#am i relapsing?

[mdddante]

realizing canonwise subkit is probably most definitely a proship or something considering subspace sees medkit as a traitor and literally caused the loss of his eye

chat what do i do. i am not having a good night

like the only instances i have of it are an au based around subspace being sad about medkits fucking dramatic ass death and a fucking crack fic thats in the works about medkit subspace and ban hammer having a wedding

[sensitiveheartless]

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[gayghostrights]

thinking about John Doe and the dark world as a metaphor for addiction/relapse.

How circumstance and trauma pushed him to do something he told himself he’d never do again, and how he has to live with the consequences and the memories, even though he’s working to not be that person anymore.

And how much shame he carries about the things he’s done, because even if he was pushed to do them, he still did them. To him, he still made that choice, and he has to bear the weight of that.

Thinking about 43, in particular, where the witch is trying to tell John that all he was is all he’ll ever be. That, despite the work he’s put into bettering himself, he’ll only be seen as his mistake in the eyes of some.

And it just feels really meaningful that Arthur’s love is what saved him, in this context. That being forgiven and loved unconditionally, even though he’s made mistakes and hurt people, is how he can cope with the memories of what he’s done. It’s how he can stop himself from slipping back into being someone he doesn’t want to be, even when it’s hard.

love isn’t what makes him better, but it’s what makes him want to work to be better. It doesn’t undo what he’s done but it allows him to live with it.

I just think it’s interesting to read this as an addiction narrative, because so often addicts are dismissed because they’re addicts. Regardless of how much we’ve healed or how far we’ve come, there are some people who will never see beyond our addiction and will force their perspective onto us. Some people hold no compassion for us because they think we’ve made the choice, and think that the harm that resulted from that “choice” makes us unredeemable.

and to see John receiving Arthur’s support and love despite what he’s done, or what he was pushed to do, really reflects how important support is to recovery. Arthur doesn’t absolve John of his mistakes, he doesn’t dismiss the harm he caused, but he doesn’t hold it against him. He knows John is more than what he’s been, he knows John is capable of change and a good person in spite of it, he knows John is capable of being better. Only John can do the work of becoming who he wants to be, but Arthur’s love and support makes the work a little more bearable.

[rosawayfr]

UWAGA!!!

Na tiktoku jest mnóstwo filmów o naszej spoleczenoscj i kieruje to do osób które takie coś nagrywają czy wy możecie się w końcu ogarnąć na tiktoku jest mnóstwo ludzi którzy nie powinni tutaj być! Doskonale wiem że jak ktoś chce to i tak się znajdzie na tumblr ale rozsyłanie tego na tiktoku gdzie jest mnóstwo małych i nie świadomości niczego dzieci to naprawdę zły pomysł

Takim osobom życzę samych binge i abyście nigdy nie osiągnęły swojego wymarzonego ugw

MOTYLKI REBLOGUJCIE ABY POINFORMOWAĆ TE OSOBY O TYM CO ROBIĄ !!!

[fucklife101]

No one understands how much I hate myself. I hate myself so fucking much I can’t even look on the mirror without feeling absolutely disgusted. I want to die.

[rottencore230]

I want to lose weight for me. But the look on their faces while they watch me wither away. Yet they won't have access to me because they already made their choices a long time ago.

[devilsainz]

i dont remember seeing this picture but i'll be thinking about it for a while now

[depressedoompaloompa]

✨Hydrate✨ bitches

This is a reminder for everyone who sees this. Get up from where you're sitting and drink a glass of water<3

Reblog so your moots don't die on their beds in their girlcaves

[erachiiii]

The grumpiest guy I know

[sleepii247]

These are the stages of me waiting for my relapse aaaany day now

[saveugoodmadam]

I really hope that creature starts arguing on hyde's side if I'm honest because this isn't the first time frankie saw a scientific creation as not being a person and if I was creature rn I'd be more than a bit pissed it was happening again

[girlboyburger]

Has life been treating you good lately? :)

this morning dogboy and i found a weevil in his plants :0]

[zeebro]

ian

[fucklife101]

I am so disgusting.

[dysphoresque]

Kris Kidd // Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar // Louis-Ferdinand Céline, Journey to the End of the Night

[nyrovie-ii]