#all i know is i’m very adhd and autistic

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

[themanirealityshifter]

once again, not shifting related, but see, i have a lot of things that come along with autism and ADHD, and the like, but i’m still prettyyy damn sure i don’t have em, but also maaaybe, buuut alsooo i don’t knoooow. i have hyperfixations, special interests, the verbal shutdowns, shutdowns in general, meltdowns, also executive dysfunction, neurodivergent stimming (plus some that can pass as neurotypical stimming), and lots more that i can’t remember at the moment, cuz i haven’t eaten enough, OH YEAH AND SENSORY PROCESSING DISORDER, annnd auditory processing disorder, also internalized echolalia and just echolalia, possibly alexithymia, and have trouble with social cues and eye contact. plus food allergies which is also common/comorbid with autism. plus also i was what ya call the gifted kid and now i’m burnt out and even though my grades are always good when i actually hand something in, i constantly procrastinate and have basically given up on school altogether, cuz there’s no possible way for my mental health to be okay, for me to have relationships, for me to do things i like, and do well and be consistent in school all at the same time.

soooo, what am i? i relate to autistics and ADHDers A TON. buuuut i don’t think i am one of y’all. buuut what else can i possibly be? i have no idea. i am a mystery and i pretty sure i always will be.

[heir-of-the-chair]

You know, when they said “you never stop learning things about yourself” I don’t think they meant five consecutive years of having a new identity crisis.

[lilnasxvevo]

Since teaching really does seem to be Lan Qiren’s passion I like to think about a modern Lan Qiren who is really good about pursuing possible diagnoses and treatment of learning/developmental disabilities of children entrusted to his care.

[fantomette22]

💌 send this to the twelve nicest people you know or who seem to have a good heart and if you get five back you must be pretty awesome

FRIEND FRIEND FRIEND!! Nobody supports the little guy the same way as you do, and I absolutely love you for this. You are so nice, so friendly, you always make sure people are included and want to know more, your sense of humour is so unique and nice! I love to find connection on the basis of 'caring about every single obscure gremlin' with you tbh, rarest trait for a creator but we got autistic on autistic communication I guess. I just love how you keep track on everything and everyone and basically just want to enjoy stuff. You deserve so much of that support and attention back. Also everyone who as much as looked the weird way in your direction is a terrible person forever and judging people by how they treat you is the only valid way to separate good from bad :pensive:

Awwwww 🥺❤️ THANK YOU SO SO MUCH!!!!

Yeah i’m trying my best around here in this not so fair world.

Also i’m very glad you and other people like my nonexistent humor too?! I have a hard time with dumb jokes people make and was always offbeat on that so i’m glad! Must be the autism

Look what i found lol (i don’t have time to edit it but one day)

I mean i love having tons of lil stories in my head about characters and my favs do have super detailed one (they really do live in my head rent free). But because i like to see things in their globality too i need to think about all the lil guys as well!

Thank you a lot 🫂

[neurocophany-theyshe]

Reasons why my neurodivergent ass will not get up for a very long time even when I *really* have to pee:

1. There are more “important” things to do (like blogging about neurodivergence on tumblr - thanks executive dysfunction)

2. Using the bathroom takes wayyyy too many steps???

3. I have to wait till my brain collects enough dopamine to actually get up off the couch and tackle such a task

4. It probably took me at least 15 minutes to get comfortable because of all my sensory issues and weird neck and joint pains and having to pee isn’t quite uncomfortable enough to motivate me to undo all the hard work I did just to be comfy while I scroll

5. I may have just plain forgot that I had to pee in the first place

(Also if my cat is snuggling with me, I will not be moving for the next 3-5 business days or until she leaves, at which point I will probably suddenly realize how uncomfortable I am and get up immediately)

[dontworryitsjustafirstdraft]

I just want friends :(

[dagasinfilo]

wait wait. i have like. an actual big question

if someone has a neurodivergence that features a specific trait, and they struggle massively with this trait, and their sibling(s) struggle massively with it, and their parents struggled massively with it as well. would it be more likely that when said neurodivergence is passed down to their child, they’ll struggle a lot with that trait too? like when someone is autistic it’s likely that one (or both) of the parents is gonna be autistic too, but down to specific traits like emotional dysregulation or lack of organization

[creaturebehavior]

here’s how i arrived back to the conclusion that i probably am autistic: always thinking to myself damn for someone who’s not autistic i sure am autistic as hell

[goldensunset]

lol i remember making a post about a year ago lamenting how i come from a family in which we act like mental illnesses aren’t real and how my brother was once like ‘when i was younger if they had taken me to a psychiatrist they probably would’ve thought i was autistic, i’m glad they didn’t because it would’ve held me back so much to have that kind of excuse in my life’ and i was screaming frustrated internally like dude i know i have no right to diagnose you but also you are autistic (but you’re the textbook ‘high functioning’ perfect grades white boy who went on to be a fantastic engineer so no one cared at all if you were a weird little kid who was always taking things apart and fixing them and flapping his hands excitedly)

anyway a few months ago he was like ‘yeah i’m pretty sure i’m on the spectrum but i’ve never been able to talk to mom and dad about so many things in my life like this’ and i was thinking noooooooooo kidding moron (affectionate, supportive) so that goes to show that if you’re doubting yourself or trying to act like your problems aren’t real you might be in denial and you should seek help just in case

[bi-panic-at-the-disco]

i like that my therapist and I went through both anxiety and adhd in the dsm 5 for an hour (I 100 percented those suckers lol) and we were going to look through the autism and ocd parts and she said that we will definitely need more than five minutes to talk about autism

[sodacowboy]

I really do hate eating past 9pm

[genderqueer-karma]

i love my mother’s enthusiastic ableism!!!! (/joke)

[neil-gaiman]

I was reading an interview you did with Curt Schleier. He asked you if you felt different as a kid and you answered, “I’m not sure there is a child who feels different from other kids,” (Neil) said. “I was the same way. I didn’t think I was different from the other kids.”

I want you to know that I felt different from other kids. My earliest memories of feeling different are from when I was 3 years old and in preschool. I remember trying to play with other kids and just feeling a disconnect that I could not breach. It made me feel isolated. I remember walking around the edge of the sandbox thinking that I was all alone in the world. My mother recalls that during this time I used to come home and cry that I had no friends, but when she talked to my preschool teachers, they said I was very social and played with everyone. This feeling never went away, and got worse in grade school where I was ostracized by my peers. As an adult who has lots of good friends, I now know that I am ADHD and Autistic, and my Neurodivergence is the most likely explanation for why I felt different (and still often do). But I was a kid who felt different. We exist.

I think what I took his question as was "Did I know I was a weird kid or did I just feel like a human being". I think i thought I was a regular human being. Did I feel different from all the other kids? Sure. But I didn't know how weird I was until I grew up.

[thehmn]

It might simply be that I don’t frequent ADHD forums enough but I haven’t seen a whole lot of talk about learned social withdrawal.

As a child I made friends left and right but as we all turned into self-conscious teenagers it slowly became more and more difficult for me. Plain and simple, other people thought I was weird. For some reason I never got bullied which I think is related to something my teachers kept telling my parents “She’s such a sweet, bright child and we can tell she’s not malicious or trying to be disruptive on purpose but we can’t teach her anything”

Basically people couldn’t figure me out. I had good social skills with both children and adults, I had a good moral compass, i felt compassion and empathy for others and was willing to go against my friends if I felt they were being bullies, I taught myself English and my drawings showed good observation skills. Because of all that it was decided I should start school a year sooner than most kids and my parents were very proud. Unfortunately that’s probably one of the main reasons why I was never diagnosed with raging ADHD as a child. People soon realized I didn’t do well in a school setting but assumed it was because I “wasn’t done playing” and my ADHD symptoms were interpreted as childishness.

So as I got older my classmates started to distance themselves from me. They were always kind and friendly but they didn’t know how to deal with me and ever since then people have always been worryingly comfortable with calling me weird to my face. I get the impression it’s because they think it’s a choice on my part. To them I’m clearly of “normal intelligence” so I must be acting like this on purpose and my parents would repeatedly tell me to “just act normal” as a child when I told them I was struggling to make friends. I tried so damn hard but kept failing. I knew something had to be different about me and when I first heard about ADHD I thought “That’s me! That’s how I feel!” but my parents said that was impossible because I wasn’t hyperactive.

Because nobody wanted to help me I eventually learned to just stop trying to make friends and keep to myself. I was so tired of being told by friendly, well-meaning people that I was so weird and quirky and unique only for them to distance themselves once they realized it was permanent and not something I could turn on and off for parties. I always enjoyed being alone so it wasn’t a huge loss but it did feel incredibly lonely at times.

Things got a lot better when I became an adult, mostly because adults are generally more chill than teens so my ADHD behavior isn’t as embarrassing to them and ironically they’re often surprised to learn I don’t make friends easily. Unfortunately I learned to be withdrawn in my formative years so new friends are still a rarity. Before I really sat down and put my past into context I even started to wonder if I had autism despite not connecting with anything autistic people said about their experiences. I went as far as to be tested but wasn’t surprised when the diagnosis was negative because of course it was, I kinda already knew that. I was just looking for an explanation.

So while there can be overlap between ADHD and autism (I have just such a friend) my experience is also that oftentimes people with ADHD simply learn to stay away from social situations and entertain ourselves which ends up looking like autism to outsiders.

[destiny-in-the-universe]

Pines Headcanons [Happy Birthday, Grunkles]

I cannot believe I just now got reminded of this- holy shit. Unfortunately, I'm not an artist so have these headcanons instead about Stan and Ford

Stanley ‘Lee’ Pines

He’s bisexual. This is not up for debate (/lh). It just made sense for him 

Stanley is ambidextrous. He can write and utilize both his left and right hands. This was something he self-taught himself in after the portal accident 

On the power of ‘I said so’, Stan does have some level of book smarts but instead of math or science- it’s creative writing. He’s got the talent for it; however, he rarely - if ever - shares these stories with anyone

Stan has some form of neurodivergency. Young Stan definitely gives the impression of ADHD but also I feel he’s got dyslexia- don’t ask me why. This is canon now

He does have scars from the time he spent on the run and doing his sales. I’m not sure what they are exactly, but just know he has them 

Stan knows martial arts. Other than boxing, I feel he would’ve taught himself in other forms of fighting- like the ones done on the streets and it’s a weird mix of martial arts and free-style fighting

He can be a bit of a poet, but for the most part- Stan prefers show-and-tell as his love language. He will present his partner with gifts, and makes sure they understand he’s there for them 

He’s kind of protective over his partners, and definitely has gotten into fights in an attempt to protect their honor. It’s ill-placed sometimes but he’s not about to let some bozo mess with them

Stan always sought his father’s approval. He attempted multiple times to perfect his studying skills before the science fair accident, but apparently Old Pa Pines didn’t seem to notice and the rest, well, it was already history

He fantasized of being a pirate when he was a kid. This is where the whole thing of going on a seafaring adventure with Ford came from! Unfortunately due to canon events, this soured out but he held onto a photograph he and Ford took in front of the beach as a memoir

He’s very much not a big fan of vegetables

Stanford ‘Ford’ Pines

He’s arospec and ace!

Ford absolutely loves puzzles. Why? It just weirdly fitting for his character

He definitely has C-PTSD following the events of Weirdmaggedon

Autistic Ford? Autistic Ford. There is no way he doesn’t have it- I said what I said

Before he got involved in the strange and paranormal, one of Ford’s main interests was actually crystals and rocks! It felt weirdly fitting for his character, and here we are

Ford is more of a cat person. At one point, he rescued a cat-adjacent creature from an auction and named her ‘Nova’. Of course, it’s far from a cat but well, we’ll get to that later

He would be into LARP if it exists in the Gravity Falls canon. Like, that man is a nerd and already enjoys the show’s version of Dungeons and Dragons, there’s just no way he wouldn’t participate in LARP

He does have scars from his time in other dimensions for thirty years. He’s very secretive about them and doesn’t let anyone see- not even Stanley

Ford deals with the aftermath of a burnt-out gifted kid- like, he was the prodigal son and got all the right honors, scores, all of it but as he got older- the more he struggled, the more he felt like something was missing. As the golden child, he was brought up with the notion he would be important but then got smacked in the face when he realized none of it truly mattered

He had a lot of issues adjusting to his new life in Gravity Falls, Oregon after he was brought back from the portal. Ford’s triggered fight-or-flight response would kick in with unexpected situations- like, he’s definitely pulled a blaster/space gun

He likes hot chocolate

Ford enjoys cuddle piles, let’s be honest here. Once he gets more comfortable, he begins making nests with the rest of the Pines family

He’s protective of his family!

I’ll try and come up with new headcanons soon, but since I took too long releasing this- given I got sick unfortunately, I decided to post a smaller version