âYou have any idea how I felt when I saw him touching you? Wanted to rip his hands off you,â his eyes drift to your chest, how it rises and falls with impatience. âBut itâs me who gets to have you like this. He can fantasize about you all he wants: Iâm the only one who touches you, ainât I right?â you sigh with content as his fingers graze your slit, aimlessly bucking your hips. He doesnât go any further, and you tug at the collar of his flannel, needing more of his callousand hands on you. âNuh-uh. You want something, you gotta use your words. Got it?â
âI wâwant your fingers inside me,â you donât even recognize your own voice at this point. The few guys you had slept with had never been very talkative during sex. But Logan isnât like them. This is just the beginning and youâre already starting to realize that he has a dirty mouth, that expectant look on his face as he waits to see your reaction to his words. âPlease, Logan. I want you so bad.â
âOh, I know, bub. Thereâs something about me I donât think you know,â he inserts one of his fingers in your cunt, your slick coating the palm of his hand. âThese claws I have⌠they didnât come on their own. Letâs just say my sense of smell is⌠pretty good,â Logan can almost see the gears turning in your head as you try to think coherently. He moves his middle finger in and out of you, stretching your walls. âAnd you⌠have been wet ever since the first time you saw me. Always nice to everybody, making sure they feel at ease,â you feel like youâre being stretched even further, another one of his fingers sinking into your warm pussy. âBut youâre so needy, too. How long has it been since someone touched you like this?â
âToo long, fâfuck. Too long,â youâre squirming, a totally whiny mess. He retratcs his wet fingers and instead goes back to flicking your clit, this time with much less delicacy. His left hand squeezes your tits, and you hate the fact that youâre still wearing clothes. âShit, Logan. I need you to fuck me. Please. Need your cock.â
His face comes to rest at your neck, and you feel lingering kisses and bites that keep you grounded to earth. âNot here. I need a bed to fuck you properly. Youâre only getting my fingers now,â he positions them inches away from your entrance, testing your patience. âTell me who owns this pussy.â
âL-loganââ
âTell me and Iâll make you come,â his husky voice is making you dizzy, tears shimmering in your eyes. âCome on. Know you want it as much as I do.â
You succumb to the tentation, like divinity turned to sin. He kisses you roughly, and you struggle to find the correct words. âItâs you, Logan. You own my pussy. Itâs f-fucking yours.â
With that, he goes back to nudging that spot that makes you see starts, that filthy squelching sound getting mixed up with your moans. The knot in your belly keeps growing tighter the more he pumps his fingers in and out of you.Â
âI said you were only getting my fingers for now, but fuck⌠I need to gest a taste of this sweet cunt.â
Heâs on his knees in an instant, urging your legs apart to make room for his body. Your thighs tighten around his face as he licks a hot stripe up your folds, tracing a heated path on your cunt, not wishing to waste a single second. Pleasure builds quickly, your breath hitching as your hands find their way into his hair, pulling him closer when your body begins to tremble.Â
âIâm close,â you pant, breathing hard, grinding your hips against his face. âIâm so close.â
âThatâs it. Come in my mouth like the good girl you are.â
Who had given him a damn script for this?
The release is explosive. Like the peak of a roller coaster: you go up up up, ascending higher. You think you almost see Jesus, but at some point, you also have to crash down with force. Your shoulders slump, your entire body cramping up; yet he doesnât let you go that easily, his fingers still working, scissoring within you while you ride out the final waves of your high, drawing out every last moment of ecstasy.
Once you finally manage to open your eyes, there he is, staring down at you. He taps your lower lip with his fingers, and then mutters: âOpen.â
And you do, because youâre just as messed up as he is. Your mouth parts, and he slides his fingers between your lips, dragging them smoothly across your tongue. His knuckles brush the back of your throat, and you gag around the intrusion, tasting yourself. He pulls his fingers out of your mouth, clearly satisfied with the way youâve cleaned them off.
âI think we should really pay a visit to your apartment,â he suggests, groaning in defeat, and you feel his bulge poking your hip. He must be painfully hard. âI meant what I said earlier. I need a bed if weâre going to fuck. My backâs hurting.â
You raise an eyebrow, the corner of your mouth curving into a smirk. âWhy not go to yours?â
âWadeâs in there. I wouldnât be able to concentrate.â
You canât help but laugh, pausing a moment to collect your thoughts, heat rising to your cheeks. âSo weâre going rodeo?â
Aiming to silence up, Logan kisses you, pinching your chin between his thumb and forefinger. âOnly if you can handle it.â
part 2: âGIVE ME THE FIRST TASTEâ
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Missing You Always
based on the steal a moment phone call!!
â--- paring: sylus x reader
â--- summary: Your marriage to Sylus has been a challenging one because of your long distant status. Sylus is determined to remind you that distance can't diminish what you share. He reassures not only your mind but also your body, reminding you why you're meant for each other.
â--- word count: 4.5k
â--- warnings: mdni, slight angst, there's comfort don't worry, soft!dom sylus, you take a bath together, oral sex, fingering, doggy, back shots, bit of background story, sylus is an eater ok..., (he eats your cum), size kink if you squint, no protection is used (wrap it before you tap it)
â--- a/n: i had to get this one out quick because rafayel is quickly taking over my brain ngl.
Just a couple of months before, you married Sylus. He has certainly lived up to (and well beyond) your expectations. While he is the perfect loving husband, your current situation is less than favorable. You knew what you agreed to in this marriage, and you knew the first few years would be difficult, but it did not stop you from feeling a pang in your chest when you arrived home, and your lovely husband was not there because, well, he is still in the N109 Zone.Â
You walked into the front door of your shared home with Sylus, but then again, was it? He is never here during the week. You had both discussed it plenty in the early stages of your relationship, but that did not make the adjustment any easier now that you had moved back to Linkon. Being a hunter was difficult for you, mind, body, and spirit.Â
Despite your feelings, you fought to hold on until the weekend. You knew Sylus was coming home to you soon. After work tomorrow, you would go home, and your lover would be waiting for you. That thought made you smile.Â
You strolled into your home through the grand entryway, maneuvering through it to find the living area. Walking through the arch, you looked above your head to see the chandelier suspended above the coffee table. Turning your head, you observed the ceiling-to-floor windows, admiring the sunset.Â
Your imagination took over, the thought of walking in tomorrow, noticing the lit fireplace, candles throughout the room, and the signature scent of vanilla being carried throughout the room. Youâd know without a doubt that he was home. Your gaze would be drawn to the kitchen where Sylus would be standing. Maybe he got a gift for you, he usually does, something that reminded him of you during your signature five days apart.
âI miss him,â you said aloud reluctantly. A sigh escaped your lips, and your hands covered your eyes, leaving you feeling the somber silence around you.
A few beats of silence were interrupted by Sylusâs signature ringtone. Pulling you from your mind, you shifted quickly, searching for your phone. Making your way to your work bag, you pull the phone out of the front pocket before swiping âacceptâ on Sylusâs phone call.Â
Sylus: "You have no idea how much Iâve missed thisâjust hearing your voice, sweetie. Itâs been way too long. Feels like forever since Iâve had you all to myself." You: "I know, baby. Iâve missed you too. Every night, I go to bed wishing you were here." Sylus: "Soon, though. Tomorrow, itâs all about us. You and me, finally. Iâve been counting down the days." You: "Me too. I remember the last time we were togetherâŚour little movie night⌠I loved it so much." Sylus: "Yeah? Well, tomorrow, I plan to make it even better. Weâve got catching up, and Iâm not just talking about our dinner date, sweetie. Iâve been thinking about you non-stop. I miss touching you, holding you⌠just being with you." You: "I canât wait. Iâve been thinking about it all week. Just the thought of being with you makes everything feel right." Sylus: "Good. Because tomorrow, the second I walk through that door, Iâm not letting you go. No distractions, no interruptions, just you and me. Howâs that sound?" You: "Sounds perfect. Iâve been dying to just⌠be with you again. Really be with you." Sylus: "Good. âCause I plan to remind you how much Iâve missed you in every way."
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"Hey, Sy! Are you almost here yet?" Your voice carried a hint of strain as you focused on dinner preparations. You had cubed some steak, and the hot grease sizzled and popped back at you while you basted the meat with a rich butter-garlic mixture, ensuring each piece absorbed the flavorful glaze.
âYes, Kitten. I should be there in a few minutes, but check the door; there's a gift for you outside.â
âOh! Okay, I didn't know. Iâll go look.â You disconnected the call with Sylus and went to the front door of your house. You saw an absurdly large box waiting for you as you opened the door. You maneuvered the box inside, wanting to open it. You grabbed your knife, tearing through the tape on the top. Once opened, you saw the little white note inside waiting for you.Â
âFor our date.â The simple cursive of the letter made you raise an eyebrow till you bent down and opened the box. You found face masks, bath bombs, moisturizers, oils, candles, and anything you could have desired.
âAh, so he planned a self-care night. How cute!â Then you heard the door creak open, causing you to turn around. You dropped the items swiftly back in the box, overwhelmed with emotion. Â
âIâm home, my love,â he said sweetly. A large smile instantly plastered your face at the sight of him, and you ran into his arms. You could admit that while you were growing used to your hyper-independence, you missed him. His scent, his touch, his presence. How your days to weeks apart made your heart grow fonder was amazing.
You ran to him, jumping in his arms. He caught you quickly as you gave him a tight hug. âI missed you,â you whispered into his ear, pressing soft kisses to his ear lobe. He shuddered at the feeling of your kiss, his eyes falling closed. You pulled your head back to look into his eyes. The heat of your soft kisses ran through him as he opened his eyes to meet yours. He placed his forehead flush against yours, a smile appearing on his face. His hands tightened his hold on you.Â
âOh, sweetie, you donât want to know how much I wished I could come to you this past week,â Sylus said, his eyes dropping to your lips. Holding you with just one arm, his right hand caressed your face. Your face flushed a bit. The look in his eyes said even more than his words. His thumb brushed your bottom lip, âI missed this,â he said, kissing you languidly, almost like you were frozen in time. âAnd this,â his hand moved, tilting your chin upwards and to the side, pressing a taught kiss to your jaw. âThis,â he tilted his head and kissed your neck slowly, starting where your jaw meets your neck, down to where your collarbone begins, before his teeth found your skin, nibbling on it gently.Â
A rough breath came from your lips. The feeling of his lips and teeth on you always felt amazing. âSylusss, letâs finish dinner. I smell it burning,â you said, smelling the cube steak slowly turning into burnt steak. Â
He kissed you once more and nibbled on the skin by your collarbone. âOkay, we wouldnât want dinner to burn now, would we?â he laughed, placing you on your feet. You turned around and made your way to the kitchen, still feeling flustered by how he kissed you moments ago.Â
Sylus followed closely behind, his presence warm and comforting. You carefully plated the mealâtender, butter-basted (slightly burnt) steak cubes, roasted vegetables, and creamy mashed potatoes. The rich aroma filled the kitchen, the perfect mix of savory and satisfying.
"Smells amazing, sweetie," Sylus murmured as he leaned against the counter, watching you with that familiar, teasing grin.
You handed him his plate, the warmth of the food almost matching the heat between you two. Together, you carried the plates to the couch, where the night would begin. The soft lighting in your house casts a cozy glow, setting the perfect mood for the evening ahead.
"Dinner and a show?" he teased, settling beside you, his eyes lingering on yours.
You laughed softly. "Something like that. Letâs just say⌠we wonât leave this couch for a while."
Sylus raised an eyebrow, clearly intrigued. "I like the sound of that."
You both dug into the meal, the flavors rich and comforting, but the real excitement lingered between each bite, the anticipation building for the rest of the date.
The movie you chose to accompany your dinner was a sad romantic comedy. It may not have been the best choice because now you are trying to keep tears from falling from your eyes. You wanted to enjoy your time with Sylus, not cry over nothing.
But you couldnât help yourself. The movie discusses a couple struggling to navigate their careers. They got pulled in different directions and did not end up together⌠It was eerie; it was too reminiscent of your current insecurities.
You turned your head, looking at Sylus, who was already turned towards you. His brows furrowed in concern. âWhatâs going on in that pretty little mind of yours, hmm?â he said, bringing his hand to rest on your cheek as he slowly stroked your face.Â
His tenderness and compassion for you were mind-blowing. His never-ending patience was world-shattering. A tear fell from your eye, wetting his hand. âIs this going to work? I donât want to end up like them, Sylus.â You finally met his fierce eyes, forcing yourself to hold contact as you shared your insecurity with him.
âListen, this isnât forever. It's hard now, but it is temporary. I will make sure of that, " he said, his voice strained at the sight of your tears. He pulled you forward to hug him, and his embrace instantly comforted you. âI promise,â he whispered into your ear, placing the softest kiss on your earlobe.Â
You pulled back ever so slightly to look him in the eyes. âI trust you, Sylus,â you said, sniffling and wiping your face. He smiled at you slightly, and your admission meant much more to him than youâd ever know.Â
âLetâs continue our date. I found those face masks youâve been texting me,â he offered. âI saw! Whereâd you even find those,â you exclaimed and lightly hit his chest. You both laughed together, feeling a bit lighter now.
You shifted to your shared bathroom, which had quite an industrial feel. The walls were covered with deep blue tiles, and the floor was a patterned blue tile, which beautifully complemented the gold and brown accents throughout the room. Walking on your bare feet, the tiles felt cold under your feet, chilling your whole body and giving you goosebumps.Â
Sylus followed behind you closely. The brown box rested in his large hands as he placed it on the wide granite counter. He unpacked the box, pulling out the candles, face masks, oils/lotions, and bath items.Â
You walked behind him, grabbing the candles and placing them around the large bathroom. The scent of a sweet candle promptly filled the air, spreading through the room. You turned off the warm lights, allowing the candles to be your light source.Â
Further setting your space for the date, you turned on some smooth jazzâsomething you and Sylus would appreciate. Playing instruments was not an easy feat, as you would know after your multiple failed attempts at playing the piano.Â
Walking back into the bathroom connected to your primary suite, you saw that Sylus had begun to draw bath water for you two. His hand was wading in and out of the water, monitoring the temperature. You just watched as he worked. He had fresh roses in a plastic bag on the floor next to him. He picked them up, removing the petals. The red roses filled the white bathtub, some resting atop the beautiful bubble bath he made for you two.
âDo you need help getting ready for the bath?â He said suddenly, turning his head to look at you, a slight grin on your face.
âI could use some help,â you said playfully, a pout forming on your cocked head.Â
Sylus stopped the bath water and was now ready for you two to share. He made his way over to you and stood tall before you. You lifted your arms, and he moved to lift your t-shirt above your head, tossing it somewhere in the bedroom, leaving you in a lacy black bra. You watched his eyes shift downward to your chest before looking you in the eyes. He laughed a bit, knowing you caught him looking.
âYour turn, Sy,â you said.
âWhatever you say, Sweetie,â he replied playfully. He lifted his arms above his head, knowing damn well he was too tall for you to pull the shirt above his head. So, instead, he moved to his knees, making it easier for you. You reached down, pulling his casual shirt over his head, leaving him shirtless, on his knees for you. Your eyes widened a bit at the sight. Youâd never get over this.
âNow, these must go,â Sylus said. He was hooking his large fingers into the waistband of your black leggings and panties. He pulled them down slowly, leaving you in just a bra before him. âAlways so beautiful for me,â he said, desire filled his eyes.Â
He reluctantly stood to his feet, standing at full height as he moved to unclasp your bra. âMay I?â He whispered tenderly against the shell of your ear.Â
âOf course, baby,â you said softly. You heard the click of the bra behind you, your breasts falling as they left the support of the bra.Â
Sylus stepped back, looking over your nude body.Â
You flushed at his gaze, lifting your arms to cover your body. âThe bath is getting cold,â you said, suddenly feeling shy in front of your husband.
âLetâs get in, sweetie,â Sylus said with a grin, swiftly slipping off his sweatpants and briefs. He lowered himself into the bath, the water rippling as he settled in, leaving space for you to join him.
You stepped into the hot bath, the warmth enveloping your legs as the water sloshed with your added weight. Steadying your hands on the tub's edge, you guided yourself in, sinking fully until your back rested against Sylusâs broad chest. The hot water worked wonders on your tense muscles, soothing the stress from both your bodies.
The demands of your careers, the physical toll of your work as a hunter, and the mental strain of being apart all faded away at this moment. This was exactly what you both needed: to be close and together.
Closing your eyes, you leaned your head to the side, resting it on Sylusâs strong bicep. You lost yourself in the feeling of him, ignoring the soft glow of candles and the distant music. None of it mattered as much as the sensation of his body against yours. You could feel the rise and fall of his chest, the hard lines of his abs, the strength in his thighs. Your fingers traced the vein from his bicep to his forearm, grounding you in the moment.
The warmth of his skin against yours was everythingâcomforting, intimate. You were both aware of his cock pressed against your ass, but for now, you both ignored it, savoring the quiet closeness. In this shared silence, nothing else mattered.
The warmth of the bath pulled you into a sense of calm, but the steady rise and fall of Sylusâs chest beneath you stirred something more. You could not ignore how his hands started to drift, one moving slowly up your arm, the other settling on your waist, his finger tracing gentle circles on your skin. A quiet hum of satisfaction escaped your lips as you shifted slightly, pressing your back more firmly against him.
âYou feel incredible, sweetie,â Sylus murmured into your ear, his deep voice sending a shiver through you despite the warmth of the water.
The light touch of his lips grazed your shoulder, and you felt a surge of heat build inside you. His lips lingered, pressing soft, teasing kisses along your neck, his breath hot against your skin.Â
You tilted your head back to give him better access, your heart quickening as his touch became firmer, more deliberate. The tension between you that had been quietly building suddenly felt undeniable. His hand slid down to your thigh, squeezing gently, and you felt a low moan escape your lips.
"Sylus..." you whispered, your voice breathless, your body instinctively pressing against him. His cock, which you both had been ignoring, now became impossible to dismiss.
He growled softly, lips still brushing your neck. "Iâve missed this," Sylus whispered, his lips brushing your ear, voice deep and full of desire. "But I think it's time we take this somewhere... a little more open."
Without waiting for an answer, he shifted beneath you, his strong arms lifting you out of the water as easily as if you weighed nothing. Water dripped from your skin, splashing back into the tub as he stood, holding you effortlessly in his arms.
"Sylus!" you gasped, gripping his shoulders as he carried you with that familiar, confident grin. He didnât speak and just gave you a knowing look, his eyes dark with intent.
He walked you over to the bathroom counter, the cool surface contrasting the heat radiating from your body. Gently but firmly, Sylus sat you down, your wet skin making contact with the smooth countertop, the chill making you gasp.
Before you could fully adjust to your new position, he dropped to his knees in front of you, his hands tugging you forward, positioning you exactly how he wanted. His gaze locked onto yours as he parted your plush thighs, his breath hot against your skin.
"I told you, sweetie," he growled, eyes filled with desire. "Your wish is my command."
Your eyes widened at the sight of him on his knees before you. You were breathless, waiting for his next move.
Sylusâs fingers slotted between your folds, moving to spread them open for him. Your pussy was already so wet, and his fingers were soaked in your slick just from opening you up. He pressed a firm kiss against your pretty little clit. His kiss was slow, testing your reaction. Your hips bucked from his kiss. He could tell youâve grown needy for him.Â
âIt seems I'm not taking good care of my wife.â His intense gaze reached yours. His mouth opened, allowing his hot tongue to make contact with your sensitive clit.Â
A moan fell from your lips. You were quickly feeling overwhelmed. The cold counter, your wet skin, his tongue, his eye contact. You couldnât help but close your eyes. There was too much going on.Â
His tongue expertly flicked your clit, and he was messily making out with your cunt. He decided he would spell his name on it. He loved reminding you who you belonged to after your time apart. He moved his index finger, choosing to work your hole while pleasing your clit. His finger stroked your entrance back and forth, dipping inside a bit more each time he made a pass. You moved your hands to grip under your legs, bracing yourself. Your head bent back, resting against the large mirror in the bathroom.Â
He shifted his expert tongue, closing his lips around your clit. Nibbling on your clit lightly, dragging your attention back to him. Itâs almost like he was punishing you for looking away from him.Â
âEyes on me, Kitten,â Sylus said, his words sending vibrations straight into your clit, as he pushed his larger finger into you. Beginning to stroke your insides, he found that little sensitive button inside you, pressing it firmly, causing you to squirm beneath him, growing heat in your belly. You could feel the heat going to your face at the sight before you.Â
Sylus wantedâneeded all of you, but more than anything, he needed your attention. He has to know that you share his desire.
âYes,â you said breathlessly. You fought to keep your eye on him, even as your pleasure began to build up inside you. The heat of his mouth, his fingers pumping into you expertly, just felt so good.
During the days you spent apart, you counted the hours away. The feeling of his tongue on yours, his body against yours, nothing could compare to what you share with Sylus. The spots are the only ones he knows and can only dare to explore. He blew your mind every time.Â
You shifted one of your hands to grip his white hair. It slotted between your fingers so easily when you tugged it like that. A groan released from his mouth, vibrating your cunt.Â
âIâ oh fuck,â you said suddenly as your hips began to spasm hard against his beautiful face. Your hips lifted at the intensity of the pleasure running through you.
âI know. Come for me, darling,â He purred into you. He kept his mouth on you as you rode out your high. You rode his face, spreading your juices all over him.
Sylus smirked at you. His face was covered in your arousal as you slowly released your grip on his hair. A lazy smile appeared on your face as he stood to kiss you, his hand reaching out, cupping your face sweetly. He kissed you slowly, saving this moment with you. The way he pressed against you sent warmth through your veins.Â
Reluctantly parting his lips from yours, he lifted you off your ass onto your feet.
âTurn around for me, Kitten,â he commanded you sweetly. And you complied, turning around and facing the large mirror before you in the bathroom. You bent over on the counter, the cold granite causing your nipples to harden against it. You rested on your forearms, making eye contact with Sylus in the mirror. He licked his lips, collecting your remaining arousal on his tongue.
And he held that with you, not daring to look away. He took his cock in his hands, his girth heavy in his hands, and he guided himself to your cunt. Gauging your reaction, he rubbed his cock against your slit, and you squirmed a bit, still sensitive from your earlier orgasm.Â
He pushed into you slowly, agonizingly slow. Your eyes were a bit teary as you bit your lip, watching him tease you. You could feel the burn of him stretching you out. Itâd been so long since he fucked you. âdonât tease,â you whined, your lips pouting slightly. You turned back, looking at him directly. âI need you,â you said, your body burning with need.
He kissed you roughly, tilting your head a bit to allow him better access to your lips. At the same time, he sheathed himself fully inside you. A desperate moan fell from your lips, and you tilted your head forward, watching him in the mirror. He took on a slow, deep pace at first, dragging his hips back before pounding back into you.Â
His hands found your lower back, gripping your flesh, bracing himself as he pounded into you. The intensity of his thrusts caused your body to create friction against the counter. Your breast, your stomach, his hands on your backside. It just felt so good.
He thrust into you repeatedly, and you heard the slap of his heavy erection pounding into you. The slap of his balls hit your clit repeatedly as he kept his rhythm. Breaking his eye contact with you, Sylus's eyes trained on where he was pounding into you. Every time he pulled out, your cunt dragged him back in. Begging for him not to pull away. You kept gripping down on him.
He watched as your juices mixed, the white film appearing around the base of his cock. A sly smile appeared on his lips, sending the desire coursing through his veins. He closed his eyes, focusing on how you felt around him. Your gummy walls sucked him in, asking for him to stay. You kept gripping his cock so well you couldnât possibly understand what you were doing to him. He could feel every little time you twitched, gripped him, sucked down on him. And the sounds coming from your pretty little mouth were egging him on. Begging him to come in your pretty pussy, and he couldnât resist much longer.Â
You felt yourself involuntarily grip down on Sylus again, and you turned your head to look at him directly, his pretty face, the flush on his cheeks. He was driving you crazy, too. He kept hitting that sensitive spot inside you, his heavy balls slapping your clit over and over. You couldnât help but grip down on him again. You watched his eyebrows furrow as he slightly opened his eyes to look at yours. His eyes squinted as pleasure began to take over his body.Â
âYou feel so good,â he gritted out, his flushed face apparent as you looked at him more closely. The sight is so erotic, a moan released from your lips. You could feel your wetness all over him. Your cunt was dripping at the sight before you.Â
He began to keel over you. Resting a bit on your back as his thrusts became more sloppy. He laid on top of you completely, âYouâll take my come, wonât you, baby?â he whispered in your ear.Â
âYâyes,â you moaned out. His eyes closed as he rutted into you over and over as his ropes of come filled you.Â
Your hands gripped the counter, steadying yourself until his thrusts slowed up a bit. He was losing his pace and becoming sloppy as he finished riding his high.
His breathing was uneven as he rested his weight on your backside. âYouâre always so good for me, Kitten,â he said breathlessly.
He pulled out slowly, trying to keep his seed in you before he got on his knees, and your eyebrows hit your hairline in shock.
âCanât let this escape now, can we?â Sylus said, slight amusement in his voice as he used his fingers to push his release back inside you before he stood up and licked his two fingers clean. He was looking into your eyes using the mirror.
âSylus!â you exclaimed at the sight. Heâd never done that before. It's a true sight to behold.
âWe taste so good together, sweetie,â he remarked casually, causing heat to go to your face as you watched him leave the room.
He returned with a soft towel, wetting the cloth in the sink, furthest from you, so as not to re-wet your now dry skin.Â
He came back over and wiped your excess shared fluids from your cunt, leaving you slightly damp from the wetness of the towel.
At that, you rolled over, sitting on the counter, before tenderly kissing Sylus on his taut lips. âThank you,â you whispered to him. Heâs always so attentive, you thought. He pressed himself flush against you before wrapping your legs around his waist.Â
âLetâs lay down now,â he said, picking you up.Â
You giggled at that. âYes, letâs,â you said with a large smile. You missed this.
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I feel like Sylus and Raf are the most fun to write for. Their stories always have so much banter idk. THIS IS NOT ZAYNE SHADE, that's my man fr.
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sleeping separately after an argument pt. 1
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characters: luffy, zoro, usopp, and sanji x fem! reader summary: how the strawhat boys would react to you sleeping alone after an argument CW: mainly fluff, slight angst others: not proofread, lowercase intended, and pictures found on pinterest
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Monkey D. Luffy
luffy doesn't handle conflict well, especially not one with someone he cares deeply about. after the argument you guys had earlier, he would never suspected that you would sleep else where for the night.
at first, he would brush it off, thinking you just needed some space and that you would return to your shared room soon. but, as the night wore on, he'd find himself restless. constantly tossing and turning unable to lay as comfortably as before now that he was alone. luffy would eventually get up and wander over to your old room.
knowing him heâd poke your face (gently of course) while whispering, "hey, are you still mad at me?" his big eyes would reflect genuine concern and confusion. but because you were asleep you couldnât respond, so he would get into your bed and curl up next to you, determined to be close even if you were still upset. youâd wake up the next day to a goofy grin and a sincere apology, as he was eager to make things right.
Roronoa Zoro
arguments with zoro are often intense but short-lived. so when you decide to sleep separately after a fight, zoro (like luffy) would be taken aback. however he, unlike luffy, would initially be too proud to go after you. so instead heâd brood silently, replaying the argument in his head while sharpening his swords.
you were the dramatic one. right?
as the night deepened, his stoic façade would crack, causing the gnawing sense of regret to seep in. heâd eventually get up, quietly making his way to your old room.
âbabe?â his voice was uncharacteristically soft cautiously enters the room. after seeing your sleeping figure his demeanor immediately softens.
without a word, he'd lie down on the floor next to your bed, his presence a silent apology. he would wake up before you like usual but after breakfast he would pull you aside giving you a gruff but sincere apology, his actions speaking louder than his words.
God Ussop
usopp is sensitive and prone to overthinking. after any argument, he'd probably be filled with anxiety and self-doubt. which would worsen after you decide to sleep separately. he'd pace around, muttering to himself and crafting elaborate scenarios in his head of what this could mean.
is this it?
do you not love him anymore?
were you going to break up with him?
eventually, he'd muster the courage to approach you, armed with a heartfelt speech. ready to kneel beside you and pour his heart out with the promise to do better. but after walking to your old room and seeing you sleep so soundly his resolve would soften. not wanting to wake you he would leave telling himself that heâd apologize in the morning.
instead of going to bed though he would go to his factory deciding to make you a small gift to show his sincerity. he would place that along with a short an apology letter by your door. hoping to give you a better apology in the morning.
Vinsmoke Sanji
sanji would be devastated if you chose to sleep separately after an argument. unlike usopp, he wouldnât overthink it. he knows you love him just needed some space. despite thinking that, he would never let you go to sleep upset especially not at him.
so he'd spend the majority of the night in the kitchen, preparing ingredients for tomorrow and making you a midnight snack.
with a tray of food on hand heâd softly knocks on the door of your old bedroom, his voice both gentle and cautious. âmy love? i brought food. can i come in so we can talk?â
your lights were on so he knew you were up, after waiting for a minute or so he would let out a relieved sigh as you opened the door and making room for him to enter.
you guys would spend the rest of the night talking about your argument except this time with a much clearer head. once he knew that you both were on the same page he would bring you back to your share room to sleep.
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hi guys! thanks for reading, this is my first attempt at writing hc so idk if i did it right lol but it was fun!! i also have a couple more characters in my draft using this idea. iâll post them if this does well (fingers crossed).
part 2 is posted!!
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pairing: lewis hamilton x fem swimmer reader
some people are getting a bit too ahead of themselves
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user1: when will y'all learn?
user2: i swear they did this back in 2021, saying she wasn't good enough any more and then BAM she won double gold and they were suspiciously quiet after
user3: i hope she dunks on their heads again
charles_leclerc: STOP UNDERRATING HER I SWEAR TO FUCK
user4: bro hasn't even started as lewis' teammate and he's already ready to throw down for y/n
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lewishamilton: he's just lonely? or not? i can't keep up with his relationship drama
landonorris: EXCUSE ME?
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georgerussell63: and i checked, i don't think there's any gb swimmers in your events (other than the relays) so you'll have my full support
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lewishamilton: he's a little confused but he's got the spirit
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lewishamilton: @espn KEEP MY (soon to be) WIFE'S NAME OUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTH
yourusername: that was so hot
lewishamilton: you wiping the floor with the whole pool was so hot
lewishamilton: but then again you're hot doing literally anything
yourusername: says you mr model
lewishamilton: i got a few things i wanna model for you ...
yourusername: is it my gold medal and nothing else ?
lewishamilton: how did you know ???
user32: so winning a gold medal really does make you horny on main
user33: some of us lived through them with no PR managers, this is tame
user34: they're one couple where it really wouldn't surprise me if something got leaked
yourusername: can confirm it tastes as sweet as it did in tokyo
oscarpiastri: could you hear me cheering? i was so loud :)
yourusername: funnily enough, no
oscarpiastri: oh :(
yourusername: but i felt it in my spirit!
oscarpiastri: good :) because i think i have slightly deafened your husband đ¤ˇââď¸
lewishamilton: my ears are still ringing but i'll take it because you were supporting y/n
yourusername: awwww you cuties
user35: yall saying that kimi antonelli is lewis' grid kid but it's clearly oscar
user36: if i watched lewis put yellow and green glitter on oscar's face on live tv it's not a conversation to start with
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yourusername: gold in both 100m and 200m backstroke is more than i could've ever dreamed coming into these games, thank you to my family, friends and wonderful fiance for their support. and to the others, you know who you are, be careful on all those false starts you keep making ;)
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user39: her winning the golds regardless isn't enough i need a gun
espn: ... i'm sorry?
lewishamilton: YOU SHOULD BE
espn: sir, i am just an intern who posts what i am given
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espn: i can give you my boss' email?
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lewishamilton: i'm so so so so so so proud and so so so glad that everything lined up for me to be there and witness your excellence in person đđž
yourusername: i love you so much and couldn't have done it without you, all those facetime dates and missed anniversaries are worth it in the end
yourusername: although i am looking forward to following you around the world again for a bit
user41: thank fuck you're not retiring ????
yourusername: who said that ??? @espn was it you again??
espn: not this time i swear!
yourusername: i can confirm that i am not retiring, us terrorising all the youngsters in our sport is kind of our whole bit
lewishamilton: although some people could learn to walk away - cough @fernandoalo_oficial
yourusername: really?
lewishamilton: beef waits for no one
fernandoalo_oficial: well i personally was cheering on y/n, you can choke
user42: how does y/n look so good even after racing?
yourusername: getting laid well and often đđź
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lewishamilton: i love you more
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Whatâs the Worst That Can Happen?
Charles Leclerc x Reader
Summary: Charles convinces his unathletic girlfriend to join him for his annual winter training ski trip ⌠whatâs the worst that can happen?
Warnings: description of ski injury and mentions of surgery
Based on this request
âPretty please?â Charles begs, giving you his best puppy dog eyes.
You let out an exaggerated sigh. âOh come on, you know Iâm hopeless at anything athletic. Iâll just end up faceplanting in the snow the whole time.â
Charles grins, wrapping his arms around your waist. âThatâs what Iâm here for, to catch you when you fall.â
âYeah until I drag us both down a mountain,â you retort.
He laughs. âI promise I wonât let that happen. Weâll start nice and easy on the bunny slopes.â
You raise an eyebrow. âBunny slopes? Mr. Formula 1 driver wants to ski the bunny slopes with his clumsy girlfriend?â
âHey, everyone has to start somewhere,â Charles protests. âEven the great Charles Leclerc was once a beginner. And the bunny slopes are the perfect place to learn together.â
You snuggle against his chest, still not convinced. âBut itâs so cold there. You know I hate being cold.â
Charles kisses the top of your head. âThe hotel has an amazing spa with hot tubs and a sauna. We can warm up in there after skiing. Iâll even give you a massage if youâre sore from falling down too much.â
âGee thanks,â you laugh. âBut what if I really am hopeless at it? I donât want to ruin your trip.â
âImpossible,â Charles declares. âYou could never ruin anything. This is about us having fun together, not about expert skiing. Though I have no doubt youâll be shredding the black diamonds in no time.â
You smack his chest playfully. âOkay now youâre just lying to make me feel better.â
âNever,â Charles gasps in mock offense. âI have complete faith in your yet-to-be-discovered skiing abilities.â
You bite your lip, smiling shyly. His enthusiasm is adorable, even if misplaced. âWell, I guess it could be fun to try something new together ...â
Charles pumps his fist in excitement. âYes! Thatâs my girl, up for an adventure!â
You hold up a finger in warning. âBut I get to pick my own skis, and a helmet with a cute design on it. If Iâm going to be falling a lot, I at least want to look stylish doing it.â
Charles grins. âOf course, whatever you need. Iâll take you to the best ski shops in town. Youâll be the most fashionable beginner skier on the mountain.â
You smile, shaking your head. âYouâre crazy, you know that? Most guys wouldnât want to deal with their girlfriends being accident-prone novices who will just slow them down.â
Charles takes your hands in his, gazing into your eyes earnestly. âMost guys are idiots then. I donât care if youâre the clumsiest skier ever, I just want to experience new things with you. Weâll take everything slow, stop for plenty of hot chocolate breaks, and Iâll catch you every time you start to slip. The most important thing is being together.â
Your heart flutters at his words. You lean in for a tender kiss. âHow did I get so lucky to find a man as sweet and patient as you?â
Charles smiles, pulling you close again. âIâm the lucky one. Now come on, we better start packing if we want to make our flight tomorrow morning!â
You wrinkle your nose. âTomorrow? As in, the day after today? Donât you think thatâs rushing it a bit?â
âWhy wait any longer to start having fun?â Charles counters enthusiastically. âUnless ⌠youâre trying to back out already?â He pouts accusingly.
âNo, no, I already agreed!â You insist. âItâs just, my suitcase is a mess and Iâll have to dig through my winter clothes and shop for ski gear and ...â Your protests trail off at the amused look on his face.
âExcuses, excuses,â Charles teases. âAdmit it, youâre trying to stall so you can change your mind.â
You smack his shoulder again. âI am not! I promise Iâm not backing out. Iâm just ⌠nervous. Iâve never skied before, what if I really am a disaster?â You bite your lip anxiously.
Charles tilts your chin up. âHey, youâre going to do great. Iâll be with you every step of the way. But if you really arenât comfortable, we can rethink this.â His eyes search yours with concern. âI donât want you to feel pressured into anything, even from me. We can pick a different winter trip if you would rather do something else.â
You shake your head, smiling softly. âNo, itâs okay. Youâre right, itâll be fun to try something new together. Iâm just psyching myself out cause Iâve never been skiing before. But with you there supporting me ⌠I can do it.â
Charlesâs face lights up. âYeah?â
You nod, leaning up on your toes for another lingering kiss. âYeah. I trust you.â
âYouâre the best!â Charles shouts gleefully, lifting you up and spinning you around. You cling to his shoulders, laughing.
âWhoa there, save some of that energy for the slopes,â you tease.
Charles sets you down gently, though his eyes still sparkle with exhilaration. âIâm just excited, thatâs all. This is going to be such an amazing trip.â He kisses your forehead. âThank you for agreeing to come. It means the world that you trust me enough to try this with me.â
You smile, running a hand through his hair. âOf course. Any chance to spend time with you is worth facing my fears and clumsiness.â
Charles grins. âRemember you said that when I have to stop every ten feet on the bunny slope to help you up.â
You smack his chest playfully. âHey! I might not be totally hopeless.â
âYouâre right, Iâm sorry,â Charles says seriously. âFor all I know, you could be a secret skiing prodigy.â
You snort. âYeah right. But I promise Iâll try my best not to plow into too many innocent bystanders.â
âThatâs the spirit!â Charles encourages. âWeâre going to have the best time.â
You smile up at him softly. âI know. Anywhere with you feels like an adventure.â
Charlesâs eyes shine with adoration. He leans down for one more lingering kiss. âI love you so much. Now come on, weâve got packing to do!â
He grabs your hand and you let him lead you excitedly down the hall, butterflies swirling in your stomach. You still feel nervous attempting something so out of your comfort zone. But Charlesâs childlike enthusiasm is contagious. And you know without a doubt that by his side, youâre ready to try anything.
Whatâs the worst that can happen?
***
Famous last words.
This is the only thought running through your head as you stand at the top of the beginner ski slope, knees knocking together nervously. Charles had seemed so confident about this yesterday. But now, staring down the gentle incline covered in packed snow, youâre starting to realize how insane it is to strap slippery sticks to your feet and careen down a mountain.
Beginner slope or not, youâre certain to make a fool of yourself.
Charles must notice your trepidation, because he squeezes your mittened hand gently. âYouâve got this, mon amour. Iâll be right by your side the whole time.â
You smile weakly, comforted by his presence. At least when you inevitably crash and burn, it will be into his strong, steady arms.
Charles grins at you eagerly. âReady to give it a try?â
You take a deep breath, willing your knees to stop quaking. âAs Iâll ever be.â
âThatâs the spirit!â Charles says brightly. He turns to address the small crowd behind you â his performance coach Andrea, best friend Joris, photographer Antoine, trainer Nico, and friend Antonio. âOkay guys, letâs start nice and easy so she can get the hang of it. Weâll take turns skiing slowly beside her.â
You feel a rush of gratitude for Charlesâ patience and consideration. The other men cheerfully voice their agreement. With so many experienced skiers guiding you, surely you can handle gently sliding down this minor incline.
Charles volunteers to go first, expertly snapping into his skis and gliding to your side. âJust stay relaxed, bend your knees, and focus on keeping your tips pointing forward. The snow will do most of the work, you just have to guide the direction. Iâll stay right here if you need me.â
You wobble forward, mimicking Charlesâ athletic stance as best you can. The slope doesnât look nearly as gentle anymore now that youâre staring down it. But with Charlesâ coaxing, you slowly push off.
For a moment, you feel triumphant. The icy wind whips past your face as you coast downhill, skis sliding smoothly. Youâre doing it! This isnât so hard after all.
But your small victory is short-lived. An unexpected bump jolts you, throwing off your tenuous balance. You pinwheel your arms frantically as the ground rushes up to meet you.
Before you can taste snow, Charlesâ strong hands grip your waist, stabilizing you back upright. âWhoa there! Iâve got you, just regain your balance.â
Your heart pounds against your ribs. But the reassurance in Charlesâs voice helps settle your nerves. With his support steadying you, you manage to get both skis back under control.
âThanks,â you sigh in relief. âThat would have been a quick first run.â
Charles grins. âWhat are ski instructors for? You recovered nicely. Want to keep going to the bottom?â
You eye the remainder of the slope warily. But so far with Charlesâ help, youâve managed not to cause a complete disaster. âOkay, but stay close please.â
âAlways,â Charles promises, sticking to your side like glue.
With Charlesâ hand hovering protectively behind your back, you make it the rest of the way down the slope with only a few wobbles. At the bottom, you collapse into Charlesâ arms, exhilarated.
âI did it!â You cheer. Charles sweeps you up in a hug, spinning you around.
âYou were amazing!â He proclaims proudly. âA natural.â
You smack his shoulder. âOh stop, I would have face-planted in two seconds without you.â
âBut you didnât and thatâs what matters,â Charles insists earnestly. âI told you this would be fun!â
You canât help but smile, caught up in his enthusiasm. As the rest of the group takes their turns skiing slowly beside you for a few more timid runs, you start to relax into the motion. Having skilled athletes guide you step-by-step gives you the confidence to slide a little faster, turn more smoothly, and keep your balance over bumps.
With each successful run, Charlesâ grin grows impossibly wider. âLook at you go!â He exclaims after your latest effort. âYouâve gotten so good, I might have some competition soon.â
You snort. âLetâs not get carried away.â But secretly, youâre thrilled by the progress. Maybe you do have some hidden athletic talent after all.
On your next run, youâre feeling confident enough to wave Charles forward. âI think I can make it one time on my own now. Just stay ahead in case I start to wobble.â
âYou sure?â Charles checks, poised protectively at your side. At your firm nod, he smiles. âAlright, youâve got this! Iâll just be a few paces ahead.â
As Charles slides effortlessly downhill, you push off after him, a fierce look of determination on your face. For a few moments, everything goes perfectly. You whoop excitedly as you zip down the slope, wind stinging your cheeks. Charles cheers you on from where heâs stopped halfway down.
But right as you reach him, disaster strikes. Your left ski hits a patch of ice and skids wildly sideways. You flail your arms, trying to stay upright, but itâs too late. Your legs fly out from under you and youâre airborne, the white ground spinning dizzily.
You slam down hard on your bottom with a painful whump. For a second, stunned silence fills the air. Then Charles is at your side, helping you up as raucous laughter echoes from the group gathered at the bottom.
âYou okay?â Charles asks, barely contained mirth dancing in his eyes.
You groan theatrically. âOnly my pride is bruised.â
Charles wraps an arm around your shoulders, joining in the laughter. âIt was an awesome run up until that point!â
You lean your throbbing head against him for support. âLaugh it up, superstar. We canât all be pros like you.â
Charles presses a quick kiss to your helmet. âEven the pros take spills sometimes. Falling is part of learning. And you really are getting so good!â
From below, Joris cups his hands to shout encouragingly, âWeâre proud of you!â The rest of the group gives thumbs up and cheers.
Their support, combined with Charlesâ steadfast pride, melts away your embarrassment. This mishap was simply proof you still have more to learn on your journey to skiing mediocrity.
After a few more cautious runs under the wing of Charlesâ companions, you regain the courage to try solo again. Each time you stay upright a little longer, recovering from slips with increasing agility. The sun reflects brilliantly off the pristine white slopes, making you squint against the glare. But with the Dolomites rising majestically around you, icy air filling your lungs, and Charlesâ voice urging you onward, you feel truly in your element.
By afternoon, the group decides youâre ready for something more challenging. Charles leads everyone to the top of a longer and steeper slope. Itâs still rated for beginners, but looking down the incline makes your stomach drop.
âYouâve got this,â Charles says as you stare uncertainly. âIt looks scary, but youâll build up speed gradually. Just remember everything youâve learned.â
You take a deep breath and nod, encouraged by his vote of confidence. As the others line up to follow behind you, Charles gives your gloved hand one last encouraging squeeze.
âSee you at the bottom, mon amour!â He snaps on his own skis and glides smoothly to the base to wait. Heart hammering against your ribs, you push off.
The acceleration down the hill is alarming at first, icy wind biting your cheeks. But focusing on keeping your skis parallel, you manage to control your speed, leaning into smooth turns like Charles taught you.
Halfway down the slope you chance a glance over your shoulder. The group is fanned out behind you, following your path and whooping encouragement. Their cheers on this more difficult hill send a thrill of pride through you. Just wait until you tell your friends back home that you, Miss Uncoordinated Klutz herself, skied down an actual mountain!
But in your moment of distraction, disaster strikes again. Your right ski snags on something, jerking you off balance. Panicked, you spin your arms rapidly to recover. But itâs too late. Youâre careening out of control, picking up dangerous speed.
âLook out!â You scream as you zip across the slope sideways. But the ground is racing too fast to stop. Other skiers scatter hastily out of your path as you barrel toward them like a runaway freight train. You slam through their midst in a spray of snow, not even having time to wince apologetically at the curses that follow your wake.
Up ahead, Charlesâ figure grows rapidly larger as you hurtle toward him. He holds out his arms bracingly, but the impact when you collide sends you both tumbling head over heels in a tangle of skis and poles. Snow sprays violently in your wake.
When you finally roll to a stop, face down and groaning at the base of the slope, all is silent. Hesitantly you raise your head, blinking snow from your eyelashes. The sight that greets you is one of absolute chaos.
Skiers litter the slope, sprawled in your destructive path like fallen bowling pins. Poles, hats, and gloves are strewn haphazardly across the snow. Fresh scarlet tracks stain the pristine white from ski edges catching on now-shredded pants and jackets. Groans of pain and bewilderment fill the air.
Horrified, your gaze lands on Charles pushing himself up just a few feet away, covered head to toe in snow. He shakes powder from his hair, blinking dazedly. Then his eyes land on you.
âMon amour, are you okay?â He asks, scrambling over in concern.
Mortified tears prickle your eyes as you stare speechlessly around at the scene of destruction. So much for impressing everyone with your burgeoning ski talents.
Some first day on the slopes this turned out to be.
***
As Charles helps haul you to your feet, pain suddenly explodes in your left knee. You cry out, leg buckling dangerously beneath you. Charlesâ arms instantly wrap around your waist, holding you up.
âWhatâs wrong?â He asks, brow creased in concern.
You grimace, tentatively trying to put weight on your leg again only for searing agony to shoot through your knee joint. âSomethingâs really wrong,â you gasp through clenched teeth.
Charlesâ face pales. He keeps you supported against his side as he quickly unclips your skis so youâre not stuck in them. The moment your left foot touches the snow though, you yell in pain, leg giving out dangerously again.
Charles sweeps you up effortlessly in his arms. âIâve got you, donât try to stand on it,â he urges worriedly.
Over Charlesâ shoulder, you see his friends weaving through the dispersing crowd of skiers, fetching a medic. As they confer in urgent French and Italian, Charles holds you close, face etched with guilt.
âThis is all my fault,â he murmurs, distressed. âI never should have pushed you to try skiing when you werenât comfortable.â
Despite the fire burning inside your knee, you force a pained smile, touching Charlesâ cheek. âHey, donât do that. I wanted to try, remember? You didnât pressure me into anything.â
Charles just shakes his head bitterly. âBut look what happened. Iâm so sorry, mon amour.â
You open your mouth to protest further, but just then the medic arrives with a toboggan sled. Charles gently sets you down on the padded plastic. You recline back, trying not to jostle your leg as the medic examines your rapidly swelling knee.
At the lightest touch, you flinch away with a sharp cry. The medic frowns. âPossibile lesione al legamento crociato anteriore. Abbiamo bisogno di portarla in ospedale,â he says grimly.
Charles squeezes your hand, face pale. âHe thinks you may have torn your ACL. They need to take you to the hospital.â
You blink back panicked tears. Youâve always been prone to clumsiness, but nothing this severe. As the medic gestures ski patrol over to help transport you, the pain throbbing inside your knee seems to mock your brief foray into athleticism. Maybe you just arenât cut out for winter sports after all.
Charles refuses to leave your side during the bumpy toboggan ride down the mountain. At the base, an ambulance is waiting to take you to the nearest hospital. While the paramedics work swiftly to transfer you into the back, Charles cradles your hand, looking utterly distraught.
âI never should have let this happen,â he berates himself again. âWhat was I thinking taking an inexperienced skier down that slope?â
Despite your pain-induced haze, you glare sternly at him. âCharles, stop. This isnât your fault, itâs mine for losing control. Please donât blame yourself, youâll make me feel even worse.â
Charles still looks unconvinced. But he forces a tight smile, brushing hair back from your face. âIâm sorry. I just hate seeing you in pain. Letâs just focus on getting you fixed up. The doctors will know how to help.â
You nod, trying not to let panic overwhelm you. As the ambulance wails toward the hospital, Charles keeps his gaze locked comfortingly on yours.
Once there, nurses whisk you immediately in for x-rays and MRIs. Charles paces the waiting room, refusing offers from his friends to bring him food or drinks. When the doctor finally emerges, Charles springs forward anxiously. âHow is she?â
The doctorâs solemn expression says it all. âYour girlfriend has sustained a complete ACL rupture. She will require reconstructive surgery as soon as possible to repair it.â
Charles sags back against the wall, color draining from his face. You fight back tears as the doctor explains your diagnosis â one of the worst knee injuries possible. It will require months of intensive rehab even after the surgery.
When the doctor leaves, Charles returns to sit by your side from where he was pacing back and forth. The pain in your knee has settled into a pervasive throbbing. At the sight of your obvious anguish, Charlesâ stoic facade finally crumbles.
âIâm so sorry,â he chokes out, rushing to your side. âThis is all my fault.â
You grab his hand fiercely, despite the IV of painkillers tugging at your skin. âCharles, stop. I already told you not to blame yourself. It was an accident.â
âAn accident I caused by pressuring you to ski,â Charles argues miserably.
You level your most stern glare at him. âCharles Leclerc, you listen to me. I chose to try skiing. Me. Not you.â Your voice softens. âSo please stop tormenting yourself over this. It kills me to see you like this.â
Charles searches your face silently for a long moment. Finally he nods, exhaling shakily. âYouâre right. Iâm sorry.â He gently brushes a strand of hair behind your ear. âI just hate that youâre hurt. But no more blaming myself, I promise.â
You smile weakly. âGood. Now come here.â Charles leans down and you tug him into a fierce kiss, trying to convey without words that you donât hold him responsible.
When you pull back, Charles looks significantly less tormented. He caresses your cheek tenderly. âIâll take care of you, I swear. Youâll get the best care possible and recover even stronger than before.â
You try for a teasing smile. âGuess youâll have to find a new ski bunny next season.â
Charles shakes his head. âNever. No one could ever replace you.â His voice drops earnestly. âI donât care if you never ski again, I just want you healthy and happy.â
Before you can reply, the doctor returns with consent forms for surgery. When he mentions performing the operation here, Charlesâ brow furrows.
âNo, she needs the best surgeon possible for this injury,â he argues. Turning to you, he adds, âI know a specialist at a private clinic in Austria. Itâs where all the elite skiers go. Iâll fly us there tonight.â
Your eyes widen at the suggestion, but you know better than to argue once Charles is in protective mode. You have a feeling youâre about to receive world-class medical treatment fit for an Olympian.
Sure enough, Charles arranges for emergency transport to the prestigious clinic. On the flight, he sits vigilantly by your side, holding your hand through every painful bump of turbulence. By the time youâre admitted to the glamorous facility, youâre touched, but not surprised by the lengths heâs gone to in order to help you.
The surgeon Charles selected, Dr. Braun, inspires immediate confidence with his warm bedside manner and decorated credentials. After thoroughly examining your knee, he determines you are indeed a candidate for ACL reconstruction.
Charles listens intently as Dr. Braun explains the procedure, involving grafting tissue to replace your ruptured ligament. Though you try to follow along, exhaustion and pain medication make it hard to focus. All you can register is Charles rubbing your shoulder and reassuring you that Dr. Braun is the best there is. You trust Charles completely, so his confidence in this surgeon is enough.
Too soon, nurses arrive to prep you for surgery. As they wheel your gurney toward the operating room, Charles walks alongside, face etched with worry. He leans down to press a gentle kiss to your forehead.
âIâll be right here when you wake up,â he promises. âI love you so much.â
You cling to his hand for as long as possible before the nurses firmly insist he canât go any further. As the operating room doors swing shut between you, separating you from Charles, your heart clenches anxiously. But Dr. Braun smiles kindly down at you, patting your arm.
âNot to worry, weâll have that knee fixed up nicely,â he says. âWhen you wake, youâll be on the road to recovery.â
As the anesthesia mask descends and your vision fades to black, you cling to the doctorâs reassuring words. Maybe thereâs still hope for a somewhat happy ending to this disastrous ski trip after all.
***
As you blearily open your eyes, the first thing you see is Charlesâ worried face hovering over you. The moment he notices you stirring, his expression floods with relief.
âThank god,â he breathes, grasping your hand tightly. âHow are you feeling?â
You blink slowly, trying to clear the hazy fog of anesthesia from your brain. âOkay I think.â Your voice comes out scratchy. You glance down at the heavy brace immobilizing your knee and the events leading up to surgery come rushing back. âDid it ⌠go alright?â
Charles smoothes your hair back gently. âEverything went perfectly. Dr. Braun said it was a very successful surgery.â
You exhale, tension easing from your shoulders. With the capable doctor and Charles by your side, youâve made it through the first step.
Right on cue, Dr. Braun enters, smiling when he sees you awake. âWonderful, youâre up. How is our patient feeling?â
âA little groggy, but not too much pain yet,â you report.
âExcellent. The pain medication should be keeping you comfortable.â Dr. Braun moves to your bedside, examining your knee closely. âEverything continues to look promising in recovery. Youâll need to take it very easy for the next few weeks to protect the graft while it heals. But if all goes smoothly, youâll be back on your feet before you know it.â
You nod, stomach swooping anxiously at the thought of the long recovery ahead. Noticing your nervous expression, Charles gives your hand a reassuring squeeze.
âWhatever she needs, weâll make sure she has the best care and recovers properly,â he tells Dr. Braun seriously.
The doctor smiles. âHer rehabilitation will be the most crucial part. I work closely with a wonderful physical therapist, Elisa, who specializes in ACL reconstruction recovery. I highly recommend continuing your physio with her once you return home.â
Your eyes widen, not having considered that aspect yet. But Charles nods without hesitation. âJust tell us where sheâs located and Iâll arrange for her to fly out to stay with us as long as needed. Money is no object.â
âWhoa, wait a minute,â you interject, head still fuzzy but fairly certain booking a private international physiotherapist is overkill. âThatâs incredibly generous, but Iâm sure I can find someone local-â
Charles silences you with a stern look. âNot a chance. Dr. Braun said this Elisa is the best. I wonât risk your recovery with anything less.â Turning back to the doctor, he adds, âJust say the word and Iâll have a plane and a place to stay waiting for her.â
You sigh, but canât help feeling touched at the lengths Charles will go to help you heal. Dr. Braun seems equally unfazed by the bold offer â clearly Charlesâ wealth affords certain privileges in care.
âIâll speak to Elisa immediately and make the arrangements then,â Dr. Braun confirms. âWith around the clock support from both her and myself, Iâm confident youâll recover wonderfully.â He gives your other knee an encouraging pat.
Over the next few days in the upscale hospital, you begin to adjust to the restrictive new reality of your injury. While your knee remains heavily braced and immobilized, the rest of your body seems to ache from compensating. But true to his word, Charles sticks to your bedside attentively, keeping you distracted with games and books during the long inactive hours.
When Dr. Braun finally clears you for discharge, youâre armed with piles of post-op instructions, crutches, and medications. As Charles helps you hobble out of the hospital lobby, you eye the crutches nervously.
âIâm not sure I can manage these things along with the brace,â you admit. The awkward metal sticks feel precarious beneath your arms.
Charles frowns, glancing between you and the crutches uncertainly. Then in one swift motion he sweeps you up into his arms instead.
You yelp in surprise, wrapping your arms around his neck. âCharles! What are you doing?â
âCarrying you, obviously,â he states, as if this were the most natural solution in the world. When you open your mouth to protest, he silences you with a look. âThe doctor said to stay completely off your leg if possible. So no walking for you until itâs healed.â
You know better than to argue with Charles in protective caretaker mode. So you simply chuckle, shaking your head in amusement, and let him carry you like a princess out to the idling car.
At the airport, he again insists on keeping you cradled securely in his arms the entire walk out to the waiting private jet. Normally youâd feel self-conscious being lugged around like this in front of staff. But the utter tenderness in Charlesâ hold makes you feel nothing but safe.
Once settled on the plush leather seat, Charles hurriedly arranges pillows under your braced leg. âHere, keep it elevated like Dr. Braun said. Do you need more pain meds? Let me grab you an ice pack ...â
He fusses attentively until youâre thoroughly bundled up with your knee raised and iced. Only once heâs certain you have everything required for the flight does Charles take his own seat, lacing his fingers through yours.
âGet some rest if you can,â he says gently. âIâll wake you when we land to carry you home.â
You roll your eyes but canât help smiling. âMy knight in shining armor.â Leaning your head on his shoulder, you nuzzle into his warmth. The steady rumble of the engines is soothing, and despite your lingering aches, you feel yourself beginning to drift off.
Throughout the flight, Charles continues diligently caring for you. He helps you hobble to the restroom with assistance. He ensures you take your next round of medications on schedule. When the flight attendant delivers meals, Charles only picks at his own, too focused on making sure you actually eat to remember his food.
Youâre simultaneously touched and exasperated by his hyper-vigilance. But you know it comes from a place of love and residual guilt, so you endure his constant fussing without complaint. If doting on you helps absolve his conscience, then so be it.
By the time the jet begins its descent toward Nice, your eyelids are drooping heavily. Charles lifts the window shade, sunlight streaming over your face. âAlmost home,â he says with a tender smile.
You blink groggily, glancing down to make sure your knee is still properly supported. Reassured that Charles hasnât forgotten a single detail of your care, you nestle back against his chest contentedly.
As the jet coasts down the runway, Charles cradles you close, placing a kiss atop your head. âGet some rest, mon amour. Iâll carry you out and get you settled back home.â
His quiet promise fills you with cozy warmth despite the lingering chill from your ice pack. You let your heavy eyelids fall shut, lulled by the steady thump of Charlesâ heart.
Tomorrow your intensive recovery begins. But tonight, safely encircled in your loveâs arms thousands of feet in the air, you feel confident you have the strength to face whatever lies ahead.
***
When you wake a few weeks later, pale morning light is just beginning to creep across the blankets. Blearily, you glance over to see Charles already awake beside you, brow furrowed as he stares up at the ceiling.
âYouâre up early,â you murmur sleepily. âEverything okay?â
Charles startles slightly, as if pulled from deep thought. He forces a smile that doesnât reach his eyes. âOf course, just thinking about some things.â
You prop yourself up on one elbow, scrutinizing him in concern. His evasive tone is uncharacteristic. âWhatâs going on? And donât say nothing, I can tell somethingâs bothering you.â
Charles holds your gaze silently for a moment before letting out a heavy sigh. âItâs nothing, really. Iâve just been thinking about the start of the season coming up so soon.â
Your brow furrows. The opening race in Bahrain is only two weeks away. As the realization hits, your heart sinks. With your still-mending knee, it will be a lot harder to keep up with Charles globetrotting to races worldwide. For the past two seasons of your relationship, youâve attended every race possible together. The thought of that no longer being the case feels daunting.
âOh,â you say quietly. âI guess I hadnât thought that far ahead yet.â
Charlesâ expression is conflicted. He gently takes your hand, âI just hate the idea of leaving you here alone when youâre still recovering. It doesnât feel right being apart.â
You force an optimistic smile. âHey, donât worry about me. I can take care of myself and Elisa will still be here for physical therapy. Iâll be okay.â
But your reassurance doesnât seem to ease Charlesâ frown. âI know, Iâm just worried about you re-injuring yourself with no one here. I can get my mother to check on you too ...â
As he spirals back into restless thoughts, you squeeze his hand firmly. âCharles, stop. Iâll be fine, I promise. This isnât my first time on my own, remember?â
Charles grimaces. âI know, but youâre hurt now. I just hate leaving you when youâre still recovering. If something happened while I was gone ...â He trails off, looking stricken.
Your heart swells at his protectiveness. But you wonât let him torment himself with hypotheticals. Sitting up fully, you level Charles with your most stubborn expression.
âWell then, itâs a good thing you wonât be leaving me here for long, because Iâm coming with you just like always.â
Charles gapes. âWhat? No, youâre injured, thereâs no way-â
âUh uh,â you interrupt firmly. âIâve been to every race I could since we got together, and Iâm not about to miss one now over a bum knee. Iâll agree to skip pre-season testing but then Iâm going to Bahrain no matter what.â
Charles' mouth opens and closes wordlessly before he finally manages to argue, âBut how will you manage airports and flights and crowded paddocks? Youâre still on crutches!â
You wave a hand dismissively. âSo Iâll hobble around the paddock looking pathetic, big deal. Better than moping here alone.â Crossing your arms, you fix Charles with your most unyielding stare. âFace it, youâre stuck with me.â
Charles searches your determined expression, clearly trying to formulate another protest. But he knows you too well, can recognize when your mind is made up. With a resigned chuckle, he pulls you against his chest.
âYou are the stubbornest person ever, you know that?â He kisses the top of your head, a smile in his voice. âBut I really shouldnât be surprised. Nothing can stop you from being there to cheer me on.â
You grin, basking happily in his embrace. âDamn right. You should know by now that Iâm going to be by your side every race, no matter what.â
Charles just shakes his head in amused exasperation, arms tightening around you. âWell in that case, it seems I have some calls to make to arrange for your care in the paddock.â
You kiss his jaw tenderly. âSee? Problem solved.â Settling back against the pillows, you add teasingly, âNow stop stressing and let me sleep a little more. Unlike you, I need my beauty rest.â
Charles barks out a laugh, the last tension fading from his frame. As you drift back into cozy slumber cradled against his chest, his steady breathing lulls you like a soothing melody.
Later that morning, itâs time for your daily physical therapy session in the makeshift rehab space set up in your apartment. Elisa guides you through gentle range of motion and strengthening exercises, keeping up cheerful encouragement. The work is grueling, but Elisaâs optimism inspires you to push through the discomfort.
Youâve just finished up with an ice break when hushed voices drift in from the adjacent room. Craning your neck, you glimpse Charles sitting at the kitchen island, phone to his ear as he rifles through an open notebook. Though you canât make out his full conversation, you catch snippets.
âNeed to make sure she has somewhere to rest comfortably ...â
âDonât want her trying to walk too far ...â
âShe says sheâll be fine, but I need to be sure ...â
You muffle a laugh into your hand. Of course Charles is already contacting Ferrari about you joining him in Bahrain, planning every detail to accommodate your injury. Elisa raises a questioning eyebrow but you just shake your head with a smile. Charlesâ protectiveness never fails to make your heart melt.
Oblivious to your eavesdropping, Charles continues speaking in a hushed but urgent tone. You can visualize his serious expression pinched with concern, wanting to arrange every detail to ensure your comfort during race weekends.
Itâs hopeless trying to curb his caring instincts. So you simply shake your head in amusement and turn back to your exercises, resolved not to override the plans youâre clearly not meant to hear.
After your session concludes, Elisa helps you prop up your leg to ice before gathering her things. âYouâre making great progress,â she encourages. âKeep it up and youâll be back to normal before you know it.â
You smile through your fatigue. âThanks for everything. See you tomorrow?â
Elisa nods, waving farewell as she heads out. Once sheâs gone, you eye your crutches propped nearby. Normally youâd use them to hobble around, but mischief sparks inside you. This seems like the perfect time to test your boyfriendâs hovering instincts.
Bracing yourself on the workout table, you carefully rise to your feet, keeping all weight on your good leg. The short hobble to the living room leaves you breathless, but triumphant.
Rounding the corner, you spot Charles sitting on the couch reviewing emails on his tablet. Before he notices your approach, you boldly flop down to sprawl across his lap.
Charles yelps in surprise, tablet clattering away as his arms reflexively cradle you. âWhat are you doing walking around alone? Where are your crutches?â
You grin up at him impishly. âMust have forgotten them back there. But I managed okay for a short distance.â
Charles gapes, torn between horror at your recklessness and awe at your determination. You take advantage of his stunned silence to wrap your arms around his neck and tug him down into a kiss.
âHave I mentioned how amazing and caring you are?â You murmur when you finally separate for air. âTaking care of me even when you think I donât notice?â
Understanding flashes across Charlesâ face and his cheeks tint pink. âYou heard that phone call earlier, didnât you?â At your smug grin he groans. âI should have known I couldnât get anything past you.â
You laugh, nuzzling your nose against his. âIt was very sweet. But you really donât need to go through so much trouble for me.â
Charlesâ eyes lock earnestly on yours. âItâs no trouble at all. I want to make sure your needs are taken care of so you can be comfortable and safe.â He brushes your hair back gently. âI hate the thought of you struggling while supporting me at races.â
Your playful expression softens. You take his hand, intertwining your fingers against your heart. âDo whatever you have to do so that you can focus on driving your best without worrying about me. Iâm a big girl, I can handle a few weeks of long flights and sitting in the back of your garage instead of standing. As long as Iâm cheering for you, Iâll be happy.â
Charles searches your face, as if committing every detail to memory. âI donât deserve you,â he says finally, voice husky.
You smile, squeezing his hand. âSure you do. We take care of each other. Itâs what partners do.â
Charlesâs eyes shimmer with emotion. He cradles your jaw, kissing you deeply. When he draws back, the anxious creases in his face have smoothed away, leaving only tenderness.
���I promise Iâll do my best not to worry,â he concedes. âJust promise you wonât push yourself too hard.â
âDeal,â you agree easily, then smirk. âNow, how about carrying me back to the crutches you claim I so desperately need?â
Charles laughs, once again sweeping you effortlessly into his arms. You cling to his shoulders, perfectly content to let him fuss over you just a little longer.
***
âWe should all go skiing together!â
Pierreâs enthusiastic suggestion makes you freeze mid-bite, forkful of pasta suspended comically halfway to your open mouth. Across the table, Charles goes completely still, face draining of color.
Oblivious to your boyfriendâs reaction, Pierre barrels on with growing excitement. âThere are some amazing resorts in the Alps we could visit over New Yearâs. Epic mountains, fresh powder-â
âNo!â Charles interjects forcefully. He looks mildly ill at just the thought. âAbsolutely not happening.â
Pierre blinks in surprise at the vehement refusal. Even his girlfriend, Kika, appears confused by Charlesâ sudden change in demeanor. You have to press your lips together to keep from laughing at their bemused expressions.
âBut why?â Pierre asks, brow furrowed. âI thought you loved skiing.â
Charles shudders. âNot anymore. Not after ...â He trails off, eyes darting to you meaningfully.
Understanding dawns on Pierreâs face. âOh! Right, of course.â He smiles apologetically. âSorry, I didnât think-â
You wave a hand, unable to contain your amusement any longer. âItâs okay, Pierre. I know you didnât mean to bring up traumatic memories.â You cast a teasing glance at Charles. âBut I think skiing might permanently be off the table for us.â
Charles nods emphatically. âAbsolutely. Never again. From now on, we take beach vacations only. Somewhere warm, with no snow, mountains, or treacherous icy slopes.â He shudders again for effect.
By now, youâre laughing so hard you have to set down your water glass to avoid spilling it. You knew Charles was still sensitive about the topic of skiing, but you hadnât anticipated him having such an extreme reaction tonight. His overprotective dramatics are too adorable.
Still chuckling, you lean over to smack a kiss on his cheek. âYouâre being ridiculous, but itâs very sweet that youâre so traumatized on my behalf.â
Charles wraps an arm around you, some tension easing from his shoulders. âAfter what you went through, can you blame me for swearing off anything to do with skiing forever?â He shakes his head vehemently. âNever again. It was the most terrifying experience. I thought I might have permanently damaged the love of my life.â
Your heart melts. âIâm completely fine now, thanks to you. But I can understand preferring to avoid ski trips in the future.â You smile teasingly. âWe can find a nice beach to lounge on instead.â
Pierre chuckles. âYeah, thatâs probably smarter. Sorry for bringing up bad memories.â He smiles sheepishly across the table. âA tropical vacation does sound nice though!â
The group dissolves into easy laughter, the awkwardness forgotten. The conversation meanders to warmer destinations and the approaching off-season. Charles eventually relaxes his grip on you, seeming reassured that skiing is off the table.
You make it through the rest of the amicable double date without incident. As you all exit the restaurant into the cool night air, Pierre turns to you and Charles apologetically.
âReally sorry again for that ski trip suggestion earlier. Definitely wasnât thinking.â
You wave off his concerns with an easy smile. âDonât worry about it! No harm done.â You pause, then add impishly, âThough from now on, Charles may vet all vacation plans just to be safe.â
Charles nods, face comically serious. âItâs true. I take your physical safety very seriously now.â His grave expression cracks into a grin. âSo expect lots of beach vacations in our future together!â
Everyone dissolve into laughter again. After final farewell hugs, you and Charles head to your car, his arm wrapped securely around your shoulders.
Once home, Charles tucks you into bed with an amount of care bordering on reverence. As he curls up behind you, you lace your fingers through his against your heart.
âHave I told you lately how amazing you are?â You murmur into the darkness.
You feel Charles smile against your hair. âMaybe, but feel free to say it again.â
You snuggle deeper into his embrace. âYouâre pretty much the best boyfriend on the planet. I love how protective you are over me, even when itâs a bit dramatic. It just shows how much you care.â
Charles presses a kiss to the top of your spine. âOf course I care. You mean everything to me.â His voice drops lower. âI never want to be the reason you get hurt again.â
You roll over to face him, gently cradling his jaw. âYou could never hurt me. What happened was an accident, and I recovered just fine. So no more feeling guilty, okay?â
Even in the dim light you can see the sincerity in Charlesâ eyes as he searches your face. âYou really are too good for me,â he murmurs. âIâll try to stop feeling overly responsible. Though I make no promises on vetoing future ski trip suggestions,â he adds with a teasing grin.
You laugh, snuggling happily against his chest. âNow get some sleep.â
As his breaths deepen into slumber, you reflect on how lucky you are to have found someone so devotedly caring. With Charlesâ fiercely protective presence heating the sheets beside you, the future â filled with sandy beaches rather than ski slopes â looks bright indeed.
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Could you do something where Aemond is already married/betrothed to a highborn lady thatâs been approved by Alicent and Otto but he has a relationship with a low born woman (a brothel worker or any lowborn really) and once he becomes Prince Regent he starts bringing her around the castle, giving her a room to herself, treating her better than how a lowborn should be treated in Alicent and Ottos eyes and they donât like it but Aemond doesnât care.
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AEMOND TARGARYEN
PAIRING | Aemond Targaryen x Lowborn!Reader
TAGS | Suggestive content, swearing, possessive behaviour, classism
WORDCOUNT | 4k
NOTE | I have seen a lot of fanfictions where the Reader is a brothel worker so I made her a baker instead. I hope that's alright with you! Thank you so much for this great request! I had so much fun writing it <333
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In the seedy streets of Flea Bottom, rumours travelled in a precise order, memorised by all.
A Lord, drunk with lust, would disclose the Crownâs secrets to a simpering whore, who would be quickâ¤once the gold dragons were in her purseâ¤to repeat what she had just heard, noble semen still running down her thighs. The other, much less wealthy, customers would then talk about it loudly in bars, attracting the attention of patrons who, once sober, had only to spread the news.
Today, the rumour burst into your little shop when Old Gerald came through the door, looking for his daily loaf of bread.Â
 âPrince Aemondâs been made Regent," he said.Â
For a second, you did not move. The dough fell on wood. Your floured hands remained stuck in the sticky, flabby mixture. It would have to be kneaded again. The sight of your dirty fingers woke you from your torpor. You gripped the towel from your apron and wiped your palms roughly before turning your back on your customerâ¤less to get the fresh loaves of bread out of the oven than to regain your composure.
He had done it.Â
Your shovel rasped against the burning slab of clay and peeled off the loaves.Â
A few days earlier, when night had enveloped the citizens of King's Landing in its thick cloak, he had told you of his plans and dreamsâ¤the two were always intertwined, for Aemond Targaryen provoked fate rather than waited for it. His touch had done nothing to soften the brutality of his words. Sordid tales of fire and blood, the kind that filled the tomes of the Citadel.Â
Even the Targaryens could not play with fire indefinitely. Aemond rose in the flames. For how much longer? You had protested, your voice hoarse from the moans he had managed to draw from your throat, but he would have none of it and simply told you to trust him, as if all this were far too complicated for you.Â
And perhaps that was the case, for what did you know of war and power?
âWhat about his Majesty?" you asked.
Old Gerald tossed you three coppers, which you pocketed, before handing you a thick piece of cloth.Â
âThey say he perished in dragonfire. Seems Targaryens are closer to men, after all. With all this quarrel for t'throne, it were inevitable. And, let me tell you, it'll happen again. Today, a brother sits on t'throne. Tomorrow, it'll be an uncle or a sister. Things like that never end.â
You carefully wrapped the golden loaf in the cloth.Â
âWi' Rhaenyra in Dragonstone and his brother's heir dead, heâll no doubt be crowned King. And the Lady Baratheon, Queen.â
You winced at the name but immediately hid your reaction with a tight smile. Gerald, bless him, took no notice of your torment. You handed the loaf of bread to the old cobbler, who nodded at you and returned to his shoes.Â
The rumour ran on and kept you thinking all day. You burnt a dozen loaves of bread, spilt two sacks of flour and forgot to deliver her apple pies to Dorthy Porter, making you lose a silver stag and a customer.
When the key finally turned in the lock of the shop and cut you off from the rest of the world, your shoulders slumped. The sun and all its problems gave way to the moon. Under its silvery eyes, other rumours would no doubt spread but you did not wish to hear them. You longed for your straw mattress and the comfort of your dreamsâ¤perhaps your love would visit you there, also freed from the pressure the Gods were piling on his shoulders.Â
Tiredness weakened your kneesâ¤you dragged your body more than you climbed the stairs to your modest bedroom. In the middle of the room, the bed and its pillow stretched out its arms to you. You let yourself fall into the feathery embrace and closed your eyes for a moment, praying to the Gods that you would find sleep easily.Â
They ignored you.Â
The doorbell rang.Â
Your eyelids struggled to open. Sleep paralysed themâ¤it clutched at your eyelashes and tried to keep them closed but you fought the temptation and, at last, gazed into the dim light of the room. Another series of blows, more hurried, struck against the wood. The whole shop seemed to shake.Â
âIâm coming, I'm comingâŚâ you mumbled.Â
You gasped as two members of the Kingsguard appeared on your doorstep, their cloaks far too white to be dragged through the muddy streets of Flea Bottom.Â
âThe Prince Regent, His Highness Aemond Targaryen, summons you.â
They did not care for your reply and seized you. You protested, demanded to be told the reason for this summon, but nothing would do. The guards dragged you like a rag doll through the streets of King's Landing, indifferent to your screams and struggle. Above and around you, the candlelight in the windows intensified. Some people poked their heads out to watch the racket. You lowered your chin and remained silent, but the damage had been done.Â
Already, rumours were spreading. The baker had been arrested. What had she done? Who would make their bread from now on? Â
The dizzy shadow of the Red Keep loomed larger and larger. Just the outline of it made your skin crawl. For the first time, you would be treading on the floor of Kings and Queens. You were being plunged headfirst into this unknown, powerful and dangerous place, populated by men and women who despised people like you. One of the guards tightened his grip around your arm. You yelped. Why were they taking you there? Aemond always came to you, not the other way round.Â
Did someone know? You blanched. Impossible, you thought immediately. You had been cautious.Â
But what if... What if someone had seen you, despite all your precautions?Â
 Were they taking you to the Keep to put you to the sword? Â
 A flash of fear stabbed you in the guts. Â
You finally passed through the large gates of the castle. They were still open, yet, no one was in the courtyard. The swords were resting on the workbenches and the horses were asleep. Only a few guards patrolled the ramparts, their heads turned skywards in search of a dragon.Â
âHurry up, girl. The Prince is waiting.â
A solitary, proud figure emerged at the top of the stairs, in front of the entrance. His long white hair fluttered in the wind and the bluish moonlight accentuated his strict features and pale complexion. The mere sight of his face reassured you. You defied the guards and walked towards him.Â
His rough handâ¤hardened by duty and warâ¤gripped yours before thin lips kissed it. The Prince pulled you towards him. Your heart slowed as his familiar scent enveloped you and your shoulders relaxed. For a second, you surrendered to the comfort of his warmth and love. The smell of musk and leather soothed your body, but your head kept its wits about it.
âWhat's happening, Aemond?â
He closed his eye as his name fell from your lips and smiled. His hand came down and grasped your waist in a possessive embrace. You leaned into the touch.Â
âThere are rumours that Aegonââ
You squeaked. His fingers had dug painfully into your flesh at his brother's name.Â
The mere mention of him brought back painful and humiliating memories, which your lover had confided to you, his head on your pillow. Even today, the wounds had not healed. They continued to transpire in every aspect of his life. You are the only thing he has not stolen from me, he had told you one night. Saying that name was like throwing his past back in his face and breaking your promise. He'll never succeed, you had replied, but today, Aegon was on your mind. What did his wound mean for the Crown, for you?
âIs it true?" you managed to articulate.Â
âThe Council has made me Regent," he nodded. âWe will not need to hide any longer, my love.â
âWhat do you mean?â
But Aemond did not answer you. He smiled, tucked a lock of hair behind your ear and let his fingers brush your neck. With a nod, the kingsguards left. The clink of their armour echoed for long seconds, but the din faded with the tenderness of his gestures. His finger traced the veins in your chest. They led him to your breasts, hidden by your dress. Aemond gruntedâ¤terribly offended by this affrontâ¤and pulled at the fabric but it held on.Â
Claere Linstar's work was reknown throughout Flea Bottom. You could not find a better weaverâ¤today, you were thankful for the two silver stags you had spent. The garment would become the guarantor of your dignity, the bulwark against your desire.Â
When you realised that your Prince was not going to answer your question, you took a step back. His hand fell limply between the two of you as a brief look of pain clouded his face.Â
âAemond?â
He straightened up and held out his hand to you.Â
âFollow me.â
The labyrinthine corridors made your head spin. You lost count of the turns you took, the staircases you climbed and the alcoves you passed. The beauty of the mouldings and frescoes drew admiring sighs from you several times, but Aemond did not care. He walked past them without giving them a second glance. He's used to all this, you reminded yourself. People of his rank bathed in this luxury and grandeur since birth. Â
On the way, maids dressed in red and white stopped at your sight. Their gaze fell on your face, on your body, on your hand locked in the Prince's... Your cheeks heated and you tried to pull away, but Aemond tightened his grip. Out of habit, his thumb caressed your skin. This time, his touch only made you tense. You bowed your head, ashamed.Â
They knew.Â
The thought stayed with you.Â
You only lifted your head when Aemond stopped in front of an ornate door. The mouldings curved into flowers and birdsâ¤an ode to spring and renewal. Your eyes swept the decor, stopped on a bush of camellias and, finally, met the Prince's satisfied gaze.Â
âWe've arrived," he announced.Â
Aemond opened the door with a confident gesture. Inside, an immense room stretched out and seemed to never end. Wealth oozed out of every corner, from the four-poster bed to the dressing table adorned with sapphires. On the wall, frescoes of flowers had been painted to match the powder pink drapesâ¤an explosion of colour that turned drab the corridors you had been raving about just a few minutes before.Â
âIs it to your taste?â
You turned back to Aemond. Although his chin was up and his back was straightâ¤proud as everâ¤red bloomed on his cheeks. Your lover seemed embarrassed, a far cry from his usual composure. Almost timidly, his hand sought yours. He couldn't help it, you realised. His fingers always found yoursâ¤skin against skin to find what he had been deprived of all his childhood.Â
âI don't know anyone who wouldn't like it," you replied.
âHmm. Good.â
He pulled you to him. His hands went down to your buttocks and pressed you against his chest. Your pelvises collided. Suddenly, the room made sense. You let yourself drown in these familiar gestures. Your hand caressed his muscular shoulders, moved up to his jaw and brushed against his lips. Aemond kissed the pad of your thumb before replacing it with your lips. Soon, the wet sound of saliva echoed through the room. The sweet melody ignited a fire in your lower abdomen and moved down between your thighs.Â
Your hand resumed tracing arabesques on your lover's smooth skin. It stopped at the buttons on his doublet and hastily undid them before wandering lower and lowerâŚ
Aemond stopped you before you could take him in your hand. His hand grabbed yours. He kissed your palm and pressed it against his cheek.Â
âThese will be your quarters.â
The fire went out, leaving you frozen with shock. Your heart skipped a beat.Â
âWhat do you mean?" you asked breathlessly.
âNow that I am Regent, we will not have to hide any more.âÂ
A new glare lit up his eye. Purple turned black and made you shiver. Flames seemed to dance in his pupil, crushing all remains of the second son he had once been. That Aemond was dead. In his place was a Regent who thought himself above laws and men. Â
âIt's not proper, Aemond," you tried to protest. âIf it gets out that I'm here... If the Dowager Queen or the Handââ
âThey have no say in the matter. My word is law now.â
 âIf you want me here⌠Perhaps I could serve the Crown, join the kitchens. Anything but that, Aemond," you said, gesturing to those quarters, far too luxurious for someone of your breeding.Â
âYou do not belong in the fucking kitchens," he scoffed. âNo. You will be by my side, as my equal.â
âYou're engaged," you retorted. âThe Lady Baratheon won't take kindly to my presence here. You nobles can make Small Folk disappear in a blink of an eye and no one would notice or care.â
Alira Merchin's story was remembered as a cautionary tale for young girls naive enough to think love could conquer blood. The fable was classicâ¤hundreds of similar romances filled libraries, and perhaps it was these very ones that had encouraged the girl to seduce the heir of House Harte. The man fell in love and made the pretty merchant his lover.Â
This did not please his wife, the daughter of Lord Chelsted.Â
She got rid of the merchant with disconcerting ease. The poor girl was found trampled by horses in white and green bards. That day, Lord Harte lost his true love and spent the rest of his life suffering the consequences of his betrayal.Â
Your heart dropped. What would happen to you if you tickled the stag? Ours if the Fury. Their motto was an ode to their rage, to their thirst for violence. If Floris Baratheon found out that Prince Aemond was bedding you... and in the Keep nonethelessâŚ
The storm would come for you and you would perish in its eye.Â
âIt's not a good idea, Aemond," you finally said.Â
âDo not fret, my love. Nothing will happen to you as long as I am here to protect you.â
The Prince pulled you into bed.Â
Your protests died on your lips, muffled by moans and the exquisite feel of his skin against yours.Â
Your fingers tightened around your thighs. The soap made your skin slippery but did nothing to wash away the shame that had been clinging to it for days. It colonised your flesh and left it tainted, eating away at your muscles and weighing down your heart.Â
On the first day, after a passionate night, maids had arrived to prepare you, but you refused their care. You were no Lady. You had bathed alone all your life and would continue to do so. More than anything, you wanted to escape their watchful eyes, which would no doubt have noticed the hickeys on your chest and thighs.Â
You did not know how rumours got around in the Keep, but you were sure that they first burgeoned on the maidsâ lips. They blossomed as quickly as in Flea Bottomâ¤the inquisitive nature of man was innateâ¤, but it would not be Old Gerald getting wind of it. No. The stakes were much higher in these parts, and the consequences even more dire.Â
The door to your quarters stood in the way of the horror surely awaiting you, but for how much longer?Â
Your hands massaged your calf, hoping to rediscover a cherished routine. You longed for the feel of dough beneath your fingers. What would become of your shop? Would you have to sell it? Maybe someone had already moved inâ¤abandoned houses never stayed so for long in Flea Bottom, the cradle of the poor and the homeless.Â
You could not cherish the roof above your head, yet, you supposed you had to learn to appreciate it. Aemond did not seem eager to let you go. Â
Aemond.Â
Every day, the sun tore him away from you. His hours were devoted to the Small Council and military strategies, only half of which you understood when he explained them to you. Your Prince needed to talk, to get rid of the weight that was arching his back. You became the shoulder on which he rested, the ear into which he poured his doubts, the flesh in which he forgot himself.Â
âI wish to be with you every hour of the day, to attach myself to your side, but the Gods will only grant me this pleasure when I win this war. I am fighting for youâ¤for us,â he had told you.Â
The moon brought him back into your arms. Every night, without exception, he would cross the threshold of the door and wrap you in a reassuring embrace. His arms would block out your gloomy thoughts and chase away shame and regretâ¤all seemed worth it if it kept him close to you. The stars looked down on your love. When the bells rang the hour of the owl, you indulged in the pleasures of the flesh, whispered sweet nothings or simply enjoyed the peaceful silence that the other's presence guaranteed. Sometimes, Aemond, lying on the bed with your head on his stomach, would read you stories with his hand buried in your hair.Â
And then, the hour of the Nightingale would sound, its tranquillity burning away in the first rays of sunlight. The enchanted interlude would close and you would spend the day dreaming of a life where sun and duty did not separate you.Â
Shame would reappear, its weight with it, and fearâ¤tangible and vibrantâ¤would turn your stomach.Â
The spectre of Floris Baratheon never left you. It haunted you. In the frescoes of camellias on the wall. In the bouquets of flowers dotting your quarters. In the venison served for dinner. The tales of her beauty reached you and left you bitter, but what they said about her quiet authority made your blood run cold.Â
She would come for you.Â
The Lady Baratheon occupied all your thoughts, so much so that you forgot about another much more dangerous threat.Â
One day, Alicent Hightower stalked into your room.Â
You dropped your embroidery in your lap and hastily sat up. The needle fell to the floor with a disturbing chime. The bell was tollingâ¤this farce had gone on far too long and it would now end.Â
The Dowager Queen dropped a small leather bag on the table. Its contents clinked and masked your gasping breath for a second. Your heart was pounding against your temples. Soon, the air would run out. Already your throat was closing up and you were struggling to swallow.Â
âWhat is it?" you asked weakly.Â
âFive thousand gold dragons. Enough to buy you a new life, far from the Keep, far from Westeros.â
Away from my son, she meant.Â
âI won't leave Aemond.â
He needs me, you thought.Â
âThe Prince Regent does not need you," the Queen scoffed as if she could heard your mind. âHe is engaged. Or have you forgotten that? Whoring yourself in the way you do⌠It would appear so. Have you thought about the repercussions of your actions when people find out about you? The risks it means for Aemond? Your very presence here jeopardises this entire war.â
âI have tried toââ
âHe does not love you, you fool. He just wants a cunt to fuck without having to spend a single penny.â
You recoiled, surprised to hear the famously pious queen speak so vulgarly.Â
War transformed souls. It made them ugly. Alicent Hightowerâs wide eyes and pursed lips twisted her face into a terrifying expression.Â
She sighed and, for a moment, her features became those of a compassionate woman.Â
âI don't know what⌠hold my son has over you," she continued in a calmer voice, âbut you seem smart enough to understand this will end badly. You must leave. Take the gold and let us be done with this farce.â
The door slammed against the wall before you could even consider the proposal.Â
Aemond reached your side with a confident stride.Â
âWhat's going on here? Mother?â
When the latter did not answer, he looked to you for answers. You lowered your head, unable to bear the look of concern in his purple eye any longer.Â
It fell lower, onto the table and the leather purse. Â
âWhat is the meaning of this?â he raised his voice.Â
Silence stretched before Alicent Hightower relented.Â
âYou cannot⌠support a lowborn in such manners, Aemond. The girl must go.â
The Prince ignored his mother and took you in his arms. His nose nestled under your ear as his hands buried themselves in your hair. He guided your head into his neck and whispered comforting words, which you could not hear. You did not care. His familiar scent embraced you and brought tears to the corners of your eyes. They wet your cheeks and his collar.Â
You should never have come here.Â
âOut.â
His mother protested.Â
âImagine the shame for your future wife, the Lady Baratheon! For her house! If we lose Storm's End because of... because of this wââÂ
âHold your tongue and leave.â
âAemond, if you do this, we are lost!â
âGet out!â
Footsteps retreated. A door slammed. Aemond sighed. His hand drew abstract symbols on the back of your head for a moment before encouraging you to look at him.Â
âOh, my love," he said, seeing your misty eyes. âAll is well now. She will not hurt you any more.â
The danger you had put yourself in was greater than you had thought. Fear dried your mouth and exhausted your words. You stammered a few excuses before taking a deep breath. Your Prince's fingers did not weaken. They continued to comfort you and, at last, gave you the courage you needed to finally speak.Â
âMaybe I should return to Flea Bottom. IââÂ
âNo," Aemondâs voice cracked.Â
His hands framed your face and pulled you closer until your noses were touching.Â
âYou are not leaving me.â
His lips were harsh, covering every inch of your skin. He kissed the bridge of your nose, your warm cheekbones, your wet eyelids. Tears ran aground in the cracks of his lips and dried up under his exquisite tenderness. No beauty spot, no eyelash, was spared. His lips erased his mother's words and the doubts in your heart.Â
âYou belong here, with me. I do not care for blood or war. I only wish for your love.â
Aemond filled the space between your mouths. His hands reached down and grasped your breast. He feasted on your lips and the taste of them like a hungry man. Tingles caressed your spine and tickled your lower abdomen. You rolled your hips, searching for his, but your lover pulled away.
You didn't want him to stop.Â
The Prince shushed your complaints and pushed you to the bed. Your back bounced on the goose feather mattress. Eager to feel his skin against yours, you sat up and tried to pull him to you, but Aemond took a step back. A petty smile stretched his lips as he heard you whimper. He ignored you and stood silent, admiring you. His eyes, now black, gazed down at your body, contemplating its shape and softness.
âAemond, pleaseâŚâ
Your lover grabbed an ankle and kissed it. You moaned. He moved up your calf, caressing your knee and digging his fingers into your thighs before spreading them apart. His teeth nipped at the flesh, which his tongue immediately soothed. Your breathing quickened and breathy moans fell from your swollen lips, intoxicated by his touch. He skipped over your dripping cunt, his hands grazing your hips and sides. Â
Suddenly, Aemond stopped touching you, placed a farewell kiss on your belly and sat up on his elbows.Â
âI will take care of everything, my love. You will never have to fear for your life. It is mine to cherish, mine to love, mine to protect," he said before reaching up to capture your lips with his. âMine.â
âI love you," you sighed.Â
Aemond smiled, as he did every time the words fell from your lips. One could not get used to the sweetness of love. It forever stirred the heart and soothed the soul. Your Prince placed a chaste kiss on your lips before moving down and disappearing between your thighs.Â
His words vanished in desire and pleasure. You forgot them the next day, when the hour of the Nightingale struck. Â
You should have known that Aemond Targaryen would keep his promise.
Three days later, the Lady Baratheon was found dead in the Kingswood, impaled on a stag's antlers.Â
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