#also i was so dead when she corrected me like girl you think i dont know my own gender???????? i love her to death but please

[dykesbites]

that venn diagram post reminds me of when my irl friend (whos also a lesbian...T_T) corrected me on my gender when i called myself a woman despite her fully knowing im a lesbian...girl what. you cant be just a man and be a lesbian

[daisymylove]

I sincerely don't know if Im alone on this one, so I want to know what yall think. Again, I may get some heat for this, but it’s my honest opinion.

Something I noticed in my reread is that I grew a slight dislike for lucie in chot, and as someone who had always previously rooted for her, I’m currently annoyed at myself.The thing is, Lucie IS a very privileged and sheltered girl.She was born into a wealthy, loving family and, because of her apparent “normalcy”, never suffered the brunt of the shadowhunter prejudice like Tessa and James.

None of this is a problem in itself, but my point here is that there were always other people protecting, thinking and worrying for her, so I think not only she never realized how precarious her family’s position actually was, but also has no true understanding of consequences and how the “real world” works.She knew in some level that what she was doing regarding jesse was dangerous, but was never truly afraid of repercussions, bc unconsciously she knows there will be someone to catch her . And while I do like to see a character become aware of its own privileges along the narrative, there’s no growing here.She finished the book without ever realizing it, because everything was just SO easy and convenient, and that bothers me greatly.

In all fairness, how could she? she does whatever she wants with no consequences.

I feel so conflicted bc while I actually cheered when she brought jesse back in choi, and always shipped them, I find the outcome of her actions to be low-key infuriating.Lucie wasn’t willing to give Jesse up, but also never seriously considered giving up her comfortable life to start over with him somewhere.That ludicrous and set to fail jeremy blackthorn plan wasn’t even her idea, it was the people around her finding a way to fix her “mistakes” to save all of their asses from jail.

Lucie could’ve had her marks stripped, her father could’ve lost the institute, it could’ve costed Tessa’s life.Those guys had been waiting 25 years for the slightest opportunity to pounce on her, does anyone seriously believe they wouldn’t all automatically think the warlock mother was involved? How come there was some major necromancy going on under her roof and she had no idea?  we know she didnt, but still   All of this was severely downplayed and there was little to no conflict regarding it, and anyone can correct me if im wrong, but none of that ever dawned on lucie.She never fully thought about how her family would be implicated, and nobody brought that up to her.Zero confict just chill, I guess this is our life now .Dont get me wrong, I dont want that shitstorm to actually happen,I just wanted her to become AWARE of it

 she literally brought home this complete stranger to them all (we know jesse, the characters dont) that was 8 years her senior (it doesnt matter his body was frozen for 7 years, mentally jesse is 24), Tatiana’s son, and had been dead up until last tuesday, but nobody save perhaps jessamine, and god it pains me to agree with jessamine had a problem with that.Instant acceptance, no resistance, no objections at all.All it would take for that lie to crumble would be ONE trial by the sword at any point of their lives and everybody was as chill as chicken joe from surfs up

Her fight with Cordelia pissed me off too. Lucie meddled on something she had no right and no knowledge of,and demanded things of Cordelia without even being willing to hear her out. ”oh the poor thing is suffering so much bc of you, why can’t you just take him back?” GIRL, FOR ALL SHE KNOWS, UNTIL A WEEK AGO, HOME BOY WAS SWEARING UNDYING LOVE AND BURNING DOWN MANORS FOR GRACE BLACKTHORN. 

WE know poor james was ensorcelled and fighting it, but what was cordelia supposed to think of it? How dare she assume that Cordelia “took advantage of James going to Cornwal to run away with matthew”? 

The demon of secrets in edom scene was plain ridiculous.”yo I had a childhood crush on your brother, sorry for never telling you, I was embarrassed” is not a big deal.The fact that they needed demonic intervention for THAT so late in the book baffles me

While I do think most characters were severely nerfed on this book and behaved ooc on several occasions (swear to god I have some mild ptsd from all the times cordelia ran and did unhinged things) , my conclusion about Lucie’s arc is that she took her good life for granted, endangered her entire family, didnt grow from the experience, but still got everything she wanted with no consequences or sacrifices.She lost a cousin along the way, but who cares about that guy? what was his name again? Its my understanding that Lucie never even faced a trial.Thats unrealistic and bad writing, if you ask me.When I think it over, the word that comes to me is...spoiled.

And dont get me started on the fact that she found out Malcom was planning on doing full blown necromancy and didnt do anything about it.How that had no repercussions AT ALL still blows my mind.

 The worst part for me is that I genuinely believe Lucie deserved better you know? 

If lucie and cordelia hadnt been allowed to become parabatai, and jesse had received some other minor yet life changing punishment, and we had seen a trial scene I would’ve been satisfied, because at least it wouldn’t have been nothing.

[bug-bites]

one of my fav things to read/write is a f!reader x Simon "Ghost" Riley, where the reader is almost exactly like ghost. I'm talking full black mask, (maybe legally dead) few words, silent, callsign generally spooky like Reaper or Phantom, and I was wondering if you would wanna do that?

Usually I have reader as a childhood friend or adopted sibling of Roach, which is why roach is so comfortable around ghost. He's just used to it. If it's pure fluff or platonic that's completely fine, and if you don't wanna do that it's also fine!! I just thought I might as well shoot my shot :)

Your an amazing writer, have an awesome day <3

seeing double

cw: canon-typical violence, breif (pun intended) mention of ghost having skeleton boxers (nothing like explicit though i dont even know if this needs to be mentioned tbh but better safe than sorry), ghost gets shot womp womp, angst w/ a happy ending, so many military inaccuracies, barely proofread :P

pairing: platonic!simon 'ghost' riley x f!reader, gary 'roach' sanderson & reader

characters: simon 'ghost' riley, gary 'roach' sanderson (price, gaz and soap mentioned v briefly!)

authors note: omg you are so sweet thank you so much!! sorry this took so long i've been so busy with things, i hope you don't mind that i got a bit silly with this one and basically wrote a fic in jot notes 😭 (ALSO ROACH MENTION!! I LOVE MY BBYG THANK YOU ANON <3)

when you first met ghost he genuinely thought this was a joke. the balaclava, the whole death motif, your callsign being phantom which is literally synonymous with ghost, even your attitude was so eerily similar to him. it was like looking in a mirror

it didn't help when he tilted his head you mirrored your actions

i think he wouldn't gravitate immediately to you, it's not that he didn't like you he just felt a bit odd with how similar you two were, in all honesty he was probably slightly unnerved by you

soap and gaz definitely crack jokes about you being the second coming of ghost or something dumb like that

whenever anyone is referring to you and ghost and phantom it was always "the ghosts" or "ghost and girl ghost" which pissed you OFF

roach cant count all the times you have ranted to him about how everyone treats ghost like he came up with your whole aesthetic and you copied him when you have been doing this for YEARS before you even met ghost!

"and everyone acts like he invented skeletons and being legally dead! how self centered do you have to be to act like you invented skeleton iconography?! THEYRE SKELETONS. THATS LIKE BASIC HUMAN ANATOMY. and its always men taking the credit- god its so stupid! i did shit this first and how do i know that he isn't copying me huh?? did we ever think of that?? and ghost is such a basic ass fucking name like really. ghost? bet the only reason he wears that mask is to cover up his casper sized forehead."

roach knows that you're annoyed and you probably aren't trying to be super mean- maybe you don't even think ghosts forehead is casper sized! but hey, he isn't trying to argue while you look like you're about to rip someone's head off

instead he opts for calmly signing words of comfort lest you tear ghosts head off (with a few minor corrections)

"yes roach i know phantoms are pretty much the same as ghosts but that's not the point. you're basically my brother. you have to be on my side. that's how it works."

its good you and roach get along with each other. however, since you are just so similar with someone whos name starts with s and ends with imon "ghost" riley he becomes friends with roach quite easily and rants to him too

"she thinks shes so fookin crea'ive but you know wha? she isnt. bet ive been in SAS longer than her. wheres 'er skull tattoo at?? cause i got a whole sleeve done almost a decade ago! she isnt the first to come up wi' this. see, i get youre friends wi' 'er but truth is she di'nt come up wi' all o' this 'erself and she isn't half as dedicated as me. i even got skeleton boxers! she got those??- wait no dont answer tha' i dont wan' tha' image in my head."

for the first month or two whenever you see each other its clear you two do not get along.

roach tried to crack a joke but if anything it just made you hate ghost more

"hey, phantom. what's got two legs and bleeds?" "half a dog." you and ghost respond in unison

the rest of the day you dont even acknowledge each other. price makes a joke about how "you both are acting like you killed someone" which you mutter a small "oh im going to that's for sure" under your breath

safe to say you had a long rant to roach about how now not only is he stealing your whole persona, he's taking your jokes now too

you think roach would be torn between choosing sides but no this man loves every second of it. its so petty- so stupid he just needs to see how long you two idiots will keep butting heads

you mention how you were planning on getting a red mask? he's going up to ghost being like "hey, ghost did i ever tell you red is totally your colour? you know what actually? you should get a red mask!"

you both walk into the next briefing with your new masks and you couldn't be more pissed

to make matters worse you both are teamed up for the next mission. something about stopping a major arms dealer but ghost is the one getting his hands dirty. all you need to do is get into security, guide him through the complex enough for him to grab intel and leave

its simple. you've done it a billion times before, same with ghost. the first half goes fine. you both get in, he grabs the intel and is ready to head out, both of you speaking only when necessary.

minor issue- actually major issue, getting out wasn't as smooth. somehow ghost ended up shot right as he's notifying you that he's almost out. you hear the gunshot ring out, a grunt and scuffling.

"phantom to ghost. how copy."

your voice rings out, an eerie silence following after

"ghost. how copy."

you repeat again, this time earning a response

"m' alive. shot in the leg. bullet went clean through, makin a torniquet as we speak" he grunts back. you have never been happier to hear his stupid manchester accent "keep it that way."

if past you knew those four words directed at ghost would come out of your mouth, you're pretty sure you would've stolen a tank and driven it off a cliff immediately with ghost in it too probably

but now is not the time hotwiring a tank and locating a cliff would take too long anyways, you guide him out, occasionally telling him some stupid fun fact to make sure he's still there or just to keep him alert

"did you know that jellyfish have one hole for their mouth and asshole?" "these get more concerning the more you tell me." "most koalas have chlamydia." "alrigh', 'nuff of that. fun facts are s'pposed to be fun, you know that right?" "learning is fun."

this earns a chuckle from him which he quickly covers up with a cough

he makes it out alive, busted up that's for sure but alive nonetheless

you hook his arm over your shoulder, talking about everything and anything to keep him conscious. he's going to listen anyways so might as well make the most of it

"you're not as bad as i thought you'd be, 'specially for a copy cat." he says after you tell him yet another bizarre animal fact "i got a red mask first by the way" "piss off. this is why i don't compliment you" he rolls his eyes, for once not out of annoyance "i wear it better anyways." "sure, sure. believe what you want, but just know that i'm the cooler one." "you also are shit at making tourniquets" "so you finally admit that i'm cooler." no amount of eyerolling or snappy comebacks can hide your grin at this point. you silently thank your past self for choosing to wear a mask all the time "you're quite bold for someone who got shot in the leg"

once you two get back, practically everyone is surprised how all the deadly glares and colorful insults muttered under heavy sighs between you two have now been replaced with playful banter and empty threats with no murderous intent behind them

price heard you laughing with ghost followed up with you telling ghost "they will never find your body" which did scare the shit out of him but it made ghost laugh so hard he nearly pissed himself

price made sure to check that ghost was in fact alive for the next few days, just to make sure you were joking

when asked about it both of you just shrug and reply "trauma bonding."

roach, although disappointed with the absence of drama is glad to see two of the most special people in his life getting along bros just sad he cant be an instigator anymore

and as soon as ghost comes back from leave, he's got double the scary dog privileges he originally had

[fallenclan]

A Full List of Fallenclan Cats That Give Me Thoughts

Maplestar - hm.. he is a guy. but hes also gone through so much.

Silverbelly - she is,,,, so silly,,,,, the silliest. perchance

Sorrelstem - dawg how did she react to shrewkit I dying dude how did she feel. like did she feel like a shitty parent was she extra protective over the rest of her kits??? hm

Crowflame - he is a guy but also he is super tragic and sad. UGH boyfailure

Blizzardfang - i thoughr she was a man for like 7 million years and now i think about her all the time. perchance.

Antbite - him and lionsong are so goldenflare and morningbloom coded. him being this silly little emotional wall 90% of the time is Canon because I Said So

Lionsong - HE WAS TOO LITTLE!!!! NOOOO!!!!

Moosefall - my MAN. my BOY. okay that is MY SON and I will EMOTIONALLY TARNISH HIM as much as i want. PERCHANCE🔥

Salmonskip - she is such a goofball 2 me okay. like she definitely feels less than adequate compared to mossfrog and that is something i Get

Mossfrog - she is literally me so everything i say about her is correct. brand new city by mitski as a CAT

Waspflight - adhd king/queen. she can be BOTH king and queen okay shes QUEEN he is KING he is all the genders at the same time

Owlscreech - yes shes a wet sopping beast but shes MY wet sopping beast. PERCHANCE.

Goldenstar - do u think he has ptsd from morningbloom. bcuz. vaguely gestures in applebranch's direction. do you think her first litter gave him REAL flashbacks. also robinblaze looks a lil like morningbloom dont u think. rubs my hands together EVILLY

Shrewkit II - how does she feel about being named after her dead relative thats shes never once met and looks strikingly similar to

Feathersight - how does he feel about being named after his mentor's murdered brother. how does he feel about constantly being in stormsights shadow? Perchance

Pinefrost - shes literally just there. love her for that. perchance.

Brambletuft - gestures vaguely at pinkshift and mitski. yeah thats her

Yewberry - he's so autism. perchance

-🍭

you cant just say perchance (<- reference)

your thoughts. all so good. mwah. antbite and lionsong ARE goldenmorning coded you're right. golden FOR SURE has ptsd abt morningbloom's death and he absolutely had flashbacks when applebranch had her kits. shrewkit II. i like to think she is proud to carry the memory of her aunt. same for feathersight--bro is connected to starclan in Ways (omen sense) i feel like hes happy to carry that.

i also have to ask. do you think pinefrost is a girl. or are you just using she/her for him. bc that rules too. i just want to know

[crushpunchh-art]

Lilith is so special to me bcs she's like so complicated and I love every aspect of her character lol

Also love the way you express her guilt thru Ur art!!

I feel like not enough people explore that.

Like, Lilith spent 30 years in the cult, most of her life, and despite being a victim it also probably caused her to do horrible things, especially to loved ones (i.e. Eda), almost killing Luz (a child), and it left her morality to be very flawed especially in S1 and what we can assume was in-between her initiation and her leaving.

And imagine the guilt for her actions. Like yk she's just cringing at all the horrible things she did in the past, and the horrible things she let be done to her "for the greater good".

Hopefully this made sense :3

YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES. ALL OF THIS EVERY SINGLE THING ABOUT THIS ASK. i feel like a lot of the time when people talk about lilith they act like its umm. a lot more black and white than it is? like either shes The Literal Devil (dont see this very often but theres this ONE GUY ON THE OWL HOUSE FANDOM WIKI.... endless entertainment watching them i promise you.) or Only a victim who Never did anything wrong.

like i love her BECAUSE shes garbage actually. she SUCKS in season 1. like obviously shes suffering but just. like. objectively? shes AWFUL. making fun of eda for her curse when She Caused it comes to mind. she SUCKED in s1! like, really badly! she kidnapped luz and was COMPLETELY unnecessarily menacing to gus and willow (girl chill out stop. you know damn well you could be handling this better) etc etc etc.

except also im like 90% sure she Knew she sucked. actually shes kind of the Leader of the Lilith Hater Squad. im not even sure its a case of flawed morals so much as a case of 'What Does It Matter? It's For The Greater Good'. / occasionally 'what the hell else am i supposed to do.' like does she KNOW shes doing awful things? oh totally. is she going to STOP? nope.

i would like to highlight. this part of your ask:

Like yk she's just cringing at all the horrible things she did in the past, and the horrible things she let be done to her "for the greater good".

lilith doormat truthers rise up. that woman lived under a man who hated her PERSONALLY for like 30 years. while her coworker was bullying her (Why was Kiki like that honestly like what was her damage when it came to Lilith. With Hunter okay sure. But Lilith??? Whatd she do to you???) you think she was STANDING UP FOR HERSELF? No! That woman hasn't stood up for herself since she was like 15! If she had she'd probably be dead by now!!!!

Sorry sorry sorry im ranting. I love her so much. Dumbest little cheeto puff who tries so hard and somehow still manages to do everything wrong.

TO THE ART BIT OF YOUR ASK: oh my god thank you so much!!! when im drawing her thats really like. what i try to focus on? like thats what i REALLY want to get across. that she feels so crazy guilty about everything.

thank you for having so many correct opinions about lilith. we will shake hands or if you dont want to do that we will nod approvingly at one another

[send-up-my-heart-to-you]

theories for chain of thorns

i had these posted on my gr from like december, im just posting them here

- lucie will now be an antagonist lets be honest we all know it. necromancers are NOT good people and thats the path lucie chose for herself by wanting to save jesse

- someone major will die idk who it is yet, but my instincts tell me its matthew or alistair. the second wouldnt make sense tho – if alistair dies, how would the carstairs line continue down to emma??? hopefully itll be tatiana that bitch

- jamie x daisy its inevitable guys, have you seen the snippets? im rooting for them theyre perfect

- thomas and alistair are NOT gonna end up together this was a gut feeling when i wrote it but as of jan 5 i have a legible reason as to why they would not be happy and its the next theory

- IM SCARED THOMAS IS GONNA DIE the “found family tree” says that thomas died TWO YEARS before barbara. i understand cassie has repeatedly stated that its been manipulated (she hinted that it was changed by the silent brothers) and isnt reliable. but isnt that disturbing?? esp considering theres at least part of it thats reliable, and thats the fact that alistair will 100% go on to marry a woman despite being gay. if alistair doesnt have kids, and cordelias children are all herondales, then the carstairs family would die out and emma would not be related to jem (even tho its been stated that they are related by blood). “oH bUt SoNa iS pReGnAnT mAyBe ShEs GoNnA GiVe BiRtH tO a bOy” first of all, theres a chance the baby is born a girl second of all, the baby might die third of all, where is the son on the family tree? fourth of all, SONA IS, ACCORDING TO THE TREE, DEAD BEFORE THOMAS. PLEASE.

- grace x christopher i despise grace but she acts like a different person around kit… maybe he can fix her

- anna x ariadne she cant fuck up ALL the gay relationships, now can she?

- the merry thieves are gonna forgive alistair (specifically matthew) bro he literally made out with one of them TWICE. if matthew doesnt think “well shits gonna get awkward if i dont forgive the sorry bastard” istg~ 💀

- this is more of a hope than a theory MATTHEW FAIRCHILD SHALL ACHIEVE THE HAPPINESS HE DESERVES smth tells me he wont get a happy ending tho… i mean, if my above theory abt thomas is correct~

- SO DOES ALISTAIR I MEAN CMON GUYS #justiceforalistair he regrets the shit hes pulled and therefore your hate against him for it is invalid PLUS HE GOT BULLIED BY RACIST PIECES OF SHIT HE DID WHAT HE COULD TO MAKE IT STOP

- matthew will open up abt his secret its like a routine at this point, in every shadowhunters series. a character has a secret that nearly kills them outta despair, they open up to friends, theyre met with love and support. jace loving his “sister”. wills “curse”. emma and jules’ relationship. ty bringing back livvy. alec being gay. you get used to it lol

- either lucie or matthew would have their marks stripped lucie for attempting/committing necromancy, and matthew because sobh said he doesnt have a specified death date (also i think cassie just hates him)

- jesse will be evil bro wouldnt that be cruel… like imagine after lucie brings him back hes like “haha i manipulated you to bring me back i never loved you” and then sHe GETS HER RUNES STRIPPED FOR NECROMANCY and its worse bc the shadowhunters are already out to get the herondales bc they refuse to accept tessa as anything but a warlock no but in that case she would prolly go to live with wills parents OKAY BUT IMAGINE HOW HEARTBROKEN CHARLOTTE WOULD BE WHILE DOING IT WHILE JAMIE IS CRYING AND MATTHEW SCREAMING AT HER NOT TO AND WILL TELLS HIM TO STOP WHILE TEARS ARE GOING DOWN HIS FACE

- a “seven husbands of evelyn hugo” thing with anna x ariadne and thomas x alistair (credit to my good friend wiz/nisha for saying this) maybe cassie is going to have thomas marry ariadne and anna marry alistair so that they could have a good old switcheroo, so they can swap lovers?? obviously it cant be anna and thomas lmao theyre cousins but thomas and ARIADNE…

- matthew and cordelia ARE going to kiss at one point HOL’ UP I DONT SHIP EM, i think its gonna be a climon kinda thing where they kiss and dont like it as much as they thought they would, and end up deciding to stay friends i think thats the best way cassie could deal with matthews crush on her without breaking anyones heart, i hope to god it wont be like him confessing and her rejecting him plz oml

[communitypoolswimlessons]

last July I decided to record my thoughts on the miraculous ladybug movie

, here you go

(prepare for the most massive text block of your life)

Why is the lighting so harsh all the time????Marinette's speaking v singing voice is soooo. Different

AND WHY DID GABRIEL HAVE LONG HAIR AT ONE POINT BURN IT

And also? Why do they have a ginormous portrait of them in MOURNING CLOTHES.

careless whisper playing as chat takes ladybug's hand is the most correct ever

Also, Adrian is me coded fr

Chat is chaos incarnate

WHY TF DOES CHAT LEAP AWAY LIKE THAT

Adrian get your life together why does a girl make you smile this much you JUST met her

stHAP WHY DID THEY MAKE ADRIAN SO BBGGabriel????? Singing?????

STOP it right now (his whole villain song is sendingggggg meede)

You know what I love how Marinette loves her dad

Marinette's emo song goes hard

I know this is, like, a show about magical powers and whatnot but I really like how they show the destruction of the fight and how, even while helping, damage is done

DONT THINK I DIDNT SEE LUKA I DID I WAS CHEERING HIM ON IN ANY SCENE HE WAS IN

HEATHENS. ABSOLUTE HEATHENS. WHY MUST THEY BITE THEIR ICE CREAM

The banter as they fight is killing me oh my god

And before people ask who I ship in the weird love square, it's just the two of them with the banter ladybug and chat noir have.

IDK WHY IT GOT SO COMPLICATED BUT IT DID AND IM CONFUSED. they are LITERALLY the same people, different fonts.

*breath has been stolen from my body* THE WALL OTS LITERALLY FANFICTION WRITING ITSELF

Also, /gen, how old are they? Because I know in the series they're like 14-15, but in the movie the animation really does make them look younger idk. I think it's around the same?

GEEZE when Marinette claps back she does so brilliantly

$$$picture of dead spider, could have been spiderman$$$

If a) chat noir gets akumatized or b) they don't end up together I will riot I have seen both happen and I have already suffered!!!! I've paid my dues!!!

IM SORRY THE WHOLE HAND THING WHERE IT SHOWS THE PROGRESSION THROUGHOUT THE MOVIE I HAVE DIED DEAD OH MY GOODNESS I HAVE PASSED AWAY /VPOS

Chat is so goofy frOH MY GOD NO NOT THE DOIBLE DUMP SHUT UP AND SHOW YOUR SECRET IDENTITY ALREADY

Also the earbuds?? As a symbol for Adrian's mental state??? Pretty smart ngl

There's only half an hour left Marinette needs to stop singing and get this fixed!!!

Why is hawkmoth like that???? He went from some silly goofy villain with a dark past to me angst machine who only cares about joining his wife like, yes that's his motive in the series but it's much more sane? I guess?

NOOOOO CARLESS WHISPER IS HIS RINGTONE?????

adrian oh my god stop being angsty AND DO YOUR JOB

Plagg has my whole heart fr

Sad we didn't get to see a slow transformation for chat tho

the suspense oh my god stop it

THEYRE TOO YOUNG FOR THIS YOUR HONOR GET YOUR GRIMY LITTLE HANDS AWAY FROM MY BABIES

damn got them with the force

OH MY GOD THIS MAN KNOWS THAT THEY ARE CHILDREN AND DOES. NOT. CARE. LIKE SIR???

what the heck oh my god OH MY GOD THE REVEAL ITS TIME

literally only half of the mask is gone when he recognizes adrian this man needs to spend more time with his child.

If hawkmoth has a redemption arc I will be waiting in line to punch him. Take a number I will gladly do so. Just lemme at him.

How does his cat ears stay on?

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD THE REVEAL

why is the wife not in her glass case she's gonna decompose!!!!

[inkedmyths]

S2: E4 "Children Shouldn't Play With Dead Things"

Brought to you by I FINISHED THE QUARTER I'M ALIVE THANK GOD

This episode featuring: Don't cry and drive, interrogating the grieving, stupid men making bad decisions, and lessons that I'm SURE will be taken to heart

Ohhh this chick having a breakup or a death or something and this guy gets her alcohol and chocolate and emo rock. Thats so nice

Whshsgsg did she climb out the window

DONT TEXT AND DRIVE

Or call and drive and yeaaaah thats what I thought

[ Kayla inquires about this, and I amend it to being a sobbing mess while at the wheel. Kayla then goes on a continuous tangent about how much she's cried while driving. Friends, if you're reading this, please be aware that Kayla is not a model for any behavior you should be exhibiting. ]

Oh their dad's necklace on their mom's grave. Ah :(

Ohhh its a dead tree so spooky. What are you looking at Dean

Ooookay the dead grass circle is actually spooky. Uh?

Sam neither you or Dean are doing any kind of coping

[ Kayla says that if they were, we wouldn't have a show. ]

NOOOO GOD NOT THE HARASSING PEOPLE WHO JUST HAD SOMEBODY DIE

I get its for the job but :(

GOD THIS POOR DUDE IS LIKE. HES SO SO SAD BC HIS DAUGHTER DIED and then Dean's like "Yeah yeah so do you ever feel like she's still ~present~ orrrr" and Sam's clearly glaring at him to STFU

Traumedy at its finest

[ Theres some discussion now on Dean and how he handles things, due to how he was raised and his position as the Older Brother. Basically, he handles things badly, for a variety of fucked up reasons. This isn't news. ]

Sam is, in this case, right. But Dean is going to continue repressing!

Oh hey is this the best friend guy?

Or the bf?

OH THAT PLANT JUST DIED

Boi you're so dead

Ohhh spooky reflection

Oh he deeaaaad shooocker

Dean. What are you doing.

IDIOT

Dean has now ended up with a sad crying girl and he's sitting there with the clear expression of someone SO not equipped with what's happening

This is why you don't break and enter. You end up being faced with emotions.

Dean being such a brat but when is he not

COLLEGE EMPLOYED GRIEF COUNCILORS

Every new thing they impersonate is funnier than the last

Except maybe the priests. Idk if anything will top that

[ Kayla says it will. I am delighted by this. ]

Ok I was right the guy was her bf and was cheating

Grave digging. Of course. I get it but also Why

[ Kayla says something in spoiler text, and Aspen says to stop posting easy to click spoilers. Kayla says to stop clicking the spoilers. How do you think I feel? You people will have paragraphs of spoiler discussion. Right in front of my salad. ]

EMPTY COFFIN??

Oh shit there she is

Wh

I mean. Ok. Make out with a dead girl. Yeah. I mean I guess I would assume I'm dreaming but also man doesn't that raise any red flags my dude.

Also Sam yelling at Dean so true

Zombie??

Dude? Red flags?

OHHH

OHHHHHH THIS MOTHERFUCKER

I seeeeeeeee I seeeeeeee

He resurrected her bc he wanted her back

[ Kayla and Melon discuss the existence of zombies in SPN. I mostly ignore it. ]

Ohhhh oh the roommate

Uh oh girl!!

UH OH GIIIIRL

Ohhh thats scary as shit but epic

"Damn that dead chick can run"

[ Melon asks if I'm going to watch another episode, even though I'm in the middle of this one. Heathen. ]

[ Mom then interrupts to try and get me to try some foundation. I protest. Kayla says the phrase "dolled up for Dean", and Melon follows it up with "dressed up for daddy", and I immediately begin planning on ways to send them both to an early grave. Why am I friends with these people. ]

WHATS IN THE BAG BITCH

Ooooh bitch you did this you resurrected her

Ohhh you're so dead you're so stupid

OHHH SHE JUST STRAIGHT UP SNAPPED HIS NECK

Luring her in I see

Not a vengeful spirit but something turned angry and dangerous because someone decided to fuck around and find out

WHSHSHS something a little funny about Sam running from some chick in a nightgown

What's dead should stay dead! Correct Dean! Hope you all take that to heart

Don't tell me anything bc I'm already so sure they don't

There's 15 seasons and these guys love to fuck around and find out. What's a little necromancy

Pulling over? Whatcha doing. Getting out to yell at the void

Oh shit is Dean Winchester APOLOGIZING? (gasp)

[ Kayla says he actually does that quite frequently, due to generally being apologetic for committing the crime of existing. This is a fair assessment. ]

Its not your fault buddy... you couldn't have controlled what your dad did. You never could.

Oh my god men crying

---

Dean continues to do bad at feelings. Sam is only marginally better because at least he's addressing that there are feeling being had. Anyways, don't resurrect people, they come back Wrong, and I'm suuuure this is so totally a lesson that the Winchesters are taking to heart and therefore will definitely not be attempting any necromancy at all in the future.

[pearlaqua-eevee]

TLOU EPISODE 1 "WHEN YOU'RE LOST IN THE DARKNESS" LIVEBLOG

IS THAT JOHNATHAN CARNAHAN 

“Viruses can make us ill but fungi can alter our very minds” OH MY GOD THERE ARE LAYERS TO THAT. THE WHOLE PREMISE OF THE STORY RIGHT THERE GENUIS FUCKING WRITING RIGHT OFF THE BAT 

#oh im gonna love this #this remains one of the best stories of the modern age BECAUSE of writing like this #yes yes yes

also the subtle commentary with the shots of the host’s bemused face and the people on set not paying attention, eating...the brilliant thing about this story is the subtle and not so subtle ways it comments on society and that...theres apathy and almost arrogance. Like “this guys ranting, this is crazy, will never happen” and then of course it does much like 2020

ooh. the deniers HATE this, dont they?

HAVING THE FUNGI GROWING AND LOOKING LIKE A CITY AND THEN LOOKING LIKE THE WEBS OF LIGHT SEEN FROM SPACE ON CONTINENTS AND THEN HAVING IT FORM THE SILOUTTES OF JOEL AND ELLIE  HOLY SHIT. NOBODY IS GONNA TOUCH THIS SHOW, ITS BRILLIANT

also the themeeee

I think they changed it slightly for the show, maybe a bit of percussion? But otherwise its EXACTLY like the game, I can hear Marlene narrating

(also I believe Merle is reprising her role as Marlene and FUCKING FLAWLESS ALREADY

im fangirling so hard because I know whats coming and I dont wanna think about it

SARAAAAAAAAHH  (Destiny’s Child, the Clash and Avril?? Girl has music TASTE) Her room feels so LIVED IN I love this

PEDRO HITTING THAT TEXAS DRAWL PERFECTLY, I AM YELLING

#Joel's accent is one of my fav things dont @ me #the fact that Troy Baker is FROM Tx so he played up his actual accent #idk much about Pedro but if that accent is put on its INCREDIBLE

AS a Texan and someone WITH a drawl, I LOVE it when you can tell actors did their work when it comes to the accent. (And here in Tx theres like 6 different regional accents and its the CORRECT one for the Dallas/Austin area!) like it’s the same I’d imagine for Brits or Australians when someone doesnt just default to Stereotypical British and actually does the right one. It just makes the character-details part of my brain SING. It just shows a lot of care for the character

nope. no. the emergency vehicles going by NOOOPE. CAN I EXIT OUT NOW. I REFUSE TO ACKNOWLEDGE

NOPE. Fuck THAT

the kept the Its Not Working fake out. fml

THE NOKIA DAD PHONE. JOEL PLS

oh my god that exchange Joel and Tommy have it sounds DEAD ON like the game. Except in the game the call was to Sarah but like this is PERFECT  

“Which jail, Travis County?”  “Yeah the one on 10″ idk I just love these lines when you can tell the people know what theyre talking about. Subtle little awesome thing as someone who lives close by   (And yeah, very Texan to ask which jail or which official building by the county and not the city, which is apparently how people in other states do it)

oh god. the lights and noises and IMAGINE what Sarah must be going through, Joel isnt there...even if you dont know whats coming thats gonna be really upsetting. 

This is actually worse and more ominous than in the game

holy fuck the look on Sarah’s face when she turns the tv on to see the alert...Nico Parker is a KILLER actress, I can SEE her blood running cold 

SARAH THE ALERT SAID STAY INDOORS. BRING THE DOG IN AND LOCK THE DOOR. DO NOT GO WANDERING AROUND.

NOOOOOO

FUCK. THAT.

THATS DISGUSTING AND HORRIFYING

“You killed her” “Baby Im sorry” And that right there is the horror

OH MY GOD THAT SHOT OF THE NEIGHBOR GOING TO HELP THE INFECTED JOEL RAN DOWN WITH THE CAR AND THEN GETTING ATTACKED

holy shit everything about this is....its like shot for shot, the dialogue is perfect...this is...like its horrific but its done so fucking well. im in horrified AWE

that fear from Sarah, trying to reason it through..."but you'd have to go a lot, right" just. ive been there. This is so...obviously it hits harder after covid but. They hit the visceral FEAR of the unknown..."are we sick, how do you know" just. 2 lines. they expanded on this idea by TWO LINES. and it makes it so much more chilling

this is so. I cant even get words. Im not even 30 minutes in

Sarah being the audience surrogate and having the camera literally from her pov, following HER and where SHES looking, exactly like the game mechanic...we’re with her the whole way through and we experience everything through her eyes, not Tommy or Joel...so the fear is MORE

just holy shit the DIRECTION in this. Everything si done so rihght

there are just no words. that 10 minutes that follow Sarah’s death and the jump to 20 years later...gut wrenching

the way Ellie kicks that tray like the PAUSE as she puts her foot down...such an intentional thing and I LOVE IT ts SPOT ON

BELLA IS PERFECT AS ELLIE HOLY SHIT

“seven...eight...fuck...you” AMAZING

people commenting on “she seems to angry/too quick to attack” like...the live action Ellie goes to attack Marlene but thats about the only added on this. Everything else she did IN THE GAME. I think its the fact that Bella actually LOOKS young that makes people realize

like I dont understand people like “she got tougher over the story” No. She got more TRAUMATIZED and yes got more capable at fighting. But she STARTS OUT hard and tough and SOFTENS. She runs parallel and also counter to Joel. SO much of her attitude at the beginning is just a show and I think people miss that

technically speaking Tess and Joel's relationship didnt NEED more screentime, you knew exactly their relationship with what we got but I love these new/expanded scenes with them

MARLENEEEEE.

“...You my fucking mom or something?” “Do I look like your mom?” “Nooo, you do not.” lmao AMAZING  (I mean TECHNICALLY no...)

“was Riley a terrorist?” DO NOT--  if we get that flashback I’ll CRY

GOD. For people who dont know the endgame, they have no idea how hards Marlene’s “you will die” comment to Ellie hits but NOBODY IS BLACK OR WHITE MORALITY ITS ALL SHADES OF GREEEEYYY

ELLIE JUST ATTACKING JOEL RIGHT OUT OF THE GATE AND HIM OWNING HER LMAO

“IM not going with them!” oh my god she sounded like game Ellie

“Kim you dont have a fucking ear on your FUCKING HEAD could you please!?” oh my god

“What are they capable of?” going back to what I said before: Ellie is still a KID. She talks and acts tough (and she is!) and she grew up at the end of the world but shes still a KID who lived her whole 14 years in a military school and got pinged by Marlene the second she left. And it becomes more clear if you know HOW she got infected...she doesnt know ANYTHING about what the world is like outside the QZ. And thats the most heartbreaking part of the story is her going through those horrors. It’s why her and Joel’s relationship is important add to that that shes LITERALLY in the middle of everyone looking back and forth and being traded and called cargo shes CLUELESS and I wanna hug her 

“Asshole!” thats no way to talk to your dad

also her knife I cry

“yall talk it through but please remember that I’m bleeding out” I FUCKING LOVE MARLENE OK

“Joel. Dont fuck this up. Please” I mean if you told him WHY....

ok but AGAIN. Ellie knows a smuggling code because SHES LITERALLY BEEN RAISED BY THE MILITARY but its just this childish way of blurting it out--something that you dont say out loud out of an abundance of caution--and so easily. Really hammering home that she may KNOW the way the world operates but she doesnt know the how or why...

that “okaaay sorr-y” kind of handmotion lol

“your watch is broken” GOD thats some subtle acting from Pedro. FUCK

also whereas in the game it felt like an idle observation, here it kinda feels like its a tiny bit spiteful. Like shes pointing it out to annoy him.

“you know where to go. so we’re gonna be ok?” parallel that to Sarah asking if theyre sick...the daughter figure looking to the father figure for reassurance that everythings gonna be ok. when deep down they both know it isnt goddamnit

“code broken”    that was SO MEAN but I love it and Joel was about to dad lecture but AGAIN Bella NAILED Ellie’s mannerisms, the way she draws out words or the little head tilts

“Holy shit Im actually outside” AGAIN. the childish excitement. because shes a kid seeing something new and has no clue how serious things are about to get

THE PIPE. FROM RIGHT BEFORE THE CUTSCENE

...does the shot of the officer feel a little like...too much like Bumbling Cop...?

BELLAS ACTING, ELLIE STEELING HERSELF LIKE 3 TIMES BEFORE ACTUALLY MOVING THIS CAST IS WAY TOO GOOD WHAT THE FUCK 

also that scream when she does it. You KNOW this girl has never been in a real combat situation like this

....so I figured they might lean a little heavier on Joel’s PTSD and explore it but I didnt expect them to draw that parallel. SHIT

the look on Ellie’s face

Idk how I feel about that ending. like the show itself spectacular and I love the tie in with the 80s song = danger so its a callback but it feels a little like. Upbeat Hm. Anyone else feel like its a bit out of place?

[knightzp]

HI AGAIN MIKI! Sorry abt this novel of an ask /D UR RIGHT CHILDE'S DESIGN IS UGLY aksjfnaks these arent even hot takes tbh theyre just facts! also candace yeah hers is... i agree. Things i like abt her are her shield + heterochromia (nod) + her colours! and ah dont get me wrong i love bennett, and ofc razor! (he was the first 4star i pulled and im v attached to him) my irks towards their designs are mainly bc i think they deserve better. and i think ur completely right regarding ayato’s design! Smth more traditional (like ayaka’s?) wouldve been a lot neater + fitting! every time i look at his long sleeves i cringe just a bit (hes one my mains tho pfft). and yeah abt sumeru! after all the orientalism, insensitivity, tone-deafness by hyv throughout the region i rlly dont like many of them… at least design wise, tho i like their actual personalities! (srry nilou + nahida + dori) also obvs bc of how white they all are ugh yup ur right. reason why my fave sumeru chars are cyno + collei who imo can do no wrong + i already liked them from the manga lmao (i would type more abt sumeru but its just beating a dead horse @ this point)

Oh yeah i love those designs too! Kazuha is such a bby girl :)) And kokomi!! her pastel colours + attacks are so pretty! what chars have ur favourite ult animations + why? which are the ones u’ll never get sick of? (i love yelan’s, shenhe’s + xinyan aka my beloved who deserves More) I hope im not bothering u w/ these questions btw but i rlly enjoy getting to know my mutuals! (also i rlly appreciate u putting the accents over my name, tysm it rlly warms my heart!) 

TŪĪ HI AGAIN!!! im so happy to see your reply!!

ajsfdlk im VERY GLAD we agree on the childe part (his design really is UGLY) and many of the other things too!!! just saying things as they are bc we are absolutely correct 😌​ oh and yes i understood what you meant abt bennys and razors designs! their designs are indeed quite basic and simple and they could have had better ones for sure. its just that i really like their characters and im already a bit attached with the designs they have but that doesnt mean they couldnt have or deserved better ones! and abt ayato, yes i was exactly thinking he should have like a male version of ayakas design!! and was so disappointed when he didnt. those long sleeves.... ajkdlfs i get you yeah, theyre so WEIRD and useless they only serve as ayatos boba tea storage

abt sumeru... yeah hyv is def not listening and just doing what they want and its. so disrespectful. ughhh the characters do really deserve better design wise yeah. and collei is one of my fave sumeru characters too! i also saw her first in the manga (tho idk if i ever finished the manga? bc it wasnt complete in the official website when i read it) and then seeing her again in the main story, years later and with the remaining sequels of all she had suffered before.... i love her a lot she deserves all the love in the world 💜​

ooh and my fave ult animations! the prettiest for me is probably kokomis animation! i love how she makes like a water swirl and everything turns blue and purple its so so pretty!! i also love kazuha (all the anemo and maple leaves around him is so Beautiful) and ayakas ult (she looks so pretty with her sword and her hand fan right about unleashing a huge cryo swirl) a lot. oh and hu tao yoimiya and albedos too! (i feel like im just mentioning my mains at this point but well ajkdlfk i see their ults a lot so is normal that theyre my faves ig!) and ooooh shenhes ult animation is also very very pretty i really like hers too! and xinyans!! her ult is def the best from all the 4 stars, its sooo cool how she sets her "stage" on fire and YES she does deserve a lot better bc shes an amazing character and i love her a lot too!

oh and dw youre not bothering me at all!!! on the contrary im always so happy to see your asks!!! i love interacting with my mutuals too and i really like talking to you! and abt your name yes of course! i made sure to write it as it is and that includes the accents obviously!

now i have a question for you! well, several questions actually but theyre all related: which are your fave genshin characters? which of them do you have, or rather, which 5 star characters do you have in general? is there any character you dont have that you really want? and finally, what are you fave teams to play with?

okay now i thinks that all for now! hope you have a great day!! <3

[my-fancy-hat]

vent post ahead bc i have already sickened my friends with this issue but i need to get it all out. i fucking hate my ex and how he is still involved in my life, i feel like i will never be able to completely move on if i can't cut him off, it's suffocating. i'm the type of person that needs to renew my surroundings and circles when i end a phase in my life (it depends ofc), but this guy and i share the same friends group, major and we both are in the student council, anywhere i go i will have to encounter him and exchange words. we particulary didn't end in "bad terms", but later on i discovered how he lied to me about his intentions, saying what was the needed to fulfill his needs (disgusting), and at the end pitied me because i wanted commitment and he didn't, giving me words of consolation as "we will be together again someday in the future"???? excuse me, u fucking won't. and i'll never get myself involved with you again. fucking coward, hypocrite, who tf u think u are i'm not stupid. i want him gone. i rather eat shit than being pitied by someone like him, i'm prideful af and he hurt my pride bad, he's dead to me. the worst thing is that i already discussed this to him what pisses me off about him and how uncomfortable he makes me feel (also, he still chase me after all that) that i want him to stop with his shit but he won't listen, it's like talking with the wall he still keeps doing the same shit. i regret so much to have maintained a semblance of friendship with him (like we didn't even meet as friends, i can't be friends with someone who i knew as a lover rightaway) and not having been clear with my negative feelings, i should have been a dick instead since the start and i wouldn't have to bite this pain in the ass for TWO (2) YEARS til now. yesterday he presented me as 💥his dear friend🌟 to his new gf BRO LEAVE ME ALONE IGNORE ME PLEASE. i don't need to see you making out with someone else, i dont need you to present me shit, why you lie to her i'm just a normal friend? how she would react if she found out all of this? that you keep someone like me close? worst thing is that the girl seems super clueless (girl like. from above in the sky you can see and tell the way we both talk to each other isn't as wow they trust each other sm they good friends:)) and she wants to befriend me because he told her good things about me.............. YOU UNDERSTAND HOW FEED UP I AM. son of a bitch why in the hell he wants me to befriend his new gf, i dont need anything of that just please leave me alone. said to me after she was gone he likes to have me by his side because "i'm a good person, correct and straightforward" that he can trust me w anything. ofc i confirmed his words in saying i don't feel the same way, that i don't trust him a single bit and i'm like this because i'm tired of his ass, but mf was so drunk i doubt he got the message. I don't understand how men like this exists, he filrted with me for years and even when he started his new relationship, but he doesn't want me. he wants me close but not too much, he doesn't want to let me go but he can have a new gf. i fucking hate seeing the people who hurt me happy, and i hate him bc he's a liar, hypocrite and pitied me bc my sentiments were genuine, he never apologized for what he did to me. why he can have a new start with someone else but I can't because he fucking traumatized me and i can't trust any men intentions anymore? am I not allowed to be happy with someone else too?? Idfc if he's good now i want him away from me i dont want to see it. if only he could disappear of my life i know i wouldn't feel this way, i want to heal.

[vtori73]

I love JJK and I do have critiques of it but personally I don't have as much or nearly as much as others do on the "sexism," in the series. I'm not saying there isn't any, I put it in quotes because a lot of what people say or claim is sexism found within the series is stuff I dont fully agree with. My main complaint about sexism within the series is the girls/woman did deserve more time to shine or just to be explored more backstory wise, especially the one that was considered a special grade but at the same time I was not too torn up about it only because literally all of them died, all of them are currently dead except for the youngest (Yuta). I do think she died in an asinine way though, considering what happens to Choso but I also will say it makes sense for the story (the Choso dying and Yuki dying not the dying FOR Choso to live on part). I mean, I will say I still do get it to a degree because Gege does love being cruel (lol). That sounds harsh but what I moreso mean is he loves his bittersweet moments that really make you feel something like the moment with Riko & Geto when she says she wants to live as a normal girl and be with her friends and we think things are going to be fine or could turn around but then gets shot by Toji and dies instantly. It's meant to make us feel a certain way and I could say the same about a LOT of the other deaths.

Again my problem more so is the angle she came from and the fact that we don't really get to see her actually be strong and show us how/why she is a special grade because the first time we ever see her full on fight she dies (I think she may fought a bit before with Mahito but I honestly don't remember, but still it was barely anything) or at least learn more about her and get some backstory like all of the other special grades. She deserved more time, but I don't think her dying was necessarily wrong or a bad thing when it comes down to the story Gege is trying to tell. Most of my other issues are similar in that they just deserved more time to shine like the male characters and to show that they ARE powerful, not saying they aren't powerful because many of them are BUT we the audience deserve to see it to be shown much more equally like the boys/men through fighting and screentime and not just through power level/grades, text, and such.

I do believe part of it is censorship tbh, im not going to say ALL of it is but the lack of time spent on them feels more like something not 100% under Geges control, especially if what I saw was correct about a recent interview he had in which he felt forced to rush Tsumiki's come back and interactions with Yuji, maybe he meant more in general than something forced upon him but regardless it is a known fact that the company (shonen jump) has a sexism problem and so it would be wrong to not take that into consideration.

Other than the above though I don't really have other criticisms regarding the woman characters, I have other criticisms unrelated to them but again those are unrelated. One thing that does make me have a more positive view of Gege and why I grant some leniency like taking possible censorship and such into account is because he HAS shown he can write woman characters and do them justice, like specifically Maki.

I believe ignoring Makis whole storyline is a huge misstep to take when trying to make any legit and fair critique of JJK. Maki's whole arc was about fighting against her own family that upheld patriarchal abusive values over her to keep her and the woman in the family in line and she wanted none of that and wanted better for herself and her family (sister). She worked hard to become stronger but was fought at every turn and despite becoming very strong for someone who was born a non- sorcerer she was still denied basic respect, agency, & decency and they still very much felt she needed to know her place as a woman who was a non-sorcerer. Despite being told she wasn't strong & worthless she still fought back and killed them all after what they did to her sister. She did this so EASILY too, the person they looked down upon and showed no respect or humanity towards slaughtered them like they were nothing but livestock.

Her story is literally overcoming the old patriarchal thinking found within Japan perpetuated by specific families and she WINS, she does it, she beats them, at a cost though but that's JJK. Also some might take issue with the sister dying but I honestly don't see her storyline work as well as it does without her. If she were an only child it just wouldn't have tugged at our heart nearly as much & considering various factors about Maki and her story the majority of other sibling variations she could have would just not have worked well ESPECIALLY if the gender of the sibling wasn't a girl. Her fighting the patriarchy, for let's say a hypothetical brother, just wouldn't be nearly as impactful or... make sense because again her story is dealing with a PATRIARCHAL family, a boy would automatically be treated better than Maki regardless because Maki deals with being oppressed by her family for being a non-sorcerer and a girl. Also not to mention her having a brother might come off a bit too Toji 2.0, just saying.

Again, I've said it before but I do think some "fans" of the series and people within fandom spaces in general don't really actually know all that much about sexism and such to really know how to criticize it well within the media they consume. I feel JJK gets a lot more flack in this regard while other popular series don't get nearly as much and also at the same time have much more people making excuses for it. Part of it I do believe has to do with the simple fact that a lot of characters actually die within the series which makes people more upset/quick to judge without considering all the other info and facts that happen within the story. But, I do believe another contributing factor to this as well is people are inherently sexist. Let's face it, we are born in a patriarchal society, it's very much a global thing so a lot of people are just going to be sexist and even those who work on it will be at different stages of it and maybe never progress to knowing more than the basics of what's sexist &/or feminist. So inevitably we will get people who don't do deep enough thorough dives into the overall picture of the series or take in any other info when making their critiques which makes for a very poor analysis.

Anyway... I'm done. I know I've typed about this stuff before but I feel my thoughts just keep coming together better as the series goes on and seems to be heading closer towards its end and have had more time to ruminate on my thoughts. Also, sorry for any typos, I have ADHD meaning despite the fact I work hard on trying to catch my mistakes I will 99% of the time miss something, lol.

[brittlebonesguy]

4,5,6,7

stephanie.....she doesn’t have to sleep out in the rain every night jesus. once again clay i can’t stand you dumbass opinions kindly shut your mouth for the rest of the season please. all three of these men of this tribe: ted, clay, and brian are at the bottom of my list i hate them. i truly don’t like ted or clay. you wanna know why it wasn’t a team effort shii ann? because it was dead fucking quiet even coming up with a name for the dummy you’re meant to decorate. you also literally said you don’t care. so.....all of you be annoying i guess. i REALLY hate the way the men talk about the women on the orange tribe. and i don’t like that they call jan granny. especially since they do nothing around the camp. the women are getting the water, making the food and the men? sitting the water. and there it is. the outright sexism. fuck you guys. helen is eating with these comments against the men oof. thats fully correct ghandia unfortunately women never stick together in this game and all three of you will be picked off. wanna try that sentence again clay or are you just gonna keep stumbling through it. stop not jeff chastising clay’s choice of a nickname. i am so disappointed in you helen. truly. ghandia you have every right not to let it go. 

who wouldn’t for you clay, you fucking pig. ........a lot of people eat the organs of animals robb. and also why are you turning your nose up to perfectly good food just because it’s an organ. you guys have been starving for days but you draw the line there? he better pray one of the challenge isn’t gross food based. brian really has a high opinion of himself. great little piss baby got hurt and somehow its shii ann’s fault. can’t wait to hear him complain about this for the next three day. these people are so useless. how the fuck do you lose  whole fucking boat. the island isn’t mysterious you’re just stupid. ted is absolutely responsible for the boat but i’ll just blame it on you anyway clay. its more fun that way. ot instead of yelling you could just get out of the water and read the fucking note yourself. clay: its betting on food jan: its a gambling thing clay: no shit sherlock. okay,,,,,so you’re allowed to point out the obvious but no one else? your sexism is showing give me 10 minutes with him alone in a room and he’s coming back with at least three broken bones. helen what makes you think you won’t be out next right after jan. i hate when people say “oh i’d hate to do it but that’s the decision that the tribes made i have to vote for them” no you DONT you literally don’t have to. i can feel how much jeff doesn’t like robb. 

oh so we’re all just gonna drop that word whenever huh? shii ann now on a shit list. if you don’t want anyone to know about your secret alliance then don’t fall into silence the moment someone walks up while you’re talking. i don’t understand the constant judgement of jan. she seems really sweet and she just wants to have a fucking funeral for a bat okay? piss off. she deserves a better season honestly. firstly robb needs to stop saying baby to shii ann and secondly he truly does not know how to spell her name considering he keeps putting s.h.bye BITCH! thank god robb didn’t make to to merge. i don’t know what i would have done if he did. i get the vibe that jeff is so done with this season.

why did it look like brian was going in for a kiss with penny. really hate brian’s cockiness. rest of her life? its just survivor ken. penny does give mean girl vibes. yeah shii ann leaving tracks for this tribe

[alicent-hightowers-spouse]

Omg so I know season four was released a while ago but I recently found my reaction notes to the first six episodes. And they’re really funny so I want to share them with you guys lmao.

My notes on Stranger Things

Before I begin:

-Byler no matter what

-Ronance no matter what

-please don’t let any main characters die 😭

-but if someone has to go make it Hopper please

-or at least just please don’t kill Robin or Max or Dustin or Will

-I want an open confession that either Will is gay or that he has a crush on Mike or both

-although I think it would be best if Mike was the one who confessed feelings first

-I already know I’m not prepared for this at all

-Future Cass, how r u feeling?

Edit: I was correct I was not prepared for that at all 😀

Episode One:

-THERES A WARNING IN THE DESCRIPTION?!

-Why is the lab so gay? 💀

-AYYY IS BRENNER VECNA?

-Don’t know who this boy is that BRENNER is manipulating but he has OCD 💀✋🏼

-Love him for that 🤪

-LMAO HE BE TELLING BRENNER THAT HIS DRAWING SUCKS

-I LOVE TEN PLS DONT KILL HIM

-😀

WHAT

-WHAT

-EL?! YOUVE GOT SOME EXPLAINING TO DO BESTIE

-OMG WAIT IS BRENNER NOT A COMPLETELY TERRIBLE PERSON JGJRJRJ

-Ayo just noticed that Mileven and Jancy are together in the intro so they can’t actually be a couple because none of the other names are 😁🥰

-DAMN EL IS WHIPPED

-AYO JOHNATHAN SMOKING POT?!

-SUZIEEEE LOML YSSSSSSSSSSSE

-DUSTIN STOP PEER PRESSURING UR GF 😭

-BOOBIES HAHA

-I too love BOOBIES 💅❤️

-MAX MAX MAX MAX I LOVE U YESSSS

-Robin’s a trumpet player WHAT?!

-THE DUFFERS DONT KNOW SHIT ABOUT BAND 🙄

-ROBIN IS A QUEEN AND TRUMPET PLAYERS ARE REDDIT USERS

-Do research next time besties

-AHYY I automatically approve Vickie because she plays clarinet.

-she can do no wrong 💅

-LUCAS?

-I mean get it bestie

-slay

-don’t know who this dude is but can he just shut up for a second he’s so annoying 💀

-WHAT?! DOLL?!

-Why the heck is this girl annoying Will?

-Omg why are these kids making fun of a dead person

-But LIEK Will SLAYYYY

-OMG Max 😭

-Does Chrissy have an ED 😟

-OMG someone save Chrissy

-AYO VECNA LEAVE CHRISSY ALONE

-EDDIE SUS

-NOT TAMMY LMAO

-ERICA YESSS

-WHAT WHAT WHAT JFJRIWJDJJFJDJJD OMG I- CRAZY ENDING

But like also I loved Chrissy why did she have to die 😭

Episode Two:

-I’m not buying it 🙄✋🏼

-Hopper SHOUKD not be alive but whatever

-PLEASE MIKE STOP BEING AN ASSHOLE AND GIVE WILL A HUG 😭

-Joyce is such a girl boss

-But Murray is so smart

-THE GUN TO PUNCH TRANSITION WAS SO CLEAN

-Poor Will 😭

-POOR ELEVEN OMG 😟

-AYO NANCYS HAIRCLIP ITS THE SAME AS THE GIRL THAT DANVED WITH WILL AND ITS FRUITY

-AYO BYLER IS DEF HAPPENONG THERES NO WAY ITS NOT AFTER THAT LMOA

-DAMN EL, but like Angela low key deserved that anyways lmao

-Damn VECNA be killing someone every episode

-AYO DINNER WITH MURRAY DINNER WITH MURRAY I HOPE HE SAYS SOMETHING ABOUT BYLER

-Please they literally just confirmed that Mike isn’t actually in love with El 💀

Episode Three:

-BAHHAHA WHY IS ELEVEN GETTING ARRESTED SO FUNNY TO ME PLEASE

-“experiment sexually”

-IF THIS ISNT A CONFIRMATION I-

-AYO ROBIN AND NANCY ROBIN AND NANCY OMG ITS HAPPENING AHHH

-This is some Saw shit right here 💀

-Lucas is an asshole I can’t believe that he’s ratting on Eddie 😒 and I loved him so much before this too 😞

-I TAKE IT BACK SLAY LUCAS SLAYYY

-NOOO MAXXX

Episode Four:

-BAHAHAH THE FROM

-NO BUT LIKE NAMCY AND ROBIN DO BE SLAYING

-ALSO SOMEONE PLEASE SAVE MAX SHE CANT DIE 😭

-NO BECAUSE I WANT TO SEE LUCAS’ REACTION SO BAD WHEN MAX TELLS HIM SHES DYING

-PLEASE I LOVE MAX

-YESSS ROBIN SLAYYY OMG SHE MIGHT BE MY FAVORITE CHARACTER THJRHT

-Ayo this season is violent and gory

-I hate Hopper but that was a very cool escape

-I swear that was so fruity OMG Byler is happening HDHRJ

-PLEASE NOT HOPPER NARUTO RUNNING

-AYO YURI IM ABOUT TO THROW HANDS HOW DARE HE KINDAP JOYCE AND MURRAY THE GIRLBOSS DUO 😡. when they wake up they’re gonna girlboss him so hard thta VECNA is gonna kill him by throwing the homophobic dog at him

-PLEASE WHY WAS THE BABY ON FIRE SO FUNNY TO ME

-MAX IS GETTING ME IN MY FEELS HELP

-STOP THE WHOLE TIME NDING SCENE I JUST- WOW FHJFJF

Episode Five:

-HELP THE WAY HE FLIPPED THE BED THRJRJR

-Death Note vibes 🤪💀

-No but also why does El dress like a Disney charactor 💀 so many layers

-HUHHHH MY JAW JUST DRIPPED

-nahhh THERES no way this crusty old guy is still kicking

-he probably died just from being knocked to the floor

-nah but I’m shitting bricks here what the duck is going on

-OMG OWENS I TRUSTED U WHYYYYY 😭

-Ok so this is a horrible situation for El BUT THE FACT THAT SHE LITERALLY DREW A PRIDE FLAG IS SNEDING ME 😭✋🏼

-This is making me feel like I’m on drugs for fr

-But this whole seaosn is giving me Hereditary vibes

-OMG WAIT A SECOND NO BECAUSE IM FREAKING OUT BECAUSE EVERYTHING IS GOING EXACTLY HOW I PREDICTED AND ITS SO REAL THEIR ACTUALKT GONNA MAKE BYLER CANON OMG IFHJRJEJEJ

-ALSO I LOVE ARGYLE OMG YRS

-YO HOPPER THATS KINDA FRUITY BESTIE

-NOT THIS EPISODE MAKINB ME FEEL BAD FOR HOPPER

-also now I ship him with Enzo. Oops.

-no but seriously poor Chrissy 😭

-but also not her Mom being a Karen 😒

-PLEASE JOYCE AND MURRAY R BOTH SUCH GIRLBOSSES I LOVE THEM BOTH ONG

-I swear to god if this mother trucker messes with Eddie I’m going to throw hands

-OMG STEVE AND NANCY? STRVE AND NANCY?

-OMG THAT ALSO COULD BE A HUGE BYLER HINT (the Sherlock thing)

-LUMAX SUPEEIORITY LUMAX SUPERIORITY

-Joyce and Murray rlly do be slaying though 💅

-No but like was cutting her hair rlly nessecary 😭✋🏼

Episode Six:

-“Steve takes one for the team.” THE DUCK DOES THAT MRAN?!

-Jason r u stupid or dumb? Did u not hear Eddie screaming?! And you can’t beat the devil lmao 😭✋🏼

-Damn these bitches think they’re Miss Trunchbull or something 🧍‍♀️

-AYO MIKE IS WEARING THR INVERSE OF THE SHIRT FROM THE NOT POSSIBLE SCENE OMG BYLER BYLER BYLER BYLER CONFIRMED??!!!????

-OMG YES SUZIE SLAYYY

-QUEEN BAHVIOR

-THE MORE I WATCH THE MORE GIRLBOSS MURRAY AND JOYC GET

-POWER DUO SLAYY

-EHY DO THE PPL TRUST THE FOOD SO QUICKLY THEY ABOUT TO DIE 💀

-religious ppl r so dumb omg 💀

[caitimetravels]

she’s insignificant

chapter 11: forget it

the umbrella academy x (fem) reader

disclaimer: i do not own the plot/storyline of the netflix tv series and i do not own the umbrella academy characters.

warnings: none

a/n: um this is gay towards the end so just take note of that lol. also fairy floss is cotton candy or candy floss (i think thats what other people call it :/ im australian so idk tho)

masterlist

wednesday. 8:15am

y/n stepped down the stairs, the sounds of an argument becoming louder and louder until she got too curious.

"what's going on?" she frowned at her siblings who were gathered in the parlour, minus vanya, arms crossed. "leaving me out again?"

"eight.." allison turned first, 

y/n paused, she hadn't been called that number in so long, "it's y/n"

"sorry, um we were just-" luther begun but klaus cut him off.

"we're talking about the apocalypse" he filled her in quickly and a look of realisation crossed her face.

"oh.. "

"hey, you saw five there right?" diego pointed out, now fully turning to face her.

"mhm" she nodded,

"what was that about? what happens?" the knife wielding man questioned,

"i don't know how it happens but there's like nothing left. to be honest it looked like what you'd expect to come out of a nuclear war. everything had gone 'boom!'" she made an explosive gesture, "things were on fire and there was so much dust"

"so like the whole planet?" allison frowned, trying to work out exactly what had happened,

"yeah, the whole planet. everyone's dead-" luther nodded, answering before y/n could.

"hey" the conversation paused and y/n turned to see vanya and leonard. "what's going on?"

allison glanced at luther before looking at leonard, "it's a family matter" 

y/n cringed, that was not the right wording.

"a family matter? so of course you couldn't bother to include me" vanya looked at them all in disbelief.

"no, it's not like that. we were-" luther tried to correct her but she only turned to walk away.

"please, don't let me interrupt"

"vanya wait! i'll fill you in later when we're alone" allison walked over, still attempting to save their relationship.

"please, please, don't bother. and i won't either" she looked exasperated now, 

"vanya, that's not fair" allison's eyebrows furrowed.

"fair?" vanya scoffed, "there's nothing fair about being your sister. i have been left out of everything for as long as i can remember. and i used to think it was dad's fault but he's dead.. so it turns out your the assholes" 

"ouch"

"ouch?" y/n now turned on them too as vanya walked away, "ouch?! you are assholes! all of you! how many times do you need to be reminded that vanya's important too?! or do you just not care..?" before anyone could reply she was running after vanya.

"vanya!" she bumped into leonard who was heading back into the house. shrugging it off she quickly grabbed her sister's jacket sleeve. "i'm sorry.." 

"it's not your fault" vanya shook her head, "it's okay" 

"please vanya, its not okay" y/n frowned, arguing against her, "i know its not okay, its not fair how they treat you, youre part of the family too!"

"it really is okay, sis, i know they didnt include you either." vanya gave her a small, pained smile. "i understand my place in the family"

y/n continued to shake her head, tears filling her eyes, "no, no. you are part of this family vanya! you deserve to be treated like it. its not fair!"

"its not fair for you either and you dont care about your place" vanya pointed out,

"ive always been last vanya, im number eight." y/n paused, considering her words "my place is practically a birth right.. im sorry anyway, i love you sis"

"i love you too" vanya smiled softly one last time before leaving.

y/n could tell she was still feeling abandoned. she had seen that look on her own face too many times. a moment later she was passed by leonard again. they shared eye contact for a moment before passing each other. the h/c haired girl frowned, a creeped out shiver running through her body. 

she stood there for a while, blocking out the arguing coming from the parlour. with a deep breath she slowly begun walking towards the door.

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it had been hours since y/n first sat in the park. she was lazily swinging her legs off the ground, building up momentum enough to sway a little but not fully move.

"feeling down?" a voice surprised her. her eyes widened as she looked up to find one of the most beautiful girls she had ever seen. her dark skin complemented her suit, curly hair bouncing with every step she took. her blazer was slung over her arm with her hands in her pockets and sleeves rolled up to reveal her forearms. her lips held a teasing smile. "stunned, hm?"

"s-sorry" y/n glanced down again, fiddling with her fingers. the girl laughed lightly, taking a seat on the other swing beside her. her mind barely registered the british accent, only now noticing she sounded foreign. 

"what's got you down, love?" the pet name, probably meaning nothing, no more than habit, caused y/n's cheeks to flush red.

"just some family problems" y/n sighed softly, trying to forget all that had happened today "my siblings keep fighting.. it just got bad today" 

"mm, yeah that can be hard.." the girl nodded, sympathetically. "say, would you like to go somewhere? maybe it'll make you feel better?"

"really?" 

"yeah, c'mon" she held out her hand, grinning slightly. "there's a carnival not to far from here. i hope you like them" y/n sighed, mulling over the thought before reaching out and taking the girl's hand. she knew not to trust strangers but this girl was someone she couldn't let leave without knowing better. besides whats the worst that could happen?

"my name's beatrice, by the way" the now named girl smiled softly, swinging their hands together as she lead the way.

"i'm y/n" the held eye contact for a moment before they both flustered.

the two girls then glanced at each other again as they saw the carnival coming into view.

"let's have a little fun, hm?" beatrice took off running, dragging y/n with her. 

they chased each other around the carnival, playing around like little kids. y/n knew she was anything but however that didn't stop her from running around. they took to the stalls, playing classic carnival games. 

they danced around each other, hands holding the other tightly as they laughed. their giggles filled the air, hearts beating fast as they spun around together.

it was all so perfect.

"hey" beatrice looked up from her fairy floss, the sticky candy lingering on her fingers. "should we go on that?" she raised a hand to point to the ferris wheel in the middle of the carnival. y/n felt herself laugh again,

"sure"

they lined up, feeling giddy as they got on. it was silent as they sat, side by side, awaiting the rides stop at the top.

and there, right under the stars like it was straight out of a romance novel, the pair locked lips in a sweet kiss.

it all felt so real, y/n was sure of it..

so why wasn't it?

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[yanderecrazysie]

so ofcourse the prince doesn’t care and still continues to have his way with you. until the wedding day, he kidnaps you and the both of you escaped and went to another country where the prince’s friends are situated. Your little brother will follow soon shortly after you after the prince blackmails you into legally marrying him because he uses your little brother as a bait and he says that if u dont marry him he will leave your brother there and make him take the anger of your stepfamily. Ofc u dont want that an ended ul marryinh him.

Im thinking of the prince as someone nice, prim and proper, attractive strong so u were surprised when he did what he did. Im thinking of the prince as iwaizumi hajime and maybe the seijoh 4 helped him to kidnap you and escape you to another country and also escape your brother. 2/2

THIS IS A REQUEST but if u dont feel like doung it. Izz oky love ur works mwahh

Here is part 2 EEK! I’m sorry this took so long to write, but I worked hard on it, so hopefully that shows! It’s over 3,000 words I believe, so it’s my longest story so far-

Like I said in the first part, I did change some of the things to fit my writer’s block better!

Thank you again my lovely anon, I really did enjoy writing this!

Note(s): Part one is here: https://yanderecrazysie.tumblr.com/post/664013806343766016/i-have-a-very-weird-au-request-but-this-just-came

This is part two

Part three is here: https://yanderecrazysie.tumblr.com/post/716483628755042304/hello-i-just-read-coercion-and-was-wondering-if

Title: Coercion (Part 2)

Pairings: Iwaizumi x Reader

WARNINGS: Yandere themes, death threats, emotional/verbal abuse from family members, NSFW, NON-CON, forced marriage, blackmail, Iwaizumi is kind of an awful human being

Summary: Once upon a time, there was a little girl named (Y/n), who was treated horribly by her step-family. A prince fell in love with her but she didn’t feel the same. And only he lived happily ever after.

coercion

/noun/

the practice of persuading someone to do something by using force or threats.

“I have a deal I’d like to make with you,” A dark smile spread across Prince Iwaizumi’s lips, “One you won’t be able to refuse.”

“O-Oh?” You squeaked, your mouth drying at the predatory gaze in his eyes.

“Marry me.”

The kitchen went dead silent, your breathing completely stopping at his words. It felt unreal, his request.

“P-pardon?”

Prince Iwaizumi, smirk as pronounced as ever, repeated himself “Marry me.”

“That’s not really a deal, your Highness,” You managed to say, your words choking your throat.

His dark eyes considered you for a brief moment before he corrected himself, “Marry me or I’ll tell your family that you are meeting with your brother against their wishes.”

You gaped at him, heart stopping. How did he know? How on earth did he know that?

This… this couldn’t be real. You were just having a horrible nightmare, right? But why couldn’t you wake up?

Bile rose in your throat, “I… I can’t do either, your Highness. You’re set to marry Hana, not me. I’m just the chef-”

“You aren’t the chef at all,” Prince Iwaizumi snapped, “I know more than you think I do, so don’t you dare lie to me. I could have your head if I wanted.”

Oh. That’s right. You’d been talking so casually with the man that you almost forgot he could initiate your death with a snap of the fingers.

You mulled over your options. Losing Kanji would be unbearable… but being with the Prince, who was engaged to another, would be a death sentence if you were caught. And wouldn’t that be worse for Kanji? To have his sister dead?

Prince Iwaizumi seemed to sense your internal conflict and broke through your thought process, “If you don’t agree to at least date me in secret, I’ll kill your brother.”

Your blood turned to ice. You were protesting before you even realized it, “No! No, don’t, please! I’ll date you- I’ll marry you- I’ll do anything- please my Prince, don’t hurt him!”

The prince nodded, “Then we have a deal.”

You shuddered, tears filling your eyes as you sniffled. Prince Iwaizumi turned to leave, before stopping in front of the door, turning back with one last comment before taking his leave.

“It truly hurts to know that you don’t remember me.”

You stood, shivering despite the warm ovens surrounding you, left to your thoughts, fears, regrets, and “why me?” ponderings.

Prince Iwaizumi didn’t return the next day, nor the day after, nor the day after that. You were lured into a sense of security you knew, deep down, was entirely false. Since the exchange, you had thought your situation over.

There wasn’t any way to date him without, at the very least, your family knowing. It would be difficult to go on dates with any man without townsfolk noticing and rumors circulating throughout the little village that had nothing to do other than gossip about trivial things.

To date the prince of their entire kingdom? Forget about it. You might as well expect to show up in the next edition of the town’s papers.

It shouldn’t have been a surprise that the Prince showed up for another dinner with your stepfamily. It shouldn’t have been. But it was.

You were left positively trembling at the order your stepmother gave you. “Tidy up the house and stay out of everyone’s way.”

It was easy enough, if it weren’t for the prince’s eyes trailing after you, boring into the back of your head whenever you turned your back to him.

You practically ran out of the house when your stepmother told you to return to the maids’ quarters, desperate to gain as much distance from the intimidating man as possible.

But your alone time was short-lived. Only a few minutes after taking deep breaths on your bed you heard a rough voice snap at the other maids, “Out, now.” The maids obliged and you leapt to your feet and tried to slink out of the maid’s quarters with the rest, but Prince Iwaizumi was quick to call you out.

“Not. You.”

You stopped in your tracks, shaking, unable to look into his darkening olive eyes. His footsteps got louder as he drew closer to you, his hand dipping under your chin to lift your head to face his own.

Before you could comprehend it, his lips were on yours.

The kiss was rough and possessive, his teeth quick to nip at your soft lips to grant his tongue access to your mouth. His hands roamed your body heatedly, not staying in one place for long, as though he couldn’t decide where he wanted to touch you.

It was your first kiss- other than one small one you’d had as a child.

A groan escaped into the kiss as Prince Iwaizumi pulled you close, the kiss becoming a little softer as one large hand came to cup your cheek, his thumb stroking it gently. He broke away for air, his eyes wild and swirling with lust.

You were slightly dazed, but also very, very afraid. You were fully aware, at this point, that you were alone, in a place with many beds, with a man that demanded to have you despite your insistence that you did not want to marry him.

“My prince, please-”

“Shh… shh…” Large hands carded through your hair gently, the rough man’s lips pressing against your forehead and lingering there for a few moments, “We’re in a relationship, aren’t we? This is only natural.”

You desperately hoped he just meant kissing, but the way his hand glided down to your hips and gripped them tightly had your heart pounding in fear. One of his hands released your hip and came up to grope your breast, causing you to gasp.

“I don’t want-”

“Shh…” Prince Iwaizumi seemed to want to keep you calm, refraining from being harsh with his hushing, but he still showed agitation when you struggled, squeezing your breast tightly to put you in your place.

You whimpered as his lips met yours again with bruising force and your eyes fluttered closed when you felt his fingers nimbly undoing the buttons on the back of your dress. Tears welled up behind your eyelids, stinging your eyes with their salty liquid.

You lay silent as he stripped you bare before him and eagerly worked his tongue between your folds. The first moan that spilled from your lips caused something inside you to snap, and suddenly, your mind was drowning out his words and ministrations.

Why me? Why did it get to this point- How did it even get to this point? What did I do to deserve this? Was I just destined to live a miserable life?

You squeezed your eyes shut as something rubbed against your embarrassingly-wet entrance before pushing forward. Prince Iwaizumi braced his hands on either side of your head, from what you could tell from the dipping of the pillow you lay on.

His cock split you open, drawing a pained whimper from your mouth as tears once more leapt to your eyes. You mentally reached out for that disassociation once more, grabbing hold of it and allowing reality to melt away and nothingness to replace it.

Think nothing. Feel nothing.

When it was over, Prince Iwaizumi’s brutal thrusts, throaty groans, and unfairly-sweet love confessions were so disassociated in your mind that they truly felt like some bad dream. As though you were simply imagining the bruises on your hips and the inside of your thighs. The hickeys on your neck and collarbone. The cum drying on your stomach. The muscular arm slung around you, pulling you even closer to your assaulter’s toned chest.

The both of you laid on the bed together like that for a couple hours. No words were exchanged and you would’ve thought the man had slept if he didn’t spontaneously do little things to show affection. His fingers would brush against your jawbone, stroke your cheek, and gently massage the shoulder he could reach with you both on your sides. You couldn’t bring yourself to look at the man that held your bare back to his equally-bare form.

His fingers had begun to twirl a strand of your hair for the umpteenth time when a soft knocking sounded throughout the room. You bolted upright, terror coursing through your veins when you heard Hana’s unusually-timid voice call through the wood of the door.

“Prince Iwaizumi? Are you finished thanking the maids?”

So that is what he had told them. You stiffened when his chin came to rest on your shoulder, both arms encircling you as he, too, sat upright.

“Yeah, just about. I’ll be out in another minute or two. Your maids have such interesting stories.” Prince Iwaizumi’s voice was so casual, so calm… it made you sick. He had just finished raping you, yet, here he was, acting like nothing had happened at all.

It wasn’t fair at all- how he could look unbothered, a lazy smile on his lips and a soft gaze in his eyes. It wasn’t fair that he could stand easily when you could barely twitch without wincing in pain. It wasn’t fair that he could redress himself so quickly and leave such a deceptively-sweet kiss to your temple before leaving. It wasn’t fair… It wasn’t fair at all… Because…

Because you were bothered. You couldn’t smile or feel okay. All you felt was pain and self-loathing, hatred towards the man giving you a small wave as he departed and towards yourself who didn’t even put up a fight.

You knew that you had made it clear to the prince that you didn’t want what he did to you, and you were positive he would threaten Kanji’s life if you didn’t allow him to have his way with you, but still…

The fact that he could force himself on you, then treat you like you were lovers that shared a beautiful, intimate moment made your head spin and your stomach churn. For the first time, you really thought about it all.

For some reason, the prince wanted something from you. He claimed it was marriage but, if that was all, wouldn’t he just force you into marriage like he could with any woman in the land? A ceremony within the hour, if he wished.

Why did he insist on dating you first? In raping you on a poorly-built bed in a maids’ quarters? In threatening Kanji’s well-being and life to get you to do what he wanted?

You fell asleep with those questions plaguing your mind. The dreams that plagued you weren’t of a monster taking you against your will in the bed you slept in, but of a little boy and girl playing together in a pretty little garden.

The little boy had dark hair and green eyes, while the little girl was (h/c)-haired with (e/c) eyes filled with happiness and wonder. The boy was pouting but he allowed the little girl to drag him along by the hand.

The two children sat together on a bench, talking. The surly boy stared at the smiling girl as though she hung the sun in the bright blue sky above them herself.

The two children leaned forward and pressed their lips together briefly, before pulling apart with blushes on their cheeks. They held hands and whispered promises of “forever”s in each other’s ears as the sky grew dark.

And, as your sweet, smiling, living father took the little girl by her hand and led her away, the little boy called out to her.

“I’ll see you again.”

It wasn’t a question.

And, when you woke in the morning, crying and trembling and sweating through the sheets, you wish you’d dreamt of what he’d done to you instead.

Hana and Prince Iwaizumi’s wedding drew closer and, day by day, preparations became more and more serious. The prince himself would stop by the house, his piercing eyes following your every timid movement, but never for very long.

Kanji had been mostly unneeded in all the busyness, and often slipped away to talk to you like old times. Stepmother was either too busy or too stressed to care or even notice that he was by your side. After all, it was the women’s job to plan the decor and ceremony.

You never thought you’d be so happy to think of your stepsister marrying someone, but you were practically giddy the night before their wedding. Even the prince- hell, even the king couldn’t divorce someone simply for the reason of taking another wife.

Even if he were to kill his wife or claim she cheated or something, he’d have to wait at least a full year to marry again, such was the rule of the land. When he and Hana exchanged their vows, you would be safe. And, if he were to do something drastic, for reasons still unknown to you, you would still have at least a year to escape.

As you prepared to sleep, one of the younger maids tapped you on the shoulder, “Miss (Y/n), there’s a man asking for you.”

Your blood ran cold. Each footstep felt forced. Every breath seemed difficult.

The man outside the maids’ quarters was not the one you expected, but a total stranger with chocolate-colored hair and eyes. He smiled casually at you, as though he was seeing you on the street and not waiting outside your door in the pitch blackness of midnight.

“Are you supposed to be on our property?” You asked suspiciously, not taking even one step out of the building to stand in the outdoors with the strange man.

“Iwa-chan sent me to fetch you!” The stranger grinned toothily and stretched out a hand to you, as though you’d eagerly take it.

Instead, you began to close the door with shaking hands, “I think you have the wrong person, good night.”

Before the door was fully closed, the stranger’s voice rang out, faux innocence dripping from his tone.

“My bad! I thought you cared for your brother, my dearest mistake!”

The door was back open and you were practically launching yourself towards the man, “What did you do to my brother? Where is he? I swear, if you hurt him, so help me God, I will-”

“Now, now, that’s enough talk like that from a lady!” The stranger giggled, looking nothing but amused by your fury, “Kanji’s a-okay! At least, he will be if you do what Iwa-chan asks.”

The dark undertone of the last few words left no room for discussion. You were to follow this stranger to Prince Iwaizumi and obey orders without discussion- you could infer that much. This wasn’t about your safety and happiness, no.

This was for Kanji. For your little brother- the only family and sunshine left in your life.

You were led, under the cover of darkness, to a large carriage parked near the front of the mansion. When the stranger motioned for you to get inside, you obeyed without question and sat yourself between two more strange men, who both appraised you silently as you squirmed under their unfamiliar stares.

Finally, the darkest-haired one spoke, “It will be a long ride.”

And the chocolate-haired stranger was hopping into the front and urging the horses to begin trotting into the night, towards whatever doom was planned for you.

The ride was all but silent, and it lasted what must have been several hours. Light burned your eyes when you stepped out of the carriage and surveyed your new location. They had brought you to a castle, like you had halfway expected, but it wasn’t any that you’d seen before.

But your eyes quickly strayed from the dull stone structure to take in the dense forest surrounding you. Trees taller, thicker, and darker than anything you’d ever known before towered overhead, caging in the castle you stood in front of.

“You aren’t in Kansas anymore, Dorothy,” the chocolate-haired man snickered, hopping down from the top of the carriage and patting one of the horses as he considered you with a smirk.

“P-pardon?” Your confusion only drew a chuckle from him.

“Iwa-chan will be here soon, he just has some… things to take care of.” The stranger’s pause was ominous, and you swallowed thickly, “I’m Oikawa, you can call for me if you need me. I’ll be out here and I’ll send Iwa-chan in when he arrives.”

Oikawa ushered you inside and closed the door behind you, opting to stay outside himself. The thud of the wood against the doorframe sounded so final, so daunting… you found yourself crying silently.

No noise escaped you, but still you cried. Tears rolled down your cheeks as you buried your face in your hands. Your shoulders heaved with the sobs that never made a sound.

Why? Why? Why?

Why was any of this happening? And why to you, of all people?

You were nothing special, were you? Certainly not special enough for a prince to go to such lengths to achieve you.

Ambling over to one of the armchairs in the room ahead, you collapsed into it and stared up at the high ceiling. It felt as though every ounce of hope had been drained and squeezed out of your body, leaving you empty inside.

You didn’t know how long you were staring at the ceiling, but it was long enough for Prince Iwaizumi to arrive at the castle. The door burst open, hitting the wall with a bang that startled you to your feet.

The prince had a tense expression on his features that quickly melted away to relief when he spotted your frightened form. He walked briskly up to you and cradled your cheeks in his palms as he spoke to you.

“You will marry me. Legally and willingly. You will say ‘I do’ and you will act as though you are happy. Then you and I will have our happily ever after. Am I clear?”

Aghast, you stared at the man. He expected you to play along and get married to him, out in this isolated place?

You knew he wanted you to marry him but… with your brother hours away from this isolated place, you finally felt much stronger.

“I will not.”

“You will.”

“I will not.”

Prince Iwaizumi’s right hand seized your upper arm, gripping it tightly and yanking you after him as he charged out of the castle and up to a new carriage, likely the one he had traveled in.

The door to the carriage swung open and the sight that greeted you had you sinking helplessly into the prince’s arms.

Your precious younger brother, laying across the seat, pale-faced and unconscious. You screamed at the prince, hurling insults between desperate inquiries.

As angry and frightened as you were, all of the fight had left you. The one thing you wanted to protect needed more protection, more sacrifices. And you would do anything necessary to ensure Kanji’s safety.

Only a couple hours later, you are forced to stand at the altar, a white dress on your body and a new ring on your finger. When the priest prompts you to say “I do”, you respond immediately.

What else could you say, when your brother’s terrified eyes watch you from between two of Prince Iwaizumi’s towering, intimidating friends. You could never say no to Iwaizumi now and, as he smiles at you, you realize that he knows this full-well.

At least one person would be getting a happily ever after.