#again. sorry

[strayyuuu]

people seemed to like the aventio yuri, so...

[carkeyarts]

this guy is kinda cool now that hes Plagued by the Visions

[lxvenderjewel]

link to my last meta here, it has some context for this

So first of all. What if I ate glass

Anyways.

Do you think this means he didn't have very many close friends growing up? Just a bunch of acquaintances? And so he invited a bunch of people, but they all had prior commitments, and they didn't care enough about him to leave them to go to his party?

Do you think that's why he fucked up a lot of his close relationships as he got older? Because he never got close enough to anyone when he was younger, and he never learned how to be especially close with people?

Do you think he saw those people who had best friends, who would get matching necklaces, bracelets, whatever, and he would be so jealous? Because what was he not doing that these other people were, that got them such close friends?

Do you think as he went into the army he brought with him this sense of loneliness? Do you think he hooked up with a lot of people to try and get rid of that? And his army mates would praise him for it, even though it just made him feel emptier every time?

And then he got that aforementioned quarantine girlfriend, and he tried so hard with her, smothered her with affection. Yet for some reason he was still empty. He couldn't fully put himself into their relationship.

And eventually, on his birthday, she broke up with him.

Do you think he thought that, moving into 221B, would be another short phase in his life? That Sherlock would eventually move out, and he would go through life with this crushing sense of loneliness and disconnectino from the world?

Do you think he knew that he'd find his whole life in that little flat?

[mikashida]

cold war kids

[loucifersbitch]

who up bucking they tommy

[lebattewurr]

[johnslittlespoon]

sometimes i think about john moving to new york city after the war, to clear his mind, to distract himself from everything after gale's wedding, but also to be closer to curt in some small way. to walk past random shops and wonder if curt's ever been, to wander down streets with names that he's sure he's heard come out of curt's mouth and smile at the thought of his boy growing up on them, old stomping grounds.

maybe he has a journal of curt's, or letters curt would write to him in the softness of night, when john would mention wishing he had someone back home to write to. and he visits the places mentioned in those writings, strolls through parks curt used to spend summer days in, toasts to him in pubs he used to frequent. talks to people who remember the electric firecracker of a boy, pulling stories out of strangers who knew him even briefly, john's way of keeping him alive.

he doesn't visit curt's parents though; he can't do it, can't bring himself to minimize what curt was to him when they inevitably ask john how he knew their son, is certain they'd see the truth in his eyes if he tried to lie. but maybe one day when he's really low, he finds himself on curt's childhood street, feet disconnected from his brain. he knows the number by heart, but he'd have recognized the house just from curt's fond descriptions, like not a thing had changed over the years since curt had been drafted.

he almost loses his lunch in a bush, bent over with his hands on his knees, but he calms himself enough to pause, to really take it in, because he already knows he won't be going back. but something in him is soothed just knowing it's there, like a reminder that pieces of curt will always remain, a reminder that he was real.

[mychanicalbrides]

why are some people so rigid in their beliefs. ill say ill like something and ill immediatly get shot down, without any consideration. i get you dont like some random music artist, but im still your friend, and i think that matters more than any music opinion :(

[squishosaur]

(guy who is equally messed up voice) i can fix him

[mangoisms]

i did plan to add to my queue then dip but i will leave with one thing. a couple things. um. Yes i know chapter 8 is late. it will be late until next week friday i am VERY sorry but this week, while unexpectedly great, was also super busy and i had no time to myself At All during the week and i’d like to do that this weekend.

also yesterday. i saw blue beetle. GREAT movie excellent movie everyone go see it immediately. i will talk about it more next week when i come back. so yes. i love you all. thank you

[runaeveena]

at least in omegaverse they get work off when in heat i dont see any job postings offering me a week off to masturbate when im on my period

[derrypubliclibrary]

Hiii i heard u like asks! Umm i like the ride the cyclone songs but i have no idea what its about beyond "ghosts are recounting their past lives" so this is a free pass to infodump about it if u want!

oooohhhh im biting you/pos ough

im apologizing in advance (also, minor CW for shitty parents, (child neglect), and minor SA mentions (not mentioned outright but thats what happened with the carnie)) (under the cut because this is long as shit dude)

OKAY

so basically. its about these six choir kids who died on the cyclone roller coaster. before they got on 5 of them got their fortunes read by Karnak, a fortune telling machine that can predict peoples deaths!! but, he was set to “family fun novelty mode” which means that he can still predict their deaths, but he cant say anything about it. part of his pre-programed bit is “and be sure to ride the cyclone” and he feels super bad about the fact that he knew these kids were gonna die on the cyclone, couldn’t tell them, and told them to actually ride the coaster.

So! he ‘summons’ their ghosts to the warehouse where hes being stored (the crash takes place one year in the past (so this year itd happen 2022) and the musical itself takes place 20 years in the future) and he tells them that he can bring one of them back to life! the six kids (in order of their song(s)) are: ocean o’connell rosenburg, noel gruber, mischa bachinski, ricky potts, jane doe, and constance blackwood. Karnak can bring one of them back to life, and thats what they’re competing for!

Ocean’s first, each kid has a favorite ride, and star sign, a catchphrase,and a “title” (?? im not sure what to call it). Oceans favorite ride is the bumper cars, her star sign is Capricorn, sign of ambition, her catchphrase is “democracy rocks!” and her “title” is “The Most Successful Girl in Town” Shes super obsessed with being successful, getting good grades, being the youngest prime minister of canada, that kinda thing. Her song is how shes Super Awesome and Amazing and Cool and Everyone Else Sucks so You Should Pick Her to go Back. that, obviously, doesn’t go over well with the rest of the choir. Karnak also doesnt tell her that whoever comes back has to be chosen by a unanimous vote from the choir. she tries to save herself, it doesn’t work. basically, shes super self centered, not a great person. her song is What the World Needs!

next is Noel Gruber. His favorite ride is the Farris wheel, his star sign is pisces, sign of passion, his catchphrase is “being the only gay man in a small rural highschool is kinda like having a laptop in the stone age. i mean, you can have one, but theres no where to plug it in.” and his “title” is “The Most Romantic Boy in Town.” his whole thing is, like in his catchphrase, being the only gay man in a small rural town. he romanticizes Everything, which is why hes “the most romantic” (i could get into the titles but thats. so much) hes super obsessed with france, french new wave cinema, that kinda thing. he also really likes the german movie ‘the blue angel’! his song is about his hooker oc monique gibeau and her tragic life. he Loves tragedy too. i. forgot to mention that. so basically his song is about how much he wants to have a tragic life! his song is Noel’s Lament!

next is Mischa Bachinski! his favorite ride is the shooting range (or the beer gallery depending on the script, i believe), his star sign is Leo, sign of aggression, his catchphrase is “my gangster persona is just armor to conceal the fact that i am naked child wandering through the wilderness holding in my hands my wounded fragile heart” and his “title” is “the angriest boy in town!” his whole thing is that hes from Ukraine, his mother was a worker who helped clean up Chernobyl, she was dying from prolonged exposure to uranium. so, she sent him to Canada by faking his birth certificate to make it look like he was 2 and freshly potty trained and not 16. his “new parents” werent happy, so they kept him in the basement and would leave his food at the top of the stairs. his “new mom” would cry every time she saw him and his “new dad” would shoo him away:( so he turned to “ganster rap” he also has a fiance he met on the internet who lives in Ukraine! her name is talia:) he has two songs, the first is a rap about how cool and awesome he is and also how cool and awesome money is and also robots! his second song is about his internet fiancé!! his songs are “This Song is Awesome” and “Talia”!

next is Ricky Potts! his favorite ride is the gravatron, his star sign is gemini, the dual nature, his catchphrase changes depending on the script, we’ll stick with “level up!” because this is already long as shit and we’ve still got two more characters! and his “title” is “The Most Imaginative Boy in Town!” his story is that hes disabled, hes got a degenerative disease that makes it so he cant walk or talk, and in the kinda town they live in it’s obvious that no one made any efforts to learn how to communicate with him (his family canonically made up theyre own sign language??? and took a vow of silence. they also have 14 cats.) so he turned to his imagination for entertainment. he also got one of those wishes from the school. i don’t remember what his wish was but ik it was something about sexy cat girls. so. they compromised with an all you can eat seafood dinner at red lobster! he got food poisoning and had a Wild fever dream. his song is about… having sex… with cat girls… to save the day on the planet “Zolar”! his song is “Space Age Bachelor Man”!

next is jane doe! so, remember how i said that 5 of the 6 kids got their fortunes read? shes the one who didnt. she lost her head, and no parents came to claim her body, so shes the “unidentified body” of the disaster. (theres a reason her parents didnt come claim her body but thats a whole other play) her songs is all about how she doesnt know who she is and how she has no memories! her song is “The Ballad of Jane Doe”!

and finally, Constance Blackwood. Her favorite ride is the cyclone roller coaster, her sign is Scorpio, the secret nature, her catchphrase is “sorry” and her “title” is “The Nicest Girl in Town.” Her whole story is how she hated being only seen as “nice” and how even her best friend (ocean) didnt know her. shes super depressed and shit. a few hours before they go on the coaster, she loses her virginity to a carnie in a porta potty because she wanted to lose it in “the worst way possible.” her family has been in Uranium since it was a mining town, and she thought that was cool! until she got to high school and thinking Uranium was cool was “about the lamest thing you could think to do” she started thinking shit about her town, and her mom (for staying there, for thinking it was cool). her song is about how, while she was dying, she finally realized that her town is beautiful and she does have pride in it. her song is “Sugarcloud” and her monologue is “Jawbreaker”!!

and thats all im gonna say for now because this is Long As Shit holy Fuck

[cherrylight]

alright. on twitter im doing this entire thing where its just a simple "idc im just rting this because it represents me or its something i like" and i think thats what im gonna try for this blog as well :]

kind of a sort of this !!! confident booster so i can slowly start posting my own stuff on here without much fear ^_^

[livvyofthelake]

like am i making sense rn. sorry. but this man looks like the zootopia fox right does anyone else see this...

[pregnantsecondo]

[idliketobeatree]

bro this is la petite mort we're talking about

can i just die in your arms without you making it gay. Come on man