#also idk like I only saw like the first half or so of the first season of the French so idk if Morgan becomes less activist or anticop
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Relationship charts of my ocs with the eltingville boys


this chart is not well made. I was getting sleepy so I just do the lazy way. also sorry if the texts are hard to read. idk why they look so ass quality. if you have a hard time reading it, go to ALT.
keep reading below for a detailed explanation of their relationships
Bill
Bill and Sabine had a bad start when Sabine and her twin sister, Farina moved to the neighbourhood. The girls' aunt suggested they meet other kids, which led them to Bill's house. Bill's mom welcomed them in but Bill, just waking up in his underwear, was not happy to find two unknown girls in his house. After a scolding from his mom, he awkwardly joined them. He attempted to make conversation, but his questions came off as disrespectful, especially mostly towards Sabine who reacted with eye rolls and glares. Sabine expressed her dislike for Bill, which angered him since he felt he was being polite. In response, Sabine warns him to stop his behaviour and not talk to her or touch her again. from then on, Bill and Sabine throw jabs at each other especially towards their respective clubs.
Farina on the other hand, feels indifferent toward Bill after their first meeting but believes he has some good in him. Farina gives him an apology letter for her sister's action. Bill pretty much don't care as long they don't annoy him during the summer. when Bill heard Farina opened her comic business at the local library, he was upset, thinking it could outdo Joe's comic book shop as there were many kids go to her and they all seem to like it. He gives in to check Farina's work by requesting a spider man story. after he read it, Bill hates to admit it, Farina's writing is good. but this made him more mad about the prospect of this one girl can overrun an already made establishment. so he rips the comic and throws it away. that same night, a rock flew into Bill's window, scaring him. a note was attached to it, saying "FIRST WARNING"
Josh
believe it or not, Josh is next doors neighbour with the twins aunt. so he was the first one for the twins to visit, but Josh immediately declined their introduction. during the club meeting, Bill gives Josh, Pete and Jerry a speech about the disruption of their summer break in the form of twin girls. like in Bill's case, Josh and Sabine have an immediate loathing to each other. the only notable interactions they have are short form roasts when they both take out the trash in the morning and night.
When Josh heard of Farina's business, he was mostly intrigued to see if a girl could write a good story for him. after he read it, he demands a refund and criticising her work is terrible and childish. interestingly, Farina asked Josh what was bad about her work so she could improve. as Josh rambles on hoping to break her spirit, Farina genuinely takes note from this and recommends books for helpful tips. since they're already in a library, Josh shows all the books for her writing and drawing. afterwards, Josh is shocked he indirectly helps a rival.
Pete
Pete first encountered Sabine when he's alone on a Tuesday smoking a cigarette in the back alleyways. She came out of nowhere and asked for a dart (Australian slang for cigarette). Pete was hesitant at first, but thinking Sabine is pretty, he gave her one for 10 bucks. She groans and pulls out cash for him. they both stand next to each other in silence. Pete tries to hold a conversation with her by asking about her scar, but Sabine declines as she doesn't want to see Pete wasting his breath to impress her. he rolls his eyes and agrees with her. now, every Tuesday, they both do the same routine of sharing cigarettes and standing in silence.
Pete first met Farina indirectly when he came home one Friday night and saw her in his kitchen and holding his baby sister. Pete discovered his mom hired Farina as a babysitter every Friday. Pete groans of interacting with the other half of the twins, especially with one trespassing his home. Pete mostly kept an eye on Farina but quickly realised how good she's handling his sister. he and Farina even bonded more when talking about R.L. Stine books. he personally doesn't like it as it is not on par with his taste but enjoys talking about the ghosts and monsters with her. but their bond immediately shattered when Pete asked Farina to draw gore. she is super uncomfortable with that topic and is now frantic around Pete. he apologised and while she accepted it, there is now a tense awkwardness between them.
Jerry
After the meeting about the twins, Jerry does not see the girls as a threat and wants to know them better. He first saw Sabine shopping with her aunt and planned to talk to her when she was alone. However, Sabine noticed that Jerry was following her and tried to ignore him. When she was at the dairy section, Jerry tapped her on the shoulder, but Sabine reacted angrily, demanding to know what he wanted. Jerry stuttered, leading Sabine to yell at him before she left to join her aunt. Sabine could tell Jerry is one of those 'nice guys' and she won't fall for it.
Jerry tries again with his plan by talking to Farina at the library. Farina already knew of her sister's situation with Jerry but tried to give a second chance with him. when Jerry sees how good it is when she draws a dragon and a princess, he asks if he could read a fantasy genre book of hers. Farina gave him one, and Jerry was impressed with the writing. sure it's for kids but he's entertained by it. for the next 3 hours, Jerry and Farina talks about the fantasy series they liked. while Jerry is more complex and mature like Lord of the Rings, Farina like the simple kid stories like classic fairy tales, Beatrix Potter and Roald Dahl books. they both genuinely enjoyed their company over these shared interests.
and that's the end folks! phew this was exhausting but fun. as you can see, I don't really ship Sabine and Farina with any of the boys. there could be potential of it but it never goes anywhere. they're just seen as nuisance rivals to the boys.
#the eltingville club#welcome to eltingville#the eltingville club oc#eltingville oc#my ocs#bill dickey#josh levy#pete dinunzio#jerry stokes#sabine tag#farina tag
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@hockey-stressed
I hope this actually tags you the app is glitching and not showing your blog up when I type it in.
ಥ_ಥ also tumblr wont let me answer your ask so I’m going to do it here I guess lol you said:
Your tags on my high potential ask are amazing also I had no idea there was a french version?? It sounds so so interesting!
I love the idea of Morgan just drawing a like heart or smiley face on the chain of evidence form!
also also yes to the head canon of her doing it on purpose so the person doesn't go to trial / jail but everyone still gets answers / closure.
Yeah there is a French show! This is actually an American adaptation of it, the person adapting it specifically had Kaitlin Olson in mind when adapting it. I think the French one also stars a comedian but I’m not super familiar with French media lol. That’s actually why it has such as strange name/made up disorder kind of thing going on for Morgan bc to my understanding high potential intellectual is just the French term for gifted and talented which makes things super funny if your picturing it in the context of a elementary school sort of way. I assume based on Morgan and Elliot’s characterization this is in show kind of code for autism? Or AuDHD? Which is kind of weird because the show has mentioned other autistic people so we know that autism is still a thing but regardless!!! When the show was first airing I thought it was really cool so when I was sick I watched like 6 episodes of the French original. Morgan is way more anti cop there because she and Roman were activists and had experience being harassed and arrested by cops and had experiences with police brutality I think.
I think it was like a more interesting approach and that side of things got super toned down with Roman just being an artist and Morgan still having like the same leftist comments her French counterpart would make re: environmentalism and other stuff.
I really am just picturing Morgan as like a force of good and intentional incompetence. Oh no:( you can’t put that kid who killed his dad in jail :( we’ll at least everyone is able to live with the truth now and can perhaps heal or find alternative ways of finding justice and you can own your old co-worker so in the end we all win. Like she’s finding people before their saw traps close what are they going to do fire her? I also think her being kind of intentional in this way also lines up with how she came back to help the cops at first because 1. Sympathy for that girl, but also she couldn’t sleep at night because she was to hyper fixated on the muster. Win win for Morgan she gets to free her mind of the fixation, gets to push the cops to be less awful/make change maybe where she can and she gets childcare. Sorry this was so long and delayed I’ve been doing so much school stuff I think I’ve lost the ability to edit unless I am being graded
#go edit to shorter would mean I’d have to rewrite this a few times and have concise thoughts but I’m tired and have never been concise#also idk like I only saw like the first half or so of the first season of the French so idk if Morgan becomes less activist or anticop#also I feel like important to state Morgan does make a racist joke to Chloe but Chloe is like Jesus mom that was racist which listen#I’m watching a French show with Sinophobia you know I’m super scared the show will be like isn’t this good and funny#but! I think it is interesting to watch the French bc so many episodes are just remade in the American one it’s interesting to see what is#changed also there is an English dub which was helpful to me bc I was sick and had a migraine when I watched#also the first episode dance routine uses the same music in the French and the American#high potential
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they werent lying that knuckles series barely has knuckles in it
#i pirated that shit Btw just so we're clear. also gonna talk about it a little bit in the tags#nothing too spoilery but also might not wanna read if you want to go in knowing absolutely nothing? idk#anyway he WAS a main character still he was present for a decent amount of the first couple episodes#but the amount of screentime he gets just starts dropping after that . hes barely there at all in the second half ???#and it feels like theres a lot of scenes mostly focusing on wade and his problems and not near as many for knuckles and his whole deal#overall it feels more like a wade show with knuckles in it than a knuckles show with wade in it. which sucks#and human characters having plot relevance isnt the problem here i dont mind human characters at all i think they can be really fun#its the fact that the human characters are taking over the story and spotlight when the show is called knuckles#and all the marketing makes it look like knuckles is the main focus#and i also would have preferred if they just went with a differnet character to be knuckles' human friend#because i dont particulraly care about wade. and the knuckles (and sonic and tails) i know would not be friends with cops </3#well at least the story wasnt knuckles training wade to be a better cop like a lot of people were expecting but thats like.the bare minimum#also aside from the issues relating to knuckles' screentime (or lack of screentime) i thought the ending was unsatisfying#regardless of all that though there WERE some parts i enjoyed or found kind of funny or whatever. because knuckles so cutesy as always#knuckles being a cute little guy is the most important part of the show actually#and i liked the parts with sonic tails and maddie even if they were only there for like 5 minutes#(i really wish those three had gotten more screentime. i feel like they could have easily worked in at least one more scene with them)#and its a minor thing but the opening sequence is cute. was honestly expecting just a title card or something#overall the show is just . kind of okay i guess. not the worst thing ive ever seen but still disappointing ? idk how to explain..#my expectations also werent very high in the first place#so maybe im being a bit more generous than i would have been otherwise. idk#and i definitely would not recommend this to anyone who already dislikes the sonic movies . youll probably hate this more#like people who thought the human characters got too much screentime in the second movie would lose their minds if they saw this
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maybe i should talk/show more about my oc now that i’m thinking… idk! everyone is doing something for their ocs/self inserts idfkkkk…
like i just made her for funsies like haha what if i’m eltingville also everyone is eltingville/northwest why not do it…
#nobody will care anyways ANWAYS#she could be based in worse part of me to show and how toxic someone can be with their friends#or also based on how people have treated me back then when i was a teen and met some not so good friends…#yeah… maybe it could be like that but she would be very much a men hater god so toxic so she would never meet those nerd boys#is not like she wants to anyways BUT i think she meets Josh NOT in the comic store#but in some random store that sells everything yknow and they both saw a book/comic they both liked so much and then started to argue#but Vick is kinda the same as Bill and she doesn’t take a no (although she’s not physically violent like Bill but she has a big mouth)#but she’s a loser so she stfu to Josh and get the book. until they made some weird decision bc he never saw a girl like that#or fought with a girl about something he likes more than just getting insulted from his back so like they would exchange numbers/socialmedia#to read the book they want aaand that’s how they became friends because then josh started to chat more with her yknow#bc they both like akira and also robots so bc he is autistic and annoying he can’t stop yapping now that he has a friend#if he thinks that’s a friend bc Vick always blocks him bc he is so fucking annoying. yknow. meeting more toxic ppl in his life poor guy#but yeah that will be the arc of her i guess she’s also pretty lonely but the thing is she got used to it so she likes it#although doesn’t like to deal with idiots and that’s the first guy friend she ever had#her other best friend and only friend (also half toxic relationship but she treats her better) is with fake geek girl#they are from the same school and Vick always give her terrible advices and how men are terrible blah blah blah actual nonsense#also Vick is like the toxic equivalent of Bill in a girl but less violent and not that loser (she is tho)#so she will put fake geek girl into problems when she didn’t do anything and it was all Vick faults! so yeah that’s their friendship#it’s like Jerry and Bill but girls and they don’t punch each other or insult each other. but is still toxic#SO YEAH AHAHHA A LOT OF YAPPING IN HERE ABOUT MY OC MAYBE I SHOULD DRAW HER#i guess idk maybe yes maybe nah too busy
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i just want to know if anybody else on tumblr is taking health and social in college because i am, and today we had to fix our feedback except (this isn't me bragging.. i promise.) i didn't have any, and i am literally never in lesson - i always waffle, but like maybe it's cause of all the extra explanations and definitions??
#i am so confused.#if i do so well here why can i in my english lessons?#i wanna cry.#but like i do kinda wanna brag-#hehe.#🤭😭#college#i hate college.#this morning i spilt milk down myself and had to change and then i got stuck in the rain#but then my mum brought me mcdonalds#and then i had a test so my teacher let us leave an hour hour#so i got to have a second lunch and i saw my friend from another class#then i thought i was going to class late but the teacher was late#OH!!#i also forgot my english book but it didn't matter#anyways..#during lesson the teacher basically ignored me cause she was helping other people.#and then she was like if you've done this you can leave but i left anyways.#so i got home at 5 and only finished it at 8 but like idk if i was even supposed to do half of the work i did in the assignment#and i still have 3 tasks.#DID I TELL YOU IT WAS MY FIRST DAY BACK?#personal#vent
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there is no feeling worse in the world than missing your grandma :/
#she died two months before my eighth birthday#and every time i realize i’ve lived well over half my life without her i go a little bit insane bc that just doesn’t feel right#like soooo many of my favorite memories are with her how is it possible she was only in my life for less than eight years#my grandpas on both sides died before i was born so all i’ve ever had is my grandmas#and there’s also the horrible guilt i feel all the time knowing my other grandma is still alive but i rarely ever see her#but when i was a kid she lived an hour and a half away from us and this grandma lived around the corner#so we saw her all the time and every christmas fourth of july etc that whole side of my extended family would all go to her house#she moved into that house when my mom was 2 years old and lived there for the rest of her life so 40 years#and when she went into hospice care her one request was to die in that house surrounded by her kids and grandkids so that’s what happened#my parents bought the house after she died but we lived there for less than 2 years before moving to arizona#they’re both from colorado but they met in arizona and me and my sisters were born here#and the main reason we moved back to colorado in the first place was to be near her#but when we moved again my parents sold the house to our neighbors who had two daughters that my sisters and i grew up with#and they’re still our family friends to this day and we used to go on trips to national parks together every summer#we didn’t see them for maybe five years but then two summers ago their older daughter got married and we went to her wedding#which got us talking about how long it had been since our last trip so we went on another one last summer#this has turned into a tangent but it just makes me so happy that they’re still in our lives#and this great family we’ve known almost my entire life is living in my grandma’s house#she had a pool in her backyard which is super common here in az but not so much in colorado#and she let us invite these girls over all the time to swim so they grew up spending almost as much time in that house as we did#last time we were in colorado we went to have dinner with them and swim and it was like being transported back to my childhood#that house is just so special to me and i felt so blessed to be able to go back there since this family bought it instead of strangers#in a perfect world everything would align in a way that would let me buy it when i’m older and have my own family there#i’ve never had a strong attachment to any other house we’ve lived in but that one will always be my grandma’s house in my mind#i just love and miss her so much she was the most amazing grandma i ever could have asked for#my mom still has a lot of her childhood friends on facebook and whenever she would post pictures of me and my sisters as kids#everyone would comment that i looked exactly like my grandma did when she was a kid and that makes me so so happy#anyway. idk. i just miss her sm she was an angel and i’m so happy she was such a big part of my childhood#lj.txt
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me spending weeks going "and i probably cant afford the eras tour and thats okay i just have to deal with it" during my breakdowns vs. eras not even coming here and only doing 5 shows in australia so probably being impossible to get tickets to
#i also had to keep spending the money I had in savings bc shit kept going wrong#so i. dont have enough for a ticket anyway#i was so hopeful that tickets wouldn't be announced for another couple of weeks now that i have a job#like i will put my entire first paycheck into it assuming i get it in time which i doubt#but thats still. I'd still have to battle for tickets#i am just 🧍♂️ bc it looks like it may just not be possible at all and im so sad ab it#i havent been able to get a presale code either#and apparently all the hotels nearby have been booked already#and flights to aus are Not cheap#it all got announced at like 5am nz time and its now 11 and i only woke up half an hour ago so i had No Chance#i wish i stayed up until 6am like i sometimes do#or i woke up for a drink and saw it#i just. i wish i could go but i dont think ill be able to and its so upsetting#there was a period of time where the eras tour was the only thing keeping me going and i thought i was out of that period but#idk this is hitting hard and there's nothing i can really do ab it
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oughh I agree so hard with you w/ death stuff. Tbf I've never actually seen a dead body close up or had someone close to me die so idk if my feelings will change after that but I think we're a part of nature and should return to nature after death
YA ive only ever seen dead bodies who have been prepared (in person at least, ive seen pictures of unprepared bodies) so yk. but ive lost a couple of family members and i just think likee. speaking from experience when you dont have the time with the deceased to process the death. it makes it sm harder to like. Feel your grief. bc yr so pushed into the like. Well the funerals over so grieving is done
#theres jusr sooo much.#IDK if yr aware but caitlin doughty (ask a mortician on youtube) has a couple of rly good books on death ive only read her first 2 (the 3rd#is on hold rn 🙏🙏) that i highly recommend ALSO obviously her yt channel... her videos r rly rly rly insightful#shes a huge advocate of green burial (she owns a green burial funeral home) so i think a lot of her stuff could be rly relevant to you!#specifically i recommend her video reacting to famous film corpses MAINLY rhe second half of the video#where she visits a facility (idt thats quite the word) where they make animal feed blocks out of cremated remains#i saw u mention youd like to be eaten by animals after death and currently with all the legal stuff i thjnk thats one of the best/only ways#2 do that rn :]] ALSO her 2 human composting videos r less abt feeding animals and more abt feeding plants obviously. but still very#interesting and ties into the returning to nature stuff...#APOLOGIES IF U ALREADY KNOW HER. shes one of my idols DNFNFJNF so i shill 4 her every chance i get#i love love love her videos basically. highly recommend her cannibalism trilogy as well.. a lot of her videos r judt very insightful#a2t
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nct infinite expansion being after the debut of nct tokyo? 👁
i assume you meant being scrapped lmao. i'm......not really sure all my thoughts are formulated about it, mostly because SO much is up in the air right now and it's very hard to predict what's going to happen. i do still think that the infinite expansion was never really a good idea and it does a lot of disservice to the original members and it wasn't managed properly at all, so yes i think scrapping it IS a good idea, because that means they should in theory be able to actually focus on managing the existing group better. however, there are two things that this decision makes me concerned about: firstly, does this mean that they're also scrapping nct u? because let's be real here, nct u and the full group albums are the most interesting work that nct creates AND where all the creative potential in their revolving concept is. so if this means that they're only gonna prioritize promoting each of the subunits separately and not do any nct u or full group albums....... that's gonna be pretty disappointing. and the second thing i'm concerned about is the infinite expansion concept is lsm's brainchild baby, that's the one thing he's been after for like, fifteen YEARS. obvs i think he was delusional in chasing after it and frankly i'm fucking furious at him for causing this whole situation in the first place, but you can't deny that he spearheaded a lot of the creative decisions at sm that made the company into what it is. and the fact that the FIRST thing that they're getting rid of while 'under new management' is a creative decision that he was after for so long is a bit of a red flag that the artistic integrity of the company is at risk. so yea. complicated feelings.
#like i agree i think JUST the infinite expansion needs to go but also.....this feels like a harbinger of bad things to come#like obvs its a decision that probably even nct themselves want. but also if you give a company that leverage#to get rid of an 'innocuous' creative choice it opens the door for them to start trying to get rid of MORE creative choices#and i just dont trust hybe to actually respect the core creative decisions that have made sm what they are#despite what their 'statements' say#it ALSO feels like capitulating to fans' ire#which is never a good sign#nct w#kpop questions#text#answers#like i saw that plan they released and idk. idk. that seems like WAY too much for only the first half of the year#and we already know that sm creative teams are very often shared across groups#so either they've been planning a LOT of stuff in advance (very possible) or theyre insanely overworking ppl (very possible)#OR theyve hired entire new teams (seems unlikely) OR the quality is about to drop significantly (seems most probable)#so tbh im not even expecting half of what that schedule says#obvs we're gonna have to wait and see but yea. artmaking takes time and uh. this doesnt look good
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tumblr had to shut me up omg #censorship
#CRYINGGGG i wasn't aware there was a tag limit oops just started ranting in there#is anybody in this country going to be brave and write a whole analysis for this series :( please thank u#widows' war#[cont. i guess]#- paco absolutely punching the shit out of jericho bc he was drunk & got startled just to get all jolly & friendly when he realized who he#was LMFAOOOOOO#but these extra paco & jerico scenes...idk. again if the pacing was good i'd appreciate them much better. but rn it just looks so out of#place#but to have paco as like an extra reason to explain why jericho did what he did. it's good i guess#& jerico going 'mission accomplished paco' in the cell. woah. chills.#also why is he in there. here's the man who essentially murdered one of the MOST powerful family in the country & he's just. in some cell.#w some guys who r probably only locked up bc they got into a drunk fight at some birthday party. sa kantuhan. emiee jk jk#WOAH HOLD ON. HIS FATHER'S TRANS???? THEY'RE JUST GONNA DROP THIS BOMBSHELL & NOT EXPAND ON IT????????#like that's heartbreaking but why did they reveal it this way it's so lazy & rushed & does no justice to her character at all#like what's her story? why did she disappear? where did she go? did she just dip completely? left her family & never told anyone or did her#siblings know & they rejected her? & she had to run away? her history on that mental health facility...did they force her in there? was tha#why she had to escape?#but also.....[elvis voice] wauough mama..........#she's a milf. like she's so prettyyyyyy :( this show just had to murder me one last time :(#but also did jerico know she was his parent or was he still hallucinating. was he feeling Some Vibes or he just saw this random woman & wen#'hi do u mind if i misgender u for no reason'#also lmfaooo they really didn't even give any indication that they're mourning sam huh. no funeral whatsoever. they hate this bitch fr#oh u died a tragic sudden death? & we still don't know who the culprit is? damn...but at least u left behind a cute baby#it huuurts. having to see this wrapped in such a half-assed shitty bow. u look at this credit roll w/the beautiful cinematography from the#earlier eps remembering how absolutely refreshing this show was at first. how absolutely brimming it was with potential. how groundbreaking#& then we're just.. here. :/#rebecca's part wasn't even green screened what 😭 WHERE WERE THEY WHAT WAS THAT PLACE. WAHT HAPPENED HERE#& the cut in her monologue???? did they shoot this scene like 4 minutes before the episode aired#need someone to like. explain what happened behind the scenes bc this is crazy. 2 m3
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This may be the depression speaking + the earliest trauma I've ever gone thru (completely accidental as well), but I think it's kinda pointless to give me gifts. I have clothes that still fit me and are in excellent condition. I have shoes. I have a sizeable movie collection (that tbf I can always add to), and all the books I'd want. I don't paint anymore so it's useless giving me art supplies. And unfortunately even giving me money is hilariously pointless bcus I'm not even gonna spend it on anything, I'm just gonna put it into my savings account and keep living day by day as I do: doing nothing...interesting
#post#how am I this lifeless at fucking 25 dude. holy shit#vent#personal#my hobbies are watching movies. then writing fic. this if I can even squeeze it in between my classes#(sighs) I'd told my mom at the beginning of the semester that I won't be able to go out anymore#she didn't believe me#she's always desperate to get me to go outside to some event or the other n I'd rather just not go bcus well! I don't have any friends#either so it's like. it's just the 2 of us#I like hanging out w her but man walking around n seeing everything doesn't take as long as you'd think#man this is so sad. and pathetic. I should just straight up die#that's another thing today we went to costco n I went to see if this math book I saw like a week or 2 ago was still there n it's not#I wasn't able to find it online either n it sent me into such a pit of despair that like. wow this sucks#I want so many things!!! and I don't ask for any of them bcus; going to my first point!!!; what'd be the fucking point!!!#the hilarious accidental trauma was that I was 2 and wanted a horse book n threw a tantrum about it#n then my mom took me home n sternly yet calmly explained how she couldn't get it for me n would be able to get it at another time#the thing is is that no one around me wants to acknowledge that I'm autistic so this event resulted in me taking it dead serious literally#and my 2 yr old brain understood it to mean 'never ask for anything ever anymore'#I've never thrown a tantrum since but I HAVE swallowed up and repressed every single desire I've had for material things#hmmm is that why I tend to choose experiences sometimes. like trips n stuff. bcus it's not an actual physical thing#was just thinking earlier how my future therapist might find me annoying in that half the work is done in that I keep learning things about#myself a little Too Well#the only therapist I've had up until now was a lady at my uni campus who could only see me for 2 months until she moved to another uni#n she told me. 'your problem is that you're too logical. you're too aware of yourself. you need to allow yourself to feel something'#like!!! don't I know that all too well!!!#hmm is that ALSO perhaps why I'm having more visible meltdowns?#then again I hate crying in front of my parents. it feels like I'm just. man we always joke about me being a spoiled brat bcus I'm an only#child but maaaaaaaaan. it always feels like I never appreciate things n that they Know this n I'm constantly never living up to my#high potential. bcus I'm so spoilt n everything n beneath me somehow#idk man. one day I'll just tell my therapist to follow me on tumblr n analyze me via my tags
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currently hating and killing myself for leaving work early even tho i literally threw up within a minute of walking in the door when i got home
#it was like an hour early i almost made it all the way through my shift 😭#but i felt soooo awful i had a migraine that was getting worse and worse since 11am#and my coworker kept telling me to go home but im incapable of doing that unless i physically cant go on bc i dont want people to be mad#so i was determined to tough it out#but at like 2:15 the lead teacher noticed me w my head in my hands for a minute and she was like are you sick#and i said yeah and she immediately was like go home no go home for real goodbye i dont need you goodbye#bc she doesn't reallyyyy need me at the end of the day anyway which is why my other coworker was trying to get me to go#but i hateeee it bc it makes me look so flaky and unreliable 😭#and my health is generally not good so i know that even if i only call out or go home if i genuinely physically cant tough it every time#i will still end up calling out or going home more often than normal 😭#which makes me look dramatic and whiny and/or flaky :(#however this is the first time i have had to go home or call out and i've worked here since october which is good#but i've only been full time since november so like barely a month#AND i asked for next friday off for a doctor's appointment already#and this would be normal i think but i have chronic everybody is mad at me disease and get so anxious#and it seems justified bc it rlly does feel like everybody eventually gets mad at me at every job#even tho im the worlds most desperate people pleaser and i will do ANYTHING to be helpful and nice and make people not be mad at me#but i am just so oblivious and dumb i miss things and forget things ig and then i get sick too often#maybe its not even abt the times i mess up or get sick maybe its just the fact that im apologizing so much#which gives the impression that im incompetent and/or lazy idk#but anyway#all my coworkers were nice about it but i hateddd it#also my brother drove me to work today bc he needed the car so i had to wait over half an hour for my ride#which was my mommy#which made me seem really childish and unprofessional 😭#at first i was in the great room (cafeteria/gathering space in the front of the school)#and tons of people saw me there w my head on the table and all my stuff waiting to go home like a student right before pickup#and then all yhr students came flooding in to wait for pickup and one of the teachers literally gathered up my stuff for me#and made me wait in the nurses office which was even more embarrassing#except less people saw me there
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#GIRL THIS IS TWO DAYS IN A ROW#WHO THE FUCK IS PLAYING POKEMON GO AROUND 3-4AM AND KNOCKING MY FULLY HEALED 3K CP POKEMON OUT OF GYMS?#WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOUUUU#GET A FUCKING LIFEEEEEEEEEE 😭😭#like lowkey ty ig bc i have coins for remote raid pass if i need it (do dialga/palkia start today idk bc#half the “tips for into the wild”/pokemon go nov are like. palk/dial are 18 and onwards#but half r like. theyre only on their raid hour days. like huh which one is it)#ig ill see it today but graaghgh i really have to wake up earlier so i can go outside and play!!!!!#but also cold. and i dont wanna keep walking in and out of the mall like a weirdo. but i dont wanna sit in the same spot for hours either.#ive done both. both feel weird :/#but also! zamazenta is almost best buddies w me :D i got zacian and apparently i didnt use the buddy system well before bc.#zacian is my first best buddy... which is cute!!! i love shiny zacian! and zamazenta!!! my lovely shiny doggos :)#anyway i went off topic umm#excited to try gigantamax again w slightly better dmax pokemon... torn that i didnt get kanto starters OR gengy but its ok it is what it is#oh my god the first raid is at 6am and im awake to see what the pokemon is 💀 OKAY#IMA FUCKING IDIOT I LEVELED UP MY DMAX EXCADRIL BUT ITS GOT A FUCKING STEEL Q ATK? FUCK#I USED MY LAST Q ATK TM ON SOMETHING ELSE LITERALLY MINUTES BEFORE I SAW THIS FUUUUUUUUUUUUCK ME#44597#OH SHIT IT WAS TAPU KOKO BUT ALL OF THEM R SPAWNING WTF#GIRL im so tempted to remote raid a dialga RIGHT NOW. very bad decision but I WANT.... but if i go out tmr or today ill probs get it...#BUT I WANT IT RN 😭😭#caved and got myself a dialga remote raid but. ok ivs. not shiny. no legacy move.. 2.8k base w the weather tho ok damn#i do have a charged tm.. but i might run it back like w origin giratina and try to get a bunch...#difference is i dont have coins stacked rn and i just used em on remote but i do have 2 daily and 6 premium soooo...#hopefully one will have really good ivs and legacy move!!! shiny isnt that pretty but its bragging rights 🤷♀️#want the legacy move and candy tho 🤔
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Ok, the boss is no more! There were some super stressful moments but surprisingly we all survived o:
My animal companion got hit with disintegrate, but we had hero points to make him avoid it. I would cry actually, because disintegrate means no resurrection x_x
The war is prevented! At least this one, because Cayden's party is right at the center of a much bigger one just starting. Today we saved the country. Cayden is trying to not even save the whole world, just maybe slow the whole thing down and save as much people as possible...
#majek says shit#I have the diamond for a raise animal companion spell but it can only be used if you have a body and even then there are restrictions#and Kela wouldn't even know about it until after the fight because she got trapped between a wall of force and a stone golem?#or a stone Big Humanoid Fucker idk what that technically was but it would've killed me pretty fast#and it all was in an area of supernatural darkness emanating from the powergamer's character...#which interfered with so much of everyone else's actions and we even addressed it before the session that it's a bad idea to cast this#but its ok because HE will be able to see through it and HE won't be targeted easily:))))#he also almost ended the encounter in the first round of proper combat...#by using mechanics so outrageous but technically ambiguous enough that our GM can't deny them by using only RAW...#and he prefers to settle arguments by going as RAW as possible...#and it wasn't a problem until now when we have a player who exploits to an actually unbelievable extent#we shared our character sheets online yesterday and I finally saw his... still have no idea how the character works#because like half the stuff is custom and missing from the app#he has 9 AC in the app and allegedly 32 AC before buffs...#and the GM says the math checks out but 1. nobody saw that math besides him and 2. so far he trusted that player without too much questions#and only recently he actually realised he's been manipulated multiple times when me and some others started dismantling that players actions#I so hope this was the last session with that person#the worst thing is I think he's an ok guy when I'm not playing any kind of game with him#and I understand different people find enjoyment in different aspects of games - his being figuring out how far he can go with the rules#and there are whole groups of people who like to play like that and enjoy the challenge of making the most broken “build” possible#but the rest of the group are not that kind of people. maybe some like to have fun with researching what's possible#but it's never the purpose of the game and these things dont find their way into the actual game#I'm actually considering the possibility of just leaving the campaign if he stays there... I know I whine a lot in the tags#about different players that get on my nerves for various reasons. it sounds like I'm never happy about anything#but our group is big and we play together as a friend group in 4 different campaigns now (I'm in 3 of them)#and every one of these smaller groups has it's issues. sometimes it's the characters not matching and sometimes different expectations#or interpersonal stuff that can be worked out. this here is not a group composition issue because the powergaming attitude is everywhere#it's impossible to talk casually between sessions and confronting the guy leads to like actual temper tantrums#literally said “the fuck do I care if the party dies I'm not gonna be useful anymore” after the GM gave him feedback to maybe ease it up#he never says things like that when the gm or me are present but we still get info. he just can't be confronted by the gm like that
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late night talking blurb with rafe cameron ⊹ ࣪ ˖
pairing: sweetheart¡maybank x rafe¡cameron
notes: reader is referred to as sweetie, but also includes pet names!
sweetie sighed, hearing her phone repeatedly buzz on her night stand, indicating a phone call was coming through. she rolled on her side, reaching for her phone on her night stand. sweetie saw the caller id ‘rafey ♡’
she was quick to press the green button, the call now going through. rafe’s soft voice, that was only for her, spoke on the other side of the line, “hi sweetheart.”
her raspy voice tinged, “hi rafey.” he was quick to notice her raspy voice, “did i wake you, shit ‘m sorry.”
she quickly cut him off, “you’re good—i wasn’t fast asleep anyway.” “is something wrong—?” sweetie added, glancing to the clock that was on her bedside table, reading the time, 12:23AM.
“no, jus’ missed hearing your pretty voice.” rafe replied, “wish you were here.” he trailed off.
“me too rafe, but i’ll see you soon, kay?”
“of course you will, i’ll take you out tomorrow, how’s that sound, hm?”
sweetie smiled, rolling on her back, still holding the phone to her ear, “sounds perfect rafey.”
“you know, you’re the only one who i let call me that, only like it comin’ from your sweet mouth.”
sweetie giggled, “i don’t know why you hate it so much, it’s personally adorable.”
“ ‘m not all about that adorable shit, you know that princess—only when it comes to you.” “only me?” she questioned.
“only and just you, baby.” rafe replied, the flirtatious tone evident in his voice. “anyways, tell me about your day.”
sweetie immediately brightened at the chance to ramble, even though it was late at night, she could talk for days, “well! i went surfing with kie, hm—oh! i baked some cookies! i also got my nails done with sar… i took maple [dog] out for a walk, i need to take her to the beach soon—”
rafe sighed softly, holding the phone closer to his ear.
sweetie heard his sigh, making her frown, “am i talking too much? — i’m sorry!” rafe was quick to reply, “no baby, keep going, i love your voice, continue about maple.”
she blushed on the other end of the phone, her cheeks heating up, “well uhm— maple also actually has found a new liking to watermelon, she absolutely loves it! whenever i find myself having some, she’s always sitting there patiently waiting for some-” sweetie cut herself off, giggling, the image of her dog popping up in her mind.
the pair talked for another half an hour, mainly sweetie, because rafe insisted on her to keep talking, just because he loved her voice so much it soothed him.
“i’ll let you get some sleep now, baby, i’ll pick you up tomorrow around six, sounds good?” rafe spoke.
sweetie was about to nod, before realising rafe can’t see her, “sounds perfect.”
“see you tomorrow darling.”
“goodnight rafey.”
“goodnight angel.”
lex’s notes; my sweethearts 🩷🩷 my first blurb on tumblr 😓 , i hope it’s good, sorry it’s so short, also idk who the divider creds are! they’ve been in my camera roll for ages </3
#⊹ ࣪ ˖ sweetheart maybank¡reader#rafe cameron x reader#rafe outer banks#outerbanks rafe#rafe cameron fanfiction#rafe cameron#rafe cameron fluff#rafe x reader#blurb#rafe cameron blurb#drew starkey x reader#drew starkey
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day six: not so home for christmas | oscar piastri social media au
pairing: oscar piastri x fem reader
oscar and y/n are having their first christmas in monaco because of a snow storm, unfortunately this also means they're now hosting most of the grid as well.
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yourusername: thanks a lot snow storm :( i guess it's our first ever christmas here in monaco
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user1: yall global warming might just be real
user2: you're only just realising it now ?
charles_leclerc: you kids and your complaining - a white christmas in monaco, what more could you want?
yourusername: a christmas at home with our families?
charles_leclerc: families? when you're in your adopted father-in-law's home city, i'd watch your tone if i were you
oscarpiastri: if you think of your kids as often as you say then you should be worried that your aussie son is going to FREEZE to death :(
charles_leclerc: if it's the bbq you crave, you can still do that?
yourusername: it's snowing? and he is NOT bringing our bbq inside
charles_leclerc: okay jeez, not much christmas spirit here i see
oscarpiastri: we miss our families, sue us
user3: wait... if they couldn't get out of nice... who else couldn't
user4: the storm kicked in like a day ago right?
user5: based on instagram activity, my guess is that max, lando, ollie (idk why he was in monaco anyway), kimi (i think he's attached to ollie), alex (and lily) and george
user6: i know it would never happen but wouldn't it be so cute if we got a grid christmas dinner
yourusername: please don't give them any ideas
oscarpiastri: i only just got rid of them 😩
landonorris: so, just out of interest, is y/n still free to maybe wrap my presents for me?
yourusername: do i look like the christmas fairy to you?
landonorris: well i know for a fact that oscar's ass was not wrapping those presents
oscarpiastri: well y/n actually likes doing things for me soooooo
landonorris: PLEASE Y/N I'LL HAVE TO RESORT TO USING TIN FOIL
yourusername: tin foil... please you are a 25 year old man
landonorris: does it look like i'm a man who has sellotape in his house?
yourusername: no.
user7: y/n is like a full time mum to a load of men all older than her
user8: she better get ready to cook for them at christmas because none of these men can cook for themselves
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oscarpiastri: i'm not sure how this went from our lonely christmas away from both of our families to babysitting half of the grid but what the hell, sure
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user10: i personally blame all of you for this
user11: and what??? i'm so excited
user12: i hope they post nothing more just to spite your ass
charles_leclerc: i’m kinda offended no one thought of coming to mine :/
maxverstappen1: you’re shit at cooking
charles_leclerc: how would you know?
maxverstappen1: i saw it in your vlog
charles_leclerc: you watch my vlogs???
maxverstappen1: NO?
yourusername: okay queens stop flirting and get back to your stations in the kitchen
charles_leclerc: can we flirt there?
yourusername: if you're still peeling - knock yourselves out
user13: y/n basically confirming lestappen? wow christmas DID come early this year
user14: the real question is why she would let those menaces in the kitchen?
yourusername: i have seen how much these people eat, i need help even from the useless
yourusername: also if they want certain dishes from home they have to help
maxverstappen1: i am CORING AS MANY APPLES AS I CAN I PROMISE THE APPLE BEIGNETS WILL BE WORTH IT
oscarpiastri: i know they will be, y/n is making them
maxverstappen1: okay buddy, i don't see you helping
oscarpiastri: i am keeping everyone else in line, that's a full time job as well
user15: who made the youngest couple in charge of these fools?
user16: a comedic genius
yourusername: they're annoying but i'll deal with them for you
oscarpiastri: you make such sacrifices for me, i love you
yourusername: i love you more
alexalbon: we're really not that bad you guys are being dramatic
yourusername: george walked up to our mantle piece, pointed at my baby picture and said "ugly. my condolences" ?
alexalbon: that's george ? he's mean to everyone
yourusername: HE'S IN THAT BABY'S HOUSE
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olliebearman: first christmas with my big brother :))))
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user17: yall be on oscar about him holding onto the leclerc family joke but the real enemy is ollie
olliebearman: i think it's cute
olliebearman: and it's NOT a joke
user18: you know what? yeah i'd also keep going with the joke i need to get in that leclerc family
olliebearman: the real catch here is y/n she's going to teach me to crochet :)
yourusername: we can make little bear mans !!!
user19: the grid dad stuff was cringey... but grid brother well that's hitting like crack i fear
charles_leclerc: grid dads are cringey ??? count your days
user19: sorry?
charles_leclerc: i (and my family) will NOT tolerate sebastian vettel slander. not now not EVER
fernandoalo_oficial: and me?
charles_leclerc: i couldn't give a fuck about you old man
fernandoalo_oficial: excuse me
fernandoalo_oficial: i'll have you know i am just as much oscar's father as you are
charles_leclerc: and how have you come to that OBVIOUSLY WRONG conclusion
fernandoalo_oficial: WELL i don't know maybe his REAL grid dad is actually mark webber who i have a well documented homoerotic relationship with and therefore oscar and most importantly Y/N are my children
charles_leclerc: what a load of bullshit
charles_leclerc: if grid children were based on homoerotic tension then i'd be father to all of the red bull juniors and max would have custody of the FDA
maxverstappen1: well....
pepemarti: hi !!!
dinobeganovic: hey.....
yourusername: what happened to the original plot of the movie
user20: i think the cabin fever is getting to them
lilymunhe: no they're like this all of the time it's exhausting
yourusername: tell me about it
olliebearman: but not me :(
yourusername: no we love you
oscarpiastri: you are the least annoying one
olliebearman: omg thank you :3
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yourusername: not so home for christmas but with family nonetheless
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user22: what was the dress code here?
landonorris: what we had left? all the dry cleaners are closed because of the storm
yourusername: you take ALL of your clothes to the dry cleaners?
landonorris: why wouldn't i do that...
yourusername: yk what, whatever !
user23: omg of course leo was there as well
yourusername: we only invited charles for him
charles_leclerc: excuse me?
landonorris: he was invited ????
oscarpiastri: well he was staying in monaco anyway and you guys all invoked your squatters rights in my house so what was one more
landonorris: i am not squatting? my ass is already big enough as it is
yourusername: i know your ass is big because YOU'RE ALWAYS SAT ON IT
oscarpiastri: god i love you
yourusername: i love you even more
oscarpiastri: nuh uh not possible
yourusername: i love you so much i'm not even that angry about half of the grid crashing our christmas
oscarpiastri: i love you so much that i personally barged a child out of the way to get you your eras tour merch
yourusername: i do love my merch.... but not as much as i love you
oscarpiastri: you're so romantic
georgerussell63: right that's it, i am SICK of you people pretending you are not enjoying our presence
yourusername: did i or did i not say family ???
oscarpiastri: george i'd appreciate if you didn't talk to y/n this way
maxverstappen1: yeah back the fuck off
georgerussell63: why is max here?
maxverstappen1: ummmm y/n busted her ass to make apple beignets for me so i had some netherlands with me at christmas so i would die for her. i am somwhat fond of oscar as well
maxverstappen1: so fuck with them, you fuck with me
maxverstappen1: and you seem to like doing that recently
yourusername: awwww thanks max!
oscarpiastri: we are fond of you too buddy
georgerussell63: how did i lose this?
user24: max out here getting wags on his side
maxverstappen1: that's my ma
maxverstappen1: wait that makes my homoerotic tension with charles incest
maxverstappen1: that's my home girl
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oscarpiastri: y/n absolutely smashed our makeshift grid christmas and she said she'll accept thanks in qualifying tows or easy passes on track 👍
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user25: oh they want me dead
user26: i would do questionable things to get a slice of that cake
user27: drop the recipe please xxx
yourusername: oh babe i be following the tiktoks like the rest of yall - i'll repost it
user28: woman of the people
yourusername: babe i don't really remember saying those exact words...
oscarpiastri: PLEASE ! they don't say no to you now you've filled their stomachs
landonorris: he's not wrong
maxverstappen1: you're in my will now
charles_leclerc: you're now my favourite daughter in law
yourusername: i'm your only daughter in law?
charles_leclerc: idk kimi and ollie are pretty attached with their weird tension
landonorris: like father like son
charles_leclerc: huh?
landonorris: huh?
oscarpiastri: ^^ see !!!! y/n please !!!
yourusername: fine.
yourusername: thank you all for coming, i hope you enjoyed dinner and your time with us. i loved spending time with you all but if you wish, i will be accepting thanks in the form of qualifying tows and easy passes for oscar or pornstar martinis from any hospitality
yourusername: happy?
oscarpiastri: yes
oscarpiastri: YOU HEARD THE WOMAN GUYS
maxverstappen1: oh i love y/n but i'd rather put you in the wall than let that ugly orange car past without a fight
georgerussell63: @fia i told yall
yourusername: are you ever gonna give that up ?
georgerussell63: no? and i KNOW IT WAS YOU WHO SAT ME NEXT TO HIM AT DINNER
yourusername: you'll never prove it :P
user29: oscar is such a sassy man
yourusername: he gets it from his momma
oscarpiastri: and you :)
yourusername: i will say your ability to watch my reality tv with you is a big factor in how much i love you
landonorris: is that why oscar once woke me up the night before a race by shouting "get her ass lisa" ???
oscarpiastri: we watch real housewives together on facetime :)
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charles_leclerc: i made the right choice in son and most importantly daughter in law
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user31: okay the cinnamon buns have thrown me over the edge now
user32: i NEED to know who asked for them
alexalbon: guilty 💅 and they slapped thanks y/m
oscarpiastri: we've been dating for years? like when i was still in f3?
charles_leclerc: semantics
oscarpiastri: no i met and charmed y/n all on my own thank you very much
charles_leclerc: because she saw the future and the potential of our prosperous family !!!
oscarpiastri: at this point, whatever you wanna hear old man
charles_leclerc: relegated below ollie
olliebearman: score !!!
user33: oh these people are never letting this joke die are they
user34: i think we're stuck with it
charles_leclerc: are you people sick of whimsy ???
charles_leclerc: i am ALLOWED to flex my son's amazing choice in women, especially a woman who will make me a swiss roll on demand
yourusername: he does have amazing taste
oscarpiastri: thank you :3
yourusername: as much as you guys were somewhat annoying, we had an amazing christmas xx
oscarpiastri: please do not bother us until march
charles_leclerc: fine. but we're still on for the double date in melbourne?
charles_leclerc: (maybe triple? idk ollie can just bring kimi)
kimiantonelli: score !!!
yourusername: we would love to !
oscarpiastri: i guess you could meet my actual family ?
charles_leclerc: not now oscar, let me enjoy chritmas with you all before you remind me of that
oscarpiastri: okay?
user35: y/n and oscar actually have the patience of saints because if these clowns crashed my christmas i'd be on the news
yourusername: any christmas is perfect with him
oscarpiastri: with y/n, i can get through even the most annoying people
user35: okay yall didn't have to flex on me that hard damn
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note: here's day six! i'm not sure if you guys saw my update post but this series won't be done by christmas day but will stretch to NYE because unfortunately my cat has to be put down :( i've had him for nearly 19 years and it's really hard to think about him being gone so i'm just spending as much time as possible with him atm. anyway, i hope you enjoyed !! xx
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