#all of this is not to diminish the experiences of aces who do want some of these things. i have complicated answers for some of these!

[frogs-in3-hills]

tell someone you’re asexual and they’ve heard of the split attraction model & aces who have sex so suddenly they got a thousand questions about whether or not you want a romantic partner or what scenarios you’d be okay with having sex in or whether you experience platonic attraction or what your kinks are or if you want a qpr or if you’d marry for convenience or who you find hot or if you’d tolerate kissing without tongue. absolutely determined to identify the lowest possible threshold of freakishness. girl i don’t want to larp normalcy i want to abolish the family

[northlight14]

A PSA to non asexual arcane fans!

Ok with the recent announcement that Viktor is asexual, as an asexual myself who has Viktor as their favourite character, I wanna get some shit out the way. There’s a good chance I’m gonna stop interacting with the arcane fandom because of this announcement because every time I’ve seen a character be confirmed asexual there’s always just this influx of acephobia and misinformation which makes it impossible for me to even interact with the fandom and feel safe. So throwing this at y’all and then we’ll see what happens. However, I do not speak for the whole of the asexual community so some aces may disagree with me and that’s ok, as long as y’all aren’t rude we can have a discussion (or you can just scroll or block me, whatevs🤷)

Asexual and aromantic are not the same thing. This is something the creator clearly doesn’t know since he used Viktor’s asexuality as a rebuttal against Jayvik which makes zero fucking sense but sure. So asexuals can still date and aromantics and still have sex. Some like myself are both but that’s not always the case

“Asexuality is a spectrum! Some asexuals still have sex!” is not the good excuse you think it is to depict asexuals in sexually explicit situations. Every time I see this paired with this excuse, the character is very obviously just made to be allosexual in the fanwork. Either stick to sexualising the allosexual characters or do your research on sex neutral/favourable asexuals and represent them properly. Otherwise what you’re doing is no different to writing a fic where a canonically lesbian character has sex with a man

“Asexuality is a spectrum! People can be demisexual or greysexual!” If the character was demisexual or greysexual, the creator would have said. But they didn’t. They said they were asexual. You changing the label doesn’t make you inclusive, it makes you acephobic

Viktor being announced as asexual only after the show was released and it being in rebuttal to a gay ship where the writer clearly doesn’t know what it actually means to be asexual isn’t the win for ace representation some might first think. Asexuals deserve explicit representation by people who bother to learn how to represent us properly

Having the only asexual character also be the character who’s storyline focuses on disability, something that people already infantalise also isn’t the win people might try and make it out to be. Disabled people are frequently denied sexuality and it is part of the way they are infantalised in western society. So having Viktor be disabled and also be the only asexual character feels a bit iffy to me. Obviously there are disabled people who are ace and I don’t want to diminish that experience either. And there would be ways to explore that in a more nuanced way but that’s not what happened. And frankly it would be so easy to avoid this by just having more than one ace character so it doesn’t feel like a trait exclusive to disabled people but sure go off I guess

A lot of you only give a shit about QPR’s (queer platonic relationships) so that you have an excuse to ship aromantic characters. Granted, I’m so in favour of QPR Jayvik because their relationship explicitly goes beyond what we consider standard for a platonic relationship, even if it’s canonically not romantic. But I’m bringing this up anyway because a lot of the time in fandom and society in general, QPR’s are seen as a way to make the aromantic character more “palatable” to the allo’s and shippers. And as someone in a QPR, that idea honestly feels both insulting but is also so damaging to the aro community as a whole. Loveless aromantics exist. Some aromantics who do feel other forms of love still don’t want a QPR. Some like myself were/are indifferent and some like my partner really want one. Not all of us are the same

Might’ve missed some stuff but yeah. Any acephobia will be deleted but I’m happy to have civil conversations and answer questions. Ultimately I just want a fandom to actually listen to ace people for once but I know that won’t happen. Still, I wanted to at least say my peace

[thesensteawitch]

The Remaining 2023 Vibe Check!🌲❄️⚡

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(Left to Right--- Pile 1, Pile 2, Pile 3)

Hello, Senstea Souls!🍁

Thank you everyone for staying and waiting for my next blog. I promise I won't make you wait for a whole week. I was busy taking care of my health. Thanks for your patience, beautiful souls🩷.

This reading is about the rest of your 2023. It's a collective reading. Take a deep breath and read🌻.

Pile 1

The emperor, the chariot, ace of wands, the hierophant, page of swords, 2 of swords.

Hello, my dear pile 1. Firstly I want to ask how have you been. I see that something quite challenging for you (but you were okay with it) came to an end. Maybe your human side was okay with it but not your soul. The mind kept finding a rational reason for your pain. But being in that certain situation/job/relationship you had to pay a price. It cost you your peace. Whatever happened did not happen for no reason. It happened to teach you something. Now you must be thinking, “Well, isn't it obvious?” Yeah, but darling you forgot that there are thorns on the way to the garden of roses.

Currently, you aren't able to get a closure and you won't be able to for some time. But as the year approaches its end your eyes will be opened. Some of you may experience your 3rd eye-opening. You will see the divine reason for why something ended so abruptly when you weren't ready. Or why anything even happens in this world? You'll gain some clarity regarding the purpose of your existence, your destiny, and who you truly are. Some of you may develop some strong philosophical views. Just know one thing pile 1 that what happened has ignited a spark within your soul. The light within you will burn again which was diminished months or in fact years ago. Currently, you are confused. Some of you are being rigid. I see polarities. Sometimes you will think too rationally and brutally. Sometimes you'll become philosophical. But in the end, you'll find your balance. And will finally carry your wounds as the mark of your wisdom. Your wounds will become a roadmap to your destiny.

I hear, “Blindsided, addicted. Thought we could really do this but really I was foolish...Young people fall in love with the wrong people sometimes. Some mistakes get made that's all right that's okay, in the end, it's better for me that's the moral of the story babe.” For some of you, it's related to someone and for some, it's about something very dear to you.

Only you can come out of the mental war you are going through. Only you can remove the blindfold and finally see the things as they truly are. Get out of your head! Seriously! Our mind can only go so far. It repeats the narratives it has seen. Truth comes from the divine. Surrender. Surrender to the divine/God/source/universe or whatever power you believe in. Writing down your emotions will definitely help you. You need to ground yourself. Start with grounding and soon you'll find your answers. You can just sit on the grass or walk barefoot on the grass. It will tremendously help you within a few minutes. I am not kidding. I do it. It will help balance your root chakra. You will find some stability.

Start planning how you truly want your life to be. It will help you in giving a vision. Because I see that all you need is an answer, a closure, a truth about life. If you do what I said then by the end of this year you'll finally be able to move forward with all bitter-sweet moments. You will have control of your life and not someone or something else has control over your life. Let nobody control you. Be it your mind, a desire, or a person. I also see that some of you are afraid to dream big. First dream like crazy and then make a plan. See how you can achieve whatever you want to achieve. And how can you be authentic in what you want to have in your life? Then make a plan and believe that it can happen to you. Remember the great examples in our history. If they can so can you. But don't end up comparing a fish to a monkey, you know what I mean right? You will be realising your worth by the end of 2023. You'll get the clarity that you are not able to get until now.

You need both magic and practicality. Remember to write 10 things about you that you know are wonderful. Also, forgive others and most importantly forgive yourself. Release the grudges and the negativity will be released. YOU ARE DIVINELY PROTECTED NO MATTER IF YOU BELIEVE IN ANGELS OR NOT. I also hear, “I don't know how to feel but I wanna try. I don't know how to feel but someday I might.” Oh God, you guys! Just watch BARBIE. And observe Ken. You'll learn a lot from him. Please do watch Barbie. And if you already have then watch again you might notice something that you didn't before. God bless you, pile 1. I also see a power struggle. You don't feel powerful. But you soon will. All this is happening to bring your power back.

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Pile 2

King of pentacles, ace of wands, 10 of swords, knight of swords, 6 of wands, 5 of wands

Wow! My dear pile 2. First of all good job. I am so proud of you that you have finally decided something your guides have been whispering to you. Maybe life forced you to take a stand or you contemplated a lot. But one thing is clear you realised that the situation you were in was not favorable for you. You thought it would turn out to be something amazing but it did not. It definitely broke your heart. Currently, I see that you are trying to show strength in the face of adversity. It's good. You should keep doing that. But let me tell you my dear pile 2 that whatever tough situation you're in it's coming to an end. Very very soon. In a month you'll see yourself coming out of it. Finally, you are trying to stand up for yourself and your values. For once, you will not need anyone else's permission or approval. Beautiful! I see financial upgradation is definitely coming up for you. All the mental struggle and health struggle is coming to an end!!!!! Some of you can somewhat feel it. You may not have achieved your goal and you surely are not at the destination. But definitely, some progress is being made. Something has shifted. You're not in between. You're almost there. What you do in these coming weeks will define your years to come. Believe me when I say this. You know your goal, your destination. You're not naive. You're not unaware. You just fall into the temptations of instant gratification. And I see it all happens due to ‘what ifs’. New ideas will be coming to you. Soon you will be seeing competition as cooperation. People will praise your ideas and your work. And it will be huge! As you have just stood up from the ashes, it's still all over your body so the nostalgia might hit you. I hear the song, “What a time”. I feel this year has taught you a lot. But now you finally see your goal. You've made all the wrong decisions so now there's only the right way. What I mean by this is that you have exhausted all your options. Now there's only one way. Follow your destiny. You have been on the wrong roads so many times but the good thing is that you've learned. You have grown.

“We both have demons that we can't stand. Maybe you're seeking an honest man.” I feel that for some of you, your relationship played a huge role in your transformation. I also hear, “There may be lovers who hold out their hands but they will never love you like I can,” you knew how to give pile 2. You are a giver. Some of you may even be healers.

Now you're on your own. You always have been. But now you're not in a toxic cycle of codependency. And if some of you are still struggling with codependency then know soon it will be over. I hear December will be an abundant month for you. You are going to be the warmth that people would need in the cold winters. Some of you are so creative. I also hear, “I had the best time falling into love...” and now I feel you are choosing to stay single for some time. I feel it's good for you. Your soul needs this. I also see that some of you feel that you don't have enough knowledge about something but I see you do. Don't compare yourself to anybody online. There will always be someone better. But you don't need to fall for this trap of being above everyone else. You will finally take in the essence of understanding that the human race is dependent on each other and it helps each other directly or indirectly in each individual's growth. For the remaining months of 2023, your eyes will be on your vision. Nothing else! I literally am enjoying reading this pile. My heart is jumping. You are going to be blessed and divinely protected. I also sense that you always have been protected by the divine.

Aahh pile 2 I also see that this coming eclipse is going to play a major role in your life. It will bring a powerful change. This change is going to put you on your destined path. A new beginning is coming. If you guys have been wishing for something then know that it can come true. Please let go of your fear around finances. It's creating a blockage. I think you will be able to do that soon. Still, let me guide you on how to do it. You need to believe that you can have all the luxuries of the world. Keep doing things with your heart. Put a part of your soul in the work that you do and you will see financial abundance following you. Create things with pain, pleasure, purity, and peace. Keep the balance. Virtue lies in the middle. YOU GUYS ARE FOLLOWING YOUR DESTINY. Please keep going and not even for a moment lose hope. Focus on RELEASING the negativity and not listening to it. God bless you, pile 2! I am so so so happy for you. The external growth does depend on you and it is yet to come but I can't help but be proud of the internal growth that has happened to you and still, there's potential for more growth. Wow! The road is finally clear for you. It's your time to shine. Congratulations! Let me know what happens.

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Pile 3

Two of wands, the emperor, two of pentacles, king of pentacles, queen of pentacles, the empress

Hello, my dear pile 3. It took me time to pull out your Oracle cards. Now I see why. So tell me why are you not taking action? I mean I see that when you are about to there's a part of you that makes you feel that you aren't ready. But guess what? You'll never be ready. No one is ready to start something. Knowing something you're planning to start is important but there's no end to learning. Then when will you be really ready if you measure your worth like that? You are afraid to execute your plan. For a long time, you have been planning and plotting but when it comes to taking action there's a huge resistance. If you are afraid that you won't be able to achieve your goals then let me tell you pile 3 that huge abundance is waiting for you to taste it. I can sense your soul suffering but this rigid mind and reasoning of yours has kept you in one place for so long.

The universe is going to put you off balance no matter how strong are the walls around you. Something is going to put you off balance and I am not saying this to instill fear in you. No concrete remains in front of God's will. Huge abundance waits for you. It's you who is coming in your way. So what if you're going to hit your goal in 6 months or a year? At least start or you'll never get closer to your dreams. Pile 3 do not even think of giving up! You do have a long way to go but to reach somewhere you need to leave a certain place and situation. By all means, explore. And who said that only the destination is supposed to be beautiful? It's the journey that matters. You are going to meet some really amazing people who will be helping you with your plan. Somebody is definitely going to help you soon.

When you're finally ready to overcome this resistance you will feel like your life is a mess. Believe me, this chaos will bring order. Currently, I see that your life is stagnant. I hear you saying to your resistance, “I like me better when I am with you.” It's so difficult to change your mindset pile 3. Stop weighing the outcomes rather than start creating. You have the capability to create a wonderful life for yourself. It's in your cards I am not saying this casually. Not all lessons are learned through books some are learned by experiencing the real world. The only way to fight any kind of resistance is to do the thing it is stopping you from doing. In the coming few weeks life is going to break something on you so that you have no choice but to move forward through the chaos that you are afraid to face. Believe me, pile 3 your life is going to turn out to be so beautiful. You'll love it. You might see a glimpse of it in December if you win over your fears.

Everything is concrete around you there's no oxygen and you have no pulse. It seems you have stopped watering your garden. No trees, no water? No oxygen! YOU HAVE THE KEY TO UNLOCK THE NEW OPPORTUNITIES. The vision you have is the key to your growth. Please don't be in your head all the time. In the times of challenges that you might face ahead please be playful. Don't be so serious all the time pile 3. Laugh a little. Let the day take you. You don't need to keep planning. Take breaks. Take rest. But do not be afraid to put in effort for your dreams. These coming months you'll be learning something that very few people know or take interest in. That's how you'll be able to create financial abundance. Knowledge will be served to you. If you feel lack in any aspect then the holes will be filled in by the universe. But first, you must take action. “The more that you say the less I know. Wherever you stray I follow. I am begging for you to take my hands and wreck my plans that's my man.” The universe is literally coming through and saying to take a leap of faith. Take its hands and wreck its plan of bringing turbulence into your life. “Know that my train can take you home anywhere else is hollow.” Home doesn't hamper your growth. Comfort does.

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[aceonice]

hey!

sorry if i bothered you, but i'd like to ask for your insight on how to write a sex-positive character, without diminishing their asexuality.

i'm asking this, because i am building and original character, whom i've decided to be a panromantic asexual and who's also in a relationship with a relationship with a lesbian character. and i would like to hear your tips and perspective, as an ace individual.

btw, who do you think is more represented in media, sex-positive or sex-repulsed asexuals?

i'd really appreciate your thoughts on this!

have a nice day!

Not a bother at all! I love stuff like this and any messages 💜

My biggest suggestion is considering how being asexual changes someone's relationship with sex. They aren't having sex because of some unresistable attraction, so why are they? This can have a variety of answers depending on your character including (but not limited to):

-sex as a way of expressing love/intimacy

-they want to make their partner feel good

-they like being wanted

-horny/high libido/likes orgasms

-feeling guilty for not having sex/fear that not doing it will cause a partner to leave (these would be more angsty and demand more exploration than the others but sadly realistic for some people)

You can combine some or, if you're feeling especially ambitious, all of them. But it's always a good idea to understand a character's motivations.

Your character may also have a unique history with sex or feeling pressured to have it (by someone or just by societal expectation) that changes how they think about it.

You may also want to consider: have they told their partner they're ace? Why or why not? How does their partner react to it? How much do they know about it? Does it change their relationship when they find out?

It can also help to figure out if they're no sexual attraction ace or rare sexual attraction ace. Demisexuals need a strong emotional attachment first and some asexuals experience some rare sexual attraction. And then there are aces who have never felt it.

Another tip would just be reading what other people (especially asexuals) have written, by skimming the asexual tag on tumblr or reading ace stories to get a feel for how you want to address it. There are so many experiences and it's impossible to represent them all, but know what some of them are can help it feel more authentic.

In my experience, I've found sex-repulsed asexuals to be more common in original media with sex-positive asexuals being more common in fandom HCs and fics.

Thank you for the question, I hope I was able to help 💜

[loveislattes]

Newbie

Summary: The newest survivor brought in by the entity is having a rough go of it. Between learning the rules and ways of the trials and dealing with the struggles of autism, depression, and anxiety, the reader hasn't exactly made many friends in the survivor's camp; but maybe, just maybe, she'll find friends elsewhere.

Word count: 3.3K

Relationship: Ghostface/Reader (May add more as chapters go on)C

Content warnings: Reader is a plus-sized AFAB with autism, depression, and anxiety. Danny is still an asshole and very chaotic but he has a heart specifically for the reader only. Descriptions of autism and mental health issues (based on my personal experience), one instance of sensory overload, ableism from other survivors (from ignorance, not malice), oral (male receiving), dom/sub power dynamics, mild asphyxiation, and knife play.

A/N: I'm hoping to make a few more chapters to accompany this one, but we'll see how it goes lol. Also, this is my specific headcanon for how Danny acts. It may not be everyone's cup of tea but it is mine :)

Depiction of my version of Danny, for reference <3

“So, what do you guys think about the new girl?” Claudette whispered conspiratorially. 

“She’s uh- She’s different, that’s for sure.”

Dwight’s words were quiet but you could still hear them across the campfire. You purposefully made sure your eyes stayed locked onto the flames before you, not wanting to give any indication you could hear them discussing you. In all honesty, you didn’t mind hearing it because you needed realistic feedback; feedback none of them had been willing to supply so far. 

“She’s not any good in chases, too slow; hell, even she herself said that she wasn’t ‘built’ for it,” Kate scoffed quietly, “At least she’s good at pushing through gens, even under threat.” 

At that, you could feel your cheeks warm up. You weren’t expecting the praise, but also the little side comment about your weight didn’t feel great either. It was the harsh truth though. While able to run a decent sprint, you weren’t a marathon type of person. You did some cardio and weights before, but nothing near enough to prepare you for this place. 

Dwight's speaking drew your attention back to them once more. 

“Her medical knowledge is top notch though! The fact that the entity brought us a nurse was really lucky,” he added kindly, “Even Claudette’s healing pales in comparison.”

Even without shifting your gaze, you could see the pissed-off scowl the botanist threw his way. If you weren’t trying to hide your little spying session, you’d laugh in her face, but alas, you didn’t want to piss off the only people around that weren’t trying to actively kill you.

You were the newest to the survivor's camp, having only been dragged into the fog a few weeks ago at most. It was hard to tell as there was no actual passing of time, but you’d tried to keep count of your periods of sleep and it seemed somewhere around fifteen days had passed, give or take a few. Any optimistic dreams of getting out of the trials and back to your world were quickly diminishing, your hope replaced with fear, confusion, and hatred. 

It didn’t help that you had a hard time connecting with your teammates. Part of the issue lay in your lack of knowledge of the trials and the other came from your lack of social understanding. It wasn’t that you weren’t trying, but it seemed no other survivor had any sort of experience with autism or even any mental health issues. Some just right down didn’t care to and called your diagnosis an excuse- Those were the ones you made sure to avoid other than when necessary. There were some, though, who were friendly enough and tried to include you, namely Laurie, Dwight, Ace, Jeff, Steve, and Mikaela. They were the ones you had the most hope for.

Fuck, how you longed to be back home. 

“Well, looks like it’s time again.”

Laurie’s words shook you from your thoughts and you looked down just to see the fog crawling up your legs. 

“God damn it,” you bit out under your breath. 

Before you could figure out who was going into the trial with you, the world went dark and, within the next blink, you were in an all-too-familiar courtyard. Of course it was Midwich, one of the strongest realms for the killers. You only hoped you weren’t going against someone who benefitted from the particularly long empty hallways. The thought of facing the nurse down those corridors made your skin crawl. 

With a little sigh, you made your way around the hedges to the sole generator in the courtyard. You couldn’t help but let your thoughts wander as you began to connect the wires before you. What killer could it be this time? You hadn’t met them all yet, but you’d heard about them from the others. The fact you had yet to hear any sign of the killer, or feel that familiar panic of your heart racing when they were nearby, alluded to the possibility of a stealth killer. You hoped with all your might that it wasn’t Michael Myers. He was notorious for being ruthless, bringing gifts from the entity that allowed him to kill you on the spot without any prelude and the ability to track you even beyond the walls. It was terrifying. Out of the limited killers you had faced, he was the worst. 

“Well, well, I’d heard there was a new survivor but Evan and Anna failed to mention how hot you were!”

The sudden voice behind you sent you into a proper panic, your scream only drowned out by the exploding of the generator as you jerked back to face the unknown intruder. When your eyes locked onto the white screaming mask, your heartbeat raced even louder in your chest. 

Ghostface. Another killer you’d yet to meet. The others had mixed reviews about him when sharing their stories. Apparently, he was very hot and cold in his trials. Sometimes he would be merciless, hooking everyone without a second thought, and other times he would play cat-and-mouse games and allow one or two who had sufficiently entertained him to escape. 

“What, don’t tell me you’re mute, sweets,” he cajoled.

His head tilted to the side in an almost cute manner and you found yourself ruminating on the sound of his voice. It was obviously going through some kind of filter but the low timber was certainly- No, fuck, you wouldn’t let yourself even touch that thought! 

“N-No, sorry, I just- You startled me,” you explained quietly.

The fact he hadn’t thrown you over his shoulder yet was both a relief and terrifying. Was he in a good mood today? As you debated your chances of survival, he took a step forward, and you instinctively stepped back, the dance continuing until your back pressed into the cold steel of the gen. 

“What do you want, Ghostface?” you asked. 

His hands came to rest on either side of you with a deep, rumbling, chuckle and you were made painfully aware of how much taller he was when he boxed you in. As you stared up at him, you couldn’t help the way your face lit up in response to the sudden intimate position.

“Glad to see my reputation proceeds me,” he teased, “Tell you what, I’ll go easy on you this first time… if you do something for me.” 

Blinking slowly in thought, you tried to figure out what you could possibly do for someone who held all the power, but then his hand was on your jaw, squeezing your chin hard as he jerked your face up to meet his. 

“Whatdya say, sweets?” 

Swallowing hard, you murmured back, “What would I have to do?” 

You could practically hear the smirk on his face as he cackled loudly, gloved hand releasing your chin only to pat your cheek as if soothing a child. 

“Mmm, that’s what I like to hear. It’s been quite some time since I’ve seen a piece of ass like yours, especially one that isn’t attached to a whiny bitch,” he practically purred, “I’ll make it easy for you, this time. Let me feel that sweet little mouth and, in return, I’ll let you and two of your teammates go free.” 

Thinking became fairly difficult as his hand slid down and encircled your throat. He didn’t cut off your airflow entirely, but the threat was there under the light pressure, and it made your heart race. 

“T-Two?” you clarified. 

“Two. Can’t let you all get out scott-free or I risk pissing off the head bitch,” he explained, thumb stroking your skin almost lovingly, “So? Wanna make a deal with death, baby?” 

Emotions created a volatile vortex of your mind, uncertainty and fear of him going back on his word making you want to say no, but the promise of freedom demanding otherwise. On one hand, what would the others say if they found out? Then again, did you really care what they thought? They already had a preconceived notion about you. And it wasn’t like the thought of pleasing a man was exactly a bad one... Fuck, you were only human, and a touch-starved one at that, considering you were kept at arms reach unless you were healing the others. 

“Fuck it,” you finally sighed, “I’ll do it.” 

Ghostface sucked in a heavy breath, as if he had been expecting you to decline his advances, but then it was like a switch was flipped. Suddenly his hands were on your shoulders and you were shoved to your knees on the ground, giving silent thanks for the fact you were on grass and not concrete. 

 The sight of the tall cloaked form pulling up his robes was almost amusing until he shoved down his black pants and you were granted a sight that made your mouth water. He wasn’t even fully hard but already you could tell he was big, thicker than you were used to. You weren’t sure if it was due to your appearance, as he had alluded, or if maybe he was just as hungry for human touch, but the fact he was already excited was enough to make your own body react. 

“You back out or don’t finish in time, the deal’s off,” he snapped suddenly. 

“Oh o- Ah, shit!” 

Ghostface silenced your words with a sharp tug on your hair, jerking you forward as he pushed his hardening cock against your face. 

“Time’s ticking, sweets,” he sang teasingly. 

You tossed him a little scowl before getting to work, one hand resting on his toned thigh as the other took hold of him. Your irritation slipped into intrigue and arousal as you slowly stroked his dick, enjoying the way he twitched and sighed way too much for what was undeniably an unconventional situation. As he hardened under your touch, you became dauntingly aware of just how thick he actually was. He had to be a little over average in length but your fingertips couldn’t even touch around it. The moment the first drip of precum rolled out over your fingers, you lost what reservations you held and quickly took him in your mouth. 

“Fu-u-u-ck! That’s what I’m talking about!” he groaned loudly, fingers knotting against your scalp in a burning hold.

Before you had the chance to react, both hands were on your head and you were forced further down his cock. You tried to brace yourself and pull back, but he was so much stronger, pushing until his head was pressing against your throat. It took all of your resolve not to retch as your body instinctively gagged around him, but it didn’t seem to bother him one bit. If anything, he moaned louder, as if turned on by the noises. 

Tears fell from your eyes as you sucked in ragged breaths through your nose every chance you got until he was back in your throat. 

“Come on, babe, I know you can take it,” he moaned, “Be a good little slut and let me fuck that throat nice and raw.” 

A choked moan escaped before you could stop it, your thighs clenching tight in search of relief. While you knew you were a bit of a freak back home, this was a whole other level, and you were disturbed by how much you liked it. Brows furrowing in concentration, you did your best to accommodate him and opened your mouth wide, relaxing your throat with a whimper.

“Shit, that’s it. Good girl.”

Annndd now you were dead. Not physically, of course, but mentally? You were beyond help. The sounds of the realm around you all faded away, even the loud chugging of the dying gen behind you muffled into silence under the sounds of the delicious moans he let out; the squelch of him pounding away at your mouth the only rivaling noise. Rivers of drool ran down your chin as he suddenly thrust forward and buried himself as far as possible, cutting off all traces of oxygen as your nose crushed into his dark pubes. 

For a moment, it all became too much; the dirt against your knees, the slick spit coating your skin, the sticky panties clinging to your wet sex, and the sting of his grip culminating into a massive sensory overload. Eyes popping open, you gawked up at those soulless black holes and tapped at his thigh frantically. To your relief and surprise, he immediately pulled back. 

“What? You good?” he asked, almost sounding concerned. 

You held up a finger and took a moment to breathe, centering yourself as you wiped your mouth clean to remove at least one of the issues. Once you didn’t feel as if you were going to pass out, you met his gaze again. 

“Sorry. Sensory issues,” you explained meekly, “I’m good to go.” 

He paused for a moment, as if debating, so you decided to take it upon yourself to take a breath and swallow him once more. 

“Damn, okay,” he laughed huskily as you dug your nails into his thighs, “Can’t say you’re not determined.” 

His taunting fell way to debauched moans as you found your rhythm once more. 

If it weren’t for the whole “stuck in an alternate reality where you’re sacrificed to a sadistic entity by brutal murderers”, this would absolutely be the hottest thing you’d ever experienced. None of your past partners had ever been as vocal as Ghostface. It was such a turn-on, a praise of the highest sort, and you were soaking it up like candy. 

You tuned out everything around you until all there was, was Ghostface; The sensation of his leather gloves cupping your face, the heady scent of sweat and sex in your nostrils, and his gravelly moans filling your head. 

“Fuck! Gonna come, sweets,” Ghostface groaned as his hips stuttered, “Gonna be good and swallow it all for me?”

Your moan of acknowledgment was met with a harsh curse and his hands once more taking over control. Keeping your teeth in mind, you hollowed your cheeks and traced your tongue along the underside of his cock as he fucked your face hard. There was no denying he was getting too rough, too caught up in his pleasure to care no doubt, but you weren’t about to stop him. The pain was worth the ecstasy thrumming through your veins. You were high on his pleasure. 

There was no further warning before he rammed down your throat with a vicious snarl, shot after shot of cum pulsing from his cock. Deragoatory praises flowed from his lips in an almost whisper as you slowly rubbed his thighs and pulled back enough to breathe and swallow, letting him ride out his orgasm with little thrusts against your tongue. You were more than happy to let him take all he wanted. 

There was a sudden shuffling of fabric and a flash of light that brought your eyes open in confusion, and you were mortified to find his camera pointed down at your face. 

“Gotta document the occasion,” Ghostface purred warmly, “Not every day I get a babe down on her knees for me around here.”

For a moment, you weren’t quite sure what to do with yourself, torn between staring at the literal killer who had just given you the sexiest experience of your life and getting yourself together in preparation to leave. Before you could decide, the sudden jarring chime of the clock rang through the courtyard with a thunder and you all but threw yourself into Ghostface with a shriek, instinctively hiding against the biggest threat in the realm for protection. Heat filled your face as the masked man’s laughter bubbled through the air. 

“Shit, that’s hilarious,” he sighed through laughter, then sighed, “You’re cute, you know that?” 

It took everything in you not to argue with his statement and instead untangle yourself from his legs, getting to your feet as he resituated his clothes. 

“Alright, deals a deal. Who you sacrificing?” he asked. 

“Uh, I didn’t even see who all’s here,” you admit meekly. 

Ghostface put a hand up to his chin as if in thought before saying, “Pretty sure I saw Laurie, Dwight, and Bill before I found you.” 

You nodded in understanding and let out a heavy breath. It felt heartless, but at the same time, you knew it wasn’t as hard of a choice as you were pretending. 

“Bill.” 

“Ol military boy, huh? He piss in your Cheerios or something?” Ghostface asked. 

“I don’t- eh?!”

Your world was suddenly upended and a little oomph of pain escaped your mouth as he tossed you like a sack of potatoes over his shoulder. Any instinctive need to complain was overruled by the throbbing of your cunt as his hand tucked between your thighs and gripped. Fuck, it shouldn’t be, but the way he could manhandle you like you were nothing was just… hot as hell. Clenching your thighs together in hopes of not embarrassing yourself any further, you relaxed into him and let him carry you away toward the gate. 

“Sooo?” he urged. 

Oh yeah. He’d asked about Bill. It was weird, talking to him like that he wasn’t some sadistic killer that had just had his dick in your mouth, but you appreciated his weird attempt at conversation nonetheless. 

“He likes to make fun of my autism,” you explained weakly, “Says I’m making it up for attention and to get out of shit. If only he fucking knew how much I wish that were true. Dude just lived in an age where nobody talked about mental health and disabilities, and those who had the worse versions were just locked away. It’s sad really.” 

Ghostface let out a hum but didn’t bother replying further, instead setting you down on your feet at the gate. When he suddenly gripped your jaw hard and pulled your face up, you watched him with a mixture of curiosity and heat, but your arousal-induced haze evaporated the moment he brandished his knife. 

“G-Ghostface?” you asked warily. 

He chuckled lowly as you swallowed hard and you could only imagine the devilish smirk that was hidden beneath the mask. 

“Just leaving my mark, sweets, gotta let the others know you belong to someone now,” he said, gloved fingers sliding down your throat to stop at your collarbone, “Don’t move, now. Wouldn’t wanna hurt ya~.” 

Standing still as a statue, you closed your eyes and braced for the worst. The sharp sting of his blade right above your breast tore a weak cry from your lips but still, you didn’t dare pull away, obediently allowing him to cut as he pleased. 

Somewhere, in the deep down fucked up part of your brain, you knew you were in trouble when you whined about him pulling the knife away. 

Eyes fluttering open, you looked down and were greeted with the demented sight of a permanent heart with a G carved into your flesh. Before you could comment on it, he suddenly reached up and lifted his mask, giving just a peek of what could only be a beautiful face. His jawline was strong and sharp, surprisingly clean-shaven, and his full cupid’s bow lips were pulled up into a panty-wetting smirk. 

“Yeah, that’ll do nicely,” he groaned.

Oh, his voice. It was smooth, rich, and deep in a way that made your skin prickle. A pained moan fled your lips into his mouth as he kissed you hard. It was rough and messy, with too much teeth and tongue, but you felt yourself melting into him the longer it lasted. Fingers digging into the fabric of his cloak, you tugged him closer and held on for dear life until the ache in your lungs became too much to handle.  

“Can’t wait to see you again, sweets, stay out of trouble,” he teased as you pulled away with a gasp. 

And then he was gone, skulking away around the corner as you slumped back against the exit gate lever. 

Yeah, you were good and fucked.

[raptorian]

Day 🎉 78

AAI2 COLLECTION RELEASE DAY!!!! As a celebration I compiled most of the images I made from the daily series all on one canvas. I left out some doodles (mostly the W.I.P. pics for the plane. Never doing perspective again.) so these are mainly the highlights! I also went back and counted each separate doodle/image I drew of Sebastian/Eustace, totaling to: 49. Forty freaking nine in 78 days. And yes, I am still, not normal about this character (technically I drew him 50 times if you count the doodle on this image).

In all seriousness though I had a lot of fun doing this daily series, and if you wanna hear me ramble more about it you can find it under the cut, otherwise I hope you enjoy playing AAI2 as much as I did!

Welcome.

This won’t be too much about AAI2, so if you’re looking for that then I’m afraid you’re in the wrong place and you should look to my past posts for that!! If you’re still here, thank you for taking the time to hear me reminiscing about all this 👍

For starters, I never expected for me to go as long as I did. After watching the trailer live during the Nintendo Direct I decided that I’d just hop onto my tumblr account I hadn’t used in years to share my hype with everyone else. I had played the fan translation a few years back, and while I certainly enjoyed the game, I wasn’t really crazy about it. So coming out of a bit of a creative burnout, I posted a few doodles and thought that I’d probably stop after a few days.

And then I kept going and going until I just decided, what the heck, why not post something everyday until the game came out? It’d be a fun little thing I could do over the summer + it’d actually get me to practice drawing humans (which I had avoided like the PLAGUE). I genuinely thought that I would last at most 2 weeks.

While I still think I have A LOT I could improve with when drawing people, I’m genuinely happy with how much more comfortable I am drawing them. Here’s just one example of me struggling to draw heads ages ago, god forbid drawing the rest of a person lol.

Honestly the biggest takeaway I want to leave with this is just taking a break every now and then to draw the things you enjoy. And I know, practically every artist says this, but you hear so often how people experience burnouts, have a lack of motivation to draw, or feel like it’s a chore now. Personally for me, I started learning how to draw because I REALLY loved the Wings of Fire series. Similar to now, I’d draw dragons everyday and it pretty much led to me deciding I wanted to become an artist as a career.

I genuinely loved every bit of drawing, but it sort of diminished as I stopped drawing for fun and took it more seriously, leading to me feeling constantly unmotivated for months at a time. Obsessing over the silly Ace Attorney characters reminded me of why I wanted to learn to draw in the first place: so I could create whatever I wanted and be as self indulgent as I wanted lol.

TL;DR: My AA obsession/hyperfixation cured my burnout and brought back my love for drawing, and I recommend anyone who feels the same way to take the time to draw the character, show, game, etc. you love the most!

[gray-ace-space]

Content Warning: m@sturbation

I feel like my sex-drive has increased in the past six months and I’ve been thinking about pleasure more. Today I actually *touched myself * for the first time and it felt so scary. I didn’t actually masturbate but just figured out where things are. Like I’m scared of this thing that allo people have built up and I don’t know if it’s because I’m scared of sex or scared of being let down if it’s not explosively amazing or if it’s some weird Catholic guilt. (Please don’t analyze my religion, it just plays a factor because sex wasn’t talked about openly as something other than reproduction when I grew up)

I also feel like I’m abandoning the ace community. I’ve liked the label gray sexual for years, but it feels like I’m going through puberty way too late (I’m 20).

I wanted to see if any other people here who aren’t sex repulsed felt this apprehension

hi. sorry this took me a long time to get to, i did not have the spoons.

you thinking abt that stuff more is probably a good thing. also none of what you described diminishes your asexuality. you may be right that you're only just experiencing what allos tend to experience much younger but that doesn't mean you're allo suddenly, it's fine. take ur time figuring out what you actually do or do not want and like, it doesn't have to be all or nothing. you're fine. i'm sure there are people here who understand what you feel.

[th3d0nutl0rd]

I know this is probably going to be a response to an old post or something, but in regards to the Alastor shipping controversy, I just want to say thank you. As a demiro myself, it is kinda disheartening to see people toss aside ace/aro characters as all being sex/romance repulsed. Basically stereotyping for the sake of “representation”.

I get people being upset about disrespecting his identity by writing him like any allo character, but my issue is that us demis and greyaces/aros who keep his identity in mind while writing tend to be lumped in with these guys without a second thought because we dared ship an aspec character with someone. It seems extremely gatekeepy in my eyes. Like us aspec who still feel some form of romantic and/or sexual attraction aren’t “enough”.

I understand aces don’t get rep that often, and it is nice to see ace characters when they do come up. But us demis really don’t get a ton of rep either, because we’re often seen as “just normal”.

Hi anon! So, I've not really followed up that post at all, but honestly I really appreciate you taking the time to send me this!

I choose not to label my sexuality, because personally I find that labels can be isolating and cause more harm than good sometimes.

And if you do find a label that makes you feel happy and comfortable and seen then all the more power to you! But my point here is moreso that, sometimes people are going to have complex identities or sexualities that others don't understand. Heck, maybe they don't even understand it themselves. But diminishing someone's identity or to tell them they "aren't doing it right" simply because they experience it a different way to someone else is just ignorant and again, as I said before, it's isolating and can make someone feel awful.

Just let people exist, and let them enjoy characters in a way that makes them feel represented beyond whatever you think that character should conform to. Sorry for the rant, but I'm glad my post resonated with you <3

[twst-kumi]

Weeping Maiden [ACT II]

Warning: slight mention of child abuse

[Act II] CHAPTER 3

Yuu looked beyond confused. How could she be 16? It's only been a few months… suddenly he wasn’t so sure about it. Did the time here flow differently? Or could it be that it didn't affect their original world every time he regressed in this world? 

“_Wait, something doesn't add up… You… You're 16 now?

_Yes, although I don’t know why you are still 16. It's been three years Yuu.”

Yuu paled as he listened to her. Not only did they not keep their part of the deal and imprison his sister here but even if he returned to his world he would have been too late. Maybe she would have already moved on with her life by the time he returned. Yuu couldn't help but imagine if she didn't come here and when he would return. Maybe she would be an international actress, be married, and forget him. 

“_Yuu? YUU!!”

Out of shock, Yuu lost consciousness. He collapsed in her arms, the call of the other sounding only like a muffled sound. All he could feel was the familiar warmth of his sweet sister.

***

Three years ago, Yuu remembered how all this started. 

[Name] had a representation that day, the day of her birthday and his disappearance. She had been asking Yuu to come for days now. And naturally, he accepted. 

“_You are not serious, right? Can you imagine what people would say if they knew you were her brother?

_B…but it's her birthday and…

_You will only bring shame to her! You don’t want that, right? The least you could do as her brother, is not to ruin her life.”

On the eve of her birthday, when he retracted his promise. He saw her get genuinely upset for the first time in her life. For the first time, the small child who always smiled at him latched on to him. He remembered standing in shock as their mother hugged her as his treasure cried and wept in her arms. His father sneered at him before sending him back to his room. That night he didn't get hit, not that it was needed… The biggest blow they could give him was his sister's rejection. 

“_[Name]...”

It hurt him when she ignored him and ran to the car. She didn't want to talk to him, to a betrayer. For Yuu, this was the worst punishment he could get. 

As an apology, Yuu decided to buy her favorite cake. It was there he met her. The young woman’s name was Hatsuko, from what he understood her sister had some history with [Name]. Something about a competition, being robbed of the guy she deserved. Nothing new for him. His sister was popular and while many boys had a crush on him, most of the people always thought her life was easy. A talented child actress, a great dancer, and a young musician… but no one but him knew the hard work and trauma behind it. [Name] was “perfect” because she had to and people diminished her effort and pain under the excuse of beauty privilege.

That day, he struck a deal with Hatsuko. A reckless deal but still a good deal for him. He didn't mind becoming a guinea pig for whatever experiment they planned for his sister. The deal was that they wouldn't touch her.

Yuu couldn't remember anything afterward. He didn't even know why he was in this world or if it was part of said experiment. Afterward, he had the urge to feed Grims the overbolt’s stone. He could tell it was a bad idea and in the first timeline against Azul, Leona’s reaction just confirmed his worry. But it’s only in the fourth timeline after VDC that Yuu decided to try and stop the magical beast from eating the blot. He could forget how surprised he was when Grim attacked him. 

When he woke up back to the first day when he met with Ace and Deuce, he concluded that he died during Grim’s attack. Still, he didn’t think it had been three years, maybe Hatsuko decided that the deal was off.

***

Yuu woke up in the Infirmary, he looked around him to see [Name] sitting next to his bed. He couldn’t help but smile as she was carefully peeling an apple for him. She still looked clumsy in that part. 

“_Are you awake?

_How long was I out?

_During the whole match, Grim complained because he didn’t get to play.

_Really? That does sound like him.”

Yuu groaned before sitting up. He opened his mouth enjoying the fact that his sister was feeding him. It was kinda nice to be spoiled like this. The atmosphere between them was pleasant and completely different from during the overblot. The siblings laughed together as they started to chat. 

“_If you two finished, how about you guys get me an apple too? 

_You’ve got two hands, Leona, use them.”

Said Yuu while glancing at the Lion beastmen. He didn’t bother as he just made a “tch” sound. Ruggie and the other looked at him in awe. After the flying kick, he also talks back!? Yuu looked completely different from his usual “herbivore” behavior.  Leona had a hunch about it, but he was sure now. This was his true personality. His eyes looked more lively too, a stark difference between his tired and indifferent look. No one seemed to notice since Yuu came to NRC, but the boy looked fake in his interaction with them. Like he was just following a script or forcing himself to be friendly. 

The Yuu before them didn’t care much about them. Leona couldn’t help but feel disappointed. Maybe because of his sensible sense but [Name] smelled more like the Yuu he was sure he knew. It was strange, but she felt more familiar than the real Yuu. She smelled more like his herbivore. It was strange since she was a stranger until now. The beastmen could tell something wasn’t right, not just the fact the siblings who were supposed to have three years apart were both 16. At the young girl's explanation, everything kinda made sense. They aren’t from this world, her best theory was that the time didn’t flow the same way. 

None of them seemed particularly worried about it. Leona stared at [Name] for a moment, something about her attracted him. It wasn’t her beauty, he was never one to look at someone’s appearance. The girl glanced at him with pretty doe eyes before glaring at him. He wanted to chuckle at how cute she was. 

“_I’m not going to marry you, even if you're not in your overbolt.

_ Who said I would want to marry you?”

Leona said with a smirk on his face. He wanted to tease her a bit. Ruggie looked at Leona before laughing.

“_ Sheheehee, you proposed to her during your overblot. Your brother will be happy to know that spring has come for you. Even if you almost got killed by your future brother-in-law.

_Shut-up…

_ I would have preferred it if Ruggie was the one who proposed tho…

_What?/Come again?/Huh?”

[Name] chuckled as she could see their shocked face while Ruggie just blushed. She couldn’t help but tease him. He was kind of her favorite in the game. Ruggie didn’t dare to look up, he could feel Yuu’s murderous stare and Leona’s mocking glance.

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[anxiety-and-bees]

Things people have said and asked me after learning I am asexual, and why they are rude and acephobic.

"You just haven't found the right person yet."

Every aspec person has heard this more than once, and everyone saying this, is more or less referring to themself as the right person. Finding the right person will not change our sexuality and implying that it will, is acephobic.

"There's nothing to be afraid of."

We are not afraid of sex. We just don't feel sexual attraction, thus the urge and need for sex is little to none-existing.

"But do you masturbate?"

Asking asexual people if they masturbate is extremely rude and frankly, none of your business. Would you ask a straight or gay person you just met the same?

"You can't be ace because your boobs are so nice and big."

The size of our body parts doesn't dictate our sexuality. Saying someone can't be ace because they have big boobs or a big dick is invalidating, and putting physical appearances over personal feelings and experiences.

"You should come with me to a swinger club."

I really should not, and I don't need to explain to you why this is offensive. Just don't ask asexual people out to a swinger club.

"Why don't you like sex?"

Asexuality has nothing to do with not liking sex. Some aces do, some don't. Again, asexuality is the lack of sexual attraction, not whether or not we like the sexual act itself.

"You aren't ace, you're just straight and making up an excuse to invade lgbtqia spaces."

This is simply not true. We are not sexually attracted to the opposite gender, so we are not heterosexual. This includes heteroromantic aces, because they are still not heterosexual. Aces are and will always be lgbtqia.

"You can't be intimate without sex!"

Of course you can. Having sex is only one type of intimacy. There are so many other ways you can be intimate with each other that doesn't revolve around sex, and having to explain this to you, is actually pretty sad.

"Sex is what separates us from the animals."

Most animals have sex, so this is not even an argument. This is also implying that aces aren't real human beings, which is an extremely hurtful thing to say. Just because we experience life differently than you, doesn't make us any less human.

"You're like a plant then!"

A lot of plants also have sex, so also not really a valid comparison, and once again, diminishing our human experience.

"Soooo.... Send me nudes? It's not sexual to you so you wouldn't mind me seeing your boobs."

This is not only acephobic, but also misogynistic. Of course I'm not going to send you nudes. Just because I'm asexual and doesn't find the human body sexually appealing, doesn't mean I want to fuel your boob obsession. Asexual is not synonymous with not caring who sees me naked. Stop being an objectifying asshole, and treat women and aces with respect.

"How can you fall in love if you're ace?"

Ace people can still experience romantic attraction and fall in love. Implying that we can't fall in love, is acephobic and diminishes romantic attraction and platonic relationships. Even aromantic asexuals can fall in love and want a relationship.

"Wait you're ace? What a waste."

Do I even need to tell you why this is extremely offensive and hurtful? This is once again putting someone's physical appearance over real feelings and lived experiences.

"Your previous partners must have been weak and pathetic in bed."

My previous partners have nothing to do with my lack of sexual attraction and you bringing them into the discussion, is in itself weak and pathetic. They didn't make me ace by being bad at sex, I was always ace. This also suggests that you probably think you can do better and "fix me" but sweaty, you can't. You really can't. No amount of good sex can ever make me any less asexual. It's not how it works.

And finally "I can make you change your mind/fix you/make you like it"

Often said by a man, thinking his dick is made of magic and can "cure" asexuality. Well, your dick isn't magic and we don't need to be fixed. We are not broken. We also can't change our minds, because it was never a choice to begin with. And if you have ever said to an ace person that you can "make them like it", you sound like a rapey creep and need to stop. Just stop.

All of these examples are things that real people have actually said to me. I'm perfectly okay with educating people and answering questions, but there are limits to what I'm willing to share. Some questions are just too rude for me to be polite about.

If you really want to learn about asexuality, you can do some research yourself instead of asking rude and invading questions. And if you absolutely have to ask questions, be polite and don't ask things you wouldn't ask a stranger while standing in line at the grocery store.

[spiderling-space]

This idea is inspired by @zozobegone ‘s this post 

Setting: Grim goes platonic yandere mode when he realizes MC is going to go back to their world

It is written from Grimm's perspective

Italics indicate thoughts

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The Great Grimm

Warning: Unhealthy dependency and friendship

"Henchperson, give me those candies!" Grimm ordered (Y/N) after trying so many times to reach the top shelf.

"Aw, you couldn't reach yourself?" (Y/N) had seen Grimm jumping and trying to climb to take the candies. They didn't do anything but watch him fail for the last 10 minutes, they couldn't help themselves as he was being so cute. "What's the magic word?"

After grumbling a little, Grimm spoke coercively, "Please..."

"That's a good boy!" They patted him on the head before grabbing the candies and giving them to him. 

He started devouring them the moment he got his hand on the candies. He thanked them quickly before focusing entirely on his food. They were just so delicious, he couldn't resist it!

"Honestly Grimm, what will you do once I'm gone?" They sighed as they took a seat in the kitchen.

The words didn't register for Grimm at first. "Eh?" He stopped eating for a moment and looked at them. "What nonsense are you babbling about?"

"Hmm? Oh! Well, you know, it's been months and lots of progress have been done. Crowley finding a way for me to return home is right around the corner." They spoke as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.

"That birdman doesn't do anything but whine and pin all the tasks on us."

"I convinced him to do the actual work and he made a progress on finding a way for me to go home." (Y/N) stood up, walking toward him and kneeling to his height. "I'll give you a secret, I haven't told anyone this." They gulped before smiling, "Crowley found the way for me to go back. We just need ingredients and get some tests done then I'll be able to go back. I haven't told others about it yet because I wanted to have something concrete but since you are like my second family, I wanted you to know first."

Huh, he thought.

Grimm continued eating, ignoring what (Y/N) had said who got up and left the kitchen after sharing their secret. At that moment, it didn't bug him at all since he thought they were joking.

🐱🐱🐱🐱🐱🐱🐱🐱🐱🐱🐱🐱

It didn't even pass a week that (Y/N) started to tell the others that they would be leaving soon and ask their help to get the ingredients and spend their last days together. Meanwhile, Grimm became more and more irritable as the days passed by.

Grimm didn't have a family nor a friend. When he opened his eyes to the world, he was in a back alley by just himself. He fended for himself and decided to become the greatest magician when he heard people talking about Night Raven Collage. He didn't have anyone who supported his dream nor he needed one. He would accomplish it on his own and show everyone how great he was. Of course, things didn't go as planned and he got thrown off the moment he revealed his true self at the entrance ceremony and was even threatened to get eaten. What's worse was that when he returned to NRC, showing the persistence of an NRC student, he was about to be thrown again. That would be the case if it weren't for (Y/N) sticking up for him. He wasn't a sentimental monster and he hated to be called cat by (Y/N) despite his catly activities as they called it. However, deep down he knew it was because of (Y/N) that he became a student in the NRC, getting one step closer to achieving his dream. Heck, he and (Y/N) were considered one student together.

It wasn't just (Y/N) creating him an opportunity that made him care about them, it was everything. They studied together; they slept on the same bed, shared meals and snacks, played games, did homework, complained about the school and students together. Not to mention, how much he enjoyed getting petted, belly rubbed and washed by them. They had each other when no one was around and always stood against overblot student together. In Grimm's eyes, they were an inseparable and astonishing duo; even a family he never had, not that he would say it out loud.

Maybe that was why he was miffed by everything that was going on... What would happen to me if (Y/N) were to go back? Become alone again? Get kicked out of NRC? Have no friends and family? No, that's not going to happen!

As the days passed, the attention he got from (Y/N) diminished gradually, came to a point that he only saw them in classes and when they got back. They were out with another person every day, not sparing enough time for the Great Grimm. 

How dare they, he thought while heatedly huffing and puffing on the couch.

Grimm dearly missed the old times when (Y/N) wasn't obsessed with going back. He didn't even receive enough petting last few days nor they studied together. His mind wandered to their time spent together when he noticed something. (Y/N) would leave everything behind regardless of how important it was when he got into serious trouble or got hurt. They would sweep in to save his neck. It just clicked at that moment. 

He would get into trouble or injured to get their attention on him. However, then the other minions would gather around them too and their attention would be divided. It was not something he wanted. An idea struck in his head after a few minutes of thinking. As expected out of the Great Grimm, it was a brilliant plan.

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"Oh my goodness, Grimm! What happened to your paw-paw?!" (Y/N) rushed to his side, kneeling and examining his paw.

Grimm grumbled acting as if he didn't want to tell them. "Nothing, Great Grimm is fine!"

"Don't be ridiculous! It looks broken!" The worry on (Y/N)'s face was gratifying since he got their attention back.

"Ask your best friends," He answered with faux melancholy, withdrawing his paw near his chest and turning back as if he would leave.

"What does that supposed to mean?" They asked, confussion evident on their face just like Grimm wanted.

"Azul tricked them into doing his work and asked them to collect all the feathers on the roof. Ace and Deuce took me with them then we got into a fight and I fell off the roof." He lowered his head for extra effect.

"And they didn't even take you to the infirmary?!" He managed to get them riled up.

"It was my fault th-"

"That's not an excuse! For fuck's sake! C'mon, we are going to the infirmary." (Y/N) wrapped their arms around Grimm and lifted him en route to the hospital wing.

"Hey (Y/N)! Do you -"

"I can't believe what you two did!"

"What we did?" Deuce mumbled, fearing their wrath.

"Don't talk to me for some time and at least take responsibility and apologize!" (Y/N) stormed off before Ace could finish his sentence. Both Ace and Deuce look perplexed as (Y/N) marched away. Grimm was looking at them over (Y/N)'s shoulder, taking in their puzzled looks and flashing a grin as (Y/N) walked away.

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For the next two weeks, Grimm continues with his plan.

"I swallowed a lot of soapy water." Grimm said as he was rubbing his belly, it genuinely hurt. Swallowing soapy water was more awful than hurting his paw.

"Azul! You promised to not do this and shame on you Jade, Floyd!"

3 more down, plenty to go...

"Leona, have you seen Grimm? He is way smaller than you! How couldn't you realize what your claws would do on Grimm?"

"Ruggie, Grimm got food poisoning because of you! You could have just stolen his food instead of replacing them with expired ones."

"Jack, I've never expected this from you. I'm very disappointed."

"What? What are you talking about?" Jack asked hastily but it fell on deaf ears as (Y/N) didn't even listen to him, grabbing Grimm and leaving them standing.

Woo hoo! My plan is working fantastically! 

"He could have died Kalim if it were higher!"

"Jamil, I thought you would stop making people poison taste. Grimm has been puking all day long because of you!"

Grimm grinned wickedly as he was once again carried by (Y/N).

Wait until I'm done with all of you! HAHA, You cannot defeat me!

Grimm was thinking of new original ways to distance (Y/N) from the rest of Heartslabyul, Pomefiore, Ignihyde and Diasomnia. The last one would be the hardest as he had a powerful competitor who also sought (Y/N)'s attention but it didn't matter, Grim would be the only one!

That was what he thought until Birdman came bearing the news...

"(Y/N)! Good news! All the tests we did on the mirror worked! You can go back now!"

Everything stopped right there and then. 

Grimm was so focused on getting (Y/N)'s affection and attention that he forgot about the tests they were doing on the mirror.

Now I am too late...

"My goodness! Thank you! I missed my home so much! I'll start saying my goodbyes!" (Y/N) spoke rapidly, they truly were happy to hear the news.

Happy to leave me all alone!

"No worries, they all gather around the magic mirror, waiting for you." Birdman informed, "Are you coming now?"

"Yes!" (Y/N) said before turning to him, taking him in arms and carrying him outside.

That is not how it was supposed to go...

As they were walking outside before leaving the Ramshackle perimeter, Grimm jumped on the ground.

"What's wrong?" (Y/N) stopped to ask.

"What's wrong?!" Grimm couldn't contain it anymore. everything was too much.

"(Y/N), do you need a moment to say goodbye to the dorm?" Birdman questioned, getting closer to where they were standing.

"Uhm... yes... I mean I spent months here so I should say goodbye to it. You can go, we will catch up in a moment."

With that Birdman walked away, leaving (Y/N) and Grimm alone.

"Is there something you wanted to talk about?" They asked idiotically. 

Are they too dumb to understand?

As Grimm was about to tell them what was on his mind, unfiltered, he felt a power within himself. A power that wanted to surge out of him and he let it since he had nothing to lose anymore.

"You will leave me all alone!"

"But you already knew that, Grimm. This place isn't my home and if I took you with me, you would be discovered and people would do experiments on you." Their voice was so soft as they tried to reason with him but none of them mattered.

"We are one student together, you can't leave until I graduate!" The power inside of him grew even more.

"Well, Crowley said he-"

"We fought the monsters together. We are a team, you called me your son!" He could feel that power getting closer

"I-" He wasn't going to let them speak anymore!

"So you see me as a family but you abandon me!" He felt the power leak outside and he didn't even care about it.

"GRIMM!" (Y/N) yelled, taking a few steps back. "I, I, I changed my mind, we will be together!"

"You want me to have no one again!" Grim screamed, not even noticing how his voice changed. "AAAAAHHH!"

Everything went black for a moment and the second he reopened his eyes, everything was different. He was no longer looking up to (Y/N); he now was looking down on them. They were so tiny.

"YOU CANNOT LEAVE!" Grimm screeched when he saw (Y/N) backing and running away. He jumped, landing right in front of them who fell on the ground from the shock and still trying to crawl away.

"G-Gr-Gr-Grim, i-i-it's me! We are friends, remember? I know you wouldn't hurt me because we are family, innit?"

"It is too late for everything but you are right. We are family..." Grimm said, his voice echoing, giving it more menacing feelings. 

Grimm was no longer waiting for (Y/N) to understand that they couldn't leave him. He had no intention of waiting anymore. He leaned towards them slowly, biting their clothing and lifting them.

It was always (Y/N) who carried Grimm around relentlessly now it was Grimm's turn. Once he was sure that they wouldn't fall, he took off, running away from the Ramshackle, leaving NRC behind.

[bottomvalerius]

I think people are getting it twisted on how you use canon to influence your headcanons, and they also don’t understand where things are just clear bi or even ace erasure for the hell of it.

There’s a clear difference between me being like “I know that Asra doesn’t react too angrily to MC dating Lucio in canon, but I think it would be interesting to explore if he did” versus “I do not like acknowledging that Asra is bisexual because of my own comfort with terms, so I will say he is pansexual.” You’re not complicating the narrative, you’re not exploring new avenues, you’re not even engaging with their sexualities in meaningful ways: you’re taking away a part of this character’s identity for no reason. It’s the same with Asra being non-binary: again, we can be critical of how the devs have handled it and offer our own interpretations or ways of representing it based on our experiences, but to flat out way “no, Asra is a man and death to the author” is just. In such poor taste and I don’t understand why people insist on going down that rabbit hole with gender and sexuality. (As a note: I’m speaking very generally here and have seen some people say this on my other Asra post, so I’m addressing it here too because. My blog. LMFAO)

There are aspects of the narrative you can ignore or change, yes. I do it all the time in my writing to enrich the story. But erasing sexualities or retelling them isn’t affecting the story in the same way at all, and it just seems to come off to be in poor taste in the least.

Every LI is bisexual. They have no clear preference for male, female, or non-binary partners and there has been very little in canon to suggest that. All of them have, pretty much, been in secondary relationships with one another or flirted with one another regardless of gender.

Nadia loves men. Nadia was married to a man, willingly, and shows clear interest in men such as Muriel in all of the other routes. She is not less of a strong female character because she’s attracted to men, and I’m exhausted of people pushing the narrative that she’s this repressed lesbian because ew men. We can make jokes about her dating Lucio of all people, but that isn’t attacking her sexuality. And in the same breath: Portia also loves men! You can’t just take that away from her, and how dare you try to diminish the male fans (especially trans masc fans!!) who prefer Portia or Nadia ???

If you want to explore or headcanon specific aspects of sexuality, not as in who they are attracted to, but HOW they are attracted to people, go for it. Flesh out how you think Julian handles new relationships or how many partners he’s really had! Explore how Muriel would approach initial sexual encounters with new partners! Apply headcanons to your own MC or self-insert characters too if you’re only comfortable writing within that framework. But don’t simply erase what little the Arcana has going for it for the sake of making these sweeping generalizations about the characters that are, inherently, unfounded.

[cherrybombfangirlwrites]

Happy STS!

Amazon or Netflix want to adapt your WIP! Assuming you have complete creative control what would your requirements be in order to make it a product that is up to your ideal standards?

@bloodlessheirbyjacques

Happy STS!

if anyone came to me and offered to turn any of my wips into a movie/tv show (which is a dream come true in of itself), here are my requirements that they have to agree to or I won't even start discussing the adaptation with them. I'll start with general and then go into more specific stuff for each wip:

(fair warning, I switch between referring to the people who are looking to adapt my wip as you and they, so if it gets confusing I'm sorry I don't have the spoons to go through and fix it today)

General Requirements:

whatever actors you cast, they have to be a part of the communities that the character is in. black characters must be played by black actors, trans characters need to be played by trans actors, nonbinary characters have to be played by nonbinary actors, jewish characters have to be played by jewish actors, etc etc. THIS IS NON-NEGOTIABLE. i'm not going to let my characters end up like MCU Wanda Maximoff, we're better than that. i don't care if it means we can't hire more mainstream actors, we'll find less known actors or even bring actors into the industry

(this especially applies to fat characters, don't cast skinny people that go on a diet to become 'fat' aka the average and perfectly healthy body type. just cast plus size actors! and we're not going to edit them to look skinnier during the editing process either!)

(as far as queer characters go, the actor doesn't have to be the exact orientation/identity that the character is, especially for super specific labels and if there's intersectionality with other communities, but they should at least be under the same umbrella label or feel like they can identify with it- i.e. aro/ace characters should be played by people that are in the general community of aro/ace, if they are not the same microlabel that the character is; if the character uses pronouns that the actor doesn't use the actor does need to be comfortable with it)

if there is anything they want to leave out or gloss over for the sake of time, THEY BETTER CLEAR IT WITH ME FIRST. most arcs and plot lines i don't want to be left out or glossed over, but i might be able to make an exception if they clear it with me first

don't hold back on the trauma. if we need to make it a little more family friendly, i don't mind censoring or leaving out swear words and violent stuff. but we are not going to censor trauma and mental health issues- the good, bad, and especially the ugly.

it's got to look cool and awesome. i'm sorry, but if you can't pull that off, you have no hope of adapting my books.

no oversexualization or infantalization of any characters allowed. that's gross, and it diminishes the experiences of those characters and the communities they are in, and fans can get real creepy real fuckin fast. we're not doing that. (i know some viewers will do that anyway, but we're not going to make it worse by contributing to it)

whatever flaws the characters have, we are going to show it as it is with no bias, and if that character genuinely tries to fix their mistake and apologizes, we are going to make it clear that this is a good thing and that the character doesn't need to be bashed for what they did (and vise versa for when a character makes a mistake and doesn't apologize or try to fix it, we need to show that this is bad)

let the disabled people be funny, and not even just sarcastic, let them be dumb and have senses of humor (sometimes dark humor bc it's my writing but humor nonetheless)

for all of the marginalized communities being represented, we will need consultants from each one and we are going to listen to what the general communities have to say (of course we can't represent every individual's experience, but we are NOT going to bring bad representation to the table- it's going hard but it needs to be done).

overall; we're not going to gut my stories and characters and cut stuff out so that it's "palatable" and so you can sell it to the "preferred" audience. we're going to keep as much of the story and characters as possible, and keep it all true to the character's identities/arcs and the story's purpose as much as possible. I guarantee that there are people out there who will want to watch it.

any corporations/directors/producers that can't or won't comply with my requirements better keep their filthy hands away from my books. no adaptation privileges for you.

if the adaptation is going to be animated, you better be hiring voice actors and not celebrities to voice the characters (I will allow one very small celebrity cameo, but it has to be someone who's actually cool- like Danny DeVito- and it can't be any of the main characters or bigger side characters)

whichever way it goes, animated or live action, you will give the animators and or cgi people adequete time and pay- my adaptation will not have shitty animation/cgi where it's clear you treated the animators and cgi artists like shit

I wouldn't mind a movie series, but I really would prefer a tv show because that will respect the original form more and will have more screen time so that we won't have to cut things out- so if you want to turn my series into a tv show, that will shoot you right to the top of my list

the cast needs to be as close to the character's ages as possible. i understand that with child labor laws its more practical to do it with actors over the age of 18, but the actors need to at least look as close as possible the ages the characters are (if the character is 15, they better look like 15 and not 20 or 25). the ages the characters are do matter to the story and the themes!

Fractured Stars Falling

specific requirements:

you better not villainize any characters for their mistakes that they later try to make up for- especially Tris (after being dead her emotions become unstable and she has anger issues where she didn't before. she hurts some of the other characters due to these anger issues and trauma in general and later apologizes. If you demonize that and can't recognize that it's a human flaw and mistake that she learns from, you better get your grubby hands away from my books). the reason the mcs mess up and hurt each other sometimes is because of trauma that they're trying to heal from, and the mcs actively try to fix it and make up for what they did- and we're going to show that as it truly is

(I say this ^ specifically because there's going to be a lot of characters messing up and hurting people they love because of trauma)

the makeup department better have the right tools and personell to actually handle working with textured and naturally curly hair like Tris's and making it look like real textured hair, otherwise no deal (there's a whole range of characters with naturally curly hair, so have at least one to three hair people trained to handle it) *And they're in a fantasy world inspired by the ancient world- so we're not straightening any hair either!

going off of that, the makeup team better be properly equipped to do makeup for POC, and make them look just as good as any white character (there's only three white characters and they're all naturally curly pale girls so you're gonna need a lot of makeup people who can do this)

Absolutely no infantalizing my aroace/queer and autistic and adhd characters, Snow, Raven, Sapphire, and Triveya, is allowed. they are not children, they are people in their late teens/early twenties who act as such, with diverse personalities and experiences. we are not going to portray them as these innocent and childlike people- we're going to portray them exactly as they are- and all of them are feral and not innocent at all. (except maybe Snow, but just because she's gentle and kind doesn't mean she's an innocent ball of sunshine- she's gentle and kind because she chooses to be)

I don't care if you code Triveya and the Witch Queen's interactions as fruity, but you have to execute it properly (they way I'm writing it currently, it could go either way platonic or romantic and it honestly doesn't matter) if you handle it poorly, i'm taking my books and leaving

as far as the sign language goes, don't bullshit your way through it. it doesn't take much to learn basic sign language, and the characters in the story even have to go through a learning curve themselves bc it's a sign language that only Cass and her crew know anyway that I based on ASL in our world- have the actors learn some basic sign language, and the actress who plays Cassandra better be someone who is actually deaf and (if possible) mute

Tris's actress needs to be black, plus sized, and a trans woman

Prince Kaye's actor needs to be latino and have OCD (since he's more bisexual coded than explicitly bi, I'll let it slide if the actor isn't bi)

Snow's actress needs to be asian and aroace (they don't have to be sex/romance repulsed, but they should be comfortable with it)

Lan's actor does need to be nonbinary, aroace, and POC mixed

Cassandra's actor needs to be deaf, mute, plus sized, and pansexual (i might allow it if they're bi or polysexual, but they have to be comfortable with it and the community has to be comfortable with that person portraying them)

Erica's acress needs to be lesbian, an amputee, and polynesian

Max's actor does need to be gay and black

Prince Monty's ethnicity isn't specifically specified, but he is POc and middle eastern coded, so the actor should fall somewhere in there. oh and the actor needs to be gay, in case it wasn't obvious

Elliot's actor needs to be trans

Hestia's actor needs to be plus sized, preferrably some flavor of queer, and they don't have to have an anxiety disorder but they better portray it accurately

Raven's actor has to be latino, bisexual, and autistic

Sapphire's actress needs to have ADHD, and be ace (they don't have to be demisexual specifically but they do have to be ok with acting in that role)

Triveya's actress does need to be autistic and adhd, and some flavor of queer (or better yet, unlabled themselves)

as for side characters and antagonists, there's more free reign to hire whatever actors you want (just let me approve them first). so if there's an actor you're dead set on hiring or a celebrity actor you want to hire for popularity there ya go

The City is Ours

There will be no romanticizing or apologizing for Jason's behavior at all. I'm not letting him become the Tony Stark of the fandom (again, I know some viewers will see right past it and excuse his behavior, but we're not going to make it worse by encouraging and even contributing to it)

just like with Cass and the other characters in FSF; don't bs the sign language Kylee and the others use to communicate- just get Kylee's actress and the other actors to learn basic sign language at least. we're not taking any shortcuts

while we're on the subject of Kylee's character, an autistic actress is required. i will die before i let this end up like the Sia movie that shall not be named. finding an actress that's actually autistic to play Kylee is top priority

it needs to be made clear that Nickelle's arc should be handled with care- she's not the bad guy, but her actions also can't be excused. if you can't handle her arc the way it needs to be handled and show it as it is, no deal.

(^ same goes for the relationship with her family- they're not bad people, but they do do wrong on Nickelle's part sometimes due to generational trauma, and that needs to be handled with care)

(^^^ going off of that, Vira does have struggles with their identity and how they fit into their muslim community as a nonbinary person (and their family does their best to be supportive even if they don't understand), which needs to be handled with care as well. get this right or we're done! > with that being said, V's actor also needs to be nonbinary and muslim, in case you couldn't tell)

i'm not going to let Chase end up like MCU Wanda and Pietro- CAST AN ACTOR WHO IS JEWISH, ROMANI, AND HAS BIPOLAR DISORDER/BPD (he's either going to have BPD or bipolar disorder, I'm trying to handle this decision with care). If you can't manage that, you can't adapt my books, plain and simple

Damian (Asher's boyfriend), doesn't really have a specified ethnicity as of now (I know he's going to be POC mixed, but there's no details as of now), but just know that his actor will need to be POC, so if you can't handle that, leave now bc there's no hope for us ever working together

Vira and Nightmare's enemies to lover arc is mainly for comedic purposes, but I won't mind too much if you sprinkle a little angst in there (but once again, handle it properly or you're done)

also, we're not going to excuse the actions of the police in this series, not happening. if you even think about glorifying/apologizing for the police and their awful actions we are done

i get that a lot of scenes are going to be in a dark city at night, BUT THE VIEWERS STILL NEED TO SEE WHAT'S GOING ON. I don't really care how you do it, but figure out how to create a light source that's enough when stuff needs to be visible. (i love you DC but please for the love of god give us a little light please we can't see what's even happening on screen sometimes-) use neon lighting if you must (in fact i highly encourage it) *however if you have to use flashing lights we better be making a version or way to tone down or take out the flashing or at the very least put a warning on it so that it's accessible to epileptic people and people with sensory issues***

Nickelle's actress does need to be aroace and japanese

Asher's actor does need to be latino and gay

if you wanted an american white girl so bad, Gabby is your girl

Kylee does need to be autistic (I would prefer if the actress is more nonverbal or uses sign language for most communication, but if we can't find someone, make sure they at least know basic sign language). the actress also needs to be at the very least some flavor of queer, but she should try to find someone who is pan and asexual or has a deep understanding of it

Bryson does need to be black, this should be obvious (and if I do end up having him be a part time wheelchair user, the actor should be a wheelchair user too)

V needs to be nonbinary and muslim, in case you forgot

if there's a celebrity white male actor that you want to cast really badly, he can go in Jason's role, there you go

Once again, just a friendly reminder, Chase's actor needs to be jewish, Romani, and have BPD/bipolar disorder, and they should be as close to pansexual and aromantic as possible (they should be aromantic at the very least in the queer department)

Before the Stars Burn Out

(I have a lot less bc this is the least developed of my introduced wips)

Corie's actor better be an actual amputee (the actress doesn't have to have all of the same missing stuff that Corie does, but they should be an amputee), and they've got to have darker skin too, can't be a white girl with an aggressive tan. Corie's actress also needs to be aro and ace coded (they don't have to be the exact aroace orientation that she is, but they do have to be in both communities), this is non-negotiable

you can cast whoever you want for Lonnie, since he's full non-earthian and as of right now, aliens don't exist (if aliens do exist and we find them before this comes out, we better cast a non-earthian actor /j)

Aries, on the other hand, as xe's half earthian and POC, does need to have a POC actor. they also need to be agender (they don't have to use the same pronouns that Aries uses, but they should be comfortable with it)

if I do end up having Pandora as a wheelchair user, the actor better be a wheelchair user too (and they better be middle eastern and have adhd/autism and tourettes- there's seven billion people on earth, if there's a chance we can find someone who fits that criteria be better start looking). a hijabi actor is not required, but Pandora's character is friendly to hijabi actors as he is heavily coded as a hijab wearer- ergo they get first dibs on the role

(hijabi actors deserve to have roles where the character isn't explicitly a hijab wearer but the actor can wear theirs and not worry about taking it off. that's why Pandora is hijab friendly/coded without being explicitly so)

i know it's sci-fi so there's more likelyhood for flashing lights- just please make it as accessible as possible for epilepsy and sensory issues as humanly possible- there's an epileptic character for fucks sake, we can't make it inaccessible to the people that are excited to see themselves in a character. if possible, make it so that the flashing is at a minimum, add flash warnings, make the sections with flashing easy to skip, or even make a second version that doesn't have flashing

once again, Corie's actress needs to be an amputee and some flavor of aro and ace, as well as have a naturally darker skin tone (and not just pale with an aggressive tan)

Lonnie is non-human and the token straight guy. you can go wild with the casting on this role

Nova's actress does need to be bisexual and epileptic. since they're an android, the actor's ethnicity doesn't matter so much, but it would be super cool if you did someone that's not white

Astra's actress needs black and a lesbian

Pandora's actress, once again, needs to be autistic and adhd, tourettic, and middle eastern (hijab wearering actors get first dibs), also as close to pansexual as possible

Castor's actor does need to be trans and plus sized (and preferably short because he's the short king)

Aries's actor does need to be agender, POC, and preferably some flavor of neurodivergent (but it's not required)

Hades is an infant and possibly a toddler later on, do what you gotta do (if you wanna go cgi, go for it; if you want to find an actual baby and pair that with cgi, do it)

Well that was fun :D (got a little venty and super critical of the mainstream film industry there in a couple of spots but it's fine)

Thanks @bloodlessheirbyjacques !

[izzyliker]

hey - this is one of the mods of the bi jon project. we don't actually dislike or disagree with pan jon at all, we just want to make a project focused on and celebrating bisexuality. our carrd is a bit rambling, but frankly we were trying our best/overcompensating to try and make sure people didn't misunderstand us and do - well, this. our intentions are good, and it's really kind of disenheartening to see all the hate we've gotten for what was meant to be a positive project. (1)

you're under no obligation to answer these, but i saw some of your posts in the tag and felt like reaching out because you did give us even the tiniest bit of slack in good faith. honestly, if you have any advice about what in our carrd is so overwhelmingly bad, we'd be happy to hear it. we've been trying to respond to the overwhelming amount of criticism we've got in a positive way, and take peoples' suggestions. (2)

as for why 'no anti-antis' was at the bottom of our rules list, it's legitimately bc we were trying so hard to be preventative about this negativity that we forgot to add it when we first posted the blog, and just remembered later. again, you're under no obligation to answer these, i just feel like no one's really actually letting us defend ourselves/are taking things in as bad faith a way as possible. (3)

im not exactly sure how the posts showed up in the tag bc ive been very purposefully not tagging them, also ive blocked all of you back (not sure why you blocked me if you actually want feedback, so it seems more like you just want free positive pr and not actual feedback) so its unlikely youll see whatever it is that i reply to this but whatever. 

the issues have all been repeatedly brought up to you so i dont really see how me repeating all of them once again could help. when i last looked at the cardd the things that stood out immediately included. 

pitting ace & bi identities and people against each other REPEATEDLY,  

starting off with a guilt trippy tone and maintaining it throughout (in my experience this is the #1 best way to receive backlash because people do not want to participate in events where you feel like youre being guilted into it, which going into scrutinizing detail over there not being enough content and passing judgement onto authors or artists over it is something that comes across as guilt trippy.),

repeatedly equating asexuality with sex repulsion (not to get into the misleading information about modteam aspec identity breakdowns, since you claimed that 3/4 of the team are aspec, which is technically correct, but what you didnt say was that only one is acespec. surely you know that [allosexual] aro and [alloromantic] ace are not interchangeable) and calling using biromantic over bisexual a “misunderstanding” of the identity as if how to define romantic vs sexual attraction (how to divide, if or if not to divide, use interchangeably different labels) isnt a deeply personal choice ace people who experience romantic attraction make, 

claiming that bisexual jon is canon (he isn’t. this is why people are suspicious of anti-other mspec identities sentiments. which theyre right, if youll be so kind as to stick around til the last paragraph) and repeatedly implying that the reason there isnt “enough” content centering bi jon because the aces are simply unable to not fixate on his asexuality (again, pitting identities against each other),

making the banned ship list way needlessly confusing and including ships that dont even include jon to it, which simply comes across as some kind of a list of bad ships, idk. a way to bypass this would simply be to say “we are looking for portrayals of healthy relationships!” and that couldve just been it. if you felt that that wouldnt exclude specific ships (eg. jondaisy that a lot of people write as a relationship between trauma survivors who have done very bad things trying to get better and learning to trust each other) it is possible to simply say “the modteam is squicked[/triggered] by ships with daisy/elias/peter and we’d like to read all of the works submitted so we’re asking not to receive submissions with those ships.” hating ships is literally completely normal but making rules hard to parse is going to attract questions, especially when the implication is that ships are excluded on the grounds of morality, and a blatant power difference ship (jonelias) is equated with jondaisy, which is from what ive seen almost exclusively shown to be a relationship between equals. that makes people EXTREMELY confused about where the line is. thats why youre getting so many questions about this.  

in general the carrd was spotty, guilt trippy, and needlessly moralizing where it definitely did not need to be. the key to getting people to engage without getting backlash is to make the event seem fun. when your carrd is filled with stuff about unrelated negative stuff people are not going to think it’s a fun event at all. 

and none of this even gets into the fact that at least one of the mods has a history of open hostility against pan people. i heard through the grapevine that he has since made a fauxpology about it, but frankly it already shone through in the language used in the event descriptions. its extremely hard to take any of this is good faith when it is easy to see that one of the organizers is quite fucking clear about thinking pansexuality is biphobic and the carrd is or at least used to be full of anti-pan (and other mspec identity) dogwhistles, and is notorious in some of the tma fic author circles for being extremely fucking nasty about trans men writing fic he doesn’t like to the point of pretending that we’re all cis people (in case youre not keeping track that is misgendering us by implication) because he doesn’t like it. i think some of you (or maybe all of you? idk) in general could stand to examine whether your engagements and participations in the fandom have been at all about having fun or adding positivity to anything, or simply making posts about what other people are doing wrong. it seems that every post i see from anyone in this group is guilt trippy and authoritative, and sadly this translated directly into the event. 

when youre, say, a trans man whose first touch to one of the mods was a post about how fic where trans men have piv sex with cis men is hurting him personally and making it a moral issue and not a matter of a simple preference to the point where he feels comfortable making claims about the trans men (and transmasc nonbinary people) writing fic about trans characters re: their gender or whether theyre fetishizing trans men, your willingness to engage in good faith with an event hosted by him that features numerous red flags is not going to be unconditional. 

im sorry to hear that it has been bad for your mental health, and idk whats fucking going on with this event anymore, but my good faith interpretations have diminished significantly since i saw the shit tmc specifically has been saying about pansexual people and pansexuality as an identity label. i have no clue where the rest of you stand but tmc has repeatedly, consistently shown himself to be unable to act in good faith towards anyone other than people who agree with him.  

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My Top Posts in 2021

#5

Time for the second week of GreatAce.Club! Are y’all having as much fun as I am?

78 notes • Posted 2021-02-08 14:01:07 GMT

#4

@myownlittlebookcorner April Shelf-Confidence Book Photo Challenge April 24, 2021: Ev’rybody Wants To Be A Cat

Featuring Amadeus’ tail!

82 notes • Posted 2021-04-24 17:01:16 GMT

#3

Good morning ace book friends, what a great day to be ace and love books

83 notes • Posted 2021-04-06 15:00:54 GMT

#2

Asexuality in Hello World

As we begin to see more asexual characters in media, and as asexuality becomes seen more in the mainstream, creators may begin to think about how to incorporate asexual characters into their work. What do you think about how Scott talks about his sexual attraction? Does it match with your own feelings as being ace?

Scott is one of my favorite canon asexual characters; in my original review of Hello World, I mentioned that the book was sci-fi with queer characters, and I still stand by that. Scott early on talks about sexual attraction, but that’s just a part of who he is, just like how he is a hacker, or how he is a brother. The book is not about being asexual, but he still is. It is a part of his character and important to be mentioned.

I think it can be s struggle for authors and creators who want to show and not just tell that their character is asexual; if what you are creating isn’t something that discusses sex, if there isn’t a romance-type element, how can you show their sexual attraction? I think that Sinclair and Tauber do a great job showing Scott’s asexuality without it having to turn into A Thing. They show us he is asexual in a plot relevant way; someone flirts with him and he has an internal moment where he is amused by her advances. Then the plot moves on.

I love Scott so much, and I love how deliberate his asexuality is. More of this, please.

90 notes • Posted 2021-05-11 15:01:05 GMT

#1

On Siren Songs

Siren songs are usually about wanting, luring people to the depths with longing. Often in popular culture, the songs have a sexual nature. What other types of longing do you think could lead people into the sea?

First of all, I highly recommend that you search the siren tag on Tumblr, there are a bunch of posts that I laughed out loud about.

As I mentioned in my last post, mermaids and sirens were not huge in my childhood or young adult obsessions. But I have absolutely loved some of Tumblr’s takes on the matter.

The implication of the siren song has often had a sexual nature, especially when sirens were portrayed as female presenting creatures, generally with boobs. 

There’s definitely some metaphor there for women having implied power over men, using their sexuality to control them so to speak. I think this can be evidenced by some posts that are like “if I saw a girl with her tits out singing on a rock, I’d definitely drown trying to get to her.” And I think this can be a place where women could have power, especially in a patriarchal society where one may have to leverage what they can. Some sirens of myth understand this and use it; others offer longing in a different, nonsexual way.

I think this is an interesting place where asexuality and mythology can create something new and exciting. If you do not experience sexual attraction, what would your siren song be? Of course, we have the joke posts about cake or space, but if you really stop to think about it, there is so much more to longing than sexual longing. To limit a sirens and sirens’ songs to only being about sexuality diminishes humanity at the same time.

I think humans have always longed for something and always will long for something and that there is something about the ocean that brings that longing out. 

What do you think?

203 notes • Posted 2021-02-03 17:00:49 GMT

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So, I’m trying to articulate my thoughts on Valhalla and gender, which is sparked by the fact that, while Lagertha is prominently mentioned as the mother of the Ragnarssons (and you can find her axe), we never hear so much as a word about Aslaug/Thora, who is pretty much the real protagonist of Ragnar’s saga. 

On one hand: Lagertha is pretty much at a high of popularity right now, courtesy of Vikings (derogatory). On the other hand: Aslaug is in Vikings (derogatory) too. We see her AS THE MOTHER of most of Ragnar’s sons. There’s no reason for her NOT to be recognizable enough to be included. (Lagertha’s inclusion is also problematic - Instead of being able to divorce Ragnar and have her own life, they went the cheap route by having her being shot by a Finnish arrow.) But, at the end of the day.....it feels like, while Valhalla DOES include a diverse range of women (including our protagonist), ultimately there is....some sort of hierarchy involved, where women who fight, or at least wield weapons are automatically seen as better? 

Of our two longterm romantic interests, neither one wears a dress, both of them in traditionally masculine clothing, likewise for Ciara in WOTD. With Randvi, we’re first really invited to pity her/consider her as a really viable romantic option when we hear that she COULD have been a Jomsviking....had she not been married off to Sigurd. We see her taking down bandits, drinking ale, and we’re supposed to think, at that point, that she’s a worthy love interest. 

There’s this rather confusing line from the artbook, which says: 

“As a strategist, Randvi does not dress in a warrior’s outfit, but neither does she wear the typical women’s clothing of her time.” 

Which...seems to imply that being a strategist (a role that primarily involves her being behind a table), is automatically at odds with wearing a dress. Even if 9th century Scandinavian clothing was restrictive (it isn’t - We’re well, well before the days of tightlacing here, and women had to be able to go about their daily chores, and even IN the days of tightlacing as the peak of fashion, plenty of women didn’t, or went about their daily chores), she’s not doing anything that involves intense manual labor. Putting her in pants is simply a way of saying “Look! Look at Randvi! Look at how independent she is!” which....actually doesn’t work, when almost EVERY OTHER major female NPC is ALSO in pants. Including Valka who, as a völva, ergo a non-combatant role that mostly involves eating shrooms in her huts, has no practical need for pants, even if, once again, the clothing was impractical. If I didn’t know What A 9th Century Norsewoman Should Look Like, I would just assume that this was something that all noblewomen did. 

It’s very rare to see women actively weaving, as I’ve discussed before, with Eivor only weaving as one of the disguises that she can take to blend in. As a shieldmaiden who’s up and about constantly, I honestly wouldn’t expect Eivor to devote that much time to weaving, but it is a little jarring when the women who are constantly at the settlement don’t so much as mention it, since this was a great opportunity for women to get together, share gossip, tell tales, talk shit about the men, etc. in their own spaces. And there was a bit of an anxiety around it, because, while this was a necessary function for the creation of clothing (which, in the game, seems to just materialize in chests over the game world), it also was tightly associated with magic and sorcery. (Hence why there was a stigma against men practicing magic....unless you’re Odin, in which case Loki will talk shit about you but is anyone else? No. Because you’re Odin.) I want to emphasize that my issue here isn’t “STAY IN THE KITCHEN AND BE A PROPER WOMAN, EIVOR”, it’s more....erasing what the vast majority of women in the Viking Age DID. 

The closest we get to more traditional, more conventional women would be in the form of the religious women, but, from the Anchoress to the one murderous nun in the mysteries event to Frideswid in the Lunden Arc to Acha in the Lincolnscire arc, they tend to be portrayed as either zealous and evil or confused and easily manipulated, which ignores the reality for many medieval women, which is that, for many women who didn’t want marriage for one reason or another (whether it was that they were facing the possibility of a forced marriage, or they had no dowry, or they were lesbians, or they were ace, or they were any combination of those things), it was their one chance at a life of their own. I’m not saying that it was IDEAL, or that the medieval church was ideal, but it did give them options (that, incidentally, in the pre-Christian times....you didn’t have. Which is why I don’t attach any real sense of horror to Christianity coming to Ireland, at LEAST from the standpoint of women’s rights. There are other aspects to that, but we’re here, in 9th century England, so I won’t go into it.) No, it has to come from some moral defect, otherwise, they would be independent, like Eivor, like Randvi, like Petra, like Eadwyn, like Valdis, or even like Fulke, who is a religious figure referenced, extensively, as mad and heretical, but who makes a large impact on the plot and at least earns some level of respect, as opposed to the others who make relatively brief appearances.

Now, when discussing women warriors, there tends to be some moral value attached to it: “Women warriors DIDN’T EXIST, and if you argue that they DID, you just want women to be men, ignoring that non-femme women might find comfort in the knowledge that they aren’t alone”, often with a sense of moral guilt-tripping over “Erasing women’s suffering” (which also falls into the trap of assuming that being a woman = suffering, or that that’s the defining experience of being a woman) VS “Women warriors EXISTED and they were #NotLikeOtherGirls and that’s ALL we’re going to talk about as far as women at the time, as well as ignoring any potential evidence for trans or otherwise nonbinary identities”. Both options have the potential to erase or diminish what either option can mean to people. I hate both options equally, and I find that the way they’re brought in is incredibly manipulative. I’m not interested in saying that putting an axe in a woman’s hand = setting back feminism for twenty years. I’m not interested in saying that having essentially no more conventional women in the main cast = feminism. Both are bad, but what I’m concerned about is the lack of nuance in Valhalla and how it seems to assume that there’s ONLY ONE WAY to have power. (I’d hoped that Lady Eadwyn would be cool, and she is....even though we only see her in armor, she’s kind of what I would expect from a medieval woman, in the sense that her husband was Ealdorman and now she’s following in his footsteps, defending her rights as his widow, but then we replace her with a dude.)

As someone whose relationship to gender is Weird, I actually really, really enjoy playing a female character who has the kind of independence that Eivor has - I enjoy getting to jump around, killing things in a gloriously rendered historical environment. I enjoy that, with the exception of Dag, no one really questions it (though I would have been down for a more in-depth examination of gender in the Viking Age). I enjoy that Eivor is compassionate, clever, and aggressive, and that she’s able to have romances with both sexes. I’m not trying to nuke her via historical accuracy here (especially since the historical reality of shieldmaidens is SUCH a hot topic, I feel like wading into either end of the historical accuracy pool is a recipe for disaster) because I actually really, really like her as a character. There are relatively few times where I really, really identify with and love a main female video game character, especially since, so often, even into the present, when things are supposed to be better, I can still TELL that they were made by and for straight men, and this is one. What I AM saying is that I hate that it comes at the expense of basically every woman who ISN’T a warrior or otherwise “independent” by the game’s standards. You do have merchant women, the tattoo artist in camp, Valka, as mentioned before, but it all goes back to that point - We never really see a prominent woman running the household, managing the money, giving orders, which was an immensely important, powerful job, and as a result, it always feels kind of halfway done, that we’re over-representing one relationship to gender at the expense of another.