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was suddenly plagued by Banana Fish thoughts
#i don’t know why#i am usually habing a wonderful say then BAM Banana Fish#then i cry inside#i want to rewatch it becausebit is good but I know I wouldn’t be able to do it#i need something like apple cow or something#a show where they are happy cause im not#due to banana fish#OOH#ILL WATCH THAT OIKE 5 MINUTE VIDEO CALLED BANANA FISH BUT IRS THE PARTS WITHOUT THE TRAUMA#oh#i didn’t notice i was in all caps#sorry for yelling#it just si sad#but ao good#oh and the fandom goodness the fandom#they thjngs they make are si sad#i have cried before#and will cry again#banana fish#like they aren’t even safe in fanon they torture them even more there
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A lil guy !
#honkai star rail#dan heng#genuinely have a million things i wanna draw and then zero energy#so dan heng in a hoodie#now i gotta go get dinner sooooo maybe that will give energy and then i can draw more of what i actually wanna draw#but i kinda spent like ... hours ? talking to my mom earlier today#since shes been in the hospital for many many days#so i was catching her up on whats been goin on and showed her silly lil videos#and telling her how hyped i was for summer hrid and she (very patient with my fe talk)#was like you always tell me about banners being bad so it must have made you REALLY happy to say the whole banner is good#and im like yeah and i had multiple people on multiple sites like hey salmon/moeblob did ya see the banner#and she was like thats so cool that people acknowledge who you like and im like yeah it is p cool#and then i told her how mad i was at the absolutely criminal act of limiting how you can watch clue (1985 hit movie)#like i told her yeah sure i own it twice on dvd and once on itunes and that the only way to watch those#are either desktop or ps2 and how i dont have access to my itunes email#and i dont have it on my laptop so i sadly would have to rebuy the movie on itunes under a new acct#then i said how i loved that it was free to watch with ads on yt and id watched it twice that way#but then recently wanted to watch it on there but laptop and hoo boy you have to buy or rent it now#so i v angrily was like fine whatever ill do the thing and leave my room and go watch it on my moms tv#while she isnt around and use her amazon prime where it should be included except ! IT WASNT!#YOU HAVE TO HAVE PRIME TO BUY OR RENT IT NOW TOO!#HOW ARE THEY DOING THIS AND WHY ! who in the world is watching this movie so much that isnt me that they have to charge for it now#on all platforms unless you straight up pirate it#and hey why would i of all people be needing to pirate a movie i own physically two times and digitally once#this is literally a personalized attack to me#and my mom was like i understand how you feel cause yeah thats really weird to do to a 1985 movie#and im like yes exactly i have morals and principles that make me opposed to this and its v maddening#and she said she understood and its ok next time we are having power issues and i have to shut down#that if i really wanna watch it i can rent it on her amazon account and i looked at her and shes like oh you feel v strongly about this#and i do! I HAVE HAD IT GIFTED TO ME TWICE ! I BOUGHT IT ONCE! WHY DO I HAVE TO RENT IT FOR MORE MONEY!
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tbh i think a lot of the people saying "well both sides are wrong"/"bt stans are just as toxic" are just not exposed to other perspectives in this fandom. as a buddie fan who's been watching this show since s1, i can safely say that buddie fans have always been toxic. like as fact. to me, to say that bucktommy fans are just as harmful or just as annoying or just as bad as buddies consistently are is just. delusional. indicative of at worst a biased opinion and at best an uninformed one. buddie has been here since s2 and fans have ruthless ever since. bucktommy has been here for 3/4 of a season and for the most part, stay in their lane. i'm sure there are bucktommy fans who suck, like that's just being on the internet, but you have to be blind to ignore how insane buddie fans are and genuinely how much worse they are in comparison.
i don't want to generalize and i think constantly adding that disclaimer is annoying as hell bc obviously i'm not talking about everyone but because buddie has been here for so long and taken up so much mental space of very die-hard, passionate fans, you're going to see much more intensity on that side. after season 5, i had to step away from the fandom and the show because of how frustrating it got. it was annoying to see people swear up and down buddie will be canon by the end of s3-no wait s4-no wait s5-no wait- and ultimately it sucked my enjoyment out of a show i otherwise enjoyed because i got swept up in the Buddie Of It All and forget about why i watch the show to begin with. we've been left to stew in our theories and now we can't tell what canon and what's fanon anymore, and when the show reminds us, the disappointment and frustration kills our hopes.
i was also active in the dan and phil fandom and supernatural fandom, like ik why people think we're annoying and it's because we are. we make everything about the one thing we like, we comment on every post begging for it to become canon, we're violently disappointed when the show doesn't play into our fan theories because we've convinced ourselves buddie is going to happen by the end of the next episode or actually the end of this season or actually maybe the end of the next season. we've torn a part every female love interest, either making them boring or making them unlikeable in our fanon. all that to say is that when people call us annoying, they're telling the truth and when bucktommy fans say buddie fans are toxic, they're coming from a sincere place. i mean we can't even enjoy our own ship because we're so quick to get our hopes up and be let down about something as stupid it becoming canon. who cares if it becomes canon, just like it to like it.
and it makes sense why there's perceived "toxicity" on the bucktommy side. our energy is being matched; the obsession, the passion, the surge in fandom. if you don't like it or even just find it annoying, i suggest you guys look back on your own posts and comments and behaviors towards other people in the fandom and other characters and unbiasedly compare it to the Toxic Bucktommy Shippers you're claiming you hate. if bucktommy fans are obsessive, it's because we've set the stage for that. if bucktommy fans are getting aggro and defensive, it's because buddie fans have been on the opposition and don't know how to turn it off. we've gone from underdog to bully somewhere in the last 6 seasons.
#buddie fans are slowly killing themselves with all goal-post moving and fighting anything that moves#i mean we've been the underdogs for so long it makes sense we're defensive but at some point that turned into full on attacks at anything#that isnt buddie#so now we're not underdogs we're actually the very loud majority often punching down at people for enjoying maybe a smaller ship#ive stopped interacting with the buddie side of the fandom personally because bucktommy fans are way more lighthearted#its like when ppl trust men more if they have a cat lol like if youre a buddie shipper and you like bucktommy i trust you way more#i like bucktommy too and i think them being “”endgame“” or whatever makes a lot of sense#and im becoming more and more obsessed with them as the show goes on bc thats the story#buck being happy and cute and blushy is adorable and i wanna see more#anyways ive been wanting to air out my thoughts about this for a while#cause its really interesting to see this progression and where it seems like the story is going#and how fans react to that#if the show ends and buddie never becomes canon. how are they gonna feel. how will they cope if we get a bucktommy marriage in 2 seasons#will they boycott or finally just leave the show entirely?#or will they just pinch their nose and sit there miserable bc they just couldnt adapt?#911 abc
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Understandably So no one mentions charles when talking about the Logan movie and again Understandably So This Aint Bout Him however i do confess that as someone who had never seen Logan until like. a month ago when i was binging all the movies and without knowing a single thing about it aside from laura i cant lie i was in fact jumpscared by him being there. especially for at least like 3/4s of the movie
#xmen#logan movie#snap chats#i be ramblin today hello ...#it was a pleasant jumpscare. yk until he died. after realizing he committed atrocities by accident 😭😭💀 OLD MAN NOOO#but no please LIKE I READ THE DESCRIPTION WHEN GOING TO WATCH RIGHT#AND I WAS JUST THINKING 'oh he'll probably be here for like twenty minutes. wdym he's here for way longer than that'#i THINK years ago i REMEMBER seeing a screenshot of the hotel bit with laura and charles but again that was years ago#and i might be tricking myself maybe its a false memory jealvvelka either way i just know they were cute :(#point is he was here for. i cant even say So Little cause again He Was Here For An Hour And Thirty Minutes Out Of Two Hours#and lets be clear 'snap has your brain molded that much you know exactly how much screen time charles gets in the movies'#girl no not yet i only know exactly when he punches his clock cause i had to keep restarting the movie cause it kept pausing vjAELKAJE#and it just so happened to struggle literally like. ten minutes after he dies- like when logan was dealing with x24 THAT part#so rude for that.. anyway I Repeat i miss charles and laura bein cute :(#it wasnt a lot but it was just sweet.. i always like how charles always got that Professor in his soul with these movies#like in dofp when logan's losing it after. getting future ptsd jvALKVLAJ??K charles is there to ground him#despite being. Like That vjeaLKj like sir please ily. i will accept the Youre On Acid answer youre trying your best#and then with THIS movie evidently charles is having. the worst time upstairs#but he's still super sweet with laura like oh stop you grandpa im gonna throw up#and to STRESS. they were EVIL about that wholesome dinner bit like :((( oh to see the fam happy and safe again :(((#like im throwing up frankly. people were right this movie IS sad i underestimated their assessment 😭#to lighten the mood in my heart. charles really do be an old man in this movie hes such a menace to logan JELKAK#god. Most Normal X-Men Movie Watcher Focuses On Professor X During The Movie About Logan VEJLKJA#ok im done. sorry i just keep replayin that bit in my head where theyre in the car and logans just 'Did You Take Your Meds SHOW'#like pelase. jaeRLKEaj ok im gonna try drawing i looked at my wall long enough and i think i can draw something
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not now sweetie, mommy's defending sam winchester in the tiktok comments
#everyday i open tt and twt and am subjected to the most braindead takes and opinions#istg you have to do the thing where in order to explain sexism to men you have to relate it to women in their own family#“hey remember when the same bad thing happened to dean and how bad it was??? yeah”#that “i need to talk to a gay person” meme but i internally go “i need to talk to a proshipper” and come here#tumblr my beloved you never show me sam hate <33#yday i casually saw a tweet of someone saying sam deserves to die cause dean couldn't have a happy life????#when i tell you i was genuinely shocked#how many ppl do i need to block for the algo to get it im so tired#oh my days i just found out you can rearrange tags???????#sam winchester#anti sam hate#fandom wank#kinda
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After finishing She-Ra 2018 I'm trying to work on my unified theory for why CatDora bothers me as the endgame ship. Cause as CEO of mentally ill cartoon women, there's something about it that feels a disservice to Catra's psychology and trauma. She is genuinely such an interesting character to watch because they so clearly lay out the abusive dynamic that informs her entire character, but by the kiss, I feel like they lost steam with it.
The biggest thing to me is the simple fact that Adora is basically a trigger for her. Adora's personality as someone who is constantly self-sacrificing and forgiving is something Catra has a deep hatred for because she believes she is worthless and unforgivable, and when people try to help her she feels they're using her to look better while she fails to get better.
The fact that ADORA herself was the one in that original dynamic that traumatized the hell out of her makes me uncomfortable with how Catra eventually just... stops getting set off by things. I just can't imagine how what happened leading up to their kiss would desensitize Catra enough to that trauma response that she'd be in love with her. Like in that same season she was fucking death gripping the table at hearing Adora's name, and in seasons earlier she straight up like dissociated when people brought up her heroics. Not only the unearned healing, but the "I've loved you all along" feels a bit patronizing to her past. That all her emotionality was complicated romantic feelings, and not... having really nasty childhood trauma.
#shut the heck up#she ra#that damn cat#show was good btw#not a masterpiece - it was kinda corny in a bad way sometimes - but was fun#it felt like it wanted to be there and had ideas it was interested in#and i really like catra she is my fave as you can see#mentally ill cartoon women#im actually still getting my little pea brain around it cause her trauma and dynamic with adora is a lot#i like that the show was patient with her i wish it wasnt patient just cause it wanted her to kiss adora#imo she should be with someone else who is willing to stick up for her as adora does but isnt her#isnt the woman who's name and face can send her into self-destructive hysterics#something that is bad and needs ro change but she needs more time for than was given#wheres she-ra future where we recontextualize the casts trauma and show happy endings still need more time?#tag talking#media analysis
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Only Oscar Isaac as Leto Atreides could pull me back from my slumber onto this hellhole nearly a year after I last posted… the power of Leto still controls me clearly 😵💫 Also seeing Dune again in the cinema gave me whiplash so hard I am SO READY for part two tomorrow I’m SCREAMING
#I had tickets for the midnight screening of dune part two right after the showing of part one but I was too tired#Also I’ve been gone so long cause I’m always too busy working but it’s what I’ve always wanted to do so I’m very happy where I am#I mean I’ve seen some things but alas love my job#back to Leto#Leto Atreides makes me tingle#that man could make me do anything literally anything im begging#duke leto atreides#leto atreides#dune 2021#dune 2024#dune part two#oscar isaac
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Again, this is asking a lot from Bethesda, and I wouldn't worry if they didn't consider or think of this.
But it would be so, absolutely so amazing if they had a sleazy scummy antagonistic Ghoul whose trying to take advantage of the fact that Lucy is naive and new to the world to oversell things, who doesnt affect the plot of the story but is a recurring character, possibly a merchant of type.
Just so we get a nice variety of Ghouls, as a fun treat.
#pretty much i want an Ahzrukhal#I don't expect Ahzrukhal but a Ghoul like Ahzrukhal cause i enjoy greasy slimy men who speak with a wheezy drawl#I'd want them so badly#fallout#but yeh im not gonna expect much from the show to have things id like to see#im just happy too see fun stuff in general#and so excited too see where this show takes its characters and how they grow and interact i could care less about lore accuracy#tho it would be so funny if they saw a space ship or any signs of alien life hehehehe id love that#i am very interested to see Deathclaws and Supermutants tho and ferals!
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I think about that tiktok trend where you like paint your partners eye color on your nails or make a bracelet or something with the color a lot actually
#like its so cute honestly but sometimes i wonder how hard it would actually be to like find the right color match#maybe one day... but for now probably expect oc art with this trend in it maybe 💀#the thing about it too is i have like dark eyes and idk if ive ever seen like a dark brown nail polish. beads or thread yeah but ya#oh nvm i googled. it exists i just dont pay attention ig#OH you know what i can do... i can paint pepperonis eye color on my nails.... my baby... my kitty......#dude it feels like 5 am why is it only 2#amyways. 4 monsters was a big mistake i think... i feel quite icky...#it doesnt help i didnt eat for a majority of the day it was just monster. im really unhealthy. need water maybe#wait i was talking about nail polish how did i get here#i just want to actually do cute couple things. i must heal. im gonna be so healthy.#its fine. lmao. i just know im not ready#oh i did eat btw dont worry lmao i had. chicken nuggets#i actually have to eat more bc i need to gain back some weight or they wont let me donate plasma#my extra pokemon money..... nawr...#i dropped like 10 pounds. my current job is very physical. lots of scuttling around.#i thought about working out too? i had a short phase last year in like spring or something where i started doing workout type stuff#so like.. maybe. probably should. healtly mindset shit yk#i also maybe want some more clothes. like update my wardrobe a bit. really figure out my style.#like some cool shirts and maybe pants. cause i wear a lot of the same stuff#also again. dropped weight so. need better fitting pants.....#i want more mens pants. big pockets... gender....#anyways. nice chatting with you besties. love you guys my silly little tumblr besties.#some of you that follow this sideblog have supported me on here for a while. i see you. i appreciate you. thank you 💖#genuinely there are names that pop up and im like !! hello!!! its you!!!!!#you guys probably know who you are. go get yourself a little treat you deserve it. or like. idk what you enjoy.#play a good game. watch your favorite show. idk. be happy. love yourself.#this also goes out to those of you who are more passive on my blog. i appreciate you too!! thank you!#all my little tumblr followers.... my besties..... unles you are a bot i havent cleared out lmao#k i might have to go to bed idk im tired well see
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#dont mind me just havin a conversation about rpgs and mods (specifically BG3)#and the person says they don't like mods and im like thats fine! nothing wrong with that!#and then they just go off “Mods are delusions and lies and deception!! its not real!!”#like ummm idk how to break this to ya buddy but uhh#the entire video game is not real lmao#they seem weirdly attached to the idea that the creator's vision is law and anything remotely changing any detail is blasphemy#nevermind all the things Larian themselves have retconned and moved around lol#the studios themselves dont know what their own canon is sometimes#in TES Kahjiit look different in each game#the elves are drastically different between each Divinity game#idk this is just a super bizarre conversation and ngl it threw me for a loop lmao#“mods are an illusion” feels like a meme#like i get that in spirit they mean that mods can hurt the integrity of a game and oossibly change the original vision#or go against established lore#but at the same time like....who cares? the creators aren't going to be offended and block you from playing the game because ur using mods#sorry im rambling but im just so darn confused#this is a hot take i wasn't prepared to catch#like show me where the video game mods have personally attacked you lmao#and YES if youve made it this far into the tags i will tell you#this was a conversation with an anti aa person on the aa kiss mod#theyre mad because it just “supports a delusion” and “ruins the story Larian is telling”#cause ya know ...the Tav expressions are meant to godmod players so that we know AA is abusive!#it was just all very patronizing#theye like “nothing wrong with using this mod if it makes you happy!! but hust remember that its NOT real and not canon!!”#imagine being so bitter you have to comment on things not for you just to bring down morale of those who enjoy it#and you do it with a take that isnt even correct lmao
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Been feeling a little down this week, at least the Lions play tomorrow 🦁🏈
#arcane#about that act three..#I’m honestly just a little disappointed#the pacing#the writing#the almost everything storywise#it just fumbled the ball#I wouldn’t say it was the WORST ending I’ve ever scene for a show#it’s just not that good for such an amazing show#I feel like they just started picking up speed on episode 5 and they couldn’t slow down#so it just turned into a a big old mess#I swear it’s like they just went#‘people really liked the sad bits from the first season. so that can only mean they want MORE sad bits with no meaning or reasoning!’#like no dude#people liked the sad bits from season 1 cause they where well written and meaningfull#just making everyone depressed every 5 seconds in season 2#it looses meaning#especially when you just keep flipping it like a light switch#happy now sad happy now sad happy now sad#I could sit here and unpack how I feel about how they handled the majority of the character arcs quite poorly#and just some of the strange writing descions they made for this season#but im just so tired#arknights#lone trail#stupid medals I lost so much sleep for them#at least silence is happy#anything for you Beyoncé#digital sketch
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Been watching Chuck the last week, and I can honestly say it's one of my favorite shows. I hear that some people don't like post s2 so much, but I genuinely quite love it all. My only gripes are just Shaw, and probably Vivian Volkoff soon (I havent finished watching season 4 yet).
Like, you can't convince me that Shaw wasn't always a psychopath, he always had that "too perfect" image, and dead eyes, his romance with Sarah was also bland as hell, and you couldn't tell what words he said were sincere or not. I honestly thought he was going to be a double agent the whole time, and the fact that he turned on the team so quick is just... ick. Embarrassment. Wish he'd stayed dead.
Vivian is giving the same vibes. Though her father was a much more interesting villain.
Also I didn't really care for the way Shaw used Ellie. That pissed me off, and the fact that Ellie asked Chuck to quit spying. Though Chuck should have just come out right and said he couldn't do that. And, hell, to be fair to him, he tried, but Diane literally made it impossible for him to do anything else.
So a few complaints, where as I didn't have any in the first two seasons. I can see why people might not like them as much. But overall wonderful. Even better that Sarah and Chuck get to be together, cause they're the cutest couple. Also Chuck getting to be a badass spy (though I did love his original helplessness more - it's why I started watching the show) is perfect.
Bonus, Sam Beckett and Sarah Conner being Chuck's parents are perfect. Cause he encompasses BOTH those characters, and they fit as his parents well.
#chuck#chuck season 1#chuck season 2#chuck season 3#chuck season 4#daniel shaw#chuck bartowski#ellie bartowski#sarah walker#such a fun show#this show was made for me - Im very happy with it#honestly I haven't finished it#but Im also happy it got cancelled#cause I don't know how many more TOP EVIL SECRET ORGANIZATIONS they had left in them lmao#the first one was still the best - and the way there was just new ones all the time - which makes sense - but it's like they didn't exist#prior which is where it doesnt make sense#they could have had the main one still be fulcrum with subsidiaries slowly getting toppled over#I also feel like the intersect 1. became a bit less secret? which I didn't like#2. people stopped caring about it so much - which I also didn't like#overall Im still enjoying the show immensely
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I need to find media with love stories similar to those in fantasy stuff but... not fantasy. like I just want to see a man covered in blood willing to die for his love and characters facing death and then running into the arms of each other. but it seems to me there's nowhere to find that outside fantasy shows. or like erotic books u find at the supermarket. I'd rather do fantasy than cheap romances or thrillers but idk I just don't wanna sit through like a billion magical battles to get to 15 minutes of romance anymore lol
#like cmon there's something so insane abt a love story when the stakes are high. and I like media where the romance is not the focus cause#it doesn't get boring and the romance feels earned#lol im watching shadow and bone#it's... fine#favorite parts are nina/matthias and inej#im enjoying the six of crows storyline more which is interesting cause i only read the shadow and bone books#idk not crazy about alina and mal in the show#not that i was obsessed w them in the books but they were the reason i read them mostly#anyway if you have recs!!!! despite these v specific requirements... id be happy to receive them!!!
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bisexual bobby. i'm right.
#ok so let me paint the scene: it's bobby's college years. he's been roommates with this guy idk lets call him derek for a few months now.#they INSTANTLY clicked yk? and bobby's been feeling weird around derek but he jots in down to the thrill of having a new friend (he#experienced this before w his middle school bsf but never figured out why) and anyway when derek comes out to him he's like 'woah why am i#literally about to float out of my skin with happiness???' and he ponders about that for a bit and THEN we get the classic#practice kissing trope where they're like 'hahab wouldn't be fun to see hahaba' and anyway so they do that and bobby's like 'OH' so he#kinda distances himself away from derek cause he's like 'if he liked me he would've said smth' while derek OBVIOUSLY likes him and he's#hurt and confused about bobby not talking to him so he's like 'listen i really didn't mean to make u uncomfortable and i think it's best#that i move out' and bobby is like too shocked to say anything so derek takes that as his cue to leave and then they see each other in#hallways and basically yearn for each other for the rest of college#damn bro wrote a whole lore and everything#sorry im really passionate about this for no reason at all u dont have to read all that#bobby nash#911 fox#911 show#911 headcanons#bisexual
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happy aro awareness week
#just almost put some tags on a post where it probably wasn’t the right place#and so im making my own post instead#i don’t think im aro at this point in my life#but instead im just so grateful for the aro community for teaching me that it’s okay to love however i love#im 21 and ive never been in a relationship never kissed anyone#and there have been times where ive been real sad about that#but Valentine’s Day happened and I just. wasn’t worried about finding anyone or relationships or whatever#i was just happy to wear red and hearts and celebrate platonic love yknow?#and if romantic love finds me that’ll be epic and if it never does that’s okay I have incredible platonic love in my life#i just feel sad sometimes that people feel so trapped looking for a partner like it’s their only option#so thank you to aros for showing me that I can just be me no matter what that looks like#(and obviously aces cause as an asexual that’s obviously a big part of that journey. but it’s aro week so this is about the aros)#anyway I need to eat and do homework before class so ✌️
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I was thinking about Banana Fish and I just realized something about the ending that absolutely devastated me... I'm sure other people caught this, but it took me a while...
At the end, Ash dies while happy because Eiji literally (and figuratively) taught him how to say goodbye - he has closure because of that. Meanwhile, Eiji, while on the plane, can't find it in him to say goodbye to Ash because he didn't get that same lesson (plus Ash was able to say goodbye to him at the hospital whereas Eiji wasn't)
Basically, Eiji teaching Ash to say goodbye was what offered him closure and part of the reason he was happy when he died (the other, of course, being that Eiji hadn't abandoned him). And I think that's simultaneously really sweet and really sad
#banana fish#banana fish spoilers#i just started thinking about it again#cause i was thinking that if theres ever an english dub that i would like to watch it#and in fact its one of those shows that would make more sense in an english dub#cause of the scene where eijis teaching him japanese#and because i was thinking about that scene...#i realized...#he was also definitely happy because he realized that eiji wasnt going to actually abandon him#but the being able to say goodbye plays into that too i think#im sad again though...
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