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[fantasywritten]

“WHY d’ya feel da need ta BLOW THINGS UP all the time?”

[boringwomanwithabook]

portrait of the blogger as a strange and awkward woman

[pixelatedtaken]

Blitzø's Name In The End Credits

A while ago, I saw someone point out that Blitzø's name on recent episodes (in the credits) had an X over the O and went to check it out. It turned out to be true and decided to keep track of it until it'll change again.

I wasn't going to search deeper than that, mostly waiting on how it'll go but I decided to check if it was any different than the ø that we're supposed to know. So...

When I saw this in season 1 episode 1, my jaw was on the floor.

I'm sure people have pointed this out before, I've only seen about the recent X over the O but I'm sure this ain't new. Part of me had noticed but when months pass between episodes and you don't actually pay attention to the credits, the change is so minor that it kind of never happened in my mind.

But the fact of the matter is-

all of season 1 had Blitzø's name written with the o. No "silent O", just Blitzo. Until...

Queen Bee.

If people were around, they know Queen Bee did not release after Ozzie's but we're pretty certain it was done way before season 2 began (even though it released in the middle of it). Anyway.

Maybe the change from the o without a line and the ø with the line wasn't so weird when it happened, especially since season 2 was out and the change had already been implemented, as seen below ↓

But it only lasts up until Western Energy. After that...

The X appears.

This is definitely on purpose, I simply can't figure out the purpose. My only theory is that it's supposed to represent Blitzø's declining mental health and severe self-hatred/low self-image taking a hold. I do not know. I can only point out the events on the previous episodes before the changes were done.

Ozzie's/Finale: Blitzø was faced with his past in the most disastrous way, ending with the start of his relationship with Stolas falling apart. His self image crumbled further.

Western Energy: Blitzø was faced with the fact that Stolas can get/be hurt. His view of the immortal/untouchable Stolas crumbled. Assumption, he might blame himself for not being there.

I don't know, I'm just thinking and I'll probably be obsessed with this until we see what else they do.

[tojisun]

i genuinely cant develop this further but simon fucks you so good and so hard and so much (it lasts for many hours) before every mission because hes scared that this is his last time he’ll get to fuck you. it’s all inadvertent when he got you addicted to his cock and his love-making because, to be honest, these sessions are more for him than for you. his grunts and his pleasured rumbles and his dirty talk? theyre not to make you dizzy with pleasure, theyre to make him cum. he gets so lost in his own euphoria that its truly but an added bonus that you cum with him.

he doesn’t tell you this though

[mossyeyeballs]

TW: mentions of pretty much everything terrible. 🍇, trafficking, all of the above.

CLASS OF 09 RANT, FLIP SIDE SPOILERS

Ok not my usual post (I’ve posted twice ik but shush) but what the freak was the flip side??….. I was a huge fan of class of 09 + the re up but this game was so.. what’s the word….. dog shit? Even if we ignore half of the game being about the creators weird foot fetish, the sl@ve ending was so unnecessary. I feel like the only thing in that route that was worth writing was the issue in retail work and that wasn’t even the star focus, let alone side focus. The main plot of that route was the counselor having some weird illegal 🌽 warehouse, jecka finding it, and then him blackmailing her into human 🚙 🚙 ing?

The only ending I thought was necessary IF THAT was when Jecka found Nicole after the sue a side ending from re up. I thought it did a decent job at talking about sue a side victims, and how nobody really cares about them until it’s too late, And even then they only care for a week or so and then move on.

But the Jeffery dying one was the most out of place in my opinion (unfortunately it beats the foot ending.) For starters, Nicole was really out of character imo, like yeah she’s talked about wishing Jeffery was dead before, but her actually killing him just out of boredom is so odd. Her entire character is “I don’t put effort into anything unless it benefits me.” Killing Jeffrey was not only ALOT of effort, but she gained absolutely nothing. On top of that, saying it’s different than doing. Like how she talked about wishing her mom was dead, but then when she had a heart attack, she panicked. Plus, she PLANNED on making Jecka take some of the blame on his death, which she stated in past games she wouldn’t do. She literally never put Jecka in harms way, let alone jail if it didn’t also benefit them both. But this didn’t, she just did it to do it.

While we’re talking about Nicole being out of character, I feel it valid to mention her and Jeckas dad. For obvious (and gross) reasons, I won’t be detailing this, but her doing that to Jecka wasn’t fully out of character, but still odd. Like I mentioned earlier, Nicole never really did anything to spite Nicole, so I find it odd that she did in this game. You could blame it on “oh she’s a sociopath she doesn’t care.” But I don’t think that’s inherently true. Yeah, I guess it’s canon she’s a sociopath, but in that case they do a bad job at consistency. She’s shown in both games 1 and 2 caring about people she’s close with, whether it’s Jecka, her mom, or even Emily in one segment. So I find it completely random that she did this to Jecka over something as small as not sharing how she got into foot work. Jeckas done much worse stuff to Nicole, and Nicole just didn’t care because they were friends, or didn’t feel the need to put effort into doing something if she did care. So yeah, Nicole basically screwing Jeckas dad over something so little felt out of character.

One of the few things that bothered me the least, but I feel the need to mention was the foot work stuff. Not because it was out of character, i fear I’ve seen worse stuff mentioned in that game. But I guess the way it was portrayed as less of a story plot and more of the creator trying to live out his fantasies. He himself has stated Jeffrey is basically a self insert, so the whole being sexually obsessed with Jecka and her feet felt REALLY weird. Compared to Nicole’s my space favor thing, this just felt dirty. For comparison. Both Jecka and Nicole took up sex work to keep a home life or lackthereof, they both got money from strangers to do sexual things, and they both hated doing it. But why did Jeckas feel so much more personal and gross? Because the actual sex work was shown. In graphic detail. And all of Jeffrey’s (the creators) personal thoughts were stated with no backlash. Jeffery literally asked Jecka if she would 🍒feed him, and he was excused. When Nicole was asked the same hing from the same guy, he was insulted, yelled at, even told to leave.

So, creepy creator who’s obsessed with his barely legal characters, Jecka being sold to 🚙 🚙ing agaisnt her will, Jeffrey being murdered for no reason other than a giggle or two from his haters, Jecka accidentally killing Ari cause she was drunk driving, feet fan service, and fan service in general aside, the game is left only with the regular drug and alcohol abusage we always see. which in the game that was advertised as a new experience felt really stale and honestly left me bored. The ONE SINGULAR time during this game that I giggled was when the hat man appeared in the Ari route.

If you’ve fully ignored everything I said in this, maybe didn’t care, or didn’t even read it. Id just like to mention for everyone that the creator of this game said that anybody who disliked him, his games, his writing, or his humor were kid diddlers. In full seriousness. So yeah, no shock this game was bad, but I guess I shouldn’t have expected better from someone who thinks his haters are all child likers. All this being said, I enjoyed class of 09, and the re up. I’m hoping the anime episode that comes out soon with be a decent save. all of THAT being said, I don’t support this creator. I don’t support his actions, I think he’s a shitty person who’s made some shitty jokes, but made some not so shitty games that I decently enjoyed. I also haven’t bought them, so none of my money has gone towards him or his projects. I in NO WAY support him. Thanks for reading.

Feel free to comment down some of your own opinions if you feel so inclined, I’m interested in what everyone else thought of this game :))

[corn-cardigan]

please yap about enki’s sister I beg of you. she’s so cool and so are you

AW thank you!! 🫶

and thanks for letting me indulge in talking about these two!! here's how I see it:

I really like the idea that the ritual fight that was mentioned in Enki's intro wasn't the only time he had to face off against his sister. It was always like that for him and Ninmah. The priests that took them in saw their potential and wanted to know who the superior sibling was.

My headcanon is that not only was Enki physically weaker than her, but emotionally frail as well. That no matter what, he'd always be a close second to his "better" twin. Ninmah was exceptional and obedient. Enki was completely pathetic next to her.

I like to think when they were super young, they did care for each other. But under harsh, abusive conditions from the priests, it further drove a wedge between them. And Enki's frailty warped into his distinct bitterness as to no longer appear as weak - as to compete on the same level as Ninmah.

The ritual fight was an inevitability. A scheme to see who truly was strong enough to live. So when Ninmah spared Enki, it was sort of her way of communicating that she still cared about her brother. Even if they were pitted against one another, even if she seemed unfeeling and unbothered, she still loved him as much as a young (definitely traumatized) girl could in that situation.

So when Enki's given the choice to either accept her mercy or literally backstab her, both are completely plausible. Like yeah he also possibly still loves her. That's his sister and she was always there for him. But on the other hand, after years of cruel reprimanding, he finally had the perfect opportunity to prove his superiority.

Either way, it doesn't end happily at all. If Enki kills Ninmah and raises her as a ghoul, I'm going to assume she won't be completely herself. She's basically dead. The other route is also tragic. Enki accepts defeat and gets chucked into a well. And at the bottom, his resentment festers. Not only towards his whole diocese but also directed at Ninmah. Because if she did truly love him, why did she not rescue him? (In truth, she would've also been doubly punished, let's be real.)

Assuming they're both alive, I'm entirely convinced that they haven't spoken to each other in over a decade. Enki's probably got a LOT of indignation for his old order and, by extension, Ninmah. And Ninmah acknowledges that he's moved on. Maybe it's best they never see each other.

No wonder Enki is such a big hater. He was one of the few people born into this world with someone and yet he still ended up abandoned and alone. :,)

anywayzz that was very rambly and very sad. but did you know bc enki is green and ninmah’s red this means theyre mario and luigi coded

[cryptidfuckery]

I don't want to become a tree.

I have a fascination with death. Not how it happens, not what happens after. I have a fascination with how death is handled by the ones left living.

I talked at length about it in the Egyptian gallery with you, surrounded by bodies misplaced. "Most of history we learn through the way we treat our dead." Which is true, I think, for the most part.

We have written and oral history. We have the skeletons of buildings and cultures left behind for us to interpret. But before that, before the corpses of civilizations we're still able to uncover, we have our own.

The oldest body ever found is argued to be 230,000 years old. Hundreds of millennia, a culture so lost to time and decay we can't hope to uncover significant artifacts.

Our bodies become the artifact. The way we were buried, where, with what, with who. Was there care put into our final resting spot? Was there effort put into the ends of our lives?

Most often, there was. Our bodies tell our descendants our status. Our injuries. Our community. Our loves.

Perhaps they'll debate. Perhaps they'll misinterpret. But millennia later, your body might tell someone how we lived. How we loved. What we cared about at our core. What we thought would help us after death. What we thought we'd want to continue our comfort. What the living needed to let us pass on from their lives.

You tell me you still think about what I said.

Many people talk about becoming a tree when they pass. It is a beautiful notion, one I've considered. A natural, living reminder of a life lived. A place for their loved ones to share a connection with. In a way, the continuation of a life; albeit in a different form.

But I don't want to become a tree. I'd rather become a forest.

Maybe it's a notion toward the state of our world. The lack of top soil is one of the prevalent factors of our declining environment. The way we've stripped it of the nutrients of decay.

There are ways to decompose naturally. In the ground with nothing but a natural shroud is the oldest and easiest way. A new, human composting method has been created for an urban option when the easiest is unavailable. An alternative to cremating. One that can give back to the earth.

My body might not be one that tells the story of my time alive on this planet. My body might tell a joke, or rest peacefully, or ideally decay away. My DNA will dissolve into nitrogen and an assortment of other elements. I will become no different or better than the dirt that lies around me. What was me will become something else entirely.

I'd rather become the top soil. I'd rather become the forest.

[froggielovescoffee]

i cooked on @eddwardharrison ‘s tsbs whiteboard

btw ppl you should check it out it’s pretty neat!!!!

[l3viat8an]

I've been catching up with Helluva Boss and Hazbin Hotel and all I can think about is how MC who watches both shows can't help but be kind of relieved that Devildom isn't like in the Vivzieverse

Lemme add; MC being soooo relieved that hell is actually fairly normal- like nobody is running around the streets shooting people or cutting off heads. The restaurants are all really nice and it’s almost always chilly outside, all in all not too bad.

And ofc how the demons themselves look!!! MC straight up laughing when Lucifer introduces himself, because he’s not a short guy with a ridiculously top hat! He just looks like a guy, a tall guy at that- and sure he has horns and wings sometimes. But mostly he just looks normal?? wow-

and the differences between the Mammon’s and Asmodeus’- I can’t even imagine how relieved MC’s going to be jskjsk

Although it’d be really funny if MC is still half expecting a demon with a TV for a head or an owl face to randomly pop up somewhere- like it’s good that most demons look so ‘normal’ for the most part…. But it’s also just a bit tinyyyy disappointing they don’t look that ‘demonic’.

[crystallizsch]

“…..You didn’t tell me we were watching horror movies?!”

Yuuna Perla (& Grim) Ramshackle Sleepover (fan event by @gl00myb3arz)

[roseworth]

controversial opinion. transmasc cassie headcanons make no sense to me bc as a wonder woman character it’s kind of a significant part of her character that she’s a girl and cares about being a woman. so it kinda feels like people are saying “hm… wears pants 🤔 doesn’t wear skirt 😲 boy 🫵❓”

[ruvviks]

NOTHING LEFT TO LOSE // LET ME WRAP DOWN TO MY SKELETON

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[deep-sea-anemone]

Wasn't able to get it done before con, but the next one is in 2 weeks and I already have pretty much everything and made some changes so:

Black shoes. (Boot covers?) ~$20/free $6 Hightop vans from goodwill

White wig (check stash) ~$30/free

Oversized white shirt + interfacing ~$5 plain white shirt, $9 Amazon

Pink things on shoulder (painted craft foam) ~ free- large pink painted buttons glued onto shirt

Dyed tights for feet (black) ~$1/free Can skip pink crosses on legs, not much skin shows up.

Dyed tights for arms ~$1. -Crosses don't show up well- use body paint instead. $10

Scarf + "ears" - dyed cotton? + wire, check stash ~free pink colored cotton (on sale) $1. Wire doesn't work well. Use rolled hem and leave loose

Suspenders- fabric stash or Amazon (time based) ~$8/free black elastic from stash and suspender clips -$3

Gloves - dyed cotton or spandex (make from scratch or don't use) ~freeGloves - dyed cotton or spandex (make from scratch or don't use) free

Leggings- cutoff pants? Or raid closet/goodwill ~$8/free

Pink contacts (I don't think I have any? I know I have purple and red, I'll have to see if they'll be good enough) ~$20/free I have magenta contacts that would've worked fine, but I just got LASIK so I can't use them anymore

Use crosses instead of clocks-much easier and time saving. Consider using temporary tattoos instead of body paint- less likely to rub off and more convienient. I suck at wig styling. Pick cheap wig from stash and just sew in wefts, don't trim to length

Final price: ~$31

Putting this here bc otherwise imma forget.

(Feel free to ignore)

Brook cosplay:

Black shoes. (Boot covers?) ~$20/free

White wig (check stash) ~$30/free

Oversized white shirt + interfacing ~$5

Pink things on shoulder (painted craft foam) ~ free

Dyed tights (black + pink) ~$1

Dyed tights (for arms, pink) ~$1

Scarf + "ears" - dyed cotton? + wire, check stash ~free

Suspenders- fabric stash or Amazon (time based) ~$8/free

Gloves - dyed cotton or spandex (make from scratch or don't use) ~free

Leggings- cutoff pants? Or raid closet/goodwill ~$8/free

Pink contacts (I don't think I have any? I know I have purple and red, I'll have to see if they'll be good enough) ~$20/free

So that's about a budget of... $0-95 Time wise I'd say maybe 5 hours? Depends on what I have to make from scratch. Shoes might add an extra hour.

...I think I'll be able to get it done before con, but not until after I finish Cloud and...that's still got a lot of work that needs to be done. I'd say this'll have to be saved for the last day since I might have to work on it during con. Imma say max budget for this is $30 (and maybe $20 for contacts, so $50). Any more and I'll scrap it.

[thesupernaturalhouse]

So I made a post last night, and it was mainly finding out how ep9 contradicts ep 4(?) To make Blitz look like he's in the wrong, by not going to help Stolas despite multiple reasons

It was the finale straw for and fueled by hatred and annoyance, ranting and talking to my friend about how much Stolas sucks was just not enough, and I made a post. I have 0 regrets, the owl can go fuck himself.

Anyways I made an edit!! 2 actually, because I swear to God, episode 9 is terrible. It's the worst episode in this show, specifically because of the gaslighting, guilt tripping, and hypocrisy Stolas gets away with and does. And the contradictiosn the narritive/writing does to shit on Blitz

Anyways here's the edit! I am very proud of it, it was worth all the effort and its made to specifically show how guilt tripping/gaslighting/hypocritical Stolas is

And what ticked me off so badly in the first place

[hercarisntyours]

she fits right in fr fr <3

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

can someone please banish this writer's block for me 😫

it's the worst i've had in such a long time and i've tried to be patient with it but it's been fucking weeks now. i want to write so much but whenever i try they just feel like words on a page. every evening i sit down and rearrange them a little here and there and add some new ones, but they all just feel empty and and shit and my brain feels totally devoid of the creative spark i need to make everything come to life.

i know in large part it's my perfectionism getting in the way, but i don't know how to break through it. i don't know how to feel connected to my writing again. i don't know how to shift this fear of not being good enough that surges up every time i pick up a pen.

it's something that's always been there - but usually it at least comes in waves, or my love of what i'm creating is big enough to muffle it. right now, it's all i can hear. my inspiration has been totally drowned out by it. and i hate it so, so much. the fact that i can't access the one thing that brings me the kind of solace and joy and escapism i can't get anywhere else and is so vital to my soul. that i am blocking myself from engaging in the one thing that makes me feel like me.

i just feel so stuck and so lost and i miss being in that creative headspace so much it’s like a physical pain. it feels like part of me is missing, and it terrifies me that i don't know how to get it back.