#i’m severely depressed

[girlyteengirl16]

when you’re having a bad day but then you remember it’s like this everyday

[mavigator]

i talked about it a little bit already but i have things to say about it. for context, i was born with amniotic band syndrome. the amniotic band wrapped around my left wrist in utero and stunted the growth of my hand. i was born with about half a palm, four nubs for fingers, and a twisted half of a thumb. i can open and close my thumb and pinkie joint like a claw.

yesterday at work i had a shift in the room with 5-10 year old kids. i had my left hand hidden in my sleeve (a bad habit of mine). a kid asked if he could see my hand, and even though internally i was debating running into traffic, i said “sure you can” and showed him my hands. he stared for a moment, looking disturbed, and then said “i don’t want to look at that anymore”. that hurt to hear, but i understand that kids are new to the world and he probably didn’t mean it out of malice. i put my hand away again, told him that it was okay, and that i was just born that way.

he then went on to talk about how he knows a kid with a similar hand to mine and called it “ugly”. i told him that wasn’t a very kind thing to say and that he wouldn’t feel good if someone said that to him, and he replied that no one would say that to him—because he has “normal hands”, and he’s glad he does because otherwise he’d be “ugly”. i tried to talk with him for a bit about how everybody is born differently, but he just started talking about a girl he knows with a “messed up face” and pulled on his face to make it look droopy. i went on some more about how it wasn’t very kind to talk about people that way, but the conversation moved on to something else.

i’ve told my supervisors about it and they’re going to have a talk with his mom. what i wanted to say is this: i’m genuinely not upset with the kid. kids are young and naturally curious, and he clearly simply hasn’t been taught about disabled people and kind ways to speak to/about others. which is why i am upset with his parent(s). i know he’s encountered visibly deformed/disabled people before (he said so himself!), yet his parent(s) clearly haven’t had any kind of discussion with him about proper language and behavior. i knew from birth that some people were just different than others, but my parents still made a point to assert to be kind to and accepting of others. i wonder if adults in his life are the type of people to hush him and usher him away when he points out someone in a wheelchair. that kind of thing doesn’t teach politeness. it tells children that disabled people are an Other than can’t be acknowledged or spoken about; which, to a child, means disability must be something bad.

i’m lucky enough that this was a relatively mild incident, and that i’m a grownup with thicker skin. i’m worried about the other kids he mentioned to me. has he been talking to them this way? when i was a kid, i had other kids scream, cry, and run away at the sight of my hand. or follow me around pointing at me and laughing at me. or tell me i couldn’t do something because i was ugly or incapable or whatever. one time a girl at an arcade climbed to the top of the skeeball machine, pointed at me, and screamed at me to put my hand away and wouldn’t stop crying until she couldn’t see me anymore. another time, a kid saw my hand, screamed at the top of her lungs, and ran into my friend’s arms, crying hysterically about how i was scaring her. that second incident made me cry so hard i threw up when i got home. i can kind of laugh it off now, but having people react to me that way as a child is something i’m still getting over. why do you think i have a habit of keeping my hand in my sleeve? it just irritates me to see children that have clearly not been taught basic manners and kindness—their parents Clearly missed something pretty important .

[rainesol]

Seeing Idia say he showered even though it’s a pain and being like oh wow that’s a part of poor MH you never see talked about that’s pretty cool :) and then half the fandom are like “ermmm ☝️😏 beating the incel allegations” and it’s like oh guys wtf. And then you keep looking for the other side in the argument and THEY’RE like “uhh guys. Idia DOES shower because he’s not the GROSS sweaty gamer you want him to be 😒” and it’s like well fuck you guys are wrong too.

[notrimbaud]

Bed rot Miku!

[rosy-crow]

You guys remember that post where I fawned over the Rebirth detail where Seph was smitten with Nibelheim’s beauty? The beautiful home he didn’t know was his? I feel like that got WORSE now.

So…not only did he just…not really see the world outside of that stupid building unless while on missions…but….

These tiny little dialogue bits in Rebirth feel a little deeper now? Like really man? Even after growing up, he just…missed out on seeing the world outside of war and his assignments? I’m not sure why I hoped otherwise but at this rate, I shouldn’t be surprised. It’s just depressing.

And Jenova or this….manipulative dream sequence…plays into that lack of connection to a normal or natural world…in addition to the mom issues of course. They’re in what looks like some pretty alpine meadow. Everything is just beautiful and mom is there in the center of it all.

So then, Sephiroth being struck by Nibelheim years later — a beautiful landscape that he swears he recognizes and has no clue about being the place where his real mother worked and lived….

….that’s where he finds Jenova. Drawn into a beautiful, scenic place, he finds another illusion of his mother.

He once again finds nothing but lies while so close to home.

[pollyanna-nana]

I think a lot about what exactly Thistle was doing for those 1000 years. I mean, his increased monitoring of the dungeon was explicitly caused by Delgal going “missing” and a bunch of adventurers pouring in, but Yaad says that he’s “always been like this” and “not one for reasonable conversation.” I can see that being true for the rest of the golden kingdom members since he seems to not gaf about them beyond being part of Delgal’s kingdom, but what about Delgal himself?

How often did they speak and what did they talk about? Did Delgal ever beg Thistle to release them from his spell? Did Thistle ever threaten him, or would he never dare to? Could he tell Delgal was deeply miserable, or could he just not see it at that point?

He looks incredibly unwell here. How did Thistle feel about this? Did he feel anything at all, or was that nibbled out of him, too?

[poppyrays]

Human Accessory - Aka a minor emergency came up during mandatory Human Cuddle time

Anyways have an Alan and Robin. Are they together?Absolutely

Canonically? Shutup.

Idk how Robin keeps her hair so nice though in the SEA she must be using some future magic bullshit shampoo and conditioner

[roseverie]

not that I have regrets but god there’s so much I could have done if it wasn’t for having mental illness at such a young age lol

[sciderman]

do you have any cablepool fic recommendations?

no sir, but dear god i sure could use some

if there's anyone out there, please oh please put some in the replies - my life may depend on it

[bitcell]

WERE GONNA GET QROIER LORE ON QUESADILLA ISLAND this is fucked this is gonna hurt god save us all padre nuestro que estás en el cielo

[girlyteengirl16]

guys i’ve been sad since i was 5 i think im stuck this way idk tho

[ryan-sometimes]

This person threw the first brick at stonewall

[cutie--q]

it’s SO wild how blue zircon made a conspiracy theory against the diamonds right in front of them, right in front of her creator.

imagine saying to god’s face “YOU’RE the one who killed JESUS”

[goldensunset]

i do not like thanksgiving (week)

[peaches2217]

What did I miss??

[singlethread]

I got a scholarship for 5,000 dollars and one for 2,500 dollars 🥺