#also sometimes ill be wanting this au to go in one direction and i need to wait for an ask that will let me go in that direction

[kiyomitakada]

i am going to scream (wip rambling in the tags)

[filideci]

(ooc) filideci will be taking a small hiatus, i’m making my own original comic and i wanna finish these 2 pages first (this will make more sense if you look at my general art blog @yui94). filideci will be picked back up again shortly after. thank you for your patience!

[writingseaslugs]

Octavinelle: When You're Sick

Favorite dorm here we go! This was fun to write and hmmmm I really wanna be taken care of by the Octrio. They can be good at it, I swear! As always, the intro is the same as Heartlabyul and Savanaclaw, so feel free to skip it if you’ve already read those parts.

Disclaimer: All characters in this series are aged up. For more information about my version of this world and the type of reader you can expect, please click the “Au Information” below!

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Octavinelle: When You’re Sick

The worst thing to ever happen to you while attending Night Raven College had to be, hands down, getting sick. You were alone in the dorm with only ghosts and Grim to keep you company, and as much as you loved them, they couldn’t take care of you when you became sick. This meant you had to make do and hope that everything was alright. Normally if you were under the weather, you’d just suck it up and go to class so as to not worry anyone. This time however, that wasn’t an option.

You woke up with every muscle in your body feeling sore and aching with even the slightest movement. Your stomach churned something fearsome and you had a runny nose and cough to boot. You had no idea what illness you had fallen to. Having so many symptoms…you could only assume it was the flu or something akin to that.

Still, there was no way you were making it to class like this. So begrudgingly you told Grim you weren’t feeling good and needed to rest, and to go to class and get your homework so you could do it later. The demon cat was grumpy about not having his henchman, but eventually gave in, leaving you alone to rest in your room and hope that whatever you had would go away.

Azul Ashengrotto

Azul is going to be concerned the moment he hears from Floyd and Jade that you’re home sick. He knows you tend to take care of others and neglect your own health, at least in the time he’s known you at the college, so he’s automatically assuming the worst. So he’s going to excuse himself from his own work at the lounge, pack up all his paperwork, and head over to your dorm. He needs to make sure his best customer, and sometimes best worker when you were strapped for cash, was okay and not actually dying, as Floyd so eloquently put it.

He’s not half bad at taking care of others oddly enough, though he is lacking in experience. It’s one of the many things he studied in his free time, so he at least knows what he’s doing. He’ll be calling the nurse anyway just to check in on you and make sure it’s nothing too serious. Once he gets that out of the way, he’s going to do his best in following directions and making sure you recover in the most timely manner possible.

Thankfully he does care for you, so he won’t be making any comments about how helping you out will come with a price later, like picking up shifts at the lounge. In fact, he’s very gentle with you and asks questions in a softer voice than normal. He even orders food from the lounge to be delivered so you can have something warm to eat that’s also delicious. He will be doing work on the side, especially the moment you fall asleep, so don’t be surprised if you wake up to pages turning.

Once you’re better it’s like a weight is lifted off his shoulders. He’ll be in a chipper mood as well, something the twins will notice right away. If you bring up wanting to repay him, he’ll just inform you that if he ever falls sick, you’ll be the one nursing him back to health. A good compromise in the end, and something you were already planning on doing for him.

Jade Leech

Jade won’t have too much of a reaction to finding out that you’re sick, other than a frown being placed on his lips. He finds out through Floyd when he’s complaining that his Shrimpy couldn’t come out and have fun since they were dying at home from some horrible, debilitating disease. Jade knows his brother is playing things up, but this does give Jade the little push he needs to go in and visit you to make sure you’re okay.

Thankfully Jade is one of the more competent boys when it comes to taking care of others. He’s already figured out exactly what was wrong with you and is grabbing some of the best medication from Sam’s, since the stuff the nurse has is “mediocre at best”. Since Jade is normally the one having to take care of Floyd when he’s sick, he knows all the things to do if you happen to be stubborn, especially with taking medication. 

He’s just very soft with you, showing you a genuine smile as you eat the soup he brings you, and playing with your hair. He doesn’t need to do much when taking care of you, trusting the medication to do all the work, but that doesn’t mean he’s going to want to leave your side. Just expect Floyd to be paying you a visit as well, even if you’re asleep, and waking you up. Where you have one twin, chances are you have both of them, but it’s all good since they’re both amazing at making you smile. Jade stays even after Floyd gets bored and heads back though, and he’s without a doubt skipping his shift at the lounge that night.

Jade is in a noticeably better mood once you’re better, but don’t be fooled. He’s going to be using this against you in an attempt to have you join him on one of his hikes. Saying something about the fresh air and moving your body will be good for you. He won’t force you, but he’s definitely going to be playing up that he’s so hurt if you decline. Just go with him, if you get tired the string bean of a man can and will carry you up a mountain.

Floyd Leech

Floyd doesn't even know how to react when he discovers you’re sick. He’s both mad and sad, all at the same time. People are going to be parting like the red sea the moment they see him walking down the hall with a scowl on his face. His shrimpy couldn’t possibly be sick, it wasn’t fair. He had so much planned to do with you today and now you couldn’t even leave your bed? He won’t stand for this and after pouting for half the day, Jade comments that he can simply visit you and maybe help you feel better. There goes the switch and suddenly Floyd is in an amazing mood as he ditches the rest of his classes and work just to go and visit you. 

Floyd isn’t half bad with taking care of others if he’s in the mood to do it. He is the one who takes care of Jade when he’s sick (which normally Jade gets sick right after Floyd). He’s not going to be talking to you in a super gentle voice, or babying you unless he finds it fun to do so. If you happen to get flustered by him doing so, then he’ll be more inclined to literally spoon feed you.

Floyd is just going to raid your medicine cabinets rather than going out anywhere, since it’s just the flu he assumes it’s not too bad. He’s also using your kitchen to cook you some meals and bringing them to you. He’ll be smiling brightly when you’re eating the food he made, and whenever you take the medicine. He feels so accomplished knowing that you’re getting better due to his efforts. There is a good chance he won’t be spending the entire day by your bed, since he’ll get bored, but he will be there on and off the entire time you’re sick.

You’re getting a good, healthy squeeze the moment you’re all better. Floyd is just over the moon and already telling you about all the things he has planned now that you’re no longer dying. Be nice and humor him, he has been going through a lot of emotions the entire time you’ve been sick. He just managed not to show you, but anytime he left the dorm, he was back to being grumpy and irritable, to suddenly depressed and closed off. He was really only smiling when taking care of you, so he deserves to squeeze you for a good while now that you’re no longer sick.

[ivanttakethis]

Tov Cassio - Modern AU

- Tov was adopted by Cassio when she was about 2 years old.

- She still has her heart issues and is chronically ill. Luckily, Cassio had the means to get her better care.

- Cassio is a famous runway model turned high fashion designer with a fashion house called Cassiopeia.

- Also similar to canon, Cassio initially adopted Tov as an “accessory” (think like some famous celebrities), and then quickly figured out that raising a child — especially one with health concerns — is hard. They don’t want more kids after her, which is perfectly fine with Tov.

- Tov’s last name is Cassio, and Cassio dropped their first name when they became a well-known model. Tov actually doesn’t know what Cassio’s first name is/was.

- Tov and Cassio have a better relationship in this AU than in canon, but it’s far from perfect. Sometimes Tov feels like she has to parent Cassio instead of the other way around.

- Like her guardian before her, Tov is a fashion model.

- As soon as Tov was old enough to walk and listen to directions, she started modeling and walking in fashion shows with Cassio.

- Known in the industry for her “resting bitch face”, but it’s considered a positive attribute for walking runways.

Rando: “I thought models were supposed to smile.”

Tov, completely deadpan: “Not the ones at my level.”

- She doesn’t tell people what she does for work. Not because she wants to keep it a secret, but she just doesn’t volunteer information about her life if you don’t ask her directly.

- Most of her classmates don’t know Tov models until a billboard with her face on it pops up downtown. People promptly lose their minds.

- Talks about going to places like Milan, Paris, and Tokyo the same way she talks about the weather.

- Usually dressed in “quiet luxury”. She incorporates her beloved star motif however she can; earrings, necklaces, rings, all real gold and silver.

- Cassio got Tov’s ears pierced when she was a toddler. She was pretty chill for the procedure.

- Rarely if ever wears flat shoes. She loves platform boots and wedges.

- Big fan of fantasy novels; put off by the whole genre of sci-fi (ironic).

- Owns several expensive telescopes to view the night sky and the stars. Don’t ask her to hang out on a meteor shower night. She will not come.

- Tov is very independent and self-sufficient. She knows how to cook, do laundry, and other household chores.

- Doesn’t have a driver’s license.

- She’s a homebody. If she needs to go somewhere, she gets one of her friends to take her.

- The type of person to leave a party when they get bored, but also won’t tell anyone that they’re leaving.

- Cats are drawn to her. She does not know why. May become a victim of the cat distribution system.

- Friends: Himei, Tallis, Nyx, Moran, Dian, Solei, Aurien, and Flor

- Acquaintances/Friends of Friends: Lang, Castor, Stasya, Kyo, and Cirrus

- One-Sided Fondness: Azure

- Don’t Like Her Vibe But I Understand Her: Daiki

[smallraindrops-blog]

Dear Raindrops, You are feeding us well as we wait for the new chapter! Do you, by chance, have any drabbles or other au idea you would be willing to share as we wait? (Only if you want to!)

That said, I hope you're doing well and have a good rest of your day!

Sorry for the late response. Im getting close with the current chapter and i need to dump out this out of my brain so here. Odyssey AU

Tw: for SA, violence, death, the typical greek myth shit.

Sometimes I wondered if I should had completely gone a different way with Y/N. Bc like imagine Y/N joining the ill-fated journey and like at first everything seemed to be going fine.

Yeah, he is grieving, homesick for a place and time and people who no longer existed. But his parents’ ashes are close by, and something about going into the wild blue yonder helped.

A journey to an unknown place like your parents.

Then… shit started to go sideway.

It all started with that goddamn island. Y/n was originally almost left on the ship although he offered to come with.

“Lad, you are not a friendly face. I need men who that don’t make people want to run in the other direction.”

“You also need men who will scare people into obeying.”

“… well, i can’t disagree with that.”

so y/n is listening about the food-cave and is like bullshit but he knows better than to go against Odyssey too much in front of his men.

When exploring the cave, Y/N doesn’t noticed until too late that some of the men killed a sheep.

Of course, they picked the worst sheep to kill first.

The favorite sheep.

Afterwards the battle of with Cyclopes, with the other crew members -who didn’t see their comrades get crushed/eaten- celebrating around him, Y/n just stares out into the sea and wondered if he should have gone with his original plans.

Just another nightmare among the many.

then there was the bag.

Y/n knew immediately that was no treasure, the god said not to open the damn bag.

Don’t. open. the. damn. bag.

They opened the bag.

Because y/n had apparently decided to follow a captain that the gods hated. Of course, he did because would anything ever go right?

And Poseidon nearly wipe them all out.

“Odysseus-“

“I know, I know-“

“I regret the day i met you.”

“Yeah, I hear that a lot.”

Then the witch, Circe and y/n had lost count of many men they had lost. He also doesn’t know exactly what going on between her and Odyssey but y/n just knew it wasn’t good.

“Y/n?“

“Yeah, Myron?”

“That pig there, it looks pretty wild, I don’t think it is one of our crew member.”

“No, that is Onias. I remember the birth mark on his lower back.”

“How do you know about that birthmark?”

“… look, pigs are off the table completely until they change back.”

When y/n learn that about the journey to the underworld, he couldn’t sleep. When they made it inside, he kept looking for his parents. Surely he would see something.

But he didn’t.

It took everything in him not to jump overboard and search for them. They were happy now. They should be at rest but surely this would had gotten their attention. They were happy here right?

Right?

…

Right?

Somehow y/n didn’t get killed by Zeus, the god too pissed off at Odysseus y to realized he miss y/n ( and y/n wonders if the gods actually hate him too and that why he can’t seem to die.)

“Lad-“

“Don’t speak, keep paddling.”

“I have a plan-”

“Shut. It”

Calypso was a hot mess and Y/N spent of his time far of time far away. Although there was a few times he was also forced into her bed.

He and Odysseus don’t talk about it.

Eventually

They made it home.

Only not really.

Because Y/N didn’t realized that Odyssey might not be completely sane when it came to his beloved wife ( gods, just kill him if y/n ever ends up that insane over a single person. No one is worth all this pain.)

and because Y/n literally hates himself, he ends working side by side with Odyssey looked like homeless men and when one of the suitors go too far, helps kill all 108 of them.

And later, Y/N is cleaning the blood awkwardly of his blade on a dead man’s clothes, feeling a little guilty because it is clear even to him that Penelope put a lot of time and effort into keeping a very lovely home and now there is blood and bodies everywhere.

Even on her roses.

Poor Telemachus looked traumatized, the young man didn’t know where to look it seems.

Odyssey and Penelope just leave them alone.

Y/n sighed.

Why didn’t he just die in the war like everyone else?

“Ah, are you a friend of my father’s?- sir?”

“More like his pet jester.”

“Oh… Do- do you want a bath?”

“Yes, please.”

and when odyssey finds him later, he just beams at Y/N, “see lad, i told you that it would be worth it.”

Y/n just down another cup of wine.

~

Later he met Hypnos and realized that maybe Odysseus’ respond to the suitors was maybe not that insane.

[bilolli]

Hi, me again lmao 👁️👁️ Thank you for answering to my ramblings, have more

By erasing memories I meant like actual staff erasing it so they don't have triggers from past patients, like if you know psychopaths are pretty cool doctors/cops/any other job that involves human's emotions or traumatic shit for normal person because they don't have any emotions. So technically it would be logical for William to program bots to be the same but if it's important for the story then nevermind, it's just a thought of mine!

Also about boys having conflicted feelings: we can make it even better! Y/N has conflicted feelings as well because Sun and Moon are caretakers, it's their job to take about y/n. So y/n just thinking like "Could everything that they did be just because of their job?" "Maybe they were so nice to me just because they have to" etc etc ;)

Another little things, just ideas(don't have to be in your main story, just thoughts about your main setting):

You said that Sun and Moon are allowed to go wherever they want but I don't really think that they can just live y'know? And I was just thinking about them actually secretly dreaming about experiencing very simple things, that they can't do on their own because they need to look after patients.

Y/N is already healthy for a long long period but pretends to be sick so they can stay with boys? Like yeah, they can leave the hospital and just visit them sometimes but it's just not the same...

Thank you for answering again, I'm really into this au and really want to see how it will turn out!! <33

Yey more ramblings!

Answers under the cut because I can't seem to be able to write a small post.

Normal staff is unable to erase the animatronics memories because it requires a lot of knowledge about programming (obviously) and even some access passwords that only the directors of the hospitals know (William and Micheal in this case) The directors are the one who decide how to use and what must be done to the animatronics. 

Under William's directions, animatronics were periodically reset to better manage their memory and to erase private data after a patient was released. This was obviously just an excuse used for the public. He actually did that to erase every possible proof of his crimes.

Micheal, on the other hand, doesn't do that because he doesn't have anything to hide and thinks that having any previous data about certain events/illnesses could save someone's life, even if it's not actually in line with normal privacy rules. He sees the animatronics like a hacker/technician sees his extremely expensive and new super computer. Not actually as people but something pretty much similar. He treats them well but he demands respect from them, not because he is human and they are robots, but because of his position as a lead doctor.

I didn't mention it before but y/n has a lot of conflicting feelings as well. Here is an example from the WIP:

"After all you're just another patient to entertain, who knows how many other humans they took care of with the same kind gestures and smiles before you even arrived here."

Sun and Moon are free to roam inside the hospital perimeter and it has pretty much anything you could ever want and could expect from a big, private hospital (like, dunno, a pool and a gym). But yeah, they sometimes find themselves thinking about visiting different cities or just enjoying different views. 

Sun wants to go to an amusement park and Moon wants to go to a real cinema and watch a film on the big screen. 

Visit the duo you say? That's actually something Sun says at some point but he's firmly convinced that y/n would stop doing it after some time passes. 

Y/n has the money to stay at the hospital for some time but they'll run out of them if they stay for too long. If they are gonna survive all of what's happening they are planning something different. Hopefully their plan is going to work.

[stoppit-keepout]

untitled, unfinished, les mis~

the document is called “i'm not gonna write pregnancy fic but” so uh, let that be your guide. :) Relevant tags... modern AU, ciswoman!Grantaire, unplanned pregnancy, and if i end up speed-writing more then there’ll definitely be some nebulously-requited crushes

It seems like Grantaire notices that Enjolras is walking towards her before he himself realises what he's doing. Her eyes catch on him and dart back to Eponine; she's just finishing a sentence as he gets into earshot, stepping out onto the patio of the restaurant they'd gathered at post-meeting.

He nods to them both, then when neither says anything, does his best to continue where they left off. "What's a nightmare?" he asks.

Eponine, now that he can see her face, looks furious. "Might be none of your business," she says.

Grantaire shrugs. "I'm trying to make a decision about how something should go." She has a habit of fidgeting with garnish and straws from her highballs when she orders them; right now she's tying a little paper straw into a soggy knot.

"Anything I can help with?"

"No," Eponine answers for Grantaire.

"Well," Grantaire says. "Talking it through might help."

Some people have said that Enjolras is oblivious to social cues. He's aware that he can sometimes be unaware, but Eponine is not exactly being subtle: he's not precisely wanted here right now. However, for as long as Grantaire keeps propping the door open, he'll do his fucking best. "Is it a plot thing, for one of your comics?"

"Yeah." Grantaire nods slowly. "Just having trouble picking a direction."

"Sounds tough," Enjolras says. "But I'm all ears if you want to talk." Grantaire and Eponine trade an impenetrable look. "Or not, I can just head back inside."

"No, no, you know I love your opinions." When Grantaire smiles like that, sardonic, her one misaligned tooth just barely catches Enjolras's eye. The little bit of asymmetry is weirdly compelling.

"I'll head back to the table then." The words are declarative, but Eponine looks almost like she's asking permission, an impression that's reinforced when she waits for Grantaire's nod before eeling back in past where Enjolras had just emerged. "We'll talk later," quiet.

The lull that comes upon them when Eponine leaves would be enough to make Enjolras feel self-conscious, if he weren't so used to feeling on the back foot with Grantaire. "I didn't mean to interrupt," he says.

"We'd been talking ourselves in circles," Grantaire says. "It's good you're here."

The warmth in Enjolras's gut doesn't need to be examined. "What can you tell me?" he asks.

"Okay, so this one's about a fuckup," she starts. She picks up speed as she talks. "Kind of a self-insert, I guess, just some woman on the verge of thirty who doesn't have a solid life: insubstantial job, insubstantial relationships, insubstantial prospects."

The middle member of the list makes Enjolras squint, but he's loath to interrupt her this early in proceedings. 

"She wants something more solid at some point, but she hasn't made any moves towards creating that foundation." Grantaire's eyes fix back on her straw knot. "Probably a lot of exposition blocks for establishing some of this, I guess. Anyways, she makes bad some bad choices and has ill-advised sex with an ex, and in her drunken state falls back into old habits of contraception–"

"Oh no," Enjolras says. "Are you worried that's kind of cliche?"

That shocks a laugh out of Grantaire. "You know, I wasn't before, but now I am."

"Sorry," said with a wince. "That wasn't what you were asking for help with."

"It wasn't, but it's making me think that I can guess what you're going to say about the main question."

"'Does she keep it?'" Enjolras predicts.

A slow nod.

"Well yeah, I guess that is kind of cliche. But it also makes it," he searches for a word. "Relatable? Relevant?"

"Sure," Grantaire says.

Enjolras doesn't know if he's the right person for this conversation. He isn't creative in the same ways that his friends are, capable of spinning strange and endless yarns that follow some rules of narrative that he's learned but that don't come to him naturally. Jehan would probably give Grantaire better advice. "I'm too pragmatic for this kind of thing," he warns.

"Humour me," she says.

"Okay," he says, as he's been saying more and more to her lately. "I guess the first thing is that I need more information. What's her relationship with her ex like? Are they in the picture?"

"Not remotely."

"Is she going to tell them?"

"Oh," Grantaire says. "Right, I didn't say. It was one of those things where she was the other woman, and he has a whole family—wife, kids, whatever. She tells him, and he wants nothing to do with it."

"Asshole," Enjolras mutters, and Grantaire laughs.

She drags her thumbnail over a crease in her little straw knot, flattening it completely. The paper looks like it should be falling apart in her rough hands, but she's moving very carefully. "She knew what she was getting into."

A brick of ice drops into Enjolras.

Grantaire looks up and immediately away.

"Grantaire," he says. Glacier water in his guts.

She bites another grin at him. "Cliche, huh?"

"Oh my god," he whispers. Nobody's ever confided this kind of thing to him before. Grantaire's never confided anything to him before. He feels vaguely divorced from his body.

Who– there had been that old professor of hers, he thinks blankly. They'd had a thing after she'd graduated, and Enjolras had been horrified but she'd said that he should loosen up, and it wouldn't seem so creepy to him when he was as old and wise as her.

She'd stopped talking about him years ago. She'd had an exhibition last month. The pads of her fingers look white through the glass she's holding.

He frowns. "Is that…"

Grantaire follows his gaze to her empty glass. He hadn't realised how open her face had been until it slams shut.

It doesn't close in time to fully catch the hurt.

"Empty? Yeah," she says. "I should get a refill."

His brain catches up, too late. "That was misogynistic," he tells Grantaire's departing back. "I–"

She's already halfway to the bar, Eponine already falling into step beside her. She must've been waiting for them to finish talking.

"Fuck," Enjolras whispers. Cloying shame slows his thoughts.

Eponine's eyes burn into him. Her hand grabs at Grantaire's sleeve.

Knowing society works to indoctrinate people into stupid, sexist beliefs is one thing, but that first thought… Grantaire's her own fucking person who can made her own fucking choices.

(Something inside him whispers that Grantaire isn't known for moderation. He wouldn't trust her with a child, would he?) 

Eponine is gesturing at the bartender, getting a second one of whatever Grantaire's having.

He doesn't even know if she's keeping it. He doesn't even know how many people she's told. He doesn't know anything.

He shakes his head and finally gets his legs to answer him, carrying him through the doorway and between tables and up to Eponine—

Something splashes onto his face, an instinctive flinch too late to shield him from the fizzy liquid. He only succeeds in getting it on his sleeve too. An ice cube drips down his curls into the collar of his shirt. A gasp, a shock of cold.

Combeferre, Joly, and Musichetta were still at their table on the other side of the restaurant, but one of them must've noticed, because they're getting up and coming over.

Grantaire's at the bar. Her mouth is tight.

"This is her shit," Eponine advises in a whisper. "Don't make me lose any more respect for you."

"I didn't mean— I wasn't thinking," he says.

"Start now."

She turns on her heel and ushers Grantaire upstairs and out of sight. Combeferre's asking Enjolras what happened while Joly gets a bundle of bar napkins and starts cleaning up the floor. Enjolras accepts a couple and starts swabbing his face clean of (and he can't help noticing, he's not trying to know that it's) soda water.

"I said something stupid," Enjolras eventually manages. "Don't worry about it."

[crimson-chaser]

You guys ain't ready for the Spiderverse! Shawn AU I have...

SO IMA TELL YOU 'BOUT IT 🙈

Okay so this all started because I had seen some of the fanart of the newer cast as spiderman/spidermen(idk what the plural term would be) and since I am obsessed with Shawn I started thinking of a Spider version of him. An then the ideas started 😈.

Shawn's Universe

Shawn's universe is infested an crowded with thee Un-dead species. That's where His phobia come's in, When he is traveling other universe or needed somewhere other then his normal world he's always turning his head an constantly Checking the surrounding areas incase of a surprise Zombie attack that could come out of nowhere.

When suggested to go to Shawn's universe he tries to re-direct them somewhere else an explain how "zombies will eat their brains out". That's why everyone in the spider community thinks he's crazy, He usually just give's up an let's them see the true hell that he has to deal with.

After that they never ask again...

Canon Event

(tw for blood an death)

He had heard of 'canon events' happening but he never really could believe that anything WORSE could happen to him when he was basically walking through a living hell-zone every time he had to step out of his underground bunker.

but it got MUCH worse.

After sometime of being an getting used to the fact that he was now spiderman. That meant he would be off doing whatever he was assigned to do way more often, One day of his life, that's all it took,

one day to mess shit up.

He was sent off to fight in a different universe because some of the others were too hurt to continue the fight against the overly powered villains. Though he couldn't help but feel like something was off, an not like his usual paranoia, it was like a tingling feeling in his mind that would not let go of, and he's good at letting go of things, because "you can't trust anyone or anything in the zombie apocalypse".

Once he had got all healed an bandaged, he sped back into his own familiar world with the tingling feeling still there, It had gotten more intense each moment he wasn't speeding back to his home.

When he'd gotten back to the bunker he found blood on the doorway of the place, he thought it was weird but just pushed it off saying it was probably some 'brain dead zombies' trying to break in.

he called out to his family expecting his usual responses back, the "hey honey" from his mother or the nonchalant "Wazzup" from his sister, he started panicking thinking of the worst. An sadly it was true

he had walked through thee entire bunker over three times in a panic wondering where his family could be. he reached back into the main living space to finally discover a yellow post-it note sticking on the kitchen table with rushed messy but readable hand-writing

"Hey bro just wanted to tell you that a hoard came after us an we had to scram, mom an dad did not make it, an I'm taking the rest somewhere safe, I am not sure if ill see you again so this is my final goodbye, bye lil bro, love you <3

-Val"

this is it.

this is thee event he was expecting.

he knew if hoards were capable of breaking in the bunker he couldn't stay there, so he knew what he had to do.

he grabbed everything he needed an shoved it in a strapped bag an headed out the door to find his uncle's bunker.

when he got to his other relatives bunker he started to think of why She didn't just bring the kids there.

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OMG IM ACTUALLY IN LOVE WITH THIS AU NOT GONNA LIE, SHOULD I MAKE A PART TWO CAUSE I HAVE SO MANY MORE IDEAS!!!

I ALSO HAVE HEAD CANONS ABOUT THIS LIKE AHHHH

[twig-gy]

so i already know it’s going to be like. a collection of scenes. but

1) longterm. how will we make scenes interesting every time? how will we make the relationship develop and make that clear? i can’t just have ‘argument-slightly okay interaction-argument’ the whole (pun) time i need to think it through a little.

okay so aside here: once as one of my extremely few longfics i was writing fic called ‘love-hate’ which is basically soulmate au where you can’t think ill of your soulmate/not for long at least so it would be bkdk developing into an extremely toxic relationship. and i REALIZED. i wasn’t actually developing the relationship meaningfully! i was just making deku angst scenes! which like okay, cool, but That Was Not The Point. so i find it cool that these projects are basically ‘a collection of scenes showing how whatever relationship develops without focus on A Plot or anything’. and i need to learn from that and make my scenes more directed which will be hard because I Hate Outlining. No. but sometimes i do need to think it through!! which is what i’m doing rn!!

2) shortterm WHAT SCENE IS COMING NEXT. HELP. AAA. ooo wait i could break up the mind-heart interaction with mind asking help for once….. however i feel mind would only Ask For Help at some sort of breaking point. that has to be a climactic moment i think……..

okay so what To Do Then. well obviously he attempts to put his new thesis of ‘don’t bully heart every millisecond of the day’ in practice. but in what way does he do that, also make that interesting perhaps????? hmmm maybe like he tries to help heart out of depression instead of diss track

also Side Note. pretty sure this is ooc. like in Just Apathy he’s trying to help heart? but no actually, rembering just apathy i don’t think that was really true??? aughhh i’m remembering why i hate writing because CHARACTERIZATION. i’m so scared and afraid i cannot write the thing in a way which is canon* so.

anyway let’s try to get back to point 2. shortterm. because i need to write something. well should i actually try to outline scenes???? i Really do not want to. outlining = distasteful (such a mind word btw).

so i don’t have to post this so i’ll just have a few basic ideas of what could transpire

mind realizes maybe bullying bad idea, instead try to coax heart -> possibly go back to old patterns/instinctively argue/forgor his thesis

i mean like. what will i get out of This Scene In Specific. that’s probably an important question. like how is this scene going to help the “”plot””?

i don’t want to think about this ughh why do I have to ask Myself these questions. ug i guess i’ll just find out for myself /reference

an easy idea is just. he realizes this Is Not Going To Be Ez GG. so there’s that. is that enough for a scene? hm

or just have him like. boiling with repressed anger the entire time as he tries to Interact Normally. just the whole time he’s like ‘okay he’s fine. i’m fine. i shouldn’t insult him. i need to remain calm and cordial. okay. this is fine’. that would be a teeheemaxxing idea

i think we’ve reached the Main Question, the longterm question again, ‘how will we make scenes interesting every time? how will we make the relationship develop and make that clear?’ because i need to figure that out if we’re to find that golden hue /reference Okay unnecessary reference aside. we need to figure that out if we are going to figure out the scene’s purpose. so we need to somehow show a sense of growth through the whole (pun) fic

okay but How. could you please imagine a big whiteboard right now. and the only thing on it is the word ‘HOW?’ circled thrice in very big handwriting. jeez guys this is a lil tricky….. a lil difficult, an unreal question if you will, hard to figure out, catastrophically challenging (2 at the same time!), not a medium amount of hard, horrific and nowhere near easy… i’m going insane it’s just so terrifying, even tho i know that’s an extreme reaction, i can’t help it being intense bc this question is just so remorseless and i hope i don’t have to cut my hopes down to nil….

so if you didn’t get that completely unnecessary reference those were jtoh difficulty names bc jtoh difficulties are easy (a bit harder than mega fun obby), medium (ooo wraps?? whar??), hard (okay getting a bit tricky now..), difficult (this is where it starts to get real with all the jumps), challenging (actually becoming spooky now), intense (big jump from challenging), remorseless (gameplay becomes even tighter, ridiculous wraps), and then sc difficulties which are insane, extreme, terrifying, and catastrophic, then we have the difficulties so hard they aren’t canon: horrific, unreal, nil

diatribe aside i need to get answer. i kinda just wanna Write And Then Figure It Out but it’s not like answers will miraculously appear to me that way???

hm. so i was planning to have them have lots of difficulties (pun) with this, setbacks, and i was trying to think of a way to justify that… but maybe i don’t have to give each and every one a purpose, besides showing … well that it’s hard! and that they’ve been arguing for so long it’s hard to figure out how not to. and that even when you’re trying your best, you can still lapse into old, destructive patterns, but that doesn’t mean you’ve failed, nor that your progress has gone away. there’s still hope, there always is. you’re trying, and that’s all you need at the end of the day

and this is fanfic, which like. i don’t have to give every scene a reason? that sounds bad but well. i don’t have to be so serious about it?

what i’ve learned from this diatribe: writing is hard and i am confused

if you read it all and are interested in what i’m writing PLEASE SAY SOMETHING I LOVE PEER VALIDATION‼️‼️‼️‼️ also go to my ao3 if you dare………….

[herearedragons]

more details? GLADLY

also I don't think I've ever been a Retrofuturism Person but there sure is cool art out there with that aesthetic and something about pairing it up with trains (I do NOT know if there are actually trains in Escape Train) scratches my brain tbh.

but yes, details

It's All About Cyborgs, Baby

human body augmentation is very common and has kind of become the norm. the two main "flavors" are prosthetic augmentation, which is replacing body parts with tech, and chips, which is when you just hook up a processor to your brain and install stuff in it. there are psi-chips, which allow you to Be Psionic. this requires hooking up a little thing called a psi-unit to your processor, which then generates the magic I mean psionic field. which is then cast I mean directed using little transmitters that are attached to your bones. psi-chips are available in several power levels and you need to get a separate license for each one

I have done zero medical/tech research on this btw, the science is 👍wildly innacurate👍 because we're going for Vibe and Aesthetic and Metaphor over literally anything else

anyway back to augmentation lore. new prosthetics are always Freaking Expensive. you can get secondhand ones from the Prosthetics Bank which is a thing that exists, but their quality control is sub-optimal. people still go for it

there's a pressure in many occupations, especially those associated with Non High Class people and combat/manual labor, to get augmented. quotas and demands are cranked up way too high for a non-augmented person to be physically able to meet them, and if you want to keep your job you have to keep up. and you can go to the prosthetics bank and risk getting a faulty secondhand or take a loan (in many cases, from your employer) to get a shiny new one. aaaaand then The Employers basically own the workers who fall for this.

the actual plot is about a disgraced augment tech (guy whose job is to install/maintain people's augmentations) running into a guy who, after suffering a big accident, had to get a bunch of prosthetics. most of them secondhand. and his secondhand prosthetics seem to be. Haunted. by the previous owner. and also there's some very valuable data hidden in there somewhere so now multiple people are out to get New Cyborg Guy and disassemble him so they can extract/destroy The Data. augment tech guy decides to help him. they kiss eventually

people with augments are sometimes susceptible to "dissociation syndrome" which is when their brain suddenly stops perceiving their augments as a part of their body and if it's like. an artificial heart or lung. it can be lethal. this will be a plot point eventually

there are evil computer gods (who were people once and then discovered a way to Abandon The Flesh and Become Computer) controlling a network of people who think they're fighting for justice against the Augment Corporations but are actually being manipulated by said entities for their own gains. the entities probably have a hand in the Augment Corporations also

there's another computer god who tricked the other computer gods into sealing themselves away and severely limiting their reach. he's pretending to be a normal human by remote-controlling a mildly augmented organic clone body

The Data is the key to releasing the computer gods and potentially making more of them, which is why the computer gods, the clone-remote-controlling computer god and this other guy that also wants to become a computer god (and the guy who works for him and secretly wants The Data to save his son who is dying from a terminal illness) are all chasing after it

it's a Dragon Age AU

WIP fact! There's a cyberpunk AU fanfic thing that currently lives in my brain. I might write it down one day and I kind of love the handwavey sci-fi worldbuilding I came up with for it

okkkk i love sci fi do u wanna share any more details orrrr 👀

my fave thing to do for sci-fi worldbuilding is retrofuturism! escape train for example is 1980s retrofuturism :)

what's funny is I started writing nDOT (my AI dystopia novel) in 2016 as just a typical utopia-thats-secretly-a-dystopia type society, but that world imo has slid into retrofuturism since. I realized when I picked it back up that it's a bit a time capsule of the early 2010s "utopia" vision, so now I'm leaning into that and writing it as retrofuturism on purpose!

[theveryworstthing]

So over on patreon Trevor asked for my take on the Addams Family and I grew up LOVING the Addams family movies so here we are. Instead of doing a straight up style interpretation, I decided to do a full on design challenge, using the characters as bases to make a black southern gothic Addams au. I actually drew the kids first, using the character bases of Wednesday and Pugsley to create some delightful kiddos I'm calling Sunday and Blanche. I of course then redesigned Gomez and Morticia into Carlisle and Mortesha.

The Addams have a very specific high aristocratic goth aesthetic (they've got a butler and nobody really works among other things) so in this re-imagining I wanted to go with vibes that run a little more middle class/upper middle class.  I thought it would be interesting to think about what would be considered weird and off-putting in an entirely different culture, and how being a big ol' goth is way less controversial than it used to be.

I tried to keep this short (HAHAHAHAHAHA) so I didn't spin off into an essay about villain coded families, black people in the horror genre, and normalcy as it pertains to social survival, but just...bits of that are in these designs and lore. Keep that in mind.

Also I made the kids twins because they've flip flopped in age so much in different media and also twins run in my family (i'm the daughter of one). And let's face it, I'm pulling a lot of their southern gothic traits from living as a southern goth so *shrug*.

10 thousand pounds of lore incoming loooooooooool.

The Parents

From the moment he saw her he knew that there was a 50/50 chance of him either never making it out of that swamp alive or marrying the figure that was creeping out from under the distant willow tree in a black cocktail dress. The third time she found him trussed up in one of her traps, he complimented her rope work and asked if she'd like to go out sometime after his head wound stopped bleeding.

Or while it was still bleeding.

If she was into that.

Some kids and a mysteriously burnt down Piggly Wiggly later, their love is still as strong and inescapable as a bear trap in a sink hole.

Carlisle Guillermo (now Addams through marriage but I wanted to give him two first names for a name since Gomez has two last names) makes a vaguely described living practicing ‘law’ around town. A loophole king, people come to him from miles around with contracts signed in blood, fights over chunks of hair buried in their rivals’ yard, dehydrated primate hands, memories that seemed like dreams until the evidence of their happenings became too real, and other regular Legal Items asking for counsel which he is all too happy to give. For a price. Sometimes that price is a homemade pie and sometimes it’s a million dollars, depends on who you are. Whatever you’re asked to pay it’s worth that price, and if you try to scam him out of work or he just plain doesn’t like you? Well. He knows how to twist a contract better than anything at the crossroads.

And he always gets his due.

He doesn’t just serve the local (living)humans though, there are many things that need proper legal representation in this day and age. You wouldn’t believe how many city councils try to build on sacred burial grounds even after he lets them know that his ghostly clients are totally gonna haunt the FUCK out of the ensuing shitty condos and curse their families for all eternity. At least 50% of his energy goes towards dealing with real estate bullshit.

Carl is an excitable and good natured(?) man who loves his family, cigars, dancing, and his many knife-based hobbies. People find him very charming once they get past the feeling that they’re talking to a sultry gator badly disguising itself as a human. I didn’t put a ton of deep thought into designing him, mostly I wanted to make a middle aged dude who looked like he would have been voted ‘most likely to smooch the literal devil’ in high school. Tbh he probably has, but no demonic ex’s can compare to his lovely wife~

Mortesha Addams(her name was already perfect so I just tweaked it)is a woman of many talents. A self proclaimed homemaker, she prides herself on a greenhouse full of Concerning Foliage, a beautiful wasp apiary, and a coop full of what are probably chickens that she keeps for what are probably eggs. She’s also an avid creator of the outsider art that can be seen around the estate. She has taken on the family business of selling her homemade goods in a little stall by the road just outside the swamp with her mom, and makes pretty good money doing so. A surprising amount of poison gets bought in quaint southern towns.

Speaking of poison, people who come out to the edge of the swamp to buy it are usually carrying a lot of secrets around, and Mortesha knows most of them. It’s not like she pries the truth out of people, it just so happens that many nervous hellos eventually turn into the tragic backstory power hour if she’s alone with a client for long enough. She supposes that’s just how people are. Despite the fact that the Addams are very active in the community (whether the community likes it or not) she especially, as a direct descendant of the first Addams matriarch, is seen as…Well not an outsider because the community feels A Certain Way about outsiders and despite it all the Addams are their people, but maybe something like an exception. They feel like whatever weirdness they’re hiding can’t be weirder than any given Addams, so they get a little loose with their words.

This is amusing to her, since Addams’ don’t naturally keep the kind dramatic secrets that their surface level prim and proper neighbors do. It’s much more fun to openly talk about those things.

Do they have a sadly decrepit yet terrifying grandma up in the attic? Yeah, like three. They got a tv, all the creepy porcelain dolls they could want, and they’re close to family. Where do you keep your gram-grams?

Any bodies buried on the property? Yeah some, but most are thrown to the gators.

Any creeping through the balmy summer night with ill intentions? Yeah dude, everyone loves a nice family stroll.

What about dangerous forbidden love? If an adult Addams isn’t incorporeal then they’re either queer or in a torrid romance with some person/thing mysteriously drawn to that awful swamp. Sometimes both at the same time. Most times actually.

Mortesha would know.

The current head of the Addams family is just as outgoing as her husband but a lot quieter and harder to read. She never really seems to get mad about much and always has a genteel smile for everyone whether they deserve it or not. A seven foot tall human shaped “Oh, bless your heart”. A perfectly composed Lady even when she’s, oh I dunno, burning down a Piggly Wiggly. You know. A regular southern mom. Chat her up at the hair salon for 50% off a jar of wasp honey with your next purchase of a mysterious but foreboding packet of herbs.

Designing her was pretty easy because I just drew a lankier Grace Jones and called it a day. I had some problems with her outfit simply because if we were going HARD southern gothic then she’d probably be wearing a white/cream dress with a fuller skirt but I thought keeping the silhouette and the black was more important. She’s supposed to be an anti southern gothic southern gothic character anyway. A woman who looks like she has a million secrets who is actually the most open person you could meet. For better or worse. The red hair came from a coloring error that I really ended up liking (my mom had red hair her whole childhood that only darkened up in high school so I can buy that an Addams can be naturally fire engine red) and the veil was to get more of that classic Morticia silhouette in there.

The Children

Sunday and Blanche are the twin children of Carlisle and Mortesha Addams. Some say the Addams clan got their cursed homestead when a wealthy local businessman made a deal with the devil and lost, leaving his grand mansion to his least favorite maid and cutting his losses once he realized that the swamp would do everything it could to drag the house into the water and take what was owed with its horrible curse. Others say that the family has just always squatted there and no one really cares because man, fuck that particular swamp. Have you been in there? Absolute horror show.

Anyway.

Blanche is the more outgoing sibling and quite the engineer/mad scientist in the making. He started going grey at 2 weeks old but considering he was also rocking some extra fingers, toes, and a tiny tail (he takes after his dad), his parents just put it on the 'not life threatening' pile and decided not to worry about it. He's the kind of smart that teachers find utterly infuriating, less a dog eagerly learning and obeying commands and more a hyena who keeps teaching itself how to pick locks. He has a few friends in his school's robotics club (which they honestly allowed him to make so the school could contain his... creations) but mostly hangs out with his sister exploring the swamp. They find all sorts of neat things in there! wedding rings, suspiciously lumpy garbage bags, cloaked cultists who can't read private property signs, it's an adventure every day!

Blanche is all about experimentation with his creations, his look, and his tether to this mortal coil. Is lipstick a cool thing to try? Let's find out. Can he get out of a strait jacket fast enough after being pushed into the depths of the swamp by his sister? let's find out. He's not dead yet and confused local doctors can attest to the fact that he's rarely attained more than a bad bruise so he's pretty set on continuing to kiss rattlesnakes on their cute little heads and have his sister practice her knife throwing at him until that fact changes.

Blanche is very much a country goth. Cowboy boots (customized by his mom), knife, and lighter are daily accessories. He likes to wear the crusty swamp jewelry they find (the rust adds a splash of color!) and despite appearances he does try to keep himself neat. He's just got  natural Grunge Colors and a tendency to wear clothes he likes until they fall apart. Pugsley always seemed the most modernly styled to me (which might just be because little boys clothes have been the same for a long time) so I wanted Blanche to be the most purposely fashionable Addams. Everyone else is goth by nature, but he's the only one truly familiar with goth as an alternative fashion.

I got really into designing Blanche because honestly, I find Pugsley to be the most boring member of the family. And he was hard to design! I had to mess with his vibe a lot to get him looking how I wanted. I know he's supposed to evoke an " 'evil' little boy next door who's parents never reign him in", but that's just goth Dennis The Menace.  I's 2020. We can at least go queer goth Calvin.

Sunday was much easier to design. Wednesday was my favorite as a child (of course) and I really wanted to keep the spirit of her look while adding things like billowy sleeves (it gets HOT down here), big poofy twists instead of braids, and a nice tie. She's a professional after all, been running the local pet cemetery since she was 6 and the previous groundskeeper met with an unfortunate accident after telling her that tarantulas don't have souls. Her specialty is creating beautiful naturalistic animal funerals similar to those that Maquenda (https://linktr.ee/artofmaquenda) makes, and she takes pride in creating miniature dioramas of her subjects after each burial which she uses as a kind of 3D catalog for future clients.

She really wants to try out her skills on humans one day. Well. Publicly try out her skills. Lotta random bodies float into the swamp. None of them have turned down her requests for diorama models so far. Most seem downright flattered. Plus, she usually figures out which graveyard/crime scene they floated over from and gets her parents to give them a lift back. She'll even help enact terrifying revenge from beyond the grave on whoever put them there if she's not, y'know, busy.

Besides arts, crafts, and pet based funerary arrangements, Sunday is an avid lover of archery (any ranged weapon really), books where little fantasy adventure animals die dramatic deaths, and history. She is That Kid who eagerly raises her hand when asked who Christopher Columbus was and ends up being sent out of class after 15 minutes for making 'a scene'. Her favorite party trick is just picking an item in the room and talking about how it relates to either some obscure historical figure with a buck wild life or a horrible disaster. At least one charity pancake breakfast ended with children in tears after her vivid description of the Great Molasses Flood of 1919.

Social-wise, while Wednesday is the girl that people ask to smile because they think she'd, "look so pretty", Sunday is rarely asked anything at all. People just kind of assume from her quiet nature (in between horrible history facts) that she's angry all the time and that she hates everyone. This is untrue. She hates some people but she's ambivalent to most everyone else and even downright friendly if you bother to talk to her like a person instead of a terrifying cryptid. Like, she IS a terrifying cryptid but she's also a little girl.  

That’s about it for now. One day I might do the other family members but for now I’m happy with the four I’ve redesigned. Making an au! Lurch in a family that doesn’t do butlers could be interesting. Over on patreon I put forth that he could just be Motesha’s mute little brother (similar bone structure) but Amy Crook had the nice idea of quote: “ a mysterious "cousin" that "helps around the house" whose origins are both long in the past and faintly unsettling. He's good for lifting heavy things, like that tank of propane you're about to throw into the burning Piggly Wiggly... “ which i now consider canon. Who's kid is he? How old is he? Not important. Anyone willing to commit arson with you is family.

Annnnyway.  This challenge was a lot of fun! I love indulging in AU’s.

[asimpforarmin]

Cuddling & Sleeping Headcanons with the AoT Characters 💛

Character(s): Eren, Armin, Mikasa, Bertholdt, Jean, Connie, & Sasha

Genre: Fluff, light-hearted.

Warnings: None

A/n: Did not mean for Bertholdt’s to be that long but oh well. It’s clear some of these are much longer than others, but I’m trying to get better at writing for a lot of people. A Modern AU is mentioned in Mikasa’s paragraph. Pretend this was posted Tuesday. I had a post I was going to edit so it said it was on Tuesday, but I already did all the tags here and because characters have multiple names I can’t be bothered.

💛 Eren:

Loves getting behind you and spooning you, arms around your waist and legs under your thighs. He’s good at it too, he’s very comfortable to snuggle with. You feel so special and lucky that you’ve got him this close to you.

Either that or him on his stomach with you halfway on his back.

He really can’t sleep and cuddle at the same time, so there’s going to have to be a point where he has to turn away from you.

He’s down to keep holding hands or something simple like that though if you still want to be touching him.

The blanket usually falls off him when he’s sleeping, meaning you usually have to drape it back over him before you fall asleep.

He’s one of those people who hangs his limbs off the side of the bed.

He also snores, not too loud, but it can get annoying sometimes.

Eren loves to rest a hand on your thigh or on your stomach while spooning you, nuzzling into the back of your neck.

He’s up for trying different positions, but only when he’s not tired. When he is tired, he just wants to hold you and go to bed as soon as he can.

💛 Armin:

Loves to lay on your chest or shoulder. He gets to look up at you and can talk to you as he falls asleep. Sure, your arm might go dead sometimes, but it’s worth it to see him lying on you, talking about his day and looking up at you admirably.

He likes to intertwine his legs with yours in this position, laying his head on you and sometimes holding one of your hands.

Oh, and if you use your other hand to rub his back or play with his hair, this boy will be in heaven.

He can fall asleep cuddling easily, he rarely has to roll away from you to sleep.

That being said, if you need to roll away, he’s fine with it, but he will try to see if he can cling onto you somehow. If you sleep on your side, he’ll wrap his arm around your waist and bury his face into your back. If you sleep on your stomach/back, he’ll get on your side and link arms with you or hold your hand.

He also like to be little spoon a lot. Especially if he’s had a bad day, all he wants to do is be held by you.

He will be big spoon sometimes but only if you ask him or if he’s clinging onto you after you’ve turned around.

If you still can’t sleep when he’s doing that, he’ll just turn around and snuggle up to one of his pillows. Not in a sad way, but he just likes to clutch onto something.

Speaking of pillows, he sleeps with like three just on his side.

He will also steal your blanket from you. He doesn’t do it on purpose of course, but you’ll wake up cold in the middle of the night and have to discreetly try to get some of your blanket back.

You’ll end up with 1/4 of it back at most, unless you want to wake Armin up, so be prepared with another blanket somewhere you can grab.

💛 Mikasa:

Any position that lets her see your face is the best. She loves to just lay in front of you as you go on about what happened that day.

Just imagine coming home after a long day and collapsing on the bed alongside Mikasa, facing each other on your sides as she brushes a stray hair out of your face.

As you get more tired, she’ll get closer to you and take you in her arms, chin on your head.

Or if you’re on the couch together, she’ll lay down and pull you onto her stomach, tangling her legs with yours. One hand will be on your head playing with your hair and the other will be getting popcorn or reaching for a remote.

She’ll glance down at you, before sitting up a little and gripping your chin with her finger and kissing you, then lay back down.

Whatever position is comfortable for you is the one she’ll cuddle you in. She’ll manage to fall asleep in whatever pose you want her to be in.

She’s good at not taking the blanket away, but if you do she will take her side back. Most of the time, she’ll be able to get it back without waking you up, but if she does, she’ll apologize and plant a kiss on your head, then resume cuddling.

She doesn’t toss or turn or snore much at all, she sleeps like a rock.

She secretly loves it when you play with her hair. Just rake your fingers through it or massage her scalp and she’ll nuzzle into your neck trying to hide a small smile.

Wrapping your legs around her is another thing she likes. You probably won’t be able to fall asleep like this, but just sitting in her lap, legs and arms wrapped around her as she rocks you side to side is bliss.

If she wakes up before you, she’ll try her best to stay still and let you wake up on your own, sometimes falling back asleep.

💛 Bertholdt:

So we all know Bert has some crazy weird sleeping positions, but that doesn’t stop him from cuddling you. Because of this, he will have to turn around at some point, but will still cuddle you until he’s tired enough to go to sleep.

He likes to be little spoon, but because of his height that can be hard, so any position where he can be the one cuddled is great for him.

He’s fine with being big spoon as long as he gets to hold your hand while doing it.

After he inevitably turns around, if you can somehow find a way to cling onto him, he’ll let you, but that’s almost impossible most nights.

He’s one of those people who sleeps with his leg up and crossed over the other, and can also get a stack of pillows under his head to prop it up at a 90˚ angle but still be comfortable.

A position he’d like is to just have you on his chest. He’ll kiss your forehead and play with your hair. After he does, kiss his cheek, it will make him blush like no tomorrow.

He loves it when you wrap your arms around his shoulders, then he wraps his around your waist. It’s a loving position that makes it easy to look into each other’s eyes.

He also likes to sleep in opposite directions but have your backs touching. Even if it’s not super close or face to face, it’s comfortable and still feels really nice.

Don’t be surprised if you get accidentally pushed to the side or off the bed. If you’re on the edge, it’ll be hard to get back, but he’s alright with being woken up if you need more room.

If he pushes you off the bed, he’ll probably know straight away from the loud thwump that comes from the other side. He’ll bolt up and apologize profusely and help you back up. Then, he’ll bring you close and kiss you all over. It’s not a big drop, but he’ll still act like he dropped you off a cliff. You’ll have to assure him you’re alright, but no matter what you do, he will be glued to one side of the bed the rest of the night. You only fall off on rare occasions though, so that’s good.

The only downside to sleeping with Bertholdt is that your presence makes it harder to predict the weather. ok ill stop with the jokes im sorry

💛 Jean:

LOVES face to face stuff. He’ll hug you close and tight, giving you lots of forehead kisses and just cherishing you.

He’ll hold you like there’s no tomorrow, just feeling so lucky to have you. He’ll never tell you any of this, but he’s so happy he got someone like you.

All night, he’ll make sure you have the blanket wrapped around you and that you’re comfortable.

He also likes to spoon you, rubbing your upper arm or back. He really likes to be little spoon too. Unless you begged him for like a week, he would never be little spoon. But once he tried it, oh lord he loved it.

He doesn’t let you spoon him too much because, y’know, ego, but when you do he loves when you wrap your arms around his waist and intertwine your legs with his.

He’d snore a lot, but it wouldn’t be too loud. It’s usually just a low rumble and you don’t hear it that much.

If you’re in a position to, put your hand on his chest, he adores it.

💛 Connie:

Be careful of his legs because he will kick you sometimes. Not purposefully of course, but he is a deadly weapon when he sleeps.

Which is why he normally sleeps in the opposite direction of you.

He adores being little spoon, plus his height makes it easy to do.

He will have no shame in being the little spoon, unless someone finds out he is and gives him crap for it. Then he’ll yell at them, getting all defensive and flustered. After that he’ll assume the little spoon position defiantly.

If you’re facing each other, putting your legs together is a must, just hope he doesn’t kick you in the shins.

If he does, he’ll apologize and laugh at what he did, before flipping over to make sure he doesn’t kick you again.

💛 Sasha:

She will steal the blanket from you 24/7. No doubt about it. Even if you manage to get it back, she will do it again.

She loves getting cuddly with you. She will be big spoon, little spoon, lay on you, whatever makes both of you comfortable.

She does snore on the louder side though, which annoys the crap out of anyone else in the room, whether that be just you or if she’s in the barracks.

She loves it when you sit up and hold each other, rocking left and right, she will melt in your arms.

She’ll love to cuddle and talk about her day with you. She’ll come up with a lot of different topics and it will never get boring.

There will be crumbs in your bed, that is the price of dating Sasha. She’ll try to clean them out sometimes, but there will always be that one that ruins your sleep.

She loves it if she’s laying on her back and she’s holding your shoulders as you lay on her chest. In that position you can hear her heartbeat and she can kiss your head.

[therenlover]

Therenlover’s Official Fanfic Glossary!

Hey hey hey! This is the place where you can find all my up-to-date fanfics linked nicely, read about what projects I have upcoming, and learn what requests I’m taking at the moment! Cheers!

This post is massive so, for the sake of your dash, everything is under the cut

A NOTE ABOUT REQUESTS!

I will do my best to fulfill any requests I get while my ask box/requests are open! That being said, I cannot promise every request will get done, and that if they do, they’ll be done in a timely manner. I’m currently working on a long-form project that needs a lot of time and energy to come out consistently, so unless I’m doing a writing event most of my writing juice will be focused on that. That being said, if you want something ask! The worst I can possibly do is direct you towards someone else who might be able to write what you want if I cant.

If I choose not to do your request based on personal preference (it makes me uncomfy/I don’t write for the character at that time/I don’t feel I can write what you want/etc.) I will do my best to contact you and let you know! That being said, if you think your ask got buried/forgotten, feel free to message me again and let me know, but please tell me when you message me if I should be looking for a prior request.

Characters/Fandoms I will write for currently

 💙 = I’m Currently Super Inspired To Write For This Character

Marvel/X-Men

Bucky Barnes

Loki

Peter Maximoff 💙

Pietro Maximoff

Helmut Zemo 💙

Hank McCoy

Ralph Bohner 💙

Vision

American Horror Story

Tate Langdon

Kit Walker 💙

Kyle Spencer (Pre- and Post- Death)

Jimmy Darling 💙

James Patrick March 💙

Kai Anderson

Fallout 4

Nick Valentine

Hancock

Star Wars

Poe Dameron

Armitage Hux 💙

Kylo Ren/Ben Solo

Finn

Han Solo

Assorted/Random

Diarmuid Ua Duibhne - FGO

Cu Chulainn/Cu Alter - FGO

Warren Lipka - American Animals 💙

Enjolras - Les Miserables

Grantaire - Les Miserables

Gabriel - Supernatural

Imagines - REQUESTS CLOSED

Songs From Musicals Y/N Would Sing To The Evans

Characters: Tate Langdon, Kit Walker, Kyle Spencer, Jimmy Darling, James Patrick March, Kai Anderson, Peter Maximoff

Rating: T

How The Evans (+ Quicksilver) Would React To Yoplait’s New Gushers Yogurt

Characters: Tate Langdon, Kit Walker, Kyle Spencer, Jimmy Darling, James Patrick March, Rory Monahan, Kai Anderson, Peter Maximoff

Rating: T

Would The Danny Bunch Survive A Holiday With My Family?

Characters: Laszlo Kreizler, Alex Kerner, Niki Lauda, Andrea Marowski, Ernst Schmidt, Helmut Zemo

Rating: T

Headcanons - REQUESTS CLOSED

Modern! AU Armitage Hux Boyfriend Headcanons

Zemo With A Well Dress S/O Headcanons

Zemo Getting Jealous Headcanons

Oneshots - REQUESTS CLOSED

Marvel/X-Men

Helmut Zemo

One Last Night In Madripoor

Synopsis: Baron Helmut Zemo is a lonely, wanted man looking for some fun, you’re a piss-poor bounty hunter in search of a connection before leaving your life of crime behind, and fate has brought you together at a party the likes of which has never been seen before. You only have one night left in Madripoor, so why not take a chance?

Rating: 18+

Word Count: 4200~

Still Some Catching Up To Do

Synopsis: As a member of the criminal underworld, people walk out of your life all the time. Some are killed, others kill themselves, most get caught and only a couple get out of the life unscathed, disappearing into the world never to be seen again. Very few walk back in. So when your supposedly incarcerated ex-lover, the Winter Soldier, and the Falcon waltzed through your door and made you murder your boss, needless to say, you were surprised and more than a little bit pissed.

Rating: 16+

Word Count: 6800~

Nine Years Starved

Synopsis: It had been a little over nine years since Helmut Zemo lost his family, his country, and his sanity. Nine years since his last kiss. Nine years since he felt like a human man. Finally, he was ready to start over again, but first, he had to pay his penance back where it all began; Novi Grad. That’s when, by the grace of the fates, he met you.

Rating: G

Word Count: 7000~

Daddy Dearest

Synopsis: Not everyone gets lucky enough to go from being a broke college student in New York to being the sugar baby to literal royalty, but not everyone is you. Most people would be worried about messing things up or losing him to someone else, but you knew he would never find another baby just like you. Besides, you knew exactly what to do to keep him wrapped around your little finger. He may have been the daddy, but you pulled the reins.

Rating: 18+

Word Count: 8000~

In Fleeting Touches & Airy Sighs

Part One   Part Two   Part Three   Part Four

Synopsis: As a wanted man, Helmut Zemo spends most of his time jumping from place to place in the hopes of avoiding a trip back to prison. Unfortunately, that means he can’t always be home in your arms. When he is, though, in the rare moments of calm, you’re reminded of just how worth it it’s been to wait, even if that wait was only shortened by the arrival of your enemies.

Rating: 18+

Word Count: 35,700~

Two Bodies In The Rain

Synopsis: It was raining the day you finally had to admit your feelings to Helmut. You hated to tell him the way you did, under the grey skies as your blood pooled below you, but at least you knew, in the end, he had seen the real you, even just once. That was enough.

Rating: T

Word Count: 5600~

Rest

Synopsis: Living life on the lam with your escaped super-villain lover means things rarely slow down enough for a real rest. When the exhaustion starts to take its toll on you, though, he knows exactly what to do to ease the pain. He may not be a good man, but he’s a good husband when it counts.

Rating: T

Word Count: 3200~

American Horror Story

Jimmy Darling

Red Nights In Jupiter

Synopsis: At the end of another long day, you fall into bed with Jimmy Darling. The men you served throughout the day don’t matter then, nor do the coins in the mason jar by the door, or the women scheduled to attend Jimmy’s next Tupperware party. No, in that quiet darkness it’s just you and the man you love, bone-tired and happy to be home. Who could ask for more?

Rating: 16+

Word Count: 3000~

James Patrick March

Heartsick

Synopsis: When you fall ill, James is given a forceful awakening about how he’s been neglecting your needs and what he must do to prevent harm from befalling you again.

Rating: 16+

Word Count: 3700~

In Sickness And In Health

Synopsis: Normally people don’t have their wedding and funeral on the same day, but you and James don’t quite have a normal relationship, do you? Besides, you wouldn’t wanna go any other way.

Rating: 18+

Word Count: 5500~

Fallout 4

Currently Empty

Star Wars

Currently Empty

Assorted/Random

Currently Empty

Long Form Works/Series

Young Artist!Zemo AU

Chapter One: The Boy With The Easel

Synopsis: About a month into your first semester at Novi Grad’s top university, you finally meet the strange young man that you’ve taken to calling “easel boy” in the back of a bookshop. From a distance, he always seemed cold and aloof. As you get to know him, though, you realize things aren’t always what they seem.

Rating: T

Word Count: 7000~

Till Forever Falls Apart (A Peter Maximoff/Reader Series)

Chapter One: Welcome Home

Synopsis: As if getting thrown through the multiverse, trapped in an attic (albeit a cool one), mind-controlled to manipulate his grieving sister, and subsequently dragged out of Westview “for his own safety” by the FBI wasn’t enough, Peter Maximoff has now been shipped off to New York to live with a glorified baby sitter like some tragic orphan in a comic book until they find a way to get him back home. Things are not always as they seem, though, and this change might just be for the better.

Rating: T

Word Count: 2400~

Chapter Two: The Doctor Is In

Synopsis: Peter’s first few days in his new home are mostly uneventful, so he decides it’s the perfect time to dust off his running goggles and steal some shit. The building with the massive circular stained glass window seems like a great place to start! People with buildings that lavish are usually rich and weak, so what could possibly go wrong?

Rating: T

Word Count: 2800~

Chapter Three: It’s Always Been You

Synopsis: After a month of adapting to his new universe, Peter Maximoff can confidently say that he likes his new life more than his old one. Sure, he misses home sometimes, but he’s been far too busy flirting with his new roommate to spend time crying over the things he’s lost. Everything is smooth sailing until a strange journal in his roommate’s study leaves him with more questions than he knows what to do with. Now he’s on a mission to discover who he’s really living with before she has the chance to turn against him.

Rating: T

Word Count: 8600~

Chapter Four: Before You Go

Synopsis: Peter, after days of contemplation, has realized that part of him loves Y/N no matter what she is or what she’s been through. Unfortunately, he can’t find her anywhere. When she finally returns home with the intention of leaving again, Peter realizes it’s his last chance to tell her how he really feels. Will he succeed, or will he fail to be fast enough once again?

Rating: T

Word Count: 4000~

Chapter Four And A Half: Gimme Swayze

Synopsis: Now that the issue of Y/N leaving is out of the way, and Peter has finally kissed her, he falls into the motions of learning how to love someone for the first time. It’s easier than he thought it would be.

Rating: T

Word Count; 2600~

Cakes For The Evans: A Blogging And Baking Adventure!

Kai Anderson’s Disaster Cake

Hey you! If you’ve made it this far down the list, thanks for supporting me as an author! I’ll be linking my AO3 here. I post everything there shortly before I post it here, and there are some older fics there you might enjoy along the way! It’s also easier to drop comments over there and I keep them open for non-members, so give me a shout if you liked what I wrote!

I love you all, you make me so happy, and without you support I would never be motivated to write! Cheers!

[the-smiling-doodler]

OK LET ME EXPLAIN MYSELF

let me start by saying that i'm a fan of any ship including the critters, but the charts you see above are my favorite/au related headcanons.

So in general: they're all in a qpr to me. they're very physically affectionate(some more than others, but affectionate nonetheless)

they'd give each other kisses and cuddle and slow dance under the light of the fridge at night. they all mean the world to each other no matter what their relationship status is. they're fully devoted to one another and would do anything for each other in a heartbeat.

they'll introduce themselves as best friends to other people (and they are best friends!!), but they know that's not Quite where their relationship ends, they just don't care enough to label it. something something "I don't care what you call this relationship, so long as it stays permanent."

and here are the more specific headcanons! I have Way more than this but i cant be bothered to type it all down right now because. yk. The Illness.

i think the critters(read: Hoppy, Kickin, and Catnap) would give bubba obnoxious kisses after they do something that irritates him and go "Sorrryyyyyy :3" (they are not sorry at all.) Bubba still loves them though. unfortunately.

picking between lovers and crush for Catnap and Dogday was the hardest decision in my life because neither of those are quite what i'm looking for. they're not lovers yet, there needs to be like 35 chapters before they even realize they have feelings for each other. but 'crush' doesn't encompass the feeling i'm going for. it's the feeling of gifting each other flowers at the same time and giggling about it, of getting too excited and jumping at the other in a hug, rolling uncontrollably down a hill of flowers and laughing when you reach the end, then looking into each other's glittering eyes with a smile as everything settles into a calm, wonderful quiet. DO YOU GET ME. LIKE WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO CALL THAT.

Bubba's overall relationship with everyone is "you guys annoy me to no end. i love you so so much and i could never live in a world without you. but sometimes i just want to wring you out like a wet towel." his annoyance is Mostly directed at Hoppy, Kickin', and Catnap, but the other 4 have their moments too.

Kickin' is an easily flustered aroace to me, he gets intense squishes on people he finds cool, ie: all his friends. He'll act normal in front of them but when he's alone he'll turn into a blushy mess and roll around on the floor. Regularly thinks about how much he loves all his friends.

Crafty has/has had a crush on all her friends at one point. save my girl she's an absolute mess.

Kickin' and Hoppy are friendly rivals when it comes to sports, because they're both super competitive. Sometimes it gets out of hand and causes them to destroy something or be super loud, which gets all their friends annoyed with them pretty regularly but they always find a way to make it up to them.

Picky and Hoppy have a Rainbow Dash and Applejack relationship to me. you can never go wrong with the farm girl vs. sporty girl dynamic. THIS HC WAS INSPIRED BY ART MADE BY sorry-not-feeling-it-right-now. GO CHECK THEM OUT RN. i was having tons of trouble figuring out Picky's character but seeing their art automatically fixed all my problems. i see her so clearly in my head now.

Picky and Bubba are friendly rivals because Picky's super smart when it comes to nutrition and biology, and Bubba is used to being the smartest guy in the room, so he constantly tries to 1-up her but she always either matches his knowledge or adds to it, which annoys him to no end. she finds it funny though.

I think Bobby and Picky are two different types of mom friends. Bobby is who you go to when you want to vent about a problem, and she'll be there to offer you advice and hugs if you need them, she'll also fret over you when you're sick or injured and ask you if you need anything. Picky on the other hand would make you soup and make sure you dont even THINK about leaving that bed or she will drag you back in there. Bobby is more of a nurse than Picky is, but she cant stand the sight of blood.

Catnap can be on a completely opposite end of the valley and still make sure he's the first to taste whatever food Picky's made for them.

Serious fights don't always happen between them, but when they do, Dogday's usually the one who tries to fix things, usually with the help of Bobby.

Catnap's in charge of putting everyone to sleep, and Dogday's in charge of waking them up.

Here's my smiling critters relationship chart!

you're free to use it with credit ! and please tag me if you do use it, i'd love to see your headcanons :3

here's my take on their relationships:

ALSO i wanted to explain in words my thoughts on each of them. but i'm bad at explaining myself And i'm sick rn so thats not helping. so instead I tried to write down Some headcanons. but it turns out that those headcanons EXCEEDED THE TUMBLR CHARACTER LIMIT(4096 characters). so i'm gonna have to put them in the reblogs 💔💔💔

[nitroish]

I already commented on ur post asking for asks so just in case u didn’t see.

How do u figure out ur art style?

How did you drak fabric so well?

How do you draw body types so good?

Can you show me how to do the shiny effect you use for armor or golden stuff?

How do you draw such intricate people?

what is one of your first Zelda memories?

what are some Zelda core memories?

when did you come across the linked universe fandom?

I am also working on a au, it’s on my page and you shouldn’t have to scroll far, but long story short it’s called

linked universe: broken chain

and I was wondering if you had any ideas for additions to the new chain of links?

also there’s more details I’m thinking about posting later for the au, but if you have any design ideas for characters then I would love to hear/see them

also:what is your favorite OUTFIT(not person) to draw?

what one do you think is the prettiest or coolest? what one do you think looks funky/off? Is there anything you would change? What feels weird about them?

sorry if that’s too many questions, but you needed a distraction so I provided, I know ur probably not feeling good right now so I just want to make sure your at least happy, I know what it feels like to need to keep your mind from wandering. But also:

I hope to the golden three you’ve been feeding, watering, cleaning, medicating, sleeping, and generally taking care of yourself because i might pop though my iPad, through the internet, through whatever your using to read this, and into your room to strangle you and take care of you my self because you deserve it! You make so many people happy with your art and interactions and it sucks to know your in a less than great mood to say the least. So take this as you will, but more importantly take care of yourself and get some sleep, because I know you are probably reading this at fuck o clock at night. *makes pointed, intense metaphorical eye contact* I mean it, try and take care of thine bitch self. *smacks you with affection*

ill toss my reply under a read more since its a long ask eheh

ive already answered the questions in response to the reply you sent to the post and i greatly appreciate all the questions youve offered !!

what is one of your first Zelda memories? playing skyward sword !! i really REALLY enjoyed the wing ceremony - the introduction to flight using motion controls was one of my favourite things. i could spend hours flying around and using the wii-mote to pick a direction or flap the wings. it was gorgeous in my eyes as well. skyloft was a safe spot that i did not really leave, i was less interested in the rest of the game aside from faron. twilight princess as well !! i quite enjoyed running around on epona or in the wolf form. i did not get much done in either game, but i was mostly there for the sights, anyway.

what are some Zelda core memories? zeldacore memories ... my grandparents have an orchard that we would go pick from. sometimes if the apples werent good they would take us to a public orchard to pick apples there. when i was a kid i would grab a sword [ foam, of course ] and go out with my sister and we would hack down weeds and also pretend to battle one another to protect fake kingdoms that we would make up on the spot upon being questioned about it JFGHDFG we enjoyed running around and hiding in the orchard from one another. the same grandparents had some woods back behind their house, we'd go take walks through there sometimes and skuttle around thru the weeds and such.

when did you come across the linked universe fandom? mmm thats a good question. im pretty sure it was the start of 2019-ish? maybe 2020? im not very good with dates, but i knew of lu before i joined the server [ im no longer in that server tho ] !! i didnt really get into the fandom or whatever side of things until later, seeing as i was obsessing over loz at the time and ended up finding lu as an extension of that hyperfixation :)

what is your favorite OUTFIT(not person) to draw? i would have to say im biased towards my legend design's outfit !! i like adding details and embroidery to it. if we went with JUST canon lu outfits i would say im biased towards hyrule or twilight's :)

what one do you think is the prettiest or coolest? same answer as above !! my own for legend, but hyrule and twilight are pretty neat lookin. for Pretty i would have to say four - his tunic is rather ornate, especially when it comes to the embroidery in each square.

what one do you think looks funky/off? is there anything you would change? what feels weird about them? honestly i think wind's could do with some updates and upgrades, but im not entirely the best at designing characters either. his model has definitely gotten better over time though !! i think its the shirt and pants. i havent played his game(s?) so i couldnt entirely give answers on what i would change.

and i GREATLY appreciate the questions and your concern. youve no reason to apologize - im quite honoured tht u took the time to even type any of this out to send to me !! i am doing my best with what ive got currently, but rest assured im caring for myself just fine !! i definitely was readin that at fuck-o-clock at night ( and am answering this at the same time, if not worse !! its 5am just about now )

ill be heading off to bed here soon, but i have been thinkin on how to respond to this HDFGGDG no need for the smacks of affection, tho appreciated!! ill be cozied up and asleep soon enough :)

as for your au; ill check it out when i wake !! im sure its fascinating, feel free to toss an ask again on some information / the ideas behind it in here :)

have a good night / day !! here is to hopefully better times in the future

[uchihashisui-kun]

Pls I need more of that time loop au

Shisui has lived through so many lives that he doesn't remember them all anymore. He had tried to keep track at first, but his notes always got lost with each reset and after a while the memories started blurring together

He has been many things during these times. A shinobi, an academy teacher, a missing-nin, a clan head, a medi-nin. Oftentimes he doesn't bother leaving his position in ANBU

He has also been Hokage, once. He's not proud of himself for that one. Tired of the village, the clan and the Sandaime never listening to him, he had used his Mangekyō to manipulate his way into the position, lies falling from his lips as easily as breathing and deceiving everyone who dared to question him. He still feels like he wants to throw up when he thinks about it, even though it's been a long time ago

Maybe, Shisui thinks sometimes, maybe he could have been an actual good leader if he had worked hard to win the village's trust with honesty instead of what he did. He never earned that position. Never really tried to, and he doesn't want to try now. The idea of sitting behind that desk with the hat on his head and the cape on his shoulders is enough to make him cry. Remembering his face carved on the mountain beside the Yondaime's is even worse

Shisui knows many things he shouldn't. He knows about the Akatsuki and their plans. He knows about Pain, Obito, Madara, Zetsu. He has lived through Itachi's illness enough times to know how fast it progresses, how many stages it has, how to treat it to keep Itachi alive. He has been the reason why Shisui has decided to become a medic more than once

He has trained under Tsunade, even if she doesn't remember it. He has followed Jiraiya to become a spy master. He still doesn't understand anything regarding sealing work, even if Jiraiya had tried to teach him. He has tried learning Orochimaru's secrets, only to end up as one of their little experiments. He could have killed them fairly easily, but he had been way too curious to see where that path would take him

(It didn't end well and the only thing he gained from that loop was a bunch of new trauma and triggers)

He has been part of the Akatsuki a handful of times, when everything else had failed. He still has nightmares about helping them to forcibly pull the various Bijuus out of their Jinchuuriki, their lifeless body falling to the ground

(He has buried them every single time. Out of the nine Jinchuurikis, the majority of them are only children. Shisui might not have their blood literally staining his hands, but he has been a direct cause of their deaths multiple times. They feel like boulders on his shoulders. He has buried them to try and put their spirits to rest, but he's not sure it ever worked. They still haunt him to this day, even if they're alive once again with each reset)

Shisui's not proud of the amount of times he has forcibly reset everything, taking his own life whenever someone he loves lost theirs. He usually breaks after Itachi's death. Sometimes after Team 7's death. Once after Madara had been able to ensnare the world into the Infinite Tsukuyomi, and because of Shisui having helped the Akatsuki Naruto hadn't been around to be the other half Sasuke had needed to free everyone

(He has also been caught in the Infinite Tsukuyomi a bunch of times, but he hates thinking about it. About his life as it should have been. Everyone happy and alive, no stupid time loops or coups or wars or lies. Being able to die without waking up again. His body, trapped in the cocoon of the God Tree, had eventually died on its own. Shisui had spent the day crying when he had woken up in his room)

He has tried helping his clan going through with the coup. He has tried helping the village defend itself against the Uchiha's coup. He has killed children, civilians, people who couldn't protect themselves anymore countless times. From the village, from the clan, from both. He has wiped out his own clan, alone or with someone else's help. He has abandoned the village and let things play out on their own

He has never grown old enough to reach forty. The longest loop has been his Hokage one, and only because he had had guards rendered forcibly loyal to him through his Mangekyō, and they had worked hard to keep him alive even if it meant their own deaths. Shisui's not completely sure he remembers correctly, but he thinks that time he died shortly after his thirty-fourth birthday

He thinks this might be the work of a Deity. It must be. Why else would this happen? Who would have such power to trap him in this endless nightmare? He must have angered the Gods somehow, but he doesn't know what to do to make them stop. He has knelt in front of every single one of the clan's Deities altars until his knees were bruised, prayed until his voice was hoarse and begged until his words barely had a meaning anymore, but nothing has worked

Maybe he should become a God himself. He has never tried it, but while his body might be young his mind is so so old and he's so tired. He just wants to close his eyes and never open them again, growing mentally old with each reset and making every new loop a bit more difficult than the previous one

He doesn't even have hope anymore that he'll be able to escape this Nightmare