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choccy-milky · 3 months ago

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sometimes you gotta lure your overly-studious ravenclaw gf into spending time with you 🥰 📚 ( from 'Every Teardrop is a Waterfall' by Kat_12739 on ao3, GO READ IT!!! the first story is about seb falling sick and still pushing himself/not admitting he's sick until he ends up in the hospital, the second story is about the birth of seb and clora's daughter and seb's reaction to clora almost dying in childbirth, and the third is about dealing with a fussy newborn lewis😭🥹THEY'RE SO GOOD AND SWEET AND SOMEWHAT SAD (not to mention beautifully written) so go check it out!!💖💖 )

#READ SO I CAN YAP TO SOMEONE ABOUT THEM🙏😩💘#the seb sickfic made me realize how much i needed barely functioning and sick seb (but him still trying to be tough)#theres also a part that cracked me up bc at one point seb is so sick he cant even see straight but he just thinks to himself:#eh its fine.... ill just ask ominis how HE functions without vision later🤷 LMFAO #so stubborn...JUST LET CLORA TAKE CARE OF YOU MFER🤺🤺🤺#defs gonna be drawing more from it especially sick seb LMAO but also seb having a tea party with celeste🥹🥹#hogwarts legacy #sebastian sallow #sebastian sallow x oc #sebastian sallow x mc #sebastian x mc #hogwarts legacy fanfiction #sebastian sallow fanfiction #hphl #choccyart #also i was never planning on writing anything about clora giving birth or abt the kids so to be able to read it WAS AMAZING #THERES A PART WHERE SEB IS HOLDING CELESTE AND CRYING AT CLORAS BEDSIDE THAT I NEED TO DRAW😭😭#LIKE SRSLY seb being conflicted and not even wanting to HOLD celeste bc he doesnt know if clora is alive or not... IT WAS SO SAD BUT GOOD #i honestly dont know what seb would do if clora died in childbirth tbh.......i could honestly see him resenting celeste #esp since she looks so much like clora😭😭#LETS JUST NOT THINK ABOUT IT!😃👍#(still thinking about it)#like this line in the fic: “Sebastian hesitated; if this was Clora’s last gift to him he wasn’t sure he wanted it.”#😭😭😭ITS SO GOOD UGHHHHH😭 TY AGAIN FOR WRITING THESE💖IM SO TOUCHEDDD💖💖

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m-a-d-e-l-e-i-n-e · 2 years ago

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(CW for fighting and abuse in case anyone doesn’t want to read that)

My mom and my brother fight and yell at each other so often that now I hear my mom threatening to either call the cops so he can end up in juvenile hall or drive off and leave the house herself 😃 I love how she divorced my shitty verbally and physically abusive father over five years ago but the fighting never ended and I still always get just as scared as when I was a weak and helpless child!!! ❤️

#I cannot fucking wait to move out of here #like it’s getting so bad tonight that instead of tuning it out I forced myself to walk over and at least I was able to stop it for the…#…first time tonight but now my brother just went back to provoke my mom even more 😍#like seriously what the fuck do I do #my brother really hurt her physically one time and I’m so scared it’s going to happen again #I always try my best to act rationally when I’m angry but I actually raised my voice this time but man idfk I’m scared #and also I don’t know how to help or if I should’ve even gotten involved at all #i know I’m oversharing and will probably delete this soon but I’m so sick of this #they never really fought that much until a couple years ago but it’s been almost constant since then #again… what do I do 😃#i feel like no matter what I do I will just make things worse

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pepprs · 1 year ago

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ok. im going to make this post but i REALLY shouldn’t but i just am so devastated rn and need to not be alone in it and you guys are the only people i can talk to candidly about moving stuff rn for a lot of reasons. the reason im crying rn is because i just found out i made a massive error in my budget and it turns out that my net pay is barely over minimum wage and i cannot afford to live by myself. at all. unless i live off of savings in addition to income but even then that’s only going to help me for a couple months and anyway it’s extremely unwise bc i should save that money for getting a car etc etc. this is not entirely a bad thing because a) at least i can afford to… you know… live. and b) living with roommates will not be bad especially if i live with friends and/or strangers i come to be friends with. it’s just i really… i don’t know i just feel so sick to my stomach. it’s just that recent events have made it so clear to me that i need to teach myself how to live independently before i can live with other people (let alone function in the world, heal from trauma, etc.) healthily. i know it so deeply. and it can’t happen for me. this is confirmation. this is confirmation and there’s nothing that can change it. rent is too high (even for shitty apartments in the area which let’s be real most of them are… it’s too high!) and over half of my income is going to taxes and deductions and bills and student loans. i feel so hopeless

#an di still have homework to do LMAOOOOOOOOOOO as if im not having a crisis over this issue which is more important than any hw assignment #will ever be. fuck my stupid baka life but i mean it so sincerely.#purrs #delete later #again. i know even being able to consider living alone is a MASSIVE privilege and there will be joys in having a roommate especially if it’s #someone i love. but it’s going to create sooooo many more steps in this process for me and i will have to compromise my needs yet again (#even if i genuinely want to!) when what i need right now is to have as little compromise as possible. to FINALLY experience what it’s like #to live without having to share (most) things or silence myself. moving out at all is going to be huge and helpful no matter if im living #with roommates but. god god god. this feels like thinking a door is open but it’s just painted to look that way. im so sad #also btw i found out that i am not actually being overpaid im being UNDERpaid. which is a solvable problem that will be fixed this week but #even when that gets corrected i still am making a little over minimum wage so. 😃🔫

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ducktollers · 7 months ago

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got a sortof interview for a research assistant job tomorrow and sooooooooo scareds :D

#delete later #sortof bc its basically already mine since my mom works there and said the current assistant sucks so bad theyll take Anyone with a degree #and theyre desperate #and its super casual and low intensity but still stressed tf out #bc i havent done anything non routine since december and my anxiety has gotten soooo bad and im soooo bad at talking to people #and ik the antidote is doing things again which is why am i doing this but. scary #and time is moving too fast and im so lost and i hate my stupid fuckass grocery store job and idk what to dew w my life rn #cannot stop reminiscing abt the life unlived and the time lost and while i do that i am not living anf losing time #😃😃😃😃😃😃#cannot stop thinking abt how my school life is simply over and i missed it i wasted it its Over 😀 no more chances #didnt make ONE friend in 5 years of university didnt join anything didnt do anything except mentally deteriorate #uni is supposed to be the source of so much life and experience. and yooo i missed it 😂yooooo omg its too late for me 😂😂😂#i rememebr before crossing the stage at high school graduation i was like. rn im in the part of my life before graduation #and in a minute suddenly im gonna be in the after #and then i realized recently. im in The After of university. the moment passed and i missed it #there is no more chances theres no more ‘next semester ill make friends’ theres no more Anything it is Over #time keeps going so fast and yallll i cant go back lol 😂😂😂 brooo wtf nobody told me u can never go back 😂#dawg i havent felt alive even once since leaving high school 😂 yo i peaked at age 17 😂 yo jm about to turn 23 and my last memory is being 19 #yooooo whered the time go 😂😂😂😂 brooo where does it keep going lol come back wait up im runnin out of time 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂#x

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seiwas · 1 year ago

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who is the most daddy in jjk 🎤

#bf told me to ask this 😭😭#he was literally like ‘u should ask this on tumblr !!!!!! i wanna know the response’#we had a whole convo abt it jakansk he asked me if gojo’s the most daddy character and i *cough* said…#(maybe unpopular opinion) idt gojo’s rlly daddy… 🥲 and nanami feels more like one 😃😃😃😃😃#so maybe this is my hot take …….. 🥲#but what do YOU think !!!!!!#i talked so much again

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sapphoslibrary · 9 months ago

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the amount of gen z “leftists” who lack even basic education on the american political system is genuinely astounding and terrifying

#anyone else getting increasingly worried that trump is gonna win again 😃#as a gen z leftist who has taken 2 college poly sci classes i really need everyone to start being realistic #please do not vote 3rd party in this election #the polls are not the place to try to make a statement. you do that shit on the streets #after voting for the candidate who is the least evil with an actual chance of winning #please just take a moment and recall what we got last time we tried to rally together and vote 3rd party #and think about that but 100x worse because now that man is angry and vengeful #so i’m begging you. vote for joe biden 1 more time and implore the DNC to put forth a better candidate in 2028 #but if we allow donald trump to win that may never even be a possibility #thanks for coming to my ted talk goodnight #politics #2024 election

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savage-rhi · 4 months ago

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First: HONEY DON'T FEEL BAD FOR CRITIQUING THERAPISTS AND THE WAY SHITS RUN! WE NEED TO HEAR THAT! I'm in mental health, and there are some REAL nasty pieces of work in the field who like preying on patients' vulnerability, and they're damn good at manipulating the systems and social dynamics!

Second, everyone should check this out. It brings up so many good points and considerations to make when seeking therapy or another mental health related service.

#also kudos to the peeps in the comments calling out CBT #thank you for affirming it is not the end all be all for treatment and can even be detrimental to healing if the clients background isn't #acknowledged in full #“if theres so much corruption why dont you guys do anything about it?”#i did! and yknow what happened?#i lost my job and got black listed 😃#cause of a single therapist that has so many connections to the clinics in the region #if i ever work at a clinic again its gotta be out of my county #the toxic therapists that benefit from the beauracratic policies will throw you under a bus and run you over and over for even breathing a #word that they don't give a fuck about people healing and will even sabotage a clients healing to keep getting a paycheck #“theres no profit to be made unless people are always sick” comes to mind #mental health #sorry guys #im really passionate about this stuff #Youtube

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ninoochat · 4 months ago

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I don't like bbq food.i like chicken breast not wings or thighs, when I bite into a tendon or a soft greasy bit my soul leaves my body. I don't like sausages, merguez makes me wanna gag.

Yes I'm a big baby and what of it

#it's easier for me to list foods i do like #ate half a chicken leg and some carrots #hiding again do people stop asking why i dont eat #what's it to you? mind your own damn plate how many times do i have to say no thank you #n e ways #i am in hell 😃

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ppulverse · 7 months ago

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#rant cw #🌙.txt #i'm genuinely so scared rn 😃 i'm trying to distract myself and have fun but it's so hard #like. i know i'm privileged bc at least i have a safe place to stay and i could make it here before everything got worse #and i know there are people going through much worse than me #but i'm TERRIFIED bc there's a high chance we might actually lose everything this time bc this flood is SO much worse than the last one #and if we lose everything then what the fuck are we gonna do...#how many times are we gonna have to deal with this kind of situation #i couldn't sleep bc i was too anxious and now i'm tired #and i just saw a video of a bunch of cows being DRAGGED by the fcking water and they looked so scared :(#i keep crying i feel so powerless #bc literally the only thing i can do is wait and pray that the damage won't be bad to the point where we can't recover from it #i'm sorry i keep posting about this and again i know i'm more privileged than a LOT of people #but i just need to vent bc i honestly have never felt this scared in my life #i'll try to at least take a nap now tho. i need some rest

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porcelainvino · 8 months ago

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currently listening to a strange thing to say 🫡🫡🫡 it is very good so far i barely started but do not worry. i used to be big into csh (mostly i’d put it on my sad playlists because in the 14 minutes the songs would take i’d have stopped crying bc i’d be so bewildered by how long they were LMAOOO) and other long-song bands SO I ENJOY IT… and this song is so good oh wow the use of instruments is so pleasing (<- band kid in me i’m sorry)

i’ll def give those others a listen too :3 and i LOOVE dark songs so that sounds really intriguing actually!!!! very very relatable wow. sopor’s music and lyrics are so detailed and ummm how do i say this Eloquent i guess? but like for music? like specifically music. whatever ITS GOOD your taste is so good 😭🩷 feel free 2 explain more of sopor’s songs to me if u want btw i love listening

also i have to add that love(?) songs that are dark (not really sure if a strange thing to say is a love song or not but considering the killing part i mean it could be depending on the way you perceive it whatever it could be anything i could be so far off esp considering the lyrics aren’t on spotify so i don’t have them on hand rn But. whatever im rambling bye) are sooooo good. been looping suki suki daisuki by jun togawa recently which isn’t incredibly dark but it’s a very intense love song and it is so real 2 me (<- Horror Sufferer and Issues-Haver). another example of instruments in songs that i think are fascinating and also very cool. the vocal mixing etc etc is very pleasing to me in that song SO! anyway. just felt like sharing that idk LMAOAOAO

anyway: thank u for introducing me 😄😄😄 this is so fun . never apologize for rambling it’s welcome

I’M SO GLAD YOU LIKE IT 😭🙏🙏🙏 i remember the 1st time i listened to sopor i had it in a queue while i was going to take a nap and like the first few notes of in der palastra started playing and i like i had to PHYSICALLY sit up because i have never heard anything like her before

she’s so unique and i love her so muchhhh and it brings me so much joy that someone else is listening to her music too so THANK YOUUU!!!!

#i also have a sopor aeternus shrine above my bed so 😃#also did you know she made a board game?? I HAVE IT AND ITS LIKE ACTUALLY THE FUNNEST THING EVER DUDE LIKE IVE PLAYED IT ONLY 3 TIMES BUT #IT WAS SO FUNNNN #it’s literally just the board game sorry but with a bunch of extra rules #one of the times i was playing w my siblings and eden (my older sibling) some how like broke the rules?? and like had 3 pawns in one square #you can have 2 of your 4 pawn things in one square called the ‘great annoyance’ but u have to half how many places u can move #so we called it the ‘greater annoyance’#AND THEN W MY FRIEND SHE SOMEHOW GOT ALL 4 IN THE SAME SQUARE AND ACTUALLY WON THE ENTIRE GAME?? IT WAS SO CRAZY AND SO FUNNY #and we called that one the ‘greatest annoyance’#also at the end of the rule book it says something along the lines of ‘or don’t follow the rules!! do what you want!’ and it makes it so fun #gosh.. i need to play it again omg #i am so happy i get to yap about sopor.. big win for the community #ask #sopor stuff #porcelainposting

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ragnar0c · 1 year ago

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Ignis lore is also equally as scary as Lope lore. Talking to him is like. Learning your father's lore. Unlike Alope, I THINK HIS LORE IS SOOO FUNNY.

#Alope lore: 💀💀💀💀#Ignis lore: 💀💀💀💀#But Ignis telling you about it: 🤔🤭🤗😃#He has 3 older brothers all with ridiculous fire related names #Smoulder... Blaze... Flame #he'll talk about missing his brothers?? where ARE THEY? THEY AREN'T DEAD?#then when he tells you about them he'll describe how they threw him into a lion's den for fun #enid: 'What the fuck?' Ignis: 'is that NOT literally what older brothers do enid? we were just playing'#Tank: 'i think they hated you'#I: 'Nonsense. they still fished me out and we fought the lions off together' Everyone: 'WHAT??' I:' how i miss them 😔'#everything he says about his past sounds like a lie #He... DID NOT EAT ANTS THO Ignis>>> Alope #then again he'd say 'ive... never eaten such things' and hed sound guilty af.. nvm #i can't say the rest of his goofy lore bc its in oos...

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thatoneweirdo14 · 1 year ago

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