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Mixed feelings about the cat
#Dusknoir#Grovyle#Skitty#pokemon doodles#original art#I honestly don’t see grovyle as a “dad” figure but the meme was too good to pass up#he did seem to want to at least cooperate with Hero/Partner in the future#And was pretty miffed that Partner didn’t trust him#But it did follow a lot of uhm…#Beating them to an inch of their lives#So y’know first impressions and all that#They’re on better terms now it’s all good 👌🏻
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ii quite enjoy cooking although i dont know a whole lot about it but it is fun and i like to experiment and just wing stuff.. i also dont have a lot of like, resources bc my house is fucked up and nothing works and we own one pot, ive wanted to try baking out for a long time but the oven doesnt work yadda yadda yadda But well one day, whenever i live somewhere else, i can try it out.. but i liike doing what i can do here and it is so nice when i make food and its yummy :] esp if other people eat it too and also like it. i made cinnamony soft apple thing and my momma said is really good she liked it
#i get sad if i think about it too much bc i really would like for my dad to teach me stuff#but he cant due to how he lives within the soil of the earth these days. but he was a chef and made rly good food always.. well its ok#i also always regret that i was such a picky eater when i was younger#and i became much more courageous w trying new food and realized i like eating just about anything#around when i was like uuh.. idk 15 or 16 or so but#there was always a lot of food my dad would make that i wouldnt even try bc i was picky and i didnt stop being picky until years#after he died. i wish i could let him know. hed be happy about it i think#only slightly related but when i was little and would see in like#movies or at school and stuff how the mom/women stereotypically do the cooking in households it confused me#bc my dad cooked everything at my house like the only thing i can rmbr my mom making ever is like#Box mac and cheese
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I could cry
#was sooo cloudy here#but my girlfriends mom sent me legitimately 14 pictures in a row of her view#she knows I love them and it was really fucking cute#so went to find them#wasn’t as bright as they appear but I was so happy#my dad and I have talked about going to Iceland to see them he loves them too#if it was brighter I would’ve woken him up last night but where I live you couldn’t see em#found this spot and there was a girl by herself watching on a rock with a blanket and her camera#we left when she did no girl left behind#especially not in a pitch black parking lot at 1:30am#some peoples views were nuts! her moms windows were glowing pink I would’ve been actually crying#also always feels good to be thought about and reminded that you are#I’ll see it again someday I wanna see it with my dad#he’s seen it up in the allagash in maine when he was younger#and the full moon up there is insane too he’s talked about it#he has the best stories#anyways I'm so happy so many people got to see it#and I hope if you missed it you get to see it in the future#so special 🖤🖤#northern lights#aurora borealis#mine
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feeling solidarity these holidays with everyone not allowed to talk about their partner with the family
#for some reason i too am not allowed to bring him up when my dad is present because he gets really uncomfortable about it#and my mom has to come tell me off about it in private bc he wont say the problem directly to me#thunderclap#i understand the problem but what the hell man im almost 27 years old#its extra annoying cause ive been to his house a lot already and i know his parents and have a good relationship with them#but my parents absolutely REFUSE to let him come here because again itd make my dad uncomfortable to have us (checks notes)#living in the same space??#my GRANDPARENTS have seen my partner more than my parents have#i just think its annoying as hellll holy shit all i did was bring up miguel sleeptalking and say hes woken me up once or twice saying stuff#and my mom told me off on it after like 'dont bring up you being in bed with your guy in front of your dad' HUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!#HUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO INFER THAT AS THE MEANING TO WHAT I SAID... I WAS JUST TELLING A FUNNY ANECDOTE#THAT HAD 100% TO DO WITH THE CONVO WE WERE HAVING (SLEEPWALKING)#ARRGHGGHGHGHGH THIS IS JUST LIKE COSMIC ONLINE REACHING BUT IRL
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the bittersweet but absolute flood of relief that comes from admitting defeat at living independently, to have to move back in with parents. we tried! we gave it our best shot for almost 3 years! but living like this (being on our own) is just not possible for us at this time of our lives. we've finally proved it to ourselves that we can't do it. it'll be okay to let ourselves rest now
#latimers parents not mine!!!! i am NOT moving back to florida LOL#really hope that the changes will be good for my mental health. this apartment is toxic to us#ive been on the verge of meltdowns Kind Of A Lot lately. imnot doing great#extremely dependent on substances. just to reach a baseline level of functioning. but even that isnt working as much anymore#the only things i do on my phone or tablet these days is like. 2 mobile games. and skirting past my dms to check latimers blog#its too overwhelming to even open discord these days yknow. everything on earth is too much for me right meow#i havent been drawing i havent been social online OR irl i havent been cooking or creating#i havent been keeping up with personal hygiene like at all im particularly ashamed about that one#i've been really bad about doing my T the past few months which is a HUGE shame because im SO fucking hyped to be on it#theres just. too many obstacles in getting it done half the time. and the other half of the time i just forget#anyway. anyway.#our lease ends in july so between now and then we're just gonna try our best to tolerate our living situation enough to get by#there's a light at the end of the tunnel. and its called 'i only have to be in charge of like 2 rooms at most. and not a household!'#we're gonna try to slowly comb through all our things between now and then so the process of moving wont suck as bad#cuz listen. its pretty fucking bad right now#maybe not for other people. but it is for me. and its okay to let myself come to terms with that#im just. so relieved. still very stressed! but theres at least light at the end of the tunnel and its only like 2 months away#ill be able to draw guilt-free again. ill be able to just EXIST guilt-free#i dont think ive felt guilt-free for just existing the way i do since like. turning 20#i know my mom wouldve loved if i stayed home forever. and im sad i cant be there for her#but ever since i had a fight with my dad at 15 or 16 it just really felt like he didnt want me there more and more#maybe as the youngest he was resenting that i was preventing him from becoming an empty nester or something. i dont know#because all the other kids had been moved out and on their own at least once but i had never left home before#i dont know if he'd be heartbroken or not to hear that i feeling like he was resenting me. but thats the energy i was picking up for years#i dunno. i dont know#anyway. back to housing. for now im going to try to relax and store energy for the moving process#the huge pile of things by the kitchen? i dont have to worry about that becoming permanent because we're leaving in 2 months#the general discord of the state of our possessions? we have to go through everything to pack it all anyway. we can move in RIGHT this time#when we moved in here we didnt have a car or license so we were dependent on latimers 3-hr-drive-away parents to help us move#just /across town/. and we had a whole month between leases! but it still had to be done in a weekend
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Update on my Whumptober thoughts: Not all the prompts will be posted, I have all 31 planned out but I found out that you don't have to post all 31. If a fic is finished, I'll post it but there's some big beasts that I want to write properly instead of rush. Also, I might not even write all 31. I want the completionist title but I don't have the time nor energy to force myself to write all the prompts and I did it last year and it wasn't like life-changing. I like Whumptober because the prompts help my creativity, spark some inspiration (talking about my Delancey Brothers Fic) but the perfectionist in me just beats myself up about not getting enough fics done before October or not writing enough each day to get them finished and then writing fics that all sound the same or the ideas being kind of shitty because I'm forcing them. I want to do my ideas justice rather than mass produce shit I don't like because I feel I need to, it's a constant line I walk between "I want to write something well and that I'm proud of so might be inactive for a while on AO3" and "I want to get this idea out there so need to post a bunch of stuff now"
#also i don't know why i feel i have to update people#i genuinely think that people will give me flack about not posting 31 prompts but calling myself a completionist#or saying i've got loads of fics coming up for the bear because of whumptober then not posting anything#i've made good progress with some things#the ed fic#but others are complete and not how i want them to be#there's a few fics exploring richie's birth family and him reconnecting that i want to do better#or him quitting the bear and becoming a nurse that i want to do justice#or just the fact that all i'm thinking of is my mikey lives au but it doesn't fit whumptober so i'm not writing it#and to top it off#my way of writing is changing from plan a lot and then write each scene in order and do that every day#to not being able to flesh out ideas so just writing down scenes until i get the vibe#it feels less dedicated to me personally#just because it's different and i'm a perfectionist who's too thorough sometimes#also half the time i plan a fic in detail then cba because it's too daunting#so i'm taking a leaf out of scenedenial's book and giving myself more freedom and trying not to beat myself up#that i've got 10 fics on the go and they're all slow going#because that's what i can manage#september is and will continue to be a stressful month for me#got my 2nd attempt at my driving test on 24th september and i'm an anxious wreck#also work on top of that and trying to have a life and let myself chill and say watch footie with my dad or grey's anatomy with my mum#rather than sit at a computer not writing all day#you've got to do stuff to be motivated#also exercise#i'm trying to exercise regularly and there's only so much time in the day when you work 9 hours a week#when did this become a vent post?#personal#kinda
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#its so weird. i feel like march 5th went on for more than a day somehow. i guess that's just bc we were awake for just abt all of it#my dad wanted to start doing things immediately so he was calling and scheduling all day. we went to the funeral home we went to the store#and it was weird bc as we were moving around it was like wow we r a 4 person family now. this is it. and theres so much to do after a person#dies. or at least there is when they were loved so much and jesus christ my mom was one of the best ppl a LOT of ppl knew. she did so much#for so so many ppl. and with her childhood she had every reason to b a fuck up but no she was kind and selfless and amazing. her mother is#trying to bask in the attention of her death when its like: truely go fuck urself. her being such a good person has nothing to do with u. u#treated her appallingly. fuck off. and fucking everyone knows it. god. she is a product of her grandparents kindness. and it sounds like her#dad was amazing like her. but he tragically died in a car wreck when she was 3. she was in the car. no one in my mums family believes in a#god now. too many bad things happened to the shining gems in a collection of wild alcoholics. but its not all bad. my family's staying close#my dad is taking it hard bc this means hes alone now and my mum took care of so many things bc she was so smart and he feels so dumb. he#feels he didnt deserve her. hes working on giving more hugs now. and hes using us to anxiously talk things out the way he did with mom#which is good. i cant imagine if this happened when we werent 3 adults and he was windowed with 3 kids to raise himself. and its funny. were#saying things we never would have told her. we looked thru pictures of her and she was so so beautiful. a total smoke show. my parents were#a cute couple who produced cute kids. and my mom had trouble communicating and being affectionate tho we knew she loved us there was#distance. theres a pic of my dad pulling her close and shes being tippef towarf her while standing away and thats indicitive of their#relationship. they were 2 partners who lived together independently and that worked but its sad bc my mum couldnt b vulnerable in her#expression. ppl r being so kind tho. ill be in ohio now for like 2.5 more weeks as the funeral stuff shakes out. we have to have 2 bc she#grew up away from her and so many ppl loved her in both locations. she was a popular lady. its so weird to b here on pause. but i feel clear#in my head. i think this will change a lot of my outlook on life. its nice to focus on the person she was and not the horrible 12hrs where i#saw her half dead. i cant imagine how awful it was for my sisters and dad to see her downslide into death. she didnt expect this to b The#Fever that killed her but it did and now she'll never finish a million things. and the house is full of pill bottles and all her junk and#unopened amazon packages and a truck with the fuel left on empty. bc she was an absent minded goofball. ay. well miss her so much#unrelated
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Wish I had read more historical literature stuff. I need some etiquette scripts.
I slept from about 04:45 to 07:30
So about 2 hours
Want some quiet time and watch Netflix while I eat breakfast before I do big socializing
But the thing is we are here specifically to have quality time with my grandmother
And the kitchen is the core place people spend time here
So can't exactly just sit on my phone
I don't think there is actually a polite way to not want to socialise yet
Also don't know if it's socially acceptable to want to just have a day to wander around and explore by myself, when we haven't done 'enough' bonding yet
But at some point I'm going to have to? Don't need my dad to say whether it's the plan or not
I'm just going to have to get up regardless
how do people live with their families
Idk. Just that conflict of interests between feeling like I'm supposed to 'be here' for Dadi Vs I need to do my own thing and explore. just here as a tourist Vs here as a helper.
I think also doesn't help that because the normal family home is rural, I'm accustomed to feeling like if I'm at a family home then I can't leave
But there's a bus stop right outside here.
#Liveblogging life#Maybe I should be sending this to you as a message#But I know you'll read it so effectively the same?#11am. Hungry. Is it an ED relapse to be squicky about eating in front of other people?#Being hungry makes it worse#It's been 16 hours since dinner#But I'm gunna get judged for eating too much regardless#Maybe it's more an external environment relapse#More than an internal thing#But we're here for a month so I'm concerned about it leaving a mark#I'm venting a lot#There has been good things#It's been great#But yeah fundamental discomforts still need venting / processing / acknowledging#I am not accustomedmto living with people any more#Or specifically my dad#He's been fine#But obviously there are just specific 'minor' things that are just major sources of friction even when things are going fine#My life#My posts
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I feel like November will be a difficult month for me again and I'm not looking for it
#morningtalks#Something about the specter of madness haunting me and kinda breathing down my neck right now#I barely coasted off a full mental breakdown by being utterly mad about a friend's dad being an abhorrent piece of garbage#And then watching a two hour long video essay as I played Little Kitty in a Big City (very neat game btw)#But I'm still in this odd ''close to a breakdown but not yet'' mood and I hate it#I hate how I'm starting to be good at knowing when I'll be out of patience and general stability for all the shit I deal with#I'm getting tired of having to be extra careful because my periods have a tendency of making me Even More unstable#I hate how easily I now know that if something triggers RSD or another one of my problems (and I've got a lot of them)#I'll definitely need to take one day off (at least) to do some damage control on how all-consuming and painful the reaction will be#I hate that I can feel that a month will be hard and being CORRECT about it#I just want to live in peace for once in my life. Is that really too much to ask?#And my friends help me a lot. I would be dead if it wasn't for them#But it's still so hard and I'm still so afraid and I still despise so many things about myself#And the guilt and hatred and shame that was wracking me the entire week has been horrendous to live through#And I know it's a fully irrational reaction#But I still feel all these things. All these thoughts still run around in my head. It is so horrible to love through all of this#I'm not going to commit suicide. I promised myself I never would and I'm too spiteful to do it now#(also. Very fun that one of the main reasons I'm still alive is spite. This world fucked me up yet I'm not leaving until I say I'm done)#But my intrusive thoughts will be really brutal this month I fear. I might genuinely have some vicious moments#I'll just try to have a low-stress weekend and just enjoy my time for myself#I can maybe try to write some stories (I say knowing how much trauma will be in there lol)#Or just do anything to not be alone with my thoughts too much#We'll see how this month pans out. I don't have a lot of faith in it but I could be surprised. Who knows?
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every minute of my life is health scare health scare health scare and now my stupidass dad is coughing and shit and going on a weekend trip just before my (only) big convention of the year I am going to blow up
#and the world is genuinely such a terrible place and people are fucking monstrous creatures and it's hard to keep my head up even if i am#donating talking about stuff etc#its jsjt so fucking horrid and awful and covid is still around and no one CARES WHATSOEVER and i wonder what the point js of like.#trying to do events at all if theres a chance ill just get sick before them all (they all require travel and accommodations and lots of $)#so i am personally doing bad. abd my health is bad. and my dad pretends to be righteous on fb and then irl is an antimasker#and km just . im so. im so jaded man. everyone is failing everyone and it's getting unbearable#ive aged out of free antidepressants so now the govt has decided i should blow up also#fuck every power structyre. fuck each and every one. we are too rotten to handle other people's lives#in most capacities#wjatever i will survive to keep donating to cripsforesims#only one in my family donating anything anywhere btw (my parents make very good income and i rely on opportunities 2x a year)#BUT WHATEVER. WHATEVER. OK. OK. ILL JUST BE THE BEST I CAN BE. ILL TRY. FML
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lil hiatus away
#trump winning hit hard#harder than I thought because I didn’t think he’d win#we all met up the next day and had depression strolls#lots of vents and talks and anger#window shopped and actually shopped#looked at expensive guitars and little hamsters find fun in every place we go#we all made food with/for my niece and talked at my table for hours#played among us like old times till 1 am#got emotionally rejuvenated by the ocean#had plans with a friend that fell through so another time maybe or not idc anymore hahah she’s persistent though#I’m kinda over everything!#this 4:30 sunset always gets me bad for a while#on top of heavy world changes too like do that shit in summer#my dads friend Chris is visiting and that always makes me happy#I heard them cracking up watching South Park in his room last night was the cutest shit#reminded me of old times I miss living in Boston that whole era#wish we could have a redo#or even when he lived here with us after#maybe he'll move back this way someday#or go up that way since won’t ever be able to afford a house where I wanna live#or get out of the country all together#hiatus away was nice especially from Instagram and fb they're horrible places right now#unfollowing and unfriending everyone rn idc who u are#and honestly idky I still even have tumblr now I ask myself that a lot#more and more lately#have a good day#and take care of yourselves
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another childhood bucket list item obtained: i finally have a snuggie
#and it's the real thing not even a knockoff#kinda surprised they still exist#but also not surprised bc Blanket. blanket is universal#i just remember a lot of those As Seen On Tv ads like. imploding within 5 years#they still do As Seen On Tv products like there are still boxes marked with that logo it almost feels wrong like an ancient relic#bc most like. ubiquitous 2000s brands from my childhood are just Gone or at least so fundamentally changed it's not the same thing#heard about like 50 more companies going bankrupt probably in the last year alone#anyway ive always wanted a snuggie it's one of those Always Wanted things that never go away#others include: staples easy button (obtained!); mini fridge (not); pillow pet (i had a knockoff once); power drill (not)#i spent a surprising amount of my childhood actually going out of my way to buy stuff i could use in my own apartment in the future#i grew up lower middle class and then just lower class#so like. i always Knew i couldn't just furnish the whole apartment at once i Knew I'd have to build stuff up over time#also bc when my sister got kicked out she had like. nothing. in her trailer. and i did not want to have nothing#i knew if dad was willing to just toss out my sister like that i would absolutely follow suit#and i did! two years younger than my sister when she was!#it just happened that my mom didn't want me homeless at FOURTEEN when i legally could not work for two more years#so she went with me and we lived with my grandma#so take that dad. turns out throwing family members out willy nilly makes the rest of your family not trust you or like you!#and now i get to rub it in his face that HE can't function in a house by himself and still needs to beg my mom to clean up after him#bc i spent so much of my childhood getting berated and called lazy for not doing chores#getting told stuff like 'you have to function by yourself your parents can't always pick up after you'#and then he's literally useless without his wife#he's not disabled and he's not neurodivergent he's never even had a serious health scare he just doesn't bother to learn how to clean#his excuse is that he doesn't know how to use the washer and dryer (it has been almost ten years fucker. learn)#or he doesn't know which cleaning products to use (you have google and a library card. LOOK IT UP)#he's the only person i get mad at for this behaviour bc he's a fucking hypocrite and a child abuser about it too#he is the exception to my rule of everyone needs to be given the space to get things done where they're able and deserve help when needed#and I'll bend over backwards to make excuses for other people so i DONT exclude them from my rule i will try to find every good reason first#he has no fucking excuse though he made two teenagers nearly homeless bc he thought we were too lazy and then he's even worse
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anyway little rant(?) under the cut feel free to ignore
when I say im San and Changbin I MEAN IT
I don’t think you guys understand
like they're ME, IM THEM, our personality's, fears, mottos, goals, values are all so similar, it's actually terrifying ngl. Like SO much of my life was things I couldn't put into words until they verbalized them and I was like "BRO THATS LITERALLY ME WHAT"
#asher 🌑 speaks#when Binnie said “Im so big to protect my heart” *I like being cute/ Im cuter than people know“ ”Im scared of a lot of things“#BRO THATS MEEEEEEEEEEE#WHEN SAN WAS NAMED AFTER MOUNTAIN CUZ HIS DAD WANTED HIM TO BE A STRONG HILL FOR SOMD TO LEAN ON AND AN UNMOVABLE ONE TO OTHERS#BRO THATS LIKE BEEN MY LUFE MOTTO#anyway I jyst needed to rant and tell you all that I live them <3#San my first ever bias and Binnie one of the first people that made me feel good abt myself.#my babies🥹#San is literally my son u don't even get it bro (u will understand in future fics don't even try me it's coming) (ESP in the Hyunjin fic)#Changbin is so me when it comes to romance too bro#UGHHHH#anyway ignore this#I was studying bio and thought of this so im yapping
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I know my period's about to start when I get really mad at my mom for stupid reasons out of the blue
but like, who else was out there forcing a 7th grader to read the fucking Epic of Gilgamesh
#please share your crazy mom stories in solidarity#she put 'fornicate' on the vocab list! and when called out on this shit she just says 'be grateful. i could've chosen the rigveda.'#oh! and she forced me to read Rich Dad Poor Dad in THIRD grade. because she didn't think i had enough money sense#somehow this is a more accurate tracker than any app or other method i have ever used#me#when she dies theyll put her on the fast track to the good place because of how much shit I've given her over the years about my childhood#one time she smashed my ipod with a hammer until the battery ignited because i was too tired to finish my homework#tw mother issues? idk how to tag this if you don't want to see me complain about my mom#i love her a lot but there's a reason i live on the opposite end of the country (and it's not just that Florida is a death cult)
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because i know you have food opinions and i am thinking about it being in the carolinas this weekend. opinions on barbecuing?
my personal taste preference leans towards a dry rub on the meat and a vinegar based sauce. i like the way the acid pairs with the fattiness of the meat. but i also think the meat itself should taste really good on its own. i don't like when the meat comes pre-sauced when it's served, i prefer to dose sauce out myself, cause i want to be able to taste the meat on its own too. and because i think pre-saucing everything up front might be a way to try and hide what might be a bland or dry or otherwise not preferred piece of meat. i'm not a huge fan of the thick, sweet sauces that are based on molasses or tomato. i tend to find them too sweet and gloopy, and i generally avoid store/chain brand bbq sauces for that reason, but i won't outright turn up a house made sauce without trying it first. i think pork is my favorite meat for barbecue because it's got good flavor and lots of fat to stay juicy, yet it's not so strongly flavored that strong spice or sauce covers it up. though i prefer a cut like shoulder to ribs. beef brisket is good barbecued, i think that's a texas specialty, but i've had some really dry smoked brisket before, and also i'm very partial to brisket prepared other ways like braised or cured into pastrami. and as far as chicken goes, it CAN be quite good, but for me it's gotta be dark meat and it's gotta be cooked competently. i've had too much "barbecue" chicken that is either just plain roasted chicken drowned in mediocre sauce or overcooked so badly it's like chewing on linen fibers. but a nice, simple, salt cured/brined and dry rubbed chicken leg quarter smoked and served with a good sauce on the side? now that's a great dinner. gimme some cornbread and fried okra to go with. yummy
#leporellian#sasha answers#ty#i'm by no means whatsoever a connoisseur of barbecue but i do know what i like#a lot of times what's just called 'barbecue' disappoints me but a lot of the time mediocre barbecue in like. cheap food service/catering#contexts is just like. unremarkable overcooked shredded pork or chicken (that probably wasn't actually smoked)#and drowned in gloopy store bought sauce#i mean it's EDIBLE. but i'll only go for it if it's the only real option. y'know#note: i am not from the south and i do not live in a region with a strong barbecue cuisine culture. my response is based on this experience#i'm sure walking into your average bbq joint in carolina is probably gonna be better than what i can find here unless i'm actively searchin#also again i'm no expert but i think my bbq preferences line up really closely with eastern north carolina style#(dry rubbed pork w a thin vinegary sauce)#i don't think i've had the south carolina style which i think is more mustardy. but it sounds good i would probably like it. i like mustard#also i don't know if this can be really considered barbecue or if it's just plain hot smoking. but smoke grilled sausage is good too#and turkey. smoked turkey is great (when it's not overcooked and dry as hell)#years ago my dad and i went to a family friend's place for thanksgiving when my sister and mom were out of town#and they smoked a turkey for dinner. SOO good omg
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gotta get up early for class tomorrow im so sleepy but i suddenly felt the urge to calculate how much money's been spent on my post secondary education till now and i literally feel nauseous
#LIKE.... what the fuck .#and the way my contribution has been minimal how am i ever gonna like . repay my dad for this#also how does he just .....spend so much . he'll always pay for anything school related w/o saying anything weird#like why is this genuinely making me crysjrjfjskwkfj#i KNEWWWW it was a lot but i was just thinking id love to pay him back for it somehow#so i was like lemme pull up all my undergrad invoices and the current stuff too and i did the math and .....#LIKE I FEEL SICK obv i have Issues w my dad but sometimes i feel so bad for him his dad passed away when he was 15#so i feel like he jas that Thing for like being super present in his kids' lives#and education is like a Biiiiig thing for him bc he had to work and earn and pay for his own (ig his mom helped as much as she could)#THIS IS MAKING ME SOB IM SO SAD#and the way i cant even fucking find a job to at least earn SOMETHINGGGG i can help with its so stupid#anyway idk Whats going on in my brain rn i should sleep god#like im so grateful but theres so much guilt too ??#desi culture is insane bc imagine you work your whole entire life and then you have to pay for every one of ur kids' education weddings etc#OK GOOD NIGHT will i delete this is it too . personal . idk#h talks
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