#also who says that like 3 msgs into the convo

[mariesoliver]

Guy on a dating app said his favorite movies are ww2 movies. That's gotta be a 🚩 right

[neptunescore]

Literally started this blog just to say how hypocritical F1 – both the people working in it, and the sport itself – is becoming. The main 3 things I want to address is: no.1 women in motorsport, no2 the ongoing genocide in palestine and no3 F1's disallowance of anything political, yet enabling the absolute political shitshow that was the 2024 miami gp.

Numéro 1: I just think its absolute bullshit that the FIA genuinely created a whole ‘Women in Motorsport Commission’, assigned SIX STRONG ambassadors to it, and THEN proceeded (come 2023) to launch a wholeass unfair investigation onto one of them, based on the MOST groundless claims?? Like wtf?? (Talking abt Susie Wolff here). Also, the whole Cristian Horner situation really showed just how much they care about women working under them, bc tell me why the possible victim in his situation was the one getting SUSPENDED, while this possible filth of a man is still parading shamelessly around the paddock?? Like??? AND SOME OF THE DRIVERS COMMENTS ON THE SIRUATION?? pissed me off so much u dont even understand. Anyway, my last point on this convo is how women should ALSO be taken accountable of their actions, and not just glossed over because they’re ‘women’, over here im specifically talking abt Bianca Bustamante and her liked tweet which calls lance stroll autistic… girl :| and her apology was so atrocious as well. T-T

Numéro 2: The fact that not ONE driver (excluding Lewis Hamilton — that man is so much more than a driver) has spoken up/ posted about the situation pisses me off SO much bc?? THOUSANDS of people are dying, and with the platform you have, the fans you have, you could have such a positive effect! This is ESPECIALLY targeted on the drivers so I FULLY KNOW have control of their accounts (Charles Leclerec, Esteban Ocon, Lando Norris [GOD DO I HAVE ALOT TO SAY ABT HIM], Pierre Gasly, etc) bc tell me why drivers are fully capable of uploading a post 2 years ago stating how the WHOLE of F1 stands with Ukraine (which i do applaud them for) but cant say SHIT abt the same situation occuring in Gaza, but SO much worse?? Lando can genuinely go f himself, bc as much as i used to adore him there’s no way he did NOT know abt the atrocities happening in Palestine, no way he did not know abt the company boycott when he decided to fully display that Starbucks logo on his little reel. And IF (literally a 0.0000001% chance, bc by then a 1000 articles were already written on it and the WHOLE world was aware) he genuinely didn’t know, then that is just ignorant as fuck. Icel. Anyway, literally all drivers should be held accountable, no matter if they’re ur favs or not; I like Carlos a lot but that doesn’t mean i dont get the ick every time i think abt the fact he’s stayed completely silent on the matter. OH MY GOD, DONT get me started on lance stroll and his confirmed (yes, i DO fact check) Zionist girlfriend, like?? Ew.

Can i also just say, that if any of u are gonna msg me saying ‘oH bUt NeP, thE FIA BanNeD AnY anD aLl PoliTiCaL StAtEmEnTS’ Shut up. If you guys could just READ the rest of the statement, you'd know that this rule only applies to when the drivers are ACTIVELY in the paddock. The FIA has literally included the fact that driver can do WHATEVER the want, stand up for WHOEVER they want in their personal lives – which brings me to my next point,

Numéro 3: The FIA bans any and all political statements in the paddock, (without their written consent) YET INVITES TRUMP (a man who has been charged with EIGHTY EIGHT criminal offenses) to the race, is the most disgusting and hypocritical thing ive seen in all my years of watching F1. And don't even get me started on all the shit lando said abt him, like bro?? What are you saying?? Why are you saying these things?? I get u cant speak bad abt him, but that does NOT mean u need to praise him to the sun and back. T-T

That's my rant! Additional reminder abt ppl bringing up how '*retired driver (insert name)* would NOT stand for this, and would post and talk ALL abt palestine if they were still racing,' this is a reminder that those drivers are still alive and well, with WORKING platforms and can STILL do all those things now if thry CHOOSE to :]

-Nep○~

[booksandpaperss]

TEEHEE IM BACK TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF MY PRIVILEGES. can i have death loop snippet pls for me🙏 and dapples convo i need it desperately. AND ALSO. anything ANYTHING from any of ur original works. crawling across the floor like PLEASEEE ELLI OC INFO.....

so happy to see you accessing the wife privileges 🙏 ask and you shall receive ❤️❤️

death loop snippet from the start of chapter 3:

Chuuya still remembers the vivid, searing press of Dazai’s lips against his, etched into the very groves of his memory. In a way he knew he’d never be able to forget from the moment he’d recklessly thrown himself across the line. It had been Dazai’s birthday, but in the singular moment of lips on his it was Chuuya that felt the glorious thrill of free-fall. But you can’t have a fall without gravity. Just a few months later, Sakunosuke Oda was killed, Dazai left, and Chuuya hit the ground. Hard. 

aka chuuya reminiscing about his and dazai’s one and only kiss bc he’s a LOSER

for dapples convo:

since you’ve been begging me for this one for a hot second I shall graciously give you a snippet and the summary 🫶🫶

sum:

Chuuya and Dazai get an opportunity to really talk for the first time in years, and for the first time, they take it. A moment alone amidst the chaos.

and the snippet:

“I get it now. Why you had to leave, I mean.”  There must’ve been something in Chuuya’s tone, because suddenly it’s like Dazai sees him in a completely different light. His expression is far, far more open than Chuuya is used to, though still barely a movement for the average person. He can see Dazai’s mind racing, calculating possibilities and outcomes and just once, Chuuya wishes he would simply stop and feel.  Eventually, Dazai says slowly, carefully, “I… honestly didn’t think you would care.” 

this was actually the only part I have written so far that I could share here bc this gets… distinctly hornier later. I have literally no excuses for myself

okay and for the original:

since I’ve already yapped to u abt everlasting quite a bit I’ll tell u a little bit abt love me like a poet loved too late <3 it’s basically this idea I had for a sapphic romance book! and I will dm this one to u bc I am rather cagey abt my original ideas SORRY anyone else who is reading this but discord mutuals if ur rlly curious u can always msg me abt it ofc

[sttoru]

hi anya.. i saw you talking abt being good at giving advice to ppl, so,, wld you mind giving me some advice..?

rant: i've been an anon for this person for a while and, not so long ago, i came out of anon to talk to them on priv, bcs they said they wouldn't be active anymore, and they told me i could talk to them on priv, if i wasn't uncomfy.

i did take up that offer, bcs i rlly wanted to keep in touch. but, they make 0 effort to talk to me. i'm always the one sending the first message. they never reach out first. and every conversation consists of like, 3 messages from each of us, talking about our lives, then we don't talk for months until i reach out again.

now, they announced they would be active again, and they're back to posting, but they just won't send me a message. i don't know if i'm being pushy and annoying by wishing they would talk to me. idk if i'm uninteresting, or if they're anxious or forgetful, or what.

it's just been very one-sided and instead of making us closer (like i thought it would) it feels like it's driving us apart. the last time we talked was in march. when i sent them a happy birthday message. i haven't send anything ever since. and neither did them (as always). i saw them as a friend, but i don't think they care about me at all.

anyway: what do i do?? do i try and talk to them about it? (what if they're just busy and i'm overthinking??) do i ignore them forever, just as they have been ignoring me? do i send them an ask instead and act like i've never been out of anon? help.

haiii anon! im glad you decided to reach out to me w this ^_^ thank u & i hope i can be of help with the following advice below ! (i actually typed more than i intended bcs it hit home hehdnsnsnd)

first of all; i applaud u for being brave & coming off anon to keep in touch with that person! a lot feel too uncomfy to do so even if they desperately want to keep in contact with someone, so i feel proud, if i can word it in that way ahsha

soooo let’s start;

if i read this correctly: when you actually begun to reach out privately to that person, you are always the first one that tries to strike up a conversation. you feel like they could be uninterested in you & don’t consider you a friend like you do.

i’m sorry to hear that— especially the ‘reaching out first part’, because it can be super uncomfortable and could understandably make you overly anxious (like thinking they aren’t interested, are ignoring you on purpose, don’t want you talking to them or they’re uncomfy talking to u etc etc. it can cause a lot of anxious thoughts. that i get & it can be extremely upsetting).

this is also a huuuge problem i’m struggling with. you are NOT pushy or annoying for wanting them to reach out to you out of their own initiative. i think every one who struggles with this can agree with me and guarantee you that.

why? because feeling like your friendship is one-sided is not how most work out. that’s how most friendships FALL out instead, like you had stated yours was at the end.

march is a long time ago. the fact that they are active & posting means they are on their socials & are checking their dms etc etc. to say that they’re forgetful is really doubtful, because march is MONTHS ago & i’m sure that if they cared about your friendship — they for sure would’ve thought of at least reaching out to you once in all those months (as harsh as that might sound).

but, they didn’t — it shows that this is indeed very one sided. of course, as a busy person myself i could look at the other side of the story as well: maybe they could be busy or they could be anxious about reaching out first too!

i know people who do, at least. but the difference is that those people i know (who are anxious of reachig out first) always make an effort to keep the conversation going once i msg them. they are interested, send me random stuff & the convos can go on and on without stopping for hours because they put effort into continuing the convo i started.

now that is considered two-sided to an extent as well. but reading that your convo’s are short & usually only 3 messages back and forth — i’m… feeling a bit iffy. if they were anxious about reaching out first, but were still interested in talking with you, they would at least make the effort to appreciate you starting the convo & continue it. so, i personally don’t think they’re forgetful or anxious.

that rules out any more possibilities to be honest. the moment you said that they havent ever reached out first made me already go ‘well…’ in my head. and its been months since you last talked. if they wanted to continue your friendship like you want, they would’ve put in the same effort as you (or at least tried once or twice to show their interest). judging by your explanation of the story, i don’t think they want to put effort in talking further with you.

which—is not your fault, maybe not even theirs. some friendships aren’t meant to work out. maybe they aren’t feeling it? maybe they don’t feel the ‘click’, you know? once again, not your fault at all! it happens to me every time — and it even happens to the best of us.

as someone who’s been in this situation for over ten times in different ‘failed’ friendships, i say let them go. maybe see where it leads you. i don’t think they will reach out to you first since march was the last time you talked without you taking the initiative, but just let it go. if they at least want to keep the convo or spark between you alive, they’d reach out themselves.

as anxious as one can be about reaching out first, if they desperately want to feel a connection between the other person, they would find a way to do it. like maybe a simple ‘hi’ in dms or indirect post on dash.

but it’s also valid that you want to continue what yall had. if you choose to want to reach out again; here’s a different & more positive solution / piece of advice:

send them one message filled with your worries and feelings about your situation. don’t make it too long (could be a bother to read, might make you seem a bit too desperate to them?) — but also maybe not too short.

this could be included;

• ask them how they’ve been lately.

• out your feelings about the situation briefly (abt reaching out first).

• simply ask for a clarification. don’t demand it! ask if they maybe would like to continue talking.

wait & check their response to that message and be critical! if they ignore completely, red flag. if they’re dismissing your feelings, red flag. if they say ‘i forgot’ or ‘i was busy’, understandable, but see if they actually make an effort to reach out to you afterwards. if not—stop putting in the effort and let go (saying this in the nicest way possible. it avoids any more heart break / anxiousness, i promise)

though, it may also be your last message to them if they say that they don’t feel the same (aka dont wanna continue talking), so maybe prepare yourself for that too.

anyhow! it’s ok if friendships don’t work out, once again, don’t blame yourself! it hurts, of course, but once you get through the heart break — there are many more possibilities for you to make friends out here.

remember, relationships are the most healthiest when there’s good communication between both parties.

xoxo

[troglobite]

slkdfj

timeline of shit is basically this

dnd game explodes bc of one person

it eventually gets figured out

but now it is entirely my responsibility to fully communicate w that person, plan the game, field all emotions abt it, and get everything back on track, including scheduling

i get a major flareup, multiple health things to take care of, my mental health plummets

i am in the discord w my friends

i am talking abt how badly i am doing

i offer a very thorough explanation that i haven't abandoned the game, but that i have work and health stuff and i'm in recovery mode so i can't properly work on it, but i'll get to it, i promise

1/5 ppl reply.

everyone eventually stops replying to shit i post in there, even the the stuff that's abt helping to make sure they don't get their identities stolen

i stop posting in there for 2+ weeks

finally 1/5 of them says "hiiii i love and miss you guys"

i say "same here" and a third person replies

a couple days pass

same first person posts a tag yourself meme

contrary to every time that i have posted a similar meme and gotten None or One response

everybody replies within a day 🙃

i finally cave and send a msg in the middle of the night asking that my explanation abt the dnd game & how my life is going receive some fucking responses bc it's been 3 weeks and only one person has said "pls take care of yourself, we'll get back to the game whenever"

they all slowly reply

one says "we can also set up other hangout stuff like jackbox or other video games and stuff"

they start another convo in another channel, too.

i respond and say thanks & i've been doing Extremely Bad. and then also "yes pls, hangout sessions and jackbox, pls"

she responds to first part of message "just ask, even if it's scary" [not the problem, none of you fuckers TALK to me, i'm not ANXIOUS i'm DEPRESSED AND ALONE] and then ignores the second part

where i am desperately asking to hang out with you all

and didn't want to suggest it BECAUSE I AM SICK OF ALWAYS BEING THE ONLY ONE TO SUGGEST HANGING OUT

and MYSTERIOUSLY we just haven't talked or hung out or done ANYTHING since i said i couldn't do the dnd game for a while!!!

and despite doing INCREDIBLY FUCKING BAD nobody cared! nobody checked in! i had to withhold from posting in the discord bc at some point, getting NO RESPONSE is like a msg from the universe like "hey, just die. nobody cares. stfu. just die."

i have pushed past anxiety for years at this point to keep reaching out

at some point being the nuisance who keeps asking makes me wish i was dead.

having to ask so directly REPEATEDLY instead of just establishing new norms which is what I ASK FOR EVERY TIME I ASK

i just. get no response. no one cares. and i can't check in with anyone bc i've tried and gotten no response. and i don't want to bother ppl individually, THAT'S THE WHOLE REASON TO HAVE A DISCORD W EACH OTHER. fuck's sake.

it has now been hours and NOBODY has responded to me wanting to hang out.

i guarantee nobody will check that channel at all for days, minimum. nothing will happen. nobody will offer to set anything up or schedule anything. just lip service. doesn't matter.

i'm tired

[garfieldsladybird]

well it definitely depends who you sending it to!! if you get a message from someone who obviously doesn’t like you and they put a kiss at the end of each one is very shady and it’s almost sarcastic.

it’s like ‘hi, just wanted to remind you to do that shitty thing i don’t want to do x’

and you read it and go ‘bitch’

but then when i go through messages with my friends and we’re sending like info about when we’re going out and they’re quite long / we know it’s not gonna become a convo, we’ll put a kiss, but when we’re having a long convo we won’t.

and then you have me and my mum (with the one sided attachment issues coming from over here) which is (as you saw) but when she’s mad (or vice versa) you just end it in a full stop and 😩 lemme tell you - it’s a stab in the heart :’( lol

(note: i’ve had not full stop endings unless she’s been in the car or really busy, so i’m safe)

(also - they don’t mean love you - because you send a message saying

‘love you xx’ )

note #2, you do sign cards with kisses don’t you? i feel like you do and it’s only in msgs that you don’t

you need a british culture tag soon 💀

sending love xxx

ooh okay i get and understand all of that.

also with that someone who doesn’t like and saying that, yeah that is shady, i would be like

‘do it yourself xx, peace 😽✌️’

also that would be a stab in the heart, my heart would break 💔

Also with the love you thing, that makes more sense, seeing as it means kiss kiss then.

well I think we sign cards with xoxo!!

I definitely do but that would contain all of you so that’s why I have a special tag just for you!! <33

xxxx sending you love <3

[acaiasahi]

why do i keep forgetting to send an ask to you 😞😞

anyways, i was gonna say im might try talking to my crush in class bc that dude keeps sitting infront of me (bc he wants to be near his best friend who sits near me awww so cute), even if its just asking what's on the whiteboard bc he's too damn tall i can't see wtf is on the board as he's just blocking everyone sitting behind him 😭 also recently found out he likes girls who play basketball so I HAVE A CHANCE YASHSHSHSHUSHS

hope you're doing fine n stay safe!! - 🌱 <3

OOOOO yk what? i'd say to just go for it and start a convo. i might even ask his friend some q's and go from there. maybe ask him if he likes basketball and start a convo that way! simple things, go a long way :3 and don't worry abt forgetting to send msgs, i've been having a hard time staying active on here LOL <3 missed u!!!

[capricores]

I have never dated an air sign man are they really that bad? Im an air sign myself, but weirdly enough I don’t attract air men into my life, i always hear such horror stories skgfsfgh

well at the end of the day, regardless of astrology as i always say, anyone can be good or bad!! but there’s certain traits/behaviors common to certain placements; especially when they’re undeveloped. undeveloped signs (aka, immature people; who haven’t worked out their flaws/issues/etc) of the same element and/or mode have a lot of things in common, and i feel like undeveloped traits are always the most noticeable when you date/get extremely close to someone 👀 so that’s probably why undeveloped air sign men get roasted a lot lmao. i’ve fucked with a lot of undeveloped men and imo undeveloped air sign men are the worst to deal with, for me 😭 (but it really depends the type of traits you can’t handle. for me selfishness & detached behaviors/lack of emotional intelligence are the biggest things i can’t deal with. so undeveloped air energy is not good w/ me)

but again, i’ve had my heart broken by gemini men more than any other sign but i still love them more than any other sign (for men, libras are always my fav for everyone else lol) fdjlkfjdfkld so i would never let astrology and my experience w/ air sign men actually stop me from saying good things about said signs nor dating them/befriending them/etc ofc!!

however, if ur interested in my personal air sign men reviews (this is biased bad astrology based on my own countless experiences pls keep this in mind JLFKDJFD):

aquarians: -1/10

i actually love aquarian energy when developed SO much it’s one of my favs. esp aqua moons. but undeveloped... holy shit

undeveloped aqua energy is often accompanied by undeveloped cap energy so i think thats why aqua men r so awful

gets their heart broken once in 3rd grade and never recovers so they take it out on everyone they date after that

self victimization on water sign levels 💯😳

rly obsessed with u for the first month of dating and then they hate u

gaslighting kings

more trust issues than scorpios.. pick a struggle

[ruins your life, perception of love and mental stability] why don’t u wanna stay friends????????

great to talk to though i can’t lie, it’s really easy to have deep convos with them and they even make small talk interesting so plus one for that

tbh they teach you a lot about independence and self love so another plus one

once they develop and get over themselves they’re super loyal and fun tho but damn they take longer than any other sign to develop i swear

libras: 3/10

I LOVE LIBRAS but fuck the men

community ass (i saw this on a tiktok this is a stolen phrase but it’s right)(i’m not slut shaming btw i’m also a hoe)(this initially said dick but i realize that’s super exclusive so i’m changing it)

sends you super cute msgs that make your heart flutter but he also sent it to 18 others and tweeted it for fame

if he has one he’ll call his dick a third arm but it’s 2 inches??????????? speechless at how big their egos are in general

talks like they’re a god in bed but rly my pinky finger does a better job

would moan their own name in bed probably :/ and for what?

makes you think you have a thing together but then has a new gf a week later

they’re pretty so that gave them +100 points

but usually too attractive. and it threatens me ? tone it down u sexy bitches

they’re SO funny. no sign is funnier than libra regardless of gender and i stand by that

so indecisive tho it’s unreal?? them and geminis will play with your own feelings undeveloped bc they don’t know their own

geminis: 7/10

ive had so many geminis break my heart but i cannot bring myself to give them a low rating they are so hot funny and everything i want in a person</3

ceos of ghosting. will ghost you for a month and come back acting like you’re still dating and everything’s fine

super into you for like two weeks and then dumps you for their ex<3

really good convos and plans great dates????????? their egos and heads are so big because it’s full of ideas :/

showers u in affection and compliments…….ceo of hyping u up and making u feel great about yourself

moody as fuck. you thought cancers were bad? wait til you meet a gemini man 

comes back every venus retrograde.. they’re like annoying little mosquitos u can’t get rid of no matter how hard u try.. even bug repellent won’t work on them i’m gonna try installing a net tho

everyone hypes libas/aquarians up for intuition but tbh i think geminis are the ones with really amazing intuition in terms of air signs 👀 they’re really good at reading the room/your thoughts/etc so they know what you need/are thinking before you even say it

[tgr489]

Happy birthday, to me...

Friday last week was the big day and to celebrate I tried to, and managed, to cram a lot in. Gotta make the most of the longest day of the year, well in the northern hemisphere anyway. 

The last couple of years has seen me waking up with the sun and Friday was no exception. I lay in bed without moving, thinking of what has been and what’s to come, that kinda cross roads again. I didn’t dwell on it so got into the day. Showered and a with a coffee to go I was heading out the door. It was 7.45. Plenty of time for a casual walk up broadway in the morning sun to 28th for breakfast with an uncle. Not really an uncle by blood, more friend of the family, he and my dad were partners in a couple of ventures, but I’ve known him forever and he’s looked out for me a little over the last few years. 

Our meeting spot was NoMad, a nice place. He was already there when I arrived, immaculately dressed in a dark blue suit, reading the paper. I’d love to know what drives some older people to always wear suits when they’re well into their older years. I think I’d live in a dressing gown if I was as old as him, and I do think it’s a good thing that he’s not succumbed to wearing a shell suit, like so many other octogenarians. I actually have no idea his age, but he’s been old for as long as I can remember so I guess he must be in his eighties. 

His face lit up as I came to the table, his big smile so infectious, and he rose and gave me a big hug, wishing me happy birthday in the process. I’ve not seen him in a little over a year but we’ve conversed over WhatsApp on and off in that time. He remarked how much I was looking more like my mother and that I’d lost weight but looked good for it. I don’t think I have, but I don’t take much notice of that kinda thing. He ordered for both of us without looking at the menu and he set about grilling me on what I’d been up to and how was a settling back into life. 

He’s an easy guy to talk to and in no way judgemental, so it wasn’t difficult to retell the recent history. ‘You certainly keep it interesting’ was his critical comment when I finished. ‘I can tell you still love her. Are you prepared to take on her baggage?’ He was right. I tell myself I’m over her but my tales tell otherwise. I told him I didn’t know. He said that meant no. ‘You’ll work that out in time, but don’t beat yourself up about it, if you come to the same conclusion as me. Falling in love with someone already saddled with a kid is tricky and hard work which can be unfruitful. Look at what your mother went through.’ Were his last words in the topic. I asked him why he’d never had kids and he mulled it over while finishing his juice. ‘Too selfish... but that’s not a bad thing. You may see that one day.’ There was more to the convo on our plans for the summer and stuff. He invited me to go up and visit him at his summer place, if I had time, which I don’t know yet, but he said that the offer was there. He paid and we walked out together, his driver pulling up as we came out of the building. I declined his offer of a lift so we hugged and went about out days. 

My day continued with calls to various people finalising plans for Jason’s party, which I did walking back downtown, and then shopping for an outfit for said party, plus it’s my birthday so a treat for myself. I didn’t go crazy, a pair of jeans (Edwin), a tee (Supreme) and some sneakers (Reebok Fury reissues). In my way back home to dump all my purchases I had a funny encounter. I was walking past the Bowery and this cute girl was coming out and walking towards me and as she passed I turned to check her out, and got busted as she did the same. She paused and gestured to me so I walked back to her to see where it would go. She asked if we knew each other, but I said I didn’t think so. She asked if worked in music, to which I also said no, but I know a lot of people in the industry. I fessed up to having just been checking her out, no sense in lying, and she blushed a little and said she’d done the same. I seized on that and asked what she was doing later. She was busy all day and had a work thing that evening, talent spotting at a gig, but would be free afterwards. I said maybe but I had birthday drinks planned, which was welcome to join. She countered with a maybe, then went into her handbag and fished out a business card. ‘Call me later’ she said, turned and walked off. I watched her go, she was cute, I knew I would call. 

I dumped my purchases and went to meet Nic for lunch. Nothing extravagant and the time was taken up by general chit chat and checking we were on point with party plans, which we are. The rest of my afternoon I caught up with Sevvy, who manages a gallery I like, over a bottle of fizz. I’ve bought a few pieces from him, which haven’t been too expensive and he gives me discount on occasion. One day he’ll take me for something big. He’s a charmer that guy. 

With a line to see me off I stepped out into the early evening crowds and headed to east village for my birthday drinks. Those that work close were already there, others arrived later. I took a moment between drinks to give Sara, the cute girl I bumped into, a call. I had a feeling she wouldn’t pick up because if the unknown number and thankfully she didn’t, so I left a message telling her where I was. If she came it would be cool, if not, no probs. People left, people came, and people left again. No one seemed up for a biggie so I was gonna call it a night, feeling a little dejected. I bought another round of drinks for those remaining then realised I had a message from the girl. She couldn’t make it but had put me on her guest list at the Cutting Room if I wanted to go to her. So I did and it was unexpected fun. 

The acts weren’t all that but my host certainly was. She was very quirky with her hair in bunches all over her head, and she could certainly drink and was out pacing me 3-2. It got to the point where I’d had enough, so passed up on her last offer of a round. I really fancied food to soak up the liquid, and offered places nearby we could go. She said ‘Nah’ to everything but suggested food at her hotel which was healthy. We left, but as soon as we hit the street I realised how hammered I was, and knew with pretty fine accuracy that anything that may be on the cards would not be as rewarding as if I were more sober. So over a casual stroll in the early morning I eluded to plans for the next day and needing sleep. When we got to her hotel she was blunt and asked me to her room, so I returned the favour and told her I really wanted to, but drunk guys don’t make good rides. She laughed and said I obviously have prior experience. I do. She gave me a big birthday kiss to say goodbye, which almost had me change my decision, but I didn’t, so I walked home. She is in town until Monday and gets to town every few weeks so I told her I’d try see her before she left or definitely when she was in town next. 

I got home sonf the clock of doom was telling me 4.30. Had it really taken that long to walk home.I was sobered up enough to make food, but only toast, anything else was far too complex. I grabbed an ice cold glass of water and headed to my room and found Nic on my bed asleep in all her clothes, I guessed she’d ended her night in a worse state than me. My ears were ringing and I could see my brunch plans falling to pieces as the time calculations weren’t going in my favour. I grabbed some Ibo from the bathroom, took 2 and put the pack by on Nic’s side of the bed with my glass of water. She’d probably need it. I went to sleep comforted having someone next to me, hearing the steady breathing, wondering what dreams were downloading in a bid to decipher the experiences of the day. I thought of my own, and then mentally kicked myself for not going to the hotel room. I sent her a thank you message and wishing her good night, along with a promise to make it. Too soon, maybe but it was fresh in my head so why not. If nothing comes of it at least I’d not been a rude dick.

It was lovely to wake, listening to the sounds of a prayer being offered of the great white god. I was right Nic was bad, me too, but I knew I’d get through mine with a bit more sleep and lots of liquids when I got up. I got woken again later, this time by a nice cuddle, a thank you for medicine, an apology for not meeting me and a nice peace offering of coffee, pastries and water. Nic had got caught up on the rollercoaster of work drinks, I’m sure most, if not everyone has been in that situation, so I said no worries. It was fine, it was just a Friday night after all. I let her tell me about the events while I savoured the coffee.  I know so few of the plethora of people she hangs out with a lot of what she tells me is meaningless. A day will come when I meet one of those in her stories and some of what she’s told me will sink into place. She asked me about my day and night, made me show her the gear I’d bought, chastised me for turning a girl down, again, for a girl who was clearly needing some lovin’ and then said we shout make some lunch. I agreed we needed food and probably juice so we agreed to meet in the kitchen and went for showers. It felt better after that. She beat me to the fridge and already had out what we were gonna have, fresh fruit with yoghurt topped with cage mix. No juice but hey ho I was hungry. 

It was so past 2 so my plans for brunch had been missed by some distance, so I thought to drop a msg to apologise. Phone was dead so plugged it in, then message after message pinged in… When I heard the first ping I thought of Sara, but when I picked the phone up I saw that all 9 were from Jason it all went out the window. What was his beef. All the messages were just missed call alerts with the exception of his last one which gave nothing away and simply said ‘call me’. Why don’t people just send a message telling what the problem is, the intrigue is a killer. I called, he didn’t answer, I messaged ‘Called u, call me’ and ate lunch. He called back having an eppy. The caterers had delivered loads of stuff to his house and were refusing to believe the party was the following week. This was a nightmare because I’d obviously fucked up somewhere. I tried to call them but there was no answer, WTF! Mailed the guy to tell him what was happening then went back through all my mails with him to see where it had gone wrong, but I found nothing. I called again and still no answer so I resigned myself to going to Brooklyn and called Jace to tell him I was on my way. Fuck. I could done without it. 

I told Nic and went to sort my shit out. I heard her leave as I was running through how this could’ve messed up. All would be clear soon enough. It took me while to get to Jason’s, but I made it in tact. All paperwork was correct and the dudes weren’t going anywhere before the balance of the bill was settled in cash. It was difficult to argue with them but I did and kept trying to call their office, but no one was picking up, it was insane! Jace suggested just paying them as he had the money and working it out in the week, which I came round to so went in to the house... to find a house full of people and a surprise party for me. Fuckers!  The relief of no problem to sort was an amazing feeling, even better once I’d had a drink.

A sedate afternoon gradually turned into a messy night as the tunes got progressively harder and the goodies came out to play. I like going to parties where I know lots of people because there’s always a back up if those you don’t know are boring. And when the party’s yours you know most, so it’s all about networking and making sure you get to talk to everyone that made the effort. For me this is a mini adrenaline rush, and I never really feel the full effects of alcohol or anything else I’m on, until the end. By 5am-ish there was only really a handful of people left. The guy who was dj-ing offered a ride home, as he was gonna be passing near mine, but I declined and said I’d walk. I needed the drugs our if my system and that would help. Nic looked pissed at me for it, but didn’t complain. I thanked Jason, we all hugged, said our goodbyes, then Nic and I walked out into the start of a warm sunny day. 

The realisation of the walking mistake hit me before we’d walked 20mins, but I was too stubborn to say, and by the time we were on the bridge I was over it. We stopped on the bridge and took in the view, always quite spectacular, and whilst I wanted to say something, the words never came. I grabbed Nics hand and made to go, but she didn’t budge and just gestured back at the view with a nod of the head. ‘OK’ I said and stood next to her again. She cuddled into me, saying nothing, as we stared again at the river. I knew Nic was at the end of her energy, she stops talking, which is the give away. I wondered if she’d just collapse on me and whether I’d be able to get her home. This has happened before. ‘We need a smoke and bed’ I said. She squeezed my hand and made us walk. We made it the rest of the way without a taxi, me slowly speaking less and less, her not at all. That great sense of relief washed over me as we walked in the door, slightly embarrassed as we passed one of neighbours in the stairwell, but I didn’t care. 

I made some tea and a banger and we sat and had both on the fire escape outside Nic’s window. When both were finished it was bedtime, so we climbed back into her room. I went to leave but she asked me to stay with her. It was nice, I wanted the company too so I said OK. I made a teeth brush handle signal and went to mine. When I came back she was asleep in bed. I climbed in beside her and drifted off giving her a cuddle. 

Sweet Dreams

[krpsaid]

[submission from xhqs, part one]

hi hi ! this is the admin of xhqs, yumi (i play ain and naeun in the group.) sending this msg because someone in the rp sent me this blog and i’m a little alarmed at the severity of some things that were said. but more than that, i’m worried that this might be making members of the rp anxious or worried. i personally don’t mind people thinking what they would like of a situation and i won’t argue with anyone’s opinions, but i do want to clarify some messages i think need clarification or… are just straight up lies, sry.

- to clarify, i don’t engage with blogs like this as i personally find them… pointless? which is why i’m sending this mssg off anon. i can honestly say that i’ve never submitted anything to this blog or asked anyone to submit anything to defend me or to the rp. everyone is entitled to their own opinions !

- i’m not sure who the “admin’s friends” being referred to here is as i started the rp knowing like 3 out of 20+ muns. 2 of them are the discord admins/event mods who help write for the rp. i play naeun, one of three triplet skeletons, and i didn’t know the writers for either of her sisters when i applied for her. it was suggested to me that people might think i’m in the “hansung clique” but i dont really know who that is because i was never in hansung.

- for the student teacher relationship, i really dont know what to say about that. that’s the rp lore. i thought it added an extra layer of bitterness to the plot that mutants had to hide away so young that they were robbed of normal experiences like going to school, and so they emulated those missed normal life experiences inside the institute. this is not something i made up on the fly - and i thought i had made it clear in the pages, but as evidenced by questions i had received, i was wrong. so, i quickly constructed that wall of text about students and teachers to clarify my thoughts and my intention for the storyline. but if any members are uncomfortable with this, i encourage you to approach me about this !! we can easily easily remove these titles and change this part of the lore as this is not crucial to the structural integrity of the plot.

- re: my character “having the hots” for a teacher. this is the exact transcript of that chat. a is the person who was removed from the rp because members complained they were uncomfortable with the teacher-student remarks, b is me. there was another person in this conversation but i won’t mention them as their comments were not crucial to the conversation and i want to minimize discomfort for the group’s current members.

a: someone should consider having jeno and karina fc’s as a couple here b: same but rose and jaehyun HAHAHAH. the rose and jaehyun manips are crazy a: i once was supposed to have a rose and jaehyun manip couple. but it fell through sadly. and thus my jaehyun died off to be lonely b: noodsjd. the rose jaehyun manips are crazy a: ngl i ALMOST brought jaehyun in b: its never too late [wink face] a: HAHAHA that’s true [someone else jokes that naeun is a teacher’s pet] b: i hope her sisters do the bullying of the teacher for her a: teachers pet? haha b: “teachers pet? hahaha” the writing on naeuns gravestone b: naeun trying to head empty no professor thoughts [in class] so she doesnt disturb her sisters

that’s the conversation that took place. please think what you want about this, but like i said, i was following the rp lore that i had created in my silly little mind. so i wasn’t romanticizing the power dynamic between the teacher and student, imho. but if this made anyone uncomfortable for any reason, i do sincerely apologize. but i also can’t very well remove myself from my own rp…? so i don’t know what i can do beyond apologize and try not to repeat what i did wrong. i absolutely don’t claim to be perfect or incapable of making wrong comments - i am always open to being told that i’m wrong or made someone uncomfortable. with that aside, this was not the convo the complaints i received were about. the convo that the s/t rls and stepcest jokes that the complaints were about was another conversation entirely. i was not online when this conversation was taking place. this is the transcript. a is the person who was removed from the group, b is someone who left the group, c is someone who left the group, d is someone who left the group

a: what did i return to? haha b: my phone autocorrects tease to taste and REALLY changed the context of my plots c: YEAH. [cn] would rather not taste his adopted brother thank u very much a: umm b: yes please do tease him sounds very different from yes please do taste him a: taste test [a/n: this is the specific line that members complained about - from members’, and my own, understanding, it insinuated that someone’s character would ‘taste test’ their brother] b: my phone is trying to make me a questionable person d: [character name] does not want to be tasted by [character name] a: so who is being tasted then by the prof? takes notes [a/n: this was another line that was specifically complained about] b: OmG get out of here. [character name] is a respectable professor d: [cn] is side eyeing his bro b: just here to teach and learn. be gone with inappropriate thoughts d: [cn] thinks his brother is weird b: =w= he’s done NOTHING to suggest weirdness d: lol sureeeee b: [cn] just doesn’t trust d: [cn] just has the kinda face a younger bro wants to hit. just kidding a: i mean from what i’ve heard “respectable professor” doesn’t sound like him b: wot a: [cn] maybe be judging a bit b: what have you even heard??? a: the porn stash? now trying to taste people b: that’s not even real a: very questionable b: that’s a typo a: LMAO. sorry i’m just bored and on hold atm

again, i don’t really mind people forming their own opinions about this, but several members approached me in dm’s about their discomfort. i found this experience very stressful, and as much as i dont want to stress members out, i dont want to stress myself out. i thought about it for a long time because i of course didnt want to remove anyone from the group, but i really couldn’t think of a way to get this under control for the future that wasn’t me constantly being on the chat and constantly sending reminders. maybe weakness of having just one admin and no surplus of problem solving ideas, that’s on me. the best solution i thought was to nip it in the bud (the rp was about 2-3 days old at the time of this chat.) another thing that influenced this decision was that they had violated some rp rules while submitting their app, which i ignored at the time as i wanted to be lenient.

i felt i explained this to the mun that was removed, and they told me they didn’t agree with my decision but they would respect it - which is completely ok with me. they also said they didn’t think they should be the only one getting kicked out of the rp because they weren’t the only one in that conversation - i disagree with this, but i didn’t argue with them as, again, i really don’t mind people having their own opinions. as for that comment, no one complained about the other people in that convo and after evaluating, i personally didn’t think others involved in that convo made any problematic or uncomfortable remarks as they seemed to be deflecting the t/s and stepcest comment/s, if anything. again, it is very very possible that i’m wrong, but i was mostly going off of what members had approached me with. as i mentioned to the mun who was removed from the rp, i take discomfort at face value. i know how awful the feeling of being asked to justify your discomfort when it comes to potentially triggering topics like this, so i don’t want to put others through that.

- as for ‘cliques’, i’ve included very specific parameters in the rp rule’s about the group’s definition of bubble rping - this might be different from how other groups define it, but as far as i can tell, no one is breaking this rule as of now. as for ooc-wise, i won’t speak on this as i don’t want to invalidate anyone who might actually be feeling excluded for any reason. what i will do is encourage you to send msgs to the group - talk about your own character or others’ characters, send pics of your fc, send memes in the meme channel, etc !! i myself am not in the gc a lot of the time so i can’t promise that i can reply to every msg i see, and the group is more active during a specific time of day as i imagine many are busy with work or school, but i will try my best to respond to your mssgs when i see them as i hope others will to !! and again, the group discord is optional, and as far as i’ve seen from members’ plot calls on dash, our members have offered to plot both thru tumblr im’s and discord. again, not really sure what else to do about this, but i’m always open to comments and thoughts. just send them to the main !!

anyway, that’s all the points i want to address !! not only for my own peace of mind but also to be transparent to the group’s members who might be visiting this blog, so they can decide for themselves what they think of the situation. also, to possibly remove any worry from rp members’ minds. i don’t like to air out admin problems i encounter as i think keeping it to yourself to minimize stress on the group is an admin’s role, but i’m here because comments have been made in a public space that members can see. hope i’m not invalidating anyone’s feelings or opinions by clarifying these points as we are all very much entitled to our own opinions, but if i am i do apologize for that as well. again, i see anons mentioning they’re current members of the group - i really do encourage you to approach me with problems in the group or any discomfort you’re facing, as i find this will be helpful for the group as a whole !

thanks sm for giving me this space !!

[dokyungsu]

Who are some of ur favorite people here and why?

💘💘💘 HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO ALL MY MUTUALS 💘💘💘 WROW REN LOVES YOU???? 💘💘💘 HELL YEA SHE DOES !!!!!💘💘💘

i had this in drafts for so long bc i wanted to post it on valentines like di cheesy person that i am so this is kind of like my version of sending u guys a love letter of some sort,,, flowers n chocolates all that… bc i obviously can’t send u guys flowers n chocolates irl 😣😣😣 anyways aasdjhakdkjh this is gonna be long so ima put a read more right here ♥

@zyxgf​ aka jackieMISS JACKIE!?!?!? uhm i say this all di time but she’s my baby girl 🤢🤢 she’s given me nothing but love n affection and laffs for di whole time we’ve been mutuals,,, 💗💓💕💖💞💗💓💕💖💞 she’s so funni n a relateable kween. giffing kween. kween of being cute… superior xingmi n exo m stan wrow… i’m always excited to see if she’s tagged me in stuff (laysoo) or if she’s messaged me or has made posts abt me or has sent me asks…. like she’s rly one of di reasons i love being here :((((( she’s so cute ohhhh my god..  also she sends me death threats abt yixing pls dw jackie i won’t steal ur man… i’ll steal U from ur man.. 😣😣😣 i’ll make him lose his balance n sweep u away 👀👀👀 i also lowkey wished we talked but ajsdbkjashdkj 

@exoistheuniverse aka ali (formerly sooweetlies a god-tier url wow)ALI IS THE SOFTEST MUTUAL EVER !!!!!!!! AND ONE OF MY ALL TIME FAVORITE KSOO-LS :(((( everytime i think of her i think about cotton candy and clouds and penguins and ksoo :((( … she’s so talented have y’ALL SEEN HER EDITS??? AND GIFS?? AND HER CUTE KSOO ICONS !!!! when will i ever… her voice is also di cutest… she always sends me love asks and asdhkas honestly how can i ask for more when she gives me di Most… pls i have a lot of love in my hort for her i always wish her the best n hope that she’s always happy 😣😣😣

@pcys-l aka rimi (formerly loeysoul i mean its true loey is in her soul)RIMI di LOve of my LIFE!!!!!! the first ever mutual i talked to because we both cried abt bruise 🤕🤕 meme queen, is Nasty in her tags abt pcy 🚶‍♂️🚶‍♂️ THINKS I’M UNLOYAL WHEN I’M NOT but she makes me happy n holds a special place in my hort.. I LOVE RIMI SO MUCH SHE DESORVS DI WHOLE WORLD SHE’S SO FUNNI AND HAVE MADE ME LAFF COUNTLESS OF TIMES AND I’m happy i got to be mutuals w u :(((

@yiffxing aka gabbyPREDDIEST FURRY QUEEN !! YIXING’S SEKSI SHEEP BACK-UP DANCERS R SHAKING !!! even tho we’ve only started talking uhhhh she’s rly di sweetest person ik 🤕🤕🤕 is trash for ksoo but i’ll let her off bc i luv her :\ the person who’ll date will b di luckiest bc uhhh she’s a whole package… fun fact: i was intimidated by gabby at first bc she was too beautiful n i thought i couldn’t b friends w her but 😣😣 I SEND HER LOVE MSGS EVERY CHANCE I GET💗💗💗💗💗💗

@kiungsoo aka livLIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i haven’t seen her on my dash in a while bc she’s on q but i miss her :((( she a fellow twenty-four enthusiast so if u wanna slander miss twenty four u gotta go thru US !! 😤😤😤 she’s also another talented mutual :(( y’all seen her countdown bday posts for ksoo?? go check it out binch!!! go d i love liv 😩😩😩 i hope school and studying is going well for u i wish u all di best i love u 💗

@suhopps aka sunnie my SUNNIEshine (i’ve appointed u that nickname there’s lideralee no escape from it) we talked heaps before but everyone who’s… mutuals w me.. like basically everyone in this list knows i am The Worst at keeping convos 😰😰 but sunnie is so so so so sweet and soft and i love when i talk with you :((( we have so many things in common lmfao and she’s such a dramatic gay but i love it !! i always wish for your happiness and i believe that u can overcome any hardships you’re facing right now,,, i love u sunnie!!!! take care always 😙💘

@sophrosynes​ aka robertaI LOVE ROBERTA SO MUCH !!!!!!! I KNOW WE DON’T TALK BUT I HOPE U KNOW THAT I THINK ABT U AND HOPE THAT UR ALWAYS WELL :((( miss sophrosynes was my very first anon and honestly… she’s so thoughtful and considerate and nothing full of love and g od d dd she has a face to match her beautiful hort :(( thank u for sending me love always 💗💓💕💖💞 id die for u.. 

@kokobaekhyun aka jasmineY’ALL JASMINE’S A WILDT ONE Y’ALL SEEN HER TAGs??? when i thought no one can match rimi in being the Nastiest but.. ANYWAYS i love her either way 🤕🤕🤕 when she’s in soft mode it’s wholesome rly…. WE BONDED OVER MULLET!BBH BC IT’S GOD TIER AND WILL NEVER BE TOPPED anyways yea… love jas… she’s so funny n fun to talk to 😩💘 also if ur in a mood to talk about hard bbh she’S THE GIRL UR LOOKING FOR she’s always in the mood u won’t be disappointed KAJSHDjkas 

@my1ady aka arelyUHMMM NOT TO START BUT SHE’S MY BIGGEST FAN :(((((( WHEN SHE TAGS ME IN STUFF??? AND HER TAGS?? heart n*t :\ I LOVE HER SO MUCH THE LOVE SHE GIVES ME???? i don’t deserve… 😞😞😞 my anons asked abt her a lot lmfao idk why adkjahskj ONE OF MY FAVORITE XINGMIS HONESTLY!! HAS A GOD TIER URL WROW… my_lady_by_exo-m.mp3 amazing.. and uh loves my man so that’s a bonus… we share mans 🤕🤕🤕 love u arely.. 💗💗💗

@byunchen aka melqueen of making me want to d*e bc of soft n sweet bbh/exo imagines :(( also queen of making me want to KERMIT SUE OF SIDE BC OF THE NSFW BBH POSTS SHE MAKES I H*TE akjdhaskdjh SHE RLY BRINGS OUT THE BBH-L IN ME :\  ALSO MY FELLOW TRIPLE STAN??? VALID ! she’s full of nothing but love and AHHHHHHH I LOVE U MEL !!!!!!!! 💗💓💕💖💞

@exosvisual aka cindySHE ONE OF DI LOVELIEST XINGMIS IVE EVER MET PLEASE !!!! we cry about idol producer trainees together but mainly how hot and yixing distracting looks in all of di goddamn idol p episodes :\ I LOVE HER so much she’s rly so sweet and i’m rly glad i got to meet her :(( and also may i add that she’s… rly beautiful  😭😭😭 💗💓💕💖💞

@byunparks aka maddyMADDY WHO I BONDED WITH DURING THE 3 NIGHTS OF ELYXION !?!?!!?!!!! NEVER FUCKING FORGET !!!!! SHE WAS THE ONLY ONE I WAS TALKING AND UH we were both crying and truly losing our minds pls… i haven’t interacted with her much nowadays but she’s one of di best bbh-Ls i know n i love her… thank u for making me happy so i also wish for you happiness ily 🤧💖💖💖

@byunbread aka veraQUEEN VEWWA WHOMST I WUV SO MUCH :((((( not to b dramatic but she’s lideralee one of di best bbh blogs out there… (also random fact; she’s 179cm like… i’m so sorry baekhyun sweetie akshdakjsHDAAKJHDKJA) also uhhh queen of being di most beautiful ??? i’m not kidding :\ altho we’ve only interacted through posts and what not i rly love seeing her on my dash 🤧🤧🤧 i wish you di best for ur studies i wuv u vewwa 💕💕💕

@stanbaek aka ashleyASHLEY !!!!! A-SHE!!!-LY!!! uhm she’s is sososo sweet and her love for bbh is so so wholesome and beautiful and there’s A LOT of it :((( HER BBH BLOG CONTENT IS AMAZING AHH!!! we’ve talked a few times and she’s rly so sweet please.. 😞😞😞 honey i hope you know that you deserve to be happy 🤧🤧 i wish that you’ll always have strength when you experience days that are difficult to go through, i told u that i believe in u okay!!! i love you and i mean it 💞💞💞

@littlechefsoo aka courtneyONE OF MY FAVORTIE KSOO-LS AHH!!!!! i think courtney has been one of my oldest mutuals since i came on tumblr and she’s always been such a lovely person :(( her love for ksoo??? WHOLESOME…. i love it whenever she tags me in di tag games and even tho we’ve only interacted/talked a few times i love her 😣😣💗💗 also have y’all seen her ‘do it for him’ post and the pics were filled with suho’s tiddies from gayo daejun???? YEA MOOD. i love my fellow kyungmyeon-Ls 💖💖💖

@kyungsooslatinagf aka jossyJOSSY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!??!?! i love reading her tags when she reblogs from me pls kashdkahs also another one of my all-time favorite ksoo-Ls ♥♥♥ she’s one of di few people who came to check up on me during… a hard time so thank you for that :(( a fellow shawol-L and honestly miss jossy is beautiful my gosh 😩💘 we’re both tauruses so i think we have a lot in common lmao i wanna b able to interact n talk w u more miss jossy ily 🤧🤧💖💖

[knightofameris]

aaaAAAAAHHH THERE IS SO MUCH TO RESPOND TO OMG HOLD ON DHSKSN

before i start let me just say thank u guys (just in general) for being so kind and welcoming...,, today was so bleh and i just have been feeling worse and worse (yes i did cry for an hour but m ok now) and i go on tumblr and i almost cried again bc i saw all the asks...,, it’s so refreshing to just be hit w all this love........so thank u,,... much love from 🧸 dhdjd

onto the convos! hi ames i’m glad ur taking a break or at least are hopefully trying to!! i will kick ur shins and take ur kneecaps if u aren’t hehe :> pls take care of yourself and this goes for anyone else out there reading this!!! i’ll support u 100% :D

(i learned how to press return so my msg isn’t one big para im so cool) anyways fbdjdjHDKSSJ UGH that sounds like so much woRK dbskdndk WHAT WERE THE CONVOS EVEN ABOUT???? i get so drained so quickly and i always need a break from everyone so PROPS TO U??!!?? i personally take ss so i just switch back n forth between my photos and the ask box JDNSKD im so lazy

YEAHHH art !! i love art sm!!! practice sketches ooo of who i wonder? do tell more... AND I’M PROUD OF YOU MORE!! but like fr i’ve gotten so much better in the past 6 months and i’m really happy w how it’s been going, maybe i’ll show u sometime C:

WAIT HOW TALL ARE U??? are we both short queens????!!!?? JDBAKDJSK it makes it all the better having somewhat tall hq interests 👀👀 I GENUINELY DONT THINK SUGA WOULD HAVE BAD TASTE EITHER??? mf could be out here in sweatpants and a t-shirt and he’d look like he stepped off broadway istg. and GRRR seeing u talk so passionately about teaching HFJSNDKDDK im so proud of u and i have only been talking to you for so long LOL !!!! i cant wait to see u do great things in the future ames!!! i’m so proud of you :D keep going!! ok ok and finally, FINALLY, i’m glad you’re doing better!!! dummie thick surgeon but at least it’s somewhat resolved fhskdkdkq (sorry if i seem so out of it in this omg i’m so exhausted) -🧸

AAHHA oops SORRY AHFSDANFF

AWW baby, i’m sorry today was hard for you!! i’m glad that I, and everyone else, was hopefully able to make today a little bit better. WE LOVE YOU HERE <3 <3 sm uwu and crying feels good sometimes! yk, just gotta let it out. i hope you go get some rest because you deserve it, crying takes a lot of energy hgnfngkng. and if you ever need an ear I am here to listen <3

LJDFAL;SDJF the way I'm p sure you already took my heart,,,

I STILL DONT HAVE THAT FEATURE. AM SAD. and I DONT EVEN REEMBER we just kept sending memes on one thing or dog pictures on another, etc. and it just. different conversations ASDJFKDAJSF. AND DON’T WORRY i totally get it. i take a few days away from texting every so often and yk. I'm like simultaneously social and not tho adslfjdlsajf. ALSO THAT’S SO SMART,,, u have the brain cell here. 

AW i would love to see your art if you’re ever comfortable to share,, BUT IM SURE IT’S AMAZING ANYWAY!!! we LOVE IMPROVEMENT. look at you go IM PROUD OF YOU MOST!! and omg I, I can only draw girls recently for some reason. and if I draw boys they’re just pretty boys,,,, i mean it’s suiting for suga though he’s a very pretty boy u__u 

i ammmmmm 5′1″ (153 cm) owo. so I'm assuming,,, you’re also short AHAHAH. suga literally reaches the minimum height that i’d want in a guy. BUT LIKE SHORT BOYS ARE CUTE TOO I’VE BEEN “WITH” MOSTLY SHORT BOYS. asjldfasldfjasjf I'm mad suga can pull off any outfit and would be prettier than me smh. 

AJDFALSJF PLLSS ;-; I'm proud of u more...! what are you interested in for a career ?? 0: i know for me that I do want to be a teacher but I want to do other things too! something in the entertainment industry but who knows asdljfalsdfjasf 

LMAO my surgeon was kinda funny tho made it relaxing before going under anesthesia and donut worry about seeming out of it, I'm constantly out of it. no brain cells 25/8

[iamafreakofsexuallust-blog]

as i sit herr smoke my beautiful clr.. this pops into my mind : as i sit and as each cloud i blow i see myself wearing a small little dress..prefer it to black or purple..therrs a huge circle within my reach..as i walk over to it..i see sumtin that catches my eye so as i slowly start to bend over..i lose my footing and end up bracing myself on my knees and hands.. as i look around for what made me fall was a shard..now as i slowly start to breaks it up..i see in thr corner of my eye other figures start to encircle where i am.. i can see stroking cocks , rubbing clits.. and i can hear em chanting.. pull her parties down as to my realization i forgot i was wearing pink and blue heart panties.. now 3 figures start come into my view..as i slowly start to melt the shard..there to my left is a huge meth bong with many hoses attached.. well at least i thought they were hoses.. i took 5 massive hits til i felt my panties start ti slide down and over my hips and over my thighs..i feel tingles throughout my entire body..as i consume the smoke i can feel the closeness gettin tighter..i have a long tongue trinkling down over my wanting ass..as i can feel a pair of lips engulfing my cock..then i heard em say smoke all you want becyz every bowl will consist of 2 cocks n a pait if hands..

( dayum i was thinking i love to smoje , plus im a bit if a freak too)

I culd feel a long but slow thickness sliding in between my folds of my ass crack..i closed my ryes as the bowl was.comin to a near..then i relized i had a cock in my tight ass as he griped onto my love handles thrusted forward i felt a warm sensation on my cock she was beautiful.so the guy behind was straddling her while prnatrating me furthermore..as i opend my eyes i have a 9' cock partng my lips to engulf the sweetness..i herd the group all arpund chantting " fuck him " " fuck him hard " & they said.. " fuck him like he's sissy gurl" . My cock got so hard that the man behund came so fast that i jerked and took thr 9' in ftont of me..as she continued to milk me..as she started to syck faster i wanted to finish the bowl so i culd recoup while they filled the bext bowl and so the next 3 ir 4 cocks culd line up.. I've never had anything bigger than 9' but i do dream of 10' but they must be cut.plus..my dream fantasy of all time is to be in a ring of cocks n dildoes or straps..i would like to be the sissygurl in the middle if 10 of y'all taking turns piunding my ass, pulling my head into your warm meat..letting you have your way with me ( as long as you can feed me clr) now as wearing the lil dress..i have worn nylins before , i have put on my ex gf panties before ( i get super hard) i have even worn her bras ( withput knowing ofc).

but on the serious note..if there wqs ever a chance than i could fulfill my fantasy that would be the bestest sex ever.

meth is a guarantee that this will work..now i have had my prostate mlked before..i have had anal sex before and i really love it. toys i have used..but mulitple cocks i have not tried.i truly belueve i can take one from both ends.. i would love to wear a lingerie outfit to see how it makes me feel all around..black or purple with pink and blue hearts for panties..i want to be un the middle of a cock sandwich at least once.. now ive been with 3 ffm..and i have been with a tg.which i rrally enjoyed being a bottomed, as you probably culd tell that i want to ravished..i will eat, swallow , stroke, fondled & engulf as many cocks as i can..plus i would like to try 2 cocks up my ass while i have a cock in each hand incldin one in my throat.so thats 5 cockd at once.( one sec gyna hit tbe pipa again )

As s1 is dwindling my cock..i know i want to cum..but i want to have a screaming orgasm!!!

I would also like to know how it feels to be your sex slave..( now remember you still must allow me to smoke and no bigger than 10')

I love BBC that would fucking hurt but i would still love to try.. Plus i would like to try latex...u can cover up my mouth and take turns drilling my boipussy. so basically

if u have enough meth to keep me fucking high for 72hrs in a row..you csn fuck every which way plus u can call me ur sex slave ur bitch your cum dumpster..i am writing to let everyone know.that i am totally a freak and will try jt all uf u allow me too...

Now uf u happen to have a outfit already..then you can help me get into it..and RIP INTO ME!! im looking for no bears..u cant be more muscular than the next guy, u kant be heavy ( like 275,nope). no hair on ur chest..thin or thick cocks allowed. if ur a ts, tg or a tv then bring sum toys.. Males bring ur cocks hands n alot of meth..cuz ive been in tbe mood for a long time, plus goin on 3yrs w/o a fem.i am bi, 46 yrs old...avg body... anything else u kan msg me fo more info..so please dont hesitate..ik that alot of us horny muthafukas dont throw outselves on rhr choppin block so quickly but..im tired.if waiting or pussyfooting around thr convo.. if agroup of sum horny andbouncing cocks want to havr a quiet, relaxing sex party, especially with s1 who is willing to go forth but only with meth..i smoke it or eat it..i don't slammed ut...now if u want to butt rocket go ahead if u want to roofy me ( but u wouldnt have too) u culd.. nomore than 8-10 cocks in thr group..now if sum cum to watch..i gursd that's fine..but eventually they willhave to undress to either all nude or a pretty dress like me.silk feels good.on my body...

dayum what a image and a thought.. to be man-handled by multiple ppl at once.. to be your sex slave/sissy..u just need a place a bed perfer meth for me..and music and lots of cum

[taylorunicorn13]

I ALMOST MET HER

I ALMOST MET HER Disclaimer, it's a very long story guys, it contains a lot of emotions, regret, happiness and sadness in just one post. 15th of October, 2017 One of my mutuals on twitter, changed her name to "Taylor Nation" and sent me a confidential DM (msg usually sent by Taylor Nation to all deserving swifties who got luckily invited to Taylor's secret session") I really thought it was frickin real and i even sent her my complete address and legit included "PHILIPPINES" on it. Little did i know, she was just playing around and messing with my feelings (but she is my friend tho, and i cant hate her cause she's one my fave mutuals ever) but damn guys, it really wrecked my whole damn life, i thought Taylor wants to me too 😔 i thought Taylor knows my name and how i look like. And after few hours, i was able to get my composure back and already accepted the fact that I WILL NEVER EVER MEET Taylor Alison Swift. I've been a twitter stan for a very long period of time, and always complain on how Tay put so much attention on tumblr swifties, and never appreciates twitter swifties (sorry) and since using tumblr confuses me a lot, i decided to stay on twitter and use it as my major fangirling tool lol Then lately, Taylor has been joining instagram live of some lucky swifties, so i tried my luck on IG again and made myself look like an idiot by going on IG live just to get Taylor's attention, but after 3 attempts of trying, I gave up. Then last Wednesday, 18th of October, 2017 ONE DIRECT MESSAGE ALMOST CHANGED MY WHOLE LIFE. At around 11:54AM, i got a notification again from Taylor Nation, saying "CONFIDENTIAL MESSAGE" damn babe, it's just so funny how i literally ignored it for a min bc i think someone is trying to make fun of me again, but SHIT JUST GOT REAL!!!!! GUYS!!!! I clicked on the account, and yeah, confirmed! TAYLOR NATION JUST SENT ME A DM!!!! It took a while for me to absorb everything and reply on their dm cause I was literally shaking, crying and screaming the whole frickin time bc it was frickin real and no longer a prank. I even woke all my relatives up and they thought that something bad happened to me lol and yeah it took me 4 frickin mins to send all the personal info that they need from me. And you know the drill guys, cause once Taylor Nation sends that so called "CONFIDENTIAL MESSAGE" you already know what will happen next, *internally screaming* "SECRET SESSION" babyyyyy!!!! And after getting their DM, i was so happy, it felt like I was in cloud 9! Ive never felt that genuine happiness before, added to the fact that i was also completely unstable, i wanna scream and tell the whole wide world that I am so close to meeting Taylor Swift but I cant. So i just spent the whole night and day waiting for their reply and thinking of happy memories that I am soon gonna be making with Taylor. Then Thursday morning, 19th of October 2017. My phone rings, it was a very unfamiliar yet too familiar, international number! My heart beats faster and my voice starts to tremble as I answer and say hello to the happy girl on the other line! "Heyyy Camila, ohmygod, it feels so nice to finally be able talk to you, wow" OHMYFUCKING GOD !!! THE SINCERITY AND HAPPINESS ON HER VOICE WERE SURREAL I AM TALKING TO TAYLOR NATION ON THE THE OTHER LINE She keeps on saying WOW lol so i finally said, "Hi, are you Taylor Nation? And ohhh, I'm not Camila, it's actually Cristina" (LOL GUYS, I'VE BEEN USING CAMILA'S NAME ON TWITTER FOR SO LONG, I THINK THEY THOUGHT THAT IT WAS MY PET NAME OR WHATEVER) so that's how our conversation started, she also introduced herself and i was so stupid for not remembering her name for being too hyped. All i remember was these lines "TAYLOR IS INVITING YOU TO A VERY SPECIAL AND EXCLUSIVE EVENT" "IM TELLING YOU THAT THIS IS A BIG OPPORTUNITY FOR YOU TO FINALLY MEET HER" FUCK FUCK FUCK TAYLOR WANTS TO MEET ME TAYLOR KNOWS ME TAYLOR IS NOT IGNORING ME AND ALL THIS TIME, TAYLOR HAS BEEN STALKING ME AM I DREAMING? Then, i caught myself off guard when she said "I know it will really take a long journey for you, knowing that you're from the Philippines, but are you willing to take it?" I said YES (cause bitch i love taylor so much and of course ill do anything to meet her) So i asked her, "when and where" And she said "It's actually this coming Sunday in Los Angeles, can you make it?" The happy tone of her voice was still there OKAY, GUYS IM DONE MY LIFE IS RUINED I AM A TOTAL MESS "I DONT HAVE A PASSPORT AND VISA" How can I make it in L.A in three motherfucking days? I AM SO DEVASTATED So thereeeeee, she was explaining a lot of things and the only thing i could recall was "looks like you're not going to make it" and i can hear the sudden regret and sadness in her voice. I AM SO SAD. FROM BEING IN CLOUD 9 TO GODDAMN HELL REAL QUICK But before we end our conversation, i asked her one last question. "HOW DID YOU GUYS FIND ME?" I hear her laugh on the other line before she answers me "We have our own ways, we have our eyes, and we've been monitoring you for a very long time, you're such a great fan, and we love how you show your love ans support on Tay even when she's on break and especially during her TRIAL, and i really love your account" OMG WHAT TRIAL? YOU MEAN HER CASE? SO ARE THEY REALLY STALKING ME IS TAYLOR REALLY STALKING ME DID TAYLOR ALSO HANDPICK ME? THE THOUGHT OF TAYLOR STALKING ME WITHOUT ME KNOWING SOMEHOW CHANGED EVERYTHING. SHE KNOWS MY EXISTENCE. IT MADE ME FEEL BETTER I LOVE HER SO MUCH AND IT HURTS I HATE MYSELF FOR LOSING THE BIGGEST OPPORTUNITY OF MY LIFE I AM FOREVER CARRYING THIS BURDEN Also the pictures, I've been creating in my head, of me happily spending the best time of my life with Taylor in her apartment in LA, with Meredith and Olivia, was G O N E. Like G-O-N-E. GONE in just like that. My world literally crashed after the phone convo that I had with TN, it changed my whole perspective in life and also as a swiftie, i thought that I will never ever get this chance. I even told myself that if Taylor would ever invite me to her Secret Session, i would legit do anything just to be there with her. But what the fuck did just happen? I'm almost there! I've been waiting since forever. It was already Taylor who's inviting me and I just put her down 😔 This is the worst thing that could ever happen to a huge and dedicated swiftie like me. My family and friends used to say that "your time will come" and i guess that's it. That's how it works, that's how I lost the chance. The opportunity was already there, but the timing wasn't right. Ive been keeping this sadness all alone cause i made a promise to Taylor and TN to keep it until the LA Secret Session was over. And yeah, btw to all my fellow swifties who hasn't been noticed by Tay yet, don't lose hope. And also, just a quick reminder to all international Swifties especially Filo swifties, guys don't ever say that she's being unfair for not giving chances to us, i am telling you guys, she's giving equal opportunities to all her swifties and really doing her very best to meet all of us 😊 And if your time hasnt arrived, then it's not your time yet. And to Taylor Swift, i know you can't wait to meet me too and I am sorry I could make it this time but I am never losing hope, you know how much I love you, and if today's not our day then it's not our day yet. See you soonest buddy!!!! I love you with all my heart. I lost the chance to meet her at the Secret Session but at least Taylor Alison Swift knows me and somehow that was everything. Love, Cristy/TaylorUnicorn13 Supposed to be one of the LA Reputation Secret Sessioners @taylorswift

[queerzaza]

(1/3) Hi zaza - so I kind of need advice/an outside opinion/maybe validation.. my friends (inc my bf and I) have a yearly group holiday which we were excited to organise this year. but my bf and I hadn't finalised summer jobs so there was a bit of a pause on dates etc. also I am broke so asked if we could stay reasonably cheap. but then apparently our friends met up and had a discussion where they decided my bf and I couldn't come on the holiday bc we hadn't committed to dates...

and they wanted to go somewhere sunny. they messaged me after this meeting to tell me. I was q taken aback that they just decided they didn’t want to compromise for us and also that they made the decision behind our backs. now they’re away and posting pics and I really feel quite left out and angry. I’m anticipating they might even message us saying “miss you!” or something but I’m really not in the mindset to be all friendly since if they missed us so much we could’ve gone away together. ugh anyway this all sounds really petty but I wanted to vent and I never told them that I didn’t think it was ok and I feel like they are pushing us away and I'm not sure how to feel or what to do (if anything). thanks zaza x

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oh, turtledove i’m so sorry tht your friends are not v kind ppl. tht must’ve hurt your heart, although, i’d wager, if you looked back over the course of your friendship, you’d find other manifestations of similar selfish behaviour. now, does this mean they’re bad ppl and shouldn’t be friends with them? nope. 

what it does mean is, these are the kind of ppl you’re friends with and if you want to remain friends, you’ll have to accept some harsh realities. like, how their enjoyment is more important than your feelings. or how they are impatient and self-centered. while, it’s totally fine to have hurt feelings over their behaviour, kno going forward, this is who they are. 

if i were in your shoes, i’d probs look for more compassionate and loving ppl to surround myself with, as t doesn’t sound like they intend on changing. but tht’s my choice. you have to decide what’s best for you (and by extension your bf). if you decide tht you do want to remain friends, then you’ll have to have a discussion about this w/ them, otherwise, it’ll just fester and ruin things slowly.

hopefully, you and you bf can decide what you want before they return, (also hope they don’t send msgs like you fear). then you either have a big convo and work to stay on good terms, or a lil one where you tell them, bye. remember there’s no ‘right’ or ‘wrong’ answer. only what’s best for you and your heart. wishing you all the good luck, turtledove!

[crisscolferfanforever]

jock 10.10 series finale

Jock

10.10

Tomorrow

Written by smoothie smith

Series Finale

                    We see the Campus of Wagner college and the Art hall where we see Hazel and Albert who are going to their first day of ASL 301 with their new friends

Albert (voice over)

“you know I am first year student and I am already loving it we made tons of friend’s hazel is doing amazing we are now going to ASL LLC which is are dorm “

They enter the west 26 floors where they see three deaf students

Albert (Signing)

“hello Hellen, how are you “

Hellen is a ASL student who talks but is trying to learn ASL

Hellen (finger spelling)

“Good”

Albert(sign)

“that’s good”

Two of the others come outside their names are Oliva and Kerry who are deaf and a couple

Hazel and albert sit

Hazel (voice over)

“We love it here I can’t believe we are engaged and going to college playing basketball and making new friends and exploring the life we want “

We see the convo counties

Fade out  

We see the first year AD Adam Millner come into the office

Abby comes in

Abby

“what’s on the schedule today”

Adam

“well we got first day of practice for the winter sports’

Abby

‘so, scheduled a meeting with all the coaches “

Adam looks at his papers

Adam

“yes ‘

He gets off his chair to go do hall monitor

 We see James coming in the room where he sees his grandson looking up the pack line defense

James

“I thought you were teaching”

Jalen

“hey what’s up”

James walks in

James

“what do you want to do for D”

Jalen  

“UVA”

James

“your just like your father “

Jalen

“I know “

He gives him the practice schedule

James

“I can’t wait for this”

Jalen smiles as Diana and Donna come in

Diana turns her head to Jalen as she comes in

Diana

“you’re a smart Cookie, ha-ha come give me a hug “

Donna

“how did you manage to get your Granddad from San Diego back to New York City “

Jalen with a smile shrugs his shoulders

   We cut to Rebecca classroom where she is talking with her son on a case when Amanda comes in

Amanda

“when did hazel get engaged “

Jalen and Rebecca look as they drop the pens

Rebecca

“what the heck “

Jalen

“when did this happen “

They look at each other and then back Amanda

Jalen

“do my dad’s know about this “

Amanda

“no”

Rebecca

“thank god’

Amanda

“so, I should go teach English “

Jalen

“as quick as humanly possible”

She leaves

Jalen looks at his mother

Jalen

“so, when do you think the soulmates are going to get married”

Rebecca working on a IEP

Rebecca

“if you say the word marriage I am going to be in the JFK ER before my daughter wedding day “

Jalen

“all right I got team taught with Chris Murry “

Rebecca

“all right “

Rebecca looks at a picture of Albert and Hazel and she decides to call the Dads oh dear as she picks up the phone

We cut to a home in Los altos where the happy couple of 22 years sitting with the dog watching sports center as the phone rings

Matthew

“I will get it honey “

We see Matthew pick up the phone as he cooks the breakfast as Curtis comes in to set the table

Matthew

“hello Rebecca, what’s up”

He stops and looks at Curtis

Curtis

“what is it “

Matthew

“our daughter is engaged to be married “

Curtis drops dead on the floor

Matthew

“Rebecca, I got to go Curtis is on the floor”

We enter the press room were Diana gives the information and answer to the questions

Diana

“the AD is Adam Millner of Whitefish Bay Wisconsin he will have a formal press conference tomorrow in drumline hall any other questions “

Mark Stewart comes in

Diana

“yes Mark “

Mark

“so, for the NISSPORTS survey can you give us a run down on the girl’s staff and boys staff “

Diana

“you bet the boys coaching staff is led by 3-year Jake Scahlow who has a record of 29-23 he is asset by John carter Josh bonnell David Jeffers and Earl Samilnes, over to the Girls staff before I get to the questions about the changes, the Lady generals are led by first year head coach Jalen Anderson-Gosz a record of 50-21 in three years at Fox point Central he is asset by Donna Bonnell myself Diana Hardy Zachary Hayes and James Gosz “

Diana looks up

Diana

“questions, yes Mark miller “

Mark

“can you tell us how do both Coach smaillens and Coach Gosz feel about coming back to coaching basketball at Rufus King “

Diana

“well let me start with coach Smailles he was the coach back in the 1980’s at New York Lincoln where he won two state championship in Divison 1 he is thrilled to be back coaching at rich place as far James Gosz goes you know his legacy at New York Rufus King for nearly 30 years he has built the boys program in state power house with a record of 627-104 record he is happy to be back with his grandson taking over for his mother the legend herself and he will be up here for a formerly press conference in 35 mins after his American Sign Language class “

 We enter the conference room with the coaches and AD Millner as Jalen comes in

Jalen

“hello everyone, please sit down “

They sit

Jalen

“as you know I am new to this but I am ready to go so let’s start the press conference “

They get up as they walk into district room 2

AD Adam Millner goes up first

Adam

“hello, I am the AD of Rufus king and I will have a formerly intro for me later now I will direct your attention to the Girls basketball coach Jalen Anderson-Gosz and his staff”

They all stand

Jalen

“please sit down I am very happy to follow in my mother’s footsteps who made this program the way it should be and I will hope to keep on her legacy for years to come you will see the girls be up tempo like always and pack in your face man to man we return four juniors who will be seniors this year, Question’s “

They ask questions as Jalen looks cool

Rebecca watching it in her office

Rebecca (quietly)

“I love you my little angel “

 We see gunner and cade who are seniors coming into Rebecca office

Cade

“Mrs. Fisher “

Rebecca

“yes “

Cade comes in with gunner and Connor and ben

Rebecca

“you guys look mad”

Gunner

“what can we do about the center “

Rebecca

“I can’t do much about it “

Cade

“well I guess will have to wait “

They leave

We cut to St. Johns where we see Zachary in a special Education class the professor comes in Morgan Fairchild Zachary is in a class of 300 students mostly Special education majors we see zach opening his notebook

Fairchild talks in her opening

Fairchild

“what is special education and what do you call people who have disabilities write one word that you could change the word into and pass it up “

Zachary is seen writing the word Disorder

He passes it up

Fairchild is seen looking at them

Fairchild

“wow I like this one by one of the students Disorders “

Zach smiles

 We cut to Fordham where we see Luke where he is in his first ever special education class he sits in the front row waiting for his ITP personally to come as he gets out his notebook as Ashley comes in

Ashley (sign)

“you Luke “

Luke (sign)

“yes”

Nodding his head

The professor comes in

Greg (Ashley signing)

“hello and welcome to Intro to Special education I am Greg Anderson I am a professor of education now who here can tell me what is special education “

We look on as Luke is writing his notes

 We see Hazel starting day one of ASL 1 with Albert

Erin comes walking in

Erin (signing)

“welcome to ASL 301 I am Erin Wiggins now let’s do some news we have this week Deaf space which is in the 26th floor of the halls in this very building and we also have a lunch get together with SSA don’t forget to do that for your homework, now let’s start with until 2 “

 We cut Jalen and in his job doing ASL 1 for Freshmen students

Jalen

“hello, I am Mr. Anderson-Gosz I am the teacher that will be teaching both ASL 1 to 4 and deaf history and deaf Culture here is the syllabus “

Cade

“now are you going to be speaking to us “

Jalen

“good question Cade and the answer is no I will be speaking for the first day only “

The students look nervous

Ben

“oh “

Jalen

“after that it’s no talking now let’s look at the syabllous “

We see the camera fading away as Jalen counties to teach

 We cut Jake and his staff

Jake

“now we are coming off a bad ending to a season now we have a lighter non-conference for this so I am hoping next year we get back to where things should be “

James

“who did you guys play last year”

John

“well the 6 of 9 games where against the div 1 top 15 “

James

“wow “

Jake

“now I think we need to get to what we want our goals to be for this year “

David

“I think a trip to MSG would be the best goal ever “

Jake

“I agree but we have young team “

James

“we need to let it take the course “

Josh

“what do you mean “

Jake

“What he means is take one game at a time “

John

“I agree “

Jake writes his notes

Jake looks at his staff

Jake

“you ready for practice number one “

They leave

 Fade out

 We go to Lots altos California at the home of Curtis and Matthew as albert sneaks up to the door the door opens

Albert looking at Curtis and Matthew

Albert

“can I have your daughter for the rest of my life say yes say yes because I need to know you say I’ll never get your blessing till the day I die tough luck my friend but the answer is no why you got to be so rude? don’t you know I’m human too why you gotta be so rude I am goanna marry her anyway “

Curtis gives the timeout sign

Albert stops

Curtis

“what you are doing “

Albert

“I don’t know I thought it might work “

Matthew

“you’re an awesome singer but you don’t need to plea with us “

They laugh

 We cut to Wagner Art hall we see 25-year-old Senior Albert Halpert who is at home with his Fiancé Hazel getting ready for the wedding we see prep as Zach and Luke getting albert ready

Zach

“you look amazing “

Luke (signing)

“beautiful “

We see Curtis and matt packing for the wedding

Curtis

“I can’t believe Albert did that “

Matthew comes in dress for a road trip but packing the last of his clothes

Matt

“it’s going to be fine babe”

They kiss

Curtis

“I love you”

Matthew

“I love you two “

We cut to Rachel and Finn who are at the wedding ceremony it’s been a month since the resign of coach Anderson as he just wants to spend more time with the family

Rachel

“what about going back to Rufus King”

Finn looks at his niece

Finn

“maybe in a year”

Rachel

“prep or College”

Finn

“college listen sweetie I have been a coach for 14 years at St. Johns making 7 Ncaa Tourney and 400 games won 1 national Title 4 Final Four appearance “

Rachel

“maybe derrick has something “

Finn

“I will think about it “

The family comes in

Curtis

“Matthew is doing the walking “

James

“that is going to be cute”

Kurt and Blaine come in as they talk to Rebecca and others

Kurt

“well we don’t know if we want to come back to NYC”

Rebecca

“you should “

Blaine

“where would we live “

Derrick comes in with Jalen and Wendy

Jalen has a suggestion

Jalen

“what about my dad’s old house “

Blaine

“that could work “

Kurt

“we have to sell the house in Lima “

They look at each other

Wendy

“let’s worry about that later “

The cemeory is about to begin

Dearly beloved

They kiss the happy couple is finally mr and Mrs. Albert Halpert

We fast forward to 4 years  

We go to Zachary and his Boyfriend giri of 4 years  who are getting ready for the first day of teaching at Long island bay Blue Dukes

Zachary

“hey I am going to be late coming home I got an IEP meeting “

Giri

“I will have the food ready “

They kiss

Zachary walks out the door and cuts into the classroom

Zachary (voice over)

“I am a cross catorgy special education teacher at Long Island Bay I am also the head coach of the blue Dukes Boys basketball team I am proud of that I can’t wait for my future “

He begins teaching

 Zachary

“so who has work to do “

 We go to Hazel to see what she is doing with her life as we see Upper New York City at a public school working as a special education teacher we see her get up with her husband Albert

Hazel (voice over)

“I am proud wife and a proud mother of two beautiful children however we have had some struggles our first child named after Ruby Simon Ruby Halpert was born deaf we had the struggle of teaching him sign then our second child Joan was born with Down Syndrome depict all our struggles we are one big happy family

We cut to the dining room we see two children Joan Halpert and Simon Ruby Halpert eating breakfast

Hazel (signing )

“we have 5 mins then we have to go “

Simon (sign)

“finish”

Albert comes in

Albert (Sign)

“get your jacket on it’s cold “

Hazel comes in with her coat

Hazel

“let’s go guys “

They leave

Albert and hazel kiss

 We see Jake in his office getting ready for the game against JFK when he gets a phone call from his father

Jake

“hello dad “

He watches film

Jake

“when, oh I see at MSG hmm, let me get back to you on that sounds good “

They hang up

His staff comes in

Jake

“let’s talk JFK “

Zachary Hayes a first-year coach

Hayes

“well we know what we got a trouble defense that give up an avg of 65 points “

David

“we can take it with Gunner and cade so bad that it will be 50 to 17 “

Jake looks over to coach Samilnes

Jake

“what do you think coach “

James

“let’s take them out in the first half “

Jake

“you heard the guy”

They go to practice

  We see Wendy and James at the loft with the kids

Wendy (sign/talking)

“who wants lunch “

Wendy made hazel favorite sandwiches and chips and glass of milk for the kids

James (sign/talking)

“looks good right kids “

Simon (sign)

“let’s eat”

James smiles and then looks at the clock

James

“I have to go to the office ok I will see you for the big night “

Wendy

“ok”

They kiss

James waves to the kids as he leaves the house

  We see girls practice as Jalen teaches

Jalen

“you’re going to go through the chair and hard cut to the basket”

Jalen goes by his grand dad

Jalen

“go”

James

“this is going to be a really good team “

Jalen

“9 seniors “

James

“that is a Christmas gift “

Jalen

“run it again from the top “

  We go to the theater which albert is finally on Broadway performing in Hedwig and the angry inch we see his family and friends getting tickets for the opening

Zachary and Giri are in line for tickets as Luke and Madison are next

Zach(sign)

“do you want me buy you both a ticket”

Luke (sign)

“were fine”

He flashes the Credit card

Giri

“Zachary babe when did he get a credit card “

Zachary

“well he’s a high paying teacher in Syracuse for a school for the deaf”

Giri

“and you’re a Special education teacher at Long Island Bay “

Zachary

“you bet “

They kiss

Let’s go in

Hazel meets them

Hazel

“hey you two “

They sit down

And watch the show

We go to the next day we see a 25-year-old Luke getting ready for work as special education teacher at the New York school for the deaf in Syracuse New York where teaches written English

He gets in his office when a student comes by his door

Daniel (sign)

“can you look at my paper “

Luke (sign)

“yes of course sit down “

He looks at the paper as proud teacher

Luke (voice over)

“I don’t know what I be doing if it weren’t for the ability to understand myself and see others like me who struggle with English simple because they don’t write like we do “

Luke (sign)

“can I write on this”

Daniel (sign)

“yes”

   We see Madison Square Garden for the Tony’s we see Albert and hazel with their kids

Hazel (sign)

“now kids’ daddy’s gotta go “

Simon (signing )

“why ‘

A group of people come up to hazel and the kids about 15 of them

Hazel

“oh my god”

Zachary and the gang have come including family

Curtis

“hey sweetie “

They kiss on cheeks

Curtis (signing )

“hey Simon”

Simon waves

Zachary and Luke and college friends come in

Zach

“you ready ‘

Luke (sign)

“I am are you Simon? “

Simon nods

They go in and take their seats as they meet up with one and only Albert Halpert

Albert (signing/talking)

“hey guys “

They go and sit

They watch as albert cat is up

Jimmy Fallon comes up to present the award as Simon looks

Simon (sign)

“hey is that dad up at the stage”

He points as hazel starts to laugh

Hazel (sign)

“let’s watch “

Albert (whispers)

“lol”

Jimmy Fallon

“I am here to present the Nom for best Actor in a comedy Albert Halpert Hedwig”

The camera goes on albert

Jimmy Fallon

“Neil Patrick Harris in wick, Andrew Randall’s in Silent, and Sam Hendricks in kinky boots ‘

Jimmy opens the letter

Jimmy Fallon

“and the Tony goes to Albert Halpert in Hedwig “

Albert and the rest celebrate

Albert walks up to the stage

Albert (signing/talking)

“thank you very much I am so honored to get an award like this for a character that is so proud of to be who she wants to be and the message that it brings time and again I hope that my performance gives younger people a chance for this role when they get the chance , in the last part I want to tell you why I am  signing today I have my family here my wife Hazel and my two kids Simon Ruby who is deaf and my daughter Joan Halpert I love you both thank you very much”

The coward claps

We see an old but well known building we see albert and hazel with their kids

Hazel

“what are we doing here “

Albert

“I don’t know “

Both get with their kids one name is Joan who has Down Syndrome the other kid is a boy name Simon Ruby Halpert named after Ruby, James secretary who is deaf   they go in front of the building

Hazel

“this building hasn’t been open in 7 years “

Albert

“I know “

Jamie

“mom where are we “

Hazel looks at her daughter

Hazel

“somewhere very special “

Albert

“do you want to go inside “

They open the door

Jamie looks around so dose Simon

Simon (signing)

“who’s smoothie Anderson “

Hazel (signing)

“your grandfather “

Albert and hazel kiss as they walk

Hazel

“Joan lets go inside “

 Oct 14 7pm 2211 N Cambridge ave we see a big building with a familiar face to it we see Zachary and the gang plus members of Wagner ASL Department and LLC that he lived in they go inside the building

Rebecca

“it feels like old times “

Curtis and Matthew come in

Curtis

“wow who did this “

Matthew

“that would be your son in law “

Rebecca

“he said after he won the tony he would re-open it “ an old couple comes in with a 20-year-old man

Simon (sign)

“who is that “

Matthew (sign)

“your great grand dads and your great uncle “

Curtis

“hello dad and papa”

Tracy

“wow this is nice “

Kurt

“I love it “

Blaine

“so, what’s the name going to be “

David and sue come in with Jordan and Felix as well as Char and Brad

Brad

“this is just like 25 years ago”

Curtis

“I don’t believe it “

They huge do you want to meet the new members of the family

Curtis goes by the family

Curtis

“meet Simon Ruby Halpert and Joan halpert “

Brad

“who would they be”

Curtis

“my grandchildren “

Char

“wow “

They are inepter by Hazel who is at the the table

Hazel with the help of an ITP Susan Lewis

Hazel (Susan signing)

“hello and welcome to this beautiful building as were open it to the public and with that I would like to meet my husband albert halpert and he will tell why he deiced to re-open the building “

Albert (Susan signing)

“good evening and welcome to this very special place as I am here before you tonight that we are re-opening the smoothie Anderson center to the public with a totally upgrade of staff and treatment for people that need it I am so horned to re-open it  because I believed in my Father in laws work for many years through the good times and bad of this place and I can’t wait to finally get this place back to where it use to be where it belongs bringing a city together helping those who can’t help themselves and being there for people 24/7 that is what this place was about and after tonight my wife and I hope it will counties to do just that  thank you very much “

They clap

Albert gets off the stage

Curtis

“you’re going to do great work “

They hug

He goes by hazel and the kids

Albert (signing /talking)

“what did you think guys “

Simon gives him a big hug

Hazel (sign)

“I love you “

They kiss

A man comes up to the family they leave with him

We cut to Zachary and Luke who went to the event

Luke (sign)

“finally, this place will be back to the way it was “

Zach(sign)

“yes “

Luke (sign)

“so how is long Island Bay “

Zach (sign)

“it’s good we just started basketball season what about you “

Luke (sign)

“it’s going good I have to get back to central New York after this “

Zach (sign)

“I am glad you came “

Luke (sign)

“yes, give my best to Albert and hazel “

Zach (sign)

“always “

He watches his best friend leave

    Next day

 We cut to the girl’s game where Jalen is getting ready for the season opener of his 6 seasons against Harrison

We see the crowd cheering on as the starting lineups is read out

PA

“the starting line ups for the Generals of Rufus King starting at Guard a 5”7 Junior number 4 Stacy Mach, starting at guard a 5”7 Junior number 12 Kennedy Hill-Seymour, starting forward a 5”10 Senior number 20 Joan Hardy, starting at the other forward a 6”0 junior Jade Fisher and starting at center a 6”4 senior number 44 Wendy Arneson-Mootz “

 They go and get fired up

Pa (counties)

“and the Head coach of the Lady Generals is Jalen Anderson-Gosz asset by Diana Hardy, Donna Bonnell and James Gosz”

Jalen goes by the team

Jalen

“all the time you play like champions each min “

They watch as Jalen crouches down

The camera slowly goes back as we see the girls play the game

The music in the background

 End of the series

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