#a introspective day today
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thinking how Odin, the god of victory and knowledge, the allfather. Also was known for carrying a incredibly fury inside.
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not me picking up another shift at work tomorrow in hopes that it'll trigger my alter to start fronting so he can finally come home and play mouthwashing
#like. he usually gets triggered into fronting by me getting overwhelmed at any fast-paced job im at#and yesterday he expressed he wanted to have the body for the day so he could go home and play mouthwashing#AND I. I ACCIDENTALLY TOOK THE BODY FROM HIM#and i played some mouthwashing today like. oh he would fucking love this#like. dude literally named himself after kim kitsuragi#half-jokingly but also bc he feels very “get your shit together detective” about me#and i keep thinking abt how mouthwashing has a similar feel to disco elysium. to me#introspective and good writing and bad hellish situation looming over the horizon and mixing of the insane and sane#mouthwashing#disco elysium#did posting#mango man rambles
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hihi ime (if u dont mind me calling u that) but once again i need ur help, so as you can i am making a fanfic in modern au (kinda filipino highschool love vibes) andndndnd i need your opinions on the characters from greek myth i will using (writing)
the character includes
neoptolemus telemachus peisistratus orestes nuisicaa electra iphigenia hermione nicostratus
andand if yk ppl from greek myth that like in the afterwar of trojan war plsplspls tell me so i can add them :3333 should i add the gods also? (also can i add on how would you think writing them i mean the other characters esp the women?) btw, im making this fanfic fluff and cheesy (NO ANGST!! i have enough of them) thank you mwamwamwaps
HELLOO!!! i absolutely do not mind you calling me ime!! my name is very difficult to pronounce for english speakers so i basically go by every variation of it ever LOL anyways i digress
so surprisingly enough, i actually haven't reread the odyssey in a very long time (i'm an iliad girlie at heart i'd sleep with that thing under my pillow like alexander the great) but, to nobody's surprise, i have a lot to say so i'm going to do my best!!
THIS IS A BANGER CAST THO the dynamics between them will be so fun thats so exciting. i love that its kinda a "younger gen" bc so often you see a focus on the achilles/odysseus/agamemnon generation and a lot of the children get ignored so this is really fun!!
maybe im dumb and stupid but i think youre asking abt how i write those characters so ill yap about that and if thats not what youre asking then idk me and my iliterate ass will just go fuck myself i guess? LMFAO i have written so many essays in the past week april is the worst month of the year i'm so dumb right now
neoptolemus is so... ugh i did not care for him at all until i started writing senses and then suddenly he became one of my favourites. neo is typically written as very abrasive with a short-fuse. he's very arrogant in his abilities, but like achilles, that arrogance is earned as he's written as a very good fighter. i think he should be written as very emotionally stunted—he doesn't understand other people's emotions but he also doesn't understand his own. this could be hilarious to me in a modern au because that man just does not understand anything that anyone says to him. he should have a resting bitch face. he always looks angry and he probably is angry. his self-esteem should be crazy wacky like he should be constantly telling people "i am the best and you are nothing compared to me" but at the same time, he should be constantly afraid of disappointing people. neo's characterization is really interesting bc most of the myths portray him as being needlessly brutal, but then you have ones by sophocles or euripides who portray him as actually having a lot of remorse for what he does and only does them because he thinks he has to. i think you could have a lot of fun deciding which of these characterizations you want to lean into.
telemachus is, to put it in the simplest words possible, a brat. he's very pessimistic and he's convinced everything sucks. basically in a modern au, he is your typical 16 year old going through an emo phase. i like to write him as very emotionally intelligent. he knows exactly what to say to piss someone off and he won't hesitate to do so. his favourite hobby is pushing at people's insecurities and seeing how they react. he also has a temper and he's very emotionally driven though i do think he's better at regulating his emotions than neo is. he's also very insecure. he is constantly afraid that he isn't good enough and i think that's very clear in his actions. he loves being annoying he's my fav brat and his words shoot to kill when he's mad (taylor swift reference even tho he would lowkey fucking hate taylor swift)
peisistratus is gay as hell (he and telemachus canonically share a bed in the odyssey btw). telemachus canonically refers to him as "joy of my heart" like i am so glad i'm a multishipper bc i could not come out of the odyssey and not ship telemachus and peisistratus. peisistratus has a fairly small role in the odyssey so you have a lot of free reign in how you want to characterize him (i'll be honest, i'm not 100% sure what fandom characterization of peisistratus is bc i've never been too into the telepeisi ship). in the odyssey, he's very well-spoken and eloquent. i like to think of him as kinda being impulse control for telemachus—he's better at controlling his emotions and not flying off the handle like telemachus does. he's also very horrendously down bad for telemachus. that cannot be ignored. he wants to hit so bad. he will laugh at so many bad jokes just to get a chance to hit.
orestes is so interesting to me! i think he's very logical and serious. i think he has a strong moral compass and gets very conflicted about whether he should stick to his moral compass or be loyal to the people around him. like after clytemnestra kills agamemnon, orestes doesn't want to kill his mother, but he does because he feels obligated to out of a sense of justice. he sees it as an act of loyalty to his father and the gods. and after killing his mother, orestes basically goes insane because he has so much guilt about it. i think he definitely does value justice. he wants to do what he thinks is right and he is willing to sacrifice himself for that . he's a very conflicted person. personality wise, i do like to think of him as relatively serious and not someone who flys off the handle or gets angry easily. i think he definitely thinks with his head, not his heart.
if you do want to include another character, there's pylades, who is orestes' cousin (and also rumoured lover (as is ancient greece) they could be written just as cousins tho or as romantic lol up to u. i’m pretty sure there’s some myths where they’re romantic where they aren’t even cousins at all and they’re just friends so u can do whatever u want really). when orestes can't decide whether or not he should kill clytemnestra, it's pylades who convinces him to go through with his plan. i kinda view pylades as being the impulsive side of orestes. they play off each other and where orestes is careful and logical, pylades is the guy who goes "fuck it we ball". orestes and pylades can have such a fun friendship. their relationship is very pylades: i'm gonna cut the sleeves off all of my shirts iphigenia: why? pylades: orestes isn't here and he's like 95% of my impulse control
(also btw orestes and pylades is where the “i’ll take care of you” “it’s rotten work” “not to me. not if it’s you” quote comes from so yeah. homosexual)
NAUSICAA MY BELOVED <3 some myths have her marrying telemachus after the events of the odyssey. she's extremely kind and compassionate. i like to think of her as being very trusting and like, she would give her life for anyone. she's definitely fairly emotionally mature, but i really like to think of her as kinda a hopeless romantic. she loves romance novels and daydreaming. however, this is not to say that she's naive bc i think the odyssey portrays her as pretty much the opposite of that. she's very aware of societal expectations and such and she knows how to carry herself in a way that ensures people will think of her positively. she's socially aware and intelligent. despite her hopeless romanticism, i think she's also pretty good at reading people and i like her and telemachus having that in common. they're both very good at reading each other. i think nausicaa's compassion and kindness should be some of her main traits when writing her. she should always be thinking about helping others out of the genuine goodness of her heart. i actually think in a modern au i would love to write telemachus and nausicaa having embarrassing puppy love crushes on each other like theyre so cute
ELECTRA IS SO INTRIGUING i'm honestly very attached to the electra, orestes, iphigenia sibling trio theyre so cute and tragic to me. as an interlude, i recommend the book clytemnestra by costanza casati! its a retelling of clytemnestra's myths and though the book has its flaws, i really love the way casati writes the dynamics between clytemnestra and her children. def worth reading it's very very good.
anyway electra is so <3 to me. she's one of my fav mythology figures. i think that she, orestes, and iphigenia should all be very close as siblings. that's what makes their myths all the more tragic. like not a day goes by that i don't think of the orestes: how could you recognize me after all these years? electra: what a stupid question. i was born knowing you exchange like oh my god it makes me sick. i think electra should be very emotional and that should be a point of conflict between her and orestes. orestes thinks things through logically, but electra follows her heart for better or for worse. electra feels things very intensely. she wants vengeance. she gets consumed by her grief and rage. i think of her as someone who very badly wants to understand the world. she wants to know everything. she wants to understand why she feels things so deeply. i'm very influenced by the way casati writes electra in her novel, but i love seeing electra portrayed as someone who is a little unsettling. like you look at her and you cant really tell what's going on in her head. there's a quote from casati's clytemnestra that says "sometimes electra says things that make [clytemnestra] suffer, and she wonders if her daughter does it on purpose. it seems unlikely, but a thought creeps through her mind, making her restless: what if electra can be as unkind as her father? what if she is not quiet because she is shy but because she is crafty?" and later in the novel, electra tells clytemnestra "broken people fascinate me". i love electra being portrayed as someone who is a little shy and quiet, but it's because she is feeling all these emotions so vividly and passionately and she doesn't know what to do with them all. and she wants to understand the world because she thinks it will help her understand herself. she can be purposefully cruel if she thinks it will aid her
on the contrary, i like writing iphigenia as someone who is very bubbly and outspoken. i like her as being very optimistic and likeable. she's charming and you can't help but fawn over her when you meet her. she and electra act as foils in this way in my head bc iphigenia is someone that you can't help but love while electra is someone who is very difficult to love (i say this in very simple words). i think iphigenia is very compassionate and also feels emotions deeply, but in a different way than electra does. iphigenia, i think, is very empathetic and likes to help people. i think she is objectively, the kindest and most likeable of her siblings which is what makes her sacrifice even more tragic. but i really do like writing iphigenia and electra as the extrovert/introvert duo. i think the orestes/iphigenia/electra trio is so fun to write because they all have such complex issues and i have so many thoughts on them. in a modern au, iphigenia is probably the popular girl of the school, but the popular girl who is actually really nice and everyone loves her. like she's head cheerleader, but she's also saying hello to everyone in the hallways and all the teachers love her and it leaves electra in her shadow a little bit. ugh i could talk abt electra, orestes, & iphigenia for so long theyre so <3 to me
hermione! i think you have to give hermione mommy issues. it would be really fun to explore how hermione is affected by having the most beautiful woman in the world as her mom and how it felt to have her mom leave her (or kidnapped depending on interpretation) when she was just 9 or so. i really like to write hermione and orestes' relationship as one based on love. i think they really do love each other and it's why orestes fights neo for hermione. i think hermione can def be entitled and a lot of it stems from her parents (her mother is literally helen of sparta like cmon now i don't blame her). hermione can be jealous and i love to write that as coming from insecurity—hermione grew up with the most beautiful woman ever as her mom. her self-esteem has to be insane like no wonder she's jealous; she probably thinks she can never live up to her mother. i think hermione probably lashes out emotionally because of that jealousy. a lot of her characterization has to stem from her circumstances—she's used as a political pawn for most of her life and that def affects the way she views herself. she needs so much therapy. if anyone has seen saiki k, i actually think of teruhashi a little bit when i think of hermione. hermione is definitely her mother's daughter and i see has as very similar to helen. i think hermione is definitely someone who acts as if she is much more confident than she really is—it's kind of a mask. you guys know the song oh no! by marina? the line that says "cause i feel like i'm the worst so i always act like i'm the best" that's so hermione to me.
now, i won't lie to you, i don't know much about nicostratus. i don't think there's many famous myths on him at all iirc? or at least, i can't think of any off the top of my head. i think he's probably a character you can have fun with it and shape how you like. you can def give him the same kind of parental angst from helen and menelaus that hermione has and giving hermione a sibling dynamic is so funny. but yeah, i don't know much about him so i'm not going to just lie to you and make stuff up LMFAO
as for other characters, clytemnestra has a few other kids you could include though they're not as interesting as the main 3 to me. there's also pylades that i mentioned earlier. there's polyxena too! she might be a bit older as she's a daughter of priam, but she is the youngest one. off the top of my head, i think she's described as being 18 in the final year of the war? this would make her a couple years older than neo who is typically between the ages of 12-15 in the final year of the war. so she could be included albeit she is slightly older (she was promised to achilles tho so again, she might be too old for the story you want to write). on a similar vein, there's cassandra and helenus who are in a weird age range of likely being younger than the achilles generation, but quite a bit older than the neo/telemachus generation. i love cassandra sm tho (i named my dnd oc after her LMAO) she's one of my favs ever. those two could be included if you want, but are older than polyxena who is already older than neo so idk if that's too much of an age range for what you want.
okay so as for the gods, one thing i really like doing is that in modern aus where they go to school, i love writing the gods as their teachers LMFAO. idk if that's what you wanna do, but i think it's so funny. like can you imagine poseidon being your gym teacher. or athena teaching you math or something??? it's hilarious. so that is definitely an idea
ALSO LOVE THAT THIS WILL BE FLUFFY AND CHEESY too much angst in this fandom LMFAO (i say, as i write my mcd neomachus fic)
I HOPE THIS HELPS i think this answer might be even longer than the last ask you sent which is genuinely a feat. oh my god i fear i have mental problems. VERY EXCITED TO SEE WHATEVER YOU WRITE <3
#ALSO SO SORRY FOR ANSWERING THIS SO LATE#ive been so busy this week has been awful#MY LAST DAY OF CLASSES TODAY#after next week i'll have finished all my final essays#and i'll finally be free#i think it's really funny that you can clearly tell which characters i care about more in this answer#i wrote so much introspection on electra and then for peisistratus i just said “idk he's gay?”#LMFAOO#sorry i love women so much more than men :/#also i did not read any of this over this is all just the direct thoughts from me head#so forgive me if there are any monumental grammar or spelling mistakes#or even things that just don't make sense bc my mind works in fascinating ways#imeda answers asks!!
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Woke up thinking about Neve Gallus becoming more infamous than the family who left her behind.
#[ introspection ] its not what keeps me up at night. its not the quiet. i never could sleep once work gets in my head.#[ woke up thinking about 17-19 year old nev.e just starting out as they leave her ]#[ abandoned and shunned because she refused to leave with them ]#[ remember in movies and there was always the concept of that young questioner or reporter that trailed after important people#[ where she’s asking questions at a rapid fire before she loses them or gets shoved away and shove her away they do. ]#[ yeah at one time that was Neve ]#[ the scrawny nobody with nothing but a notebook and small writing pen and ink ignored by everyone#who lived in a shady little beat down apartment in the back of a forgotten alley#both ignored those in charge and her own people living in Docktown ]#[ dozens of those people she wanted to help turning her away too and telling her there was no point to it- to go home and leave them alone#[ Hal likely doesn't even remember the first time she showed up with nothing but the money she scraped up for the food that day ..#or maybe he does. that's why he doesn't take her seriously when she shows up (endearing wise) because he still#remembers that scrawny half starved detective who was hired for a job no one cared to take only stopping by there on#runs between her office and her bunk. ]#[ for me its funny also imagining this young neve- before she lost her leg- crossing paths with a young also nobody Rana standing guard#as a faceless foot soldier- who was nothing more than a suit of armor by the door with her fellows - watching this young detective#chase after her boss asking him questions no one dARED to ask and just thought she was either bold..or stupid.. maybe both. ]#[ the fact in Neve’s mind she’s still that girl. ]#[ still that little nobody who isn’t doing enough ]#[ ANYWAY! Neve Ga.llus feels today!! ]
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Twelve New Things: February
have I done my finances for December yet? no. but I am telling you about my new years resolutions, because we have priorities in this house
this month I have for you a twofer (threefer, possibly?) because I was all set to point to historical costuming and be done and then I made a comment to my sister about never having been on a road trip before and she was like "oh is that your February new thing?" so I guess it is not
1. Historical costuming
you've had all the details about the outfit already; the review as an activity is that it was fun to do a project that combined research (nerd time!) and sewing (craft time!). I enjoyed the process of figuring out what Authentically Historical might look like, and then deciding when I cared and when I was going to do something not-quite-authentic instead. Would do again, although probably only once or twice a year (I have a thing about making outfits that I'll wear at least a certain number of times...) and I'm definitely biased towards eras that I, personally, find attractive when I do. However... the quest is on for a good fine woven white/cream wool that I can dye and use for a more authentic outfit....
1b. Fingerloop braiding
this is a whole new craft that I had never heard of. Accurate decoration for Viking outfits was often with tablet woven or braided bands around the top. I sure as hell wasn't learning tablet weaving in 48 hours, but I thought I could try a braid. Fingerloop braiding was a surprisingly fast way of creating a braid; probably useful if I need a new shoelace and I only have yarn, can make a shoelace length in half an hour or so; made a reasonably nice trim; but I think it's going in the pile of crafts-I-use-if-a-project-demands not crafts-I-obsess-over (anyone else have these?)
2. Road trip!
I'm kinda surprised I've never been on a road trip of longer than 2 days! But I really haven't - I've only ever travelled to A Destination and then returned, the trip has been an ordeal to be endured (with greater or lesser endurance required depending on the company) not an end in itself. Realising that I had a two-week break before starting study and work at aroudn the same time, I decided on a whim to take off for a part of the country I'd never spent time in, bringing my sister along for the ride. The trip encompassed mountains, rivers and beaches, with a fortuitous meeting up with another sister and her partner along the way.
The review: I enjoyed it, but we set up and took down our tent a LOT, and I couldn't quite suppress the feeling that this was my scouting trip for the Real Holiday I might take next time. But we saw a fair few bits of NZ I've never seen before - and one of the wins was a national park my sister googled the night before, which turned out to be absolutely gorgeous and it's never occurred to me to stop there before
would do again: in the right company and probably slower, stopping for longer chunks in each place and doing day trips, or perhaps paying a little more money to mostly not be dealing with a tent
#i'm visiting my sister's house while she's away this weekend bc a family member is sick#and they don't need support today (i went over yesterday and am there to give them a hand tomorrow)#so it is a bit of a long day... could do my hebrew study but it's a sunday and i don't want to... feel similarly about my finances...#instead: get introspective and then go to the beach!#love that for me#just need to find a walk somehwere so i can get proper hot and sweaty before i swim#rowena adventures#2025 goals#oh and the real reason i've never done a roadtrip(TM) is that i bought my car 3 weeks before becoming a dr. i have never had both a car#and free time before and my leave has been preciously guarded#i COULD have. but it never seemed like the most fun thing to do with the time i had or the people i wanted to do it with weren't free
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Ptn j'espère que c'est pas une phase de my bpd mais je sens que j'ai repris le contrôle de ma vie. For real.
Jai vu mon kiné, c'était délicieux. Il m'a bien massé le crâne, mon visage, ma mâchoire, mon dos, le bas de mon dos, mon ventre... il m'a demandé que je lui apprenne la technique de respiration pour activer le nerf vagal [energy transfert is universal!] et mon cool exercice somatique pour détendre et libérer les tensions émotionnelles contenues dans les hanches. Puis, jsuis allée faire mes courses... et, partout où j'allais, on m'offrait un truc ? (une mangue, un café, du baume du tigre... genre merci?) Et les gens me saluaient dans la rue? Lorsque j'vis des journées comme celle-ci, je ne peux pas m'empêcher de me demander si jsuis pas en train de déconner mdr
Mais le truc, c'est que j'ai un visage d'ange et je souris beaucoup. Je vais tout le temps aux même endroits, je suis extrêmement polie et patiente... je pense que c'est tout simplement la vie qui répond à ma gentillesse et à la belle personne que je suis. Ou moi qui suis enfin plus ouverte à recevoir et à accueillir toutes mes bénédictions. Parce qu'au fond: the universe sends us situations the same frequency as our vibrations...

Ensuite, j'suis allée dans mon bar habituel et j'ai juste bu un café un thé et un looza pêche. Il y avait une blaironne qui a fait sa maligne avec moi mais j'en avais rien à kickerrrr. J'ai parlé une bonne heure avec un habitué. On a discuté de nos problèmes d'addictions en toute humilité et dans le respect. J'ai écris et relu quelques notes dans mon carnet. J'ai sonné à ma marraine pour lui souhaiter un bon anniv' bien qu'on ne se parlait plus depuis une plombe. Suis rentrée chez moi et j'me suis faite une super bonne soupe. Envoyé un message d'amour à mes meilleures amies. J'ai même refusé de voir un de mes amants car pas envie. Me réjouis trop de voir mon psy !
Ptet qu'il y aura des rechutes. Peut-être pas. Je prends 24h à la fois et, aujourd'hui, je me sens ... exaltée, vivifiée! Un peu comme Tom Cruise lorsqu'il a présenté Katie Holmes à Ophrah Winfrey mdr
J'sais pas si c'est la pleine lune ou tout le shadow work que j'ai fais ces derniers mois, mes propres confrontations, avoir replongé dans mes démons, touché le fond, poussé mes limites jusqu'à frôler des trucs qu'il vaut mieux ne pas trop frôler, ou mes 50 rdv médicaux de l'année passée, ptet mes nombreuses heures de psychanalise et de psychothérapie, all the books I've read written by la crème de la crème sur les trauma et les addictions, la neuroplasticité, mes longues marches, l'hypnose, le reiki, the psy ward, my physiotherapist, my oestheopath, the fact I've let it all out!, toutes les larmes que j'ai versé, mes longues heures de sommeil ou toutes mes insomnies, le fait d'avoir tout perdu, le fait d'avoir tout à gagner, the fact that I've been unpacking supressed emotions, les gens qui ont priés pour moi, mes propres prières, mes anges gardiens... Je ne sais pas ce que c'est mais, aujourd'hui, I feel different . I've been on my journey for a while now and it required my full attention. I am now starting to accept my full potential and I am accepting things as they are and and and so many other things . . . I am now making conscious choices instead of repeating survival patterns. I am healing..... punaise
I am like the snake that sheds its own skin, like a phoenix that rises from its own ashes
And I am a little bit crazy too and that's totally okay !! (here's another proof in case you didn't know)


I wanna be sober I wanna feel secure I am becoming selective and I already am sexy
____Slow motion is better than no motion____
!!! I am free free freeeee like a bird who just escaped an aviary !!!
The portal to every next level is through parts of myself that I've avoided
I'm so ready.....
#No more repeated cycles#exposure therapy#introspection#metacognition#contemplation#I am unstoppable#Just levelled the fuck up#Notes to myself#Today was a good day
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When they sincerely call me handsome despite the fact that i look like shit, actually

#the past few days have been hard#i wont pretend they haven't been#but. i talked to them last night and feel much better now.#i feel much less like ive lost them#we both need t odo some introspection i think#and when were ready we will meet#and itll be soon#but i just havr to remember to be patient and while i feel like im gonna die at 35... that probably wont actually happen#idk km feeling much more optimistic today#trying to remember that crowley is an optjmist and if he is then i can be too
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been away for a while, again

engineering at my first festival this week, and thrown in the deep end so suddenly, so that’s always a hard learning curve. i’m grateful, and it’s true i am learning much very quickly, though loneliness is a heavy depth when you’re so new and everyone else has their own bubbles from the past couple decades.
the best part, though, is that i could stay with family in the malvern hills to reach this festival - i hadn’t seen them in so long and i’m so thankful to at least have spent a good day with them when i arrived, before i had to be so immersed in this work that i’m gone early and back too late to catch one another again. hopefully monday i can make more of a vibe before i return for my last weeks of the tenancy in north london, wander the hills and finish my exposures on the minolta.
but anyway, back to being in my feelings
it’s hard to know what one really wants at this age, and to know that you’re making the right decisions is even harder. i think most people my age hate the prospect of constant work for survival, though i imagine that’s always the same for each generation, until they just have to and get so deep into the cycle.
the resolve i reach is always a deeper pursuit into artistry. though each day i realise my own capabilities are far too lacklustre to compete in this world, regardless of the unique lens i approach my work from, and so i must get back to study and practise. thankfully, my degree is over and i am returning to scotland for a few months to do just this, learn more, save money and rediscover what i need to about myself.
even with rational judgement, that good ol’ imposter syndrome hits hard right?
i’ve gone through a lot of doubts these past few months, despite some good achievements. what is needed is to take some time getting inspiration, going back to the source and rebuilding things. good job i have my platforms and expressions to bounce this on :)
but maybe i’ve missed out on more major milestones of growing up than i reckoned. now i keep asking myself what i want more, and i get more and more puzzled. add to that being let down by people, and you struggle to not harbour spite.
i can’t become a sour man full of spite.
anything but that.
without reverence and joy, what is there?
even through the hazy lens of my dark atmospheres.
time away will be good, but i can’t do it alone again. let’s hope i can find my people up there this time.
i miss you
and i miss me too
once again, reflection is needed.
#black and white photography#reflection#thoughts#journal#my day today#small musician#moving#in my mind#introspection#taryn kurt
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it is sort of hilarious how i went from "haha walter has weird nonbinary swag" to nonbinary walter being a genuine near and dear to my heart headcanon in the span of like four months
#i need to write it at some point. the issue is i Don't think he would acknowledge it under normal circumstances#he needs to be in some kind of situation for that introspection to even begin to happen. but i like thinking about it it's fun for me...#one day the like three separate character studies that have been bouncing around in my head will form into something cohesive. not today th#.txt#chessposting
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Tag drop: Guizhong (don't mind me re-dropping this with the fixed ones, shh)
#tag drop#[ guizhong. ] many things only seem to surface beneath the moon's poignant glow. wherever its light shines; the heart is wont to follow.#[ guizhong: ic. ] wherever her spirit may be among the countless grains of sand and specks of dust between the harbor and the mountains.#[ guizhong: inquiries. ] hmph. she always had a way with words.#[ guizhong: countenance. ] and because they are afraid; they try so hard to become more intelligent. this i understand.#[ guizhong: introspection. ] although she did not live to see the splendid sights of today: she was as much a hero as any other.#[ guizhong: etc. ] it took an elaborate treasure hunt to preserve the commandments that were once the lifeblood of a whole civilization.#[ guizhong: mortals. ] at their full potential; they could be her equal. a human who has as much to teach an adeptus as to learn from them.#[ guizhong: guili plains. ] as guizhong once said: “it takes every blade of grass and every flower to make a homeland.”#[ guizhong: liyue. ] perhaps she will look at the liyue of today and steal a smile when she sees the prosperous land that it has become.#[ guizhong: realm of clouds. ] a voyage to a sanguine sky.#[ guizhong: mechanical arts. ] in one's heart; i knew that she was indeed the superior talent in the mechanical arts.#[ guizhong: glaze lilies. ] they were far more abundant back then. entire fields would appear to the eye as a veritable sea of flowers.#[ guizhong: adepti. ] until the moon set and the sun rose. and only then would the banquet finally come to an end.#[ guizhong: morax. ] whoever it was that revered her so much was very clever indeed.#[ guizhong: morax. ] when our eyes meet; eternity is defined. [ delusionaid. ]#[ guizhong: xiao. ] if darkness comes; colors you with fear; be still and know that i'm with you and i will say your name. [ apocryphis. ]#[ guizhong: marchosius. ] who would dare snub the stove god and his wondrous creations? at the sight of him: we would drop any argument.#[ guizhong: streetward rambler. ] it almost felt like she was back again. sitting right there on the stone stool next to me; chatting away.#[ guizhong: cloud retainer. ] we each had our ideals; and neither one of us would yield to the other.#[ guizhong: osial. ] she would disrupt the silence around them with a hum; as if to sing to the harmony of the water. was this his song?#[ guizhong: sea gazer. ] he was quite the braggart when it came to those collectibles he was so fond of; he always loved to show them off.#[ guizhong: skybracer. ] to who lived by the mountain; he was their savior. in fact; they thought higher of him than the lord of geo.#[ guizhong: ganyu. ] if we planted flowers in the guili plains; do you think that one day we'd be able to recreate the sea of glaze lilies?#[ guizhong: v. descension. ] she descended whose dominion was over dust; and whose reach shrouded the skies for thousands of miles around.#[ guizhong: v. guili assembly. ] it's great to have it back but i want to go back to the world. and start with guili plains.#[ guizhong: v. archon war. ] they fought upon the plains; where black dust choked the heavens and a thousand rocks splintered.#[ guizhong: v. present. ] all wrapped up in a city that has existed for many moons to date. all these things: they are why people chase it.#[ guizhong: meta. ] her manuscripts lie unfinished in her abode. the blank pages give cause for contemplation on what might have been.
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also on my birthday for 24 hours i can post whatever i want about my ocs and you cant laugh no matter how corny or overdone it is. you have to be nice to me because im turning 23. and my first order of business because its midnight somewhere and posting this song i listened to years ago thats now really popular and saying its a ruyan and ryder song
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#maybe today for my birthday will be the day i can do some deep introspective posts about my wols#because theres a lot in these bitches i dont talk about. because its hard for me. because im soft and have to think about the past#Youtube
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People feel bad for me when I tell them ONE traumatic thing I experienced like honey wait until you hear the other 37
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I think it’s safe to say that work is cancelled today 💀
#elle introspects#2 phone calls and 4 texts just from today 🤣#mind you the roads aren’t that bad today#and it would have been nice to know before my alarm went off#but I won’t complain about a paid day off work#at least they didn’t call it after I had already gotten to work lmao
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“So then -” Victoria gestured out before them, sweeping her arm from one side of the absent horizon to the other. The shadow of her hand danced across the bridge, the floating rubble, the vicious claw where the land curved around. “What happened? Where did it all – go?” The Doctor simply shrugged, light and casual, like the answer was obvious. “What happens to any empire?” he said simply. “It got too large, in the end. Couldn’t sustain its own ambition.” He rolled his shoulders, leaning further back to face the sky more fully. “That’s what all empires do, in the end. They rise and fall and end up forgotten.” His words settled somewhere in the vicinity of Victoria’s stomach, cold and solid and uncomfortable. “I lived in an empire,” she said, frowning. “Back on Earth. The greatest empire the world has ever known.” “Yes,” the Doctor said. “Yes, you did.”
Sitting on a moon shattered by war, Victoria finds that the universe makes her home seem quite different.
#second doctor#fanfic archive#my writing#one day i will write something for victoria that isn't angsty introspection#not today though :) i like shaking her in a pringles can too much :)
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Understanding Yourself Through Healing and Values
In an age dominated by social media and constant bombardment of information, it's easy to lose touch with who we truly are. We're inundated with anxiety, fear, and cultural narratives that often don’t serve us. How then do we sift through the noise and connect deeply with ourselves? The answer lies in self-awareness, healing, and the values we hold dear.
To embark on this journey of self-discovery, we first have to acknowledge how trauma shapes our behavior. Often, we carry unprocessed experiences into our present, much like a bear lurking in a child's story, evoking fear anytime it’s mentioned. This metaphor serves to illustrate how triggers can hijack our emotions, sending us into a tailspin of anxiety or stress. For instance, if a certain word or situation evokes anxiety, a simple exercise to counter this is through deep breathing techniques. By consciously controlling our breath, we alter our physiological responses to stress and begin to recalibrate our state of mind. Breathing deeply allows us to shift from a state of panic to one of calm, enabling clearer decision-making.
Understanding our triggers, however, is just the beginning. To truly heal, we need to delve into our value system. What do we stand for? What do we find unacceptable? Often, a good starting point is the inverse exercise: if you're unsure what your values are, list what you dislike. Gratitude, respect, honesty—these might emerge as core principles after some exploration. It’s vital to articulate what these values mean to us personally. For instance, love could mean a lack of disrespect; what does respect look like in your relationships? This clarity arms you with an internal compass that guides your decisions in dating, work, and friendships.
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Moreover, addressing anxiety and healing from trauma is not just a personal endeavor—it also involves recognizing the larger environment. In a workplace where toxic behavior abounds, understanding the underlying motivations of others can offer perspective. Is a colleague acting out due to personal struggles? This insight can help you navigate dynamics more effectively, transforming adversities into opportunities for compassion, rather than conflict.
As we engage in the work of understanding ourselves, we gain tools to react thoughtfully rather than impulsively. Healing from trauma or toxic relationships requires both introspection and action—reflecting on what we value while taking proactive steps to create environments that support our growth.
In conclusion, the journey of self-awareness, healing, and value-based living is profound and transformative. It involves breathing through anxiety, defining our values, and actively reflecting on our relationships with others. This pursuit is not merely for personal benefit but serves to enhance our interactions with the world, fueling a more compassionate and authentic version of ourselves. By embracing this ongoing process, you cultivate a life filled with intention, direction, and deeper connections.
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me hitting all my favorite characters with the transmasc ray

#rambles#scraps dandy’s world….. I’m coming for you#also sonic the hedgehog in the crossfire#starflight what are you doing here wtf#nobody is safe in my brain#trans ray from the funkyfrogbait video#ROARS MEEEOEWWWWWW#I NEED TO MAKE A SLEEPWALKER EDIT THAT SOMG MAKES ME EXPLODE#RRRRROAOAAAAAAARRR#today is a day for being silly#being introspective was yesterday#time for silly#yayayaya
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