#also THE GENDER ENVY IS REAL

[odetokeons]

shoutout to fictional autistic(coded) men of science. gotta be one of my favourite genders. 🧪

[vyeoh]

I'm rewatching all the Marvel Defenders shows on Netflix and as much as I mock the MCU now, I need non-Marvel fans to understand that I was and still am a fan of "Daredevil fighting the gentrifying assshole who bought out the police force because ACAB both as a lawyer and vigilante of the community" and "Jessica Jones fighting the man who mind controlled her into doing unspeakable things and forming a community of fellow survivors and allies while dealing with PTSD in a range of both healthy and unhealthy ways" Marvel. God I love these idiots they carried so hard

[samfangalore]

Real quick I’m going to need everyone currently writing Wolverine fanfics to please watch One Man’s Worth pt1 and pt2 from the 1992 Uncanny X-Men Animated Series ok just seeing how Logan acts while married to Storm is so freaking cute

[detectivehole]

one of my favorite episodes of any tv show of all time is about the deuteragonist literally going into heat and i'll never ever forgive star trek for that one. happy pride

[slow-reader-reads-books]

Anyone wonder about a The Substance (2024) au for svsss?

I'm thinking it could work for either Shen Jiu and a quasi Shen Yuan, or with Bingge and a quasi Bingmei, but I think being able to birth via your spine and some green medicinal goop (created by an underground black market company called The System, perhaps?) an "ideal" version of yourself and inhabit it for 7 days, but having to then return to your original body for 7 days, and having to both vicariously live through your ideal self, and then being haunted by them when you can't be them anymore until you feel forced to artificially manufacture a way to stay in your ideal self because you hate your real self to the point of wanting to kill them, but that in turn killing you, so you end up injecting yourself with too much Substance goop until you're unrecognizable to even yourself all in the name of escaping a world you feel unloved by...

Idk anyone think of this au yet? Highly recommend the original movie if you like plenty of horror, gore, and dissections of body dysmorphia that more or less leave you feeling like a changed person by the end (do check out the trigger warnings tho, it is a horror movie)

[coldforestnight]

I <3 how on the first viewing of stoker it's impossible to tell what India actually feels for uncle Charlie right up until she shoots him through the neck

[oceanwithinsblog]

just done watching bright young things and i enjoyed it but you know who really did it for me? this pretty lil fairy 💞✨🧚💫

like .... look at them

i'm so enchanted. istg. gonna send michael a huge ass virtual hug for giving life to such a fun, colorful, fragile and emotional character <33

[astranauticus]

sometimes i think back on my high school gender crisis and its still really funny that i more or less arrived at the conclusion that Im A Guy through like, a lot of soul searching and introspection and also, one chinese streamer nobody on this side of the internet has ever heard of

[mello-hello]

Indrid cold the mothman you will always be famous to me. And im in love with you. And i also need to be you. And also hold your hand. And also the gender envy-

[fckthtgetmoney]

my favorite pictures of matty healy 10/?

all pictures are from pinterest!

[moonlight-hwa]

Mother is mothering once again….and I am utterly living for it.

[sortvaniliekrans]

-chuckles- I'm in danger 💫

[aggressiveanon]

idbdidgeohsksjsoej HEEELLPPP

yez im alive. am i back online on this account only to panic (/hj)? maybe

but HOLY SHIT

i made some new online friends back in july/august, and ive become really close to one friend in particular

ive already been worried about coming off as too clingy and sharing too much, but it got a LOT worse last night

basically we started a call at 12:30am and stopped calling at 4:30am (so it waz REALLY late) and near the end i just. dont know what happened

he just laughed so warmly and genuinely that it made me smile so hard like. he has the most majestic laugh known to man istfg. i mean even his voice is just so pretty. i mean itz so pretty that i literally FELL ASLEEP talking to him last night (what the FUCK)

idk if thats weird or something (it probably iz) but HOLY SHIT

hez literally awesome and amazing and so funny and hiz voice is so pretty what iz WRONG with me ishdsmsohsoshskso

[maybeamiles]

Characters that made me realize I was trans

You ever just wanna make a comprehensive list of everyone that gave you gender envy from a young age? Yeah me too.

So here it is! A list of every character that made me realize I was trans, starting from when I was a little kid!

No. 1 - Aravis from The Horse and His Boy by C.S. Lewis

Okay, weird racism in this book aside, the amount I loved Aravis was probably the first indicator that I was not cisgender. I thought she was so cool for dressing up as a boy and rejecting traditional femininity and being so "not-like-other-girls" (i also had a big not-like-other-girls phase around the time I read this, go figure). Of course, she is cisgender, and seems to fall into a *slightly* more traditional role by the end of the book, but this isn't about C.S. Lewis' gender stuff and more on the fact that I related very heavily to Aravis and the fact that she didn't fit in with other girls, because I also felt the same way.

Her male co-star Shasta also gave me gender envy so between them both it's no wonder 9-year-old me loved this book.

No. 2 - Deryn/Dylan Sharp from Leviathan by Scott Westerfeld

Once again it's the girl-dressing-up-as-a-boy-to-fuck-with-gender-rules trope! Only this time, Deryn Sharp is actually treated like a man by her male co-star, Alek (up until he figures out that Dylan is actually Deryn, but then he's quite supportive of her gender fuckery). Deryn, like Aravis, doesn't actually feel any gender dysphoria. Her gender fuckery is a means to pursue her passion for air travel via joining the army. This does get fucked up by the last book and she ends up needing to leave the army, but we don't actually see how she presents herself when in non-millitary society so I will headcannon that she remains quite butch.

I thought Deryn was the coolest when I was 13, and even wound up copying her way of saying "barking spiders" for a bit. And her and Alek's romantic relationship was peak goals for me, probably because it begins while Deryn still presents masc.

No. 3/4 - Link, from TLOZ: Twilight Princess and Breath of the Wild

So, the Links! Let's talk about the Links!

Twilight was the first male character I remember projecting myself onto. So much so that I did not ship him and midna OR him and Illia (and didn't really like illia's quest), not because they didn't have chemistry but because I am very homosexual and did not like the idea of my self-insert being with a girl. Now, do cis girls project themselves onto male character? Idk but I'm not cis and this is something I did so *shrug*

I've lumped these two together because Zelda was a sort of twofer for me. I played Twilight Princess and then a couple years later played BOTW and began discovering what transgender people were. At the time I ID'd as nonbinary, and my Zelda obsession grew with my understanding of "shit I'm not cis." (I even named myself after a Zelda character for a bit). The links were my first *conscious* experience of gender envy, and hold a special place in my heart for it.

No. 5 - Aether from Genshin Impact

Last, but CERTAINLY not least, is the man, the myth, the legend, Aether Genshin Impact. And there is a STORY behind this guy's inclusion.

See, by the time I started playing genshin, I had long since accepted that I was not a girl. I called myself nonbinary, and thought I was okay with simply "not being a girl" and was fine doing what I saw all the other nonbinary people doing (binders, no testosterone, vaugely masc clothes, etc).

Then I booted up genshin impact, and had to pick between Aether and Lumine. And I still remember the "oh shit" moment I had when I realized that the default I expected to fall into would not make me happy. I had expected myself to pick Lumine, because I had previously thought that I was more comfortable with femininity than masculinity. I realized that I didn't just want "genderless." I wanted masculine. And I had this guy to thank for helping me come to that realization.

Anyways that's not all the characters that gave me gender envy or really even my entire "here's how I knew I was trans" but they are the most influential ones to me.

[angabby-zzz]

having some deep thoughts about what to do with angels identity and his crush on gabby

[tony-andonuts]

Okay Im actually embarrassed at Ratty knowing this butlike. Holy fucking shit I love Denim so much. Like oh my fuckibf god the fact that shes a transmasc hairy drag weirdo has me like 😳😳😳😳😳