#also cooking myself something nice for good measure

[warrior-of-sunlight]

My dad would have turned 68 today.

[nyoomfruits]

osctober day sixteen

prompt: pastries pairing: lando/oscar word count: 400w a/n: tiny little prequel to where i am going is right where i am

The thing Oscar likes most about baking is the precision of it. “Cooking,” his mother used to say. “Is an art form. But baking, baking is a science.”

And Oscar likes that. The measuring of ingredients. How he knows exactly the results he gets if he does exactly what’s expected of him. How everything has to be perfect for a baked good to turn out just right, down to the exact temperature of the oven.

How the simplicity of a croissant hides something much more complex, like layers and layers of butter carefully folded into the dough, creating a perfectly fluffy interior all wrapped in a crispy, flaky outside.

“Oh, shit, this is like, good as hell,” Yoga pants says, wiping the crumbs from his mouth and letting out a truly inappropriate moan.

“Uh,” Oscar says. He’s seen yoga pants before. He’s pretty sure he owns the yoga studio next door. It would explain the pants, at least. He’s never been in Oscar’s store before though, because Oscar would remember. You don’t forget eyes like that.

“Fuck, man. What do you put in these? Crack?” Yoga pants lets out another slightly inappropriate noise. Oscar glances around, partly to check if there’s anyone around to hear, partly to check if there’s anyone around to see the embarrassing red flush that’s taken residence on his cheeks.

“Butter, actually,” Oscar says. He’s trying very hard to play it cool, but Yoga Pants has a croissant crumb stuck to the corner of his mouth and Oscar desperately wants to lick it off.

“Meh, same thing,” Yoga pants says, with a shrug. “I’m Lando by the way. I own the Yoga Studio next door? I’m introducing myself because you will be seeing a lot of me,” he grins, and then specifies, “Because I need a million of these croissants like, daily. Oh, I’m also here to invite you to the local business meeting. It’s horribly boring but George insists, so,” Lando shrugs.

Oscar’s met George. He seems… Nice. Organized. “Oscar,” he says, and when Lando looks confused, adds, “My name.” He sticks out his hand, and Lando takes it. They’re big, and they’re covered in croissant crumbs, and Oscar never wants to let go.

“Nice to meet you, Oscar,” Lando says. “So, will you accompany me to the meeting tonight? Perhaps bring some croissants?”

Oscar has a horrible feeling he will go just about anywhere if Lando would ask. “Yeah,” he says. “Yeah, sure. I’ll join you.”

[blkgirl-writing]

Helloo! so I know you can romance the companions with any appearance, but I have a hard time imagining them actually choosing to being with a plus size person like myself.

Very indulgent, but do you have any thoughts about them being with a chubby partner? Perhaps a bit of fluff and spice?

Love what you do. writing for the ppl that fanfics often leave forgotten. You're awesome & I hope you have a great day today <3

I’m so happy you asked this, because actually, most of the companions I see loving thicker people and a few fairly exclusively liking bigger women (it’s Wyll) but here’s my headcanons for the baldurs gate 3 companions being interested in a chubby/fat tav!

Aatarion

Astarion is actually the only character I see maybe not loving chubby bodies all that much, but that's really for acended Astarion, since he becomes such a despicable and unapethetic person

But Astarion once he breaks free of cazador?

learns to be accepting and....kind?

He was always drawn to a very conventional type of beauty as he had to be fit into that mold for so so many years, so he kinda felt like he needed people to fit in that mold for him as well

He would start to find beauty in the smaller things in life that he was never able to before

Including bigger chubbier bodies

the comforts of plushness and something extra very much opposes his more thin and sharp body

like he actually likes hugging, he would ASK for a hug

to him hugging you is the embodiment of his freedom and enjoying non sexual things simply, without any motivation

Gale

I think Gale would find comfort in your body

Using as much of you as a pillow, cuddling and being able to be the big and little spoon

Any skimpy outfit would drive him wild, he'd get all flustered and kinda just be more near you?

Since he loves thighs the bigger the better, he won’t complain. He lowkey wants to be crushed by your thighs

Gale would find so much joy in so much ass and thighs in his face, his personal horny heaven

(TW E.D) If you have trouble eating he would cook for you and sit away from camp if it made you more comfortable. He'd take so much joy in making something you wanted to eat (END OF TW)

Gale stars at you a lot

And when you ask why he's staring, he always has a different reason

Somehow he always knows when to compliment you when you're feeling down

he will always find the best way to make you feel better and it's unique and special

"I love how your shoulders look when you're reading" or like "I just can't take my eyes off you when you smile, it lights up your whole face. All I want to do is make you smile til the end of our days" etc etc

Shadowheart

Lovely person but I do think she’d learn to love bigger bodies, I like to think Karlach was her sexual awakening to big women

But honestly I think it would only take some good titties for her to be convinced

I think she would love being smaller than you, and would absolutely wear your shirt/blouse around camp as a baggy dress

Especially to kind of brag about sleeping with you and you being hers and hers alone

She would basically exclusively want to sleep with her head resting on your thighs

many many nights were spent like that looking at the stars

honestly you'll need to ask her for compliments but she never fails to make you smile with them

"What? You want me to tell you how perfect you are? Or how beautifully your body looks in that tight dress? How much I want to take you to bed right now? I thought you already knew those things, but if you ask I'll say them a million times, til you believe it, and a few more times for good measure."

Wyll

Wyll is so sweet and so nice, he always compliments you and always hugs you in the best ways

he notices your insecurities and makes sure to compliment them and tell you how much he loves and appreciates those parts of you

He also just finds you the sexiest thing alive

he loves his partners bigger

I mean I've already said he's an ass man and he fully wants to be engulfed in that ass if possible and that just don't happen with skinner people

Wyll loves his comforts and his comforts is just ass on face tbh

he'd get real wild and very flirty drunk too

"Give me all of that ass" and "sit on my face and ride it like you mean it til the dawn breaks"

is also in love with your stomach and kisses it whenever your closing rides up or is exposed from the clothing itself being revealing or just short

when he's next to you he will always have his hand around your waist

Karlach

no matter what size you are Karlach can pick you up and swing you around like she's picking up a pillow so

she treats you absolutely no differently than a skinnier person, maybe she picks you up and swings you around more actually

she'd treat you kinda as a princess it's adorable

In my head, Karlach is obviously super muscley but also kinda chubby so like there'd be no reason to see you as anything but perfect and so beautiful

She is always snackin' on stuff, so she'd ask if you wanted any of the nibbles she found on the way

Karlach would wanna just sleep face down on your stomach so like you can decide if she actually does every single night or short rest or nah

and she'd randomly kiss your tummy while she laid on it just cause she wants to and she finally can kiss you and lay on you, and all the fun things she wanted to do for what felt like forever

Lae'zel

she sees someone as the bigger, the more strength

so immediately she'd be like ah yes, a worth lover able to take all intensities i give

She's definitely go harder on you in combat (during a certain romance scene) because of your size, and definitely give more during sex

Especially if you have bigger arms? she's a suckers for big arms

Lae'zel would cuddle like it was fucking wrestling

like you'd wake up with bruises and if you asked she'd be like, you can take all I give, therefore I will give you even more than I have

everything she does is intense of course but she will never baby you like she may someone smaller

she sees you so much as an equal and a strong fighter it's actually very cute and everyone is kind of shocked how much she likes you

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[tracycloud]

COOKING FOR ROBERTA

(Part 3)

Roberta's birthday, I really don't remember which one and it doesn't matter, made me a different person over the next few months, a new, lively, horny, lustful, self-determined young woman. I think Roberta changed too. Of course, I can't really say for sure because I didn't know her before.

When Roberta left the kitchen - I was still standing with my legs spread, wet and horny, panting and sweaty, leaning against the kitchen table. My hands were covered in tomatoes crushed with lust, their juice slowly dripping onto the kitchen floor, perhaps mixing with mine. What kind of sauce would that make? I thought, slowly coming back to myself.

Something magical had just happened to me. I wasn't quite sure what it was, but I felt incredibly at ease. Without thinking further, I cut up my panties with the kitchen scissors, threw them in the bin, took off my bra, which still had my boobs hanging out of it, and threw it in too.

Then I started cooking. It was cooking like in a wonderful, hot dream. My naked pussy rubbed against the denim. You couldn't miss the wet spots, nor the nipples of my little boobs poking out of the sweat-stained T-shirt.

Of course, I started with the ragu Bolognese first. This wonderful sauce made from minced beef and pork, pancetta, fat milk, onions, celery, carrots and tomato paste had to simmer for at least 2 hours.

Now for the antipasti.

My cooking had become an exhilarating flow. Everything I did made me happy and horny.

As I was working on the eggplants stuffed with tomatoes, capers, olives and garlic, Roberta quietly crept into the kitchen.

She pressed herself firmly against my back. I felt her soft, full breasts, then her strong, caressing hands on my boobs.

“Mhhh so nice and small and firm. Good thing you took your bra off. You don't need that with me anyway, my horny little chef,” she whispered in my right ear.

I could feel her breathing, goose bumps ran all over my body and I moaned softly with pleasure. As her hand slowly slid down, undid the top buttons of my jeans and felt its way to my wet center, I spread my legs as if automatically.

She breathed tenderly: “How submissive you are. Ohhhh, you got rid of your panties straight away. You are such a wonderful cooking whore.”  Her fingers slid between my vulva lips, pentrating me slightly. “You're so wet. I'd love to fuck you right here.

“Jaaaaa, fuck me.... pleaaaseeee..... whenever you want. I'm all yours”. I had never said or even thought such sentences before.

But every word felt right, it was an incredible moment of happiness and never before had I been so completely close to myself.

Roberta sensed my devotion, kissed me tenderly on the back of my neck and said nothing. Her fingers, wet from my vulva, reached for a black olive that she pushed into my mouth, glistening with my own juice.

I licked her fingers, which she immediately slid back between my pussy lips until they were wet again, wetting another olive, which she then slipped into her own mouth.

I tried to keep working, chopping the fresh oregano into small pieces. Her fingers explored me, my wetness. I felt them deep inside me, measuring me, taking possession of me.

“Keep going, cute cooking whore,” she whispered in my ear. A little tap on my clit that made me cry out in pleasure and devotion. She left.

I stood back at the kitchen table with my legs wide open.  I was happy. My juice was oozing out of me. My jeans were wet like after a rain shower. I was soooo happy.

The ragu smelled delicious. It sizzled gently on the old-fashioned stove. I put the stuffed eggplants in the huge oven and started preparing the potato cakes with saffron, the bruschetta with diced tomatoes and olive paste last, as well as the radiccio, which I would fry in olive oil, the green beans with anchovies, parsley and garlic and also the porcini mushrooms.

Everything should be on the table at the same time, including the Ragu Bolognese.

[daphnedauphinoise]

made the sexiest soup and i wanna make love to myself. here is the recipe

chop half an big white onion long so they thin crescents. heat up your pot with a lot of butter. now, put some more butter in. after the butter starts browning a little add your onions. cut up one leek and after couple of minutes of your onions cooking, put your leeks in. we are going to caramelise this. after ten minutes add teeny weeny pinch of salt and stire but largely, dnd your onion + leeks. repeat this 3 times or for however long you have time to caramilse this( for me i woudl say dont fully caramilse it) after put in 3 medium chopped sized potatoes and stir.

now for herbs and spice : ( i measure with my heart and my hand so dont ask)

italian all purpose herb mixture, herb de provence mixture, paprika, black pepper, a little bit of chilli flakes and all purpose polish seasoning you get for like 50p. add a bay leaf too. half a teaspoon of minced garlic. i also did a teeny weeny pinch of nutmeg but i doubt that did much

add enough of these things to the point where all the potato pieces are covered in something BUT do not over do it with spices and seasoning. less is more and you can add but you cant take away

stir it so they all become friends and then let that go on medium heat until one side of the potato is brown and sticking to the pan. pour large six sips of red wine, chicken stock ( not too much or it will be salty. so use one cube), water and diary ( i did coconut milk but that was because that was what was open). let that cook for 20 minutes. blend and enjoy.

i made this stressed because I am writing my finals and i cant get my wording right but omg it is so so so good. the whole thing took me nearly 2 hours but oh my god i wanna drown in it. the soup should be nice brown colour btw like dark mushroom soup

p.s you do wanna add the wine first and let the alcohol cook off for a bit before adding the other liquids. i don't know why but it just works better

p.s.s - i didnt have any bread but pls have it with a good sourdough for me

[ariadventures]

Tea Eggs!!

You know what I haven't written in a while? A cooking/food post! Someone asked me something on Twitter which got me thinking and I figured I'd finally write about making food again, so I'm pretty happy to have something to post on here again.

Immediately at the start of writing this I understand why recipes come with a background story, because cooking IS personal and at least, since I'm not a recipe blog, what investment do you really have in this if I'm not saying something about it? But I'll put the extraneous details after the recipe. This is far from a formal recipe and just a musing of what I did. I mostly did it to taste but these are some approximate measurements:

6-8 eggs 4 cups of water 4 bags black tea 3 tablespoons dark soy sauce 2 tablespoons regular soy sauce 1 tablespoon sugar 4 teaspoons salt 2 teaspoons Shaoxing wine 1 teaspoon five spice powder

Important to note: Make as many eggs as you want as long as it'll all fit in the marinade you make - it's gotta cover all of the eggs, no peekin' out. If you need less marinade, i.e. you're putting it in a tight ziplock bag, feel free to halve or otherwise divide the ingredients to fit.

Make the marinade in a saucepan with all the ingredients besides eggs. I started boiling the water and put the ingredients in one by one. I cut open the tea bags and dumped it all in. The five spice powder is out of convenience - if you look up all the spices included in it, like sichuan peppercorn and star anise and cinnamon etc., and have all of those on hand, you can use those as well, but this is a simple recipe for a simple person.

After mixed and boiling, let it cool off to the side.

Soft boil eggs in another pot, put them in an ice bath afterwards or run them under cold water for a few minutes, whatever your jam is.

Gently (GENTLY!!) use the back of a spoon or something to crack the eggshells while leaving them on, but not break through too much of the egg. The marinade is pretty strong so you could theoretically just completely peel them and soak them for a shorter amount of time, but I like to make them traditionally.

Put the eggs into the marinade and simmer/warm them for like, an hour. After that, let the marinade cool down again, cover it, and refrigerate it for up to 24 hours. That's it!

*Notes*

The dark soy sauce is mostly for the marbling/color of it. If you want a darker marbling, you can add more and reduce the salt. Like I mentioned, I did a lot of it kind of by vibes, so I added in a little more soy sauce and salt myself.

I had a test egg after I simmered them for an hour. Simmer? Warm? As long as it's not boiling, you don't actually want to thoroughly cook the eggs unless you're okay with super overboiled eggs. Tasted good, but did taste so much better after soaking for a day. I note soft boiled above because when you simmer them they do cook a bit again, and traditionally it is hard-boiled, but if you want them not overboiled you should do the soft boil initially.

As seen in the picture above, I marinated it in a saucepan overnight and put some clingwrap over it. My first attempt I only made 3 eggs, and they fit in a mason jar so I just put it all in a mason jar and used maybe half of that recipe above. If you don't want a big ole saucepan, you can also put the marinade in a big ziplock bag that'll stay securely tight. As long as the marinade is covering ALL of the egg!

This is what I mean by marbling! OBVIOUSLY these pictures aren't great (I have never claimed to be a photographer) but this is just to show what the end result should look like. Sometimes the marbling doesn't really come through but it still tastes nice!

I grew up with tea eggs always at the grocery store and able to grab 'em any time I wanted. They were usually always warmed in a crock pot as you grabbed them with tongs, but since I'm not running a crock pot for days as I finish eating them all I have them cold and they're still glorious. You can honestly marinade them 8-24 hours or so, I just like marinading for longer so the color really comes through and for more of the taste to soak in. Marinade them too long and I think they'll get too salty. It's a great subtle flavor, and you can reuse the marinade for another batch if you're making more in a short amount of time (refresh ingredients a lil that may have evaporated) or I know you can theoretically cook meat and vegetables in that marinade so you'll have something tasty from it.

I'm (AS USUAL, everyone moans) having culture feels and been wanting to cook more as a result. Most of it has manifested in veggie soup or varying noodle dishes, but tea eggs are near and dear to my heart and honestly I am so glad they were easier to make than I thought. I have a lot of weird vibes and euughh, trauma 🙄 over being in the kitchen just due to weird family stuff I grew up with so cooking is a real chore for me. Ultimately this uses two small pots (saucepans? pots? whatever they're called) and a tablespoon so the dishes to clean afterwards is minimal.

I really like the tea eggs and I really like that I can make them now, and I wanted to share that. I will probably fixate on them for a hot second! They've got such a nice flavor and my whole apartment smells good after. Let me know if you make any! Thanks for reading.

[umihoshi]

some tips for people who just started living on their own

It's been 4 years now, and I'm not regretting a single day that I moved out. No more adapting to what my parents want, no more reporting where I'm going or who I'm bringing over, I can create my save haven the way I like it. For me, it was really the start of becoming myself.

But, there's a bunch of stuff here and there that would've been nice if I had known it from the get-go. And I thought: let's share them!

1 what appliances to invest in?

one thing that is going to come back every single day is cooking. and food is expensive AF if you're not careful. I found 2 great ways to save a bunch of money and they both rely on one thing: Invest in a good freezer! Many grocery stores have systems where they price down things that are close to the shelf life date. One of our local grocery stores can go up to 70% discount! But the problem with those is, you need to eat it right away.... OR DO YOU??? Freezing things close to expiring will let them last for a full freaking month extra. and vegetables go even longer. Plenty of time to use it when you need it (just don't forget to thaw) Be careful though: once you thawed it, you can't freeze it again.

Items are usually also WAY cheaper if you buy them in bulk. Chop them up and in the freezer they go! This one's also great if you don't always have the energy or drive to cook: cook up a large pot of whatever you like, put it in containers and freeze them. I always like doing so with pasta sauce and then cook the pasta fresh~ But it also works great with stews, curry and other types of sauces. stores like IKEA have containers that are just the right size for one meal.

For some of you, the next one may be a no-brainer, but.... My mom was really proud of how fast she was with doing the dishes. She was always like 'why get a dishwasher, I'm faster if I do it myself'. And I have lived up to that same idea up until half a year ago. My kitchen was always a mess, I didn't feel like cooking, inviting people over was embarrassing. I exhausted myself every time visitors would come and I had to fight that monster pile. Please, if you recognize these problems: invest in a dishwasher. Life became SO MUCH easier. My house is clean, my mind is more at ease, social contact increased cuz it's not as big a hassle to clean before guests show up. I really wish I wouldn't have wasted those 3 years fighting a monster that was this easy to tackle in the end...

2 easy cooking

Though it's also a bit of an investment: cooking becomes fucking easy with an airfryer. No oil is added, so it's a bunch healthier. you just put the temperature and timer and it's done. and a lot of things can just fry simultaneously. chuck in some meat and potato's at 400F (200C) for 20 minutes and all you'll have to worry about is adding some vegies with it. springrolls, pizza, potato's, meat. it all gets nice and crunchy too. (prepare vegies in a rice cooker for the same don't-have-to-keep-an-eye-on-it experience. you can cook them simultaneously with rice too!)

Something that became one of my fave dishes of the late is 'stir fried whatever'. it goes like this: Bake whatever meat you fancy, great with egg or tofu too. add whatever vegies (straight out of the freezer is fine). add stir fry sauce in whatever amount seems nice (little for coating, more if you want it to be saucy). make some carbs and you're fucking DONE! no measuring, no thinking what spices to use, it goes with anything and everything. and your local grocery has probably like 5 different flavors. (or at least, it does here. dunno if that's true for America...) like it creamy? add half a cup of soya milk. it takes like 10 minutes tops (not counting the cooking of rice/pasta/potato/bread)

3 think in money or think in space

With tricks like a good freezer, saving money with discount products becomes a whole lot easier. But there are also different discount products that can save you a lot of money. my mom always used to buy like.... packs of 4 toilet rolls. and if you calculate it, buying 3x4 rolls is so much more expensive than buying a 12 pack. But what you'll need for that is space. Try keeping account of a spot like that in your house. cupboard underneath the sink, the spot where they installed the boiler, top shelves you don't often use cuz it's high up, on top of the fridge, garage. I live in an apartment and have a small storage space for my bicycle. Perfect spot for non-consumables. (be careful to keep them out of reach for mice) think toilet paper, tissues, cat litter, soap, shampoo, toothpaste. they'll be good in 2 years too, and you'll still be needing them all the same. I once found this 6 pack of toothpaste for like 3,-! aint no one selling 1 tube for 0,50 when I buy it once I need it.

dunno if this is of any use to someone, but I hope this can help out anyone to safe some money, time or energy! Because it sure did for me.

[marabarl-and-marlbara]

hi, there ! i stopped by your blog and i just wanted to say that i really appreciate how intricate and dynamic your artstyle is. it's something i find myself deriving inspiration from especially seeing as i haven't made any art pieces in almost a year. also weird question but i noticed your latest upload(s) have baking recipes attached to them- do you like to bake? sorry if that sounds ridiculous, but i've been getting back into baking/cooking after being bedridden and i wanted to know what sort of things you liked to make! i hope you have a nice day and i hope i didn't sound awkward/weird

hey there anonymous, good morning fellow saint of the living god (my pastor always says this @ church on saturdays and it always makes me smile a little);

first: thank you! i:m a little embarrassed someone would take inspiration from me (honored, though: i:ll take compliments where i can get them) cause admittedly it feels like i can barely make more than sketches lately; you:d leave me to my whims and i:d just draw hands on the weekly sermon programming and nothing-else; so: do better than me, anonymous! strive to become better than a lazy bag of bones like me -- because you absolutely can with a little elbow grease and love :-))

second: i do, sort-of; i:ve been "struggling" with a "eating disorder" (the parentheses aren:t really to down-play, but it:s may-be more tied into religion and hygiene, and i don:t want to write a big paragraph about the "why"), and i found a measure of succor from learning to prepare extravagant meals for myself (mostly just breakfast and lunch) that i /really/ enjoy eating, and look forward to eating every-day (to a sad degree, these two meals are basically all i look forward to on a day-to-day, but i love them); over time the meal-prep evolved into getting a little mug i could bake with, which evolved into me wanting to learn to make simple baked-goods that i could include with my breakfast (note: my breakfast meals are /always/ a type of yogurt+cereal, all ingredients counted out in 4s; lunch is /always/ a wrap, again with all ingredients counted out in 4s) -- so i started with baking crusts for my yogurts, then baking mixed-in stuff, then baking french-toasts and bread-puddings; and ultimately i want to make cinnamon rolls, but i always mess it up (because i always get afraid of including the actual ingredient lists due to nutrition fears and serving-size fears, so i:ll sub things out nonsensically and reduce portions nonsensically) (but bright-side of messing up cinnamon-rolls is that i can use the ruined awful bread-pastries to make great bread puddings). basically though: teaching myself to cook + trying to excite myself to eat like a normal person is all that:s been keeping me going, lately -- and admittedly i really enjoy both. *note, as well: i think both of those recipes are from crazy ed-esque baking recipes that tiktok shows me.

veganism and numbers and leviticus and communication have all been pretty disastrous for my relationship with food.

one day i:ll make the cinnamon rolls right.

anyways, have a nice day today, anonymous; take care and pour yourself into your passions cause they:ll melt away other-wise & it:s only your hands keeping them in place.

[danganronpadedication]

DAY 14: DANGANTOBER

(This is how I hope you guys react when you see me make another long post lol)

Day 14: Favorite Ultimate Talent

I don't know what I'm supposed to do about this one. Do I pick a favorite out of the ones that currently exist, nerd out and pick an obscure one from a light novel that 90% of the fanbase hasn't read, or do I come up with one for myself?

If I was an Ultimate, I'd be the Ultimate Yapper/j. For real though, I'd be one of two things, the Ultimate Filmmaker or the Ultimate Theorist. My career goal is to become a filmmaker, running my own movie studio and creating amazing movies for everyone of all ages. Bring back well-thought out movies that are so rare to come by nowadays. If I was a filmmaker however, I'd be a bit of a fraudulent one, since I haven't made any movies. I've written them, storyboarded them, etc. but they are not yet filmed.

Kaito hasn't gone to space yet, and I have yet to make a movie.

On the other hand, I've been told that I'd be the Ultimate Theorist. This is because in my off-time, I'm one of those kinds of people who make fan theories about certain shows and movies I like. I'd talk about one of them, but I fear it'd link back to me pretty quickly lmao. With that theory, I had a lot of people in that fanbase believing it, and it really took off. I actually gave this ultimate to my Danganronpa OC, he's the Ultimate Theorist, though his theories are largely more academic than mine.

This is him, for real.

This is probably also how I look to my friends and you lovely folks whenever I post long character analyses.

In terms of Ultimate that I'd want, I pick the unnamed Ultimate Make-Up Artist from Danganronpa: Gaiden! According to the wiki, the Ultimate Make-Up Artist is someone whose medium is the human body, applying makeup and prosthetics for theatrical, television, filmmaking, fashion, magazines, and other similar productions. That'd be so cool, and based on the description, I assume they're lumping in SFX makeup into this ultimate.

If you can do SFX makeup, you are one of the coolest people ever imo.

I also think Yasuke Matsuda's ultimate, Ultimate Neurologist, is pretty cool. The field of neuroscience is such a difficult one, you have to understand the human brain, and our brains are already very iffy and strange. Then you have to know how to apply that in a scientific and usually medical sense. Anyone with this ultimate is incredibly smart, and likely dedicated to their work to achieve that while still in high school.

Finally, an Ultimate that appears in-game that I'd want, is the Ultimate Cook. Yes, Teruteru is Teruteru, and I've already mentioned in a previous post that a lot of the food-related ultimates use underhanded means to make their food so beloved. But I've always wanted to learn how to cook.

You see, I'm one of those people who grew up as a "gifted kid". As such, I have been conditioned to believe that everything should come easy to me, and if it doesn't, then I suck and shall never try again. It's a bad mindset, but if you have it, you know its one that's hard to break out of because its so engrained within you. I work on it everyday, but I still catch myself feeling dejected when I'm not immediately amazing at everything I try.

I want to learn how to cook, I'm just scared that I'll try and not be good at it, and then I'll want to give up. It's something I'm trying to work through, picking new recipes to try every week, watching tutorials, Gordon Ramsey clips, Binging with Babish, and all the other cooking YouTube channels. I have like, forty cookbooks being delivered to me soon. I'm an adult, I need to have this skill.

I took a Culinary class a few months ago, and it was actually very nice and therapeutic for me. Despite the constant noise of the kitchen, everything was so soothing to me. Measuring, mixing, mincing, frying, frosting, it was heavenly. I'd only messed up my food three time, and two of those weren't my fault, but my teammate's. I'm still salty about the chocolate chip cookie incidents.

We had made chocolate chip cookies twice. Both times, my group was the only one to mess up. Both times, it wasn't my fault. The first time, the girl who was leading everyone didn't measure enough flour because she was too busy talking to her boyfriend, and the cookies were inedible. I had to scrape them off the baking sheet while her friends gave the rest of my group cookies. The second time, the other girl leading my group didn't put in enough of one ingredient, I think it was butter or sugar, and they came out rock hard and more akin to protein bars. Third time was my fault, I didn't know when to take the food off the stove and it burned.

But since then, I've successfully made beignets, spaghetti and meatballs, hamburgers, chicken mole, and so many more dishes. If I was the Ultimate Chef, you could bet good money on me making three course meals, I'd be so dramatic with it too. Adding garnishes and those pretentious dots on the plate like in The Menu. Ugh, it'd be so fun.

-Mod Tsumugi

Sorry, today's rant is shorter, but I'll be posting more today as well.

[flowermountainpress]

January 29th

"Progress: end pages added, book trimmed, mull added, end bands added, cover cloth selected!

The fore edge trim was SO clean and nice and so was the bottom but like always the top trim fought me and I has to recut a couple times. As a result it's a bit trimmed on the top, long on the bottom-- I thought of trimming the bottom margin to ALSO be narrow but couldn't bring myself to ruin that nice even cut. So it has a bit of room in the bottom margin for notes or something if Rin would like to annotate or footnote things XD

The end pages are so pretty and we picked out a cover design. Also you'd think having more end band options would make it easier, but in fact having 15+ colors to choose from doesn't make it any easier to choose! We went with this gorgeous and subtle little pink and white striped number.

Trimming is always my favorite part (beyond the actual technical skill of trying to get the cuts square and even, my beloathed) because all of a sudden you're holding a BOOK! A book with smooth nice edges! It's a complete transformation and so much dopamine.

Now to take a shower and relax a bit. Maybe do some typesetting, which I'm also behind on! I might also get around to making the book cloth, which is always fun. Last time I figured out a good filler of 1:1 acrylic medium and wheat starch paste, so I guess I'm going to cook up some paste!

Downside: my last batch of paste from earlier in the month is in a glass jar in my mini-fridge that I'm afraid to open. Luckily I chose a container I can put in the dishwasher.... Wish me luck!"

The lines you see are for measuring where to cut on my guillotine. Since the outside cover will be glued into the case/boards that make up the book cover, it's fine to draw on them. I also put F^ and B^ to denote front, back and which way is up.

Many, many bookbinders have glued the textblock into the case upside down, so we've adapted tricks against it.

@suzukiblu I'm transferring over WIP pictures from your book if you want to see some of the behind the scenes process XD

[pbandjesse]

We just got back from Paul and Sam's third wedding. And it was a good time. A little bit more low-key than the others. Took place on a plantation though which was very interesting as a choice. But it was beautiful and I understand. We were joking that was reclaiming. And while we were all incredibly overheated and sweaty I still had fun.

I do wish I had a little bit more time to just do nothing today but I made the most of my half day off. I didn't go to the market. Instead I slept an extra hour and got up around 8:15. I wanted to leave until 9:00 but I couldn't fall back asleep. I would get up eventually though and clean myself up and got dressed and I felt pretty good.

I wasn't really interested in eating. My stomach was hurting today. I don't know what's wrong but it just hurts a lot. And I would pour myself a soda and pretty quickly I was out of the house. I had things to do.

Big things I need to do today work at James awake long sleeve button down shirt. And get the materials to make a larger indoor enclosure for crab cake. I want to see about using a big box. That storage bill. And that ends up working out really well. It wasn't as large as I was picture but I still think I did a good job.

I went to Target first and went and found a shirt for James. Slim Pickens for sure. Especially because there's just skinny. But I think that the one I chose worked out really well in the end. And then I had an idea about mini non with garlic spread and butter and cucumber. I thought it would just He's a nicest lunch. And I got myself a person pizza and then I went and measured the boxes. I had measured my table and I figured it had to be around 24x44 which is. I ended up getting one that was about 19 or 38 in which is not exactly the right size but it's close and it was only $16 so I can make that work for now. He's still little. In the future I'll have to do something a little bit bigger I'm sure but for now.

I still need a dirt though. And I wanted to get some more coconut fiber so I went to the pet store and I did not know I had $18 in coupons on my account so I use those and got a big bag of coconut fiber, and some terrarium materials, and some more moss. I ended up not needing the extra ball so I'm going to keep that for later But I think I did a really good job and I had a really nice conversation with the girls at the cash register without crab cakes full name. Crabcake Franklin Lentzwiler, first of his name.

I drove over to Ace hardware next and is able to get two bags of fertilizer free topsoil. I also talk to a couple about their brand new puppy his name was Marnie. And I was like have you ever seen the Chicago model and they have not So they said they promise to watch it. I told him it was one of the weirdest movies I've seen. Because it was very weird.

Went home and I decided that my plan would be get inside get sweepy into the basement for everything and go and preheat the area start working on the tank. Then when the oven was preheated I would make my pizza and we'll pizza here I would make my little naan flatbread thing. I have my little snack for the pizza was cooking I was building my employer and it didn't take very long. And Crabcake loves it. He was digging and climbing. I still want to get him another log but they didn't have a big enough one so I'm going to check a different pet store at some point this week. But I was just so pleased. And it fits really nicely on the table still. I was not sure how I'm going to fix the lid because I need to make sure the heating element is not melting the plastic. And I tried to cut the lid and then we're cutting my fingers and I was very upset because then I broke the scissors in the process which is how I cut my hand. Ouch.

I was getting really overheated and very tired so. And it was still early but I needed to eat and my food was cooled down enough so I would cut the pizza and bring it to the couch with my other snack. Then just hang out in front of the fan for a while. Eventually I would decide to go and shower and get changed for the wedding. It's not really a wedding. It was a another reception because not everyone in Baltimore could make it to the actual wedding obviously. And I had already picked out my dress months ago so I didn't have to think much it was more just me getting myself together. The hair was a little wild. But that was mostly from humidity. I would take a shower and clean myself up and make myself feel pretty. I originally was going to be wearing a shirt with this dress but it was so hot out today that I nixed that and wore it as a tube top dress. I was a little nervous about that because a little self-conscious about my arms but only a little bit. It just feels like a lot of open skin but I would feel very pretty. I went through a couple different belts before I decided which one I liked the best. But I was very happy with my outfit in the end.

I would sit outside for a while on our swing. I had crab cake walking around the backyard and then in his enclosure out there and sweet pea was chilling with us. It was the Harry Potter. I was enjoying swinging but I was not enjoying how sweaty I was getting. I had just taking a shower so I wasn't thrilled. But I eventually went head inside and pulled down pretty fine and then I was just chill on the couch and eventually brought everyone back inside. I gave crab cake some food and made sure sweetp was good. And I just started making sure I was ready for the event.

I got James's suit in the car toiletry bag for them in case they need to clean up. And texted them asking what time I should come get them.

They said that basically I could leave now and as long as I got them before 2:00 we were good. Merrill would end up stuck in traffic so we wouldn't leave until a little after 2:00 anyway but it was still really nice to get over there early especially because I also ran into traffic because there was an event happening down in the harbor. Or I got there at 1:37 we were not in a rush at all.

I want to sit with James for a bit and they made me feel very pretty. And I would walk around the museum and collect some of the donations of materials that they have put aside for me. And I did not expect to have to take home the 20 lb box have gotten but I have that app so I have plenty of material to make more stuffed animals and actually a few this week but I'm not sure when I will have time to cut the bear so that will probably be something I am working on all the kids are making their projects. We will see.

Soon Merrill was there though and we would head out into the world. I knew that today was going to be kind of all over the place timeline wise but I wasn't that worried.

We'll get out to the mansion. And that's when we realized that it was a plantation. And so I read the Wikipedia page for it so that I would know what the history was. And this place was originally gifted from the king of England and then bought my guy named Dorsey and he had 97 slaves in the 1700s on those property. They were doing cash crops and pig iron. So I found her. And it was beautiful but very sad history. We were joking about we hooked up the couple gotten BED, A black Advent discount. And honestly I'm only partially joking. I think that is plantations are going to do weddings if a black couple or event wants to have them at their space they should be giving them a discount because of the atrocities that happened on their location. I don't think that that's an outrageous thing to say. I might be saying in just in the name but I truly believe that would be appropriate.

And it was a lovely time. We got there and I would go into the big house with James and we went to find the boys. We were in the billiards room. So hello to everyone and then went to wander around the house to look to see what it was and how it looked. It was beautiful. I loved all the details and I liked some of the signage but that wasn't a ton of historical signs around because it's not treated as like a museum space. Which is expected I guess. Thank you really only are there if you're there for an event or I guess maybe a tour? I'm not very sure about that though.

Eventually though I would hear the girls and I would join them up in the bridal suite. And Sam went beautiful. Not shocked and she always looks beautiful. And it was so good to see everyone. They were also cute and they're getting ready jammies and I would hang out with them for a few hours while they got ready and I talked about history with them and art and dentistry and tortoises and what we've all been up to over the last couple months and it was just so much fun being with girls. Like I don't get to do girly conversation and talk stuff because that's not the type of people I tend to gravitate towards. I'm kind of a dirty gremlin girl. Not like they are. They're girly girls. And I love being able to experience that too. It's great.

I had a great time talking to them too and Sam's app was there and while the girls were getting photos we sat and talked about education and a state of the world and parents and art and she's just such a lovely person to talk to. I'm really glad that we got to sit down and talk like that because we would get separated later on and things were very busy.

There were a lot of photos being taken so James was indisposed for a lot of the day. But we got to spend time together. I would go back down to the billiard's room eventually. But first I went and found Paul's mom Dawn. And her mom. I did not catch her mom's name. But I would hang out with them outside for a while and we talked about life and my new tortoise and animals and Paul and James and the event. And eventually I went to do some investigating for them to figure out where he was supposed to go because there was the big tent out side but they were saying that there was a garden on the other side we were supposed to go to the first and I couldn't figure out how to get to. Eventually I would lead them around and drop them inside the pool for a bit and get some water and use the bathroom. And then I stood and talked with Sam's dad and Paul's dad. I went downstairs to get water and Sam's dad was standing there and I said something about getting water and he was like I don't work here as you know I just need like you're not going to accuse me of crimes when I go into this part of the staff only. And then he came and got water as well.

I would go outside and went to our car to find my charger and could not find it so I texted James cuz I was getting very hot and sweaty and I was not thrilled about that but they had the charger so they would make me later on. And it ended up being a really nice time. I went and found Ann and Tucker And we eat hors d'oeuvres. The keys that I put a fancy dip on that they had put out for the crab cakes. And it was excellent. Made it a little bit spicy. But we are all kind of melting in the sun so I suggested we move to the shade. And then James joined us. The wedding party came out it was so nice to see everybody all dressed up and pretty. Everyone honestly was beautiful. The whole party. Someone had beautiful dresses on and I'm so lovely and I was having a great time even though I was hot.

I think that was kind of the vibe though everyone was kind of melting. And it caused some people too I think leave a little early or go and find shady or cool spots to just escape the heat. Having an outdoor event this time of year was a little bit of a wild choice but it's their third wedding if that's what they want.

I had some really nice conversations and me and James took pictures and I would speak to the girl doing social media about Baltimore and doing social media and life and the city. It was nice just to connect with people. I was having a really good time even if I was overheated and sweaty and gross.

My feet was really hurt. They are still split on the bottom It's really uncomfortable but even if when I try to put Band-Aids on them they just fall off immediately so I'm just trying to baby them. But it does not comfortable. And I'm doing my best. My new sandals are nice and they're not bothering them as much but still becomes painful pretty quickly.

Eventually it was time for dinner. There wasn't a lot I can eat but I wasn't really hungry anyway. It was mostly just so hot and dehydrated. So I am really glad I brought my water cup and I would just keep drinking as much as I could. We ate dinner though and I went to find James because they have been pulled away for pictures. I made up two plates for them so that they wouldn't miss out on food. And then I went and sat on one of the velvet couches that they had put out on the lawn. Where Ann came and joined me and we talked for a little bit about camp and how crazy this week has been. Hopefully next week won't be as wild.

I would dance with James for a bit and we took a photo with photo and we talked to our friends and we danced some more and it was just really fun. eventually we were told that there was an ice cream truck so me and James would walk down there and the photographer took pictures of us which I thought was very sweet she called us for ice cream couple. And we would later on feed each other ice cream for her to take pictures but James put way too much in my mouth and him gave me a media brain freeze and I was like no no and it was very laughing silly giggling pictures. I hope that I get to see them soon.

James and me would have to leave though. James has work in the morning and I have a full day with Jess. So we would do our round saying goodbye to everyone. Stephanie had some questions about fireflies and I told her the stuff that I knew but then it turns out that fireflies are not just in America like I thought they are everywhere? Now I got to do research into fireflies because that's crazy to me. And I am excited to have a new thing to look into.

We will take a bite to everyone now and gave lots of hugs even though we were all sweaty. And then I drove us home.

I would play music on the way home and we were just singing together and having so much fun and even though James hates how that I have the music I was just having such a nice time being silly with them. And then we were home and there was lightning and there's a storm rolling in and tomorrow's supposed to be thunderstorms all day. And while that is not the best for me and just going to the beach I am still looking forward to it. I think it will be interesting. And I love an interesting time even if it's not the time that you expected.

I just got out of the shower and James did too. And I am very much ready to go to bed. I hope that you all have a great night tonight did you have fun tomorrow. Until next time.

[sunshine-overload]

[BSTS] Ran Summer 2023 4* Card Story

(note: Starless got hired to perform a hero show at an amusement park, the show is based on ‘Journey to the West’)

chapter 1 -amusement park, rides area-

ran: Ah, Nee-chan! I was just lookin’ for ya!

saki: Oh, Ran-san. Good work toda—

ran: I wanna go someowhere with ya right now!

saki: Hm? Why, did something happen?

ran: I overheard that the noise of the rides near the stage we’re gonna be usin’ might affect the show. So I’m gonna be conducting a noise survery on the attractions and I wanted ya to come with me!

saki: Ok. If it’s something that I can help with then I’ll come along.

ran: Hell yea! I knew you’d understand, Nee-chan~ Let’s ride that roller coaster over there first and see how noisy it is!

-time pass-

ran: Haa~! That was so much fun~! 

saki: (Wait, if we’re just measuring how loud the attractions are, is it even necessary for us to ride them…?)

ran: Nee-chan, ready for the next one?

saki: Oh, uh, yes but…

ran: Which should we try next then~! Let’s go with that roller coaster over there!

saki: (That coaster is pretty far away from the stage area, so I don’t think we’d have to worry about it noise it makes…)

ran: Uwah~! This one goes crazy high up! The thrill’s gonna be so good!!

saki: (I’ll keep it to myself for now….)

-time pass, amusement park cafe-

ran: Man~ That was a blast! Let’s have a little break, alright? I’ll go buy us somethin’ to drink, wait right here!

saki: Thank you.

-ran leaves-

saki: (In the end we just rode a while bunch of rides, I wonder if that’s ok…?)

-ran returns-

ran: Here we go, thank ya for waitin’! Here’s an ice cold frappé just for you!

saki: Thanks.

ran: Mm, when it’s this hot out a cold drink really hits the spot, don’t it? Also, I there weren’t any noises that will impact the stage much, so that’s good!

saki: Yes. I think it’ll be fine too.

ran: Besides, screamin’ on the rides a whole bunch was some nice stress relief. It’s all thanks to ya coming along with me, Nee-chan, thank ya~

saki: No problem, if I was able to be of assistance then I’m glad.

ran: In this condition I’m sure tomorrow’s show will go off without a hitch! Earlier today with Shinju we were thinking up some cool poses to strike, so look forward to seeing ‘em tomorrow!

saki: Ok!

ran: Once we’re finished with our frappés there’s still some places I wanna go with ya, is that ok? Let’s ride that thing over there next!

-

chapter 2 -amusement park, stage area-

saki: (Ran-san and I were walking all around the amusement park right up until his break ended yesterday… I wonder if he’ll be ok for the performance today? Ah, the show’s starting!)

-cg

ran: “Woop!”

young boy: Uwah! So cool!

saki: (Woah… That back flip he just did, how many times did he even flip!?)

ran: “Wassup. The name’s Zhu Bajie, I’m a pig monster!”

ran: “Wait, some of ya just imagined that I must be tasty then cause I’m a pig right? That little Sanzo-san over there, at least make it a good meal when ya cook me up alright?”

young boy: Hahah!

young girl: That guy’s so funny!

saki: (Fufu… The kids are all laughing, it’s a good show.)

-time pass, after show-

young boy: Mister Zhu Bajie! Shake my hand!

young girl: Me too! Shake my hand again too!

ran: I’ll shake ya hands as many times as ya want, just make sure you line back up again!

saki: (Wow, there’s so many kids gathering around Ran-san.)

young boy: Mister, that thing you did at the start was super cool! The thing where you just kept spinning around in the air!

ran: Ohh, the back flip huh? Alright then, I’ll do another just for ya, watch this!

young girl: Woah, awesome!

ran: And then, pose! Whaddaya think? I thought up this pose with big bro Yu Long!

young boy: Epic!! I wanna do that pose too!

ran: Alright, those who wanna copy me let’s do it together. Ready? Three, two, one…! Hero pose!!!

saki: (Fufu, they’re all having so much fun.)

ran: Hm? Ah, Nee-chan! What did ya think of the show?

saki: You were really cool!

ran: That so? Zhu Bajie is someone who’ll do what he’s gotta do when he has to. Normally he’s lazy and chilled out but when he fights whilst thinking of his friends, he’s super strong~ I was a shinin’ hero out there don’t ya think?

saki: Yes, you were stunning. It was a very fun show.

ran: Thank ya! I had a whole lotta fun as well! I still like idols, but heroes are pretty great too!

—end

*Nee-chan - ran’s nickname for saki meaning big sister, it can also be used to refer to young women 

[spooniechef]

Baked Chicken with Potatoes and Carrots (1 spoon)

Today was a prime example of “completely out of spoons” and how it can affect cooking. The original plan for today was one-pan chicken chasseur - I had everything I needed for it, all was cool - but it was a particularly bad day pain-wise, with the added ‘fun’ of a hard day at work. (Even though I work from home, there’s not much that having to type not one but two fifteen minute-long dictations of medical reports as dictated by a gentleman with a slightly difficult accent, a tendency to speak too close to the microphone, and an annoying habit of skipping around in the dictation and going back and correcting something he dictated two paragraphs ago, this on top of the usual workload, will improve.)

What I really needed was an even simpler recipe - fewer ingredients, less fuss, nearly zero effort. Plus actually using the chicken leg quarters I bought for the chasseur. I thought to myself, “Wouldn’t it be nice if I could throw a full set of meal components into the oven and just let it sit for awhile, and come away with dinner all ready for serving?” Which gave me an idea. I dug around for the best way to roast chicken leg quarters with potatoes and veg all at once. I found more or less what I wanted on a site called Eatfoodlicious, though I am going to recommend some changes to the recipe. Not for ease of cooking; no, that’s fine. More for flavour and so on. But I thought this one was worth sharing, so here we go.

Here’s what you’ll need

Four chicken leg quarters (though you could probably do breasts too)

1lb potatoes (I found three good-sized ones worked fine), chopped into 1″ pieces

3 large carrots, also chopped into 1″ pieces

OIl of your choosing (see recommendation notes later)

Spices to taste

Like I say, I have a few things I want to try next time, but they’ll go in the recommendation section because I don’t know how they’ll work yet and I try not to throw untested recipes out into the world.

Here’s what you do:

Heat oven to about 425 degrees F (215 degrees C, about 190 degrees C fan assist)

Put your chopped potatoes and carrots in a bowl; add about 2 tablespoons of oil and some salt and pepper, then mix until the vegetables are fully coated and place the vegetables in the bottom of a deep baking dish a layer deep.

Coat your chicken quarters with a bit more oil and season to taste (I recommend scoring the skin a bit so more of the flavour gets into the meat), then place on top of the vegetables

Put the whole thing into the oven and cook for about 45-60 minutes or until chicken is done (if you’ve got a meat thermometer, apparently you want an internal temperature of at least 165 degrees F)

Again, literally that simple. It’s more or less the epitome of “throw everything into a suitable vessel and cook for an extended period of time’. You get your veg, you get your potato, you get your meat, and you get lots of leftovers. Still, not quite perfect, and there are some things I’m going to try next time, as follows:

About the oil - I used sunflower because it’s what I had, but salt and pepper isn’t quite enough for me. Next time, I might spice it up with some of the same spices that went on the chicken, maybe some garlic puree or minced garlic. Roasted garlic is great on its own, so why not here? Alternatively, there’s an option of using melted butter or, if you have it available, goose fat. Goose fat is fantastic for using in roast vegetables.

For the spices on the chicken, I used garlic pepper, onion granules, a little bit of celery salt, some ground coriander, some paprika, and some salt. Next time, I think I’ll use garlic puree to give the skins the oil treatment, use regular pepper instead of garlic pepper, and maybe up the celery salt a little. But honestly, you do you; spices are a thing you measure with your heart.

Not much else to it, really, which is good because I don’t have the spoons to keep going much today anyway. But it just goes to prove how easy this one is, since I managed to get it cooked despite not having a whole lot left in the spoon budget and still managed to update. Of course, knowing I have another three days’ worth of meals in microwave-safe containers helps too. And I can use the little individual bottle of red wine for bolognaise sauce later. (Which I’ll probably provide the recipe for at some point, probably when I do a post about lasagne.)

[15hachimitsu]

Miracle Dish - Stand My Heroes Mini-chat 2023/07/03

Featured Characters:

Kirishima Koya

Yamazaki Kaname

Kujo Soma

Miyase Go

Kirishima: Phew, I'm starving!

Kirishima: Miyase just left on a shopping trip tho...

*clack*

Kirishima: Hey, there's a lot of different ingredients in here.

Kirishima: ...

Kaname: Koya-kun, you left the fridge open.

Kirishima: Oof, my bad. Gotta be more careful next time. Zoned out coz of the hunger, y'know.

Kirishima: Since that's how it is, I got no choice but to cook food myself!

Kaname: Eh, could you even though?

Kirishima: Don't judge me yet! I've been practicing what Miyase has taught me from time to time. It'll be fine.

Kirishima: What I could use now is shrimp, bean sprouts, edamame... oh, and I'm craving meat - gotta have that too.

Kaname: If it's meat you want, there should be some from last night's leftovers. You okay with that?

Kirishima: All right, we got meat!

Kirishima: Oh yeah, gotta have eggs! Most stuff taste better when you have 'em mixed in.

Kirishima: For now, we throw 'em all in a bowl, and...

Kujo: What are you making?

Kaname: ...an original dish.

Kirishima: Haha, we're just randomly mixing whatever's in the fridge tho.

Kujo: A dish without a name, huh. Interesting. Allow me to help.

Kirishima: Then, please prepare the rice, Kujo-san. This right here is the type that you can just nuke in the microwave to fluff it up.

Kujo: Understood.

Kaname: What about the seasonings?

Kirishima: It already looks good as is, but... I could add something.

Kaname: You can't go wrong with sesame seeds and salt, I think.

Kirishima: Yo, sounds great.

Kujo: Maybe adding some Sweet Mango Chutney would make it taste better. As the name implies, it's mangoes boiled into jam.

Kirishima: Mango's great! Let's try adding a little bit of that.

Kaname: (I wonder if it'll be okay...)

Kirishima: While I'm at it, add some lemon juice too... Like so! Once they're all mixed, into the frying pan they go.

*sizzle*

Kaname: Oh, that surprisingly smells good.

Kujo: I have a feeling that this will be a masterpiece.

Kirishima: This sort of thing tastes best when you let it simmer at medium heat.

Kirishima: ...okay, that should do it.

Kaname: It'll probably taste better with mayonnaise.

Kirishima: That's what I'm thinkin'!

Kirishima: Mmmm! This is hella tasty!

Kaname: It feels nice and fluffy.

Kujo: Makes me want to drink wine.

Kirishima: Hey, we might have the talent for cooking, don't we? Gotta let Miyase try this out!

-- A few days later --

Kirishima & Kaname: ...

Kirishima: Why!? Why doesn't it taste like the one we cooked before?

Kaname: We really didn't think about the measurements and went about it pretty randomly. Maybe that flavor was a one-time thing.

Miyase: It is also delicious today.

Kirishima: No, it tasted way better before! Trust me!

Miyase: Yes, of course. I believe you.

Miyase: Miracles are bound to happen again one day. That's what cooking is all about.

---

After this, they would occasionally find themselves in the kitchen, with the belief that another miracle would happen someday.

[alizeh-tu-badi-mushkil-hai]

Dear Diary,

It has been a long time since I shared something with you. Despite being skilled in many languages and having an extensive vocabulary, I find it hard to express myself to anyone, including you. It’s intimidating, almost like sensing something but not being able to articulate it or being injured but not knowing the source of the ache.

Anyway, I want to talk to you about loneliness, which you may have encountered too. Google defines loneliness as "a negative emotional reaction to feeling alone." But in my opinion, it's the sense of having a void inside of you that you try to fill in any way you can but are unable to.

When my friend first described what loneliness meant to her, "I have a nice job. I have dependable, helpful friends. I'm covered by a roof. I want to realize a dream. I have everything I need..." she questioned herself, " But why do I still feel alone in the world? What do you think about it? I mean, how is it possible?"

"Sometimes I feel like I need a good escape. Something cozy and comforting, like my childhood blue blanket, my red bicycle, or the hot chocolate from that book cafe. In addition to feeling this way, when I sit with these emotions, I also experience a need for love. Love changes things. When I consider love, I picture myself waking up in the morning and feeling the need for a warm embrace, my chilly legs resting on their warm ones. I want to be surrounded by smiling, pleasant faces. I want breakfast to show how much they care about me. Everything that contains love, I need it. But when you've yearned for this love for 20 years, it can sometimes tear you apart."

"But what do you mean by loneliness breaking you apart?" I asked her.

"I have heard, felt, and seen my mother's loneliness," she remarked, "My mother's isolation in her home screams happiness disguised as suffering. I have observed her dining alone, waiting alone, sobbing alone, happy alone, and cooking alone in a crowded house. I believe that I may have felt lonely as a child before I ever fell in love. The fear of being alone, even in love, is brought on by loneliness. Because of how much you love them, you still experience loneliness, proving that love is insufficient to fill the void. I don't know how to measure what I mean when I say void. Perhaps, I am the only person in an empty world."

She continued, "You know what, when people ask me what I think about loneliness, I don't have words to express it, but there are some images in my mind. It made me feel better. An image of me riding the bus home from work would show me surrounded by kind strangers, the sun setting the way it does in movies, and listening to my favorite music, but despite the bus being packed with people, I would still feel lonely and empty. Have you ever seen a barren café with a table and two chairs next to a sizable window and some flowers on the table? There are two cups of tea on that table, and I'm seated on the opposite side. I don't know, I feel like everything is so lovely and peaceful everywhere, but the turmoil of needing someone to come with me and talk to me hurts. Even though there are numerous visually appealing things nearby, nobody wants to spend time with me. They say that loneliness is a scary emotion, but I feel that my fear of being alone has become ingrained in my body. I've been consumed by that feeling."

"That's terrible," my words found their way out, "But when did you start feeling like this?"

She reminisced, "I remember when I was a kid, nobody wanted to be with me but my toys. What kind of person would want to be with a voodoo doll? The pins of my sister's missing parents, my grandmother's longing for her deceased husband, and my mother's loneliness somehow found their way into a voodoo doll like me. Because of the pins all over my body, people who touched me often suffered injuries. Children play with toys, not voodoo dolls, I realized. I was lonely in so many ways that I don't feel it was my fault. It could be lonely out there. We are merely pretending to have someone to lean on, but perhaps we are actually passing away, dying while carrying the suffering and sorrow of the loved ones we never had."

"That's a lot..." My heart felt like it was getting squeezed. "Have you ever thought about how you might escape from this?"

"I tried making love with someone I didn't love," she admitted, "I tried making art. I gave writing a try. I gave drinking a try. I did everything I could, but the problem is that it never goes away. Perhaps, it has assimilated into who I am. Sometimes, wanting love for oneself is against the law. So, on my empty bed, I swaddle myself in a childhood blanket. I sob until the pillow is soaked in tears and then wait until it transforms into a vast ocean - to die feeling empty rather than to dive to find peace. If I pass away, my body will clatter because the sound of unheard yearning for love is made by empty corpses. When I pass away, I want it to be remembered as a day when loneliness was finally put to an end..."

After our entire conversation, it reminded me of a few lines Sylvia Plath had written about loneliness, "Now I know what loneliness is, I think. Momentary loneliness, anyways. It comes from a vague core of self-like disease of the blood, dispensed throughout the body so that one cannot locate the matrix, the spot of contagious."

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Dude, the sience bros would be my clutch lmao. First of all, I think that joining the sience club as someone from our world would just be a slay move in general. I go to an arts school, so I'm not the most involved person out there, but I think even our basic understanding of sience could make for insightful experiences. Just comparing our sience basics to their science basics could be really cool! And hey, if we happen to make an ingenius discovery along the way? Or Just happen to mention Newton's Law and get a Twisted equivelent to the Nobel Prize? I mean... It's the benefits. Maybe we can even decipher a way home lol

But I digress.

I completely agree with anon. Trey Clover because food. If I'm isakied to another world without any money, people who food will be my life-line and absolute favorites. But also, with all the insane shenanigains that go on in NRC? I'm gonna need someone to share an exasperated side eye with. Clover's experience as a junior would just be helpful in general, especially when succeeding from the side lines. I don't enjoy parading my victories around, so being able to take after his example by mostly avoiding conflict while still doing good for ourselves would be nice :) And if we ever wanna prank some people... i think it'd be kinda funny to be the perpetrators AND the least suspected people in the room😂😂

Also, Rook! I mentioned before that I go to art school, so exposure to different media and insightful disscusion/ critique is something I hold dear! In the incredebly survival-of-the-fittest-dog-eat-dog-testostorone-filled-dick-measuring-contest that is our darling NRC, I would heavily consider shrivling away. Still! A lot of the boys can be incredbly passionate about their artistic forms of expression :) From Malleus and his music, and of course Vil and his acting career, I'd respect them so much! But- many of those same boys don't feel the most approachable about more vulnrable discussions. And not even talking about art in a fancy-smanchy way. I wanna talk poetry! Point out how one of my classmate's eyes remind me of nickles, or how the tiles of the school reminded me of hop-skotch! I want to brain-rot about a book and rant about how the thematic elements reflect reality! I concur with Rook's appreciation of beauty in everywhere he looks, and I'd have a lot of fun with him just pointing out the mundane things we admire :) 

Would be weirded out by the stalking though... ha... haha

People I'd dislike? Azul. Probably Azul. Gosh, knowing his backstory as a viewer I want to sweep him into his arms and tell him he's beautiful and has the most darling blue eyes. I mean??? Babe?? An OCTO-mer???? That's so cool!!! Realistically though, I would be a bit disgusted by what he does. I'd still conversate with him, and appreciate his buissnessman-smile face, but deep down I'd try to avoid him. We're already stuck in a world with no money, connections, or information. I don't need the weight of a deal on my back.

Also I want to punt Crowley like a football. At this point I want to high-tail it to RSA and ask them what they know about reality-travelling shenanigains lmao. Hope you're having a good day!!

No worries, you can send them in any time. I was just cooking myself something.

Considering that magic is a profession you can study for in this world, that implies that magic itself is a predictable enough phenomenon that it can be studied, tested and recorded. Though, obviously the main magical classes don't quite account for signature spells since I imagine it would require quite the number of layers in magic spells to be able to replicate them. I know officially signature spells are so unique that they can't be replicated, but in my own head, it's less that it's impossible to replicate and more that it's difficult and tedious to do so with general magic means. The life of an individual, their own stories determine what kind of signature spell manifests in a person, hence why I have the headcanon that ancient magic of old had spell incantations that were fairy tales. Basically, each spell was treated as it's own form of unique magic waaaay back in the day, before more modern, common means of magic were developed.

So yeah, magic science. Any little science nerd would go nuts over this.

"In the incredebly survival-of-the-fittest-dog-eat-dog-testostorone-filled-dick-measuring-contest that is our darling NRC" Yea that really is NRC in a nutshell huh? Funnily enough, I actually had a little short-lived fantasy where the reader comes from an even more testosterone filled world, I'm talking about "gang wars but with colleges" type deal. Buff guys all around wanting to challenge you, to prove their worth and be become the ultra alpha chad or whatever the hell they label it these days. Almost Baki levels of crazy, but not quite, still following some lines of logic. Basically Reader takes one look at Jack, Leona and Rook and go "you are babies to me," not in the adoptive way, but in the, "I would steal your candy."

And speaking of poetry, it's actually my worst skill in all of my writing. See, as you've said, poetry usually does require a certain level of emotional vulnerability, or at least be willing to dip into those emotions and memories and have them come out. Stuffing as much meaning as possible to just a few words. Personal layers that become easier to peel back the more you understand the author, buuuuuut, I'm super private. Incredibly so, and so stuck in this apathetic state of mine that my poetry is bland. It doesn't have any specific details that make it unique. Bare boooones. So rather than remarking on what my classmates eyes remind me of, I'd remark how the sunlight loves the color. Or how the line of the tiles cut through and separate a whole bunch of students apart despite being stuck together. Observer type poems, rather than looking internally.

Wouldn't it be so ironic that the first friend you make was Rook of all people? After avoiding just about everyone "normal," you let Rook talk to you? You're willing to hang out with him? Rook stalks but it's never with the intention of hurting you or controlling you in anyway. If it bothers you enough, Rook is emotionally intelligent enough to leave things well enough alone. Rook stalks Leona but Leona doesn't register Rook as a threat in any way, just an annoyance. Hence why Rook keeps stalking him. So if does give you genuine nightmares, yeah he will stop.

Azul will find those legal loopholes when he can and already that puts him on my shit list. That and I don't like owing that smug motherfucker anything. He lords deals over peoples heads and I refuse to give him any sort of satisfaction just because he was bullied.

Same on the RSA route. Would not hesitate. Like, even if I end up friends with everyone, I would still leave for RSA cause at least their headmage is reliable. I can't stand being under the authority of someone like Crowley even if my friends are there. My well being comes first.