#and GOD I’m fuckin tired
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Look, I think we can all agree with the fact that abuse thrives in darkness. So explain to me why a 21 year old used the word pdfile and pronounce it exactly like that when we were talking about child abuse. Censoring the word does nothing. It literally took me several seconds to understand what she was saying. Clear communication is vital when someone comes or tries to come forward. It can be the difference between them feeling seen and heard and refusing to divulge anything. When you censor words like that in real life there can be consequences because you are obscuring information and hurting communication. Use the proper words. And if they make you so uncomfortable you can’t use them then maybe you shouldn’t be having a conversation that requires use of those words.
#I understand this is part of a larger issue regarding the censorship of words on social media#but its also part of a larger issue which is how quickly we are headed toward a culture where these things are not acceptable to talk about#where you can’t talk about sex or relationships or abuse even with those you are close to because its not proper#and GOD I’m fuckin tired
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Thinking about legacy child sweetheart this fine night. thinking about sweetheart who had at least one parent working in the department, and who was close to/working as an investigator. Thinking about the pressure that they would carry being know as “____’s kid” who “had so much potential, i mean look at their parents!” Thinking about how they’re usually described as an uptight workaholic and how they probably grew up with that as an example as a kid. They’d be around the department their whole life and this would be seen as normal. Thinking about Sweetheart taking on that Shade case, probably as a way to prove to the others that they are more than just their parents kid. Maybe even to prove to themselves that they are more than that. To prove that they are worthy of the praise that they’ve been getting since they were young. Thinking about Sweetheart who probably would have died if Milo hadn’t been there, being faced with their mortality at a young age, and coming face to face with the fact that this is all their life is going to be. If they survive this, it’s just going to repeat. Over and over, life threatening situation after the next after the next. Thinking about sweetheart having doubts in their job.
Thinking about… Milo and Sweetheart. Thinking about Milo being Sweethearts why. Thinking about Milo and the pack being the reason Sweetheart stays in their job, but also be the reason to take a step back. It’s no longer just Sweetheart and the department, but now it’s Sweetheart and Milo… and the department is their job. Thinking about legacy child Sweetheart, and their loving mate, who works to understand Sweetheart’s upbringing and works with them to try and dismantle that mindset that’s been drilled into them in their formative years. Thinking about Sweetheart who knows what Milo is thinking when he gets into those “i can’t rest until this is fixed” mindsets and working with him and it being a constant give and take game that they play. Thinking about Milo and Sweetheart who are chipping away at those stubborn habits, and it’s slow, and knowing and understanding that progress isn’t linear, and it’s hard- but they do it. they do it together and they’re constantly there for each other. Each is the other’s biggest support system. and they love each other so much.
Guys i’ve been thinking.
#i’m so tired#but like#fuckin#are you seeing what i’m seeing#i love milo and sweetheart so much#they’re just so#i’m just so#god#why can’t i have this#redacted audio#redacted audio milo#redacted audio sweetheart#redacted milo#redacted sweetheart#redacted headcanons#plutonium_rambles#redactedverse
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GODDD getting accommodations at work should not be this fucking hard.
where is my Star Trek utopia where we don’t even have to worry about this ridiculous back-and-forth bureaucracy rife with miscommunications and where people will just be fuckin decent to disabled & chronically ill folks 🫠🫡
#personal#I’m so fucking exhausted#also someone is fuckin lying because how does one person say x action is done and one says it isn’t and they’re supposed to be working#together???? what the fuckkk#anyways today has been a fucking stress whirlwind and I hate it. why can’t we just let disabled and chronically ill ppl EXIST god#I’d like to not be penalized at work for medicallly necessary things and also not have to jump thru 2069682819 fuckin hoops to get that#like hmmmmm maybe we could just try being decent to ppl instead idk just a thought#I’m so tired of the bureaucracy and everyone not communicating at all like !!!! I am Trying My Hardest here can ppl give me a crumb of#cooperation like !!!!! . please#anyways shout out to my new boss for at least being exponentially more gracious accommodating non-bullying and over all more decent than my#old boss lmao 🤪#ok like my new boss is actually pretty cool and I love that I can tell when she’s as fed up and eye rolling as me lol#love having a boss who isn’t an active bully and gaslighter 👍🏻
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can i chew on gabriel
#ask a character event#reincarnation au (working title)#tboi#binding of isaac#the binding of isaac#tboi reincarnation#tboi fanart#tboi gabriel#pillart#I am so fuckin tired oh my god#this week has been hell and it’s only Tuesday#hopefully tomorrow there will be a bigger better ask#I’m sorryyyyyyyy
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Love having to help hold everyone else’s lives together but the second I’m struggling and need help then I’m too needy and being a problem
#god just once I want what I put into a person given back in return#I schedule and plan everything I make meals for everyone and drive people around#my whole life it’d always be my job to clean my brothers room and even now I’m the one that keeps others shit clean instead of themselves#and I really wouldn’t mind if any of it was returned#or at the very least don’t make me feel like shit#or like I give people rides but don’t get gas money and I make meals but no help paying for the groceries to make the food#and I can’t afford to sustain myself much less someone else#and I’m so tired#I work all the fuckin time#just once I want to get off and relax and not have to go and take care of a whole ass adult who’ll throw a fit if I dare say I’m hungry#or get mad at me when I run out of energy when I’m going non stop#ghost rambles#hh I’ll have some time to myself tomorrow morning before my blood tests at least#before I have to go home after and prepare for a taco night with friends#gonna go wander target I still have a gift card and maybe get a new piercing#I am excited for tacos and games with my friends I’m just so tired and tomorrow morning is my only break for the next week#I have so many appointments coming up and I picked up extra shifts
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hey guys how do i stop being actually the fucking worst
#personal#ok to reblog#i’m actually so tired#i want to stab myself repeatedly in the throat#bpd#is fuckin killing me#i hate how i fucking act i know i look so abusive but jesus christ i swear to god i’m not trying to be#i’m not trying to hurt you i swear#i know it hurts you#but it’s not what i’m trying to do#i just don’t know how#i don’t#i don’t know how to be who you deserve#but as long as you stay#as long as you’re here#i promise you#i will not stop trying#i wish you could see this#i wish i could voice this to you#you are everything. there is no one else. i cannot do better. i swear to you im trying to be who you deserve to be loved by#i love you
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actually I’m gonna bitch here for a sec like WHY is being disabled so expensive like I have very good healthcare and thank fuck for rebates but !!! still!!!!
main bullshittery bugging me rn though is the absolutely unrelenting fatphobia (and so many layers of ableism) in anything to do with hashimotos
like it is FUCKING infuriating to have this constant rhetoric of “you have hashimotos?? here’s how to stop being so FAT and UGLY! (:” “here’s how to LOSE WEIGHT with hashimotos!!” “15 tips to drop 15 kilos!!!” “got hashimotos? comment HELP ME or dm to get access to my private HASHI WEIGHT LOSS group!!!” “best diets to lose weight with hashimotos!!”
even the ones that sneak this shit into otherwise decent resources you’ll have a good run of beneficial info punctuated by “oh you’re probably balding and ugly and fat but that’s okay!!! we EMBRACE body positivity here!! by bullying you into being skinny and fitting our beauty standards so you can finally love yourself!!!!” “link in bio for my best selling book HASHI HELL TO HEALED HEAVEN: HOW I SAVED MYSELF FROM BEING FAT AND BALDING AND UGLY AND TURNED INTO THE PERFECT THIN BEACHY BABE!” Violence violence violence murder maiming killing arson destruction FUCK
#it’s midnight thirty I’m tired I have a headache I’m gonna kill every single diet n beauty industry exec#I have mroe to say but I’m too low words now#like it’s fucking horrible and I’m on the OVERactive side of it all where I struggle gaining weight at all!! cannot even#begin to imagine just how unendingly torturous this all is for. yk. actual fat people#like it’s so hard to actually try and find any resources for myself bc all this is triggering the hell out of my dysmorphia and shit like#hence why I’m lookin at a potential specialist at 600$ per fuckin appointment even tho I’ve been told there’s not much even a specialist#could do in my case#the absolute BULLSHIT y’all are subjected to everywhere everyday. oh my god.#reblog if u want idc doubt it’s got much sense or relevnate to anyone other than me atm but#I need tobbed#fatphobia#medical neglect#hashimotos#disability#ask if u need this tagged idk what to put it under#vent#diet mention#ed tw#biting biting biting biting bitign#goodnoot
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Daydreaming about passing out at work so I can have sick leave and actually possibly have the time to recover from burnout 😔
#actually autistic#autistic burnout#im so tired man#feeling hella guilty cause I’m jealous of my gf who’s on bereavement cause her dad fuckin died#god im so sorry but i need a week off and i wish it didn’t take a parent dying to get it
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illegal mischievous acts (going to sleep at a good time for my brain)
#hahahahsdhs. what will you do now (not you just fuckin yknow. you that isn’t you like god or something?? or tumblr???? or prolly my brain)#goodnight tumbles this is the best decision i have ever made#silly hours posting#(yes it’s only 23:25 i’m tired so it’s silly hours ok)
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#so im a relatively picky eater#there are limited foods and drinks that i truly love in this world#and it seems like my body hates me and keeps giving me extreme reactions to foods i love so i have to cut even more things out!#lately i’ve gotten HORRIBLE stomach cramps from eating peanut m&ms#i love peanut m&ms!#i thought maybe it was just a lactose issue? but i took literally like 6 lactose pills and ate a handful of peanut m&ms#and still had gut agony#so apparently it’s some other fuckin part of peanut m&ms!#and i know not being able to eat peanut m&ms doesn’t seem like that big of a deal#but i’m just so upset and frustrated that i’m losing YET ANOTHER thing i enjoy eating#like oh my god#why can’t i just have reactions to the very numerous foods i hate!#i want to say ‘i guess i just have to be vegan!’ but i’m sure my body would decide to ban some of those foods too eventually!#im so tired of this shit!!!!!#i hate IBS or whatever the fuck!!!!!!!!#ograt
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i hate how the one time i’m not paying attention to wtf my face is doing i end up making the wrong expression and now everyone thinks i’m upset
#bears babble#vent in tags#fuckin ugh#i finally start to like relax and not mask as much around them#and it’s good! i’m like actually chilling!!!#but fucking my face is just doing whatever and apparently i was frowning#but like i was feeling good and having a good time watching the stream#idk it’s upsetting#and another thing happened in that call#fucking god i’m just so tired of these mildly upsetting things
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AAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAA AAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
#NO MORE#I JUST WANT TO MAKE COOL STUFF NOT PERPETUATE UNREALISTIC BEAUTY STANDARDS#whEN KENDRICK SAID ‘i’M SO FUCKIN SICK & TIRED OF THE PHOTOSHOP’ MY GOD WAS HE RIGHT#ON EVERY LEVELLLLL#FUCKING PHOTOGRAPHY MOMENT I HATE THIS STUPID SHIT BRO#coULDNT EVEN USE TEXTURES#NO GRAIN#NO OVERLAYS#THESE EXAMS ARE SO INCREDIBLE WOW‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️
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Oh and although I know How to be Alone was initially written as a post breakup song, I think it reads really really well as a song about grief and losing someone deeply important to you as well. It’s not specifically about romantic loss, but instead loss in general. Recently I’ve been listening to it and thinking abt Lark
#cal rambles#it’s just one of my all time favorite grief songs you know#also I never fail to get chills at the crescendo then cut off#AND LIKE. THIS PART IS SO LARK TO ME#‘and I’m tired of being angry and I’m tired of being strong. and I’m tired of being treated like it’s me who did you wrong#like a knife inside your back can’t forget that kind of hurt do you think about the past or are your memories a blur’#ITS SO. LARK#also been thinking abt it in context of like#Kasey’s fic where Sparrow dies and Lark takes in Normal and Hero#like FUCK. FUCK. yeah.#losing a twin is like losing ur own fuckin arm man#this song is also by John Allison Weiss btw#i am thinking abt their album say what you mean#GOD FUCK and at the end when they’re screaming the chorus and you can hear the tears they’re choking back#it almost sounds like sobbing#i think about this song so much.
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thinking about the Archivist
but like
what else is new
#it better fuckin rain today i swear to god#i’m light headed and tired as shit can you tell?/lh#inscryption archivist#eloist
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when it costs more to live on your own than you would make working full fucking time
#text post tag#god i’m so tired of living here i want out of this damn house#but even working full time i have loans to pay and i would just barely scrape by in the avrage apartment#that’s not even including any fuckin transit or food like bro what am i supposed to do
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I’m gettin them calories and them fluids baby
#random post#lmao sitting here like. do I feel better now or nah#I’m definitely like. tired in a sense ig. cus like. I didn’t really sleep at all lmao#I had. a muffin and some yogurt and some waterrrrrr and some teaaaa#which tastes real fuckin sweet after the water like god damn Jesus fuck#it’s so good tho. imma sugar fiend baby I love me da azúcar#I should lay down maybe behehebe
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