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the thing is that i do get more happiness from having things than using them. like its not a trick of anxiety for me it's just a truth. i grew up always feeling so vigilant that i had to use things as soon as i got the opportunity or it would be snatched away, constantly. if i had a good meal in front of me i had to eat until it hurt because who knows when i would get another one because i was fucking poor, i had to hoard candy and soda and bread with real flour in it instead of fucking nasty gummy budget gluten free shit and make it last because my parents didn't allow it because it would make me more autistic, i had to snap up peers goodwill to be seen with me because they knew i was autistic and even if it was pity it was anything, i had to spend my money as soon as i got it because my brother was a kleptomaniac, so like, now the luxury in the security that if i need something i HAVE it, i don't have to squirrel food away and count how many days i can make it last because im not being deprived of it anymore and i dont have to treat every new person i meet like the world will end if they think im embarrassing and gross because i have people who dont think about me that way now, like eventually id like to be able to like fully square my actual needs with the things i want to have instead of just wanting to have things for the feeling of safety in having them, but for now just being able to have things without it sending me into a panic over when theyll end is still something that feels so fresh and new so im not trying to push it. i feel like im justified in savoring that
#in middle school my friend gave me one of those mini cans of pepsi and i hid it in my gym locker under my clothes and made it last at LEAST#a week but i think it was probably 2#this is something i think about a lot bc i always want to get juice at the store but i dont mind if kim drinks all of it before i get any#like just being Able to Have Juice with no strings attached is the joy not actually drinking juice#juice was something my parents rarely bought bc it wasnt like. nutritional food so it was a waste of money & we always had to water it down#so now the Juice Reward center of my brain is so fat and huge and pulsating. i fucking love juice. i love the idea of juice
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nomad boyfriend comes back for a visit
obviously there are some extras for the patr0ns <3
#bg3#baldur's gate 3#halsin silverbough#durge#halsin x durge#the bhaalspawn has found an extremely healthy relationship dynamic#ashe's cats are so indifferent they're probably like 'oh tall tree dad is back'#i love domestics but also i think halsin is the kind of person who needs to vanish into the woods for 2-3 weeks#ashe hates dirt so he has his house with his cats#this makes me want to write an awful 70s farce where ashe thinks the guy's there for sex and he's just there to fix the boiler#i was working on a long angst comic but i pushed it back for. reasons#only wholesome stuff right now
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this is their dynamic to me
#npmd#hatchetfield#grace chasity#max jagerman#jagertitty#holy ghost#yeah.#my art#it is shocking how much better this looks than the comic i posted like. 2 weeks ago#max should probably have a more assholish expression but im following the meme format not the actual characterization of these ppl#i think this is cannibal grace trutherism#ghostsoup#nobody uses that tag but im adding it
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Can you draw Medic as a vampire please? Or maybe Heavy holding him while he is a cute bat?💖🦇💖
Thank you!! I love your art 🌟ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ🌟
I love vampire Medic💔
Thanks for the request!
#ask#art#tf2#team fortress 2#tf2 fanart#tf2 medic#heavymedic#red octoberfest#I spent like a week making this because I wanted to make a lot of vamp Medic drawings#I made him a white vampire bat because umm...Medic as an animal should be white and it's mandatory.#Heavy will definitely let Medic bite him whenever he wants(which will probably turn heavy into a vampire later)#I'm still thinking about how bat Medic would interact with Archimedes...
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zhongli and neuvillette fighting over their reader 🤭🤭
scary dog privilege wherever you go, draconic courting gestures that would scare any regular person, they send each other deadly glares the moment you turn away,
stealing your clothes to just get a whiff of your scent, marking their territory all over your house - making it a battlefield basically, neuvillette (in my hc) is cooler and zhongli is warm so the cuddles are always so comfy ☺️😍,
they give you anything you want - you don't even have to lift a finger, they make you travel between the nations a lot though 😒 sooo clingyyy, extra gentle in their dragon forms as to not squish you, don't even get me started on the size difference 😍😍
just a little thought 🤭☺️
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Neuvi being colder is so real and canon. I see him as being colder + a lot more lithe, kinda lanky with smaller but sharper canines versus Zhongli who's warmer and a bit shorter then Neuvi + bulkier with bigger but not as sharp canines.
They've also got very different habits – Zhongli is very prideful not just of himself but his nation. He'll personally give your a tour and purposely drag it out as long as he can. Complimenting Liyue is basically complimenting him, checkmate Neuvi. Especially if he convinces you to try on some local Liyue fashion. Harmless and just a nice gift to anyone else but Neuvi sees it for what it is (since your wearing something from Liyue, technically wearing something of his. He loves his technicalities when it comes to staking a claim over you). Adds salt to the wound by touching you in totally innocent ways like to adjust you towards something he wants to show you or accidently brushing against you when he takes the bags of spoils he's practically drowning you in but really he's just making sure his scent sticks. He's just a sweet, nice gentleman with absolutely no ulterior motives trust.
Neuvillette does love Fontaine, but his habits are more about himself then the nation. He'll take you around if you ask or if the idea strikes him, but you'll probably stay around the making city area or the opera house specifically. He enjoys more personal time with just you and him then anything else. He values the immaterial to the material. Zhongli spoils you with gifts, but Neuvi tries to offer quality time irregardless of physical gifts (though he still gives them just not to the extent of Zhongli). He'll take you to see different operas if that's to your fancy, or leverage a bit of his authority to maybe see a few films since those seem to be hitting off in Fontaine recently. Bet that creaky old archon doesn't have those huh. He feels awkward if you want to watch a trial, but he'll reluctantly agree because. well. it's you. just don't wave or anything he's trying to work and he just Really wants to see you smile at him like that again and it makes him lose his train of thought. gets custom clothes designed by Chiori to replace your clothes from Liyue because they smell of Zhongli and it makes him sulky + he likes to match.
G-d forbid these two are in the same room as you because it's a war of attrition at that point. Constant accidental brush of the hand against your shoulder or elbow but it's just them trying to get rid of the others scent. they are side eyeing each other behind your back while being all smiles whenever your looking. If it's hot and you lean into Neuvi more he's practically GLOWING. not even smug he's just absolutely smitten and happy to be of service. immediately takes off his gloves and presses his hands to your face asking if your okay and if you want to go back with him. if it's cold out and you seek out Zhongli more hes smug as hell beneath the calm veneer. Offers you his coat and stay as physically close to you as he can under the pretense of being worried you'll catch a cold if he doesn't warm you up.
don't even get me started on your house either because you probably have tons of gifts from both of them accumulated everywhere. if Neuvi sees you use a tea set from Zhongli suddenly he had a fantastic gift idea he thought you'd like. he even got some tea included with it so why don't you let him make you some? Zhongli sees you using a goblet Neuvi gave you (totally a coincidence it's similar to his) and suddenly you have 27 square cups in your cabinets that you have no idea where they came from. if the goblet is mysteriously missing oh well. who knows :]
#sagau#genshin sagau#self aware genshin#asks#genshin impact sagau#self aware genshin impact#genshin cult au#genshin impact cult au#is this actually cult au?? csnt tell tagging it anyway#its like 1 am brain not working#🐈⬛ anon#shaking them both like shaker charms#zl feels more possessive too. neuvi is possessive but i dont think snyone could get near zl level of possessiveness#its like having two cats constantly trying to get your attention.#neuvi is more mellow imo so hes not as intense in the rivalry but sometimes he feels PETTY#only if it actually benefits you though because you still come first even if he cant stand zl snd hes not dragging you into it#zl has no issue tossing out gifts neuvi gives you unless your REALLY attached to it but neuvi probably wouldnt yknow..#sometimes neuvi is just clueless he did not gaf abt zl at first he was just smitten with you. he did not want 2 get involved in this rivalry#but hes still a little possessive snd having you come back smelling like zl dressed in clothes from liyue with other gifts from zl..#it rained for like a week straight he was in shambles. acted like a kicked puppy until zl scent was gone 😭#also theres a joke somewhere here abt zl snd his square cups..hm.#just clingy possessive dragons trying to subtly be the only one you pay attention to 🫡#this has been my loser girlfail neuvi propaganda post enjoy
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my farmers profile 🥳
#sdv#stardew valley#ain't she cool#sdv farmer#procrastination at it's finest#i have an assignment due tomorrow but here i am spending my time on this because anything to not be productive#she married shane but i see it more of a best buds situation#i just kinda wanted him in the house i think he's cool 🤷🏻#wish there was a way to invite people to be your roommate without marrying them lol#i'm playing vanilla because i play the same save between 2 devices and i don't wanna download mods n shit on my college laptop#i'm in year 2 i just wanna play non stop but i can't with college 😢#down to my last 3 weeks though! and i have no exams ���🏻#i see i have asks but i haven't looked at them yet and probably won't til the weekend.. sorry
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Why does the orange Addison's mannequin kinda resemble you?
#most of their mannequins probably look like him tbf#good average cyber-citizen sizing (SHORTASS)#i dont have a lot to say because it explains itself + if i say anything i remove possibilities of answering an asks with something related#to said thought so im not gonna#[you've got mail!]#spamton#spamton g spamton#deltarune#deltarune spamton#deltarune chapter 2#no.1 freak#something different about this one i think. maybe its the expressions. not a bad thing but its definitely. different.#i had thoughts but im tired and i dont hop on tumblr until i finish the ask im working on so i dont get stuck scrolling & unproductive#sorry i dissapearrreeeddd i was overstimulated like halfway through the week which is earlier than usual but it makes sense because i was#out doing more unusual social activities :-P but you dont care and nor am i obligated soo....#the hands look better not pixelated idk why#give me a little to respond to stuff and check up we be eepy#this one has a lot of freakin frames for some reason
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if it stops i'm having an unshakable nightmare
#my art#tf2#team fortress 2#tf2 scout#tf2 engineer#tf2 sniper#tw blood#tw gore#tw gun#it's tf2 you get the picture!#HELLOOOOO#been working on these all week#based on something i started writing in the early summer but that will neverrrr be finished i dont think. ugh.#posted this to the wrong account too LOL#havent drawn in forever but it feels awesome#my favourite part of all of these is probably that little three decker in the left corner of the second one#this is what happens to you when youre coping w uni and listening to underscores parquet courts and CCR nonstop#link is the playlist of songs i listened to nonstop while drawing these hoohooheehee#peep the backgrounds too!!#trying to be less stiff with digital art is so hard but ill keep working on it o7#also never drawn tf2 before give me time my friends!#is it obvious i didnt even bother to look at what a baseball bat looked like in the first one orz
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does this count as amputation? i don't think this counts as amputation.
#WAHOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^_^#jrwi freak week#william wisp#esquisse#gore#?#i dont think its thatt bad but i know like. at least 1 or 2 ppl probably arent interested in seeing fun silly insides........
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(ID in alt) I literally said I was gonna post this month's ago and then never had the wherewithal to describe it and so I didn't Lmao (said with pain). But since I'm thinking of opening my commissions I figured I should remind ppl that I. Yknow. Can draw.
Lots of Steph here (I had major art block making all of these and my brain worms for her kept me going) + some sprinkles of stephcass for Cass nation to enjoy!
#dc comics#dc#stephanie brown#cassandra cain#jason todd#(yes for the teddy bear. it counts)#batgirl#batgirls#mine#< keep forgetting to tag my art as that I'm terrible 😭#ANYHOW I'm slowly getting back into drawing again after my last ipad got nuked (cant think abt that or ill cry) and i finished uni#oh yeah j finished my first year of uni btw. i went to an Olivia Rodrigo concert like a week or 2 ago. I've been busy lol#but yeah it's looking like I've got a fun summer of bottom feeding ahead of me now that I've officially been told i got passed over for that#-comic job i applied for. lol. lmao even#it's fine honestly it was a pretty daunting prospect i just have to find a way to fill the time by myself now#I've plenty of comics to read so that's nice. got wayyy into mark waids DD run recently (mostly for Chris Samnee's art)#so that's been fun! i have my empowered omnibus (embarrassing and kept under my bed <3) i have TT year 1 i have huntress and WW#uhhh i got flash 1 minute war. lots of good stuff!#so hopefully i don't go. completely feral from lack of stimulation#also hopefully commissions will be a thing i can do#godddd there's many mkre things i want to draw. i got too enamoured w my own bad theory and now I've drawn tim!bats#but unfortunately now i only want to draw tim!bats being laughed at my the batfamily bc seriously tim?? really??#< it's literally probably not going to happen but I've invested myself in this terrible future for some reason#imagine damian trying to robin for tim!bats for 1 (one) night and the next morning he doesn't say anything he just moves to bludhaven#he can't take this shit#oh so many ideas...#ANYWAY. ues. finally art. now if you like it. consider commissioning me (in 2 to 3 business weeks <3)#(no pressure)
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a fun thing you can do when you're a grownup is buy a bunch of ingredients and make 6 litres of spaghetti sauce in a big pot and divide it up into a bunch of containers and put it in the freezer!
#food#I used 4 cans of tomatoes and 2 small zucchini and a pound and a half of ground beef#and 3 bell peppers and a bulb and a half of garlic and 2 thingies of mushrooms and I think 5 onions?#I'm spaghetti sauce rich! I can have easy spaghetti occasionally for many weeks to come!#I was going to make it yesterday when I bought most of the ingredients#but then I realized the 2 cans of tomato I had in the cupboard were probably not enough#highly recommend making a lot of a freezable thing and freezing it! future me is going to be glad to have so much sauce!#cooking#I wish I had a cheese grater. I must get one
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can't stop thinking about a shadowgast "i'm not looking to fuck do you have a screwdriver my bathroom is flooding" grindr au
#essek's the one with a flooding bathroom because 1. he's a shut-in who wouldn't ever talk to his neighbors and 2. probably has#either extremely reactive experiments going on in his kitchen or classified documents he brought home to work on#but he wouldn't have a screwdriver#and caleb 'diy wizard' widogast would a. check grindr regularly and b. have a full toolkit#caleb sits essek down and shows him how to fix it. you'd think it turns into a porno but between essek's demisexuality and caleb's#all-encompassing excitement over Doing Repairs that I know that nerd would have. they don't get that far and caleb leaves quickly bc he#has papers to grade. a week goes by. essek starts breaking things on purpose. it slowly dawns on caleb that Shitty Pipes Guy doesn't#actually have shitty pipes it's that he's Lonely. and that's endearing. is this mic on#caleb teaches physics at a community college and essek is some skeevy government official with a phd in astrophysics
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Whatever, *crucifies your superstar*
screenshot redraws from jcs 2000
#i feel like i dont need to explain these at this point#jesus christ superstar#jcs#jcs 2000#jesus christ superstar 2000#jesus christ#judas iscariot#mary magdalene#my art#either you follow me and you know i have watched this movie 50 times in the past 2 months and have 350+ screenshots on my phone or#anyways here are my screenshot redraws#bc i think this movie has some very pretty and compelling lighting and composition etc#these are not supposed to be a comprehensive narrative of it this is what i ended up drawing of the 40 screenshots i wanted to#i would have done more but im about to leave my tablet for 8 weeks#and i wanted to post this before I left#my personal favorites are the first and last#you can probably tell i drew these over the course of almost 2 months#also idk why i decided to change the aspect ratio from the actual movie but i commited so they're narrower and taller than the screencaps
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"salvation", feat. viktor.
summary: you come to his temple and ask the herald to heal you.
word count: 540.
content warning: season 2, arc 2 spoilers!!! please, don't read if you haven't seen the series yet! some descriptions might sound even a bit sexual but this is a sfw work! i just got a bit carried away while writing sensations lol. also, viktor may be a little ooc since im still getting used to him on the new season.
author notes: i rushed this one hehe but its finally complete! i really wanted to write something based on season 2 and the insane amount of people saying things as such "i would join his church wtvr" or "i may believe in god now" made me think why not write this kind of thing happening? so here it is :))))
you heard the rumors spreading through the lanes, there was someone, a “savior”, helping the ones in need – the shimmer addicts, the sick and the dying. and you thought that maybe the herald, as they called him, could save you.
so you walked down the busy streets, passing by empty shops and crowded brothels, finally descending in the dark alleys until light reached your eyes again, revealing a bright environment, made with metal, all with different colors and textures, molded into organic shapes, like it was meant to be like this all along. contorted yet so beautiful. outside the arch separating the commune and the commoners, there were people just like you, asking for help and hoping for his salvation.
a man walked towards you, the white clothing draped around him accentuating the swirly metallic patterns engraved on his body. “if you have something that could possibly harm someone, i must ask you to leave those here. this is a place of peace”, you discarded everything you could think of, emptying all pockets you had and he looked at you with empathy on his eyes, while you left behind everything that you used during your worst times, letting go of a part of your story, letting go of your past self. “now, you shall come. he is expecting you.”
the man walked in front of you, guiding your path between tents full of people, healthy people, all dressed in white. some adults were working while the kids were playing and you were in pure awe, it all seemed so... perfect. a miracle that happened on the underground.
“the herald is waiting, you must go”, he gestured towards a round temple-like structure, tilting his head and leaving you alone shortly after, moving to the arch again.
you followed his words, walking till you reached where the herald was, in fact, waiting for you. flowing hair and royal blue fabric covering his glowing purple skin, all adorned with golden accents. he looked ethereal, almost inhuman, a god-like figure, a saint. the kind of saint that could fix the broken. fix you.
you came closer and he extended his hand in your direction without saying a word – it was not needed, actually –, you could sense his intentions, it was kind of a vibration, radiating off his fingers. he wanted to save you. so, when he touched your forehead, the whole world seemed to fade with a burst of light and all you could do was to feel. feel his cold fingers pressing further in your skin, feel the jolts it sended through your body, the way it ignited something deep inside of you, how you couldn't breathe, the way your veins burned and your heart rate increased, but it didn't hurt at all, instead, you felt alive. the metal fusing with your body, the magic circling both of you, how you could feel him inside of you, changing, morphing and purifying your flesh. it felt like you ascended to heaven and came back different, new, evolved. gloriously evolved.
he pulled back his arm, allowing your body to fall to its knees, and he knelt too, leaning on his staff, looking at you with his emotionless iridescent eyes, “now, you need not suffer anymore.”
#—swe writes#league of legends x reader#arcane x reader#lol x reader#viktor x reader#im not completely happy with this one but i needed to write something for arc 2#i mean. if i didn't write it now it probably wouldn't make sense next week yk??#this is why it feels a bit rushed and all#but anyways!! he looks so gorgeous in season 2#like ....... gods why is this man so good looking?#save me viktor arcane save me#< i was thinking this all the time while writing it#i swear i swear#but fr pls save me viktor arcane#my way to cope with his “death” is to write and write and write and write non stop#now we must wait for the machine herald >:D
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bbc merlin + famous quotes: part 1
"i love you" "it'll pass"
(original - fleabag)
*there are no real rules to this, but the overall idea is to assign these well-known quotes to a bbc merlin pairing you think best matches it - who can you imagine saying this? which ship do you think is most likely to be in such a situation? romantic, platonic - however you imagine it (even if the original context is a little different). and as always, any thoughts and further ideas in the tags are much appreciated.
**quote submissions are welcome, though i might not use all of them (but i'll try my best)
#there's only so many ships i can put in the poll#all other pairings are included in the last option and you're free to add them in the tags#this is the very first one so we'll see how it goes#and then we can we figure it out from there :D#i'll probably do 2 of these a week :)#any quote submissions will be credited unless specified otherwise#okay i think that's all#polls#bbc merlin poll#bbc merlin quotes poll
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[reverse entry AU]
so glad the work week is over!
no more meetings!
what do you mean its only tuesday.
#isat#in stars and time#isat siffrin#reverse entry au#isat modern office au#isat spoilers#<- not REALLY but its blink and u miss it tbh#and is hardly legible#and probably doesnt make much sense as a spoiler for regular isat tbf#its more of a spoiler if u know the spoiler from isat to begin with????????#i think i am starting to confuse myself on if this is really a spoiler ASFASDAFRA#inspired by my week so far thumbs up#sometimes u end up in too many meetings about the same subject and wonder why you are even here#proceed to zone out till hear key words#tune in and respond#then continue zoning out#omg just like beloved indie game in stars and timeeeee#for legal reasons that is an exaggerated explanation to further enhance the joke thumbs up part 2#alternative takes that build on this same idea include#staring at computer screen in general trying to remember what you were doing#or silently judging a computer program for freezing on you for the seventh time in the past twenty minutes#or just staring blankly at the screen in general as people do yanno thumbs up part 3#oh also to note yea this is not in the office lmao#modern times means sometimes you also get to have wfh days yippeeee so siffrin is in his apartment#the star is probably sitting in the kitchen next to the flavor tree at this moment in time dont worry about it aha#WAIT i just realized i forgor the shine in siffrins eyes OOPS#actually wait nvm this is fine it adds to this i think HAHAHA#okay tag talk over !!!!
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