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#I can't keep going as I am#Maybe existing is enough to deserve happiness#But it seems that the people in power want me dead#Just for existing#and I am powerless to stop it#it's only a matter of time#My small group of friends will sink with me if I don't stop them
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it’s my birthday….. hooray I guess? I’m one of those bitches that gets wildly depressed about the passage of time
#spicy speaks#feeling very much dread and anxiety#idk#time is just passing#and I am powerless to stop it#as we all are#i find it deeply unsettling I guess
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next part will be more exciting i promise <3
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Tord: Hey Matt... any news?
Matt: Come on, Tom...
M: Ugh, No! They didn't let me come with and Tom SAID he'd keep me updated!!
Td: I'm sure he's... busy...
M: Tom! How is he?
Tom: Well, Edd's stable, but they said they needed to run more tests before they could say anything for sure.
Tm: ...and then they said we could come back tomorrow during normal visiting hours.
M: What did you say to the doctors?
Tm: That Edd's been a bit under the weather, but we thought it was just a cold or something. Then he started coughing up blood, so we took him straight here.
M: You didn't mention...?
Tm: No, I didn't.
M: Tom!! But that could be important!
Tm: MATT!!
Tm: Let's talk in the car.
#ew powerless au#powerless comic#eddsworld#ew tom#ew tord#my art#ew matt#sketch#stop lying to tord guyssss come on#how obvious is it that i am A) american and B) never go to the ER#straight up googled that shit#oops forgot the text. updated 👍#comic
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my toxic trait is finding hannibal references in every aspect of my life and especially when they’re not present even a little bit
#it’s passable when it’s blatant. like when cannibalism is mentioned or if we’re talking about hozieresque relationships#but i’m so much worse than that. walked into the kitchen the other day and my mom was cooking mushrooms for dinner#immediately launched into a spiel about season 1 episode two aka amuse-bouche aka mushroom guy episode#drive me by a field of horses and i guarantee i will begin telling you about the social worker who got sewn into a horse#i see a family of three with two dads and a daughter? that’s literally a hannibal reference. what do you mean they’re not a murder family.#the characters of hannibal nbc rattle around in my head like the insides of a maraca and i am powerless to stop them#hannibal nbc#will graham#hannigram#hannibal
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I’ve seen the fandom take a bastard character and make them a poor little meow meow, twice now
Which isn’t a lot but it’s fucking disappointing.
#media literacy#i am begging#mha dabi#oh yeah I watched that train wreck#sir crocodile#guys why#let him be a bastard#I don’t care if he’s trans let him be evil#crocodad#I love it too#but stop making croc the endless victim#he can have a shitty childhood a shitty reletionship#but stop being like “well he wasn’t evil just sad#you are bashing dragon like you did enjoy and dragon isn’t even a abuser#y’all cannot handle nuanced characters and it fucking shows#dragodile is a fascinating ship#dragon is a fascinating character#so why must you fucks burn the ship down with no reason#it’s a goddam witch hunt entirely limited to fandom spaces#I am so confused how people think dragon stole luffy#or some shit#if croc wanted to keep luffy#he would’ve kept him#he’s not powerless#the man had a information network that spanned paradise#Yeesh#you can love croc#but stop using a FANON theory as justification#to hate dragon
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Andrew Lincoln The Rake - 2016
#S I R#Andrew Lincoln#*#al#STOP BEING SO LOUD#that one on the stairs......#those pants FIT#excuse me but The Nose™#pics for once!!!#hello can i buy a ticket to ride#remember that day these dropped out of nowhere from a magazine no one had ever heard of#good times....7 years ago.....#I still have my copy in a cabinet#THE SUSPENDERS#i am also powerless against a man in a waistcoat
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i think that if anyone was gonna write "angst" abt tim and being bi/coming out it should be about how jack drake died before tim could tell him. that despite the complicated relationship he had with a parent who wouldve, couldve, been horrible about it, tim never got the choice to tell him (or janet. i love you janet i know you wouldve supported your little guy)
like. the evidence that your parent would react horribly but the need for them to accept you and jack drake who's primary way of bonding with his kid was trying to make him a mans man (but not That kind. yk.) and clearly expected tim to be cisheterosexual vs the reality of a bisexual kid who has a lot of stake in identities and disguises. and like. jack had to grapple with the fact that tim was robin (famously.) but like
idk sorry i just think it would eat at tim. like. part of the guilt of losing the parent you have this complicated relationship with would also be tied to the "they never really knew me, they didnt get the chance or give me the space to tell them" and feeling guilty and sad that you Couldnt come out. and Not Knowing howd they wouldve reacted. and how that could tie to real internalized bullshit! because that is also an lgbt experience! especially with parent death!
#forgive me if i am. incorrect btw but from what i have seen of tims stuff in recent years#there is a focus on like...... feeling guilty over jacks murder! bc tim felt powerless to stop it!#and hes a little control freak <- mostly a joke i do love him#so its especially poignant#and theres focus on his bisexuality and exploring what He Wants#but there could be tasty intersections here to explore!!! whole meals!!!!#rook.log
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I’m sorry
The context
#I am powerless to stop the chat#tboi#binding of isaac#the binding of isaac#tboi reincarnation#tboi au#tboi fanart#pillart#tboi apollyon#tboi azazel#tboi blue baby#tboi ???
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where’s that little horror piece about kits never growing up in Starclan? because I remember it so vividly but I can’t find it.
The one about Bright Stream?
Weird that it's so hard to find! It's probably because it's got such heavy tags lmao.
I really mean it though like, canon's permakitten system and the idea that Bright Stream is up there, forever taking care of fetus children who were filled by sudden knowledge and yet never grow past that point absolutely horrifies me. Jesus Christ. I don't know how anyone reads that final scene in Path of Stars and isn't filled with itching, white-hot existential dread, man.
Sometimes you just gotta write horror about it. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
#partner and i were joking the other day about how like#they are the one known as The Horror Blogger and im the funny cat guy#because it's literally the opposite irl. you have NO idea#They are the one who is squeamish and I am the one that is like#only scared if there's 17 different kinds of existential horror#Which tbf is important in my line of work#But let me tell YOU. One thing that gets me every time? Fucked up afterlives#Probably from all the religious trauma but. Still.#''turns out your whole life is actually teetering on the precipice of a steep drop into the jaws of unknowable gods--#and their concept of omnibenevolent and omnimalevolent are self-defined''#''in death your life only has meaning to those still living and yet you're conscious to experience it''#''you will helplessly watch people you thought loved YOU reduce your memory into how you SERVED them''#''Powerless to stop it you will find that you were only valued as a tool in someone else's life''#''There is no peace in death just being tired and uncomfortable forever''#EURGH#It's why my most feared monsters are actually ghosts and vampires and certain zombies#Because it's not really about the monster it's more about what that monster implies for the afterlife#Certain zombies especially. ngl. Night of the livin dead 2 has the scariest ones ever#Intelligent. Violent. Able to FEEL themselves rotting and the only relief is to consume everything you ever loved#BRR#they did eat a bunch of cops tho so... at least they have that going for them#BONES MCRAMBLES IN THE TAGS#bone babble
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mental illness/personality disorder acceptance isn't "i should be able to do what i want forever with no consequences because of my disorder, and if you get mad at me for being an asshole then you are being ableist"
instead it's not believing in thought crime. it's not thinking that low empathy makes you a bad person. it's not judging attention-seeking behavior. it's not enforcing ableist societal standards on people who can't meet them. it's being understanding when people are trying their best. it's not thinking that doing bad things makes you irredeemably a bad person forever, and supporting people who want to do better.
you do not deserve to have your harmful behaviors 100% excused just because you are mentally ill. you are still hurting people. you don't have the moral right to hurt people, and it doesn't make you superior to not want to get better.
#important context i have bpd and low empathy and i'm autistic#among other things#i recognize that when i hurt people that was a decision i made#and people are allowed to be upset at me for it#that doesn't make me evil. it means i make mistakes#and either 1. i try to be better and stop hurting people so that they will like me and because. yknow. hurting people bad.#or 2. accept that if i don't want to be better and i want to continue to hurt people then i am not going to have any friends and if i need#help i won't get it because i have pushed everyone away. because i prioritized my want to be an asshole over human connection#and that's your right if you choose that#but it does not make people ableist if you hurt them repeatedly and do not try to get better and don't take responsibility for your actions#and they decide they don't deserve that treatment and you are mean#not to mention that acting like people with personality disorders are powerless and cannot change or improve and are inherently evil#is going to make it harder for people with personality disorders in general
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feeling a profound sense of dread tonight unrelated to the ghouls and goblins of the season
#text#idkkkkk. im not doing anything halloweeny tonight and despite the fact that i AM doing halloween stuff over the weekend#i am feeling lonely and awful right about now#and i am scared about my trip to detroit next week bc my two friends in staying with arent on good terms anymore apparently#but like they all live in a big co op thing so ill see both of them. but theyve been besties for forever#and now im scared that one bazillion things will go wrong while im there. man. man#when will things get any easier#im tired of feeling bad and im tired of feeling so powerless about it even though im literally not#like i can go out and meet people. i live in a big city and go to a big school i can do that.#it just feels like i forgot how. and im almost graduated so it feels too late to relearn how too.#le sigh#sorry i stopped using twitter for the most part so you guys get the brunt of this now
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need more pictures of signless
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IT’S MY BIRTHDAY
that’s the whole post, thanks for listening
#today is gonna be epic#i am going to literally eat ice cream and everyone else is powerless to stop me
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If the WBD press room tags are to be believed this photo dates to episode 1. The Steard and the clothing don't match up with what Stede wears for the rest of the season, so I suspect this might be a daydream. If we get one of Ed's fantasies of Stede looking like this and being swashbuckling and beautiful and we cut to him in Stede's now empty quarters and I have to see my babygirl's face fall as he emerges from this reverie (IN EPISODE ONE!!!!!!!) I will violate the European Convention of Human Rights (ECHR). David please I am not so strong
#ofmd#ofmd s2 spoilers#david jenkins#i am going to see ed be so sad this season#and i will be powerless to stop it
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"My ex-wife still calls me..."
"...every name under the sun!"
#( stanley pines. ic )#( i am powerless to stop him 😔#( marilyn if youre hearing this he has more. you wont believe the jokes hes saved for this occasion
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I've started saying "good god" in astonishment/shock even though I am extremely not religious and it is all Will Laurence's fault as usual
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