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Edit: Damn it I meant "morality" fuck
#taylor polls#to be lawful#to be good#law#morality#philosophy side of tumblr#philosophy#I'm only giving you two options because then you have to choose#i thought about adding a third option of “ideally yes but practically no” but figured that would be too easy so i left it out#i would have picked that third once though#if you're wondering
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why can't I stop crying
#🫀.words#domestic animals make my heart hurt#we were so selfish as humans to force something wild to be gentle just to keep us company#they're so trusting and pure#and i think of Laika the space dog#and how all she wanted was to be loved#to be good#how they all just want to be loved and good#I love them all#they're all good#I've never understood how someone could see a pet and not love them#they were made to be loved#to deny them that feels wrong
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Crying thinking about fyodor at 5 am vibes
i don’t know what it is about him that initially made me love his character so much but if i were to put a finger on it it would be his sickly god-savior complex rooted in isolation and narcissistic self hatred
Why did he turn out that way?
Headcannon time:
Haven’t you heard? The Dostoyevsky family was cursed by a demon. Vanished without a trace. First it was the mother, the father, then the son.
- fyodor’s mother tried to kill him as a child—ability users were even less understood back then and she saw him as a devil spawn
- the first time fyodor uses his ability is when his mother kills him. He is reborn as her. (Still a child, though)
- since he inherits his previous incarnation’s memories and desires, he inherits the strongest emotion his mother felt when she tried to kill him: hatred for ability users.
- fyodor, traumatized from that experience forgets what his mother had done when he was a child, forgets his mother’s memories, believing she had left him with her ring and swaddled in her clothes before disappearing into the night.
- even though he has forgotten, he still has an unexplainable intense hatred towards ability users.
- his father was a kind and meek man; believing that she had simply disappeared and left the two of them he raised fyodor the best he can as a normal boy.
- though fyodor does dearly love his father, and his father loves him, his father notices that fyodor acts uncannily similar to his mother.
- contrary to his wife, fyodor’s father is not extremely religious, which is why he finds it strange that fyodor is.
- it comes to a head when fyodor is 17, and his father is deathly ill from tuberculosis. They do not have any money to spare, and fyodor does his best to work but there is not enough money.
- !fyodor remembers there is a nasty, old, pawnbroker whom he had to sell his mother’s silver ring to to afford his fathers medicine. (You know where this is going…)
- carrying a hatchet in his hands, he corners the pawnbroker when she arrives back to her flat, drunk.
- he tries his goddamned best to kill her, but he is malnourished, small, and weak. He trips, and the axe falls out of his hands.
- in an panicked attempt to defend herself, the pawnbroker picks up the axe and kills fyodor(for the second time.)
- he is reborn again—except memories from when his mother killed him in his youth begin flooding back. The pawnbroker’s, his mother’s, and his own memories melt and form a horrifying amalgamation in his mind.
- he takes what he can from the pawnbrokers house, and runs. He takes his mother’s ring back. He sells everything but the ring the next day.
- when he presents the medicine to his father—his father, enraged and feverish, sits up in bed and asks him where he got the money to buy it from. He must’ve stolen. But from where? Reading the newspaper earlier that day shows that the pawnbroker has gone missing, with all of her belongings and money.
- when he looks a fyodor and looks into his eyes glossy white eyes and dead-empty expression… he knows. Feverish, he wonders, if fyodor had been the reason his wife had vanished too.
- fyodor—having been killed and having “killed” two people watches his father’s rage in a dissociative manic calm.
in him, resentment for his nature builds. This is what ability users can do, huh? This is the pain they can cause. He knows his father will die if he spends another day without medicine. He knows that he father will not accept the medicine from him.
And so—he lets his father wrap his hands around his throat. This is fyodor’s mercy.
He leaves his home after that, his father and mother’s burning desires still fresh in his mind: kill all ability users.
Footnotes:
*this also fits asagiri’s style of writing: he often switches the personalities and/or circumstances of his characters in bsd. Akutagawa being dazai’s apprentice in bsd vs dazai vying for the akutagawa award in real life. Dazai mocking chuuya in bsd vs chuuya mocking dazai in real life.
*In this hc, fyodor’s mother is the one who is heavily religious, whereas in real life it is his father. In this hc, his father is ill instead of his mother who was in real life.
*And my favorite switch of all: the pawnbroker from crime and punishment killing raskolnikov (fyodor) instead of the other way around in the the actual Crime and Punishment.
*QUESTION. What intense desire did the fyodor get from the pawn broker? This one’s fun. The desire not to die—it makes the next time he kills an ability user using his ability that much more excruciating.
#fyodor dostoevsky#hcs#bsd fanfic#headcannons#angst#this is inspired off of my previous theory where *if* his ability had to kill some one to the touch then he would’ve killed his mother#that’s a pretty good reason to hate ability users!#i think he should’ve died for real at the helicopter but if Asagiri wants to play it like this than I’ll play#i haven’t read bsd since the beginning of this year don’t kill me pls#this is also loosely inspired by a24’s pearl#something about the unnerving European vibes; I could see the German town depicted in pearl mirroring Saint Petersburg very well#also the clearly mentally ill main characters who are no doubt *bad* and iredeemabke people (fyodor much more so) who never had the chance#to be good#I think about Saint Petersburg a lot#because of c&p#such a morose sweat slicked bitter cold and cynical city#I think about the way Dostoyevsky describes it a lot
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"E então meus olhos perceberam a maldade que o meu coração bondoso não sente"
"And then my eyes perceived the evil that my kind heart does not feel"
- @murasakinocatt
#literatura#literature#reflection#reflexão#phrases#phrase#frases#frase#olhos#coracao#eyes#heart#evil#kind#maldade#bondade#to be good#to feel#sentir#perceber#to perceive#🫀#consciência#alerta#alert#conscience
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well i really liked the umbrella academy s4! was not expecting to after all the reaction i've seen about it was negative - but yeah that was actually mostly a good ending
#yeah i dont have any major issues like as good as you can hope from a netflix show imo#anyway i think diego stans being annoyed is really funny lol#i cant imagine hating this season simply because a ship got broken up thats so so lame lmao. why do they have to stay together for the stor#to be good#the umbrella academy#tua#tua spoilers#kes' random stuff
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Reflection on Writing
I see the world of writing as this landscape of infinite possibilities. With having simple command of letters to weave into words that then come together to form sentences and paragraphs, I could craft a world of my own. I could invoke feeling and imagery that others may have never before thought to imagine. No two pieces of writing are the same, yet they use the same 26 letters of the alphabet. There’s something about that, something about having access to a world so malleable in the hands of each person that inspires me and ignites a fire inside of me. I don’t know if I did find my passion in life, I just chose to write it off as something unattainable for me. Probably. I tend to aim for perfection on the first few tries and when I don’t get it, I abandon it for someone else to do better. But the thing is, there’s room for everyone. There’s even room for me to be bad!
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i just want to be a good dog so fucking badly
#puppy barks#im trying#just#to be good#at a lot of things#and i just wish i felt like i was a good dog
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I can't make myself happy. I can't make them happy. Fuck
#Maybe not yet#Trying to get my thoughts together#This helps#I just.#God i try sk hard#To be good#And be better than I was#And then shit like this happens#And i want to die#It's#hard#I think I'm triggered#Ii just want someone to be happy#And it's never going to be me#But I can't even be good enough to make them happy#I should be helping#I miss Delores#Five Vents#(literally ignore him im just lowkey vent writing teehee)
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i keep getting tss blogs reccomended to me now and sometimes i take a look at them and that is how i discovered that there’s a whole ts critical tag. so like that’s going on my blocked tags list i guess
#.txt#i don’t mind people criticising people i like ofc#it’s just that it’s all about how slow tss content has gotten and like#yeah okay fair but he also doesn’t really owe anyone anything yk#thomas that is#my only opinion on all that is i think maybe he should scale down his projects a bit#not even necessarily because it’d get vids out faster i just think it’d be healthier#like it’s okay for things to be Less. doesn’t have to have a million elements#and the worlds highest production quality#to be good#i DO think another sanders asides would be good as a like. tide over. just have the sides play monopoly together or something that’d be fun
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liking someone platonically is so embarrassing like. yeah i admire you. yeah i think about you all the time. yeah i look forward to every time i see you even if it's only for a minute. yeah it's all platonic and yeah i couldn't explain this because it'd sound romantic. fucking hell
#this is secretly a positivity post#aromantic#aromantism#platonic crush#robyn-i-guess#adding onto these tags as i think some people might not understand#this is about platonic crushes#not just loving your friends but genuinely being obsessed with them in a way that's still platonic#i'm finally muting this post#sorry friends i hope you all have good luck with your feelings
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it came to my realization that 99% of my fandom related headaches would be cured if everyone understood this
#making this at 2 am was like top 10 autism moment for me#this is helping me make sense of so many things hopefully it helps someone else too idk#user macdenlover drops badly drawn infographic media literacy rates skyrocket theres world peace#anyways#for sunny 1.5 is the sweet spot for me. a sexy medium rare if u will#but it completely depends on the piece of media#with supernatural i was a 2.5 on a good day.
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shoutout to everyone who wants to infodump but cant string together coherent thoughts to form sentences and instead just look at you like this
#and by 'everyone' i mean me. im just hoping other people relate lmao#someone asks me about a thing i like and im just like h..................#been thinking about The Character for a solid 6 months+ and let me tell you. expldoeing soon#this is about ffxv btw . how am i supposed to say how much it lives in my brain . i cant think#text#1k#5k#10k#15k#20k#great googly moogly#30k#40k#50k#60k#boooy what da heeel#70k#80k#90k#will this be my first ever post to hit 100k... it remains to be seen#good lord. we did it#100k
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