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secriden · 4 days ago

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I woke up this morning still thinking about Fadel waking up in Style's bed.

I wonder what was running through Fadel's head as he turned to look at Style, eyes still squinting against the too-bright morning light, the unfamiliar comfort of the shape of Style's name on his lips for the very first time. I wonder if he was too sleepy to process how strange it was that he didn't really mind being pinned down by the weight of Style's thigh thrown over his hips; that the sensation was grounding and reassuring rather than being confining or suffocating. I wonder if the thought crossed his mind that he wouldn't mind waking up like this again, wouldn't mind letting someone into his space, wouldn't mind giving someone the bared vulnerability of lying naked and unprotected with all the implications of unwavering trust that has -- not if it was with him.

I wonder if Fadel registered the way his heartbeat is steady and calm despite the strange surroundings and unfamiliar bed, because something in him has already labelled the person lying next to him as safe.

I wonder if Fadel even understood that this, right here, in all its quiet and unacknowledged stillness, was the moment he fell in love?

#the implications of a trained assassin whose own parents were murdered in front of his eyes and who has been burned by love before #CHOOSING to stay the night and then waking up naked and vulnerable and being ABSOLUTELY CALM AND AT PEACE with it!#yeah i'm calling it -- THIS is when fadel actually fell in love. it's why the rest of the episode gives us:#fadel being able to say out loud “i want him to accept me for who i am”; because a part of him already felt like style HAS #fadel telling style “you don't have to do anything to impress me”; because style has already earned the right to fadel's trust and heart #fadel answering style's plea of “promise?” with a kiss because he'd just lied to style with his words #so he tries to tell style the truth with his body instead #because he doesn't realise that a single phone call would be all it takes to turn his reply into an unintended deception once again #the heart killers #the heart killers the series #fadelstyle #fadel #thk meta #fadel meta #thk ep 6 #i've been staring at this particular screenshot for a while and the way there's NO CONFLICT AT ALL on fadel's face just...#*sits in the corner with my head in my hands*#you guys are probably all really sick of me by now #I know I’m somewhat reiterating my point #but it hit me that this really is LOVE now…like I’ve been holding off on that conclusion for so long #because episode 4 gave us a confession of frustration #and episode 5 gave us a confession of fear #but this episode is fadel finally recognising the the has truly fallen in LOVE #and that makes epsisode 6 so much worse because it comes because fadel thinks style doesn’t love him in return #hui talks thk #hui talks thai bl

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