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r0s3s26 · 6 months ago

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This is @shxtodxroki here for our match-up exchange, I’m just sending this from my main blog :>

Name: Bee

Age:19

Pronouns: She/her

Gender for Matches: I would be happy being paired with any gender! And I'd like romantic matches please :D

Fandoms: Haikyuu and JJK :>

Character Preferences: If possible I’d prefer no villains in JJK like Mahito or Sukuna (Though like you said in your ask, my exception would be Choso!)

Appearance: Bright pink hair (which is wavy if I take care of it properly) that goes a little past my shoulders, 5’7” with green eyes, pretty pale and I have freckles but you can see them much better in the sun. Tend to prefer more cute, pastel and/or feminine styles, but I also like to mix things up sometimes and try different styles especially anything cozy (and I like wearing nerdy/silly t-shirts and shorts/sweatpants almost all the time when I’m at home). I have stretch marks on my legs that I’m a bit insecure about, and lots of little freckles/moles on my arms!

Personality: Introvert, I love spending time with the people I care about but I also need at least a little bit of alone time each day just to decompress and relax. I have pretty bad anxiety, so I tend to overthink and I’m frequently stressed even if I don’t show it, and even about small things that most people don’t even think about. I’m also super awkward and shy especially when I first meet people especially since I sometimes struggle to read social situations, I’m really not the type to initiate conversations much at first and I even struggle with initiating physical affection with someone I’m close to. Once I feel safe and close with someone I tend to ramble quite a lot about my interests or just topics I’ve dived into recently, and I think I’m a pretty good listener as well! :) I try my best to generally be a friendly person and look out for others, and I tend to avoid conflict unless someone I love is being hurt. My worst trait is probably my procrastination. I’m currently in college and studying to hopefully become an either an ELA or sociology professor, not totally sure yet. I really love learning about things I find interesting/important and getting to share what I learn with people :] I usually enjoy staying up somewhat late as I just like being up and being able to use my time how I like.

Qualities in a Partner: Confidence/willingness to initiate since it’s something I struggle with, someone who’s patient and willing to listen when I’m having a hard time (and I’m more than happy to do the same in return) and someone honest and loyal. Since I’m very anxious, I’d prefer someone who’s open with their affection with me! They don’t have to make it super obvious in public or anything though:) And someone who’s willing to kill/get rid of bugs! My ideal first date would probably be something simple like going out for coffee/a sweet treat and a walk, something that would give us a chance to talk and get to know one another!

Love Languages: Gifts and physical touch for giving (I love getting to see people’s reactions when I get them gifts I know they’ll love) and physical touch and words of affirmation for receiving.

Interests/Hobbies: I’m a big fan of horror or mystery movies/media. (My favorite movie is Knives Out) I really enjoy reading and writing too! I enjoy anime/manga (my favorite anime is Yuri on Ice) and there are a few kinds of video games I really enjoy like visual novels (especially spooky ones), games like Danganronpa or or “cozy games” like Minecraft or Stardew Valley! I also play the cello and I work backstage as the stage manager in most of my school’s theater productions. I really enjoy all kinds of music, I listen to anything from k-pop to musicals to “emo” music to just regular pop. I’m currently trying to learn how to play DnD, and I really enjoy collecting things even when I lose interest! (As in, even after I stop fixating on an interest so much and switch over to a new one, I never get rid of the merch because it still brings me joy and reminds me of how important that thing was to me :> ) I like anything that makes me emotional, whether it’s soul-crushingly sad or super heartwarming, I just like when media can make me feel things, and I’m a big crier since I tend to get emotional pretty easily :]

Dislikes: Bugs, math, people with an ego that makes them treat others poorly, vanilla-scented things

Sorry this is so long, I tend to ramble on and have trouble condensing things lol but I hope this is enough, and thank you so much again for agreeing to this exchange! I’m excited to see what you think :)

Your Matchups are…Kurro Tetsuro and Nanami Kento

<3 He would think your style is super cute

<3 Would buy you accessories that he thinks would look good on you

<3 Also buys matching nerd t-shirts

<3 Because his best friend is kenma he has a lot of experience with introverted people

<3 I feel like he is a secret omnivert but he puts up a extravert front

<3 Like pretends to be super social but actually get overstimulated super quick(projecting)

Like picture this:

You both just left early from a work party at his job because your social battery was going down and you had been wanting to leave for a bit. Once you guys get home and start settling into bed he gets his over the ear headphones he usually uses for working out, and he gets into yalls shared bed and just starts cuddling into your side and is just super quiet. You pull him closer and whisper “are you ok?” he nods his head yes and just nuzzles his head into the side of your neck and wraps his arms around you and just calms his breathing

<3 When you guys first met/started to hang out he was super ok with carrying the conversations for a bit until you wanted to open up more to him

<3 He would help you stay on track and study for your degree

<3 Study dates would be 50% actually studying and the other 50% would be talking shit about your classmates and the people at his job

<3 He would tell you fun facts each day just cause

<3 When he gets little gifts from you he ether puts them on his work desk or his desk at home so he always has a little piece of you to remind him off

<3 Would try getting into some of your hobbies with you like horror movies and manga

<3 But for video game stuff he introduces you to Kenma because he is a streamer and now you are a regular guest on his streams when he plays games like Minecraft, Danganronpa, or any other game he thinks you would also enjoy to play

(Kurro secretly loves that you and his best friend also get along so well cause you 2 are the most important people in his life)

Song:

<3 You and Nanami are pretty similar in certain ways

<3 Like you are both pretty introverted and will probably keep to y’alls selves most of the time

<3 Likes the style/aesthetic difference between you both

<3 Also will buy you stuff that matches your style

<3 Both of these rich ass man ready to spoil you, lucky asf

<3 Secretly would like physical affection

<3 Like the biggest cuddle bug but don’t tell anyone else that or he will be mortified

<3 Would kiss your stretch marks, and whisper things he loves about you to make you feel better like this:

You both had just gotten out of the shower and ready to unwind for the night. You are in a pair of his boxers and an old Yuri on Ice shirt reading a manga you had recently bought. Nanami goes and lays next to your legs on the bed, slightly laying his head in your lap. He sees your exposed stretch marks and starts to kiss them and whisper sweet nothings into your skin. Stuff like “You're so beautiful my love” and “Love you so much”. Just being such a lovey dovey sap for you

<3 Loves going to cafes with you

<3 Has a list going on with you where you rank the best cafes in the area so you both know which ones to go to next

<3 So we both know what Nanami looked like in high school

<3 EMOOO

<3 I feel like he still listens to that type of music still

<3 Like has playlist full of Panic! at the Disco, Pierce the Veil, Paramore, MCR, maybe some green day in there

<3 Also still has his old t shirts so sometimes you both wear the same band tees unironically and laugh at each other

Song:

(Authors Note: Sorry if it isnt super long, im still trying to get my groove with this😓)

#anime #haikyuu #haikyuu headcanons #haikyuu hcs #haikyuu!!#matchups #haikyuu matchup #jjk matchups #jjk hcs #jjk headcanons #nanami kento #nanami x reader #kurro tetsuro #kurro x reader

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ciaossu-imagines · 10 months ago

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For the polyshipping day of the event, I used the below prompt for a polyship for Draluc and Ronaldo from The Vampire Dies in No Time! A new fandom to this blog, I hope any fans will enjoy these small headcanons!

Send me a pairing and I’ll tell you who:

Falls asleep on the couch?

It’s definitely Ronaldo. Draluc really does need his coffin to sleep comfortably and it’s rare to see him nap on the couch. Like, once in a blue moon, something is terribly wrong rare. Ronaldo, on the other hand, kind of just crashes wherever he needs to.

Makes friends with the neighbours?

I feel like all three of you would make some sort of friendly acquaintances out of your neighbours but none of you would make fast friends with any of them. Draluc is popular because of the food he’ll cook and share with the neighbours and his lack of hesitation in inviting them over to play games with him, but he’s a bit of a gadfly who kind of finds it amusing to learn gossip and to play pranks on the neighbours, making them upset fairly regularly. Ronaldo is very charismatic and quite a few neighbours thought he was really cool, until the shouting matches between Ronaldo and Draluc, where Ronaldo’s absolute filthy mouth was show-cased were heard by one or more of the neighbours. You, meanwhile, are the one the neighbours all like the best but you hang around with those two weirdos and date both of them, so they think there must be something wrong with you.

Is the adventurous eater?

Both of the boys have foods they will absolutely never go near. For Draluc, it’s garlic and as garlic is used in a lot of dishes, it does severely limit the number of things he’s willing to try. Ronaldo, meanwhile, hates celery more than anything and though it doesn’t make it as difficult to find new dishes to try, he’s the pickier eater of the two. So, I’m going to have to say you would have to be the adventurous eater or nobody is.

Hogs the cover at night?

Honestly, nobody. I really don’t feel like this is a polyship where you share beds. That doesn’t mean you never share a bed for fun things, but when it comes to sleep, because Draluc sleeps in a coffin that doesn’t exactly allow you space in it, you can’t really sleep with him. He feels really bad about this and thinks it’s really unfair that Ronaldo gets to sleep beside you and there is a rather large fight about it that leads to the rule that you all have separate beds to sleep in, that way nobody gets an unfair advantage in cuddle times and getting to be more ‘coupley’ than the other.

Forgets to do the dishes?

Ronaldo just doesn’t do the dishes. Honest to God, because Draluc is so good at the house chores and Ronaldo knows that Draluc will do them, he’s really lazy when it comes to little things like that. He leaves his dishes just laying wherever too, since he knows the ‘cleaning maid’ will take them to where they need to go.

Tries to surprise their partner more often?

I do feel like both men go through periods where they get really into doing sweet things for you, their shared lover. Draluc goes with cooking your favourite meals as a surprise, buying you a new game so that the two of you can play together, buying you merch from a show or game he knows you’re a huge fan of and things like that. Ronaldo, meanwhile, will spoil you with big date ideas, with lots of little individual trips with just him where you get all of his attention, and things along those lines.

Leaves dirty laundry on the floor?

That is, again, Ronaldo. He’s not a neat and tidy person naturally and he’s been spoiled in how willing Draluc is to do the cleaning up around the place. While you probably try to be a bit more considerate, you might also sometimes do the same thing, especially since it will be cleaned for you and with much less complaints than Ronaldo’s.

Stays up until 2 AM reading?

It can be all three of you, if you’re someone with a tendency to do that. Draluc really likes manga and certain novels and when a series really sucks him in, he’s totally engrossed in it. Ronaldo is not only a talented writer, but like most writers, he’s very much a reader and if he’s close enough to finishing a book, he’s pushing through no matter how late the hour gets to finish it all in one go.

Sings in the shower?

The answer to this one is mostly nobody. Ronaldo isn’t a sing in the shower kind of guy, though he’ll hold conversations with himself while he’s in the shower. Draluc sings in the shower but it’s only every now and then and it sounds less like singing and more like the most discordant squawking you’ve ever heard. So, it would have to be you or nobody 😊

Takes the selfies?

Ronaldo takes the most couples selfies, but Draluc takes the best selfies, even if it’s not super easy for him to show up on the camera film.

Plans date night?

Draluc tends to be spontaneous and just lets the evening with you take the two of you wherever, while Ronaldo is the one who puts more effort into taking you on actual dates instead of just having the two of you hang out spending time together!

#unrequested prompts #polyship #the vampire dies in no time #kyuuketsuki sugu shinu #ronaldo #draluc #x reader #headcanons

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stillyour-sweetheart · 1 year ago

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Dear Annie,

What have you learned from your past relationships?

WARNING: LONG REPLY AHEAD (lol)

[also, ofc none of what I say applies to abusive relationships. If you find yourself being abused in any way, shape, or form, PLS discontinue the relationship!]

Really listen to your partner, usually a breakup isn’t just one big event that’s happened but a lot of micro events that leave your partner feeling rejected

The importance of childhood trauma and attachment styles

I don’t believe in ‘falling’ in love but more like ‘growing’ in love. To me ‘falling’ sounds too fast and too uncontrolled. I think growing is more intentional, it’s slower. Aim for something that’s sustainable, not something that’ll fizzle out because it’s not built on good foundation.

Love as a choice and not as a feeling. Another way to say this is: feelings are not facts. What I mean by this is that you can feel anxious and stressed out in the relationship (ever heard of relationship anxiety? Well, now you have! And I have it LOL) but just bc you may feel negatively at times doesn’t mean there’s actually a reason for that. Sometimes (depending on your personal traumas) your nervous system will go into hyperdrive in order to help protect you from some perceived danger. You’ll start to try and find reasons to leave or to justify why you’re feeling a type of way. Feelings are not facts. Don’t self-sabotage. Take it from me, please.

How wonderfully scary yet beautiful it is to share your life and yourself with someone. I never wanted to marry or have kids growing up. But when you find the right person, suddenly all these things become more of an adventure and a challenge you’re willing to take because you feel supported in doing so. You feel like you’ll have someone to make the journey worthwhile. It’s a really beautiful feeling to change your mind/perspective like that.

To cherish every moment bc you never know if/when it’ll end

Love without holding back. If you love someone in this moment, on this day, show them. Let them know.

Small acts add up and become big, loving feelings.

The importance of having values and morals align. Interests aligning really helps too and makes things more fun imo haha. I think it’s because I’m kinda niche (? Does that make sense?) so there are specific things I like doing. My ex and I liked the same things so it was fun to go around and have someone to do them with. We never fought about how we would spend our very limited quality time. It was fun, it felt natural. But even with this being said…

Try out new things together because that puts both of you on a neutral playing field, no one is more ‘in control’ or has more ‘power’ when you do something new together. Plus, creating totally new memories with someone you love is just super lovely!!

It’s really important to respect who your partner is at their CORE, not just who they are as a partner towards YOU. Does this make sense? In the same way, they must also respect you at YOUR core and who you are as a HUMAN FIRST.

Tbh... it’s so much easier when your circle (friends + family) like your partner. I know you can’t always find this.. but honestly… it’ll take away so much unnecessary drama and stress. Get the opinions of the people you hold closest to you. Try not to find someone who everyone dislikes lol it’s not cool (or worth it) to rebel (I say this bc I used to think it was cool LOL but hopefully you guys are smarter than me hehe).

Fighting hard (and even often) isn’t necessarily a bad sign or a sign the relationship needs to end. I think of a relationship as two people trying to fight their inner demons, but together. Get through the fights. Learn what works and what doesn’t. Learn how to communicate through them. Learn if it’s best to solve things RIGHT NOW or to give your partner space and revisit the topic later. Learn what triggers them, learn what triggers you. Not to sound like a weirdo, but I personally like fighting with my partner. I want to see them in ‘every season’ of their being. I want to see what they’re like when they’re REALLY mad. Are they rude? Do they make me feel small? Do they stonewall me? Would they call me names? These are things that are scary but you need to see. Fighting styles are always evolving the more that you fight. You CAN fight productively and soon your ‘fights,’ which would fill you with dread and exhaust you, are now serious conversations that you can manage. Remember, winning isn’t the goal. Coming back to that person and showing them that you love and care for them are. (Honestly I can go on and on about fighting/communicating. These were actually 2/3 reasons my ex broke up with me- granted… he didn’t have the patience nor determination to figure things out with me. But it’s a long and convoluted story).

You will make mistakes. You will hurt the person you love. On days, you will even dislike them and they will dislike you. That’s okay. If they’re worth it, keep choosing them and be gracious to yourself.

When you go through hard times, both your and their character will come out. One of the reasons why I am so upset and saddened by my ex leaving me is because he was so good to me in the beginning when things were easy (no fights, everyone got along, all the people in our circle also got along, my family liked him, his family liked me, etc.) but when things got tough, and we had a rough season of a lot of fighting and pent up resentment (on his end, bc he didn’t communicate a lot of how he was feeling towards me), he up and left rather than stay to try and figure things out. Even though he had proclaimed how much he loved me all the time, would say how he’s going to marry me, how he felt ‘so good’ about this relationship and could see it ‘going all the way,’ would pretend to get on one knee and propose to me bc he was ‘practicing’ … all those things fell through the cracks when things got hard. Was he a good boyfriend? Yes- but in the beginning. Could he endure what an actual relationship takes when things get hard and rough between us? No. Real love stays to mend, it doesn’t leave when things get dark. (I am going to brag about myself rn bc I feel that it’s deserved): What did I learn about myself when things got hard? That I’m someone who stays by the person I love. I’m someone who loves hard and true. I love tenaciously. If I say I love you and I want things to work, I’ll do the work. I’ll stay. I’ll fight the fight. I’ll love you the way you are RIGHT NOW, NOT who I hope you’ll be in the future. Relationships are NOT easy , tbh I think being in a relationship is the hardest thing I’ve ever done (and I’m not being dramatic!) but it’s one of the most rewarding and beautiful things you can do. Remember, nothing worthwhile in life comes easy. I feel proud knowing that I didn’t give up and that I gave it my all, even when things got messy. Even when my ex was breaking up with me. I was sobbing and he was extremely emotionally charged, rather than worry about myself I tried to give him water to calm him down, I asked if he wanted to take a 5 minute break from the conversation so he could cool off, I kept asking if he was okay even tho I was the one clearly breaking down. I put him first even when I was hurting- bad. Looking back at how lovingly I acted not only in that situation, but in many where things were going poorly, I know I’m someone I can be proud of that would leave others in awe if they saw how I acted in times of great distress. I wouldn’t have known this about myself had I not been in a relationship.

Give up your ego. There's no worth in keeping it. You'll hurt the person you love. In the same way, try not to be with someone who won’t give theirs up. It’ll just be hard for you, trust me.

Being vulnerable is scary, but it’s worth it. The right person will accept all your flaws and the story that has made you who you currently are today- warts and all.

Even if a relationship ends, there is only one you - and that is your superpower.

Tbh I can go on and on... but I had to stop it somewhere! >.< I’m so sorry my list is so long!

I don’t know what you’re going through or why you asked me this question, but I hope there is something you can take from it.

Thank you for stopping by and for reading. I hope you’re okay. ❤️

#ask #anon #reply #heartbreak

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vannahfanfics · 1 year ago

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Hello, this is anonymous commissioner 🍄! This is my information for my One Piece matchup. Thank you for writing it!

I’m a bi/pan woman. 5’1”/155cm with short blue hair (naturally dark brown, but I like experimenting with different colors), gray eyes, and I guess kind of a cozy femme style.

My personality is free-spirited, even-tempered, independent, and adventurous. I love learning new things, and I’ll try anything once - as long as it’s not too dangerous or obviously harmful to someone else. As a partner (or friend) I’m loyal, supportive, and fun, but not the most romantic or verbally affectionate. It’s actually pretty hard for me to say “I love you,” and I even feel a little awkward hearing it tbh. My biggest flaw is probably that I can be a little self-centered - not in a diva-ish way, but prone to getting caught up in my own thoughts and goals sometimes. My hobbies/interests are reading (mostly horror, science fiction, and science history), gardening, swimming, knitting, traveling, and games of all kinds.

In a partner I’m attracted to confidence, creativity, and passion. My favorite dates are ones where we visit a new place (whether that’s a new restaurant or a whole new city) or learn a new skill together. When meeting someone for the first time, I start out a bit quiet and withdrawn, but I warm up quickly once we find a good topic of conversation or an activity to work on together.

At long last, here is your match-up, Anon! I apologize for how terribly long this took me; medical school has kept me so busy, and I suffered a pretty prolonged period of writer's block as well. Things are finally settling down, though, and I have my creative groove back! I hope you find this worth the wait, and thank you again for commissioning! :)

P.S. Someone please tell me to stop trying to use Ctrl+Z on Tumblr so that I stop accidentally deleting entire drafts with no way to recover them! >:(

I match you with...

Vivi Nefertari from One Piece!

There are a lot of amazing characters in One Piece that I could have matched you with, but the first one that came to mind was one of the best girls in the series: the lovely princess Vivi! It wasn't just because she also has blue hair, LMAO; I think she's a great fit for you. Let's delve into why:

Free-spirited, even-tempered, independent, adventurous: these are all qualities that Vivi shares with you. She is also very much someone who seeks new experiences and is willing to try anything at least once; however, danger is not something that Vivi shies away from! I could easily see her being one of those daredevil thrillseekers—skydiving, bungee jumping, deep sea/underwater cave diving, you name it! Naturally, she would want to enjoy these experiences with you, but she would be totally understanding if you aren't quite as keen to try. She'd never push you to do something that makes you uncomfortable. She's happy to undertake said venture by herself or with a more enthusiastic companion, then tell you all about the fun she had afterward! Of course, when it comes to anything that you are willing to try, Vivi wants to be a part of it. She's the type to want to memorialize the adventure; expect to get lots of pictures that Vivi will immediately pore over after all is said and done so that she can gush about how much fun you both had and what great memories you made!

Vivi is also a loyal and supportive partner, so it doesn't bother her in the slightest that you aren't "openly" romantic. Vivi has high emotional intelligence when it comes to those who she is close to, and, therefore, she doesn't need to rely on words or overt physical gestures to understand what they are feeling or trying to express; that would certainly be the case with you, too! You may not be easily able to say "I love you" in words, but there are certainly ways that you do say it, and Vivi will be able to perceive these with no problem. Vivi is a bit more open in this regard, but she is more than willing to operate at your comfort level. Again, she knows that there is more than one way to express affection than by just saying it; she will express her feelings in any way that you are receptive to!

Vivi is not quiet or withdrawn like you are, but her more outgoing nature certainly wouldn't get in the way of the two of you hitting it off. In fact, it aids it! Vivi is like you in the fact that she immediately lights up when the topic of conversation turns interesting—especially if it is something she enjoys. Vivi is definitely one of those to start excitedly gushing once she realizes that the other person(s) is similarly interested in a topic. She'll talk your ear off, and she'll gladly let you do the same to hers! Her interests are similarly varied like yours, so this would also present a good basis for establishing a rapport with Vivi. Mutual interests are the foundation of any strong relationship, and you certainly have plenty with Vivi!

It goes without saying that Vivi is extremely passionate, and she's certainly creative, too. Your ideas of dates are Vivi's idea of dates; it ties into her sense of adventure! She loves to visit new places. If you have any inclinations of being a globetrotter, then dating Vivi is certainly a way to realize those aspirations. She has a lengthy list of historic and otherwise famous places that she would like to visit at least once in her life—not that she'll stop there! Anywhere she goes, she's eager to explore from top to bottom and sideways so that she can not only get a well-rounded experience but also discover places and things she wouldn't have otherwise! She is also always willing to try new skills, too, whether it's associated with a trip or not. Quite a few of your fond memories would be the two of you trying your hands at some obscure art or cooking form or what have you. Whether your results are successful or comically terrible, Vivi is all-smiles; not only is it fun for her just to be experiencing something different, she's just happy to be doing so with you!

I really feel that the greatest trait that you and Vivi would share is a love of travel, so here are some headcanons on that!:

Seriously, Vivi loves to travel. She'd jump at every opportunity to journey somewhere new, and she's the type of person to have a collection of things from her travels—postcards, magnets, novelty mugs. She loves all kinds of souvenirs!

If you are the type of person who also collects things from places you visit, not only will it send her over the moon, but she'll also be more than happy to indulge you! Whatever you collect, you can bet that Vivi will be buying something for you on a trip, whether you are on it together or not. In the same vein, if you do the same for her, it will make her the happiest person alive!

Some people have specific kinds of places that they like to travel to, but not Vivi. She'll happily go on any kind of trip, whether it's a relaxing beach trip, a rustic mountain retreat, a jaunt through a historic landmark, or an adventure like an extended hike or diving experience. The world is a vast place full of countless wonderful things, places, and peoples, and life is too short to experience them all—but by golly, Vivi is going to experience as many as she can!

As I mentioned earlier, Vivi is very much into photographs as mementos, so you'll be taking a lot of them together! Don't worry, though, they won't just sit in your phones' photo libraries; Vivi will put her creativity to work and make a scrapbook! To her, it's almost more fun than the trip itself. She loves to dive right into the newest scrapbook pages as soon as the trip is done, sometimes with so much zeal that she has them finished the day she returns home! Her favorite part is sharing them with you, of course, and reminiscing, whether it was a solo trip on her part or one you both went on together!

Obviously, life is never a dull moment with Vivi. This go-getting gal is sure to drag you along for countless adventures, whether it's a spontaneous lunch at a new restaurant or a hike into the thick of a rainforest—and she's going to be sure to immortalize every amazing moment that she shares with you. For all the amazing things that Vivi's seen and done, nothing compares to the way that you enrich her life!

Finally, I'd like to highlight the one un-adventurous aspect of Vivi... her disdain for horror movies, LOL! I just don't see her enjoying the genre at all because the poor thing is terribly prone to jump scares! Despite that, she'd love to support your interests and would watch them with you... well, what little bit she sees through her fingers! So, here's a drabble on the topic:

"Eeeeeeeek!"

You can't help but laugh at the piercing shriek that tears from Vivi's mouth when your television's speakers thunder with the crescendo of the suspenseful music and the very predictable jump-scare scene of the horror movie you and your girlfriend are watching flashes across the screen. Could you even call Vivi's terrified, fragmented peering through the gaps in her fingers watching, actually? The dubious nature of Vivi's movie experience just makes it all the more comical, prompting you to laugh again just as she flops over onto her side and curls into the fetal position with a mournful moan.

"How can you be so stoic while watching this?" she laments, her voice muffled from how tightly her hands are plastered to her face. "That ghost popping out of nowhere like that—I thought my heart was going to jump out of my chest!"

"I saw it coming from a mile away," you explain with a little laugh. Really, there was a formula to these things. The protagonist goes creeping through a dark, dusty attic; it's practically horror movie law for something scary to happen, whether it's furniture being knocked to the floor with a tremendous crash or some spooky specter to suddenly appear from the darkness. You've watched enough horror films to recognize the tell-tale patterns of an impending jump scare or at least a subverting de-escalation of tension. Vivi, despite watching several of them with you now, had apparently not quite acquired said skill. Hence, she was terrified out of her wits each time.

You really ought to make more effort to reassure her that she doesn't need to watch them with you, but you can't bring yourself to because her exaggerated reactions are just so darn cute!

That, and the way that Vivi always comes crawling back for more because she simply can't stand to leave a story unfinished. Even as she lay beside you on the sofa with her knees tucked to her chest and her quivering hands pressed to her face, she parts her fingers to stare apprehensively at the television screen with a squeak of, "Did I miss anything important?!"

"She just dashed down the attic ladder so fast that she lost her footing, fell, and hit her head on the floor so hard that she was dazed for a bit. As she was in and out of consciousness, she saw the ghost peering out of the attic opening at her and smiling creepily," you explain, calm despite describing an absolutely nightmarish scenario.

Just the description of the event gives Vivi the good ol' heebie-jeebies; she is gripped with a full-body shudder, then hastily snaps her fingers back shut with a frightened squeak of "No, thank you!"

You laugh, then give her a reassuring rub of her back while returning your gaze to the television screen.

"I guess this means that you'll never visit a haunted graveyard or something with me, huh?" you tease. You've yet to find a challenge that Vivi will shy away from, but a haunted locale just might be the line drawn in the sand, you consider then.

To your surprise, however, Vivi shoots up into a sitting position to look at you with a resolute glower.

"It doesn't matter if it's haunted! If it's a place that you want to visit, then I want to visit it, too!" she asserts with a conviction that shocks you so deeply that you pause the movie and turn completely sideways to gape at her in utter incredulity. Vivi's bottom lip is quivering and her eyes are shaking with fear, but there is no mistaking the resolve in her expression. She totally meant it!

Still, you're so amazed by the notion that you can't help but ask, "Really?"

"Really!" Vivi insists with an emphatic nod. "I won't let something silly like fear get in the way of enjoying an experience with you! Even if it's scary then, it'll probably be really funny in hindsight, you know?"

It was one-hundred-percent Vivi logic, and you couldn't help but smile at her assertion. Before you could respond, however, Vivi continues:

"Kind of like this." She gestures vaguely at the television with a little chuckle. "I keep watching scary movies with you because it's always fun to laugh about how worked up I get later! The fright I get from the jump scares and stuff is temporary... but the joy of spending time with you, and the giddiness at how funny we both find my reactions are permanent." She smiles in a mixture of adoration and bashfulness. "A-anyway, what I'm trying to say is, what's the difference between watching a scary movie with you and going somewhere haunted, really? I'm happy to do this, so I'm happy to do that, too! Just say when!"

You are so struck by the sudden emotional outpouring that you can only stare at her in shocked silence for a second. Then, the utter insanity of her logic strikes you, and you burst into laughter.

"Vivi...! Ahahaha, y-you... you really are a-a... a masochist, you know that?!" you exclaim between frantic giggling. Vivi blushes brightly at your explosive laughter, but only smiles sheepishly and offers a small shrug in response.

The amusement quickly gives way to a rush of affection, prompting you to smile breathlessly at Vivi while you use the heels of your palms to wipe away the tears that had sprung to your eyes from laughing so hard. It takes a minute for you to regain the ability to speak, but when you do, you take her hands in yours and give them a squeeze.

"In all seriousness, thank you, Vivi. Not everybody would be willing to waltz into a haunted house, let alone those who don't even like scary stuff. You really are amazing... or out of your mind." You can't help but tack on the jibe at the end, but Vivi doesn't resent you for it; she just laughs and nods in agreement.

"I'm definitely out of my mind," she giggles. Her expression then softens and she looks at you in pure adulation that can only be love. "But I'll happily sacrifice a little bit of my sanity if it means that I can experience as many amazing things with you as I can."

"Vivi..." You breathe her name as warmth floods your entire being. You nibble on your bottom lip as a big grin tugs at the corner of your lips, but it does little to keep it from stretching from ear to ear. You give her hands another squeeze, then release a half-sigh, half-laugh as you let go and settle back against the couch. "Let's get you to where you can make it through a horror movie without dying of fright, and then we can talk about trips to haunted places, all right?"

"I don't know if we'll ever take a trip to a haunted place, then, because I don't think I can!" Vivi groans even as she flops against you and looks at the television screen with mounting anxiety. You laugh and press play on the remote, and it's only a few seconds before Vivi is clutching onto you for dear life and burying her face into your shoulder. It's admittedly a pretty frightening scene, but there's no way that you can feel fear right now, not when you're full to the brim with love for your amazing girlfriend.

That's okay, you think. I could spend the rest of my life never going anywhere else, and I'd be just fine as long as I'm with you... because you make every day an adventure no matter where we go or what we do.

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overlordchris · 2 months ago

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The “Big 5” I can’t seem to shake.

1. When she said she had already fallen out of love with me 6 months prior to the reveal/breakup. Leaving everything we had and built together for nearly a decade just die. When the going got tough, it was never a fight for us, just a retreat from me.

2. That she was willing to risk never finding what she wants in a partner than stay with me. Which, ouch, ya know? Basically “I’d rather die alone than stay with you.” But really its the finality that I'm not what you want, and never will/can be.

3. Of course wanting someone like her coworker, 12 years younger than her, something she admitted she wasn’t even sure about/proud of, but apparently enough so that she knew she didn’t want me anymore. And they're not even fem, as she once almost broke up with me over a regret of never exploring her attraction to women and that part of her sexuality. That would at least make me feel a little bit better, if I literally couldn't provide what you wanted. But Nope. The most cis kind of fuckboy was who I was replaced with.

4. Her sudden change from what had been literally up until the point her normal and friendly demeanor towards me, always open to a kiss, to a hug, to holding hands, to instantly becoming super distant, uncaring, and what I feel like was a relief the next time I talked to her (2 days later I believe). To make such an instant and complete change just contributes to the 6 months of loss love also being 6 months of lies. The person I trusted most in this world, ever, lied to me for months before I finally got the truth out of her. How long would she have just kept playing along? How long had she already been playing along? Was there more going on that wasn’t shared? When you lie/betray someone, it shows that you are capable of such things, that you were always capable, and will still be capable moving forward.

5. Her telling me she’s happy now. Happy because I’m not in her life anymore. Happy enough to send me 💖 & ☺️ with her first texts to me 4 months after she had broken things off, almost rubbing it in my face that she was so happy?

How was I that bad of a partner? Like, what did I do? I always cheered for you, complimented you, saw you as sexy and attractive. I was always honest, I never physically abused you, not can I say I did so mentally either, at least to my knowledge. I didn't curse at you, yell at you, or try to manipulate you. Yes, I did became codependent, but that was in response to how I was treated over the years. If anything, I should be the happy one here, because aside from physical abuse, you never provided me with those things I always gave to you.

It's just, why? The why if it all. The big 5 are all tied to that question, why? Why couldn’t you just talk to me? Why did you feel like you needed to hide things from me? Why did you make me the one directly responsible for us splitting apart? I regret ever trying to have that talk with you. I just wanted to strength our bond, not have it revealed it had already been broken. I know I'd also regret not having that conversation though because it would of just meant more hurt for you, living a lie. But what about me? Either way I would have lost. Why can't I just be happy?

Whenever I am doing anything, from driving, to even talking to people, the big 5 just push their way into my head. More time is probably needed, but at present, it feels like these thoughts will never leave me alone. I think about you every day. It's not that I want to, but everything reminds me of you and everyone pales in comparison to you. I know you’re finally happy with me not there, but I still wonder, am I someone you even think about anymore? Its so strange how something can mean so much to one person, and just be a total non concern to another.

The one thing I’ve learned from this experience is that I’ve had a great lack of support in my life during moments I’ve needed it most. And it’s not that I was too proud or too stubborn to seek help, because in those cases, help was always what I was actively asking for. I’m starting to see that you were never one of my supporters. The refusals to do anything for me or us if it didn’t directly benefit you. The struggles I dealt with, physical and mental, were either ignored or became points of annoyance. The sense of “feeling” like you should do or say something rather than just doing it out of care and compassion.

It can be summed up with two scenarios and, self worth being water in a barrel.

If someone got called a piece of shit every day, they’re going to eventually start to feel like one, especially if that’s the only external feedback they receive. It’s a direct attempt at attacking someone, making them feel bad about themselves, their self esteem, etc. When the world sees you as worthless, it's hard not to feel like it's true. But, something similar occurs when positive things are not applied to that person, to help make them feel valued and wanted. In the first scenario, the water is being actively drained out of the barrel by someone. In the other scenario, the water is evaporating out and never being refilled. It’s never going to refill on its own, and any time someone does drain some of that water, it just speeds up the decreasing amount. It'll keep loosing water day by day until eventually there’s nothing left except for an empty barrel.

My intuition is both a blessing and a curse. I have great insights into how those around me are feeling. In moments something fell “wrong” with how you feeling/behaving, everything was telling me I was correct. Yet you would deny it. Your actions always spoke louder than words though. I knew there were so many times you were not happy, but when I would try to help you’d close up. When I tried to know the deeper you, you’d close up. When we had a disagreement and I wanted to get to the bottom of it, you’d close up.

All of this, the always feeling something isn’t right even when told the opposite, the disregard for my pain, the refusal to stand by me when things were tough, the lack of support for my stupid aspirations, how can you blame me for not being the socially anxious chronic over thinker that I am today? You represented a 3rd of my entire life. Basically my entire adult life. Yes, you would give moments of love, make me feel understood and that I belonged, but then you’d get a crush on someone else, shattering my sense of self worth and instilling the fear of losing you. When I tried to fix that, you’d typically go on a trip where we wouldn’t see each other for days, or weeks, just leaving a big gap of time before we could even try and talk things out. I mean, how could I not grow even more paranoid when this exact scenario happened twice!? When you’d return, I’d apologize to and make promises of being better, even though I didn’t fully know what better meant to you. So I would became more passive, walking on eggshells, trying to not push you away. But things still felt “wrong”, so the insecurities grew.

“Do you hate me?”

When I'd feel like something was not right I’d ask that question, because of all people, your answer was the answer i wanted to know more than anyone's in the world. Yours was the only one I cared to know.

The point I’m trying to get is I am now understanding why I’m such an insecure mess. And it’s not a result of just you, but for many years now, you were who I needed to believe in me the most. To trust me. To want me. Every time you denied those things, I never healed from them. I became more and more insecure as the years went on because I never felt like I belonged. It didn’t help when I would be very literal in seeking comfort from you, you never knew “how to”. To be perfectly honest, I don’t even fully know what I needed in those moments, except that I needed you to want me. I wanted effort. I already sought you out, I didn't want to have to tell you to do something too. I didn't want to be an obligation, but someone you valued and cared to help because it would benefit me and not just you. A desire to help, even if it wasn't something I wasn't interested in doing, but not needing to be instructed on how to "help"

I don’t think of you as a monster. I still love you. Even after the things I've written down, if given the choice, I’d still remain committed to spending the rest of my life with you and I hate that about myself. My sense of self worth over the years has been eroded. But you are only a stream amongst others, not the entire river. The happiest times of my life were with you, memories I will cherish forever. But like with erosion, those small (and sometimes big) moments played a part in wearing me down. Once the erosion has begun, it only grows deeper and deeper over time. Over the years, I can see that the longer we were together, the more self conscious I became, the greater loss of my self esteem occurred, the more passive I became, and the less trusting of myself I grew.

I take responsibility in that my reactions to these moments often only made things worse. I reacted childishly, or would sometimes “test” you. No matter the reason why, it was and still is a terrible way to react and you did not deserve it. While I don't personally feel like it has the full effect, telling someone how to help me vs them jumping to action on their own, I am trying to be more aware that not everyone thinks the same as me. I am sorry I wasn't able to communicate my feelings in a way that ever resonated with you.

In the end, the cycle was never broken. We never got to a point where you felt comfortable to be completely honest and open, and I never was able to communicate in a way that would help bring that out of you. Not until the very very end that is. Too little, too late. But while the river of you has dried up, the scar in the earth remains behind. You now flow freely towards a new horizon, while I’m just stuck here, exposed and filled with pools of stagnant water. I’m trying to continue on, but it’s been 7+ months now and I’ve only just had a few rocks thrown back in; this moment of seeing how I’ve repeatedly asked for help only for my pleas to be ignored, or the wrong people responding. I can better see why I am the way that I am present day. That's really it so far.

It’s… something right?

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alyjojo · 11 months ago

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Leo Yearly Career & Finance Reading 🪖2024

Preshuffle: There’s an exciting new beginning being shown that you’ve waited patiently for. Could be regarding work, which is showing up as financially rewarding and beneficial to you, you could be teaming up with a person or being gifted a loan of some kind, in order to make a big purchase. There’s mutual love and respect between those around you.

Meditation: 50/50. Half of you were with a big group of people at a strip club, throwing money at the people on stage, and the other half of you were the strippers. It was a big party atmosphere, everyone drinking and hollering out goofy things, laughing about it. This could nod to parties, gatherings, social occasions, drinking possibly, sex work or entertainment generally. Good times 🥳

Main Energy: 3 Pentacles rev

For most people, I would see this as other people being difficult, but this year it could definitely be you that’s not willing to listen or work together in cooperation with others. There’s a lot of independent energy in you, for the first half of the year, you don’t feel like you need anyone - life is great - and you are happy with that. Later on through, that becomes an issue, and Collaboration is here as advice, allowing yourself to be inspired by others while not necessarily doing *exactly* what they would do or what they tell you. That’s everyone, you have to be yourself too. You could be aware of some shadier characters around you, and you trust yourself to not fk yourself over, so you’d much rather just tackle things solo. It’s a mantra of “I got it.” With this comes Obstacles, Overwhelm, and Worry, I don’t see 10 Wands yet but I’m feeling it. Everyone needs someone to rely on and that’s what feels like is lacking for you this year, maybe by choice. At work, be careful of alienating coworkers by acting like a one-man show. If you act like you can do everything and you know everything, people will gladly step out of the way and let you stumble, it’s on you, and less on them. There’s a note here that if you are always relying on others, it could be them hanging you out to dry, having enough. 9999 is being shown clearly with Collaboration, 9 Pentacles & Cups together in April, and The Hermit in July. It’s important to be independent and confident, going after what you want. But what fun is that, alone? For how long?

January: 8 Wands & 4 Swords

Oracles: Principle

Zodiac Signs: Libra & Sagittarius Sun/Jupiter

Principle is about personal beliefs, mantras, habits & practices, particularly over 4 Swords, your health. Sleep. Queen of Cups clarifies, this is about self-care. Eating better, exercising more, specifically in small routines like an avocado a day or a protein shake every morning while you walk the dog. You’re definitely active and taking care of yourself, and if not then you’re probably learning more about things like this. Signing up for a gym membership, hearing about a certain diet, getting an allergy test because something you ate made you splotchy. Whatever it is, you intend to stick to a regime from here on out, which is totally fine. The issue is with the heavy Sag energy, which can be quite bossy and fanatical, so say you’ve stopped eating dairy, now the whole house isn’t eating it because YOU won’t buy it. Sewing seeds for rebellion or conflict. You could also be getting test results back, I’m not seeing any worst case scenarios for that. Some of you may have faced a health issue and acted quickly, maybe having to miss work for a bit. Or a partner has. In few cases, you could be hearing of cutbacks at work, whether lay offs, postponed or canceled bonuses, the building gets shut down due to health hazards or everyone just gets sick, you or others, and whoever is around has way more to deal with. It’s possible a vacation is being scheduled or taken at this time, mental health days, I don’t get anything being wrong with this. You could also be messaging a friend a job offer if they’ve hit hard times, or switch it. There could also be a breakup based on what I’m seeing in February, if so it’s quick, cut off & done.

February: 5 Wands, The Lovers & Judgement

Oracles: Adaptability

Zodiac Signs: Libra, Gemini Sun & Moon

It looks like someone is moving on really quickly if this is a breakup, but they’re being quiet about it. An old lover may return, especially if you have children together, and you could argue over who is dating who and what’s appropriate as far as kids are concerned, can we not do this in front of them until you’re serious about a person, curb the hoes, something like that. There could be an affair going on at your job, or with an ex…ex spouse even. Messing around with the baby mama/daddy. This person could be a single parent. I don’t see deception, it feels more like trying to be respectful and allow pieces to fall where they may before the world needs to know. It’s private. Or you’re fighting a person you’re with / were with for keeping secrets in this way. Could be at work, regarding work.

Specifically work wise, you could be developing feelings or a crush on someone that’s obviously good looking. And you may not be the only one after them either. You may stay quiet about your feelings or trying to get invoked with someone because your financial situation isn’t exactly how you’d like it to be, especially if you’ve lost a job or have missed out on some sort of bonus/perk/tax check? I don’t see major debt, but maybe a struggle. Some of you are trying to sort child support or finances generally with an ex, and you’re already feeling someone, but it has to wait, or that’s switched. Someone isn’t happy with the decisions being made, it could be something new, a relationship, a direction in life or hobby, a job, there’s a vibe of “who put you in charge?” - or swap it. Especially if this is regarding something close to your heart, why should anyone else make that decision? This could simply be a new passion or hobby you’re keeping quiet for fear of judgement, especially from a partner.

March: The Sun & Queen of Wands

Oracles: Resourcefulness & Endurance

Zodiac Signs: Aries, Scorpio, Cancer

You won’t be keeping yourself quiet or small for long! This month you are confidently showing off whatever it is you’ve been holding back, and you’re hoping for support, hoping others are rooting for you as much as you’re rooting for yourself. Are they…I’m not sure, I don’t actually see anyone here, or their responses. If you have a new lover, you’re proudly displaying them. If you have a new hobby, you’re going ALL IN, your new obsession over dirt bikes will lead you to buy one or more of them, and set up a trip or five in order to act on this new obsession of yours. You could be redecorating a home, or traveling somewhere you’ve always wanted to go, maybe even bringing back art or souvenirs to decorate the home with. You’re either feeling attractive (especially with all the effort you’ve put into health), or you’re with someone new that you are just drooling over, they’re hot 🤤 If single you could be traveling with the hopes of finding some hot Brazilian lover or an affair to remember, there’s an EatPrayLove vibe about you that’s #goals fr. Single goals. You or someone else could be gifting each other something in the realm of your new obsession, showing at least one person supports this. I can’t tell about family, either they’re the ones that do or definitely don’t, it depends on what role you have been playing vs. this confident & excitable you. 9 Pentacles shows you being unbothered regardless, your main goal right now is living your life, and you’re enjoying every second of it! Some of you could be side hustling with feet pics or sumsum of that work, and you feel great about it, so does your bank account. If you’ve got it, flaunt it! I can see where family might be an issue there though.

April: 9 Cups & 9 Pentacles

Oracles: Seduction & Submission

Zodiac Signs: Gemini, Virgo & Pisces Venus/Jupiter

Someone is definitely into sex work, or paying for it possibly. 9 Pentacles flexes their cash on extravagance, especially with 9 Cups. Everything here screams sex, possibly with multiple people or having some kind of double life with this…at the bottom is the ex, the baby mama/daddy, the one not really knowing what’s going on while you’re over here living the high life. Not that they need to know, your energy feels 100% single, 9’s are single. The bottom of the deck can show you need more sleep, need to take a break, or this may be that vacation/travel I saw earlier in the reading, coming to fruition. Someone is going to sweep you off of your feet and you’re not going to stop them, financially you’re doing just fine and then some, this is a high that’s going to be hard to come back down from. Up all night, over and over again in every room of the wherever you are, romance, passion 💋, and no care or forethought with money. You’re willing to spend it all without a second glance.

May: 6 Wands rev & Knight of Swords

Oracles: Patience

Zodiac Signs: Leo, Virgo Jupiter

The comedown, the release, the reality check. Welcome back to earth or home etc. You’re not gonna like it here 😆 I don’t see craziness or too much chaos, but I do see conflict, possibly regarding an ex spouse and any children involved. Maybe you don’t talk to them or miss your days. You don’t pay attention or communicate something necessary. I get the intention being to just be patient, reunite, and wait for someone to get over it. If this is work, I don’t think you’re telling anyone about your sexual exploits or adventures (or you’re leaving that part out). No one you know really well, no one with some deeply ingrained version of you in their head. Like your parents. If only they knew! You’re trying to act morally above board, follow protocol, fit in with the narrative of whoever surrounds you. Responsible, old fashioned, logical. Not that you’re not those things, it’s just more of a mask you’re trying to wear until you can get back to your real life. Fun, passion, joy…and smut 💋 In some way you may be trying to come forward with some truth, but it’s sugar coated for others to swallow easier than if you just laid it all out there. You’re not trying to create conflict. For many it’s just “back to work”, back to real life, your ego & high are deflating like a balloon, while simultaneously getting shit done - you’re reliable like that.

June: The Hanged Man & Page of Swords

Oracles: Speculation & Charity

Zodiac Signs: Heavy Cancer Sun/Saturn/Jupiter

Your perspective may change on the very thing that had you feeling over the moon in March/April. It’s all becoming a burden, a heavy weight, more responsibility to carry. Some of you are managing two different careers, lovers, lives, and it’s getting hard to maintain. If there’s a lover, I assume they live at a distance, because distance between you is what you’re kinda pissy about at the bottom of the deck. You wonder if someone is giving this as much as you are, emotionally, in your brain space, etc. Are they genuine? If you have an online sex business going on, the watching is the burden, could be specific requests or things people say, you’re starting to get uncomfortable and feeling defensive like you could be being degraded or something (people are into that idk), and you’re like wait a minute…no. Any job that’s commission based or based on the public giving you money, tips, sales, etc., it’s becoming more of an issue than a blessing. You could put more energy into researching marketing ploys or different ways of advertising. It could just be someone says something that really gets you in your head, and you start questioning everything. That’s not a bad energy. All of the Cancer placements going on here could point towards children, the home, the family, certain responsibilities and expectations of you, it could just be that weighing you down. Keeping you from traveling, travel keeps showing up as something you really enjoy, but you may need more money. Side note: there could be people of a specific race or from a particular country that are bothering you somehow, I’m not getting hate or anything from you. Like if you have a TikTok you could be obsessed over in idk Russia but in a degrading way, or you’re a meme now, it’s that vibe. Or there are just less people overall, less attention, less spark, but why? If you’re trying to keep something quiet, it’s hard for you to do, you could feel like you’re interacting with your life from the outside, and not even being authentic to yourself.

July: 2 Pentacles & Wheel of Fortune

Oracles: Concentration

Zodiac Signs: Sagittarius & Gemini Saturn

Opposite signs, you’re living opposite lives or it feels that way. Could just be your fantasy vs reality, what you want vs what you have to do, it’s a reoccurring theme throughout the year. Could be because you don’t say anything. 2 Pentacles is constantly going back and forth between two issues, two people, weighing pros and cons, unsure what to do. This can also show you being extremely busy and kinda scatterbrained, you don’t even have time for yourself much less anyone else right now. If there is a family involved, you worry about consequences, judgement, confrontation, karma. You worry about being alone. All of this is going on inside of you, you could be very introspective around this time, slapping on a smile for friends, family and coworkers but really just trying to be patient, trying to work through whatever you’re needing to work through before you get what you want - The Star ⭐️ Or you deeply believe you’re on the right path, even if it’s hard right now. You could have too much going on right now, and also don’t want to “bother” anyone, or make anyone upset. You’re also easily distracted and will have to continue pulling your nose back to the grindstone, being too chatty or distracting with friends or coworkers could get you in trouble.

August: Page of Pentacles, 6 Cups, The Star

Oracles: Innovation

Zodiac Signs: Virgo & Aquarius Sun/Jupiter

Beautiful energy, very progressive, thoughtful, intelligent, and forward thinking. This seems to be a very healing conversation you’re having with someone close to you, formerly close to you, could be the ex spouse, an old friend, a sibling, etc. Some sort of group dynamic in your life is getting fresh life blown into it, you could find yourself being very nostalgic, while simultaneously seeing how far you’ve come from the days when you didn’t know xyz. You could have big plans to change something in your family or friend group - for the better. Maybe you’re coaching a kids team or volunteering to be a Girl/Boy Scout leader, doesn’t even have to be that big, but whatever it is falls under “visionary”, healing, and positive. Work may be the same way, you could have a conversation with a supervisor about a vision you see for something that you think would make things a lot better - and you’re probably right. Collaboration is going to work very well for you this month, you are someone that’s very giving to the whole of some group, team, could be charities, but you’re giving a lot of yourself and it’s definitely being appreciated. If you’re involved with some spicy lover 🌶️ they could be a Twin, could live enough of a distance away that you can’t see them often (Brazil? I heard that) and you’re planning for the day where you can. You’re committed to whatever you’re doing and taking it very seriously.

September: Page of Cups & 7 Swords

Oracles: Quarrel

Zodiac Signs: Leo & Cancer Mars

This Queen of Pentacles clarifying keeps coming out as the old person, the spouse, the friend you’re making up with, the ex. They’re the ones you’re having a deep healing conversation or experience with, and then this month they find out what you’ve been hiding? There’s a big fight, you’re defending your position on the matter, they’re angry with you for whatever it is you’ve done. Being happy? Moving on? Keeping something to yourself if nothing else, they might have been under the impression there would be a reunion or a rekindling and then find out the truth that you’re not even on that page with them. This could be showing you’re being kinda sneaky and strategic with your money, maybe because an ex is still on your case or you owe them and aren’t paying? Queen of Pentacles can be a single parent, that can be you too, if the other parent isn’t trying, or did a lot last month and then disappeared altogether, there will be an argument where someone is called out and things are brought to awareness. You or they have waited on the other person for who knows how long, and meanwhile they’re operating in the shadows for themselves. Someone may be defending a lie or shady behavior because of the shock value, could be your work too, or someone you work with, a highly charged emotional reaction is here.

October: Knight of Wands & Ace of Pentacles

Oracles: Bluff

Zodiac Signs: Sagittarius & Gemini Jupiter

Jupiter will actually be in Gemini by this time, and that may be beneficial for your career & finances - however, this oracle is about bluffing, tricks, persuasiveness, someone is very convincing. Could be you, lying like a rug, and it’s about money if it is. You may be trying to hide side money made however you do it, so you don’t have to pay the ex more? Child support, more alimony, more whatever it is. Straddling the line of illegal. For some it’s someone else, rushing in all excited with a new opportunity, maybe even a job. This is a warning to not take less than you deserve and not fall for pie in the sky ideals, you have the ability to see a spade as a spade and you should wait for proof or some tangible thing, a contract, a ring, a signed something that shows you this is legitimate. For most, it’s not. If you find something amazing you spontaneously want to buy, this is showing it’s fake, but there is one much better if you save some more money. Be smart with purchases 💯

November: Page of Wands rev, Knight of Pentacles & 5 Pentscles

Oracles: Companionship

Zodiac Signs: Taurus, Sagittarius, Virgo, Heavy Libra Sun & Moon

Either you’re coming off as immature or someone else is, could be a whole group of them in the family or work. I keep hearing “you’ve lost your sense”, this could be a slip up, not paying attention, something gets lost, damaged, forgotten, brushed aside, and it’s deeply hurtful. You could just forget, or last minute cancel on someone because work has you swamped, maybe you’re claiming to not have enough or you can’t spend on xyz. People are waiting for you and you’re doing the right thing, working, taking your time, being patient, but whoever is against you doesn’t care. If you’ve had a flirty things going on this year, this could be the month that ends, because of distance, jobs, family. Maybe you were planning on relocating across the world because why not, but your kids are here, so is your job, and your parents, it’s like stability and legacy keeps you tied to something you’re not even fully with but is it enough? No. 3 Swords may be outside yourself as well, this distant lover may move on to someone else and you’ve waited all this time, you’re hurt. Your career may have done something one way for the longest time, but now they’re being more unreliable and not showing up for you like they were, cutting hours, cutting benefits, money is lacking. It could simply be a lack of money that keeps you from traveling, seeing someone, reuniting with people - maybe for the holidays. Or that’s others towards you. You could find out you have to work or be on call and there’s nothing you can do about it.

December: The World rev, 5 Swords rev, Knight of Cups rev

Oracles: Versatility

Zodiac Signs: Aquarius & Gemini

It looks like you’re trying to fix whatever went wrong in November, trying to heal, apologize, make up for some lack that happened before - maybe just your lack of presence. If the problem wasn’t you, then you’re probably forgiving whatever the situation was in the first place. Worry is attached to a particular outcome happening the way *we* want it to, and here it’s being shown as “delusional” or Knight of Cups rev, not realistic, not seeing the truth of a situation but hoping for some sweeping romance or change that’s not going to happen because xyz. Family. Life. Work. Money. And maybe it’s just right now, but you’re coming around to seeing things the way they need to be seen, or you will. Everything in divine timing, rejection is just redirection, you never know what disaster you’re actually avoiding by being pulled in another direction. Versatility calls for being flexible and air calls for detachment from any particular outcome, just go with the flow and enjoy whatever it is - while it lasts. At the bottom of the deck is doing the right thing, working hard, being morally correct and standing by some code of ethics, beliefs or standards in order to keep the peace, go with the flow, maintain happiness, or to be an example - whether at work or home. 4:44 on the clock as I finish this reading, 4’s are about home, stability, solid relationships, structure, boundaries, commitment and celebration. That’s a great ending to a year.

#Leo #2024 #career reading #career tarot #february 2024 #yearly career reading #astrology

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thotsforvillainrights · 2 years ago

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Hi friend! Hope your doing well. ❤️❤️❤️ Can I have some smutty HC of Redestro and skeptic? I’m a slut for these guys and it’s frightening. 😂

(Receiving this ask was like getting a gift in the mail...)

~ReDestro/Skeptic Smut Headcanons~

headcanon|scenario|imagine|match-up

~ReDestro~

-I think two things about this man in the smut department and here they are. One: He’s either totally inexperienced an anything that isn’t explained in a classroom sex-ed setting (kink department) OR Two: He’s a closet freak. Which one of these do you think?

-I’m going with the first option and saying he may not know much of anything nasty when it comes to sex. He’s been to school and taken classes. He’s read a few books here and there. Rikiya is no fool. He knows penis inside of hole=feel good. But he doesn’t stop to think about how many other things can feel good too. I doubt he learns about Oral sex until he’s somewhere in college or maybe even later. I doubt he’s fucked anything or anyone INCLUDING HIMSELF. Likely he’s had to focus on business and the Meta Liberation movement since he was a small child. There was not much room outside of this for relationships let alone any type of sex. He’s probably had encounters with people trying to get at him here and there, but mostly just so they could have his money or a piece of his status.

-So when he met you it unlocked so many different doors. Whatever you know please instill it in him. Seriously...load him down bit by bit. After his first time with you, he’s moldable like clay and willing to learn the ins and outs of sex in the relationship. He begins to learn things he likes and doesn’t like. He also learns about what you may be into or not. His main goal above all is to make sure you are set before him, so he’s going to put you first above all. He’s a phenomenal lover in the bedroom, so attentive toward you and your needs. If you can put aside the fact that his bones crack ever so often (or maybe his knees locking up once or twice after an intense love making session), then I’d say he’s 10/10.

-Stuff I think he’s into: This might be a talking point for a lot of people, and everyone is either love or hate for it, but I think he might have a daddy kink. Definitely into being praised for things as well. I can also see him being into you tying his wrists to the bedpost with his own tie and riding the hell out of him. Might secretly be into being bit and scratched up.

-Fun fact about him during sex: Probably gets caught crying from the pleasure at one point. Tips of his ears always turn pink/red when he’s extremely turned on or flustered.

~Skeptic~

-Now as much as I love this man, I know he has never felt the intimate touch of another person in the entirety of his life. I doubt he’s even touched himself maybe more than 5 times ever. I feel like he lets it build up until he just can’t take it anymore and has to jerk it real quick in the shower or something. Likely hates himself afterward for letting something as pointless as human desire cloud his mind and taint his hands.

-Meeting you and falling in love aside he finds a new part of himself he’d never really knew existed. Suddenly everything he deemed depraved and disgusting turned out to be more fun than he thought when it’s with someone you were attracted to. He’s a good partner in bed but beware of his fluctuating sex drive. There are times when he can’t help himself and likely goes at you 2 times a week for months, and then there are times when he just doesn’t feel like it and is fine with once a month. You’ve got to be flexible in that department for things to work. During the times of drought, he’ll still go for oral just to make sure you’re set but as for himself, he’s fine as he is.

-Want to rile him up every single time? Piss him off. I mean really make him mad and you’ll get what’s coming to you. The best tactic is sending him nasty texts while he’s at work and trying to focus. He’s thankful to have his own private office to avoid the chance of someone seeing the huge boner he’s sporting at the moment because of you. Oh you are in for it as soon as he gets home. Other times you can try annoying him until he can’t take it anymore. Getting on his nerves when he’s in the home office turns into a steamy ordeal. Maybe put on something a little sexy and pretend like you don’t know why he’s basically damn near drooling over you. Play coy:)

-Stuff I think he’s into: Recording the two of you fucking and then watching the footage with you later...and likely fucking with the footage in the background. Degradation on either end (you at him or vice versa). Has asked you to spit in his mouth one time and maybe never again based on your reaction to it.

-Fun fact about him during sex: Moans like a slut when you pull his hair hard enough. Huge possibility of him getting basically drunk on pleasure at this point. He’ll do and say anything you want him to once he reaches that point.

#i had so much more to add but I didn't want to overload you lol #bnha #mha #minors dni #minor dni #Smut #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #mla #meta liberation army #redestro #rikiya yotsubashi #skeptic bnha #tomoyasu chikazoku

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mammonswhore · 4 years ago

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Heyo! How would the Obey Me brothers react to MC being a teenager/younger gen Z? Like, the paper-work got mixed up somehow, and said they were like 26, when they were actually like 16? Also (you don't have to include this), what if the teen MC was actually really interested in demons and angles before coming to devildom, so they're really nervous, but also really excited? If you don't wanna do it, that's fine tho :) Have a great day/night!

I love this prompt! Have a great day too,love🖤

Brothers reaction to MC being a Gen Z teen. (Platonic)

✒Lucifer.

He can already picture himself struggling with you.

Six brothers to take care of + a TEEN? Man is about to loose it.

If you are an introverted he will like you automatically and feel relieved that you will not always get into his brothers shenanigans.

If you are an extroverted (or just a curious one tbh) he will keep an eye on you 24/7 so you won't get into Mammon schemes or Satan's nerves and get yourself in trouble.

Really amused if you like demons and angels, will curse himself for misreading but will not hate himself too much since you are not that scared.

Gets tired of you quickly if you make too many questions and will always send you to ask Mammon or if it's something that he doesn't know himself he will ask Diavolo and tell you later but he will (of course) act all high and mighty as if he already knew the answer to such question.

Will practically adopt you and spoil you a lot because hes is big brother.

Overprotective. Oh you met a lesser demon and you want to go on a date with them? Haha he won't let you.

You will be the only person who gets in trouble and leaves with just a warning.

Also you are totally his soft spot. Man can't resist your sad face and will do anything to make you happy even if he doesn't like to admit that.

Totally lost when it comes to TikTok/memes references and will ask about it a lot.

✒Mammon

He is amazing. Not only does whatever you ask him to but also has the best ways to get you out of boredom.

He will teach you how to scam people and how to be a good thief even if you don't need it or want it.

Teaches you about demons and angels without even knowing. Sometimes he drops random facts but it's not until he realizes you write down what he says that he stops doing it just to hear you ask him things so he can act all smug and smart.

If someone breaks your heart he will be ready to throw hands,no one hurts their little siblings.

Like Lucifer,he adopted you and always claims to be "the one you choose to be with you first" making sure his brothers hear him.

He will help you make your homework. Even if he doesn't understand he will try his best.

Please refer to him sometimes as "big brother" he will die.

When he saves your ass from getting killed by lesser demons he will be ready to receive the biggest hug ever and is absolutely ready to be praised.

If he saves you and you say "thanks,big brother" now you have a problem. He will brag about it for a week (at least).

Will steal things from you to keep them with him when he is going thru an episode. It reminds him that someone thinks of him as worthy and love deserving.

Will die for you,you are not only family now but his favorite person.

Will compliment you in the best brotherhood way he can "looking good today,kid", "your hair looks nice,brat" and "You are the best looking sibling after me of course" are his go to compliments. Mostly does it because you compliment him back and because he knows his comments make you feel closer to him and boy loves it.

✒Levi

If you are an introvert like him you can expect him to go out of his room more often just to see you or talk to you.

If you are not he will try to make you an indoors person but if he can't he is might be willing to take a risk and go out once a week but just to the manga store and back,don't expect more,normie.

If you like any thing he likes he will try to test you and prove he is better than you,he doesn't give a fuck you are practically a child he can't loose.

If he wins he will be very happy and more open to you to open up with some things.

If he doesn't win he will cry when he is alone and call himself an ugly unworthy idiot who can't even be considered an otaku but relax my dude,MC will go to you and reassure you you know better than them and that they will love to hear what you have to say (even if they don't mean it,they love you and will love to see you happy again).

Knows the basics about demons and angels so he is not the best to go to if you have too many questions. That's the only time he will let his envy go away and tell you to go to Satan or Lucifer since they know more than him.

He does not takes his duty as a big brother as something serious since Lucifer is always there but if you call him "big brother" he is going to take that role serious but for you and you only.

Will 100% find siblings cosplays and gets you to do it with him.

If you ever said something like "I'm lucky that my big brother is also my best friend" he might tear up a little since he has never been considered someone's best friend ever.

If any of his brothers try to get you to call him "big brother" he will go on a rampage unless it's Lucifer. Boy is envious not dumb.

If it was Lucifer he will go to him later and ask you if he can stop trying to get you to call him that way because that's they way you call him and it makes him feel special. Lucifer will probably agree because he knows Levi doesn't feel special often so he might give in; if he doesn't Levi will start an argument and won't stop until Lucifer cuts him off or agrees.

Keep calling him big brother, he adores it.

✒Satan

As grumpy as he is,he loves to have yo by his side. Not because he loves company but because he likes to be able to answer all your questions.

Ask him anything about demons or angels and he knows it,fuck he is smart.

Will get you a notebook so you can write what he says and will give you books to read as "extra homework" it's kind of a bad deal if you think of it but it's his way to show love.

The only person who calls him "big brother" often is Asmo and got used to it coming from him and him only. If he hears you calling him that way he will probably jump out of happiness when he is alone but for know he will just answer to that name name and act like nothing happened.

You don't want to do your homework? Fine you can copy mine but just this once.

If you struggle with anything he will solve it for you,no cap.

He will get you cat themed items like pencils, notebooks,necklaces or rings.

Matching is a must. Not because he likes the concept of being associated with a part of someone but because he will love to brag with his brothers obviously.

Will definitely get mad if you ask any type of demon/angel related thing to others.

Names a cat after you but it's the cats middle name so he won't get mocked. Won't tell you tho.

Very very protective but good at hiding it. He might be following you down the street but you wouldn't even know. Kinda creepy? Yes. Have you ever got eaten? Nope.

✒Asmo

Yes! Exactly what he was waiting for.

You are part of his experiments. You don't like makeup? Well now you do. What type of clothes do you have? Do you have an aesthetic? No? Well now you do.

He is always there when you need him to. Best of them all to give advise when needed.

Definitely will be annoyed by all of your questions but will try to be as gentle as possible to tell you that.

Can help you to become really good at comebacks,believe him he knows best than anyone.

He is the one making sure you are educated when comes to sex. Simple but worthy lessons such as "sex is about experimenting and finding what you really like but you always need your partners consent" or "always have a safe word,even when you have vanilla type of sex" or the best one yet "if they want to fuck with you that's fine but always remember to use protection because I will not like to see you having a child so young or having an abortion" because yeah that's what big brothers do.

If you hit him with the "you are the best,big brother" he will jump into your arms and say that he knows he is the best but that hearing that was way too magical,do it again!

He is very aware of insecurities and will try to be the shoulder you cry on if you need to,he is always there to wipe of your tears (or wipe off the ones who hurt you).

Not as protective as the others but keeps an eye on you because your curiosity might hurt you.

Will be crushed if he sees you suffering from the most minimal thing. That lipstick does not fit your skin color? Fuck that lipstick! We are getting new ones,go get Lucifers card!

Spoils you way more than any other because he wants to create a brat. He needs to have someone like you who will cling into Lucifer and beg him to let you do dumb things because you know Lucifer can't say no to you. He needs your power and is not afraid to tell you that

Constant reassurance. He always calls you by cute nicknames and as long as you call him "my beautiful big brother" every time he is amused.

✒Beel

Baby is ready to give you life lessons. Don't stab anyone,drink enough water and be patient with the ones you love.

Yes,he learned the "don't stab anyone" from talking to Belphie.

Is very lost when it comes to you being so interested in demons and angels because he is not used to be the one answering the questions but making them. Bare with him, he is trying to get a good answer.

Will ask for advice on how to answer you, probably goes to Lucifer but mostly Belphie.

Soon you two start doing things together that involve learning from humans and angels. Maybe you are walking down the street working out and when you both start chatting about demon life and suddenly everything stops.

Beel is clueless when it comes to comforting someone about an insecuritie since he was the one being comforted most of the times but will give you space if you need to or do whatever you feel comfy with.

If you call him "big brother" he will hug you like no one has ever hugged you before. Teddy bear hugs are a must now.

Will die for you and is not afraid of telling you such. "MC I will die for you" "whAt?" "As your big brother I may protect you with my life" "Please don't."

Tells you how much he wants you to be happy and constantly asks if you have any type of dreams or goals.

If you do have goals or dreams he will encourage you to go get it. Beel is there to support you no matter what.

✒Belphie.

Absolutely fucking not.

Why is everyone spoiling this stupid brat and not me? I hate them.

But hold on there,he doesn't completely hates you he just hates the attention you get.

If you go to him with a soft attitude and ask him if you can nap together he will say yes and will enjoy the moment a lot .

He has never been someone's big brother so it kinda hits him if you call him like that and will try to act confident and smug about it but it's kinda terrified.

What if he doesn't catch up on the big brother thing and fucks up? He doesn't want to disappoint you or make you feel awkward. So he copies his big brother and tries his best,believe me he does.

You need help with something? Ugh well I will help but you owe me one (you don't owe him anything really,he just doesn't wants to be seen as soft for you). Oh did someone caused you problems? No biggie,I will take care of it.

Spoiler alert: he is very overprotective with you,he doesn't want to lose you.

#obey me x reader #obey me scenarios #obey me imagines #obey me belphegor #obey me asmodeus #obey me satan #obey me mammon #obey me shall we date #obey me lucifer #obey me headcanons #obey me mc #obey me

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onp4012 · 3 years ago

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Pick a Card: Future Spouse First Impression

Pick a picture to see what your future spouse’s will be about yourself and what your impression will be about them

Choose ONLY ONE OR TWO PILES GODDAMN. You can choose “THEIR IMPRESSION ABOUT YOU” from one pile and “YOUR IMPRESSION ABOUT THEM” from another pile

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Pile 1

THEIR FIRST IMPRESSION OF YOU:

10 of Pentacles, 9 of Cups, 10 of Cups, 9 of Wands, Death, 8 of Wands

This person is the type of guy/girl to think everybody can be a potential lifetime partner ngl. They will think of you the same, but something will be a bit different. They were most likely hurt by previous relationships and they are now very careful with who they share their heart with. They see you as someone who was hit very hard by Mother Change and it’s now very guarded. They see you as the perfect partner ever and I do get that for many of you, this person might be one of your actual soulmates. You brought change into their lives and they are very thankful for that. Do you love pets? Do you take care of pets? Do you own at least a pet? This person will love the way you treat animals. They themselves have a very soft spot for animals. You may also be very caring towards small creatures in general, possibly children too. I heard “I need to protect.” Man wtf, I wanted to add something as well but every time I try to save it, it says “error”. I guess I shouldn’t have worded it that way. This person sees you as a family oriented person (idk if you are, but they think you’re this way). They this you’re someone very easygoing and very friendly. You might have Pisces or cancer in your chart, or maybe be a Neptune or moon dominant(or have Neptune/moon in 1st house). Maybe you were born at the cusp of two signs, I get mainly Taurus-Gemini and Gemini-Cancer

YOUR FIRST IMPRESSION OF THEM:

Page of Wands, 8 of Cups, King of Wands, Page of Swords, 7 of Swords, 2 of Pentacles

I get a masculine energy from this person. They may be working out. You’ll find them very attractive. They are someone who has high chances of working out, they love to have a toned body. They have a very deep stare and you’ll be quite intimidated by them at first. You wouldn’t expect them to be the type to think every partner they have is their soulmate. They seem very rough and very fiery, not dreamy at all. They may be quite tall as well and you might find them even scarier because of that. They seem very sneaky to you. They seem clumsy, young and somehow experienced (???). Anyway, they are someone who is willing to learn new things, they’re very open minded and they love to fight for their own rights. Quite stubborn lmao. They may also ask for your help a lot, I just heard a soft, deep voice(?) saying “Can you help me?”, sounded a bit like Cal from “Lie to Me”(2009) but nothing more. You will be instantly attracted to them, I’m not joking at all. Whenever they’ll leave you’ll feel like you’re being left out by life. You seem to crush hard on this person since the beginning. If you know this is a habit of yours, I suggest you to calm down, take a deep breath, and think that your actions(the ones taken heartly) have consequences. You’ll think they’re a player or something like that but you’re gonna be totally wrong. They aren’t.

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Pile 2

THEIR FIRST IMPRESSION OF YOU:

8 of Swords, The Moon, 7 of Swords, Strength, The Emperor, Ace of Swords

Do you have a low self esteem? Your person will see that. You might hide your body a lot and they will see you as someone insecure and sly. You will spark an interest in them because you’re someone very reserved and very intelligent. You’re a good manipulator as well and your person might see that being very attractive. Maybe they were stuck in toxic relationships before they met you and they have a habit of finding toxic partners. The thing is, they won’t find that toxicity in you because you’re not a toxic person, you’re actually someone who would manipulate people into doing things they need to do. You’re a quiet person most likely and you hate to be the center of attention. They will also notice how you’re very blunt and very clear about your opinions and ideas. They’re gonna respect that for sure. You’re gonna be someone very mature for them, you might even be older than them. I feel like they may be an extrovert but I’m not sure (we’ll see in the next reading about your first impression of them). You’re gonna be someone very sneaky, with very smooth moves. Do you have any aqua/Aries placements in your chart by any chance? They may ask you when you were born and be shocked by the fact that you don’t seem at all like your sun sign. Maybe your sun sign is a feminine one and you’ll seem more of a masculine one. You can also have a resting bitch face lmao.

YOUR FIRST IMPRESSION OF THEM:

8 of Swords, King of Pentacles, The Devil, 5 of Pentacles, Hanged Man, Queen of Pentacles

You will see them as quite a dangerous person. You will instantly think they are into toxic people, like, you’ll just feel it (???) and you won’t like them at first. You’ll think they’re a spoiled brat or think they don’t deserve their place. You’ll know they’re insecure. You’ll think they come from toxic place and now they’re obsessed with power. Let me tell you something, they faced a lot in their lives and they worked their asses off for those money you see. Something about them is very caring, maybe you’ll get to see a “soft” side and you’ll be shocked. You wouldn’t have thought they’re capable of something like that. I get the feeling that you guys will see them as this “Richie Rich” lmao. Totally not your type. You’ll think they’re stuck(?) and they keep going round and round and round and at some point you’ll get tired yourselves and just tell them what’s wrong with their approach. I wouldn’t say you see them as someone very childish because they aren’t, you’ll see them as someone who doesn’t seem really trustworthy but who will turn out to be one of the most loyal people you know. I literally listen to my playlists and “Eleanor Rigby” by The Beatles started playing. “Aaaaaah look at all the lonely people, Where do they come from?”. Anyways, you won’t want to have anything to do with them but something will just pull you in. May it be their soft side, may it be just an attraction.

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Pile 3

THEIR FIRST IMPRESSION OF YOU:

5 of Swords, 7 of Swords, 3 of Pentacles, The Devil, Queen of Swords, Hanged Man

No but why did “Gangsta Nation” just started playing 😭 Your FS will see you as someone very blunt, very rough and very direct and it may annoy them from time to time. BUT FAM THEY SEEM INTIMIDATED BY YOUR WORDS LMAO. They literally see you as the queen of swords. So many swords talk about a very strong mentality/voice. You love to impose respect through confrontation most likely. Idk, you have a way with words. You might be an air dominant or be an aqua moon in a mutable house. From this pile I get fighter vibes fr. Your FS will see you as a fighter. They may be soft for you. You might be extroverts and they might find you intruding. They will think you are very good at improvising in every situation. They will think you aren’t clicking together and won’t want to take any step. I get big sub vibes from this person 😂 they might be a coworker or a colleague you’ll have or you already have. They will see you as this well of knowledge and will ask for your opinion many times.

YOUR FIRST IMPRESSION OF THEM:

4 of Swords, The Hierophant, Knight of Swords, Justice, Queen of Pentacles, 3 of Swords

EXACTLY HOW I SEEN IT LMAO. You’ll think your person doesn’t like taking your advice into count and you’re gonna be annoyed. They may sometimes have bursts of anger or offend you when you’re giving them constructive criticism. You’ll think they’re very closed off and that they won’t want to talk to you because they’re some immature shit but the truth is, they gone through a lot in their lives and they developed this listen->verbally attack reflex from an unpleasant childhood or trauma. I think they were bullied and the only way people would’ve stopped from bullying them was fighting them off. They’re very insecure. They could also be very religious and you would find funny how they try to take things by tradition and book and you’re there just popping their bubble. You’ll think they’re a bit closed minded but it feels like a mutual feeling. They’re literally a Tsundere if you know what those are. They might also be an Otaku. I get nerdy vibes from this person. They might wear glasses or have braces. They might have black curly hair, you might love it. They could also be shorter than you are. They’re very cute 🥰

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Pile 4

THEIR FIRST IMPRESSION OF YOU:

King of Wands, Page of Swords, 5 of Swords, 9 of Swords, Ace of Cups, Judgement

This person will think you’re someone very strong. I think that you have a thirst for knowledge and you love to learn new things everyday and this person will respect this a lot. They’re gonna be impressed about everything about you. To be honest, they’re gonna fall for your intelligence. You may also have an athletic body or be very skinny and they’re also gonna appreciate this. To be honest, you don’t really seem a very bright and optimistic person, you’re rather depressive and pessimistic, or at least, that’s how your FS will perceive you the first time you meet. They seem to empathise with you for some reason, maybe you’ve been through similar situations in life and they totally understand why you feel the way you feel. This pile reminds me a bit of the 3rd pile, you can also check that out. They’ll think you’re someone very emotional, who tends to take things to heart quite fast and react at the same time. They can also possess an inferiority complex regarding you. They may think that you’re too good for them and all that drama with the inferiority. They may think you’re sometimes too judgemental with people around you and might even try to understand why. They could be a colleague you just met and they might see you as a superior and think “this person is so cool omg, I wish I could be like them”. They also fear being in competition with you since they think they can’t put up with you. You can also have a deep stare and they will always think you’re mad.

YOUR FIRST IMPRESSION OF THEM:

Death, The Magician, 3 of Pentacles, Devil, 7 of Pentacles, Judgement, 9 of Wands, 10 of Pentacles

Now here’s a funny one. Before I even shuffled the cards I heard “You evil piece of shit”. You will see them as a basic coworker/colleague with who you don’t really want to have anything to do with. You’ll think this person is someone who will step on people to get where they want and then be like “✨Magic✨”. They are someone with a very strong character and full of envy and insecurities. You will think they’re some fucker full of hate and envy and will not want to talk to them. You’ll think “they’re too childish for me, wtf”. They are indeed too childish for you if you don’t give them a chance. They are actually someone very strong and very loyal who will want to help you a lot some time after you meet. “I’m gonna fucking show you all and you’re gonna regret what you’ve done to me”~~this person most likely. I get many messages, weird enough. You might get to meet them while they are attacked by someone verbally or even physically. Violence plays a big role here. Let me think… I see a young person (a man in particular) whose anger has taken over them and who’s now full of adrenaline and their pupils are wide open. You might be scared of them at first tbh. You’ll think they’re a weirdo and will try to distance yourselves. Funny how they see you as something unapproachable and you see them as this evil gremlin lmao.

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Pile 5

THEIR FIRST IMPRESSION OF YOU:

6 of Pentacles, 4 of Wands, The Moon, Death, Queen of Wands, Queen of Swords, 5 of Swords, 4 of Swords

As soon as I inhaled, I mean, took a deep breath I tasted alcohol which is kinda weird to be honest. Did you/them have any issues with alcohol at some point in your/their lives? Your person sees you as someone they met before. They’re literally gonna be like “do I know you?”/“did we meet before?” And you’re gonna be confused. I heard mercy. You seem someone very merciful and you’re a passive person. You don’t like conflict that much, but still you’re not afraid to have a healthy argument from time to time. Your energy is soft, cloud-like, puffy. I see this scenery with a sky full of pink clouds, a very sweet scenery. You’re very in touch with your femininity and I even feel like you might be quite girly. I get huge lesbian/bisexual girl vibes from this pile I’m sorry 😭, if you’re not lesbian/bisexual, then ignore this. I’m hearing “Bang Bang Bang Bang” by Sohodolls, damn y’all, your person will see you as one of those girls on TikTok at first. You may meet each other on TikTok. Are you guys e-girls or trans? I also see that. Happen to be involved with witchcraft? I get rebel teenager vibes from this pile. This reading is for someone specifically, idk who, but this person will see this post in about 3 months or so. This person will not think much about you tbh, they’ll think you’re…ok.

YOUR FIRST IMPRESSION OF THEM:

The Magician, 6 of Pentacles, 2 of Cups, Ace of Wands, Page of Wands, Ace of Swords, 10 of Swords, 9 of Swords

Now it quite makes sense why your person doesn’t really have anything to say about you. This person may suffer from depression or have a very negative aura around them but something makes you feel they’re “magical”. Your instincts seem very developed and you’ll know this person is your FS(future spouse). You’ll try to help this person. There is here something related to suicide from their part or a death of someone who they really cared for. You will see them as this “little kid trying to get help from the world”. You’ll think this person is very unstable and very very hurt and very dark and you’ll try to help them with your “pink clouds”. This person may as well be involved with magic or occult. It might be your common theme. You’ll feel guilty about something. You seem to take the guilt off this person. Don’t, you’ll only dry yourself. This person is strong enough to lift themselves up and you’ll know it too. Now I would write a bit more onto this subject but the energy is just too heavy and too dark and I don’t wanna have a bad headache tomorrow.

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Pile 6

THEIR FIRST IMPRESSION OF YOU:

9 of Wands, 3 of Swords, Ace of Pentacles, 5 of Pentacles, 9 of Pentacles, 2 of Wands, 6 of Cups, The Magician

Your person sees you as someone Who went through countless hardships regarding money and health. Here health plays a big role I feel like some of you may have an allergy which is kinda different from the others. I think you guys used to break bones as kids or get hurt in the playground to the point you needed to go to the doctor. They see you are someone who wants to travel the world but can’t because they cannot afford. Now I have no idea how your person got to this impression, so I will assume that you told them. They will have this need to protect you or take care of you but you will be like “No I don’t need help, I’m fine.”. This pile reminds me of The Fault In Our Stars bruh. have you considered working at the hospital or something like that? If yes, you might meet them in faculty. I see two people studying together. Out of this pile I get a huge message saying “Doctor”. I see a white coat as well. Anyway, they seem to really care about your health(maybe you’re a patient). I get more about your impression of them than their first impression of you. You might meet really fast and both of you won’t even notice it(?). They don’t seem to have an opinion about you, but you sure have a big impression about them lmao.

YOUR FIRST IMPRESSION OF THEM:

4 of Cups, Page of Cups, 4 of Swords, 9 of Pentacles, The Fool, 8 of Cups, 5 of Cups, The Star

As I expected, you’re gonna be very very intrigued by them. You’ll say “I never met someone as deep as this person”. For you, they’re someone who brings flowers into people’s lives. They are someone with a very reserved and kind attitude. They seem almost passive. They might have very deep eyes. Do you know Connor from Detroit: Become Human? They might look like that if they’re a man. If they’re a woman they’re short. If they’re a man they might also look like Carlisle from Twilight. I’m talking specifically about the smile they carry. The smile is heartwarming awww. Their physic will be the first thing you’ll notice about them. Their face has very warm features. They seem a familist if you’re looking for that. Now I’m talking for the girls who grew up without a father or who didn’t have a good relationship with their dads, this person will be what you need in life. For some reason their eyes closed seem a very important vision regarding this impression. They may work with children and you’ll see them stare down at them a lot. They seem to be someone tall. They’re someone who’s 6’2+(180cm+) for sure(if they’re a man). Fr, you guys will really melt when you’ll see them. If they’re a woman, they will most likely have curly/wavy brown hair and they’ll be quite skinny and “shapeless”. They would also have a sharp nose.

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Pile 7

THEIR FIRST IMPRESSION OF YOU:

Ace of Swords, 2 of Cups, The Magician, 4 of Pentacles, The Emperor, Queen of Pentacles, The Hermit, The Devil

This person will see you as a boss basically. They’ll feel the need to submit to you. You’re someone who they know they can trust for sure. You have a very sharp tongue and you’re very tough with people. You are most likely older than them, with a couple of years for sure! I see 5 years between you haha. They think you’re very hot and that you have a beautiful body. I think that men will particularly choose this pile. They think your stomach is cute, no need to be complexed. If you’re a male you might have a dad body. Your counterpart will surely love it. I see a couple of plus size women choosing this pile. Your counterpart seems to not really pay attention to your body. They believe your eyes are beautiful. You’re gonna sense a feeling of obsessiveness in their eyes. You’re gonna be the apple of their eyes! Your person thinks you’re adorable. If you’re a man they love your eyebrows. You might have pointy eyebrows. Either way, you’re their confidant and they really trust your judgement. They almost idolise you. I heard “My beautiful woman” while staring in your eyes specifically. They’re gonna want to be your Prince Charming. The amount of admiration and love in this reading is purely unbelievable.

YOUR FIRST IMPRESSION OF THEM:

8 of Wands, The Magician, 9 of Pentacles, Page of Cups, 3 of Pentacles, Queen of Cups, The Sun, The Devil

No fucking way. Many of you who have chosen this pile also chosen the 6th pile most likely. Can’t explain it otherwise. You’ll see this person as someone who’s under you regarding career. Someone more feminine and gentle than you. More submissive. You guys will not be able to get together right away because most likely you’re both working in the same domain where you’re either coworkers or you have a boss—subordinate relationship. You’ll see them as someone very gentle. This is basically the opposite of the previous pile. I got told to stop this reading here for some reason. Sorry to disappoint but I’ll have to go to the next pile.

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Pile 8

THEIR FIRST IMPRESSION OF YOU:

10 of Pentacles, Page of Swords, 2 of Pentacles, The Hermit, Ace of Swords, The Moon, 10 of Cups, Knight of Wands

I heard scatterbrained for some reason. You might have a very active mind. You may come from a very happy background. Your person feels that you’re bringing them a lot of happiness and they’re glad they met you. I heard “I’m here, it’s ok” from your energy so you might be someone who tends to take t on he mom role in your friend group. You might know this person through your family or known them for at least 1 year at the moment they’ll confess their feelings. I heard “She’s very quiet” from your person. This message is for someone specifically whose pronouns are “she/her”. I heard “And It was all Yellow”. They think you’re someone more spiritually developed then them. This person is very open to spiritism. Their mother might be involved into that or they just have this sort of connection to it. They think they can go through thick and thin with you. I’m sorry if I’m describing them too much but that’s literally what comes out of the energy. Maybe you’re not really that curious to know about what their first impression of you will be, but rather how they are like as a person. They will for sure want to marry you. They might want to marry you the second they fall for you. They’re someone very soft at heart. This person has a golden aura.

YOUR FIRST IMPRESSION OF THEM:

Death, 9 of Wands, The High Priestess, 10 of Wands, Page of Wands, The Sun, King of Cups, 5 of Wands

You’ll see this person as your sun. High chances you guys are soulmates. There is a lot of emotional connection here. At first you’ll think this person is a bit guarded and they’re too quiet but you’ll know they’re someone very kind. Fr, they’re VERY kind. I mentioned they have a golden aura. They got the Sun card, you’ll see that too. You guys are very good at reading through people’s energies. I think it’s a mutual thing between you. You can both read someone’s story by just staring at them. I told you a lot about them in the previous reading and I don’t really have anything left to say about you tbh. You’ll see them as this protective and caring energy. Women tend to see the King of Cups as this man who’s a good husband/father/boss. They may have a pitched voice if you ask me. Long eyelashes regarding the gender. Brown/yellowish eyes. I see a man who looks a bit Middle Eastern. North-East Africa and Nigeria popped out in my mind. For others I see exactly the opposite. I very pale man. I heard “Albino” and “Vitiligo”. They may have a very beautiful skin tone. Some of you may think “Oh, what an interesting birth mark!”

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Pile 9

THEIR FIRST IMPRESSION OF YOU:

Death, 2 of Cups, 10 of Swords, Knight of Swords, 2 of Swords, Ace of Wands, King of Wands, 6 of Wands

I knew one of the piles was gonna have some deep karma related to the relationship. You guys had a past life together in which the business was hard af. You could’ve been enemies or you could’ve hated each other to death. You may not notice at first but this person will surely do. You meet each other in this life time to make peace with each other. They will see a very big progress in you. Some of you may have a big age gap and they might’ve known you since you were a baby. They see you as someone who progressed a lot regarding their attitude. In one of your past lives you were someone who was complaining about everything. They now respect you a lot. I just thought of a possibility. You might’ve known this person since kindergarten. I get so many situations. The shit’s hard to communicate. It’s like 100 people are trying to talk to me at the same time. I cannot understand what they’re saying. Your person thinks there’s a lot to say to you but may not want to make it known. Some of y’all FS’ are highly psychic people and they know that you exist and they know about the karmic debts you both carry.

YOUR FIRST IMPRESSION OF THEM:

The Moon, The Fool, Ace of Wands, Wheel of Fortune, Knight of Swords, 4 of Wands, King of Wands, Queen of Cups

WHAT THE FUCK. You aren’t soulmates, you are karmic twinflames. You will see each other exactly the same. As in a mirror. Your first impression of them will be their first impression of you. I think I don’t need to get into more detail since the answer is literally what I just wrote a couple seconds ago.

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I hope it resonated and I’ll be continuing to do pick a card readings and I’ll see you next time. Bye bye

#astrology #romania #pac #spotify #tarot #onenormalperson4012 #pick a card #pick a picture #tarot cards #tarot community #tarotcommunity #tarot future spouse #future spouse #spouse tarot reading #psychic #first impressions #future spouse reading

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myonepiece · 4 years ago

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#askaboutyourcrush your favorite swordsmen and their reactions to s / o who want to learn how to wield a sword, sword is just as cool 😊

ooo yay!! 💛💛

kaku, zoro, mihawk, oden when their s/o wants to learn how to use a sword

description: kaku, zoro, mihawk, and oden (separate) when their s/o wants to learn how to use/fight with a sword

-he's so freaking cute 🥰

-he's somewhat open to teaching you, he's not a teacher but he is very good with a sword (his four-sword-style)

-so he will teach you but he's extremely careful and sometimes panics if you end up with a cut, he's very careful with hsi action making sure not to get too close to hurt you

-if you ask him to actually sparr with you, it would take a bit of coaxing but eventually he'd try a little harder

-he's defnintely pretty blunt with his critiques though, he's not a jerk about it but he'll say what needs to be improved and what's bad

-but he's also good at complimenting what you've accomplished 😊

-he'd also offer to find someone else who's actually qualified to teach, no doubt someone in cp9/cp0 or any part of the world government can teach you expertly

-he'll offer a massage after but you'll have to suggest the bath because he's too embarrassed to

-perfect!

-a sparring partner

-of course he's willing to teach you, but be warned swordsmanship is not a joke or something he takes lightly so boyfriend zoro disappears completely when he's teaching you

-he'll bluntly critique you and your moves, and even if you find yourselves in an interesting position, he doesn't even notice

-after training he'll be back to boyfriend zoro and tell you that you did well, offer you a massage (sometimes)

-this also means you get to shower together more often because you're both sweaty at the same times :3

-he's so happy that you want to learn swordsmanship and everytime you learn something new he's super proud of you and you can see it in the genuine prideful smile he gives you

-mmm interesting, i mean he lovesthat you're choosing the sword, and he will offer to teach you

-but he's worried about hurting you or you overwhelming/overworking yourself, yes he's a strict teacher but he can't help but be worried about you

-he'll use the smallest blade he has when you sparr, like the one he used on zoro

-he will have you work hard though, he's not gonna let you give up just because you're getting sweaty

-he doesn't leave you alone while you train, he's sitting somewhere near by to watch

-he's very blunt with his compliments and critiques, he could say "that was awful try again" or "you did amazing today my dear". "i'm so proud of you"

-he's also amazing after because he suggests a bath and/or a massage if you're sore 😌

-at first i wanted to say i feel like he has rather old school views on samurais and swordsmen in general as in no girls, but then i remembered kiku

-so this is great! he's super excited to teach you

-it's gonna be so much fun!

-except.. for when he forgets his strength even in his weakest of moves and gets to into the fight (sparring) and ends up accidently hurting you

-of course he feels bad and you'll have to assure him this is good because this is what you'll be getting once you actually start fighting as a samurai

-so then oden is fairly okay if you get a few cuts (he'll help treat them after) and doesn't stop when you do get a bit hurt during your lessons

-he'd let you try to use his sword but chances are you can't even hold it which makes oden fall over in laughter

-he's definitely going to help find a good sword for you and he has a total blast doing it, he likes that you're both samurais and can spar together

-biggest fanboy

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seutaboi · 3 years ago

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if you’re doing the NSFW ABC headcanons at this time can I get with Jotaro? If not.. I’d like to request just general fluff and smut headcanons with a female s/o. Thanks! 😊

Sure! I had to hunt the list down but I saved it if anyone else wants to request it with another character!

A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)

Jotaro is a man of little words, as we all know, so don’t expect him to be big on the pillow talk. He’ll likely pull you close to him and hold you with one arm while lighting a cigarette with another (if you’re alright with it!) He’ll also offer you anything you might need; water, a snack, his chest for a pillow to doze off on...

B = Body part (Their favourite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

Jotaro isn’t one to pay the most attention to someone’s body, finding more allure in personality, but he is a fan of his eyes. As for his partner, he loves legs and hips.

C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically… I’m a disgusting person)

Really thick and creamy. He cums loads, too.

D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Has jacked off to thoughts of you before you were together. He knows it’s normal, but he can’t help but feel guilty about it when he sees your face. Does that mean he’ll stop? Nope.

E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)

He’s not a virgin but he’s not extremely experienced. Jotaro isn’t one to sleep around and would rather be intimate with someone he loves and is exclusive to. That being said, he definitely knows what he’s doing and is willing to learn your own body and what makes you yourself tick.

F = Favourite Position (This goes without saying. Will probably include a visual)

Jotaro is a simple man, normally preferring doggy or it’s variants like this one, or missionary and similar positions like this one.

G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc)

Definitely serious. He’s not one for being goofy anyway, but especially not during what he considers an intimate moment with someone he loves.

H = Hair (How well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)

Younger Jotaro doesn’t do anything, but as he gets older he keeps it neater and trims it up.

I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…)

Not necessarily very much of a romantic per se, but he does think sex is an intimate moment. Jotaro prefers it to be with someone he loves and trusts completely.

J = Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon)

Doesn’t jack off all too often, but when he does he prefers to use his imagination and think of you, rather than watching or reading some kind of erotica.

K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)

I wholeheartedly think he’s a dom leaning switch, so these could go on either end; daddy/mommy, dom/sub, humiliation and degradation, begging and denial, pegging, praise play, size kink, etc.

L = Location (Favourite places to do the do)

Prefers the bedroom, but has no qualms if the time and place calls for otherwise. As long as it isn’t totally public, he’s okay with a lot of things; closets, his office, etc.

M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)

Little touches between you two, or seeing you in an outfit or lingerie that shows off your body just right. Wear a short skirt and thigh highs or a lacy set of lingerie, or touch him gently somewhere that’s bordering on inappropriate, and he’ll be ready to go.

N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Anything that’s considered more on the more extreme end of kinky, anything public, or anything that could hurt either one of you.

O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)

He generally prefers receiving, but he’s a pussy eating god. Jotaro will eat you out like a man starved until your eyes are rolling back and you’re shaking in his grasp. He just wants you to feel good!

P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)

Either way, depending on his mood.

Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)

Would rather proper sex than a quickie, but if there isn’t time or space for proper lovemaking, then he’s alright with a quickie.

R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)

He’s willing to experiment and take risks but nothing too extreme; nothing gross or that could hurt either one of you. And if he takes risks with you and tries out new things, he has to have your complete trust and vice versa.

S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)

Lots of stamina. Can easily last a long time and can easily go for at least three rounds.

T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)

He doesn’t own any toys, but he’s open to trying them, both on himself and his partner. After being introduced to it, he finds that he really enjoys being pegged.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Depends on if he’s domming or subbing, and what mood he’s in. Jotaro can go either way and just make you ask nicely, or make you beg until there’s tears in your eyes. When he’s subbing, make him beg, he loves to be teased!

V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)

Not extremely loud, but expect a lot of pants and grunts. Likes dirty talking a lot too.

W = Wild Card (Get a random headcanon for the character of your choice)

I believe he’s a dom leaning switch, like I said earlier. He’s had to step up and be the authority in situations since a young age, and he finds it nice to put the responsibility and authority in someone else’s hands for once.

X = X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants, picture or words)

Around 9-10 inches, thick and veiny, heavy balls.

Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)

About average, but if you’re ready to go he can easily get in the mood too.

Z = ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

Normally doesn’t fall asleep after, just relaxes with you and offers you some cuddles or his chest as a pillow if you fall asleep.

#jotaro kujo x reader #jotaro x reader #jotaro smut #jotaro kujo #jjba #jjba x reader #headcanons #prompts #i hope you like it!#this was more than ive written in a while so i got a bit brainfried but i wanted it done before i went to work

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bestworstcase · 3 years ago

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Bro I don’t think you meant for this to happen, but I think your analysis is making me reconsider my friendship with my BSF uh whoops

i mean sometimes you do just trip over something random that makes you go hey wow this thing that i’ve been coasting along with is not okay actually, it happens

and like, for what it’s worth and without knowing what’s going on with your particular situation, i think it’s virtually inevitable for there to come a point in a friendship—any close relationship really—where one or both of you abruptly realize that something is broken in how you are together, that maybe you’ve fallen into a rut of not treating each other very well or boundaries that should have been established weren’t or there’s a problem that has been left unspoken and allowed to scar over in a harmful way, or whatever it is; like, people are complicated, and for all that social connection is a deep intrinsic need it’s also, yknow, really fucking hard.

and—god knows this is easier said than done, lmao—really the only thing to do is have a conversation about it, like, here’s this problem i’ve become aware of, here’s how i feel, here’s what i need, here’s what i’m planning to do different from here on out. just… you know take the time you need to get your thoughts lined up and then lay it out, as calmly and clearly as you can. and see what comes of that.

(i think a degree of reflexive defensiveness is only to be expected—no one likes to hear they’ve been hurting someone they care about on accident—& the kind thing to do, imo, is to sort of, mentally build in the time and space for the other person to HAVE that emotional reaction without pressure to respond right away; like say your piece, then step back and let them process)

and it might be that it doesn’t go well but that’s. okay! it really is! because if you raise genuine concerns with a friend and they react by getting mad or stonewalling or trying to guilt trip you or whatever else, then you’ve learned that they’re totally okay with how things are and don’t care enough about your feelings to be willing to make any changes, which… is valuable information and you can walk away a lot more cleanly than letting stuff fester and rot until whatever you used to have has fallen completely apart. you can at least spare yourself the misery of losing a friendship through attrition and neglect, yeah?

but good people, genuine friends or partners or family members who really care about you—they’ll be happy to see you taking care of yourself, speaking up for yourself, being able to say “hey this is a problem and i’m not okay with it.” because it demonstrates that 1. you trust them and care enough to be vulnerable and honest with them, and 2. they can trust you to communicate if something’s not okay, which is a kind of trust that is so so important for the long term stability of any relationship. and then you can cooperatively solve whatever the problem is together.

and like you may on reflection decide that this friendship isn’t worth it—maybe it’s been wearing you down for so long that it’s better for you to just leave it behind altogether instead of devoting your time and mental energy to fixing whatever’s wrong, or maybe it was never an especially good friendship in the first place, or whatever—and like, that’s fine too. it’s fine to realize hey, this isn’t good for me and i don’t think it’s worth salvaging, so let’s just end it here; and if you don’t feel safe to have a discussion with the other person it’s absolutely fine to just quietly remove yourself from their life, ghosting people who are relentlessly shitty to you is Good Actually. no one else can make a meaningful judgment about this but you.

but yeah like—i know it’s a really sucky feeling to just out of nowhere get smacked by the realization that a close relationship isn’t actually as great as you thought, it’s scary, and god knows online spaces these days are often soaked in this very black and white mindset that sort of catastrophizes every interpersonal conflict into Red Flag Cut Them Out Of Your Life Right Now Immediately Before They Start Abusing You and that can be…not helpful rhetoric to be inundated by when you’re in the weeds of an interpersonal problem lmao but. i think most people are decent, most people want to be good, most people earnestly try to do right by their friends and family, and it’s just. it’s fucking hard, yeah? everyone makes mistakes, everyone’s got bad habits, everyone grew up swimming in the socially corrosive toxic soup of capitalism and we’re all just. trying our best.

nine times out of ten you can fix the problem by trusting that the other person is acting in good faith, and coming at the subject from a place of like, turning the lights on so they can see the thing they keep tripping over. it’s really okay

#good luck anon i know it’s tough :(#but i’ve been on both ends of this and as much as it sucks in the moment #i’ve never ever regretted trying to talk through it

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chainofclovers · 3 years ago

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Ted Lasso 2x8 thoughts

I am so lucky that the creators of Ted Lasso decided to make this entire show specifically for me. #blessed

If last week felt like a bit of breathing room (albeit tense, poignant, character-progressing breathing room) with distinct narrative lines, this week’s episode was a chaotic yet tightly-written swirl of pain and hope and sadness! No neat subject headers for this one, y’all. Just my brain and heart in the inadequate form of a bulleted list. It is the medium available to me at this time.

I am going to remember the moment when Ted calls Sharon and tells her his father killed himself for the rest of my life.

(I could say a bunch of stuff about his face and what he says and how he tries to hide his tears from Beard right after and how insanely much I adore this character and ahhhhhhhh but I’m just going to leave that scene there in our collective memories.)

Jamie. JAMIE. Higgins has given some great advice about love on this show, but his musings about his up-and-down relationship with his own father were not helpful in the context of Jamie’s dad, who is an abusive piece of shit. I really adore that all of the main AFC Richmond staff members are realistically a bit hit-or-miss with their advice and life philosophies (some are mostly miss this season, of course).

And I am completely in awe of the moment when Jamie punches his father. The way he just stands there after Beard kicks his dad out of the locker room. The way you can hear a pin drop. And Roy—Roy who is learning in so many areas of his life about his influence on people, learning that the things he needs aren’t necessarily the same as the things other people need—is the one to cross the room and hug him. Hold him, really, with the tenderness Ted used when he hugged Rebecca outside the gala in 1x4. God.

I’ve thought a lot about how s1 was about giving people a soft place to land. There’s always an angel there when you need one. There’s always an opportunity to be kind. If you look for someone, you find them. If you look for the good in someone, you find the good. And as everyone works through their individual journeys in s2, that can’t always be the case anymore. But there are still so many moments of angels on this show, and it’s not about chance and serendipity and fate [not that it was about that in s1] but about the effort it takes to become someone who can be there for someone else. Or who can be there for yourself. I’m so proud of Jamie for physically fighting back against his father. I’m so proud of Roy for being the one who recognized what Jamie needed.

I have every feeling in the world about how Ted is almost totally frozen both times (s1 and s2) he witnesses Jamie’s father abusing him. In s1, he was still there for Jamie after, and I have every reason to believe he’ll be there for Jamie after this incident as well, but that frozen stance HURTS. He’s in so deep with his pain about his own father that it’s like he physically cannot snap out of it to act in the moment. It seems entirely outside of his control, and it breaks my heart, because Ted wants so badly to be a good father, a good coach, a good friend, a good partner, a good patient. He’s there for people in all kinds of ways, even in his current less-than-capable state. He takes care of Sharon post-concussion and even gets her a new bike! During the disastrous match at Wembley his coaching is ineffectual and everything is chaos but he’s the last one standing on the pitch! But this really awful thing keeps happening to Jamie and Ted is just…frozen in the face of it. Like one of those nightmares where you’re running in place.

The frozen-in-place nightmare also kind of applies to the way the total separation between Ted and Rebecca feels, too. I have never for a moment doubted the writers’ intentions in setting these characters up as soulmates on parallel journeys, and I’m actually really digging (on a story level) how disconnected they are right now. It is IMPRESSIVE that their absence in each other’s lives feels like such a glaring loss, one we cannot forget even as there are so many other things happening onscreen. It is 100% not just shipper goggles making me process information about Ted while thinking about Rebecca and information about Rebecca while thinking about Ted. I know there are a lot of really angry and frustrated people in the fandom right now (both T/R shippers and T/R antis and non-shipping fans who don’t get why s2 is different from s1) and while I understand being frustrated by choices characters make, and frustrated by the feelings the show makes us feel that we just want to feel more of or less of, I continue to agree with pretty much every narrative choice happening right now.

Agreeing with the narrative like this?! This is such a unique experience for me as a viewer—to feel like I’m on a ride that is at once absolutely wild and incredibly sensible and well-crafted, and to feel simultaneously completely invested and anticipatory and speculative but also totally willing to trust where it goes. I long for Ted and Beard to really talk. I long for Ted and Rebecca to stop missing each other. I long for Roy to have a serious conversation with Ted about what’s happening with him. I long for Keeley to find a vocation, something that drives her beyond her projects. I long for so many things! But I wouldn’t long for them if this show was less good. If the show was less good, I wouldn’t have a wish list a mile long because I wouldn’t be so attuned to the details and potential lurking in every scene. THIS IS SUCH A GOOD SHOW, I CANNOT HANDLE IT, I LOVE IT SO MUCH.

(To that end, a great deal of the Ted Lasso tag and so many Twitter reactions reactions to the show feel super stressful right now and I am kind of just trying not to look?! I love this fandom so much because of the amazing conversations that happen and because of brilliant fic and because there are some awesome people I never would have encountered were it not for this show. That little bubble is wonderful and I’d stay in this fandom no matter what in order to keep experiencing those things. But fans’ catastrophic reactions to every little thing that happens, every little choice a character makes that isn’t the “perfect” choice? The takeaway that the writers—on this show of all shows—wake up in the morning ready for another day of torturing shippers rather than another day of writing a beautiful story they genuinely want to write? I do not enjoy those parts at all. I would like to opt out of those parts. I’m having such a magical experience watching this show and talking about this show and listening about this show and writing about this show with a variety of people who feel all kinds of ways. I truly wish I could somehow transfer the energy of this experience onto all the people who are hating it right now. I don’t mind at all that people are having vastly different reactions to this show and are sharing their honest feelings, including the really angry ones (I can appreciate something and disagree with it!), and I get that sometimes the language of fannish reactions is intentionally, ironically hyperbolic. But there feels like this very serious trend of people legitimately thinking writers on this show are targeting shippers and have lost respect for their characters, and I just feel like an alien from another planet when I see that stuff. I guess I just feel like people make art because they want their art to be visible to other people and to themselves, but that doesn’t typically involve specifically catering to or torturing a subset of that audience?)

I am more fascinated by Sharon Fieldstone than ever before. I have been running through every single action with her and Ted so many times. The confirmation that she’s living in club-provided housing (that could not look more different from Ted’s club-provided flat). Ted clearly noticing the many bottles. Sharon’s face while she tries to casually recycle them. (Sharon could legitimately have a more problematic relationship with alcohol than Ted does, and I find that extremely interesting and am very curious to find out what happens there.) Sharon leaving him voice notes while she’s concussed, probably because she’d been thinking about him shortly before the accident. The way Ted calls her and does all the funny voices and it’s not frustrating like all the times he uses his silliness and allusions to deflect during their prior conversations because this time, those behaviors are just a part of him showing care for another person. The way they stretch each other, and Ted is still wrong about the things he’s been wrong about, but they both grow all the same.

While it is pretty much impossible for me to imagine that this show would include an actual romantic relationship between Ted and Sharon (it would be beyond unethical even if they could write it well, and Sharon in particular is so professional and committed to her work, and it would erase so much of the powerful message about the importance of seeking therapy from a professional who is not your friend or partner, and I would totally hate it), watching this episode was the first moment I had this queasy little feeling that it’s possible that Ted could end up developing really complicated feelings about Sharon since, at this point, he’s been honest with her about things he’s hardly spoken about before and you can really form an attachment to people you feel safe with in a new way. (I mean, I’m sure Michelle knows what happened with Ted’s father, but I’m not even certain if Beard does.) He’s so broken right now, and Sharon is such a great person and so different from anyone else in his life (even though Rebecca is also different, and Beard is also different, and Roy is also different, and so on), that I could see things getting really fuzzy for him. I continue to have faith in the way the storylines on this show are handled. I’m just. Putting this here.

(In saying that, though, I also wanna make it really clear that I don’t just automatically assume anytime a new female character is introduced that they’re going to end up becoming a romantic complication. Like, Phoebe is allowed to have a teacher who is an attractive woman and AFC Richmond is allowed to have a sports psychologist who is an attractive woman and Keeley is allowed to talk to Jamie Tartt without it threatening what she has with Roy and all these people can exist as human beings without the introduction of romantic drama.)

Isaac gives every player one haircut per season, OH MY GOD. The JOY during the haircut scene. YES.

KEELEY AND REBECCA. Their text thread. The affirming video call right before Rebecca goes into the restaurant. The way Keeley sits all snuggled up against Rebecca in her office.

I was pretty thoroughly spoiled for the Sam and Rebecca plot through 2x8, and I was bracing for something far more problematic and tortured than what happens in this episode. The words I would use to describe their scenes: awkward, cute, cringy, and understandable. There are a million reasons why this relationship isn’t sustainable, but I felt completely understanding of both their choices here. This show has a lot of thesis statements, but I keep going back to the idea from 2x1 that there are people who enter your life to help you get to the next point, and I think it’s entirely possible that Sam and Rebecca will mutually be that for each other.

I find comparisons between Rupert and Rebecca super upsetting. There are absolutely meaningful things to say about the irony of ending up in a situation with an uncomfortable resemblance to certain taboo elements of an ex’s situation. But that ex is abusive and manipulative and cruel and Rebecca has exhibited NONE of those behaviors, and it makes me really sad to think that people feel that the writers on this show have betrayed Rebecca in giving her this storyline.

As always, I reserve the right to keep blathering about this show. I’ve had a headache for a couple of days, but my head is also so full of 2x8 thoughts that I couldn’t keep them in even if the circumstances for writing this were not ideal. I kind of hate that I’ve included frustrated fandom thoughts within the analysis of what I felt was an absolutely gorgeous, complicated, heartbreaking, near-perfect episode of television, but if ya can’t be a little dramatic on your own tumblr while you’re feeling raw and under the weather, where can ya?

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