#also part of me kinda wanna post a few separately too

[mai-mai-lim]

ok so back in january my genius brain /s thought i should post this series of fav guys i like in one big post instead of like, post them separately cause they are all not from the same media??? and sometimes it just felt a bit out of place??!

that kinda made me regret doing that so here's the thing....

first try on doing polls too lel

[kozachenko]

Finally decided to play around with my old lineless style again! Also figured out a way to draw Reimu that I actually really like!

Artist's Notes;

I've mentioned in a few earlier posts that I've been wanting to draw in my lineless style again for a while as a way to test what I've learnt from my previous style in regards to lighting. I did the face first and then for a while was thinking about doing a full body illustration of Reimu just to draw her outfit again. I'll talk about the face first since that's the first drawing I did in this batch.

For the longest time I really couldn't find a way to translate Reimu's face into my style. I was able to make her clothes work out well, just not really her face. I did like elements of how I drew her face a few other times, namely the tiny eyebrows and her pupils, but they didn't really feel like Reimu to me, or at least how I imagined her in my head. I then realized that it was less of a problem with the entire face and moreso the eyes, and it took me quite a bit of trial and error to make something that I was happy with. Also, as much as I thought the tiny eyebrows were cute, it didn't really make sense with her character. Like, from what I know about Japanese history, plucking your eyebrows was something that nobles (rich people) would do, and since Reimu is...neither of those things, I decided to just give her some thicker eyebrows instead (I will be saving the plucked eyebrows for another character though, so they will return). After I got to a face I was happy with, my next challenge was the hair. I did the front part first and liked that enough to continue, and then after more trial and error I realized that deep down I was a short-hair-Reimu-is-best-Reimu-truther this whole time because once I gave up on the long hair and gave her shorter hair something just clicked in my brain. And so, after drawing her outfit in again (this time without the yellow tie which is kinda sad but I'll find a way to incorperate it into future designs because it just was not making sense to me in context with the rest of the outfit) and finnicking around with the bow, I came to a version of Reimu's face that I actually liked. I thought that it made more sense for her character to have her cut it short, mainly because she's doing a bunch of Youkai extermination and she has to keep her hair out of her face somehow. I still wanted to make it kinda messy though, as Reimu is probably too lazy to clean it up herself. I think another reason I like it so much is because in Forbidden Scrollery, Moe Harukawa gave Reimu short hair and that really suited her, so I guess that was just a subconcious reason as to why I liked it so much. I also think that the shorter hair helps to separate her a lot from Marisa, as I think Marisa looks really good with longer hair. Speaking of, now I wanna do a drawing of her and Reimu together to really solidify how I draw them (unlike the previous version where it was just them standing). As much as I do like the face, I am concerned if she looks too much like how I drew Keiki now, but that might just be a product of the stylistic choices I made with her eyes and I might just be overthinking it. I am hyperaware of same face syndrome so that's probably the reason I'm so concerned about it lol.

Now for the fully body drawing. I was struggling to think of a good pose for her, so I just took a picture of myself and used that as a reference while still making slight adjustments for readability's sake. This is another case of, "I've looked at this too long and can spot every single issue with it" but this time I'm still happy with the final product mainly because this was a test drive for how I want to develop my lineless style in the future and for what it is I am more than pleased with the result. The main reason I deviated away from my lineless style was mainly because I was having a hard time with the lighting and making it interesting, and I am so glad that I've finally found a way to make it work! I'm especially happy with the clothes, as I think clothing folds are really fun to draw. I was somewhat inspired by the works of J.C. Lyendecker and the way he draws clothes, though admittedly it is not a one to one, since I mainly wanted to try implying the shading of the clothing folds with shapes (I do really want to do a study of his style one day as his art is incredible). So for the sleeves, I drew in a bunch of triangles where I wanted there to be a strong highlight, roughly coloured in the inside, and then blended them all so it looks like a more subtle. On both of these drawings, I also added in a noise filter to give it some texture (as that's what I used to often do with my drawings) and while I do like it, I might want to experiment with making it more subtle in the future, as it's pretty noticeable in both these drawings. Overall, I'm really happy with the lighting and colours of this drawing, and while I could nitpick several aspects of it (her hand holding the gohei looks too tense, I tried making her look like she was standing on the balls of her feet but the positioning of her Gohei's trail of papers ends up making it look weird, and I could've put more effort into the hair and bow and so many more things), this is more of a piece for me to experiment with my style again, and I'm excited for when I get a new idea for a piece, as I really wanna try some more stuff out with this style!

[jxtina-86]

The Chase - Part 1

Okay, please go easy on me - first Lando fic and having spent way too much time consuming every fic about him on here, I am so nervous to post this. I also haven't written anything in over a year.

I like a slow burn. And this will be one hell of a slow burn.

Hope you enjoy.

Pairing: Lando x Fem!OC

Word Count: 3.7k

Warnings: Swearing, innuendo/suggestions, kinda fluffy

Her whole body vibrates from the steady pound of music, even as she queues up outside the club. The warm night air is starting to cool, as is her buzz. She stands on the edge of the group, half-listening to the chatter, half-watching the cars cruising down the street beside them. As the group shuffles forward, she takes a slow step to follow.

Maybe she should just leave, she thinks. She doubts anyone will miss her. Her friends are way too preoccupied with the guys they met earlier at the beach club, the ones who promised them the best night out ever. She’d been sceptical from the start, but didn’t want to be the party-pooper. And now she can’t be the one to say “I told you so.”

The group moves forward again and she feels a hand slide over her arm. “Mia, we’re in!” her friend, Lydia, grins and she forces a smile back. But just as she is about to step over the threshold, the friend’s hand slips from her arm and the bouncer’s arm stops her progressing.

He grunts something she doesn’t quite hear at first, his attention elsewhere. She glances around and sees a group of five guys a few metres away. “Step aside, mademoiselle” The bouncer grunts again in broken English, shuffling her against the wall to let the new group pass. The first three guys walk past, barely noticing what’s happening, but still offering thanks to the bouncer who nods in return.

As the last two in the group approach, she happens to meet the gaze of the one closer to her. He smiles and then his brow furrows. “Hey man, ladies first.”

She recognises the face, but she can’t quite place him…

The bouncer glances at him and then back at her. “She’s okay.”

“She can’t speak for herself?”

“You take priority.”

“At the expense of manhandling a girl up against the wall?” he looks incredulous for a second and then his demeanour shifts ever so slightly. “Let her go in.”

The bouncer scowls. “I just do my job.”

“Let her go in,” he repeats. And then he holds out his hand. “C’mon.”

She stares at him for a second, watching his eyes widen as he looks down at his hand and then pointedly back up at her. She reaches out, feeling his fingers wrap around hers and she slips out from between the wall and the bouncer.

“You okay?” he asks as they move through the doors.

She nods. “Thanks.”

“No problem.” His hand slips from hers for a second, ghosting over her back instead as he guides her through the crowded entrance lobby. “So are you here with friends?”

“Yeah…” she glances around. “We got separated. At the door.”

He winces apologetically. “I’m sorry. I don’t ask for that kinda shit. I don’t expect it.”

“Don’t worry about it.” She still can’t place his face. But it is so, so familiar.

“Look, do you wanna hang with us until you see your friends?”

“You sure?”

“I feel bad leaving you stranded,” he smiles, his teeth winking at her, his eyes crinkling at the corners.

“Okay then…” His hand finds hers again and he tugs it gently, pulling her along as they follow the rest of his group through the club. His head bounces to the beat, glancing over his shoulder every so often to check back on her. She looks around half-heartedly to see if she can spot her own group, but no luck. The club is heaving and the darkness and flashing lights make it impossible to make out any faces.

As they reach a set of stairs, he guides her back in front of him again. This time she feels his hand on the small of her back and when they pause for a second, she feels the hairs on the back of her neck stand on edge as she feels his chest press against her back. At the top of the stairs, his hand remains on her back as he ushers her towards a large table and booth, a wide array of bottles and glasses already there for consumption.

“Can I get you a drink?” He has to lean close to her ear for her to hear and she feels her heart pound. She nods. “What’s your poison? And what’s your name?”

“Mia,” she tells him, but he doesn’t catch it at first. He leans closer and she instinctively presses her hand to his shoulder as she repeats it closer to his ear.

“I’m Lando,” he replies and she feels it hit her like a ton of bricks. Of course, that’s why she recognised him but she couldn’t recall his name. Fuck…

She feels her face flush and he shoots her a sheepish but charming smile. “Drink?”

She nods and he gestures to the table before them for her to choose. He pours them both the same and hands her the glass. Now that she knows his name, now that she’s placed his face, she knows the reputation she has. A party boy. A charmer, with a wink and a smile at the ready. And she’s fallen for it already.

She clocks that the rest of his group haven’t even batted an eyelid that he’s pulled her into their booth. Perhaps this is a regular occurrence. She’s not sure if that makes it more or less awkward. She takes a long sip for her drink before she fumbles for her phone.

There’s a text from one of her friends.

Where did you go, M?? Followed by a photo of the group with fake sad faces.

“Where are they?” Lando’s voice makes her jump. She shrugs.

“No idea. We weren’t even supposed to come here tonight. They met some guys at the beach who wanted us to come along.”

“Sounds like it’s worked out in the end,” he winks at her.

She suppresses a giggle - don’t fall for it, Mia. It’s just a line.

“Perhaps,” she replies cooly. “I should let them know…” she starts to type out a reply but his fingers pluck the phone from her grasp. “Hey!”

“You should return the favour,” he chuckles, flipping the phone onto camera mode and holding it aloft. He tips his head towards hers, grinning up at the camera. “Smile!”

She can’t help the grin on her face as he snaps the photo. Before he passes the phone back to her, he taps out a suggested message and she laughs when she sees it.

Found a better offer x

“Oh really?” she glances over at him. He grins, raising his glass to take a long swig, his free arm sliding over the back of the booth, his fingers casually brushing over her shoulder.

“Sure,” he shrugs. “They clearly didn’t wait for you. Bad manners if you ask me.”

She’s inclined to agree. “There were five of us. Four of them,” she mutters.

He leans closer, his mouth inches from her ear. “They don’t know what they’re missing.”

“And you do?” She turns and almost jumps back as she realises how close his face is to hers.

He at least has the decency to blush himself. “Fittest girl in here by a mile,” he recovers.

She laughs. “God, you think you’re so smooth.”

“I don’t know about that, but it’s amazing how far this smile will get you,” he points to his mouth, his grin widening as she rolls her eyes. “Okay, okay… but I don’t see you making any move to leave.”

That is true, she thinks. But what are the other options? Leave to find her friends? Go back to the house alone? Neither feel great right now, not when she’s got a drink to finish and he is giving her his undivided attention.

She swipes at her phone again, titling her hand so he can see her hit send on the photo and his original message. He laughs, edging closer again to her. “You definitely did.”

“Don’t make me regret this.”

“I don’t back down from a promise.”

“Is that so?”

Why does it feel so easy? She doesn’t know him and she’s briefly reminded that he could get any girl he wanted. So why her?

“So,” He shuffles closer again so she can hear him over the chaos of the music. “Are you here on holiday?”

She nods. “Sort of.”

“What does that mean?”

“One of my friends, her family have a place here. They’re here on holiday, but I travel around so they said I could stay for longer depending.”

“Depending on what? What do you do?”

“I work online, so I don’t need to be anywhere in particular.”

“Digital nomad, huh?”

“I guess.”

“That’s cool.” He takes a sip of his drink. “Where’s next on your list?”

“Not sure. I’m here for another two weeks so it’s on the list to figure out.” She wracks her brain trying to think of the least obvious question to ask him when her phone starts to buzz incessantly. She glances down to see message after message coming through.

Mia!

What the fuck?

How. When. WHERE.

Is that…?

Lando fuckin Norris??

MIA. WHERE ARE YOU??

She smirks into her drink, feeling his warm breath ghost over her shoulder as he reads the texts for himself.

“You caused a stir,” she tells him and as he shakes his head with a wry smile, she feels her breath catch in her throat when she sees him bite his lip briefly.

“It’s how I roll.”

She elbows him gently. “Do you genuinely have a one liner for every situation?”

“Yup. It's my special talent.”

“Oh, so your day job is just..,”

“I’m a man of many talents,” he meets her gaze and winks.

“Of course,” she nods, sagely. “I bet there’s nothing you can’t turn your hand to.”

“What can I say, I’m good with my hands.”

Her heart skips a beat and she fights to keep her composure as he shoots her a knowing smirk before raising his glass again. 

Her phone is still buzzing dully in her hands. She glances down and notices it’s a video call from one of the girls. She’s about to ignore it, when he reaches over and swipes to accept the call. She swats at him playfully, making him chuckle and she earns a barely audible shriek from the phone.

Taking a call in a club is hard at the best of times, but a video call is impossible. She can barely hear whatever it is Lydia and the others are saying but it’s pretty clear it’s along the same lines of the barrage of messages in the group chat.

And he doesn’t help. His arm is fully around her shoulders now, pulling her close into his side as she blushes. He waves casually at the screen, grinning as he sees the faces of shock and incredulity. Even him ruffling his hair causes them to turn practically feral.

“Okay, that’s enough,” Mia laughs, waving herself and then hitting end call. “Look, I should probably go and find them.”

“Don’t go.”

“I’m crashing your night.”

“I can see this lot any day of the week,” he nods at his friends who are barely paying them any attention anyway. “Rather spend my night with a pretty girl like you.”

“And what if I don’t feel the same?” she shoots back, but there’s no malice in her voice.

He clutches at his chest in mock pain. “Your words. They hurt.”

“You’re too much,” she laughs, but she doesn’t move. She finds she can’t. Her limbs are stuck firm to the seat, despite how much her brain is willing her to get up and move. This won’t end well. It really, really won’t.

“Is it possible to have too much of a good thing?”

She shakes her head. “You are something else.”

“You need me to dial it down?”

“Just, just a little bit,” she glances over at him. “Is this how this works then?”

He gives her a confused look. “How what works?”

“You rescue the damsel in distress, get her a drink, give your undivided attention, roll out all the lines, charm her…” she trails off.

He tilts his head to one side. “You think you’ve got me figured out, huh?”

“I mean, it feels pretty textbook…” she shrugs.

“Because a guy like me must have a playbook?”

“Because a guy like you, 100% is not going after girls like me.”

“Nope. Don’t do that.”

“Don’t do what?”

“Put yourself down like that.”

“I’m pretty sure you could have your pick.”

“And? Girls throwing themselves at me, not really my thing.”

“Ah,” she chuckles. “So you like the chase.”

“I mean… You’re really setting me up with that,” he flashes her a cheeky grin. “But yeah.”

“And when you get your prize, then what?”

“I hold onto it for as long as possible.”

“Or until you crave the chase again?”

He shakes his head. “You got me all wrong, Mia. It isn’t the chase that gets in the way. Not that one anyway.”

He looks genuine enough, so she gives him the slightest benefit of the doubt, but she’s also clinging to the scepticism. “Your job, right.”

He nods, staring down at his almost empty glass.

She feels a bit bad. More than bad. She realises she misses the banter, the easy back and forth and now she feels like an idiot for questioning it when the answer was probably pretty obvious.

“Sorry. I… I always do that. I’m annoyingly sceptical about everything.”

He tosses her a smile. “Hey, a random guy pulls you into a club, starts chatting shit to you, you’re right to be sceptical.”

“You’re being kind now. I was kinda mean.”

He chuckles. “I probably deserved it.”

“See if this was a textbook play, this would be that turning point.”

“Oh yeah?” he grins at her. “Make you feel so bad for me that you take pity on the poor lonely racing driver?”

“That’s the one.”

He leans forward, staring at her in earnest. “Is it working?”

She pushes his shoulder and he backs up with a grin. “No.”

“Damn, you really do play hard to get.”

“You said you liked the chase…”

He chuckles and drains his drink, shaking his finger at her. “See, you’re just making me worse.”

“Worse?! It gets worse than this?” she winks at him. “Go on then, hit me with your worst.”

He shakes his head. “You can’t handle my worst.”

“That bad, huh?”

He leans back against the booth, giving her a sly side eye. “Okay. You asked for it.”

“I did. C’mon then.”

He chews his lip for a second and then he reaches for the chain around his neck, his fingers fumbling to find the pendant. “You see this?” he gestures, beckoning her forward to him.

She leans forward and only a split second too late does she realise what he’s doing. His fingers slide under her chin, his lips meeting hers in a soft kiss. He holds her there for a second, two, three. Before he pulls back, a cocky grin on his face.

She blinks at him for a moment and then laughs. “Okay, I give in. You got me.”

He pouts, his eyes sparkling. “You gave in so easily. Where’s the fun in that?”

She smirks. “Fine. How about that’s all you’re getting tonight?”

He grins. “That’s more like it.”

“And I really should go…”

“To find your friends?”

She shakes her head. “No. Home.”

“I’ll take you.”

“I’ll get a cab.”

“I’ll get it with you.”

She sighs. “You really do like the chase.”

“Nope, I am just being the perfect English gent.”

“Really?”

“Promise.” She watches as he crosses his chest, his eyes pleading with her.

“Fine.”

He leans over to his friends, gesturing back at her. They nod, smile almost knowingly and she shakes her head - do even his friends believe this act?

Just like when they entered the club barely an hour ago, she lets him guide her back out. Outside, the air has cooled dramatically and she shivers in the breeze, wishing she’d opted for a jacket when they’d left the house earlier that night.

Lando is looking around for a cab, but he spies her sudden tremble and reaches out to her, pulling her into his arms. She almost stops breathing as his hands run up and down her bare arms, their warmth spreading over her skin. She looks up at him, but he’s looking over her head still, his eyes lighting up, one arm rising to wave at a passing cab. Slipping his arm around her shoulders, he pulls her over to the waiting vehicle, opens the door and lets her clamber in before him.

She goes to settle into the seat on the far side, but as he shuts the door behind him, he tugs her back to lean against him.

“Where’s home?” he asks her and she reels off the address in the next town over.

His fingers tap absentmindedly on her shoulder. “So what are your plans for the next two weeks?”

She shrugs. “Sun. Swim. Eat. Work.”

“Well if you fancy some different company…” he lets the words hang in the air.

“Don’t you have some far flung race to get to?” She tilts her head up to look at him. 

“Summer break,” he grins down at her. 

“For how long?”

“Two more weeks.”

“So what are your plans?”

“Sun. Swim. Eat. Sleep.”

She chews her lip. “Well, if you want company for some of that…”

“Which parts?”

“Sun… Swim… Eat…”

“You don’t sleep then?”

“I do…” she pauses. “Alone.”

He flashes her a grin. “I see.” He fumbles with his pocket, flicking his phone over in his hand and pressing his thumb to the screen. “Here, put your number in.”

“Why?”

“So I can call you? Maybe take you out for lunch? For you know… more of this?”

“And only this?”

“I can’t promise I won’t try.”

She takes the phone from him and taps in her number. In the name part, she types in Mia and then adds a little something extra.

He rolls his eyes when she hands it back to him. “You didn’t need to add that. I’ll remember who you are.”

“You can never be too careful…” She watches as he deletes ‘the girl you rescued at the club’ from the surname section. He hits dial next and her phone buzzes.

“What, no witty name for me?” He pouts and then grins as she adds ‘The Chaser’ after his name. “That’s more like it. So… are you free tomorrow?”

“Tomorrow? Wow, you are keen.”

He ignores her and presses on. “Lunch? I can pick you up.”

“I need to check… Shit.” She picks up her phone again, pulling up the group chat.

Gone home, she taps out. See you all later.

She hits send and then squeals as yet again, he plucks the phone from her hands. “No, no, Lando…”

He laughs, flipping to camera mode. “Don’t worry girls, I’ll get her home safe and sound.”

“Oh my god, stop it,” she berates but she’s laughing too. “Not like that!” She says to the camera before he stops recording.

He tosses the phone back at her, still grinning. “It didn’t send.”

“It didn’t have to.”

Her phone is already lighting up.

WITH HIM?

MIA. DID YOU LEAVE WITH HIM?

Do we need to stay out longer?

How long, Mia?? 👀

It's fine, I can share with someone else…😉

GET THAT 🏎️ 🍆 MIA!

She can feel Lando shaking with laughter beside her.

“Feral,” she mutters. “Honestly.”

“Ah you can't shame them for being invested in your love life.”

“And this,” she waves her phone. “This is why you can't be picking me up for lunch.”

“And miss out on the fun?”

“Oh I can picture it now. You'd be flashing that grin left right and centre, throwing out your one liners and whipping them all up into a frenzy.”

“Only fair to reward them.”

“Reward them? For what?”

“The way I see it, if they hadn't agreed to go to the club with the beach guys, if you hadn’t been left at the back of the group then we wouldn't be here now would we?”

She gives him a sideways look. “You really do manage to spin any situation in your favour.”

“So tomorrow. What time?”

“11.30? Out the front. Just text me and I'll come out.”

“Okay, okay,” he agrees.

The cab slows, pulling up outside the villa. Lando tells the driver to wait before he opens the door, steps out and turns to offer his hand which she takes.

He walks her to the gate, waiting as she slides the key in.

“So…” she breaks the silence, refusing to open the gate completely whilst he is still close. She doesn't trust herself not to let him in despite what she's said out loud.

He gets the hint. “Nice to meet you Mia. I’ll text you tomorrow.”

“When you're outside?”

He nods. “11.30 sharp.”

She lowers her gaze for a second, just wondering if-

His hand brushes over her shoulder, pushing her hair back and then he cups her neck, pulling her mouth to his. This time though, she's there with him - kissing him back, her free hand running over his arm, fingers spreading over the thick bicep she can feel under his shirt.

He pulls back reluctantly and she feels her face flush as she lets out a small whimper of disappointment.

“Not too late…” he murmurs.

God it's tempting. But no.

She shakes her head. “See you tomorrow.”

He grins, his hand finding hers, bringing it to his mouth to press a final kiss to her cool skin.

He walks backwards to the cab, gesturing for her to go in, waiting until she opens the gate and closes it before he gets in the cab himself.

Mia leans against the gate and listens to the car departing.

Her phone buzzes and she flips it over expecting to see another message from the group.

But her stomach flips when she sees his name.

Sweet dreams x

And she practically floats up the path to the house.

****

Part 2 coming soon...

[artisticprocrastionator]

Ok, I was still thinking about the Venus fly Trap and Griefer post I made on community tab a few days ago and I was like “What if I made an AU/SAGA about that???”

So I made an AU! Everything is not official! Still working things out so expect things to change but for right now I’m calling it the INSECT AU (TRAPPED SAGA) (ik- he’s not an insect but I think he can provide contrast), and it involves Griefer! However, I did wanna give him a different name for this AU but I couldn’t find any good names so he’s still called Griefer/Brad in this AU. If you guys have any suggestions then let me know!

Very poor grammar (sorry my writing skills kinda suck but bare with me-)

Sooo what’s it about??

Basically this SAGA is about Griefer being eaten alive by a Venus fly trap (but rescued) and inheriting DNA and traits of a Venus Fly Trap. The SAGA follows how Griefer lives with his new form and learns to embrace it.

Sooo how did this happen??? (Story time!)

PART 1: PROLOGUE.

In Turitopulis, the Vemonshank is guarded by the Poisonfang tribe (the Toxic enemies of the game) as they were the only tribe who knew how to weld the power of the Venomshank (other than Shedletsky and Builderman). The sword was given to them by Shedletsky and Builderman as they wanted to separate the power of the swords and prevent them from falling into the wrong hands thus giving it to the Poisonfang tribe who were elite fighters that harness acidic poison, from Venus fly traps, to use in battle. Most of the Poisonfang tribe were part Venus Fly Trap due to their contact with the carnivores plant and seeing the benefits of harnessing the abilities of the plant once they merge their bodies with the Venus fly trap (it is a ritual they do to conform their members).

Mayor Thaniyel was an explorer of the rainforest in Turitopulis that collected exotic plants and goods to sell at his plant and tea shop. However, Mayor Thaniyel got lost one day on a trip in the rainforest due to a huge storm. The tribe found him and care for him until help arrived. This would start Mayor Thaniyel’s relationship with the tribe and overtime form a strong relationship with them, both each other doing favors that benefitted one another.

Later down the line, this would allow Builderman and Shedletsky to consider Thaniyel and officially make him the Mayor of Turitopulis.

The tribe lets Mayor Thaniyel know the location of the Venomshank and becomes a guardian of the sword alongside with the tribe.

Then Mayor Thaniyel has his son, Brad, who was celebrated by the town and the tribe. Brad would grow up close with the tribe and learn their techniques and combat. He would also grow his love for plants and often helps at his father’s shop. As the years go by, Thaniyel starts to age and he began a to consider passing the responsibility onto Brad to guard the Venomshank. However, Brad goes through a rebellious stage where he constantly caused havoc in Turitopulis as well the tribe now. The tribe doesn’t want Brad to be the next holder which conflicts Mayor Thaniyel of handing off the sword. He plans to wait until Brad is ready and more mature.

From Brad’s POV, he always saw his father as overbearing and felt as though he could never be his own person due to how much influence his dad had on his life. Though Brad has some contacts in the tribe, his father never let him get too close to the tribe and Brad always felt something was being kept from him. One day, Brad overhears that he may be the next guardian of the Venomshank. The thought of having that type of power fueled Brad and was waiting for his time. Brad although sheltered heavily by his father was gifted with a well amount of wealth that made him spoiled. Brad was thinking his dad was just gonna hand him the sword to which he finds out that his dad plans to not give it to him for a good bit. Frustrated, from not being able to get the sword as well feeling resentment of his father pushing him around all the time, starts his rebellious stage which he caused havoc and potential harm to the people in town and the tribe. This would especially caused a strain in the relationship between Brad and Mayor Thaniyel.

PART 2: TRAPPED.

One day, Mayor Thaniyel decides to confront Brad about his behavior and officially announce that Brad would not be the guardian of the Venomshank. He concluded that his son would not be a good fit. Brad obliviously starts a huge argument with his dad that strained the relationship further. Both unhappy.

Brad is upset and decides to prove his dad wrong by attempting to hold the Venomshank. The Venomshank can only be held by the elder tribe members, Shedlesky and Builderman, and Mayor Thaniyel. After a few days of investigation, Brad figures out the place of the Venomshank and sets out on a journey to retrieve it (which resides in the rainforest far from Turitopulis).

Brad finds the sword anchored to a rock. Brad attempts to pull it out before something incases him. It turns out the Venomshank was set right on top of a Venus fly trap the Poisonfang tribe placed to prevent anyone from getting the sword. Mayor Thaniyel knew as well but Brad didn’t. The hairs of the trap trigger the plant and encases Brad in complete darkness which the sides slowly closing in on him. The small trigger hairs act like little knifes that stabbed Brad and inches deeper into his skin as the walls close in, causing a limited amount of air to breath as well space to move. Brad was able to make a small air pocket in the space to breathe but it wasn’t going to last long as the walls slowly close that gap. He also had some supplies with him but it wouldn’t be long before his stuff would run out. After a day or so, acid slowly starts to pours into the pouch that begins to burn Brad’s skin.

Brad attempts to escapes but fails. He nudges, he fails. He kicks, he fails. Brad tries to use his knife he brought to cut the plants interior, but fails. Nothing works, and Brad is terrified. Alone as he feels he’s skin melting into the acid as it climbs closer to his face with no where to go. Brad waits for his fate, wishing he could rewrite it especially to fix his relationship with his dad. Brad knew that chance would never come nor would he would ever see him again. Just complete darkness and the burning, bubbling, putrid stench of the acid inching even closer to his face.

During this time, Mayor Thaniyel notices Brad’s disappearance and becomes worry. After doing some work, he finds out what Brad sought out to do. Terrified, Mayor Thaniyel and some of the Poisonfang members travel the rainforest terrian to the Venomshank’s residing place. Once they make it, they see the horror of the situation. A huge Venus fly trap encased around something familiar large. Quickly, Mayor Thaniyel, along with the tribe members, work together to open the trap and pull Brad out. Brad at this point was unconscious and barely breathing.

Brad was in the plant for 3 days. Miraculously, his body was still intact but with severed burn marks on 70% of his body (from legs to chest). Brad was a very large prey for the plant, which in real life for Venus fly traps takes longer to digest their food of larger prey. Usually it takes them 7-10 days, which made the plant take longer to digest him. If Brad was in there another day, he would have died.

It was one of the worst things Mayor Thaniyel has ever seen in his life.

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Brad is sent to the hospital for his wounds. The tribe also helps out by providing medicine that cures Venus fly traps acid burns. Brad is out for weeks before he wakes up from his coma. Bedridden and in severely in pain, but was breathing. He was alive…How..?

Brad slowly turns to his left where he sees his father sleeping next to the bed in a chair. Griefer gently wakes up his dad waking his up and quickly turning towards Brad with noticeable baggy eyes. Thaniyel seemed to murmured smt before he hugged Brad sending Mayor Thaniyel into hysterical sobbing as he embraces his son. Brad also finds himself sobbing in his arms. He was alive.

PART 3: REHABILITATION. (Short section)

Brad stays in the hospital for a few months. During this time, Brad is forced to reckon with his new body and weird changes. Mayor Thaniyel tells Brad of these changes now being part Venus Fly Trap. Mayor Thaniyel helps Brad to adjust to his body allowing them to make amends and reconcile their relationship.

Brad suffers from claustrophobia which resulted from the traumatic experience of the incident. He also became insecure of his body due to the amount of burns and cuts on his body. His designs covers most of it.

However, after self reflecting and doing well on his rehabilitation, Brad slowly finds himself again but this time a better version of himself. Brad decides to call himself Griefer and embraces the Venus fly trap design into his clothing as well finding appreciation in Venus fly traps (even tho one tried to eat him). Griefer actually owns a Venus fly trap named Chompers. Brad although seemingly intimidated is more soft than he was before especially for his dad. However, he still maintains his cocky and confident persona for those to see.

Griefer becomes closer to the tribe as they teach him how to manage his new form. They actually give Griefer another chance and after extensive training, they reconsider Griefer as being the next guardian of the Venomshank. Griefer is given a warrior rank among the Poisonfang tribe.

Now Griefer works as a warrior and protector for the tribe, protecting them from bandits and creatures that may harm them and their trades with Turitopulis. Griefer built a reputation with the bad guys for being overly annoying and constantly griefing their stuff of spray painted signatures from him. You can probably say Griefer is a Vigilante in Turitopulis.

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That’s it! If you read through all of this then good for you! I plan to expand more on this universe and definitely make more content on this. Again, everything is still a work in progress so if change are made I’ll let you know. Here are some extra doodles for reading all that!

[espace--positif]

A Dragon Age Newbie's First Impressions of Inquisition Companions [Part 1/?]

SO. I've acquired ye olde Dragon Age brainrot after completing Veilguard and starting Inquisition. I have a lot of Thoughts and Ideas TM about both games, so while I decide whether I should make a separate blog for DA, enjoy this messy post on my first impressions of all the Inquisition companions. I also wanna be able to look back at this and see whether my judgments were right or wrong lmao. Yes this is what I'm doing instead of writing fics.

Spoilers for... I don't know where I'm at in Inquisition man. I just got to Skyhold and did a few missions. And MAJOR DAV spoilers, probably. Under the cut.

Cassandra

CASSANDRA PENTAGHAST THE WOMAN THAT YOU ARE.

she honestly grew on me a lot. I knew I wanted to like her from like, the opening scene. she just exudes intensity, and you can immediately tell that she cares. she, however did not like my Lavellan one bit, and disapproved of every single choice I made for a while 😭

early game Cassandra whenever Lavellan breathed:

but she honestly feels like the realest, and maybe most good-hearted character in all of DAI. conflicted, caring, under far too much pressure, and with a cold exterior that isn't just there for the sake of being unapproachable. she second-guesses all of her choices, which I believe is HEALTHY for someone who has that much power.

as I progress through the game and get to know her more, I just end up liking her even more. she also knows how to disagree with you, on small and large things, while keeping an open mind and trying to understand your reasoning - that also encourages me to hear her out. I truly enjoy that about her! her VA is also STELLAR, I just love to hear her talk!!

overall, 10/10 no notes.

Solas

oh you motherfucker.

so DAV Varric (or whoever it was who said this) lied when he said this rat egg man doesn't lie to your face and only lies by omission.

"I know about the fade because of my studies in ancient ruins" "I know about spirits because I befriended them in my dreams"

what if I punched you in the throat? ok but in all honesty. I'm trying to do the Solavellan ting and, well, he's got game. I'll give him that. I was positively shook at the first fade dream thing. they teach you how to rizz up dalish women in those ancient elven ruins? 🤨

speaking of dalish. why is he so mad that Lavellan is dalish LMAO. my ass chose the "proudly dalish" option and he DISAPPROVED. it's not Lavellan's fault that that one dalish clan threw rocks at you when you told them you were fen'harel! damn...

overall? I need to see how badly he betrays her to make a better judgment. will it be worse than the DAV betrayal? probably. will I eat it up? absolutely.

Varric

VARRIC MY GOAT!! THE REALEST MF IN ALL OF THEDAS!!!

I love Varric so much. it obviously helped to play DAV before, so I kinda knew him... for like, 20 minutes, I guess...

anyway, I'm really looking forward to getting to know him some more. as always, he's the only mf who cares how your character is feeling, who bothers to check in on you because everyone just tells you to roll with all the Crazy Shit TM that's happening. everyone keeps asking WHO is the herald of andraste, WHERE is the herald of andraste. no one ever asks HOW is the herald of andraste. except Varric.

he's caring, hilarious, compassionate, but also extremely REAL. cause yeah, Varric, you SHOULD'VE run the other way the moment Cassandra set you free. this breach shit is crazy! but you're literally too good of a man to do that 😭

I also cannot stop laughing at his reaction to Cory being alive. "shit, we stabbed him a bunch, I can't believe he's alive"

Varric continue to be your best real self, I am your biggest cheerleader as you are mine ❤️

Blackwall

ok so Blackwall is great. just a chill dude. super chill actually! however. he's kind of not very helpful at all, is he? "why did the wardens disappear?" "idk. can i join your inquisition?"

you're in luck, we actually take anyone because we're desperate!

but what can he actually do. him being a warden doesn't seem to help very much, because he literally never displays any warden expertise. when Stroud (?) mentions how all the wardens hear the calling now because of mr. Cory, he goes "oh shit yeah me too". and you just forgot to mention it? world's chillest warden, I guess.

I like him! but I just don't know why he's there especially when Iron Bull absolutely clears him when it comes to warrior combat.

anyway thank you Blackwall, very cool!

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This post has been long enough, so I will make a Part 2 at some point thanks bye!!

[alex-turners-world]

I’m really new into this fandom (unfortunately) but i’d just wanna say how i view Alex and Louise and if someone feels the same way as i do (also english is not my first language, excuse the mistakes please:D) I saw a bunch of problematic stuff Louise has done for the past few years which pretty much seems enough (at least for me) to create an opinion about what kind of girl she is. The way she has the need to bring Alex up any chance possible just seems like she made him her whole personality and she relies on him way too much which is already annoying and so odd with the way she represents herself as a “feminist” and “independent” woman. I really don’t understand people who say Louise seems like a kind and sweet girl ‘cus let’s be fr she doesn’t seem kind or sweet at all. I have a French friend who told me a few things about her and how French people don’t quite like her themselves (which is CRAZY imagine your own ppl don’t even like you??) Also the people who defend her and protect her as if she’s some innocent angel pisses me off. She made some HUGE mistakes (like the thing with the r&p€ post) that i personally would never be able to forgive and forget. I have this odd feeling that Alex and Louise are together ‘cus she’s perhaps manipulating him or forcing him in some way (IK HE’S A GROWN MAN AND HE COULD LEAVE HER WHENEVER HE’D WANT TO BUT IDK I JUST HAVE THIS ODD FEELING FOR SOME REASON)

Well hello and welcome 😄 I really felt the "unfortunately" part lol. Sometimes I think it would be better to stay away from all this mess.

As for manipulating part, no I don't think she's manipulating him, this situationship is just convenient for both of them. He has a girl he can hook up with from time to time, go on holidays with and she doesn't ask for more (because if she asks they're over). He has all the freedom, but still officially in a relationship because as we all know he's a serial monogamist and has a fear of being single. And she has the status of a rockstar gf, she has attention from the fans, she has his money, with which she can travel to luxurious places to grill herself in the sun and buy herself expensive ugly clothes. Like they both benefit from this situationship, only that Louise definitely wants more from Alex and I think she actually loves him even if this love is very unhealthy and obsessive. Alex is the one who ultimately treats her like shit. He uses her and her feelings when he needs to and when he doesn't need her, he disappears for weeks (like I doubt he even texts her when she returns to Paris). But she chooses to stay in this situationship although it's clearly hurting, like look at all those quotes she reposts and likes, at her unnecessary clapbacks in the comments. This behavior doesn't exactly scream "happy relationship". I think she also tries to convince herself that he loves her, considering, once again, all the commentary from her side. I mean, it's easier to live in a delusion.

Actually, I was talking to my colleague a couple of weeks ago and we had a conversation about her weird relationship and it kinda reminded me of Alex and Louise's thing. They live separately, he tells her that he needs personal space, they see each other only when he wants it and where he wants it, he can ghost her for two weeks, he doesn't really encourage physical contact (like touching and kissing) but she's in love with him because when he does a bare minimum it makes her really happy. So basically he puts her on an emotional rollercoaster every time. And I thought the situation was very similar to Alex and Louise's whatevership.

[hollowed-theory-hall]

Hi! Me again!

Lately I've reading a lot of Harry/Severus fanfics and I think it's a interesting ship. Do you have any thoughts about Severus as character? And what do you think about the ship Harry/Severus? Do you think it could work? 🤔

I look forward to reading your thoughts on this.

Spirea ✨

Hi again 👋

Took me a while to get to this ask, and like with all things shipping, ship whatever you want, have fun, it's fictional, and these are just my thoughts.

So, I obviously do have thoughts about Severus as a character. It's hard not to when he's as relevant as he is to the plot. I mentioned my general thoughts about him here. The summary of these thoughts is that I find him interesting for a multitude of reasons, and I like that he's usually competent, if emotionally unstable.

Now, about Snarry, personally, I'm not a Snarry shipper. A few years ago, I tried to read some Snarry fic, out of curiosity. Like, when I see a ship idea that either intrigues me or makes me go "wtf?!" in a good way, I often check out a fic or two, just to see what's it about, see if I'm interested. In the case of Snarry, I wasn't.

Like, I read a lot of Severitus (Severus as a mentor/father figure to Harry) around that same time, and I preferred that dynamic over the romance.

Now, ignoring my own preference, would this work?

Eh... depends on how you define work.

Like, this relationship would be a mess for so many reasons (which I guess is part of the appeal). Like, even ignoring the age difference and student-teacher taboos or if we're talking post-war Severus-lives AUs, this is going to be messy.

Like, a lot of fans talk about Sirius projecting James onto Harry, but I don't think he does, if anyone is projecting James onto Harry, it's Severus. He does treat Harry more like an equal threat than a student (which lends itself to Snarry if you wanna go there), but it also means Severus spends the books having no idea who Harry is until pretty late in the story when he starts glimpsing that maybe he isn't James, but then chooses to ignore all these glimpses. He is actually, legitimately terrified of Harry.

Like, Severus doesn't allow himself to see Harry as a separate person from James, who he despises. So, you gotta work through that to make the ship work.

Harry is a very empathetic and forgiving person, so I'm not putting forgiving Snape and moving on with his life past him, since it's kind of what he did anyway.

The reason I liked Severitus is because Snape and Harry have things in common working for their dynamic. They both had abusive home lives as children. They both share the responsibility for something so much greater. Severus in the books isn't just living for himself, he's carrying this fucking war on his shoulders, and by book 7, Harry is too. They are two characters that due to their respective traumas and life circumstances never really got to have a childhood (and in Snape's case an adulthood, since he didn't really choose to be a teacher) So they have the potential to understand each other so well under different circumstances.

I also think Severus would appreciate Harry's sass the moment he stopped seeing him as James and stopped perceiving the disrespect as a threat. And in Severitus, I like that Sev is a connection to Lily Harry usually doesn't get (since Sirius and Remus only really talk about James) but in Snarry, it's kinda icky for me.

Like, I don't like that Severus would be projecting either James or Lily on Harry in an equal relationship because he kinda would. He already does, and it's going to be a mess.

I'm also not sure how well their temperaments would really work together. Like, they're both not great with emotional regulation and are inclined towards anger and petty retribution/vengeance. It means that whenever they disagree with each other on the smallest thing ever, it'll be super easy for it to blow out of proportion and become big because they have a point. Like, Harry would say something cheeky that'll anger Snape more, and it doesn't matter if they are at school or post Hogwarts, their relationship doesn't matter, Snape's gonna say "twenty points from Gryffindor," on instinct (could be really funny in a post-war story, not so funny if Harry's a student). Like, their relationship would just be very volatile, which is not something I'm personally into, but that you're allowed to like in fic.

Basically, they will need to put a lot of work in to make their relationship work and for them to stay together as a romantic pair. Severitus is different since there is a clear power structure, Severus doesn't feel threatened by Harry and Harry knows Severus isn't his peer in that dynamic. Romance is different, since to make a romance work, they need to see each other as equals, which for Snape, means seeing Harry as a potential threat to himself and his image, and for Harry, it means treating Snape as someone he can sass and disrespect (which would make Snape's fears worse, and kinda what we see in the books).

And that's before talking about Snape's guilt about this relationship. Like, he already hates himself and would take any excuse to hate himself further while pretending it's all fine, he'll insist that everything is good through gritted teeth and the veneer of pride. Especially if Harry's still a student, Snape knows it's wrong, and he shouldn't, but he still would and crucify himself inside his own mind. He'd imagine Lily screaming at him over it, or something. So that, like, adds to the mess. Even post-war I think Severus would think he shouldn't for so many reasons. He'd find more and more reasons why not. So, like, Harry would need to be the one to pursue the relationship, and I don't really see him doing it without substantial divergence/AU sprinkled in.

Like, I don't think they would realistically get together, but fic is fic, and therefore anything could happen. These are just my thoughts.

[babyangelsky]

Two Worlds: Novel vs. Series (Part 1)

A few days ago, I mentioned that I had begun reading the novel for Two Worlds because I was curious about the changes that had been made for the adaption. Truthfully, I've been curious about it since the special and enough people liked my post to encourage me to put this together, so here we are!

Few things. Firstly, the official English translation of the novel is only updated through chapter 7 which equates to about episode 3 of the series. Approximately.

Secondly, good god is it convoluted so to make things easier on myself and on you, I'm going to break down the changes to each world in two separate posts and not jump around which is what the novel does.

Thirdly, if you'd like to read the novel yourself, the first seven chapters are available for free here! It's the official translation and updates are a bit irregular but it is being updated! Trigger warning for discussion and sometimes graphic mentions of suicide. Please proceed with caution.

I also have to thank @thainovels for being so lovely every time I've asked them for help. What are the odds the novel updated the day after I asked you for help finding a complete version?!

This is gonna be LONG so to spare your dash and anyone who doesn't wanna be spoiled, I'll begin under the cut.

World 1, aka our starting world in the series

Okay so, broad strokes. One of the biggest differences between novel and show so far is how much time we spend in Phupha's perspective and indeed, in perspectives other than Phupha's or Kram's. We really only get Kram's perspective in the chapters dedicated to World 1 and he's barely appeared in the chapters dedicated to World 2 so far.

This author also really loves to go on a tangent which kinda bugs me in a "I'm a writer too and I wouldn't do things this way dammit" sort of way and while that's my own cross to bear, objectively it does pull focus from the main plot and make the story more confusing than it has to be. Although I do appreciate the insight into the other characters.

How Things Start Off

Unlike the show which opens with Kram painting by the river, the novel opens with Kram trying to make friends with Phupha. At this point it's unclear how long Phupha has been staying at Kram's house but it doesn't seem like it's been very long.

In the show, Kram is the grumpy one who doesn't wanna talk or hang out and Phupha is the more open one, but it's flipped in the novel. Kram is a lonely lil ball of sunshine and he's excited to make a new friend and Phupha's generally very grumpy about his circumstances.

Kram also calls him "your grace" which I suspect is what the translator chose to use in place of "khun chai" since Kram also calls him that in the show a few times. I really wish the show had kept this detail because unlike in the show, Kram uses khun chai playfully and eventually affectionately. It's also worth noting that he doesn't call Phupha "phi" despite their age difference because he doesn't want to create distance between them.

Their first bonding experience is going for a walk just like in the show rather than walk aimlessly in the forest, Kram takes him to see the waterfall that is so central to our story. The locals refer to it as Moonshadow Cave.

We learn that Phupha is afraid of heights (and very traumatized) because of the circumstances surrounding his mother's suicide. He opens up to Kram about it and also tells him why his father sent him to stay with Kram and his father.

At one point, Kram steps onto a little ledge around the back of the waterfall and gently coaxes Phupha to join him so they can see the view. But remember, Phupha is afraid of heights and traumatized so after a few moments he panics and goes to turn back. But he turns back a little too quickly and stumbles and ends up face to face and very close to Kram.

SO THEY KISS ABOUT IT. Maybe it's adrenaline, maybe it's horniness, who knows! Certainly not Phupha!

It's getting late so they come down from the mountain to go home. Kram's head is spinning from the kiss, he's confused, he can still taste Phupha. Phupha's confused too, he doesn't know why the hell he kissed Kram, and just as he's in the middle of telling Kram that it was just the adrenaline and didn't mean anything, they hear something rustling in the tall grass.

The Tiger Incident

Yep. The thing they hear is a tiger smack in the middle of having a deer for dinner. Here is the first of two or three major plot points (so far) that were cut from the adaptation entirely.

They come across the tiger and even though they try to move as quietly and slowly as they can to get away, they don't get very far before the tiger notices them and starts chasing them down. As they're running, Kram falls and hurts his leg. Kram knows of a small cave where they can hide, and They manage to duck into it just in time. Fortunately the entrance is too small for the tiger to follow them in there so they're safe but homeboy is still waiting outside to eat them, so they're forced to stay there until morning or until he gets bored and leaves.

Kram and Phupha snuggle together for warmth because of course they do and in the middle of the night, Phupha realizes that Kram has a fever.

The next morning, Phupha sees that Kram hasn't gotten any better so he decides to go and get help for him. Luckily the tiger is gone, so he leaves the cave and marks himself a path so he can find his way back. When he exits the forest, he sees Kram's dad and a group of villagers talking amongst themselves. They'd been looking for the two of them since they hadn't returned from their walk and are very relieved to see Phupha.

Phupha tells everyone what happened and they go back for Kram, and this is where things get very weird. He notices that the branches he broke to mark his path aren't broken anymore and when he and the villagers arrive at the cave, the weeds that were covering the cave entrance are thicker than they were before. And Kram?

Kram is fucking gone.

He is straight up gone. He is not in the cave where Phupha left him despite being sick and unable to move because of his injured leg. Phupha obviously begins questioning his sanity as a search gets underway.

Fifty people including police search the forest for two entire days to absolutely zero avail. Kram is nowhere to be found. It's like the forest swallowed him whole and Phupha is feeling so guilty and Kram's dad is being so kind and not blaming him at all and it's all very fraught.

The search is paused on the third day because of heavy rain but that's not about to stop Phupha. He needs to find Kram and he's in the forest desperately wracking his mind for every last detail of the path he took from the cave and the surroundings while rain is pouring down on him. He thinks he might've found the right spot and sees a cave, but passes out before he can reach it.

When he wakes up, he's back at Kram's house being tended to by Duandow, Kram's childhood friend (we'll get to her in a bit). First thing he does is ask about Kram and miracle of miracles, KRAM HAS BEEN FOUND AND IS OKAY! His leg wasn't broken and he's in rough shape after not having any food or water for a couple days but he's expected to make a full recovery.

Duandow tells him that the cave Kram was found in--the one Phupha passed out in front of--was in an area that had already been searched by the police and that the locals believe that dark magic blocked the entrance to it, which is why they hadn't been able to find Kram before.

If that sounds really goddamn weird to you, THAT'S BECAUSE IT IS. Something fucky is going on with this forest but there are absolutely no answers I can give you as to the why and the how. The novel hasn't given us anything yet.

Phupha and Kram

Another huge difference between the show and the novel is just how much the relationship between Phupha and Kram progresses and how physical it actually is. In the show we only get a few kisses and some snuggling but they go a lot further in the novel.

A lot further.

After the tiger and the fucky forest trauma bond them, they're hanging out on the mountain near Kram's house one evening and as they get to talking and open up to each other some more, they're interrupted by a swarm of fireflies. Kram tries to catch one for Phupha but can't quite manage it, and somehow they end up very close together again.

SO THEY KISS ABOUT IT. AGAIN.

Not only do they kiss about it, clothes start coming off and things start getting hot and heavy before Kram's dad calls up and interrupts them. He doesn't actually see anything (since they're horizontal and shielded by the brush) but he does notice the state they're in when they come down.

Which leads me nicely to the painting.

The Nude Portrait

Remember the nude portrait Kram did of Phupha? In the show, it comes about after Kram accidentally paints Scarface Tai. Phupha sees the painting and realizes how skilled Kram is and hires Kram to paint him.

In the novel, Kram shows Phupha a spare room where he stores all his works and as they're looking through them, Phupha comes across a nude portrait Kram had done of DUANDAOW. KRAM'S CHILDHOOD FRIEND.

Kram tells him that she had agreed to pose for him one day so he could practice painting figures, as all artists do, and Phupha gets all quiet and grumpy and jealous about it. So what does he do? Hire Kram to paint a nude portrait for him like the one Kram had done for Duandaow.

If you'll recall, this is pretty much what happens in the show when Tai asks Kram do paint a nude portrait of him. He gets jealous because Kram had done one of Phupha and asks for one just like it. It seems like the writers reworked that bit since they also wrote out that Kram had done a portait of Duandaow.

And that's not all they reworked.

The painting session with Phupha in the novel begins the same as it does in the show. Kram is doing his thing while Phupha looks all pretty with his cloth in the river. But just like the nude painting scene with Tai, Kram starts getting distracted because of how good Phupha looks.

And I just have to say, the author always makes a point to describe how beautiful Phupha is, but I especially appreciate them taking the time to tell us that Phupha has lovely ample breasts and pretty nipples. Especially because wiping sweat off those lovely ample breasts is what brings Kram so very close to Phupha for the third time. Except this time, they don't just kiss about it.

THEY FUCK ABOUT IT. RIGHT BY THE RIVER. AND THEN GO RIGHT BACK TO THE PAINTING SESSION WHEN THEY'RE DONE.

In the show, this painting scene is where we get their first kiss but as you have seen, beloved reader, we are several kisses in by this point in the novel

Dilok

It's after this that we cut to Kram's dad's perspective for a bit, and I only mention this because it's so goddamn funny and also serves to highlight a few of important points.

The man is just so endearingly oblivious. He saw how disheveled Kram and Phupha were when they came down from the mountain as I mentioned above and assumes they fought each other after having an argument. This man interpreted two horizontal silhouettes moving together as a FIST FIGHT. He assumes they're angry at each other when they won't even look at each other.

THIS MAN THINKS KRAM AND PHUPHA ARE FIGHTING TO THE DEATH EVERY TIME THEY GO UP TO THE MOUNTAIN AND COME BACK LOOKING SWEATY AND FLUSHED AND RUMPLED AND IF THAT'S NOT THE FUNNIEST THING GODDAMN THING I'VE EVER READ I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS.

In one instance, Dilok catches Phupha leaving Kram's bedroom early in the morning and believes Phupha when he tells him he "fell asleep" after he and Kram "talked" all night. Dilok even thinks to himself how proud he is that they're so mature and communicate so well! I love Dilok so much, you don't understand.

That aside, however, his hilarious misinterpretation tells us that unlike in the show, Kram and Phupha are fucking on the reg. And bear in mind that Kram still technically has an ash exchange ceremony coming up with Duandaow but before I get into everything with her, I wanted to share this passage where Dilok happens upon both her and Phupha's portraits because it says something important about Kram's relationship with Duandaow. Also because I love it.

Duandaow

Duandaow's presence is yet another major difference between the novel and the show.

The show doesn't tell us a whole lot about her. We know only that she has an ash exchange ceremony coming up with Kram and that when she realizes that Kram has feelings for Phupha, she takes herself out of the equation so they can be together.

The novel gives us so much more. She's featured prominently when Kram disappears in the forest, she cares for Phupha when he passes out, she appears every time Phupha goes to her grandmother's store to get medicine for Kram, and of course there's the fact that Kram painted her.

She has been in love with Kram her whole life. In addition to getting her history, we learn that they've known each other since childhood and that they were very close since they were the only two children in the village that were the same age. And it's partially because there's no one else for either them that being with Kram is a foregone conclusion to her and it's why she assumes that's the case for him as well.

She confesses to Kram and he responds with something along the lines of "Who would I love if not you? It's just us here." It's not an "I love you, too" but she takes it that way. Kram literally has no one else so his response may seem sweet but to me, it reads as him accepting on some level that there's no other option and settling.

I do think he cares deeply for Duandaow but I don't think he's in love with her. Several things drive this home for me (including that passage above) but the one that stands out the most is actually when they lose their virginity to each other.

It happens one day after they go swimming together (at the infamous waterfall I might add). She makes the first move and he hesitates at first but he gets swept up in the moment and it's all very shy and sweet. Thing is, after it happens, Kram keeps things strictly friendly between them. So much so that she thinks the whole thing got wiped from his memory.

And this sense of "who else if not you" persists pretty much their whole lives up until this point. They have an ash exchange ceremony coming up because why wouldn't they? There's no other option. Oh, the comphet of it all.

She isn't stepping aside for Phupha because she doesn't realize there's something between him and Kram. She notices something there that makes her suspicious but those suspicions are nebulous at best. It never occurs to her that they could have any relationship beyond friendship because why would they?

The Other Love Triangle

Phupha has had silent, one-sided beef with Duandaow ever since he saw that painting of her. He's polite to her but just barely, he doesn't make any effort at friendliness or real conversation. He's jealous and he has good reason to be, because he and Kram haven't declared any feelings for each other or had the "what are we" conversation.

Not only that, there is an ash exchange ceremony coming up. Phupha has no idea what that ceremony is until he asks Kram's dad one day and Dilok tells him IT'S A MARRIAGE CEREMONY. Show!Kram had some nerve getting pissy at Phupha for having a fiancee he didn't tell Kram about when Kram had one too!

Here Phupha is, so very in love and in a very physical relationship with Kram, and then he learns Kram is about to get married to someone else. He doesn't know whether Kram returns his feelings, he doesn't know where he stands, there's been no hint of calling off the wedding, so what does he do?

He takes himself out of the equation just like Duandaow does in the show.

Phupha chooses not to confess his feelings to Kram, he spends one last night snuggling him, and then he takes the L and quietly goes back to his life in Rattha.

Oh, what's that you say? You wanted some salt in that wound? How about the fact that KRAM GOES THROUGH WITH THE CEREMONY AND MARRIES DUANDAOW?

More? HE ONLY REALIZES HIS FEELINGS FOR PHUPHA AFTER HE'S ALREADY GONE AND ONLY MARRIES DUANDAOW OUT OF OBLIGATION AND BECAUSE PHUPHA IS NO LONGER THERE.

It's a MESS and there is no resolution for it because the novel translation isn't done!

*screams*

Tai

You might have noticed that I haven't really talked about Tai and that's because he only shows up once in these few chapters we have so far. The ones that take place in World 1, that is. But boy howdy does he come in with a bang when he does. Literally.

When Phupha hires Kram to paint him, Kram asks him to take him into the city as payment. There's an arts festival happening and Kram wanted to go so he could show off his dad's paintings.

Everything is going lovely, everyone is having a good time. At least until Duandaow shows up and Phupha turns into a salty salmon about it but we already talked about her.

The brand new chief of police has been asked to make a speech to inaugurate the festival and a short while after he gets on stage to make it, there is a bang. It's followed by screams and a second bang.

Tai showed up at the festival, shot an officer in the gut, and then killed the chief in cold blood to get revenge for the chief recently killing his father.

Bedlam ensues. People are screaming and terrified and fleeing the scene and Tai is looking to flee the scene too, but it just so happens that Kram is blocking his escape route. Tai shouts for him to move but something comes over Kram and he's not budging. Doesn't matter how much Tai threatens him or how much Phupha pleads with him, Tai belongs to the gang that killed his mother and he ain't moving.

My boy doesn't move even when Tai points a gun in his face. That's how much he hates this man and everything he represents. And Tai fully intends to kill him, but there's a moment where he locks eyes with Kram and something shifts within him.

There's a shot, but because we switch to Duandaow's perspective in that moment, we don't know exactly what happens. We know only that the shot missed and that Phupha rushed to hug Kram to his body and shield him from the shot.

Kram was in point blank range. There was no way in hell that shot missed unless that's what Tai intended. But that's all we've gotten of Tai in World 1 so far so there hasn't been a chance to dig into anything more.

The Stabbing of Viroj

There's one more thing I wanna mention, which also happens to be the stopping point for the translation at this time.

In the show, in World 1, Phupha's biological father Viroj gets attacked after Phupha and Kram go talk to him about the incident in the gallery with Tai and the conversation Phupha had with his father.

In the novel, that conversation with Adisak and Phupha's aunt and stepmother takes place right after Phupha goes back to Rattha and for the subsequent conversation with Viroj, Phupha is obviously alone.

The circumstances that precede the stabbing at a little different but that's a whole other tangent so I'm not gonna get into it. The rest of it is largely the same as in the show.

Someone breaks in, stabs Viroj, Phupha hears a scream and comes upon the scene, he has the realization about his hemophilia, he calls an ambulance and the police.

Only a few details are different. In the novel, he does actually manage to call for help but help never comes so he decides to take Viroj to the hospital himself. Unfortunately Viroj dies before Phupha can take him.

After his death, Phupha calls his dad Adisak to tell him that someone killed Viroj and to ask him to call for help. Adisak does, and when Phupha gets a call from the paramedics asking for more information, the paramedic asks where the patient was stabbed.

Problem is, Phupha never told Adisak that Viroj had been stabbed. Phupha immediately suspects that Adisak knows more about the attack than he let on and was possibly even behind it.

This is as far as the translation has taken us so I have to stop here. Sometime before the finale I'm gonna write up part two to this absolute saga, which will be the differences between World 2 in the novel and show.

If you've read this far, thank you. You're lovely and I love you. ❤️

[missycolorful]

omgg, i saw a few posts about the glass child stuff but never really got too into it bc i felt like they were always missing something. i wasn't really sure what that was until i saw your post, where you mentioned lullahs abandonment issues, and everything just clicked. it just all makes sense now bc i know one of the biggest proponents to the "chays STILL a glass child" is qphils seemingly continuing to prioritize lullah over chay, when looking back at most of said moments it does feel more like a dad making sure the child who was abandoned doesnt feel like that ever again. i also feel like some of the issues come with qphils falling into habits, lullah hasn't really needed extra help in a while, but i don't feel as if that notion has fully into qphils mind yet. i would just love if both lullah and chay got one on one time with qphil bc i love them together, but i think each of them often times holds something back for the others' sake, y'know? lullah and bads and/or chay and tubbos recent solo hangouts kinda showcase the difference in dynamic. anyways, tl;dr you have amazing insight and an attention to detail that i, and i feel like a majority of others, missed out on, and i would love to see more character analysis/insights done by you, if you're interested of course!

oh my goodness, thank you you're far too kind, haha!! 😭

yeah, tbh, I'm kinda surprised that part of Phil's reasoning was either not considered or even ignored. When he mentioned them "being alone," Tallulah's abandonment issues instantly came to mind; it's a huge part of her arc, y'know? So, yeah I can't see this as him accommodating Lullah's disabilities while disregarding Chay; rather, it was him thinking about her literal trauma. If it were switched (Chay had these issues, not Lullah), Phil would go for him in a heartbeat. Why people spun it as "he wasn't worried about Chay" is wild to me.

i also feel like some of the issues come with qphils falling into habits,

mhhm, that's about the crux of it. Yes, q!Phil has trained Tallulah in PVP , and neither he nor Chay recently hover over her during pvp, but when it comes to adjusting to how much his kids have changed, we're still getting there. And not just cuz of, like I said, being separated during Purgatory makes it hard for Phil to grasp what they went through. But bc he himself isn't quite in tune with his own emotions/trauma. It's a detriment to helping his children and growing as a parent, and is part of his own character growth that he is surely yet steadily going through.

And YES! I'd LOVE for the kids to have one-on-ones with Philza. They usually come in pairs, which y'know, is what makes a lot of these issues so difficult. The kids don't have time to be alone with their father, bc they're typically online with him at the same time. I crave that sole father/son bonding, not just bc they need it, but because I love their dynamic so much <3

tbh, i usually limit my character analysis to my main POV, sometimes others if I feel confident enough (i.e. Missa, Baghera). Last thing I wanna do is write analysis that does injustice to a character - any cc!phil fan knows this pain, both in this fandom and others lol! and also some characters I'm admittedly… kinda scared to talk about bc some fans get uber defensive if you talk about any of their negative traits; all fanbases have people like this, of course, crows are NO exception, but this one specifically just… I'd need to be prompted to discuss this character whom I won't specify haha. regardless, if you or anyone else ever wants to ask about my insights on qsmp characters, whether q!Phil or others, I'm more than willing to at least give it a try. thank you again! :)

[marshmellowtea]

For fun: any agereg headcanons for Will Clarke :0

oh my gosh so many you have no idea alkgjdaslkf. i know i've made posts about him before but i don't think i've made a headcanon compilation post for him yet (and if i have uhhh i forgor 💀) so i'm gonna use this ask as an excuse to do that hope you're ready—

i already know this is gonna get long so i'm gonna put it under a readmore. tws for mentions of canon abuse and cults, and discussion of diapers. let me know if i should warn for anything else <3

will generally regresses anywhere between 0-5, but usually he hovers near the 1-3 end of that spectrum. he baby

his main caregivers are mike, tanya, and yu (who i like to picture adopting him in a happier au 🥲), but martha, ellie, and fisher and hutchins (for my tedfishyu fans out there lol) also step in from time to time. i think jimmy also sometimes looks after him but that's usually when he and regina have playdates (i also headcanon her as a regressor but that's a thought for another time lol)

i think mrs. hutchins steps in to look after him from time to time too, especially before he's taken in by his adopted family (which she's also a part of i'm not leaving her out, she's just there first and before it's official lol). i don't think she knew he was regressing per se, she just knew he was a vulnerable teenager who acted kinda childlike sometimes so she did her best to look after him when he needed it <3

lila also pops in from time to time in nice aus where she exists still, either as a headmate or as a separate person—she's my beautiful, evil babygirl so i usually tend to write her in somehow lol. i see her as a regressor leaning flip but she only ever really looks out for will, and she's more of a big sister figure to him than anything.

will is not picky about using caregiver titles, lol. if you're looking after him there is a strong chance you will get called mama/papa/dada at some point, even if you're just a babysitter and especially if he's regressed super duper young. i think they're like verbal stims for him when he's little, so unless you're tanya, mike, yu, ted, mrs. hutchins or fisher he doesn't necessarily think of you as a parental caregiver, he just really likes saying those terms :') and yes this is a bit of a projection on my part lol

will is not a permaregressor per se, but i do think once he finds his family he spends a lot of time regressed due to being forced to grow up too fast and the abuse he suffered from his mom and the fraternity (and lila, depending on the au. i love her but she's also canonically a villain and sometimes i do explore that in agere aus)

he's also definitely a padded regressor, i think he has a lot of incontinence issues due to disability and the aforementioned trauma that get exacerbated when he's little so it's just better to keep him in diapers or pull ups. i think they also just generally make him feel safe and comfortable, so he doesn't mind wearing them—he did have shame about it at first for needing them, but his found family has been nothing but supportive and kind about it so he's able to embrace needing them and find comfort in them :')

he has so many soft and comfy clothes!! onesies, big t-shirts (many of them stolen from his cgs hehe), overalls, super soft sweaters, and a few nightgowns/dresses/spinny skirts cuz gnc will reigns supreme in my head lmao. i think he has a wide variety of styles too because basically all of his caregivers have bought or lent him him clothes at some point and they all have drastically different styles so what he's wearing highly depends on who's looking after him and what cute outfit they wanna see him in XD

he enjoys it though! it's kinda fun being their dress up doll sometimes, especially cuz they like to coo at him and take pictures of him when they dress him up. it makes him feel very pretty and loved <3

honestly will doesn't really care much about gender in general, and that's doubled when he's little. he has a wide variety of toys ranging from traditionally "masculine" like trains and legos to traditionally "feminine" like play dress up costumes and a gorgeous dollhouse he got for christmas one year. i'm also shamelessly stealing this headcanon from @whenthedeeppurplefalls but he also lovessss puppets and has a handful of those as well, along with a puppet theater lovingly handmade by mike and tanya for a different christmas (or his birthday, i haven't decided lol)

honestly a lot of these headcanons have probably been at least partially stolen from tanya so shout out to her give her some appreciation <3

his taste in tv shows is similarly varied i think. going back to the puppet thing his faves are definitely the muppet show and sesame street but i like to think he's also a strawberry shortcake, scooby doo, my little pony and blue's clues kid also projection don't worry about it, pfft. he'll watch most things without complaint but those are his faves :)

he's a very touch starved kid so he can get pretty physically clingy sometimes and it's very adorable 🥹 sometimes he goes through periods of touch aversion (usually due to trauma flashbacks or overstimulation) but most of the time he wants to be close to his cgs so he's frequently being held in their arms or lap or just holding their hand waugh

generally will's a really easy kid. he's very sweet and doesn't like to act out, and if he does act out it's usually cuz he's overstimulated or having a bad brain day, and occasionally he will have meltdowns. his cgs have developed gentle protocols for dealing with those days and ways to prevent them because it is NOT fun to see their baby hurting and upset :(

loooooves playing pretend, especially if he gets to play an animal :3

he loves animals in general, whether it's watching shows about them or being read books about them. he canonically feels a kinship with them after all!

related but every time he's taken to the zoo or aquarium it's the best day of his life aglkjdsklfjd. he also likes going to the library and the park, and sometimes for a special occasion his family takes him to an amusement park or festival where he gets to go on the rides (it's very stimulating for him in a good way, you know how little kids like to be thrown around sometimes? it's like that <3)

he's pretty clumsy even out of headspace so his balance is naturally even worse when he's in headspace alkgjadsklf. his caregivers often have to catch him when he wobbles, and if he's younger than two, they often need to carry him (at that point he's usually crawling anyway, but if there's places he needs to go that's when they just ask if they can scoop him up......assuming he hasn't already asked to be carried, that is 🥺)

okay this has gotten out of hand so i'll end it here lol, but god i have. so many thoughts about this kid i forgot how much i loved little will waaauuugh 🥹🥰

[seeminglydark]

Forgive me if this is weird to say, but as someone who really struggles to get attached to his own ocs out if fear of seeming cringe (and trying really hard to break out of thar) I really admire how much you unabashedly love your characters and how much it shows in your art

hahaha its not weird to say at all, I actually also struggle with this. I get a lot of self embarrassment and feel cringe about the fact that i draw the same things all the time, i dunno if that helps to hear. Sometimes I even refrain from posting things for a few days, or i wont post them in places like patreon or my patreon server or something cuz i have this fear of 'Oh Not Again.'

I think what helps me is remembering that first and foremost, I created my ocs for ME. I draw them for me. everything I do, its for me, coping mechanisms, self therapy, working through issues, or just for fun and aesthetic. They are extensions of me, and loving them is basically learning to love me. I put the care i should have been giving myself all this time into them, and it weirdly helps with my own self love journey, cuz honestly I feel pretty cringe most of the time and like i dont belong in most spaces. My ocs ease that, its a way of putting my heart and thoughts on paper so to speak.

These days i tell myself if people get bored, or dont want to see characters, or think im cringey, they have the freedom to unfollow. The internet is a vast place. When people are jerks about it, which I'll be honest, has happened WAY less than my brain tells me it will, i ignore and move on. No one has to be here. Has it happened? Yeah once or twice maybe, but compared to the positive messages I get its really rare. it's more that i think the rejection hurts us more when we hear it, I combat this by keeping a document where I've copy pasted all the comments/tags/dms that made me feel good, that way i can read through it and remind myself most people that are here love what i do. i like to think thats why people followed me.

And you know what, its so hard to separate ourselves from what people think of us, so remember the good things, cuz its incredibly rewarding that theres people who DO wanna be here. That love them maybe just as much as me. That feeling is WAY Bigger than the cringe feeling. The fact that i CAN be obsessive and cringe and people are on this ride with me? Holy Shit like I cant even describe how good that feels.

Create first and foremost for you. Thats the win, right there. And if it so happens others want to walk that road with you, well you've already won by creating so thats just a really cool bonus. Remember the kind interactions you have with people.They mean so much more than the negative ones. Love your ocs cuz they are a part of you in some kinda way and you deserve that love and care too.

-RJ

[nymph-ette111]

Hello! I’m grateful you wrote my request and this is in no way me complaining, I only want to answer what you said about accuracy and all. I’m well aware than npd is not well researched so I’m putting this more so as a way to give you more insight than complain about your portrayal, I’m chill with it. Sorry for the long message. It’s kinda hard putting this stuff into words, but I want to bc I’ve seen one too many posts about all ppl with npd needing to be ‚separated from the society, put down or castrated to stop their kind from spreading’ so I’m not about to waste an opportunity to put out a different perspective. If you don’t want to publically respond I’m chill with that, this is just some info for you if you wanna know more

I really resonated with the part where you said Toby loves like a dog because that’s also the metaphor I use to explain npd. Bc it kinda feels like you’re a dog, you love like one certainly. It feels like you were raised for cagefights. They taught you when you need to bite to survive and get a pat on the back. Taught you that if you didn’t, things get ugly for you. Taught you that everybody is a threat. You have never been prepared to read emotions because surviving and winning were always synonymous and both consumed your youth too much to genuinely learn social clues. And maybe, now you’re out of that place. And suddenly you’re expected to be a good dog, to love and be soft and kind. But the best you can do is act and frantically look around the room for a sign of a threat, because at this point you expects to be hurt. Sometimes you still bite. You know how to fight for your life but you flinch when someone wants to hug you. You’re mean and bitter at heart because as far as you know anyone could hurt you for any mistake you make. Showing weaknesses is out of the question, so you put on a mask. You need to be the best and to be perfect because you know what happened when you weren’t. You hate yourself for every mistake and see that as a life-or-death threat. You seek patterns to be safe and you learn to respond well to things without knowing why you should perform a certain way. You remember that when you used to make a wrong step, it was hell for you. And it’s hard to make a connection when you fear everybody hurting you. When you can’t grasp why anybody would keep you around if you’re not benefitting them. So you act like you’re great and hope that people believe you enough to think you’re worth having around

When I met my roommate in the school dorms I really liked her. A few weeks into knowing her, she started giving me food and trinkets. And many times, though I acted with all the gratitude that I always had to show and I did all the things you’re supposed to do, I felt lost. Because I wasnt very useful to her. She had no benefit from giving me things. Shamefully, I do admit I sat there alone tearing up at a chocolate bar or two that she left for me because it felt so confusingly nice(?) and I still don’t know why she does it. But of course I know (by observation) that people are uncomfortable when others question things like that. So I don’t, I just try to be useful and hope she decides I’m convenient to have (a ‚pleasure to have in class’ of sorts)

With manipulation it’s hard to say how much of it is true because most of the diagnostics were based off of male case studies and generally when the label of ‚npd’ has been slapped on someone, most things they do are seen as kind of evil. I know I do avoid conflict and use my words to my advantage if I feel threatened, yeah. Just yesterday had a friend getting progressively more heated at me (we have very different opinions on things as it turned out) and I did subtly framed it as ‚I thought you were more mature than that, it’s really childish to blow up on me’ bc I know he feels like the group doesn’t treat him seriously. Is it good? Maybe not, but a threat is a threat and I’m not about find out what he does when he gets really angry lol

As to the ‚look at me, I’m the best’ kind of thing, you have to put yourself first because you’ve been put last by everyone else. In a sense, it really does feel like fighting for your life and then being thrown into a setting where nobody had that growing up so you feel like you need to act like them and count days before everything turns ugly again because it’s hard to believe most people aren’t cruel and dangerous. That’s all you’ve known and all you prepared for

So you have a hard time forming honest connections. You feel like an empty shell and discard your smile as soon as you’re through the door. You’re tired. And you don’t know how to act in this new world. So you still do what you need to survive, despite everyone telling you that it’s not about that anymore

Like, ofc I have some personality. I know I like making music and enjoy a quiet evening. I know others tell me I’m fun at parties, funny, charming. Sometimes it’s hard to tell what is me and what is my survival instinct kicking in though. The way I see it, the modern mirror of Narcissus is in other people’s eyes. And I just try to do anything to keep seeing admiration instead of hatred in them

To be fair I feel like that would work (somewhat) with the creeps, because they aren't super well either and someone who can see patterns in their behavior (how they act when something is wrong etc) could work better bc I don't see then opening up and talking about feelings either. Sure, all those things kinda suggest that they could also mentally destroy me if they wanted (but I would let them bc I love them, especially your portrayal of ben 😌😌). Also I heve a feeling BEN is the kind of guy to show you gore videos for fun and talk about tormenting others for funsies so inability to emotionally connect with others would probably make it easier to enjoy yourself around him lmao idk about others probably trauma bonding would work?? Lol

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HELLO?? I FUCKING LOVE THE WAY YOU DESCRIBE THINGS OH MY GOD I'll try to respond to every point in this message because I really like it and thank you for reaching out so often I love when people interact with me :) literally get so excited once I see that little star emoji at the end of requests because I know it's you lol. I mostly based the headcanons off of people on Quora (other than more research on different sites) since it's people with said disorder talking about personal experiences and other people who don't have npds' interaction with people who do have it.

I fucking love when people use the dog metaphors for toby when writing him.

I agree on the point that some creeps would have this, Jeffrey comes to mind, I feel like a lot brush him off as an evil person but I see it as a sort of defense mechanism for him? I can definitely see Jeff relating to this for sure.

IM SO HAPPY YOU LIKE MY PORTRAYAL OF BEN X3 and that's so true I literally mentioned it in one of my headcanons like that stinky fucker would show you gore and legit go 'its not even that bad' when you start freaking out. Definitely pops up those videos on your devices randomly. He's so annoying I love him.

One thing I don't like about creepypasta headcanons that revolve around the reader having a personality disorder is the creators make them act so...nice? Like I know that's what people want to read but let's be honest these serial killers never experienced a day of comfort in their lives, I genuinely don't see them being all that nice about it unless it's more of the kinder creeps like Liu or Jane or Nina but even then they'd be awkward about it. The most they'd do is notice (unless you straight up tell them) and that's it. I wouldn't say they would straight up fucking degrade you for having a disorder but I don't see them caring because they're all traumatized, I don't see them sympathizing with reader so yeah that's something that kinda bugs me in creepypasta headcanons.

[ultaslodgings]

[Spoilers for both CoV and CoC True Neutral ending!]

Okay, recently I made a post about how after we get separated from Aogami, the menu music disappears. (loved seeing the reactions I got from people who hadn't noticed)

And I realised that maybe some might not know whyyy this is so interesting, so I wanna go on a small rant about some OST motifs :)!

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With that said, "It Seems Knowledge is in Control", the menu theme in question.

Why is a menu theme of all things so important? Turns out, it's the core melody behind the last track of the True Neutral ending, "The World of Humanity", with it being a slowed down version of said menu theme, with an added "SMTV Main Theme" motif at the beginning.

And whyy is a menu theme suddenly the core melody behind the most important ending of CoC? Beats me, but for the longest time I theorised that the track is in some way the MCs theme.

And that seemingly got further supported by the new Vengeance track, called "Aogami and the young man". Which yes, that is the track that plays in the cutscene where we get separated from Aogami. And its core melody is once again that menu theme.

But the fact that after Aogami left, the menu theme did too, suggests that the theme has some connection to him too. Which honestly makes this even more painful? The track seemed so linked to the MC, and yet the moment Aogami left, the track did too. It's like an added feeling of "Oh, you just lost a part of yourself" :'D Honestly you can think of a lot of angsty reasons behind why the menu theme vanished.

And that's it!

If I missed anything I'd love to hear it and add it in.

But as a side extra bit of information, I did also pick apart "Aogami and the young man" to see what other motifs or interesting things I could find, so if you're curious, keep reading!

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This is all I could pick up on after some listens, so it may not be everything. Enjoy!

- The beginning portion of the track is comprised of two melodies, a foreground and background one, with the foreground being the aforementioned menu theme, and the background being Aogami's simplified motif (which is best heard in the tracks "If you wish to live, take my hand" and the beginning of "My power is yours")

((And the reason I call it "simplified" is because the track "I Entrust the World to you" emplifies that simple up and down vocal sound tenfold, and I personally believe its his theme.))

- That simplified mofit then gets slowly replaced by a heartbeat, which slows down drastically in the last few moments of the track.

- And in those said few moments of the track, the last melody we hear is a smidge of the Main theme motif, which is slowed down, before everything fades and we hear one last hearbeat.

For only a minute long track, it's kinda insane I think-

[trippygalaxy]

Hello!

I Just read two of your sleepwalkers post and wanted to request a third on warrior, wind, ravio and hyrule with a sleepwalker reader? If you have the time.

Hi lovely anon! I recently updated my rules and I will only go up to three characters for each headcanon. I'm doing this so I don't get overwhelmed by doing too many characters! So, for this I will stick with our Linkie boys but if you really wanna, you can request Ravio separately when my requests open up again!

Paring: Warriors, Wind, Hyrule x gn!reader (separately) Warnings: (Wind) mention of broken nose/blood Part 1 Part 2

Warriors

Warriors, being a captain of an army, has some experience when it came to those who suffered from sleepwalking.

When he realized that you too had this condition, he could empathize with your frustrations. He has seen his soldiers and remembers their annoyance with their sore bodies and tired minds.

Your first defender if one of the other boys try and pull some stupid prank while your in the middle of a sleep.

he knows from first hand experience that bothering/waking someone while they're in the middle of sleepwalking is not the best idea. both for the waker and the sleeper.

During his night shifts, he'll sit right next to your sleeping more. He'll run his hands through your hair or rub circles on your arm. If you ask why, he'll make some joke about how he just wants to be close to you.

And while that is true, he is also trying to lull you into a deeper sleep, hoping it will stop you from waking up. He knows the toll it takes not only on your mind but also your body.

Hyrule

A true sweetheart! Doesn't really understand how or why this is happening to you but is there when you need to voice your frustrations.

He is well aware of what the lack of sleep can do to someone's mind and hates to see that happen to you. The way your eyes sulked and shoulders slumped. He missed the bright sparkles that shined in your eyes

Hyrule was determined to make sure you held your spark. Letting you take naps while the party made a mid day breaks, making sure you ate enough to keep your energy high.

You're emotions are valid and he is gonna make sure you KNOW that. Its okay to be mad and frustrated, but that's not your fault. Lets talk out some ideas that could help you, okay?

If one of the other boys try to make a snarky comment, Hyrule is the first to shut it down, not being a afraid to put the boy back in place.

If you want, he'll try some naturals medicines. Essential oils, crushed herbs, random potions he concocted (which don't look...the most appealing but its a sweet gesture.)

Wind

TROUBLE MAKER!!! IN BIG BOLD LETTERS!!

This boy has some how conditioned your subconscious mind to help me with pranks?? You honestly don't know if you should be impressed or concerned.

You are surprisingly sneaky in your unconscious state, which is a grand help when Wind is in need of s partner in crime to help steal a few items!

Wind had done one, ONE, prank on you in your sleep and that ended very poorly. I mean, by the end of it Wind had a bloody nose and you were absolutely terrified to your bones.

You two made up eventually, having not talked for a about a week after the events. After that, he never played a prank on you again, whilst you were asleep or awake.

Wind did think it was kinda cool though, how even in your sleep you were still a badass!

He has tried to sleep on top of you to keep you in place and...stop sleepwalking but uhh...You very easily pushed him off.

Apologizes for any typos or weird ass grammar!

[tinythiefalex]

Future Plans for the Ouran AU

Now that episode 2 is done posting, I wanted to discuss what I'm probably gonna do with this au next, just in case anyone was curious.

I will not be doing the episodes in order, meaning the next episode will not be episode 3 of the series, mostly because I think that's kinda boring.

Under the 'read more' I've made a list of what episodes I probably will and won't want to write for this, and a brief explanation.

If you have an argument against one of my "no" or "maybes," or an idea entirely separate from the canon, let me know! I am open to ideas and suggestions!

Episode 1 + 2 -Already Done

3: Beware the Physical Exam: probably not. Not a lot of g/t potential until over halfway through, I don't wanna write that much set up and I'm sure y'all don't wanna read it

4: Attack of the Lady Manager: No. Barely any Haruhi and I'm just not a big fan of Renge

5: The Twins Fight: No. Good episode but idk how | would make it g/t

6: The Grade School Host is the Naughty Type: No. Not enough Haruhi

7: Jungle Pool SOS: Yes. Love this episode and I think it could be fun

8: The Sun, The Sea, and The Host Club: Yes 100%. I know it has that one scene but I've already thought of how to write around it. The other parts are just so good and would make awesome g/t moments

9: A Challenge from Lobelia Girls Academy: No. Haruhi with the giant Lobelia girls would be cool but I just don't really like this episode

10: A Day in the Life of the Fujioka Family: Maybe. I hvae a few ideas but there are also some logistical problems I'd have to work out first. I love Haruhi's dad and really want to introduce them into the story (with more respectful language of course)

11: Big Brother is a Prince: Yes! Absolutely! I want to make the little girl a human (maybe adopted by the Nekozowas to explain that) and I think her and Tamaki would be adorable. Plus it'd be great to have a human other than Haruhi in the story

12: Honey's Three Bitter Days: No. I like this episode but there's not enough g/t potential to make it worth writing

13: Haruhi in Wonderland: Maybe. Wonderland and g/t go hand in hand but I just don't know how I would make it unique

14: Covering the Famous Host Club: Kind of a yes/no. Right now the most I'd want to do is a one-shot of the club playing the games, and exclude the newspaper club storyline

15: The Refreshing Battle in Karuizawa: Maybe. The idea of the giant hosts entertaining people in a human town is really cool, but I'm just not sure about the logistics of it. Maybe it'll be a giant-human co-town or something idk.

16: Operation Haruhi and Hikaru's First Date: Yes Yes Yes this would be so adorable (plus Hikaru losing a tiny Haruhi in the storm would be so dramatic I love it)

17: Kyoya's Reluctant Day Out: Probably not. Just not a very interesting episode

18: Chika's 'Down with Honey' Declaration: Nah.

Thought about making Chika a Human but then decided against it

19: Lobelia Girls Academy Strikes Back: Maybe. I don't really care for the Lobelia girls but I do like the idea of a kidnapped Haruhi storyline

20: The Doors the Twins Opened: No. Haruhi is entirely absent, nothing would be different.

21: Until the Day it Becomes a Pumpkin: Yes. A good bit would probably be cut out but there are parts I think would be a lot of fun. Love me a good halloween special

22: Mori-Senpai has an Apprentice Candidate: Yes! I love love love Kasanoda and his interactions with Haruhi would be amazing, especially since she's not scared of him (might make his assistant guy a human too) (Haruhi could be Kasanoda’s “lovely item” lol)

23: Tamaki's Unwitting Depression: Maybe. Since this is a direct continuation of the last episode I'd probably just bundle parts of this into the ending of that story instead of writing the whole episode

24: And so Kyoya Met Him: No. Haruhi is absent

The final 2 episodes: No. At least, not for a long time.Seeing as this is the end of the show, I don't want to write myself into a corner and not be able to continue the way I want

[unhinged-summer-fun]

idle thoughts/writer wregrets (ignore me)

in the eventual book that common grounds will become i definitely need to incorporate "Sol" more deeply into the story - like it's not enough that i say he's their dad i gotta show him Being Their Dad some more especially considering all the [redacted] and [redacted] and of course the [redacted] with [redacted]. and like do i regret not fleshing out that part of the story as i posted it/am posting it now? not really. i look back on it as a missed opportunity really. however i started writing this with the romance as the main thing and i wanted to get it right, so my focus has been on that for the last 125,000 words. if i knew then what i know now about what this fic would become, i don't think i would have changed what i wrote. i have had the most fun writing about the romance and the dynamic between Osha and Qimir, Osha and Mae, and Osha and her new friends at Unplan.

(and on a completely separate yet integral-to-the-story note, Osha leaving behind the kinda paltry, watery friendships she couldn't maintain bc she 1) had no car 2) was injured 3) was/is depressed and 4) had someone else kinda controlling her own story (Vernestra) is like. what i'm really going thru rn. no car, injured, very depressed, and p much all my friends thought i was okay in my isolation because my cheating ex told them i was - but i had no way of correcting that. so like of course i'm not going to focus on the weird dad aspect of the story because it's not Me. and i said this in a post on main but pretty much everything i posted this year but the olympics thing have been me working through my personal everyday issues regarding loneliness, connection, self-worth, and reclamation of my own power and capability as a person. i'm so into writing Osha taking her fucking life back because i'm so into ME taking my life back. but anyway-)

i should never have told my grandma about 1) the concept of serial scrubbed fanfics-to-novel pipeline OR 2) the 1.1 million words i've written on ao3 in the last few years because you can guess what a boomer would have to say about those two facts. hOWEVER. i think that common grounds is possibly the most straightforward novel idea i've had, and idk i don't wanna be defeatist but the chance that someone would recognize acolyte fic is a lot lower than recognizing the last of us fic or star wars fic writ large.

but yeah like how the story is rn i know it doesn't SEEM like the plot is far removed/as involved as it could be (mainly bc i think my audience too is here for the liberation of Osha and the kissykisses from Qimir which we are all valid for LOL) but i think slowing the pace down at the start and establishing wtf is going on w Sol a little earlier (perhaps also burying Many Several Ledes) would allow the story another 50k+ of buffer room & allow the slow burn to burn even slower before the temple goes to theed

i also need to find more like characters that are like antagonistic toward Osha in general - like we have Yord and Vernestra (and to an extent Mae and Sol) but they represent concepts of like 'peer perception' and 'societal perception' respectively - Osha is also her own antagonist in many ways which makes 'personal perception' another angle to attack oneself from.

anyway ramblerambleramble i'll throw this in a document somewhere and come back to it when i need to remind myself what i am writing this for