my mother wasn't the first to cry when I was born.
Of course, I didn't know this, but it's a small anecdote my parents love telling me. Even though I tore her open, my mother never shed a tear. No, it was my dad that cried when he held me.
"Full-on sobbing," my mom told me, laughing the entire time. "Your father has always been a crybaby." My dad never refuted this, just smiling like he could never imagine not crying.
Now I wonder who it was that cried first, my mom or my dad, when faced with the remains of my body, lifeless and broken beyond repair- like a ragdoll that got used one too many times.
Maa, they broke my hips, crushed my glasses so they stuck into my eyes, walked all over me with their boots, tortured me for their pleasure and had their way with my body, then strangled me to death. Left me there on full display to rot. But can you still call me your pari one more time?
Paa, they used me because I was a girl. Had I been a boy they would have killed me but kept my dignity, but unfortunately, I'm not a boy, so did that mean I am not deserving of even a dignified death? nine to ten of them Paa, I couldn't even see most of them- can you still call me meri bachi once more?
I don't know what I did wrong, Maa, I only ever listened to your words. I couldn't stand what they were doing in that building. Paa, I've always been your brave girl, the one who couldn't stand injustice. Do you wish I had stayed quiet on this? Do you think I may have survived if I acted like I didn't see?
I promise I didn't do anything wrong Paa, I never meant any harm. I swear I didn't tempt them Maa, I had my kurta and my doctor's coat.
My stethoscope broke Maa. My doctor's coat is red now.
Please forgive me.
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Chuuya: Dazai got on my nerves again for just breathing. What did you and Arthur even fight about when you two got into it?
Verlaine: Whether or not to home school you in the countryside.
Chuuya: No seriously.
Verlaine: Do I look like I'm kidding?
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I've had a few inquiries into how I'm doing so poking my head in for a moment.
I'm sorry that I've been gone so much. I've had to deal with a lot of various illnesses/injuries/court things concerning divorce and custody and so September - November has been kind of a clusterfuck.
The most recent ailment that I'm dealing with is pneumonia in both my lungs. Started out as bronchitis and it got worse.
Must admit I am pretty exhausted and frustrated because for weeks I've been shuffled between doctors who won't listen, many tests without much explanation, and so much medication that I should open my own pharmacy...meanwhile continuing to deteriorate.
I did manage to see my primary doctor this week so some progress has been made. I ended up in the ER last week and the doctor there basically didn't listen to anything I said and that I "looked fine" even though I told her I was coughing so badly that I was throwing up and even normal breathing felt like someone was taking a machete to my ribs. Then she made me sit there for hours before getting discharged. 🙃🙃🙃
For anyone who has tagged me or inquired of me, I'm so sorry for the lack of response. I've been just so tired. I haven't been able to lay down or sleep because I start suffocating. But I did make a very pink and cozy pillow fortress in my couch so I can doze upright! And my older kid said my basket of medicines look like a bouquet so hey, that's something. 🤣🤣🤣
Hope everyone are doing well. Please stay safe and healthy. I'll try to make it back here soon.
Love y'all.
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YOU-You get me. I am too AroAce for the majority of this shipping stuff. If I want characters to have relationships I want it platonic! More friendship & familial stuff! I'll make it myself if I have to. (Also same with That Kirby Ship I am also tired of that)
YEAH I'm always stuck between enjoying the diversity of ships and trying avoid finding intense romantic stuff in a character tag OTL
I won't lie I've got a couple of smaller ships I enjoy seeing but I don't like seeing only ship content of them, they're more enjoyable when they have personalities beyond the other. I love the "This is a unit: do not separate" dynamic but it doesn't mean they have to start shoving their lips together 😔
We gotta see more complex relationships, I want choatic friendships, rivals that would never team up unless the fate of the world depended on it, allies with ideologies that conflict, some of these have such wonderful potential for character development and story beyond what a romantic relationship would do. Sometimes romance feels like a cheap answer.
And please please for the love of all stop pairing together people who genuinely hate each other and hurt each other, it's not as interesting as you think, sometimes they just hate each other (I still think the Redd/Nook and Archie/Maxie past relationship divorce thing is funny though, I don't yet have the words to describe why but I think it has something to do with it not being completely romantic? If you agree and have the words to say it I'm interested in knowing what you think because for whatever reason I can't analyze it atm)
That being said, there's been a lot of creativity from ships. I think everyone should have the opportunity to enjoy themselves with it and have their fun as long as it's not harmful and all that, just keep tagging your ships, it's respectful for everyone involved and let's us decide what we do and don't want to see.
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