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cvbullshit · 1 year ago

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I am CVHell, god of course

One as Deonie bc why not:

I am Deonie, god of the body

I am Arran, god of the most important thing

EDIT: if y'all don’t wanna use your name use your username

#random post #reblog #lmao #am i implying that i'm just THE god?#like i am god OF COURSE DUH #what am i?#deonie's fits a bit ngl #shits and giggles #silly goofy mood #deonie clown #cv deonie #deonie nonsense #slightly in character

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anaalnathrakhs · 7 months ago

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love this part of my life where the things that are difficult but challenging and good for me are things i can stop and skip and halfass, but the things that are difficult and painful and pointless are the things i have to live with no matter what

#school and home life are too much to handle so i skip school #because i cant kick my parents out #and appartments cost money #and i dont have a car to sleep in #i could maybe try to dig up my old childhood tent but that brings a whole host of logistic questions + im scared and it's difficult #anyway. it's fine. it's cool. i just have to hold on until i graduate high shcool and then ?????#find a way to live without my parents money OR scholarships #all for some nebulous end goal of having a job (the only field i'm interested in and good at offers two options:#to become an academic #or to become a freelancer #i do not have the fortitude to be an academic and being a freelancer is convoluted and pays like shit)#i might've spent 24h without my parents occasionally if i spent the night at a friend's place once or twice recently #but besides that the last time i've gone 48h without my parents was when the mental health center organised a week camp uhhhh...#two summers ago #incredibly good for my mental health as you can see #god i remember like... years ago. around 13yo maybe or 14. a guy. i dont know if he was a mental health professional or like social cases #but anyway he told me ''you're too afraid to be away from mommy and daddy'' and it made me want to rip his eyes out #several other people have implied or suggested that too over the years and it's just #am i too dependant on my parents? yes. will it be difficult to take my independance? yes.#does it means i don't both rationally recognize and feel that this is really fucking unhealthy and hindering for me #on top of being unpleasant?#FUCK NO #i want out my guy. there's just not many opportunities for an already mentally ill teenager #now that i'm eighteen i have to grapple with the logistical problems of the money needed and how to continue my education #and im sure a billion more if i start searching a little more seriously #perhaps i should kill myself that way i don't cost anyone any more money #broadcasting my misery #vent

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nana-glass-chillhop-radio-hour · 1 year ago

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Ok sorry I’m long overdue for a follow up of these tags I left on your post lol. Here goes: In my brain, the role of a cop is a very masculine one. Like obviously there are female cops but whenever they appear in media ( at the ones I’ve seen) they always are very masculine. So with Hayward whole thing about performing the role of a standard cop I think he was also performing masculinity in a very standard way. His whole arc in season 2 has also been about learning who he is outside of that performance so he I think he can also start to experiment with gender and get silly with it. I think that’d be good for him. maybe this only makes sense to me but thank you for the space to expand upon me ideas.

This is paige and Hayward season three. my final message

I just saw this response omg loving where you head is at... gotta get this out on the record before s3e3

#he can be gnc like harry dubois never let himself be #the silt verses #investigating officer hayward #hayward's gender has GOT to be weird like his whole thing with his wife who doesn't exist is SO gender #god I need to go back and rewrite 'come hell or high water' to make Hayward's wife not have been real #I think Jon and Muna have heavily implied that Hayward's wife was supposed to exist at the end of s1 #but Jon decided to make her fake retroactively just to fuck with us #(in a 'just to fuck with us (affectionate)' kinda way #I don't believe in rewriting fic to conform to canon but the fact that THAT'S the fanon they canonized is *so* fucking good #a tasty tasty treat for us gremlins #but his wife that doesn't exist... he's like an alien in a human body doing a dane cook routine at work #whenever he talks about his wife who doesn't exist hating him I'm reminded of that John Mulaney bit #of 'my wife's a bitch and I don't like her? That's not a comedy routine! That's a support group for men in crisis!'#like Hayward. you invented this woman #she isn't real #why did you make her a bitch who doesn't like you????#and who YOU are pathetically still in love with #Like that's the craziest thing he doesn't even portray himself as in a failing marriage #he portrays himself as being desparate to stay in a failing marriage even though he isn't in love because he's afraid of being alone???#like hello am I speaking English here that's fucking insane in the membrane #siltposting #anyway thank you for answering my ask sorry to write this tag novel when you were just trying 2 help

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softshuji · 8 months ago

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Any men out there wanna pretend to be my bf to get my parents off my case about marriage? I am so so serious right now.

#my mom gave me a really really lonf lecture and upset me because her and my dad want me to start thinking about settling down ans getting #married. again. cos this comes up all the time. ans I reiterated that i do wanna marry and have kids. i know im 26 years old why do they'#think im also not aware of this??? like i suddenly forgot my own age and have my head in the clouds all the time. and i got so heated cos i #said they only believe in that in theory. in reality neither of them have accepted the idea od my leaving home or the idea of mw being with #a man. and they start freaking out if they even find out i talk to them so to say they want me to get married is so fucking naive #ans when i mentioned this and that they're more than ok w mt brothers talking tp women she said that if i wanted to settle down she could #talk to dad and they could “go about finding someone for me” and I've never been so pissed #i got so upset. why does everyone keep saying this to me. as if anyone my dad knows could ever be a half decent man #and the truth is they don't care if im in a happy marriage they've accepted that i won't be they only care that im gone and saving face in #front of family. that's all. it's always reputation it's always “what will people say?”#not once did love come up. not once did shw even imply that i should marryfor love #or that they hope i love someone and marry them. because they're more happy with the idea of me marrying for the sake of it than #they are at the idea of me finding genuine lovw #im not a fucking broodmare im not here to push out babies for the sake od reputation.#and then i said nor being married isn't the end of the world and she said “it's important that you settle down”#and i said im unwavering in my principles. she can call mw high maintenance like she loves doing but I'm not wavering on the #kind of man i want to be with and when i do marry him i want it to bw genuine. because be loves me and vice versa not because im ticking off #somethin from a damn checklist to appease them. and if being unwavering on my principles means staying unmarried then so be it.#my obligations are to god and myself and that's it #and y'know what??? i am in love with a boy already #and yet they don't care that i wanna be in love at all. no im just a puppet to follow a certain narrative in life live according to evergone #else has and that's it.#im done.#and then she tried to apologise by getting me a slice of cake and that somehow made me feel worse.#i dont want an apology. i want to be heard and actually listened to for once. i want someone to ask what i want. to actually give a shit #and love me cos it's me. not cos im some thing to further an agenda. or some toy or puppet that does your bidding.#is it so much??? to just want to be loved in return? to marry and live according to how i want to?? ans not want anyone to make these #decision's for me?#ruined my whole day.

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batemanofficial · 1 year ago

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hello upper middle class northern usamerican tumblr user. i want to play a game. you will notice that you are in a super america convenience store in rural kentucky - you have three minutes to purchase a snack and drink of your choice and make normal small talk with the cashier. however, if you use the word "cryptid" or generally make reference to appalachia and its inhabitants as "wild", uncivilized, or lacking restraint around alcoholic beverages during your time here, i will personally tie you to the chassis of a four wheeler and tip it into the river. live or die. make your choice

#speak friend and enter #i can appreciate mothman as much as the next guy but can we stop treating appalachia like it's the subject of a richard attenborough doc #i come from a long line of hillbillies and i like to think i've got a good sense of humor about it but sometimes i am tested #like. this is not a lawless land with a moonshine still in every holler and nameless voices in the woods!! this is a normal town!!#idk maybe i'm reading too much into it but i'm just tired of the cultural fetishization of appalachia by people who aren't from here #and who don't know anything about it. like yeah you know mothman and what hooch is and that's all well and good #but do you know what the opioid epidemic really is. do you know about the structural injustices that keep people like mcconnell in power #i'm not saying you have to apply dialectical political analysis to every issue that occurs in the region to be able to have an opinion #but also like. i'm tired of people looking at places like where i grew up and making them into things they aren't #like. on the one hand we have ''ooh spooky hills!! run if you hear the trees whisper your name''#and on the other we've got ''isn't appalachia so depressing...so hashtag ethel cain core...shame it's got no value beyond aesthetics''#and on yet another hand we have ''i - a person with no ties to the region - am going to take up the cause of every social issue #occurring across the entire appalachian region so the world will see just how bad these poor hill people have it. i am very smart''#and like. it's frustrating #i'm not saying you should never speak about appalachia if something we have is interesting to you #nor am i implying that i want to gatekeep discussion of the region's issues to the community bc that won't accomplish anything #i'm just saying that like any place it's complex. it's got its good things and it's got its bad things.#and you shouldn't isolate the good from the bad or vice versa - especially if you don't know the context in which those things happen.#and for the love of god dont let your own ignorance cause you to boil down those issues into a reductive and inaccurate set of stereotypes #learn about us from us. not from tiktok not from movies and for christ's sake not from hillbilly elegy. i hate that fucking book #anyway that got weirdly serious but i mean it. putting appalachia as a talking point up on the shelf until y'all can speak intelligently #ok to rb

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zoeyandguys · 1 month ago

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God, I hate being me and doing stuff that's so clearly not going to be canon and then being upset when canon takes a different direction. Anyway, I'm going to let you know how things go when I sue Mob. (for Legal reason that last part is clearly a joke)

#In mob's defense he was listed in the one Catnap Doc so clearly he had some invlovement #In my defense the way they wrote about him implied he was just a hired detective from outside to look into the Theodore case #also In my defense I didn't think they were ever gonna touch him again so I thought I was safe god why am I like this #Now if you excuse me I'm gonna go rewrite litterally everything I did involving this man to try and make it reflect canon more #“I hate everyone involved with/knew about the Bigger Bodies stuff” *Looks at Gerad* “I can fix him.”#on a side note my theory Harley is gonna be one of the monster in chapter 4 feels more true so. there's that.

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starpros-sunshine · 2 years ago

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To be honest I never really understood the "Eichi started the war because he liked Wataru and couldn't be normal about it" thing because like??????????????? What's the war going to do about that?????? What is Eichi getting out of antagonising Wataru and his only friends to the public and almost working himself into an early grave???? How would Eichis relationship with Wataru benefit from holding public executions for half of the eccentrics and turning them into scapegoats and actively declaring his unit as an "enemy" of theirs???? In what world would that be a successful courting ritual I mean I understand Eichi can be extra and Wataru is the definition of the word but genuinely how does that entire train of thought make sense???? Eichi is a lot of things but he's not stupid. The man has the common sense to not do All Of That just for the sake of getting closer to one individual in a way that would never ever work on anyone with some semblance of common sense. The Tomoya Sanctuary incident happened because Eichi was jealous and couldn't be normal aboout it.

And not even to mention how, if the aforementioned was the case, that would also never have worked with Wataru because the reason Wataru was so in on his role was because he knew it was serving a greater purpose. He's not the type to go along with a plan like that simply to satisfy some other guys strange ways of showing his admiration via turning the object of his affections and aforementioneds friends into social outcasts. He's not the type. And neither is Eichi.

That entire train of thought would make absolutely no sense if taken beyond the "haha funny joke" stage

#I mean of course I am aware it really is just a joke for the funsies #and I understand that but it's just I never really understood where it came from cause #Like????#correct me if I'm wrong here god knows I'm not up to the proper ways of how romance works #but that does not seem to be it #it also does Eichi a massive disservice because it would imply he's a selfish entitled brat who sees no problem with doing #ALL of that #just so he could? What?#What would he gain from this?#He wouldn't gain anything from this #why would you go through all of that trouble if it doesn't even serve a purpose #that's not how that works you don't just do things on such a scale if they don't serve a greater good #I'm really just trying to understand how one would come to the conclusion Eichi started the war because he liked Wataru I just.#don't understand how that would add up....I suppose #wataei

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unproduciblesmackdown · 4 months ago

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also if only the physical copy of how to disappear completely & never be found i first encountered & read a few years ago (sort of [roughly avg age ten] reader book, not any similarly titled How To) hadn't disappeared completely & not been found since, probably b/c i put it somewhere i intended to be For Safekeeping, which is also how my binder vanished....b/c it's one of those like. those book for late elementary/middle school readers when they just weave in this unrealism which makes for a delightful range & unpredicability? and with a cynical protagonist girl like off to the races like wow her mom is depressed asf & smoking? and it's about A Family History Secrets Mystery so blatantly a haunting that the inciting incident is basically introducing a haunted [family history secrets mystery] house. and spoilers don't matter like it's stemming from there being this missing uncle who grew up so in contrast to the Winsome Winning Sibling Who Does It All Right while seeing his own affiliation with rats that he tried to disappear completely & never be found which led to this Tragedy which led to this more unintended disappearance of his & he haunts this house & wants to be left alone & only goes out at night with this [ambiguous Is That A Giant Rat Or Weird Small Dog (protagonist affected by these family situations who expresses her preoccupation with an awareness of how fate can Strike and Get you with this interest with roving packs of killer chihuahuas. people think she's weird though she spontaneously befriends this other girl struck with this bolt from the blue & a bit weird / outcast & then Insightful who i wish was in it more)] & plays into the hauntedness danger like playing into the [something's Wrong with you then] until having to take yet more action where the urge to express the truth comes out more both b/c living that hidden is more threatened but also b/c now the niece children are more threatened as well. ft. a sort of preternatural blurring of time b/c of only being communicated with through this uncle via his comic pages (that he paints?) of dubiously accurate translations of irl events that are created so quickly it seems to verge on foresight, imagine like "hmm what's this painting. it's me standing in this room looking at this painting??? as someone ominous lurks in the shadows right behind me?" in both [now how could you know this & paint it really fast ahead of time] and [horror]

#i've had good times & thrills & things from other books i've read in the past xyz years & all #but i think this had the best in its final sections with [''uncle rat!''] like that was so incredibly unbelievably hype #and a further ending with a reconciliation that lets the Weirdo still be how they are but with more support lmao #i'm like yeah i want to live in the abandoned house only coming out at night only leaving secret homemade books with Some Truths #yeah i wanna exist in secret passageways & be unseen & uninteracted with & get by despite it all; sure #and disappear (mostly) and (not be found for a while until you have more motivations to help very parallel parties)#and have an affinity & affiliation with animals ppl are also like oh weird bad gross Never Want To See Them who are scroungily around #not implied to be a supernatural connection rather than just like. oh this person is a friend. from chihuahuas; rats; coatis....#also the How To & Never Be book's like core event to The Mystery is. truly so tragic lmao my god. it's really great #i'll just see about reading a digitization somewhere b/c i am Not gonna be able to find it #and the uncle is So mysterious that like. you don't get many Interactions w/him & are just going off of these emergent factors #the situations as they are as consequences of prior events; that he Is this withdrawn & communicating As some haunting monster etc #the way you technically don't also get to know like [what was bruno like prior] Directly W/Promised Accuracy and yet #the [metaphorically i mean] angle going on for everyone like perceiver truth teller Weird Odd One Out yeah yes #bit like [ :) (devastation)] verse talking abt him through a ''so your disabled relative'' lens (who also even w/magic was Just Existing)#here's a guy just existing like :) = my god this absolutely sicko who would even do something like that lmfao. god we've all been there #grappling with [tendencies] they couldn't understand....many things + just the way bruno approaches Speaking is like. okay.#my man's autistic. highest honor i can bestow. among other plausible ways of being disabled / nonconforming / abnormal #also the highest honor....rat affiliated disappeared uncle in How To? well he's really simply not possible ''yes he is Normal(tm)'' so

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archersgoon · 5 months ago

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every time these books piss me off gender-wise i make perri more androgynous

#i just think it's soooo funny how 90% of perceived weakness is tied to failed masculinity (even when froi is doing ableism this comes up #they are intertwined) and the most consistent shorthand for weakness/uselessness/antagonism is not being manly lumatere (modern) style #like you may note i have nothing especially well-formed to say here i need to do some more reading of other stuff but i find it soooo #tacky. like. commit to the setting i'm not even saying you can't align your characters as such i know how flaws work i just feel like #maybe it implies some stuff about how the author sees this sort of thing personally rather than specifically pointing it out #altho if i am being honest if the former is the case i suspect at least half of it is what they personally find attractive (see how celie #describes banyon)#like 'ohhhh my god feliciano wears skinny jeans rather than my ultra-manly trousers as god intended clearly he's a loser and we can #all make fun of him for this & it represents how he's just a frivolous puppet for his uncle and has no agency (see also what's done with hi #at the betrothal for more passivity lmfao)'. anyway i am going to stop here i think i need to go do something else

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batsplat · 5 months ago

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By that time Marcos Hirsch, Jorge's physical trainer, had also become an important figure in the young racer's life and they built up a particularly strong professional and personal relationship. Together, Dani and Marcos formed Jorge's strongest pillars of support during the worst of the conflict, but there had been happier times in the gym for both Lorenzos with Marcos. In fact, one of Jorge's more amusing anecdotes comes from those days: 'My dad used to say that Rossi was a clown. He said he was a great rider but that he always had the best bike and that was why he won. So when Rossi moved to Yamaha he said, "Pah! He's not even going to finish in the top six. There are too many factory Hondas and the Yamaha is nowhere near as good." Marcos and I said that Rossi would win races. Not only that, but that he would finish in the top three in the championship. So we made a bet. My dad had just come back from Thailand and he'd bought this ridiculous Thai hat, with little balls dangling from it on strings. We said that if Valentino finished in the top three at the end of the season, he'd have to wear the hat for a whole week. Of course, Valentino won the title and my dad turned up at the gym wearing the hat. He looked so stupid that we felt sorry for him and after a couple of days we told him he could take it off.'

Riveras Tobia's Jorge Lorenzo: My Story So Far

#like okay ntm on valentino. 2003 the top yamaha was SEVENTH wdym you don't think the 3x defending champion could go one better #valentino's 2004 really will always be famous huh like they were making bets over whether he could be top THREE #brr brr #//#wall tag #im so fucking close to finishing off that stupid vale/jorge post. i just keep running into the 'oh GOD jorge had so much going on' issue #like u can't understand what was going on in that garage unless u understand that jorge was like. i don't even know man #all these years of engaging in Valentino Rossi Discourse and then also this whole celebrations situation #likeeeee u need to get. u need to get they'd existed in the same ecosystem for years and years #there's a difference between knowing that on like. a logical level. and fully getting what it implies for that relationship #it's kinda the difference between. okay you know how marc ended up competing against his hero. emotionally fraught and all that #but THIS is like the equivalent of racing someone you used to argue about on reddit every day. you know what i'm saying #he's so into sports Discourse!! not all athletes are so into actual sports Discourse!! i get it because i am too but it's so funnyyy #and it's also TERRIBLE for him because he's way way way too aware of it when he's valentino's rival #you need to not know about all this stuff!! who gives a shit!! just go win titles omggggg

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v-iv-rusty · 2 years ago

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as much as I never post about it I kind of genuinely am fascinated by the evil cheese grater man

#misc.txt #(lautrec)#he's terrible. I'm rotating him in my mind #the dynamic of him and fina is really interesting to me #sure fina is a character that does not actually appear. being a background god only mentioned by name and all. but like #the implications of the ring of favor breaking permanently if you EVER take it off even just once #(I am ignoring that it doesn't do that in 3 because I do what I want and I think it's a stupid change)#and #'adrift on a sea of isolation only his faith in the love of his goddess remained true and so the knight forsook all else' hello???#^arms+legs of favor set desc in 3 #and in the very same set it describes her love he desires SO badly - above all else - as 'fickle as the weather' (chest)#and not just that but it also says that the 'embraced' design itself completely ignores the fact that her love is like this #his own armor is literally formed in the shape of the love he has total faith in but it's heavily implied to be a futile desire and I just.#there's so much left unsaid yet so much implied and YET we still get to know so little about lautrec himself #and like this is just his armor set this isn't even touching on what we actually see him DO. or say #basically I want to take his whole.. situation put in a petri dish for a few days let it fester and then study it under a microscope.#I just. hhg *throws him against the wall like a wet paper towel*

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angorwhosebabyisthis · 2 years ago

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not to be Edgy but nive with canon!nine 🙏

#lorien legacies #LL number nine #LL number five #nive #LL nive #had shuffle going and this hit me in the face like a frying pan #I am the Most Normal Anyone Has Ever Been or Ever Will Be About Them #i'm just. HNGH they're SO AWFUL and i love them #i will be that bitch about them and no one can stop me. five's playlist unironically has 'you're gonna go far kid' on it as god intended #playlists #whosebaby makes playlists #whosebaby makes things #LL tag #shipping #dyn: lost boys #also this is like. almost entirely from nine's point of view after the end of FoF lmao #like i noticed that from that point forward five doesn't /like/ him At All; but he also doesn't want to /fight/ him #every single time there's violence after that; or violence implied that he expresses wanting to happen; or that other people assume will #is initiated solely by nine. every time five fights back it's because he is defending himself; he actively saves nine's life multiple times #before and after nine initiates violence at him #the last time nine hits him in canon it's punching him in the face without warning after five saved him and then /gently/ set him down #and other people's perception of this is 'they mutually want to kill or otherwise Do a Violence at Each Other'#'and therefore the proposed solution to work out their differences is to lock them in a room together after the battle'#'to beat the living fuck out of or kill each other just like nine has wanted all along; and five Doesn't' 🙃#anyway yeah this song is very much nive from canon!nine's pov and also reflects how he thinks of other people in general lmao

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thereismusicinmysoul · 1 year ago

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apparently i am back in my sads about a friend who suddenly cut me off two years ago with no explanation. had a dream where they started talking to me again and now i'm stuck here past midnight sad that it isn't real instead of falling asleep.

#commablogs #personal #are they entitled to decide who they want in their life? absolutely!#but they handled it in the shittiest way possible by implying that I'd done something wrong but refusing to ever say what it was #it sucks even more because they were one of my best friends from highschool #and the other two from our crew have also stopped talking to me because I 'fell off the deep end' re:religion #aka I'm queer and not sure where I stand rn on the whole god thing #but other friend and I had bonded over that being a shared experience and had been doing weekly online hangouts prior to things ending #I still have their birthday in my calendar and every time I see it coming up I want to text them and see how they're doing #but I said I'd respect their decision to completely cut off contact with me so I can't be the one to reach out #wow yikes I really am going through it tonight #at least I've managed to not let myself fall too deep into the hole of 'what if it's really my fault and I fucked things up'#even if I did something wrong... they never said anything and just let it fester. I couldn't fix something I didn't know was broken #pls brain now that I've articulated all this can I finally sleep?? please???

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astrxealis · 2 years ago

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