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mouthwashing characters when youâre depressed
ship. tulpar crew x reader cw. sfw + fluff/comfort
an. s/o to @xyfanficarchive for the Daisuke ideas!!!! my museâŠ
Curly
Oh he gets it. Full understands what youâre going through. (You canât tell me he isnât on some sort of anxiety/depression meds or at least got a potential diagnosis).
Curly most likely predicted that a depressive episode was coming. Whatever your key âtellâ is: whether you start pulling back, issues sleeping, more nonchalant, appetite changes, it starts setting off bells in his head and heâs prepping.
He doesnât wanna outright ask âare you depressed?â (He doesnât know how to approach the subject at first really). So he just acts/reacts accordingly. He makes meals, helps you shower/bathe (heâs not gonna force you every day but if you go 2 or more days without it heâs putting you in there himself).
He even does little things like making sure you wash your face at least once a day and brush your teeth too.
Honestly, he does enjoy taking care of you. I think this is how heâd show he loves you for real. Even when youâre at your lowest youâre worth caring for. (It also distracts from his own issues buuuuut. Thatâs another story.)
My only qualm is I think he has that âtoxic positivityâ mindset unknowingly. Heâs always like âitâs gonna get better! you need to drink more water/take vitamins/work out!â (these are just things heâs constantly telling himself tbh).
But Curly isnât stupid. Like he will quickly pick up thatâs not working for you and not what you need to hear and shift into a âshut up and help outâ mindset. He moves from self help mode to just being there for you. I really have this mental image of him just hugging you on the couch and talking about his day. Sneaking in a few kisses or just giving compliments. But also if youâre not into that he just rubs your back while you bedrot. Youâre quiet but enjoying time together and you know heâs there for you.
Jimmy
Been there, done that.
Okay, but seriously. Heâs not to pressed at first. Heâs basically living between bouts of depression, general neutrality, and mania. So this just seems like an inevitable âphaseâ you gotta go through.
But this is what makes him the most realistic when dealing with this. Jimmy isnât gonna baby you or anything. Heâs just like âit be like thatâ forreal. And unlike curly heâs not gonna rebuttal with reasons why life is great and why you shouldnât be sad, heâs gonna agree. You say life is shit? Yeah, Jimmy 100% agrees. You two commiserate and itâs actually really cathartic because for once someone doesnât make you feel crazy for being so down when thereâs âso much to live forïżœïżœ.
He self medicates when heâs depressed. Youâre getting offered pills or alcohol or a blunt or something. Whether you take it is up to you.
I can say Jimmy, for once, would stay sober. If heâs in a good enough mental state heâll take one for the team and trip sit you or whatever so you can get that nice dopamine rush in peace.
Jimmy thinks itâs insane that heâs doing this, but when youâre depressed, and like really depressedâgoing through one of those terrible phases heâs been through before, he genuinely feels sympathetic. And it prompts him to do things he never thought. By that I mean doing your laundry, cooking what he can, making the bed. He doesnât really get why, but he wants to do this and only for you. He really is angry about the fact no one has done this for him when he was in the same boat, but the thought of you having to suffer like he did? Just no. Heâs gonna pitch in. He just has to.
But again, heâs best for commiserating. You two bitch heavily about how much the world sucks over way too many beers on his back porch. Probably throw rocks or smash junk while absolutely hammered, too. Then the next morning youâre hungover as shit and spend the day recovering before itâs back to âit is what it is.â Like yeah, it sucks and you feel like shit, but at least you have each other in your corners. If one of you is still kicking, itâs only fair the other is too.
Anya
Like Curly, she knew this was coming a mile away. Anya is not stupid. Sheâs spent so much time with her nose in psychology books that she gets tipped off insanely fast.
Unlike Curly though, she wants to address the problem. Anya starts gently at first with a simple âare you okay?â It opens the floor for you to be honest. And if you arenât willing to talk about it or if you mask it with an âIâm fine!â She just. Frowns. Anya does not believe it, but sheâs not gonna force you.
Until you start with more textbook symptoms. Then sheâs like âI think you might be having a depressive episode.â Sheâs not letting you dance around it by then. You two are facing this head on.
and the good thing is that you guys talk about it. Like actually talk. Anya listens, lets you say your peace. Nods in understanding and shows you sheâs actively taking her time to understand you. Then instead of giving her two cents, she asks you what you want her to do. Anya wants to know how she can help you in the moment and in the long run.
And she does it! Whatever sheâs able to, sheâs gonna do it. Anya is a really reliable partner and just truly solid. It can be anything from sharing a shower, ordering takeout and chilling on the couch, or even if you just need her to be in the same room but leave you the fuck aloneâsheâs there for you.
Sheâs definitely recommending tips from psychology books too. Journaling, eating spicy foods, getting a little exercise if possibleâyou guys go down a laundry list to help kick this episode in the butt.
And then when the time comes, you two have a good conversation about therapy/medication. (Donât worry she wonât offer to be your therapist and encourages you to see a neutral third party you can be honest with)
Daisuke
OkayâŠDaisuke is a bit of a mixed bag. I think heâs been sad, but not truly depressed.
He doesnât catch the warning signs, so at first when it hits, Daisuke just thinks youâre in a bit of a funk. Itâs okay! Heâs been through this before. And heâs happy to help you out of it!
Daisuke takes you to the arcade, thrifting, maybe on a little shopping spreeâŠbut when that doesnât work (or when he canât even encourage you to do it in the first place), Dai hits a wall.
Heâs confused. And worried. Really worried about you. This depends on you as a person and whether it makes you feel better or worse, but I think itâs very visible how your depressive episodes affect him. Until he really understands what it is and what it means, Daisukeâs really fretting when this happens.
And soâŠhe voices that concern. âI just noticed that you seem sad. Like, really sad. And I donât know what to do!â So!! He asks!! What can he do to help you? Or do you even want his help?
And whatever your answer is, he does it. Heâll give you reminders that he loves you, takes care of you, even binges shitty tv shows over even more terrible for you junk food. As long as he can just keep showing heâs there for you and that youâre worth it. That he loves you even when youâre at your lowestâŠthatâs what matters the most.
And just being the goof he is, heâs gonna do things to make you smile. Dancing around the kitchen, showing you his playlist of funny TikToks, cracking some stupid jokes he may or may not have stolen from Twitter. Any time he can crack even a hint of a smile heâs fist pumping and celebrating.
And thenâŠhe is probably going to recommend therapy. (He has an awesome adhd therapist heâs working w so. Heâs singing the praises for it to you.)
Swansea
Oddly enough I really see him similar to Jimmy. Swanseaâs so realistic heâs just like âyouâre depressed? Yeah life sucks, so what? You keep going.â
But heâs smart enough to not be like âjust get off your assâ. He takes pity on you, whether he likes it or not. Seeing you out of your element does make him upset.
Heâs a comiserater, but heâs always going to counter with like âbut we keep going anyways.â And if youâre like âbut why?â Heâs like âwhy not?â
Like yeah, shit isnât always good, so you settle for mediocrity. Because the mundane can actually be really nice. Swanseaâs a simple pleasures manâgood coffee, good food, good times spent relaxing either alone or with the ones you love. Thatâs what makes it all worth it.
Swanseaâs like âyou can have your little moments where it all seems like shit, but eventually you gotta face the music and go back to reality.â
Heâs a very grounding presence, though. Iâll give him that. Heâs also 100% going to cook for you. And you can tell he cares because he has difficulty leaving you alone. He hopes that you seeing him doing stuff. Persisting. That itâll give you some hope.
and when you start getting more back to normal, showing interest again in your usual hobbies or responsibilitiesâyou can see a weight visibly lift off his shoulders.
#mouthwashing x reader#mouthwashing#anya x reader#curly x reader#daisuke x reader#swansea x reader#captain curly
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Could you write about Hiori, Chigiri, and Bachira giving their male!reader boyfriend a blowjob? Maybe Chigiri thigh fucking... Hiori sadistically making you wait to cum, and Bachira with his feet?
Blow it, move it, bite it, ride it. Just come on, make a move on it.
#a.n. : I absolutely loved writing this, so it's okay!! And it's kind of implied that you're all in Blue Lock... I have no idea where the camera-less bedroom came from, so :).
!!Warnings: male!reader, dom!Hiori and implied dom!bachira, top!reader in Chigiri's part (kind of), blowjob (Hiori), footjob (Bachira), thigh-fuck (Chigiri), Hiori is a sadist, overstimulation (Hiori), Chigiri is a sass (like always), Bachira... A little strange (but in a good way as always, yea). And reader is a football player too. Purely theoretically, one can imagine that this is a strap (except for the Hiori part, of course), so anyone can read it, I don't care anyway.
Hiori Yo.
Your hand slides through the blue hair for the umpteenth time that night. You have an incredible, overwhelming urge to grab them and plant that face deeper on your dick, but no... You just can't. How many times have you been denied an orgasm? Three or so, or maybe you've lost count.
Only that smug face with those bright blue eyes glowing with joy knows the exact number.
"Yo... Am I seriously unable to cum, even after all this?" you ask, knowing the answer perfectly well, but just like in the past, smoldering with hope that he will break up and give in.
"No," of course he won't, Hiori has been mumbling around your cock, sucking on your thick shaft for the last half hour.
You practically growl in frustration, trying not to move your hips or anything else, because it will only prolong this torture. And all because of what? In training, you didn't score a goal from his pass, which made him angry at you. He gave you such a perfect pass, and you missed it.
"Absent-minded boys like you need self-control, don't you think?" Hiori asks, batting his long eyelashes at you, looking straight into your eyes with that innocent look, which makes you almost melt.
His hand moves rhythmically on your cock while his tongue licks your glans from time to time, sometimes gliding over the base and over the bulging veins. He was clearly enjoying tormenting you like that, watching the precum trickle down your head, which he rather licked off, slurping on purpose.
The bed creaks slightly under your weight, clearly not designed for two people, especially if they are muscular in one way or another. It would probably fall apart if you were doing something more active here, but you don't even want to think about it, considering that you have to explain it to the Ego.
"Please, Yo... I'll do anything, please, it hurts," your voice is quiet, a whimper escapes from your throat; Hiyori's eyes rise to you again and a smile blooms on his lips when he notices tears in the corners of your eyes.
"Whatever you say..." The football player mutters, leaning closer and wiping the tears from your eyes before they can roll down your cheeks. "Okay, I'll let you."
Your hips jerk as you are suddenly pierced by the feeling of his mouth around your cock. Not teasing. Not slow. Uninterrupted. And the persistent, rhythmic sucking of your length, which makes you feel like you're already in Heaven.
Of course, it doesn't take long for you to cum. In just a matter of seconds, the knot in your stomach unties and you cum in Hiori's mouth with a guttural moan, clutching his hair in your hands, pushing into his mouth for a couple of seconds, and then exhaling tiredly.
Yo straightens up, licking the droplets of your cum from the corners of his lips, looking at your peaceful face, and then suddenly squeezes your softened cock.
"You said you'd do anything, darling," the blue-eyed man whispers, ecstatically watching your surprised face... If you don't like the deprivation of orgasm, then you will have to accept your fate of overexcitation.
Chigiri Hyoma.
"Mmm, you're enjoying this too much, big guy" Hyoma says, as he stares at your barely present face as you fuck between his thighs.
You wanted to fuck him so damn badly for real, just slide inside those damn tight muscles, but you didn't have too much time until the end of the break, so you had to manage somehow.
"I'm sorry... You have juicy thighs, has anyone ever told you that?" you ask, squeezing his knees a little tighter, trying not to put too much pressure on his right leg, rubbing your cocks together with your movements.
"Yes, thank you. You've said that about eleven times, if I remember correctly. For the last ten minutes," he replies, shrugging his shoulders, looking at how your cock slides between his thighs, over his smaller penis, smearing the precum on your stomach.
His hands instinctively grab onto the sheets, and he moans softly, arching his back. Your cock perfectly covered his own length from below, perfectly rubbed against the head, touching the sensitive bridle. Your "waters" were mixed together.
"We have a training session soon, come on... Otherwise, they'll be looking for us. And they will definitely find us, considering that you don't even hide your moans," Chigiri cheers you on, squeezing his own hips harder, which even started to make a sound from how your cock bumped lightly against his muscular thighs.
"I'm sorry..." you mumble it again, just staring at Hyoma's stomach, where you could see your cock sliding in and out of his thighs.
He snorts, placing his own hands on your palms, which are holding him under his knees, pulling you out of your semi-trance. His red eyes seem to be staring into your very soul, still filled with their usual cocky sparkle, but now clouded with lust.
"What?" your voice is softly heard in the empty bedroom, followed by Chigiri's moan as your cock grazes the bridle of his own again, and he exhales, squeezing his eyes shut.
"Nothing, nothing... You're just drooling," the red-haired man whispers, and you see a drop of water from your chin land on the back of Hyoma's thigh.
... Well, maybe you enjoyed it a little too much. So what? You're a simple man.
You quickly wipe your mouth on your shoulder, pushing Chigiri a little harder into the bed, making his back arch even more and a moan escapes your lips when you feel a familiar feeling in your stomach.
"Huh... Come on, come on, come on. Let's get together, okay? I want you to come, please..." Chigiri whispers, completely unaware of how much more beautiful he is now with red cheeks and a face bathed in pleasure... But what's the difference, huh? Your pace started to become less rhythmic and increasingly rough.
The sound of tremors echoed more and more through the almost empty room, and there it was... White light behind the eyes, two male moaning voices.
Ka-sploosh!
Bachira Meguru.
"This is a fun position, you know?" Bachira chuckles in your ear as he literally hangs on your back, his arms wrapped around your neck and his legs resting on your cock, rubbing it lazily.
"Are you sure you're comfortable? You can always sit forward..." You ask as his chest presses closer to your back and he kisses your cheek long and hard with a smile.
"Thanks for caring! But it's okay, really... Let's give [Your name] the younger a little more attention?"
You moan, throwing your head back on Bachira's shoulder as he starts to move his feet a little more actively. One of his feet runs along the length of your cock, while the other lifts your shaft. How does he even bend his legs like that? Who knows these football players.
His lips slide down your neck, covering it with kisses, occasionally sucking on your skin, making you sigh softly in pleasure. The forward's feet wrap around your entire length, starting to rub it in perfect synchronization.
"Megu... So good, it's weird, but good," you whisper into his neck, inhaling his scent mixed with the light scent of sweat, considering you're both post-workout.
"I'm glad! And he seems to like it too... Or is it her?" Meguru is seriously discussing the gender of your dick... Oh, the things you put up with for this man, honestly.
Your hand slides behind you, supporting his hip, so that it would be at least a little easier for him. Although he doesn't seem to care, because his feet move and hold your cock just perfectly.
His toes deliberately touch your veins along the base or run along the head of your cock, his heels sometimes stroking in circles on your balls, which are getting tighter with each passing second.
Why the hell did you even think to ask him about this? You looked at some new dribble he came up with, and your brain switched off and you asked him. Of course, it's not surprising that he agreed, but fuck...
Who knew that his feet were talented with more than just a soccer ball, right? Your balls were also satisfied, it seems.
"Want to cum? You always can, you know," a sweet voice breaks you out of your thoughts as Meguru presses his heel lightly on your balls, causing you to twitch a little, causing him to smile even wider.
"Of course... You'll make me cum embarrassingly fast..."
"There's nothing embarrassing about it! You make me cum just as fast when...! Mhmhm!"
He lightly punches your chest as you push your head into his neck to shut him up and not embarrass yourself any further.
The feel and sight of his toes on your cock is enough without him saying anything. Your cock twitches in his feet, but he holds it expertly, continuing to rub your cock, as if his orgasm depends on it, not yours. Although it's the same thing to him.
"B-Bachi..." You whine, really embarrassingly fast cumming as your sperm drips down his feet and he kisses your cheek encouragingly.
And then he cries out as you fall backwards, pinning him down and he immediately pushes you aside, looking at you.
"Fallen asleep? He must have enjoyed it too much," Meguru chuckles quietly, looking at your sleeping face, and then covers you with the blanket, kissing your forehead. "Now, shower! Just don't leave marks... Or [Your Name] will scold you, Meguru."
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Saw your post about asks, and I feel in the same boat, so I thought if it's okay, I'd send you an ask. I've just flattered through your page, and I love your style.
1) Finding the perfect gift for any of the 141 members for Christmas.
2) Secretly placing mistletoe somewhere on base for Ghost to find.
Your writes are amazing, glad I found you! X
[[Thank you, babes!!!! Ah! Hi!
this is so relevant for me rn because Iâm currently struggling to find my boyfriend the perfect Christmas gift lol]]
ghost - your first thought is to get him more masks, but everyone always gets him more masks. no, it should be something special. something personal. you donât realize that for him, youâve already given him the best gift: a Christmas that he doesnât have to spend alone. a Christmas that he gets to spend with someone who really loves him. a Christmas that quiet and peaceful, with no yelling voices or thrown objects. a Christmas thatâs warm and loving, with sneaky mistletoe kisses in the randomest of places and cozy socks. youâve already given him exactly what he wanted and needed, anything else you get him is just a bonus.
price - seeing you enjoy the gifts he got you just to spoil you is enough for him. he doesnât want anything else- no really, love. just wanna see you happy. but a nice case for his favorite vintage gun in his collection wouldnât be too bad, or his favorite very nice cologne that always makes you want to bury your nose in his shirts and burn the scent on the inside your nostrils, or an expensive watch since thatâs always his go-to accessory when dressing up
gaz - whatever he gets you is always so nice, always exactly what you needed, that it puts so much pressure on what to get him. he has to absolutely love it, just like you love whatever he gets you. box tickets to his favorite sporting event is up there for one of the best gifts he could be given, but I personally am a âgaz loves self careâ truther. I think his guilty pleasure is skin care, a face mask every now and again (and a facial on you every now and again), and he likes very nice, soft lounge clothes to relax in when heâs at home. any of that kind of stuff would be great, but if you got him a coupleâs spa day/massage gift certificate he would be over the moon.
soap - loves a joke gift. you could get him the sweetest, most personalized thing that you put so much time and energy and love into, and he would love it!! but he also would quickly forget about it and become obsessed with the pet treat launcher that you got as a joke gift. watching your very food-motivated dog/cat skid across the floor of your shared flat as they chase treats launched at high speed from the device in his hands is, frankly, hilarious. he will be doing that all day. best gift ever.
and Iâll just say it: any and every one of these guys would not complain about opening a box of lingerie from you on Christmas morning. especially if they get to see you model it for them, like, right now.
[[and thank you so much again for this request!!!]]
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8+8+8 Silmarillion Fic Recs 2024!
I was inspired by @sallysavestheday and @polutrope's recs to revisit some of the Silmarillion fandom fics I read and loved in 2024, arranged in lists of 8 long fics, 8 short fics, and 8 bite-size fics that made my year delightful. With plenty of things still on the TBR, I figured I would nonetheless share a few faves!
Fics and summaries under the cut!
Longer fics
Penumbra by @imakemywings (Maedhros/Thingol, M, 18k)
Maedhros presents himself as a diplomatic guest to Doriath, certain he can convince the king to do as Maedhros wishes him to if he only had the chance. It is possible Maedhros is less than prepared for Doriath than he expected.
This is the kind of longer fic that feels so beautifully fleshed out and lived-in to read. Thingol characterization here is INCREDIBLE as is the slow build court romance, political dynamics, and light mentor/mentee. So key to my conception of this amazing ship.
naught green upon the oak series by @welcomingdisaster (Maedhros/Maglor, E, 37k)
Maglor returns from the Bragollach. Or someone returns, anyhow.
I love this Gothic widower Maedhros so much. This CoH-inspired Maedhros/Maglor (in which much is being compartmentalized) is so dreamlike to read. Himring feels like a house in a fairytale, Maglor its lost princess. Also, really sexy.
MĂ©lamar by @buds-of-marjoram (Maedhros/Maglor, E, 40k)
Nelyafinwë doesn't have the sight, yet his dreams are filled with blood, fire and screams. Even in the peace of Valimar.
Please imagine a world where Maedhros foresees the dreadful events and moral spiral of Silm in advance, shares his misgivings with Maglor, and then the tragedy is averted by their close bond and increasingly public D/s relationship as Maedhros takes the reins of politics in Valinor to arrange the pieces on the board differently than in canon. This lavish, sexy fic brings me SO much joy.
What Blooms on Ard-Galen in the Springtime by @jouissants (Maedhros/Maglor, E, 8k)
The grasses and flowers sleep beneath a blanket of white feet thick. When spring comes and Maglor walks among them again, all will be different.
I could not resist the chance to rec Maglor lady-lord of Himring of my heart. This accidental pregnancy AU is so gorgeous and tender. Maglor doubting Maedhros' valuing of him and then it being so plainly affirmed and reaffirmed heals me. Please also read jouissants' absolutely epic postcanon Strange Currencies, which I can't say enough about!!
The Worst Are Full of Passionate Intensity by steadfastalysanne2022 / @last-capy-hupping (Thuringwethil/Ungoliant, E, 7k)
In which Ungoliant comes to Middle Earth, nearly slays Morgoth, and recruits a new servant within a week.
This is so incredibly hot and unhinged and such a gift to fandom femslash. Thuringwethil attracted to power and enmeshed in its hierarchies, served by others and seeking someone worthier/worthiest to serve herself, then biting off way more than she can chew with Ungoliant, is all just so good. Reading it for the first time made like my whole week.
And Love Grew by @polutrope (Maglor & Elrond & Elros, T, 23k)
As a host of survivors makes the journey from Sirion to Amon Ereb under Maglor's leadership, old bonds unravel and loyalties crumble. But from the scraps and ruins, new and unlikely bonds take shape. A story of perseverance through suffering.
This is written in such a classic and considered style--it's beautiful canonverse feelings and atmosphere. I love this story's grim yet so expressive tragic hero Maglor and very bleak (hurting me) leader Maedhros.
Kiss and Marry by @thecoolblackwaves (Celegorm/Curufin, M, 4k chapter fic)
Curvo and Tyelko get married. What could possibly go wrong with these two together?
Curufin thinks carefully and chooses a spouse: who better than Celegorm? This is such good crackfic, it had me cackling aloud to read. This isn't a ship I usually have a lot of feelings about, but the marriage premise and the hilarity/sincerity of it all really made it for me.
Laurë by Huiniel (Glaurung/Maglor, Fingon/Maedhros/Maglor, E, 29k)
Glaurung takes Maglor captive, hypnotizes him, and fucks him on a pile of gold. That's all I have.
(I love this summary, which I read via googletranslate, along with the rest of the fic--it's originally in Russian if you prefer to read in the original!) I can't not mention this fic, updates of which have been such a prominent (and thrilling) feature of my 2024 reading experience. Maglor is rescued from Glaurung's clutches, but he isn't the same as he was before. I love the dynamics between Maglor and Maedhros and Maglor and his other brothers and the angst and smut of it all.
Shorter fics
one whole with my other by @i-am-a-lonely-visitor (MĂriel/Indis, E, 4k)
âIndis-i-NoldĂłran,â spoke the Maia through a mouthful of rain. âI bear news of one who will return to your house.â
God... god. So poetic and beautifully written, so tender and sexy. This fic makes me cry every time I reread it. I love arranged marriage setups and this story, with newly and vividly alive MĂriel returned to a lonely, proud, and noble Indis in a reconfiguration of the FinwĂ«-MĂriel-Indis relationship/Statute, is such a beautiful take on them.
The Patience of the Oak by @imakemywings (Galadriel/Melian, G, 3k)
Galadriel is determined to show Melian she is capable of more than Melian believes. Melian wonders if her pupil grasps her lessons.
This is just incredible--so poetically written, so magical and atmospheric. The power dynamics and mentorship and osanwë are amazing and Melian's vast and eerie presence are peak weird Maiar. Young, reckless, proud Galadriel is captured perfectly. Also, one of the sexiest G-rated fics out there.
To Wear a Heart So White by Tilion / @tilion-writes (Maedhros & Maglor, T, 2k)
âWill all great Ulmoâs ocean wash this blood clean from my hand?â Maglor whispered hoarsely. âNo, this my hand will rather the multitudinous seas incarnadine, making the green one red.â âMy hands are of your color,â Maedhros growled, âbut I shame to wear a heart so white.â
Maedhros and Maglor at Sirion, and dialogue from Macbeth. I've been captivated by this ever since I read it. Each line is so well-placed and the dynamic between them sings. I love the way this concept is used to express the canon violence and tragedy of it all, too.
Banked Fires Blaze by Chestnut_pod (Aerin & Fire Pot; Aerin/Brodda, T, 2k)
What is it to be made for a kinder world?
This fic is SO creative and brilliant--telling Aerin's story and the burning of Brodda's hall as part of a longer folktale/myth about women and hearths and Brodda's people and the coming Dagor Dagorath. I really love examinations of non-normative/human/"bad" traditions and cultures in Tolkien and I was blown away by this portrait of a different kind of Silmarillion myth!
Proxy by @aipilosse (Celegorm/Celebrimbor, E, 3k)
Celegorm's nephew seeks him out one evening in Nargothrond. Celegorm is playing king, but Celebrimbor's game is less clear.
This is so juicy and gendery--masc transmasc Celegorm comparing Celebrimbor to LĂșthien. Celegorm leaning further and further into playing the villain and Celebrimbor struggling with the family's deeds, the break between them imminent, makes for such a good dynamic. Dark and sexy and fraught!!
the ways of birds by @welcomingdisaster (Maglor & Maedhros, T, 4k)
When Maglor is captured in the aftermath of the Nirnaeth Arnoediad, he doesn't expect a rescue.
Whump in the venerable whumpfic tradition and honestly so formative to me. I love how gritty this is and how vividly I can picture the wretched goblin march through the landscape. I LOVE Maedhros rejecting political expediency and rejecting pragmatism to save Maglor.
My Son by @polutrope (FĂ«anor/Maglor, E, 3k)
âFather, I assure you: it is nothing. I would choose you a thousand times before any husband. Ever would I choose my own blood before that of a stranger.â After his exile to Formenos, Feanor locks himself in the vault with the Silmarils. Makalaure goes to him.
This is such an eerie and beautiful dark fairytale. With how entwined the Feanorians all are by the Oath and their loyalty to FĂ«anor, this relationship makes only too much sense in this story. I love Maglor's desire and the gender and selfhood of it all, and how unsettling and selfish FĂ«anor's taking possession of him is.
make me come alive by @queerofthedagger (Maedhros/Maglor, E, 6k)
Maglor struggles to give up control. Maedhros makes sure that he learns.
MY SILMSMUTEXCHANGE GIFT!! Himring Maedhros + osanwë lifestyle BDSM + Gap Maglor. This builds deliciously--it is sooo sexy. Maglor's loyalty and Maglor struggling to accept Maedhros' authority--but needing it, it settling his guilt and unease--are fantastic. One of the hottest unhinged Maedhroses I have read. I love the way his presence looms in Maglor's mind even in his absence and how convinced he is that he has Maglor's best interests at heart.
+ 1 extra: Forbidden Prey by @whovianofmidgard (Celegorm/Maglor, M, 3k)
Celegorm doesn't know that he is attracted to his older brother, Maglor. He ends up pushing him away, while searching for Maglor's traits in his other potential loves.
I have to mention this fic because I simply enjoyed reading it SO much. I love a feminine Maglor and a Celegorm who wants Maglor and is taking that out on him. The hints of background Maedhros/Maglor, Celegorm's jealousy and obsession, and the way this spirals into Celegorm's attraction to LĂșthien are all just catnip to my brain.
Really short fics (under or around 1k)
The Fortress by TheLegendCreator (Himring & Maedhros, G, ~500 words)
A Dwarf visits Tol Himling and wonders about the craftsmanship. He listens to the stone-song, and it tells him the tale of an Elf-lord that wove his heart into stone.
I love the mythic/fairytale vibes of this--the way Himring's stones remember Maedhros, and the dwarven OC is chilled hearing his tale. It strongly evokes to me the "deep they delved us, fair they wrought us" memory and history of Tolkien's ruins and landscapes.
sundial by @swanmaiden (Pengolodh/DĂrhavel, G, ~500 words)
Pengolodh meets a kindred spirit in the market square at the Havens of Sirion.
This is so bittersweet--the humble but bustling life of Sirion before the kinslaying and the mutual recognition of these two historians and tellers of tales. Knowing what's to come makes their brief connection and Pengolodh's resolution to share his feelings hit all the harder. You get the feeling that he never gets the chance to.
One Thousand Days by @melestasflight (Uldor & Maedhros, T, ~800 words)
Uldor has spent one thousand days carefully observing the Lord of Himring. Because everyone has a weakness, and Maedhrosâ weakness lies in the West.
I just love the POV switch here on Tolkien's "villainous" peoples, the way this story makes Uldor's betrayal seem not only compelling but reasonable from his perspective. The arrogant preoccupation of Elves with other Elves, the rumors of the kinslayings, Uldor's dying curse flung at Maglor.... all so good.
Fire by @buds-of-marjoram (Maedhros/Maglor, M, ~300 words)
My brother came back; an inferno.
This brief ficlet is so evocative and so sensual. I love the BDSM dynamic here and the Maglor POV of Maedhros--the way Maedhros has changed, become cruel even, but they adore each other and are completely entwined.
Let the water hold me down by BloodwingBlackbird (Daeron/Melian, E, ~900 words)
Daeron and Melian and songs.
Melian captivates Daeron and Daeron gives himself and his music over to her as her conduit. An absolutely incredible eerie, otherworldly Melian and the patron/artist dynamic is so sexy. Daeron's juxtaposed with Maglor--who can't understand what he shares with Melian and can't decide whether to pity or envy him for his queen's patronage. So vividly and poetically written. My Innumerable Stars gift!!
crowns and other trinkets by @thelordofgifs (Maedhros & Maglor, G, 1.4k)
In the years of Maedhrosâ captivity Maglor would indulge himself, sometimes, and open the chest, and admire the treasure within as though he were yet a fanciful child trying on his brotherâs baubles; and he would tell himself that he would hear Maedhrosâ laughing voice at the door any moment now, saying, Are you going through my things again, little magpie? Before the Mereth Aderthad, Maedhros and Maglor sort through some jewellery.
I always adore Maglor haunted by guilt from his "kingship" and this scene brings so much of that for me in subtle ways. I love Maedhros' attention to Maglor, the way he wants to foist adornments on him, and the way the pieces of jewelry link past and present, bringing younger and happier moments into the room in bleak Beleriand where they must decide which of their few things to part with. Hints of Celegorm being cruel and accusatory to Maglor during Maedhros' captivity are the cherry on top for me.
Atonement by @jouissants (Maedhros/Maglor, G, 1.5k)
Maedhros and Maglor, home at the end of the world.
Out of so many amazing fics and amazing Maedhros/Maglor fics from jouissants this year I struggled to pick what to put on this list but it had to include this one--so comforting and tender, I've reread it so many times. I LOVE this weary canon divergence Maedhros--how determined he is to love Maglor well despite everything, to stay with him, to not choose death--how he's deeply satisfied by Maglor's small comforts, too, despite things not being easy and their life being so humble. Maglor pregnancy literally can fix them I believe it.
Surfeited by sabcatt / @shinraelectricpowercom (Celegorm/Dior, E, 1.1k)
Give me excess of it, that, surfeiting, The appetite may sicken, and so die. After the Ruin of Doriath, Celegorm has some fun with his prize. Dior would like to get off this ride.
This is like the best evil "tender"(-ish) noncon ever. Celegorm/Dior is such a good ship all the time but especially when Celegorm gets the chance to be horrific and to take out his thwarted attraction for LĂșthien on Dior. This brilliantly crafted smut is bringing it all. Go read it...
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I canât even explain how much I love writing about Gil-galadâheâs everything! He deserves nothing less than the absolute best words I can give him. This is for real Gil-galad Supremacy âšđ«¶đ„â€ïžâđ„
Gil-galad would react to his human S/O organising him a birthday party, complete with homemade gift, and baking and decorating him a birthday cake
Part 1 here
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đČ You step closer to him, smiling as you carefully take the pendant from his hands. Gil-galad watches you with a soft, awed expression, as though he still canât fully grasp the depth of what youâve done for him. His gaze is tender and full of gratitude, the pendant glimmering faintly in your hands as you reach up to place it around his neck.âLet me help you with this,â you say softly, your voice gentle, intimate, and full of warmth. Standing close to him, you carefully fasten the chain, your fingers brushing against his hair at the back of his neck. Once the star-shaped pendant is in place, it rests perfectly against his chest, catching the golden light of the setting sun.
đČ You take a small step back to admire your work, your hands lingering lightly on his shoulders. âIt suits you,â you murmur, tilting your head as you gaze up at him. âA symbol of who you areâmy brightest star, my guiding light.â Gil-galadâs breath hitches at your words, and his hands instinctively come up to rest on yours, which are still on his shoulders. The tips of his long fingers lightly brush against your skin, his touch reverent. âYou honor me more than I deserve, meleth-nĂźn,â he says, his voice unsteady yet full of emotion. âI donât think Iâve ever felt more seen, more loved, than I do in this moment.â
đČ Smiling, you step closer and rise on your toes to press a soft kiss to the tip of his sensitive ear. His breath catches audibly, his hands gripping your arms a little tighter as his eyes flutter shut. You take the chance to whisper into his ear, your voice low and full of love. âYou are everything, Gil-galad. Not just to your people, but to me. Youâve carried so much for so long, but today is about you. You deserve every ounce of love, joy, and peace in this worldâand Iâll make sure you have it, always.â For a moment, he is utterly still, as though your words have rooted him to the spot. Then, he exhales a shaky breath, his head dipping as though to hide his face, though you can see the faint glimmer of tears in his eyes again. âYour words⊠your love⊠they are the greatest treasures I could ever receive,â he whispers.
đČ You give him a moment to collect himself before gently taking his hand and leading him toward the table, where the cake sits waiting. As you approach, you light the candles, their flickering glow casting a warm light against the evening backdrop. The stars above Lindon now shine faintly, as if blessing the moment. You gesture for him to sit, and as he does, you begin to sing âHappy Birthday,â your voice soft and slightly playful, but filled with affection. Gil-galad watches you the entire time, his lips curving into a smile that is equal parts amusement, wonder, and pure love. When the song ends, you grin at him, leaning close to the table. âMake a wish,â you say, your tone conspiratorial, as if youâre sharing a secret. âAnd donât tell me what it is, or it wonât come true.â Gil-galad chuckles softly at your words, a deep, melodic sound that fills the quiet garden. He looks at the cake, the candles flickering like tiny stars, and for a moment, his expression turns thoughtful. Then, with a soft breath, he closes his eyes and leans forward, blowing out the candles. The flames disappear, and the warm light dims for just a moment before the lanterns around the garden seem to glow a little brighter.
đČ When he looks back at you, there is a twinkle in his eye that wasnât there before. âI donât need to make a wish,â he says, his voice soft yet firm, âbecause everything I could ever hope for is already hereâwith you.â His words take your breath away, and as you sit down beside him, his hand comes up to cup your cheek, his thumb brushing lightly against your skin. âThank you,â he whispers, leaning in to press a tender kiss to your forehead. âFor this, for everything. Youâve turned what was once just another day into a memory I will carry forever.â You smile up at him, your hand resting on top of his, and together, the two of you sit under the stars, basking in the warmth of each otherâs presence and the light of love that fills the air around you.
(His Lil tongue đ
playing peak a boo)
đČ You pick up the delicate knife and begin to cut into the cake, the blade sliding effortlessly through the soft sponge layers. The gentle aroma of elderflower and honey fills the air, mingling with the sweetness of wild berries and the faint floral note of lavender. As you place the first slice on a plate and offer it to Gil-galad, his expression is one of curiosity and anticipation. âThis is beautiful,â he says, marveling at the intricate design of the cake as you pass him a fork. âItâs almost a shame to eat it. You truly thought of everything, didnât you?â
đČ âWell,â you tease lightly, sitting beside him and picking up a fork of your own, âa king deserves a feast, doesnât he? But youâre not just going to look at it, are you? Taste it.â Gil-galad chuckles softly, his deep voice warm and filled with affection. âHow could I refuse, with you watching so intently?â He takes a small bite, his elegant movements always carrying a natural grace. The flavors seem to bloom across his senses, his expression softening as he savors the unique blend of the elderflower sponge, the silky vanilla cream, and the delicate sweetness of the berries. âThis⊠this is extraordinary,â he says after a moment, his eyes meeting yours, filled with sincere admiration. âIâve tasted the finest dishes crafted by the hands of Elves, but nothing has ever compared to this. Youâve captured Lindon itself in a cake, meleth-nĂźn. How do you do it?â
đČ âLove and a bit of human stubbornness,â you reply with a grin, reaching for a piece of cake yourself. But as you watch him take another bite, an idea forms in your mindâa playful one. Before he can react, you hold out a small forkful of cake toward him. âHere, let me,â you say, your voice innocent, though thereâs a mischievous glint in your eyes. Gil-galad raises a brow but leans in, humor sparkling in his gaze as he indulges you. He takes the offered bite from your fork, his lips brushing lightly against the metal. âYou spoil me,â he murmurs with a chuckle, but as he speaks, a small smear of cream remains at the corner of his mouth. âOh no, look what Iâve done,â you say, feigning innocence as you lean closer. Your thumb brushes the corner of his lips, as though to wipe it awayâbut rather than stopping there, you gently trace the cream down toward his chin, leaving a playful streak. Gil-galad blinks, caught off guard for a moment. âYou missed a spot,â he says dryly, clearly aware of your antics now.
đČ âDid I?â you say with exaggerated surprise, leaning in even closer. Before he can respond, you tilt your head and press your lips to the cream on his chin, licking it away with deliberate slowness. His sharp inhale is audible, his hands twitching slightly on the table as if unsure whether to pull you closer or simply let you carry on. âMeleth-nĂźn,â he says, his voice both amused and slightly strained, âyou are a dangerous creature.â You pull back just enough to meet his gaze, a cheeky smile playing on your lips. âDangerous? Iâm just making sure my cake presentation is flawless,â you reply, laughing softly.
đČ Gil-galad shakes his head, though his laughter joins yours, low and warm. âYou are impossible. A force to be reckoned with.â Despite his words, his hand comes up to rest lightly on your cheek, his thumb brushing over your skin in a gesture of pure affection. âBut I wouldnât have you any other way.â You beam at him, feeling a warm rush of affection as you reach for another forkful of cake. âIâll let you get me back later, but for now, finish your cake,â you tease. âYou still havenât had enough to judge if itâs truly worthy of the High King.â Gil-galad leans closer, his smile softening. âWorthy? It is perfect. As is everything you do, my beloved.â His words send a pleasant shiver down your spine, but the moment is lightened as he takes another bite of cake, still smiling at you like youâre the brightest star in all the heavens. And perhaps to him, you are.
(The smile in this so cute đ„°)
đČ As the last bite of cake is savored, you notice the subtle shift in the air. The breeze carries the faintest rustle of leaves, and the light of the star-shaped lanterns hanging from the branches above casts a soft, golden glow over the private garden. The scene feels almost magical, the backdrop of Lindonâs hills and sea stretching into the distance, touched by the silver light of evening. Gil-galad sets his plate aside, his fingers brushing yours briefly as you gather it. He studies you for a moment, his deep, blue-gray eyes filled with a mixture of affection and curiosity.
đČ âThank you for this,â he says, his voice low, reverent. âNot just for the celebration, but for everything. Youâve given me a moment I will cherish for all my days.â You smile warmly, reaching out to take his hand in yours. âWell,â you say softly, âIâm not done yet. Thereâs one more thing.â Standing, you gently tug him to his feet. His movements are fluid and graceful, but thereâs a hint of curiosity in his gaze as he allows you to guide him to the open space beneath the glowing lanterns. The soft, golden light sways with the gentle breeze, casting delicate patterns across the ground.
đČ âWhat are you up to now, meleth-nĂźn?â he asks, his tone playful yet tender. You step closer, sliding your hands up to rest on his shoulders as you look up at him. âJust one dance,â you whisper. âNo music, no distractions. Just us.â His expression softens, and without hesitation, he wraps his arms around your waist, pulling you gently closer. âYou know the Elves of Lindon could hear even the faintest music if it were playing,â he murmurs, the teasing lilt in his voice accompanied by the warmth in his gaze. âBut I find the sound of your heart far sweeter.â Your breath catches at his words, but you tilt your head and smile. âThen listen closely, because it beats just for you.â
đČ Slowly, the two of you begin to sway together, the rhythm dictated not by music but by the natural cadence of your bodies and the love that binds you. His hands are steady on your waist, his touch light yet firm, and his movements graceful as though he were born to dance. You, by contrast, move more simply, but there is an intimacy in how you follow his lead, in how you fit together so seamlessly. The lanterns above sway gently in the breeze, casting fleeting light across his face. You catch glimpses of the way his features softenâhis eyes fixed only on you, his lips curling into the faintest smile. You feel his warmth, his steady presence grounding you, even as your heart seems to soar.
đČ Neither of you speaks for a long moment. The only sounds are the rustle of leaves and the distant crashing of waves far below. The stars above seem to shine brighter, as though bearing witness to this quiet, sacred moment between the two of you. When Gil-galad finally breaks the silence, his voice is hushed, like a prayer meant only for you. âDo you know what you mean to me?â he asks. âYouâve not only shared my days, meleth-nĂźnâyouâve brightened them, filled them with joy I never thought I would feel again. You are my light in this world.â
đČ His words make your chest tighten, your emotions catching you off guard. You lean closer, pressing your forehead against his, letting your eyes flutter shut as you whisper, âAnd you are mine. My anchor, my star. Thereâs nowhere else Iâd rather be than here, with you.â The dance slows further, your movements becoming almost still as you simply hold onto each other. It is as if time itself has stopped, leaving only the two of you in this perfect, fleeting moment.
đČ And then, as if the stars themselves wish to honor the High Kingâs birthday, a single firework blooms in the sky. The sound is distant but sharp, the explosion unfurling into a cascade of brilliant colorsâsilver and gold that rain down like stars upon the backdrop of Lindon. You both stop, turning slightly to look up, but neither of you lets go. The firework lights Gil-galadâs face, and you can see the soft wonder in his expression as his gaze shifts back to you. Without a word, he cups your cheek, his thumb brushing lightly against your skin, and lowers his lips to yours.
đČ The kiss is slow, tender, and filled with every ounce of love and devotion he has for you. His lips are warm and soft, lingering as though he wishes to pour all the unspoken words of his heart into this one gesture. You kiss him back with equal tenderness, your hands slipping up to tangle in his hair as the distant firework fades, leaving only the warmth of each other. When he finally pulls back, his forehead rests against yours, and his voice is a whisper. âI wished for you long ago, though I thought it impossible. Yet here you are, my heartâs greatest treasure.â You smile, your own voice catching as you reply, âAnd you are mine, for as long as youâll have me.â Gil-galad chuckles softly, his arms tightening around you. âForever, meleth-nĂźn. Forever and beyond.â
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If Sol is an anxiety-riddled cheetah, what sort of person or thing or addition to her (un)life would have the same effect on her that an emotional support puppy has on a cheetah?
ive been thinking about this and not getting anywhere j and im pretty sure itâs meant as no nuance but weâve established im an overthinker v_v so i rambled for a while below, hopefully itâs entertaining LOL. i focused way too much on the relationships. tbh it could be her brother if she ever reunited with him
itâs so hard to pick out one particular thing or person or addition and keep it realistic!!! iâd otherwise say it was Julian during the fledgling years, but she didnât have much in the way of anxiety then, not like it is now, and he was also partially responsible for what brought about triggering/exacerbating it in the first place. but initially what they had, if you could lift that younger slightly less bold Julian to replace present Julian, might have that effect on her
in some weird way i think Sol subconsciously likes being kept on the fringe or razors edge of her nerves in some twisted strain of excitement; ive been toying with this as a manifestation of her beast. so maybe she would vore a traditional therapy dog and sit there shaking and whimpering like sheâs the victim đ§
iâve mentioned before she gets on really well with Elena and enjoys her dry presence and quiet competence and absolute loyalty, but the fact of whatâs unnaturally behind that loyalty spikes anxiety if Sol dwells on it â Sol is also VERY protective and worries about everyone she has a connection with. she would develop feelings for the therapy dog. whatever it might be in this analogy, it would have to be some sort of stronger kindred/supernatural for her to have any peace of mind
so⊠Lettow comes closest in that regard, but i still donât think Sol would be happy for other reasons. his demeanor, strength and reliability has the most inwardly calming effect on her â like a truly strange solid steadying comfort over a period of months that grow insanely chaotic. he offers comfort, forgiveness, acceptance, support â all the things she thinks she wants or needs. itâs interesting to me that in the base text a lot of his touches and embraces are described as being either âgroundingâ, âprotectiveâ or âlingeringâ because Sol often feels like sheâs drowning â in guilt, in Ailaâs memories, in loneliness, in purposelessness, in her own maddeningly unsatisfied hunger. like meeting earth after years at sea. he has big taurus energy to her underdeveloped scorpio. (contrastingly Julianâs are described as unexpected or split-second and leaving her off-balance⊠but again i think Sol actually likes that)
maybe Lettow could help her heal past Aila but i donât think Sol would give herself that chance for forgiveness. and while she comes to really love and care for him despite the confusion Ailaâs stirring brings, and her own impulsive feelings and actions, i donât think sheâs IN love with Lettow :( he doesnât inspire or excite or wildly frustrate her like Julian does. so maybe that does make Lettow a good emotional support puppy⊠Sol needs a pet elder kindred just chilling in the background with a panama hat being extremely accepting of her stupidity to feel normal i guess. im thinking his willingness to forgive what sheâs done would eat at her forever though, to a point thatâs just utterly dissociative. and thatâs not fair to Lettow; he doesnât deserve another gf tapping out on him
present-and-post-night road JulianâŠsigh
Julian has this constant dichotomy of idealism and hypocrisy, patience and cool calculative manipulation. he would be that one therapy dog that wasnât screened for occasionally barking unexpectedly and roughhousing. so like heâs very good for her in some ways and terribly triggering in others but now the cheetah is attached to him so everyone (me) is hesitant to take him out of the enclosure
more than anything Julian offers her assurance in his intelligence, adaptability, his purpose â and the purpose he gives her, which Sol canât put to words. itâs less about providing a calming presence and more about inspiring and challenging her. heâs like enrichment LOL. more akin to a partner in adventure and crime rather than strictly emotional support, but i think Sol would end up heading in Ailaâs direction without Julian stirring shit up for her
as for the emotional support⊠ok this is where i retreat to my fanfic but Marquis definitely threw a big bone at the end of Julianâs romance. they have a very deep connection; the sire-childe bond, were best friends/lovers/attached at the hip for a decade, he brings out the best (and worst) in her but he helps her discover herself⊠i think itâs special and could work as a foundation. of course ultimately the effectiveness depends on the progression of their relationship and the trust rebuilding between them post-night road, but i see that as a possibility. when Sol tentatively decides to help with Julianâs plan for the SI and 2100 long term instead of Lettow, something big is bridged there â in the ending scene with romanced Julian he in turn offers Sol half of the reigns on the program and lets her call the shots with whatever happens with the death cult in Monterrey, as well as joining her in the field. i love Kyle for doing that lmao⊠itâs a really nice moment that hints at Julian being willing to work to rebuild the relationship and trust between them instead of what you get in night road when neither of them wholly trust each other and are loathe to keep it 100. once Julian knows sheâs in, heâs down, no holds barred. i think they'd both be for the long haul, in good and probably still some bad and very imperfect ways but that keeps it interesting
THANK YOU FOR COMING TO MY TED TALK <3333 THANK YOU J <333
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the weight of her name
Lando Norris x Amelie Dayman
Summary: In the midst of the lively paddock at Spa, Lando's peaceful moment with his family takes a turn when a conversation brings up memories of someone from his past.
Wordcount: 1.0 k
Warnings: just fluff
July 27th, 2023 - Spa, Belgium
The Belgium Grand Prix paddock was a hive of activity, with engineers, drivers, and staff bustling around in preparation for the weekend ahead. Inside the McLaren Team Hub, Lando Norris sat with his family at one of the small tables tucked into a quieter corner. The smell of fresh coffee filled the room as his mum, Cisca, passed around mugs and biscuits, chatting casually with her parents. His dad, Adam, was checking his phone, occasionally chiming into the conversation.
Lando leaned back in his chair, a small smile on his face as he listened to his grandparents banter about their travel to Spa. His grandmother, ever the storyteller, was animatedly recounting their journey and how they nearly missed their connecting flight. Landoâs grandpa shook his head with a chuckle, muttering something about how she always exaggerates.
Then, out of nowhere, his grandmotherâs tone shifted, her eyes lighting up with recognition as she turned to Cisca.
âOh, that reminds me!â she began, her voice laced with fondness. âYou know who we saw at Silverstone? That beautiful blonde girl. What was her name again?â She paused, tapping her fingers against the table as if trying to recall.
Landoâs ears perked up immediately, his easy posture stiffening ever so slightly. He didnât need to hear more to know exactly who she was talking about.
Ciscaâs face froze, her usual composed demeanor faltering for a moment. She quickly reached out for her tea, trying to steer the conversation elsewhere. âMum, maybe we should focus onâ
âNo, no, wait!â his grandmother interrupted, ignoring her daughterâs subtle attempts to shut her down. âAmelie! Thatâs it. Amelie Dayman. Such a sweet girl. Always so polite and kind. We ran into her right before the race started.â She turned to Lando, her eyes twinkling with nostalgia. âYou remember her, donât you, Lando?â
Landoâs jaw clenched slightly as he tried to play it cool, but the slight tinge of color rising to his cheeks betrayed him. âYeah, I remember her,â he replied, his voice calm, though his grip on the edge of the table tightened.
âOh, you should have seen her!â his grandmother continued, oblivious to the tension building around her. âShe was absolutely lovely, as always. We went to say hello, and she looked so happy to see us. Such a natural beauty, isnât she?â
Cisca shot her mother a warning look, her lips pressed into a thin line, but it was no use. The older woman was on a roll now, completely unaware of how her words were slicing through Lando.
âAnd you know what I said to her?â his grandmother added with a chuckle. âI told her how much we missed having her around. She laughed, but I could see it in her eyes. She misses you too, Lando.â
Lando let out a small, forced laugh, rubbing the back of his neck as he leaned forward in his chair. âI doubt that,â he muttered under his breath, though no one seemed to catch it except for his mum.
âOh, nonsense!â his grandmother said, waving him off. âThe way you two were back then⊠You were smitten with her, Lando. Absolutely smitten. And she cared for you too, you could tell. The way she looked at you... oh, it was like a scene out of one of those romantic movies. I always told your grandpa that you were in love.â
âMum!â Cisca cut in sharply, her voice firm but not loud. She placed her hand on her motherâs arm, her expression tight. âThatâs enough. Letâs not dwell on the past.â
But it was too late. The damage had been done. Landoâs mind was already racing, flooded with memories heâd tried so hard to bury.
He could see her in his mindâs eye. Amelie at Silverstone, standing near the paddock, her blonde hair shining under the sun as she laughed with his grandparents. Sheâd always been so good at that, at charming everyone around her effortlessly. He hadnât even seen her that weekend, and yet, knowing sheâd been there, so close and yet so far, had been enough to throw him off his game.
His grandmother sighed, finally noticing the shift in the roomâs energy. âI just think itâs a shame,â she said quietly. âShe was good for you, Lando. You seemed so happy when she was around.â
Landoâs dad, Adam, finally looked up from his phone, sensing the awkwardness. âMaybe itâs best we leave it there. Let the boy focus on his race.â
Lando nodded, grateful for the lifeline. âYeah, Iâve got enough to worry about this weekend,â he said, standing up abruptly. âI think Iâll go check in with the team.â
He left the table without another word, heading out of the hub and into the chaos of the paddock. But no matter how much he tried to shake it off, his grandmotherâs words followed him like a ghost.
She misses you too, Lando.
Did she? Or was it just wishful thinking? Because no matter how much time passed, no matter how many races he won or lost, the truth remained: he still missed her. And no amount of distance or distractions could change that.
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Hii, I saw you were doing requests for Marauders era things... Would you be keen to do a jegulus fic? would love to see them with a neurodivergent reader or something đ thank you !!! Ok if not comfortable
Thank you for your patience anon, if you're still around! Inspiration finally struck as I'm currently working through my own processes with my neurodivergent & mental health things. So I felt like what better time than now to write some fic therapy? Hope you enjoy! đ€
The Art of Trying
Warnings: some angst and miscommunication. Good ending tho. My own personal portrayal of how neurodivergency shows up for me đ€ but I know it's a spectrum for everyone. I'm no expert, just a human existing and trying.
James knew your routine well. He'd even adjusted some of his own so it could match up with yours well, which luckily didn't take too much effort given you were both early risers. Regulus, however, was the night owl of the three of you. He only woke up well after James and you had finished your morning tasks, and would work around the house quietly at night. But despite this, you'd all found a peaceful compromise in your daily lives so that this relationship could be at its absolute best. Thriving, he would say.
That was until Regulus got a new job that required him to be out by 8am. Which meant, a change in how you all lived and did things.
For James, the change was easy. He thrived with more people around, and waking up at the same time as his other partner felt like heaven. But for you... He knew this was a lot harder on you than you were admitting.
It started off fine, you also enjoyed the extra kisses and cuddles the first day, the second even. But James could tell that as you settled down after the excitement, the reality must have set in because you stopped making eye contact with them on the third day. Avoided their touches on the fourth.
By the end of the week, your voice turned cold.
"Can I please have some room." You mumbled out with a bit of an edge. Your body sliding carefully by Regulus's but not touching him. Reggie was making breakfast, some sort of omelette situation, but that meant there was cutting boards and cheeses and utensils all around and no space.
James was sitting at the breakfast nook with his coffee, reading over the Daily Prophet when he perked up at the tone.
"Of course darling," Regulus said, wand out immediately as he tidied up. "Apologies for that. Would you like an omelette?"
You grabbed your usual bowl, your yogurt, not even looking up to answer. "No thanks." You grabbed your things, saying a quick have a good day before you left for the bedroom and closed the door shut.
Now Regulus had been aware you were having a hard time adjusting, they'd anticipated it even. So he tried his best to accommodate your needs, but at the same time he had his routines as well. And he struggled the same, if not differently from too many changed to his own routine. James could tell the cold and distant attitude was affecting Reggie now as well, despite how patient he tried to be.
"Reggie y'alright?"
"No, James. I am not alright." Reggie sighed. "I feel like as if walking on glass, and by the time I get to work my day feels ruined. They barely looks at me, barely talks. Anything I do I feel as if it's wrong and I cannot- I don't want to shut her out. I don't want to shut down." He took a shaky breath in.
James was up in a moment, wrapping Regulus up in his arms. "I know, I know." He paused, focusing on easing his partner while he thought. "Maybe it's time we talk about it again, yeah? I know we discussed the change before, but it's obviously affecting them and you both more than you expected."
Regulus sighed as he rested his head on James' chest. "I suppose your right. I miss them, James."
James' heart cracked, "I know baby, but we can fix it yeah? This is fixable."
James felt Reggie nod on his chest. "Yeah," he mumbled.
He pulled Regulus back by his arms, "Would you rather talk to them now or after work?"
Reggie paused before letting out a breath. "Now, please."
He nodded and took Reggie's hand into his own, making their way to your bedroom as James knocked on the door. "Lovely?"
"Yeah?" He heard you mumble from within.
"Can Reggie and I come in for a moment?"
There was a long pause, an obvious tell on your end that you were aware that there would be a conversation happening. He gave you space to mentally preparing, waiting until eventually you let out a soft "Sure."
As James opened the door, they found you with your bowl empty and your tea forgotten, instead your back sat straight against your bed while you twisted your fingers in the top sheet.
"What's up?" You said in a forced nonchalant tone. He noticed your gaze focus on their interlocked hands.
"We just wanted to check in for a bit. Mind if we sit?" James said.
You nodded and the boys moved to the space across from you as an awkward silence filled the air. Your hands kept twisting at the sheets nervously until you'd notice and stop. Then just started up again.
"We've noticed you've been shutting down more lately, and we're just wanting to see how you're feeling if that's alright." James started.
Your faced dropped into a mix of guilt and sadness. "I'm... Adjusting."
"We know these things take time, of course." James placated, noticing Reggie's own guilt and frustration reflecting back in his face now. He squeezed his hand. "But you haven't really talked to us much since the change in schedules, and it feels a bit like you're shutting us out is all. We're worried."
You chewed on your lip, eyes glancing about as you thought. Not once landing on them.
"I just- I'm having uh... Hard time with. The difference." You managed out.
James nodded. "How so?"
"The sounds, the space, it's... Just different. And I feel myself getting frustrated and I don't wanna get mad at you guys because it's my brain, not you. You're not doing anything wrong. So I stay as long as I can, but it's just getting harder and I-" you choked out as you crashed your head onto our palms. "I just don't wanna take it out on you, I'm sorry. I don't know how to deal with this yet."
Reggie spoke up then, his voice calmer as his hand reached out to touch the fabric in front of you. "Darling, look at me please."
You lookes up warily as Regulus scooted closer, leaving James' side. "May I?" He asked, his palm up.
You placed your hand in his.
"It's not easy, when it feels as if our brains are working against us." Reggie started. "It's as if we are not cut out for the world and the world was not made for us. We may not be able to control how our brain interprets or how our body reacts, but we can choose and train ourselves to do the best we can. To try."
Regulus's hand reached up slowly to touch your face, giving you time to pull away if you so chose. "I want to try. I don't want my own inside rules to stop me from loving you the way that I want. The way you deserve." He paused and took a deep breath in and out. "But I also need you to trust me. To talk to me. This morning, yesterday, I-"
James put a supportive hand on Regulus's shoulder. Regulus seemed to struggle with his words, so James gladly chimed in. "We just want to support you as best as we can, but we also need to make sure we're all good too. And the only way to do that is if we talk about it. Are you okay with that lovely?"
You nodded, but kept your gaze down. "I'm sorry, I know this is a lot and I genuinely wish I knew how to deal with this better. Communicate better. I'm not... I'm not gonna be perfect at it. It may come out wrong."
Regulus tilted your now tear stained face up. "It doesn't need to be perfect. Just try, okay? And I will too. I most definitely do not say the right things always, nor do I express myself very well. Yet you've always been patient and non judgmental of it. Can you trust me to be the same?"
You held his gaze, doubt blooming behind your eyes. "I trust you I just-"
"Have been hurt by plebians before who couldn't deal with honest communication," Regulus finished.
You looked down at that and nodded slightly.
"We don't want you to be perfect," James supplied. "We just want you. As you are, as youve always been. That's all we want."
You met his gaze and reached your hand out to James. It's like his body could finally relax, touching you. "I'm sorry I didn't talk to you guys about it. That I just shut you out."
"S'alright lovely. We get it." James said. "Maybe this is something to talk about with your therapist yeah?"
You nodded, "Yeah, I haven't seen her in a while. Probably should."
James couldn't help but smile at you, at how much he knew that phrase alone took you ages to get even comfortable saying. Going to a therapist and finding one you trusted. He couldn't help but feel himself fill with pride.
Regulus's voice suddenly broke the comfortable silence. "Well I also get it, but it wasn't alright. I've had to deal with work and life all without your cuddles and I've been quite remiss to be honest." James could swear a sort of pout apparated on Regulus's face as he spoke and then disappeared just as quickly.
James sees the slight amusement trace your lips, but you surprise him when you speak with such a deep sincerity and vulnerability instead. "I'm sorry Reggie. I'll make it up to you, I promise."
Regulus nodded before you leaned in for a quick kiss. Then turned to place one on James as well.
"Well! I don't know about you but that just gave me all the energy I needed today," James said with the biggest smile on his face.
You laughed, a beautiful laugh, at the same time Reggie scoffed but didn't disagree. He even went to kiss you again.
James knew that things might come up again, that it's wasn't all solved. But you loved each other, trusted each other, and that was enough.
#jegulus#jegulus x reader#james potter x regulus black x reader#james potter x reader#regulus black x reader#starchaser x reader#starchaser#marauders era#fuck jkr#longlivedelusion originals#neurodivergent reader#angst with a happy ending#non gender conforming
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Ok, really not tryna vague or be shady, but I just gotta say: I do not and will never understand why there's so much drama around ships becoming canon or not.
Seriously, why do you care. Is your ship game that weak? Do you need a stamp of approval from other people for what you like and how you creatively express yourself? Because, sorry, but that's technically what that is and you don't need it.
C'mere. Come to auntie. Listen. I multiship like crazy and lots of weird and niche rare pairs too. Whenever any of my ships become canon that's pretty much an accident and a statistical outlier and because I just happened to like what the creators like for once. And then I usually think "oh that's nice" and go on with my madness. No getting smug and using it to put others down either!
I'm telling you this because I simply can't stress enough how much more chill and fun shipping is if you become deeply unbothered by what's canon, what the creators think and what other people approve of. Again, you need nobody's stamp of approval. And if people nag and bully you about what you like then these people suck and they have no right to demand explanations from you.
Make your case not to justify yourself to bullies - they won't be convinced anyway - but to get other people interested. Make your case through your art, your writing, your headcanons, your conversations with other fans. Make your case through passion.
And stop letting others tell you what you can and can't ship. Which goes both ways, just saying.
Ok, that's it, bye
#to be clear this has nothing to do with liking ships that already exist in canon (i do too! sometimes)#this is exclusively about the people who get into an (at that time) non canon ship and then spend years whining and demanding that it be-#-comes canon#ok? ok#rant over#tough love from auntie cĂlil#(i guess)#again saying this with absolute peace and love#do yourself the favor of not worrying about it that much and not causing drama around it#fandom#shipping#fandom wank
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"do you agree? - yes."
#peaceful property#peaceful property series#taynew#peaceful property ep12#peachhome#peach x home#tay tawan#new thitipoom#gmmtv#thai drama#i didnt have time to make content about this show sadly but as this is the finale i wanna take a few seconds to say#that this was an absolutely incredible production and I am in absolute awe of it#so so well done in every aspect and the found family trope hit harder than ever#somehow ended up tearing up in every episode lmao#taynew delivered another masterpiece and i will never ever doubt them again lol#peach is adorable as heck and newie is an ACTOR alright like damn#and all the cameos? on fcking POINT#to air such a gem on a random wednesday? a crime.#which on the other hand gives me higher hopes for THK lmao#but anyway i loved every second of this and i highly recommend it to anyone who hasnt seen it#more like this in the future please thank you!!!!!#gmm does get it right sometimes#but only if its bromance and said bromance is clearly not in the room with us#which is a very unique type of genre#but somehow it hits the spot#end of review
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the fucking. contrast between 'For a moment, our gazes held as we mingled in unity. One person. We had always been one person. Nighteyes had voiced it long ago. It was good to be whole again.' and 'I am content' like????? killing myslrf
#robin hobb you will PAY#the way . the way fitz doesn't fucking speak of beloved after he receives the gifts EVEN THO he knows he will probably never see him again#so desperate to appear content soo so desperate to be whole again but everything he does from the point on is shallow is hollow is not. rea#he doesn't even LET HIMSELF THINK ABOUT IT!!!! he doesn't even fucking describe not even once mourning beloved EVEN THO there's absolutely#no doubt that he's morning bc beloved was actually ACTUALLY one half of him and even the THOUGHT of beloved leaving him left him feeling#like he was dying like his fucking blood was draining away and yet and yet he DELIBERATELY skips months and months only focusing on molly#but even that is so so so halfhearted this is the supposed love of his life we r talking about and yet it doesn't feel SINCERE !!! it#doesn't feel like him and only at the end does he acknowledge beloved again COMPARING HIM TO THE BOND HE SHARED W NIGHTEYES WHO WAS YK ONE#HALF OF HIS SOUL AND BOND FOR LIFE AND SAYING HE WILL NEVER HAVE ANOTHER LIKE BELOVED BC HELL NEVER EVER GET OVER HIM#and that is the ONLY time it feels like he's sincere in fucking two chapters and i. 'i am content' ??? CONTENT?????????????#he didn't get a happily ever after he got an ever after he had to make peace with. i cant do this#fool's errand#rote#rote spoilers#fitzloved#fitzchivalry farseer#the fool#beloved
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The Art of Love and War is written by @fireflywritesgt and the audio reading is recorded and posted with permission.
#g/t#giant/tiny#gt#giant tiny#borrowers#mighty records#taolaw#the art of love and war#taolaw audio#Not too much to say about this one#it was a straight forward record#a peaceful break from the absolute nightmare that was recording chapter 3#speaking of before posting chapter 5#which is already recorded#i'll be working on bloopers for chapter 3 and 4 so look forawrd to that#wishing all of u guys the best and thanks again for listening
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God I'm so fucking annoyed how come she gets to treat me however she likes and then gets to say she didn't mean it?????
#have u considered not constantly comparing me to ur abusive husband who hit u??????#since i was like 8 its really fucking weird#like who in their right mind tells their child theyre naturally destructive just like their father and then says ohhhhh but i didnt mean it#are u fucking insane#doesnt help that i look like him too everyone tells me that#and now she acts like me raising my voice once means she needs to walk on eggshells around me wtf#what about how u treated me from ages 13-16#freak#i cant believe this shes treating me like im some scary stranger as if shes not the one with full financial control and that im this horribl#person go kill yourself omgjdjsjsjwjwwhwhhw#fuck u#last year was the worst year of my life and that was wholy bc of u you showed me what place i really have in this family and that it was not#hing. how is sveryrone so ready to throw me away??#yet everyone else gets to say shes sooo proetctive and loving fuck off you wouldnt even tell them youre treating me badly diedie diediediedi#i want to cut so bad bro#but i promised myself i wont so#i mean i dont even have any way of gettibg blades so whatver#just remembered her reaction to me cutting#nothing. yeah absolutely no reaction. i thought the worat thing that could happen was her gettjbg mad at me again but no#i realised there was somwthing worse. she just straight up doesnt care#useless mother#im fine w u treating me like shit ive accepeted it that i have no place in anyone's life unlesss i hive into this but at least#at least stop trying to confront me like this#just let me rot in peace#i really dont want to do this anymore#any time now she'll ask me if i was pretending to cry so i wpuldnt have to go out w her now#as if that isnt insulting#and then she'll say i wasnt trying to be rude!!! as if she hasnt always treated me like none of my feelings r real. i only ever overeact. ok
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#please for the love of god#i need people to stop telling me to âjust be strongâ#in response to me saying I'm not ok with my brother being dead#im not ok with how he died#not ok with never seeing him again#absolutely feel like i am walking around in the worlds slowest nightmare#one of my âauntsâ actually tried to tell me that maybe this was a blessing#because maybe this car accident saved him from cancer or something#im sorry what?#you want me to be thankful that my 27 yr old#perfectly healthy and strong baby brother is dead#because maybe someday he could have possibly died of cancer instead?#i know people just want to help and make me feel better#but i don't need to feel better right now#i need to cry and rage and miss my brother#who was unfairly taken from us by an unfair and random universe#it was not part of some grand scheme of gods#it was just a horrible accident#i just want to be sad and grieve in fucking peace
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#love seeing people disguising their opinion cofcof racism cofcof about vini through their words of not liking him for whatever reason#real did absolutely right by not flying the team put tk that clownery because of the ridiculous mocking that is happening with him#and im not even getting started on the whole act thing because apparently chanting racist chants is something to look up to according to#i don't believe you should like every single black person in the world but people need to get their asses on and acknowledge wt#wtf goes on on football regarding racism and xenophobia because is showing#the racists are being shown and i have to pray for days where people get their heads out of their asses and see things for as they are#one thing is disliking someone because of whatever reason and another thing is criticizing everything because of your rooted racism.#many reasons of why people don't like him IS because he is black and because he doesn't bend his head like racists expect black people to d#he is not obedient he is not shutting his mouth and affirming with his head because a racist person expect him to#and that bothers A LOT of people because how dare him how dare he not be on his place where my people told him he belong#i hope he continues to be himself and that he gets circled around by people that he can actually count on because he deserves to#many other players are cunts they are son of bitches and dont get HALF the criticism he gets and i hope people learn how to do the maths#because once again we are supposed to solve a problem we didn't create and god forbid we say out loud what is happening.#also go read the fucking newspapers and their disgusting reasons for this. and if you still can't catch on#i hope you like evolving as a human because you are needing some.#fuck this shit not even on my birthday i can have peace as a black person there's always a fucking thing happening to ruin your day#i hope every racist burns btw slowly consumed by the flames so they can see their miserable life before their eyes
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#I feel. like I get too worried about putting my stuff in the tags LOL#or just too worried about ants in general#but to be fair I've come from some really infested fandoms#where people got reported for this stuff so hard they were removed from the site#idk if tumblr changed it though. maybe they did. where if someone hit a certain number of reports on their account they got removed#whether they were breaking TOS or not#I think that could have been changed because I don't see it happen anymore#but the more I cared about this tumblr acc the more scared of that I got LOL#it's been super peaceful though???#this could just be because I blocked like half the fandom before posting anything here#but I haven't received any hate mail & haven't had any sort of callout like I was expecting#and I guess mallesil isn't really SUPER controversial#it's leaning off the gray area lately but it is still in the gray area#I just feel like I'm cheating with how easy it is to ''get away'' with having HEY I LIKE INCEST front and center on my pinned and all#when I've seen someone get reported off the map for making one singular post saying they don't mind people who ship child characters#and I've just gotten away with posting sooo many mallesil posts in the main tags lately I'm like huh??? Did I ever actually need to worry?#it's kind of embarrassing I guess having several things in my Posts That Do Not Go Into The Main Tags#that I'm just now realizing were probably totally fine to put out there lol#like damn maybe I can just talk about lilia kissing silver with tongue and get away with it????#anyway#while I am on the subject of things I am embarrassed about for no reason#I feel especially bad lately for not posting like ANYTHING about sebek or lilia most of the time lol#I made a point to draw all the twst characters at least once a while ago but I don't think I've actually drawn sebek more than that?#sorry sebek I love you sebek :(#sebesil is such a good ship and I just have absolutely zero passion for it I DON'T KNOW!!! It just isn't there for me!!!#I like it a lot I love all the ship art for it I like seeing it pop up in fics#but if you leave me to my own devices I'm. not going to think about them even a little probably lol...#I do think about mallesebe sometimes though. I wrote about them once for the request. they're so fun they're so awful#and yet. most of the thoughts I have for mallesebe I'm just like hrmmmm this could be mallesil instead#sorry again sebek I love you sebek đ
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