#I am severely depressed

[notrimbaud]

Bed rot Miku!

[melodydolohov23]

So no one is going to write Ava x Samantha fanfiction? How am I supposed to fill that gaping hole the book left in my heart ? Yes I'm talking about bunny by mona awad, yes it left irreparable damage

I need to see ava and samantha tangoing on that roof again

[spoopieere]

*spinning Asa in my head like a 3D marketable plushie*

[fractalheart-real]

Noël Noël

[mysticalsoot]

to my best friend at 14 that I have blocked now; you were right! i do in fact live in a toxic household! yay me! oh, sorry you hate me btw

[thatspookyswitch]

I could really use some cheering up :c

[simanzi]

couscous tastes better at midnight

[aphroditesswan]

@jaedoesthings @stareyedlunatic having to deal with my insanity 24/7

i sang the backpack song from dora for 5 minutes straight on call

pov your archon is annoying

[codexxgigas]

It is 1:24 am and i have to be up at 6am so of course instead of going to sleep i will be watching red white & royal blue

[child-ofdust]

my f/os would never deadname or misgender me and i think that is awesome thumb up

[komaedamizuki]

sometimes i wish someone else who's actually smart and wants to live this life would take this body

[skywarpie]

:(

[howcanisaveafallenangel]

burnout irl where i just dont want to do anything

[mavigator]

i talked about it a little bit already but i have things to say about it. for context, i was born with amniotic band syndrome. the amniotic band wrapped around my left wrist in utero and stunted the growth of my hand. i was born with about half a palm, four nubs for fingers, and a twisted half of a thumb. i can open and close my thumb and pinkie joint like a claw.

yesterday at work i had a shift in the room with 5-10 year old kids. i had my left hand hidden in my sleeve (a bad habit of mine). a kid asked if he could see my hand, and even though internally i was debating running into traffic, i said “sure you can” and showed him my hands. he stared for a moment, looking disturbed, and then said “i don’t want to look at that anymore”. that hurt to hear, but i understand that kids are new to the world and he probably didn’t mean it out of malice. i put my hand away again, told him that it was okay, and that i was just born that way.

he then went on to talk about how he knows a kid with a similar hand to mine and called it “ugly”. i told him that wasn’t a very kind thing to say and that he wouldn’t feel good if someone said that to him, and he replied that no one would say that to him—because he has “normal hands”, and he’s glad he does because otherwise he’d be “ugly”. i tried to talk with him for a bit about how everybody is born differently, but he just started talking about a girl he knows with a “messed up face” and pulled on his face to make it look droopy. i went on some more about how it wasn’t very kind to talk about people that way, but the conversation moved on to something else.

i’ve told my supervisors about it and they’re going to have a talk with his mom. what i wanted to say is this: i’m genuinely not upset with the kid. kids are young and naturally curious, and he clearly simply hasn’t been taught about disabled people and kind ways to speak to/about others. which is why i am upset with his parent(s). i know he’s encountered visibly deformed/disabled people before (he said so himself!), yet his parent(s) clearly haven’t had any kind of discussion with him about proper language and behavior. i knew from birth that some people were just different than others, but my parents still made a point to assert to be kind to and accepting of others. i wonder if adults in his life are the type of people to hush him and usher him away when he points out someone in a wheelchair. that kind of thing doesn’t teach politeness. it tells children that disabled people are an Other than can’t be acknowledged or spoken about; which, to a child, means disability must be something bad.

i’m lucky enough that this was a relatively mild incident, and that i’m a grownup with thicker skin. i’m worried about the other kids he mentioned to me. has he been talking to them this way? when i was a kid, i had other kids scream, cry, and run away at the sight of my hand. or follow me around pointing at me and laughing at me. or tell me i couldn’t do something because i was ugly or incapable or whatever. one time a girl at an arcade climbed to the top of the skeeball machine, pointed at me, and screamed at me to put my hand away and wouldn’t stop crying until she couldn’t see me anymore. another time, a kid saw my hand, screamed at the top of her lungs, and ran into my friend’s arms, crying hysterically about how i was scaring her. that second incident made me cry so hard i threw up when i got home. i can kind of laugh it off now, but having people react to me that way as a child is something i’m still getting over. why do you think i have a habit of keeping my hand in my sleeve? it just irritates me to see children that have clearly not been taught basic manners and kindness—their parents Clearly missed something pretty important .

[care666bear]

[thatspookyswitch]

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