#advanced depression

[yourheartinyourmouth]

i am the gods saddest wettest little meow meow

[aroaceleovaldez]

tbh my latest biggest theory for why HoO and onwards is such a dramatic drop in quality and consistency is just. Rick stopped making teaching guides.

Like, the Lightning Thief teacher's guide is SUPER in-depth with even stuff like sources about middle grade child psychology and exact specifications of where he's applying that, explaining what different character's goals/motivations are, their dynamics with each other and their environments, etc etc. Even specifying which specific myths certain plot elements are supposed to reference or be about.

That stuff just doesn't exist for later books. There's activity guides and smaller, significantly more simple teacher guides for later books but they don't go into anywhere NEAR the same level of depth. The TLT one is a full lesson plan that breaks down the book at every level and explains what's going on and more or less why Rick did that. The others are all basically just glossaries of terminology and some simple question guides.

And they didn't even use the TLT teacher's guide for the Disney+ show because they clearly aren't adhering to any of what's discussed in that breakdown of the book.

By creating a teaching guide alongside writing the actual book, that's forcing you to document what you're doing, why, your sources, and information about your characters and the story they're in. It's like an even more in-depth version of a series bible. But that's lacking for later books (and etc) and it shows because that level of thought and depth and attention just isn't there anymore.

[angelpuns]

Just saved a note to myself in my drafts so here's ANOTHER note to myself:

JAMIE YOUR DRAFTS!! YOUR DRAFTS JAMIE!!

[sameyotherside]

An apology Nanami drawing for taking so long to update my fic 💀🙏🏽

[13eyond13]

a headcanon I just realized I have is that Light often has a lot of trouble living in the present moment and L often has a lot of trouble NOT living in the present moment. Light is a huge planner and forward thinker and accustomed to grinding through unpleasant current circumstances in order to achieve optimal future results. L is very keen on living for today and whatever is currently tickling his fancy and giving him the most excitement and pleasure and challenge, and prefers not to dwell heavily on the future nor the past. And I think that both of them normally feel uncomfortable and resentful if they are forced to do the opposite of what they are normally accustomed to doing.

[squeakadeeks]

theres an irony to drawing the transient characters in my physics class since i intend transient to be an infotainment/a physics education series....so in a meta way they are serving their purpose

[rukanthevampirequeen]

correct me if i'm wrong but Jax is not a Tumblr sex man..but Kinger is?

[kneelingshadowsalome]

A gentle reminder that I'm taking a break from answering asks & from writing overall, but I haven't abandoned my Christian Woman fic 🩷 The last 2 chapters are going through an editing process so please be patient, you won't be left high and dry with it :)

[captainxtra]

Oh hey, Tariffs are actually bad!

If only folks who voted for Orange Palpatine bothered to listen…

[kentuckyfriedmegumi]

well, i am sorry in advance, but i wrote a terribly depressing, angsty, NO COMFORT, NO HAPPY ENDING one shot because my friends got into my head too much

read it, if you dare

[daily-whistlepaw]

daily whistlepaw until ki becomes PoV day 1387

[caffeinatedopossum]

No one:

Me when the plans change:

[katyspersonal]

Lrb honestly one of the most important things I've learned in this fandom is to not worry about "being annoying" or "worrying people".

I've been asking literally every person I could think of, to the point I should earn infamy amongst Soulsborne dataminers as that autist you really hope you won't attract the attention of XD And yet, one person DID answer my request for checking every Dark Souls 1 NPC properly and clarifying the three that supposedly don't have faces! Not only Rayan was so kind despite (what seems like) Dark Souls 1 being tedious to hack, but we even discovered curious unused content character and extra lore for Lautrec! But even just faces should have been shot properly a DECADE ago!

And that would not have happened, had I gave up after several times of receiving cicada noises on my questions, even from people who normally talked to me! Just remember to never give up, there is always a person who will help just because they can!

[allowed-to-take-up-space]

Something I've been thinking about a lot is the way my father would critique and stereotype every single person he saw, yet still insist he wasn't judgmental.

We are in the car, my dad driving, me in the passenger seat. I am a child, maybe 11 years old. My father points at the girl standing on the corner, waiting for the light to change. "Yikes. Good thing she's out walking. Looks like she needs it. Bet she's hoping she'll fit into the outfit she's wearing someday."

"Dad, that's not a nice thing to say about someone."

"It's fine. She can't hear me. I would never say something like that to someone's face. You know, MY dad was homophobic and racist, so at least I'm better than that."

Maybe that girl on the corner didn't hear my father. But I did. And I've never forgotten it. Or the time I finally admitted to him - after YEARS of being a suicidal teen - that I was extremely depressed, and he told me I was one of those kids making shit up for attention, because HE had been in a car crash at one point and experienced REAL depression.

And yet I always ponder, now, how I could possibly be so insecure. Why I cannot just accept myself and move forward. Why I look at myself in the mirror with disgust.

It's HIS voice that echoes in my head. It's HIS nasty remarks that I remember. It's HIS judgmental opinions that I have to rid from my brain, every single time they pop up, because I KNOW better.

Even though I haven't spoken to my dad in several years now, the way he treated myself and others invades my mind constantly. His negativity has shaped so much of me - of my LIFE - and last time we DID speak, he still refused to take any accountability for the multitude of ways in which he hurt me (this specific topic not even covering 1/10 of the ways in which he did).

Furthermore, this makes me think about all the people who utter "harmless comments" about others when they don't think someone who might be hurt by that is listening. I've been privy to many conversations that have left me feeling hollow, without the folks making those judgmental comments realizing that what they've said applies to me. And I don't often feel safe enough to stand up for myself.

I wish folks could realize that openly passing heinous judgment on strangers is a gateway to passing judgment on people you care about.

"I would never say something like that to someone's face."

You said it to mine.

[eebi-after-hours]

do NOT let Blanche get into the X-ray glasses jar!!!!!!!! /j/ref

[melrosing]

I'm just a lurker in the fandom who occasionally comes to your blog to read your Jaime posts, but as someone whose mom died eleven years ago, I can tell you it does get better eventually. It just takes forever.

aw thank you so much and I’m so sorry about your mum. I’m still kind of in disbelief?? like what the fuck he fully died?? sounds fake. but once the funeral is done maybe I’ll start moving along idk. either way thank you so much for your message, I really don’t want it to hurt this bad forever so that is genuinely reassuring 🥲