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Hello! I just discovered your blog and I immediately became captivated by your webcomic, but I'm unsure where to read all of it. I know it's on Webtoons, but I can see it hasn't been updated for a while, and you still post about it.
Are your physical novels just prints of the webcomic? Are they a continuation? Is the story complete? Thanks in advance!
Hi there!
Glad you found me and are enjoying my comic!
It's only on webtoons, and the story is not complete yet! We're 2/3 of the way through right now. It's currently on hiatus, and it's scheduled to come back in about 2 months!
I'll explain why it's been so long if you're curious, but also for my followers who might also be wondering about it under the cut. Sorry, it's pretty much just me complaining haha
I took a month off I took 2 months to get the books printed I took a month to prepare my next comic and I took 2 months to write the rest of the series (I knew the character arcs I wanted, but not the time periods or mysteries!!!) I've been working on actual episodes since then
I had to take some time off because of some pretty extreme burnout due to the sheer amount of work it was to draw over 800 pages and write 6 complete stories in a year and a half... I was getting sick almost weekly due to the overwork, it was really really bad honestly. I was having to work 60+ hours every week just to keep up...
The nature of the comic itself is also difficult... Each of the arcs is a complete, self contained story which can be read (ideally) without context, and my arcs need to be about 10-13 episodes each... And since I have an exact number of episodes to work with, it's even harder.
It takes a ton of planning and a ton of refinement, and working week to week with no breaks I was forced to put out second or even first drafts, so I just wasn't happy with the work I was doing... And to do that for the rest of the series? I wouldn't be proud of the work I did.
Plus... To be entirely honest, webtoon has treated me quite badly IN MY OPINION... They deprioritized me before I launched (I had to beg for more promotion, I'm not exaggerating), they outright denied me the opportunity to even ask for a raise, I don't make any money on fast pass and they pay me less than my partner makes working at trader joes. My first editor left me completely hanging, my second editor (who I loved) was fired... And they told me I wouldn't get a third season before my first season even finished. So it was just repeatedly completely demoralizing.
I'm sorry it has taken so long, it'll have been 10 months by the time I come back. But I realized... I won't get promotion either way. I won't get more episodes either way. I won't get more money either way. So to finish everything, to make it feel good, to make it something I'm proud of, I chose to take longer to make it better.
I am fully aware I will lose a significant amount of my readership for this and it might genuinely affect my career moving forward. But it's what I had to do! So I'm sticking to my guns on it, and I'm confident long term it'll be worth it. It never could have been this good if I didn't take this much time.
#asks#steakandpeanutbuttersandwiches#I'm SO sorry youre new and you asked me such a benign question and I responded with... this... LMAO#I swear to god I tried to make it as short as possible#theres just a lot auauuaghkhgjk#basically. way too much work. not enough money.#so it either is gonna be good and take longer or be worse but come back faster#and I chose to take longer#so.#I'm really sorry and I wish that this decision didn't also come with the... pretty much guarantee that it will negatively impact my career.#I will lose readers. I will lose potential readers for my future work. it looks bad on me as a creator to take such a big break. etc. etc.#but it's good. it's so good. you have to trust me it's like the best stuff Ive ever written#it. ok well to be honest#it'll probably feel extremely simple and extremely natural#but it's been SO much work LMAO#I am not exaggerating I have written over 200 pages of scapped ideas to get to where it is#I'm sure it won't make sense why it took so long while reading but you gotta trust me LMAO#ideally it doesnt even 'feel' different right. cause its gotta be cohesive with the whole thing#but there is SO MUCH TO WRAP UP#THERES SO MUCH#and to make that feel natural in this little space oh my GOD it is so hard#ok omfg I'm doing it again I'm going on way too long again IM SO SORRY#YOURE NEW HERE AND IM DOING THIS IMMEDIATELy#this is like 90% for my followers who I know are curious about this and I'm just using you as a jumping off point to talk about it#cause I don't really like to make standalone posts very often#I likely will make some kind of official announcement about it when the date is extremely set in stone#right now I think it's still only tentatively scheduled so it could still change#and I'll say something more... refined and restrained... then.#but for now this is like. actually everything. I think#I'm sure I forgot something but whatever lmfao
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Sorry if this is too unrelated or something, but do you have any tips for comic composition? I absolutely adore how you frame everything, from the backgrounds, to the bubble placement, to the way the colors seem to fit together in each panel, and I've always been curious about how you do it
if this is too vague/overcomplicated I understand, I love your work and hope you're doing well <3
Hm... well. Honestly, most of my composition comes from transcribing the animation of residuum that's happening in my head. Which is why, if any of y'all've noticed, residuum is framed a bit like a movie. So if you're looking to do something similar, I'd recommend either studying camera techniques, or watching movie analysis with a focus on camera work. I'm unfortunately a bad person to ask, as a lot of what I do just comes via practice that's turned to instinct.
This is a really good resource on page compositions in general, though I mostly do panel by panel stuff for my own ease:
The background style is actually directly inspired from @meandtheyeehaws, it's fast, easy, and doesn't require too much thought on my part. You spend a lot of time on comics, so you take shortcuts where you're willing to.
Bubble placement... I've noticed that people tend to laser focus on dialogue. So, the dialogue bubbles are how you lead the reader's eyes. They are the very base of the reader's eye path. All this means is that you should just map the eye path you want and then frame everything else around that. Either to bring notice to stuff or to hide something in plain sight.
Honestly, I have no idea for the color thing. It's one of the things I actually wish the comic was better with. All I do is have set color swatches for characters, and do a transparent color mask to the background color. I love to color, but color itself isn't really my strong suit.
#residual asks#creation advice#my layouts are pretty samey on purpose for speed#but sometimes i wish they weren't just so i could do some wack ass shit#but that would take me way longer lmao#you can see my other page styles in the bonus comics though so *shrug*#anyway#just find what works for you and don't hold yourself in a hole if you want to branch out#also this has been sitting in my drafts for so long. i am so sorry#though that movie thing is also just due to the aspect ratio i use for panels#...which i chose specifically so that youtube dubbers would have an easier time formatting the comic for video#i watched so many comic dubs as a kid that i figured a dub was inevitable lmao
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Inktober 2023 Yr 8. Day 21: Smile
I confess i did this soooo long ago and i never posted it but im running out of time, so i can't afford NOT to use it! I swear I will draw him more Goober next time!!
#caine#the amazing digital circus#jazzink#i was trying to tumblr sexyman him back then#but i no longer like this ink#i looked at it for too long#sometimes i will be in the mood to ink before inktober and then i just save them as back up inks#after seeing the pilot i cant tumblr sexyman him anymore#he is a goober!!#plus i think everyone loves pomni the best!!#yes even over jax#ppl love the wet cat!!#i will draw her!!#i love her too!!#but oof take this into the void#i remember liking this so much when i first finished it!!#i do like the angles i chose!
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The sukugo fight can't get animated any sooner I'm craving sukugo tiktok edits
#jjk#ryomen sukuna#gojo Satoru#sukugo#my post#sukugo's date night#Grown ass men beating each other up looking each other in the eyes thinking about love while a cutesy song plays in the background 😍#I saw a tiktok edit of Sukuna annihilating everything with the song “what is love?” by TWICE playing I was like wait a minute THISSS!!!#but with the Sukugo fight!!!!#I have a whole montage in my brain hear me out.... starting from 2:27 minutes in#Wonder where you are?~ I'm gonna find you~ Wonder where you are?~ I'm so dying to see you~ I can't take it much longer~#👆🏻these lyrics with that scene of Sukuna waiting for gojo on the rooftop before their fight...hmmm yes yandere vibes yes#How it could be as sweet as candy~ How it's like flying in the sky~#👆🏻These with Sukuna and gojo clashing in the sky over kenjaku#this part of the song is the slowest so a slow motion scene of them in the sky would look beautifulagghj#I wanna know know know know~ what is love?~ What love feels like~#👆🏻 these with Sukuna giving Satoru that look💀 and thinking about yorozu's words after Satoru chose their date to be on 24th..#How it keeps you smiling all day~#👆🏻 this one is obvious there are too many instances of them freakishly smiling during the fight that it's hard to choose lmao#How the whole world turns beautiful~#👆🏻cut to Sukuna saying he cleared his skies...yeah...#I wanna know know know know what is love?~ Will love come to me someday?~#👆🏻 and maybe if we're getting angsty with this... that scene of the last time “the one who will teach you about love” was brought up#in the airport where we see Sukuna from behind and Satoru says it was fun asdhjkkll#Then the song just continues with I wanna know~ I wanna know~ for 30 seconds until it ends#👆🏻 And here comes a compilation of Sukuna missing gojo and standing there looking bored and we have Yuji black flashing his heart#and sukuna looks behind him and has heart eyes for larue but it fades to him looking at yutagojo thinking it's gojo#because these two scenes are SIMILAR for some reason and then yuta failing at being gojo and sukuna copying gojo's hand sign and-#Do yall see what I mean this is their theme song fr The song being cutesy and upbeat is what makes this for me#Sukuna is living his first teenage girl experience Yall don't understand I need this so baddd I'm gonna learn how to edit and do it myself
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Hey babes, sorry I've been dead, but I coulda been literally dead if I had not gone.
I didn't hurt myself and we're still figuring things out. I would love to share but I've already forgotten what I've learned. I hope I get more guidance and time for healing and learning on how to lead my life in a better direction than where I was. But that takes time and effort.
I hope to get some rest, get some support, and get it together. But right now, I don't think it's healthy for me to worry about art in the way I do now. I may not express it here, but trying to maintain my art endeavors/projects while there's so much bullshit going on backstage is not helping me. Especially since I'm not even obligated to do so. But trying to force myself to do something I am currently unable to do will just make me feel worse. I'll follow my dreams and passions one day, but I've been putting off the healing process for years.
So I guess it's better to get better now so I can get the ball rolling again. Why drive on a flat tire?
#i was in there for a week and ill continue partial hospitalization for a few weeks#i hope i learn more and i hope i get specific help to my issues. because whay i learned there didnt directly pertain to me#but having structured daily life felt nice. but it wasnt all relaxing because there were still responisibilites on the outside world#tapping on the window or calling me on the phone. chose the best time for a meltdown. i have taxes and credit card bills to take care of#but if i stress about it now ill jsut be going back to the ER and thats no good. the hospital was so cold dude im glad im home with blankets#this is mr octopus again. im glad i broguh hom to work. i went straight to er from work and if i had no plushie with me#i probably would have stayed longer or be even more mentally unstable and distressed. its good to have comfort items#i dont think i want to know ehat if be like without some kind of companion or grounding item with me. i dont want to imagine me without em#its okay to have a little friend with you. i would be so distraught. everyone loved me there#the nurses the patients the residents yhe social workers the students#mr. octopus made them happy because of his big smile and mine too. the people there did not expect the mass amoutns of stress and depression#in this bubbly happy baby witb a happy pink octopus. one of the patients thought it was the meds the happy pills they gave me#no im jsut naturally like this. or artificially like this. i still dont know how to express or understand my feelings#if what im showing is real or not because i know ill be the happiest in the room wherever i go. maybe its a front or a mask#but when im like that kinda hard to know whats really underneath. they always ask me if im okay but i turn to myself#and its nondescript like ive put a blanket over how i really feel. its weird. the bubbly energy is blinding.#words#mr octopus#mental health#doodles
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Torturing myself with thoughts of Durge potentially having a very unintended experience the first time she goes on that little weave date with Gale.
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What if she intends to kiss him in the weave, but her fractured mind conjures up the image of Gortash instead after she pulls away.
It's who she really wants, she just doesn't remember.
Gale is none the wiser, until the weave slips away to reveal a panicked Durge...
Trying to explain what she saw?
Trying to brush it off?
Who is that man burned into what's left of her brain matter? Who was he to her that the weave would pull him forth when she made the decision to pursue Gale?
And laying eyes on him again for real, at Moonrise...
Maybe she finds the Prayer for Forgiveness, and her hands are shaking as she reads, knowing that she penned this.
To her father.
Her God.
To Bhaal.
Scelaritas's words suddenly make sense.
"He would forget his god for you, but you won't for him. Of that I know."
She did forget her god once, it seems.
For Gortash.
After that, she goes to Wyrm's Rock to meet him alone, because she has one burning, inescapable question.
"Who are you to me?"
#durgetash#GOREtash#The Dark Urge#DurgeGale#Good GOD I am in deep#My fully Evil Durge run is with Ascended Astarion - tragic romance#E!Durge realizing her lover no longer sees her as an equal...but GORTASH on the other hand...#E!Durge ascended Astarion because she gave zero shits about 7000 souls and felt that Astarion deserved to have that power#When he actually EXERTED that power over HER she was quite taken aback#Somewhere inside she remembered the height of her power and someone to share godhood with; she was blindsided by Astarion#But she made her bed. She still cared for him; so she chose to lie in that bed#But Gortash still had a hold over her now-undead heart#Astarion is callous about it when Gortash meets his unceremonious end by the Brain and E!Durge (Hiraeth) takes this personally#She reclaims her power by taking dominion for Bhaal; subjugating everyone - Astarion included - to bring about her father's dead world.#Because really; the only thing that ever held her back from fulfilling her purpose was her admiration for Gortash.#RESISTENT DURGE ON THE OTHER HAND is romancing Gale lol#AND THE WHOLE 'HE WOULD FORGET HIS GOD FOR YOU' LINE REALLY STRUCK A CHORD WITH THE PRAYER FOR FORGIVENESS
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this semester i'm experiencing an almost unprecedented lack of inspiration and drive, it's even scary. i'm not very happy with the program i'm in but i'm too deep in it to jump ship plus this degree will open doors to the undergraduate studies (which i seriously consider doing in the future). basically, the only way out is through. i will try my best to derive as much benefit out of this situation as i can but a harder task will be to just stay mentally intact.
#continuing going to school every summer over the past three years adds to this feeling of burnout#i also chose a mentally demanding job hoping that intellectual stimulation is what's going to help me stay there for longer#but now it feels a bit too overwhelming with school on top#i just need to take preemptive measures to make sure i don't have a breakdown like in 2022#journaling
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im gonna draw my gaiaonline avi
#ITS NOT CROPPED YET THATS WHY IT LOOKS LIKE SHIT OK...#and im. clearly not done afdghdfg 😭 im gonna draw over the flowers probably#and there gotta be more flowers...#unfortunately the longer i take on this the more i forget the vision#im already hazy on what i wanted the colors to be im so fucked lol.#wip#u should be thinking of. moonlit wilderness from tekken#or the song/scene that plays when tifa fights loz in ff7ac...#OHHH those who fight<- abruptly remembered the name while watching the scene LMAO#i dont have an eye for fancy shit.... i didnt realise u edit yr avatar at signup#so i got this blue grey elf looking guy. shopped around a bit and chose what looked cool#and thrn have a personality and slight ways of a back story............#but man. the economy also exploded there LMAO#*u dont edit ur avi on signup i mean.#everyday i miss tektek..
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What if the Ministry’s headquarters is constantly moving and that’s why stuff doesn’t add up? Kind of like how Olympus in the Percy Jackson series goes where civilization powerhouses develop, but for convenience and goals’ sake. Like, they do have abbeys and ministries located all over but one of the first and oldest ones is in Italy. Sort of like a taunt to the Vatican. Like when a Burger King opens up across the street from a McDonald’s or whatever.
But as focuses expanded, so did where they had ministries established.
In the beginning, for the most part, ministries remained in the more west and southwestern regions of Europe (Italy, France, and few in the UK, etc). But we know they expanded because Terzo carried out at least some of his studies in a Polish location.
Eventually they broke ground in parts of the US with the leading location being in LA. However, the Italian Ministry closest to the Vatican will always be Ground Zero essentially. But maybe they relocated the main base of operations to Sweden when it was decided that the Church would focus on a more heavy metal style and they (read: Sister) were aware of Scandinavia’s enthusiasm for metal.
From then, a few years later, they shuffled off to America as they began to gain a bit of a following in addition to pushback, which would do wonders for
Then relocated the main hub to Sweden because of its rich metal history before shuffling to America because they were gaining a following while also experiencing pushback that would do wonders for the attention they could gain. After all, how many people even knew about Ghost until religious nut jobs raised a big stink?
Because the Italian base is of such importance and one of the larger locations, it’s customary for a predominant amount of personnel intending to rise in ranks or commit to diabology to spend a good chunk of their time there. It may not always be consecutive, and it’s not unheard of for a priest, bishop, etc to go back and forth between the Italian Ministry and another one located in another city or country.
(I’ve been thinking about this for a while but actually putting my thoughts to words was inspired by @writingjourney’s deep post regarding the use of language and influences on accents. Though they do it way better and prettier.)
#the band ghost#ghost band headcanons#talking out my poop chute#I can’t decide if the Clergy expects members of the bloodline to like#reside in multiple locations throughout their religious journey#as a means of connecting each Abbey under one potential Papa#or if they’re expected to only do a few so as to take their studies more seriously#maybe it’s up to them and Terzo chose to go all over to experiekce the world#and Secondo stayed in Italy the longest because by that point he was already unhappy with the expectations placed on him#if I blend in parentified Primo I think it’d be that he stayed longer than he particularly wanted to#Copia grew up watching American TV and movies#so he requested to be transferred to an American Ministry#I wanna put him in a Midwestern one simply because. Midwest is funny#but they would also kill him so let’s just put him in upstate New York or something#I also kinda wanna headcanon that whatever ministry gets turned into HQ#is basically heavily dependent on the Imperator in charge
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yeah so i don't think i've ever posted my face on here. but i have a couple of con selfies that i liked. so i thought why not be bold for once.
my makeup and contour had mostly come off by the time i took these rip. so they're not good pictures of the cosplay at all but listen i like them in general.
#the real mvp here is the sfx cut make up for lasting longer than everything except the eye liner.#the jacket was hot as hell and itchy after a while and i don't wear waterproof anything#so i ended up carrying it around half the time because h o t#helpful outside but bad in crowds#personal#do i need a face tag? maybe.#eccc2024#cosplay or something#i'm glad i only chose to do leon this year because it's the comfiest#and with my chronic pain acting up like crazy on saturday I was able to take a break without fighting with giant props and platform heels
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@apocryphis asked :
do you feel anything when you look at me? (oho some pain from wriothesley to arle)
I HAVE A CRUSH ON YOU. || accepting
─「アルレッキーノ」─ if anyone asked, if anyone questioned, if anyone ever felt the need to get suspicious about the constant visit the KNAVE spent underneath the water of fontaine and upon the ground outside the ruling of THE IUDEX and within the grasp of the hound, then the answer was it's business. that was all it was, that was all it could be, all it should be. a simple business visit, a negotiation offered by the FOURTH HARBINGER to the duke.
then why was it that their eyes could never leave one another whenever they happened to be in the same room ? whether it was within his office that she had found her way inside more times than he could count, or the rarer times they caught each other upon the street of fontaine and barely a glance was exchanged. never words. never acknowledgement. never more than a split second attention.
they weren't supposed to meet, they weren't supposed to get close, they weren't supposed to feel anything.
then why was it that her GAZE remained locked to his now that they were behind closed doors ? why was it that she found herself towering over the man upon his desk when the conversation could've been conducted with respectable distance between them. why was it that her clawed digits remained on his face, grasping the shape of his jaw and traced them oh-so-carefully when she should've driven them right through his chest ?
it was QUIET, her mind. her very consciousness that was always humming, always noisy, always so loud from whispers of the days long gone. countless whispers haunting her every waking moment and even in her sleep. THE CURSE, THE ENTITY wrapping its claws around her throat, preventing her from achieving even something as human as death. it was a proof that THE KNAVE was no longer mortal. she was no longer HUMAN. those eyes bearing the power and curse of immortality, the hands and body that was possessed and morphed beyond limit, and the voice ...
the voice in her head refusing to let her rest ...
how it went silent the moment their eyes locked. so quiet. so peaceful. only when these eyes met hers.
did she still have a HEART, she wondered ? or had it been lost the moment the curse took shape and the entity took over. maybe it was lost the moment she cut all of them free of MOTHER, when the warmth of blood soak her hands and fingers, tainting them crimson and marked her as the successor. father ... mother no more. human no more. duties. responsibilities. titles. she was to live in place of those who died. live. live. live. live until no one was left.
do you feel anything when you look at me ?
this feeling within her hollowed chest, this TIGHTNESS forming a knot in the deepest part of her, the fire ( or was it warmth ? ) burning whenever they danced on the battlefield, when her weapon clashed with his, when his hands caged her against the wall, when hers held his own. when silvery blue contrasted with crimson crosses.
the entity was still. wordless. silent.
" how could a monster be capable of feeling anything, dear warden ? "
how could i ever loved like human if i'm not one ? it can't be love if i don't know what it is or how it's supposed to be. it can't be love if i don't have a heart to feel it. it can't be love. it cannot be.
and she pulled him in, diminishing the gap between their lips with a kiss.
whatever this is, it's yours. only yours.
#apocryphis#.answered#.answered meme#.[ arlecchino ]#.[ and my demon falls silent before your eyes: wriothesley & arlecchino ]#[ me with 1987634623 asks from you that is fluff : how about we do pain in this household ?#HJKLJHHJK I DUNNO THIS WOKE HER UP & I'M#SOBBING INTO MY PAWS VENTIUM#why is it that out of all the sof & fluff i have from you my brain chose this to answer first & foremost ?#IT HURTS#BC SHE CAN'T SAY ANYTHING#SHE CAN'T ADMIT IT#SHE CAN'T ACT ON IT ( AT LEAST NOT IN PUBLIC )#so it's ... only when they're alone like this#even then she cannot admit it out loud#even when it's only them the only way for her to be honest was to ACT#the only way for her to let him know her feeling is with a touch#sometimes it's pain and blood from their sparring & sometimes it's a kiss so soft it'd take his breath away#BUT SHE IS NO LONGER HUMAN HOW COULD SHE EVER LOVED LIKE ONE ?#even tho it is. it is love. it is love in the purest form.#falls on the floor sobbing ]
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Sorry about the theater of emotions going on my face from across the room. I'm trying to resolve an argument that I made up between two fictional characters.
#personal#sorry i didnt tell you that your brother was killed and replaced by a robot#it seemed pretty insignificant to me in the grand scheme of things#more then that id known for so long my mind defaulted to assuming#that it was universal knowledge for everyone#and in that reality that i learned the truth you were unaffected#if it means anything to the both of us i never used that knowledge to grow closer to you#i used that i knew you were a good man to want to know you#where you would be to find you#who you chose to align yourself to be worthy of standing at your side#we shared a bed for rest#and each other for comfort#we could have built a home and were taking all the careful steps to grow closer without scaring the other away#without scaring our own selves away#and were amazed by the ease in which we fell into each other#you look me in the face and say you understand how i could make this mistake#and we both understand why this can no longer be#but this world is indifferent and in you and in i and in each other we have found someone kind#is it selfish of yourself to yourself if you choose to not only allow us to continue but want it to?#what i have done by not doing may remain unforgivable#i will never ask of you any different#but it does not make us impossible#even if every law of societal standard should say otherwise#society is not you it is not i#it shapes us and frame out lives#but our willingness to act for or against it is our own decision#however unconscious
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the fundamental basis of a 'sams izzy' for me is that he has to be someone canon izzy looks at and thinks "... i could have had this?"
i dont think everything would have gone perfectly if izzy had gone with sam, but i do think maybe he would have been happier than our izzy is when we see him, and i want our izzy to see that and just... wonder. wonder if he made the right decisions. was he right to go with edward? is he happy with his life?
#uhhh related to a much longer post about what i think sams izzy would be like#that i haven't finished yet (and might take me a while)#but yeah. sams izzy just need to make our izzy question everything#idk what decision hed come too though. would he still be happy with his choices if he saw this version of himself?#this person who had chose to go wirh sam instead? this version who laughs freely? who seems so light?#(also sams izzy is a little bit of a slut. we love him)#(not a lot just. hes wearing lower cut tops he'll strip off if it's too hot he'll flirt with people a little#(he will absolutely wreck lucius with that) he would kiss sam in front of the crew and sam would sleep on his chest)#and he laughs. god does he laugh. snorts and bursts and full belly laughs. freely. at anything. he laughs#izzy doesn't remember the last time he laughed#nyxtalks#ofmd#izzy hands#israel hands#sam bellamy#bellhands#ndnsn anyway like. tell me what u think sams izzy would be like im still musing on it#excellent distraction from everything#Sam's Izzy
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I was telling my partner about some old sad memories of mine, things I used to do because I was so lonely and afraid and he told me he genuinely couldn't imagine me like that. It made me realize how much I've grown and changed, how many people I have in my life and how many new things I've been trying and learning and how expressive I've become. I don't feel like I'm hiding anymore, not as much as before. It truly does get better.
#self reminder#Idk I'm just really proud of myself#I'm glad younger me mustered up the courage ti ask for help#I'm thankful for the people who introduced me to the concept of therapy and queerness#who helped me explore who I am and helped me find the helo I needed to accept myself#I'm thankful for all the friends I no longer talk to but who were there for some of my most difficult years#I'm thankful for the persistence younger me had#for choosing to keep pushing until I got the help I needed#I'm thankful for that younger me that saw how close I was to hurting myself and chose to take care instead#I'm happy I'm alive#Elias says stuff
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It's kinda funny how scattershot my approach to the 2D games has been lol.
AM2R: Beat, 100%
Zero Mission: Beat but haven't/won't complete percentage
Metroid: Completed percentage but haven't beat
Dread: Working on it
What a skip lol
I want to play Super and Fusion and the other two versions of Metroid II properly, I've watched enough playthroughs to have a good feel for them but it's no replacement for actually experiencing them myself. But I do think I want Return Of Samus to be the last one, (until future releases anyway) but not in a "putting off the worst until all other options are exhausted" way, more a "saving the best for last" way. I already know I'll love it for the story and how that's conveyed, but I want it to be special.
#not a reblog#metroid#honestly I feel like I kinda screwed myself in a way#by going straight into AM2R#which isn't as advanced as Dread#but still benefits from all the advances up to the GBA era#plus a bit of extra polish on top courtesy of fan love#and on one hand I kinda needed a good first impression#to sell me on the feel of playing 2D#when my prior experience was the Prime trilogy#but on the other hand I think I chose something a little too good#and that definitely impacted Zero Mission for me#(I still get mad thinking about the Kraid fight)#and I know Super is gonna be a pain to go back to too#ironically I had a pretty good time with original Metroid#up until the escape sequence at the end#but playing it via Planets probably helped#I want to take a break before I do Return Of Samus#a long one#so that I can come at it fresh as possible#and doing it last still gives it a place of honor#since first is no longer an option#(in fairness my options were limited when I started AM2R)#zero mission#metroid zero mission#metroid planets#am2r#metroid dread
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ajekd I love how Phil just checks the in game chat and goes "forever is not spamming tttt so I don't care" and keeps going off doing the thing
mr philza " 'I'm only streaming for 2 hours' (streams 5 hours)" minecraft the man you are
#qsmp#qsmp liveblog#mentioned before but literally stayed in the server for longer in case something happened to richas and forever couldn't do anything#richarlyson surpassing tilin now being the 12 leches /j#<- don't take that seriously please#if you wonder why I only talk abt Phil uhhhh he's the only pov I actually watch LMAO sorry#and also philever became the duo I randomly chose to only talk about ever#I'm like a baby duckling. first duo that catches my eye is the one I'll be following until I die
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